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what does it take for us to reach our

what does it take for us to reach our

what does it take for us to reach our breaking point

i loved her from the time her legs moved

i loved her from the time her legs moved

i loved her from the time her legs moved her body closer to me

her body closer to me

her body closer to me her hair

her hair

her hair danced from the motion of her petite

danced from the motion of her petite

danced from the motion of her petite body she wore black

body she wore black

body she wore black an artist's favorite color and her lips

an artist's favorite color and her lips

an artist's favorite color and her lips were delicately red

i've always wondered if it were the

i've always wondered if it were the

i've always wondered if it were the passion that brought us together or the

passion that brought us together or the

passion that brought us together or the paintings or

paintings or

paintings or maybe that vulnerability that we both

maybe that vulnerability that we both

maybe that vulnerability that we both shared of painful memories

shared of painful memories

shared of painful memories plastics lovers

plastics lovers

plastics lovers i believed the lie

i believed the lie

i believed the lie that we were in love

that we were in love

that we were in love but then again sometimes lies are more

but then again sometimes lies are more

but then again sometimes lies are more painful than the truth

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well the results are in

i'm afraid i don't have good news on a

i'm afraid i don't have good news on a

i'm afraid i don't have good news on a bell

bell

bell you're not pregnant this time either

but i i don't understand we've done

but i i don't understand we've done

but i i don't understand we've done everything that you've told us to do

everything that you've told us to do

everything that you've told us to do yes and i'm truly sorry on a balance

yes and i'm truly sorry on a balance

yes and i'm truly sorry on a balance sometimes it's not always fail safe

sometimes it's not always fail safe

sometimes it's not always fail safe now

now

now have you considered other alternatives

have you considered other alternatives

have you considered other alternatives then traditional pregnancy

okay i'll leave you some reading take it

okay i'll leave you some reading take it

okay i'll leave you some reading take it home discuss it with your husband

thank you

come on

i don't want you to blame me

i don't want you to blame me

i don't want you to blame me you know

and how important this is to us

we're gonna get there

we're gonna get there

we're gonna get there just don't rush

come it

hey my baby

hey my baby

hey my baby guess who

guess where i am

guess where i am

guess where i am i am back in new york

uh

uh

uh a little both i guess it's um it's a

a little both i guess it's um it's a

a little both i guess it's um it's a long story do you have time for a dream

long story do you have time for a dream

long story do you have time for a dream about 8 o'clock

about 8 o'clock

about 8 o'clock that's perfect

that's perfect

that's perfect all right sounds good

all right sounds good

all right sounds good all right i'll see you then

at it again i see

and

and

and oh i'm sorry

oh i'm sorry

oh i'm sorry what are you doing oh i'm just working

what are you doing oh i'm just working

what are you doing oh i'm just working on that show that i have next wednesday

on that show that i have next wednesday

on that show that i have next wednesday the one that i have all the investors

the one that i have all the investors

the one that i have all the investors coming to

right right

right right

right right forgot

again

again

again you know how forgetful i am

you know how forgetful i am

you know how forgetful i am you're killing me at work

that is why i come home to my gorgeous

that is why i come home to my gorgeous

that is why i come home to my gorgeous wife

away from all the

away from all the

away from all the mess

mess

mess it's the city of new york

i'm sorry

i'm sorry

i'm sorry you should be

my tippy toes

how was the move oh pain in the ass yeah

how was the move oh pain in the ass yeah

how was the move oh pain in the ass yeah imagine moving all my paintings from one

imagine moving all my paintings from one

imagine moving all my paintings from one place to another where all the movers

place to another where all the movers

place to another where all the movers are just like building them off walls

are just like building them off walls

are just like building them off walls and outdoor frames like

and outdoor frames like

and outdoor frames like idiots there's a pain in the ass but you

idiots there's a pain in the ass but you

idiots there's a pain in the ass but you know whatever

know whatever

know whatever yeah

so have you like heard from

so have you like heard from

so have you like heard from ellie since you've been back in

ellie since you've been back in

ellie since you've been back in singapore

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[Music] oh my god

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[Music] shall i know you and i know you're

shall i know you and i know you're

shall i know you and i know you're blaming yourself

blaming yourself

blaming yourself it's not your fault okay

i am so proud of you

i am so proud of you

i am so proud of you i'm so proud of you

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i am always going to be here for you

i am always going to be here for you

i am always going to be here for you and you're going to fall in love again

and you're going to fall in love again

and you're going to fall in love again it's going to happen it's just not going

it's going to happen it's just not going

it's going to happen it's just not going to be now

to be now

to be now you can't rush into it

like good good like

a medium amount of good medium memory

where are they this is like a

where are they this is like a

where are they this is like a republican national convention

republican national convention

republican national convention it is it's not that bad it's terrible

it is it's not that bad it's terrible

it is it's not that bad it's terrible you're drinking a beer yes that's weird

you're drinking a beer yes that's weird

you're drinking a beer yes that's weird i don't do that no you don't i want one

i don't do that no you don't i want one

i don't do that no you don't i want one of those okay

of those okay

of those okay hi

hi

hi hey hi how are you

hey hi how are you

hey hi how are you hi fantastic how are you

hi fantastic how are you

hi fantastic how are you thanks can i get you anything

thanks can i get you anything

thanks can i get you anything pick a beer please i am for you

pick a beer please i am for you

pick a beer please i am for you sure i'll take another one

sure i'll take another one

sure i'll take another one okay i'll be right back

you're gonna be just fine

you're gonna be just fine

you're gonna be just fine why did 20 year olds do that to me

why did 20 year olds do that to me

why did 20 year olds do that to me these perfect

these perfect

these perfect bodies i bet she is amazing in bed

enjoy

[Laughter]

[Laughter]

[Laughter] that was so smooth

that was so smooth

that was so smooth well played

well played

well played cheers my friend

cheers my friend

cheers my friend this reminds me of the

this reminds me of the

this reminds me of the oh hold on

oh hold on

oh hold on old and tired of getting you only be

old and tired of getting you only be

old and tired of getting you only be tired because the sex is amazing

i missed you so much i've missed you

i missed you so much i've missed you

i missed you so much i've missed you and we're gonna do this more absolutely

and we're gonna do this more absolutely

and we're gonna do this more absolutely and i'm gonna bring my friends and

and i'm gonna bring my friends and

and i'm gonna bring my friends and you're gonna bring gay men yes

we're gonna be late

we're gonna be late

we're gonna be late late standing around talking about being

late standing around talking about being

late standing around talking about being late

wait

wait

wait right there

right there

right there what

what

what just want to take a moment look at my

just want to take a moment look at my

just want to take a moment look at my beautiful wife

too much

let's keep going

okay

i'll see you down there

so barb

so barb

so barb how are things going at the new job

how are things going at the new job

how are things going at the new job they're going great thanks for asking

they're going great thanks for asking

they're going great thanks for asking paul and i were just talking about it

paul and i were just talking about it

paul and i were just talking about it we're gonna have to get a bigger place

we're gonna have to get a bigger place

we're gonna have to get a bigger place with baby coming and everything

bigger place bigger paycheck right

i'm just kidding

i'm just kidding

i'm just kidding nah

nah

nah we're we're excited i i'm

we're we're excited i i'm

we're we're excited i i'm excited you know i'm finally going to be

excited you know i'm finally going to be

excited you know i'm finally going to be a father and

a father and

a father and then

then

then you know i can do all those things that

you know i can do all those things that

you know i can do all those things that fathers and sons are supposed to do

fathers and sons are supposed to do

fathers and sons are supposed to do together

together

together convinced it's a boy now

more wine

more wine

more wine oh yes please

sure

so how about you two thank you

so how about you two thank you

so how about you two thank you barb mentioned to me in the kitchen the

barb mentioned to me in the kitchen the

barb mentioned to me in the kitchen the other day that you two are gonna start a

other day that you two are gonna start a

other day that you two are gonna start a family too

family too

family too how's it going

uh

uh

uh great uh good yeah things are things are

great uh good yeah things are things are

great uh good yeah things are things are going really well

going really well

going really well my job has been better than ever

my job has been better than ever

my job has been better than ever and uh

and uh

and uh annabella has been doing

annabella has been doing

annabella has been doing great things at the gallery

great things at the gallery

great things at the gallery so

so

so you know same old stuff um

you know same old stuff um

you know same old stuff um we haven't really made any decisions yet

we haven't really made any decisions yet

we haven't really made any decisions yet about the the family thing yet but

about the the family thing yet but

about the the family thing yet but it'll happen

it'll happen

it'll happen we're just taking things

we're just taking things

we're just taking things one day at a time

one day at a time

one day at a time okay okay

okay okay

okay okay great

great

great and annabella we see you next wednesday

and annabella we see you next wednesday

and annabella we see you next wednesday at the gallery opening right

at the gallery opening right

at the gallery opening right yeah

yeah

yeah good i'm looking forward to it

good i'm looking forward to it

good i'm looking forward to it good hey let's take these out huh yeah

good hey let's take these out huh yeah

good hey let's take these out huh yeah sure

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[Music] thank you

you're gonna be a great mom one day

i could just see our kids playing

i could just see our kids playing

i could just see our kids playing together

together

together how's everything going

how's everything going

how's everything going any easier

any easier

any easier well vincent's getting pretty restless

well vincent's getting pretty restless

well vincent's getting pretty restless you know he just thinks that

you know he just thinks that

you know he just thinks that i work too hard and that i'm wearing

i work too hard and that i'm wearing

i work too hard and that i'm wearing myself out

myself out

myself out yeah the truth of the matter is that he

yeah the truth of the matter is that he

yeah the truth of the matter is that he works a lot harder than i do usually

i'm sorry and here we are just talking

i'm sorry and here we are just talking

i'm sorry and here we are just talking about the baby all night

about the baby all night

about the baby all night oh no no no i'm uh

i'm really happy for you

i'm really happy for you

i'm really happy for you i'm really happy for you and

i'm really happy for you and

i'm really happy for you and i don't want you to feel like you can't

i don't want you to feel like you can't

i don't want you to feel like you can't share that with us

share that with us

share that with us thanks

thanks

thanks you're welcome

uh

what's wrong

nothing

come on talk about everything what's

come on talk about everything what's

come on talk about everything what's going on

but why do you always advertise your

but why do you always advertise your

but why do you always advertise your shows at our dinner parties

because paul and barbara are our friends

because paul and barbara are our friends

because paul and barbara are our friends and he brought it up not me no

and he brought it up not me no

and he brought it up not me no paul and barbara were my friends

paul and barbara were my friends

paul and barbara were my friends originally not yours

well then they're they're not our dinner

well then they're they're not our dinner

well then they're they're not our dinner parties then they're yours

are you trying to say that i'm not good

are you trying to say that i'm not good

are you trying to say that i'm not good enough for your friends

enough for your friends

enough for your friends look i know everything with the art

look i know everything with the art

look i know everything with the art gallery may seem like a big waste of

gallery may seem like a big waste of

gallery may seem like a big waste of time to you but it's not to me

time to you but it's not to me

time to you but it's not to me you used to support me before

you used to support me before

you used to support me before what's changed with you

where are you going

don't go stop come back

come back

come back

come back it's just

it's it's all my fault

that we can't have kids of our own

and i am great at my job

and i am great at my job

and i am great at my job but i can't give you a child i just

i mean what does that say the ada of new

i mean what does that say the ada of new

i mean what does that say the ada of new york

we have talked about having kids since

we have talked about having kids since

we have talked about having kids since the moment we fell in love and i just

hey

hey

hey i love you

i love you

nothing more nothing less just

don't let this break us

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oh it's so good to see you

oh it's so good to see you

oh it's so good to see you i'm so sorry i missed the meeting no

i'm so sorry i missed the meeting no

i'm so sorry i missed the meeting no worries was it okay everything went

worries was it okay everything went

worries was it okay everything went great it's perfect perfect so and

great it's perfect perfect so and

great it's perfect perfect so and tim helen has been going on and on and

tim helen has been going on and on and

tim helen has been going on and on and on about your show i can't wait to

on about your show i can't wait to

on about your show i can't wait to interview you for the magazine

interview you for the magazine

interview you for the magazine terry magazine

terry magazine

terry magazine jerry's one of my dear friends from

jerry's one of my dear friends from

jerry's one of my dear friends from brown

brown

brown she works for new york feet one of the

she works for new york feet one of the

she works for new york feet one of the most widely read papers in the city of

most widely read papers in the city of

most widely read papers in the city of staff friends and high places doesn't it

staff friends and high places doesn't it

staff friends and high places doesn't it ann

ann

ann yeah

yeah

yeah yeah yeah so

yeah yeah so

yeah yeah so will you be available maybe next week

will you be available maybe next week

will you be available maybe next week maybe

maybe

maybe tuesday 10 30 a.m would that work for

tuesday 10 30 a.m would that work for

tuesday 10 30 a.m would that work for you for the interview uh

you for the interview uh

you for the interview uh yeah

yeah

yeah yeah that's great i'd be honored

yeah that's great i'd be honored

yeah that's great i'd be honored perfect perfect all right ladies i gotta

perfect perfect all right ladies i gotta

perfect perfect all right ladies i gotta chat all right ciao

chat all right ciao

chat all right ciao ciao bye oh so sorry

ciao bye oh so sorry

ciao bye oh so sorry [Music]

so that's good how's it going with the

so that's good how's it going with the

so that's good how's it going with the submissions

submissions

submissions good i actually spoke to klein geller's

good i actually spoke to klein geller's

good i actually spoke to klein geller's agent the other night and he said that

agent the other night and he said that

agent the other night and he said that you know whatever paintings that we're

you know whatever paintings that we're

you know whatever paintings that we're not using in the show just to send them

not using in the show just to send them

not using in the show just to send them over to his office after the event

over to his office after the event

over to his office after the event and uh his paintings are really great i

and uh his paintings are really great i

and uh his paintings are really great i think you're to fall in love with them

think you're to fall in love with them

think you're to fall in love with them and then we had claire daniels she's

and then we had claire daniels she's

and then we had claire daniels she's from connecticut and i got her

from connecticut and i got her

from connecticut and i got her submissions in this morning so we're

submissions in this morning so we're

submissions in this morning so we're looking at

looking at

looking at six

six

six six submissions right now

six submissions right now

six submissions right now six

six

six yeah

yeah

yeah i don't know if i need to tell you this

i don't know if i need to tell you this

i don't know if i need to tell you this but i have thousands invested in

but i have thousands invested in

but i have thousands invested in advertising alone we not only are going

advertising alone we not only are going

advertising alone we not only are going to have a ton of press there but new

to have a ton of press there but new

to have a ton of press there but new york's supposed to leave they're going

york's supposed to leave they're going

york's supposed to leave they're going to be expecting 30 to 40 submissions at

to be expecting 30 to 40 submissions at

to be expecting 30 to 40 submissions at least

least

least my our reputation is on the line here no

my our reputation is on the line here no

my our reputation is on the line here no i i completely understand and i can't

i i completely understand and i can't

i i completely understand and i can't handle amateurs i need the best of the

handle amateurs i need the best of the

handle amateurs i need the best of the best is that clear yes

best is that clear yes

best is that clear yes okay i need them by thursday

okay i need them by thursday

okay i need them by thursday if i can't get them we're going to have

if i can't get them we're going to have

if i can't get them we're going to have to get to the show

to get to the show

to get to the show okay

okay

okay let me just give you a little bit of

let me just give you a little bit of

let me just give you a little bit of advice you're smart and you're talented

advice you're smart and you're talented

advice you're smart and you're talented which is why i have faith in you

which is why i have faith in you

which is why i have faith in you you need two things in life money and

you need two things in life money and

you need two things in life money and power with those you'll be unstoppable

power with those you'll be unstoppable

power with those you'll be unstoppable all right ciao

all right ciao

all right ciao bye

yes

yes

yes [Music]

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[Music] you okay

you okay

you okay [Music]

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[Music] yeah

yeah

yeah comes with me

comes with me

comes with me [Music]

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[Music] i'm so embarrassed it's all right it

i'm so embarrassed it's all right it

i'm so embarrassed it's all right it happens

happens

happens lucky you didn't bust your phone

lucky you didn't bust your phone

lucky you didn't bust your phone let me see

let me see

let me see that looks nasty

yeah don't worry about it listen i got

yeah don't worry about it listen i got

yeah don't worry about it listen i got some uh bandages upstairs come on i'll

some uh bandages upstairs come on i'll

some uh bandages upstairs come on i'll bring you up come on

bring you up come on

bring you up come on [Music]

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[Music] this isn't new york this is new york

this isn't new york this is new york

this isn't new york this is new york i'm not going to hurt you

i'm not going to hurt you

i'm not going to hurt you [Music]

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[Music] okay

okay

okay thank you

i'll just take a seat thank you

i'll just take a seat thank you

i'll just take a seat thank you do you want any uh coffee or tea or oh

do you want any uh coffee or tea or oh

do you want any uh coffee or tea or oh no you know i think i just the

no you know i think i just the

no you know i think i just the bandage will be good

that stings yeah

don't touch it

don't touch it

don't touch it i'm not going to okay

i'm not going to okay

i'm not going to okay um

um

um this might sting

this might sting

this might sting okay so

i know i know tough cookies

i know i know tough cookies

i know i know tough cookies tough cookies

okay

thank you yeah yeah of course

thank you yeah yeah of course

thank you yeah yeah of course so just put pressure on that okay all

so just put pressure on that okay all

so just put pressure on that okay all right and um

right and um

right and um thank you you are set i'm all set you're

thank you you are set i'm all set you're

thank you you are set i'm all set you're all set thank you so much yeah of course

all set thank you so much yeah of course

all set thank you so much yeah of course yeah i really uh

yeah i really uh

yeah i really uh you know i was inside i actually i need

you know i was inside i actually i need

you know i was inside i actually i need to go i mean it was in a hurry

to go i mean it was in a hurry

to go i mean it was in a hurry so thank you it's all good

so thank you it's all good

so thank you it's all good um you know i think i i just want to

um you know i think i i just want to

um you know i think i i just want to wash my hands before i get do you mind

wash my hands before i get do you mind

wash my hands before i get do you mind if i do you have a restroom that i could

if i do you have a restroom that i could

if i do you have a restroom that i could use yeah yeah it's for just right down

use yeah yeah it's for just right down

use yeah yeah it's for just right down the right down the hole okay thank you

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oh no i'm sorry i just uh

oh no i'm sorry i just uh

oh no i'm sorry i just uh are these your paintings

are these your paintings

are these your paintings yeah they are

yeah they are

yeah they are wow

they are beautiful thank you i think so

they are beautiful thank you i think so

they are beautiful thank you i think so too

my painter's name is leon

my painter's name is leon

my painter's name is leon i find that if it's a man's name more

i find that if it's a man's name more

i find that if it's a man's name more people will come to the show

people will come to the show

people will come to the show that's really all i want

you know i didn't realize that painters

you know i didn't realize that painters

you know i didn't realize that painters still had trouble being seen because of

still had trouble being seen because of

still had trouble being seen because of their gender

are you from new york no no i'm from

are you from new york no no i'm from

are you from new york no no i'm from providence ah

providence ah

providence ah but i love it here

but i love it here

but i love it here full of excitement and lovers

full of excitement and lovers

full of excitement and lovers and you're not from new york either

and you're not from new york either

and you're not from new york either you're too calm and patient

you're too calm and patient

you're too calm and patient no

no

no no i'm not from new york

no i'm not from new york

no i'm not from new york you know actually i went to school in uh

you know actually i went to school in uh

you know actually i went to school in uh in massachusetts

in massachusetts

in massachusetts and i studied art history

and i studied art history

and i studied art history and then i moved to new york and i met

and then i moved to new york and i met

and then i moved to new york and i met my husband

and i love new york too

how long have you been in new york

uh i've been here for about uh four

uh i've been here for about uh four

uh i've been here for about uh four years how long have you been married

three

three

three why are you married quick yeah yeah it

why are you married quick yeah yeah it

why are you married quick yeah yeah it was quick

was quick

was quick young love

young love

young love but uh

but uh

but uh yeah it was fast

yeah it was fast

yeah it was fast but he's a really good guy he um you

but he's a really good guy he um you

but he's a really good guy he um you know we work together really well

know we work together really well

know we work together really well as mushy as that sounds but his name is

as mushy as that sounds but his name is

as mushy as that sounds but his name is vincent

vincent

vincent and he's an assistant district attorney

and he's an assistant district attorney

and he's an assistant district attorney vincent yeah

vincent yeah

vincent yeah i don't even know your name

i don't even know your name

i don't even know your name oh i'm jillian

oh i'm jillian

oh i'm jillian annabella annabella

annabella annabella

annabella annabella it's a beautiful name for an incredibly

it's a beautiful name for an incredibly

it's a beautiful name for an incredibly beautiful woman

thank you

so what makes you tick

so what makes you tick

so what makes you tick i mean i'd love to put some of these

i mean i'd love to put some of these

i mean i'd love to put some of these things in my art gallery yeah that'd be

things in my art gallery yeah that'd be

things in my art gallery yeah that'd be great

what about that one

what about that one

what about that one i'm really taken with that one over

i'm really taken with that one over

i'm really taken with that one over there what's it called

there what's it called

there what's it called that one is

that one is

that one is that one was

that one was

that one was of my lover ellie

she was the most amazing woman

she was the most amazing woman

she was the most amazing woman you know physically emotionally i just

you know physically emotionally i just

you know physically emotionally i just clicked

clicked

clicked you know like you and your husband

and i just

and i just

and i just i felt this

i felt this

i felt this drifting apart

drifting apart

drifting apart hello

hello

hello what are you doing what is this

working

working

working i'm bored out

what are you doing

that's not boring we're gonna be having

that's not boring we're gonna be having

that's not boring we're gonna be having so much fun together

so much fun together

so much fun together do you find this in the attic you want

do you find this in the attic you want

do you find this in the attic you want to paint something you can feed me

to paint something you can feed me

to paint something you can feed me i think i always paint you

i think i always paint you

i think i always paint you like these can you do several times what

like these can you do several times what

like these can you do several times what about my buck i've painted your back

about my buck i've painted your back

about my buck i've painted your back i've painted everything look at these

i've painted everything look at these

i've painted everything look at these back

back

back this does not show very much back that's

this does not show very much back that's

this does not show very much back that's i think that's a problem

i think that's a problem

i think that's a problem show much back i know

show much back i know

show much back i know that's the only thing i don't like about

that's the only thing i don't like about

that's the only thing i don't like about the dress everything else is great

the dress everything else is great

the dress everything else is great [Music]

[Music]

[Music] oh you're so [ __ ] hot

you were really keeping me from what i'm

you were really keeping me from what i'm

you were really keeping me from what i'm supposed to be doing right now right

supposed to be doing right now right

supposed to be doing right now right here

here

here really yeah oh isn't it so you're very

really yeah oh isn't it so you're very

really yeah oh isn't it so you're very needy you're very

needy you're very

needy you're very [Music]

[Music]

[Music] needy so much

needy so much

needy so much [Music]

ellie ellie doc what are you doing what

ellie ellie doc what are you doing what

ellie ellie doc what are you doing what are you doing what are you doing stop it

are you doing what are you doing stop it

are you doing what are you doing stop it stop it stop it what is wrong with you

stop it stop it what is wrong with you

stop it stop it what is wrong with you what is wrong with you we have worked so

what is wrong with you we have worked so

what is wrong with you we have worked so hard on this yeah

stop stop stop stop stop stop stop baby

stop stop stop stop stop stop stop baby

stop stop stop stop stop stop stop baby stop

stop

stop stop stop it baby please please please

stop stop it baby please please please

stop stop it baby please please please please

stop stop stop stop it baby stop stop no

stop stop stop stop it baby stop stop no

stop stop stop stop it baby stop stop no stop stop

stop stop

stop stop don't see me

don't see me

don't see me you don't see me in front

look at me look at me look at me look at

look at me look at me look at me look at

look at me look at me look at me look at me

so i left

so i left

so i left but in the middle of the night when i'm

but in the middle of the night when i'm

but in the middle of the night when i'm in here and painting i know that that

in here and painting i know that that

in here and painting i know that that was

was

was that was my fault

you can't blame yourself for something

you can't blame yourself for something

you can't blame yourself for something like that

like that

like that i don't know everything and everything

i don't know everything and everything

i don't know everything and everything seems to happen for a reason

seems to happen for a reason

seems to happen for a reason you know

you never know

that one on the end

that one on the end

that one on the end um

um

um i painted that

i painted that

i painted that after i found out that she had

after i found out that she had

after i found out that she had passed

it's called the shade of darkness

you know i guess i understand somewhat

you know i guess i understand somewhat

you know i guess i understand somewhat of you know how you feel

of you know how you feel

of you know how you feel before i met vincent

before i met vincent

before i met vincent i was with this guy for like six years

i was with this guy for like six years

i was with this guy for like six years and uh

and uh

and uh and we were we grew up together

and we were we grew up together

and we were we grew up together parents were really good friends

parents were really good friends

parents were really good friends and uh and you know as we got older and

and uh and you know as we got older and

and uh and you know as we got older and the relationship matured

the relationship matured

the relationship matured we just

we just

we just kept going

kept going

kept going and then one day

and then one day

and then one day i mean it really seemed out of the blue

i mean it really seemed out of the blue

i mean it really seemed out of the blue he just called it quits

he just called it quits

he just called it quits belly up

belly up

belly up and then

and then

and then it was over

it was over

it was over didn't want to do it anymore

didn't want to do it anymore

didn't want to do it anymore but i think the thing that made it that

but i think the thing that made it that

but i think the thing that made it that much worse was the fact that

much worse was the fact that

much worse was the fact that we were getting married

we were getting married

we were getting married oh god no it was like something oh my

oh god no it was like something oh my

oh god no it was like something oh my god

god

god it was

it was

it was like something out of a hollywood movie

[Laughter]

[Laughter]

[Laughter] oh no obviously i'm sorry

us creatives we never miss the drama now

us creatives we never miss the drama now

us creatives we never miss the drama now do we never

death doesn't scare me

death doesn't scare me

death doesn't scare me not leaving my mark does

not leaving my mark does

not leaving my mark does right these paintings

right these paintings

right these paintings they're my monuments

they're my monuments

they're my monuments and death is just another place where we

and death is just another place where we

and death is just another place where we can see those loved ones that we had

can see those loved ones that we had

can see those loved ones that we had lost

lost

lost no pain no regret

i mean that's what i learned in

i mean that's what i learned in

i mean that's what i learned in religious class i mean i wasn't really

religious class i mean i wasn't really

religious class i mean i wasn't really paying attention i was too busy sleeping

paying attention i was too busy sleeping

paying attention i was too busy sleeping with other girls

oops

oh you know what time is that

oh you know what time is that

oh you know what time is that no i got so distracted it's okay it's

no i got so distracted it's okay it's

no i got so distracted it's okay it's around two or three i think oh boy yeah

around two or three i think oh boy yeah

around two or three i think oh boy yeah i gotta go it's late okay look um

i gotta go it's late okay look um

i gotta go it's late okay look um you know i never i never normally do

you know i never i never normally do

you know i never i never normally do this look here is my business card

this look here is my business card

this look here is my business card and my uh

and my uh

and my uh my email my cell phone number's on there

my email my cell phone number's on there

my email my cell phone number's on there and just coming to the studio sometime

and just coming to the studio sometime

and just coming to the studio sometime next week you're being serious

next week you're being serious

next week you're being serious yeah

yeah

yeah and i and i really want you to share

and i and i really want you to share

and i and i really want you to share that one

i haven't shown anybody that one yet

i haven't shown anybody that one yet

i haven't shown anybody that one yet i don't know

i don't know

i don't know please

please

please god

oh god you're killing me

oh god you're killing me

oh god you're killing me okay fine okay good yes okay good

okay fine okay good yes okay good

okay fine okay good yes okay good you know it's fine like never i usually

you know it's fine like never i usually

you know it's fine like never i usually never do that here tell me here's my

never do that here tell me here's my

never do that here tell me here's my card

card

card and i've got my cell on there and my

and i've got my cell on there and my

and i've got my cell on there and my email address so just when you know that

email address so just when you know that

email address so just when you know that you want to come into the studio just

you want to come into the studio just

you want to come into the studio just come in and we'll figure out how we want

come in and we'll figure out how we want

come in and we'll figure out how we want everything displayed

everything displayed

everything displayed okay okay i'm excited i really do

okay okay i'm excited i really do

okay okay i'm excited i really do good well it was can i just show up yeah

good well it was can i just show up yeah

good well it was can i just show up yeah show myself okay all right well it was

show myself okay all right well it was

show myself okay all right well it was really nice meeting you nice meeting you

really nice meeting you nice meeting you

really nice meeting you nice meeting you yeah all right jillian bye-bye

yeah all right jillian bye-bye

yeah all right jillian bye-bye annabella

so

[Music]

so

so

so [Music]

jillian

hi

are you here a lot i haven't seen you

are you here a lot i haven't seen you

are you here a lot i haven't seen you yeah let's just start

yeah let's just start

yeah let's just start try running again stay in shape

try running again stay in shape

try running again stay in shape yeah

yeah

yeah i'm looking at it

i know you only said 20 but um

i know you only said 20 but um

i know you only said 20 but um so energized and

so energized and

so energized and thank you

thank you

thank you of course hey i should be thanking you

of course hey i should be thanking you

of course hey i should be thanking you you are

you are

you are your paintings are amazing

you have a beautiful smile

you have a beautiful smile

you have a beautiful smile you should smile more

you should smile more

you should smile more really

stop you're making me blush

when you found me i was in a

when you found me i was in a

when you found me i was in a really difficult place

really difficult place

really difficult place i mean i came here to disappear

i mean i came here to disappear

i mean i came here to disappear you know

it's fine

it's fine

it's fine fine

so anyway like i was saying so friends

so anyway like i was saying so friends

so anyway like i was saying so friends of yours

yeah

yeah

yeah unfortunately oh

unfortunately oh

unfortunately oh they're actually coming to the art

they're actually coming to the art

they're actually coming to the art gallery opening next week oh great

gallery opening next week oh great

gallery opening next week oh great i'll introduce you to

i actually have to get going

yeah well i have a lot of work to do

yeah well i have a lot of work to do

yeah well i have a lot of work to do with the office for you

with the office for you

with the office for you me yes

me yes

me yes all right i'll see you later

right

right

right so which one of these prints would you

so which one of these prints would you

so which one of these prints would you like me to enlarge

like me to enlarge

like me to enlarge no i need to send you the digital file

no i need to send you the digital file

no i need to send you the digital file of it too sure

of it too sure

of it too sure let me get this up

let me get this up

let me get this up i'm thinking maybe

that one

that one

that one okay do you have that engine yeah i

okay do you have that engine yeah i

okay do you have that engine yeah i think it's right here

think it's right here

think it's right here oh there it is okay all right i will

oh there it is okay all right i will

oh there it is okay all right i will send that to you

send that to you

send that to you and how about that one yeah that one's

and how about that one yeah that one's

and how about that one yeah that one's great yeah i like that one we've got

great yeah i like that one we've got

great yeah i like that one we've got someone over here

someone over here

someone over here it's such a good eye i don't know i love

it's such a good eye i don't know i love

it's such a good eye i don't know i love it

it

it okay

okay

okay all right manny give me one

all right manny give me one

all right manny give me one second

okay

okay

okay i'm gonna try faxing them okay

hi julian

hi julian

hi julian hi

hi

hi hey i'm just gonna be one minute i have

hey i'm just gonna be one minute i have

hey i'm just gonna be one minute i have to fax something okay i'm gonna take

to fax something okay i'm gonna take

to fax something okay i'm gonna take your coat sure

thank you come on

that's huge

hey hi

hey hi

hey hi daniel could you go and get us some

daniel could you go and get us some

daniel could you go and get us some coffees sure no problem hey and get

coffees sure no problem hey and get

coffees sure no problem hey and get yourself whatever you want thank you

yourself whatever you want thank you

yourself whatever you want thank you and my credit card's on the desk

and my credit card's on the desk

and my credit card's on the desk okay

okay

this is a huge space you have

this is a huge space you have

this is a huge space you have yeah nice

yeah nice

yeah nice that's a

that's a

that's a i got it at a decent price too if you

i got it at a decent price too if you

i got it at a decent price too if you can believe that

can believe that

can believe that i have my work in the uh in the car

i have my work in the uh in the car

i have my work in the uh in the car right now um i just wanted to

right now um i just wanted to

right now um i just wanted to see the space first oh sure absolutely

see the space first oh sure absolutely

see the space first oh sure absolutely yeah you can look around if you'd like

yeah you can look around if you'd like

yeah you can look around if you'd like i might put my real name on these

i might put my real name on these

i might put my real name on these yes

yes

yes um yeah i'm good to you i'm happy to

um yeah i'm good to you i'm happy to

um yeah i'm good to you i'm happy to hear that you should

hear that you should

hear that you should i brought my

i brought my

i brought my portfolio if you wanted to i mean you'll

portfolio if you wanted to i mean you'll

portfolio if you wanted to i mean you'll have to can i look i want to look

oh wow you brought a lot of stuff too

i remember this one

so gorgeous

you know we could have you set up by

you know we could have you set up by

you know we could have you set up by wednesday i think next wednesday

wednesday i think next wednesday

wednesday i think next wednesday next wednesday that's good

next wednesday that's good

next wednesday that's good yeah yeah sounds good all right

yeah yeah sounds good all right

yeah yeah sounds good all right oh and you know i should just it's

oh and you know i should just it's

oh and you know i should just it's business but i cap all my commissions at

business but i cap all my commissions at

business but i cap all my commissions at 30

30

30 so 70 percent is left for you that's

so 70 percent is left for you that's

so 70 percent is left for you that's okay with you

okay with you

okay with you okay reasonable okay i'll let you hold

okay reasonable okay i'll let you hold

okay reasonable okay i'll let you hold on to this for one second i'll be right

on to this for one second i'll be right

on to this for one second i'll be right back okay

back okay

back okay um i do have a question if

um i do have a question if

um i do have a question if yeah

yeah

yeah will you have dinner with me

oh you know what i can't

probably have plans with vincent right

probably have plans with vincent right

probably have plans with vincent right i'm glad that you stopped by thank you

i'm glad that you stopped by thank you

i'm glad that you stopped by thank you i'll see you next week all right yeah

i'll see you next week all right yeah

i'll see you next week all right yeah bye

[Music]

hi how are you

hi how are you

hi how are you good news

good news

good news i have 25 pieces for the art gallery oh

i have 25 pieces for the art gallery oh

i have 25 pieces for the art gallery oh fantastic i'm so good

fantastic i'm so good

fantastic i'm so good actually there's a couple of artists

actually there's a couple of artists

actually there's a couple of artists that you haven't met yet that i'll

that you haven't met yet that i'll

that you haven't met yet that i'll introduce you to

introduce you to

introduce you to including

including

including jillian no i think her work on darling

jillian no i think her work on darling

jillian no i think her work on darling is gonna be the highlight of the show

is gonna be the highlight of the show

is gonna be the highlight of the show i'll treat you

i'll treat you

i'll treat you you remember she was the woman that i

you remember she was the woman that i

you remember she was the woman that i was in the park with

was in the park with

was in the park with remember

remember

remember the woman i saw kissing you

what

oh god oh you know don't be ridiculous

oh god oh you know don't be ridiculous

oh god oh you know don't be ridiculous you know she's you know she's just an

you know she's you know she's just an

you know she's you know she's just an artist they're totally spontaneous

artist they're totally spontaneous

artist they're totally spontaneous people

people

people now we're just friends

now we're just friends

now we're just friends good

good

good because we can't afford a scandal god i

because we can't afford a scandal god i

because we can't afford a scandal god i could just see the papers new york's

could just see the papers new york's

could just see the papers new york's ada's wife caught kissing a woman

ada's wife caught kissing a woman

ada's wife caught kissing a woman i mean either way your secret's safe

i mean either way your secret's safe

i mean either way your secret's safe with me but really i'm gonna have to get

with me but really i'm gonna have to get

with me but really i'm gonna have to get this great

this great

this great helen seriously there's nothing going on

helen seriously there's nothing going on

helen seriously there's nothing going on good

good

good because rich men in this city

because rich men in this city

because rich men in this city will ruin a woman's reputation

will ruin a woman's reputation

will ruin a woman's reputation especially when it comes to infidelity

especially when it comes to infidelity

especially when it comes to infidelity with the opposite well same sex

well there's nothing going on

well there's nothing going on

well there's nothing going on good

good

good great

great

great love to chat ciao

hey baby

honey i want to see you too but i got

honey i want to see you too but i got

honey i want to see you too but i got another late night at the office

another late night at the office

another late night at the office yeah i just i just stopped outside to

yeah i just i just stopped outside to

yeah i just i just stopped outside to give you a call

give you a call

give you a call we hardly have any time for ourselves

we hardly have any time for ourselves

we hardly have any time for ourselves i have to make a living anne

i have to make a living anne

i have to make a living anne and this is what it's all about you're

and this is what it's all about you're

and this is what it's all about you're just gonna have to get used to it

hey listen i gotta go i love you

hey listen i gotta go i love you

hey listen i gotta go i love you what

please

[Music]

hey

hey

hey hi

hi

hi thanks for meeting me

thanks for meeting me

thanks for meeting me i thought you were busy

i thought you were busy

i thought you were busy yeah

yeah

yeah yeah i was but uh

my husband's job just kept them away

so you came here to waste time with me

no i came here to spend time with you

no i came here to spend time with you

no i came here to spend time with you jillian

my apartment's this way

my apartment's this way

my apartment's this way okay

okay

okay [Applause]

okay

okay

okay okay

okay

okay okay

okay

okay okay

okay

okay

it's okay

it's okay

it's okay it's okay

okay

okay

okay okay

hi

breathe

sure

um

uh

so

uh

hmm

they're just really confused right now

you know i love vincent

i just

you know i feel like everything's become

you know i feel like everything's become

you know i feel like everything's become about him you know everything's about

about him you know everything's about

about him you know everything's about his job it's about

his job it's about

his job it's about it's never anything about us and

it's never anything about us and

it's never anything about us and i just feel lost

i know you've had a really traumatic

i know you've had a really traumatic

i know you've had a really traumatic past i'm completely aware of that and

past i'm completely aware of that and

past i'm completely aware of that and i'm not trying to

i don't know what i'm feeling right now

i don't know what i'm feeling right now

i don't know what i'm feeling right now but

i don't want to leave

you don't have to explain anything

all that matters is

that's all there is

there's nothing else

we're going to bed

you could stare

you could stare

you could stare me

me

me down

down

down [Music]

[Music]

[Music] i won't look away

you don't scare me now

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] from this prison

from this prison

from this prison [Music]

[Music]

[Music] from don't fail now

from don't fail now

from don't fail now i need you

i need you

i need you to escape

why am i searching

why am i searching

why am i searching [Music]

[Music]

[Music] for what we all can see

stop flirting

you wanna give it to

you wanna give it to

you wanna give it to [Music]

could you talk me down

could you talk me down

could you talk me down i'm up too high again

i need you now

i need you now

i need you now i thought you were my friend

cause i'm freaking

cause i'm freaking

cause i'm freaking out

out

out and the walls are closing in

i need you now

i'll need you

i'll need you

i'll need you again

stop squirming

stop squirming

stop squirming [Music]

i believe

so what happened last night

well

well

well i went out with lily

i went out with lily

i went out with lily and the evening started out all right

and the evening started out all right

and the evening started out all right and then we wound up at a dive bar in

and then we wound up at a dive bar in

and then we wound up at a dive bar in the village

do i know lily

do i know lily

do i know lily yeah you better uh

yeah you better uh

yeah you better uh she had brown hair you met her a couple

she had brown hair you met her a couple

she had brown hair you met her a couple years ago my parents christmas party

years ago my parents christmas party

years ago my parents christmas party no she had really long brown hair

that was a long time ago

so you just uh slept on her couch

so you just uh slept on her couch

so you just uh slept on her couch yeah i just crashed there i didn't even

yeah i just crashed there i didn't even

yeah i just crashed there i didn't even realize she lives right on barrel street

realize she lives right on barrel street

realize she lives right on barrel street which is uh right around the corner from

which is uh right around the corner from

which is uh right around the corner from where we were and then i went back to

where we were and then i went back to

where we were and then i went back to her apartment and just slept there until

her apartment and just slept there until

her apartment and just slept there until like 3 30

like 3 30

like 3 30 and then woke up and came

wrong you home

wrong you home

wrong you home didn't think the call

didn't think the call

didn't think the call i would have but my phone completely ran

i would have but my phone completely ran

i would have but my phone completely ran out of juice

out of juice

out of juice it was like by the time we got back to

it was like by the time we got back to

it was like by the time we got back to her apartment

you know i don't even know your cell

you know i don't even know your cell

you know i don't even know your cell phone number by heart i don't even know

phone number by heart i don't even know

phone number by heart i don't even know lily's it's like the age that we live in

lily's it's like the age that we live in

lily's it's like the age that we live in now

now

now i wouldn't be able to call if i tried

i wouldn't be able to call if i tried

i wouldn't be able to call if i tried i'm sorry

next time

next time

hello

hello

hello hi it's me

hi it's me

hi it's me hi

is he there

i just wanted to hear your voice

yeah you know i right now it's actually

yeah you know i right now it's actually

yeah you know i right now it's actually not a good time right now

then we'll just talk next week okay

okay jillian bye bye

um

yeah she's great

yeah she's great

yeah she's great but you know creative types

it's funny because she's always calling

it's funny because she's always calling

it's funny because she's always calling me like do you think i should use this

me like do you think i should use this

me like do you think i should use this color or this canvas it's like

color or this canvas it's like

color or this canvas it's like you know

you know

you know but she's really sweet though

did i uh

did i uh

did i uh did i know you were having a show on

did i know you were having a show on

did i know you were having a show on wednesday

yeah did you just think of it now

yeah did you just think of it now

yeah did you just think of it now yeah i told you about that a couple

yeah i told you about that a couple

yeah i told you about that a couple weeks ago

weeks ago

weeks ago no i don't think so

well anyway um

well anyway um

well anyway um my point being um

my point being um

my point being um walter

walter

walter a new assistant is

a new assistant is

a new assistant is competent completely useless

competent completely useless

competent completely useless oh your favorite

oh your favorite

oh your favorite yeah and so i am completely swamped with

yeah and so i am completely swamped with

yeah and so i am completely swamped with paperwork

paperwork

paperwork um

i made him try to make it

i made him try to make it

i made him try to make it but i don't know

please try

i have to get ready for work um

i have to get ready for work um

i have to get ready for work um breakfast

breakfast

breakfast was wonderful

was wonderful

was wonderful welcome

welcome

welcome hmm

the office really that bad

come on man lighten up it's just a joke

you and anna still having pregnancy

you and anna still having pregnancy

you and anna still having pregnancy problems

oh yeah

i think she's having an affair

there's no way she's having an affair

you sure well how do you know

you sure well how do you know

you sure well how do you know maybe i

it's just a feeling

it usually tells me everything

it usually tells me everything

it usually tells me everything a little time we actually have together

a little time we actually have together

a little time we actually have together is just us

she was taking client calls on a

she was taking client calls on a

she was taking client calls on a personal line

personal line

personal line and staying up late with a friend

i don't get it

and i called joanna to ask her about

and i called joanna to ask her about

and i called joanna to ask her about some dates

some dates

some dates she asked me how annabella was doing

she asked me how annabella was doing

she asked me how annabella was doing said she hadn't seen her in weeks

said she hadn't seen her in weeks

said she hadn't seen her in weeks yeah she thought annabella might be out

yeah she thought annabella might be out

yeah she thought annabella might be out fighting morning sickness

all right

it doesn't sound convincing to me

you know better than i would

sorry vincent i really am

sorry vincent i really am

sorry vincent i really am i mean what are you gonna do

i mean what are you gonna do

i mean what are you gonna do what do you think it is

what do you think it is

what do you think it is i don't know

but i'm gonna find out

are you 100 certain that she's having an

are you 100 certain that she's having an

are you 100 certain that she's having an affair

affair

affair because for all you know i mean she

because for all you know i mean she

because for all you know i mean she could be busy at the office

maybe i

you're right

i'm just stressed

trying to have a baby

trying to have a baby

trying to have a baby [Music]

[Music]

[Music] i can't put this on her it's not fair

listen

listen

listen you know women

you know women

you know women they're emotional creatures and they're

they're emotional creatures and they're

they're emotional creatures and they're already incredibly attached to each

already incredibly attached to each

already incredibly attached to each other so it's nothing personal and

other so it's nothing personal and

other so it's nothing personal and think about it she's probably just as

think about it she's probably just as

think about it she's probably just as stressed out as you are too

so don't worry about a man okay

anyways you

anyways you

anyways you you're still coming to the house on

you're still coming to the house on

you're still coming to the house on friday

friday

friday right come on vince you better not

right come on vince you better not

right come on vince you better not disappoint me okay

disappoint me okay

disappoint me okay you know how upset barbara gets over

you know how upset barbara gets over

you know how upset barbara gets over these dinners i mean she's been working

these dinners i mean she's been working

these dinners i mean she's been working on this particular recipe she has for

on this particular recipe she has for

on this particular recipe she has for over a week

over a week

over a week starting to drive me nuts

is is this what marriage is about i mean

is is this what marriage is about i mean

is is this what marriage is about i mean seriously is this what i

seriously is this what i

seriously is this what i signed up for

nope that's about it

nope that's about it

nope that's about it friends dinner parties kids

friends dinner parties kids

friends dinner parties kids shopping at home depot

even

even

even wonderful for each other don't go

wonderful for each other don't go

wonderful for each other don't go messing it up over some silly suspicion

messing it up over some silly suspicion

messing it up over some silly suspicion okay

i know

come on

um

um

um i'm gonna go

hmm

this

this

this you really outdid yourself this is great

you really outdid yourself this is great

you really outdid yourself this is great you're too kind thank you

so how's it going organizing for your

so how's it going organizing for your

so how's it going organizing for your gallery show great great um we're almost

gallery show great great um we're almost

gallery show great great um we're almost done actually i have about 20 pieces put

done actually i have about 20 pieces put

done actually i have about 20 pieces put together so far

together so far

together so far and

and

and in the process i actually met a really

in the process i actually met a really

in the process i actually met a really great artist named jillian

great artist named jillian

great artist named jillian that's wonderful

that's wonderful

that's wonderful who's jillian

who's julian she's uh well she's an

who's julian she's uh well she's an

who's julian she's uh well she's an artist painter type

artist painter type

artist painter type and she just recently moved from rhode

and she just recently moved from rhode

and she just recently moved from rhode island to the city

island to the city

island to the city but she's wonderful she's got a really

but she's wonderful she's got a really

but she's wonderful she's got a really good eye

that's actually the reason for all those

that's actually the reason for all those

that's actually the reason for all those late nights sweetie

late nights sweetie

late nights sweetie that's all right

that's all right

that's all right we know our women

we know our women

we know our women don't want paul

or do we

i wonder sometimes

and women are

and women are

and women are always

always

always chatting about

chatting about

chatting about for hours

for hours

for hours running their mouths

more than men

you know

you know

you know for a second there i thought uh

for a second there i thought uh

for a second there i thought uh i thought you were another guy or

i thought you were another guy or

i thought you were another guy or something

glad i got that under control

glad i got that under control

glad i got that under control right

what

what

what what i'm joking

what i'm joking

what i'm joking what i excuse me for a moment i'm sorry

what i excuse me for a moment i'm sorry

what i excuse me for a moment i'm sorry annabella are you serious i

i'm sorry excuse me i'll be right back

i'm sorry excuse me i'll be right back

i'm sorry excuse me i'll be right back yeah that's fine you go in

well i guess that's the end of dinner

well i guess that's the end of dinner

well i guess that's the end of dinner then huh

enough

enough

enough and will you wait where are you going

and will you wait where are you going

and will you wait where are you going i'm going home

i'm going home

i'm going home look i have never been so humiliated in

look i have never been so humiliated in

look i have never been so humiliated in my entire life

my entire life

my entire life i work really hard on these art gallery

i work really hard on these art gallery

i work really hard on these art gallery shows i'm really proud of where i am

shows i'm really proud of where i am

shows i'm really proud of where i am i've never been happier working on them

i've never been happier working on them

i've never been happier working on them it's great

it's great

it's great that's great

what

what do you want me to say

what do you want me to say

what do you want me to say i know that the art gallery show isn't

i know that the art gallery show isn't

i know that the art gallery show isn't important

important

important you could give a crap about the show i

you could give a crap about the show i

you could give a crap about the show i know that okay or anything else that

know that okay or anything else that

know that okay or anything else that makes me happy this again awesome i just

makes me happy this again awesome i just

makes me happy this again awesome i just feel like you're consumed with having a

feel like you're consumed with having a

feel like you're consumed with having a child

child

child maybe i don't want to have one right now

maybe i don't want to have one right now

maybe i don't want to have one right now did you ever think of that what

whoa

whoa

whoa whoa where is this coming from

whoa where is this coming from

whoa where is this coming from anna

anna

anna nothing

nothing

nothing anna i just i just feel like i'm

anna i just i just feel like i'm

anna i just i just feel like i'm finally waking up in life

finally waking up in life

finally waking up in life and i feel like you're

and i feel like you're

and i feel like you're showing your true colors

what is that supposed to mean look i'm

what is that supposed to mean look i'm

what is that supposed to mean look i'm gonna go home you can go home alone

gonna go home you can go home alone

gonna go home you can go home alone okay sure great

okay sure great

okay sure great no

no

no anna will you wait

one station away

oh

so

hi

hi annabella yeah hi um

hi annabella yeah hi um

hi annabella yeah hi um what's uh what's going on

what's uh what's going on

what's uh what's going on not good

not good

not good look can i come and see you

look can i come and see you

look can i come and see you oh what's what's wrong are you what's

oh what's what's wrong are you what's

oh what's what's wrong are you what's going on are you okay i'm really sorry i

going on are you okay i'm really sorry i

going on are you okay i'm really sorry i i just don't know who else to talk to

i just don't know who else to talk to

i just don't know who else to talk to and i'm really sorry that i shut you

no it's fine it's fine come over

no it's fine it's fine come over

no it's fine it's fine come over come over

come over

come over okay

okay

okay all right i'll i'll see you soon

[Music]

[Music]

[Music]

[Music]

uh

what are you doing

what are you doing

what are you doing i'm painting it

you're painting me

you're painting me

you're painting me you're so beautiful when you sleep

there's this

there's this

there's this sparkle in your eye that i want to be

sparkle in your eye that i want to be

sparkle in your eye that i want to be able to get

you're too cute

come here

wow

oh i wish that was just last

week i just feel really at peace

week i just feel really at peace

week i just feel really at peace i know

i know

i know unfortunately life is full of

unfortunately life is full of

unfortunately life is full of strife and pain i mean

strife and pain i mean

strife and pain i mean it's what makes us human if we didn't

it's what makes us human if we didn't

it's what makes us human if we didn't have that we'd be a little less normal

have that we'd be a little less normal

have that we'd be a little less normal well that's human

well that's human

well that's human i don't think that made any sense

deep thoughts

um

um

um you're so beautiful you're beautiful

you're confident

you're confident

you're confident you're strong

you're strong

you're strong i believe in you your ability

so much

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] i can't whistle and i can't sit still

i can't whistle and i can't sit still

i can't whistle and i can't sit still and i can't get close

and i can't get close

and i can't get close to you

to you

to you [Music]

and i must apologize

and i must apologize

and i must apologize for swimming so far down inside

[Music]

oh

[Music]

um

god i am so nervous why are you nervous

god i am so nervous why are you nervous

god i am so nervous why are you nervous i've never met your friends before

i've never met your friends before

i've never met your friends before they're gonna love you they're really

they're gonna love you they're really

they're gonna love you they're really sweet people i haven't seen in a long

sweet people i haven't seen in a long

sweet people i haven't seen in a long time okay and you look amazing

time okay and you look amazing

time okay and you look amazing you look amazing

better

better

better getting better

joe

i'm happy to see you who is this this is

i'm happy to see you who is this this is

i'm happy to see you who is this this is annabella hi i'm greg history um nice to

annabella hi i'm greg history um nice to

annabella hi i'm greg history um nice to meet you come on in

oh this is alex alex this is annabella

oh this is alex alex this is annabella

oh this is alex alex this is annabella hi hi it's nice to meet you

can i help you out of your cupboard

so drinks drinks drinks okay

what have you done

i'll just let you know okay good

no yeah me just go and answer that it's

no yeah me just go and answer that it's

no yeah me just go and answer that it's just a text okay yeah i'll be right back

so you think that was

[Laughter]

[Laughter]

[Laughter] um

um

um [Music]

[Music]

[Music] so what you guys like

so what you guys like

so what you guys like girlfriend and girlfriend or glad

girlfriend and girlfriend or glad

girlfriend and girlfriend or glad i don't know

i don't know

i don't know i really like her

i really like her

i really like her i think we're headed towards more

i think we're headed towards more

i think we're headed towards more friends with benefits area

friends with benefits area

friends with benefits area but i want more

but i want more

but i want more like a lot more

sounds complicated

sounds complicated

sounds complicated it is

it is

it is i mean is it love

i mean is it love

i mean is it love true

she's married

why do you do this to yourself

i mean

i mean

i mean it's a mirage of unfulfilled passion it

it's a mirage of unfulfilled passion it

it's a mirage of unfulfilled passion it can only end badly

i just don't want to see you get hurt

i just don't want to see you get hurt

i just don't want to see you get hurt again

i really like her

i mean i'm just i'm just hoping

i mean i'm just i'm just hoping

i mean i'm just i'm just hoping something's gonna click and she'll come

something's gonna click and she'll come

something's gonna click and she'll come to her senses

to her senses

to her senses you know

i am so afraid of dying alone

[Music]

whatever makes you happy i will support

god i love you so much

it's so fun

cheers

i am ready

i am ready

i am ready for another round oh me too

for another round oh me too

for another round oh me too let's go go get em

hello

hello

hello where are you

where are you

where are you i'm in a party

i'm in a party

i'm in a party what are you on vincent you're at a

what are you on vincent you're at a

what are you on vincent you're at a party

party

party you never came home last night anna no

you never came home last night anna no

you never came home last night anna no what

what

what on earth is going on no nothing nothing

on earth is going on no nothing nothing

on earth is going on no nothing nothing i just need some space

i just need some space

i just need some space okay you need space but i don't

okay you need space but i don't

okay you need space but i don't listen

listen

listen listen i'm i'm sorry about how i acted

listen i'm i'm sorry about how i acted

listen i'm i'm sorry about how i acted last night i

last night i

last night i am just stressed out

am just stressed out

am just stressed out and i'm constantly come on

and i'm constantly come on

and i'm constantly come on okay

i don't want to take it out on you the

i don't want to take it out on you the

i don't want to take it out on you the second one was

second one was

second one was i don't want to lose you i love you anna

i don't want to lose you i love you anna

i don't want to lose you i love you anna okay well i have to go

okay well i have to go

okay well i have to go [Music]

glazed in the constellation

coffee

oh

you left so early this morning what

you left so early this morning what

you left so early this morning what happened

i met vincent for breakfast

oh he talked

okay

what did he say

i just said that he loves me

i just said that he loves me

i just said that he loves me and uh

he wants to get back together

okay

what did you say

you've got to be

treated you

treated you

treated you like and after all the gals parties

he finally comes to his senses

you were meant for a richmond remember

you were meant for a richmond remember

you were meant for a richmond remember me

look you don't you just don't understand

he is my husband

and i love him i do i love him

you just don't understand what i'm going

you just don't understand what i'm going

you just don't understand what i'm going through right now

i don't understand what you're going

i don't understand what you're going

i don't understand what you're going through right now

through right now

through right now is that what you just said to me

you came

you came

you came to my door you came knocking at my door

you started oh

you started oh

you started oh now i'm ending

we had it

in a pillow

we didn't go out and get drinks

we didn't go out and get drinks

we didn't go out and get drinks we didn't just sit there and chat

we didn't just sit there and chat

we didn't just sit there and chat we had sex

all right

all right

all right could you please just keep your voice

could you please just keep your voice

could you please just keep your voice down all right this is my business okay

down all right this is my business okay

down all right this is my business okay okay

okay

okay you're at my work right now oh no i'm

you're at my work right now oh no i'm

you're at my work right now oh no i'm sorry

you mean so much

i know i mean something to you

i know i mean something to you

i know i mean something to you i know i mean something to you just look

i know i mean something to you just look

i know i mean something to you just look at me

i love you

i love you

uh

oh

where have you been man i've been

where have you been man i've been

where have you been man i've been looking for you

looking for you

looking for you hey buddy

hey buddy

hey buddy how's it going look you're gonna want to

how's it going look you're gonna want to

how's it going look you're gonna want to hear this okay

hear this okay

hear this okay it's about the issue you and annabella

it's about the issue you and annabella

it's about the issue you and annabella had the other night

had the other night

had the other night yeah

she's having an affair vincent

she's having an affair vincent

she's having an affair vincent i hope i know

i hope i know

i hope i know no

i'm sorry man did you know she was like

i'm sorry man did you know she was like

i'm sorry man did you know she was like i'm gonna kill that

what'd you say

did

did

did did you say lesbian

she's a

[Laughter]

[Laughter]

[Laughter] oh god

oh god

oh god my wife

my wife

my wife who i've been overworking myself for

who i've been overworking myself for

who i've been overworking myself for because because i felt bad because i

because because i felt bad because i

because because i felt bad because i couldn't give her a child she's the

couldn't give her a child she's the

couldn't give her a child she's the other other women said of me

other other women said of me

other other women said of me man get a grip

i have to go

i have to go

i have to go a bad idea come paul

a bad idea come paul

a bad idea come paul we need to talk

[Applause]

[Applause]

[Applause] [Music]

[Music]

so

[Music]

uh

[Music]

so

[Music]

[Music]

[Music]

so

so

so [Music]

[Music]

my

my

my [Music]

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] ugh

[Music]

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] [Applause]

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] so

so

so

so

i have to make a living

i have to make a living

i have to make a living and this is what it's all about you're

and this is what it's all about you're

and this is what it's all about you're just gonna have to get used to it

just gonna have to get used to it

just gonna have to get used to it [Music]

hey listen i gotta go i love you

she was taking client calls on a

she was taking client calls on a

she was taking client calls on a personal line

personal line

personal line and staying up late with a friend

and staying up late with a friend

and staying up late with a friend i don't get it

anna

anna

anna where are you

where are you

where are you you're at a party

you're at a party

you're at a party okay

okay

okay where

you never came home last night anna

you never came home last night anna

you never came home last night anna no what on earth is going on

no what on earth is going on

no what on earth is going on okay you need space but i don't

listen

listen

listen listen i'm i'm sorry about how i acted

listen i'm i'm sorry about how i acted

listen i'm i'm sorry about how i acted last night i am i'm just stressed out

last night i am i'm just stressed out

last night i am i'm just stressed out and and i'm upset

and and i'm upset

and and i'm upset okay i don't

okay i don't

okay i don't i don't want to take it out on you

i don't want to take it out on you

i don't want to take it out on you i don't want to lose you i love you anna

i don't want to lose you i love you anna

i don't want to lose you i love you anna so just just take whatever you time you

so just just take whatever you time you

so just just take whatever you time you need

need

need but please call me

[Music]

this

this

this [Music]

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] annabella this is the best opening in

annabella this is the best opening in

annabella this is the best opening in this entire midtown block

this entire midtown block

this entire midtown block congratulations really oh thank you so

congratulations really oh thank you so

congratulations really oh thank you so much they should really tell the artists

much they should really tell the artists

much they should really tell the artists that you'd appreciate i'll pass it a lot

that you'd appreciate i'll pass it a lot

that you'd appreciate i'll pass it a lot i'll catch up with you that sounds great

i'll catch up with you that sounds great

i'll catch up with you that sounds great thank you

paintings look beautiful

paintings look beautiful

paintings look beautiful thank you

i know

vincent back you do that

hi julia

hi julia

hi julia hello

hello

hello thank you

thank you so much

thank you so much

thank you so much jillian this is uh vincent

jillian this is uh vincent

jillian this is uh vincent you could tell this is uh jillian she's

you could tell this is uh jillian she's

you could tell this is uh jillian she's the artist

okay

okay

okay oh no

oh no

oh no this is vinnie yes benny benny

this is vinnie yes benny benny

this is vinnie yes benny benny what

what

what you're right

you're right

you're right [Music]

[Music]

[Music] you're vinny

you're vinny

you're vinny i've heard about you she's mentioned you

i've heard about you she's mentioned you

i've heard about you she's mentioned you several

several

several nauseating times

nauseating times

nauseating times i thought you'd be hotter for a da but

i thought you'd be hotter for a da but

i thought you'd be hotter for a da but you know whatever i'm not attracted to

you know whatever i'm not attracted to

you know whatever i'm not attracted to men so everybody loves the baby of

men so everybody loves the baby of

men so everybody loves the baby of course they do because you're running

course they do because you're running

course they do because you're running the soft scene show

attention

attention

attention how are you it's good to see you

how are you it's good to see you

how are you it's good to see you um well thank you yeah

um well thank you yeah

um well thank you yeah you know i never thought we'd have time

you know i never thought we'd have time

you know i never thought we'd have time to make it to these kinds of things

to make it to these kinds of things

to make it to these kinds of things right

right

right hey uh got a second to meet some clients

hey uh got a second to meet some clients

hey uh got a second to meet some clients sure why not

you look so beautiful thank you

you look so beautiful thank you

you look so beautiful thank you did you get the paintings

did you get the paintings

did you get the paintings yeah they're hanging up no no not

yeah they're hanging up no no not

yeah they're hanging up no no not painting

painting

painting how can you not know what i'm talking

how can you not know what i'm talking

how can you not know what i'm talking about

about

about the painting

the painting

the painting i i painted you when you were naked

i i painted you when you were naked

i i painted you when you were naked i finished it and i put it on your

i finished it and i put it on your

i finished it and i put it on your doorstep

doorstep

doorstep did you get it who knows

did you get it who knows

did you get it who knows what is the matter with you no andrew

what is the matter with you no andrew

what is the matter with you no andrew annabella

annabella

annabella you love me i know you do you were just

i'm sorry you guys it's just jitters

i'm sorry you guys it's just jitters

i'm sorry you guys it's just jitters all

right sorry you guys

jillian

jillian

jillian wait

wait

wait if you're not

if you're not

if you're not please do you

please do you

please do you yes i do

yes i do

yes i do what

what

what what what is it what

i'm not as strong as you

my situation is very complicated

i i can't do this you and me

i i can't do this you and me

i i can't do this you and me it's not gonna work

so my love is just not good enough for

so my love is just not good enough for

so my love is just not good enough for you i love you

i love you i always will

this is my life

i want you annabelle i just i want you

i want you annabelle i just i want you

i want you annabelle i just i want you and that's it that's it that's it

please

please

please please please

please please

please please please

please

please

please i think you better go

i think you better go

i think you better go before

before

before you know before things get worse

you should just push me away just like

you should just push me away just like

you should just push me away just like that

it's just that easy for you

okay

uh

what does it take for us to reach our

what does it take for us to reach our

what does it take for us to reach our breaking point

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] i loved her from the time her legs moved

i loved her from the time her legs moved

i loved her from the time her legs moved her body closer to me

her body closer to me

her body closer to me her hair

her hair

her hair danced from the motion of her pretty

danced from the motion of her pretty

danced from the motion of her pretty body she wore black

body she wore black

body she wore black an artist's favorite color and her lips

an artist's favorite color and her lips

an artist's favorite color and her lips were delicately red

i thought we'd spend a lifetime together

i thought we'd spend a lifetime together

i thought we'd spend a lifetime together i've always wondered if it were the

i've always wondered if it were the

i've always wondered if it were the passion that brought us together or the

passion that brought us together or the

passion that brought us together or the paintings or

paintings or

paintings or maybe that vulnerability that we both

maybe that vulnerability that we both

maybe that vulnerability that we both shared with painful memories

shared with painful memories

shared with painful memories plastics lovers

plastics lovers

plastics lovers i believed the lie

i believed the lie

i believed the lie that we were in love

that we were in love

that we were in love but then again sometimes lies are more

but then again sometimes lies are more

but then again sometimes lies are more painful for the truth

and she grabs

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] sometimes i hide

so i'll be gone for a little while

so i'll be gone for a little while

so i'll be gone for a little while [Music]

[Music]

[Music] cause you wouldn't know me if you saw

cause you wouldn't know me if you saw

cause you wouldn't know me if you saw me all

me all

me all the time

but i

but i

but i i'll be back

i'll be back

i'll be back soon

soon

soon [Music]

[Music]

[Music] i'll be back soon

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] do

do

do [Music]

hi

hi

hi hi can i help you yeah is uh is julian

hi can i help you yeah is uh is julian

hi can i help you yeah is uh is julian here

here

here what is this in regards to

yeah i'm just an old friend

yeah i'm just an old friend

yeah i'm just an old friend jillian

jillian

jillian there's someone here to see you she says

there's someone here to see you she says

there's someone here to see you she says she's an old friend

hi

um

um

um what do you uh

what do you uh

what do you uh i just heard about your

i just heard about your

i just heard about your book getting published in the the book

book getting published in the the book

book getting published in the the book signing the times that's an amazing

signing the times that's an amazing

signing the times that's an amazing accomplishment

accomplishment

accomplishment yeah

yeah

yeah yeah it is

yeah it is

yeah it is um

um

um oh i've been so busy i haven't really

oh i've been so busy i haven't really

oh i've been so busy i haven't really been able to settle

how are you

i'm good

i'm good

i'm good i'm good um

i'm good um

i'm good um vincent and i are actually still

vincent and i are actually still

vincent and i are actually still together

together

together but we moved out to the suburbs i live

but we moved out to the suburbs i live

but we moved out to the suburbs i live in new jersey now

in new jersey now

in new jersey now and

and

and we have a little girl

we have a little girl

we have a little girl she's four months old

she's four months old

she's four months old wow

wow

wow you did it you had your baby

you did it you had your baby

you did it you had your baby i bet she's beautiful

her name is lucinda g shepherd it's

her name is lucinda g shepherd it's

her name is lucinda g shepherd it's freddy

the g's for jillian

i wanted to uh i wanted to name her

i wanted to uh i wanted to name her

i wanted to uh i wanted to name her after you

anna

anna

anna yeah i just wanted

yeah i just wanted

yeah i just wanted hey

um this is uh

um this is uh

um this is uh annabelle she's an old friend of mine

annabelle she's an old friend of mine

annabelle she's an old friend of mine this is

this is

this is olivia hello hi

olivia hello hi

olivia hello hi nice to meet you likewise

um it's the press downstairs

from the spotlight

from the spotlight

from the spotlight you deserve it

you deserve it

you deserve it but

it's really good seeing you

congratulations

congratulations

congratulations take care you too

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[Music] social anxiety wrapped in sobriety

social anxiety wrapped in sobriety

social anxiety wrapped in sobriety meeting new people i don't need to know

meeting new people i don't need to know

meeting new people i don't need to know [Music]

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[Music] i just need a drink and i'll be ready to

i just need a drink and i'll be ready to

i just need a drink and i'll be ready to go

go

go [Music]

she loves me so much

she loves me so much

she loves me so much [Music]

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[Music] tears

tears

tears [Music]

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[Music] i'll

i'll

i'll [Music]

[Music]

[Music] marching through march is like swimming

marching through march is like swimming

marching through march is like swimming upstream but i'm done with this numbness

upstream but i'm done with this numbness

upstream but i'm done with this numbness i'm not who i used to be

i'm not who i used to be

i'm not who i used to be but i could be anything

but i could be anything

but i could be anything if i could just move my

if i could just move my

if i could just move my [ __ ] loves me so much

[ __ ] loves me so much

[ __ ] loves me so much [Music]

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[Music] mixed with tears

mixed with tears

mixed with tears [Music]

for me and my best friend drowning in

for me and my best friend drowning in

for me and my best friend drowning in dullness we reach for the words but they

dullness we reach for the words but they

dullness we reach for the words but they don't want to come and i lost the best

don't want to come and i lost the best

don't want to come and i lost the best part of me the inside complacency the

part of me the inside complacency the

part of me the inside complacency the silence was killing me the silence was

silence was killing me the silence was

silence was killing me the silence was killing me

killing me

killing me that i could be

that i could be

that i could be anything

anything

anything if i could just

if i could just

if i could just move my

move my

move my feet she loves me so much

feet she loves me so much

feet she loves me so much she's gonna hate me

she's gonna hate me

she's gonna hate me when

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bloody mary is mixed with tears

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is

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you