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THERAPIST:
How are you both?
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DANNY: Great.
CLARE: Fine.
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Good.
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Danny blasted porn
on the Bluetooth speaker...
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Clare's vibrator literally
melted from overuse.
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♪
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CLARE:
My life is a mess.
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My husband kicked me out
a few days ago.
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My daughter hates me.
[gasps]
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- Oh, my God.
- Mom!
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A threesome is a big leap.
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Maybe you were subconsciously
worried about our little threesome?
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- What?
- Me and you and Dad.
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Ew!
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♪
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CLARE:
What would I tell
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my 22-year-old self?
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Don't take your mom for granted.
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She won't be here forever.
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♪
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What does it mean to heal?
To move on?
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To let go?
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♪
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Why can't you make new friends?
Like what happened to Bethany?
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Bethany had anal sex
on a Greyhound going to Reno.
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- What?
- Yeah.
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Why would she want to take
a bus to Reno?
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[keyboard clicking]
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WOMAN:
Dear Sugar,
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I've never written a fan letter before,
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but I read your advice column religiously.
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Probably because
given the state of my life,
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I could use some advice.
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♪ Where they at? Where they at?
Where they at? Where they at? ♪
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♪ Where they at? Where they at?
Where they at? Come on now ♪
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♪ If you wanna go
and take a ride with me ♪
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[woman singing along]
♪ We three-wheeling
in the fo' with the gold D's ♪
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♪ Oh, why do I live this way? ♪
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♪ Hey, must be the money ♪
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♪ If you wanna go and get high with me ♪
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♪ Smoke an L
in the back of the Benz-E... ♪
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[woman humming]
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♪ Oh, must be the money ♪
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WOMAN:
Which house is it again, dear?
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- Uh.
- Who can't find their way home?
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Oh, that's it.
That's the one, that's right there.
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Great job.
[continues singing]
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You know, thank you so much,
and happy retirement.
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Oh, it's locked.
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Sorry.
[locks click open]
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Thank you.
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Congratulations.
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Ooh, must be the money!
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Shhh.
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[car driving away]
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Noo.
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[knocks softly]
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Yes!
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[grunting]
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[bag thudding]
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[sing-song] Must be the money!
It's gotta be the money.
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[thuds]
[groans] Fuck!
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- [groaning]
- Don't you fucking move!
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Wha... Oh, my God. Danny, it's just me.
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[footsteps thudding upstairs]
Shhh.
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Jesus, Clare! Shit, you had me...
I was about to call the cops!
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Why?
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What are you doing?
What are you wearing?
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Oh, I borrowed it.
It was, um... It's Hawaiian-themed.
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I didn't have my keys, and then I...
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The window was... And it went so... late.
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You're drunk.
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Is there chicken?
'Cause it smells chickeney in here.
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Yeah, we had chicken. Six hours ago.
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Ugh.
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Mmm. Mm.
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Aah.
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Ah.
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There were toasts and speeches
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and, ugh, it's all so tragic, you know?
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It's like 43 years of work
just whittled down
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to a tray
of bacon-wrapped pineapple skewers
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and Retire-Mints. Get it?
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FRANKIE:
Mom?
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Oh, hey! Frankie, sweetie.
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- Rae.
- Hey, hon. You wan... You want some mints?
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No. No one wants mints. Ever.
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[scoffs]
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So there's no chicken?
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We ate all the fucking chicken, Clare.
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Why are you here?
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Whoa! Okay.
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Why is everyone being such assholes?
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What's going on?
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Are you... back?
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Wha... Huh?
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Well, I thought that you weren't
supposed to be here... or something.
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Oh.
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[moaning]
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Why am I eating this?
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Because you literally took the wheel
when we drove past...
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Well, you shouldn't have let me.
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Shouldn't have let me.
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You cannot tell Frankie.
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It's Rae.
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I hate calling her that.
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But she's right, though,
because they are horrible to gay people.
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Queer people. Sorry.
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But it isn't just their homophobia.
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It's... it's... Really, it's, like,
look here, it's all this crap
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that's just gonna
be floating on the planet forever.
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You know, wedged into the nostril
of some innocent turtle.
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But... [moans]
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...the butter and the pickles, it's just...
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Fucckk!
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- And those damn waffle fries.
- Ooh.
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So good.
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Well, it's what makes it all so hard.
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Everything good turns out to be bad.
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[chuckles]
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You're welcome.
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You kicked me out.
You want a "thank you"?
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You do realize you're not the victim?
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Well, neither are you, Danny.
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That's great.
CLARE: Neither are you!
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- All right. Absolutely great.
- Yeah, great, great. Thank you!
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[drink splashes]
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My life is a mess, Sugar.
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My daughter hates me.
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My husband kicked me out a few nights ago,
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and he thinks
I'm crashing on my best friend's couch,
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but I'm not.
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I'm sitting on her stoop
waiting for an Uber... Pool.
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♪
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Wondering how the hell
my life ended up here,
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looking for comfort
from a woman I don't even know.
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And also wondering,
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has anyone ever written in
to offer comfort to you?
[phone chimes]
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Then I told my mom,
"Bitch, college is for pussies.
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All that money to graduate for what?"
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[boy continues talking]
CLARE: I read your response
in this week's column,
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and one sentence
buried deep within your advice
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compelled me to write.
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It was a sentence
about your sister and her cancer.
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I'm sorry
that she died too young and too soon.
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Oh, wait. This is good.
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Wait. Stop, stop, stop.
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PASSENGER:
Cool pad.
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[device beeps]
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CLARE:
But that's the thing about grief,
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you can't cry it away or eat it away
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or punch it away.
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It's just... there,
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and you have to survive it.
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You have to endure it.
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You have to live with it,
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which is the hardest thing in the world.
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I was 22 when my mother was diagnosed.
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WOMAN:
Everyone, ready?
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Yes.
BOY: Yes.
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Clare Marie Pierce
is an award-winning essay writer
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and soon-to-be college graduate
with a 4.0,
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who is committed to summiting
Machu Picchu over spring break!
- Mexico!
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Come on out, Clare!
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[both cheering]
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And now, a high school senior
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who cannot get a tattoo
until he graduates,
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no matter how compelling his argument,
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- and who's...
- Is still a virgin!
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BOY:
Stop saying that.
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Worn the same T-shirt
for four days running
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and appears to have
no intention of taking it off!
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- Get out here, Lucas!
- Lucas!
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[both cheering]
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Yeah.
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Are we ever gonna be too old for this?
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We'll be doing this when I'm 80.
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Merry Christmas.
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CLARE: And lately,
I keep playing our last Christmas together
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over and over in my mind.
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WOMAN:
Me first.
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Me first.
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I get to go first.
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Ooh.
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LUCAS: Oh, no way!
Is it vintage or something?
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I knew you wanted one.
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It was your father's.
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He sent it?
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I refurbished it.
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- [tool clatters]
- Lucas, don't be a little shit.
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Somebody gives you something, you take it.
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You take it.
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I'm not the one
who's ever wanted anything from him.
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It's okay. He doesn't have to.
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All right, you go ahead, honey.
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Jess said that you needed one.
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And I thought
that it would be great for New York.
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Do you like it?
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Yeah, I love it.
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Uh... I do. I... I love it.
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[mockingly] You do? You love it?
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Hey.
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Uh, it's...
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It's long
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and subs... substantial.
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I thought it was unique.
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I just wonder, does it...
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Does it make more sense to get black?
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Because it's dirty in New York,
and it'll probably last longer.
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And it's... it's probably easy to exchange.
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Sure. Sure.
You should have what you want, honey.
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CLARE:
I hope, in your sister's death,
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you'll be able
to do something that I haven't.
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Create something of her life.
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Make it beautiful.
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And then, please, tell me how you did it.
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Love, Clare.
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♪
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Uh, that can come down.
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You were so wasted last night.
How are you even walking this morning?
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CLARE:
I don't know, Shan.
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Somehow I stagger on,
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despite fielding the vitriol
of an entitled millennial.
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SHAN:
I mean, literally walking.
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When you fell off the stage
after "Me and Bobby McGee,"
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I thought you, like,
broke a hip... or something.
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Would you just take
the fucking sign down, Shan? Thank you.
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Oh, Bev's daughter wanted you
to come by. Room 19.
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She told me it was urgent.
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- When?
- Like, an hour ago.
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[Clare scoffs]
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[Clare mumbling]
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SHAN:
And I'm a Zoomer.
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CLARE:
Krystal, I'm so sorry to keep you waiting.
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I just got your message.
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- Did you sleep in here last night?
- Uh...
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My mom said
the admissions lady slept here last night.
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I know that you get lonely sometimes.
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And even though
you know that I can't sleep in here,
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I will always keep you company
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and make sure you're feeling cozy
and all tucked in, right?
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- Right?
- Mmm.
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[whispering] It's the Alzheimer's.
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- There you go.
- Thank you.
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Gentleman.
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- What?
- Wow.
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CLARE:
Oh, my God!
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Sam! What're you doing here?
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SAM: Oh, it's been...
CLARE: Been forever! Shit!
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- You look great!
- Wha... Oh.
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- Wait, when was the last time...
- I don't know!
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Was it, uh, Bread Loaf?
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Uh, uh, City Lights. Hannah's reading.
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Oh, fuck! Yeah.
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Aah. Wait, are you still at,
uh, uh, The Believer?
256
00:13:28,392 --> 00:13:30,102
No. They folded in March.
257
00:13:30,102 --> 00:13:32,352
But I left for The Mantros years ago.
258
00:13:32,354 --> 00:13:34,824
Oh, I love The Mantros.
259
00:13:34,815 --> 00:13:37,315
Essays... Dear Sugar...
260
00:13:37,317 --> 00:13:39,437
I know!
I got your fan letter last night!
261
00:13:42,489 --> 00:13:43,699
You wrote in to Dear Sugar.
262
00:13:45,951 --> 00:13:46,951
I'm Sugar.
263
00:13:48,871 --> 00:13:50,961
I'll explain. Do you want to go somewhere?
264
00:13:50,956 --> 00:13:51,956
Do you still not drive?
265
00:13:53,166 --> 00:13:55,666
An advice column is easy clicks.
266
00:13:55,669 --> 00:13:59,419
But who... who wants to get advice
from some middle-aged white dude?
267
00:13:59,423 --> 00:14:02,343
I've literally been reading this column
for the last three months,
268
00:14:02,342 --> 00:14:03,642
and it's fucking you?
269
00:14:03,635 --> 00:14:05,795
- How can it be you?
- I'm detecting some disdain here.
270
00:14:05,804 --> 00:14:09,104
You're pretending
to be a... a woman? What?
271
00:14:09,099 --> 00:14:11,269
I know. I know! I am living a lie.
272
00:14:11,268 --> 00:14:14,098
But then... you wrote in.
273
00:14:14,104 --> 00:14:16,694
And I saw your name
and I remembered your writing
274
00:14:16,690 --> 00:14:18,900
and the essay...
That fucking essay.
275
00:14:19,318 --> 00:14:23,068
And I realized that this woman
that I'm pretending to be,
276
00:14:23,071 --> 00:14:26,741
you know, working class,
pulled herself up by her bootstraps,
277
00:14:26,742 --> 00:14:28,162
- kinda disheveled...
- Okay.
278
00:14:28,160 --> 00:14:29,620
- She's literally you!
- Okay. Okay.
279
00:14:29,620 --> 00:14:32,500
- Okay, just take a left at Elm.
- You should be the one doing this.
280
00:14:33,081 --> 00:14:34,171
Doing what?
281
00:14:34,166 --> 00:14:36,706
- Being Sugar!
- What? No.
282
00:14:36,710 --> 00:14:37,710
I mean, it doesn't pay.
283
00:14:37,711 --> 00:14:41,091
And... And, you know,
there's no credit 'cause it's anonymous.
284
00:14:41,089 --> 00:14:42,839
But I would be your point.
285
00:14:42,841 --> 00:14:46,471
And all you have to do
is answer, like, one letter a week and...
286
00:14:46,470 --> 00:14:47,970
Sam, stop it.
287
00:14:47,971 --> 00:14:50,021
I'm not giving anybody advice.
288
00:14:50,015 --> 00:14:54,015
My life is a fucking shit show!
289
00:14:55,646 --> 00:14:56,766
And I...
290
00:14:56,772 --> 00:14:58,362
I'm not a writer!
291
00:14:58,357 --> 00:15:00,647
You're one of the best writers I know.
292
00:15:01,527 --> 00:15:05,317
You didn't get a book deal
off of that essay for nothing.
293
00:15:05,322 --> 00:15:07,952
Doesn't count
if you don't write the book.
294
00:15:07,950 --> 00:15:09,950
Everything counts, Sugar.
295
00:15:12,287 --> 00:15:13,457
Don't call me that!
296
00:15:22,589 --> 00:15:24,169
I'm sorry about your sister.
297
00:15:26,677 --> 00:15:29,757
Clare, I don't have a fucking sister.
I made it up.
298
00:15:29,763 --> 00:15:33,563
You made up someone
having fucking cancer?
299
00:15:33,559 --> 00:15:35,059
Take a right.
300
00:15:35,060 --> 00:15:37,100
SAM:
Yes, I made it all up!
301
00:15:37,104 --> 00:15:38,404
This is why I need you!
302
00:15:38,397 --> 00:15:40,357
Oh, you are the worst, Sam!
303
00:15:40,357 --> 00:15:42,187
I can't believe
I almost ever slept with you.
304
00:15:42,192 --> 00:15:43,192
Pull over!
305
00:15:43,193 --> 00:15:45,203
SAM: What are you doing?
CLARE: I'm... I'm getting out.
306
00:15:45,195 --> 00:15:46,525
Wait, what do you mean, "almost"?
307
00:15:46,530 --> 00:15:48,280
We never slept together? Why not?
308
00:15:48,282 --> 00:15:50,162
'Cause you're an asshole.
309
00:15:50,158 --> 00:15:53,078
Oh, so you're done with me now?
That's it?
310
00:15:53,078 --> 00:15:55,618
I have therapy. Thank you for the ride.
311
00:15:55,622 --> 00:15:58,462
- What? You're an asshole!
- Okay, fine.
312
00:15:58,458 --> 00:16:00,168
SAM:
No, no, no, no. Here. Wait.
313
00:16:00,169 --> 00:16:03,549
I... I printed out
the letters that I didn't answer
314
00:16:03,547 --> 00:16:05,007
because I can't... [mumbles]
315
00:16:05,716 --> 00:16:09,426
Just... read 'em.
And if you want, just answer one.
316
00:16:11,013 --> 00:16:14,273
Everyone's lives are a fucking shit show!
317
00:16:14,266 --> 00:16:16,306
People, they need help.
318
00:16:16,310 --> 00:16:20,020
You said it yourself,
"Create something of her life.
Make it beautiful."
319
00:16:23,358 --> 00:16:24,938
EMPLOYEE:
Let me see if I can help you.
320
00:16:24,943 --> 00:16:26,493
Did you happen to save the receipt?
321
00:16:26,486 --> 00:16:29,316
I... did not save the receipt.
322
00:16:29,323 --> 00:16:31,033
It was final sale.
323
00:16:31,033 --> 00:16:33,203
EMPLOYEE:
I... I can try to look it up.
324
00:16:33,702 --> 00:16:35,002
WOMAN:
I appreciate that.
325
00:16:37,623 --> 00:16:39,423
EMPLOYEE:
I may need to talk to my supervisor.
326
00:16:45,964 --> 00:16:48,014
- Did it work out?
- Mm-hmm.
327
00:16:48,008 --> 00:16:49,258
- It's okay?
- It's okay.
328
00:16:55,432 --> 00:16:56,432
You're late.
329
00:16:56,433 --> 00:16:57,893
I'm actually two minutes early
330
00:16:57,893 --> 00:17:00,733
'cause she's always
five minutes late, so.
331
00:17:00,729 --> 00:17:03,399
[phone dings]
CLARE: [softly] Make sure that's off.
332
00:17:06,860 --> 00:17:08,070
Who is it?
333
00:17:09,154 --> 00:17:10,744
Hmm?
DANNY: [scoffs] Lucas again?
334
00:17:13,992 --> 00:17:16,412
WOMAN: I'm glad
you both are choosing to be here today.
335
00:17:18,830 --> 00:17:21,040
I know, in the past,
that hasn't always been the case.
336
00:17:23,627 --> 00:17:26,417
This feels like a particularly hard moment
in your marriage.
337
00:17:27,381 --> 00:17:29,381
I think a lot has been said.
338
00:17:30,551 --> 00:17:33,971
And maybe... a lot hasn't been said.
339
00:17:37,099 --> 00:17:39,889
Yeah. No, um, I... I feel that same way.
340
00:17:40,727 --> 00:17:42,727
Honestly, it's, um...
341
00:17:44,231 --> 00:17:45,231
Uh...
342
00:17:47,693 --> 00:17:48,693
Yeah.
343
00:17:50,445 --> 00:17:53,945
Jung once said,
"I am not what has happened to me.
344
00:17:54,741 --> 00:17:56,871
I am what I choose to become."
345
00:17:57,536 --> 00:17:59,286
Does that bring up
anything for you, Clare?
346
00:17:59,288 --> 00:18:00,288
No.
347
00:18:00,914 --> 00:18:04,044
How long am I supposed
to stay out of my own home?
348
00:18:04,042 --> 00:18:06,422
Well, how long do you think
you need to stay out of your home?
349
00:18:09,089 --> 00:18:10,549
What are we doing?
350
00:18:10,549 --> 00:18:14,139
What is this space supposed to accomplish?
351
00:18:14,136 --> 00:18:18,016
Or is it just, like,
one long, torturous experiment
352
00:18:18,015 --> 00:18:20,725
to slowly turn my own daughter against me?
353
00:18:20,726 --> 00:18:21,976
It was her college fund!
354
00:18:21,977 --> 00:18:23,847
Part of. That he will pay back!
355
00:18:23,854 --> 00:18:25,864
You just gave it away
without even talking to me!
356
00:18:25,856 --> 00:18:27,516
What? You just thought I wouldn't notice?
357
00:18:27,524 --> 00:18:29,824
What did you want me to fucking do?
Leave him homeless?
358
00:18:29,818 --> 00:18:32,818
It was our childhood home!
It's my mother's house!
359
00:18:32,821 --> 00:18:35,321
He lives there! And it was underwater.
360
00:18:35,324 --> 00:18:37,034
Yeah, because he fucked up.
361
00:18:37,034 --> 00:18:38,164
Yeah, he fucks up all the time!
362
00:18:38,160 --> 00:18:39,490
Yeah, he does fuck up all the time and...
363
00:18:39,494 --> 00:18:42,004
Yeah, fine, fine!
But family takes care of family.
364
00:18:42,497 --> 00:18:43,667
I'm it for him.
365
00:18:43,665 --> 00:18:45,915
What would you do?
Would you leave me on the fucking street?
366
00:18:46,668 --> 00:18:48,418
Oh! [scoffs]
367
00:18:48,420 --> 00:18:52,220
Clare, have you ever heard
of the phrase "financial infidelity"?
368
00:18:52,216 --> 00:18:53,216
Oh, my God.
369
00:18:53,217 --> 00:18:57,097
It can be as destabilizing
and damaging as sexual infidelity.
370
00:18:57,095 --> 00:18:58,095
Even more so.
371
00:18:58,096 --> 00:18:59,096
Yeah. Okay.
372
00:18:59,097 --> 00:19:00,967
That's not even in the same ballpark,
373
00:19:00,974 --> 00:19:02,814
- 'cause there's no betrayal here.
- Right.
374
00:19:02,809 --> 00:19:04,729
I needed to take care of my brother.
375
00:19:04,728 --> 00:19:07,018
Yeah, when you do something wrong,
it's... it's different rules.
376
00:19:07,022 --> 00:19:08,322
This is not about rules.
377
00:19:08,315 --> 00:19:10,315
Not everybody comes from
where you come from,
378
00:19:10,317 --> 00:19:13,857
or just... or, you know,
starts life with an even playing field.
379
00:19:13,862 --> 00:19:15,112
I'm a Black man in America.
380
00:19:15,113 --> 00:19:17,243
I know people don't come
from an equal playing field, Clare.
381
00:19:17,241 --> 00:19:19,331
That's not what I mean.
I'm talking about being rich!
382
00:19:19,326 --> 00:19:21,246
- I grew up middle class.
- Yeah, that's rich.
383
00:19:21,245 --> 00:19:24,155
What do you want me to say?
My brother's a fuck-up. I'm a fuck-up.
384
00:19:24,164 --> 00:19:25,334
Okay, I'm an awful person.
385
00:19:25,332 --> 00:19:27,172
I'm awful. I'm horrible. That's it.
386
00:19:27,167 --> 00:19:29,207
I don't know what to say.
I don't know what to fucking say.
387
00:19:29,878 --> 00:19:31,628
Let's just start
with how you're feeling, hm?
388
00:19:31,630 --> 00:19:35,550
I am feeling hungry. I am feeling tired.
389
00:19:35,551 --> 00:19:37,851
I'm feeling like a shell of a person.
390
00:19:37,845 --> 00:19:40,675
- Like I'm staring into an abyss...
- I get it.
391
00:19:43,058 --> 00:19:44,638
I mean, I'm not there yet,
392
00:19:44,643 --> 00:19:48,023
but I think it's really common
for women your age to feel this way.
393
00:19:48,021 --> 00:19:49,311
You've spoken before
394
00:19:49,314 --> 00:19:51,534
about your insecurities
with getting older...
395
00:19:51,525 --> 00:19:53,775
I thought we were talking
about me giving money to my brother.
396
00:19:53,777 --> 00:19:56,567
- And with the age gap
between you and Danny...
- It's not that big.
397
00:19:56,572 --> 00:19:59,992
And the way our society
treats women over 50 as irrelevant...
398
00:19:59,992 --> 00:20:01,702
- I'm 49!
- You'll be 50 in a month.
399
00:20:01,702 --> 00:20:05,252
Women over 50 are treated
as if they are barely sexual beings.
400
00:20:05,247 --> 00:20:09,747
Their beauty is fading, or at least
our conventional ideas of beauty.
401
00:20:09,751 --> 00:20:11,711
Because of that, their power wanes.
402
00:20:11,712 --> 00:20:15,972
Their wants and desires
are considered as an afterthought.
403
00:20:16,800 --> 00:20:17,800
Okay.
404
00:20:22,598 --> 00:20:23,598
[keys jingle]
405
00:20:41,408 --> 00:20:42,408
Oh.
406
00:20:48,248 --> 00:20:50,248
[muffled conversation]
407
00:21:00,093 --> 00:21:02,683
[Danny speaking indistinctly]
408
00:21:02,679 --> 00:21:04,679
♪
409
00:21:08,685 --> 00:21:10,095
I mean, it's therapy!
410
00:21:10,103 --> 00:21:13,403
It's not office hours.
You don't stick around after class!
411
00:21:13,398 --> 00:21:17,068
You know, that's like a cesspool
full of bacteria, right?
412
00:21:17,069 --> 00:21:20,159
Okay, why don't you ask
your hot dishwasher to clean it out?
413
00:21:20,781 --> 00:21:23,081
Oh, well, maybe I will.
414
00:21:24,701 --> 00:21:25,741
- Hello.
- There you go.
415
00:21:25,744 --> 00:21:26,834
Oh, my God!
416
00:21:26,828 --> 00:21:27,828
WOMAN:
Thank you.
417
00:21:27,829 --> 00:21:29,499
[woman laughing]
418
00:21:29,498 --> 00:21:30,788
Jesus Christ, Amy!
419
00:21:30,791 --> 00:21:32,791
[Amy snickering]
420
00:21:33,293 --> 00:21:34,803
I'm naughty!
421
00:21:34,795 --> 00:21:36,625
Uh, are they having sex?
422
00:21:36,630 --> 00:21:38,220
They... Do they wanna have sex?
423
00:21:38,924 --> 00:21:43,474
Is couple's therapy some,
you know, sick psycho foreplay
424
00:21:43,470 --> 00:21:47,350
where they're just telepathically
jerking each other off in front of me?
425
00:21:47,349 --> 00:21:50,849
And... is my insurance paying for it?
426
00:21:50,853 --> 00:21:53,903
Oh, my God!
Maybe I should be a couple's therapist.
427
00:21:53,897 --> 00:21:55,607
CLARE:
I mean, I'm the one who found her!
428
00:21:55,607 --> 00:21:58,107
He didn't even wanna go!
And now he's like, what... He's what?
429
00:21:58,110 --> 00:22:00,360
He's, like, fucking some woman
430
00:22:00,362 --> 00:22:05,412
who decorates her office with gnomes
grabbing their own weird stone vaginas?
431
00:22:05,409 --> 00:22:07,619
Okay. Danny loves you.
432
00:22:07,619 --> 00:22:12,249
He's not fucking his therapist
or any stone, uh, vaginas, okay?
433
00:22:13,792 --> 00:22:16,092
She called me barely a woman.
434
00:22:18,964 --> 00:22:20,594
Am I barely a woman?
435
00:22:20,591 --> 00:22:22,511
I mean,
she probably said it to get laid.
436
00:22:22,509 --> 00:22:25,219
Thanks, Amy.
AMY: Hang in there.
437
00:22:33,520 --> 00:22:34,520
Thanks.
438
00:22:48,660 --> 00:22:49,660
Hey.
439
00:22:51,038 --> 00:22:52,038
Hey.
440
00:22:56,168 --> 00:22:58,168
♪
441
00:23:03,967 --> 00:23:04,967
[softly] Hey.
442
00:23:06,178 --> 00:23:09,178
♪
443
00:23:20,984 --> 00:23:24,324
[young Clare moaning]
444
00:23:35,541 --> 00:23:37,751
[Clare grunting] Okay.
445
00:23:37,751 --> 00:23:39,041
MAN:
I can't get it in.
446
00:23:39,044 --> 00:23:41,464
No, it's because, uh...
It's... it's... The angle is wrong
447
00:23:42,673 --> 00:23:43,803
Okay, yeah, maybe we...
448
00:23:43,799 --> 00:23:44,929
- Yeah.
- Yeah, let's go.
449
00:23:45,801 --> 00:23:46,931
[squishing]
450
00:23:46,927 --> 00:23:49,297
What the f...
Wait, what the fuck is happening?
451
00:23:49,888 --> 00:23:51,638
Wait, is this a waterbed?
452
00:23:51,640 --> 00:23:53,890
Oh, my God!
[laughing] Oh, my God.
453
00:23:53,892 --> 00:23:56,232
Am I in 1979?
454
00:23:56,228 --> 00:24:00,228
Am I in a... Am I trapped
in a fucking Steely Dan song?
455
00:24:00,232 --> 00:24:02,192
Oh, my God.
456
00:24:03,068 --> 00:24:05,488
- Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
- What?
457
00:24:05,487 --> 00:24:09,237
[Clare laughing and crying]
458
00:24:10,492 --> 00:24:12,872
- Oh, my God.
- Are you okay?
459
00:24:12,870 --> 00:24:15,750
[Clare crying]
460
00:24:15,747 --> 00:24:18,627
I am not okay.
461
00:24:20,252 --> 00:24:21,462
Wait, are you married?
462
00:24:22,129 --> 00:24:24,589
- What the...
- The ring on your finger?
463
00:24:25,507 --> 00:24:28,677
Are you gonna fucking judge me?
You have a fucking waterbed!
464
00:24:28,677 --> 00:24:29,677
So?
465
00:24:34,391 --> 00:24:36,141
And I like Steely Dan.
466
00:24:37,227 --> 00:24:38,847
Well, they're a great band.
467
00:24:49,740 --> 00:24:51,330
[phone chimes]
468
00:25:04,963 --> 00:25:07,973
♪
469
00:25:27,319 --> 00:25:28,699
WOMAN:
Dear Sugar,
470
00:25:28,695 --> 00:25:30,985
I'm 22, and my question is short.
471
00:25:32,032 --> 00:25:33,872
What would you tell
your 20-something self
472
00:25:33,867 --> 00:25:35,237
if you could talk to her now?
473
00:25:36,328 --> 00:25:38,208
Love, Seeking Wisdom.
474
00:25:40,415 --> 00:25:43,415
♪
475
00:25:45,629 --> 00:25:46,669
CLARE:
476
00:25:50,634 --> 00:25:51,644
Dear...
477
00:25:56,265 --> 00:25:58,055
Dear Seeking Wisdom.
478
00:25:59,142 --> 00:26:01,942
What would I tell my 22-year-old self?
479
00:26:03,480 --> 00:26:05,820
I'd say,
stop worrying whether you're fat.
480
00:26:06,525 --> 00:26:08,355
Feed yourself, literally.
481
00:26:09,528 --> 00:26:13,698
The people worthy of your love
will love you more for this.
482
00:26:18,495 --> 00:26:23,285
I'd also say that
most things will be okay eventually,
483
00:26:24,835 --> 00:26:26,085
but not everything.
484
00:26:31,842 --> 00:26:33,802
One afternoon in your 20s,
485
00:26:33,802 --> 00:26:37,142
when you've gotten yourself
ridiculously tangled up with heroin,
486
00:26:37,139 --> 00:26:40,929
you'll be riding the bus and thinking
what a worthless piece of shit you are.
487
00:26:42,352 --> 00:26:44,732
A little girl will get on the bus
with her mother,
488
00:26:44,730 --> 00:26:46,820
holding the strings
of two purple balloons.
489
00:26:47,566 --> 00:26:50,566
She will offer you one of the balloons,
but you won't take it
490
00:26:50,569 --> 00:26:52,949
because you believe
you no longer have a right
491
00:26:52,946 --> 00:26:55,196
to such tiny beautiful things.
492
00:27:00,037 --> 00:27:01,037
You're wrong.
493
00:27:04,124 --> 00:27:05,134
You do.
494
00:27:07,419 --> 00:27:12,049
EMPLOYEE:
That's $127.62. I'm so sorry.
495
00:27:12,049 --> 00:27:14,639
CLARE: And someday,
you'll look back on that one Christmas,
496
00:27:14,635 --> 00:27:16,965
when your mother gave you
a mustard-yellow coat
497
00:27:16,970 --> 00:27:19,140
that she'd saved for months to buy.
498
00:27:21,225 --> 00:27:24,225
♪
499
00:27:27,814 --> 00:27:28,904
Don't hold it up and say
500
00:27:28,899 --> 00:27:30,689
it's longer than
you like your coats to be,
501
00:27:30,692 --> 00:27:34,572
and too puffy,
and possibly even too warm.
502
00:27:36,532 --> 00:27:38,872
Because your mother
will be dead by spring...
503
00:27:38,867 --> 00:27:39,867
[door opens]
504
00:27:41,036 --> 00:27:43,456
...and that coat will be the last gift
she ever gave you.
505
00:27:44,831 --> 00:27:45,831
Are you okay?
506
00:27:50,420 --> 00:27:51,800
I love you. [sniffles]
507
00:27:53,298 --> 00:27:54,798
You know that, right?
508
00:27:54,800 --> 00:27:57,300
Ab... About the money,
it's... it's not gone.
509
00:27:57,302 --> 00:27:58,852
It's not about the money.
510
00:27:58,846 --> 00:27:59,846
Then what?
511
00:28:04,142 --> 00:28:05,442
Do you want me to bring that in?
512
00:28:11,650 --> 00:28:13,820
CLARE: And you will regret
the small thing you didn't say
513
00:28:13,819 --> 00:28:14,949
for the rest of your life.
514
00:28:15,863 --> 00:28:16,863
RAE:
Have a good night.
515
00:28:19,157 --> 00:28:20,157
You too.
516
00:28:20,158 --> 00:28:23,698
When a gift is given, say thank you.
517
00:28:23,704 --> 00:28:24,714
Mom?
518
00:28:30,836 --> 00:28:31,836
You dropped something.
519
00:28:33,213 --> 00:28:37,473
CLARE:
When a gift is given, say thank you.
520
00:28:44,183 --> 00:28:46,733
When a gift... is given...
521
00:28:49,521 --> 00:28:50,771
[door closes]
522
00:28:50,772 --> 00:28:51,772
Thank you.
523
00:28:56,945 --> 00:28:59,945
♪
524
00:29:01,408 --> 00:29:05,118
♪ I'm trying to tell you
something 'bout my life ♪
525
00:29:06,663 --> 00:29:11,133
♪ Maybe give me insight
between black and white ♪
526
00:29:11,126 --> 00:29:14,876
♪ And the best thing
that you ever done for me ♪
527
00:29:16,131 --> 00:29:19,891
♪ Is to help me
take my life less seriously ♪
528
00:29:19,885 --> 00:29:22,635
♪ It's only life after all ♪
529
00:29:26,016 --> 00:29:28,476
♪ I went to the doctor ♪
530
00:29:28,477 --> 00:29:30,897
♪ I went to the mountains ♪
531
00:29:30,896 --> 00:29:33,356
♪ I looked to the children ♪
532
00:29:33,357 --> 00:29:35,817
♪ I drank from the fountains ♪
533
00:29:35,817 --> 00:29:39,567
♪ There's more than one answer
to these questions ♪
534
00:29:39,571 --> 00:29:42,161
♪ Pointing me in a crooked line ♪
535
00:29:43,075 --> 00:29:46,865
♪ And the less I seek my source ♪
536
00:29:46,870 --> 00:29:51,120
♪ The closer I am to fine ♪
537
00:29:52,084 --> 00:30:01,974
♪ Closer I am to fine ♪
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