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Meredith: The idea that the
brain can convince the body

that a fake treatment
is the real thing

is called the placebo effect.

♪ I could look into your eyes

♪ Trace your shadows
in the way the sun moves ♪

[ Gasps ]

♪ Across the ocean and the sky

♪ There's nothing better
than laying next to you ♪

[ Cellphone vibrates ]

♪ I love the way our bodies
set the scene ♪

♪ Bathing in the colors
of a dream ♪

♪ No one in the world,
just you and me ♪

[ Chuckles ]

[ Gasps ] No!

[ Laughs ]

♪ In the golden hour

Hey.
I was never here.

It's okay,
I'm not in my dress yet.

Well, in that case...

♪ You taste like honey butter

♪ You're sugar sweet

Enjoy your coffee.

Thank you.
Love you.

I love you.

Bye.

The brain anticipates
an outcome

and then communicates it
to the body.

♪ I love the way our bodies
set the scene ♪

♪ Bathing in the colors
of a dream ♪

♪ No one in the world,
just you and me ♪

Lucas?

♪ Meet me at sundown

♪ In the golden hour

And the body responds as if
a medication were given...

when all that was given
was a sugar pill.

Studies have found that
under the right circumstances,

a placebo can have up
to a 72% cure rate --

making it just as effective
as certain medications.

So, the lie becomes the truth.

Happy wedding day!

I need a ride.Ooh. That's why I'm here.

No, I need a ride
to the hospital.
Okay.

Winston: Mr. Kramer needs
his pacing wires pulled

and Ms. Watkins
is back in a-fib.

Okay, great.

I'll, uh, keep an eye
and start the amio.

I really appreciate this,
Chief.

Yeah, of course.

Oh, uh, Paige Harper in 2404
is post op day 2

from her CABG, so...

I will check
the test tube output

and see
if we can remove them.

[ Groans softly ]
You alright?

Yeah, I'm fine.
I just have a toothache.

I don't have to go
to Boston if --

Yes, you do have to go
to Boston.

If you need to go
to the dentist --

You are not missing
the awards ceremony

so I can go
to the dentist.

Alright, well, I'm saying,

the whole cardio department
is a lot

with a tooth ache
if you're not chief.

But you are chief,

so you're also overseeing
the whole hospital.

And I am saying
you are nominated

for a Catherine Fox Award

and it's not every day
that our head of cardio

is nominated
for a Catherine Fox Award.

Head of cardio?

Congratulations,
Dr. Ndugu.

[ Chuckles ]Blue: Incredible.

Congratulations,
Dr. Ndugu.

Th-- Thank you, Chief Altman.
Thank you.

Wow.You have earned it.

And we are lucky
to have you.

I am -- I'm thrilled.[ Elevator bell dings ]

You won't regret this.

I know I won't.

Alright, now go,
before you miss your flight.

Alright, yeah, yeah.Okay.

I can skip
the wedding.

No, don't skip
the wedding.

But you probably should skip
the reception.

[ Elevator bell dings ]You got it. I'll be back in
a couple of hours, tops.

Great.
Thank you.

Wow.

You are a vision worthy
of a Renaissance faire.

Well, this is
my Renn Faire dress.

How did you know?

How could I not?

Is it bad?

[ Chuckles ] No.I didn't have time
to go shopping.

It's perfect.

You look like a fairy

who took a magical pill
and grew into human size.

Jules, my chart says
the same thing it did

when you looked
three minutes ago

and also
five minutes ago.

Mm-hmm.
Have you written
your toast?

My what?
My toast?

Well, you're
the maid of honor.

Crap.

Oh. Well, just smile
and say you've never seen

two people so happy
and in love.

That's it?

All those awful jokes
about ex-lovers and bad choices?

It's the strangest
wedding-day tradition.

You be the Fairy of Love
and just let it die with you.

Dr. Kwan your date?

No.

The Fairy
of Playing Hard to Get.

Mm, I like it.

I will see you
after the wedding.

Ta ta, love!
Have fun.

Sam Sutton, 43,
post op day 4.

I'm sorry.
Do we have to do this?

Do what?

The whole formal thing?

Post op day
blah, blah, blah.

We practically live together.
Can we just be friends?

Sam --
Mr. Sutton,
what's my name?

Yasuda.

What's my first name?

Doctor?
Right.

I am affable
and you are charming,

but we're not friends,
Mr. Sutton.

I am Dr. Yasuda,
and I am on your surgical team.

I did eight years
of formal training

to become a member
of your surgical team,

so a formal introduction
of your medical status each day

is not just appropriate,
it's one of the many systems

that helps keep you
alive and safe.

Alright?

Mm-hmm.

Alright, then.

Sam Sutton, 43,
post op day 4.

What are you doing here?
It's your wedding day.

[ Sighs ]
Have you seen Adams?

No.

[ Breathing heavily ]

You left without me.

I didn't think
you were coming.

Our breast cancer patient,
Tobey Barrett,

is coming in
for her mastectomy today.

Okay?

I told her I'd be there
for her

and I'd walk her through it
and I'd hold her hand,

but they scheduled it
for today,

and I don't want her
to put it off any longer,

but I can't be here.You can't be here

because you're
getting married today.

I can't be here because
I'm getting married today.

Lucas, um, I...

I can't deny
what you feel.

I can't deny that...
we have a connection.

But Trey does love me,

and I think what he and I built
together deserves this chance.

And...

I don't want
to hurt you,

and I don't want
to lose you...

from my life.

But I'm getting married.

Today.

So, will you please...

...take care
of Tobey for me?

I'd do anything for you.

♪♪

Excellent work,
Yasuda.

That guy needs
a little humbling.

Agree. Thank you.

And, uh, if he's ever
inappropriate with you

in any way --
Oh, he's not
inappropriate

unless by "inappropriate,"
you mean arrogant.

Okay, Yasuda,
let's order a CT angio.

I'm a bit concerned

about decreased pulses
in his left arm.

I'll talk to radiology,
but as a reminder,

I have a wedding to get to
for the next few hours.

I know
we're short-staffed today,

so I wanted to get here
to be here for rounds,

but it is
Dr. Griffith's wedding.

Hmm, well,
we'll cover for you.Thank you.

Yasuda, you don't think
he's inappropriate with...

anyone?

If you mean Dr. Wilson,
respectfully,

the inappropriate
seems to be reciprocal.

[ Clears throat ]

Hey, I can take
over his care if --

Oh, no, no.

Uh, let's get
his angio.

Okay. Yeah.

What are you doing here?No time
to answer that.

See you
at the wedding!

[ Shouting in Spanish ]

W-What's his name?
Uh... ¿Cómo se llama?

Enzo.
Enzo!

Enzo!

We need to go.
We need to go.

♪♪

I need some help here!

I have what looks like an opiate
poisoning in an 8-year-old!

Somebody page Dr. Hunt!

--Captions by VITAC--

Okay, keep up the 02.

Glucose level is normal.

Naloxone's in.Look, he presented textbook.

I-I might be wrong.
Maybe it's not drug-related.

[ Gasps ][ Gasps ]

Owen: There's our answer.

Kwan, you saved
this kid's life.

Let's get a tox screen
and some activated charcoal,

1 gram per kilogram, ASAP.

Nice work.

Once you get those labs,
call Child Protective Services.

Really?

She seems
pretty terrified.Doesn't matter.

That's not up to us to figure
out how this kid OD'ed,

but somebody has to,
okay?

Help!

Okay, let's get
another gurney

and get a tox screen
for her, as well.

This van is everything.

I know.
[ Chuckles ]
How did you --

I bought a piece of crap
and I made it everything,

and it might be
my most proud thing.

Except for what I did
this morning.

What did you do
this morning?

I showed my
attending surgeons --

hell, I showed myself
who I can be

when I'm not working three jobs
and buried in debt.

I slept eight full hours
three nights in a row,

and I-I feel
like a superhero

who has unknowingly had
kryptonite in my shoe for years.

And then someone took it out,
and I can freaking fly.

[ Laughs ]
And, I mean,

okay, yeah, I resented
the hell out of it,

but you took
a stand for me, Taryn.

It was you.

You took
the kryptonite out.

Can I kiss you
at this red light?

[ Tires screech ]

Totally.

Come here.

♪♪

Tobey, right?

Yes. Hi.

Hey, Dr...

Adams.

Sorry, right.
[ Chuckles ]

My memory is shot
when I'm nervous.

It's alright.
Yeah.

Have you seen
Dr. Griffith?

She said
that she would be --

Yeah,
she's getting married.

Yeah, I know.

She showed me her ring and --
and a picture of the dress.

No, I mean she's
getting married today.

So she's not here.
Oh.

And she didn't
tell you because...

Because she didn't
want me to postpone.

Yeah.

Because cancer.

Yeah.

Okay.

Yeah, she's sorry.

But, uh, she knows everything
is gonna be just fine,

and she asked me
to stand in, so...

[ Chuckles ]

Well, did she elope?
No.

But she said that you were
her man of honor.

That is a thing
that changed.

Oh, so you're not even
going to the wedding.

She, uh...

She asked me
to be here for you.

Oh, okay.

Are you all checked in?

Is she good?Nurse:
Yes, she's all set.

I'll show you to pre-op.

Well, you know,
you don't have to --

I promised Simone
I would be here for you.

Okay.

Thank you.

♪♪

[ Elevator bell dings ]If everything looks good,
then you'll soon be

on your way
to do physical therapy

in the hospital gym
instead of just your room.

Finally.
Something dangerous.

Hi, how are you
feeling today?

I'm learning ASL, so I'm trying
to practice any chance I get.

Do you know you just signed
"poop" and not "practice"?

Basically you just said,

"I'm trying to poop
any chance I get."

No!
Yep.

I picked it up overseas

when I was evacuating
civilian refugees.

ASL "Sesame Street" just seemed
to calm the kids down,

so I caught the basics.Of course you did.

But I only know the level
of a 4-year-old.
Mm.

One through 10, colors,
farm animals...

poop.

[ Laughs ]

Well,
CT's expecting us.

We gotta go.
Okay.

I'll come.

Convenient.
And great!

Because you are, in fact,
on Sam's surgical team.

Mm-hmm.
Shall we?

Mika:
It looks so pretty.

Oh, we should put our gifts
over here.

Trey: Hey.

Hey, hey.
Hey.

Florist didn't show up.
They had the wrong date.

And it's my fault

because I was supposed to be
doing the flowers.

But they had this day
but the next month.

I mean, do I tell her?

She's in her room
trying on the dress

and I'm not supposed to see her,
but there's no bouquet.

So do I go tell her
and say she won't --Hey, take a breath.

Deep breath. Ready?[ Inhales, exhales deeply ]

You look very handsome
and the food looks great

and everyone looks happy,

and hey, I will go get
a bouquet for Simone.

Alright, well,
she ordered tulips, okay?

Those are
her mom's favorite.

I can't promise tulips,
but I'll -- I'll do my best.

Well, also, the altar and the
aisle could use some flowers.

I paid for
a lot of flowers, though.

Um, in college, I worked
in the floral section

of the grocery store
for three weeks

before I was moved
to the bakery,

and I kind of have a gift
for shapes and colors.

Oh, yeah?Yeah.

Well, I'm really good
with my hands.

[ Both laugh ]

We're dates.We're dates.

Thank you.
And thank you.

Of course.

So, can I kiss you again,
right now?

Totally.

Good morning.

Good morning. Good morning.
Hello. Good morning.

Winston: Hey, Marsh.
Hey.

Alright, Ms. Selkie,

so these are not just surgeons
from my flagship hospital,

they are nominees.

So, give them any and everything
that they want.

But first, I want
a vodka martini in a glass.

[ Chuckles ]

Can I have a club soda
with ice, please?

Thank you.

Dr. Bailey.Bailey:
Hey, good morning.

Hey, good morning.
Good morning.

Um, where's, uh, Ben?

Oh, uh, he stayed

in case they need more hands
at the collapse site.

I appreciate you, uh, saving me
a seat last minute.

Good morning.How are you?

Please, I don't know why
you didn't decide

to go with us
from the start.

Ugh, well, private jets produce
5 to 14 times more pollution

per passenger
than commercial flights.

Our planet is boiling.

Also, they terrify me.

Uh, can I get
a bourbon, neat?

Thank you.
Here?

Okay.
Yes.

Dr. Marsh.
Yeah?

I'm really happy you decided
to come with us.

I also appreciate the ride.
Thank you.

Yes.
Absolutely.

[ Sighs ]
[ Laughs ]

Uh, um, you're, uh,
in her seat.

Right.
Excuse me.

My bad.

[ Laughs ]

Oh.

Well, at least you know
I won't get obnoxiously drunk

and talk your ear off
for five hours. [ Chuckles ]

Hey, Marsh.
Trade seats with me, man.

Yeah. Sure.

Thank you.
[ Clears throat ]

Why do I get the feeling
this is gonna be a long flight?

Excuse me,
can I get a bourbon?

Uh, double.

I'm just here to ask you
a couple questions.

Is that okay?
Preguntas.

Ms. Alvarez, I'd like to know
everything that happened today.

Todo.

I-I can see if I can
stick around

if you need help
interpreting or --

Someone should be
on their way down.

Her EKG's negative.

It seems that her collapse
might have been

a vasovagal response
from the stress.

Enzo's tox screen
came back clean.

Okay, so I was wrong?

I don't think you were.

Fentanyl doesn't show up
on standard tox screens

because it is synthetic.

I asked them to test Enzo
for that specifically.

Teddy: Hey.

I, uh -- I thought you were
going to the wedding.

I'm where I need to be.

PICU's full, but the ICU
overflow can take him.

Kwan?Okay.

[ Sighs ]

You okay?
Yeah, kinda.

I'm just -- I'm being asked
to be in four different places.

One is a cardio consult
upstairs.

Go. I've got things
covered down here.

Thanks.

[ Clears throat ]
You need a dentist.

I need a shot of tequila,
a string, and a door.

We're not
in the Army anymore!

Yeah, but that was a crazy day,
though, right?

We just published
the results

from Hamilton's
12-month follow-up,

and he still hasn't had to
increase his dopamine therapy.

Yeah, you, uh -- you --
you mentioned that.

We also haven't observed any
negative neurological effects.

I cannot wait
to tell Meredith.

I'm sure
she'll be thrilled.

You made her really happy.
You know that, right?

Well, if that's true, she had
a very funny way of showing it.

Well, Meredith has a funny way
of showing a lot of things.

But now that she and the kids
are pretty settled,

her mind may be open.

Open to what?

She asks about you.

[ Laughs ] Wow.

You really enjoy interfering
in other people's relationships.

Uh, yeah, Meredith and I
are no longer in a relationship.

You don't have feelings
for her anymore?

Good God,
why do you care so much?

Look, I-I've learned
with Meredith Grey that --

that the more you chase her,

the faster and farther
she will run.

[ Chuckles ]
It's kind of perfect.

What is?

All three sisters,
single at the same time.

Nope. [ Grunts ]

[ Thudding ]Mm! It's okay.

It's -- It's just mild
turbulence, Bailey.

Not back there.

Someone's this close
to getting thrown out

of the emergency exit,
and it's not gonna be me.

I've had a hard enough year.

Hell, it was just
starting to get good.

[ Chuckles ]

What?
I can't watch the show?

♪♪

[ Sighs ]

Are you okay?

Yeah.

I just...miss my mom.

I mean, I obviously
never knew her, but...

when I went on my first date
with Trey,

a red robin perched on a tree
branch three feet away from us.

Robins were my mother's
favorite bird.

She collected them on mugs
and coasters and trinkets,

so I took it as a sign
she was with me that day

and Trey's
a good man.

He's good.

He's kind and...

...he's steady and...

he loves me,

and I know that's what my mother
would have wanted...for me.

She would have wanted me to have
what she had with my father.

So...

I miss her.

I think she'd be proud
of me today.

[ Knock on door ]

Hi, Daddy.

Simone.

[ Chuckles ]

Oh.

[ Laughs ]

You take
my breath away.

[ Sighs, laughs ]

I'm sorry.

Um, Dewayne Griffith,
Simone's father.

Jules Millin.
Maid of honor.

[ Thud ]

What was that?
[ Chuckles ]

It's a bird.

Is it okay?

It is not.

What kind of bird?

Oh, you know, it's --
it's just, um...

Oh, my God.
What just happened?

Um...

I'll get your grandmother's
sewing kit.

It's fine.
I can -- I can sew.

I can fix it.
Two minutes.

Two...

[ Breathing deeply ]

Uh, you okay?

Yes. Yes, yes.

I'm just -- I'm just trying
to regulate my nervous system.

By hyperventilating?

It's a whole thing.

Do you have an update?Uh, yeah.

Dr. Robinson is still
in his previous surgery,

so it'll still be
a while.

[ Exhales deeply ]

I wish I would have taken
the girls on one last ride.

The girls?

Oh.

I just feel like I didn't
appreciate them

while I had them.

Uh, and you'll have plenty
of time to appreciate

all the things
you want to appreciate.

This surgery
is saving your life.
Right.

And they'll do the
reconstruction later today --I know. I know.

It's just they won't be
the same.

They won't be the same.

Because they'll be
cancer-free.

[ Laughs ]

Wow.

Cute, a doctor,

and somehow knows
the exact right thing to say.

[ Sighs ]

So, why didn't you go
to the wedding?

Oh, damn.

Man of honor,
skipping the wedding.

You got it bad, huh?

So bad.

You want to hyperventilate
with me?

Does it really work?

Yeah.

[ Breathes deeply ]

Hey.

Oh.
[ Clears throat ]

Sam Sutton.

Just had his follow-up CT angio,
post op day 4.

This is the wingsuiter,
right?

Yeah.
Mm-hmm.

Alright, let me take a look.
Um...

Yeah, he's got a grade 1
aortic transection.

I mean,
see this small line?

It's most likely
from a deceleration injury

from the crash.

How are his pressures?

Good.
Good.

But his prognosis is --
is favorable, right?

Yeah, it should be good.
They usually heal on their own.

But you need to keep
a watchful eye on him

and re-scan him
48 hours from now.

Got it.I'll take care of it.

An intern
can manage it.

Well, they're
at Griffith's wedding,

so I can just check
between patients.

Not necessary.
I'm his doctor.

I don't mind.
Neither do I.

You don't even
like him.

Well,
not the way you do.

Woman over PA:
Dr. Anderson to Orthopedics.

Dr. Doug Anderson
to Orthopedics.

Give me a second.

Maxine?
Everything okay?

Oh! Oh, Dr. Kwan!
Thank heavens.

I'm all turned around.

C-Can you tell me
what day it is?

The last time we found you
wandering the halls,

you were septic
and delirious.

It's Friday.

I'm at Grey-Sloan Memorial,

and can you please explain
why there's someone in my room?

Your room is
on the north side.

This is the south.

[ Chuckling ]Enzo: Mom?

Oh, okay.

Do you know
where my mama is?

She'll be back as soon
as she can, alright?

[ Cellphone chimes ]

[ Sighs ]

I just got called in
for a consult.

Well, you go.
I-I'll sit with him.

No, you need to get
back in bed.

Oh, I can rest just as well
in a chair.

[ Chuckles ]

Do you like stories?

Oh, good.

You can tell me some.

[ Cellphone chimes ]

Dr. Benson Kwan?

We need to ask you
some questions

about the Alvarez case.

I just got called in for
a consult back in the E.R. --

Your patient tested positive
for fentanyl.

This is now a criminal
investigation involving a minor.

It will only take a couple
minutes of your time.

♪♪

Denise, why are your friends
cutting down all my roses?

Uh,
they're doing what?
[ Gasps ]

Oh, my baby.

Look at you.

Hi, Mom.

Oh.

You are a beauty.

And you are my star.

And, baby girl,
don't you marry Kenneth

if you don't
really love him.

If you love Dewayne
and he sees you for who you are,

don't you walk
down that aisle.

Honey, it's better
to disappoint everybody else

than it is
to disappoint yourself.

And your mama
loves you.

I love you.

♪♪

And the plot thickens.

Man over PA:
Dr. Gear to E.R., stat.

Dr. Gear to E.R., stat.

I asked to stay
while they talked,

but I was shown the door,

so I eavesdropped
on the nurses.

Enzo has fentanyl
in his blood?

I can't answer that 'cause
doctor/patient --

And they think his mother
gave it to him?

Why the hell
would she do that?

You think --
You think they have it wrong?

I can't prove it,

and I also might be partial
to single moms and their sons.

If you think the police
have this wrong,

then you have to fight.

You have to fight like hell
to help her,

or you risk it waking you up
in the night when you're 80.

[ Sighs ]

I just started
my residency here.

When I first started teaching,
there was a young assistant.

Her name was Claire.

She was a bit of an odd duck,
really, kept to herself,

but the kids loved her.

Anyway, she often came
in late and --

and sometimes
had bruises on her face.

So I asked another teacher
about it,

and she said that her husband
was a bigwig alum

who fundraised
for the school.

In other words --
stop asking.

So I did.
I didn't want to lose my job.

A few weeks later,
Claire was dead.

And that'swhat keeps me
up at night.

Not my divorce,
not my old friends dying,

not my failures as a mother,
of which there are many.

No, it's the thought
of that --

that poor young woman
that I didn't fight for.

♪♪

Wait, we're letting them
arrest her?

They're gonna take her
to the station

once she's
medically clear.

Look, we don't have
a choice.

CPS only had more questions
after the interview.

An interview that was
in broken Spanish.

Did they even wait
for an interpreter?

They'll continue
the investigation,

but for now, we need to do
what's best for Enzo.

What,
by splitting him up

with the only person
that cares about him?

I -- [ Sighs ]They are on vacation
from Buenos Aires.

They rented a home here
because Enzo is obsessed

with Mount Rainier
and the Space Needle

since his dad was
from here.

I think the system
is making assumptions

that they wouldn't make
if she was speaking English.

Carmen doesn't even know
what fentanyl is.

If she saw it,
she would think it was candy

because the pills are in bright,
shiny rainbow colors --

Kwan.

Carmen.

No.

Dr. Hunt!

[ Thudding ]

Turbulence shouldn't
last this long.

We should go higher.

Now you're telling the pilots
what to do?

That tracks.

Well, it's, uh,
global warming.

Air currents colliding
at high altitudes,

making turbulence
harder to predict.

In case anyone cares.

Whoa!

You okay?I'm so sorry.
I'm fine.

What else
do you want me to say?

I was in an awful place.

I feel terrible
about the way I treated you.

Do you still stand
by what you said?

I stand by my apology.

Forget the apology,
Amelia.

Do you believe there's truth
to what you said?

I-I-I'll give
my entire salary

to the first person
who switches seats.

Not worth it.

I was harsh,
I was out of line,

but I think there was some truth
to what I said,

and I think
you know it.

You were supposed to
love Maggie,

not compete with her.

You don't know me.
Okay?

You --
You don't have any idea

what I had to overcome
to get here.

The discipline
that it took.

There's not
a single doctor

or even college graduate
in my family,

and now I'm one of the best
heart surgeons in the country.

And I've been called small
and a coward.

And a failure because
my marriage didn't work out.

Because my wife and I
wanted different things.

Because I won't compromise
everything that I've built

by throwing tantrums
at work.

That's not me.
Never gonna happen.

I didn't fail Maggie.

And you know what?
Maggie didn't fail me.

If you think
that I was the problem

and you were in her ear?

You might be
the reason she left!

I was not in her ear!

One day,
we'll all be dead!

Does it have to be
today?

And when that time comes,
when you're in the afterlife,

chilling on a cloud,

will you be proud
of this moment?

Will it have uplifted
your souls?

Or will you realize that
you've wasted precious life

with petty arguments?

Will it fill you
with pride?

Or shame and regret?

Um [clears throat]
my wife has been hitting

the medical marijuana
pretty hard lately.

[ Loud thud ]
Whoa!

Okay, okay, okay.
Oh!

Pilot: Hang on, folks.
It's getting bumpy.

This is not how
I'm supposed to die!

I have cancer, damn it!
That's how I'm gonna die!

Catherine, we're not dying!
Take my hand.

We're going down, baby!

This is why people
fly commercial!

It feels like
we're plummeting.

We are!I can't die,
I'm a mom.

I can't die,
I can't die --

Amelia,
give me your hand.

Oh,
I should have retired!

Why, God?!

Give me that.

Bailey:
Oh, hell, no.

♪♪

Oh, geez.

Pilot: I am so sorry, folks.
That was rough.

We hit an unexpected
wind shear,

but we are through it,
and I hope everyone's okay.

We're expecting smooth skies

for the remainder
of the flight.Oh, my God.

[ Laughs ]

Woman over PA: Dr. Davis
to Labor and Delivery.

Dr. Megan Davis
to Labor and Delivery.

[ Clears throat ]

Am I fired?

As much as I'd like to think
I have firing power, I do not.

[ Sighs ]

I grew up
with a single mom.

Yeah, I did, too.

And most of the time,
I find it to be a strength.

It's helped with my compassion,
patience, empathy,

but not all single moms
are like ours.

So we have to follow
the protocols...

...as hard as it is.

[ Clears throat ]

Police searched
their rental.

In a bedside drawer,
they found

a baggie of weed gummies
and rainbow fentanyl.

They confirmed that they were
left by the previous occupants.

For a child to find.Mm-hmm.

Dr. Kwan,
you fought the good fight --

and you won.

What do I do
with the rage?

[ Sighs ]

That is a question
for the ages in this job.

Meantime, why don't you
take Carmen inside

to go see her son,
okay?

Yeah.

♪♪

Enzo.

Enzo: Mom?

Estoy aquí.

Sam: What are you doing
over there?

I'm checking
your chest tube.

Wow. Okay.

I don't usually like to move
this fast, but if you insist.

[ Chuckles ]

I don't believe that
for a second.

The tube looks good.

They'll probably remove it
in a couple of days.

Signal is strong.

So, when they ask...

we can tell our kids

that this was
our first date, right?

[ Chuckles ]

How's his H&H and INR?

Uh, stable.

Then I guess
I'll leave you to it.

Link, is there something
that you need to say to me?

[ Sighs ]

I just...

You're...

...one of his doctors.

Oh, my God.

Link.

You slept with an intern.

Did I judge you?

[ Wildes' "Lightly" plays ]

♪ I think I see it,
on the horizon ♪

♪ Now I feel it

♪ And I'm alive,
but am I breathing? ♪

♪ Fill my lungs
so I can scream it ♪

Hey.

♪ When I cried on the floor...

It might not be
the one you ordered,

but it's made with love,

from all
your neighbors' houses.

Ow, ow!
Oh, sorry!

No, it's okay.
Thorns?

Ah.

Oh, my God.
You're bleeding on your dress.

Oh, my God.
Oh, my God, help.

Uh...

Uh, Mr. Griffith,
may I?

I'm so sorry.You can just call me
Dewayne.

It's not coming out.Here, let's just go.

Okay. Okay.

We're gonna take
this...

put it through that.

Okay, hold your bouquet
right there.

You can't see
the blood.

Okay.
There.

You look beautiful.
Thank you.

Dewayne:
It's all good.

It's okay, baby.

Here we go.

♪ Maybe I love how I feel
in the wind ♪

♪ I'm the breeze

♪ So light

♪ I'm li-i-i-i-i-i-i-ght

[ Chuckles ]

♪ I'm li-i-i-i-i-i-i-ght

♪ Can you feel it?

♪ Close to you?

Dad, was Mom engaged
to someone else before you?

Baby, why would you --Just tell me
the truth, please.

♪♪

[ Clears throat ]

I have n-never seen
two people more in love.

She met me two months

before they were
supposed to get married.

And she called off
the wedding last minute?

Baby, your mother always made
life up as she went along.

♪ I'm li-i-i-i-i-i-i-ght

♪ I'm li-i-i-i-i-i-i-ght

You and I are
quite the dynamic duo.

[ Chuckles ]

Oh, come on.
I helped a little bit.

I sat with the boy.

I talked
about the Beatles.
Mm.

Can you guess what
his favorite song is?

"Yellow Submarine"?

How did you know?

Ah.
All kids like it.

I can see why Jules
is falling for you.

Ah, falling for me?

Uh, yeah, she barely
speaks to me.

She's a wounded bird
with a mass--

with a ma--

massive h-- heart.

M-Maxine?
The two of --
The two of you --

Maxine!

[ Gasping ]

I need some help
in here!

[ Gasping ]

It's okay,
it's okay, it's okay.

Code Blue!
I need a crash cart!

Woman:
Code Blue, 4th floor.

Hold on, Maxine.
Hold on.

She has
a DNR and DNI.

No, she was fine.
She was just talking.

Dr. Kwan, we're not supposed to
do anything. It's in her chart.

Get me an intubation tray
so I can save her life!

Dr. Kwan!

Code Blue, 4th floor.Go!

Neuro ICU.

Code Blue, 4th floor,
Neuro ICU.

It's okay.
Here we go.

Woman over PA: Dr. Sellers,
Dr. Mari Sellers 4619.

Dr. Mari Sellers 4619.

[ Sighs ]

Hey.

You need to eat.

[ Sighs ]
It hurts when I chew.

Yeah, I thought you might
say that, so...

Oh.

Mm.

Hey.

You always
take care of me.

Yep, I will always
take care of you.

Drink the whole thing.

Bossy.
[ Chuckles ]

Meredith: It has been proven
that what you believe

can sometimes determine
the state of your health.

Catherine, slow down!

So it goes to follow
that it can also

sometimes determine
the state of your life.

♪ ...scared of the darkness

[ Sighs ]

Marsh,
are you coming?

Marsh?
We're headed to the hotel.

Yeah, I-I'll -- I'll meet up
with you guys later.

There's, uh,
something I need to do.

♪ Eyes open wide

Uh, Ben?
Call me back.

We just landed.

I'm checking on you
and the kids.

Okay, love you.
Bye.

And what you believe
can change on a dime.

♪ To get there

[ Sighs ]

♪ We walk the line

What you believe is right...

Give me
the intubation tray.

Bring in the cart!

...what you believe is wrong...

♪ We look for signs

♪ After all we find,
it takes time ♪

...what you believe you want...

♪ It takes time

♪ For us to feel

♪ To know what's real

...what you believe you need...

♪ For hearts to heal

Oh, my gosh.
What did you do?

Help me.
Do not intubate!

That's what she wanted!

She explicitly
did not want

to be on a machine
for the rest of her life.

She was just talking,

and she was helping me
with a patient and laughing.

Help me fight
to get her back.

She dropped a lung.

Then let's put in
a chest tube.

Kwan, you need to stop.

I already intubated her!
We can't half-save her!

Page Dr. Bailey.

She's on her way
to Boston.

[ Scoffs ]

...what you believe you
are capable of doing...

Chest tube tray.

...what you believe
is a sign...

♪♪

You see her, too,
right?

Most definitely.

♪ Find who we are

♪ Find who we are

♪ Find who we are

♪ Find who we are

♪ Find who we are

♪ Find who we are

♪ Find who we are

♪ Find who we are

♪ Find who we are

♪ Find who we are

♪ Find who we are

♪ It takes time

I didn't get married.

You didn't get married.

[ Gasps ]

You two should go.

Yeah, yeah.

I'll be fine.

♪ It's like lightning

♪ When it strikes,
then you know ♪

...what you believe
the sign means...

♪ It's the right thing

♪ Am I on my own?

...what you believe
you deserve.

♪ Walking blindly

♪ But I'm searching for,
try to follow the stars ♪

♪ But don't know
where they are ♪

♪ Give me the secret

♪ Don't hold out about it

♪ Started to see it

♪ Sometimes
it's heaven or hell ♪

♪ It's getting harder to tell

♪ But I think
I'm finding myself ♪

♪ I might be going nowhere

♪ Nowhere

♪ But I know
I'm gonna get there ♪

♪ I know I'm gonna get there

♪ It reminds me

♪ That nothing is ever
what it seems ♪

♪ Give me the secret

♪ Don't hold out about it

♪ Started to see it

♪ Even though it's clouded

♪♪

So, if you want to
change your life...

change your mind.

♪ I might be going nowhere

♪ Nowhere

♪ But I know
I'm gonna get there ♪

♪ I know I'm gonna get there

♪ I might be going nowhere

[ Exhales sharply ]

♪ I know I'm gonna get there

And try not to wait too long.

Can I help you?

Hi, um, is this, uh...

I'm sorry, d-does, uh --
does Meredith Grey live here?

She's at work.

I'm Michael.

Hi, I, uh --
I'm, uh -- I'm Nick.

I'm a friend from Seattle.

Okay, I'll let her know
that you came by, Nick.

Okay?

It's probably best
if you text her.

Yeah.

Okay.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪