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what preceded

I'm looking for a Willem Arond�us.
He may be able to help me.

Who are you? what good to you?
How can you help me?

It is different. You are distant
and always has to go.

That's just the way it is.
-You are lying. We wouldn't.

Why did you go to church?
What else are you lying about?

I do what you do.
You said yes to Mr. Frank. Me, too.

That's all I can say.
We're not doing enough.

If you have that idea,
you can only do one thing.

We're going to set fire.

based on a true story

events, places and characters
have been created or modified

It was a perfect day.

You looked so beautiful.

You were so excited
that you forgot to say yes.

Oh sorry. Yes Yes Yes.

And you?
-Yes.

You remember me
wedding better than me.

I never had
something so romantic.

You also remember it very differently.
I found it very stressful.

Wasn't it the most
romantic day of your life?

We got married in a government building.
-Yes, you were so beautiful.

And Jan looked so handsome.

I wondered if I ever
would be as in love as you.

Why are you suddenly so sentimental?
What have you done to my Anne?

Miep?
-Yes?

Can you keep a secret?
-Anne, look where we are.

OK, so...

So?
-Yesterday, during the air raid...

Peter asked if I was okay.
That was me, because Pim was here.

But Peter was so nice.
-Are you in love with Peter?

No, I mean... No, no.
We only talked.

He teaches me things about myself
and I do that to him.

But he's just really nice.

You're in love with Peter.
-Stop.

This thing between Anne and Peter
does not work.

It can't hurt right?
Not when I was that age.

Yes, but you didn't live in a maze
of rooms with seven others...

including the boy's parents.

I don't have to tell you
how this could go wrong.

All those feelings have to wait
until after the war.

I do not know
if you can stop them.

No, I don't know if I can.

You must discourage Anne from continuing
to go with the son of Van Pels.

Mrs. Frank, it's...
- Please, Miep.

You have protected us so well.

This situation does not feel safe.

We Dutch people love
everything accurately.

We have the Nazis
given a detailed register...

from whom and where
our Jewish citizens are.

What is the solution?
What do we do about that?

We blow the registry office
and all data.

Jan has already taken a big risk.

As a social worker
he looked at the layout.

Thanks, Jan.
-I already knew the office a bit.

We blow up the building
where i got married.

Very romantic, Jan.
Thanks for that.

With Jan's information I have one
map of the building...

and where most of the documents
Are stored.

Wait a second. Okay, such a big move
leads to reprisals.

The Nazis will strike back.

Those who participate in this
can be hunted and killed.

I say it's no disgrace
if anyone wants to withdraw now.

Okay, then take a look.

All right, we see the courtyard here.
There are pictures of everything.

Thanks for your help.
-Don't mention it.

I've only just started.
-No, you're too valuable for this.

I want to do as much as I can.

You already did
what no one else can.

Thanks to your access, this is possible.
That's more than enough. Thank you.

We're looking at the ground floor.
William, did you...

Hi Cas. Good morning.

I saw Cas today.
-Oh yeah?

How is he doing?
-Don't know.

I hid from him.

Our last conversation wasn't great,
and I don't see my family anymore.

It's easier to fight them
to lie when I don't see them at all.

A bit like you.
-What do you mean?

Since you worked for the resistance,
do you leave in the morning...

and when you get home I have no idea
what you did that day.

Yes?

Sorry, Jan. What time should we
be at the station?

The train to Hilversum leaves at
half past five. We can't be late.

The ladies you want to hide
become restless.

Maybe I'm not sleeping at all.

This is so sudden.
Is this really necessary?

I know it's nerve wracking
but it's the best.

Even Max says we are Amsterdam
have to go out. It's not safe here.

Yes Yes.

Well, I'll see you in the morning.
-Good night.

Good night.

What were we talking about?

Oh yes, we never again
talk about something.

When the war is over
I tell you everything. I promise.

I saw a nice pair of shoes today.
Remember the one I used to have?

The red one with a strap?

How can you forget that?
I wore them on our first date.

And should you hear this.
Anne is in love with Peter.

Mrs Frank wants me to stop that,
but I can't break her heart.

Anne thinks we married hastily
because we were so in love...

that we couldn't wait.

That you don't remember those shoes.

Hello. You found us.
-Yes thank you.

You sleep in the room
from my daughter. It's a small bed.

It's probably fine.
Huge thanks for this.

It's so stressful in Amsterdam.
The raids are getting closer.

We must do what we can.
This time it turns out pretty good.

This is going well. Maybe we could
take the early train back.

Why do you want to leave so badly?
I want to walk along the pond.

No, I have to go back.
-Why?

Just say it. So this is what I meant.

Do you want me to make something up?
-No, just trust me. What is it?

Steal IDs? Money
deliver? Are you hiding another family?

I don't want to wait until after the war.
I want my husband back.

I'm here.

Is it bad that I'm happy...

that Mrs. Stoppelman
moving to the countryside?

We have the apartment
for ourselves.

Maybe I carry
never a bra again.

I support your plan.
Or no clothes at all.

Hey, you're here. I am Kuno.
-Hi, Kuno.

Jan.
-Yes.

Miep.
-Miep, yes.

Thanks for doing this.

No problem.
Thank you, and your mother.

It worked out well.
-Yes.

What exactly?

I have a girlfriend in Amsterdam,
so that would be great.

When do we leave?

Kuno, honey, here it is
haven't dealt with them yet.

Kuno studies here and has settled in
the nests worked with the Nazi party.

I didn't want to swear allegiance.
Sorry but...

Since Kuno is wanted
in Hilversum...

and Mrs Stoppelman not in Amsterdam
can be, we can exchange.

That seemed fair,
and I know you have the space.

Sounds good.

I don't know if Peter cares about me.
He is so often with Margot.

He has little choice.
-She always goes there.

Maybe it should be
and Margot is more his type.

Good heavens, Anne.
I'm just helping him with his math.

Don't eavesdrop on us.

I can not help it.
You talk so loud.

Besides, I don't think so at all
about peter.

If you want something with him,
should you go for that.

Put him both out of your mind.

If only he gave me a sign.
How did you know Jan loved you?

How did he propose to you?
-Yes, how? Tell us everything.

Okay, there was a lot of bullshit at first.

Miep.
-Oh my God.

Okay, again.

After the occupation, the Nazis wanted
get rid of unwanted.

Besides Jews?
-Yes.

And I became unwanted,
because I was an immigrant.

The Nazis let me come over
and withdrew my passport.

I was given three months to explore the country
to leave. I was terrified.

Your father saw me cry
behind my desk...

and forced me to tell what was there.

I have a good job and a good husband.
This is my home and I don't want to leave.

You can't.
I need you here.

And Anne would never do it to me
forgive me if I let you go.

Marry him.
-What?

You said yourself you have a good husband.
Marry the Dutchman.

Jan then worked for a week
one hour south of Amsterdam.

He helped a friend
on the farm with the harvest...

by creating manure
to fertilize the fields.

Is your divorce finalized?
We have to get married soon.

Otherwise I will be deported.

if you love me
let's do this, and fast.

No, wait. Am I doing this wrong?
-No it is...

Don't you want this?
-No, that's not it.

You act weird.
'We'll go to Paris one day, Miep.'

You mentioned children.
-No.

Have you had me all this time
kept on a leash?

I can get much better than you.
-Stop.

I've already divorced her.
-What?

Yes. A month ago.

I wanted to tell you
once I bought the ring.

Then I wanted to ask your father.
-Why?

Then I looked for a place
before the proposal.

In front of the bar where we meet
got to know.

Or on the bridge of our first kiss.

Anywhere on Earth,
except in the middle of this shit field.

If you think you better
you can get, you should.

No, wait. I'm sorry. Guard.

I want you to propose to me.
Ask me to marry you.

No.
-What?

Later than when
and however you want.

But it can't be like me
on the train to Vienna.

Oh God.
-So...

What are you doing?
-Jan...

Oh my God.

First, I really can
get much better than you.

And second, do you want me to
happiest girl in the world...

by marrying me
so I can stay here with you?

Yes.
-No do not do that. Come on, no.

Did you propose to him?

Proof that people
to fall in love...

in the most unacceptable
circumstances.

It wasn't that romantic.
-Yes.

It seems inspiring
and great and perfect.

Serious.

Oh God.
-Oh my God.

Sorry Sorry sorry.

Hey, Jan.
-Hey, Kuno.

I thought I was wrong.
-I am so sorry.

I wanted to die.
-I'm sorry.

I told Kuno that he
Hendrika was allowed to invite.

Okay, next time I'll knock.
-In your own apartment? Why?

Yes why? What do you think?

This was delicious. Real.

Yes thank you.
-Where are you going?

I still have some work to do.

What kind of work do you do?
-Yes, Jan. Tell me.

There's not much to tell.
-No, he doesn't tell me anything.

But it's dangerous. I am always
afraid I'll never see him again.

What is it?
-Is he really not telling you?

Haven't for months, but I'm trying
guess it. I think I get it.

I think he works for the circus,
as a tightrope walker, or maybe a clown.

No.
- You were a social worker, weren't you?

So am I.
Don't listen to this lady.

It's all very boring.

Very boring.
-See you later.

Professor? Mr Brothers?

Hello Jan. You look good.
Are you taking good care of yourself?

Do you still want to claim
that Nietzsche was wrong?

Quiet.
-What is this?

Jan.

These men threw their garbage
in the street, like a bunch of pigs.

I dropped a candy wrapper.
I picked it up.

Continue working.
-I'm out of spit.

Use this, Jew.
-H�.

Jan. Keep going, boy. It's okay.

Keep cleaning.

I have to participate in the operation.
The civil status.

No, I already told you...
-No no.

I understand that I am valuable, okay?
I get it. But it's not enough.

People can here
sacrifice their lives for...

and I don't because of my job? No.

I'm not going to watch anymore.

Jan, I have no doubt that you
would sacrifice your life for this cause.

But for this action people are needed
who want to take a life for it.

And I don't think you have that in you.

That's not bad
but this just doesn't suit you.

'There is a certain right by which we
could take a man's life.'

What does that mean?

It's Nietzsche.
It means 'challenge me'.

I will.

There's a Nazi officer doing the rosters
makes of the raids in the city.

He decides which neighborhoods
be attacked and when.

Every week the acorn visits the same one
prostitute, at the same time...

in a hotel in the Warmoesstraat.
You can set the clock on it.

If you can't, walk away.

That's fine. It's even good.

What is this?
- That son of a bitch killed me.

Was this a test?

We had to make sure you could.
Now we know, and so do you.

He thought you couldn't.
-Don't touch me.

Beer.
- Bastards.

On Holland.

neuts.

How are you?
-I would like to be very drunk.

Well, you've earned it. Cheers.
-Cheers.

I resign. Cas, are you listening?
-Yes.

How are you?
-Good.

Happy wedding day.

Thank you. Thank you very much.
This must have all your butter in it.

Do not worry.
-We should have waited for Jan.

We'll save some for him.
Say we miss him.

Okay, everybody lie down.
-Peter.

Peter, cover your head.
-Peter?

Come quick.

Pim?
-It's all right.

What did I say, honey?
The airstrikes are good.

It means the English
the Nazis on their falie.

They shoot down a plane
right on us.

It's okay.
-Not now, Gusti.

Well?
-Wat are they doing?

They give the Nazis their falie.

Precisely.

Oh my God. I have to go.
It's my wedding day.

Well, on your wedding day.

And on tomorrow night.

You don't have to come tomorrow.
I've already found a replacement.

Martyrdom is sexy, but not bad
smart. You better take care of yourself.

I also do that.

I feel like a coward like me
just steal IDs...

and groceries
take to hidden people...

knowing you
put everything on the line.

Then I love the feeling
that I haven't done enough.

Trust me, even if you go tomorrow
and get out safely...

do you like the feeling
that you haven't done enough.

Oh sorry.
-No, it doesn't matter. It is fine.

Is she sleeping?
-Yes finally.

The last time
when I found you crying...

I said you with your Dutchman
got married, and maybe...

It does not matter. It's fine.

Nice. Then why are you crying?

I thought about the shoes
that I wanted to buy.

Shoes?
-I know. I know.

They are beautiful shoes
and I can't afford them.

And then I thought:
where would i wear them?

And I couldn't think of a world
where I would ever wear them again.

Buy the shoes.
-I shouldn't have brought it up.

You have to. I'm just
spent almost an hour...

to convince Anne
that we'll get through this.

That she has something
to look forward to.

And like a pair of shoes
gives you this feeling...

of hope, and that you have something
to look forward to...

you have to buy them.
Then they are good shoes.

Good night.

Hello? Miep?

Cas.
-We have to talk.

If we still do.

Oh God. Is it about mom and dad?
-No, they're fine. It's alright...

It's about Jan.

I've had Jan for the past few weeks
seen with certain people.

He drank with them in a certain cafe.

A café for homosexuals?
Do you think Jan...

No, it's not just a cafe
for homosexuals.

It is a cafe where resistance fighters
meet each other.

So hence all the secrecy?

That's why you come to us
no longer search?

Because you and Jan
work for the resistance?

Then don't worry
about what Jan is going to do?

What is it?

I do not know.
I thought you knew.

No, he doesn't tell me anything. What is it?

The man I hang out with
works with the resistance people.

He says they are planning something.

They're gonna kill someone
or blow something up. Something big.

When?
-This evening.

Meep, they're pretending
none of them come back.

They drink and toast
like they're going to war.

You have to talk to him.

I found this in your underwear drawer.

Jan, you said it was paperwork.
-Do not worry.

don't talk to me,
and don't lie to me.

I deserve to know.

Look at me. Is it dangerous?

Can you die? Are you dying?

You really want to know?

Yes, it's dangerous.
Maybe I'll die.

No, you can't go.
-What?

Do you love me?
-Are you serious?

If you love me, you don't go.

Honey, you can't say that.
You can't say that.

Miep, I'm a Dutchman,
and my country needs me.

I need you.

Jan, this is my limit. Everyone
has one and this is mine.

Please do not go. It's not possible.
If you love me, you can't go.

Do not go.

I'll see you later.

Miep, I'm so glad to see you.

Pim says that I am no longer with Peter
allowed to speak, because it is inappropriate.

I just happen to want to speak to your father.
-That is not possible. He's grumpy.

He has a headache
by the air raid.

He stays awake because of me
can't sleep, but listen...

Can I have five minutes
get back together?

It all comes from mom.
It doesn't sound like Pam.

Mother does not understand what love is.

Her marriage
is a loveless partnership.

God, Anne, your image of love
isn't real.

It's not the dream you think.
Nobody has that love.

You and Jan do.

We have a marriage of convenience.
So that I may stay in the country.

What you remember
of my wedding is wrong.

It was the scariest day of my life.

I committed fraud that day, Anne.

I married with an invalid passport
and I could have been evicted.

I forgot to say yes
not because I was swooning...

but because I was afraid that man
saw the stamp...

and have me arrested on the spot.

Excuse me. I'm sorry.

Fortunately, Jan coughed
to distract him.

I didn't want to be arrested
just like you.

And to confuse that with love,
that's just stupid.

Do you understand?

Listen, you're growing up. Maybe
you have to deal with this maturely.

Your best and safest option
is to stay away from Peter.

Love only hurts you.

I understand. I will do that.
-Nice.

Miep? Anna, go upstairs.

I need to speak to you.

You had to discourage Anne
something starting with Van Pels.

Not prevent
that she will fall in love someday.

What is?

What's wrong with you and Jan?
- We're having a hard time.

It's bad. It's very bad.

These are difficult times
for every marriage.

And the war makes
everything even more complicated.

No, he's going something very dangerous
do for the war.

I asked him not to go
and he said he would come back...

but he knows that maybe
fails, and he just left.

Yes, I understand.

Ten years ago Otto said to me:
'I have a terrible premonition.

I'll take you and the girls away
from Germany.'

I didn't want to leave, Miep.

If you like my life in Germany
seen, you would want to stay too.

But I looked at him and said:
Okay, let's go.

He brought us here
for our safety.

And I hated him.
I hated Otto for taking it away from me.

Glad you believed him.
-I didn't believe him. I knew him.

I know his heart and he mine.

Even when I hated him
I continued to love him.

Marriages are also maturing.
You have to let that happen.

Anne calls our marriage passionless,
but she knows nothing.

Otto knows how to protect us,
and how I want to raise a daughter...

and exactly how I want my tea.

There's something very romantic about that.
Do not you think?

Anne knows nothing about that at all.

She's brilliant, yes. She's brutal
but she is only 14.

She's only 14.

Mother?
-What?

They're back. It was so close.
-But there's no air raid siren.

What was that?
-That wasn't anti-aircraft fire.

Jan. I have to leave.

That was the resistance.
-But why blow up our own building?

Bep, so the Nazis have no data
get from the Jews.

Oh, the data.

Good morning.
-Did you hear?

The archive building has been bombed
and resistance fighters have been arrested.

I heard it.
-You are late.

We're about to open.
Did you sleep late?

You have to see this,
but don't get angry.

Jan? Is John here?

Look here.
-What? I do not see anything.

Peter kissed me here.

It was uncomfortable, though
he kissed me there with both lips.

I've had my first kiss.

Do you tidy up the groceries?

Hey, when is Jan coming home?
Maybe we can play bridge or...

Don't know.
-Is everything all right?

Can we do something for you?

If you have any plates or mugs
have, bring them here.

Thank you.

Are you OK?
-Yes.

Cas, hi.

Do you know something?
-No. You?

It's been two days.

Then we have to look
to answers. Come on.

I have to go. It's Jan.

It's all right. Just go.
-Please.

She's here.

Hi, we are looking for Jan Gies.

I don't know Jan Gies.

Yes, because I saw you with him.

I don't know Jan Gies.
-Jan is my husband.

I need to know if he's under arrest,
or that he's still alive, or...

I just need to know. Please?

I'm sorry. I don't know Jan Gies.

Come with me.

Nobody says anything here.
They are all too scared.

You keep asking about it
and I can't keep repeating it.

So I'll tell you
what I do know.

We all know
that the official news is worthless.

As you know, it resisted
civil status inflated.

For reasons beyond my comprehension...

the Nazis think friends
are responsible for us.

Some are missing,
some have been arrested.

These are the ones we know about
that they are stuck.

John Brewer.

Cornelius Rose.

Cees Honey.

Rudy Bloemgarten,
sentenced to death.

Karl Gr�ger, sentenced to death.

Willem Arond�us, sentenced to death.

William made a statement
and his lawyer passed it on.

The statement reads as follows.

'Let it be known that homosexuals
not be cowards.'

we will see each other again

I don't know where or when

but i know we
will see each other again

on a sunny day

keep smiling

like you always do

to the blue sky

dispels the dark clouds

we will see each other again

I don't know where or when

but i know we
will see each other again

on a sunny day

On William.
-And in Holland.

What is this?

No idea.
It was already there when I arrived.

It's German. What does it say?

shit field.

Jan.

I thought you were gone. I thought
that I would never see you again.

You didn't go.

You didn't go because of me
and now you hate me.

I love you.

I love you too.

Are you coming home?

It's still dangerous
for you and our friends.

I wasn't there, but as people
talk, they can call my name.

I'm not asking you to stop
but you have to tell me.

If you're in danger,
should I be too.

I'll see you soon.

Is that for me?
-Yes, sit down.

First I want to apologize.
I was wrong about you and Peter.

You can just feel what you feel.

Actually I think I do
was wrong about Peter.

I think he needs me more
than me him.

What?

Nothing, nothing. You grow up.

And you don't wait, so...

That's one of your favorite dresses.

Good, because it's also one of them
my favorite dresses. Yours.

Miep. Wait, really?
-You need clothes that fit.

Is this one for me? Wait, really?

And you need this one.

Are those for me?

I thought I wanted them for myself
but i don't need them. You do.

There's no one downstairs. Try them on.
-Okay�.

They look great on you.
-I think they're fantastic.

Miep, where should I wear these?
-Everywhere.

You wear them to job interviews
and dinner parties.

That's for a girl
that is only just beginning.

You wear them when dancing.
Maybe you kiss a boy.

Maybe the wrong boy
but that doesn't matter.

You will make mistakes, learn from them
and you will continue to grow.

And I can't wait to see it.

Translation: Jasper Vreugdenhil