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Hi...

If you're watching this,

it's because I'm already...

dead.

Today is Friday,

October the 28th, 1994.

Today I'm starting to record this tape.

I know it's not easy,

but don't judge me...

without knowing.

I know when you finish watching it...

you'll understand.

Goodbye.

Miguel...

Thank you.

You, girl, come down now!

No. Drop it.

Dad!

Turn that thing off now.

What are you doing?

I'm recording a video.

Well, I don't wanna be on it.

Are you aware that I'll die soon?

That would be nice.

What do you think about death?

Nothing, leave me alone.

Alejandra, I'm 13.

Is there any good reason not to commit suicide?

A really good reason?

Yes...

What is it?

Well, life is nice and you only live once.

No, I mean a good reason.

Well, no...

killing yourself is wrong.

Gilberto, if you don't like your life

and other people don't like you, would it be wrong to commit suicide?

What's up, Rabano?

Hey, Mayo, how're you doin'?

As usual.

What about that thing, is that the one you got?

Yeah, it's a bit old but it works fine.

It's cool. And when will you start recording your video?

You're already on it.

No kidding, you should've told me, to get my hair fixed.

Hey, take this one.

It's very good, I just copied it.

Ok. How much? 10, right?

Are you kidding? For you, make it 15

nah, take it.

Rabano, you rat, you'll get caught.

Nah, they don't even notice it.

- Well, thanks - Cool.

Say bye.

I was too little when we moved in to this house.

I don't remember much.

I used to think it was so big.

You won't tell me anything

but I overheard you talking the other day,

I know you're going to sell it.

But if you don't sell it,

you can rent my bedroom or use it for anything.

And if you do sell it,

you can buy another one without so many bedrooms.

That would be cheaper.

So,

this is how this table is going to look without me.

Wave, please!

No?

Well, there is no waving.

So, is it better to wait until he feels like it?

Yes, whenever he does his will.

Grandma,

is God a man or a woman?

No, boy, God doesn't have a gender

...but he's a man.

Look, I'll lend you my bible so you can read it

Thank you, grandma, I'm fine...

Read it...

No, really. Thank you.

Take it with you, read it when you find the time.

Grandma,

wouldn't you commit suicide?

Well... no.

Why?

Why would I now?

I rather wait.

So, you don't believe me?

No...

my mom says that those who keep saying they'll kill themselves,

they just never do it.

Do you have me there?

Yes, say your name.

I'm good old Rabano...

No, my name is Luis but everybody calls me Rabano.

Tell them why they call you that.

No way, you tell them later.

Nah, it's funnier when you say it.

Well, when I was younger I was a goth, I'm a punk now,

but I was a goth.

We all used to hang out in an abandoned tunnel...

Yeah, but about the name...

Yeah, righty, righty.

Then everyone had their satanic nicknames and I wanted to have my own.

And well, you know that ravens are a fad now because of the movie...

- Yeah, because the actor was killed. - Yeah, that's why.

But really I've always liked ravens, honestly, since before the movie.

So I told them to call me "raven", which is the word for those black birds.

Isn't it "crow" like in the movie?

Nah... well, really?

Either one, right?

Well and what happened?

Well, I was called raven for a while and everything was cool.

I was the mighty raven.

Until a girl started calling me "ravenito"...

and then it became "Rabanito",

and that's it.

Geez.

Rabano, tell them for how long we've known each other.

Well... dunno...

for how long?

For how long? About five years?

Geez, I was working at the school back then.

Yeah, but you got busted doing dope.

Yeah... and your mother got really upset about it.

What did you expect?

She's gonna watch this.

Alrighty. Hi ma'm.

They call it Nessie...

It's a monster that lives in a lake in Scotland,

the Loch Ness.

I like monsters, they're very special.

There are lots of them

but I like this one because I believe it is true.

No one has ever found it but I think it really exists.

The problem about monsters

is that when they become known they're no longer monsters,

they happen to be pachyderms or reptiles or something like that.

They become just one more thing and that's it.

And so,

that way the world is being left without its special things.

B, he goes to meet you but he asks you

if he can take his three friends with him.

C, he says he would go happily

but he had already accepted his good friend Plutarco's invitation.

I think C...

Ten... on your birthday you get an anonymous card,

he...

You idiot, why don't you get lost and stop bothering us?

Omar, I'm 23.

Give me a reason not to commit suicide.

Are you going to commit suicide?

Yes...

- You? Why you? - Tell me...

Just because you're short?

Won't you answer?

You're going to grow taller, don't worry.

I think there is one special thing in the world.

Only one truly special thing...

only one.

It's called Aurora Borealis.

They're lights that appear on the sky, over the north pole.

Nobody knows for real when or where the Aurora displays will happen.

Some people stay there for weeks just to see if they appear...

it's very difficult.

That's why I won't be able to see them.

That and

the fact that I won't have enough time.

I'm leaving this world having missed the best of it.

That one and the two behind him have been bothering me since I came.

They don't like me because I come from a private school.

I told the principal once

and it got much worse.

I never said anything again

and I took it instead.

What, idiot? Are you recording me?

- No, jerk! I don't tape faggots! - Do you like me or what, you asshole?

I told you I wasn't recording you... I don't waste my tapes in worthless stuff.

Do you want to record me? Do so, you asshole.

I said no, jerk. Just go.

Come on, you little sissy, I really want to punch you.

No. Go now.

I'll fight you for your little camera.

What for, moron? You won't even know how to use it.

Asshole.

Asshole, but at least I didn't fuck my brother up...

How's the retard by the way?

How do you know?

Everyone knows.

Answer me!

Answer me!

I want you to tell me why?

Leave me alone!

Open the door!

No, go away!

Why did you have to tell them?

He likes it when it rains.

It was 4 days before his birthday...

one year old.

They were planning his party,

they didn't have money for that, but

they saved some up.

When he was born

they didn't let me hold him,

they thought I might drop him.

I used to get mad

and tell them I was big enough.

One day they had Micha in the tub.

Someone knocked the door and my mom went to see.

She asked me to look out for him.

The baby was slippery

because of the water and the soap.

I can't remember anything,

only my mom...

yelling and crying.

She hit me,

and went away with the baby.

After that no one said anything to me.

Everything changed for me,

you both changed towards me.

The baby survived...

but in this condition.

That's why I'm leaving...

justice will be served...

On other news, we all care for,

the story that has shaken the nation.

It has worried both the authorities and the population

the fall of the peso against the american dollar brings along

what experts foresee, will be one of the worst economic crisis

that this country has lived in a very long time,

ahead we'll hear the opinion of financial experts...

Dad, what is a devaluation?

When a country's economy is not doing good,

our money loses it's value.

And what happens then?

Though times come,

there are problems.

For whom?

For everyone.

For us?

From your total income, what do you spend the most on?

You all...

the house,

food, electricity, phone.

Each one of us, how much do we cost?

Expensive,

very expensive.

No comments.

Please go in.

Hello, Mariano.

What plans do you have for your vacation?

Nothing.

Get everything ready.

For your plan?

Yeah.

You're still going forward with it?

Yes.

But you quit making the video, didn't you?

Yes.

It's better this way.

And when are you planning to...

go?

On January the 20th.

That's the date in which it happened to your brother, isn't it?

I want to ask you a favor.

My parents ran out of money and they have lots of debts.

If I'm leaving anyhow, you just tell them I'm perfectly fine

and don't make them spend their money any longer.

You don't want to come anymore?

No.

I will have to talk to your parents anyway.

No.

Well. So...

If we're not meeting again, Mariano...

may you have a Merry Christmas.

Merry Christmas.

Beto, I'm 25 years old.

Are there any good things in life?

None.

Why don't you commit suicide then?

To be honest, because I'm afraid.

When I was a kid I was told that if I do it, I'd go to hell.

And what if you didn't have anything to lose?

For example, if you were a murderer

or someone who has caused too much damage,

and you know that you're going to hell no matter what?

Then, I would do it,

I guess.

I don't know.

Eric, I'm 17 years old.

Are you OK with suicide?

Yes.

Would you commit suicide?

Yes.

Is there anything good in life?

No.

I don't think so.

Micha...

I'll be leaving soon.

Things around this life are just not fine.

I'm gonna miss you.

Do you really understand what I say?

Well,

it's the same.

...Lucía had to stay in the same town

because she was in love with a General...

Yeah, right.

A General from Guanajuato.

Then she was disappointed.

The General was killed there were he was...

They say he was killed...

they didn't really know if he just died or if they killed him.

So, she got very sad and she never wanted to come out to anymore,

and she went mad, they had to take her to the mental hospital

She got her nerves very damaged...

Mom, this one is for you.

Thank you.

This one is for Micha.

Mariano,

socks.

Thank you.

I always say there's nothing in this life I'm gonna miss,

that life sucks

and that everything's wrong.

But to be honest,

truly honest,

not everything's so wrong.

There are certain things...

I almost don't believe in anything now,

but if there is something in this world I still believe in,

that would be Christmas.

I like Christmas

and it's worth it.

But it happens only once a year.

And for just once a year it's not really worth it.

I like turkey and it's worth it,

but we didn't have one this year...

and I'm guessing we won't have any in the years to come.

Merry Christmas, Micha.

Merry Christmas.

Rocío, I'm 27.

What I like about life...

Some things I like, some others, I don't.

But I like being alive not because I'm alive

but because that way I'm not dead.

I'm afraid of death.

Not to know what will happen to us.

That might be it, right?

Did you hear that somewhere a bunch of people commited suicide

so they would ride on a comet?

Geez.

Do you like this song?

Yeah, is it Alen Mató?

Yes,

it's the one about the sad marmot, my favorite one.

The sad marmot, you're kidding.

I bought it yesterday, they copied it for me.

It's the latest they've got.

If you want it, bring a tape so I copy it for you.

Yeah, the other one was cool too,

but you're the only one who knows them.

I think they'll get know soon.

The problem is they haven't had any shows yet.

The one who copies that for you... where does he get the music from?

No one knows.

I guess he get it copied as well.

I was told the police is looking for them,

because their songs have satanic messages...

and if you play it backwards you can hear them.

Try.

No, I can't, my stereo is not that cool.

Maybe it's not true.

Yeah.

I was telling you that somewhere a bunch of people commited suicide

so they would ride on a comet.

Yeah, no kidding?

Have you ever thought about killing yourself?

Sometimes.

Do you like life that much?

No.

So, so.

I don't care.

Hey,

what if we commit suicide together, like those comet people?

I don't even believe the whole comet thing.

Neither do I.

But the journey might be long,

so I wouldn't go by myself, I mean.

Might be.

So you're in?

You know what is really depressing?

To see an ugly gravestone, without flowers on it.

What about that?

That if we both die, who's gonna put flowers on your gravestone?

You're rushing to be dead, I'm in no rush, I can wait,

I'll catch up later.

Coward.

No,

really... I'll get there.

Many think the world will come to an end on the year 2000...

and it's true.

Some think there will be a meteorite falling down to the Earth

like in the dinosaurs age.

The point is that the world will come to its end.

Year 2000 is the year of the end of the world.

What very few know is that there has been a mistake.

The one that began counting the years was wrong

and we're three years delayed.

Year 2000 will actually happen in 1997.

It will get you all unnoticed.

Another reason to leave sooner.

Congratulations! Happy New Year!

Happy New Year!

Congratulations!

Now, mom, all of your wishes will come true...

All which you asked for.

Happy New Year!

Mariano, get a suitcase and come running!

Otherwise you are not going to travel.

I'm not going to travel anyway.

In fact, you won't either... how will you afford it?

I want to use this video as my will,

please, have respect for it.

I have some cassettes over here. Come see if you want any.

Oh, sweet.

This one's original. Cool.

Yeah, take it with you. Anything you want.

I'll decide later who gets the rest of them...

or you can get rid of them.

What do I do about that picture over there?

Put it in that box, it's the stuff for my grandma.

What's up, Micha? Don't you like the dolphin's picture either?

Why do you talk to him?

He doesn't even understand what you say.

You do listen to me, right, Micha?

What about these pictures? Can I have them?

Yeah, what's in them?

I don't know, they're like old pictures.

Yeah, take them.

I was gonna throw them away... burn them or do anything you want.

Cool, thanks.

What about these?

Those contain old TV shows I used to record.

Mariano, what are you doing?

Good evening, ma'm.

Mariano?

I'm cleaning up...

Watch those if you want while I finish this.

OK.

Do you really like this one?

Yes, do you know it?

Are you kidding? The wonder years.

Do you like it?

Of course, Kevin Arnold.

I thought you were a goth.

Let me see.

It's cool you have stored all this stuff.

Do you want to keep those?

Nah.

Do you want a Nintendo or should I get rid of it?

Don't, I'll have it.

It's not the Super Nintendo.

- No, but this one's cool. - Take it.

These are the cartridges, I only have four of them.

Which ones?

The Mario one, it also has the duck game,

but I lost the gun to play it...

I also have Zelda, the golden one...

I play Street Fighter at the arcade.

Yeah, right,

but no, I don't have that one. I've got Punch Out

and Mega Man 2.

Alrighty. This is cool.

I've never had a Nintendo before.

Well, yeah, but this is the cheap one, the cool one is the Super Nintendo.

No, this one's cool.

Do you want some cupons?

No way.

Well, my precious coupons go to my sister Claudia.

He-Man!

I used to watch He-Man.

He didn't even exist back then.

What are you talking about? He was She-ra's boyfriend.

They were brother and sister.

Gross.

Hey, are you throwing away all of your toys?

Yeah, I think so.

Why don't you give them to Micha?

He can't play with them.

Yes, look.

What's up Micha?

Look, this is Donatello, he's a ninja turtle.

See?

He can't move it, but it doesn't mean he doesn't like it.

They say he does understand.

But since he does nothing, I rather don't even talk to him.

But, OK,

I'm leaving all of my toys to Micha, then.

You'll find many boxes.

Some are for my dad, the other one is my mom's.

That one's for Micha.

There are none for Claudia yet.

What bothers me the most about looking around between old stuff

is that they make me remember...

and what I need to do now is to forget,

to make everything easier.

The one that looks for something is in risk of actually finding it.

I want to apologize...

I wanted my video to be completely real,

but it happens to be that it's just not possible.

As you may see...

as soon as they notice the camera,

they all become actors...

and they stop being as they normally are.

That's one big bruise!

I'll watch my step better next time.

Does it hurt?

No.

But don't touch it.

How did you get that done?

Messing around...

C'mon, who?

Nobody,

some girls.

They don't know what's wrong with him.

He's been ill for two days now.

It seemed like an infection...

but he's not getting any better with the medicine.

What is it, Micha?

What's the matter with you?

Because I believe life's worth it...

and I want to be with my family...

and to enjoy the beautiful moments I have in my life.

If you want to commit suicide, it's OK.

I wouldn't commit suicide because

I believe the best part of life will be coming soon...

and I want to be here to see it.

What for?

What do you mean what for?

This video, you're recording it for what?

Answer my question.

No, I wouldn't commit suicide.

Why not?

I think you're doing all this just to get attention.

You don't understand.

No, at your age no one understands you guys.

You should just forget that stuff.

Rodolfo, I'm 19 years old.

Tell me something that makes life worth it.

There are many reasons, they're just in the wrong order.

What do you mean?

I like movies, I watch lots of them.

They all have exciting parts.

Life, on the other hand, has its good parts very well hidden.

In life you realize a part was good when it has already passed, always.

What about the ending?

Yes, that's another good point.

In real life it doesn't matter how good, quiet

and painless your death might be...

our ending is never ever going to be a happy one.

Mariano, dammit, turn that thing off now!

Do me a favor. Repeat what you were saying...

Turn it off now I'm telling you!

Miguel!

Mom! Rebeca is here, this is embarrassing.

What's wrong?

I just can't stand it anymore. He keeps saying he'll commit suicide.

His junkie friend was here and they were packing his stuff up in boxes.

Mom, repeat what you were saying to me.

- Mariano, are you still doing this? - So what?

I've been telling you that I'm gonna kill my self for months, for years...

and do you give a damn.

Miguel! Tell him to quit speaking like that.

Quit speaking like that to your mom. What do you think you're playing at?

I'm playing I'm dead and I go happy to watch you regret this!

Turn that camera off now.

Do you really think you have the right to complain?

- Don't leave me talking here! - What?

- No, but this one's cool. - Take it.

You're so ungrateful.

- What should I be grateful for? - Enough!

You're so gonna regret this.

No, you are going to regret this.

Drop it, Miguel. Let him do whatever he wants.

So, my dearest spectators, this is how a single bed

becomes double.

Trick? Magic?

Decide it yourself. Have you been kicked out of your house?

"No problemou". El Rabano Motel welcomes you.

Stop mocking, dude.

Done.

This over here is someone really addicted.

He has been here since 6 a.m.

At the end of this tape there's going to remain a blank space...

please help me and put in there my dying scene so it will be complete.

To edit it you have to connect the camera to the VCR.

You press play in the camera and rec in the VCR,

you wait until everything's copied

and when it finishes...

when I'm dead...

press stop.

What do those guys want you for?

They just want to bother me.

You owe them, don't you?

Cheap bastards.

Let me try that.

No, kid... it'll screw your brain up.

A week from now, I'm not gonna need it anymore.

What? You don't know if you're going to need it there.

Come on. Just to try it.

No,

when you grow up,

you get your own joints.

Selfish.

Yeah,

I'm a selfish bastard.

Hey...

aren't you calling them before you leave?

No.

They didn't kick you out, did they?

Why you ask?

It's OK,

it doesn't matter.

But you should call them, they must be very worried.

They don't give a damn.

Dammit.

At least call them and tell them you're fine.

No.

Don't tell them where you are...

just call to say goodbye

and to know how Micha's doing.

He didn't throw them away.

My name is Luis Eduardo, I'm 27 years old.

Would you commit suicide?

The question shouldn't be if I would commit suicide.

The question should be how would I do it.

What do you mean?

It's not easy to commit suicide.

People believe it's easy just to take a knife,

slit your wrist and that's it.

But no...

it has to be done underwater

and at a certain temperature, otherwise it just can't be done.

It's pretty hard to commit suicide.

Or you could just jump from the top of a building.

There are many ways to commit suicide.

Yeah, but they're all difficult, whatever you do.

If you hang yourself, if you run in front of a car...

the bad thing is that you may not be completely dead

after all and you end up worse than before.

Once I read that

if you drink one hundred cups of coffee within four hours you just drop dead.

Would you commit suicide?

No...

would you?

I am going to commit suicide.

Oh, well...

you should know how to do it before you try.

Do you know how already?

Yes, my cousin Lucas.

He did what? Say the whole sentence please.

He commited suicide.

Why?

He wanted to be like Kurt Cobain, the guy from Nirvana.

Dolores, I'm 25 years old.

Would you commit suicide?

Before...

I thought about it.

But I never found the courage.

Wouldn't you do it now?

No...

what for?

Do you like life very much?

Sometimes...

like everything.

Lots of people say that the auroras make a noise,

like a whistle...

even though it's not yet proven.

Almost every northern country says things about the aurora borealis.

Many believe that when they display

it means there will be war or catastrophes.

They also say that they're the souls of the dead playing soccer,

but instead of a regular ball they use the skull of a walrus.

Several Canadian tribes say that the auroras are

the souls of the babies that were born dead,

of those who were murdered

or those who lived handicapped,

and the noise is them, crying.

Are they still out there?

Yes, they haven't moved in two hours.

Dammit.

How much do you owe them?

You don't wanna know.

What are you going to do?

I don't know.

I don't know.

Wait here for a while. Let's see if they go away.

Are they gone yet?

No.

Damn bastards...

what if I just beat the mother out of them and we cut to the chase.

They're gonna kick your ass.

They're gonna kick my ass.

For how long you haven't seen them?

My brothers?

Since I left my house.

I was... 15 back then.

And you say he hit you?

Your mom's boyfriend?

He was this big brute, a big moron.

He used to beat us all up.

- And what did she say about it? - Nothing.

He beat her up as well.

When I left I said I was going to be back to kill him

and take them with me.

What happened?

Then I got lazy about it.

I don't like fights.

You got scared?

What? Are they gone yet?

They're not there anymore.

About time. I'll go get something to eat.

They're gonna catch you.

I'm going out through the back door. Even those assholes get hungry.

I believe they are hiding.

No.

You know what?

I'm hungry now.

I'm sick of being here locked up and afraid.

I'll be back soon.

Mariano!

Rabano, don't. Calm down.

No, please.

Record me.

Why? What for?

I'm telling you... I was running

and they all came around me...

there were many of them

but I beat all of them up.

You can tell that later.

The mighty raven got them...

I got them.

Tell them I'm in pain...

I'm in pain.

Sorry for calling you. They needed someone of age.

No, no, it's fine...

How are you?

What did he say? How is he doing?

Turn off your camera...

please.

There's almost nothing left to be said.

Rabano, you rat...

what an idiot.

Micha is in pretty bad shape...

nothing seems to work.

It's taking so long for me to die that I'm bringing death to others.

I'm going to haste it.

I won't watch Micha die.

This is a message for Micha,

if it is true that he does understand.

Micha, I'm sorry.

Forgive me.

Goodbye.

Goodbye.

This is the end of this recording.

As you could see, I was telling the truth.

I spent a lot of time telling everyone I was gonna commit suicide

and asking for good reasons not to do it.

And well,

everyone judged me, they told me I was going to go to hell,

that it was for cowards.

But no one, no one asked me not to do it!

My point has been proven.

My presence here is not needed.

That's why I leave.

This is the end of this recording.

The only missing part is the ending.

Just the ending.

I have nothing left to say...

everything's ready now.

Miguel!

Miguel!

Miguel!

Miguel, come!

What happened?

Mom...?

What is it?

Mariano, don't. You know I don't like it.

It's all right.

Don't record me. Turn it off, please.

Mom,

what happened with Micha?

Nothing,

well... he had been very sick for almost a month.

And then?

Well, they gave him a lot of medication,

his doctor checked him up several times.

And what happened?

One day...

night,

he started getting worse

and worse,

he had very high temperature.

He couldn't breathe.

He was choking.

He spoke...

and then, he was alright.

After two hours he was just fine,

like always,

but he spoke,

he said a word.

What did he say?

Which word?

Mariano.

No, say it well.

What did he say?

"Ayano".

He said it many times.

And after that?

Then

his fever went away.

What did the doctor say?

That sometimes,

when a person is not able to speak,

his body tries to speak itself

and it gets sick.

I haven't recorded anything since then.

Since two months ago.

Micha hasn't said anything again.

Just that one word.

Micha is still retarded

but the doctors say that it was a good sign,

and that if he goes to therapy he might say more things.

He's never going to be normal,

but he might improve.

He only needs lots of help.

He said a word

and maybe I can help him say more.

Is there anything that makes life worth living it?

If I really can help him, then yes.

May be I can.

Today is April, the 25th, 1995

and if you're watching this...

it's because I'm helping Micha out.

Micha,

look!

Ayano,

can you hear them?

Yes,

I do hear them.

They don't sound like someone crying, do they?

No.

"MY LAST DAY"