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august 29

august 29

august 29 2008

right after hurricane

my two brothers and my friend

my two brothers and my friend

my two brothers and my friend was at the also

was at the also

was at the also it was four of us going off said realize

it was four of us going off said realize

it was four of us going off said realize that we lost the car cage so it was

that we lost the car cage so it was

that we lost the car cage so it was kicking my foot in the water kicking my

kicking my foot in the water kicking my

kicking my foot in the water kicking my foot in the water same time i see two

foot in the water same time i see two

foot in the water same time i see two guys coming down the road my brother

guys coming down the road my brother

guys coming down the road my brother said simone be careful because

said simone be careful because

said simone be careful because see somebody on the veranda

the rain started pouring down also we're

the rain started pouring down also we're

the rain started pouring down also we're not the rain i was in front someone was

not the rain i was in front someone was

not the rain i was in front someone was in front of me

in front of me

in front of me and i hear gunshot ringing now

and i hear gunshot ringing now

and i hear gunshot ringing now and i see you like fire the gunman shot

and i see you like fire the gunman shot

and i see you like fire the gunman shot man i'm barely

i want them to run

i want them to run

i want them to run so i said murder run

so i said murder run

so i said murder run [Music]

[Music]

[Music] right there and then i realized it's

right there and then i realized it's

right there and then i realized it's something really bad

something really bad

something really bad one man go on man

one man go on man

one man go on man again from a shut up

i don't hear someone and i see my

i don't hear someone and i see my

i don't hear someone and i see my brother running

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] we know it was because we were gay

we know it was because we were gay

we know it was because we were gay [Music]

[Music]

[Music] when i get up to run out the boy said

when i get up to run out the boy said

when i get up to run out the boy said the batman get to about the lesbian dead

the batman get to about the lesbian dead

the batman get to about the lesbian dead [Music]

you

i live like a refugee now

i live like a refugee now

i live like a refugee now left everything

left everything

left everything because if i go back for them

because if i go back for them

because if i go back for them they will kill me

they will kill me

they will kill me [Music]

[Music]

[Music] i could sleep

i could sleep

i could sleep because my mommy gets shot and i killed

because my mommy gets shot and i killed

because my mommy gets shot and i killed getting

getting

getting out of my area

out of my area

out of my area [Music]

[Music]

[Music] my momma was looking for a kid

my momma was looking for a kid

my momma was looking for a kid and then they

and then they

and then they shoot my mommy and then my mama run and

shoot my mommy and then my mama run and

shoot my mommy and then my mama run and then she should put her like she did

then she should put her like she did

then she should put her like she did i got two shots

i got two shots

i got two shots okay i can't only show you one but i

okay i can't only show you one but i

okay i can't only show you one but i can't show you the next one

can't show you the next one

can't show you the next one got the next one is like neymar buttocks

got the next one is like neymar buttocks

got the next one is like neymar buttocks and that's gonna be private and i got

and that's gonna be private and i got

and that's gonna be private and i got one here

one here

one here i don't know if you can see it and get

i don't know if you can see it and get

i don't know if you can see it and get it let it go here

it let it go here

it let it go here and come here

and come here

and come here this cut is the cut that then cut my for

this cut is the cut that then cut my for

this cut is the cut that then cut my for the operation

the operation

the operation and then i was crying

and then i was crying

and then i was crying and then i showed you to the hospital

and then i showed you to the hospital

and then i showed you to the hospital she started crying

she started crying

she started crying and then when she wanted to tell me that

and then when she wanted to tell me that

and then when she wanted to tell me that piece of a liver

piece of a liver

piece of a liver and a kidney gone

and a kidney gone

and a kidney gone i love her kindergarten watching a

i love her kindergarten watching a

i love her kindergarten watching a far different

far different

far different i'm really sorry so i should have to see

i'm really sorry so i should have to see

i'm really sorry so i should have to see all of them things are here kayla i'm

all of them things are here kayla i'm

all of them things are here kayla i'm sorry that i take it classier

so okay

so okay

so okay everything it was going to say to me

everything it was going to say to me

everything it was going to say to me it's all

it's all

it's all okay

okay

okay you sure

you sure

you sure yes it's okay i'll put a little smile on

yes it's okay i'll put a little smile on

yes it's okay i'll put a little smile on your face please okay people are shocked

your face please okay people are shocked

your face please okay people are shocked you know them

you know them

you know them can't live next to my lesbian

police lock up one of them

police lock up one of them

police lock up one of them but the next one's still odd

but the next one's still odd

but the next one's still odd when i want them kill me i'm not going

when i want them kill me i'm not going

when i want them kill me i'm not going to kill my daughter

to kill my daughter

to kill my daughter so i'm not sure i forget myself or the

so i'm not sure i forget myself or the

so i'm not sure i forget myself or the hair

[Music]

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] and there are many many countries in the

and there are many many countries in the

and there are many many countries in the world

world

world where being gay remains an abominable

where being gay remains an abominable

where being gay remains an abominable crime where the lives of lgbt folks are

crime where the lives of lgbt folks are

crime where the lives of lgbt folks are threatened

and who have to flee

and who have to flee

and who have to flee their country of birth

their country of birth

their country of birth and that my friends as you know is the

and that my friends as you know is the

and that my friends as you know is the lived reality of my husband maurice

lived reality of my husband maurice

lived reality of my husband maurice we got married last year in august but

we got married last year in august but

we got married last year in august but we decided to keep our marriage a secret

we decided to keep our marriage a secret

we decided to keep our marriage a secret in jamaica because it would have created

in jamaica because it would have created

in jamaica because it would have created too many complications

[Music]

i've been the face of the lgbt movement

i've been the face of the lgbt movement

i've been the face of the lgbt movement without being identified as a gay man

and that was necessary to maintain my

and that was necessary to maintain my

and that was necessary to maintain my safety to maintain my credibility to

safety to maintain my credibility to

safety to maintain my credibility to maintain my access i'm maurice tomlinson

maintain my access i'm maurice tomlinson

maintain my access i'm maurice tomlinson we asked the jamaican public to support

we asked the jamaican public to support

we asked the jamaican public to support us in this call for the recognition of

us in this call for the recognition of

us in this call for the recognition of rights for all jamaicans including gays

rights for all jamaicans including gays

rights for all jamaicans including gays according to mr tomlinson there's a

according to mr tomlinson there's a

according to mr tomlinson there's a strong case that the so-called anti-gay

strong case that the so-called anti-gay

strong case that the so-called anti-gay law enables people to commit human

law enables people to commit human

law enables people to commit human rights abuses against homosexuals i had

rights abuses against homosexuals i had

rights abuses against homosexuals i had already received quite a few death

already received quite a few death

already received quite a few death threats simply because i had been

threats simply because i had been

threats simply because i had been publicizing the murders the

publicizing the murders the

publicizing the murders the you know home invasions the attacks as

you know home invasions the attacks as

you know home invasions the attacks as well as teaching my particular brand of

well as teaching my particular brand of

well as teaching my particular brand of anti-homophobia every week

and i knew that

and i knew that

and i knew that this information getting old that i was

this information getting old that i was

this information getting old that i was married to a man

married to a man

married to a man would just make it worse

world is in trouble anytime mojo

world is in trouble anytime mojo

world is in trouble anytime mojo mountain come back

mountain come back

mountain come back a gunshot bank

a gunshot bank

a gunshot bank unfortunately on saturday january 7th

unfortunately on saturday january 7th

unfortunately on saturday january 7th 2012

2012

2012 the

the

the jamaica observer published a photo of a

jamaica observer published a photo of a

jamaica observer published a photo of a wedding

wedding

wedding captioned jamaican gay activist mary's

captioned jamaican gay activist mary's

captioned jamaican gay activist mary's man in canada

it said maurice tomlinson the leading

it said maurice tomlinson the leading

it said maurice tomlinson the leading jamaican gay activist got married to a

jamaican gay activist got married to a

jamaican gay activist got married to a canadian man this week and his husband

canadian man this week and his husband

canadian man this week and his husband has been identified as tom decker a

has been identified as tom decker a

has been identified as tom decker a police officer and pastor in the

police officer and pastor in the

police officer and pastor in the metropolitan community church of toronto

metropolitan community church of toronto

metropolitan community church of toronto tomlinson reportedly wept with joy

tomlinson reportedly wept with joy

tomlinson reportedly wept with joy throughout the ceremony

throughout the ceremony

throughout the ceremony [Music]

[Music]

[Music] i sent a text to tom who then started to

i sent a text to tom who then started to

i sent a text to tom who then started to read the comments

read the comments

read the comments you know he kept notifying me how many

you know he kept notifying me how many

you know he kept notifying me how many death threats had come in

death threats had come in

death threats had come in my jamaican is not that good but

my jamaican is not that good but

my jamaican is not that good but boom bye bye

boom bye bye

boom bye bye those uh

those uh

those uh hateful

hateful

hateful dance hall lyrics

that means

that means

that means shoot gay men

the man was killed after a heated

the man was killed after a heated

the man was killed after a heated argument with men who labeled him as

argument with men who labeled him as

argument with men who labeled him as homosexual gruesome killing of 16 year

homosexual gruesome killing of 16 year

homosexual gruesome killing of 16 year old ashane gordon as well as the

old ashane gordon as well as the

old ashane gordon as well as the injuring of his the bodies of two men

injuring of his the bodies of two men

injuring of his the bodies of two men who were believed to have been

who were believed to have been

who were believed to have been homosexuals were found in an open lot on

homosexuals were found in an open lot on

homosexuals were found in an open lot on trafalgar this is the second chopping

trafalgar this is the second chopping

trafalgar this is the second chopping incident in recent times in the

parish had to leave everything i don't

parish had to leave everything i don't

parish had to leave everything i don't think i've ever felt

think i've ever felt

think i've ever felt that vulnerable i mean i've done

that vulnerable i mean i've done

that vulnerable i mean i've done acts of public

acts of public

acts of public activism for lgbt rights in jamaica but

activism for lgbt rights in jamaica but

activism for lgbt rights in jamaica but i've never felt that vulnerable

i've never felt that vulnerable

i've never felt that vulnerable as i did when this came out and when

as i did when this came out and when

as i did when this came out and when i just felt that there's no one i could

i just felt that there's no one i could

i just felt that there's no one i could turn to in jamaica for assistance

i just needed to get out

i just needed to get out

i just needed to get out but stopping the work now might be too

but stopping the work now might be too

but stopping the work now might be too premature

premature

premature the work needs to be done there is so

the work needs to be done there is so

the work needs to be done there is so much that can be done

much that can be done

much that can be done right now is not the time

right now is not the time

right now is not the time to be there it is just simply too

to be there it is just simply too

to be there it is just simply too dangerous and in order for the work to

dangerous and in order for the work to

dangerous and in order for the work to continue but i'm not i mean i

continue but i'm not i mean i

continue but i'm not i mean i i

i

i i

i

i i love you tom you know that i know and

i love you tom you know that i know and

i love you tom you know that i know and i'm i'm very well and we're probably not

i'm i'm very well and we're probably not

i'm i'm very well and we're probably not not ever going to see eye to eye on this

not ever going to see eye to eye on this

not ever going to see eye to eye on this no because i like to

no because i like to

no because i like to i

i

i as i said i mean i i married a husband

as i said i mean i i married a husband

as i said i mean i i married a husband and

and

and i'm not willing to bury him yet

right now i'm playing a game of hide and

right now i'm playing a game of hide and

right now i'm playing a game of hide and seek

seek

seek and there are keepers seeking me

and there are keepers seeking me

and there are keepers seeking me and i can't let them fight me

and tonight this is memorial

and tonight this is memorial

and tonight this is memorial and then my keeper liquor team him

and then my keeper liquor team him

and then my keeper liquor team him this is his home

this is his home

this is his home let me kill him instead i'm giving him

let me kill him instead i'm giving him

let me kill him instead i'm giving him 79 stuff

79 stuff

79 stuff [Music]

[Music]

[Music] and kill him

and kill him

and kill him because brian was one of the few would

because brian was one of the few would

because brian was one of the few would show him face just like me so i guess

show him face just like me so i guess

show him face just like me so i guess that's what they kill him for for being

that's what they kill him for for being

that's what they kill him for for being a gay and being a proud gay

a gay and being a proud gay

a gay and being a proud gay [Music]

[Music]

[Music] j flag was formed to say well we're

j flag was formed to say well we're

j flag was formed to say well we're going to be the organization to stand up

going to be the organization to stand up

going to be the organization to stand up let the world know why gay people has

let the world know why gay people has

let the world know why gay people has been facing because gay people have been

been facing because gay people have been

been facing because gay people have been facing a lot of discrimination a lot of

facing a lot of discrimination a lot of

facing a lot of discrimination a lot of homophobic attacks in jamaica this is

homophobic attacks in jamaica this is

homophobic attacks in jamaica this is meted out from all different

meted out from all different

meted out from all different cross-section from the government the

cross-section from the government the

cross-section from the government the police the church society in general so

police the church society in general so

police the church society in general so it's like you know it's just us against

it's like you know it's just us against

it's like you know it's just us against the whole of jamaica

the whole of jamaica

the whole of jamaica i am very concerned

i am very concerned

i am very concerned that homosexual in jamaica have become

that homosexual in jamaica have become

that homosexual in jamaica have become so brazen

so brazen

so brazen they have found themselves into

they have found themselves into

they have found themselves into organizations yes

organizations yes

organizations yes j flaxseek to tell the world that

j flaxseek to tell the world that

j flaxseek to tell the world that homosexuals in this country

homosexuals in this country

homosexuals in this country are being violently abused

are being violently abused

are being violently abused my answer to that straight is

got killed by other homosexuals because

got killed by other homosexuals because

got killed by other homosexuals because of jealousy

those comments are very irresponsible

those comments are very irresponsible

those comments are very irresponsible i've seen them for myself i have been

i've seen them for myself i have been

i've seen them for myself i have been witness

witness

witness to these things

to these things

to these things so i know

so i know

so i know once they find out that you are gay

once they find out that you are gay

once they find out that you are gay martin let me use the word batman

martin let me use the word batman

martin let me use the word batman they want to kill you just drop me a

they want to kill you just drop me a

they want to kill you just drop me a card living

card living

card living if there's a two one hour on the street

if there's a two one hour on the street

if there's a two one hour on the street they look suspicious then

they look suspicious then

they look suspicious then two weeks ago a two guy around me with

two weeks ago a two guy around me with

two weeks ago a two guy around me with my shade

my shade

my shade nearly killed me

nearly killed me

nearly killed me [Music]

look at simone

look at simone

look at simone what happened there

what happened there

what happened there she could have died

she could have died

she could have died she lost a kidney on a part of her liver

she lost a kidney on a part of her liver

she lost a kidney on a part of her liver they even tried to shoot her vagina out

they even tried to shoot her vagina out

they even tried to shoot her vagina out saying that um she didn't have any use

saying that um she didn't have any use

saying that um she didn't have any use for it since she wasn't sleeping with a

for it since she wasn't sleeping with a

for it since she wasn't sleeping with a man

man

man when i heard that she was shot it was

when i heard that she was shot it was

when i heard that she was shot it was like please don't let her die please

like please don't let her die please

like please don't let her die please don't let her die because you know i

don't let her die because you know i

don't let her die because you know i didn't want to lose another friend

colleen is somebody i can talk to she's

colleen is somebody i can talk to she's

colleen is somebody i can talk to she's my friend when i expect everything i

my friend when i expect everything i

my friend when i expect everything i tell her i have to leave the country

tell her i have to leave the country

tell her i have to leave the country she's trying anything to help me

she's trying anything to help me

she's trying anything to help me to help her to get off the island we

to help her to get off the island we

to help her to get off the island we could get her to the us embassy to see

could get her to the us embassy to see

could get her to the us embassy to see if they would give her a visa and when

if they would give her a visa and when

if they would give her a visa and when she gets there then she could always

she gets there then she could always

she gets there then she could always file an asylum

this is the form so i'll fill it out to

this is the form so i'll fill it out to

this is the form so i'll fill it out to you that you need to sign and make sure

you that you need to sign and make sure

you that you need to sign and make sure that you have everything that is correct

that you have everything that is correct

that you have everything that is correct this is my

this is my

this is my picture

picture

picture for the visa

for the visa

for the visa everybody said it looked nice

everybody said it looked nice

everybody said it looked nice i will pretend to be the consonant you

i will pretend to be the consonant you

i will pretend to be the consonant you know yeah i cannot ask you i guess yeah

know yeah i cannot ask you i guess yeah

know yeah i cannot ask you i guess yeah you can do that

you can do that

you can do that so miss edwards so how long do you plan

so miss edwards so how long do you plan

so miss edwards so how long do you plan to stay in the united states man

to stay in the united states man

to stay in the united states man i'm just for two weeks

i'm just for two weeks

i'm just for two weeks two weeks but your application says

two weeks but your application says

two weeks but your application says eight days

eight days

eight days are you sure about that

well yes but you're gonna need to really

well yes but you're gonna need to really

well yes but you're gonna need to really know what you're saying and it's not

know what you're saying and it's not

know what you're saying and it's not foundation it's federation consideration

foundation it's federation consideration

foundation it's federation consideration yes remember you can't be soft-spoken

yes remember you can't be soft-spoken

yes remember you can't be soft-spoken they have to speak with confidence

they have to speak with confidence

they have to speak with confidence because conviction let them realize that

because conviction let them realize that

because conviction let them realize that you know this is for real this is who

you know this is for real this is who

you know this is for real this is who you are

you are

you are i'll speak up a little bit speak up with

i'll speak up a little bit speak up with

i'll speak up a little bit speak up with order and speak firmly all right

order and speak firmly all right

order and speak firmly all right yeah all right now yes all right another

yeah all right now yes all right another

yeah all right now yes all right another confidence no

confidence no

confidence no but i need to learn this tonight and

but i need to learn this tonight and

but i need to learn this tonight and study it

study it

study it and know what i'm dealing with

and know what i'm dealing with

and know what i'm dealing with and what i'm going to say

and what i'm going to say

and what i'm going to say i have to get this visa

i have to get this visa

i have to get this visa to get out here

to get out here

to get out here you're laughing but i know it's it's a

you're laughing but i know it's it's a

you're laughing but i know it's it's a special

i feel

i feel

i feel so

so

so almost

when i go home at night i go home with

when i go home at night i go home with

when i go home at night i go home with everything

everything

everything i don't sleep

i don't sleep

i don't sleep you know i'm like thinking why why why

you know i'm like thinking why why why

you know i'm like thinking why why why can't gay people just live their lives

can't gay people just live their lives

can't gay people just live their lives without anyone thinking they need to

without anyone thinking they need to

without anyone thinking they need to kill us

kill us

kill us [Music]

i have to go and open pray

i have to go and open pray

i have to go and open pray that

that

that everything come true for me

everything come true for me

everything come true for me [Music]

[Music]

[Music] i'm a bit scared

i'm a bit scared

i'm a bit scared but not scared enough tobacco

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] uh simone went to the embassy but she

uh simone went to the embassy but she

uh simone went to the embassy but she didn't go through at all

she didn't get through

she didn't get through

she didn't get through meaning what meaning she didn't get the

meaning what meaning she didn't get the

meaning what meaning she didn't get the visa if it denied the visa yes okay

visa if it denied the visa yes okay

visa if it denied the visa yes okay um did they say why uh she didn't ask me

um did they say why uh she didn't ask me

um did they say why uh she didn't ask me anything she only asked me two questions

anything she only asked me two questions

anything she only asked me two questions she asked me about if i ever travel

she asked me about if i ever travel

she asked me about if i ever travel and if i have a family in the u.s

and if i have a family in the u.s

and if i have a family in the u.s and what did you say

and what did you say

and what did you say i said no i don't have any family in the

i said no i don't have any family in the

i said no i don't have any family in the u.s and i never travel

u.s and i never travel

u.s and i never travel well unfortunately

well unfortunately

well unfortunately the

the

the the consular officer's decision

the consular officer's decision

the consular officer's decision over

over

over visa matters is not reviewable meaning

visa matters is not reviewable meaning

visa matters is not reviewable meaning there's no where to appeal that

there's no where to appeal that

there's no where to appeal that if you go right back in there tomorrow

if you go right back in there tomorrow

if you go right back in there tomorrow or the next day or the next day they're

or the next day or the next day they're

or the next day or the next day they're probably going automatically tonight

nothing more think about that with my

nothing more think about that with my

nothing more think about that with my feelings

i'm gonna feel sadder

dead

gay people in jamaica always have to

gay people in jamaica always have to

gay people in jamaica always have to hide

hide

hide as far as um straight germans are

as far as um straight germans are

as far as um straight germans are concerned once you're gay you have no

concerned once you're gay you have no

concerned once you're gay you have no place

place

place in this country

in this country

in this country we shouldn't exist

[Music]

i really think

i really think

i really think if i had not left when i did

if i had not left when i did

if i had not left when i did and i just continued as business as

and i just continued as business as

and i just continued as business as usual something would have happened

the potency of the death threats at that

the potency of the death threats at that

the potency of the death threats at that point i just couldn't believe that

point i just couldn't believe that

point i just couldn't believe that people felt so threatened by the fact

people felt so threatened by the fact

people felt so threatened by the fact that

that

that i went to canada and married a man

i went to canada and married a man

i went to canada and married a man we're not saying that gay people should

we're not saying that gay people should

we're not saying that gay people should be

be

be obliterated from the face of the earth

obliterated from the face of the earth

obliterated from the face of the earth we are not saying that my government has

we are not saying that my government has

we are not saying that my government has never said that my government never say

never said that my government never say

never said that my government never say that and nor am i saying that

that and nor am i saying that

that and nor am i saying that but because your behavioral pattern

but because your behavioral pattern

but because your behavioral pattern is in breach of all decency

is in breach of all decency

is in breach of all decency guess what

guess what

guess what keep yourself to yourself

it's rooted in a number of things

it's rooted in a number of things

it's rooted in a number of things firstly we are a

firstly we are a

firstly we are a predominantly christian country and

predominantly christian country and

predominantly christian country and fervently christian country it may not

fervently christian country it may not

fervently christian country it may not be reflected entirely in terms of how we

be reflected entirely in terms of how we

be reflected entirely in terms of how we how we live sometimes but

how we live sometimes but

how we live sometimes but we are

we are

we are passionately committed to certain basic

passionately committed to certain basic

passionately committed to certain basic christian principles

christian principles

christian principles which which is true homosexuality

jamaica is a homophobic society

jamaica is a homophobic society

jamaica is a homophobic society we grew up

we grew up

we grew up to dislike homosexuals we grow up to

to dislike homosexuals we grow up to

to dislike homosexuals we grow up to hate

hate

hate homosexuality

homosexuality

homosexuality i i knew it was wrong

i i knew it was wrong

i i knew it was wrong or felt it was wrong ever since i could

or felt it was wrong ever since i could

or felt it was wrong ever since i could read the bible

read the bible

read the bible and of course it had been

and of course it had been

and of course it had been preached against

preached against

preached against vociferously in my church

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[Music]

[Music] i don't believe god made anybody

i don't believe god made anybody

i don't believe god made anybody homosexuals just as if i don't believe

homosexuals just as if i don't believe

homosexuals just as if i don't believe god made anybody a thief

god's concept is

god's concept is

god's concept is an adam and an eve a man and a woman for

an adam and an eve a man and a woman for

an adam and an eve a man and a woman for continuity of the human race

continuity of the human race

continuity of the human race and i hate the act of homosexuality

and i hate the act of homosexuality

and i hate the act of homosexuality because it has

because it has

because it has the possibility within it

the possibility within it

the possibility within it to cause the human race to become

to cause the human race to become

to cause the human race to become extinct

i believe that god does not judge people

i believe that god does not judge people

i believe that god does not judge people god judges sin

god judges sin

god judges sin and aids generally caused and believed

and aids generally caused and believed

and aids generally caused and believed to be caused by homosexual promiscuity

to be caused by homosexual promiscuity

to be caused by homosexual promiscuity uh is a violation both of them of god's

uh is a violation both of them of god's

uh is a violation both of them of god's laws laws of nature and decency and as a

laws laws of nature and decency and as a

laws laws of nature and decency and as a result we pay the price when we violate

result we pay the price when we violate

result we pay the price when we violate the laws of god in case anybody doesn't

the laws of god in case anybody doesn't

the laws of god in case anybody doesn't know god calls it an abomination

know god calls it an abomination

know god calls it an abomination it's an abomination

it's an abomination

it's an abomination [Applause]

[Applause]

[Applause] i

i

i remember also watching us televangelists

remember also watching us televangelists

remember also watching us televangelists they were always on air talking about

they were always on air talking about

they were always on air talking about how homosexuality is an abomination and

how homosexuality is an abomination and

how homosexuality is an abomination and hiv and aids are god's condemnation and

hiv and aids are god's condemnation and

hiv and aids are god's condemnation and judgment for gays

judgment for gays

judgment for gays um and i was you know

um and i was you know

um and i was you know late 80s into the 90s

late 80s into the 90s

late 80s into the 90s during my formative you know years my

during my formative you know years my

during my formative you know years my teenage years into early adulthood so

teenage years into early adulthood so

teenage years into early adulthood so that made me paranoid about

that made me paranoid about

that made me paranoid about homosexuality but the feelings were

homosexuality but the feelings were

homosexuality but the feelings were always there

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[Music] yeah that's how i was coming to do

the first time but i realized that i'm

the first time but i realized that i'm

the first time but i realized that i'm lesbian and i've tried to add the

lesbian and i've tried to add the

lesbian and i've tried to add the feelings and fight the feelings but that

feelings and fight the feelings but that

feelings and fight the feelings but that wasn't getting me nowhere

wasn't getting me nowhere

wasn't getting me nowhere i just keep between me and my brother

i just keep between me and my brother

i just keep between me and my brother this monster is a hard story i can

this monster is a hard story i can

this monster is a hard story i can remember but someone was young and going

remember but someone was young and going

remember but someone was young and going to school she turned to me and said

to school she turned to me and said

to school she turned to me and said pearl

pearl

pearl gentle and say i'm gay i said you're

gentle and say i'm gay i said you're

gentle and say i'm gay i said you're crazy

crazy

crazy i thought it was me alone she said

i thought it was me alone she said

i thought it was me alone she said i'm gay too

i'm gay too

i'm gay too i was happy to know that i wasn't alone

i was happy to know that i wasn't alone

i was happy to know that i wasn't alone we grow in a family with strong

we grow in a family with strong

we grow in a family with strong christian values i was the big brother i

christian values i was the big brother i

christian values i was the big brother i would be there to protect her

i grew up in spanish town the root was

i grew up in spanish town the root was

i grew up in spanish town the root was there that's the only place i know in

there that's the only place i know in

there that's the only place i know in jamaica to live

jamaica to live

jamaica to live it's where my parents have grown up and

it's where my parents have grown up and

it's where my parents have grown up and everything

everything

everything but unfortunately as a homosexual you

but unfortunately as a homosexual you

but unfortunately as a homosexual you can't stay in the community

can't stay in the community

can't stay in the community earth it's sad

earth it's sad

earth it's sad to know that

to know that

to know that here in jamaica where i live

here in jamaica where i live

here in jamaica where i live in a place where i grow up and try to

in a place where i grow up and try to

in a place where i grow up and try to kill me because i'm a lesbian

kill me because i'm a lesbian

kill me because i'm a lesbian after getting shot my sister went and

after getting shot my sister went and

after getting shot my sister went and lived with friends so we have to

lived with friends so we have to

lived with friends so we have to separate

separate

separate i didn't have anywhere to stay

i didn't have anywhere to stay

i didn't have anywhere to stay i literally sleep on the stream i didn't

i literally sleep on the stream i didn't

i literally sleep on the stream i didn't have phone or anything to communicate

have phone or anything to communicate

have phone or anything to communicate but

but

but somehow i survived and i have to run for

somehow i survived and i have to run for

somehow i survived and i have to run for my life

my life

my life so her brother end up leaving jamaica

so her brother end up leaving jamaica

so her brother end up leaving jamaica and then he got in touch with her and

and then he got in touch with her and

and then he got in touch with her and told her about where he was

told her about where he was

told her about where he was so we try to find out what's the best

so we try to find out what's the best

so we try to find out what's the best route getting to europe was even harder

route getting to europe was even harder

route getting to europe was even harder at the moment when we were trying to get

at the moment when we were trying to get

at the moment when we were trying to get her out we thought it was more important

her out we thought it was more important

her out we thought it was more important to get her out and then try to get her

to get her out and then try to get her

to get her out and then try to get her child out after that

child out after that

child out after that so she made arrangements with family

so she made arrangements with family

so she made arrangements with family members to do the best that she can for

members to do the best that she can for

members to do the best that she can for her child

her child

her child i try not to show my daughter that i'm

i try not to show my daughter that i'm

i try not to show my daughter that i'm scared

scared

scared so i try to

so i try to

so i try to tough up

tough up

tough up i don't get emotional runner

i don't get emotional runner

i don't get emotional runner [Music]

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[Music] my dad i'm a beautiful dad i'm one

my dad i'm a beautiful dad i'm one

my dad i'm a beautiful dad i'm one sister grow up

sister grow up

sister grow up my mum may never get really visibility

my mum may never get really visibility

my mum may never get really visibility this size this age

is freaking off the jungle caleb he's

is freaking off the jungle caleb he's

is freaking off the jungle caleb he's the king of kayla who is the king

the king of kayla who is the king

the king of kayla who is the king of the unit

of the unit

of the unit and who is the king of me

and who is the king of me

and who is the king of me kayla

kayla

kayla i am the king of the jungle the king of

i am the king of the jungle the king of

i am the king of the jungle the king of the jungle is a lion

the jungle is a lion

the jungle is a lion sometimes she will say oh mommy damn

one

i didn't want to tell her that i'm

i didn't want to tell her that i'm

i didn't want to tell her that i'm running away

running away

running away imagine telling a seven-year-old that's

imagine telling a seven-year-old that's

imagine telling a seven-year-old that's our mom why she adore and love so much

our mom why she adore and love so much

our mom why she adore and love so much is going to run away

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[Music] despite the very real risk to his own

despite the very real risk to his own

despite the very real risk to his own life and safety maurice tomlinson has

life and safety maurice tomlinson has

life and safety maurice tomlinson has been one of the most outspoken advocates

been one of the most outspoken advocates

been one of the most outspoken advocates for lgbti rights in jamaica

for lgbti rights in jamaica

for lgbti rights in jamaica and i'm very proud to announce the 2012

and i'm very proud to announce the 2012

and i'm very proud to announce the 2012 very first recipient of the david cater

very first recipient of the david cater

very first recipient of the david cater vision and voice award maurice tomlinson

vision and voice award maurice tomlinson

vision and voice award maurice tomlinson from jamaica

i can't tell you that there was a point

i can't tell you that there was a point

i can't tell you that there was a point in time when i started being totally

in time when i started being totally

in time when i started being totally accepting of myself as a gay man

accepting of myself as a gay man

accepting of myself as a gay man i cannot point to that time i was

i cannot point to that time i was

i cannot point to that time i was always

always

always an activist of one sort or the other and

an activist of one sort or the other and

an activist of one sort or the other and when i was doing my hiv activism i

when i was doing my hiv activism i

when i was doing my hiv activism i realized that lgbt were particularly

realized that lgbt were particularly

realized that lgbt were particularly marginalized and whether or not you

marginalized and whether or not you

marginalized and whether or not you considered that the sin they certainly

considered that the sin they certainly

considered that the sin they certainly did not deserve that kind of

did not deserve that kind of

did not deserve that kind of marginalization and victimization

marginalization and victimization

marginalization and victimization as my mother tells it during her youth

as my mother tells it during her youth

as my mother tells it during her youth everyone knew at least one person in the

everyone knew at least one person in the

everyone knew at least one person in the village who was gay

village who was gay

village who was gay but no one cared

but no one cared

but no one cared people respected the privacy of others

people respected the privacy of others

people respected the privacy of others and the anti-sodomy law was rarely if

and the anti-sodomy law was rarely if

and the anti-sodomy law was rarely if ever invoked

ever invoked

ever invoked all this changed during the 1980s and

all this changed during the 1980s and

all this changed during the 1980s and 90s

90s

90s when there was a coarsening of jamaican

when there was a coarsening of jamaican

when there was a coarsening of jamaican society through a deliberate export of

society through a deliberate export of

society through a deliberate export of hate and intolerance to jamaica

hate and intolerance to jamaica

hate and intolerance to jamaica by american televangelists

by american televangelists

by american televangelists the previously unused law then became a

the previously unused law then became a

the previously unused law then became a fixture

fixture

fixture the laws of this country are very

the laws of this country are very

the laws of this country are very specific

specific

specific burglary

burglary

burglary is an offense

is an offense

is an offense it is an abominable offense

it is an abominable offense

it is an abominable offense and it carries up to 12 years

and it carries up to 12 years

and it carries up to 12 years imprisonment

imprisonment

imprisonment you cannot consent to burglary

you cannot consent to burglary

you cannot consent to burglary unless and until that law is repealed

unless and until that law is repealed

unless and until that law is repealed the law is to be respected by an

the law is to be respected by an

the law is to be respected by an adherent

adherent

adherent it's so simple

it's so simple

it's so simple the fact is the antibody law makes me

the fact is the antibody law makes me

the fact is the antibody law makes me at least to

at least to

at least to the average jamaican police officer

the average jamaican police officer

the average jamaican police officer an unapprehended criminal with few

an unapprehended criminal with few

an unapprehended criminal with few if any human rights

if any human rights

if any human rights there's a challenge this evening to a

there's a challenge this evening to a

there's a challenge this evening to a controversial jamaican law a legal team

controversial jamaican law a legal team

controversial jamaican law a legal team and several human rights groups have

and several human rights groups have

and several human rights groups have joined forces to have jamaica's sodomy

joined forces to have jamaica's sodomy

joined forces to have jamaica's sodomy law repealed the existence of the law

law repealed the existence of the law

law repealed the existence of the law contributes to homophobia in a very

contributes to homophobia in a very

contributes to homophobia in a very direct way one person had a knife stuck

direct way one person had a knife stuck

direct way one person had a knife stuck in his forehead we've had instances of

in his forehead we've had instances of

in his forehead we've had instances of you know stonings um it's just been

you know stonings um it's just been

you know stonings um it's just been horrendous the amount of abuses that

horrendous the amount of abuses that

horrendous the amount of abuses that lgbt jamaicans have been exposed to

lgbt jamaicans have been exposed to

lgbt jamaicans have been exposed to hearing these stories i think

hearing these stories i think

hearing these stories i think is what converted me hearing about the

is what converted me hearing about the

is what converted me hearing about the abuse

abuse

abuse seeing the people having to actually go

seeing the people having to actually go

seeing the people having to actually go and document

and document

and document and seeing the blood still dripping from

and seeing the blood still dripping from

and seeing the blood still dripping from people who have just been abused i no

people who have just been abused i no

people who have just been abused i no longer felt comfortable staying in the

longer felt comfortable staying in the

longer felt comfortable staying in the background so i started writing the

background so i started writing the

background so i started writing the newspapers and speaking on air as a

newspapers and speaking on air as a

newspapers and speaking on air as a lawyer saying this is just wrong

lawyer saying this is just wrong

lawyer saying this is just wrong this allows you specifically to

this allows you specifically to

this allows you specifically to extort

extort

extort um gay men so we are urging the

um gay men so we are urging the

um gay men so we are urging the government of jamaica to act to repeal

government of jamaica to act to repeal

government of jamaica to act to repeal these sections to me it was a human

these sections to me it was a human

these sections to me it was a human rights issue

rights issue

rights issue it's a fundamental human rights issue it

it's a fundamental human rights issue it

it's a fundamental human rights issue it unleashed a avalanche of hate against me

unleashed a avalanche of hate against me

unleashed a avalanche of hate against me after the last set of death threats my

after the last set of death threats my

after the last set of death threats my husband and i immediately saw the eerie

husband and i immediately saw the eerie

husband and i immediately saw the eerie similarities to david cato

similarities to david cato

similarities to david cato david

david

david had been outed as well

had been outed as well

had been outed as well in an almost similar fashion

in an almost similar fashion

in an almost similar fashion uh newspaper in uganda had published a

uh newspaper in uganda had published a

uh newspaper in uganda had published a picture of david and some other lgbt

picture of david and some other lgbt

picture of david and some other lgbt activists with the caption hang them

activists with the caption hang them

activists with the caption hang them there after our kids

there after our kids

there after our kids and soon after that david was murdered

and soon after that david was murdered

and soon after that david was murdered i promise

i promise

i promise in david carter's name

in david carter's name

in david carter's name that i will never abandon my role in the

that i will never abandon my role in the

that i will never abandon my role in the struggle for the full human rights of

struggle for the full human rights of

struggle for the full human rights of lgbt

lgbt

lgbt until those human rights are fully

until those human rights are fully

until those human rights are fully realized

realized

realized thank you

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the last night i was with kayla i didn't

the last night i was with kayla i didn't

the last night i was with kayla i didn't tell her goodbye as in goodbye because i

tell her goodbye as in goodbye because i

tell her goodbye as in goodbye because i don't think it's right for a parent to

don't think it's right for a parent to

don't think it's right for a parent to say goodbye

say goodbye

say goodbye so i tell her that i'm going to travel

so i tell her that i'm going to travel

so i tell her that i'm going to travel and i soon come back

and i soon come back

and i soon come back so i left

so i left

so i left i discovered that i don't need a visa to

i discovered that i don't need a visa to

i discovered that i don't need a visa to go to turkey and the plane go to

go to turkey and the plane go to

go to turkey and the plane go to amsterdam

amsterdam

amsterdam and playing land in amsterdam i walk

and playing land in amsterdam i walk

and playing land in amsterdam i walk down to the immigration

down to the immigration

down to the immigration and i tell them

and i tell them

and i tell them i'm not going home

i'm not going home

i'm not going home when i said asylum

when i said asylum

when i said asylum she said yeah she just i started to cry

and then the lady said the immigration

and then the lady said the immigration

and then the lady said the immigration lady said no don't cry you're safe i

lady said no don't cry you're safe i

lady said no don't cry you're safe i promise you you're safe here

promise you you're safe here

promise you you're safe here nobody's going to hurt you i didn't want

nobody's going to hurt you i didn't want

nobody's going to hurt you i didn't want to cry but all the emotion feelings that

to cry but all the emotion feelings that

to cry but all the emotion feelings that what happened to me after the gunshot

what happened to me after the gunshot

what happened to me after the gunshot and my daughter and the life style we

and my daughter and the life style we

and my daughter and the life style we live after me getting shot and not

live after me getting shot and not

live after me getting shot and not working knowing that i was the

working knowing that i was the

working knowing that i was the breadwinner to take care of her

breadwinner to take care of her

breadwinner to take care of her it was just everything was just rushing

it was just everything was just rushing

it was just everything was just rushing to my mind and knowing the fact that i

to my mind and knowing the fact that i

to my mind and knowing the fact that i leave her there and you know

leave her there and you know

leave her there and you know what can happen

what can happen

what can happen so i was

so i was

so i was crying

crying

crying [Music]

this is my new home i live here

this is my new home i live here

this is my new home i live here now

now

now this is an asylum center

this is an asylum center

this is an asylum center probably 500 people live on this

probably 500 people live on this

probably 500 people live on this building

building

building most of the people that here don't speak

most of the people that here don't speak

most of the people that here don't speak english they speak somali arabics farsi

english they speak somali arabics farsi

english they speak somali arabics farsi french

french

french so it's kind of hard for me but

so it's kind of hard for me but

so it's kind of hard for me but much on my best for go along each and

much on my best for go along each and

much on my best for go along each and every day

everybody have different story

everybody have different story

everybody have different story you stay here and you wait until you get

you stay here and you wait until you get

you stay here and you wait until you get your permit to live in this country

the 20th of this month

the 20th of this month

the 20th of this month will be 10 months

will be 10 months

will be 10 months i haven't seen my daughter

i haven't seen my daughter

i haven't seen my daughter ellie hi kello how are you

i know i saw your birthday

i know i saw your birthday

i know i saw your birthday exactly

exactly

exactly if i

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enough for waiting for it until the

enough for waiting for it until the

enough for waiting for it until the papers don't come true that's what

papers don't come true that's what

papers don't come true that's what matters the other time someone for wait

matters the other time someone for wait

matters the other time someone for wait until the paper come true then manu

until the paper come true then manu

until the paper come true then manu if we can't get here

if we can't get here

if we can't get here okay

i'm a soldier girl

to the r writer

to the r writer

to the r writer all right

people might think she'll not understand

people might think she'll not understand

people might think she'll not understand but i think she understands

but i think she understands

but i think she understands i think she understands

i think she understands

i think she understands kayla is the only child i had to tell

kayla is the only child i had to tell

kayla is the only child i had to tell kayla here that i don't know when i'm

kayla here that i don't know when i'm

kayla here that i don't know when i'm coming

coming

coming it's hard

it's hard

it's hard you'd rip your heart out

you'd rip your heart out

you'd rip your heart out mush your art in million pieces

mush your art in million pieces

mush your art in million pieces and i know their art is also broken too

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simone story is more than tragic

simone story is more than tragic

simone story is more than tragic you know it's a more than child

you know it's a more than child

you know it's a more than child and there's no protection so that means

and there's no protection so that means

and there's no protection so that means jamaica is not protecting all its

jamaica is not protecting all its

jamaica is not protecting all its citizens as as it claims

citizens as as it claims

citizens as as it claims [Music]

about three months after simone left

about three months after simone left

about three months after simone left jamaica i was asked to be on a radio

jamaica i was asked to be on a radio

jamaica i was asked to be on a radio talk show

talk show

talk show i didn't show my face but people in my

i didn't show my face but people in my

i didn't show my face but people in my community they know my voice

community they know my voice

community they know my voice you know i was all of a sudden there i

you know i was all of a sudden there i

you know i was all of a sudden there i was pretty much out at two

was pretty much out at two

was pretty much out at two you know and then i realized that maybe

you know and then i realized that maybe

you know and then i realized that maybe it was time for me to pat my bags and

it was time for me to pat my bags and

it was time for me to pat my bags and and go

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it's that sense of vulnerability that

it's that sense of vulnerability that

it's that sense of vulnerability that you know you can't turn to the police

you know you can't turn to the police

you know you can't turn to the police for help

for help

for help in case of anything

in case of anything

in case of anything that makes me

that makes me

that makes me really

really

really that's why i'm happy that you get out

that's why i'm happy that you get out

that's why i'm happy that you get out safely i am happy too

safely i am happy too

safely i am happy too but i don't feel i'm not it's gonna take

but i don't feel i'm not it's gonna take

but i don't feel i'm not it's gonna take you a little while to settle you may not

you a little while to settle you may not

you a little while to settle you may not never be

never be

never be settled either

settled either

settled either because although i'm here and it's two

because although i'm here and it's two

because although i'm here and it's two years i'm still

years i'm still

years i'm still not settled really sometimes i kind of

not settled really sometimes i kind of

not settled really sometimes i kind of regret leaving though because i feel

regret leaving though because i feel

regret leaving though because i feel like i left too early that's exactly

like i left too early that's exactly

like i left too early that's exactly where i'm at because like there's so

where i'm at because like there's so

where i'm at because like there's so much work there's so much work to be

much work there's so much work to be

much work there's so much work to be done and people

done and people

done and people tom my husband he just

tom my husband he just

tom my husband he just he he can't get it he thinks i'm crazy

he he can't get it he thinks i'm crazy

he he can't get it he thinks i'm crazy stupid to even want to think of going

stupid to even want to think of going

stupid to even want to think of going back and i really thought that well i

back and i really thought that well i

back and i really thought that well i would stay and fight it but then you

would stay and fight it but then you

would stay and fight it but then you know i really got

know i really got

know i really got got the message that you know maybe i

got the message that you know maybe i

got the message that you know maybe i need to just ease away and

need to just ease away and

need to just ease away and i had people storming my car in my

i had people storming my car in my

i had people storming my car in my office and they tried to break in the

office and they tried to break in the

office and they tried to break in the house they stoned it and everything and

house they stoned it and everything and

house they stoned it and everything and tried to you know pull off the girl and

tried to you know pull off the girl and

tried to you know pull off the girl and you know but

you know but

you know but yeah so you know it was just time for me

yeah so you know it was just time for me

yeah so you know it was just time for me to go and it's like a relate that we're

to go and it's like a relate that we're

to go and it's like a relate that we're running you know you have to pass the

running you know you have to pass the

running you know you have to pass the button and that's how someone had passed

button and that's how someone had passed

button and that's how someone had passed it on to us yeah that's why we got

it on to us yeah that's why we got

it on to us yeah that's why we got involved and therefore so if it's time

involved and therefore so if it's time

involved and therefore so if it's time to give it up and we can do what we can

to give it up and we can do what we can

to give it up and we can do what we can from here then let's do it

you will make me cry

i mean

it was inspiring when i met you first it

it was inspiring when i met you first it

it was inspiring when i met you first it was inspiring to meet you

was inspiring to meet you

was inspiring to meet you and know that you're willing to be so

and know that you're willing to be so

and know that you're willing to be so out

out

out you know and so such a strong voice

you know and so such a strong voice

you know and so such a strong voice because i think that was what was

because i think that was what was

because i think that was what was missing a strong voice we don't have

missing a strong voice we don't have

missing a strong voice we don't have that now and

that now and

that now and um

um

um it's so painful sometimes and i'm like

it's so painful sometimes and i'm like

it's so painful sometimes and i'm like i'm sorry i'm i'm sorry i'm jamaican you

i'm sorry i'm i'm sorry i'm jamaican you

i'm sorry i'm i'm sorry i'm jamaican you know sometimes i hear about other

know sometimes i hear about other

know sometimes i hear about other countries who are making progressive

countries who are making progressive

countries who are making progressive moves and then i'm like so why can't

moves and then i'm like so why can't

moves and then i'm like so why can't jamaica

jamaica

jamaica you know

you know

you know but then you know personal safety has to

but then you know personal safety has to

but then you know personal safety has to come first because if without that then

come first because if without that then

come first because if without that then you're not going to be able to help at

you're not going to be able to help at

you're not going to be able to help at all so that was the decision that adds

all so that was the decision that adds

all so that was the decision that adds this thing you're listening to my

this thing you're listening to my

this thing you're listening to my husband

husband

husband but remember i've been there done that

but remember i've been there done that

but remember i've been there done that so it's a case where you know it was

so it's a case where you know it was

so it's a case where you know it was like should i should i should i should

like should i should i should i should

like should i should i should i should have but you know how crazy jamaican

have but you know how crazy jamaican

have but you know how crazy jamaican skin get and how serious they can get

skin get and how serious they can get

skin get and how serious they can get too many people we have lost

too many people we have lost

too many people we have lost well i'm still

well i'm still

well i'm still trying to figure it out figure it out

trying to figure it out figure it out

trying to figure it out figure it out i'm still my heart is definitely going

i'm still my heart is definitely going

i'm still my heart is definitely going back

back

back i kind of lift my hats off to him you

i kind of lift my hats off to him you

i kind of lift my hats off to him you know trying to go back because i know

know trying to go back because i know

know trying to go back because i know it's something that needs to be done and

it's something that needs to be done and

it's something that needs to be done and just everybody all of us can't run away

i think about brian williamson and

i think about brian williamson and

i think about brian williamson and everyone who have been killed

everyone who have been killed

everyone who have been killed you know especially for brian brian

you know especially for brian brian

you know especially for brian brian could have left whenever

could have left whenever

could have left whenever you know but he stayed and i wish that i

you know but he stayed and i wish that i

you know but he stayed and i wish that i could have stayed too

the reality is my perspective

the reality is my perspective

the reality is my perspective both as a

both as a

both as a hiv and an lgbt activist is critical at

hiv and an lgbt activist is critical at

hiv and an lgbt activist is critical at this point because

this point because

this point because the government

the government

the government i think

i think

i think wants to push the agenda forward but

wants to push the agenda forward but

wants to push the agenda forward but they need help

they need help

they need help no one should be

no one should be

no one should be discriminated against because of their

discriminated against because of their

discriminated against because of their so at their sexual orientation

so at their sexual orientation

so at their sexual orientation government should provide the protection

government should provide the protection

government should provide the protection and i think that we

and i think that we

and i think that we should have a look at the burglar law

should have a look at the burglar law

should have a look at the burglar law the government would be cautious in

the government would be cautious in

the government would be cautious in attempting any change in the murder law

attempting any change in the murder law

attempting any change in the murder law as the majority of jamaicans 61

as the majority of jamaicans 61

as the majority of jamaicans 61 said they would have a more negative

said they would have a more negative

said they would have a more negative view of the administration if it were to

view of the administration if it were to

view of the administration if it were to do that as much as the one might say

do that as much as the one might say

do that as much as the one might say it's a personal issue but it's gonna

it's a personal issue but it's gonna

it's a personal issue but it's gonna destroy this society it's gonna destroy

destroy this society it's gonna destroy

destroy this society it's gonna destroy with you so we need to address it we

with you so we need to address it we

with you so we need to address it we begin with news about the meeting of a

begin with news about the meeting of a

begin with news about the meeting of a male student of the university of

male student of the university of

male student of the university of technology by security they have come

technology by security they have come

technology by security they have come under attack on several occasions for

under attack on several occasions for

under attack on several occasions for their divergent sexual orientation man

their divergent sexual orientation man

their divergent sexual orientation man was reportedly set on fire by six men

was reportedly set on fire by six men

was reportedly set on fire by six men and then thrown into executive director

and then thrown into executive director

and then thrown into executive director of j flag noted this is the seventh such

of j flag noted this is the seventh such

of j flag noted this is the seventh such murder in the last three months

murder in the last three months

murder in the last three months i don't think things are getting better

i don't think things are getting better

i don't think things are getting better in jamaica

in jamaica

in jamaica either you stay and die or you run away

either you stay and die or you run away

either you stay and die or you run away with your life

i know that if i go back to jamaica

i know that if i go back to jamaica

i know that if i go back to jamaica i am not going back with the protection

i am not going back with the protection

i am not going back with the protection of the jamaican police and that's scary

of the jamaican police and that's scary

of the jamaican police and that's scary but i need to go back

but i need to go back

but i need to go back because you can't be here

because you can't be here

because you can't be here and be accessible there we have to see

and be accessible there we have to see

and be accessible there we have to see jamaican

jamaican

jamaican gays

gays

gays functioning in jamaica if we want to see

functioning in jamaica if we want to see

functioning in jamaica if we want to see jamaica become tolerant towards its

jamaica become tolerant towards its

jamaica become tolerant towards its jamaican citizens don't even want to see

jamaican citizens don't even want to see

jamaican citizens don't even want to see the risk

the risk

the risk it gets sometimes you get sick and tired

it gets sometimes you get sick and tired

it gets sometimes you get sick and tired of being sick and tired

of being sick and tired

of being sick and tired [Music]

[Music]

[Music] but

but

but just going off

just going off

just going off and risking your life

and risking your life

and risking your life is not going to be productive uh i mean

is not going to be productive uh i mean

is not going to be productive uh i mean imagine what david cato could have done

imagine what david cato could have done

imagine what david cato could have done well that's true because um and

well that's true because um and

well that's true because um and just imagine the work that he could have

just imagine the work that he could have

just imagine the work that he could have continued doing

i did think about the murders of bran

i did think about the murders of bran

i did think about the murders of bran williamson and

williamson and

williamson and david cato

david cato

david cato [Music]

[Music]

[Music] david

david

david was just like me i think reporting on

was just like me i think reporting on

was just like me i think reporting on the abuses against ugandan lgbt

the abuses against ugandan lgbt

the abuses against ugandan lgbt educating his society about the negative

educating his society about the negative

educating his society about the negative impact of homophobia

impact of homophobia

impact of homophobia to be killed for that

to be killed for that

to be killed for that simple act of humanity was

simple act of humanity was

simple act of humanity was was just frightening

was just frightening

was just frightening [Music]

you see how she's looking yeah no i

you see how she's looking yeah no i

you see how she's looking yeah no i didn't say oh sure

hi

from jamaica

from jamaica

from jamaica jamaica

may have a future now whenever our

may have a future now whenever our

may have a future now whenever our future jamaica normal our future

future jamaica normal our future

future jamaica normal our future [Music]

kind of hard for me to be open because

kind of hard for me to be open because

kind of hard for me to be open because but just new year

do you feel safe

do you feel safe

do you feel safe honest

[Music]

why are you still scared why are you

why are you still scared why are you

why are you still scared why are you still looking over your shoulders

still looking over your shoulders

still looking over your shoulders because like you're still frightened

because like you're still frightened

because like you're still frightened inside

inside

inside honestly because scotchmen are used to

honestly because scotchmen are used to

honestly because scotchmen are used to it as i must say

it as i must say

it as i must say how much years me living at jamaica as a

how much years me living at jamaica as a

how much years me living at jamaica as a lesbian i'm yusuf idol

lesbian i'm yusuf idol

lesbian i'm yusuf idol the reason why you came to holland is

the reason why you came to holland is

the reason why you came to holland is for you to be free so now be free

for you to be free so now be free

for you to be free so now be free or not

it's better to be here than be in

it's better to be here than be in

it's better to be here than be in jamaica because the torture you've been

jamaica because the torture you've been

jamaica because the torture you've been through

through

through however

however

however it's hard it's hard i've i've lost more

it's hard it's hard i've i've lost more

it's hard it's hard i've i've lost more than i've gained it's not like

than i've gained it's not like

than i've gained it's not like i was running for a better life now

i was running for a better life now

i was running for a better life now you're in holland

you're in holland

you're in holland so everything goes okay so you want to

so everything goes okay so you want to

so everything goes okay so you want to tell me you're not going to jamaica

long as i um love at the end of the day

long as i um love at the end of the day

long as i um love at the end of the day you have family there you come from

you have family there you come from

you have family there you come from jamaica yeah i have my family there my

jamaica yeah i have my family there my

jamaica yeah i have my family there my family is straight i'm a lesbian so i

family is straight i'm a lesbian so i

family is straight i'm a lesbian so i have to look out for myself and also i

have to look out for myself and also i

have to look out for myself and also i don't have to look talk to my daughter

don't have to look talk to my daughter

don't have to look talk to my daughter too i tried to see if i could bury this

too i tried to see if i could bury this

too i tried to see if i could bury this homosexual life lifestyle but it goes

homosexual life lifestyle but it goes

homosexual life lifestyle but it goes nowhere

nowhere

nowhere because it's it's

because it's it's

because it's it's it's it's in me i couldn't push it aside

it's it's in me i couldn't push it aside

it's it's in me i couldn't push it aside and say i come back next week because

and say i come back next week because

and say i come back next week because when when i was with the girl i was

when when i was with the girl i was

when when i was with the girl i was thinking about her boy

thinking about her boy

thinking about her boy so it didn't go anywhere and there were

so it didn't go anywhere and there were

so it didn't go anywhere and there were several people gone through that married

several people gone through that married

several people gone through that married have kids and then

have kids and then

have kids and then boom

boom

boom they couldn't hold it any longer so i

they couldn't hold it any longer so i

they couldn't hold it any longer so i i've been through it i've tried i tried

i've been through it i've tried i tried

i've been through it i've tried i tried just for society's sake you understand

just for society's sake you understand

just for society's sake you understand say for the the guys who shoot me i do

say for the the guys who shoot me i do

say for the the guys who shoot me i do it for your sake it didn't work so you

it for your sake it didn't work so you

it for your sake it didn't work so you come now to kill me

come now to kill me

come now to kill me you understand they even just like girl

you understand they even just like girl

you understand they even just like girl you know they they had proof that you're

you know they they had proof that you're

you know they they had proof that you're gay it was somebody that we know

gay it was somebody that we know

gay it was somebody that we know actually because it's somebody that

actually because it's somebody that

actually because it's somebody that lives in the community it comes a shock

lives in the community it comes a shock

lives in the community it comes a shock to me because me and that boy brother

to me because me and that boy brother

to me because me and that boy brother went to school together

went to school together

went to school together it's not like moana run from them i

it's not like moana run from them i

it's not like moana run from them i don't know

don't know

don't know you're just running for your life i'm

you're just running for your life i'm

you're just running for your life i'm just running for my life exactly

[Music]

they don't know what they did to my life

they don't know what they did to my life

they don't know what they did to my life they can never understand what they did

they can never understand what they did

they can never understand what they did to my life

to my life

to my life they are not god

they are not god

they are not god and god know who i am

and god know who i am

and god know who i am and no man can judge me

and no man can judge me

and no man can judge me no man at all let me shoot me yeah they

no man at all let me shoot me yeah they

no man at all let me shoot me yeah they shoot me but i'm alive

shoot me but i'm alive

shoot me but i'm alive right now my daughter live first i'm

right now my daughter live first i'm

right now my daughter live first i'm gonna need for revenge to nobody

caught fire fire with fire it's no good

caught fire fire with fire it's no good

caught fire fire with fire it's no good i'm a fight with love i'm a fight with

i'm a fight with love i'm a fight with

i'm a fight with love i'm a fight with my autumn

my autumn

my autumn [Music]

[Music]

tom

tom

tom are you coming back into the bedroom

are you coming back into the bedroom

are you coming back into the bedroom uh

uh

uh yes probably okay all right i think i'm

yes probably okay all right i think i'm

yes probably okay all right i think i'm done

i thought i would have been mentally

i thought i would have been mentally

i thought i would have been mentally prepared

prepared

prepared for this return but

for this return but

for this return but now that it's upon me i don't think i am

not really

not really ready for this i think but

not really ready for this i think but

not really ready for this i think but not really ready not to go

not really ready not to go

not really ready not to go i think i need to do this

am i keeping the voting pass on please

when i explained to him that i needed to

when i explained to him that i needed to

when i explained to him that i needed to go back

go back

go back he

he

he of course

of course

of course being tom

being tom

being tom a lovely neurotic husband i thought he

a lovely neurotic husband i thought he

a lovely neurotic husband i thought he was the worst idea in the world he said

was the worst idea in the world he said

was the worst idea in the world he said he wasn't going to come because

he wasn't going to come because

he wasn't going to come because he thought he would have added to my

he thought he would have added to my

he thought he would have added to my insecurity

insecurity

insecurity by being there but then

by being there but then

by being there but then thankfully he changed his mind and

thankfully he changed his mind and

thankfully he changed his mind and decided that

decided that

decided that um

um

um he needed to be there with me because

he needed to be there with me because

he needed to be there with me because if i was going to face any danger we're

if i was going to face any danger we're

if i was going to face any danger we're going to face it together

i really hope he doesn't regret coming

[Music]

i need to prove to this bigots that they

i need to prove to this bigots that they

i need to prove to this bigots that they can't chase us all away and

can't chase us all away and

can't chase us all away and kill us

kill us

kill us all

all

all but some of us are willing to stick

but some of us are willing to stick

but some of us are willing to stick around and actually

around and actually

around and actually fight for

fight for

fight for what we believe in

[Music]

for activists such as myself

for activists such as myself

for activists such as myself there's always a debate

there's always a debate

there's always a debate do we pursue

do we pursue

do we pursue legislative change

legislative change

legislative change or do we seek to um achieve

or do we seek to um achieve

or do we seek to um achieve a redress through the courts when we

a redress through the courts when we

a redress through the courts when we know there is discrimination

know there is discrimination

know there is discrimination a judicial challenge will only result in

a judicial challenge will only result in

a judicial challenge will only result in a very narrow victory

a very narrow victory

a very narrow victory which will then have to sell

which will then have to sell

which will then have to sell to the population

to the population

to the population it is

it is

it is sometimes a hard sell

sometimes a hard sell

sometimes a hard sell but if we get a legislative challenge

but if we get a legislative challenge

but if we get a legislative challenge we are

we are

we are bringing the society along with us

bringing the society along with us

bringing the society along with us the only way to change the society is

the only way to change the society is

the only way to change the society is for people to be visible gays to be

for people to be visible gays to be

for people to be visible gays to be visible to their family friends etc

visible to their family friends etc

visible to their family friends etc co-workers so

co-workers so

co-workers so you're at this catch-22 the government

you're at this catch-22 the government

you're at this catch-22 the government wants us to be visible so that that will

wants us to be visible so that that will

wants us to be visible so that that will reduce the level of homophobia first to

reduce the level of homophobia first to

reduce the level of homophobia first to be visible you have to ensure that

be visible you have to ensure that

be visible you have to ensure that there's security

there's security

there's security the government doesn't want to provide

the government doesn't want to provide

the government doesn't want to provide the security or is failing to provide

the security or is failing to provide

the security or is failing to provide the security that they should

the security that they should

the security that they should because the law says it's illegal to be

because the law says it's illegal to be

because the law says it's illegal to be gay

[Music]

[Music]

hello

hello

hello hi

i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry

[Laughter]

[Laughter]

[Laughter] i'm good i'm now being berated by him

i'm good i'm now being berated by him

i'm good i'm now being berated by him because you see in a way what we're

because you see in a way what we're

because you see in a way what we're dealing with is our bully system

dealing with is our bully system

dealing with is our bully system if

if

if maurice does not set foot back here

maurice does not set foot back here

maurice does not set foot back here the bullies have won

the bullies have won

the bullies have won oh yeah i totally understand that

oh yeah i totally understand that

oh yeah i totally understand that doesn't change the situation

doesn't change the situation

doesn't change the situation it explains it

it explains it

it explains it but it doesn't change it

but it doesn't change it

but it doesn't change it the fact remains

the fact remains

the fact remains that you are under death threat that

that you are under death threat that

that you are under death threat that this is not a safe place for you you

this is not a safe place for you you

this is not a safe place for you you know yeah

know yeah

know yeah i understand

i understand

i understand but

don't

don't

don't know there is

know there is

know there is you know

you know

you know how do you feel

how do you feel

how do you feel am i allowed to feel

am i allowed to feel

am i allowed to feel yes you are

yes you are

yes you are even seriously am i allowed to have an

even seriously am i allowed to have an

even seriously am i allowed to have an opinion you're loved

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] i'm trying to understand

i'm trying to understand

i'm trying to understand why maurice feels he needs to do this

why maurice feels he needs to do this

why maurice feels he needs to do this to a certain extent i still must say it

to a certain extent i still must say it

to a certain extent i still must say it beats the living daylights out of me

well let me clarify that because this

well let me clarify that because this

well let me clarify that because this has come up on numerous occasions and i

has come up on numerous occasions and i

has come up on numerous occasions and i think it is time we put this matter to

think it is time we put this matter to

think it is time we put this matter to rest

rest

rest i am doing this for the movement

i am doing this for the movement

i am doing this for the movement because i want to make sure that when

because i want to make sure that when

because i want to make sure that when i'm gone

i'm gone

i'm gone fully that the issue of lgbt human

fully that the issue of lgbt human

fully that the issue of lgbt human rights will continue to be discussed

rights will continue to be discussed

rights will continue to be discussed intelligently

intelligently

intelligently by people who have access to

by people who have access to

by people who have access to you know

you know

you know decision makers policy makers because

decision makers policy makers because

decision makers policy makers because there's been a lot of misconception

there's been a lot of misconception

there's been a lot of misconception misrepresentation

misrepresentation

misrepresentation i need people who are in power now to

i need people who are in power now to

i need people who are in power now to know somebody who can represent the

know somebody who can represent the

know somebody who can represent the issues reasonably well i mean i know

issues reasonably well i mean i know

issues reasonably well i mean i know i know

i know

i know tom that maurice you are advocating the

tom that maurice you are advocating the

tom that maurice you are advocating the advocacy of others over these past few

advocacy of others over these past few

advocacy of others over these past few years

years

years right have

right have

right have opened some doors no the thing is that

opened some doors no the thing is that

opened some doors no the thing is that different doors open

different doors open

different doors open some of them you'd rather shut but you

some of them you'd rather shut but you

some of them you'd rather shut but you open some other doors for people to

open some other doors for people to

open some other doors for people to begin to think and i'm i'm seeing that

begin to think and i'm i'm seeing that

begin to think and i'm i'm seeing that this is about

this is about

this is about leaving something

leaving something

leaving something that will have an impact long after i'm

that will have an impact long after i'm

that will have an impact long after i'm gone i hope you've made your point the

gone i hope you've made your point the

gone i hope you've made your point the point isn't i'm not finished making my

point isn't i'm not finished making my

point isn't i'm not finished making my point yet then you know that finished

point yet then you know that finished

point yet then you know that finished yes yes you know that well

yes yes you know that well

yes yes you know that well and i keep making your point

and i keep making your point

and i keep making your point no i'll make it work

no i'll make it work

no i'll make it work i'll live through it

when the newspaper the jamaica observer

when the newspaper the jamaica observer

when the newspaper the jamaica observer published the unauthorized photo

published the unauthorized photo

published the unauthorized photo that

that

that pretty much made me even more

pretty much made me even more

pretty much made me even more militant for the rights of lgbt because

militant for the rights of lgbt because

militant for the rights of lgbt because now i'm not only speaking about a group

now i'm not only speaking about a group

now i'm not only speaking about a group of people i'm talking about myself as

of people i'm talking about myself as

of people i'm talking about myself as well

well

well i mean there's nothing left to hide no

i mean there's nothing left to hide no

i mean there's nothing left to hide no i'm now so

i'm now so

i'm now so outed that it's impossible for me to

outed that it's impossible for me to

outed that it's impossible for me to even think about retreating into the

even think about retreating into the

even think about retreating into the closet anymore

i started challenging jamaicans directly

i started challenging jamaicans directly

i started challenging jamaicans directly as a gay man

as a gay man

as a gay man we filed a case on behalf of two

we filed a case on behalf of two

we filed a case on behalf of two jamaican

jamaican

jamaican gays who have suffered extreme abuses

gays who have suffered extreme abuses

gays who have suffered extreme abuses because of their sexual orientation

because of their sexual orientation

because of their sexual orientation our goal in firing this case is to

our goal in firing this case is to

our goal in firing this case is to repeal the anti-sodomy law

repeal the anti-sodomy law

repeal the anti-sodomy law hello good evening here to see a lot of

hello good evening here to see a lot of

hello good evening here to see a lot of japan maurice tomlinson

japan maurice tomlinson

japan maurice tomlinson it's extraordinary law maurice isn't it

it's extraordinary law maurice isn't it

it's extraordinary law maurice isn't it i mean i was looking at it again

i mean i was looking at it again

i mean i was looking at it again whoever's shall be convicted of the

whoever's shall be convicted of the

whoever's shall be convicted of the abominable crime of buggery shall be

abominable crime of buggery shall be

abominable crime of buggery shall be liable to be imprisoned and kept to hard

liable to be imprisoned and kept to hard

liable to be imprisoned and kept to hard labor for a term not exceeding 10 years

labor for a term not exceeding 10 years

labor for a term not exceeding 10 years more about whoever shall attempt to

more about whoever shall attempt to

more about whoever shall attempt to commit the said abominable crime

commit the said abominable crime

commit the said abominable crime i mean even in murder

i mean even in murder

i mean even in murder you don't find the hideous crime of

you don't find the hideous crime of

you don't find the hideous crime of murder the fiendish crime of rape or the

murder the fiendish crime of rape or the

murder the fiendish crime of rape or the very language of the law

very language of the law

very language of the law incites people to hatred it generates

incites people to hatred it generates

incites people to hatred it generates hate hate

hate hate

hate hate always at the back of my mind hoped to

always at the back of my mind hoped to

always at the back of my mind hoped to be able to find a case

be able to find a case

be able to find a case when in which it could be tested the

when in which it could be tested the

when in which it could be tested the fact that he a british lord is involved

fact that he a british lord is involved

fact that he a british lord is involved in overturning a british imposed law is

in overturning a british imposed law is

in overturning a british imposed law is just incredibly important

just incredibly important

just incredibly important the fact that it's the

the fact that it's the

the fact that it's the law against sodomy which he helped to

law against sodomy which he helped to

law against sodomy which he helped to overturn in northern ireland is just

overturn in northern ireland is just

overturn in northern ireland is just invaluable the court ruled that the law

invaluable the court ruled that the law

invaluable the court ruled that the law had to be

had to be

had to be reformed

reformed

reformed repealed

repealed

repealed and it was

and it was

and it was northern ireland society did not break

northern ireland society did not break

northern ireland society did not break down

down

down promiscuity did not break out we're not

promiscuity did not break out we're not

promiscuity did not break out we're not asking for full repeal we're just asking

asking for full repeal we're just asking

asking for full repeal we're just asking for review

for review

for review so in that case what do you think

so in that case what do you think

so in that case what do you think our chances considering what the new

our chances considering what the new

our chances considering what the new prime minister said about a review

prime minister said about a review

prime minister said about a review there are some problems

there are some problems

there are some problems and there is

and there is

and there is a lot of prejudice still in both parties

a lot of prejudice still in both parties

a lot of prejudice still in both parties the time will come

the time will come

the time will come when we will win that vote right

when we will win that vote right

when we will win that vote right um

um

um i'm i'm hopeful

i'm i'm hopeful

i'm i'm hopeful but

but

but i just don't want to hear of any more

i just don't want to hear of any more

i just don't want to hear of any more murders it is overwhelming no it is i'm

murders it is overwhelming no it is i'm

murders it is overwhelming no it is i'm sure it is but don't be despondent

sure it is but don't be despondent

sure it is but don't be despondent i mean i've lived long enough i suppose

i mean i've lived long enough i suppose

i mean i've lived long enough i suppose to see causes which seem to have

to see causes which seem to have

to see causes which seem to have insuperable yeah obstacles to them

insuperable yeah obstacles to them

insuperable yeah obstacles to them being being one yeah

being being one yeah

being being one yeah the the world changes

the the world changes

the the world changes and it's it's impossible when you're in

and it's it's impossible when you're in

and it's it's impossible when you're in the middle of the period of change to

the middle of the period of change to

the middle of the period of change to say that the change is going to happen

say that the change is going to happen

say that the change is going to happen next year right but um

next year right but um

next year right but um every

every

every move we make helps to break it down

move we make helps to break it down

move we make helps to break it down helps to ridicul it helps to ridicule it

helps to ridicul it helps to ridicule it

helps to ridicul it helps to ridicule it yeah

yeah

yeah helps to show what damage it caused

helps to show what damage it caused

helps to show what damage it caused because i don't think we should be

because i don't think we should be

because i don't think we should be talking about this petition

talking about this petition

talking about this petition without talking about the real life

without talking about the real life

without talking about the real life tragedies

tragedies

tragedies because this is not just an academic

because this is not just an academic

because this is not just an academic question

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it's been two years i got my ulcer i get

it's been two years i got my ulcer i get

it's been two years i got my ulcer i get my paper

my paper

my paper the way the ounce set is it's just for

the way the ounce set is it's just for

the way the ounce set is it's just for me in her

me in her

me in her [Music]

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[Music] i bought this butcher frame because i

i bought this butcher frame because i

i bought this butcher frame because i wanted to put some picture in there with

wanted to put some picture in there with

wanted to put some picture in there with my daughter and also with me but because

my daughter and also with me but because

my daughter and also with me but because my daughter is not here i haven't put

my daughter is not here i haven't put

my daughter is not here i haven't put anything i just make it stay empty

anything i just make it stay empty

anything i just make it stay empty you know home is not at home without a

you know home is not at home without a

you know home is not at home without a child

child

child being separated from kale is like you

being separated from kale is like you

being separated from kale is like you know it's a punishment

know it's a punishment

know it's a punishment [Music]

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[Music] sometimes i wonder

sometimes i wonder

sometimes i wonder what's it gonna be like

what's it gonna be like

what's it gonna be like what i'm gonna say to her

what i'm gonna say to her

what i'm gonna say to her i'm gonna ogre

i'm gonna ogre

i'm gonna ogre if i'm gonna smuggle two times

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[Music] how do she look she get bigger she gets

how do she look she get bigger she gets

how do she look she get bigger she gets smaller

smaller

smaller what you're gonna think

what you're gonna think

what you're gonna think me loving her kayla it made me stronger

me loving her kayla it made me stronger

me loving her kayla it made me stronger you know it gave me an extra drive tell

you know it gave me an extra drive tell

you know it gave me an extra drive tell me that

me that

me that you can do it

you can do it

you can do it [Music]

yeah yeah yeah what does it cost school

yeah yeah yeah what does it cost school

yeah yeah yeah what does it cost school yeah and come back a bit a bit and now

yeah and come back a bit a bit and now

yeah and come back a bit a bit and now it plots yeah and it's so filled but

it plots yeah and it's so filled but

it plots yeah and it's so filled but it's cool yeah that states

it's cool yeah that states

it's cool yeah that states [Laughter]

[Laughter]

[Laughter] now

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with my sexuality

with my sexuality

with my sexuality okay yeah yeah so it

okay yeah yeah so it

okay yeah yeah so it flick

flick

flick from jamaica

yeah yeah see yeah

i'll leave her

i'll leave her

i'll leave her i never expect how it was gonna be so

i never expect how it was gonna be so

i never expect how it was gonna be so long

long

long i don't know if she's mad with me which

i don't know if she's mad with me which

i don't know if she's mad with me which i asked her and she said she's mad at me

i asked her and she said she's mad at me

i asked her and she said she's mad at me small but

small but

small but so i tell her i'm gonna make it up back

so i tell her i'm gonna make it up back

so i tell her i'm gonna make it up back to her but i don't know how much she is

i don't want him to be too mad at me

i don't want him to be too mad at me

i don't want him to be too mad at me i just do it because i want her to be

i just do it because i want her to be

i just do it because i want her to be happy

happy

happy even if i live in jamaica with her

even if i live in jamaica with her

even if i live in jamaica with her everybody gonna tell her after a while

everybody gonna tell her after a while

everybody gonna tell her after a while that her mom is a lesbian i don't want

that her mom is a lesbian i don't want

that her mom is a lesbian i don't want nobody to tell her mom is a lesbian i

nobody to tell her mom is a lesbian i

nobody to tell her mom is a lesbian i want to tell her myself if anybody to

want to tell her myself if anybody to

want to tell her myself if anybody to tell her i don't want her to go anywhere

tell her i don't want her to go anywhere

tell her i don't want her to go anywhere and nobody teases no your mom is a lesbo

and nobody teases no your mom is a lesbo

and nobody teases no your mom is a lesbo no

no

no going to make sure you feel bad

going to make sure you feel bad

going to make sure you feel bad because i'm a lesbian it's not a disease

because i'm a lesbian it's not a disease

because i'm a lesbian it's not a disease i don't have aids

i don't have aids

i don't have aids as if having aged there's a problem you

as if having aged there's a problem you

as if having aged there's a problem you know but

know but

know but i'm not dying

i'm not dying

i'm not dying whatever i'm is i'm not dying you know

whatever i'm is i'm not dying you know

whatever i'm is i'm not dying you know understand so i just want you to be she

understand so i just want you to be she

understand so i just want you to be she and be comfortable with her and don't

and be comfortable with her and don't

and be comfortable with her and don't think about my life and think about hers

so that's why i do what i have to do

so that's why i do what i have to do

so that's why i do what i have to do [Music]

once simone has her daughter she can

once simone has her daughter she can

once simone has her daughter she can feel safe and close that chapter of her

feel safe and close that chapter of her

feel safe and close that chapter of her life

life

life you miss your friends and family but

you miss your friends and family but

you miss your friends and family but you're not going to miss jamaica

you're not going to miss jamaica

you're not going to miss jamaica i'm not going to miss the head

i'm not going to miss the head

i'm not going to miss the head [Music]

i really think that we can start to undo

i really think that we can start to undo

i really think that we can start to undo all that hate it's going to take a lot

all that hate it's going to take a lot

all that hate it's going to take a lot of work

and

and

and i mean i don't know where

i mean i don't know where

i mean i don't know where my work is in that process i certainly

my work is in that process i certainly

my work is in that process i certainly don't think i'm finished

oh lord good morning

oh lord good morning

oh lord good morning i

i

i decided to keep going back every week

decided to keep going back every week

decided to keep going back every week from toronto

from toronto

from toronto so that i could continue teaching my

so that i could continue teaching my

so that i could continue teaching my class in discrimination law for the rest

class in discrimination law for the rest

class in discrimination law for the rest of the semester

we have to complete the syllabus today

we have to complete the syllabus today

we have to complete the syllabus today because this is the last class okay

because this is the last class okay

because this is the last class okay remember when we discussed

remember when we discussed

remember when we discussed discrimination

discrimination

discrimination and we looked at what is immutable is it

and we looked at what is immutable is it

and we looked at what is immutable is it a function of nature or nurture or does

a function of nature or nurture or does

a function of nature or nurture or does it matter

it matter

it matter in relation to sexual orientation can

in relation to sexual orientation can

in relation to sexual orientation can gaze change

gaze change

gaze change and as i like to

and as i like to

and as i like to say

say

say i've tried it all

i've tried it all

i've tried it all it didn't work for me and in the case

it didn't work for me and in the case

it didn't work for me and in the case lawrence and texas

lawrence and texas

lawrence and texas the

the

the court i try not to dwell on the the

court i try not to dwell on the the

court i try not to dwell on the the death threats because you just do what

death threats because you just do what

death threats because you just do what you have to do for the people who can't

you have to do for the people who can't

you have to do for the people who can't speak up for themselves can't advocate

speak up for themselves can't advocate

speak up for themselves can't advocate for themselves and i hope

for themselves and i hope

for themselves and i hope that

that

that my work will not be in vain i know that

my work will not be in vain i know that

my work will not be in vain i know that there's a tremendous backlash right now

there's a tremendous backlash right now

there's a tremendous backlash right now um by the religious right

um by the religious right

um by the religious right in jamaica against the advances that

in jamaica against the advances that

in jamaica against the advances that we've made

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i really hope to stay here

i really hope to stay here

i really hope to stay here but i don't want to put

but i don't want to put

but i don't want to put my family at risk

by being in montego bay

by being in montego bay

by being in montego bay so

so

so that

that

that is the more important thing to me

is the more important thing to me

is the more important thing to me i don't want them to be exposed to

i don't want them to be exposed to

i don't want them to be exposed to anything unpleasant

tom

can you come a minute please

can you come a minute please

can you come a minute please if i were single

if i were single

if i were single this would have played out very

this would have played out very

this would have played out very differently

differently

differently i'm glad i'm married i'm glad i have

i'm glad i'm married i'm glad i have

i'm glad i'm married i'm glad i have someone who loves me enough to go

someone who loves me enough to go

someone who loves me enough to go through

through

through this process with me

that's it i think

i fought too hard to establish myself as

i fought too hard to establish myself as

i fought too hard to establish myself as a gay man

a gay man

a gay man in a relationship that

in a relationship that

in a relationship that is of my own choosing and one that i'm

is of my own choosing and one that i'm

is of my own choosing and one that i'm proud of and i don't want to push

proud of and i don't want to push

proud of and i don't want to push any part of it back into the shadows

jamaica is more than island

jamaica is more than island

jamaica is more than island sun fun and beaches

but no matter where you go in the world

but no matter where you go in the world

but no matter where you go in the world no matter what happened you're still

no matter what happened you're still

no matter what happened you're still gonna miss where you're from you know

gonna miss where you're from you know

gonna miss where you're from you know i just want to you know go back go to j

i just want to you know go back go to j

i just want to you know go back go to j flag sit down in the office that i used

flag sit down in the office that i used

flag sit down in the office that i used to sit in and just kind of breathe in

to sit in and just kind of breathe in

to sit in and just kind of breathe in and look around and pop back out

but um i know i can't

but um i know i can't

but um i know i can't so what do you do you just have to stay

so what do you do you just have to stay

so what do you do you just have to stay but and keep missing it

deep breath

arrival three

arrival three

arrival three alright

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okay

okay

okay [Music]

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[Music] mommy don't cry

mommy don't cry

mommy don't cry [Music]

what do you look for

what do you look for

what do you look for all right

okay

enjoy your mom okay and thanks for

enjoy your mom okay and thanks for

enjoy your mom okay and thanks for everything

oh i'm a friend

oh i'm a friend

oh i'm a friend this susan

cake

cake

cake [Laughter]

[Laughter]

[Laughter] [Music]

don't cry

don't cry

don't cry okay

what was the flag

what was the flag

what was the flag asleep

asleep

asleep [Music]

i love you

i love you

i love you stop by the whole sheridan

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come on

come on

come on come on

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[Music] okay you're home

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[Music] good

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[Music] so

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[Music] a speed keep coming

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[Music] okay don't know ah

all right

all right

all right [Music]

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