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if you could time travel

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when would you go and why

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i would go back to when i was three or

i would go back to when i was three or
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my mom and dad that i

my mom and dad that i
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was a girl

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and i wasn't happy being a boy living as

and i wasn't happy being a boy living as
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a boy living as a boy

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if i could

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go back in time i would go back to when

go back in time i would go back to when
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i was three or four to tell my mom and

i was three or four to tell my mom and
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dad

dad
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that i am a girl and that i didn't want

that i am a girl and that i didn't want
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so

okay well stop

okay well stop
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oh stop

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i get so confused sometimes i misgender

i get so confused sometimes i misgender
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the animals because

the animals because
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you know i'll say

you know i'll say
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i'll call mackey and then i'll correct

i'll call mackey and then i'll correct
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myself and say she and then i'll say no

myself and say she and then i'll say no
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wait he is a he when we first got mack

wait he is a he when we first got mack
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i went with the kids to petco to get mac

i went with the kids to petco to get mac
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a winter coat

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and they wanted to get mac a fluffy like

and they wanted to get mac a fluffy like
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tutu skirt

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and i said but max a boy dog and both

and i said but max a boy dog and both
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kids were just like horrified with me

kids were just like horrified with me
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they said

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don't put your gender roles on our

don't put your gender roles on our
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maybe he's a transgender dog he doesn't

maybe he's a transgender dog he doesn't
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have to be a transgender dog to wear a

have to be a transgender dog to wear a
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you have to give him a tutu

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i don't think any dog really wants to

i don't think any dog really wants to
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wear a tutu male or female we'll get

wear a tutu male or female we'll get
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roswell too too

roswell too too
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okay you can put it on her

okay you can put it on her
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no daddy puts it on her

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we have two children

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a boy and a girl

a boy and a girl
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bagels what kind of bagels did you get

bagels what kind of bagels did you get
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as far as the gender dynamics they've

as far as the gender dynamics they've
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switched genders in the past couple

switched genders in the past couple
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years but it hasn't

years but it hasn't
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affected who they are i don't think as

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much as solidifying who they are luca is

much as solidifying who they are luca is
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a sullen teenager

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ren is a bubbly young lady you've never

ren is a bubbly young lady you've never
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said it period when have you ever said

said it period when have you ever said
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shut up i might say

shut up i might say
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can you please just shut up

can you please just shut up
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she still said please shut up

she still said please shut up
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little miss westy is a huge thing in

little miss westy is a huge thing in
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west haven

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it's supposed to be friend doesn't know

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most of the other kids who are involved

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in it and so she gets to go in and just

in it and so she gets to go in and just
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so this allows her to kind of explore

so this allows her to kind of explore
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who she's becoming

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more so than who she's been or who she

more so than who she's been or who she
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is right now

is right now
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which includes just a portion

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the pageant names an overwatch supreme

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winner and then chooses champions for

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when luca had done little miss westy

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several years back when he was still

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it was really important for his growth

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except when i lost because then i

except when i lost because then i
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started crying on stage because i'm a

started crying on stage because i'm a
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it's really embarrassing because i'm not

it's really embarrassing because i'm not
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fun i'm not a pageant person myself i

fun i'm not a pageant person myself i
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mean to me

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you know like i kind of thought i was

you know like i kind of thought i was
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done when luca was done and so then when

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ren wanted to do it it was a little bit

ren wanted to do it it was a little bit
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you can dress in like an outfit that

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represents your personality or whatever

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this is how i become the lgbt fairy

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and this is going to be her outfit

and this is going to be her outfit
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you cannot have an outfit without us

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quick hat

quick hat
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i said the look at that looks good right

i said the look at that looks good right
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luka's like what is wrong with you

luka's like what is wrong with you
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of course that's a squid

of course that's a squid
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what else would it be

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it's not it's a squid man you're all

it's not it's a squid man you're all
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can i just point out that even though i

can i just point out that even though i
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can't blame you since you didn't

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understand at the time

understand at the time
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i was finding out that i wanted to be a

i was finding out that i wanted to be a
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girl when i was like okay friend yeah

girl when i was like okay friend yeah
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when ren was

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probably about four in preschool she

probably about four in preschool she
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asked us if she might be a girl

asked us if she might be a girl
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and at the time we didn't know anyone

and at the time we didn't know anyone
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who was transgender and we had no idea

who was transgender and we had no idea
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here is the superhero sting he can't get

here is the superhero sting he can't get
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in the kitchen because of the

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giant wall what will he do

giant wall what will he do
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i would knock it down

i would knock it down
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okay you can knock it down i got it

okay you can knock it down i got it
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and we just said no you're too much of a

and we just said no you're too much of a
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boy to be a girl he knocked it down

boy to be a girl he knocked it down
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let's do that again

let's do that again
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she's very easygoing didn't say another

she's very easygoing didn't say another
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thing until many years later

thing until many years later
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but they kept it between themselves

but they kept it between themselves
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so we didn't find out until luco came

so we didn't find out until luco came
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out to us later

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the first time i came out to them

the first time i came out to them
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i wrote them a letter

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and i left it before i went to school

and i left it before i went to school
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and i came home from school and like we

and i came home from school and like we
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but then i said never mind forget about

but then i said never mind forget about
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it and we didn't hear much else about it

it and we didn't hear much else about it
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until

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he was failing in school and i had no

he was failing in school and i had no
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and then he said it's because i'm still

and then he said it's because i'm still
luca

luca

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and at that point i said

and at that point i said
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fine feluca

fine feluca
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i don't know it felt like they were

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being unsupportive but looking back on

being unsupportive but looking back on
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it they were really just

it they were really just
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you want to see the pictures
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they're giving examples of cards and

they're giving examples of cards and
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that's cute

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but the grandparents are not going to

but the grandparents are not going to
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want any pictures so we don't really

want any pictures so we don't really
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have to get water

have to get water
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pictures

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because i don't think that i don't know

because i don't think that i don't know
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if they're gonna

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i don't know maybe grammy will or grammy

i don't know maybe grammy will or grammy
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helen

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i can guarantee you that my parents

i can guarantee you that my parents
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won't want one because they don't even

won't want one because they don't even
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want to see ren so

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why they want to see a picture why why

why they want to see a picture why why
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one of the hardest things was thinking

one of the hardest things was thinking
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since both kids were transgender that

since both kids were transgender that
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people would be less accepting of either

people would be less accepting of either
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of them

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that people would think that ren just

that people would think that ren just
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was emulating luca

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and then they would blame luca

and then they would blame luca
for

for

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influencing ren

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and this did happen in some of the

and this did happen in some of the
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extended family

extended family
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they would talk to me and we'd have

they would talk to me and we'd have
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these awkward conversations where they

these awkward conversations where they
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would be saying

would be saying
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they know that i'm just trying to be a

they know that i'm just trying to be a
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good parent but there are better ways to

good parent but there are better ways to
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parent than to let your

parent than to let your
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child change gender and is this a phase

child change gender and is this a phase
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and couldn't they just be gay and things

and couldn't they just be gay and things
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like that

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well no that's not

well no that's not
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it's not really our choice

it's not really our choice
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i worry

i worry
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about the kids

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and there's a strain on our family

and there's a strain on our family
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that goes beyond normal

that goes beyond normal
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every family has those challenges but

every family has those challenges but
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then we have this extra layer

then we have this extra layer
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sometimes it's just

sometimes it's just
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well it's gonna be a scorcher today here

well it's gonna be a scorcher today here
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in coastal connecticut with temperatures

in coastal connecticut with temperatures
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reaching into the 90s so stay hydrated

reaching into the 90s so stay hydrated
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folks the race is also heating up for

folks the race is also heating up for
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the 2016 presidential election now

the 2016 presidential election now
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according to polls hillary clinton is

according to polls hillary clinton is
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holding a narrow lead against donald

holding a narrow lead against donald
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trump with gary johnson coming in a

trump with gary johnson coming in a
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distant third both candidates are

distant third both candidates are
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gearing up for next month's debates and

gearing up for next month's debates and
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the theory is the hot topic will be i

the theory is the hot topic will be i
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wonder how long it will take for

wonder how long it will take for
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uh bella and kalia too

uh bella and kalia too
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yeah you know i didn't hear back from

yeah you know i didn't hear back from
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their mom this morning so

their mom this morning so
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you know sometimes people get pretty

you know sometimes people get pretty
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busy in the summer

busy in the summer
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i want to just go as soon as i finish

i want to just go as soon as i finish
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well give us a few minutes and i'll talk

well give us a few minutes and i'll talk
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to people and see if they're ready to go

to people and see if they're ready to go
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but she doesn't make friends very easily

but she doesn't make friends very easily
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right now she doesn't have any friends

right now she doesn't have any friends
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in her class

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she does have a couple friends on the

she does have a couple friends on the
bus

she just struggles

she just struggles
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friend doesn't

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tell us much

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she's very independent and she likes to

she's very independent and she likes to
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and this can be a difficulty sometimes

and this can be a difficulty sometimes
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i was being

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bullied for a while

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i don't really know why they were going

i don't really know why they were going
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after me

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though they singled me out

though they singled me out
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and i was trying to deal with that for

and i was trying to deal with that for
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as long as i could before it was really

as long as i could before it was really
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necessary to

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have someone intervene

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i asked her if it had to do with her

i asked her if it had to do with her
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being trans and she said for three of

being trans and she said for three of
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them it did but she talked to them

them it did but she talked to them
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and two of them stopped but one would

and two of them stopped but one would
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someone was physically attacking me at

someone was physically attacking me at
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one point they actually

one point they actually
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tried to choke me for some reason

tried to choke me for some reason
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we had a meeting then with the school

we had a meeting then with the school
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the next day

the next day
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she had talked to the kids first herself

she had talked to the kids first herself
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and i said that's very courageous but

and i said that's very courageous but
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in a situation like that you need to

in a situation like that you need to
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tell an adult

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you don't have to handle this all by

you don't have to handle this all by
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i just wish that they could just feel

i just wish that they could just feel
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more sympathetic and

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then that would cause less bullying and

then that would cause less bullying and
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discrimination if they knew

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depression is like

depression is like
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it's not really being sad so much as

it's not really being sad so much as
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during the period of time when i was

during the period of time when i was
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really depressed i just didn't

really depressed i just didn't
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draw at all

draw at all
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even though that's one of my favorite

even though that's one of my favorite
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things to do and i just like i didn't

things to do and i just like i didn't
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really have the motivation to do

really have the motivation to do
anything

when he was 14 around thanksgiving time

when he was 14 around thanksgiving time
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he had

he had
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from 14 to 15

from 14 to 15
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i don't know how much that has to do

i don't know how much that has to do
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with the body dysphoria or just the

with the body dysphoria or just the
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when he first came home from the

when he first came home from the
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hospital it was a tense time

hospital it was a tense time
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he was cutting himself and and i know

he was cutting himself and and i know
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that that is a common thing among

that that is a common thing among
gender

gender

gender
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cutting will raise endorphins in the

cutting will raise endorphins in the
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i think he still cuts himself but rarely

i think he still cuts himself but rarely
now

he goes to therapy and he still sees a

he goes to therapy and he still sees a
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psychiatrist and he still takes

psychiatrist and he still takes
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medications and so long as he's doing

medications and so long as he's doing
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if that's what he needs to do to cope so

if that's what he needs to do to cope so
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cutting looks really bad

cutting looks really bad
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but it's a completely survivable

but it's a completely survivable
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oh you know it is chilly

oh you know it is chilly
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i don't really like people knowing my

i don't really like people knowing my
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birth name because

birth name because
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i want people to know me just as luca

i want people to know me just as luca
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and nothing else

and nothing else
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and even if they're respectful enough to

and even if they're respectful enough to
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not call me my birth name if they know

not call me my birth name if they know
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it i don't want it to be something in

it i don't want it to be something in
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i never felt i lost a daughter and

i never felt i lost a daughter and
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gained a son although i suppose i'd lost

gained a son although i suppose i'd lost
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a daughter and came to son and well vice

a daughter and came to son and well vice
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versa but

versa but
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i think shelly had more of a loss

i think shelly had more of a loss
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attached to that

attached to that
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are you guys hungry for lunch

are you guys hungry for lunch
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oh we have coupons for denny's chili had

oh we have coupons for denny's chili had
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chosen both of our children's birth

chosen both of our children's birth
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names

names
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they had shelly's name and then they had

they had shelly's name and then they had
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it was just difficult at first

it was just difficult at first
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there was a period of time where i would

there was a period of time where i would
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just start to cry if i even thought his

just start to cry if i even thought his
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first name

first name
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and didn't want to see pictures or any

and didn't want to see pictures or any
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of that it was just all really

of that it was just all really
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it had nothing to do with not wanting

it had nothing to do with not wanting
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he was just grieving

he was just grieving
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can you get me the ipad it was

can you get me the ipad it was
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a really confusing time

a really confusing time
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okay luka pass that to ren

okay luka pass that to ren
please

stop

stop
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i don't know how to raise a son i mean

i don't know how to raise a son i mean
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this is really more of chris's purview

this is really more of chris's purview
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but chris doesn't really worry about

but chris doesn't really worry about
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things i do all the worrying so

things i do all the worrying so
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that's how that works out

that's how that works out
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uh i don't know if we still have it

uh i don't know if we still have it
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but we probably do

but we probably do
sure

sure

sure
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we went to our first family fun weekend

we went to our first family fun weekend
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having two kids who were transgender

having two kids who were transgender
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just thought you know is there something

just thought you know is there something
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wrong with us

wrong with us
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one of the great things about having an

one of the great things about having an
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opportunity like this is you get to

opportunity like this is you get to
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connect with people that you might not

connect with people that you might not
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otherwise have the opportunity to

otherwise have the opportunity to
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connect with and talk about things in a

connect with and talk about things in a
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safe space where you can say anything

safe space where you can say anything
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you want

you want
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you know there may be a lot of moms and

you know there may be a lot of moms and
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dads out there who have so many

dads out there who have so many
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questions about how you came to those

questions about how you came to those
decisions

decisions

decisions
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and then we met other parents and

and then we met other parents and
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saw that about one in six families had

saw that about one in six families had
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more than one child who was on the

more than one child who was on the
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gender spectrum so that was really great

gender spectrum so that was really great
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because we didn't feel so odd got a head

because we didn't feel so odd got a head
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start with tavish being assigned male at

start with tavish being assigned male at
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birth but now with dragon assigned

birth but now with dragon assigned
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female at birth i'm expecting maybe some

female at birth i'm expecting maybe some
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different issues so i'm jody um mom of

different issues so i'm jody um mom of
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five three sorry four cisgendered and

five three sorry four cisgendered and
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one trans

one trans
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been coming for a long time as well

been coming for a long time as well
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really enjoy it and i think i want all

really enjoy it and i think i want all
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my kids to see

my kids to see
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other people with just bodies

other people with just bodies
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that are varied

that are varied
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shapes and presentations

shapes and presentations
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um chris i'm here with uh my son luca

um chris i'm here with uh my son luca
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and my daughter

and my daughter
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wren last year coming here was a very

wren last year coming here was a very
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pivotal moment i'm just excited to be

pivotal moment i'm just excited to be
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here this year

here this year
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i'm shelley last year i was just in this

i'm shelley last year i was just in this
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group crying and

group crying and
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this year i feel like

this year i feel like
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i have a you know my feet on the ground

i have a you know my feet on the ground
so

so

so
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i think it's important to always

i think it's important to always
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you know come back when your feet are on

you know come back when your feet are on
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the ground and when they're not so

the ground and when they're not so
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we talk about up until junior high and

we talk about up until junior high and
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whether you're cisgender or transgender

whether you're cisgender or transgender
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junior high is just terrible years

junior high is just terrible years
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i don't know if there really is a fix

i don't know if there really is a fix
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the political climate has really changed

the political climate has really changed
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with lack of tolerance and hate that's

with lack of tolerance and hate that's
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going on in our country it's a scary

going on in our country it's a scary
time

all of a sudden everybody has an opinion

all of a sudden everybody has an opinion
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on whether or not my kid should be on

on whether or not my kid should be on
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blockers or not sometimes i just don't

blockers or not sometimes i just don't
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have it in me

have it in me
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to be that front man

to be that front man
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recently i went to church

recently i went to church
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and i just kind of cried there was a

and i just kind of cried there was a
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female pastor she gave me the saying

female pastor she gave me the saying
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which i've been holding on to i woman

which i've been holding on to i woman
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control this spot

control this spot
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and not this around us not friends not

and not this around us not friends not
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politics not school

politics not school
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not your kids

not your kids
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not the hormone we don't none of it

not the hormone we don't none of it
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nothing we can control nothing

nothing we can control nothing
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but i won't control this spot this body

but i won't control this spot this body
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this flesh is hard and that's all we can

this flesh is hard and that's all we can
do

he wasn't doing hormones or anything a

he wasn't doing hormones or anything a
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lot of the other teen boys were much

lot of the other teen boys were much
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further in transition

further in transition
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so he really felt out of place he just

so he really felt out of place he just
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wanted to stay in the room by himself

wanted to stay in the room by himself
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but then on the other hand

but then on the other hand
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ben was making friends and doing all

ben was making friends and doing all
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these things that she had not done

these things that she had not done
before

ven's always been very very anxious and

ven's always been very very anxious and
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it just went away for the

it just went away for the
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weekend i tried to have some things that

weekend i tried to have some things that
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i darkened

i darkened
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yet some which

yet some which
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she was so happy here and she said she

she was so happy here and she said she
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wanted to be a girl full-time rather

wanted to be a girl full-time rather
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than just at home

than just at home
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so as soon as we got back we called the

so as soon as we got back we called the
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pageant day all contestants should

pageant day all contestants should
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arrive at 9 30.

arrive at 9 30.
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9 30 is the time to start getting ready

9 30 is the time to start getting ready
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it gets

it gets
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hectic in the dressing room like hectic

hectic in the dressing room like hectic
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hectic there's so many people in there

hectic there's so many people in there
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everyone's trying to get dressed

everyone's trying to get dressed
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everyone's trying to get changed only so

everyone's trying to get changed only so
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many outlets so

many outlets so
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try to do as much of the prep at home as

try to do as much of the prep at home as
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you can and then you have to be on stage

you can and then you have to be on stage
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for the little miss wesley padre and i

for the little miss wesley padre and i
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i don't know she

i don't know she
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is really pretty

is really pretty
so

so

so
yeah

yeah

yeah
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i think she'll have a lot of fun with it

i think she'll have a lot of fun with it
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on the checklist as would you march

on the checklist as would you march
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first go in your folder there's a forum

first go in your folder there's a forum
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for t-shirts

for t-shirts
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i am excited yet also very nervous

i am excited yet also very nervous
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a t-shirt for your child i

a t-shirt for your child i
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would like to win it would be nice

would like to win it would be nice
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yeah a pageant day shirt

yeah a pageant day shirt
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luca wants me to work in that i'm

luca wants me to work in that i'm
transgender

transgender

transgender
but

but

but
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i just don't particularly

i just don't particularly
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care whether they think that i'm cis or

care whether they think that i'm cis or
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transgender long as they know that i'm a

transgender long as they know that i'm a
girl

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there were smaller ones but i can't find

there were smaller ones but i can't find
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them yeah there's one

them yeah there's one
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you guys are going to be late

you guys are going to be late
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okay we'll just take that leave that all

okay we'll just take that leave that all
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packed up you're fine

packed up you're fine
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you

hillary clinton and last night donald

hillary clinton and last night donald
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trump held a big rally in cincinnati

trump held a big rally in cincinnati
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almost every single pole

almost every single pole
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had us winning against crooked hillary

had us winning against crooked hillary
clinton

clinton

clinton
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big league

big league
awfully

i'm going to have my puberty blockers

i'm going to have my puberty blockers
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my friend bridget who had the implant in

my friend bridget who had the implant in
april

april

april
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called this morning and helped reassure

called this morning and helped reassure
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i don't want to have a puberty because i

i don't want to have a puberty because i
just

just

just
i

i

i
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really don't want a girl beard or

really don't want a girl beard or
something

something

something
to

to

to
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stop that stop that oh

stop that stop that oh
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so annoying

so annoying
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i'm sorry i can't know you just don't do

i'm sorry i can't know you just don't do
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annoying things

annoying things
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how are we doing

how are we doing
huh

you're looking at lion sheep

you're looking at lion sheep
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oh flying sheep i thought you said lying

oh flying sheep i thought you said lying
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sheep and i was waiting for the color to

sheep and i was waiting for the color to
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be lying

be lying
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i'm gonna be the nurse in the back i

i'm gonna be the nurse in the back i
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just wanted to come ask a couple

just wanted to come ask a couple
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questions now is it pronounced angelus

questions now is it pronounced angelus
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um angelus by ren though ren okay

um angelus by ren though ren okay
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all right my friend we're just gonna set

all right my friend we're just gonna set
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up and i will see you in the back

up and i will see you in the back
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shortly okay

shortly okay
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all right hey nice to meet you we

all right hey nice to meet you we
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that looks like a llama yeah i was gonna

that looks like a llama yeah i was gonna
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say that looks much much more like a

say that looks much much more like a
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llama than a sheep

llama than a sheep
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do you have any questions for me

do you have any questions for me
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about what we're going to do today

about what we're going to do today
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um i think i understand

um i think i understand
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it will at least temporarily stop the

it will at least temporarily stop the
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male hormones okay all right

male hormones okay all right
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i'm going to quickly though

i'm going to quickly though
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before

before
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no wait take a finish talking to the

no wait take a finish talking to the
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surgeon before you play your game i

surgeon before you play your game i
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wasn't going to play the game i was

wasn't going to play the game i was
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going to look at pictures of cats

going to look at pictures of cats
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do you guys have any questions at all

do you guys have any questions at all
no

no

no
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so tiny little incision in the arm the

so tiny little incision in the arm the
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whole thing takes about five minutes

whole thing takes about five minutes
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it's water resistant but not waterproof

it's water resistant but not waterproof
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it won't be uncomfortable at all and um

it won't be uncomfortable at all and um
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we'll meet again in two years to discuss

we'll meet again in two years to discuss
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whether we should take it out and switch

whether we should take it out and switch
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it over or just take it out or whatever

it over or just take it out or whatever
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okay i'll see you in a few minutes okay

okay i'll see you in a few minutes okay
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and it takes a lot of anxiety off of her

and it takes a lot of anxiety off of her
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things aren't starting to unfold at the

things aren't starting to unfold at the
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before any kind of physical medical

before any kind of physical medical
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interventions took place there was the

interventions took place there was the
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discussion with their therapists and

discussion with their therapists and
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as we were kind of wrapping our heads

as we were kind of wrapping our heads
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around we didn't know if it was

around we didn't know if it was
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something permanent or maybe it was a

something permanent or maybe it was a
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phase and we weren't quite sure yet

phase and we weren't quite sure yet
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by the time we were making those

by the time we were making those
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decisions we were convinced that the

decisions we were convinced that the
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children's affirmed genders are their

children's affirmed genders are their
genders

that's who they are and that's how

that's who they are and that's how
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they're going to be happier

they're going to be happier
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she's so pretty if she

she's so pretty if she
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if she was nicer she could be a model

if she was nicer she could be a model
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the puberty blocker was something that

the puberty blocker was something that
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if it was taken out it would just be a

if it was taken out it would just be a
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short delay

short delay
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well the concerns around that are around

well the concerns around that are around
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the bone development

the bone development
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when we try to supplement with calcium

when we try to supplement with calcium
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and with some exercise

and with some exercise
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with luca and the testosterone is a bit

with luca and the testosterone is a bit
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more of a concern as just there are

more of a concern as just there are
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but the benefits far far outweigh any

but the benefits far far outweigh any
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when we got started we have this fear

when we got started we have this fear
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that it's all going to be about gender

that it's all going to be about gender
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all the time

all the time
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and after a fairly short amount of time

and after a fairly short amount of time
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it turns out not to be that

it turns out not to be that
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they're just kids

they're just kids
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kids are getting ready for miss westy

kids are getting ready for miss westy
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trying luca's dresses from when he was

trying luca's dresses from when he was
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still living as a girl

still living as a girl
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okay you guys ready for red yep outfit

okay you guys ready for red yep outfit
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number one

number one
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i'm sending that to my streaks from

i'm sending that to my streaks from
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what the hell are you doing

what the hell are you doing
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just stretching

just stretching
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i think she should go with one that has

i think she should go with one that has
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like sleeves like short sleeves or

like sleeves like short sleeves or
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something but we have that little jacket

something but we have that little jacket
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that puts that you had to go with this

that puts that you had to go with this
one

one

one
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also i don't see the one you're holding

also i don't see the one you're holding
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it was intense doing little miss westy

it was intense doing little miss westy
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with luca we had to get just the right

with luca we had to get just the right
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outfits i have a white dress

outfits i have a white dress
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yeah yeah i know but that's not a fancy

yeah yeah i know but that's not a fancy
dress

dress

dress
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no this is not okay whatever never mind

no this is not okay whatever never mind
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no it's not sparkly enough kind of thing

no it's not sparkly enough kind of thing
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so it's a different experience with red

so it's a different experience with red
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i can do this with or without the jacket

i can do this with or without the jacket
with

with

with
okay

okay

okay
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i like that one better

i like that one better
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if you do those poses for the pageant

if you do those poses for the pageant
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they're going to kick you out

they're going to kick you out
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just ren's kind of like

just ren's kind of like
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can i just wear my pusheen pajamas

can i just wear my pusheen pajamas
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it's plausible that they won't kick her

it's plausible that they won't kick her
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hey you want to play some of your piano

hey you want to play some of your piano
okay

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she's nervous about what she will do for

she's nervous about what she will do for
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this talent and it's basically

this talent and it's basically
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something that she's made up

something that she's made up
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for ren

for ren
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the takeaway is a little bit of

the takeaway is a little bit of
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confidence she can tend to be very very

confidence she can tend to be very very
shy

shy

shy
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oh my gosh

oh my gosh
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time magazine named donald trump person

time magazine named donald trump person
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does it necessarily mean

does it necessarily mean
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it's not necessarily good person of the

it's not necessarily good person of the
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year it's just

year it's just
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the most

the most
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most iconic person of the year

most iconic person of the year
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we went to our support group for the

we went to our support group for the
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parents of trans kids and the guy who

parents of trans kids and the guy who
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facilitates he said that the night of

facilitates he said that the night of
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the election his

the election his
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phone basically turned into a suicide

phone basically turned into a suicide
hotline

hotline

hotline
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because pence is pro-conversion therapy

because pence is pro-conversion therapy
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which is basically electrocuting lgbt

which is basically electrocuting lgbt
kids

kids

kids
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so you know a lot of really really

so you know a lot of really really
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told us then you've got to try and get

told us then you've got to try and get
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the federal documents done

the federal documents done
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then we found out about this emergency

then we found out about this emergency
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gender marker changing clinic right in

gender marker changing clinic right in
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new haven

new haven
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um there'll be some medical students

um there'll be some medical students
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that will sit with you to help you fill

that will sit with you to help you fill
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out some paperwork okay hot off the

out some paperwork okay hot off the
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presses their name change was this

presses their name change was this
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morning so we'll try to get you in about

morning so we'll try to get you in about
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as fast as possible because you look

as fast as possible because you look
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like you're ready to go home

like you're ready to go home
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everybody's scrambling to get this

everybody's scrambling to get this
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paperwork done before the inauguration

paperwork done before the inauguration
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because everybody's afraid of what might

because everybody's afraid of what might
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um so

um so
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let me get you two coffees then chris

let me get you two coffees then chris
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you'll fill it out for

you'll fill it out for
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you can do ren and i'll do luca

you can do ren and i'll do luca
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okay i hate filling out forms i always

okay i hate filling out forms i always
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make mistakes that one can go to

make mistakes that one can go to
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uh this one over here should i be using

uh this one over here should i be using
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her new name

her new name
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yes all of the records would be an old

yes all of the records would be an old
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name um

name um
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the new name

the new name
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no you spelled it wrong

no you spelled it wrong
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stop that

stop that
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what does the name say on all your other

what does the name say on all your other
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history well so i i only filled out new

history well so i i only filled out new
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name and former name

name and former name
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and i have name change form uh

and i have name change form uh
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letters oh you do yes oh okay then put

letters oh you do yes oh okay then put
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the name oh yeah that's right it we only

the name oh yeah that's right it we only
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changed it today soon i think that it's

changed it today soon i think that it's
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still there yeah yeah

still there yeah yeah
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okay and are we doing a picture here or

okay and are we doing a picture here or
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yeah we can do the picture

yeah we can do the picture
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good job all right next

good job all right next
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what do passports cost like a hundred

what do passports cost like a hundred
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thank you so much it's scary but

thank you so much it's scary but
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you just tell your kids

you just tell your kids
that

that

that
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you're going to take care of them

you're going to take care of them
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you're going to protect them

you're going to protect them
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and meanwhile in the background you try

and meanwhile in the background you try
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and get all these things done that you

and get all these things done that you
can

can

can
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her favorite color is purple

her favorite color is purple
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or we could get our own white one

or we could get our own white one
whichever<00:38:52.320> one<00:38:52.560> is<00:38:52.640> pretty

what's the difference between lavender

what's the difference between lavender
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and lila

and lila
let's<00:38:57.920> see

let's see

let's see
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lilac as it's a dustier color hello

lilac as it's a dustier color hello
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my son needs a just a small simple

my son needs a just a small simple
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flower for the girl he's taking to a

flower for the girl he's taking to a
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dance did you have anything special in

dance did you have anything special in
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mine a rose a carnation um probably a

mine a rose a carnation um probably a
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carnation he was hoping for

carnation he was hoping for
lavender

lavender

lavender
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colored but or white we'll take what we

colored but or white we'll take what we
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can do

can do
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though i can just give her like a flower

though i can just give her like a flower
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okay you want to leave it this long yeah

okay you want to leave it this long yeah
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okay you want some babies breath and

okay you want some babies breath and
greens<00:39:29.280> with<00:39:29.520> it

greens with it

greens with it
yeah

yeah

yeah
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ryan already has enough cats

ryan already has enough cats
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this is cute okay but literally like how

this is cute okay but literally like how
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much is this because she would actually

much is this because she would actually
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i'm not kidding

i'm not kidding
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she loves little cute things like this

she loves little cute things like this
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so put that in the refrigerator so it

so put that in the refrigerator so it
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stays fresh

stays fresh
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well you don't have to put the stuffed

well you don't have to put the stuffed
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animal in there

animal in there
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oh luca what's the deal with the dance

oh luca what's the deal with the dance
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do you bring the ten dollars to school

do you bring the ten dollars to school
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or to the dam

or to the dam
okay

okay

okay
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are you still cold

are you still cold
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i am still cold so so put the heat on

i am still cold so so put the heat on
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just don't put it like

just don't put it like
blasting

are you excited to be going to yale

are you excited to be going to yale
today

today

today
yeah

yeah

yeah
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but like i mean i'd be more excited to

but like i mean i'd be more excited to
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find you for sure what was gonna happen

find you for sure what was gonna happen
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you know if they don't give you hormones

you know if they don't give you hormones
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today that they will probably say well

today that they will probably say well
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we'll look at you again in a couple

we'll look at you again in a couple
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months they're not going to just say no

months they're not going to just say no
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we're never giving you hormones yeah

we're never giving you hormones yeah
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obviously i'm out of that but i want

obviously i'm out of that but i want
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you want a shot right not

you want a shot right not
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um because like i don't know like uh

um because like i don't know like uh
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like the different options i think

like the different options i think
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there's like a patch and

there's like a patch and
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gel and a shot i don't know the thing

gel and a shot i don't know the thing
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with the gel was once you put it on you

with the gel was once you put it on you
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can't touch anybody because you might

can't touch anybody because you might
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get like testosterone in their system

get like testosterone in their system
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the shot works faster than the gel and

the shot works faster than the gel and
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the other thing anyway plus i don't want

the other thing anyway plus i don't want
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to not be able to touch anyone yeah i'm

to not be able to touch anyone yeah i'm
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trying to remember the schedule of

trying to remember the schedule of
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things so you don't start getting body

things so you don't start getting body
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hair for like six months muscles sooner

hair for like six months muscles sooner
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right yeah and then body hair and then

right yeah and then body hair and then
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deeper voice was that like the same time

deeper voice was that like the same time
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as body hair yeah

as body hair yeah
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it's the first thing that happens is

it's the first thing that happens is
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your period stops

your period stops
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is that the first thing i think

is that the first thing i think
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although i guess because the first two

although i guess because the first two
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shots are not overlapping and it's going

shots are not overlapping and it's going
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up and down you might still get a period

up and down you might still get a period
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when the testosterone is low

when the testosterone is low
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not much is gonna happen after the first

not much is gonna happen after the first
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two shots anyway

two shots anyway
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basically what i want to happen once i'm

basically what i want to happen once i'm
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on t is to look like francis wilkerson

on t is to look like francis wilkerson
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from um

from um
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in the middle

in the middle
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he's obviously he's masculine but he's a

he's obviously he's masculine but he's a
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little more feminine looking

little more feminine looking
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like i think that you probably

like i think that you probably
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will look a lot like him

will look a lot like him
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and i also want to have like facial hair

and i also want to have like facial hair
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and like a deeper voice on this i mean i

and like a deeper voice on this i mean i
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would think though

would think though
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i'm just guessing that you would have

i'm just guessing that you would have
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similar characteristics to daddy

similar characteristics to daddy
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but he's so ugly

but he's so ugly
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he's not ugly

he's not ugly
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well that's who you're most likely to

well that's who you're most likely to
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look like

look like
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her mom like doesn't want us going to

her mom like doesn't want us going to
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once you're there aren't you kind of

once you're there aren't you kind of
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well i mean i like i can't give her the

well i mean i like i can't give her the
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flower and the dog anymore because then

flower and the dog anymore because then
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she'll come home with it and her mom

she'll come home with it and her mom
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well

well
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ask her if she still wants to be given

ask her if she still wants to be given
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so did she text you back yeah she said

so did she text you back yeah she said
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does she know why her mom is

does she know why her mom is
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playing this i don't understand what she

playing this i don't understand what she
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has against me

has against me
well

well

well
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if it was if she was from a religious

if it was if she was from a religious
family

family

family
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or iris might have something against you

or iris might have something against you
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being trans

being trans
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she don't she's not from a religious

she don't she's not from a religious
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family and she's always super accepting

family and she's always super accepting
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of me being trans

of me being trans
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and i thought iris liked me but like

and i thought iris liked me but like
whatever

whatever

whatever
yeah

yeah

yeah
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yeah it doesn't seem fair

yeah it doesn't seem fair
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i mean it's not fair

i mean it's not fair
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my mom says it's because she's leading

my mom says it's because she's leading
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me on

me on
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and i was like i don't even like you

and i was like i don't even like you
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like at all like that and she's like

like at all like that and she's like
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i mean i'm sorry to say but it's gonna

i mean i'm sorry to say but it's gonna
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be something that you're gonna

be something that you're gonna
face

face

face
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it's not because i'm trans okay i don't

it's not because i'm trans okay i don't
know

know

know
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oh my

oh my
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it's that's not why

it's that's not why
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that has absolutely nothing to do with

that has absolutely nothing to do with
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it so like

it so like
shaving

shaving

shaving
okay

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so

so

so
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because<00:46:10.160> it's

because it's

because it's
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should be playing right now

should be playing right now
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it's not making any sound chris

it's not making any sound chris
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by the time he'd been on testosterone

by the time he'd been on testosterone
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for a month

for a month
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he just went from like energy that was

he just went from like energy that was
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like this you know and and just tense

like this you know and and just tense
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and then after about a month of

and then after about a month of
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testosterone he just went from like up

testosterone he just went from like up
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here to like ah like an exhale just down

here to like ah like an exhale just down
here

here

here
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i can't i can just text people so now we

i can't i can just text people so now we
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he's still a teenager so you know he

he's still a teenager so you know he
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still can be crabby and all of that

still can be crabby and all of that
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stuff so if we're gonna get two pizzas

stuff so if we're gonna get two pizzas
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but before when he would be in a bad

but before when he would be in a bad
mood

mood

mood
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we would be worried you know is this

we would be worried you know is this
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gonna be another visit to the psych

gonna be another visit to the psych
board

um so we're gonna get started

um so we're gonna get started
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so we'll do

so we'll do
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you know name pronouns preferred

you know name pronouns preferred
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pronouns i'm maeve i share her pronouns

pronouns i'm maeve i share her pronouns
um

um

um
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a boy told me that i was statuesque and

a boy told me that i was statuesque and
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a raven beauty and i've never heard that

a raven beauty and i've never heard that
before

before

before
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good it's great still nice to hear

good it's great still nice to hear
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people don't like to be told they're

people don't like to be told they're
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transphobic even if they're being

transphobic even if they're being
transphobic

transphobic

transphobic
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um i like to turn around and be like

um i like to turn around and be like
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it's funny that you say yes queen to me

it's funny that you say yes queen to me
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because i'm not a drag queen you know

because i'm not a drag queen you know
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drag queen deserves that i'm just being

drag queen deserves that i'm just being
me

me

me
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luca he him

luca he him
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my highlight is that

my highlight is that
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yesterday i

yesterday i
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i had like i went to shake shack and

i had like i went to shake shack and
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then to sky zone with my friends i've

then to sky zone with my friends i've
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been on testosterone for eight months

been on testosterone for eight months
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and um my low light is

and um my low light is
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that um i got my period or as i like to

that um i got my period or as i like to
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call my estrogen emergency twice in the

call my estrogen emergency twice in the
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past month

past month
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who else

who else
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oh go ahead um

oh go ahead um
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school has been like a really big

school has been like a really big
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challenge for me

challenge for me
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because um i feel really isolated from

because um i feel really isolated from
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my peers

my peers
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i see these kids when they come in and i

i see these kids when they come in and i
see

see

see
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how sad they can be or how

how sad they can be or how
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depressed they are and how broken and

depressed they are and how broken and
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beaten down they are and it's not

beaten down they are and it's not
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because they're trans it's because

because they're trans it's because
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people around them are telling them

people around them are telling them
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they're not

they're not
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and luca was struggling but today

and luca was struggling but today
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luca is this amazing human who is

luca is this amazing human who is
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putting themselves out there to help

putting themselves out there to help
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people behind them that is huge about

people behind them that is huge about
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like being isolated at school and stuff

like being isolated at school and stuff
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and not being treated

and not being treated
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like a cis guy i know when i first came

like a cis guy i know when i first came
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out like i kind of had the same problem

out like i kind of had the same problem
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that you did i think my next school year

that you did i think my next school year
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people will start seeing me and treating

people will start seeing me and treating
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you differently like as the effects of

you differently like as the effects of
tea

tea

tea
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keep coming i think it'll keep changing

keep coming i think it'll keep changing
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i'm sure everyone here knows i know it's

i'm sure everyone here knows i know it's
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like to be isolated my whole high school

like to be isolated my whole high school
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experience was that

experience was that
um

um

um
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and i think a lot of trans people think

and i think a lot of trans people think
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that once they come out all of a sudden

that once they come out all of a sudden
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all these inner struggles end

all these inner struggles end
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they simmer down but then that's when

they simmer down but then that's when
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the real fight starts out in the real

the real fight starts out in the real
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world that's when you have to start

world that's when you have to start
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what do you have to do to win a crown

what do you have to do to win a crown
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do you have to be first do you get one

do you have to be first do you get one
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you're second they have ribbons for

you're second they have ribbons for
everything

everything

everything
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and then they have like what like first

and then they have like what like first
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second they have bird crumbs they have

second they have bird crumbs they have
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the best talent the best costume and

the best talent the best costume and
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then they have the best overall which is

then they have the best overall which is
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the crime that's like this big

the crime that's like this big
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i want a crown to put on my pusheen

i want a crown to put on my pusheen
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if you're talking about pusheens you're

if you're talking about pusheens you're
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not going to win go get your the doctor

not going to win go get your the doctor
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who dress that we got

who dress that we got
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that's the tardis from doctor who

that's the tardis from doctor who
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this is the for the personality section

this is the for the personality section
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for the personality thing we should have

for the personality thing we should have
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dressed her up in like trans colors well

dressed her up in like trans colors well
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that's what she was gonna do that um the

that's what she was gonna do that um the
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the blow

the blow
we're up

we're up

we're up
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seeing we're not

seeing we're not
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we're trying to show them that she's

we're trying to show them that she's
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trans i know you're committed to this

trans i know you're committed to this
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right it's okay you can just have fun

right it's okay you can just have fun
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with it but luca's very serious about

with it but luca's very serious about
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i'm gonna call up something on google

i'm gonna call up something on google
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red and then you can um

red and then you can um
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say pusheen

say pusheen
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so look what should i search for all

so look what should i search for all
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right what do we got

right what do we got
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oh okay

oh okay
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i can

i can
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do it

do it
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try middle school girl shoulder length

try middle school girl shoulder length
hair

hair

hair
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or use it by the age

or use it by the age
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these are hair styles not haircuts

these are hair styles not haircuts
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these are hairstyles not here so do the

these are hairstyles not here so do the
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same thing but change it too you guys

same thing but change it too you guys
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can look up here

can look up here
again

that is obviously photoshopped how about

that is obviously photoshopped how about
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um

um
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you like that do you like that one

you like that do you like that one
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it's kind of kind of floppy

it's kind of kind of floppy
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see i like this because it's like

see i like this because it's like
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thinner do you like that

thinner do you like that
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wait wait wait wait

wait wait wait wait
oh

oh

oh
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okay but

okay but
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yeah it's right i hope you understand

yeah it's right i hope you understand
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and i feel like you haven't understood

and i feel like you haven't understood
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this for a long time but that's a

this for a long time but that's a
cartoon<00:51:40.480> character

cartoon character

cartoon character
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i do understand i'm just saying that

i do understand i'm just saying that
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that is a good lane yeah that's a good

that is a good lane yeah that's a good
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length good

length good
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what about like short with kind of wispy

what about like short with kind of wispy
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bangs like that the bangs look good

bangs like that the bangs look good
yeah

yeah

yeah
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i like that too yeah we've made a

i like that too yeah we've made a
decision

luca what did you do for ren's face

luca what did you do for ren's face
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let me see your makeup

let me see your makeup
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so i'm not gonna do her eyes and lips as

so i'm not gonna do her eyes and lips as
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dark as that because that was just for

dark as that because that was just for
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fun but

fun but
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can't i have a cat face

can't i have a cat face
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the thing is i'm not allowed in the

the thing is i'm not allowed in the
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dressing rooms oh boys aren't allowed in

dressing rooms oh boys aren't allowed in
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the dressing room yeah so i can't be

the dressing room yeah so i can't be
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redoing your makeup you look like a

redoing your makeup you look like a
model

model

model
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i didn't know it was you

i didn't know it was you
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okay actually we do need someone to help

okay actually we do need someone to help
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fix its spine

fix its spine
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it's so creepy look at its head

it's so creepy look at its head
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it looks like you broke it when luca

it looks like you broke it when luca
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competed in the pageant he was very

competed in the pageant he was very
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disappointed when he didn't come back

disappointed when he didn't come back
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with the main trophy

with the main trophy
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he's been so committed to

he's been so committed to
winning

winning

winning
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he watched dance moms and he watched

he watched dance moms and he watched
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toddlers and tierras

toddlers and tierras
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and this is where he's learned how to be

and this is where he's learned how to be
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a stage brother

a stage brother
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hey luca can you help renwork on some of

hey luca can you help renwork on some of
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her poses all her poses are this like i

her poses all her poses are this like i
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tried telling her like to

tried telling her like to
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not do that because it's weird but you

not do that because it's weird but you
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know she doesn't care or listen so

know she doesn't care or listen so
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i mean if she wants to lose like it's

i mean if she wants to lose like it's
whatever

whatever

whatever
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all right can does twirling count as a

all right can does twirling count as a
pose

pose

pose
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it does right all right so no not like

it does right all right so no not like
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that not so you fall over

that not so you fall over
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all right when you

all right when you
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watch okay

watch okay
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when you twirl

when you twirl
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look at one thing so you can look at

look at one thing so you can look at
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someone in the audience i'm gonna look

someone in the audience i'm gonna look
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at mommy right

at mommy right
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okay and then keep looking at her and

okay and then keep looking at her and
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then turn around okay look at her almost

then turn around okay look at her almost
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the whole time and it helps you not you

the whole time and it helps you not you
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no not like this i don't know why you're

no not like this i don't know why you're
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doing that you know what's weird the

doing that you know what's weird the
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fact that i keep talking

fact that i keep talking
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but she keeps not listening to me

but she keeps not listening to me
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does she not understand that she has to

does she not understand that she has to
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look pretty not crazy no just look at

look pretty not crazy no just look at
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oh my god hip hip where is your hip

oh my god hip hip where is your hip
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that's your butt where is your hip ren

that's your butt where is your hip ren
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pay attention

pay attention
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as i turn my head is on her and i only

as i turn my head is on her and i only
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stop looking at her

stop looking at her
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pay attention to me i was i i am trying

pay attention to me i was i i am trying
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to figure out what you're doing that's

to figure out what you're doing that's
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why i keep showing you and telling you

why i keep showing you and telling you
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but you're not paying attention don't

but you're not paying attention don't
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stress out she doesn't have to twirl i'm

stress out she doesn't have to twirl i'm
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run

run
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i wasn't trying to be mean i just meant

i wasn't trying to be mean i just meant
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like it seemed like you weren't

like it seemed like you weren't
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listening to me okay

listening to me okay
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just come back out

just come back out
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just that you're being very commanding

just that you're being very commanding
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and making me do it an exact way

and making me do it an exact way
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what poses do you want to do then

what poses do you want to do then
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because it's just a passion

because it's just a passion
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okay obviously she doesn't want to win

okay obviously she doesn't want to win
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so i i'm not going to help her anymore

so i i'm not going to help her anymore
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if she doesn't want to win then what's

if she doesn't want to win then what's
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all right friends

all right friends
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get pajamas and you'll bring them up i

get pajamas and you'll bring them up i
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she didn't like to take baths

she didn't like to take baths
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for years and years

for years and years
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we didn't know why this was she was just

we didn't know why this was she was just
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then at the parent support group

then at the parent support group
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someone was talking about their kid not

someone was talking about their kid not
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wanting to see their penis

wanting to see their penis
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it used to be cheap bubble bath and now

it used to be cheap bubble bath and now
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she has moved up to

she has moved up to
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lavender scented bubble bath

lavender scented bubble bath
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it's quite the production but it's it's

it's quite the production but it's it's
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so much better for her and now she

so much better for her and now she
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doesn't mind taking baths

doesn't mind taking baths
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there's always that that worry in the

there's always that that worry in the
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back of my head that i try not to think

back of my head that i try not to think
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about too much which is their physical

about too much which is their physical
safety

safety

safety
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the hardest hardest thing we were in our

the hardest hardest thing we were in our
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support group

support group
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and one of the dads whose daughter is in

and one of the dads whose daughter is in
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her 20s now

her 20s now
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she was never going to get bottom

she was never going to get bottom
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surgery where they would change the

surgery where they would change the
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penis to a vagina but then she started

penis to a vagina but then she started
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talking about that with her father and

talking about that with her father and
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he said but you never wanted to do that

he said but you never wanted to do that
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before why now

before why now
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and um

and um
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and she said well dad i was thinking if

and she said well dad i was thinking if
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i'm ever attacked

i'm ever attacked
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a rape could easily turn into a murder

a rape could easily turn into a murder
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and it just like

and it just like
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stopped my heart

stopped my heart
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and so i always think of that you know

and so i always think of that you know
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with ren

with ren
that

that

that
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these things that are dangerous for

these things that are dangerous for
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young women

young women
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you know it just ups it

you know it just ups it
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so much

so much
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so there's that physical

so there's that physical
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danger as well as you know wondering

danger as well as you know wondering
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about their mental health and fitting in

about their mental health and fitting in
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and stuff

and stuff
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one well then why is there a video i'm a

one well then why is there a video i'm a
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little bit nervous that in the little

little bit nervous that in the little
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miss west dressing room

miss west dressing room
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is someone going to

is someone going to
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make an issue of friend being

make an issue of friend being
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transgender will they even know i don't

transgender will they even know i don't
know

know

know
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when she has she has two beds not one

when she has she has two beds not one
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bed two beds and for some reason she

bed two beds and for some reason she
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sleeps i'm just kind of preparing in my

sleeps i'm just kind of preparing in my
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head if someone says something about

head if someone says something about
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this is the girl's room i can just say

this is the girl's room i can just say
ren's<00:57:39.760> a<00:57:39.920> girl

ren's a girl

ren's a girl
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in fact i'm going to pack her

in fact i'm going to pack her
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passport with me which says that she's a

passport with me which says that she's a
girl

girl

girl
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wait i have yes

wait i have yes
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i should solve that

i should solve that
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all right ren

all right ren
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where'd you put your lemonade or did it

where'd you put your lemonade or did it
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go better

go better
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oh daddy already put your lemonade in

oh daddy already put your lemonade in
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your room so um why don't you go in and

your room so um why don't you go in and
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get your show

get your show
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okay let me just

okay let me just
um

um

um
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you want to switch the light to the

you want to switch the light to the
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little light or you can put the pusheen

little light or you can put the pusheen
lights<00:58:10.559> on

lights on

lights on
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hey luca you haven't seen men's doctor

hey luca you haven't seen men's doctor
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who dress have you we lost the doctor

who dress have you we lost the doctor
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who dress and some of the other dresses

who dress and some of the other dresses
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i'll look in my door

i'll look in my door
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uh it might be upstairs in my room let

uh it might be upstairs in my room let
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me call up to dad

me call up to dad
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chris it's me i'm coming in

chris it's me i'm coming in
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we can't find the dress

we can't find the dress
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is it in the closet we've looked

is it in the closet we've looked
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everywhere and we can't find it i think

everywhere and we can't find it i think
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i have a skeleton dress she can wear and

i have a skeleton dress she can wear and
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you definitely have not seen the tardis

you definitely have not seen the tardis
dress

dress

dress
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i know i haven't

i know i haven't
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okay it's very strange that we lost a

okay it's very strange that we lost a
dress

dress

dress
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come closer

come closer
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this is the shimmery stuff that'll go on

this is the shimmery stuff that'll go on
your<00:59:35.599> eyes<00:59:35.920> okay

your eyes okay

your eyes okay
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oh i got too much

oh i got too much
okay

there's cat hair on

there's cat hair on
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the makeup brush

the makeup brush
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hurry up you guys are going to be late

hurry up you guys are going to be late
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we have to leave in 15 minutes all right

we have to leave in 15 minutes all right
well

well

well
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i know beauty takes time

i know beauty takes time
smile

smile

smile
okay

okay

okay
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the hair straightener's on top of the

the hair straightener's on top of the
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fish tank we really have to rush

fish tank we really have to rush
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i'm not used to seeing you in makeup

i'm not used to seeing you in makeup
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you look very pretty

you look very pretty
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be loud and clear when you answer your

be loud and clear when you answer your
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question okay i'll try oh boy we're

question okay i'll try oh boy we're
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gonna be late okay we have everything

gonna be late okay we have everything
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ready yeah we packed the car oh a brush

ready yeah we packed the car oh a brush
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i gotta bring a brush going in daddy's

i gotta bring a brush going in daddy's
car

car

car
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ren when we get there you rush

ren when we get there you rush
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right to the stage because they're doing

right to the stage because they're doing
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the rehearsal

the rehearsal
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well i'm sure they say 9 30 just to get

well i'm sure they say 9 30 just to get
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people there early enough

people there early enough
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you should have gotten up earlier today

you should have gotten up earlier today
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i just you know it's gonna take us so

i just you know it's gonna take us so
long

i'm gonna have to get a spot too because

i'm gonna have to get a spot too because
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hello

hello
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unbelievable back there i mean we got

unbelievable back there i mean we got
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here at 9 30 but the dressing room is

here at 9 30 but the dressing room is
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like i had to

like i had to
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go all the way in the back to get two

go all the way in the back to get two
chairs

chairs

chairs
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and we are just squished like all our

and we are just squished like all our
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stuff is on these two little chairs

stuff is on these two little chairs
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because people are spread out with like

because people are spread out with like
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makeup and

makeup and
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dresses hanging in 3 000 dresses it's

dresses hanging in 3 000 dresses it's
crazy

crazy

crazy
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same dance see

same dance see
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you could have taught it to ren

you could have taught it to ren
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you<01:02:34.240> are<01:02:34.400> number<01:02:34.720> 40.

you are number 40.

you are number 40.
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so most of the things that you do you'll

so most of the things that you do you'll
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go out you'll be the 40th in line we'll

go out you'll be the 40th in line we'll
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look up who's number 39.

look up who's number 39.
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oh

oh
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it's the changing and

it's the changing and
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makeup room

makeup room
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this is the backstage room

this is the backstage room
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where would someone change

where would someone change
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well that's why i told you you just

well that's why i told you you just
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change here we just quickly switch

change here we just quickly switch
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clothes it's so fast and everyone's

clothes it's so fast and everyone's
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changing and no one's looking at you and

changing and no one's looking at you and
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you have your that's why i knew you'd

you have your that's why i knew you'd
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welcome everyone

welcome everyone
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i'm so glad everyone could join us today

i'm so glad everyone could join us today
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to watch the amazing girls and boys

to watch the amazing girls and boys
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and now it's time for the talent section

and now it's time for the talent section
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hi i just want to ask everyone to please

hi i just want to ask everyone to please
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be quiet when kids are doing their

be quiet when kids are doing their
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talents because it's really hard for the

talents because it's really hard for the
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judges to hear and if you want people to

judges to hear and if you want people to
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be quiet for your kid you should be

be quiet for your kid you should be
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yes

yes
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huh

huh
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just<01:07:22.720> know<01:07:22.960> this

just know this

just know this
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there's nothing you could do wrong

there's nothing you could do wrong
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tell us what famous person would you

tell us what famous person would you
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like to be for them

like to be for them
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i would like to be the boss of ruins

i would like to be the boss of ruins
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goalie because i would love to be in an

goalie because i would love to be in an
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the hardest thing you've ever had to do

the hardest thing you've ever had to do
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and how did you accomplish it

and how did you accomplish it
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the hardest thing i've ever had to do is

the hardest thing i've ever had to do is
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not being able to speak to my

not being able to speak to my
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grandmother in spain because i don't

grandmother in spain because i don't
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speak spanish but now i'm learning how

speak spanish but now i'm learning how
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to speak spanish so i can speak to her

to speak spanish so i can speak to her
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please welcome ryan mccarthy

please welcome ryan mccarthy
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i have no idea what ronnie's gonna do

i have no idea what ronnie's gonna do
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if you could time travel when would you

if you could time travel when would you
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go and why i'll go back to when i was

go and why i'll go back to when i was
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three or four

three or four
and

and

and
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tell my parents that i was a girl

tell my parents that i was a girl
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rather than a boy

rather than a boy
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make sure that they knew that back then

make sure that they knew that back then
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wow

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model for baby or mini giovanna carney

model for baby or mini giovanna carney
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pageant princess emiliana gonzalez

pageant princess emiliana gonzalez
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pageant queen kiki adamo prettiest hair

pageant queen kiki adamo prettiest hair
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for preteener tee rebecca aranza

for preteener tee rebecca aranza
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prettiest eyes petites isabelle roach

prettiest eyes petites isabelle roach
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costume preteen or team kiki johnson

costume preteen or team kiki johnson
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woods model for little olivia moretti

woods model for little olivia moretti
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our pre-teen category this year's

our pre-teen category this year's
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pageant sweetheart

pageant sweetheart
mccarthy

mccarthy

mccarthy
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happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you
happy<01:09:45.520> birthday

remember

remember
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why is he wearing the hat no go back go

why is he wearing the hat no go back go
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lean if i can go back in time it would

lean if i can go back in time it would
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probably be when i came out the first

probably be when i came out the first
time

time

time
and

and

and
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just stuck with it

just stuck with it
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because i know like in the moment

because i know like in the moment
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it was really stressful and it was

it was really stressful and it was
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really upsetting

really upsetting
but

but

but
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if i stuck with it back then i could

if i stuck with it back then i could
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have gone into high school

have gone into high school
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i don't know if i would really change

i don't know if i would really change
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that actually

that actually
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because

because
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i like my group of friends and i like

i like my group of friends and i like
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everything that i'm doing and i'm really

everything that i'm doing and i'm really
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excited for the next school year so it

excited for the next school year so it
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doesn't really matter anymore

doesn't really matter anymore
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wait you messed up no you you

wait you messed up no you you
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a lot has happened and um like getting

a lot has happened and um like getting
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my name changed and

my name changed and
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going on testosterone and stuff like

going on testosterone and stuff like
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that i'm really glad that that whole

that i'm really glad that that whole
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process is done

process is done
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i think that all like the big major

i think that all like the big major
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challenges are done with and

challenges are done with and
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now it's pretty much just

now it's pretty much just
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normally every single person makes fun

normally every single person makes fun
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the biggest scare for me is that they

the biggest scare for me is that they
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will feel unhappy with themselves

will feel unhappy with themselves
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because that's

because that's
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the threat that's hardest to protect

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as long as they're happy with who they

as long as they're happy with who they
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are and they're feeling comfortable and

are and they're feeling comfortable and
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supported that's the most important

supported that's the most important
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before she transitioned ren couldn't

before she transitioned ren couldn't
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read at grade level she couldn't write a

read at grade level she couldn't write a
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sentence

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she had this underlying anxiety that put

she had this underlying anxiety that put
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her base level so high that anything

her base level so high that anything
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that added a teeny bit of anxiety put

that added a teeny bit of anxiety put
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after she transitioned they approached

after she transitioned they approached
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me and said they didn't think that she

me and said they didn't think that she
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needed the special education services

needed the special education services
anymore

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they said she's one of the smartest kids

they said she's one of the smartest kids
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in the school

in the school
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and she's well above grade level in

and she's well above grade level in
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reading and writing she can write pages

reading and writing she can write pages
now

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at this point

at this point
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it seems odd that we ever struggle

it seems odd that we ever struggle
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now i never think of them as being a

now i never think of them as being a
different

different

different
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ren is my daughter

ren is my daughter
and

and

and
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you know now we're just the mccartneys

you know now we're just the mccartneys
again

again

again
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