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Kamikaze is a fictional story about loss, grief and rediscovery.

If you are dealing with mental health issues

or experiencing suicidal feelings,

speak to someone you trust or contact a helpline.

It's day six.

And I...

...feel...

...pretty weird.

I haven't felt this...

...weird...

...since...

- Good evening. - Hello.

Welcome to Acapulco. Where would you like to go?

Ejido Las Pozas.

- Forget it. - What?

I don't go there. It isn't safe.

Okay... 300 dollars.

Money doesn't pay you your life back.

Believe me, I know.

Nothing can make me go to Ejido Las Pozas, sigñora. Okay?

Nothing can make me not go to Ejido Las Pozas.

Do what you want, sweetie.

Wait. What's this?

Can you turn it up, please? The radio. Can you turn it up?

It isn't true that we are as different as night and day.

No.

Where did anyone get that idea?

Parent logic, perhaps.

She is like that and he is like that.

Turn that crap music off now!

TOM HAS SHARED A PLAYLIST WITH YOU "SOUNDTRACK TO LIFE"

I miss you.

Do you know if this is ChavoXX playing now?

Yes, ChavoXX.

The rapper ChavoXX is playing a concert at The Black Banana.

What is he saying?

Playing concert at The Black Banana tonight.

This evening.

Take me to The Black Banana, please.

No money. Sold out.

Sold out.

Bye.

Would you like one? Are you sure?

Two tequilas.

Give me a light.

Who the hell are you?

I'm Julie.

Are you like an angel flying by?

I'm not an angel, but I would really like to meet you.

Can I come in? Or could you come out?

Wait there.

What's up, muchacha?

You don't look like a person who would come to a concert like this.

I usually wouldn't.

I came here because of my brother, a big fan of yours.

- Nice. And where is he? - He's dead.

I'm sorry.

You look different.

Are you different?

Yes. Very.

But you are not my fan.

No, but maybe you can make me a fan of yours.

Maybe.

- Let's get out of here. - What about the concert?

Fuck that shit.

I'm pretty sure I'm gonna get shot tonight on the stage.

There are many enemies here. Gangsters.

- What? Loco? - There are enemies. Everywhere.

Check this out. It's my new track. Coming out next Monday.

It's called:

You don't have wings yet and you really want to fly.

It's like "take it easy".

What's that?

Death. Death mask.

Are you crazy?

Fuck.

Like an angel...

- You can see it? - Yeah.

What better way to go, right?

- Wait. - What?

I wanna come before I die.

- I never tried it. - Fair enough.

- Hi, beautiful. - Hi.

- Are you close? - I don't know.

Maybe we should just get high.

You are alone here?

Yes.

It's a dangerous place, you know?

I came here a lot as a kid, you know? Almost every day.

Your parents give you pancakes every day?

No way, muchacha. I live in the streets.

I came here to beg... and steal.

Sometimes a family feeling bad for me and give me one pancake.

I'm an orphan. My parents are dead.

Mine too.

No way. Your brother and your parents? I'm sorry...

- What the fuck?! - What...

Hey, there's no more syrup.

More syrup to my sweetie.

More pancake syrup for "la jefa".

- Gracias. - Very good, gracias, that's right.

You like that.

What the fuck, I like the way you're stoned

slowly became like less angel and more badass.

Fuck! Get down. Get down!

Don't move. Shut up!

Don't make a noise.

Look, listen. Stay here. Don't move.

There we go.

Shit. Hurry up!

- ChavoXX. - What?

I love your face tat.

- I think I want one. - You're crazy.

Wait here.

What am I gonna have?

- You can have whatever you want. - I don't know what I want.

Something that means a lot to you.

Pancake syrup.

- Pancake syrup? - Yes.

Pancake syrup it is. Okay.

Hi.

Look. Write pancake syrup here.

Okay. Sit down.

Sit down, bonita. Here. Come on.

- Pancake syrup! - Pancake syrup!

Cheers!

Don't move.

It's done?

- Finished? - That's really good.

I told you.

Beautiful.

Wait here.

- You're good? You're okay? - Yeah, I'm good.

- You're brave. - Take a look.

Badass!

Here. For my lady.

Badass!

Give me your hands. Take a look.

Fuck!

What are you doing?

I'm going on a trip.

In the ancient days,

people go to the desert to try to find themselves

and the answers.

They walk and walk and walk under the sun,

lost their minds

until they got lost,

and then in the worst moment,

they receive help from the gods.

This is the present of the gods.

What will it do?

It will make the world beautiful.

When will it work?

I don't know. Fifteen minutes, one hour.

I don't know.

This fly down to... wherever you like...

This is your captain speaking,

and I wish you...

a nice trip.

We are at the location where the young Mexican rapper was killed.

The cause appears to have been a clash between drug dealers.

- No! - One moment.

It's just an illusion.

It's just an illusion.

Take this and eat of it, for this is my body,

which I have sacrificed for you.

Take this and drink from it, for this is the chalice of my blood.

ChavoXX. ChavoXX, are you okay?

ChavoXX. ChavoXX.

Julie. Julie. Wake up!

Wake up, muchacha. Muchacha. Wake up. Muchacha.

Muchacha. Wake up, muchacha. You okay?

It's happening. It's happening, baby. My new track.

The flying without wings track has eight million streams.

Money, baby. Fame.

Baby, my life extender.

Baby, I gotta go. I have an interview.

DRUGS

YOUNG PEOPLE AND DRUGS MISUSE OF DRUGS

HALLUCINATIONS CAN BE ANXIETY INDUCING AND DANGEROUS

SOME MAY KILL THEMSELVES JUMPING FROM GREAT HEIGHTS

CALLING KRZYSZTOF

- Hey. Krzysztof. - Hey.

It's so nice to hear your voice. Could you called me back.

I just... had a really crazy experience.

Where are you?

Poland. Going home for good.

What do you mean?

Going home.

But we didn't talk about this.

Yeah, I wrote you a message but you never check.

Yeah, but the agreement was that you stayed in the house

for another three months.

I know, Julie, but you can't just expect people to hang around

and wait for you forever.

Excuse me.

I don't even you why you want to spend all this time and money, it's useless.

You're not. It's not useless.

I left the dog with Constance. She was okay with it.

You're legally obligated to stay in the house until your contract expires.

You're joking.

No. I'm dead serious. Turn the car around.

Come on, Julie.

Cheers.

I've never been in this part of the town before.

For like rich people here, right?

I finally feel the future looks bright.

These people are talking about a record deal.

- Yeah. Congrats. - Thank you.

- Cheers. - Cheers.

I feel hope blossom inside of me like a beautiful flower.

You are not only my life extender, you are my life saver.

The new chapter. You're the inspiration to change my life.

Will you marry me?

What?

Yeah, yeah, we can live a life without fear,

without all that drugs and guns around me all the fucking time...

Just love and children...

and a big beautiful garden.

What about living on the edge? You know, when... Close to death?

That's bullshit, muchacha.

Things you say when you are tired of living in fear.

I don't want to die. I want to live.

I can start a new life away from the ghetto.

I really want to do that...

with a girl like you.

I'm really sorry, ChavoXX.

It's been fun.

Bye, bye.

Muchacha, wait.

Ten minutes after I left ChavoXX at the restaurant he was shot.

Just typical.

Ten minutes.

Life extender...

Here you go.

- First time in Mexico? - Yes.

- So twice here now? - Yeah.

- Travel a lot? - Yes, I love the world.

- Please come with us. - Don't try to run.

What?

What the...

Stay here. Give me your bag. Bag!

- I think you are trafficking drugs. - That's ridiculous!

I'm a tourist from Denmark and I had a really bad trip.

Can you please just let me go?

If you are a tourist, then where is your suitcase?

I lost it... in London.

Come in.

You can go.

Do you know?

You are pregnant.

Life extender.

An angel flies by.

And settles down.