Original subtitles

["Heroine" by Docker Daniels playing]

♪ Your love is morphine And it's running through my veins ♪

♪ You're my Nirvana And I'm your Kurt Cobain ♪

[Vanessa] Oh my God.

I can't believe you're doing this.

-I could never. My nipples are like… -Don't even talk at me.

-Look at 'em. -[tattoo needle buzzing]

-Look at those nipples. -No.

-You're gonna have to. -I will. When it's happening.

-[technician] Hey, guys. -[both] Hello.

Hello.

I'm ready.

Coming into this experience, I couldn't make a decision

on whether I was ready for marriage with Lexi.

Lexi was upset that Vanessa and I chose each other.

Vanessa has, like, this freeness to her that I don't see in myself.

She's the kind of person that I think goes for things

that make her happy regardless of what the world thinks.

Lexi has a very specific vision of what a marriage looks like.

I'm still undecided.

Is this a vision I want for myself?

I'm still trying to figure out

what's right for me and what's making me happy.

[Vanessa] It's not often I take my top off in front of a man, but here we are.

Rae is nervous for me. I can feel your nervous energy.

-Oh shoot. -She's like, "Holy shit!"

Are you gonna tell me when you…

-[technician] Yeah. -[gasps]

No, I just… I just clamped.

[Vanessa] I'm just scared. I'm realizing I've done this to myself.

-Just breathe. -Okay. I'm okay.

Holy shit.

[Vanessa whimpering]

-[technician] Don't move. -[whimpering]

-You're good. -You're done.

That was insanely painful.

That's my fucking nipple.

-My hand is so sweaty. -I know. It's so sweaty.

You're gonna do the other side?

-Yeah. -[Rae] Do I switch sides?

Holy fucking shit.

Oh my God.

[technician] One, two, three, and…

[Rae laughs]

-That one was quicker. -[Vanessa] Holy shit.

Good job. You're done. You did it.

-Do you want the picture now? -Yes.

I'm gonna take a selfie with my nipples.

Oh, Lexi's gonna love that picture.

That one's for her.

What do you think Xander's gonna think? She hasn't seen you in a while.

This was step one of me redefining

who I am by myself, potentially without Xander.

Shall we continue our night,

do something fun?

And I'm gonna just keep flashing you my titties all night.

-Yeah, let's go. -Yeah?

-Let's go take these nipples out. -Yes.

And then you flash me yours.

[pulsing dance-pop playing]

♪ Round and round we go ♪

♪ I'm fighting for my life ♪

-We're both ones who issued the ultimatum. -Right.

It's been really cool to kind of have a fresh start

with someone who has similar values.

It is a big difference.

I don't want to have to fucking keep telling my partner

to, like, clean up after themselves.

-I don't want that mother-child dynamic. -Right.

You literally, without any kind of stress or anxiety, like, just do it.

I enjoy very much being that support system.

And you're sweet. And not bad to look at.

Like, it's like…

-We have a good time, so I'm like, "Okay." -Yeah.

[Xander] I thought that I had things figured out.

Now I'm just like…

Now I'm not sure where I'm at, and I'm not sure…

I guess, like, how sure I was before.

-It's stressful. -You know?

The past few years with Vanessa stresses me out.

Do I need to reevaluate that I'm gonna be married

to someone that I came here with?

Or, like, the things that I'm seeing in you and that we have,

if that's what I need instead.

You really do want the best for me,

and I think that you vocalized and showed me that, like, right away.

You are special.

["Mad Chemistry" by ENZI playing]

She sips.

♪ I know you want to be with me ♪

-[Xander] Hmm? -[laughs]

♪ Someone else has come between us ♪

♪ I don't really like your girlfriend ♪

[broody, suggestive song continuing]

[Mildred] I don't iron anything.

-Really? You don't iron anything? -No.

[Aussie] I have to do a lot of ironing.

I don't know if I'm lazy or I just don't care.

No. [laughs]

[Mildred] It's been about a week.

I've been living with Aussie, and I feel so extremely, like…

I don't know how to say it. I don't have the words.

But I just felt like 200 pounds just got off my… my back.

Because it feels good.

It feels nice. It feels homey.

It feels like I have a lot of comfort, and with Tiff I didn't have that.

I wanted it so, so much, and then it just happened.

Today was such a good day.

Oh yeah.

I was getting moments of, like, you're making me think about all this.

Marriage and about what we're doing, you know.

I was just like, whoa.

I had that moment too. I was like, "Hey."

"I'm experiencing new things."

[sweet, thoughtful music plays]

I know this is something that for you was maybe a little scary, a little new,

a little… caught you off-guard.

Yeah.

But you're amazing.

-Aww. -Yeah.

That's sweet.

I think, okay, there's potential here for, you know, a long-term commitment.

So that's why it's super important

to, you know, get you to meet my best friend.

-Yeah, I'm excited. -Yeah.

[Mildred] Aussie's so wonderful and very supportive.

So I'm happy that I'm doing this journey with Aussie.

I can't wait for the next two weeks to see how much more fun we're gonna have.

Look at her.

She still hasn't, like, moved. She's just stretched out even more.

Zoey, are you gonna let us lay on the bed?

-Hello. -Not yet.

[Aussie laughing]

Hello.

-She don't care. -No.

[upbeat dance-pop playing]

It's really cool to see, when we were cuddling the first night, that was easy.

Like, grabbing your hand or touching your hair

or something like that.

I know you mentioned with Yoly,

building the friend foundation was important to you.

It's interesting. With you, some of my rules bend a little,

so I guess they weren't rules as much as I thought they were.

I feel like you came in here with the most specific timeline.

Are you worried about what it would mean to get married?

-Could your timeline change? -I think it could be more sure, sooner.

[chuckles] How much sooner?

Like six months? A year?

You helped me realize that we can be engaged,

and we can build the things that we want together.

I don't have to show up, like, everything to take care of you.

-We can do this together. -Yeah.

The timeline… It completely changes how I feel.

I didn't just change your timeline.

-I wrecked your timeline. -You revolutionized my world.

Like, should we leave this thing engaged?

So you think there's a chance that you could leave and we could be engaged?

Sure.

You do have good intuition. You can trust yourself.

I think so.

-I'm starting to understand that more. -Right?

[pop singer] ♪ I'm trying to figure it all ♪

♪ Can we move things… ♪

-[Tiff] Did you get a lot of sleep? -Yes, I did.

I just remember you saying, "I'm going to the dog park."

And then the door closed, and then that's all. [laughs]

[Tiff] Can I be honest with you on the dog situation right now?

[Sam] Yeah.

Well, I slept on the couch with the dog last night.

And… I feel like I'm compromising

by not kind of even putting you in a situation

where you have to deal with my dog on the bed.

You know, with Mildred, she's always been afraid of dogs, her entire life.

And she was like, "Look, I know she's a big part of you."

"Like, that's your baby."

"So I'm gonna figure out a way to make this work."

Yeah. Well, I also think it's different, because I'm not Mildred.

And I think the line is getting blurred.

I've never said, like, "No, the dog cannot do this or that."

-I've never said that. -I know that you never said that.

But I also feel like this is a trial marriage.

Yeah.

And Shylo is non-negotiable.

["Heartlines" by Nicholas Patrick Kingsley and Hannah Hart playing]

♪ Heartlines ♪

♪ Cut through my palm like a sacrifice ♪

[exhales heavily]

♪ You leave your scars Like your own advice ♪

Okay, so I'm put in a tough position too, because that's your non-negotiable.

But then I also have to take care of myself too,

and make sure that I'm not just, like, lying to you

and just bottling things up, saying, "Oh yeah, let's just do it."

And then I'm just, like, suffering.

I see the lack of,

with all due respect, the lack of giving a shit about the dog.

And I don't want anyone to be around my dog that doesn't give a shit.

-I just don't. -Right.

I want someone to be around my dog, who is 12 years old,

to be around someone who cares.

Because, at the end of the day, that's what she deserves.

That's my child. That's what I'm gonna do.

I'm just not meeting your expectations…

Yeah.

…of how you want me to act towards you.

But, like, I am that nurturing, loving person with animals.

I find that very hard to believe.

[bold, sweeping music playing]

I feel like I've been put in a really difficult situation.

And it almost feels like Tiff's dog is a lot more important to them

than any relationship in their life.

And I can't help that she doesn't want to hear what I have to say.

I cannot be the person that you want me to be,

and I cannot feel bad about that.

I'm asking you to act like you care about my dog.

Like, it's not that hard.

I want a heart. What the fuck have I got to do?

I don't care if you have the most gorgeous face,

the most gorgeous body, the most gorgeous personality,

and the most supportive system.

If you don't like my dog, you can get the fuck out.

[pop singer] ♪ Welcome to my bad side ♪

[dance-pop playing]

♪ …love better ♪

♪ Baby, don't be so picky 'Cause there's no… ♪

[Yoly] Oh!

Good morning.

♪ Better love ♪

♪ Better love ♪

It's just so nice.

-You know what I mean? -This?

-Yeah. -I know.

It's flying by.

It really is. Can we request another week?

There's just so much more that I want to do.

[sweetly quirky music playing]

We can have our glasses kiss. Ready?

Oh!

[both laughing]

That is the nerdiest thing.

If our real marriage were anything like the trial marriage, I'd be pretty happy.

I don't love my ex any less.

It's just conflicting,

'cause it's like, "Oh shit. I think I really, really like Xander

and what we have going on too."

-Can you hold these? -Yes.

Chick-a-bow-wow.

Now we're talking.

Ooh, emotional.

[laughs]

Things are so great and so awesome and so seamless.

And I wish we could take us and see how we deal with, like… sex.

-Mm-hmm. -I feel everything else fits seamlessly.

I'm like, "What if that just sucked?"

Well, I mean…

[Yoly] Long sip.

We gotta…

Guess we gotta figure this shit out, so…

I mean, I… I want to.

I think it just is, like, the natural… progression.

[clears throat] I feel like you're looking at me, and I don't…

The eyes are going.

Do we have time to work out?

What kind of workout you trying to do?

-You know the workout, but… -[laughs]

Oh my God, I fell down. Hug me.

Oh, this is a setup.

You are so…

You're not falling for it.

[pop song playing]

♪ Even if you leave me too ♪

♪ I would set you free ♪

Oh my God. I'm so excited to meet your friend.

And you know what? She doesn't know anything.

-She's gonna be like, "Where is Sam?" -"What is happening?" Yeah.

[excited clamoring]

[friend] Hey, beautiful!

[friend] Oh my God!

Mo…

-Hi. -Hi. I'm Mildred. Nice to meet you.

-Nice to meet you. -Please.

[Aussie] So happy you were able to make it.

[Mo] I know.

So what… what is all this?

[uproarious laughter]

Oh my God, your guys' laugh is so contagious.

Aussie, this is like a whole 'nother different side of you.

I know.

-I told you. -You haven't seen shit yet.

Where did Mildred come from?

-That's what I'm still wondering. -Yeah…

-So, I was given the ultimatum by Sam. -Yeah.

She's ready for marriage.

Now we're going through this experience to figure out…

Mildred is more compatible with me.

-Okay. -So now we've moved in.

-Wait, you're living together? -We're living together.

I know. We should get a drink.

[Mo] That'd be so cool if you switch spots

so I could get to know you guys as a couple.

Hold my purse. I'm kidding.

For sure. I'll move this over here.

-Damn, now we're in the hot seat. -[Mo] Yeah.

You sleep in the same bed? Do you do shit too?

-Oh my God. -Oh my God.

Wow, you have a slippery mouth. You know?

I'm just asking.

We have nightmares and snore. What else you want to know?

[server] All right, ladies.

-[Mo] Food. -[server] Escargot.

-So how did she give the ultimatum? -Yeah.

Did you guys have a talk?

-We had a talk. Then somebody-- -It kinda goes like this.

"Are you gonna marry me? Like, are we gonna be together?"

"Is this gonna move forward, or… You're blocking traffic at this point."

That's what I said to my partner.

For lack of a better term, what's your rush?

I don't have a rush.

-I'm a single mom, you know. -Okay.

-I've always been, like, independent. -[Mo] Mm-hmm.

And I'm like, "I want to be with somebody,

and I want to know the person I'm with is the right person."

I… I didn't get it. I was like, "Why this… Why the rush?"

So she's been with Sam for two years, and she didn't want marriage.

We went on three dates. Third date, you were like, "I want marriage."

I was like, I need to change my list.

-Moment of truth-- -I know your ass.

-You do. -You had issues with commitment and shit.

-Yeah. -All of a sudden, you're ready?

What do you think marriage is about?

You're stuck with someone forever, and I'm not my--

Oh!

What? What?

-You said, "Stuck with someone forever." -Yeah. That's my fear.

I have a fear of it.

Being with someone forever, that thought is scary.

What'd you think it would be?

That's why I'm like, "I don't know."

There's a block.

To hear you say that just makes me feel very emotional.

-Sorry, it triggers me. -Go ahead.

Because Aussie said to me on our third date,

"I do want to commit and to be married after this."

It's very confusing, and I'm not understanding why.

[pop singer] ♪ I'm the good kind of a bad girl ♪

♪ Working-in-my-heels kind of bad girl ♪

♪ Blood-sweat-and-tears kind of bad girl ♪

[chuckles]

♪ Not afraid to cry if I have to ♪

♪ I can make you change your mind If I have to ♪

[singer continuing indistinctly]

♪ When I walk in the room Be ready, you know who ♪

[Tiff] So, after we argued,

I noticed that, yeah, we needed time to cool off a little bit.

-Right. Yeah. -Let me ask you something.

Was the way I was communicating with you,

where it got to the point where I was, like, tearing up, raising my voice…

-Yeah. Right. -…did that really hurt you?

I feel like sometimes, like, my past partners, like Aussie,

have so many, like,

wounds and traumas and triggers that they haven't worked through yet.

Yeah.

I don't always get to the point where I get to have the conversation after.

So I really, really want us to have this stuff come up

that we need to work on.

I really appreciate hearing that because

that feels like you're on the same team as me.

-Right. -Despite us disagreeing on something.

I really like that I can already feel that we can move forward.

You see what I'm saying?

We're in control, rather than

our emotions and our pasts and all of that being in control.

During our argument, I was feeling really out of my body.

I was going back into the same old patterns.

In order for me to be a better person, either for Sam, for my ex,

or either for someone new, I have to lean in to love.

I'm just glad that regardless of ups and downs,

that I can have this experience with you.

[pop singer 2] ♪ Stay with me now ♪

♪ Stay with me now ♪

[Rae] Whoa!

[laughing]

My pants are soaked!

This looks like the perfect beach picnic spot.

I am out of breath.

Wow!

You are very, very… pathetic.

[Rae] Such an athlete.

I'm starting to wonder, maybe I don't need someone else's opinion.

Maybe I can just trust myself.

Taking more time to, like, make a decision on my own.

Then come in and have a conversation and be like, "Well, this is where I'm at."

Monogamous relationships feel stagnant to me.

Yeah, for sure.

I have no idea if I'd want another relationship or just a hookup

or if it could be with my partner.

Like, I… I don't fully know.

And I don't know how to appropriately explore that.

Knowing how big this world is,

and knowing how many wonderful humans there are to connect with,

if I limit myself to just connecting with one person,

to that extreme degree of, like, love and marriage

and everythingness,

I wonder if I'm always going to miss out.

It feels a bit selfish for me to say that, so I don't know.

[wry chuckle]

-I do like to face my fears. -Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

[upbeat pop song plays]

I'm gonna get in the water.

-Okay, have fun. -Are you coming with me?

-Thrust your body into the water with me. -Oh shit.

I'll hang out. It's cold.

I'm gonna feel very naked if you're not there with me.

-How did I know you were gonna do this? -How?

♪ You just got to live with no ceilings ♪

[Rae] It's so cold.

♪ Lift the voice inside of you higher ♪

♪ Feel your power ♪

♪ You're just a wildflower ♪

♪ Still growing ♪

-[Rae] All right, fuck it. I'll do it. -For real?

[laughs] Okay.

♪ Let them go right here ♪

♪ Break through it ♪

♪ Every time a piece of you gives up ♪

♪ Lift the voice inside of you higher ♪

♪ Every time a piece of you gives up Lift the voice inside of you higher ♪

[Lexi sighs]

-[Mal] Lexi, you talk in your sleep. -No, I don't.

-I do not. -You do.

-You're lying. -I cannot make this up.

Oh my God. What did I say?

Random stuff.

You also looked very good last night.

-Tight. -I felt very good in that outfit.

I didn't expect different, but I was like,

"Yeah, she definitely understands the assignment."

[giggles]

Um, I'm not always super…

body comfortable.

That's hard for me to talk about. There's this side of me that's…

"Oh, I'm supposed to be here in this moment and be sexy,

and I want you to look at me a certain way."

I personally love your body.

-Mm-hmm. -[Mal] Um…

But I also want to respect you in that and make sure, like, you're comfortable

and move at whatever speed you want to move at.

I can find, like, our intimacy in different moments.

It doesn't have to be this…

traditional narrative that's played

where I'm, like, super chasing you or, like, exoticizing you.

I fell for you off of,

"Could I be with this person when I'm, like, 90 years old

and we both look very different than we once did?"

That's what I was thinking about. It's just, it's a bonus that you're hot.

I'm definitely looking.

Not trying to make you uncomfortable, But I'm definitely, like…

"Damn."

Intimacy is an important part of a marriage.

And it could take our relationship to the next level.

But I think this trial marriage isn't just about, like,

flirting or fun or banter.

It's about being with somebody you could see marrying one day.

♪ There will be no surrender ♪

♪ I got the fire in my eyes ♪

♪ You know I ain't no pretender ♪

♪ This ain't the final goodbye ♪

[swaggering rock-pop song continuing]

♪ There will be no surrender ♪

[song trails off]

-Ah, good morning. -Hey, good morning.

How do you feel?

-Feeling very sleepy today. -Yeah.

I want to tell you how amazing you are.

Stop.

You're like, first thing in the morning getting up and… cleaning and stuff.

I appreciate it.

-I can help out more with that. -I know you're not a morning person.

I know. I like to sleep in.

I wish that you could just communicate more with me with that.

I think our schedules are pretty in sync, apart from you being a morning person.

You like to get up super early and get things going.

That's because I have to make my food, and then I have to get ready for work.

Right.

And then I have to cook again, and then I have to clean, you know.

Then I have to wait for you to come out of the bathroom.

That's a lot.

I'm just doing so much that I'm usually not used to.

Right.

When we went on dates, you said you were gonna cook for me.

-I know. -And we even made a grocery list together.

Yeah. Yeah.

[Mildred] Ever since I met Aussie's friend, Mo,

I notice a different person in Aussie.

The commitment is just, like, not matching.

We share the fridge, we share the bathroom, we share the bedroom,

but we don't share house chores.

I'm excusing Aussie, but then quickly I realize that there's no excuse for you.

We're in this process. We're in a concentrated marriage for 21 days.

Like, this is your moment to shine. Why aren't you doing these things?

Yeah. Uh…

I… I don't know what to say.

I do… I cook at home. I mean, at my own place.

Yeah. Does that mean I have to go to your house?

[tense, delicate music playing]

I've been seeing my friends who have taken me out to dinner.

So I had leftovers. I'm just heating up my leftovers.

So you've been on vacation while I've been starving at home.

Yeah, and I bought a lot of frozen stuff.

I didn't meal plan.

I'll make an effort this week.

You're lucky, 'cause when Tiff cooks I don't help.

For me, marriage is like having sense of security

and feeling safe with the person that you're gonna spend your life with.

-Right. -And I feel like that all just fell down.

I started to feel like I didn't know if I could trust you,

because I have a mindset that you're my partner,

and I didn't understand why my partner would do this to me.

I feel like my whole life I've been let down by everyone that I trust.

Right.

And I don't have a safe space because we don't have a equal partnership.

Yeah.

I'm not good with conflict and… and confrontation.

I want to, like, just disappear.

[nervous chuckle]

Make it right. You know?

-Make it right. -Yeah.

[slow, emotional music playing]

[Vanessa] I feel like a Vegas girl.

Nice. This finger on top. Now press up.

You gotta get the bridge.

You let… You let go of this.

We'll work on it.

All right, shall we?

-Can you do a bridge with your body? -[Rae] No.

[Vanessa] I can do a bridge.

[low, sultry music playing]

♪ Let's find a space ♪

♪ Between you and I ♪

I feel closer to you than I ever have.

Um, I remember when we first, like, locked eyes.

Was that on the pier?

Yeah, I think that was the first…

Now, looking in your eyes,

I think you're beautiful, and I think we have a connection.

[frisky music playing]

[Vanessa] Um…

Should we go to sleep?

I love a good challenge. You're my little onion that I'm peeling.

Oh my God.

I know what you're thinking.

Should we, uh, turn the lights off?

-Oh! -Oh.

I… I've gotta… I've gotta turn off that light.

-I'll get it for you. -I've got to…

-[Rae] Are you not ticklish? -[Vanessa] Yes.

[Rae] A little closer.

[rustling, shifting]

[Rae] Keep doing that. That felt good.

[pop singer] ♪ I can feel it in the air ♪

♪ This world is changing ♪

♪ Something different Than we've ever seen ♪

♪ There's no reason to be scared ♪

♪ Just stand up and face it ♪

♪ Close your eyes It's more than make-believe ♪

♪ It's just the beginning ♪

[Yoly moans]

[furtive moaning]

♪ Where dark turns to light ♪

♪ We're gonna light up the beginning ♪

♪ Who do you dream about ♪

♪ When you're asleep ♪

♪ Where do you go ♪

♪ Where do you go ♪

♪ Like a bird in a golden cage ♪

♪ I wait for you ♪

[sweet, lively music playing]

Last night felt very adult.

Like triple-X adult.

[laughs]

You, like, giving yourself, you know, to me,

like, it feels, like, really special, and…

[tender music playing]

I don't know. It… It means a lot to me.

Does it change your feelings about me? Are you like…

It's almost like I had already done it so many times in my mind.

You know what I mean? So, like, it…

I almost, like, knew how great it was gonna be.

[low, flirtatious music plays]

I guess, like, waking up, what was your first thought this morning?

[chuckles] That I wanted it again.

-Was it a bad thing? -No.

♪ Oh lord, I never learned my lesson ♪

♪ Oh well, only good girls go to heaven ♪

♪ Do what I wanna do, and often ♪

♪ Non-stop because it's not my problem ♪

I didn't think I would find myself in a position where I care about you

in the way that I do,

and genuinely, like, have feelings for you.

And now…

It's complicated.

-More than complicated. -Mm-hmm.

♪ Oh no, I got a new obsession ♪

♪ I guess I'll add to my collection ♪

♪ No, I don't ask for much ♪

♪ I just want everything ♪

I would offer you this meal, but it's the worst meal I've ever made.

I burnt the cauliflower and…

[fork clinks]

How are you?

Unwell.

I kind of wanted us to talk about what happened last night.

[Vanessa] I had a lot of fun last night.

I believe I fingered you.

And then, that was it, right?

Obviously, we know what happened. How are you feeling about it?

It was like a slice of freedom after we were in jail for a long time.

Just in that sense was euphoric, I think.

[Rae] Um…

I, like, texted with Lexi and called her.

She obviously wasn't happy.

She's gonna try to figure out what her life is like without me.

Like, I fucking hurt her.

[dramatic music building]

[voice breaking] And to hear her say that we might not have a fucking future

is fucking hard to hear.

She's just going on about how, like… how she has to tell her family and friends

that I did this.

And, like, she was like, her grandpa loves me.

I don't know why. I don't know why anyone likes me.

She's like, "I don't know how to tell him you did that."

I'm like, "Yeah, I get it."

Did you remind her how hot and irresistible I am?

It's interesting because my last time I talked to Lexi,

like, that last date, she was talking about

how we are supposed to be in this experience.

How we need to commit to it.

I'm just like, "Well, you fucking committed."

This is your ex. You're fine. You're in this new trial marriage.

It's like when Amish people go on "Rothspringer" or something.

And they're like, "We're free for six months."

Then they can decide whether they want to go back to Amish life or not.

-Mm-hmm. -I feel like this is that.

We should just have a threesome, honestly.

-At this point. -Oh my God.

[Rae] Too far.

-I just feel like shit. -Yeah?

You come into this process, right? And, like, you give each other the room.

You give each other the space to explore everything this is.

I didn't ask her to tell me she wasn't gonna sleep with Vanessa. I didn't.

I tried to tell her to just be careful.

Yeah.

The person Vanessa is, I don't think she's here for the right reasons.

The person who I thought loved me came here and then slept with that person.

It feels like a betrayal.

[Lexi weeps]

[voice breaking] But I'm, like, sick to my stomach about it.

[breathing shakily]

What happened here, like, was not love.

This was not love.

Why would I ever want to, like, marry someone like that?

It sucks.

It sucks.

Selfishly, I'm annoyed 'cause now it affects my process.

But, like, we're here.

You're this really smart, really beautiful girl,

who makes really good decisions all the time, who is super caring.

The list goes on.

You're not as lost as you think you are. I know this sucks, but you're good.

You're good. You're okay.

We're gonna ride this wave together.

[Lexi] I'm so appreciative to have you here.

To show up and love someone, to show up and care about someone.

I love you.

[sweeping, distraught music playing]

I'm so excited that I get to go out,

and I get to dress up and have fun and see everybody.

[Aussie] Mm-hmm.

I'm interested to see how Sam is surviving over there with Tiff.

[chuckles]

I'm sure Sam is gonna vent to me

and tell me that she can't get Tiff to shut up.

Oh, absolutely.

You don't need the bathroom?

Not just yet. I'm ironing my shirts.

Okay. But do you need it, like…

I might need it at the end.

Yeah, but what does "the end" mean? How much time about?

-I need maybe 15 minutes before we leave? -Okay, of me out of the restroom?

-Yeah. -Okay.

Let me know when you need to pee so I could get out.

Then, when you're not peeing, I need to finish getting my hair and makeup done.

That's… That's fine.

[Mildred] Okay, cool. How come we never communicate like this?

-This is cool. -[Aussie] We've been doing it, mate.

I would always say, "Hey, the door's open."

"I showered. It's all yours. If you need to come in, knock on the door."

-Yeah, we just did it one time, Aussie. -Okay, I wasn't keeping track.

I really don't care, mate. Whatever you need.

You still have to be considerate of other people.

Yeah, I'm 100% considerate of other people.

I feel like you say shit on camera to make me look bad, mate.

It's something that's been bothering me.

Oh yeah?

[sighs]

[suspenseful music playing]

What have I said that makes you look bad?

I don't really want to talk about it right now.

I do want to talk about it because you just accused me.

You can't accuse somebody and run away.

I don't want to talk about it.

Then you should have never said anything.

Shit…

I don't know who you dated before

that stayed quiet and you had the last talk,

but you messed with the wrong person.

Oh.

I've been nothing but fucking nice to you.

Wow.

I've been there for you, and you have been

nothing but disrespectful and inconsiderate with me.

[exhales] Man.

You avoid any conversation I try to have with you on and off camera.

That's not true.

I was avoiding this right now

because I'm not in a place to talk to you when you're like this.

I have never done this to you. I've been nothing but nice to you.

Don't say that you can't talk to me when I'm like this.

You had two weeks to talk to me when I was calm.

-Well, I need to… I need to-- -But now I'm not calm.

Now you don't want to talk to me?

[suspenseful music intensifies]

I don't want to go ahead with this conversation

'cause it's not gonna be constructive for neither of us.

It's all yours.

Thank you.

I feel like I haven't seen you guys in so long. It's only been two weeks.

[Mal] Okay. We're all sitting here.

We're all obviously dating each other's exes, right? Or married.

-So we can talk about the things. -Yeah…

I think whether we wanted it or not, we're all learning things about ourselves,

our partners, our relationships, and what we want.

And don't want.

[Rae] And don't want.

You have secrets? I want to know.

Give me something your trial marriage partner does

that bothers… Like, not bothers. Like, you didn't expect.

Girl.

[Rae] Oh my God.

My partner poured ramen down our bathroom sink, so…

-[Mildred] Wait. Ramen down…? -[Mal] What?!

-So then what happened? -[Rae] That was it.

[Xander] That's all you got?

Give us something else.

Why… Why is it me? I gave. I gave.

Give me some shit about Yoly.

Um…

I…

You don't have to be scared. Run her tea.

No, I'm just trying to… I feel like…

When I, like, walked in, I was like,

"Why are there all these wine corks and water bottles everywhere?"

-Marge plays with the water bottles. -She plays with them.

I was just like, "What's going on? Why's there so much shit?

-[Rae] Marge is the dog. -Yeah, Margaux's a little dog.

That's it? Talking about them about the noodles…

[Sam] You're talking about the dog. No.

You didn't even say anything about Yoly. You just said about the dog.

That's not… You're not getting a pass.

But if you don't have anything, that's okay.

But I kinda feel like you might.

And I feel like you're scared to say something.

-Wait, about Yoly? -[Mal] Yeah.

Are you kidding me?

With all of Yoly's quirks and all her little sass

and her, like, smart-ass mouth.

Like, spill the tea, sis.

You're hiding something or, you know, lying.

All right.

You know what I'm working with.

Aussie doesn't want to talk.

She's, like, not communicating, and I've tried so many ways.

Well, it is harder to communicate with people who are avoidant,

and Aussie is very much so avoidant.

How do you communicate with her if you know that?

Um, by not talking about it when Aussie's in a triggered state.

And when is Aussie not in a triggered state?

[Sam] Ah.

Aussie will usually have to go and, like, listen to meditations.

Then that's when you can have the conversation.

When does the moment come when you actually talk?

When is Aussie fully meditated?

And… And that might sound very harsh to some people.

A lot of times, it's just feeling it out. Aussie's friends are very important.

-Aussie will also listen to them, so-- -No. She's 42 years old.

She needs to step it up and communicate with her partner.

That's what she needs to do, and I think that she needs

to not have someone that's gonna hold her hand.

Well, the interesting thing is Tiff and I have been practicing

a lot of really good communication.

There's a lot of yelling and arguing?

It was like that in the first week.

Then it started getting easier after that because I vocalized certain things.

And we actually kind of dug deep a little bit. So, yeah…

-[Mildred] Damn. -Wow.

Kind of jealous.

[laughs]

If I'm learning anything in this process,

it is how I have to be able to lean in to love.

I have to be able to show up better to the table

when love and marriage is on the line.

[Vanessa] So, two ultimatum givers, three ultimatum receivers.

[Tiff] If you're a receiver and someone is a giver--

-[Vanessa] Are you talking about sex? -Trying to get a little deeper, all right?

I got my nipples pierced.

I…

That's horrible.

I have been living with an ultimatum receiver,

um, who I have convinced of marriage.

I still believe in marriage.

[Yoly] Being with somebody who issued the ultimatum as well,

and both of us having the same "hell yeah" energy,

it's been really affirming, and it's effortless.

It's drama-free, beautiful.

And it's a wonder that Xander hasn't been, like, picked up yet.

She's so phenomenal and so wonderful…

-I know. -…and so great.

Do you? You've been saying that you don't want to marry her.

I know the value she brings to your life. She brings it to my life.

What value are you bringing to her life?

-I'm trying to figure out. -You don't know.

That's what I want to work on.

Four years, you don't know what value you're bringing to Xander's life?

I've never had to think about that before.

Before Xander, my ex-boyfriend loved the shit out of me.

He would have married me.

I've just been so blessed with these people who don't ask much of me.

What is with the bullshit?

I am surprised that Xander dated somebody like Vanessa for four years.

When Vanessa talks, I feel sorry for her

because it just sounds like she's just trying to grapple with

how to not make herself look like a bad person, and that's a lot to juggle.

I want to know where you stand on that.

I don't know where the fuck you stand.

I don't know, Yoly. I don't know.

I think that we all have been given the opportunity to be physical, and…

Let's talk about it. How do we feel about that?

[mysterious music playing]

I think we should drink more for that.

-Will you get a drink with me? -[Mal] Yes.

Be back. You good?

I'm good, thank you. Appreciate it.

[tense staccato music playing]

I can't believe Mildred did that.

I don't think she knows yet, so it's not my story to tell.

Also, you know, I apologize to you because--

Apologize for what?

For, like, interfering. I feel like I've…

I will tell you that I would've never told Yoly that I did something.

I accept your apology, but I want you to forgive yourself.

Work on your own shit.

-Okay. -Decide what it is that you want to do.

Figure it out.

[Rae] I don't know what to do.

-I can't answer that for you. -I know.

So we go back? When we head back, they won't have the question anymore.

Okay, good.

Okay, let's go.

[mysterious music plays]

[Mal] Excuse me, friends.

You guys are walking into a very deep conversation, just warning.

Sorry, didn't mean to distract.

I don't know. I was just like, thanking Mildred for defending me as a choice.

Thank you for saying that, but my question is,

everyone's there rooting for you, and you're there defending Vanessa

and she's basically telling you to fuck off.

[somber music playing]

[Xander] I didn't want to say anything that was gonna hurt anyone, which I…

I don't know what Lexi was talking about. If anyone has clarity on that…

Lexi experienced something with Vanessa that… that super triggered her.

That's what that whole confrontation was about… was like,

"I don't understand why you're here. I don't get it."

-But how and why? -[Mal] I don't know.

-I know, I'm not trying to… -No.

-Emotions are going… -I'd tell you if I knew.

I don't want to speak for her. I don't know…

I wasn't there. I just know what my trial wife told me.

I think the overarching thing is that

she doesn't understand the intentions of Vanessa.

She doesn't understand the intentions. To be honest, I don't either.

Why is Vanessa here?

I'm not here to keep talking about Vanessa.

Saying you're not here to talk about Vanessa,

that is you excusing her and dismissing her behavior.

Own up to the fact that's the person you came with.

[Xander] I don't feel her feelings. I'm not her.

I am a whole different-ass person than her.

But I do think that we should give… we should believe Mal.

-I'm not excusing her. -Sorry to corner you, but do you believe--

But I will say that I am not trying to talk about my ex for this entire party.

[intense, dramatic music plays]

Excuse me.

[Vanessa] Love Rae.

I think I chose the best trial marriage partner I could.

We both came in this as receivers.

We're talking about marriage

and what that means to us, and if we want that.

I would say she's my literal best friend right now.

She's beautiful, duh.

We're just… We're really getting along and we're trying to keep things

as, I dunno, natural as they can and taking things slow.

Yeah, which is, like, not what happened.

Seems like the exact opposite.

[intense music playing]

Is there a reason why you fucked Rae?

I didn't fuck Rae.

I'm sorry. Rae fucked you.

-No. No, it's… -And there was penetration.

-What's the funny part? -It's not funny at all.

I recognize that you don't like me

and you're trying to find every way not to. I'm trying--

That's not it at all.

Hey, please, can we try to see how we can overcome it?

All we have is now, guys.

I know. I'm happy to be here with most of you.

-Yeah. -Most of you.

[Vanessa] I'm surprised she told you.

Then maybe your frustration is that Rae told you.

My frustration is with all of it.

I knew, coming into this,

that Rae was gonna trust the people around her.

We had a date that I think was very clarifying

as to who I think you are in this process, and what I think you're here for.

You went into a situation with Rae.

You made it very clear to me on all of our dates

that she was your safe option.

You're taking a person who genuinely has the purest of hearts,

who you had sex with.

Like, why do that?

-I'm… She's beautiful, like I've said-- -[Lexi] That's not what I'm asking.

Are you sexually, romantically attracted to Rae?

No.

Okay, so then, this is not about Rae, and you're not into her.

Wait. Wait, Lexi.

You've said, "I'm not attracted to Rae romantically."

"I don't want to be sexually attracted to her."

You end up being inside of the person I came here with and that I love.

You have zero feelings for them, zero care about them.

That's not true.

You just said.

You said you have no romantic, sexual, physical feelings for this person.

But friend feelings.

-But you don't fuck… -[Yoly] Friends.

You don't fuck friends like that.

[Tiff] Aussie, I'm sorry. I love you, but I wouldn't fuck you.

I love you all. I'm not falling into y'all's vagina.

I love Yoly more than everyone here. I'm not falling into her vagina tomorrow.

And you're hotter than shit.

I'm just a little curious. Rae kissed you or you kissed Rae?

Out of respect--

You probably don't like this, but I don't remember.

Convenient.

It's not convenient. It's just true.

We got into bed--

Then she saw the lingerie on you when you got ready?

Did I have lingerie on?

Yeah, you did.

-Yeah, you did, Vanessa. -Wait, sorry--

I'm trying to understand at what point it stopped being intentional

and started being coincidental.

[Vanessa] It wasn't.

-Was that an accident that it happened? -Yes.

You ever accidentally had your fingers inside of somebody else?

Not by accident.

Never have I ever.

I should choose my words better. I should have responded,

"No, it wasn't an accident."

She told me that you penetrated her. That's not an accident.

It wasn't an accident. No.

All I'm trying to say here, Vanessa,

is you ended up with your fingers inside the person I came here with.

Okay, this makes me sound really bad, Lexi.

-[Lexi] Did she penetrate you? -She led my hand to her vagina.

-I never wanted to fucking say… -Great.

-That is what happened. -You were like, "All right, in I go."

Yes, and I said, all right.

Lexi, I think you need to have this conversation with Rae.

[Lexi] It is a conversation I need to have with Rae.

Can I be totally candid with you?

-Yeah… -Fuck the sex.

I don't give a shit about the sex.

Genuinely, I don't care.

You could have been inside her six nights a week.

At the end of the day, whether I walk out of here single, with Rae,

or with Mal…

Okay.

…my problem is with the person Rae let inside of her.

I think, talk to her about that.

I have to understand why she trusted you enough to let you fuck her.

[sweeping, dramatic music playing]

[Xander] You're looking at my lips. You wanna kiss them?

I'm worried about your ex putting her claws into you.

I love you.

I missed you.

Do you love Yoly?

You all came here talking about getting married.

[Aussie] I don't want resentment. I don't want drama.

Just trying to get the fuck out of here.

Will you leave here engaged to the person you came here with?

Will you leave here with the person you spent the last three weeks with?

Or will you leave here single?

-[Yoly] When do I look? -[Xander] Now.

[delighted laughter]

-Ah! What did you do? -I just used a finger.

I'm waiting.

[pulse-pounding music playing]

I feel like you were trying to stir the pot for me.

You have every right to feel how you want.

She's fucking with our life, and I don't like it.

You wanted me to self-discover. You wanted me to figure out what I wanted…

I wanted you to find out if that was me.

I'm a Latina, and everybody speaks over everybody.

Being respectful has no race, Mildred.

You can't have us both.

You're literally taking the choice away from me.

I'm not. What do you want from me?

I don't want to be here alone.

[Aussie] I cannot have my partner dismiss how I feel too.

[Yoly] My heart and my mind are in two different places.

While I'm very certain what it'd look like with either one of the people I love…

I just don't know what the fuck I'm gonna do.

♪ I'm breaking all the rules ♪

♪ I'm playing it so cool ♪

♪ I'm playing it so cool, baby ♪

♪ I'm breaking all the rules ♪

♪ I'm playing it so cool ♪

♪ I'm playing it so cool, baby ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm never gonna ever stop ♪

♪ I'm always gonna shake it up ♪

♪ Always gonna shake it up ♪

[song trails off]