All language subtitles for Dawsons Creek S04E21 Separation Anxiety 1080p NF WEB-DL DDP5 1 x264-alfaHD (1)_track3_[eng]

Ok, please, just give me
Something. Anything.

A small juicy
Little morsel
Just to tide me over

So I can keep on living
Vicariously through you.

First of all,
When discussing
My love life,

Try not to use the word
Juicy or morsel.

Ok? It cheapens me.

Fine. Fine.

But you and tobey
Are going out again, right?

Yes, we are
Going out again.

And?

And that's
All you're getting.

Might I remind you
That it was me

That got the 2
Of you together?

Mm-hmm.

Don't make me beg.

Because I'll do it
And it won't be pretty.

Actually, begging happens
To be a great look for you.

Especially when you
Stick out that pouty
Lower lip.

It's very sexy.

Well, I must be
Off my game, drue.

Normally I can smell you
Coming a mile away.

Be nice or you won't get
Your yearbooks.

Ooh!
Nice.

That is uncharacteristically
Nice of you.

What's going on?

Hey, how many prom drownings
Do I have to rescue you from

Before you accept
The new me?

Maybe one...Or two.

Hmm. If we can all turn
To page 53 in our prayer
Books,

I think we should bow
Our heads in a moment
Of silence.

I wonder if they've seen
This yet?

Or if
They're talking yet?

I wonder if anyone
Besides you 2 cares?

Well, as far as I know,
They haven't said
So much as a hello

Since the prom debacle.

Same goes
For dawson and gretchen.

See, that confuses me.
I mean, I was sure

That they would've
Gotten back together by now.

They're so good
For each other.

Well, you know,
Long distance relationships
Can be tough.

He's gonna be in l.A.

You know, the way I see it,
If anybody's getting
Back together,

Joey and pacey.

Blah, blah, blah.
All you guys do is talk.

You know what?
I say it's time
We take some action.

Who will live to suck face
Another day?

Will it be joey and pacey?
Gretchen and dawson?

Both...Or neither?

It's disgusting.

Yeah, it's really
Inappropriate, drue.

Jen,
Spot me 2 bucks.

I can do that.
I got it here.

I have a 20.
Take it all the way, baby.

Hey, guys, what's up?

Whoa!

Dawson, joey.
You guys eaten?

Cute, huh?

Aw.

Busy?

Oh, yeah. I'm just doing
Some last looks
On this brooks film

Before I send it off
To usc.

If I got any chance
At all of getting in
Their summer program

This has to be out
By tomorrow.

Honey, have you talked
To gretchen yet?

There's not
Really much to talk about.

But are you ok with the way
Things were left

Between the 2 of you?

Well,
I'm not doing cartwheels.

But, you know,
What do you expect?

I'm sure we'll
Eventually find a way

To restore
Our friendship.

Well, I don't see
How you're gonna
Restore your friendship

If you're not speaking.

Well, it's my friendship
So I'll handle it.

Gretchen's leaving town.

When?
How do you know?

She gave her notice
A couple days ago.

Today's her last day
At the restaurant.

So it must be
Soon then.

I just thought
You'd want to know

If you want
To say good-bye.

Well, she didn't tell me
She was leaving.

So obviously she
Doesn't want me to know.

No. No, the truth is,
Dawson,

You don't know what
Gretchen's thinking
Right now.

So why don't you go
Over there and find out?

You could, uh...Ask her
To sign your yearbook,

That's always a good way
To start a conversation.

Mom,
I appreciate the effort,

But aside
From that being
A painfully lame idea,

That's such a thinly
Veiled attempt
At a reconciliation

I'm not even sure
There's a veil there.

Well, then I'm sure
You'll think
Of something better.

But if you want to keep
Gretchen in your life, honey,

You're gonna have
To talk to her,

And you're gonna have
To do it soon.

Hey.
How's it going?

This baby should run
For another
2,000-3,000 miles, easy.

Though it wouldn't kill you
To change the oil

Every once in a millennium.

I'll try
And remember that.

Oh, I talked
To the landlord,

And we're officially
Paid up till the end
Of next month.

And after that
The lease is up.

Thanks for doing that.

No problem.
Consider it payment

For the work
You've done on my car.

You want this?

Thanks.

So how are you?

Uh...To tell you the truth,
I've had better days.

How about yourself?
You talked to dawson lately?

No.

I don't know
If I'm avoiding him
Or he's avoiding me.

Yeah, I know
What you mean.

Joey?

Same thing.

I'm really sorry, pace.

Do you think it's
Possible that you and I

Might actually
Feel better

If we were to
Deal with our
Significant exs

Instead of
Just holing up

In this cozy little
Beach house?

Probably.

But that doesn't mean
I'm actually ready

To go out there and cope.

Me neither.

Maybe it's genetic.

The house just went on
The market a few days ago,

And I'm sure it's not going to
Be on the market very long.

Mm-hmm. You know,
I think if we tore apart
That upstairs room,

It would make a great gym.

Mmm. I was thinking
The exact same thing.

Lots of steel, maybe--

That's my room.

And all this wallpaper
Would have to go.

Well, there's tons
Of possibilities.

Why don't you take
Another look around?

You must be jennifer.

I've heard so much
About you.

And congratulations
On boston bay college,
By the way.

I'm sorry, but who are you?

I'm dana borkow.
I'm the realtor.

Didn't you know?

Your grandmother's
Selling her house.

Joey potter.

I was hoping to run
Into you.

It's nice to see you again,
Mr. Kubelik.

You're coming
To my party
Tomorrow night, yes?

I wouldn't miss it.

And I hope
That you're bringing

That charming
Boyfriend of yours.
Pacey, was it?

He certainly did
Liven up the last
Party.

Oh, uh--

Well, actually, um--

Certain things have
Kind of changed
Since the last party.

Um, pacey and I, uh...

We, uh...

Well, we--
We kind of broke up.

Oh. Well, I'm sorry
To hear that.

Well, I take it
You're still
On good terms, huh?

Yeah, sure.
We talk all the time.

I'm glad
To hear that,

Because dean newman
And I were hoping

To chat with him
Tomorrow night

About a rather
Pressing matter.

The dean of admissions?

Yeah, we have
An offer we want
To discuss with him.

Yeah, sure. I'm--I'm sure
That pacey would love
To talk to you.

Ok. Well, then
I'll see you both
Tomorrow night then.

Ok.

Have a good day.

You, too.

Forgive me, jennifer,
I didn't realize I needed

Your permission
To sell my own house.

Well, it's not
About permission,

But since you're basically
Doing this for me,

Why shouldn't I have
A say in the matter?

What makes you think
I'm doing this for you?

Ok. I want you
To look me in the eyes

And tell me that this
Is not about sending me
To college.

Look, I admit that money
From the house

Will primarily go
Towards your tuition.

But that is not
The only reason
For my decision.

All right.
Well, then by all means,
Enlighten me.

You are moving on
To the next phase
In your life,

And I need to do
The same.

Which is why
I've decided to move

To la brea park.

Ok. Run that by me
One more time

Because when you say
La brea park,

I think retirement community

With bunnies
And lawn bowling tournaments,

And aside
From your habitual knitting

And your penchant
For metamucil, you--

You're far too young
And far too hip

To be living
In a place like that.

Jennifer,
Just because a community

Has the word retirement
In front of it

Doesn't automatically
Mean it's a bad place.

Oh, honestly, jennifer,

I didn't realize
You were such an ageist.

Oh, I'm not an ageist.
I'm not an age--

An "Ist" anything.

I wanna go see
This fabulous park of yours.

Hey, you.

Hey.

I thought you might want
To sign that...

Before you leave town.

Well, you're nothing
If not direct.

Were you really just gonna
Slip out of town

Without even saying good-bye?

I was thinking about it,
Yeah. Maybe.

You know what?
Then in that case,

Just pretend
I never did stop by.

Or maybe I was
Thinking about

How to say good-bye
To you all week.

So where are you going?

Back to school.

I signed up
For some
Summer classes

To make up some
Of the units
I missed this year.

How soon do classes start?

Not for over a month.

Ok.

But I'm gonna take
A little road trip
Before that.

Do some traveling
While I still have
The time.

It, uh...Sounds like fun.

I leave the day
After tomorrow.

Do you?

That soon?

I know.

That's--that's...

That's really soon.
I feel ill-prepared.

Well, you still have
A whole day and a half

To come up with some
Fantastic going away
Speech for me.

All right.

But I would like
To sign that.

Can I?

Can I have
Some time with it?

Sure. Yeah.

Just as long as you realize
That the longer you have it,

The less acceptable
"Have a bitchin' summer"
Is gonna be.

Ok.

Ok.

Hey.

I was beginning
To wonder if you were
Ever gonna knock.

You saw me standing
Out here?

No.

Ok, um...

Here's the thing.
Um...

I ran into mr. Kubelik today.
Remember him?

He's the worthington guy
And he remembered you,

And he asked me to bring you
To this party

That they're having
Tomorrow night
For all the new freshmen.

And he thought
That we were still together,

And I said that things
Were weird between us.

But then he said
He had this offer for you

And he mentioned
The dean of admissions,

And I'm thinking what else
Could he be talking about

Other than worthington
And you.

And, you know,
Maybe there's some loophole
Or he--

There's some
Special program and I--

I miss you, jo.

I miss you, too.

You know, I've been...

Replaying everything
That happened
At that stupid prom.

Wasn't supposed
To end like that.

We're not supposed
To end like that.
Right?

I wish you'd come
To the party with me.

Yeah. Of course.

And, uh--

I'll see you tomorrow.

Ok. So
Riddle me this.

How many funyons
Can a tiny little
Woman like you

Possibly consume
On one little
Road trip?

Don't change the subject.

I'm not changing
The subject.

I'm just steering it
In a different
Direction on purpose.

Look, I just don't think
You should go to the party
Tonight, pace.

I mean, even if you and joey
Are supposed to be together,

You both need to take
Some time apart

To figure out
What went wrong.

Otherwise you're gonna
Wind up making

The same mistakes
All over again.

Trust me. I know
From whence I speak.

Trust you?

Miss pack-up-and-leave-town?

Forgive me
If you're not exactly

My relationship role model
Right now.

I'm just trying to help,
Pace.

I don't want to see
You getting hurt.

Well, it's too late for that.
I'm already hurt.

And that's exactly
The situation
I'm trying to rectify.

That's why I gotta go
To this party,

Just to see what the gods
Have in store for me.

You mean kubelik
And his mysterious
Offer?

Yeah.

Look, I know as well as you do
That this is a long shot.

But what other choice
Do I have? I need a sign.

I need someone or something
To tell me what to do.

To show me what's right
'cause I don't know
What to do anymore.

And if this guy's gonna
Offer me a chance
To go to worthington,

Then I have my answer
And I know for sure.

What will you know?

Well, that I'm supposed
To be with her.

Ah, look. Gretch?

If it's all right with you
I think I'm gonna walk home.

Yeah.

So, then...

This is it. You're really
Gonna leave tomorrow morning?

Well, long before
You're up, snoozer.

Hey! What's this?
Ha ha.

I'm really glad
You came home this year,
Gretchen.

Sure you are. You got
A sweet beach house
Out of the deal.

Yeah, I did.
But it would not
Have been the same

If it wasn't for you.

So, I just want you to know
That, you know,
Your little brother--

Well, you know.

I love you, too, pace.

Yeah.

And even better
Than that--

I mean, all familial
Obligations aside--

I actually like you.

Well, you're not
So bad yourself.

Yeah, I know.

Good-bye, gretchen.

Good-bye.
Bye.

Last name?

Oh, hello. Um--

I was here
A few days ago--

Last name?

Ryan. Evelyn ryan.

Huh.
She's a crusty old broad.

I wonder what she'd do
If we just gunned it?

I mean, how would
She catch us?

In one of those little
Golf carts, you think?

You know, I seriously think
We could take her.

Jennifer, please.

Just making a joke.

Here you go.

Next time go
To gate 3 first
To get your pass.

Oh, I'm sorry.
I didn't realize--

Everyone needs a pass.

Residents get
A permanent pass.

If they have visitors,

They're supposed
To call in advance
To get a pass.

Nobody gets in
Without a pass.

I don't know how
You did it, dawson,

But you managed
To make mr. Brooks

Seem like harrison ford.

So it's ok then?

Well, as your father,
I am prone to subjectivity,

But when usc calls
And begs you to join
Their program,

Remember you heard it
Here first.

It is great.

But I can see
That your mind's
On other things.

Want to talk about it?

Not really.

But thank you
For watching this.

I really needed
An opinion from somebody
Other than brooks.

You know? I mean,
How could a man
With an ego that big

Not love a movie
That's all about him?

That man was a real
Wild card, huh?

I can't get over how much
He reminded me of you.

I remind you of him?

Well, that part where
He talks about that girl?

How she jumped
Over the counter,

They went off
To california together,

They didn't even know
Each other? Who does that?

Hitchhikers.

Risk takers. Dreamers.

People who understand
That every once in a while,

An opportunity
Presents itself.

And whatever they decide
To do in that moment

Will change the rest
Of their lives forever.

Brooks could have told
That girl to get lost.

He could have gone off
To california alone
Like he planned,

But he didn't.

No, he didn't.
Because he knew.

Very few men
Are lucky enough

To actually see
Those moments, dawson.

He was really
An inspiration.

Yeah. I...

I guess he is.

Hey.

You know, you didn't have
To wait outside for me.

I would've rung the doorbell
Like a proper gentleman.

I've been ready for an hour,
Which has given me

Far too much time to look
At myself in the mirror.

Never a good thing.

Right.

Um...We should go.

Yeah. Good idea.

You're not moving there.

I've looked
At other places.

They are simply
Not affordable.

I'm sure with time
I'll be able
To acclimate

To la brea park
Quite nicely.

Ok, you're not listening
To me.

See, I'm not gonna
Allow you to make

Such an enormous
Sacrifice.

This is not a sacrifice.
This is my gift to you.

Well, I don't want it.

You don't want
To go to college?

No. No, not like this.

The fact is
Is that I should've applied
For a student loan.

Just because I wouldn't
Take money from my parents

Doesn't mean that I need
To burden you

With my entire
College tuition.

Look, when you offered
To help me out,

I--I assumed that you
Had some sort of savings.

I didn't think that I was
Gonna put you into hock.

Jennifer, this is
Not your problem.

Look, can we please
Not have this conversation?

I'm not going to boston,

And I'm not letting you
Sell this house.

Hey. It's 7:00

And the party's
Already swinging.

I'm impressed.

Well, I take no credit.

The promise of free food
Always draws a crowd.

You look lovely, joey.

And I see you brought
Your friend.

It's good to see you
Again, mr. Kubelik.

Thanks for inviting
Me tonight.

Oh, absolutely.
I'm glad you're here.

Oh, well, that's pacey.

He never misses
An opportunity

To show himself off
In a suit.

I think we've
Gathered everyone
By the fireplace, sir.

Wonderful. Joey,
Why don't you join brad?

We're taking
A few photographs
Of next year's freshmen.

I'll lead the way.

I'll be right back.

Ok.

So. What do you say
You and I go find
That dean of yours, huh?

All right.

I thought you weren't
Leaving till tomorrow.

Hey, uh, no. I was just
Pre-packing the car.

What's up?

I want to go with you.

W-what? Why?

Because if you
Leave now, I am always
Gonna wonder "What if?"

What if there were
No pending college
Departures?

What if there were
No job offers in boston?

What if there
Was no joey. What if it
Was just you and me,

On the open road,
With nothing but
Our hearts to guide us?

Would we have worked?

You said the reason
We broke up is because
You don't belong here.

Fine.

Let's get out of here
And just...

See what happens.

Dawson, this is crazy.
I mean, come on,

You can't just
Pick up and leave.

Why not? Give me
One good reason.

Ok, um, graduation.

I mean, your ceremony's
Less than a week away.

You mean the ceremony
Where I sit there

And listen to other
People talk for 3 hours?

Before I walk across
The football field
In a goofy cap and gown,

To pick up a piece
Of paper, which isn't
Even a real diploma?

I'm sorry,
That experience
Is not rich enough

To warrant me
Lying awake at night,

Regretting that I
Did not have the guts

To take this trip
With you.

Fine. Ok,
Forget graduation.

I'm gonna stick
With my first reason.

Which was?

This is crazy!
Yeah.

It is. It's nuts!
It's completely
Ludicrous.

And you can't think
Of one good reason

Why I should not
Come with you,
Gretchen.

Something in my gut
Is telling me that this
Is our moment.

We can't
Let this slip by.

Dawson, I--

Just say yes.

Yes.

Dawson...

Hey, there,
Beautiful.

Honey, I have got
A crisis down
At the restaurant.

I was wondering,
Could you watch her
For a few hours?

I would love to.

She is so good with you.
I swear, she knows you
Already.

Oh, um, did you
Get a chance to talk
To gretchen yet?

Um, yeah.
She's coming
Over tonight.

Oh, good, honey.
I'm glad you 2 are
Working things out.

Good-bye,
Sweetheart.

Don't look at me
Like that. That was
Technically not a lie.

That was a lie
By omission.

It's not the same
Thing at all.

You know, I really don't
Feel guilty about the whole
Mom and dad thing.

I mean, yeah,
It is a big deal

To watch their son
Graduate from high school,

But at the same time,
I'm saving them

From an excruciatingly
Long ceremony. That's
A gift right there.

All right,
So it's not a gift.
But you know what?

Honestly, I feel like
I've earned the right

To disappoint them
A little bit.

I mean, I've spent
The last 18 years

Making everybody
Around me happy.

I think it's high time
I pursued a little
Happiness of my own.

But if it's not guilt,
Then why am I having
Such a hard time

Writing this letter?

Pacey, you've met
The dean of the college.

This is our dean
Of admissions,
Andrew hill newman.

Pleasure to meet you,
Mr. Newman,

Or dean newman,
Whichever you prefer.

Nice to meet you,
Pacey.

Mr. Kubelik's told me
All sorts of wonderful
Things about you.

Andrew here
Is chartering my boat
For the summer.

Is that right?

Yes, I've decided
To take a trip around
The caribbean islands.

I've heard that you
Spent last summer sailing.

I did indeed.

Feel pretty comfortable
Spending long periods
Of time at sea?

Well, I feel about
As comfortable as a kid
In a candy store, yeah.

This could work.

I thought so.

What could work?

Pacey, how would you
Like to work on my yacht
For the summer,

As one of the deck hands?

Is that all you wanted
To talk to me about,
Is a summer job?

Yeah, if you haven't
Got one already.

The pay isn't the greatest,
But you'll have plenty
Of time to yourself

To explore the islands,
And it should be

An experience
That you'll never forget.

Well, this is, uh...
A little unexpected.

But I'm really,
I'm truly flattered,
Gentlemen.

Well, take some time
To think about it.

Ok. It was a pleasure
Meeting you, sir.

Yes. Thank you.

So, bottom line
Is that I'll get
To boston bay eventually,

I'll just,
Um, go to state
For a few semesters

And--and save the money
That I would have spent
On tuition and dorm

And I'll meet you there
In, like, a year or 2.

Jack, I'm sure
That you can understand
My situation here.

I--I mean, I can hardly
Allow my grandmother

To--to live a destitute
Existence in some
Retirement community

Just so that I can
Enjoy, you know,
Frat parties

And higher education.
It's not right,
And I won't do it.

Mm-hmm.
This is awful foamy.

Ok, listen...
Grams needs me.

When I came here
3 years ago,
She took me in.

She took care of me.
What do you want me
To do now?

Just turn my back
On her?

No, I completely
Understand.

Yeah?

Mm-hmm. Yeah, I think
What you're doing
For your grandmother

Is beautiful
And awfully selfless.

Thanks.
Mm-hmm.

Just a little bit
Convenient, though.

I knew there was
Something else
Coming. All right.

How do you come up
With convenient?

Well, I can't help
But notice that,

Although you're
Clearly swimming
In a vat of guilt

Over leaving
Your best friend
In a lurch like this,

You also seem to be
Just a bit, uh, relieved.

It's as if you're happy
To have found something
To get you off the hook,

So that you don't
Have to go away
To college.

And not only do you
Not have to go,

You then become
Jen of arc,
The martyr-saint,

Willing to sacrifice
Her own happiness

For the sake of her
Grandmother's.

Jack, that's ridiculous,
All right?

Why on earth
Would I not want
To go away to college?

Because you're scared.
I mean, think about it.

You're leaving
The only town in which
You ever felt safe.

The only person who--
Who cared enough to devote
Her entire life to you.

Ok, I'm--I hear what
You're saying, buy, um--

But it--it's not
That easy.

I mean, I can't
Just leave her alone.

I'm not
Saying you should.

Look, I know grams
Needs you, but you
Need her just as much,

And there's nothing
Wrong with that.

I'm not ashamed to admit
That I'd be scared to go
To school without you.

Ok, I admit it.

I'm an 18-year-old woman
Who's afraid to be
Away from her grammy.

What am I gonna do?

I think you know
What to do.

Hey, there you are.

Been looking
All over for you.

What's wrong?

Um, well...

Kubelik wants me
To work on his boat
This summer.

That's what
The offer was about.

It didn't have
Anything to do with
Going to worthington.

Let's go.

Uh, you know what?
I think I'll go.

But I think
That you should
Stay here, jo.

I've been watching
You in there.
You've been...

Gliding fromconversation to conversation

With complete
Confidence and ease
This time.

I don't know if you
Remember the last
Worthington party

That you and I
Attended together,
But...

You were kind of
A jumble of nerves.

I guess I was
Kind of hoping that...

You would need for me
To be your savior
Again tonight.

But...That's no longer
The case.

You don't need that
Now. Everything's
Different.

I think that they're
Better this way.

The only thing
That remains the same

Is you're still
The most beautiful girl
In the room.

Pace--
Jo, you can't leave.

I mean, this is it now.
This is...

This is your life,
And you should enjoy it.

How can I enjoy it
Without you?

Let's go.

Hey.

I was wondering
When you were
Going to get here.

Are you done
Packing?

Yeah, yeah.

But you know how they say
Making your own boxes
Is really easy?

Yeah.
They lied.

She sleeping?

Yeah, she went down
About half
An hour ago.

Aw...

Cute.

Ok, can I just say

That you're the cutest
Thing in the world
Right now?

Why?
Look at you,
All papa dawson.

I don't know.
I never thought I would
Get so into this stuff.

You know? But--

I mean, I was happy about
The idea of a baby sister,

But I just...I never thought
I would get this attached.

She's so small and--
And perfect and...

Helpless. When
She smiles, it just...

Uhh. It just
Breaks my heart.

Man, I can't believe
How much I'm gonna miss
When I'm in school.

By the time I get back
She's gonna be

This fully walking,
Talking little person.

That's true.

She and alexander
Are gonna be about
The same age, so...

I wonder if they'll
End up climbing in and out
Of each other's windows.

You know,
Becoming best friends.

So, how did it go
With that letter
To your parents?

I'm, uh...
Still working on it.

Well, you think
That one's hard,

Wait until you try
To write joey's.

That's ok, dawson.
I expected you to.

Ok.

Well, I should get back.

I may be done packing,
But the cleaning
Festivities

Have only just begun.

Good luck.

Thanks.

Good-bye.

Bye.

So, uh...
Good night.

Thanks for coming,
Pace.

Well, thanks
For asking.

I just,
I'm sorry--

I'm sorry.

You don't have
Anything to be
Sorry for, jo.

It's me.

So I--
Pace...

Do you think maybe
I could come and stay
With you tonight?

We could just...Sleep.

Yeah.

So...Did you talk
To jack last night?

Did he tell you
You were making
The biggest mistake

Of your life?

What ever happened
To "Good morning"?

Or "Have some java"?

I would never refer
To coffee as java.
Now, what did jack say?

Oh, you know. Stuff.

Could you be a little
More specific, please?

What's that? I'm sorry.
I can't hear you
Over these beans.

Fine. You want
To play games,
That's just fine.

I'm really not
That interested,
Anyway.

How would you like
To move to boston?

Now what kind
Of nonsense
Are you talking?

Nothing nonsensical
Here at all.

Dead serious.

I know what
You're doing, jennifer.

It's one of the reasons
I love you so much.

You have a big,
Beautiful heart, but...

I will not allow you
To do this for me.

Well, maybe
I'm doing it for me.

Look, moving to boston,
Going away to college,

Um...It scares me.

And somehow, the idea
Of having you nearby,

Just to know
That you're there,
Will--you know,

It scares me less.
So, before you start
Writing sonnets

About my big,
Beautiful heart,

You should know
That I'm not
Doing this for you.

I'm doing this 'cause
My big, selfish heart
Wants you to be there.

So will you please
Go with me?

Oh, I don't know.
It's...

Such an overwhelming
Concept. I wouldn't
Know where to begin.

Well, you start
By calling movers--

It's not that simple,
Jennifer. First of all,

I would have to find
A place to live--

All right,
I'll give you that.
It would be difficult

To find a place as nice
As la brea park.

Well, even if I could
Find a suitable home,

What would I do
In boston?

How would I
Spend my time?

Any way you like.

Maybe a change
Of scenery
Would serve to...

Inspire you to
Try new things.
Meet new people.

No, I'm--I'm too old
For such things.

Please! You, who have
Seen more action

In the romancedepartment than I have this year.

You're the youngest
Grandma I know.

So, will you please
Just quit it with
These pitiful excuses

And say yes?

You're sure I wouldn't
Cramp your style?

I'm sure you will.

Somehow I knew
I'd find you here.

I meant to sneak back in
Before you woke up.

How long have you
Been out here?

Uh...I don't know.

Couple hours, maybe.

Watched the sun
Come up this morning.

I don't think I've
Done that since we were

Sailing around
Together on the true love.

Which...Feels like
A million years ago,
Doesn't it?

Hey, pace...

I'm really sorry
About dragging you

To that party
Last night, and...

Bringing back
All of those
Bad feelings.

It's not your fault, jo.

None of this
Is your fault.

You're not the reason
That we broke up.

But I thought
That you said--

I know what I said.

And I know how I said it,
And it makes me
Sick to my stomach

Every time
I think about it.

Blaming you for my
Insecurities and...

Then making you feel
Guilty for all the things
That you've accomplished,

When you should feel
Nothing but proud.

And I'm so proud of you.

I know you are.

But I didn't
Show you that.

Instead--

Instead,
I decided to become
A stereotypical guy

Who can't handle it
When his girlfriend

Gets a better job
Than he does.

I hate that guy.

Pacey, you're not
That guy.

I feel like that guy.

Because as much
As I want not to care,

And as much as I wish
That I could just let it
Roll off of my back, I can't.

When we were at the party
Together last night, jo,
I was jealous.

I wasn't jealous of you,
But I was certainly jealous
Of the rest of the kids

Who were gonna get
To experience you next year.

'cause they're gonna
Get to be with you,
And I'm not.

And I was so certain
That kubelik's offer

Was gonna be
The answer to all
Of our problems.

A sign, you know?

Yeah. I know.

I know, and I think
That it was a sign.

Just not the one
That we were hoping for.

But at least we got
A better ending this time.

I am grateful for that.

Me, too.

"Dear dawson...

"I've been thinking about
What to say to you

"Since I left
Your house yesterday.

"I thought about
Waiting for you
To come to my door,

"Saying this
Face to face,

"But I knew
It would be too hard.

"I realize that,
As much as I need
To move on,

"You need to stay here.

"Your whole life is about
To change in a way

"That will never
Be the same.

"You're opening
A new chapter,

"And you have to give
A proper good-bye
To the old one.

"You don't want
To miss these moments,
Even the sad ones,

"Because you'll
Never get them back.

"So enjoy this time.

"Let it wash over you
So that your memories
Of it are strong.

"Besides, I don't need
To spend a month in a car
To fall in love with you.

"I already am
In love with you,

"Even more than you know.

"So good-bye,
Dawson leery.

"Thank you
For changing my life

"And opening
My heart again.

"You'll never know
How much it meant to me.

Have a bitchin'
Summer. Love, gretchen."

I haven't seen you
All weekend.

I know.

You do anything good?

No, not really.

You?

No. Not really.

So, what are you doing
This summer, dawson?

This.