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[mellow music]

♪

- Numbers are easy for me.

It's words that are hard.

The perfect birthday wish is like a balanced equation,

especially when your girlfriend is your roommate--

except my words don't add up,

and I can never seem to say the right thing.

But maybe it's not the number of them that matters.

Maybe the fewer words,

the better.

[knocking] - Come in.

- ♪ Happy birth--

- [laughs]

Look at this camera Bec got me. Isn't it so cool?

- I don't know if you've noticed,

but Mia kinda has an eye.

It's like a... - Yeah, I know.

And I've--I've noticed.

- If you wanna change, like, the light,

you put it in manual mode so you can,

like, switch all of it around.

And then it--yeah... - Hey, Bec, mom needs you.

- Mom's at work. - Bye.

- Okay.

- Thanks again, Bec. - You're welcome.

- Zac, smile... [shutter clicks]

[laughs]

Aw, that's actually really cute.

Look.

- You should bring it with you tonight.

You didn't forget, did you?

- No.

Would you be totally upset if we--

if we just stayed in tonight and did something low key?

I don't know if I'm ready for something that--

that big yet.

- At some point, you're gonna have to take that first step.

So why not at LANY?

VIP? With me?

Yeah?

- Okay.

- There was also one more thing I wanted to give to you.

- Yeah?What?

[knocking]

- Okay, so I know I kind of implied

I was gonna give you guys alone time,

but then I remembered that this is my room.

[whooshes]

[chuckles]

- So what is it?

- What's what?

- Nothing. It was really nothing.

- Have you been taking pics? - I have been.

Look at this one.

- Can I show you how to change the aperture?

- Yes, please. - Okay, so...

[mellow piano music]

♪

- Seriously. Gotta get you more stairs.

[both laugh]

- It still hurts pretty bad.

- Yeah, but how much less does it hurt today

than it did yesterday?

- A little less.

- And you're killing it.

So, uh, how are things with you and that guy?

- He's taking me to see my favorite band tonight

for my birthday.

- It's your birthday? Why didn't you tell me?

- Because I didn't wanna make it a big deal.

- Oh, well, it's too bad I took it off your intake form

and got you a present.

- Trevor...

Okay, what is it?

- My name's Lexi and today I'm gonna show you guys how,

as an amputee, I'm able...

- I can't believe they make prosthetics for high heels.

That's so cool. - It's really no big deal.

I work with the companies that make it and the whole thing

really only costs me shipping.

It's yours if you want it.

- No way. - For real.

You deserve it. - Thank you.

- Of course. - Thank you...

[laughs]

- [clears throat]

- Zac, you have to see this prosthetic that he just got me.

It's so cool.

- Yeah, how thoughtful.

- I'm gonna go get dressed and I'll be right back, okay?

- Oh.

- Thank you.

- You good?

- Hey. - Hey.

So, you get presents for all your patients, or...

- I gotta get going.

- Yeah.

[upbeat music]

♪

- Are we close?

- Yeah, we'll walk right in and find somewhere to sit.

I'm sorry we had to park so far.

- [laughs softly] It's fine.

- Wouldn't be a secret show if it was easy to find, huh?

- [laughs]

There's a lot of people here, Zac.

Aren't big crowds, like, a no-go for you?

- Oh, that's why I got VIP.

We have our own little-- little section.

- [laughs]

♪

- Hey. We got VIP.

Where do we-- where's the entrance?

- It's right here, man. This whole area's VIP.

Everybody's gotta wait here. - There's not another section?

- Nah, man. This is it.

[indistinct chatter]

[muffled rock music]

♪

- Why is this taking so long? Should I ask him?

- No, it's a concert. Lines are normal.

No-- - Security?

- Zac, no, I'm fine. Zac, don't--

- My girlfriend clearly has a medical situation.

Is there anything we can do? Can you let us in?

- Yeah, all right. Come on.

- Hey, Mia, come on. They let us in.

Mia.

Hey, sorry, we're coming. We just need a second.

Thanks for being so cool with this.

Mia, what are you doing? I got us in.

- Zac, I can't believe you did that.

- Did what? I was just doing my--

- Zac, you're not listening to me.

I didn't even wanna come here.

I'm not ready.

- This is all for you.

I'm just trying to help you take a break from all this.

- There is no break from this, Zac.

- Then how do you want me to help?

I--what do I do? - Stop trying to help me.

- So help from Trevor is okay?

- What does Trevor have to do with any of this?

- Come on, Mia, I'm not dumb.

- He's my physical therapist, Zac.

It's literally his job.

It's like you don't even understand me at all lately.

You know what?

Maybe cancer is the only thing that we ever had in common.

[car horn beeps]

I have to go.

- Mia.

- I'll give you, like, 20 bucks if you take me right now.

- Mia, where are you even going?

[car door slams]

[somber music]

♪

[chain rattles]

- [sighs] Hey.

I--I didn't know who else to call.

- I'm glad you called me.

What's wrong?

- [sighs]

[engine stops]

[tense music]

- Yo, what are you doing home so early?

Where's Mia?

- Don't worry about it.

- Hey, calm down.

What is this-- whoa, whoa, whoa.

What are you doing?

Zac, what the hell are you doing--

- I'm not doing anything! I'm not doing anything.

I can't do anything.

I can't take my girlfriend out on a date,

I can't go to school. I can't go to parties.

I'm not doing anything! Leave me alone.

- Look, why don't we go inside and talk about it, okay--

- Talk about what? My feelings?

I've been doing that for the past year.

Do you wanna talk about my cancer again?

Do you wanna talk about my treatment?

I'm over it. I want my life back.

- Okay. Dude, stop.

Stop. Will you just--

Will you listen to me for a second?

You have it. Stop. You have it, okay?

It's just different than what you thought it would be.

- Don't you have to take care of someone

who's actually dying?

Give me my keys back. - You're going inside.

[car door slams] - Give me my keys back.

- No, I'm not giving you-- - Give me my--

- No. Really?

[grunts]

[groans]

[somber music]

♪

[car door slams] [engine turns over]

Zac--Zac, stop. Just stop.

- I don't know how long I can keep doing this.

I'm sorry. I shouldn't have called you.

This was...

- But you did, and I'm here.

Talk to me.

- Nothing makes sense anymore.

[waves crashing]

I don't recognize Zac.

I don't even recognize myself.

The old me would've just bailed,

but I don't know where I would go.

- If you need a place to stay,

you can crash with me.

- [sighs]Um...

[combative music]

♪

[waves crashing]

[somber dramatic music]

- [shouting]

Help! Somebody help!

Stay with me.

I'm at south-- I'm at the south beach.

[muffled voices] - You're gonna be all right.

- Can you hear me? Can you hear me, baby?

- Where are you taking him? [muffled voices]

- Trevor...

[iPhone blips]

Oh, my God. I have to go.

- Wait, what's going on? Is everything okay?

- I'm sorry. This was a really bad idea.

- What do you mean? Why? Mia, wait.

Why are you leaving? - I can't.

- Mia, where are you-- what's going on?

Mia!

- I could've tried harder. I should've stopped him.

- Hey, you found him, all right?

What if you hadn't?

[tense music]

- I spoke with the nurse on Zac's floor.

From what they can gather,

Zac head planted into shallow water and lost consciousness.

They're gonna run a few more tests

to make sure there's no spinal damage,

but so far, he's stable.

- Okay, what could this mean for his remission?

- It's a bit more complicated.

- Where's Zac? Is he okay?

- Where were you?

- Hey, Mia, can I speak with you for a moment?

♪

Whatever's going on, figure it out with him.

He's in room 605.

- Thank you.

- What did you find out?

- He's getting more tests, but I don't even know.

In 18 years, we have never fought like that.

- That sounds like a pretty good run to me...[coughs]

- It's like, the cancer didn't kill me,

so let's try everything else.

- [coughing]

[clears throat] It's fine.

- I'm sorry. - It's...[sniffs]

Come here.

[soft dramatic music]

♪

I mean, maybe you should just go talk to him.

- [scoffs]

What's the point? He doesn't listen to me anyway.

I'm done with him.

- Hey. - Hey.

Zac...[sighs]

I shouldn't-- - It's my fault.

Did you really mean what you said?

- People say stupid things when they're angry.

- Or things they actually mean.

[knocking]

- I need Zac for his MRI.

♪

- [sighs]

[A. Void's "Home"]

♪

- [inaudible]

- ♪ I'm going home

- ♪ Home

- Maybe that star shines to say,

"You're not the first person to go through this.

"You're not the last.

"There's still time left for you to shine.

- ♪ Home [scraper shings]

- ♪ Find a place

♪ Where life still shows

♪

♪ So long

[monitor beeping faintly]

- Let me guess.

You did all this for the Jell-O.

It's really not that good.

- Where's Evan?

- He was a bit of a tired train wreck,

so I put him down for a much-needed nap...

[coughs]

- Hey, hey, hey. You okay?

- It's fine. - You sure?

- [clears throat] He never shuts up about you.

- Well, he never shuts up in general.

- [laughs]

It's like I knew you before I even met you, you know?

I know about when you were ten,

and Evan broke his arm skateboarding,

and you ran for a mile to go get help.

- Yeah.

- And I know he's never seen you

as happy as you are with Mia.

And I also know you really hurt him today.

[soft dramatic music]

He looks up to you,

which I know sounds weird 'cause he's the older brother,

but the guy's dealing with a dying girlfriend,

and the last thing he needs is a brother

who's working overtime to try to kill himself.

- Nobody gets it.

- Or,

maybe you don't get it.

♪

Zac, you have--

you have the possibility of a future,

and as somebody who doesn't have a lot of tomorrows,

I can tell you--

you can't take for granted the people who love you

because like it or not,

you are going to need them. - [sniffs]

- [sniffs]

He is really gonna need you, Zac.

[sobs]

- I just don't know how to fix this.

- You'll figure it out.

- I'm sorry.

- I know. - [sniffs]

[exhales]

[indistinct PA announcements]

[footsteps thudding]

- Got you a coffee. - [sniffs]

- [sighs]

At least we'll have plenty to talk about in group tomorrow.

- [sighs]

If I would've stayed with him, none of this would've happened,

so...

- There's no excuse for my brother's

total lapse in sanity.

This one's not on you.

♪

- Do you ever think about what life would be like

if Zac never got sick?

- I think about it, like, every second.

- But he's not sick.

He's better.

He should be out just living his life

and having fun,

but he's not because of me.

- [sighs] Mia,

Zac's not going anywhere.

He adores you.

He isn't walking away from you.

♪

And on that note,

I have more rounds of consoling to do.

I believe Paul and Jody are up next because

I'm the family therapist.

By the way, Zac's results came back fine.

Just waiting for the doctor to give us the all clear.

♪

- [sighs]

[monitor beeping faintly]

- Hey.

- Can I sit down?

- Yeah, yeah.

- [sniffs]

[sighs]

- I'm, uh,

I'm really sorry.

- Me too.

I never know what's going on in your head.

If something like this happened to you again...

- Mia.

- And I'm just getting in the way of you getting better...

- You're not.

- [shaky breath] I couldn't--

I couldn't live with myself.

- What do you-- what do you mean?

- [sighs]

- Mia?

- Um,

I think until--

until you can take care of yourself...

[sniffs] I don't--

I don't think there can be an us.

- Are you, um,

are you breaking up with me?

No, Mia, I'm fine.

I promise, I will-- I will talk to you.

Mia, I will talk to you.

You don't need to do this. I promise.

Nothing's gonna happen-- [knocking]

- There he is.

- Mia...

- Zac, are you okay?

- Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine.

- I think I should go.

[Marc Robillar's "Fall Away"]

♪

- ♪ Come crashing

♪ Down

- Hey, honey.

You okay?

- ♪ Fall away

♪ From me

- It's okay.

- ♪ Fall away

♪ From me

♪ Fall away

♪ Am I on time

♪ Have I got soul

♪ Arrest myself

♪ For being cold

♪ I'm running blind

♪ I can't control

♪ Stealing time

♪ From the ones I've sold

♪ Fall away

♪ From me

♪ Fall away

♪ From me

♪ Fall away

♪