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♪

[phones jingling]

[both sigh]

[jingling continues]

- [grunts]

[jingling stops]

♪

- You can't go home again.

♪

When you leave a place

for an extended period of time,

like a long vacation,

college...

[items clatter]

Or cancer...

♪

Sometimes when you get back home,

things are just different...

♪

Because you are different.

♪

- [sighs]

♪

- Your old home... - [sniffles]

- Is gone for good.

♪

- God. [toilet water splashes]

[soft ambient music]

♪

What the...

Can you believe this?

This is so like my mom

to just replace her cancer daughter

with a new kid. [door opens]

- Tell her I'm sorry.

- She can see you. - Oh!

Hi, Mia. How are you?

- Hi, Jody, uh, just,

you know, tumbling down a long spiral

of a dark nightmare that has no end.

- Um, I'll let you two talk alone.

- So, um,

Zac, are you--

are you getting psyched for school?

- Uh, yeah.

Yeah, kind of.

You know, I'm-- I'm getting my classes

all situated and stuff. - [chuckles]

- I don't know, I'm--I'm gonna be a senior this year,

and all the juniors are now gonna be seniors,

and, I don't know, I just feel old, you know?

Like I missed out on a whole year of my--

Are you okay?

- Yeah, I just...miss you.

- Look, things are gonna get better, okay? I promise.

- Things will get better when I see you.

- Okay, well, I'm gonna pick you up after physical therapy,

all right? - Okay.

- Bye.

[phone beeping]

- [sighs]

[soft guitar music]

♪

- Zac, I just spoke with Dr. Lydell,

and he said that he made it very clear with you

that you can't be around crowds.

That includes school. - No, no.

Dr. Lydell, I'm sure if he took a recent lymphocyte count--

- Remission doesn't mean cured.

Now, the school agreed that they would provide

a private tutor for you... - No, I don't need that, Mom.

- So you could still prepare for graduation...

- I don't need a tutor. - But as far as spending

seven days a week surrounded by germ-infested teenagers--

- Listen, I don't need a tutor.

- This is not a discussion.

I'll let the school know

that you're coming by to register today.

You need to register before the semester begins

and everyone arrives.

Honey...

you haven't had an immune system for months.

Zac...

♪

[phone trills]

♪

- Hey, Mia, uh, I hope your first day

of physical therapy is going really good.

I've been thinking about you,

and I've been thinking about your living situation,

and I think I found the perfect solution.

[high-pitched] Oh!

- [laughs] - It's a little cramped,

I know, and it's right next to a hotel,

but I promise you, once you pass Go

and collect your $200,

I can upgrade you to a Park Place-adjacent suite.

- [chuckles]

- [exhales] I miss you.

I'll see you soon.

♪

- Phillips?

I'm Trevor. I'll be training you for the next couple months.

- You can call me Mia.

- Great.

[muted guitar music]

No--the forms, please.

Please? - Oh, yeah.

- Let's get you walking again...

Phillips.

Let's go!

- Great.

[soft guitar music]

[woman laughs, school bell rings]

[indistinct chatter]

♪

- Zac?

- Kyle?

- Yo. - Hey.

- That's crazy.

Yo, I was scared you died...

or something.

♪

- No, I'm still alive...

allegedly.

- [gasps softly]

- Welcome to the real world.

Let's go, Phillips.

There it is, nice.

You got this.

Let's go.

[slow mundane music]

Come on, let's go. You're almost there.

- These are really--

- Come on, you got this. I promise you--

- These are really hurting my arms.

Can we just take a break? - Check this out:

I'll give you 15 minutes if you get to the top.

It's one more step. Let's go.

♪

Get out of your head and get up those steps.

Come on.

[clapping]

♪

There's gonna be stairs outside of here.

- [panting]

- Come on.

Good, that's nice.

Almost there. [clapping modulates]

Come on, Phillips. [voice echoes]

- Can we just take a break? - No, not yet.

Come on! [voice echoes]

[clapping modulates]

This is real life.

- [gasps] - You don't get a break from--

- I just can't!

I'm such a freak! [sobs]

I'm such a freak.

- Dude, that's heavy. - Yeah.

- Yeah, I remember seeing posts on Facebook.

I should've reached out.

Done, like, an ice bucket challenge or something.

- Uh, thank you, but I'm fine, really.

- Man, this place just wasn't the same

without you, Zuckerberg.

I just dropped off my baseball gear today,

and I just can't wait to get to college already.

- Where are you going?

- I'm headed out to ASU.

[phone trills] - Congratulations.

- Hold up.

Uh, it's my dad.

Uh, we're taking the boat out one last time

before the end of summer.

Hey, you wanna come?

Swimming, wakeboarding,

full bar in the galley.

Come on.

[gentle guitar music]

♪

- I can't.

Maybe next time?

- Yeah, cool, next time.

- You enjoy college. - Bro, you already know.

♪

- So, how was school?

[door opens, closes]

- I ran into this guy

that I used to know, I used to be friends with,

and he kept talking about how school sucks,

and, like, he's gonna go to college, and...

♪

It was--it was fine.

I just registered for classes,

and it's no big deal.

♪

- Are you sure?

- Let's talk about you. How was your day?

- Well, you know it was a really awesome day

when the highlight is chemotherapy.

[both laugh]

♪

My mom invited her baby daddy

to come and live with us.

The place is already so tiny,

and it's just gonna get more crowded with a baby.

But, I don't know...

this is--

this is my life now, so...

Please tell me that everything's gonna get better.

[Huxlee's "Isn't Anything"]

- It'll get better...

I promise.

♪

Hey, Mom? Is Dad there too?

I wanna talk to you guys about, uh--about Mia.

♪

Ready?

♪

If you can't go home again...

♪

Where can you go?

- ♪ Cover

♪ It up

♪ Cover it up

[camera shutter clicks]

♪

♪ Cover it up

[car door opens, closes]

♪ Cover

♪ It up

♪ Hey

all: Hey.

- Welcome home.

♪

- ♪ Cover

♪ It up

♪ Hey

♪ Isn't it everything?

[camera shutter clicking]

♪

- Nothing about moving in with your significant other

is a science... [rhythmically knocking on door]

But the close proximity of our new living situation

is not without some familiar benefits.

[rhythmic knocking continues]

♪

But it also comes with disadvantages.

- Hey. - Sorry I didn't knock.

I'm not in the habit, considering this is my room.

- No, it's--it's fine.

- Which one?

- The one on the right is really cute.

- Left it is.

- [sighs]

♪

[footsteps passing]

Um... - Good morning.

- Good morning.

Uh...

- You can use the shower. I'm gonna come back.

- I can come back. - No, we can--I--

- It's your house. You--you use it.

- No, I'm fine. I can-- I can wait if you wanna...

- No, it's...

- No, you can use the bathroom.

- Those are--those are cute. - Thank you, yeah.

I'm gonna wait in my room now if you--if--

do you need help or anything?

- Taking a shower?

- I'm not gonna help you in the show--

I'm gonna help you get to--

- I'm good, yes.

- Okay. - I'm good.

- Dis--disregard everything. I'm gonna go this way.

The hot water is to the left.

Uh...

♪

- [sighs] [doorknob rattles]

- Ocupado!

- [sighs] Sorry.

[phone beeping rapidly, trills]

- I got in. - No way! Really?

- I'm officially off the waitlist.

God, orientation's next week,

and there's so much that I have to do.

I have to pack.

There's, like, a zillion forms that I have to fill out.

- Yeah.

[soft solemn music]

- Yo, it isn't weird that I'm telling you

all of this, right?

- No, no, I'm happy for you.

I'm really happy for you.

♪

- Uh, you know, my dad, okay.

Any excuse for a party.

So, the whole Meier clan is invited over this afternoon,

and Mia too, of course.

Why haven't I met her yet?

So, I'll see you then?

- I wouldn't miss it for the world.

- Bye. [phone beeping]

♪

- What do you mean "no"? - This is not a punishment,

but being around all those people at Sierra's party--

- Dad, come on, I know all of Sierra's friends.

They're fine.

That's not that many people. - I get it.

It's still a giant risk.

- But that's my risk to take. - It's not.

And I'm sorry, Zac, it's not your choice.

- That's not fair, Dad.

Why did I fight if I can't do anything?

- You can do things.

You just can't go to this party right now.

- Dad, I've already texted all of them.

Why can't I go? - Just--

- Why not?

[soft music]

♪

- I'm not ready to see you in the ICU again, okay?

Can you--can you understand that?

[inhales, exhales]

♪

- Okay.

[solemn guitar music]

♪

- You're gonna make me

a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

- Excuse me, what decade do you think this is?

- Jelly's in the refrigerator.

♪

Open that door a little more.

- Hm. - Nicely done.

Peanut butter...

is in the top shelf.

- [mutters] So stupid.

Excuse me. - You're excused.

- [sighs] Okay.

♪

[groans]

- Looks like you're gonna have to get out of the chair.

- I can reach it.

- Okay.

♪

- [grunts]

[grunts]

[glass shatters] Damn it!

What was this supposed to prove?

Where are you taking me? No.

Trevor!

[birds chirping]

[clock ticking]

[phone trills]

[people laughing, chattering]

[monitor beeping]

[ominous music]

[tense tone]

[prolonged beep]

[machines beeping rapidly]

[distressed breathing]

[thumping beat]

[slow solemn music]

♪

[waves crashing]

♪

[exhales]

- Trevor, what is this? - Cancer support group.

- Oh, hey, hello. Please, come on in.

Um, we have just begun.

- I'll be back for you later.

[soft music]

- Just make a little room there for her.

♪

[solemn music]

♪

Or there--oka-- yeah, why don't we mo--

make room over here?

Look at that, we're really expanding our circles.

Who wants to begin our session?

[waves crashing]

[slow wistful music]

♪

- I had cancer

the first time

after my second birthday.

Um, but years later,

I was diagnosed with a brain tumor.

I had to relearn how to walk.

Now I'm dealing with a second brain tumor.

[soft somber music]

I'm not really scared anymore.

It's just...

what can I do with the time that I have?

I'm just thankful

to wake up every day...

♪

And usually I don't cry--[laughs]--

but, um...

I'm gonna continue to fight, you know?

- Thank you.

So, would anyone

like to go next?

Mia...

I know--[clears throat]-- that you've joined us,

but, uh, is there anything you wanna share?

You know, Bec mentioned

that you recently moved in with her family.

How's that going?

- It's--it's fine.

- [scoffs]

- I mean...

I guess it's a big adjustment,

and not just for me.

What I'm saying is,

I'm really just trying to get healthy

without annoying anyone.

[lively ringtone playing]

Sorry.

- [softly] Oh, my God, it doesn't end.

- Excuse me?

- Sorry, I've just had my fill of Deadmaus

over the last few days.

- I am sensing some tension?

- Yeah, kinda. - Nope.

- Look, I--

I know I just moved into your house, okay?

- I'm sleeping in the attic because of you.

[softly] Oh, my God, what did I tell you?

- Is that what you do? Come here to bitch about me?

- Not everything is about you.

- Then why are you really here? - Shouldn't you stop this?

- Um, yeah, I--I probably should.

- I lived with Zac's cancer for a year,

right beside him,

the whole time.

I've spent more time at this hospital than you have.

I was here when Cam died,

and I had no one to talk to about it.

[somber music]

I went through something too.

It wasn't just you.

♪

- We all experience grief in different ways.

- Thanks, Patrick.

- Yeah, you're-- you're welcome.

[solemn guitar music]

♪

- [sighs]

- Hey, Bec, um...

look, I'm--I'm sorry, I didn't--I didn't know.

- Hey, this is kind of weird and awkward,

but could you maybe

not mention to Zac that I was here?

♪

- I--I won't say anything.

- Thanks.

See ya.

♪

- [gasps] - Whoa, those are good.

- Um... - You take all those?

- Yeah.

It's--it's no big deal.

- What do you mean, no big deal? These are good.

Let me see more. - I'll think about it.

- Okay, are you done thinking about it?

- I will let you know when I'm done thinking about it.

How was your day?

- Nothing out of the ordinary.

- What is ordinary anymore?

- I'm still trying to figure that out myself.

- You know, I would kill for one normal thing to happen...

Just once.

- I can make that happen.

- [chuckles] Kay.

[chuckles] What?

- Is this your scarf?

- [chuckles] Are you gonna perform a magic trick?

- That I am not. - Okay.

- Do you trust me?

[soft music]

- Yeah, I do.

♪

[chuckles]

[cheerful music]

Oh, my God.

I told you to delete that video!

- I thought I did too.

I--I don't know what happened.

♪

- This is really cute.

But aren't we missing four Meiers?

- I may have paid Evan to take them all out for the night.

I thought I'd give you a housewarming gift.

Just the two of us.

♪

- I love it.

I have community service.

It's pretty much been non-stop fun.

♪

- I don't think you're a bad egg.

♪

- Thanks.

[music builds]

♪

[bright music]

♪

Wait... - Are you okay?

- I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I just can't yet.

- Hey, it's fine, really. - [exhales]

[Gemma Hayes' "All the Kids Go"]

- We can just watch the rest of this movie,

and go inside and...

watch another movie inside or something.

- Kay.

♪

- ♪ Our longing

♪ Is filled

♪ By a test

♪

♪ All kids go

♪

♪ All kids go

♪