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You know it is my own choice to hate or love

When I'm in love

No matter what happens, Nao-chan

I will always love you

I love you too, Yuuichi-san

What's wrong? Your stomach hurts?

No, it's fine

Listen, you should go home now

I was planning to stay here tonight

I'm fine

Sorry for making you worry

Hey

If it hurts again or if there's blood in your urine, tell the nurse right away

Yes, doctor

Bye

Is this the beginning of the end?

No

Saying the wrong name is only a trivial matter

After that, for many hours...

Everything is because of her disease

I told myself many times over

However

If it was because of her disease

That she suddenly went after me a month ago

You're Mamiya Shinji?

So I'm your type, huh?

Again

I can't help but think that it was because of her disease

It stinks

I can't remember

What should I do?

Yuuichi-san

I love you too, Yuuichi-san

Suna ni Mamireta Angelica

Mishima

Matsushiro Shrine

"I forgot to ask"

"I was admitted with my work uniform on"

"Could you bring a change of clothes tomorrow?"

OK! You're still awake? You should get some rest

"Bring a change of clothes"

Subber: Bertowski

Dai Renai ~Boku wo wasureru kimi to

Episode 4

How are you feeling?

The pain yesterday was like a dream

Thank you

Okay then, I guess you can go home now

I will give you some painkillers

Please make a checkup appointment for next week before you go home

Well then, take care

Thank you very much

Hey

Yeah?

Yesterday night

Did I by any chance say your name wrong?

Eh?

What are you talking about?

Nothing

Feels like it's been so long

Though I was only in hospital for a day

You were so busy you haven't stayed at home long enough

Don't push yourself like that again, okay?

Wanna eat some apple pies?

Yesterday night I went to a convenience store and bought some

I don't know if it's good or not though

Yes?

I'm from Art Corp

Kimura-san?

How you doing?

Sorry for making you worry

Yesterday, I thought you were gonna die or something

Come on in

Excuse me, ma'am

Don't call her "ma'am" as if she's my wife

Please sit over there

Thank you

Thank you for your help at the time

At what time?

When I was moving

Oh when you moved to Takanawa

After that, your life just went crazy, right ma'am?

Moving from that high class apartment to this shipwreck

It must be the best one in your life

Or should I say a life without a future

You talk too much, Kimura-san

Oh right, here

Why did you bring your laptop to work?

Well...

To watch some porn?

Kimura-san, thank you

I can be helpful at times

Though I do talk too much

It's nothing special, but

If you fancy some apple pies

Shinji-san loves these

So you loves apple pies, huh?

Kind of

Oh...

Ma'am...

What do you see in him?

To hate or love is one's own choice

Once I choose to love, I will continue to love

Smart people sure says some complicated stuffs, eh?

What's this?

Suna ni Mamireta Angelica

Mamiya Shinji

Mamiya Shinji?

He doesn't know?

He doesn't

Kimura-san

He is a novelist actually

Huh?

Um well, how should I put it?

Not that I'm keeping it a secret or anything

Ah, I don't really write anymore

So you could say that I'm a ex-novelist

I am a full fledged movers now

T/N: It's not that uncommon for people to misread kanji

Exquisite... Literature Award

Never heard of it

Well of course, cause it was something from the past

That sure is something from the past

21 years old?

What is this Angelica about?

It's the author's alter ego

So you're angelica?

Well, not exactly...

I...

Love this part

"Like a chimney, standing upright towards the sky"

"Confident and straightforward"

"I love this guy, Angelica thought"

Oh, so this is an erotic novel?

It's a belles lettres

Mamiya-san sure have a good handwriting

Cause he is a novelist

I wonder how did that doctor figured out that Mamiya-san is a novelist?

She said that she is a big fan of this novel

What a coincidence

It's more like fate, rather than coincidence

The woman he fated to be

My girlfriend, can she also be called the one I fated to be?

How should I know?

Mamiya's lady can recite her favorite part of this book, isn't it amazing?

No wonder Mamiya-san fell for her

But, is a novelist really that great?

I surely have the better looks than him

You fool, this is a belles lettres

What is that?

Just read it, it's quite erotic

Is belles lettres erotic?

It is

Here, she seems nice

Her father is the President of Santou Hospital

She is a digestive system surgeon

But digestive system surgeon is not really that impressive

Don't say that, you don't even know what that is

Well she's young and pretty

I heard she graduated as the top ranking student at Asahigaoka Medical University

But it's Asahigaoka

That's also one of the things you should not say

I guess so

Being the best is pretty tough wherever it is

But being a doctor

Having good grades doesn't guarantee someone of becoming a good doctor

So, you're not gonna see her?

Um, I will

"Bring a change of clothes"

Only when she's asleep

She looks like she's free from the fear of losing herself

Her face while sleeping

Is as innocent as a baby

Ihara-sensei?

Nice to meet you

I'm Azusawa Rei

I'm Ihara, have a seat

Thank you

What do you want to order?

I'll have a chamomile tea please

Of course

I'm glad you're willing see me

No problem

Um...

Here is my medical checkup data

Would you take it instead of my card?

Here's my blood test result

I've also come prepared

You sure have come prepared

I just thought that you are the kind of person that might not like to waste time

The sudden cancellation of your marriage just happened recently

And now you're already searching for a date

How do you know?

The story of your last minute canceled marriage is pretty famous in the medical society

Even my father knows about it

They got me

Sorry for my bad manners

No, it's nothing

You're pretty interesting, Azusawa-san

Is that a compliment?

Of course

So, can I ask about one more thing?

I can't tell you the reason why the marriage is canceled

Wow, it's like you can see though my mind

Is that a compliment?

Of course

Ihara-sensei

With marriage in mind

Would you mind going out with me?

I just had a last minute canceled marriage

Wouldn't it makes your parents worry?

If I'm happy, there won't be any complaints

Is that so?

Well then

Please be my girlfriend

Really?

Yeay

Next time, you should bring your medical checkup data

It's too much like a historical play

You, beyond the

The unpredictable love Getting off the train, walking on desert To the forgetful girl That will forget me one day

Apple pie and

The Brain and Apple Pie

If the hot flushes symptom doesn't seem to get better

We should change the hormonal therapy

But Nao-sensei just started the medication for the placenta

She told me to wait and see

Yes, but I'm planning to take over her patients one by one

And she said that it might be good for you to start hormone replacement therapy

Nao-sensei said that it can happen either way, right?

Well, she did, yes

Then why not just keeping it the way it is?

I think we should tell Hatano-san the truth

I just thought about it though

What do you girls think?

That patient have a lot of complaints from the start

She could spread some weird rumors

I'm so sorry

I should've joined you in the consultation while letting you taking over my patients

Well, the next time she sees me, she might be in a better mood

Let's just wait and see for the moment

Yes

Mamiya-san

Kogawa, thanks for taking me to the hospital the other day

It's nothing, but it was the first time I saw someone in so much pain

It feels like I'm living in a tepid way until now

It's only a ureteral stones

I still want to work with the same kind of pace until there's blood in my pee again

Yeah, I'm 100% sure it doesn't feel good being financially dependent

Yes, she even have some savings that I can't say how much

And she said I can just write without having to work

She's basically a high maintenance woman, so I do at least have to work

Mamiya-san, did you say your girlfriend has some savings that you can't say how much?

Is it about 3 million?

Idiot!

It's at least 10 times more

If I'm dating someone with 30 million or 60 million yen

I will choose not to work

If you do a physical work and bleed again it would be a problem

Why don't you join the cleaning unit?

No, the stone has gone now, I'm totally fine

You should take it easy, and you can still do your best doing regular work, you're already 40 you know

When life gives you a second chance, you have to cherish it more

Don't make a serious face like that, I can't take the pressure right now

The second chapter is Angelica's bold chimney

Shouldn't it be Angelica's 60 million yen?

That's funny, how about...

Angelica who?

This pants is really comfortable you know

Now I want to change all my pants to this one, where do you by it?

Did I buy that one?

It's about my new novel though

This whole 10 years, I never had any idea about what to write

Not even one word came to mind

I thought I will never write again

But ever since I met you

I feel the urge to write again

Please, I want you to write again

Can I write about you, Nao-chan?

You mean, about a woman suffering from a disease that one day she will lose her memories?

I will include the disease

But it's mainly about what happens in our life, or something about

the details of our love story

That's the idea I have in mind

If you don't like it, I won't write it

No, I want you to write anything you want to write

If that means it will be about you and I, I will approve

What if someone who reads it knows that it's about us, is that okay with you?

I wonder if that's okay...

Okay then, I will write about a whole different type of woman

Say, that woman is like...

She's a very good cook

And very hairy

She's hairy?

She's always drenching in sweat like a cleaning cloth and kinda smelly

No way, I don't want to read a love story about that kind of person

But the man loves the smell of the woman that always drenching in sweat like a cleaning cloth

The title is "Squeeze me, and I shall dry"

That's no good, the moment I said it it just doesn't feel right

It's okay, I understand

Just write it the way you want

Are you really fine with it?

Whatever it is, just write it the way you want

Even about this

Or this, or this

Subber: Bertowski

Dad, please wait here, I'm just going to the toilet

Here Okay

Kitazawa-san, please wait at room number 6

Okay

Psychiatric Department

Good morning

How are you feeling today?

I don't feel well at all recently

You don't feel well?

I can't remember the things I bought

Leaving on the gas on the stove

Leaving the water running in the bathroom for hours

Well, even I've done something like leaving the water running

But it feels like it's been happening frequently

The disease is not something that will develop so abruptly

I don't think it's something to be worried about

Should we go on with the usual test?

I don't feel like doing it

Well, let's just have a talk then

Alzheimer?

Is it true that Mamiya Shinji came to see you?

Yes

I guess he wanted to know the conditions of my disease

I don't really understand his intention to see me

He doesn't seem to look concerned about my disease

Would you consider marriage?

Do you genuinely suggest me to do so?

Of course

I won't be able to recognize myself, I can't just ask someone to take care of me for the rest of his life

We don't know yet if you wouldn't be able to recognize yourself or not

But the symptoms is getting worse and worse

I'm sure that

That way you will find happiness

But doctor, you...

You won't be the one that I'm gonna marry

Since I was turned down by you?

Thank you for waiting

Thank you

How do you do?

How's your daughter doing?

She's doing well, thank you

Thanks to Ihara-sensei's hard work

Is your daughter seeing my son?

How thoughtless can you be, Kitazawa-san?

But, it was Ihara-sensei that offered to

Your daughter was not meant to be with my son

The reasonable thing to do now is to give up on my son being your daughter's doctor

Ihara-sensei is an expert in early onset Alzheimer's disease

That's only an excuse

Please consider my son's feelings

There must be another excellent psychiatrists

For now, please consider moving to another hospital

Please consider it well

Just a kiss?

Let's go home and call it a day

The woman you last engaged with, just consider her dead, will you?

I can't do that

And what's the plan with Azusawa Rei?

If you're planning to turn her down but still dragging it on without saying it clearly

You're breaking the rules of the date

I still don't know yet

You can't make up your mind cause you secretly became the doctor of your ex-fiancé

This is so not like you, what is going on?

A patient is a patient, nothing less, nothing more

Is that so?

I don't want to talk about that right now so I'm hanging up

Anyway, just give up on being her doctor

The brain and apple pie

Sounds nice

Is it?

It is

It will sell

Then I guess this will be the title

I never thought that I would've given Mamiya Shinji an advice on his book's title

Me too

Can I read the beginning?

The beginning might change though

"From that moment, she's always in a hurry"

"As if being chased by something"

"She's always in a hurry"

What's wrong? Is it bad?

I don't wanna be in a rush

I want to be in this moment forever

Please, take a look at this

"Her license should be revoked!"

"I think the clinic's director should also take responsibility"

"What a fraud!" Shouldn't they think about the patients first!

Hello, KITA Ladies Clinic

I just saw it on the site

Does Kitazawa Nao-sensei have Alzheimer?

She's not feeling well right now

So she's having a day off

So it's true, Alzheimer's, huh?

About that matter...

Good morning, KITA Ladies Clinic

I'm Yamakawa who has an appointment for next week

Yes

I want to cancel it

Yes, please wait a moment

*canceled*

Hello

I will take it

Hello

Hello, this is Sawada the receptionist speaking

Hello, KITA Ladies Clinic

Please wait a moment

It's from the Ministry of Health, Labor and Welfare's Medical Ethics Council

Huh?

Probably Hatano-san reported us to the ministry

What would you do?

I'll take it

Thank you for waiting

I'm Kitazawa the clinic's director

Good mor... Shh!

What should we do?

It appears that we have to be at the Ministry of Health tomorrow at 11 AM

Sorry for causing so much troubles

It's not that we did anything wrong

We have to stand firm

I'll be staying at my mom's today

Fine with me, something happened?

They claimed that I'm doing practice while having early onset Alzheimer

So I was called by the Ministry of Health, Labor and Welfare

Eh?

Tonight, we have to work on some counter measures

So that's why you looked down last night

Even KITA Ladies Clinic site is flooding with comments

I don't mind about what people say to me

But, for my mom, the clinic is her life

Good luck

Thanks

I'll be going now

Okay

Thanks

Ihara-sensei

Yesterday, they asked me for your medical certificate

I think it's better if I explain it directly

Subber: Bertowski

Kitazawa Nao-san

When were you diagnosed with mild cognitive impairment?

On June 13th, this year

Was there any symptoms before that?

There was a few

But I didn't know that those are MCI symptoms

But you noticed that you were not well

And that might compromise your ability to diagnose, yet you continued diagnosing patients

Director Kitazawa Kaoru

Yes

Did you notice any kind of change or peculiarity in dr. Kitazawa Nao?

No, I did not

May I offer my opinion?

Ihara-sensei, you're supposed to come here tomorrow at 13 o'clock

May 30th

After Kitazawa Nao-san had an accident

I saw her MRI result

I had a suspicion that she might have early onset Alzheimer's disease

And after doing several tests

On June 13th, I diagnosed her with MCI

About her condition developing into early onset Alzheimer or not

At this stage, we don't know for sure

And about the symptoms she has at the moment

It won't hinder her at all from doing everyday life

There won't be any problem for her practicing as a doctor

And I did tell her that

For slowing down the progress of her disease

I did suggest her to continue working

In addition

Kitazawa-san, following that day

She stopped diagnosing patients

If she were to puts herself in the patient's shoes

For example, if there's a doctor diagnosed with MCI, a disease that impairs the capabilities of one's memories

She doesn't want to be diagnosed by that doctor

If she continues diagnosing patients

That means she doesn't uphold the best interest of the patients

That was what Kitazawa-san told me

There's rarely any doctor

That sees from the perspective of the patients as clearly as she does

To be honest, that really took my breath away

I don't know exactly what kind of claim that the ministry received

But I think this is not a case in which a deliberation from the Medical Ethics Council is needed

Ihara-sensei, among your patients

Is there a doctor suffering from Alzheimer's disease, continue his or her work?

Of course, it is also a means to slow down the development of the disease

There are not many that ended up throwing away their careers

Here are Kitazawa-san's examinations data and medical certificate

I will hand it to you

You sure are well prepared

I will keep this

We will take this chance to inform the patients of the clinic about the truth

And I will also inform them about my decision to leave the practice and the reason behind it

To tell you the truth

The one who reported this matter was the wife of one of the executives

That's why we cannot ignore it

And we have to trouble you to come all the way here

But listening to what Ihara-sensei said

This is not a case for deliberation

That is my conclusion

Thank you very much

What are you doing?

Just writing a good review on this parent's clinic's site

How devoted

My heart breaks seeing you work this hard

Doctor

Thank you very much for today

It's nothing

Should we go and explain this matter to the patient that put in the claim?

It's fine, I will do it myself by sending them letters

I will also send along my medical certificate you wrote

Alright

If anything happens, feel free to call me anytime

Thank you very much Thank you very much

Excuse me

What a doctor

I think I'm captivated by him

Someone said that

"There's no way I will leave that doctor"

Who said that?

Eh?

No, it's nothing

He's a good doctor

I like him

"Taking the medication I got from KITA Ladies Clinic"

"Drenching in sweat like a cleaning cloth, I don't smell bad at all"

"I think it is an astounding clinic"

"Drenching in sweat like a cleaning cloth"?

Do we have a patient like that?

Nao

"Thank you very much for today"

"If you had not come"

"I don't know what's going to happen"

"I miss you"

Azusawa Rei

"If you want to ask Kitazawa Nao's doctor about anything concerning her"

"You can send an e-mail to the address below and I will reply with an answer"

How many times will you read that?

This time, Ihara-sensei really helped a lot

Oh, also, thank you for that drenching in sweat comment

As I thought, that doctor

Really is an irreplaceable person for you, huh, Nao-chan?

Eh?

Deep inside your heart, instead of me

You rely more on Ihara-sensei

What are you talking about?

Just a thought mine

Ihara-sensei really is a good doctor

But I do not choose to love him

I choose to love you Shinji

No matter what happens, I choose you Shinji

Is that so?

Not long ago, you called me Yuuichi-san, don't you remember?

Don't you dare say such things

I am sick

I won't be able to recognize myself, that's the kind of disease I'm facing

Don't complain about little things like saying the wrong name

And even if I do say it wrong, you should just tell me right away

There's no point in being quiet about it and then complain about it now

I didn't want to tell you, I just didn't wanna say such things

Calling me with your ex-fiancé's name, I do have feelings you know

Like you understand my feelings

In the first place

Don't you ever think that maybe you fell for me because of your disease?

Huh?

It's kind of weird after I give it a thought

You were engaged and were about to get married

And somehow you suddenly went after me

Someone living in this shipwreck

Falling for me

Nao-chan

I think you're confusing love with illness

I can't talk with you right now

Why are you here?

I wonder why

Eh?

I just wanted to see you

And I come here

But I don't know what to do once I'm here

And I just sit here, lost in thought

About an hour

An hour?

Even today

I didn't actually do it for you

I noticed that

It's not you who needs me

It's me that needs you

I am grateful for what you've done doctor

I am very very grateful

But the one I love is

Mamiya Shinji

He, being by my side

gives me the strength to live more than anyone else

I'm sorry

I'm sorry for what I said earlier

I love you not because I have this disease

I really...

Nao-chan

What?

Let's break up

For 20 years

I never had the passion to write any ideas nor words

Then comes a woman that once again gives me that passion

But the one meant to be with that irreplaceable woman

Was not me