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Yep.

You don't have To stay with me If you don't want to.

You're not thinking About chickening out Again, are you?

I don't--no, I'm not thinking About chickening out.

I might ditch, But that's something Different entirely.

You know, It's not really so bad.

Therapy? Yeah.

So, I just talk, right?

I go into A total stranger's office,

I tell them My deepest fears,

And this is supposed To solve something?

No, not necessarily.

Freud actually Considered himself Quite lucky

If he could Manage to convert Hysterical misery

Into common, Everyday unhappiness.

So, the goal here Is unhappiness?

Exactly.

Great.

Aw, what did he know, Anyway?

All that crap About penis envy

And overemphasis On libido.

I love college, jen.

I feel like I'm In a french movie.

Really, it's not so bad. Trust me.

90% of people On this earth Could benefit

From a little Honest-to-goodness Time on the couch.

You actually laid On a couch?

Once, but it was not Very comfortable.

The whole Tom frost office...

They were very stark, Very danish.

However, I predict That this rachel weir Of yours

Will probably Be much warmer.

I'm sure she's Like a spider plant In the window

Kind of chick.

You never felt ridiculous

Blathering on About your problems To a total stranger?

No more ridiculous Than I feel

Blathering on to no one On the radio.

Hey, that's not true. I listen.

You and grams.

Thank you for Doing this with me.

Anytime.

Ok, so just--

I got it. Love ya.

Mean it. Really. Seriously.

Uh, audrey, call me If you need me.

How come your film geek Looks like tom cruise

And the one Who worships me Looks like the kid

Who doesn't want To go to the dance In sixteen candles?

You know, you should Be nicer to george.

I'm sure he's going To be very famous Some day.

Whatever. All I know Is that I practically Had to sleep with him

To get him to Loan me his digital Video camera.

What do you need That for, anyway?

My audition tape.

real world, ibiza, Here I come.

You're kidding me.

No.

And it's not that I wouldn't miss you, jo,

It's just, who wouldn't Rather winter in spain?

Ok. I'm having problems With the tone of The tape, though.

Do I go for vamp, vixen, Or all-out slut?

Well, just as long As you're planning

On representing All the colors Of the rainbow.

What is all this stuff, Anyway?

I'm trying to get up to speed For this rose lazare project.

We're having Another meeting tonight.

Oh, shouldn't you Be getting ready?

I'm trying, But these books--

I mean, you practically Need footnotes For the footnotes.

Not that, you fool!

Wardrobe!

Audrey, I really don't think Anyone's gonna be noticing What I'm wearing.

Ok, and where Would madonna be

If she had That attitude?

I'm serious here.

You have no idea What these meetings Are like.

I mean, everyone else Is, like, a junior Or senior.

They're dropping names So fast and furiously

They're practically leaving Dents in the carpet.

And then wilder will Throw in these little Off-the-cuff explanations

Obviously intended for me.

I mean, the guy knows I'm an idiot.

Why would he even Bother picking me For something like this?

Please. Because you're hot,

And he's a teacher. And don't tell me

You didn't consider that A possibility.

I mean, Would it be so awful

If some incredibly Gorgeous guy Found you attractive?

Well, has it ever Occurred to you

That the goal of The college experience

Is not to be reduced To a piece of meat?

Oh, so you'd rather Be a brain in a jar?

Well, then I wouldn't Have to worry about What I'm wearing.

Definitely this.

So, how many people Are actually coming To this anniversary thing?

Maybe 300, Almost all of whom

Will be eating your Mushroom-duck crepes,

Which you have Approximately 39 hours Left to perfect.

And these are friends.

Friends...Backers, Patrons, reviewers,

Who are all happy To keep being our friends

So long as they're Kept happy.

Rob called.

And what did young rob Have to say for himself?

He called to confirm The white asparagus

Should be here Tomorrow morning.

This is too early.

Look, you've gotta wait For the sauce to caramelize.

Try it again.

He also said Congratulations.

That means a lot.

Especially considering That last year

He demanded cash For every delivery

And kept sending us The wilted lettuce.

I know. And you Slept here every night

To wait For the deliveries.

Well, I had to be there In enough time

So that they could Unpack the stuff

And then repack it again.

Rob hated you for that.

He did. However, He started sending us The fresh stuff.

So, you were actually The second chef here.

Yep. They hired me After the first one's Coke habit

Became a bit too habitual.

And you really Used to live here?

For months at a time.

That has got to be Hell on a marriage.

Hey, speaking of, Is emily gonna Be here tomorrow?

No. She can't make it.

Something funny?

No, I--it's A long story.

Longer than 50 minutes?

No, it's just, My friend jen And I were

Trying to guess What you'd be like,

And she...

Right. Right.

I used to have Plastic ones,

But I got rid Of 'em.

Makes the patients Nervous.

No one wants A therapist

That can't even Keep a plant alive.

Right.

So, what else Did you expect?

I don't know. What anybody expects.

Robin williams In good will hunting?

Or judd hirsch In a big sweater?

Do you want to, like, Start over or something?

I want to do this right.

You are doing it right.

So, uh, I guess you know Why I'm here.

I would kinda like To hear that from you, If I could.

I've been having These attacks.

Panic attacks?

Yeah.

And I know they're My way of dealing

With my father's death.

And you're sure About that?

Well, I mean, Nothing else is really

All that different In my life right now.

Nothing else?

I guess that's Not really true, is it?

Did it feel true?

Well, 6 months ago,

This is not what I thought I'd be doing with my life.

What are you doing?

Nothing.

I mean, I'm helping My mom, I guess.

And you're not In school?

No. I was...At usc.

That's a good school. It's far away.

Yeah.

I'm thinking About going back. I mean, not now.

Obviously, I mean, My mom still needs me.

I've got a baby sister Who's not even one.

But next semester, Maybe?

Yeah, I've been--

I've been meaning to--

To call them and find out About that.

Is this something That you want to do?

I don't know.

Maybe that's What's wrong with me.

I don't--I don't really Do anything.

I think I'm frozen Between the past And the future.

I mean, there's no reason I couldn't go back.

Except for The panic attacks...

And your mom, Who obviously needs you,

And your baby sister.

Right.

I guess--

I guess that wasn't All that true either, Was it?

Well, the brain works In mysterious ways.

So, am I just lying To myself?

Dawson, losing someone You love--

Losing them suddenly, With no logical Explanation--

The brain isn't set up To cope with something Like that.

And along the way,

A few lies here And there...

It's probably par For the course.

The only problem is

When you start Convincing yourself

That the lies are true.

If you ask me,

I think this whole thing Must be evidence

Of some big Lesbian affair.

That's why the husband Never showed anybody These letters

During her lifetime.

And it would explain All the references To sappho.

You know, alan, just Because a teenage girl

Happens to appreciate The lyric poetry

Of the ancient world's Most famous lesbian,

Doesn't necessarily mean She wants to sleep

With other Teenage girls.

Yeah, but rose did.

As literary sluts go,

She was right up there with Edna st. Vincent millay

And anais nin.

Ok, before cassandra Drops anymore names On us,

Uh, joey, any thoughts On what makes

These particular Rose lazare letters

So different From the hundreds Of others

We've been Sloughing through?

Uh...

Well, for starters, They're interesting.

And this may sound Like a stupid question,

But who's I.V.?

That is a far From stupid question.

In fact, That is the question.

I.V. "I" period, "V" period.

The person to whom All these letters Are written

Could be anybody.

She never uses A full name?

Not within The letters themselves.

What about the envelopes?

She could have Destroyed them,

Thinking that the letters Were still inside,

Or they all possibly May be in a shoebox

Stuffed under a bed In new jersey.

So, essentially, What you're saying is

We have absolutely no idea

Who these letters Were written to.

None.

All that we know Are that these

Are the most intimate, Most revealing letters Of her career.

For the first time In these letters,

We catch a glimpse Of somebody who is real.

Somebody who Doubts themself.

Somebody who is not Afraid of looking stupid

While asking Essential questions About life.

And rose obviously Wrote them to somebody

That she Cared a lot about.

Other than that, We know nothing.

So, it's a mystery.

Cool. Like derrida's post card for real.

Don't you think, joey?

Um, I probably would

If I had any idea Who you were talking about.

Ok. I think That's a good note To end on.

Um, so next time, I want you all To have ideas

On who this mystery Person could be.

Many, many ideas.

Till then.

So, you got a date For wednesday?

Nope.

What happened To that blond girl I used to see you with?

Melissa?

Malanie. Right.

She's a law student. That tends to take up A lot of your time.

That's too bad. You with a law student.

Probably could have Come in handy some day.

So, listen,

You want me to Set you up with one Of my friends?

No.

Why not? I've got Some hot friends.

I said no, ok?

Hey, what have you done With pacey?

He used to be Such a lovable galumph.

Well, he's a little Fed up right now.

Yeah, about what?

Believe me, You don't want to know.

Maybe I do.

Ok. You know That boyfriend of yours?

The one I've been Hearing so much about?

He wouldn't by any chance Be coming tomorrow night, Would he?

No, not exactly.

You see, now here It's been months,

And I've never actually Seen the guy.

How is that possible?

Well, it's like I said,

He's got a really Crazy schedule.

Hmm. And when he's not Standing you up,

Does he ever take you Anyplace special?

I don't know, Maybe boston harbor, A gigantic sailboat?

So, what? He told you?

No, he didn't tell me. It's my boat.

All this time you've Been complaining to me

About your boyfriend,

And here I've Been stupid enough

To actually Have sympathy for you.

I never asked you To have sympathy for me.

You didn't ask me To have sympathy,

And believe me, I've been trying not to.

So, what, you're just Gonna lay your little Guilt trip on me now?

You don't know anything About my life, pacey.

What I know is that This relationship

Is going to bring you Nothing but grief.

And I also know That I had to look His wife in the eyes

And lie for you.

Believe me, that was not Too enjoyable.

Yeah. Well, you know, In the real world,

Sometimes people Actually have To do things

That are not So enjoyable And accept things

That are a little Less than perfect,

And compromise For reasons That sometimes

People are too immature To comprehend.

In which case, They should just Stay the hell out of it.

So, uh, how was Your therapy?

It was fine.

Did she have an opinion About usc?

Not really.

Well, you know, dawson,

Eventually things Are gonna have to start

Getting back to normal Around here.

Were things ever normal Around here?

Ah. Here we go.

This last item Is the living trust.

As you know, The trust provides money For health care,

Educational assistance, Financial support.

You and dawson are The listed recipients.

But not lily?

To my knowledge, Mitch never filed A codicil

Including her In the trust,

Which means that Technically she won't Have access to it,

Which isn't necessarily A concern right now.

There are ways that We can work around that,

Perfectly legal ways.

But that's not ideal? No.

I would take a look Around for it. I mean,

You never know Where these things Can turn up.

A folder, an envelope, The back of a drawer.

Well, we'll certainly Look for it.

And thank you.

Well, good luck.

Thanks.

So, I take it You've been finding

Our little rose lazare Project somewhat Snooze-inducing.

Well, I wouldn't Go that far.

But you have implied That most of Rose's letters

Were uninteresting.

Well, it's just that,

You know, Up until this point

They've all been So stiff and formal,

As if she's Writing to someone

Who's grading her Or something.

People can't be at ease With other people

Who are giving them Grades?

No. Or at least They shouldn't be.

Good point.

So, you don't think She could have Written them

To a teacher, say, Or a mentor.

Keep in mind That she was quite young When she wrote these.

Around 18 or 19, I think.

I don't know.

I think They were written To a friend.

Interesting. So you're Not buying cassandra's

Torrid lesbian Love affair theory?

Oh, I don't know.

It's just that If they were love letters, Wouldn't she be--

What, be more obvious About it?

Not if she was writing To another woman Back in the twenties.

No, that's not What I meant.

I mean, if they were Love letters,

Wouldn't she be Less honest?

There's a paradox In there somewhere.

I read all of them Last night,

And rose totally Pours her heart out Into these letters.

And who is that honest With someone they're Sexually attracted to?

People can be friends, Right, best friends,

But the second Sexual attraction Comes into it,

It's like All bets are off

As far as honesty Is concerned.

So, you don't think People can be both Friends and lovers?

I do. I hope I do, but...

Not at 18.

Well, then I think You better concentrate On this friend angle.

You know, I would, But to be honest,

I don't have The same background

As everybody else.

I don't even know Where to start.

Sure you do.

Where do most people Make their most lasting Friendships?

And don't say High school.

College. Exactly.

And which progressive, If overpriced, Liberal arts college

Did rose lazare Happen to go to?

This one.

Which means Her friends...

Probably went her, too.

Why are you helping me?

Let's just say I like underdogs.

Honey?

You don't think it could Be at the restaurant, do you?

Like, in a drawer somewhere In the office?

I thought you were Going to stop looking.

Yeah, so did I, But I can't.

But you heard What mr. Brezny said, Didn't you?

It's a technicality. It doesn't matter, Honey.

Everything is going To be fine.

Well, it'd be better If we could find it.

I mean, it's gotta Be here somewhere.

Dawson, stop. Why?

Because you're Scaring me a little.

You found it, didn't you?

Page 63 of the stephen king Novel on his night stand.

And it's not signed.

I never thought It would be.

Honey, your father Was a lot of things,

But he, uh, Wasn't good with details.

Hi.

Oh, hi.

Can I?

Sure.

Thanks.

Don't tell me You're looking for this?

Yeah.

So, got any theories yet?

Well, I was looking Into her roommate, Shirley brown.

They caught The chicken pox Together.

Yeah, but that's doubtful.

Rose mentions her later In her letters to lola murray.

Calls her small-minded.

And would you bear your soul

To someone you thought Was small-minded

I guess not.

But the whole College friends thing,

That's a good idea.

I can't believe We both had it.

But it's ok. I mean, This whole thing Is just an excuse

To be around Professor wilder Anyway, right?

You can have the yearbook If you want it.

Thanks.

Hey.

Witter.

Torres.

I thought I might apologize For the stuff I said.

What stuff you said?

You know what stuff.

Well, it's ok 'cause I wasn't exactly Prince charming, either.

No, but you got Put in the middle Of something, pacey,

Which wasn't fair.

And when you Called me on it,

I was defensive And judgemental, Which wasn't fair, either.

Besides, what do I really Know about you?

I could say the same About you.

Me? About me There's really Not much to know.

Oh, come on. That's not an answer.

You remind me of him.

I remind you of a guy Who could cheat On his wife?

Stop.

You know, When we got together,

It wasn't exactly cheating.

Emily had walked out on him.

She felt that He spent too much time At the restaurant,

And she was right.

But what she Didn't understand Was that without him,

Civilization would have folded In 6 months.

Danny just has this Kind of infectious idealism.

This belief that things Can work out.

I think that's What he sees in you.

You know, we don't Have to stay out here On the dock.

You wanna come in?

No. I came to say I'm sorry,

And now that I have, I should probably go home.

You sure?

Yeah.

Ok.

Well, good night, karen.

Good night, pacey.

So, you like her?

Yeah. Yeah, I do. She's cool, you know?

She wants me to come 3 times a week.

Good.

Good? My lack Of mental health is good?

Yes, because it means That I will get To see you more often.

What?

Well, we just found out That my dad neglected To add lily to his will.

And what did Your mom say?

Well, my mom Said the same thing The lawyer said,

Which is that It's not a big deal.

It's a technicality We can work around.

Well, it probably is.

It's not. It can't be.

I feel like you're, I don't know, like,

Hanging onto The wrong thing here.

What do you mean?

Um, maybe your mom Is right, you know?

Maybe the will Isn't such a big deal.

It's probably-- It's probably nothing.

It's probably A red herring, Or something.

A meaningless Little detail

Sent to you By the universe

To throw you off track Of the real culprit.

And who is that?

I mean, he just Made a mistake, dawson.

I know. I'm not saying He's perfect.

I know, But you just seem--

You're so afraid To get mad at him.

I'm not.

What good--

It's not gonna Change anything.

But it might change you.

And call me crazy, But it think that is

The point of therapy.

It was on this site that...

Ok, so this is the stuff Of me giving the tour.

George took this. It's nice, isn't it?

The lighting's good, And I think it's better Than the stuff

Of me pretending To study, right?

They're all great, Audrey, but, you know, I'm gonna be late.

Just chill. There's only One more option, ok?

I know, great birthday Present, right?

I mean, what 14-year-old Wants to fend for themselves Like an adult?

But I have to forgive her, I know that.

'cause forgiving her Is the only way

That I'm ever gonna be good To anyone else.

The part that's just Really just terrifying

Is that I think That I'm actually...

I don't know, I'm, like, Turning into her.

I'm loud and shameless And bossy

And I...I freak people out Sometimes.

But I don't think That I can change that,

'cause even if I don't Particularly like who I am,

I--at least I know Who that is.

I mean, if I tried To change...

Who the hell knows Who I'd be?

What? What's wrong?

Nothing's wrong. That--that-- That's great.

That's it. That is...

That's the one.

But I'm just sitting there Talking to myself.

Exactly.

But isn't it kind of Cheesy and vulnerable?

No, it's you. It's the real you.

I mean, that girl In the video

Who's not afraid To look stupid...

That's the real you.

And for what it's worth, I've met your mom.

I mean, you're Nothing like her.

Bye.

You know, I'm so sorry You're gonna be stuck Back here all night.

I mean, I feel like The wicked stepmother

That's keeping you From the ball.

I think My inner princess Will get over it.

Wow!

You look fantastic. I'm so glad I hired you.

You know, I think I would look pretty good

With a rose Between my teeth.

Uh, hey, emily!

Hi, pacey. Still burning the crepes?

Yeah. It's hard To get a hand in here, You know?

Everybody's always Goofing around.

Hey. I--I thought You weren't coming.

So did I. It's kind of hard To celebrate the success

Of the restaurant That almost ruined Your marriage.

Yeah, I imagine That would kinda suck.

Dance with me. Any time.

You ok?

Yeah. Sure. Fine.

What do you care? You probably called her.

Well, you know That's not true.

Do I?

Look, karen, I know you thought

Tonight was gonna be Your date with destiny,

But I'm just trying To be a friend here, ok?

Is that what you think I need, is a friend?

Yeah, 'cause you obviously Don't have too many of 'em,

Or they would've already Told you how badly

This is gonna end For you, for him, For everybody.

They would've told you That things like this--

Told me what, pacey?

That married men Don't leave their wives

For waitresses They're sleeping with?

Yeah. Thanks For the news flash.

I think the worst part About it

Was that my mom Didn't even seem to care.

It's like she expected him To have messed this thing up.

Maybe that's why I got so mad.

So...You were mad?

Yeah. Yeah, I was.

At your mother...

Or at him For not signing it?

At him, but I can't be Mad at him right now.

Sure you can.

Wasn't your father Mad at you?

You told me He laid down the law,

Bought you a plane ticket.

Yeah. I gave it Right back to him.

And you had reasons For that.

Yeah, but he obviously Had reasons

For wanting me To go back to usc.

Yes, he did.

And maybe he was wrong.

If he were here And we could ask him,

We'd probably find out That all those reasons

Were more about him--

His hopes, His expectations.

And just because he died,

Doesn't mean that he gets To win the argument.

When I remember That night,

All I feel... Is furious.

That's ok.

That's how you feel.

So what do I do now?

What every 18-year-old

Decide what to do With your own life.

And what if I don't know?

That's fine, too.

Although, personally...

I think you do know.

Hey, torres.

Hey, pacey. What do you want?

Well, when I was running My mouth off back there,

I forgot to mention One thing.

You look amazing tonight.

You ever wish You were someone else?

Yeah. Harrison ford, raiders of the lost ark.

No. I don't mean Someone specific.

I just mean Someone else,

Someone... Completely different From who you are.

That's what I want Right now.

Well, hi, I'm scott.

And you are?

I'm...I'm marie.

Nice to meet you, Scott.

It's nice to meet you, Too, marie.

You are without a doubt The single most

Jaw-droppingly Beautiful woman In this room.

And I was wondering If you would honor me With a dance.

Yeah.

So, tell me, marie,

Where are you from?

Just drop it, pacey.

Pacey? Who is this pacey?

I have a funny feeling I should be insulted.

How can he...

I mean, How can he just--

You know, Just calm down, karen.

I need to go Talk to him.

I think that that would be A really bad idea.

I don't care.

Karen, what would You say to him?

Seriously, What would you say?

Here you go, Joey.

Thank you. Sorry.

We'll forgive you If you brought String cheese.

No? Ok. Guess You had to be there.

Cassandra, You were wowing us With your theory.

It's not a theory, Really, just a notion.

I think whoever Rose was writing Those letters to

Must also have been A writer.

I mean, besides sex, That's practically All she talks about,

Her insecurities About writing.

And who cares About writing Except other writers?

Well, It's highly possible.

Joey, agree or disagree?

Uh, I strongly agree.

Sounds like you have A theory of your own You'd like to share.

I think rose lazare's Greatest confidant Was another writer.

I think She was rose lazare.

I'll bite.

Well, I--I think She was writing The letters to herself.

I think they were Like a journal or a diary

Or a confessional Of some kind

Because they're All about writing,

And there are no envelopes, And there's no small talk

Like in all The other letters.

The uninteresting ones?

Right. I mean, They're all filled With references

About what's going on Around her.

You know, everyday life, Political events,

Uh, mutual friends, Publishers, editors.

And these letters Are all about herself.

You know, her fears And insecurities-- The real her.

And I think the only person

That she was brave enough To share that with

Was herself.

Am I a total idiot?

No, joey potter.

I think that hush You're hearing

Is the silence Of 5 people

Simultaneously asking themselves,

"Why didn't I Think of that?"

Kafka writes something Very similar to felice.

"Writing letters is like Communicating with ghosts,

"And not just the ghost Of the person addressed,

But with your own ghost As well."

Who's felice?

Kafka's fiance. They had this Intense romance,

A kind of will-they, Won't they that went On for years.

Ultimately... Nothing happened.

Oh.

You wanna hand me That glass?

Yeah.

Do you really think I was right about Those letters?

Yours was the best idea I've heard so far.

I'm not surprised. You're a freshman.

Your brain has yet To be encoded

With your discipline's Received ideas.

Oh, so, In nonacademic terms,

I'm just too stupid To know any better?

Would you settle for Having an open mind?

For most people In college,

That's the first thing To go.

Wow. I hadn't pegged you For such a hardcore cynic.

I'm not.

Look. It's like this.

Most people, when They get to college,

Feel really insecure.

It seems like Everybody around them Knows so much more.

So they race To try to catch up,

Pretend to know things,

Instead of slowing down To actually learn them.

Because they don't realize

That the discomfort Of uncertainty

Is the most precious part Of the experience.

See, if you can feel Comfortable...

Not knowing,

You can learn anything,

Anything.

And if not,

Well, then you've stopped Before you've begun.

For a while, I was... Feeling insecure.

No.

And I just...

I guess what I'm saying is, um...

Thanks for choosing me To be on this project.

Thank you For sticking with it.

Grab that stuff. I'll clean the rest Tomorrow.

Can I ask you one more Stupid question?

Shoot.

Who the hell Is derrida anyway?

Ha ha! Well, uh, Let's just say

If literature were The star wars universe,

He would be like The darth maul.

Wbcw.

Uh, this is jen lindley,

And I've been Letting you people

Make requests For long enough now.

Tonight I have A dedication of my own.

And this one goes out To a very old friend

Who's seen me at my best

And at my worst,

And one night At mercer pond,

Got a pretty good view of me In nothing at all.

Here I come.

Whoo!

Ohh! Invigorating!

You really got the idea From my tape?

Yes.

And... Was wilder impressed?

I don't know. I think so.

Hmm. How impressed?

Audrey.

Joey, you said You were there

After everyone else left.

Ohh, audrey, Please shut up.

You don't care that You've obviously Impressed him

And that he obviously Thinks you're special?

Heh. No.

I just don't care At all.

Hey.

I figured it was my turn To come visit you.

What's that?

It's a sample platter Of tonight's menu.

I noticed You didn't really eat Too much of anything

At the restaurant.

You know, I hate you For making me say this,

But...Thank you.

For what?

For this-- For bringing me dinner,

For listening The other night,

For trying to save me When I told you not to,

For not saying, "I told you so."

That last one may be A bridge too far,

Because I did tell you so,

And I have no problem Telling you that I did.

He just-- He kissed her...

Right there In front of me,

Like I wasn't even there.

Well, public kissing is One of the traditional Benefits of marriage.

I need to break it Off with him.

I mean, I just-- I need to end this.

I need to move on.

Because he's obviously Not gonna leave her and...

Which means we're Not going anywhere.

That's good.

God, this is embarrassing.

I'm just Another single female

With a destructive Dating pattern.

Well, then do Like you said. Change it.

What does that even mean, Change it?

I mean, to what? To you?

Sorry.

Just dig in, ok?

Do you want to join me?

I might even have a table Under there somewhere.

Sure.

Hi, this is karen.

If you want me To know who you are,

I suggest You leave a message.

Hey, uh, it's me.

So, you left.

Uh, I can't say I blame you.

God, what a mess, karen.

I'm so sorry you had To go through that.

My, my life is so... Complicated right now,

And I'm sorry that you're stuck In the middle of it.

I...I know that that means Practically nothing to you,

And I know that you just want To punch me in the face,

And you have Every right to, but...

I love you, karen.

I--I really do...

In ways big and small.

I never wanted you To get hurt.

Please, karen, If you're there,

Pick up, please.

I just--I wanna talk.

I just want to know You're all right.

You still up?

Ohh, if I don't Keep reading,

I'll wind up only Speaking baby talk.

Oh, you've got, Uh, mail.

What is it?

I don't know. Open it and see.

I seem to have won A film festival

In hooksett, New hampshire.

Which is... Really bizarre

Because I never entered

A film festival in Hooksett, new hampshire.

No, but your father did.

Yep. He wasn't very good With little details,

But...He always Believed in you.

I'm not going Back to usc.

Ok.

Ok?

The last thing I want You to do is go back

To a school That you don't like

Out of some Misplaced desire to honor Your father's memory.

But he was so set On me going back there.

No. He wasn't ready To give up on the dream,

But he would've.

You had your reasons For leaving.

You'd have won him over.

You think?

Oh, honey, under all That bluster and concern,

He knew it was Your decision to make.

I miss him.

So do I.

He could be so--

I know. I know.

He couldn't make a pb&j

Without getting jelly In the peanut butter jar.

And he would refuse To buy socks.

He would just Borrow mine.

I loved him...

You know?

Me, too.