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The Astonished Heart

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Can I speak to Mrs Vail please

-Mrs Faber, -Mrs Vail is still asleep now

I don't like to disturb her,she's never called before nine o'clock

I must be quick one,it's urgent, will you please go and call her

Very well,will you hold the line

Leonora,I'm sorry to disturb you but something has happened

-Chris.. -I don't want talk about him,Barbara,please

Very well,what is it?

What?

Of course I'll come,if you want me to

It'll take me half an hour,I'm afraid

All right,I'll be as quick as I can

Is there anything I can do,Madam?

No thank you,Ernest

Is there any news?

Not yet

She is not in there,Miss Birch

-Where is she then? -She is in the consulting room

She is terribly upset,Miss

-We all are -Yes,of course

Susan

Don't take your things off just yet

My dear

I came as quickly as I could

Yes I know I didn't expect you so soon

Can I do anything?

-You could help me by going to Paddington -Paddington?

I just been looking in Chris engagements, he was due to meet Tim there at 930am then

-Lecture in Birmingham -I'll phone him then

No,I've tried that,he's already gone to station

All right,leave it to me

-How is he? -Just the same

I've been feeling numb inside ever since you telephoned

Does she know?

I talked to her a few minutes ago

I hope she is satisfied

It's awful for her too,you know

She'll get over it

So shall we,I suppose in time

It doesn't matter to her

Not really,not like it matters to us

She'll cry a lot and the beautiful heartbroken

Don't be unkind

I hate her

You might as well hate a bit of note paper

because somebody has written something cruel on it

I'll be back as quickly as I can

-You sent for her? -Yes,she is coming

Good

How much time is it?

It's hard to say,maybe an hour,perhaps two

-Is he conscious? -Only for a brief moment every now and then

And he still asks for her in those brief moments?

Yes

I'll send her in as soon as she comes

Do my dear,meanwhile I suggest you try and get a little rest

-I can't rest -Try

-Tim! -Hello,Miss Birch

-What's that? -Barbara sent me

-Where is Chris,isn't he coming? -No

Susan,what happened?

He's (nonaudible)

It's raining quite hard now

That is not what anyone expect it this time of the year,isn't it

Yes

Perhaps,extreme slower than usual, I suppose it is just my imagination

Don't you think you ought to come away from the window now

Don't worry,I'm all right

She answered the telephone herself didn't she?

Yes

She ought to be here by now

Yes

Yes,sure

What is it?

I thought perhaps I'll go into the office

No,don't go,stay with us

It's no use

It's only crying make a fool of myself

I'd rather much you cried in her than all by yourself in the office

I'm sorry I'm being so stupid

I'm all right now

Don't make too much effort

I'd cry if I could

Tears are little relief then at the grief I'd a bit envy them

You won't be able to see her from there you know

-Extra ordinary -What?

I'd just remembered

It was exactly like this the day I met her again

And it was exactly a year ago

I was looking out of the window into the rain

And it wasn't this window

It was Darlington, Fulham Road

I'd been doing some shopping

And I was waiting for my change staring out of the window into the rain

And suddenly

There was Leonora

Leonora

It is Leonora,ah,is it?

Barbara Forbes,I don't believe it after all these years

-Do come in -I'm in an awful rain

My dear,I mustn't stay,once I get inside these place I'll buy everything

This is extraordinary

-Let's go and have some tea,shall we? -Yes,lovely

There is a place just over there

Thank you,you'll send the things this week,won't you?

Certainly,Madam

All right,gracious,we'll try to make a bash for it

-Right -Just get this thing up for me

My dear,oh

-You are soaked -Absolutely

-There are some tables? -Yes,over there

You know,it's really the oddest thing meeting after all this time

You haven't changed a bit

Oh,it's better

I can't say you haven't changed more than anybody I've ever seen

And might we not wearing one of those school hats

-Tea,please -Anything to eat?

-No thank you -Biscuits,please

-No biscuit,Madam -Then just the tea

Dear Barbara,how pleasant this is,how long ago is it?

Seventeen,no eighteen years

I'm thirty-four now I left school ages before you did

I remember missing you dreadfully

You went to America,didn't you?

Yes, father left Brazil in 1930 soon after that we went to Washington

I heard you were married

Did you? That was much later

You do that with tremendous authority

I was loose in my head and put the milk in first

or afterwards or whatever it ought to be,which is it?

There were several schools of thoughts,personally

I always leave it to the inspiration at the moment

I wish I had the same indecision over dry Martinis

-Sugar? -No thank you

You were dreadfully sophisticated at school

Myrtle Read said you were fast and would come to a bad end

She was the large sporty one,wasn't she? With the overdeveloped kneecaps

She was the captain of the hockey team, dear,and you were very,very proud of her

What's your name now?

Faber,my husband is Christian Faber

What does he do?

He is only one of the famous psychiatrist in the world

-How impressive,is he terribly old? -Terribly

-What's your name -Vail

Leonora Vail,very euphonious

What does your husband do?

Drinks like a fish

-Oh,dear -I haven't seen him for years

I'll tell you the whole sordid story another time,this atmosphere is too gentile

-Cigarette? -No

I've just taken a sweet little house, you must come and see it

-I'd love to -And your husband of course

I know he'd like but you can't count on him,his work comes first I'm afraid

I'd should be jealous of you

Jealous?

With your better balance than I am, less emotional,you always were

It would be rather tiresome go on being emotional after twelve years of marriage

I suppose so

I'm longing to see him

Why not come tomorrow?

All right,where?

70 Chester House,it's a big block by the park,you can't miss it

70 Chester House

Mrs Vail,Madam

My dear

isn't that lift rather bad for your husband's patients

it shoots up like a rocket

We have the most serious cases carried up on stretchers

-This is Susan Birch,Chris's right hand -How do you do

Tim Verney,Chris's left hand or perhaps the other way around

How do you do

Leonora Vail,Ames it was

Leonora Ames terrible at games,do you remember

Yes,of course

I think Barbara wrote that beastly little rhyme herself

-Was it true? -Absolutely

-Cocktail? -Thank you

The nastiest girl in the school

And the best King Lear

I've forgotten that

I foresee a flood of reminiscences

So do I,come along Susan,we'd better go

No,don't go Tim you can bear it

you'll probably discover a lot of useful little psychological echoes

from my childhood

I must go anyway,all these have to be dealt with

And I shall have to see if Chris needs rescuing from Soames

Yes,his time is nearly up

-Good Night,Mrs Vail -Good Night

Does he work all day long your husband?

Yes and most of the nights too,sometimes

What's he like?

Thorough

I envy you,mine was such a darling

that the manager let him blasted eighteen months

Good Bye,we shall probably meet again,very soon

I hope so

Ask us to come in a second if he can when he got his visitation

All right

What a nice man

Tim is a darling,very clever too, Chris thinks the worth of him

I've a feeling I shall be rather frightened of Chris

Oh no,he is one of the least frightening

Yet a bit obstructive now and then when he is working too hard

I see

And yours?

Is he really such a darling?

It was all horrid,he was years older than I was

very rich,fortunately,that's all there was to it,I'm afraid

And you never wanted to marry again?

I wanted it once but it wasn't possible,everything went wrong

I am so sorry

So I minded horribly at the time,of course

travel that didn't gone over it, it's a long time ago anyway

-Another drink? -Thank you

What does your husband do exactly?

I know you told me he was a psychiatrist

but is he one of the kind that sublimates one of the kind that determines

I haven't the slightest idea

Chris says he is a plain straight forward alienist

I always thought an alienist was some of of Immigration Official

You'd better not mention that to Chris

he once had the most terrible scene with an Immigration Official

Thank you

Next Thursday then

Good Bye,Mr Soames

Good Bye

Miss Harper,please

Miss Harper

Good Afternoon,Dr Faber

-Isn't she lovely? -Who? Miss Harper

No,don't be so silly,Mrs Vail

Very smooth and shiny

Didn't you like her?

Yes I suppose so,I only thought for a moment

I thought she looked durable pretty thoroughly

Rubbish

It's all right,I'm here to protect you

Thanks

I suppose he'll know all about me in a minute,wouldn't he?

The first second he sat eyes on me

-Certainly -How terrifying

Don't pretend I'm perfectly certain you are not terrified of anyone

Do his patients fall in love with him?

-Practically always -You should hate that

You are funny,Leonora

I might nice slip on your master if I..

Charmingly funny

How very nice

Except for one thing

What's that?

No photographs of Chris

What do you mind?

Of course I mind,dreadfully, I must know what he is like

I don't even know whether he has moustache or not,has he?

No

-Beard -No,beard

-Tall or short? -Short

-Fat? -Well

Not exactly fat might say a little podgy

Oh Barbara

He has very little chance of getting any exercises,you see

Still he does as his best with those things in the bathroom

What things?

You know they are attached to the wall

and you gasp and strain and then they snap back again

He has a rowing machine too

-Is this the bathroom? -Mmm

What a dreadful liar you are, Barbara

Because he is eight feet high and absolutely bewitched

If you care for long black moustaches

I've made up my mind for him on site

He's quite used to that

You're positively smug about him,Barbara

Tell me seriously,do you adore him?

I love him very much

How marvellous and does he really love you?

-No not that.. -I know mind you behaving badly,do forgive

Oh,Chris,at last

Chris,this is Leonora Vail,one of my oldest friends,we were at school together

-How do you do -How do you do

Do you want a drink?

No,just gets morphia dip

I think it is only fair you should know that until Barbara disillusioned me

I thought you were an Immigration Official

Did you really?

We are dining with Merritt,don't we?

You'll better go about me tell her I come in for coffee

Yes,already darling,she told me so on the telephone last night

Mary is the most intelligent woman I'd met

I also thought you had a long moustache

Moustache,darling,Leonora thought you had a moustache

No,I haven't a moustache

I really wish he were an Immigration Official

Never mind

He didn't even see me, I do think it is a shame

He saw you,all right

I was going to ask him to my house warming next week,now I'm not so sure

-Do you mean you want me to come alone? -No

No bring rather a young man with you,Tim

whatever his name was,I liked him much better,thank you

-Next Wednesday -That'll be lovely

That's settled then

I really must go

Are you sure you would not like to stand

and have your passport examined or anything

No,I've given up the whole idea

What whole idea?

About falling madly in love with your husband,him with me

you and I having a lovely old friends together seat

If one behaving beautifully

What's your the telephone number, you're not going to put me off,are you?

Don't be silly,of course not

-Mayfair 0 6 9 8 -Mayfair 0 6 9 8

I expect you next Wednesday about seven

-Are you sure you want me to ask Tim? -Yes,of course,he's an angel

Bring your old alienist too,if you'll come

I'll try and persuade him

-Good Bye -Good Bye

I say Barbara is there a bible in the house?

-I think so,who want one? -Chris

It should be one somewhere

-Ernest? -Yes,Madam

Is there a bible in the house?

I think cook has one,Madam

Ask her to get it to me for a moment would you please

Yes,Madam

I'm sure there isn't one there

Got your bible handy,Alice?

Looks like it,doesn't it?

-Mrs wants one -What ever for?

How should I know

-Bible,Madam -Thank you,Ernest

Moses go to Deuteronomy 28 I think

It starts with the Lord's shall smite

It's for his lecture on the inferior function

That is

The LORD shall smite thee with madness, and blindness, and astonishment of heart

That's the one

We got exactly half an hour

I'd better get the car out

-I'll be down about five minutes -Good Night

Good Night,Barbara

Good Night Tim

You are tired,darling?

No,just wishing I needn't go

You always say that before a lecture

It's nerves,I expect like a great primadonna trembling before the overture

I should be a great deal more nervous than this

if I thought I was to boom my way through Tristan and Isolde

So should I

I should be nervous about

it if I thought you were going to sing one of the lesser Indian love lyrics

Don't you care for my singing voice?

No,dear you?

You used to love it,when I was trilling away in the bathroom

you used to stand outside in the passage for hours

We only had one bathroom,my love

and just occasionally I wanted to use it myself

You'll be sorry

When you give your next musical evening and ask me to sing trees and I refuse

Chris,wouldn't it be awful if I really did have a next musical evening

Absolutely possible,I must go,Tim will be waiting

Are you sure you don't want me to come with you?

Quite sure,I can't be pompous and important with you watching

like a sharp critical links waiting for me to split an infinitive

Good

You are very important to me whether I am there or not

I just wanted to suddenly mention it

It's very sweet of you

To kindly say so

-Good Night,love -Bye,Bye

First to attempt to understand the motives and impulses

underlying our everyday behaviour we must look behind

the familiar mask of personality

and probe into the strange depths of our subconscious

For instance when a young man sees a young woman for the first time

and their eyes meet

for the sudden recognition across the space that sign has device them

In that split second they may occur a cataclysmic crisis in their two lives

Professor Jung has called this other unfamiliar side of the personality

the inferior function

He says

He says the very essence of the inferior function is characterized by its autonomy

It entangles in such wise that we cease to be masters of our souls

and become incapable of fair judgement between ourselves and others

To quote the Bible

Wee are smitten with madness, and blindness, and astonishment of heart

Any tea left?

Massive,Susan tea hand outs but it's incredibly hot

I feel rather battered

-Difficult case? -No,not really,just heartbreaking

Not poor Mrs Frazer

No,poor Mrs Frazer is humbug, all she wants to talk about is herself

and how fascinating she is and how everyone adores her

and in spite of that she feels somehow lonely and could I explain why

Did you?

Yes,I told her to stop the liver and send her to a fortune teller

How beastly of you

What's this case?

Burton,know he is dying. He is a bank clerk,gentle little man

with a nice wife and two grown up daughters,Leslie sent him to me

What the matter with him?

Tried to commit suicide

Love affair?

His wife knows and that coupled with a sense of guilt

and a bizarre respectability

plus this obsession with the other woman tearing him to pieces

Is she being good about it him or you suppose nagging at him?

I don't quite know yet,I suspect she's being fairly self-righteous

Poor thing,she's probable miserable

What about the other woman,does she love him?

No,I shouldn't think so

Poor wretched man

What a cruel story

The world I deal with is full of cruel stories

We needn't stay long

I can't see a sign of Leonora

Confuse me now

How lovely to see you

And Tim,I never can remember people's surname

Verney

You have to write it down for me some day

Come along,Barbara you must have a drink both of you

Oh lovely

-I think it is Martini Tim -Fine,thank you

That's better

Chris was frightfully sorry he couldn't come

but a case come up at the last moment

I suppose now he's digging into somebody's refreshments and all that sort of things

-That sort of thing -How exciting

More interesting than exciting

You have a superior look in your eyes,resenting

I think your husband has been invited

I can't imagine how you found him, tell me,how are you?

I'm absolutely fine

It must be a fascinating woman,unearthing everybody rattling little skeletons

and fitting them together, like Faber,what about himself?

How do you mean?

Does he know all about himself?

In the beginning is everything cut and dry and accounted for?

I expect so

And you? Has he chart of you hanging up over his desk

He doesn't need a chart,Leonora

Oh dear,something tells me I've gone too far,don't be cross

-Have a biscuit -I am not at all cross ,what about you Tim

No thank you

-Coming up with Hilda Whatlow -The painter?

Mind you,how clever of you to know

she is the only lioness here,very abstract of course,never uttering..

You look harassed,is anything wrong?

Mother just telephoned ,it's Florence again

She's fallen down

As a thankful companion for an elderly gentlewoman

Florence leaves a great deal to be desired,she is so seldom upright

Mother is devoted to her even she is unsteady on her pins

I shall have to get down for a few days

there is no one else in the house but old Mrs Jones

Isn't it a little unreasonable to expect you to go hurtling of to Gloucestershire

every time Florence falls down?

This time she's cracked something in her knee,poor her,can't move

I recognized that beautiful glint in you eyes

Is it really necessary for you to go?

I am afraid so,just for a little while

Mother is in a state,I can tell it on her voice

All right,darling,do as you think best,if you stay away too long I shall fall down

There is a train 1030 I think I can make it,Good Bye,darling

-Look after yourself -You leave me no choice

Same time next month,Miss Harper

No Miss Birch,Doctor Faber has now finished

You must be very pleased?

I don't know I shall miss my visits

You get used to them after six months

Doesn't seem as long as that

As a matter of fact I thinking of coming to some of the doctor's lectures

I got really interested in psychology

and,anyone who has helped me as much as Dr Faber has,is a real saviour of mankind

I can't,there is no use asking me to,I can't

Try

-You don't understand -It's only a word,a short ordinary word

-Say it -No

-That's the word,isn't it? -I won't look at it,I won't

Please,Mr Bowman,this is more important than you realize

Turn your head at once and look at this piece of paper

There is nothing there

-Cigarette? -Why did you do that?

Why did you force me to look at a blank piece of paper?

Why are you so afraid of one word?

-It isn't that I was afraid I was.. -Twenty years is a long time

All you've told me,all the sadness and maudlin holler

was over and done with twenty years ago

And it need no more pain in this field, which is an old tired story

Your mother won't be angry with you,Mr Bowman

She won't scold you

She died twenty years ago

I'm a middle aged woman

This boy is younger than my own son,situation is grotesque,insane

but I can't help myself

I can't get him out of my mind

Out of my heart

The situation is neither grotesque nor idiotic

nor has it anything to do with insanity

I let three side steps back shall we, go back to our first meeting

He was in the Navy with your son,wasn't he?

Yes

They were close friends,your son brought him into your house for lunch

Yes

He resembled your son in certain ways,doesn't he?

Yes

Nothing else you want before I go,Sir

No,practically finished

By the way have you heard from Barbara?

Yes I heard this morning

She hopes to be back in a day or two

Good, place doesn't seem to be the same without her

Very thoughtful of you to remind me

That's obvious to me

Good Night

Hello,yes

It's you,darling?

Yeah

Tim was just asking me if you ever coming back

There is nothing serious but I just remembered

I've got a date to go with Leonora to theatre tonight

can you possibly get Tim to take her I know she likes him

I have to have them he may be gone

Anyway I'll find someone where are the tickets?

They are in the top drawer Susan's desk

Thank you darling,I'll ring you tomorrow

-Good Bye -Good Bye,darling

-Tim gone yet? -Yes,do you want him?

Barbara just telephoned she wanted him to take Mrs Vail to a play tonight

Rather late in the day isn't it?

Barbara has a habit of leaving things for the last minute

You wouldn't like to go,I suppose?

I'd love to,but I can't I'm dining with Julian Macey and his new wife

its ages since I saw a really good play to

This may be a real bad one,if it is I hope you sympathize with me

Are you going?

I don't see how I can get out of it

It'll do you good take it out of yourself

I do not want to be taken out of myself

I'm not so sure,Good Night

Are we in the middle of the row?

"There is a strange look in your eyes"

"This is a small village,Hamalek,

the impulse to wreck and destroy the fabric of people's dreams

is as,alas, deeply rooted in the human heart"

"So even dreams are suspect in this corner of green England"

"Why did you marry me,Hamalek, you never loved me"

"Don't Henry,don't I.."

"Do you think I haven't known,you think I haven't noticed during three months"

" Your eyes clutching away from me like trapped birds,

you are beyond conceivable impatience over little things"

"Our happiness has been dripping downstream for a long time

and now like the tiny plot on a vast ocean, it is in danger of being destroyed utterly"

"Mrs Rupert Chekling,Aunt Margaret I thought she was in Bristol"

"I came the moment I was seeing your telegram" "Telegram?"

"Forgive me,Hamalek""I'm beginning to see it quite,quite clearly""Good Bye,Henry"

I wonder what Act 2 has in stall

More of overacting I expect

We,what's her name,quite good but she is too flamboyant to be a vicar's wife

She is too flamboyant to be anybody's wife

The critics said it was strong moving and an experience in the theatre

I'd rather it was a good play

You can get your happy ending

I'm afraid so

Yes,fosterchild will come back from Cornwall

in the last Act making a living all right

As far as I'm concerned she will have her work cut out

Whatever happens my voices tell me we shan't be here to see it

My voices tell me your voices are dead right

How nice to think we have so much in common

Here,heads we stay,tails we go

Heads

We go

-What do you like to have? -Stinger,please

-What on earth is a stinger? -Brandy and crème de menthe mixed

-Two stingers,please -Yes,Sir

-Sounds lethal -Is reviving

Was my dancing as bad as all that?

Not at all,in matter of fact you danced rather vogue

Thank you

Though your approach to the whole business is a trifle austere

You can hardly expect an ageing psychiatrist

to whirl you about like a dervish

Your stingers

Let's go and sit down

Perhaps time if you relaxed a little more

During the dance I can see it in your eyes

My dancing days are over

Nonsense,they are only just beginning

I might if you think it is a future in it, to take a correspondence course in December

I could practice in between patients

Quite unnecessary,I could teach you myself

My charges for private lessons may be beyond your means but

you can come to my public parties on Tuesdays and Fridays

Have you a large clientel?

Not large,but varied

My regulars include two dukes and ex naval officer and a labour minister

Are they nice dukes?

A little dim lacking in rhythm but the labour minister is light as a feather

Lack of responsibility,no doubt

What about the naval officer

Charming inclined to be boisterous

tramples me about the floor like a wheel barrow

-Susan was quite right -Susan,your secretary

She said I needed to be taken out of myself

-I salute her -Dear Susan

Let's dance again

You know you are very gung and very kind

It's a samba

Have two stingers ready for us when we come back,please

Double ones

If you enjoyed the evening as much as I had it has been a triumphant success

I've adored it,would you like to come in and have a drink

I can't guarantee a stinger but I could produce whisky and soda

Really not I got a long day tomorrow but thank you very much all the same

-Farewell -Good Night,Chris

Good Night,Leonora

Well if you got the tickets I suppose we shall have to go,shan't we

It is not for the lack of enthusiasm exactly

it is just I do not know anything about ballet

I might be dreadfully unreceptive

No,no I'll be good,I promise

I'll keep a stiff upper lip

Very well I'll be there at quarter to seven sharp

-You are seven and half minutes late -Oh,dear

On the whole I think it was justified

It's new I'm very proud so you said quite the right thing

I aim to please

I helped myself to a drink,would you like one?

No,we haven't time I think the first ballet still playing I don't want to miss it

It's the one with the swans?

No, Chopin you know,the one with the depressed white ladies

being lifted about by a gentleman with brown legs

Do you think I shall like that?

Perhaps not at first,but it may grow on you in time

I have a dreadful suspicion that you are trying to educate me

Were you really angry that first day we met?

Yes,I think I was

I didn't mean to be rude

You certainly did

Yes now I come to think I did

-Why? -I don't know

You irritated me

You were so conscious at of the absolutely beautiful you looked

I never thought of that

Your manner demanded attention insistently

like a child banging its shoe on the table making it clammer,yelling for more

How horrid that sounds

Quite natural

I expect you've always been spoiled

No,I haven't

Have many men been up with you?

No,not many

On the few who ever they were

Did you love them?

Please don't be quite so clinical

Forgive me

I just wanted to know

I loved somebody once,very much

Never so much before

Never so much since

I see

I'm tired let's go home now,shall we?

Very well,as you like

-You must go -Must I?

Of course

You'll make it rather inconsistent

Yes,I suppose it is

What's the matter?

I didn't meant it to be like this

Don't send me away yet

I must

Do you really want me to go?

Chris,I lied just now when I said that I didn't mean it to be like this

-Does it matter? -Yes,it matters dreadfully

-No,my dear -Please say no

Very well

I did mean it to be like this

But not

Quite like this

It was all a trick ,I planned it the first day we met

you remember when you snubbed me out of your dinner

I made up my mind then to, make you fall in love with me

Now I wish I haven't

I feel cheaper,feel frightened

I wish for my whole heart that I haven't

In think it was rather a gay trick

Don't be upset

There is nothing to be upset about

I think I like a drink

Do you want one?

No thank you

Do sit down and relax

Now you're treating me like a patient

Then it is because you're behaving like one

You see

That's better

Light a match

Thank you

You are a lovely creature

I maybe all right outside

but I am not very pleased with myself inside at the moment

Pangs of conscience are tiresome, Leonora,also exceedingly bad for you

I'm feeling better now

Good.I gather that the trick is on again

That was unkind

You're very touchy

What about Barbara?

She is quite well,thank you,I had a letter from her this morning

Are you in love with her?

What on earth did you say that for?

Are you in love with her?

You are behaving like a patient again

Are you?

Barbara has nothing to do with this

You are certainly not in love with me

You have lovely eyes there is little sadness in them a little disappointment

I can tell you a fortune by your eyes,shall I?

I'd rather you didn't

And your nose

I'd rather you didn't mention my nose at all

The most unwise nose I've ever seen

Do stop

And then is your mouth

Please,Chris

You'll be astounded

If you knew how desperately I wanted to kiss your mouth again

Chris

You are so foolish up on your romantic high horse

How often have you ridden it wildly and it went lamely at walk home

Often enough to teach me never to do it again

That's what made the sadness in your eyes

You should never have left school,it was a grave mistake

-You win -Do I

I knew you would

Quite early in the evening really

What's worrying you?

I feel uneasy

Must be conscience

You like me to drive little more slowly

Be honest now

Chris,how about are we going to hurt Barbara?

I don't know

You have been married twelve years

How naive you are?

What a lovely view from here

Do you love her,Chris,you never answered me before

Yes

I love her deeply and truly and forever

I see

I don't suppose you do, but it doesn't matter

It matters a lot

What do you want?

Truth or lies? Reality or pretence?

How clever of you to know without looking what you have in your safe

You must be quarrelsome ,Leonora

I can't help it,you make me angry I want to heat out at you

Any other impulse of this particular stage of the proceedings would be abnormal

You are so superbly sure of yourself,aren't you?

No

Oh no,the basis of everything I've ever learned has not been assured

Not been sure of anything or anyone in the world

Myself least of all

-Good Afternoon,Madam -Good Afternoon,Ernest

Nice to have you back,Madam

Nice to be back isn't the Doctor in yet

No madam,were you expecting him?

I was not quite sure

Perhaps this will give a clue

No Ernest I'll just have a tea by the fire

Very good Madam

-Can you put a light on? -What for?

I want to powder my unwise nose

-There -Thank you

A little bit of fluff on the left

I didn't see it

Allow me

-Chris -It was not all a trick

It may have started as a trick but it isn't one now is it?

-Is it? -Yes,it is

Liar

Look at me

No

Look at me

What's my fortune?

You are going to love me a little

-That's not enough -Yes it is

More than enough

Chris

Are you sure?

Quite,quite sure

My dear

You finally confessed everything to your wife

Yes

Why?

I couldn't bear the thought of deceiving her any longer

You resent her efforts to understand don't you

-They irritate you -Sometimes,yes they do

This new attraction is far stronger than the other

Yes

What have you come to me for really?

To cure me,of course

Your desire?

I suppose so

You're an intelligent man,a writer

A creative artist

I read a great deal of your work

Struck me all of it as being intensely personal

it's whole quality seems to depend on the accuracy of your own observations

Through the medium of your own experience

Do you really want to be cured of the instincts and urgencies

and impulses that go to form that experience?

I want peace of mind and the conflict within me is torturing me too much

I'm afraid of breaking down completely

These other loves that destroy your piece of mind

rob you of sleep threaten to wreck your home?

They bring you no happiness?

Nothing but remorse and despair?

Yes,no not exactly

I'll do everything in my power to help you Mr Lucas

But you must give me a little time

I'd like to see you again in four days from now in the meantime

I remind you of something that with your intelligence you must know already

The capacity for loving is stronger and more profound

in some people than in others

and it's extremely dangerous either to deny it or encourage it for the wrong reason

Thank you,Dr Faber

Thank you very much

I thought I better warn you

I may not be in for dinner tonight, so you won't wait,will you?

Of course my darling

When do you think you will be back?

-I don't know it all depends -I see

Hello,Chris

Darling,I'm terribly sorry to be so late I got hold up with the Grangers

Look de charong,your eyes are shining

your brooches are undone it is all highly suspicious

Oh dear,it's always doing that I must have it amended

Thank you darling I hate to lose it

Why?

Is there no insurance?

No,it isn't that it's the sentimental value

Who gave it to you?

No one you know

How can I be sure about it?

That's the funny with it,you can never be sure with me,can you?

Yes ..two dry Martinis,please?

Two dry Martinis for number 3 and another gin fizz for the young man's fancy

Who is she?

One over there with the false pearls and the wind swept hairdo

Is she not expecting more gin fizzes

it will be more than her hairdo that's windswept

I don't understand you

-Why make a secret of it? -I'm not

Darling,the brooch and you won't say who gave it to you

Very well since you are so persisting, it was Ronnie Hughes

How long ago?

Long time,during the war

What did he do?

He was in the RAF

Were you fond of him?

Yes,very

Do you want to see him now?

He was shot down in the flames over Cologne on the March 17th 1945

is there anything else you want to know?

I'm sorry

Hello darling

Sorry if I made you jump

What on earth

I couldn't sleep

I see

Another light,it so glary

Is that better?

Would you like a drink?

No,no thanks

Don't you think you better to go to bed?

All right

A bit chilly in here

You smoked all those tonight?

Yes

It sort of unattractive doesn't it? Like after a party

I'm awfully sorry,darling

There is no need to be sorry for

I mean it isn't a scene really, it isn't any,I do want to talk to you

I wanted it to for a long time

I know

Probably a bad moment

but the problem with that it's difficult and it never seems to be any time

I meant it when I said I am sorry

I am desperately sorry

I know you are

I am too

It's the worst for the whole business, nobody is having a good time

How is Leonora?

She is all right

I just left her

I don't imagine you have been to a masonic dinner,darling

No,I didn't think you did

I hate her quite normally with my feminine instincts

I am downright quite violent all by myself

Funny isn't it after all these years

I got over wanting to strangle her

I just wish she'd never been born

I think I do to

I don't ever see how quite we can go on like this ,do you?

I mean it's really too uncomfortable

That's why I waited up for you

Person who are loving a new part of it,I can manage that

painful as it but everything else as well

We are all getting in a state,Tim and Susan

Thinking if you always has been a bit agitated

You are working under such tremendous pressure

and you're getting so terribly tired and strained

I'm frightened you'd crack up or something

Don't worry I shan't crack up,not yet

But I'm frightened too

Dreadfully frightened

You see if I didn't know all the processes it would be easier but I do

I watch myself now all the time when I'm talking to patients in case I make a slip

Tim and Susan are fine their behaviour is almost too good

But they usher the patients in wearier than I

Not at all surely they will be present outside the door too

just in case of accidents

Then there is Leonora,I'm torturing her

I ask her questions,you see, because I can't stop myself

and out of her answers the scenes build themselves

can you imagine the foolishness of that

All the time my brain raising it's eyebrows up at me and sneering

I'm telling you all this just to let you know

that I know that I am not so far gone that I can't see what's happening

Nobody can be over this but me, I'm doing the best I can

Please don't let us talk about it anymore just now

you said I was tired,I am,so are you

All right,darling

Just as you said

Yes I must be sure of one thing,I want you to promise that you won't worry about me

I'll try not to

This is how I see the situation

It'd be different if I was still in love with you,but I am not

Anymore than you are with me that was all settled years ago

Merciless necessary to each other, and I hope we always shall be

but I must know,you must tell me how long

I am in too deep I can't tell

Very well then you must go away

-Go away? How can I -You must

I thought of it and I wanted to obliterate,quite impossible

Even if there were work or anything to prevent me it wouldn't be any use

Running away never is any use

I didn't mean it you should go away alone

that is too late for that now, I meant go away with her

take two months or three months and don't think about me

or work or any of the things getting in the way

I can't Barbara,you know perfectly well I can't

How do you know anything of the sort?

It's cold clear sense

I'm nothing here in any of your happiness

Thinking of my happiness too and more important still your work

you can't be with twisted nerves, strained people with

your all twisted nerves strained yourself,you must see that

It's not only your passion for Leonora that's undermining you

it's the fight you are putting up, you're being torn in half

Darling,you are making me a subject for your shame

It's idiotic,unreasonable and idiotic,you said you were submerged

it's true you are,but you go on do it together unless you try this way

Will you ask Leonora?

Very well

if you really mean it

I do it

I am not arguing darling, I don't mean to be difficult

it is just that I just don't understand

You don't know Barbara

Why women no woman would suggest that

Barbara would

Obviously she doesn't in the least approve of the situation

And she completely understands what she is doing

That's her way of loving,she loves with her reason and her mind as well as her heart

Very admirable character

Don't sneer at Barbara,Leonora, it's not worthy of you

I know,I'm sorry,I didn't mean to really

but it is difficult for me you do see,don't you?

Difficult for all of us

Does she hate me?

No,no I don't think so

Perhaps it'd be easier if she did

You are trying so hard to be wise and well behaved,it's a dreadful strain

-Leonora -Chris

I think you are hopelessly wrong to let him go like this and no good will ever come..

-Don't Susan,please don't -I'm sorry

Dear Susan

I'm trying to be sensible

More sensible than I have ever been in my life,it's rather difficult

So please help me,all you can, even if you do disapprove

It's nothing to do with approval or disapproval it's deeper than that

I know it is

I thought it over interminably but there isn't anything else to do

Really there isn't

Very well

I shall go away myself too somewhere of course

Laura is in Paris,I could stay with her

Or with Mary she has taken the Biddle's house in Kent

it's absolutely lovely I should be much happier there than here

You know best of course

But it is a mystery to me how you can let him go away like that aren't you jealous?

Not at her

But of his work and our happiness

I'm jealous of the time he is wasting now

and will go on wasting till he get her out of his system

I sense the futility of it all,I must help him

Help him back(Barbara) -To you

No to sanity

Tim

I have had all this out with Barbara,you know

And myself

I'm sure you have

You disapprove very strongly,don't you?

I neither approve,Chris, or disapprove, or anything to do with it

-We'll see -I'm afraid you don't

But perhaps some day you will

-I'm sorry ,Tim -So am I

You should know I'm deeply fond of you both

As a matter of the fact

I believe I also can find it in my heart

a little sorry for Leonora Vail

I thought I heard you come in

-Is that from Chris -No Barbara

How is she?

Sounds cheerfully enough

but you could never tell with her she wouldn't say if she was dying

I suppose not

As usual the only item of interest is in the PS

How's that?

Have we heard from Chris

But there isn't any answer to that,when is that?

No,I do wish one didn't feel so utterly helpless so

Let's hope he has had a good time,that's all

Nobody else is

Are you up still working?

I'm nearly finished

How was the party?

Too big really,too noisy

Poor,darling, you always loses the head at the last minute now

there are so many people, It looked lovely,of course

she had the whole façade of the Palazzo floodlight

the balconies festooned with coloured lights

You look tired

I am large parties always exhaust me

Why go to them then?

Why? Don't very often

You didn't tonight,did you?

What on earth are you talking about?

I spoke to Dolly herself a few minutes ago

Did you really Chris,how very clever of you

She said that you've chucked at the last moment

because your lawyer had arrived from London

was here only for one night,you had to talk business with him

How is your lawyer,Leonora?

He is a very old gentleman, called Mr Burleigh

Did he enjoy his gay evening with you in Venice?

I don't like this,Chris, I don't like any of it

Neither do I

I don't like berate

But there are worse things being insulted, for instance,and humiliated and spied on

You dined with David Hartley tonight,didn't you?

Yes,I did

-Alone? -Quite alone

I'd known him for years,he is one of my oldest friends

Why didn't you tell me that you were going to dine with him?

Because I knew if I did,you'd make a dreadful scene

Our love inspires great confidence,apparently

It's not my fault if you imaging things,torture yourself

I was under the impression that you loved me

Darling,don't

More than anyone or anything in the world

Please,Chris

How long ago was it when you said that to me

I can't bear it,when you go on like this

You loved me so much that you had to lie to me

You loved me so much so that you had to play tricks on me

You twist me and torture me

until I'm driven beyond the interim you cry and say I'm cruel

Don't look at me like that,you are mad

Answer me one question

Why didn't you stay the night with him

you wanted it,didn't you?

what was it that held you back?

Your love for me?

Or was it fear?

What's the use

Do you think I like the situation?

You are not loving me any more

Me wanting you so much

Darling,why do you say that?

You're working it all up in your imagination

None of this is true

Darling,none of it's true

-Don't lie anymore -I am not

How do I know? You lied before,I caught you out

Trivial enough,they were,I grant you that,but they were lies just the same

Little lies or big lies, what's the difference

perhaps you forget that charming two episodes in Cairo

Chris

All right,all right I know that I'm going it

some way over the top but why shouldn't I?

It's difficult to explain to go back to the beginning

When is he coming back?

Soon,quite soon

You do understand don't you?

You've been very kind, very patient but you see..

Of course I understand, please don't say anymore

I let you know the moment he returns

Thank you

-Good bye -Good bye

Barbara,I'm glad you're back

-Why,anything wrong? -No

They came through on the telephone just now asking you to take a call from Venice

-Chris? -Yes

I told them you'll take it between eight and nine tonight,is that all right?

-Yes,perfectly,thanks,Mary -Tea is ready

All right,I'll just put this away,I won't be a minute

Yes,this is Maidstone 2 174

Mrs Faber speaking

Yes,all right I'll hold on

Hello

-Hello,is that you Barbara? -This is me

It doesn't sound like your voice at all

Well you sound very far away too(Barbara)

How are you?

Better,thank you,had a beastly cold last week but it's gone now

How are you?

I am all right(Chris)

Good

How's Mary?(Chris)

Mary is fine

-Have you seen Tim? -Not lately,no(Barbara)

When you do,tell him I've sent the post of the book back to Chatham

I don't think I shall see him for a week or two

Frank and Laura went by him to Scotland for a fortnight so I thought I'd go

Yes of course will do you good(Chris)

How's Leonora?

She is just the same

-Barbara? -Yes

There is something I want to ask you

Something I want to say to you

You've gone very faint all of a sudden,I can't hear you

-That better? -Yes

What were you going to say?

Nothing, nothing of importance

Are you coming back soon?

I don't know it's difficult to tell

Barbara,there are thousands things I want to say to you now

I just can't say one of them

Never mind,Chris,I understand it'll have to wait until you get back

That means our time nearly up,doesn't it?

-Yeah -Goodbye then,darling

Good Bye,Barbara

Dear Barbara

Welcome home

It's good to see you,Tim

When did you get back?

-About 7 30 in the morning -You should have let me know

I hadn't time it was all rather a rush

You look pretty tired

I didn't sleep much last night

-It was a bumped flight -Have you eaten?

Yes,Ernest playing around splendidly, I had a huge breakfast

Want to run over the records,OK?

Not yet,don't rush me

-All right,I'll bring them in later on -Yes,do

Shall I get Susan to telephone Barbara,she has her number?

No,no I don't think I'll do that Tim

As a matter of fact I'd rather not let her know that I am back just yet

-Not for a few days at any rate -All right

I feel I ought to let me get acclimatized first

A bit more difficult to imagine when one has been away for so long

Once I sort of down to the normal routine here again I call her myself

Anything you say

-Good Morning Tim -Hi

-Have you got a patient in there already? -No

I just thought I heard voices

-It's Chris -Chris?

Got back early this morning

He might have let us know

That's what I told him

What did he say?

Something about being too rushed

What's he like?

I don't quite know,there is something strange about him

He's changed,Susan

He's changed in an intangible sort of way

I don't like it

For a time everything seemed different

We were gay and cheerful

I expect the climate had something to do with it

Then we came back to London and after a while,quite a little while really

You are not listening?

What?

I'm trying to be as concise as I can to waste as little of your time as possible

All right,all right,go on

I can't

-What do you mean? -You are not listening

You haven't been paying any attention at all

Why do you keep saying that,of course I'm listening

Perhaps it was my fault,perhaps..

Please go on with what you were saying

I can't remember what I was saying

It's all slipped away

You shouldn't gone abroad in the first place

Doesn't do any good go abroad

To run away

But it was you who told me to go,months ago

I was wrong

Nothing is as easy as that

Trains,boats,planes, sunshine,geographical distance

the things were there all the time,wasn't it?

There is no escape

The loveliest moonlight and the clearest sky

can be spoiled degraded and made tedious

by something quite trivial, a little botch perhaps

A little botch with garlands on it

Quite an expensive you understand only treasured for sentimental reasons

Dr Faber

How can I help you with this little botch between us

It was given to Leonora years ago, long before I even met her

How can I ease your poor mind

when a handsome young man is burned to death in a plane

Here,in the room

He was the one she loved,you know

The only one she ever really loved

He was..

Please forgive me

I'm not feeling very well today

We must send for Barbara at once,he is in a terrible state

I get through right away

No,Tim,the telephone is too sudden

remember she doesn't even know that he is back

I'll write now,she'll get it in the first thing in the morning

I ought to be able to handle this

I feel so helpless

So inadequate

No,nobody could handle this but Barbara

Do you think she can?

It's the only chance

Best go back

"It's the fast train for Portsmouth

the express from Exeter is now arriving at platform 8"

Susan,how good of you to meet me

It was the least I could do, I got a taxi waiting

It isn't a question of that Leonora,if it was so unimportant

why didn't you tell me the truth about it in the first place

I see

In that case there is nothing more to be said,is there?

Susan,tell me about Chris

Your letter sounded so cryptic I thought I had better come back at once

I'd hope you would

You see when I told you he was back

I didn't say he'd been home for the past ten days

-Has he? -Yes

I thought it would only worry you

beside he said he'd let you know himself the moment he felt really settled in

-He didn't -No,we guessed that

How is he,Susan?

He's changed,he's quite unaccountable

Tim and I don't seem to able to deal with him

so we thought we ought to send for you

I'm glad you did

He can't concentrate and I'm afraid it's affecting his work

Even people who don't know him as well as we do are beginning to notice it..

Don't worry,he'll be all right now that you're back

I do hope so

-Good Evening,Madme,welcome home -Thank you,Ernest

Did you have a good journey?

Yes,not bad but I'm a bit tired

-Shall I get you anything? -No,thank you,is the doctor in?

No he went out earlier this evening and he didn't say when he'd be back

-I see,all right,thanks -Very good,Madam

-Please,please -Don't come near me

Forgive me,you must forgive me

It isn't forgiving,I can't bear it anymore, I do mean to start up really calm

I should like to know what you propose to do then

I'm going away for good

I see(Chris)

I'll go tomorrow

You can't,you can't possibly

Please,please I must,I got to go away I told you,I really can't bear it anymore

You can't bear it anymore,what about me?

It's not my fault

that you create these fearful scenes make our life a dreary misery

Tell me one thing,tell me one thing without lying

-You are hurting me -Tell me one thing,honest

What is it?

-Do you still love me? -Oh Chris

Do you!

Yes

As much as you did in the beginning?

What are you thinking?

Of course things have changed yes compared with the beginning

-That's an evasion -It's the truth

Nothing stays the same

You wanted me in the beginning didn't you?

Whenever I came here,whenever I touched you

it was more important than anything in the world wasn't it?

-Wasn't it? -Yes,yes it was

And now it isn't anymore

Oh,Chris what's the use

Answer me

Do you still love me as much as you did in the beginning?

-No -At last

That was what you wanted isn't it? The truth,well that's the truth

Then you've been lying for weeks,for months probably

Yes,yes I have

When did it die? When did it die this poor shabby love of yours

A long time ago

You killed it yourself with your insane jealous and cruelties

I can't even go back into my own memory now without

finding you there jeering on every threshold

Walking with me through the empty rooms

making them tawdry shutting them off from me forever I hate you for that bitterly

Sentiment for the dead at the expense of the living

Very interesting

Quite magnificent

The dead have at least proper sense to be quiet

Long live the dead

You're one of them now

Did you mean that?

Yes

I think I did

Yes

I'm so sorry to ring up at this horrible late hour but I'm worried

Chris ran out earlier this evening and nobody seems to know where he is

If he is with you it will relieve my mind a bit,is he?

-Yes.Do you want to talk to him?(Leonora) -No

No,I was frightened something had happened to him

please don't say I rang up will you?

Not if you don't want it(Leonora)

He would only think I was checking up on him,and I'd hate that

I won't just as you like it, is there anything else(Leonora)

No

No,nothing else

-Good Night -Good Night(Leonora)

I know it's all over now

I won't make any more scenes

-I promise -Good Bye,Chris

Is it dead?

-Quite dead -Don't,Chris,please

All passions spent everything tided up and put back in the box

Yes let me go

Those appeals to be so desirable

to be wanted so much, tell me please,I want to know

I want to know what's your heart doing now,your loving female heart

How enviable to be able to walk away into the future

free of love free of longing new life before you and the dead behind you

Not quite the dead

let's say the dying,the dying aren't quite as sensible quiet as the dead

They can't hear crying little

you must walk swiftly out of their earshot and don't I implore you look back

This little charm in dying

it's only clinically interesting, but your viewpoint is far from clinical,my dear

You are a sane thrilling animal without complications

and the fact that my life has been wrecked on your loveliness

isn't your fault

Isn't your fault

You are in a grand tragedy

The best tragedy of all and the best joke

The inevitable triumphant defeat of mind by matter

Just for the minute I seeing it all quite clearly

Myself and you and the world around us

You see I had a life to live and work to do

and people to love and now I haven't anymore

Nobody could help me those people I love,and who love me

I can see them still strained in getting me

but they can't reach me anymore

It's too late

It's too late

There is no point in waiting any longer,he is sure to be in soon

It's nearly 3

You must go home I'm perfectly all right

Very well,have it your own way

Have another drink before you go

No,thank you I got to get up in the morning

If you want anything early I can easily see to it

No,I'll be here,thanks,all the same

-Good Night Susan -Good Night

-How extraordinary -What?

I just remembered,it was exactly like this the day I first met her again

And it's exactly a year ago

I was looking out of the window at the rains and it wasn't this window

It was Darlington,Fulham Road

I'd been doing some shopping and I was waiting for my change

and staring out of the window at the rain

Then suddenly,there was Leonora

Mrs Vail,Madam

Leonora,at last

I'd would have been here sooner but I got held up with the traffic it was awful

Never mind,you are here now

I suppose there is no use saying I'm sorry,is it?

I hope you know how much I hate myself

I think you better go in right away,he's been asking for you

Yes

-Tim,would you take her? -Of course

-More coffee Barbara? -No

-Susan -No,thank you

Do sit down,my dear

I'm all right I like wandering

I believe it stopped raining

It's too much coincidences really

An awful feeling I'm making it all much worse for you

Don't be so foolish

I wonder

I don't want anything it's better not

Don't snap at Susan,Tim,it's beastly of you

I'm sorry,Susan,I didn't mean it

I didn't even hear

I wish she come out now, I wish to God she come out

She will be in a minute

A minute? She's been in there nearly an hour

It's no use I must hear what's happening

Is he..

Yes

He didn't know me

He thought it was you

He said

Barbara I'm not submerged anymore

Then he said Barbara again

Then he died

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