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Ok, here's the deal.

She knows That you know,

But she's got A few requests.

No maudlin Soap opera theatrics.

She wants the room drama-free And full of laughter.

No tears.

In fact, She's instructed me

To bar anyone From the hospital That cries.

I can't promise that.

Who could?

Then you leave. Jen's rules.

It's what she wants, Children.

Just do the best You can.

Do we all go in Together?

Uh, not at first.

I think we should Ease into this.

So why don't we try One at a time?

This isn't happening.

I can't believe This is happening.

Who wants to go first?

Send in the clown, huh?

So.

So they sent you In first.

Yeah, I'm the opening act.

Well, you can start off

By wiping that fake Smile off your face.

Say something, pacey.

Well, jack tells me You're dying.

Other than that, Everything's ok, right?

Thank you.

Come here.

These are for you.

Oh, thank you. They're beautiful.

Are they sure? I mean, If it's her heart,

Can't she Have a transplant?

She'll never make The donor list,

And with her lungs Failing...

Hey.

I, uh, I got these For jen.

Will you tell her That I came by?

I will.

The lady will see you now.

Hey there.

Hi.

How ya doing?

What's wrong With these guys?

I don't know. What's wrong, guys?

Is someone dying Or something?

It's not funny.

On the contrary, It's fatally funny.

I could die laughing.

Stop it.

Come on, guys. It's funny, ok?

It has to be. It has to be funny.

Otherwise, I'm gonna Get angry and bitter,

And I don't want to.

She gets very crabby On her deathbed.

How is she?

More brave Than she'll ever know.

I'm just on my way Over there now.

Can you keep an eye On alexander?

Yeah.

You're avoiding.

No, I'm not.

You mean that wasn't Christopher?

Yes, it was him.

Every time the phone Rings, it's him.

I still think you Owe it to that boy

To call him up And tell him

You've been Avoiding his calls

Because you're too chicken

To tell him It's over.

I'm not too chicken To tell him that it's over.

I'm just--

I'm not sure if it's over.

You're still in love With your ex-boyfriend.

I am not still in love With my ex-boyfriend.

No, you're still in love

With your Ex-boyfriends, plural.

Bessie, that is ridiculous.

Come on, Dial the number.

I'll hold your hand.

Go.

I hate you.

You're welcome.

Hi.

Hey.

I was walking around In a fog

And realized I hadn't Eaten today.

Well, you've come To the right place.

Mmm.

Try that.

Mmm.

Yeah?

Yep.

No suit and tie For you.

This is definitely Your calling.

The man in the apron Who's rooted--

Who's cemented In the capeside.

Pace, what's with The life ennui?

Well, come on,

Dawson went off And conquered hollywood,

You ran away to paris And new york,

And I...

Well, I didn't run.

I flew--coach.

Regardless, I left The sound for what,

A total of 2 years In my entire life?

Yeah, but, pacey, You have a restaurant.

It's what you love.

Why couldn't I Have a restaurant

In hollywood or new york?

Pacey, don't be So hard on yourself.

I mean, I know that With everything

That's going on Right now,

It's hard not to be,

But come on.

You've really got it Going on.

You have A great life here.

Yeah.

I just wish that I could feel that.

You don't?

Well, I didn't...

Until you came breezing Through my door again.

Uh-oh.

There's no need to bolt.

I'm just saying thank you.

You reminded me of what I'm capable of feeling.

It's like I was walking around

Seeing my life Through a smudged window,

And then I saw you,

And the smudges were gone.

The window was clean.

Eloquent.

Well, I try.

Hey! Hey! In my--

In my kitchen, I'm the only One who throws anything.

I want you to think Very carefully

About the next thing That you do.

And here we are again.

What is it Between the two of us?

Are you Bringing this down?

Because you know what?

I have enough Frequent flyer miles

To get a non-stop Out of here.

Really?

I'd hate for you To do that.

You know, I would Never bring you down,

Because I just Want you to be--

What are you gonna eat?

That's your dinner.

Pacey, is this ok?

Should we be Laughing like this?

I would say At a time like this,

Yes, now more than ever.

So, what, So that was it?

So no begging And pleading?

Well, there was A lot of pausing And heavy silence,

And he did his whole "Uh-huh, uh-huh, Uh-huh thing."

No big, suicidal "I can't Live without you" speech?

I mean, I thought That this guy was A brooding writer.

He mumbled something About "Love is so short,

Forgetting is so long."

Oh, my god. That's beautiful.

He stole it.

Pablo neruda,

20 love poems And a song of despair,

Published in hardback, 1924.

Joey, joey, joey.

What am I going To do with you?

You're constantly getting Into these situations

Where you jump in With your heart,

And then you have to Jump out with your head.

Your heart and your head Have just been

In constant conflict With each other.

Well, that's because There's nothing else To be conflicted about.

I am all out Of conflict.

I have been For years.

Well, if you ever want To be reminded of it,

You can just watch Dawson's show.

What about that girl That they cast as me? Ugh.

I've often thought About getting a lawyer And suing his ass.

Well, at least You get to have sex.

All I do is mope around

And pine after petey, Then colby,

Then colby, then petey.

Well, you never Could make a decision.

You know, that's where He got it all wrong.

I mean, The eternal triangle,

It's based On actual events.

It's not About sam choosing Between colby and petey.

It never was. It's about...

Sam making A decision with herself.

Can we just use The real names here?

There's no need to protect The guilty in this room.

It's just sad that It took a tv show To make me see it.

What?

See what?

I'm incredibly interested In all of this.

The only decision left

Is the one that I need To make with myself--

To stop running Once and for all.

I mean, I know who I'm supposed to be with.

I've always known. Really?

Yeah, but then The fear takes over,

The free-floating, Anxiety-ridden fear

In the pit of my stomach That makes me run.

Jen, I am completely Comfortable running.

I really don't know Any other way.

Maybe I can help.

What if I demand that You make that decision?

No more running.

I'm going to make it My dying wish.

My death will serve A greater purpose.

It's your Ultimate motivator.

Jen.

Hey.

Just for the record here,

Because I feel Like I'm a little bit

Out of the loop on this,

Who is it that You've always known

That you were Meant to be with?

Is it colby Or is it petey?

It--

Hey, jo.

I'm come To kidnap jen,

That is If you're ready.

Ready and waiting.

Get me Out of this bed.

It's beautiful today, Isn't it?

Mmm.

How the sun just affects Every breathing thing.

I mean, you can Really see it.

Ok, mrs. Dalloway.

Thank god, Your humor has returned.

Sure you want To do this?

Absolutely.

You?

100% sure...

I don't,

But I don't think You're gonna let me Out of it, so...

I'll be quick. I promise.

Let's do this thing. You can turn it on.

Hi, amy, it's mom.

Well, by the time You see this,

I won't be here anymore,

And I know How much that sucks

For both of us.

So seeing as how I won't be around

To thoroughly annoy you,

I thought I would Give you a little list

Of the things That I wish for you.

Well, there's the obvious.

An education,

Family, friends,

And a life that is Full of the unexpected.

Be sure to make mistakes.

Make a lot of them,

Because there's no better way

To learn and to grow, All right?

And, um,

I want you to spend A lot of time at the ocean,

Because the ocean Forces you to dream,

And I insist that you, My girl, be a dreamer.

God.

I've never really Believed in god.

In fact, I've spent A lot of time and energy

Trying to disprove That god exists,

But I hope that you are Able to believe in god,

Because the thing that I've Come to realize, sweetheart,

Is that It just doesn't matter

If god exists or not.

The important thing Is for you to believe In something,

Because I promise you

That that belief Will keep you warm at night,

And I want you To feel safe always,

And then there's love.

I want you to love To the tips of your fingers,

And when you find that love,

Wherever you find it,

Whoever you choose,

Don't run away from it,

But you don't have To chase after it either.

You just be patient,

And it'll come to you, I promise,

And when you Least expect it,

Like you,

Like spending The best year of my life

With the sweetest And the smartest

And the most beautiful Baby girl in the world.

You don't be afraid, Sweetheart,

And remember,

To love is to live.

Dawson still doesn't know I borrowed this.

You mean stole?

No, I mean borrowed.

You don't steal From friends.

When did you Borrow this?

Uh, in 1998, Right after he shot it.

Oh. Ha ha.

Oh, god, We're so gawky.

Well...

You anyway.

Yeah.

Such a long time ago.

Yes, it was.

I recognize A joey trance When I see it.

It is definitely nice To have her back Around again.

Do you feel the sparks?

Well, you can never Really deny the sparks

Between the two of us.

When she's around, I just feel more...

I feel more alive.

I think people underestimate How important that is.

I think they Overestimate it, too.

I mean, as much As you want to,

You can't rely On someone else

To make you feel alive.

It's an inside job.

True.

So do you plan On borrowing her

Or stealing her From your best friend?

Well, I'm hoping that It's a little different now,

And maybe We've moved beyond that.

I just want the 3 of you To stay friends,

And I hope You stay in touch.

Never forget what You mean to each other

And the effect That you've had on Each other's lives.

So friendship can Really never be over Or underestimated.

Oh, god, I hate this.

I'm so angry.

I don't want to do this. I don't want to...

Die. I hate this.

Remind me To never do it again.

It's not funny.

I'm losing my sense Of humor here, pace.

I don't want To leave my daughter.

I don't want To leave her alone.

We will not leave Your daughter alone.

I promise you that.

Saturday night Has me and amy's name

Written all over it, ok?

We will take care Of your baby.

I promise you.

Oh, my god.

Hey.

Hey.

How'd it go?

Well, you know that list Of hardest things To live through?

You just Got bumped again.

Ah.

I'm so Out of touch, jo.

I've...

I've wasted So much time

Living in my little Hollywood bubble.

Even now, My mind's on my work.

I hate to admit that.

Show's calling Every 5 seconds.

The network Wants a script,

Which I haven't Finished yet,

Because I don't know how. I don't have an ending.

I can't even think straight Enough to write one.

Dawson, this is a time Of extreme stress.

It's not just that.

When I saw jen For the first time

The other day with amy,

My first thought was, "When did jen have a baby?"

I forgot jen had a baby.

I forgot I knew that.

What--

What's wrong with me?

You cannot feel guilty About that, dawson.

My office is calling Every 5 seconds.

It's--it's Called life,

And we just Have to deal.

Deal with-- With what, though?

It's not shakespeare.

I'm not writing schindler's list.

I don't even know Why I care so much.

I'm no spielberg.

The guy won't even Take a meeting with me.

Why would he? Stop it.

She's dying.

Jo, she's gonna die, And all I can think about

Is some frickin' ending To some stupid tv show.

I keep thinking there's gonna Be time for the rest of it,

But it--it--it runs out.

Yes, it does.

Nothing in my life Feels real anymore.

I've lost touch with My family, my friends,

You...

And you and me together Is the only thing

That ever made sense to me,

And I forgot that...

Until I saw you,

And then it came back, What we were,

And we're not Even together.

Do you not watch the creek?

We're together every Wednesday at 8:00.

Dawson, you wrote A show about us.

And that's the problem.

I've turned my entire life Into fiction.

It's not even real life That I'm living anymore.

It is real,

In the best way Possible.

Dawson, do you know How lucky you are?

You're a writer.

You get To live life twice.

Who else Can do that?

I like this one.

Definitely an "A."

Oh, yeah.

I thought it was A little pedestrian,

Rushed.

I think, uh, Cynthia here

Is capable Of much more.

Oh, gosh.

Well, we're all capable Of more, jack.

Hey, wanna sit?

Wanna go In your chair?

Yeah, thanks.

Hey.

Wanna go in your thingy?

Here.

Mama.

Ohh.

Speaking of capability...

Can I bring up The as yet unspoken Subject of amy here?

Bad segue, english teacher.

I think you can do better.

Jen, come on. This is tough.

I don't want you To feel pressure, jack.

I am her godfather.

I think that when Most people sign up For godparent duties,

They don't imagine that It could ever extend Beyond a few babysits.

Jen, I want her.

I want her,

But I don't know What you and grams Have discussed.

Grams is aware Of the reality Of the situation,

With her health And all...

And we both think That you would make An excellent father.

One request.

Can you please help amy Find a place to be?

I feel like I never Really quite fit.

Which is Why we're us.

I know.

I mean, from the second

That I stepped Out of that cab

And onto the creek,

I--I was the instigator, You know?

Girl who caused problems And rocked the creek

And upset the delicate Emotional balance Of capeside,

And--and I don't want amy To be that person.

I want her to belong.

I feel like I never really did.

Jen, you belong.

You belong to me.

Don't you get it?

You're my soulmate.

Amy's gonna know love.

Every day of her life, She is gonna know

How much Her mother loved her.

I'm gonna see to that.

Ok?

I'll see you soon, child.

Soon.

You should Go talk to him.

Now's not the time.

Ok, fair enough.

Just remember That saying's Not worth much today.

Hey.

Hey. I'm looking For some serving spoons.

They're in the bin At the end.

Well, how you doing?

You ok?

Yeah.

Yeah, I really am ok.

What's going on In that head of yours?

You're off the hook.

What?

You're off the hook.

I've never really Put much faith In all that

"If you love someone, Set them free" crap,

As evidenced by everything I've done in my life

Up to this very moment,

But I am determined To be happy, joey.

Happy in this life.

And I love you. I mean, I always--

I have always, Always loved you.

But our timing has Just never been right.

And the way I figure it, Time is no man's friend.

So I have To get right with that

And be happy now.

Because this is it.

I mean, this Is all that we get.

If there's one thing I've learned From losing jen,

That's What I've learned.

Pacey, I--

Actually, um, hold on. I'm not done yet.

Because I also want For you to be happy.

It's really important For me that you be happy.

So I want you To be with someone,

Whether it be dawson Or new york guy

Or some man that you Haven't even met yet,

But I want you To be with someone

Who can be A part of the life

That you want For yourself.

I want you To be with someone Who makes you feel

Like I feel When I'm with you.

So, I guess The point to this Long, run-on sentence

That's been the last 10 years of our lives

Is just that the simple act Of being in love with you

Is enough for me.

So you're Off the hook.

You know, For the record, I--

I don't want To be let off the hook.

Because everything In my life

That I've done Has led me here,

Right now,

And the last thing I want, need, or deserve

Is to be let off Somebody's hook.

Please don't miss My point here 'cause--

And don't miss mine.

Pacey...

I love you.

You know that.

And it's very real.

It's so real That it's kept me moving,

Mostly running from it, Never ready for it.

And I love dawson.

He's my soul mate.

He's tied to my childhood, And it's a love

That is pure And eternally innocent.

I can't be Let off the hook

Because I might Just get the notion

That it's ok To keep running.

So then what exactly Are you saying here?

Oh, pacey, There you are.

Um, we need plates.

You are so sweet

To open up Your place like this.

I love you both.

Ok, uh...

I think you were Maybe just about

To say something Really important.

Pacey...

I realize--

Joey, give me a hand.

Here, grab this tray. Here.

How you doing, pacey?

I'm good, bess. I'm good, thanks.

Grams said You were here.

Just thinking?

Capeside's Favorite pastime.

What about?

Moving.

Moving?

Where?

I don't know. Boston, new york.

Why?

Amy.

Jack, you can't do that.

Yes, I can.

How many gay parents Do you know in capeside?

So?

How many gay teachers Were there

Before you came back?

How many gay sheriffs Are there, for that matter?

Last time I checked? None.

I'm tired Of being first, doug.

Half my life has been About reeducating This community.

What do I Have to show for it?

You think there are prizes For inspiring people?

I don't Want to inspire People anymore.

All I want To do is give amy A normal existence.

She's not gonna Get that here.

She's gonna have The same childhood That I did.

Only instead of Being the only gay kid,

She's gonna Be the only kid With a gay parent.

I don't want that.

You're gonna Be a gay parent

No matter where you are.

And, yeah, amy is Gonna face rejection.

That's what it means To be a teenager.

I just want to be A good parent, doug.

I have to be.

Hey...

Jack...

Being a good parent Means knowing

That your child Is bound to fall down.

You just Have to show 'em How to get back up.

What do you know About parenting?

Not much.

I'm hoping To learn quickly.

That's a sweet gesture, But, no, thank you.

It's not a gesture.

Yes, it is.

With everything That we've been through,

I'll be damned if we're Gonna get back together

Over your sense Of obligation,

Or worse, pity.

Screw pity.

I love you.

I love you, jack.

I love that you're The bravest person I know...

The kindest.

I love that No matter what you do,

Your life Is gonna stand out.

I want to stand out With you...

And your daughter.

If you'll let me.

Uh... What?

It's the dudleys.

Right there.

Evening, Mr. And mrs. Dudley.

I was just, uh...

Kissing my boyfriend.

That's sweet, dear.

Hey.

How ya doing?

Surviving. You?

It's been a long day.

Yeah.

Are you writing?

No.

The curse of An unwritten ending.

Oh.

Make it A happy one, please.

I can't take Any more sad ones.

Stay away from the life And death of it all.

It's interesting How people use That expression.

Life and death.

As if to imply That life

Is the opposite Of death,

But birth is The opposite of death.

Life...

Has no opposite.

I never thought Of it that way.

Well, leave it to me To overthink it.

You are the writer.

Yeah.

This writer Has decided

It doesn't matter How it ends...

Because fiction Is fiction,

And for the first time, In a long time,

My life is real.

It doesn't matter Who ends up with who.

Because in some unearthly way,

It's always Gonna be you and me.

Soul mates.

What we have goes Beyond friendship,

Beyond lovers.

It's forever.

Yes, it is.

I love you, dawson.

I love you, too, joey.

Come on, alexander!

Come on! Only a few more steps!

You can do it!

You and me, always.

Always.

I can't Take it anymore, colby.

I don't want to wait For my life to be over.

I wanna know right now.

What will it be?

You and me.

Always.

That was perfect.

Absolutely perfect.

Are those tears? Are you crying?

He got me.

He got me.

Let's call him.

Well, I'm taking off.

You should get Out of here, too.

You have a meeting First thing in the a.M.

Got it.

No, no, no. Get out of here.

Thanks.

Yeah?

Hey, it's us. It was great!

Fantastic! It was so sweet.

You got joey Crying like a baby.

I can't wait Till next season.

You'll never guess Who I'm meeting tomorrow.

Spielberg?

Get out of town!

Who made you A hollywood player, Man?

Oh, my god!

What are you gonna say? What are you gonna wear?

I have no idea.