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[children chattering, laughing]
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[cheerful music]
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* *
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- Hello!
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Hey, children.
How's it going?
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I understand maybe
it's somebody's birthday.
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Now, when I say happiness to
you guys, what comes to mind?
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I've been
all over planet Earth
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searching for the secrets
to happiness.
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Here's some--
- Guinea pigs.
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- Here's--guinea pigs?
What else makes you happy?
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What makes you happy?
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- Also guinea pigs.
- Also guinea pigs, OK.
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I'm getting a theme going here.
What else?
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But maybe it's much simpler
than I'm making it out to be.
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For inspiration, I've turned
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to a particularly
unfiltered bunch.
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Ice cream and robots?
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OK, what else?
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- Like, something--like,
something like a bird caucus.
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- Like a bird caucus?
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- Yeah!
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- I think a bird caucus
sounds really interesting.
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I'm not sure what that is.
- [laughing]
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- I always say that!
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- [laughs]
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- Oh, that made you happy!
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Oh, my God, this is gonna
be the greatest party ever.
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Go!
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Bird caucus?
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Bird caucus.
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Yeah.
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Eureka!
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Bird caucus.
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[Nicky Blitz' "Blast Off"]
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- * Getting too close,
better pull on back *
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- What if I travel the world,
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exploring what makes some
places happier than others?
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- * Need a one-two... *
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- I'm looking at the ways
that where we are...
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- * Yeah, I'm a-comin',
I'm a-comin' *
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- Affect who we are.
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- * Whoo, I'm a-comin' *
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* I'm a-comin', yeah... *
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- It's been said that
the search for happiness
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is the chief source
of unhappiness.
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- * I'm a-comin',
I'm a-comin'... *
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- Well, that's OK.
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I'm already unhappy,
so I've got nothing to lose.
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- * Let's go *
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* Let's all blast off *
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[soft music]
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* *
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- And just like that,
I'm home.
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Now that I'm back,
I'm shocked at how easily
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I've fallen
into my same habits...
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[sighs]
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My exact same routines.
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But this time, I'm brandishing
a world's worth
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of happiness insight,
and I'm eager
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to see how it all translates
to life as I knew it.
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[upbeat jazz music]
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* *
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Excuse me.
Coming through.
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Thanks.
Hey, hey.
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OK.
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* *
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I moved to LA
from New York in 1999.
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My wife, Holiday, and I
packed up a Chevy cargo van
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in pursuit
of the Hollywood dream--
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a dilapidated apartment
in Koreatown
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that smelled like cat piss.
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[horns honking]
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[upbeat music]
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- It's really stressful
living in a city
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where it's kind of
overpopulated and there's,
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like, noise pollution
all the time.
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- People move here, generally,
with a lot of expectation.
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- I think all of us,
as transplants,
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we come here to find our happy.
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And we quickly learn
that it is a hustle.
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- In LA, paradise comes
with its own unique pressures.
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When every day
is 75 and sunny,
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life screams at you,
"Be happy, damn it!"
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High five, high five.
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Yet the Los Angeles
2020 Commission report
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estimated that 40%
of Angelenos are miserable.
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- It can sometimes be
a little bit depressing
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to find out that
it's not exactly how
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it's portrayed in the movies.
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- Life will knock you down
no matter where you live,
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but especially here.
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* *
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- Oh, I'm turning too much.
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But thanks to my travels, I'm
seeing LA's untapped potential
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for the first time.
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I'm also seeing
my own untapped potential.
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So how can I find happiness
in my own backyard?
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- Hey, look.
Rainn's pretending to barbecue.
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[laughter]
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- Are you barbecuing?
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- I am, for you.
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Hey.
How's it going?
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- Do you know how to use it?
- Barely, barely.
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* *
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Meet Justin Baldoni
and Jamey Heath.
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You might recognize Justin
from his role
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as Rafael on the series
"Jane the Virgin."
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And Jamey is a well-known
music and film producer.
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Together, they cohost
the "Man Enough" podcast.
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- We have a very
special guest today,
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my dear friend,
Mr. Rainn Wilson.
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- And as two
of my closest friends,
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they know me better
than most anyone.
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- When did you get back?
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- I got back three days ago
from Thailand.
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- It's definitely
not ready to flip.
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- I know, I know.
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- Honestly, let Justin do it.
It's not ready to flip.
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- You're so controlling.
- No, but you're flipping.
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- Really, you want to take it?
- Yeah, please.
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- OK, go ahead, go ahead.
- Let me do it.
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I mean, if we want it
to be edible, you know.
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- [laughs]
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- Did you find
some happiness there?
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- Honestly, this was the most
incredible trip of my life.
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- Notice how he asked us
to meet here in LA.
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- Real friends would have said,
meet us in Thailand.
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- You didn't get
the invitation?
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I invited you to bathe
elephants with me in Thailand.
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- Absolutely not.
- You didn't get that?
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I didn't want to take
my shirt off next to you.
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These look done.
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That is perfectly done.
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- Yours would have not
looked anything like that.
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- I made an excellent choice
handing over the spatula.
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- No, that wasn't your choice.
That was actually my idea.
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- Has Holiday noticed a change?
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When you came back,
did she say you were happier?
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- Uh, it's been three days.
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Give me a break.
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No, no change yet.
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But the journey
is not yet complete.
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- So you go down
to Thailand, Iceland,
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places that have
a lot of culture,
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or at least culture
compared to here.
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Now you're back here in LA.
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- In a cultureless void
of Los Angeles.
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- Like, what do you do?
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How do you go, like,
bathe an elephant
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or do an Icelandic thing
in water--
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like, what do you
do here in LA?
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- I don't know.
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We haven't figured
that out yet.
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- Go to the zoo?
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- More importantly
for you guys,
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Jamey,
you've lived here for how long?
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- My life.
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- And you've been here
20 years at least.
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- I was born here.
So yeah, most of my life.
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- So in the most materialistic,
status-obsessed place
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in the country,
one of the unhappiest places
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in the United States--
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even though there is a pretty
high standard of living--
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what's your take on LA
and finding happiness in LA?
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- I think LA sells you
on the American dream, right?
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This idea of, if you just
do this or accomplish this,
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then you will be happy.
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- Mm-hmm.
- Right?
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If you get enough followers
on Instagram or TikTok,
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or if enough people
watch this show--
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only to find that
the more you get,
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the less happy you are
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and the farther
you are from it.
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- I think you do
experience happiness,
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but you obviously admit
that you struggle with it.
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- Mm-hmm.
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- And I'm surprised,
because it's all
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right there in front of you.
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It's right here.
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- All the ingredients
are there.
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- But isn't that one
of the hardest parts about it,
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is that you know
it's right there--
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- Yeah.
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- And it feels like
it's just out of reach.
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- It's funny you say that.
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Because every place I went,
I was kind of like,
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I could be happy here.
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- Which, when you're
traveling the world,
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you're also going
to some places that don't have
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the same level
of intersection of capitalism,
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and materialism, and status,
and all of these things.
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So the question is, like,
how do you take what you
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learned traveling the world--
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- Mm-hmm.
- And go apply it to this?
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* *
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- This is why it's important
to invite friends over
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to cook meals for you--
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perspective.
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I've only ever experienced
one version of Los Angeles,
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the version where fame
and fortune are said
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to be the very height
of what any of us can achieve.
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But I want an altogether
different LA experience.
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I mean, there must be
some happy people
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living here, right?
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So let's find them.
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Thanks for coming over.
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Justin, thank you
for cooking us lunch today.
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- Thanks for having me over
to cook you lunch.
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- Could I have some
teriyaki chicken for dinner?
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- [laughs]
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[birds chirping]
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[upbeat music]
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* *
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- Hola.
- Hola.
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- Tres tacos, por favor.
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Chatting with Justin and Jamey
makes me wonder
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how I can apply everything
I learned on the road
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to life back home.
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This journey's been
about stepping outside
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my comfort zone,
yet there's so much
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I don't know
about my own hometown.
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It's like we're all
too busy sitting in line
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at In-N-Out Burger to learn
even the basic history
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of this place.
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Los Angeles was founded
by the Spanish in 1781,
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who claimed it
from its original inhabitants,
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the Chumash
and Tongva peoples.
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In 1821, Mexico achieved
independence from Spain,
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and soon after, America
waged its war with Mexico,
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taking California as its own.
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There were gold rushers,
oil barons,
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20,000 Chinese immigrants
building a railway,
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and the birth
of a movie industry.
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* *
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Today, nearly 10 million
people live here,
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but this is a remarkably
disconnected place.
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Yet I learned on my travels
that even in a place
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as troubled as Bulgaria,
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there was happiness
to be found.
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* *
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So I'm heading
to Covina to meet
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a woman responsible
for more hyperenergetic joy
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than anyone
in Southern California.
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Hello, hello.
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Oh, my gosh, fantastic.
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Hopefully, she'll have
insight into what I've
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missed out on around here.
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[gasps]
Oh, my gosh.
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A chicky-chick.
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Oh, my gosh.
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This is amazing.
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Shrooms.
Hello?
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[knocks]
Yesenia?
255
00:10:52,277 --> 00:10:54,988
- Hello, yes!
- Hi, how are you?
256
00:10:55,030 --> 00:10:56,448
- Welcome.
- Rainn.
257
00:10:56,489 --> 00:10:57,907
So nice to meet you.
258
00:10:57,949 --> 00:10:59,993
- What's up, Rainn?
- What's happening here?
259
00:11:00,035 --> 00:11:03,038
- Oh, so that's actually
gonna be a piece.
260
00:11:03,079 --> 00:11:05,415
It's like an alter ego of me.
261
00:11:05,457 --> 00:11:07,083
- You're gonna make that up
to look like you?
262
00:11:07,125 --> 00:11:08,376
- Yeah.
- But is it a piñata?
263
00:11:08,418 --> 00:11:10,086
Are people gonna
be beating on it?
264
00:11:10,128 --> 00:11:11,921
- You know, eventually.
265
00:11:11,963 --> 00:11:13,214
Eventually.
266
00:11:13,256 --> 00:11:16,009
You know,
nothing lasts forever.
267
00:11:16,051 --> 00:11:18,428
- The owner of
this papier-mached wonderland
268
00:11:18,470 --> 00:11:20,555
is Yesenia Prieto.
269
00:11:20,597 --> 00:11:23,224
She's a third-generation
piñata maker
270
00:11:23,266 --> 00:11:25,727
from South Central who can
create pretty much anything
271
00:11:25,769 --> 00:11:29,439
you've ever dreamed
of smashing in a blind rage.
272
00:11:29,481 --> 00:11:35,111
But first and foremost,
she's an artisan of joy.
273
00:11:35,153 --> 00:11:37,447
Great.
What, um--what do we do?
274
00:11:37,489 --> 00:11:41,117
- We're gonna be making
our little burrito piñata.
275
00:11:41,159 --> 00:11:43,244
- OK, as in burrito,
276
00:11:43,286 --> 00:11:46,122
not like a burrito,
but like a mini burro.
277
00:11:46,164 --> 00:11:47,665
- Yes.
- Donkey, OK, great.
278
00:11:47,707 --> 00:11:49,209
- A little donkey.
279
00:11:50,543 --> 00:11:52,671
- You know what would be fun?
Glass piñatas.
280
00:11:52,712 --> 00:11:54,714
I'm just spitballing here.
- No, I like that.
281
00:11:54,756 --> 00:11:55,965
[laughter]
282
00:11:56,007 --> 00:11:58,301
OK, we're gonna turn it
upside down.
283
00:11:58,343 --> 00:12:00,887
- I'm gonna add
stapling to my resume.
284
00:12:00,929 --> 00:12:03,056
- Yeah, it gets pretty gnarly.
285
00:12:03,098 --> 00:12:05,100
It's not easy work, honestly.
286
00:12:05,141 --> 00:12:08,603
But I'm really happy to see,
like, our culture honestly
287
00:12:08,645 --> 00:12:10,855
transcending from--
not just Mexican,
288
00:12:10,897 --> 00:12:12,482
but to every other culture
right now.
289
00:12:12,524 --> 00:12:14,651
Because this is such
a beautiful gift, you know?
290
00:12:14,693 --> 00:12:18,697
You got two really prominent
things that happen.
291
00:12:18,738 --> 00:12:21,408
There's the birthday cake,
and then there's the piñata.
292
00:12:21,449 --> 00:12:22,325
- Mm-hmm.
293
00:12:22,367 --> 00:12:24,202
- And in both of these moments,
294
00:12:24,244 --> 00:12:28,289
everyone stops for a second.
295
00:12:28,331 --> 00:12:32,002
And they all, like,
focus on, like,
296
00:12:32,043 --> 00:12:35,255
each other,
the moment, the love.
297
00:12:35,296 --> 00:12:37,007
It's like you're stopping time.
298
00:12:37,048 --> 00:12:39,551
- It's like a shared joy.
- Yes!
299
00:12:39,592 --> 00:12:43,430
* *
300
00:12:43,471 --> 00:12:45,849
- You are a third-generation
piñata maker?
301
00:12:45,890 --> 00:12:47,851
- Yeah.
My family came from Mexico.
302
00:12:47,892 --> 00:12:49,894
And they were
really positive and very,
303
00:12:49,936 --> 00:12:52,647
like, the American dream, and,
like, we're gonna make it.
304
00:12:52,689 --> 00:12:56,526
So my great-uncle opened up
a party store, and he was like,
305
00:12:56,568 --> 00:12:58,653
"Let's make piñatas, and
they're gonna be beautiful."
306
00:12:58,695 --> 00:13:02,115
And then my grandma
and my other grandfather
307
00:13:02,157 --> 00:13:04,117
got involved,
and then my tia got involved,
308
00:13:04,159 --> 00:13:05,660
and then my cousins
got involved.
309
00:13:05,702 --> 00:13:08,830
I did understand that there
is value in art, you know?
310
00:13:08,872 --> 00:13:10,290
- Mm-hmm.
311
00:13:10,331 --> 00:13:11,875
- It's like, if people
only knew what we could do,
312
00:13:11,916 --> 00:13:13,376
if people could only see.
313
00:13:13,418 --> 00:13:15,962
The mission was to,
like, help my family
314
00:13:16,004 --> 00:13:18,423
by reintroducing it
as an art form.
315
00:13:18,465 --> 00:13:20,216
- Like, for me,
I think piñata--
316
00:13:20,258 --> 00:13:21,718
forgive me--
but what I think is,
317
00:13:21,760 --> 00:13:24,387
like, go to the party store
and get a SpongeBob.
318
00:13:24,429 --> 00:13:27,057
And I hadn't thought
of piñatas as an art form
319
00:13:27,098 --> 00:13:29,184
on a whole other kind of level.
320
00:13:29,225 --> 00:13:31,811
- There's been so much
blood, sweat, and tears,
321
00:13:31,853 --> 00:13:33,355
you know,
in creating these things.
322
00:13:33,396 --> 00:13:36,149
And it has been
because, you know,
323
00:13:36,191 --> 00:13:37,567
we want to see the art.
324
00:13:37,609 --> 00:13:38,777
We want to feel proud.
325
00:13:38,818 --> 00:13:40,987
We want to push the caliber,
even if it means
326
00:13:41,029 --> 00:13:42,530
that we're not
gonna be making the money.
327
00:13:42,572 --> 00:13:45,033
- When I started as an actor,
and I went to theater school
328
00:13:45,075 --> 00:13:47,077
in New York,
none of us thought we
329
00:13:47,118 --> 00:13:48,244
were gonna make any money.
330
00:13:48,286 --> 00:13:49,913
I mean, I wanted
to be able to pay my rent.
331
00:13:49,954 --> 00:13:51,873
We wanted to explode
people's minds
332
00:13:51,915 --> 00:13:55,335
and have them see the world in
new ways and create new forms.
333
00:13:55,377 --> 00:13:57,128
- That's
because you're artists.
334
00:13:57,170 --> 00:13:58,463
- Somewhere in there...
- Yes.
335
00:13:58,505 --> 00:14:00,173
- Is an artist...
- Yes, you are.
336
00:14:00,215 --> 00:14:02,884
- Struggling to get out.
- No, yeah.
337
00:14:02,926 --> 00:14:04,135
OK.
338
00:14:04,177 --> 00:14:06,763
So you got some scissors
right next to you.
339
00:14:06,805 --> 00:14:08,139
- OK.
340
00:14:08,181 --> 00:14:09,432
- We're going to make
piñata fringe, or--
341
00:14:09,474 --> 00:14:10,642
- Piñata fringe.
342
00:14:10,684 --> 00:14:11,851
- Are you left-handed handed
or right-handed?
343
00:14:11,893 --> 00:14:13,144
- Right.
I hate left-handed people.
344
00:14:13,186 --> 00:14:15,980
- What?
Oh, I didn't hear--
345
00:14:16,022 --> 00:14:18,191
- Oh, no.
- [sighs]
346
00:14:18,233 --> 00:14:20,026
She won't be on season two.
347
00:14:20,068 --> 00:14:21,820
Watch.
348
00:14:21,861 --> 00:14:24,114
* *
349
00:14:24,155 --> 00:14:26,366
I really admire
what you're doing
350
00:14:26,408 --> 00:14:28,076
because you're finding
all this stuff in LA, right?
351
00:14:28,118 --> 00:14:31,246
Community, meaning,
purpose, connection.
352
00:14:31,287 --> 00:14:33,915
- Do you feel like you haven't
gotten to experience,
353
00:14:33,957 --> 00:14:37,502
like, sincere depth here in LA?
354
00:14:37,544 --> 00:14:40,755
- It's been a struggle to find
community and connection.
355
00:14:40,797 --> 00:14:42,799
- You can, like,
speak to people,
356
00:14:42,841 --> 00:14:45,552
and people will listen to you,
and I think that's a gift.
357
00:14:45,593 --> 00:14:46,928
- Mm.
358
00:14:46,970 --> 00:14:48,013
- Sometimes,
it's all grassroots.
359
00:14:48,054 --> 00:14:49,139
If you can't find
the community,
360
00:14:49,180 --> 00:14:50,598
then you make the community.
361
00:14:50,640 --> 00:14:52,225
- Mm, mm-hmm, mm-hmm.
362
00:14:52,267 --> 00:14:53,852
- So that's kind of what
we've been trying to do.
363
00:14:53,893 --> 00:14:55,228
- I love that.
364
00:14:55,270 --> 00:14:56,813
If you can't find a community,
make a community.
365
00:14:56,855 --> 00:14:58,231
- Yeah.
366
00:14:58,273 --> 00:15:00,483
- You're a very
wise piñata maker.
367
00:15:00,525 --> 00:15:03,403
- [laughs]
368
00:15:03,445 --> 00:15:05,405
- I'm finding
that an appreciation
369
00:15:05,447 --> 00:15:09,659
of our own individual gifts
is essential to happiness.
370
00:15:09,701 --> 00:15:11,244
- Oh, yes. Ultimate test.
371
00:15:11,286 --> 00:15:12,787
Can you make a circle?
372
00:15:12,829 --> 00:15:14,497
[laughs]
373
00:15:14,539 --> 00:15:16,583
- I think a lot of us
are guilty of not
374
00:15:16,624 --> 00:15:19,669
giving ourselves enough credit
for our contributions.
375
00:15:19,711 --> 00:15:22,213
I mean, if someone comes home
after a crappy day,
376
00:15:22,255 --> 00:15:24,507
throws on "The Office,"
and Dwight Schrute
377
00:15:24,549 --> 00:15:26,384
makes them laugh
for half an hour,
378
00:15:26,426 --> 00:15:28,011
I need to cherish that.
379
00:15:28,053 --> 00:15:30,263
- Oh, my God.
- Look what we did.
380
00:15:30,305 --> 00:15:32,599
- He's so cute.
381
00:15:32,640 --> 00:15:35,560
- Using our talents to make
other people's lives better,
382
00:15:35,602 --> 00:15:38,897
whether that's through acting,
being good with numbers,
383
00:15:38,938 --> 00:15:41,649
being a dependable friend,
384
00:15:41,691 --> 00:15:44,486
or making
papier-mache donkeys,
385
00:15:44,527 --> 00:15:46,529
it's all worth celebrating.
386
00:15:46,571 --> 00:15:49,741
- Can I take part of the horse
after it's bashed?
387
00:15:49,783 --> 00:15:50,992
I'm playing hospital,
388
00:15:51,034 --> 00:15:52,285
and I really need it
for the hospital.
389
00:15:52,327 --> 00:15:53,828
- You can.
- Yes!
390
00:15:53,870 --> 00:15:55,830
I'm going to transplant you
with that horse.
391
00:15:55,872 --> 00:15:57,582
- You're gonna give me
a face transplant?
392
00:15:57,624 --> 00:15:59,793
- [laughs]
393
00:15:59,834 --> 00:16:02,587
- Yay, cupcakes!
394
00:16:05,924 --> 00:16:07,425
- You are?
395
00:16:07,467 --> 00:16:09,010
If it brings you joy,
I'm willing to make
396
00:16:09,052 --> 00:16:10,970
that sacrifice--ah!
397
00:16:11,012 --> 00:16:12,430
[children laughing]
398
00:16:12,472 --> 00:16:15,684
Here we go, doing the piñata.
399
00:16:19,896 --> 00:16:21,606
- All right.
400
00:16:21,648 --> 00:16:23,566
You know what's inside of here?
401
00:16:23,608 --> 00:16:25,443
Guinea pigs!
402
00:16:27,696 --> 00:16:29,072
Oh!
Yeah!
403
00:16:29,114 --> 00:16:30,240
Yeah!
404
00:16:30,281 --> 00:16:31,783
Ow, that's my knuckles!
405
00:16:31,825 --> 00:16:33,243
Wow!
406
00:16:33,284 --> 00:16:35,453
Oh, man,
where did this come from?
407
00:16:35,495 --> 00:16:38,456
Oh, my gosh,
it's Barry Bonds over here.
408
00:16:38,498 --> 00:16:42,585
Will someone get that girl
on a softball team ASAP?
409
00:16:42,627 --> 00:16:45,672
- I can't wait for
the guinea pigs to come out.
410
00:16:45,714 --> 00:16:46,756
- Enough of this!
411
00:16:46,798 --> 00:16:51,094
[yelling]
412
00:16:51,136 --> 00:16:54,639
[children screaming, laughing]
413
00:16:55,765 --> 00:16:57,017
Yesenia was right.
414
00:16:57,058 --> 00:16:58,810
For these tiny partygoers,
415
00:16:58,852 --> 00:17:01,146
the piñata represents
endless promise.
416
00:17:01,187 --> 00:17:02,605
- I have a telescope!
417
00:17:02,647 --> 00:17:05,984
- It could contain anything,
even guinea pigs.
418
00:17:06,026 --> 00:17:09,070
It's all a matter of how you
choose to look at things.
419
00:17:09,112 --> 00:17:10,780
And as I learned in Ghana,
420
00:17:10,822 --> 00:17:13,366
one of the world's most
optimistic countries,
421
00:17:13,408 --> 00:17:16,828
positivity is both powerful
and contagious.
422
00:17:16,870 --> 00:17:20,665
Lessons from the road
revealing themselves at home.
423
00:17:20,707 --> 00:17:24,961
Now, who wanted to attach
the horse's head to my face?
424
00:17:25,003 --> 00:17:27,255
- You do not want to be awake
while this happens.
425
00:17:27,297 --> 00:17:28,798
Sleep mask.
426
00:17:28,840 --> 00:17:30,467
- I don't want to be awake
while this happens?
427
00:17:30,508 --> 00:17:31,968
- Just go to sleep.
428
00:17:32,010 --> 00:17:33,678
- [snores]
429
00:17:35,805 --> 00:17:37,223
- There you go.
430
00:17:37,265 --> 00:17:38,933
- [neighs]
431
00:17:42,520 --> 00:17:44,856
- That was a horse's butt
on my face?
432
00:17:46,024 --> 00:17:47,192
Thank you.
433
00:17:50,487 --> 00:17:53,198
[upbeat music]
434
00:17:53,239 --> 00:17:55,283
- Uh-huh.
435
00:17:55,325 --> 00:17:57,911
I thought that was Thursday.
436
00:17:57,952 --> 00:17:59,079
Ow.
437
00:17:59,120 --> 00:18:00,830
I'll call you back.
438
00:18:00,872 --> 00:18:03,917
More than any people on Earth,
Americans have the inclination
439
00:18:03,958 --> 00:18:07,045
to chase things we expect
to bring us happiness,
440
00:18:07,087 --> 00:18:10,840
and then we're confused
as hell when they don't.
441
00:18:10,882 --> 00:18:14,094
Perhaps nowhere is this more
apparent than in Los Angeles.
442
00:18:14,135 --> 00:18:18,932
And that soul-crushing
disappointment
443
00:18:18,973 --> 00:18:22,060
is probably why so many
of us are in therapy.
444
00:18:22,102 --> 00:18:24,437
Man, I'm looking
forward to this.
445
00:18:24,479 --> 00:18:27,107
- Oh, boy.
It's been a long time.
446
00:18:27,148 --> 00:18:28,483
- After weeks on the road,
447
00:18:28,525 --> 00:18:29,984
I'm eager
to gauge my progress.
448
00:18:30,026 --> 00:18:32,612
And what better way to reflect
on my personal growth
449
00:18:32,654 --> 00:18:34,447
than with a therapy session
of my own?
450
00:18:34,489 --> 00:18:36,116
- Oh, yeah.
451
00:18:36,157 --> 00:18:40,870
- But my sessions look
a little different than most.
452
00:18:40,912 --> 00:18:42,789
I forgot how pesky
you were over there.
453
00:18:42,831 --> 00:18:44,499
- [laughs]
454
00:18:44,541 --> 00:18:46,459
- I can't get a ball past you.
I forgot about that.
455
00:18:46,501 --> 00:18:49,254
- I've gotten worse.
456
00:18:49,295 --> 00:18:50,839
- [grunts]
457
00:18:52,173 --> 00:18:54,134
- So you're trying real hard.
458
00:18:54,175 --> 00:18:56,928
- Well, I'm thinking,
like, am I feeling a zone?
459
00:18:56,970 --> 00:18:58,179
Am I not feeling my zone?
460
00:18:58,221 --> 00:19:00,265
And I'm trying to hit
the ball over the net.
461
00:19:00,306 --> 00:19:02,809
- Does Rainn know
how to do nothing?
462
00:19:02,851 --> 00:19:05,186
- I don't know
how to do nothing.
463
00:19:05,228 --> 00:19:07,147
- Try less.
464
00:19:07,188 --> 00:19:09,858
- This is Zach Kleinman.
465
00:19:09,899 --> 00:19:11,693
- Go easy.
466
00:19:13,361 --> 00:19:14,863
- [grunts]
467
00:19:16,322 --> 00:19:18,575
- Hit the ball with happiness.
468
00:19:18,616 --> 00:19:21,494
- He's basically like
if Yoda wore sneakers...
469
00:19:21,536 --> 00:19:24,164
[upbeat rock music]
470
00:19:24,205 --> 00:19:27,542
And had a fierce aversion
to the LA sun.
471
00:19:27,584 --> 00:19:30,128
* *
472
00:19:30,170 --> 00:19:31,338
- Wow.
473
00:19:31,379 --> 00:19:32,630
Can we wipe it?
474
00:19:32,672 --> 00:19:35,342
Can we wipe your nose a little?
475
00:19:35,383 --> 00:19:38,762
- He combines tennis
instruction and talk therapy
476
00:19:38,803 --> 00:19:41,181
to guide people
through life's difficulties,
477
00:19:41,222 --> 00:19:43,558
one serve at a time.
478
00:19:43,600 --> 00:19:45,685
I realize that having
a spiritual guru
479
00:19:45,727 --> 00:19:47,145
who also teaches me tennis
480
00:19:47,187 --> 00:19:49,856
might scream
out-of-touch celebrity,
481
00:19:49,898 --> 00:19:52,359
but hey, live
in Los Angeles long enough,
482
00:19:52,400 --> 00:19:55,820
and you just sort gravitate
to doing some weird shit.
483
00:19:57,072 --> 00:19:58,740
- So what's not sticking?
484
00:19:58,782 --> 00:20:03,578
What's the most distracting
piece from your happiness?
485
00:20:03,620 --> 00:20:06,706
- All I know is, like,
an entire day will go by,
486
00:20:06,748 --> 00:20:08,667
and I've been in my office,
487
00:20:08,708 --> 00:20:11,753
not appreciating
the beauty around me,
488
00:20:11,795 --> 00:20:16,508
stuck in texts,
emails, work, deadlines.
489
00:20:16,549 --> 00:20:19,010
And at the end of the day,
I feel drained.
490
00:20:19,052 --> 00:20:20,679
- When does it get quiet?
491
00:20:20,720 --> 00:20:22,555
- I do meditation
in the morning.
492
00:20:22,597 --> 00:20:25,475
- That's 20 minutes.
When does it get quiet?
493
00:20:25,517 --> 00:20:27,394
- Playing tennis
helps make it quiet.
494
00:20:27,435 --> 00:20:29,688
It forces you
to be in the moment.
495
00:20:29,729 --> 00:20:30,980
It forces you to--
- Right.
496
00:20:31,022 --> 00:20:33,900
But there's no force
for those other 24 hours.
497
00:20:33,942 --> 00:20:34,943
- I know.
498
00:20:34,984 --> 00:20:36,611
- Where is that force
inside you?
499
00:20:36,653 --> 00:20:39,531
I'd like you
to find that force.
500
00:20:39,572 --> 00:20:41,199
Get the hell back there.
501
00:20:41,241 --> 00:20:42,701
- Oh, OK.
502
00:20:42,742 --> 00:20:45,120
[upbeat music]
503
00:20:45,161 --> 00:20:47,080
- Trying too hard.
504
00:20:47,122 --> 00:20:48,873
High expectations.
505
00:20:48,915 --> 00:20:50,500
- [groans]
- Where'd you go?
506
00:20:50,542 --> 00:20:52,419
- Shopping list, emails.
507
00:20:52,460 --> 00:20:54,170
- Definitely not this shot.
508
00:20:54,212 --> 00:20:56,464
- Trying to hit the cameraman.
509
00:20:58,842 --> 00:20:59,968
Oh!
510
00:21:00,010 --> 00:21:01,177
- You all right?
511
00:21:01,219 --> 00:21:04,305
* *
512
00:21:04,347 --> 00:21:06,057
That easier?
- That felt good.
513
00:21:06,099 --> 00:21:07,767
- As a tennis player,
we know we've got
514
00:21:07,809 --> 00:21:10,854
24 seconds to turn it around.
515
00:21:10,895 --> 00:21:13,106
I've got 24 seconds
to get over this.
516
00:21:13,148 --> 00:21:14,315
Next point.
517
00:21:14,357 --> 00:21:16,067
- Letting it go and moving on.
518
00:21:16,109 --> 00:21:18,570
- No, dealing with it
and moving on.
519
00:21:18,611 --> 00:21:21,072
I'm sure that many other
people on your journey
520
00:21:21,114 --> 00:21:23,366
shared something
like that with you.
521
00:21:23,408 --> 00:21:24,576
- Mm-hmm.
522
00:21:24,617 --> 00:21:25,910
- But you're
somewhat forgetting it
523
00:21:25,952 --> 00:21:27,829
now that there
are more distractions.
524
00:21:27,871 --> 00:21:33,376
- Well, and I have 50-some
years of bad habits, patterns.
525
00:21:33,418 --> 00:21:34,919
- That they couldn't fix?
526
00:21:34,961 --> 00:21:37,672
- I couldn't get fixed
in a couple months.
527
00:21:42,260 --> 00:21:44,387
I guess part of what I'm--
528
00:21:44,429 --> 00:21:47,891
part of what I've been dealing
with the last year or two is,
529
00:21:47,932 --> 00:21:50,643
you know,
my father passing away.
530
00:21:50,685 --> 00:21:53,772
He was old,
God bless him, but--
531
00:21:53,813 --> 00:21:56,149
uh, not as old as you.
532
00:21:56,191 --> 00:21:57,484
- No one is.
533
00:21:57,525 --> 00:21:58,985
- I did a lot of grieving.
534
00:21:59,027 --> 00:22:01,946
And then at the same time,
am I doing enough grieving?
535
00:22:01,988 --> 00:22:04,032
Is this how you--
I don't know how to grieve.
536
00:22:04,074 --> 00:22:06,242
No one taught me how to grieve.
537
00:22:06,284 --> 00:22:09,454
How long are you supposed
to be sad over a dead parent?
538
00:22:09,496 --> 00:22:10,872
Like, I don't know.
539
00:22:10,914 --> 00:22:12,832
Is there more grief
in there that's stuck in me?
540
00:22:12,874 --> 00:22:15,001
Sometimes,
I feel like there is.
541
00:22:16,503 --> 00:22:17,921
Oh, did you see that?
542
00:22:17,962 --> 00:22:20,632
- You actually had some
focus on your grief--
543
00:22:20,674 --> 00:22:21,841
- Uh-huh.
544
00:22:21,883 --> 00:22:24,636
- For your father,
who raised you.
545
00:22:24,678 --> 00:22:27,389
- Yeah.
546
00:22:27,430 --> 00:22:29,641
Oh, that was good.
547
00:22:29,683 --> 00:22:33,853
Why, when I get
in touch with emotion,
548
00:22:33,895 --> 00:22:38,316
am I hitting the ball
so much more cleanly
549
00:22:38,358 --> 00:22:40,026
and with so much more focus?
550
00:22:40,068 --> 00:22:42,487
- That may be part
of the problem,
551
00:22:42,529 --> 00:22:44,698
is you're trying to understand.
552
00:22:44,739 --> 00:22:47,992
Happiness is an experience,
not a concept
553
00:22:48,034 --> 00:22:50,995
that you keep searching for.
554
00:22:52,747 --> 00:22:54,207
- Before this journey,
555
00:22:54,249 --> 00:22:56,334
I'd hear these fortune cookie
sayings like,
556
00:22:56,376 --> 00:22:59,295
you don't chase happiness,
you experience it,
557
00:22:59,337 --> 00:23:03,299
and they'd make sense
to me intuitively.
558
00:23:03,341 --> 00:23:05,051
But like any proverb,
559
00:23:05,093 --> 00:23:08,430
they're more easily recited
than achieved.
560
00:23:08,471 --> 00:23:10,890
Yet in this moment,
speaking with Zach
561
00:23:10,932 --> 00:23:13,476
about my father's death,
I get it.
562
00:23:13,518 --> 00:23:16,521
These aren't some
bullshit words of wisdom.
563
00:23:16,563 --> 00:23:18,565
They're universal truths.
564
00:23:18,606 --> 00:23:21,067
And maybe, just maybe,
565
00:23:21,109 --> 00:23:24,779
this journey
has changed me after all.
566
00:23:27,574 --> 00:23:28,908
Experience that!
567
00:23:28,950 --> 00:23:30,952
- [laughs]
- Mother[bleep].
568
00:23:34,789 --> 00:23:36,624
- Hi.
569
00:23:36,666 --> 00:23:38,001
- Steve Carell.
570
00:23:38,043 --> 00:23:40,378
- Thank you.
- Yeah, Steve Carell.
571
00:23:41,880 --> 00:23:46,301
[rousing big band music]
572
00:23:46,343 --> 00:23:47,969
It's among
the most common reasons
573
00:23:48,011 --> 00:23:50,430
that folks flock
to Los Angeles,
574
00:23:50,472 --> 00:23:52,849
to become famous.
575
00:23:52,891 --> 00:23:57,395
And for some, fame is more
valuable than money itself.
576
00:24:02,567 --> 00:24:04,027
- Um...
577
00:24:04,069 --> 00:24:06,696
- 10 million followers,
just because I feel like
578
00:24:06,738 --> 00:24:08,239
I can do a lot with that.
579
00:24:08,281 --> 00:24:09,699
- I know you can
make way more money
580
00:24:09,741 --> 00:24:11,368
with all those followers.
581
00:24:11,409 --> 00:24:14,204
But I'm, like--I'm too lazy,
and I'm not good at it.
582
00:24:14,245 --> 00:24:16,581
- [exhales sharply]
That's really tough.
583
00:24:16,623 --> 00:24:17,749
- Oh, a million dollars.
584
00:24:17,791 --> 00:24:19,376
- I would take
a million dollars.
585
00:24:19,417 --> 00:24:20,960
- How do--
what am I famous for?
586
00:24:21,002 --> 00:24:23,463
What are the 10 million
followers following me for?
587
00:24:23,505 --> 00:24:25,048
Because if they're just
following me for me,
588
00:24:25,090 --> 00:24:26,383
that's weird--
I don't really want that.
589
00:24:26,424 --> 00:24:28,259
- $1 million for sure.
590
00:24:28,301 --> 00:24:30,929
I'm pretty content with
my little bubble of friends,
591
00:24:30,970 --> 00:24:32,180
and a million dollars
would be pretty cool.
592
00:24:32,222 --> 00:24:33,348
I'd take a million dollars.
593
00:24:33,390 --> 00:24:35,058
- But if they're
following me because they,
594
00:24:35,100 --> 00:24:36,810
like, like to watch
me fingerboard,
595
00:24:36,851 --> 00:24:38,311
or they like to,
you know, they--
596
00:24:38,353 --> 00:24:40,689
I make it
comedically somehow
597
00:24:40,730 --> 00:24:42,232
or something, then yeah, sure.
598
00:24:42,273 --> 00:24:45,151
I'll take the followers
for sure.
599
00:24:45,193 --> 00:24:47,821
- California is the social
media capital of the world,
600
00:24:47,862 --> 00:24:52,200
with an estimated 200,000
influencers living here--
601
00:24:52,242 --> 00:24:54,744
most of them in Los Angeles.
602
00:24:54,786 --> 00:24:56,579
Oh, ho.
603
00:24:56,621 --> 00:24:58,665
- Hello.
- No way.
604
00:24:58,707 --> 00:25:01,543
You guys, thanks for having
me over and schooling me
605
00:25:01,584 --> 00:25:03,086
in the ways of social media.
606
00:25:03,128 --> 00:25:04,587
I'm really lame at it.
607
00:25:04,629 --> 00:25:07,132
- OK, well, we're gonna see
what we can work with, so...
608
00:25:07,173 --> 00:25:09,009
- Can we compare nails
just real quick,
609
00:25:09,050 --> 00:25:10,427
before we get started?
610
00:25:10,468 --> 00:25:11,761
Just--
611
00:25:11,803 --> 00:25:14,180
My notoriety
as Dwight Schrute granted me
612
00:25:14,222 --> 00:25:18,143
joys and frustrations I
never could have anticipated.
613
00:25:18,184 --> 00:25:21,271
But I'm curious to understand
the allure of fame
614
00:25:21,312 --> 00:25:24,983
in today's Los Angeles,
where TikTok and Instagram
615
00:25:25,025 --> 00:25:27,027
can change
a person's life overnight,
616
00:25:27,068 --> 00:25:29,279
for better or for worse.
617
00:25:29,320 --> 00:25:33,616
So I'm here with Rave,
Kiera, and Aaron,
618
00:25:33,658 --> 00:25:36,995
members of a TikTok collective
called Vault House.
619
00:25:37,037 --> 00:25:40,707
They spend their days dreaming
up the next viral sensation,
620
00:25:40,749 --> 00:25:43,501
and they've invited me over
to raise the average age
621
00:25:43,543 --> 00:25:47,505
in their house
by like four decades.
622
00:25:47,547 --> 00:25:50,133
OK, so we've got
a dry erase board here.
623
00:25:50,175 --> 00:25:51,468
Let's get started.
- OK.
624
00:25:51,509 --> 00:25:54,095
- Let's talk character arcs,
OK?
625
00:25:54,137 --> 00:25:57,932
- OK.
- We want to break story.
626
00:25:57,974 --> 00:26:01,853
We want to take a series arc,
you know.
627
00:26:01,895 --> 00:26:05,815
Where are we from where we
begin to where we end up, OK?
628
00:26:05,857 --> 00:26:08,026
So is this what
you guys do with--
629
00:26:08,068 --> 00:26:10,236
- Pretty much, just, like,
on our phones, but yeah.
630
00:26:10,278 --> 00:26:11,821
- I mean, this one's a little
more professional than normal.
631
00:26:11,863 --> 00:26:12,822
But yeah.
- Yeah.
632
00:26:12,864 --> 00:26:13,990
- OK, all right.
633
00:26:14,032 --> 00:26:15,492
What are you doing
on your phone
634
00:26:15,533 --> 00:26:17,952
when you're researching
for your writer's room?
635
00:26:17,994 --> 00:26:19,954
- Definitely looking
for trending videos.
636
00:26:19,996 --> 00:26:21,373
- Or sometimes,
it's just a trending audio.
637
00:26:21,414 --> 00:26:23,166
Like, just a sound,
or some music,
638
00:26:23,208 --> 00:26:25,043
or something like that
that works,
639
00:26:25,085 --> 00:26:26,461
and then you just do
your own kind of thing to it.
640
00:26:26,503 --> 00:26:28,171
- So what do you want
to do today?
641
00:26:28,213 --> 00:26:29,839
Let's brainstorm.
Let's figure it out.
642
00:26:29,881 --> 00:26:31,299
What's trending?
- Show him.
643
00:26:31,341 --> 00:26:32,676
- Who's the meanest?
- This is also us.
644
00:26:32,717 --> 00:26:33,843
- Friend group.
- Yeah.
645
00:26:33,885 --> 00:26:35,011
You're gonna be
in our friend group.
646
00:26:35,053 --> 00:26:36,179
- Most likely
to get into a fight?
647
00:26:36,221 --> 00:26:38,473
- That audio exists
out there somewhere.
648
00:26:38,515 --> 00:26:40,809
- Yes.
- We're just going to--
649
00:26:40,850 --> 00:26:42,060
- Redo it.
650
00:26:42,102 --> 00:26:44,688
- But why does
something go viral?
651
00:26:44,729 --> 00:26:46,564
What makes it trend?
652
00:26:46,606 --> 00:26:49,859
- Some people go viral
for being just blatantly hot.
653
00:26:49,901 --> 00:26:52,404
Like, and some people go viral
for an actual talent,
654
00:26:52,445 --> 00:26:53,363
like singing, or--
655
00:26:53,405 --> 00:26:54,864
anything could really pop off.
656
00:26:54,906 --> 00:26:56,533
That's what's so great about
TikTok is that you can have
657
00:26:56,574 --> 00:26:59,035
any form of creativity,
and we all have a chance
658
00:26:59,077 --> 00:27:00,870
of, like, making it happen.
659
00:27:00,912 --> 00:27:02,205
- That's great.
660
00:27:02,247 --> 00:27:03,998
So we've got a bunch
of things right now.
661
00:27:04,040 --> 00:27:06,710
And one other one
I need your help with...
662
00:27:06,751 --> 00:27:07,794
- OK.
663
00:27:07,836 --> 00:27:09,170
- Is figuring out how to make
664
00:27:09,212 --> 00:27:12,799
the bassoon
go viral on TikTok.
665
00:27:12,841 --> 00:27:14,300
- We'll try.
both: We'll try.
666
00:27:14,342 --> 00:27:15,719
- Let's do it.
- Oh, yeah, OK.
667
00:27:15,760 --> 00:27:17,679
- Come on, team.
- Yes, sir.
668
00:27:17,721 --> 00:27:19,472
- Come on.
- [laughs]
669
00:27:19,514 --> 00:27:21,433
- Let's Tok it up.
- [laughs]
670
00:27:21,474 --> 00:27:22,726
- Whoo!
671
00:27:22,767 --> 00:27:24,060
Yeah, good.
All right.
672
00:27:24,102 --> 00:27:26,104
- Who's the meanest?
673
00:27:27,313 --> 00:27:29,983
Most likely to do
weird things in public?
674
00:27:30,025 --> 00:27:31,484
Most likely to break
someone's heart?
675
00:27:31,526 --> 00:27:33,361
- This reminds me
of my early days in improv.
676
00:27:33,403 --> 00:27:34,446
[laughter]
677
00:27:34,487 --> 00:27:36,239
I mean,
if this technology existed
678
00:27:36,281 --> 00:27:37,741
when I was trying to make it,
679
00:27:37,782 --> 00:27:40,035
I would have been
doing the exact same thing,
680
00:27:40,076 --> 00:27:42,662
performing skits,
goofy dances.
681
00:27:42,704 --> 00:27:44,831
- Most likely
to become a porn star?
682
00:27:44,873 --> 00:27:46,082
- Yeah--
683
00:27:46,124 --> 00:27:48,084
- Whatever it took
to get noticed.
684
00:27:48,126 --> 00:27:50,503
- Perfect.
[laughter]
685
00:27:50,545 --> 00:27:53,089
- You all are
really brilliant technicians.
686
00:27:53,131 --> 00:27:55,800
Like, I think people
maybe have the idea
687
00:27:55,842 --> 00:27:58,261
that it doesn't take
any kind of skill or talent,
688
00:27:58,303 --> 00:28:00,847
but there's some--
and you're improvising, right?
689
00:28:00,889 --> 00:28:02,098
- Yeah.
690
00:28:02,140 --> 00:28:03,808
- You're being creative.
- Yeah.
691
00:28:03,850 --> 00:28:05,602
- Yeah.
- Is this the dream?
692
00:28:05,643 --> 00:28:07,103
Do you feel like
you're living the dream?
693
00:28:07,145 --> 00:28:08,480
Because that's what a lot
of people think.
694
00:28:08,521 --> 00:28:12,359
Like, oh, going to LA
to pursue fame and fortune.
695
00:28:12,400 --> 00:28:14,277
- Mm-hmm.
- Are you happy here?
696
00:28:14,319 --> 00:28:15,653
- Yes.
- Yeah.
697
00:28:15,695 --> 00:28:17,113
- I'm happy.
- Very.
698
00:28:17,155 --> 00:28:20,116
- I love your spirit
and inventiveness.
699
00:28:20,158 --> 00:28:22,535
But we do have this uptick
700
00:28:22,577 --> 00:28:25,538
in mental health crisis
with young people.
701
00:28:25,580 --> 00:28:26,623
- Mm-hmm.
702
00:28:26,664 --> 00:28:28,208
- What's your take
on that connection
703
00:28:28,249 --> 00:28:31,252
with social media and
young people's mental health,
704
00:28:31,294 --> 00:28:33,963
body image, body dysmorphia,
705
00:28:34,005 --> 00:28:36,341
the pressures of beauty culture
706
00:28:36,383 --> 00:28:38,593
that the three
of you are presenting?
707
00:28:38,635 --> 00:28:40,804
- Um, I think there
are a lot of cons,
708
00:28:40,845 --> 00:28:42,764
but I think there's still
a lot of pros to social media.
709
00:28:42,806 --> 00:28:44,474
Like, a lot of connections
that can be made
710
00:28:44,516 --> 00:28:46,476
that you would never be able
to make otherwise
711
00:28:46,518 --> 00:28:48,478
from people
all around the world.
712
00:28:48,520 --> 00:28:50,772
- I think our generation
is getting a lot more help,
713
00:28:50,814 --> 00:28:52,649
and a lot of people
are in therapy now,
714
00:28:52,691 --> 00:28:54,317
and like, seeing therapists
and getting diagnosed.
715
00:28:54,359 --> 00:28:56,653
And a lot of the last
generation wasn't doing that.
716
00:28:56,695 --> 00:29:00,448
- But what if, you know,
there's someone who physically
717
00:29:00,490 --> 00:29:03,201
doesn't feel that good
about themselves in Iowa,
718
00:29:03,243 --> 00:29:05,036
and they're looking at
your videos and being like,
719
00:29:05,078 --> 00:29:06,663
I'll never be as pretty as--
720
00:29:06,705 --> 00:29:10,166
as pretty girl Rave,
and they feel bad?
721
00:29:10,208 --> 00:29:12,293
What do you think
is happening there?
722
00:29:12,335 --> 00:29:15,422
- Society is really rough
on girls, I think, in general.
723
00:29:15,463 --> 00:29:17,632
Without even social media,
I think TV before then
724
00:29:17,674 --> 00:29:20,385
was really big,
magazines were really big.
725
00:29:20,427 --> 00:29:22,220
- But now it's like--
- More accessible.
726
00:29:22,262 --> 00:29:23,513
- It's sped up,
it's more accessible.
727
00:29:23,555 --> 00:29:25,849
It's right on your phone.
It's constant.
728
00:29:25,890 --> 00:29:29,227
It's refreshed every time you
put your thumb on the screen.
729
00:29:29,269 --> 00:29:30,937
- So I've struggled
with dysthymia
730
00:29:30,979 --> 00:29:32,814
since I was seven, which if
you don't know what that is,
731
00:29:32,856 --> 00:29:34,024
it's like chronic depression.
732
00:29:34,065 --> 00:29:35,400
- OK.
733
00:29:35,442 --> 00:29:36,985
- So for me, the reason
I started social media
734
00:29:37,027 --> 00:29:38,737
was to make other people laugh.
735
00:29:38,778 --> 00:29:40,572
Doing all these comedy
skits and, like,
736
00:29:40,613 --> 00:29:42,365
making other people happy was,
like, my escape of like,
737
00:29:42,407 --> 00:29:44,159
you know, being in my own head.
738
00:29:44,200 --> 00:29:45,660
- Yeah.
739
00:29:45,702 --> 00:29:47,495
- Can you talk about
your struggles with depression
740
00:29:47,537 --> 00:29:48,997
with your followers,
or have you?
741
00:29:49,039 --> 00:29:50,206
- I have.
742
00:29:50,248 --> 00:29:51,124
I'm in therapy,
and they know that.
743
00:29:51,166 --> 00:29:52,334
- OK.
744
00:29:52,375 --> 00:29:53,752
- I feel like I'm
very open with that
745
00:29:53,793 --> 00:29:55,670
because I think it's very
important for my supporters,
746
00:29:55,712 --> 00:29:57,047
just being like, if you
are struggling, like,
747
00:29:57,088 --> 00:29:58,715
it's OK to get help
if they need it.
748
00:29:58,757 --> 00:30:00,342
Or I tell them all the time,
"If you need somebody
749
00:30:00,383 --> 00:30:01,551
to talk to, just DM me."
750
00:30:01,593 --> 00:30:03,136
Like, I'm always on my phone.
751
00:30:03,178 --> 00:30:04,429
Hey, guys.
752
00:30:04,471 --> 00:30:05,889
I just finished
my therapy for the day.
753
00:30:05,930 --> 00:30:07,724
You guys already know how
much I love my therapist.
754
00:30:07,766 --> 00:30:10,268
Today we talked about
my dysthymia and my PTSD,
755
00:30:10,310 --> 00:30:11,770
and a lot of my triggers
and symptoms
756
00:30:11,811 --> 00:30:14,064
have been getting reduced
and a lot better.
757
00:30:14,105 --> 00:30:15,815
And I'm like,
OK, look at me go!
758
00:30:15,857 --> 00:30:18,902
- So you see this in some ways
as a service
759
00:30:18,943 --> 00:30:21,112
to your followers?
760
00:30:21,154 --> 00:30:22,655
- Yeah.
761
00:30:22,697 --> 00:30:25,742
- In one study, fame was
the most common life goal
762
00:30:25,784 --> 00:30:28,661
chosen by 10
to 12-year-olds in America.
763
00:30:28,703 --> 00:30:30,580
But as research tells us,
fame,
764
00:30:30,622 --> 00:30:33,249
or any form
of seeking prestige,
765
00:30:33,291 --> 00:30:35,543
is no path to happiness.
766
00:30:35,585 --> 00:30:37,128
It's the difference
between what
767
00:30:37,170 --> 00:30:39,506
psychologists call intrinsic
768
00:30:39,547 --> 00:30:41,591
and extrinsic rewards.
769
00:30:41,633 --> 00:30:43,927
Intrinsic rewards
are the good vibes
770
00:30:43,968 --> 00:30:46,930
we feel from doing things
we genuinely enjoy.
771
00:30:46,971 --> 00:30:51,434
Extrinsic rewards come from
things outside of ourselves.
772
00:30:51,476 --> 00:30:55,271
They're trophies or likes
on social media posts.
773
00:30:55,313 --> 00:30:57,399
They make you feel
good momentarily,
774
00:30:57,440 --> 00:31:00,944
but long-term, they
don't amount to anything.
775
00:31:00,985 --> 00:31:04,364
Aaron, Rave, and Kiera
are happy in Los Angeles
776
00:31:04,406 --> 00:31:07,575
because they
actually love what they do.
777
00:31:07,617 --> 00:31:10,620
Their work scratches
a creative itch for them...
778
00:31:10,662 --> 00:31:12,914
[laughter]
779
00:31:12,956 --> 00:31:15,458
Just as re-enacting
SNL sketches did
780
00:31:15,500 --> 00:31:17,961
for me when I was their age.
781
00:31:18,003 --> 00:31:20,797
- I'm just so lucky to be able
to be surrounded by people
782
00:31:20,839 --> 00:31:24,801
that, like, love me, are also
in the same field as me,
783
00:31:24,843 --> 00:31:26,511
which is also very rare.
784
00:31:26,553 --> 00:31:28,680
I feel like if someone's
in the corporate world,
785
00:31:28,722 --> 00:31:30,348
you don't really make
friends there, you know?
786
00:31:30,390 --> 00:31:31,975
Everyone's, like,
in a little cubicle.
787
00:31:32,017 --> 00:31:33,268
You just make lifelong friends.
788
00:31:33,309 --> 00:31:35,395
- So you found
some deep friendships,
789
00:31:35,437 --> 00:31:37,313
not superficial,
fly-by-night friendships.
790
00:31:37,355 --> 00:31:38,773
- Mm-hmm.
- Yeah.
791
00:31:38,815 --> 00:31:41,901
- They incorporate fun
into everything they do,
792
00:31:41,943 --> 00:31:45,447
something I think the people
of Thailand would smile upon.
793
00:31:45,488 --> 00:31:47,991
They've even managed
to do the impossible:
794
00:31:48,033 --> 00:31:51,828
Make a double-reed woodwind
instrument look badass.
795
00:31:51,870 --> 00:31:54,831
Bassoon in the house!
796
00:31:54,873 --> 00:31:58,877
[dramatic bassoon music]
797
00:31:58,918 --> 00:32:01,921
Well, you know, sort of.
798
00:32:03,840 --> 00:32:04,841
[bassoon squeaks]
799
00:32:04,883 --> 00:32:07,385
[laughter]
800
00:32:11,556 --> 00:32:13,224
- Can I talk
to you for a second?
801
00:32:13,266 --> 00:32:14,601
Hi, I'm Rainn.
802
00:32:14,642 --> 00:32:16,102
- Hi, I know.
- Yeah.
803
00:32:16,144 --> 00:32:18,438
Where are you from?
- I'm from Manitoba, Canada.
804
00:32:18,480 --> 00:32:22,734
- We're wandering
the world looking for bliss.
805
00:32:22,776 --> 00:32:25,320
How is that working
for you in Manitoba?
806
00:32:25,362 --> 00:32:27,030
- It's great.
- Yeah?
807
00:32:27,072 --> 00:32:28,490
- Absolutely.
- OK.
808
00:32:28,531 --> 00:32:30,492
What about in Los Angeles?
Have you found much here?
809
00:32:30,533 --> 00:32:31,910
[car engine revs]
810
00:32:31,951 --> 00:32:34,371
- It's a nice place,
but I--it's not bliss.
811
00:32:34,412 --> 00:32:36,289
- No?
- No.
812
00:32:36,331 --> 00:32:38,291
- But there's palm trees,
and beaches,
813
00:32:38,333 --> 00:32:40,669
and minor television
celebrities.
814
00:32:40,710 --> 00:32:42,337
- You're not a minor
television celebrity.
815
00:32:42,379 --> 00:32:43,713
- Oh, get on with you.
816
00:32:43,755 --> 00:32:45,799
[laughter]
817
00:32:45,840 --> 00:32:48,134
And now for every
self-absorbed actor's
818
00:32:48,176 --> 00:32:49,511
favorite part...
819
00:32:51,680 --> 00:32:53,431
- The part about themselves.
820
00:32:53,473 --> 00:32:55,392
- Well, I know
he's on "The Office."
821
00:32:55,433 --> 00:32:58,311
I'm pretty sure that
he's got to be Norwegian.
822
00:32:58,353 --> 00:32:59,604
- I know.
I was telling her.
823
00:32:59,646 --> 00:33:00,689
I was like, you don't
know who Rainn Wilson is?
824
00:33:00,730 --> 00:33:01,856
That's Dwight.
[laughs]
825
00:33:01,898 --> 00:33:03,108
- Whoops.
826
00:33:03,149 --> 00:33:05,819
- My friend Ivar is Norwegian,
and they have
827
00:33:05,860 --> 00:33:09,239
the exact same round head
and bulbous features.
828
00:33:09,280 --> 00:33:12,492
- I have his book signed
by him, "The Bassoon King."
829
00:33:12,534 --> 00:33:14,035
I like to watch
his YouTube channel.
830
00:33:14,077 --> 00:33:16,204
- I won $500
for doing a monologue
831
00:33:16,246 --> 00:33:17,664
from Dwight from "The Office."
832
00:33:17,706 --> 00:33:20,000
So Dwight is, like,
my favorite character.
833
00:33:20,041 --> 00:33:23,086
- I have seen "The Office,"
but only a few episodes.
834
00:33:23,128 --> 00:33:25,088
- I've never really seen
it all the way through.
835
00:33:25,130 --> 00:33:26,881
- Yeah, I mean,
it was funny when I saw it.
836
00:33:26,923 --> 00:33:28,883
But you know,
I didn't follow up.
837
00:33:30,010 --> 00:33:31,511
- You work
in Hollywood long enough
838
00:33:31,553 --> 00:33:34,139
and you come to accept that
everyone's got an opinion.
839
00:33:36,016 --> 00:33:38,977
- For me, I think, actually,
it would be Dwight, yeah.
840
00:33:39,019 --> 00:33:41,938
- And most of the time,
they're right.
841
00:33:41,980 --> 00:33:47,652
* *
842
00:33:48,862 --> 00:33:51,698
After meeting Aaron,
Rave, and Kiera,
843
00:33:51,740 --> 00:33:54,743
here I am thinking really,
really deep thoughts
844
00:33:54,784 --> 00:33:56,870
while staring
at the Pacific Ocean,
845
00:33:56,911 --> 00:33:59,539
and realizing how
important priorities are
846
00:33:59,581 --> 00:34:01,583
to surviving here.
847
00:34:01,624 --> 00:34:03,668
With so many
tempting distractions,
848
00:34:03,710 --> 00:34:05,962
LA is like
a choose-your-own-adventure
849
00:34:06,004 --> 00:34:07,797
novel where most
of the outcomes
850
00:34:07,839 --> 00:34:11,468
are leaving town and moving
back in with your parents.
851
00:34:11,509 --> 00:34:14,721
I'm reminded of a friend who,
thanks to understanding
852
00:34:14,763 --> 00:34:16,598
what she values most
in this world,
853
00:34:16,639 --> 00:34:18,892
found true bliss living here.
854
00:34:18,933 --> 00:34:20,894
There's no doorbell.
There's no doorbell.
855
00:34:20,935 --> 00:34:23,229
But it wasn't the path
she ever imagined.
856
00:34:23,271 --> 00:34:25,106
Ah!
- Hello!
857
00:34:25,148 --> 00:34:26,358
- No way!
Hi.
858
00:34:26,399 --> 00:34:27,567
- Hi.
859
00:34:27,609 --> 00:34:28,860
- I brought some...
860
00:34:28,902 --> 00:34:30,111
- Yay, thank you so much.
- Delicious baked goods.
861
00:34:30,153 --> 00:34:31,488
- I have some coffee
and tea for us.
862
00:34:31,529 --> 00:34:33,907
- Oh, great.
863
00:34:33,948 --> 00:34:35,950
I met Ari Meyers
over 20 years ago,
864
00:34:35,992 --> 00:34:38,453
when she attended
a comedy show I was a part of
865
00:34:38,495 --> 00:34:40,455
called "The New Bozena."
866
00:34:40,497 --> 00:34:43,750
And she made
an immediate impression.
867
00:34:43,792 --> 00:34:45,251
The reason I wanted
to talk to you is,
868
00:34:45,293 --> 00:34:48,880
your story has really been
powerful to me over the years.
869
00:34:48,922 --> 00:34:51,883
I remember you being
in this kind of--
870
00:34:51,925 --> 00:34:54,344
not midlife crisis,
but early-life crisis.
871
00:34:54,386 --> 00:34:58,890
It was kind of like,
what am I doing with myself?
872
00:34:58,932 --> 00:35:00,642
What am I doing with my life?
873
00:35:00,684 --> 00:35:02,435
What is going
to ultimately bring me
874
00:35:02,477 --> 00:35:05,230
the most joy, fulfillment?
875
00:35:05,271 --> 00:35:06,690
Delicious.
876
00:35:06,731 --> 00:35:09,442
Unlike my own long and
winding road to stardom,
877
00:35:09,484 --> 00:35:12,362
Ari rose to fame quickly
as a talented child actor.
878
00:35:12,404 --> 00:35:14,322
- I started when I was five.
879
00:35:14,364 --> 00:35:16,032
- Oh, wow.
- Modeling.
880
00:35:16,074 --> 00:35:18,535
A modeling agency came
to my preschool.
881
00:35:18,576 --> 00:35:19,953
- That sounds creepy.
882
00:35:19,994 --> 00:35:21,454
- No, it was for--
- Uh, hey, I'm a, uh--
883
00:35:21,496 --> 00:35:22,872
I'm a modeling agent.
884
00:35:22,914 --> 00:35:24,124
Let me check out
these toddlers.
885
00:35:24,165 --> 00:35:25,792
- It wasn't creepy.
886
00:35:25,834 --> 00:35:27,752
- In her teens,
Ari was in a hit sitcom
887
00:35:27,794 --> 00:35:29,212
called "Kate & Allie."
888
00:35:29,254 --> 00:35:30,630
- Chip, I can't do this.
889
00:35:30,672 --> 00:35:31,923
- But you need an image.
890
00:35:31,965 --> 00:35:33,675
- Yes, but not this image.
891
00:35:33,717 --> 00:35:36,177
- And by her early 20s,
she was booking gigs
892
00:35:36,219 --> 00:35:38,138
on TV shows and movies.
893
00:35:38,179 --> 00:35:39,764
- I thought it was
a very funny script,
894
00:35:39,806 --> 00:35:41,433
so I had a great time.
895
00:35:41,474 --> 00:35:43,184
- She was living the dream.
896
00:35:43,226 --> 00:35:45,812
Well, at least my dream.
897
00:35:45,854 --> 00:35:47,480
Do you miss
show business at all?
898
00:35:47,522 --> 00:35:50,316
- No.
[laughter]
899
00:35:50,358 --> 00:35:51,401
No.
- No?
900
00:35:51,443 --> 00:35:53,028
- I just was, like, not happy.
901
00:35:53,069 --> 00:35:56,781
A lot of it had to do
with focus on appearance.
902
00:35:56,823 --> 00:35:58,742
I think for women,
it's probably
903
00:35:58,783 --> 00:36:00,118
a very different thing.
904
00:36:00,160 --> 00:36:02,620
And I had some experiences
that were challenging,
905
00:36:02,662 --> 00:36:05,040
even when I was a teenager,
with that focus.
906
00:36:05,081 --> 00:36:07,917
You know, being--she's
too heavy, she's too skinny,
907
00:36:07,959 --> 00:36:11,129
she's too--you know,
I think that kind of just got
908
00:36:11,171 --> 00:36:13,840
into my head,
that it became more about that.
909
00:36:13,882 --> 00:36:15,800
And it was never
comfortable for me.
910
00:36:15,842 --> 00:36:18,386
- Mm.
- Never comfortable.
911
00:36:18,428 --> 00:36:20,764
- Being an actor in LA is one
912
00:36:20,805 --> 00:36:24,184
of the most narcissistic
professions there is.
913
00:36:24,225 --> 00:36:27,979
It's all about who likes me,
how do I look,
914
00:36:28,021 --> 00:36:30,023
do you want me,
will you hire me?
915
00:36:30,065 --> 00:36:31,858
It's all just me,
me, me, me, me.
916
00:36:31,900 --> 00:36:35,111
But you shifted from a career
that was all about me
917
00:36:35,153 --> 00:36:38,031
to a career that was
all about you,
918
00:36:38,073 --> 00:36:40,658
that's all
about taking care of people,
919
00:36:40,700 --> 00:36:44,496
that's all
about serving other people.
920
00:36:44,537 --> 00:36:46,331
What does that feel like?
921
00:36:46,373 --> 00:36:48,500
- Amazing.
Such a relief.
922
00:36:48,541 --> 00:36:51,503
I was just like...
[sighs]
923
00:36:51,544 --> 00:36:53,213
It's amazing.
924
00:36:53,254 --> 00:36:55,548
- Ari is now a labor
and delivery nurse
925
00:36:55,590 --> 00:36:57,175
and postpartum doula,
926
00:36:57,217 --> 00:36:59,636
helping families
through this terrifying
927
00:36:59,678 --> 00:37:01,888
and euphoric stage
of their lives.
928
00:37:01,930 --> 00:37:04,224
Having been there
when my wife endured
929
00:37:04,265 --> 00:37:07,769
a pretty harrowing birth
of our own son, Walter,
930
00:37:07,811 --> 00:37:10,397
I'm in awe
of the work Ari does.
931
00:37:10,438 --> 00:37:12,857
- I'm the one there to sort
of take care of the baby,
932
00:37:12,899 --> 00:37:14,984
monitor the baby,
take vital signs.
933
00:37:15,026 --> 00:37:16,653
And it's incredible.
- Mm-hmm.
934
00:37:16,695 --> 00:37:18,238
- It's incredible.
935
00:37:18,279 --> 00:37:21,074
And you get to see parents see
their baby for the first time,
936
00:37:21,116 --> 00:37:23,410
and facilitate that,
and be present for that.
937
00:37:23,451 --> 00:37:26,329
- I remember you talking
about this, changing bedpans...
938
00:37:26,371 --> 00:37:27,872
- Yes.
- And catheters.
939
00:37:27,914 --> 00:37:30,834
You are not the person
I would have ever expected to,
940
00:37:30,875 --> 00:37:32,752
like, roll up your sleeves
and jump into that.
941
00:37:32,794 --> 00:37:35,672
- I discovered
that nursing is so much more.
942
00:37:35,714 --> 00:37:37,924
Like, it's physiology.
It's science.
943
00:37:37,966 --> 00:37:40,093
But you are also
that emotional support.
944
00:37:40,135 --> 00:37:42,220
- Mm-hmm.
945
00:37:42,262 --> 00:37:45,223
[soft music]
946
00:37:45,265 --> 00:37:47,851
* *
947
00:37:47,892 --> 00:37:50,270
Ari also does
home visits after families
948
00:37:50,311 --> 00:37:51,813
have left the hospital.
949
00:37:51,855 --> 00:37:53,440
Are there ugly babies, though?
- There aren't.
950
00:37:53,481 --> 00:37:54,858
- Like, really, seriously?
- There aren't.
951
00:37:54,899 --> 00:37:56,443
Hi.
- Hello.
952
00:37:56,484 --> 00:37:57,652
- Hi!
- Hi, how are you?
953
00:37:57,694 --> 00:37:59,446
- This is Jiri.
This is my friend Rainn.
954
00:37:59,487 --> 00:38:02,032
Thank you so much for letting
him shadow me today.
955
00:38:02,073 --> 00:38:05,577
- Ari is checking in
on mom Alex and dad Jiri,
956
00:38:05,618 --> 00:38:08,580
who she helped after
the birth of their son, Luka.
957
00:38:08,621 --> 00:38:11,041
Come here, Luka.
Come here, Luka.
958
00:38:11,082 --> 00:38:14,044
- But he came out healthy,
happy, and he's been--
959
00:38:14,085 --> 00:38:16,713
- Healthy and happy,
and look at that smile.
960
00:38:16,755 --> 00:38:18,256
Oh!
961
00:38:18,298 --> 00:38:19,507
You're gonna be
a big star, Luka.
962
00:38:19,549 --> 00:38:22,010
A big star.
963
00:38:22,052 --> 00:38:24,137
And what kind of help
did Ari give you guys?
964
00:38:24,179 --> 00:38:25,430
- Everything.
965
00:38:25,472 --> 00:38:27,682
Just basically normalizing
feelings that I had.
966
00:38:27,724 --> 00:38:29,601
I was able to talk
through, you know,
967
00:38:29,642 --> 00:38:32,687
things that were upsetting me,
things that I had doubts about.
968
00:38:32,729 --> 00:38:34,939
And you know, it was all OK.
969
00:38:34,981 --> 00:38:36,983
And it was all OK
to talk about.
970
00:38:37,025 --> 00:38:38,985
- I don't know about you,
but me, at least,
971
00:38:39,027 --> 00:38:42,155
I always felt this,
like, calm when she was here.
972
00:38:42,197 --> 00:38:45,325
Like, there's someone here
who wants to help us
973
00:38:45,367 --> 00:38:46,993
and who knows what
they're doing.
974
00:38:47,035 --> 00:38:48,495
- OK, what do you need?
What's going on?
975
00:38:48,536 --> 00:38:50,038
- What do you think he needs?
You think he needs food?
976
00:38:50,080 --> 00:38:52,040
- I think he needs some food.
- All right, come here.
977
00:38:52,082 --> 00:38:55,043
Oh, my goodness.
Oh, my goodness.
978
00:38:55,085 --> 00:38:56,586
Go crazy.
979
00:38:56,628 --> 00:38:59,172
- [chuckles]
980
00:38:59,214 --> 00:39:01,424
- Have you found bliss
in this work?
981
00:39:03,218 --> 00:39:04,511
- I think I have.
982
00:39:04,552 --> 00:39:06,721
If you can find something
that you love to do
983
00:39:06,763 --> 00:39:09,724
that is also of service and
actually helping someone...
984
00:39:09,766 --> 00:39:12,644
- Who gives a shit about
auditions and red carpets?
985
00:39:12,686 --> 00:39:16,231
Los Angeles makes it too easy
to fixate on the wrong things,
986
00:39:16,272 --> 00:39:18,858
something that I'm
frequently guilty of.
987
00:39:18,900 --> 00:39:20,735
[gasps]
Good job.
988
00:39:20,777 --> 00:39:22,987
How about a roll over?
Come on.
989
00:39:23,029 --> 00:39:25,115
Part of my transformation
these past months
990
00:39:25,156 --> 00:39:27,200
has been learning
to cut through the noise
991
00:39:27,242 --> 00:39:29,703
and focus on what
actually matters.
992
00:39:29,744 --> 00:39:31,371
It's a cliché, sure.
993
00:39:31,413 --> 00:39:34,457
But my God,
is it an important one.
994
00:39:34,499 --> 00:39:38,044
Well, you know
that Walter's birth was
995
00:39:38,086 --> 00:39:41,047
incredibly traumatic,
and he almost died,
996
00:39:41,089 --> 00:39:43,550
and Holiday almost died.
997
00:39:43,591 --> 00:39:48,388
But that moment was one
of the most powerful moments
998
00:39:48,430 --> 00:39:50,306
of my life,
and I think of anyone's life,
999
00:39:50,348 --> 00:39:53,351
but especially
almost losing the baby.
1000
00:39:53,393 --> 00:39:56,354
And then he was brought out
to me and put in my arms
1001
00:39:56,396 --> 00:39:59,441
as I sat in this hallway
with blood on the floor.
1002
00:39:59,482 --> 00:40:00,900
- Yeah.
1003
00:40:00,942 --> 00:40:04,738
- And I looked
into his eyes, and...
1004
00:40:04,779 --> 00:40:07,949
it was really
1005
00:40:07,991 --> 00:40:09,659
unbelievable.
1006
00:40:09,701 --> 00:40:12,746
And it was a series of emotions
that I didn't know I had.
1007
00:40:12,787 --> 00:40:15,290
It was kind of a pride
and elation,
1008
00:40:15,331 --> 00:40:18,335
and a wonder
at the miracle of life itself.
1009
00:40:18,376 --> 00:40:21,880
And it's utterly--
it's transformative.
1010
00:40:21,921 --> 00:40:23,256
- Yeah.
1011
00:40:23,298 --> 00:40:24,716
- And you get to be a part
of that every week.
1012
00:40:24,758 --> 00:40:27,969
- Yeah, in its purest form.
It's sacred, you know.
1013
00:40:28,011 --> 00:40:31,765
You're with people
in the most vulnerable parts
1014
00:40:31,806 --> 00:40:33,516
of their life.
1015
00:40:37,937 --> 00:40:40,982
And they're allowing you
to be there.
1016
00:40:41,024 --> 00:40:44,027
- Ari had a vision of what
life in Los Angeles would be,
1017
00:40:44,069 --> 00:40:45,904
but found emptiness.
1018
00:40:45,945 --> 00:40:48,365
So she adapted,
1019
00:40:48,406 --> 00:40:51,284
an ability which I learned
makes people in Iceland
1020
00:40:51,326 --> 00:40:53,286
some of the happiest
in the world.
1021
00:40:53,328 --> 00:40:56,122
It's a beautiful thing to
realize that just because you
1022
00:40:56,164 --> 00:40:57,916
find yourself on one path--
1023
00:40:57,957 --> 00:41:00,460
professional,
emotional, spiritual--
1024
00:41:00,502 --> 00:41:03,129
doesn't mean
you're destined to stay on it.
1025
00:41:03,171 --> 00:41:06,299
Perhaps happiness
in LA means being able
1026
00:41:06,341 --> 00:41:09,386
to redefine yourself
on your own terms,
1027
00:41:09,427 --> 00:41:14,307
whether that's from actress
to nurse or, in my case,
1028
00:41:14,349 --> 00:41:19,020
from unhappy
to figuring it out.
1029
00:41:25,443 --> 00:41:27,612
- For the most part,
on good days.
1030
00:41:27,654 --> 00:41:29,447
I don't know
if happiness is a place
1031
00:41:29,489 --> 00:41:31,616
I'm resting 100% of the time,
1032
00:41:31,658 --> 00:41:34,744
but it is a place
that I get to visit a lot.
1033
00:41:34,786 --> 00:41:37,580
- Family and friends
are what make me happy.
1034
00:41:37,622 --> 00:41:39,791
You can have all
of the money in the world.
1035
00:41:39,833 --> 00:41:41,084
You can have the best job.
1036
00:41:41,126 --> 00:41:43,169
But if you don't have
those people near you
1037
00:41:43,211 --> 00:41:45,046
who support you
and believe in you,
1038
00:41:45,088 --> 00:41:46,339
it's not worth it.
1039
00:41:46,381 --> 00:41:49,592
- Life's [bleep] hard, and,
1040
00:41:49,634 --> 00:41:52,887
you know,
it's difficult to admit that.
1041
00:41:52,929 --> 00:41:55,890
We just have to keep trying,
and don't get stuck.
1042
00:41:55,932 --> 00:41:58,393
- Finding things that you love
and people that you love,
1043
00:41:58,435 --> 00:42:00,979
and surrounding yourself
with that,
1044
00:42:01,021 --> 00:42:02,105
I think that's the best
you can do,
1045
00:42:02,147 --> 00:42:03,481
no matter where you live.
1046
00:42:03,523 --> 00:42:05,859
- I think I'm still working
on finding my happiness.
1047
00:42:05,900 --> 00:42:07,235
But I do understand
1048
00:42:07,277 --> 00:42:08,611
it's a journey,
and I know I'll get there.
1049
00:42:08,653 --> 00:42:10,739
- I don't know,
just an appreciation for life
1050
00:42:10,780 --> 00:42:15,285
and this world
because everything's crazy.
1051
00:42:15,326 --> 00:42:16,369
[laughs]
1052
00:42:16,411 --> 00:42:18,621
- We just got married.
- We're married.
1053
00:42:18,663 --> 00:42:20,749
- [laughs]
1054
00:42:20,790 --> 00:42:22,417
- And I'm eating pastrami.
1055
00:42:22,459 --> 00:42:24,336
- Relationships
with people that I love
1056
00:42:24,377 --> 00:42:26,504
brings me the most joy
in life, for sure.
1057
00:42:26,546 --> 00:42:28,173
- I love him.
1058
00:42:28,214 --> 00:42:30,675
- [laughs]
- And I love him.
1059
00:42:30,717 --> 00:42:32,093
[laughs]
1060
00:42:32,135 --> 00:42:35,263
- Happiness has more
to do with, like,
1061
00:42:35,305 --> 00:42:36,723
how you feel about yourself.
1062
00:42:36,765 --> 00:42:38,350
It's more of, like,
a long-term thing.
1063
00:42:38,391 --> 00:42:41,144
- The happiest
I've ever felt is right now.
1064
00:42:41,186 --> 00:42:44,189
[upbeat music]
1065
00:42:45,357 --> 00:42:47,317
- Was that awkward?
1066
00:42:48,360 --> 00:42:49,986
- Was it good?
- Aww!
1067
00:42:50,028 --> 00:42:53,031
[laughter]
1068
00:42:53,073 --> 00:42:56,159
- In my life, there's one
person who constantly keeps me
1069
00:42:56,201 --> 00:42:57,660
from going off the rails--
1070
00:42:57,702 --> 00:42:59,704
someone who it's
been especially difficult
1071
00:42:59,746 --> 00:43:03,083
being away from while
running around planet Earth.
1072
00:43:03,124 --> 00:43:05,835
I first met her in an acting
class in the mid '80s.
1073
00:43:05,877 --> 00:43:08,505
And while the whole notion
of love at first sight
1074
00:43:08,546 --> 00:43:12,676
seems kind of crazy,
that's exactly what happened.
1075
00:43:12,717 --> 00:43:16,513
This is my wife,
author Holiday Reinhorn.
1076
00:43:16,554 --> 00:43:19,265
I have really learned
from you over the years.
1077
00:43:19,307 --> 00:43:21,851
You know,
we both struggle with anxiety,
1078
00:43:21,893 --> 00:43:24,479
but I'm consistently the one
1079
00:43:24,521 --> 00:43:26,856
that's kind of more
emotionally reactive.
1080
00:43:26,898 --> 00:43:28,400
I'm more anxious.
1081
00:43:28,441 --> 00:43:30,193
I'm kind of--I'm the one
who's a little more stuck
1082
00:43:30,235 --> 00:43:31,569
in my head, from here on up.
1083
00:43:31,611 --> 00:43:32,487
- Mm.
1084
00:43:32,529 --> 00:43:35,532
- And I really admire, like,
1085
00:43:35,573 --> 00:43:39,077
your dailiness
and your weekly practice.
1086
00:43:39,119 --> 00:43:40,203
Basically what I'm saying is,
1087
00:43:40,245 --> 00:43:41,579
I shouldn't have
traveled the world.
1088
00:43:41,621 --> 00:43:43,665
I should have just
talked to you.
1089
00:43:43,707 --> 00:43:46,626
How do you think bliss
and happiness work?
1090
00:43:46,668 --> 00:43:49,379
Where do they come from?
How do you find yours?
1091
00:43:49,421 --> 00:43:52,465
- I used to have these
elaborate, like, to-do lists,
1092
00:43:52,507 --> 00:43:55,677
and when Walter was
like five or six,
1093
00:43:55,719 --> 00:43:57,095
he was like,
"What's on that list?"
1094
00:43:57,137 --> 00:43:58,388
You know,
and I was like, you do yours.
1095
00:43:58,430 --> 00:44:01,349
And his was like,
go see if I can see a coyote,
1096
00:44:01,391 --> 00:44:02,851
play in the creek,
1097
00:44:02,892 --> 00:44:05,603
count how many birds
are in the trees, you know.
1098
00:44:05,645 --> 00:44:07,022
And he did it.
1099
00:44:07,063 --> 00:44:08,606
And he like,
checked off his list.
1100
00:44:08,648 --> 00:44:10,483
And I was like,
"What was your favorite thing?"
1101
00:44:10,525 --> 00:44:12,193
And he's like,
"I don't have favorite things.
1102
00:44:12,235 --> 00:44:14,446
Everything is my favorite."
1103
00:44:14,487 --> 00:44:17,365
And I was like, hmm, you know,
I love that idea,
1104
00:44:17,407 --> 00:44:22,871
that the worst possible thing
can have happiness in it.
1105
00:44:22,912 --> 00:44:25,749
You've traveled all over
the place doing jobs,
1106
00:44:25,790 --> 00:44:28,835
and this time we were in, like,
a 15-hour time difference.
1107
00:44:28,877 --> 00:44:31,087
So you were waking up,
and I was going to bed,
1108
00:44:31,129 --> 00:44:33,298
vice versa,
which is the worst time.
1109
00:44:33,340 --> 00:44:35,759
But it was the best time
ever for us.
1110
00:44:35,800 --> 00:44:40,555
Like, it was a little bit like
the bliss transferred over.
1111
00:44:40,597 --> 00:44:42,432
- It does shift
your perspective
1112
00:44:42,474 --> 00:44:45,226
when you spend every day
talking to people
1113
00:44:45,268 --> 00:44:47,312
about finding joy and bliss.
1114
00:44:47,354 --> 00:44:50,023
- Yeah, you can't really be
with a monk all day
1115
00:44:50,065 --> 00:44:52,317
and then come home and have
a big fight with your wife.
1116
00:44:52,359 --> 00:44:53,651
It would feel weird.
1117
00:44:53,693 --> 00:44:55,278
[chuckles]
1118
00:44:55,320 --> 00:44:57,364
- Part of what
I've learned on my travels
1119
00:44:57,405 --> 00:45:02,327
is expressing gratitude,
and I'm so grateful to you.
1120
00:45:03,370 --> 00:45:05,288
- Thank you.
- I love you so much.
1121
00:45:05,330 --> 00:45:06,790
- Oh, my God.
1122
00:45:06,831 --> 00:45:08,208
[laughs]
1123
00:45:08,249 --> 00:45:11,461
[upbeat music]
1124
00:45:11,503 --> 00:45:13,963
- And so now,
after traveling the world,
1125
00:45:14,005 --> 00:45:16,508
swimming in the frozen waters
of the North Atlantic,
1126
00:45:16,549 --> 00:45:19,135
and getting my ass kicked
by a teenager,
1127
00:45:19,177 --> 00:45:23,640
the million-dollar
question is, am I happier?
1128
00:45:23,682 --> 00:45:25,934
* *
1129
00:45:25,975 --> 00:45:28,186
If I'm being honest
with myself,
1130
00:45:28,228 --> 00:45:31,481
the answer isn't
black and white.
1131
00:45:31,523 --> 00:45:33,191
I certainly understand
much more
1132
00:45:33,233 --> 00:45:35,485
about the nature of happiness,
1133
00:45:35,527 --> 00:45:38,321
but only a fool would make
sweeping generalizations
1134
00:45:38,363 --> 00:45:40,573
about something so important.
1135
00:45:42,033 --> 00:45:43,827
So here I go.
1136
00:45:45,912 --> 00:45:48,248
Friends are essential.
1137
00:45:49,082 --> 00:45:51,626
So is family.
1138
00:45:51,668 --> 00:45:53,378
Opa!
1139
00:45:54,587 --> 00:45:57,382
Expressing yourself
means everything.
1140
00:45:58,675 --> 00:46:02,262
A noise in your head
means nothing.
1141
00:46:04,014 --> 00:46:05,390
We can learn to adapt...
1142
00:46:05,432 --> 00:46:08,727
Oh, oh, ahh!
1143
00:46:08,768 --> 00:46:10,729
And to change
our perspective.
1144
00:46:10,770 --> 00:46:13,398
Two Elton Johns.
You know Elton John?
1145
00:46:13,440 --> 00:46:15,525
Beaches may be optional...
1146
00:46:15,567 --> 00:46:18,319
This is absolutely nuts.
1147
00:46:18,361 --> 00:46:21,531
But trust in those
around us is not.
1148
00:46:21,573 --> 00:46:23,867
All right.
Let's call it a day.
1149
00:46:23,908 --> 00:46:26,286
Embrace nature
in all its glory...
1150
00:46:26,327 --> 00:46:29,706
Aghh!
1151
00:46:29,748 --> 00:46:30,832
[laughs]
1152
00:46:30,874 --> 00:46:32,375
And have as much fun
for the sake
1153
00:46:32,417 --> 00:46:34,544
of freaking fun
while you still can.
1154
00:46:34,586 --> 00:46:37,714
[cheers and applause]
1155
00:46:38,757 --> 00:46:40,175
Walter's gonna play
a little bit.
1156
00:46:40,216 --> 00:46:41,634
- OK.
1157
00:46:41,676 --> 00:46:44,012
- Most importantly,
I've learned there are
1158
00:46:44,054 --> 00:46:46,639
infinite paths to happiness.
1159
00:46:46,681 --> 00:46:49,726
It's the Tolstoy quote
turned on its head:
1160
00:46:49,768 --> 00:46:52,729
Miserable places
are all alike,
1161
00:46:52,771 --> 00:46:55,899
and happy ones are happy
in their own ways.
1162
00:46:55,940 --> 00:46:57,692
Not bad.
1163
00:46:58,610 --> 00:47:01,279
And so my journey
doesn't end here.
1164
00:47:01,321 --> 00:47:04,407
The geography of bliss
is a constantly moving target
1165
00:47:04,449 --> 00:47:07,285
and a lifelong endeavor.
1166
00:47:08,620 --> 00:47:11,164
Which begs the question,
1167
00:47:11,206 --> 00:47:13,708
where's next on this joy ride?
1168
00:47:15,960 --> 00:47:17,253
- All right, awesome.
1169
00:47:17,295 --> 00:47:19,756
Rainn, I feel good about this.
- OK.
1170
00:47:19,798 --> 00:47:21,675
- Unless there's another piece
you--I think it's great.
1171
00:47:21,716 --> 00:47:24,260
I think we're good.
- OK.
1172
00:47:24,302 --> 00:47:25,720
- Sound speeding?
1173
00:47:25,762 --> 00:47:27,055
- You don't have
anything bigger
1174
00:47:27,097 --> 00:47:28,473
and more ridiculous-looking
than this?
1175
00:47:28,515 --> 00:47:29,724
[bird squawks]
1176
00:47:29,766 --> 00:47:31,017
- Again--
[horn honks]
1177
00:47:31,059 --> 00:47:32,936
- High fives, high fives.
1178
00:47:32,977 --> 00:47:34,229
Anybody want a high five?
1179
00:47:34,270 --> 00:47:36,272
- High five.
1180
00:47:36,314 --> 00:47:39,067
High fives.
Come on, Oleg.
1181
00:47:39,109 --> 00:47:40,110
Pew!
1182
00:47:40,151 --> 00:47:41,653
- Yeah.
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