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15 more minutes.

Yep.

You don't have
To stay with me
If you don't want to.

You're not thinking
About chickening out
Again, are you?

I don't--no,
I'm not thinking
About chickening out.

I might ditch,
But that's something
Different entirely.

You know,
It's not really so bad.

Therapy?
Yeah.

So, I just talk, right?

I go into
A total stranger's office,

I tell them
My deepest fears,

And this is supposed
To solve something?

No, not necessarily.

Freud actually
Considered himself
Quite lucky

If he could
Manage to convert
Hysterical misery

Into common,
Everyday unhappiness.

So, the goal here
Is unhappiness?

Exactly.

Great.

Aw, what did he know,
Anyway?

All that crap
About penis envy

And overemphasis
On libido.

I love college, jen.

I feel like I'm
In a french movie.

Really, it's not so bad.
Trust me.

90% of people
On this earth
Could benefit

From a little
Honest-to-goodness
Time on the couch.

You actually laid
On a couch?

Once, but it was not
Very comfortable.

The whole
Tom frost office...

They were very stark,
Very danish.

However, I predict
That this rachel weir
Of yours

Will probably
Be much warmer.

I'm sure she's
Like a spider plant
In the window

Kind of chick.

You never felt ridiculous

Blathering on
About your problems
To a total stranger?

No more ridiculous
Than I feel

Blathering on to no one
On the radio.

Hey, that's not true.
I listen.

You and grams.

Thank you for
Doing this with me.

Anytime.

Ok, so just--

I got it. Love ya.

Mean it. Really.
Seriously.

Uh, audrey, call me
If you need me.

How come your film geek
Looks like tom cruise

And the one
Who worships me
Looks like the kid

Who doesn't want
To go to the dance
In sixteen candles?

You know, you should
Be nicer to george.

I'm sure he's going
To be very famous
Some day.

Whatever. All I know
Is that I practically
Had to sleep with him

To get him to
Loan me his digital
Video camera.

What do you need
That for, anyway?

My audition tape.

real world, ibiza,
Here I come.

You're kidding me.

No.

And it's not that
I wouldn't miss you, jo,

It's just, who wouldn't
Rather winter in spain?

Ok. I'm having problems
With the tone of
The tape, though.

Do I go for vamp, vixen,
Or all-out slut?

Well, just as long
As you're planning

On representing
All the colors
Of the rainbow.

What is all this stuff,
Anyway?

I'm trying to get up to speed
For this rose lazare project.

We're having
Another meeting tonight.

Oh, shouldn't you
Be getting ready?

I'm trying,
But these books--

I mean, you practically
Need footnotes
For the footnotes.

Not that, you fool!

Wardrobe!

Audrey, I really don't think
Anyone's gonna be noticing
What I'm wearing.

Ok, and where
Would madonna be

If she had
That attitude?

I'm serious here.

You have no idea
What these meetings
Are like.

I mean, everyone else
Is, like, a junior
Or senior.

They're dropping names
So fast and furiously

They're practically leaving
Dents in the carpet.

And then wilder will
Throw in these little
Off-the-cuff explanations

Obviously intended for me.

I mean, the guy knows
I'm an idiot.

Why would he even
Bother picking me
For something like this?

Please.
Because you're hot,

And he's a teacher.
And don't tell me

You didn't consider that
A possibility.

I mean,
Would it be so awful

If some incredibly
Gorgeous guy
Found you attractive?

Well, has it ever
Occurred to you

That the goal of
The college experience

Is not to be reduced
To a piece of meat?

Oh, so you'd rather
Be a brain in a jar?

Well, then I wouldn't
Have to worry about
What I'm wearing.

Definitely this.

So, how many people
Are actually coming
To this anniversary thing?

Maybe 300,
Almost all of whom

Will be eating your
Mushroom-duck crepes,

Which you have
Approximately 39 hours
Left to perfect.

And these are friends.

Friends...Backers,
Patrons, reviewers,

Who are all happy
To keep being our friends

So long as they're
Kept happy.

Rob called.

And what did young rob
Have to say for himself?

He called to confirm
The white asparagus

Should be here
Tomorrow morning.

This is too early.

Look, you've gotta wait
For the sauce to caramelize.

Try it again.

He also said
Congratulations.

That means a lot.

Especially considering
That last year

He demanded cash
For every delivery

And kept sending us
The wilted lettuce.

I know. And you
Slept here every night

To wait
For the deliveries.

Well, I had to be there
In enough time

So that they could
Unpack the stuff

And then repack it again.

Rob hated you for that.

He did. However,
He started sending us
The fresh stuff.

So, you were actually
The second chef here.

Yep. They hired me
After the first one's
Coke habit

Became a bit too habitual.

And you really
Used to live here?

For months at a time.

That has got to be
Hell on a marriage.

Hey, speaking of,
Is emily gonna
Be here tomorrow?

No.
She can't make it.

Something funny?

No, I--it's
A long story.

Longer than
50 minutes?

No, it's just,
My friend jen
And I were

Trying to guess
What you'd be like,

And she...

Right. Right.

I used to have
Plastic ones,

But I got rid
Of 'em.

Makes the patients
Nervous.

No one wants
A therapist

That can't even
Keep a plant alive.

Right.

So, what else
Did you expect?

I don't know.
What anybody expects.

Robin williams
In good will hunting?

Or judd hirsch
In a big sweater?

Do you want to, like,
Start over or something?

I want to do this right.

You are doing it right.

So, uh, I guess you know
Why I'm here.

I would kinda like
To hear that from you,
If I could.

I've been having
These attacks.

Panic attacks?

Yeah.

And I know they're
My way of dealing

With my father's death.

And you're sure
About that?

Well, I mean,
Nothing else is really

All that different
In my life right now.

Nothing else?

I guess that's
Not really true, is it?

Did it feel true?

Well, 6 months ago,

This is not what I thought
I'd be doing with my life.

What are you doing?

Nothing.

I mean, I'm helping
My mom, I guess.

And you're not
In school?

No. I was...At usc.

That's a good school.
It's far away.

Yeah.

I'm thinking
About going back.
I mean, not now.

Obviously, I mean,
My mom still needs me.

I've got a baby sister
Who's not even one.

But next semester,
Maybe?

Yeah, I've been--

I've been meaning to--

To call them and find out
About that.

Is this something
That you want to do?

I don't know.

Maybe that's
What's wrong with me.

I don't--I don't really
Do anything.

I think I'm frozen
Between the past
And the future.

I mean, there's no reason
I couldn't go back.

Except for
The panic attacks...

And your mom,
Who obviously needs you,

And your baby sister.

Right.

I guess--

I guess that wasn't
All that true either,
Was it?

Well, the brain works
In mysterious ways.

So, am I just lying
To myself?

Dawson, losing someone
You love--

Losing them suddenly,
With no logical
Explanation--

The brain isn't set up
To cope with something
Like that.

And along the way,

A few lies here
And there...

It's probably par
For the course.

The only problem is

When you start
Convincing yourself

That the lies are true.

If you ask me,

I think this whole thing
Must be evidence

Of some big
Lesbian affair.

That's why the husband
Never showed anybody
These letters

During her lifetime.

And it would explain
All the references
To sappho.

You know, alan, just
Because a teenage girl

Happens to appreciate
The lyric poetry

Of the ancient world's
Most famous lesbian,

Doesn't necessarily mean
She wants to sleep

With other
Teenage girls.

Yeah, but rose did.

As literary sluts go,

She was right up there with
Edna st. Vincent millay

And anais nin.

Ok, before cassandra
Drops anymore names
On us,

Uh, joey, any thoughts
On what makes

These particular
Rose lazare letters

So different
From the hundreds
Of others

We've been
Sloughing through?

Uh...

Well, for starters,
They're interesting.

And this may sound
Like a stupid question,

But who's I.V.?

That is a far
From stupid question.

In fact,
That is the question.

I.V. "I" period,
"V" period.

The person to whom
All these letters
Are written

Could be anybody.

She never uses
A full name?

Not within
The letters themselves.

What about the envelopes?

She could have
Destroyed them,

Thinking that the letters
Were still inside,

Or they all possibly
May be in a shoebox

Stuffed under a bed
In new jersey.

So, essentially,
What you're saying is

We have absolutely no idea

Who these letters
Were written to.

None.

All that we know
Are that these

Are the most intimate,
Most revealing letters
Of her career.

For the first time
In these letters,

We catch a glimpse
Of somebody who is real.

Somebody who
Doubts themself.

Somebody who is not
Afraid of looking stupid

While asking
Essential questions
About life.

And rose obviously
Wrote them to somebody

That she
Cared a lot about.

Other than that,
We know nothing.

So, it's a mystery.

Cool. Like derrida's
post card for real.

Don't you think, joey?

Um, I probably would

If I had any idea
Who you were talking about.

Ok. I think
That's a good note
To end on.

Um, so next time,
I want you all
To have ideas

On who this mystery
Person could be.

Many, many ideas.

Till then.

So, you got a date
For wednesday?

Nope.

What happened
To that blond girl
I used to see you with?

Melissa?

Malanie.
Right.

She's a law student.
That tends to take up
A lot of your time.

That's too bad.
You with a law student.

Probably could have
Come in handy some day.

So, listen,

You want me to
Set you up with one
Of my friends?

No.

Why not? I've got
Some hot friends.

I said no, ok?

Hey, what have you done
With pacey?

He used to be
Such a lovable galumph.

Well, he's a little
Fed up right now.

Yeah, about what?

Believe me,
You don't want to know.

Maybe I do.

Ok. You know
That boyfriend of yours?

The one I've been
Hearing so much about?

He wouldn't by any chance
Be coming tomorrow night,
Would he?

No, not exactly.

You see, now here
It's been months,

And I've never actually
Seen the guy.

How is that possible?

Well, it's like I said,

He's got a really
Crazy schedule.

Hmm. And when he's not
Standing you up,

Does he ever take you
Anyplace special?

I don't know,
Maybe boston harbor,
A gigantic sailboat?

So, what?
He told you?

No, he didn't tell me.
It's my boat.

All this time you've
Been complaining to me

About your boyfriend,

And here I've
Been stupid enough

To actually
Have sympathy for you.

I never asked you
To have sympathy for me.

You didn't ask me
To have sympathy,

And believe me,
I've been trying not to.

So, what, you're just
Gonna lay your little
Guilt trip on me now?

You don't know anything
About my life, pacey.

What I know is that
This relationship

Is going to bring you
Nothing but grief.

And I also know
That I had to look
His wife in the eyes

And lie for you.

Believe me, that was not
Too enjoyable.

Yeah. Well, you know,
In the real world,

Sometimes people
Actually have
To do things

That are not
So enjoyable
And accept things

That are a little
Less than perfect,

And compromise
For reasons
That sometimes

People are too immature
To comprehend.

In which case,
They should just
Stay the hell out of it.

So, uh, how was
Your therapy?

It was fine.

Did she have an opinion
About usc?

Not really.

Well, you know, dawson,

Eventually things
Are gonna have to start

Getting back to normal
Around here.

Were things ever normal
Around here?

Ah. Here we go.

This last item
Is the living trust.

As you know,
The trust provides money
For health care,

Educational assistance,
Financial support.

You and dawson are
The listed recipients.

But not lily?

To my knowledge,
Mitch never filed
A codicil

Including her
In the trust,

Which means that
Technically she won't
Have access to it,

Which isn't necessarily
A concern right now.

There are ways that
We can work around that,

Perfectly legal ways.

But that's not ideal?
No.

I would take a look
Around for it. I mean,

You never know
Where these things
Can turn up.

A folder, an envelope,
The back of a drawer.

Well, we'll certainly
Look for it.

And thank you.

Well, good luck.

Thanks.

So, I take it
You've been finding

Our little rose lazare
Project somewhat
Snooze-inducing.

Well, I wouldn't
Go that far.

But you have implied
That most of
Rose's letters

Were uninteresting.

Well, it's just that,

You know,
Up until this point

They've all been
So stiff and formal,

As if she's
Writing to someone

Who's grading her
Or something.

People can't be at ease
With other people

Who are giving them
Grades?

No. Or at least
They shouldn't be.

Good point.

So, you don't think
She could have
Written them

To a teacher, say,
Or a mentor.

Keep in mind
That she was quite young
When she wrote these.

Around 18 or 19,
I think.

I don't know.

I think
They were written
To a friend.

Interesting. So you're
Not buying cassandra's

Torrid lesbian
Love affair theory?

Oh, I don't know.

It's just that
If they were love letters,
Wouldn't she be--

What, be more obvious
About it?

Not if she was writing
To another woman
Back in the twenties.

No, that's not
What I meant.

I mean, if they were
Love letters,

Wouldn't she be
Less honest?

There's a paradox
In there somewhere.

I read all of them
Last night,

And rose totally
Pours her heart out
Into these letters.

And who is that honest
With someone they're
Sexually attracted to?

People can be friends,
Right, best friends,

But the second
Sexual attraction
Comes into it,

It's like
All bets are off

As far as honesty
Is concerned.

So, you don't think
People can be both
Friends and lovers?

I do.
I hope I do, but...

Not at 18.

Well, then I think
You better concentrate
On this friend angle.

You know, I would,
But to be honest,

I don't have
The same background

As everybody else.

I don't even know
Where to start.

Sure you do.

Where do most people
Make their most lasting
Friendships?

And don't say
High school.

College.
Exactly.

And which progressive,
If overpriced,
Liberal arts college

Did rose lazare
Happen to go to?

This one.

Which means
Her friends...

Probably went her, too.

Why are you helping me?

Let's just say
I like underdogs.

Honey?

You don't think it could
Be at the restaurant, do you?

Like, in a drawer somewhere
In the office?

I thought you were
Going to stop looking.

Yeah, so did I,
But I can't.

But you heard
What mr. Brezny said,
Didn't you?

It's a technicality.
It doesn't matter,
Honey.

Everything is going
To be fine.

Well, it'd be better
If we could find it.

I mean, it's gotta
Be here somewhere.

Dawson, stop.
Why?

Because you're
Scaring me a little.

You found it, didn't you?

Page 63 of the stephen king
Novel on his night stand.

And it's not signed.

I never thought
It would be.

Honey, your father
Was a lot of things,

But he, uh,
Wasn't good with details.

Hi.

Oh, hi.

Can I?

Sure.

Thanks.

Don't tell me
You're looking for this?

Yeah.

So, got any theories yet?

Well, I was looking
Into her roommate,
Shirley brown.

They caught
The chicken pox
Together.

Yeah, but that's doubtful.

Rose mentions her later
In her letters to lola murray.

Calls her small-minded.

And would you bear your soul

To someone you thought
Was small-minded

I guess not.

But the whole
College friends thing,

That's a good idea.

I can't believe
We both had it.

But it's ok. I mean,
This whole thing
Is just an excuse

To be around
Professor wilder
Anyway, right?

You can have the yearbook
If you want it.

Thanks.

Hey.

Witter.

Torres.

I thought I might apologize
For the stuff I said.

What stuff you said?

You know what stuff.

Well, it's ok
'cause I wasn't exactly
Prince charming, either.

No, but you got
Put in the middle
Of something, pacey,

Which wasn't fair.

And when you
Called me on it,

I was defensive
And judgemental,
Which wasn't fair, either.

Besides, what do I really
Know about you?

I could say the same
About you.

Me? About me
There's really
Not much to know.

Oh, come on.
That's not an answer.

You remind me of him.

I remind you of a guy
Who could cheat
On his wife?

Stop.

You know,
When we got together,

It wasn't exactly cheating.

Emily had walked out on him.

She felt that
He spent too much time
At the restaurant,

And she was right.

But what she
Didn't understand
Was that without him,

Civilization would have folded
In 6 months.

Danny just has this
Kind of infectious idealism.

This belief that things
Can work out.

I think that's
What he sees in you.

You know, we don't
Have to stay out here
On the dock.

You wanna come in?

No. I came to say I'm sorry,

And now that I have,
I should probably go home.

You sure?

Yeah.

Ok.

Well, good night, karen.

Good night, pacey.

So, you like her?

Yeah. Yeah, I do.
She's cool, you know?

She wants me to come
3 times a week.

Good.

Good? My lack
Of mental health is good?

Yes, because it means
That I will get
To see you more often.

What?

Well, we just found out
That my dad neglected
To add lily to his will.

And what did
Your mom say?

Well, my mom
Said the same thing
The lawyer said,

Which is that
It's not a big deal.

It's a technicality
We can work around.

Well, it probably is.

It's not. It can't be.

I feel like you're,
I don't know, like,

Hanging onto
The wrong thing here.

What do you mean?

Um, maybe your mom
Is right, you know?

Maybe the will
Isn't such a big deal.

It's probably--
It's probably nothing.

It's probably
A red herring,
Or something.

A meaningless
Little detail

Sent to you
By the universe

To throw you off track
Of the real culprit.

And who is that?

I mean, he just
Made a mistake, dawson.

I know. I'm not saying
He's perfect.

I know,
But you just seem--

You're so afraid
To get mad at him.

I'm not.

What good--

It's not gonna
Change anything.

But it might change you.

And call me crazy,
But it think that is

The point of therapy.

It was on this site that...

Ok, so this is the stuff
Of me giving the tour.

George took this.
It's nice, isn't it?

The lighting's good,
And I think it's better
Than the stuff

Of me pretending
To study, right?

They're all great,
Audrey, but, you know,
I'm gonna be late.

Just chill. There's only
One more option, ok?

I know, great birthday
Present, right?

I mean, what 14-year-old
Wants to fend for themselves
Like an adult?

But I have to forgive her,
I know that.

'cause forgiving her
Is the only way

That I'm ever gonna be good
To anyone else.

The part that's just
Really just terrifying

Is that I think
That I'm actually...

I don't know, I'm, like,
Turning into her.

I'm loud and shameless
And bossy

And I...I freak people out
Sometimes.

But I don't think
That I can change that,

'cause even if I don't
Particularly like who I am,

I--at least I know
Who that is.

I mean, if I tried
To change...

Who the hell knows
Who I'd be?

What? What's wrong?

Nothing's wrong.
That--that--
That's great.

That's it. That is...

That's the one.

But I'm just sitting there
Talking to myself.

Exactly.

But isn't it kind of
Cheesy and vulnerable?

No, it's you.
It's the real you.

I mean, that girl
In the video

Who's not afraid
To look stupid...

That's the real you.

And for what it's worth,
I've met your mom.

I mean, you're
Nothing like her.

Bye.

You know, I'm so sorry
You're gonna be stuck
Back here all night.

I mean, I feel like
The wicked stepmother

That's keeping you
From the ball.

I think
My inner princess
Will get over it.

Wow!

You look fantastic.
I'm so glad I hired you.

You know, I think
I would look pretty good

With a rose
Between my teeth.

Uh, hey, emily!

Hi, pacey.
Still burning the crepes?

Yeah. It's hard
To get a hand in here,
You know?

Everybody's always
Goofing around.

Hey. I--I thought
You weren't coming.

So did I.
It's kind of hard
To celebrate the success

Of the restaurant
That almost ruined
Your marriage.

Yeah, I imagine
That would kinda suck.

Dance with me.
Any time.

You ok?

Yeah.
Sure. Fine.

What do you care?
You probably called her.

Well, you know
That's not true.

Do I?

Look, karen,
I know you thought

Tonight was gonna be
Your date with destiny,

But I'm just trying
To be a friend here, ok?

Is that what you think
I need, is a friend?

Yeah, 'cause you obviously
Don't have too many of 'em,

Or they would've already
Told you how badly

This is gonna end
For you, for him,
For everybody.

They would've told you
That things like this--

Told me what, pacey?

That married men
Don't leave their wives

For waitresses
They're sleeping with?

Yeah. Thanks
For the news flash.

I think the worst part
About it

Was that my mom
Didn't even seem to care.

It's like she expected him
To have messed this thing up.

Maybe that's why
I got so mad.

So...You were mad?

Yeah. Yeah, I was.

At your mother...

Or at him
For not signing it?

At him, but I can't be
Mad at him right now.

Sure you can.

Wasn't your father
Mad at you?

You told me
He laid down the law,

Bought you a plane ticket.

Yeah. I gave it
Right back to him.

And you had reasons
For that.

Yeah, but he obviously
Had reasons

For wanting me
To go back to usc.

Yes, he did.

And maybe he was wrong.

If he were here
And we could ask him,

We'd probably find out
That all those reasons

Were more about him--

His hopes,
His expectations.

And just because he died,

Doesn't mean that he gets
To win the argument.

When I remember
That night,

All I feel...
Is furious.

That's ok.

That's how you feel.

So what do I do now?

What every 18-year-old

Decide what to do
With your own life.

And what if
I don't know?

That's fine, too.

Although, personally...

I think you do know.

Hey, torres.

Hey, pacey.
What do you want?

Well, when I was running
My mouth off back there,

I forgot to mention
One thing.

You look amazing tonight.

You ever wish
You were someone else?

Yeah. Harrison ford,
raiders of the lost ark.

No. I don't mean
Someone specific.

I just mean
Someone else,

Someone...
Completely different
From who you are.

That's what I want
Right now.

Well, hi, I'm scott.

And you are?

I'm...I'm marie.

Nice to meet you,
Scott.

It's nice to meet you,
Too, marie.

You are without a doubt
The single most

Jaw-droppingly
Beautiful woman
In this room.

And I was wondering
If you would honor me
With a dance.

Yeah.

So, tell me, marie,

Where are you from?

Just drop it, pacey.

Pacey?
Who is this pacey?

I have a funny feeling
I should be insulted.

How can he...

I mean,
How can he just--

You know,
Just calm down, karen.

I need to go
Talk to him.

I think that that would be
A really bad idea.

I don't care.

Karen, what would
You say to him?

Seriously,
What would you say?

Here you go,
Joey.

Thank you.
Sorry.

We'll forgive you
If you brought
String cheese.

No? Ok. Guess
You had to be there.

Cassandra,
You were wowing us
With your theory.

It's not a theory,
Really, just a notion.

I think whoever
Rose was writing
Those letters to

Must also have been
A writer.

I mean, besides sex,
That's practically
All she talks about,

Her insecurities
About writing.

And who cares
About writing
Except other writers?

Well,
It's highly possible.

Joey, agree or disagree?

Uh, I strongly agree.

Sounds like you have
A theory of your own
You'd like to share.

I think rose lazare's
Greatest confidant
Was another writer.

I think
She was rose lazare.

I'll bite.

Well, I--I think
She was writing
The letters to herself.

I think they were
Like a journal or a diary

Or a confessional
Of some kind

Because they're
All about writing,

And there are no envelopes,
And there's no small talk

Like in all
The other letters.

The uninteresting ones?

Right. I mean,
They're all filled
With references

About what's going on
Around her.

You know, everyday life,
Political events,

Uh, mutual friends,
Publishers, editors.

And these letters
Are all about herself.

You know, her fears
And insecurities--
The real her.

And I think the only person

That she was brave enough
To share that with

Was herself.

Am I a total idiot?

No, joey potter.

I think that hush
You're hearing

Is the silence
Of 5 people

Simultaneously asking themselves,

"Why didn't I
Think of that?"

Kafka writes something
Very similar to felice.

"Writing letters is like
Communicating with ghosts,

"And not just the ghost
Of the person addressed,

But with your own ghost
As well."

Who's felice?

Kafka's fiance.
They had this
Intense romance,

A kind of will-they,
Won't they that went
On for years.

Ultimately...
Nothing happened.

Oh.

You wanna hand me
That glass?

Yeah.

Do you really think
I was right about
Those letters?

Yours was the best idea
I've heard so far.

I'm not surprised.
You're a freshman.

Your brain has yet
To be encoded

With your discipline's
Received ideas.

Oh, so,
In nonacademic terms,

I'm just too stupid
To know any better?

Would you settle for
Having an open mind?

For most people
In college,

That's the first thing
To go.

Wow. I hadn't pegged you
For such a hardcore cynic.

I'm not.

Look.
It's like this.

Most people, when
They get to college,

Feel really insecure.

It seems like
Everybody around them
Knows so much more.

So they race
To try to catch up,

Pretend to know things,

Instead of slowing down
To actually learn them.

Because they don't realize

That the discomfort
Of uncertainty

Is the most precious part
Of the experience.

See, if you can feel
Comfortable...

Not knowing,

You can learn anything,

Anything.

And if not,

Well, then you've stopped
Before you've begun.

For a while, I was...
Feeling insecure.

No.

And I just...

I guess what
I'm saying is, um...

Thanks for choosing me
To be on this project.

Thank you
For sticking with it.

Grab that stuff.
I'll clean the rest
Tomorrow.

Can I ask you one more
Stupid question?

Shoot.

Who the hell
Is derrida anyway?

Ha ha! Well, uh,
Let's just say

If literature were
The star wars universe,

He would be like
The darth maul.

Wbcw.

Uh, this is jen lindley,

And I've been
Letting you people

Make requests
For long enough now.

Tonight I have
A dedication of my own.

And this one goes out
To a very old friend

Who's seen me at my best

And at my worst,

And one night
At mercer pond,

Got a pretty good view of me
In nothing at all.

Here I come.

Whoo!

Ohh! Invigorating!

You really got the idea
From my tape?

Yes.

And...
Was wilder impressed?

I don't know.
I think so.

Hmm. How impressed?

Audrey.

Joey, you said
You were there

After everyone else left.

Ohh, audrey,
Please shut up.

You don't care that
You've obviously
Impressed him

And that he obviously
Thinks you're special?

Heh. No.

I just don't care
At all.

Hey.

I figured it was my turn
To come visit you.

What's that?

It's a sample platter
Of tonight's menu.

I noticed
You didn't really eat
Too much of anything

At the restaurant.

You know, I hate you
For making me say this,

But...Thank you.

For what?

For this--
For bringing me dinner,

For listening
The other night,

For trying to save me
When I told you not to,

For not saying,
"I told you so."

That last one may be
A bridge too far,

Because I did tell you so,

And I have no problem
Telling you that I did.

He just--
He kissed her...

Right there
In front of me,

Like I wasn't even there.

Well, public kissing is
One of the traditional
Benefits of marriage.

I need to break it
Off with him.

I mean, I just--
I need to end this.

I need to move on.

Because he's obviously
Not gonna leave her and...

Which means we're
Not going anywhere.

That's good.

God, this is embarrassing.

I'm just
Another single female

With a destructive
Dating pattern.

Well, then do
Like you said.
Change it.

What does that even mean,
Change it?

I mean, to what?
To you?

Sorry.

Just dig in, ok?

Do you want to join me?

I might even have a table
Under there somewhere.

Sure.

Hi, this is karen.

If you want me
To know who you are,

I suggest
You leave a message.

Hey, uh, it's me.

So, you left.

Uh, I can't say
I blame you.

God, what a mess, karen.

I'm so sorry you had
To go through that.

My, my life is so...
Complicated right now,

And I'm sorry that you're stuck
In the middle of it.

I...I know that that means
Practically nothing to you,

And I know that you just want
To punch me in the face,

And you have
Every right to, but...

I love you, karen.

I--I really do...

In ways big and small.

I never wanted you
To get hurt.

Please, karen,
If you're there,

Pick up, please.

I just--I wanna talk.

I just want to know
You're all right.

You still up?

Ohh, if I don't
Keep reading,

I'll wind up only
Speaking baby talk.

Oh, you've got,
Uh, mail.

What is it?

I don't know.
Open it and see.

I seem to have won
A film festival

In hooksett,
New hampshire.

Which is...
Really bizarre

Because I never entered

A film festival in
Hooksett, new hampshire.

No, but your father did.

Yep. He wasn't very good
With little details,

But...He always
Believed in you.

I'm not going
Back to usc.

Ok.

Ok?

The last thing I want
You to do is go back

To a school
That you don't like

Out of some
Misplaced desire to honor
Your father's memory.

But he was so set
On me going back there.

No. He wasn't ready
To give up on the dream,

But he would've.

You had your reasons
For leaving.

You'd have won him over.

You think?

Oh, honey, under all
That bluster and concern,

He knew it was
Your decision to make.

I miss him.

So do I.

He could be so--

I know. I know.

He couldn't make a pb&j

Without getting jelly
In the peanut butter jar.

And he would refuse
To buy socks.

He would just
Borrow mine.

I loved him...

You know?

Me, too.