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[Teal Swan] I want to start with a meditation for you.

So, if everybody could close their eyes...

Drop into this meditation by watching your breath.

Just watch your natural rhythm.

As you exhale, feel yourself drifting

into a state of deep presence.

Allow yourself to consider that there are

two kinds of connections that we form with other people.

There's the connection that's positive,

which feels like love. Joyous times spent together,

care, fondness, and so much more.

And there is a connection that is negative,

that feels like fear, worry,

obligation, desperation,

jealousy, and so much more.

It appears like a cord between you and another person.

Now, see one person in your life

who you are attached to by one of these cords,

and accept that this person is someone with whom

you have a painful bond.

Why might you have allowed them to attach this cord to you?

What are you afraid will happen if this cord isn't there?

Imagine the cord falling from the other person.

Feel yourself being set free from your painful bond.

You are now ready to return to the full waking state.

Gently open your eyes.

♪♪

[exhaling]

-[Teal] Blake! -[sighs]

[Teal] Blake, where are you?

[Teal] I am hoping that this private investigator

we hired will get somewhere.

I need to get this horrible slander piece on me taken down.

So if we can do something with her,

then people will probably be shutting me out less,

which I'm really hoping happens.

[squeaky yawn]

Should I be afraid of her, or is she nice?

Hi, Joy. You're back!

You've been gone for three days, you had me worried.

I thought the raccoons got ya.

There you go, sweetheart. Yum.

-[video call sound] -[Molly Monahan] So, well, I'm thrilled,

uh, to finally have the opportunity

to speak with you. This has been a long, uh,

a long process, um...

So, my job was to--

Investigate everything.

[Molly] Right. I'm-- you know, I'm coming from a place

where you hired me to be honest, and I feel

it's important for me to check in with you.

-OK. - So, here's the deal.

Um, "Does she cause suicide?

Is she a cult?" No, maybe.

And I wanted you to hear that from me before I start

writing this up, that, um, your non-negotiable list

-kinda solidified that for me. -[Teal] OK.

And I need to delve deeper into that honestly.

[Teal] Let's do it, then.

OK, so, I'm kind of interested in the--

in the headquarters and your relationship

with your core group,

what your expectations are of them--

-Uh-huh. - And what, um, and...

[Teal] So do you want me to answer your question?

- Yeah. -[Teal] There's no real division for me,

in my life, for somebody who's really, you know,

this focused on what they're focused on.

There's no, like, work/life balance. It's--

Everything I do in my life is always feeding into the work,

and vice-versa. So, anybody who's really close to me,

it doesn't really work to have relationships unless

they're kind of on the boat, because I'm not gonna--

it's not gonna be equal, honestly.

- Mm-hmm. -With me, if that makes sense.

Kinda. So, would you say that you have

the total and only answer?

-No. - Really?

-Yeah. - I thought it was your vision.

[Teal] Yeah, but I'm the people--

But basically, you're the driving force.

No. I wouldn't say that I'm the driving force.

I would say that people's life experience

is the driving force.

- OK, let's go to number two. -OK.

"Attempts to isolate from existing close relationships,

friends, and family, cut family ties."

Um, you alluded to that earlier on, you know,

if you're gonna be here, you're gonna have

to limit your relationships--

That's not what I said.

- Um... -No. I-- Totally the opposite.

Totally the opposite of that. I-- I have no interest

in limiting people's relationships. I would love it

if they were able to have as close relationships as possible.

I want to facilitate that. But what I encourage the most

is to see everybody in existence as one human family,

so that's why it's almost like the vision for the world

is-- is one tribe.

If somebody resists buying into the mission,

are they countered with questions of their own belief

in theirself or their own, um, selfishness,

like you're not willing to commit to the cause, or--?

-[Teal] No. - OK.

Um-- [clears throat] "Once you're in,

heavy pressure to stay in."

No. [nervous chuckle]

You're-- You're stepping into a territory

that really frustrates me, and I literally don't know

what the answer is, because anything

that causes people pain is my interest

to find a solution to those things.

Mmkay. Um... OK.

You have a heavy schedule, and uh, I'm at the very end

of my investigation. I'll wrap up what I've got,

and then if I hear from you again, I hear from you again.

-[Teal] OK. -[video chat sign off noise]

-I'm not happy after that. -[Matthias Deffner] Yeah, no, I--

That's not an acceptable thing I just heard from her.

Yeah, I'm nervous. I mean, now it's clear for

she's coming from, you know, we shouldn't publish this.

-That's why-- -[Teal] You fix this shit, Matthias.

Yes.

[Teal] How I am represented is a very big deal to me.

-Yes. -[Teal] I am trusting you to do that

so I can focus on my work.

Like, I lost trust for you and Blake, just now, again.

-[Matthias] Yes. -Yeah.

[Teal] I did not say what she said I said.

"You can't have relationships and be part of this."

I don't understand what these people want my answers to be.

"No, I'm not actually very dedicated to this.

No, I don't expect the people around me

to be dedicated to this. No, I don't think it's a problem

if they have partners that are completely incompatible

-to this." -[sighs]

[Teal] What do they [bleep] want?

[Blake]

[sighs]

[fingernails clicking]

[sighs]

[birds chirping]

I have a question for you.

What would you make you go back to Germany?

What comes up is being completely alone.

[clock ticking loudly]

[clock chiming]

[Teal] I am really angry today.

I basically realized in the last few days

that it's-- it's because a personal truth

is not actually being shared.

There's a lot of reasons why. I mean, like,

people have many reasons why they resist a personal truth.

Whether it's to avoid consequences,

or because admitting to it is gonna make them feel bad

about themself, whatever it is.

Juliana. That's what's happening with you.

[sighs] You feel like an adversary to me,

and I need that to change.

[Tristen] Like, "enemy."

Opposing.

I need your truths on the table.

What you actually think about me, pretty [bleep] quick.

I can tell you've got all kinds of personal truths

about what you think is unhealed about me

and unhealthy about me, and unhealthy about

the company I run, unhealthy about the house I lead,

unhealthy about my dynamics with people.

It's literally unhealthy, unhealthy, unhealthy,

unhealthy, unhealthy-- [chuckles]

-[Juliana grunts] -Yeah, thi-this is

what you've been doing since the minute you landed.

You keep insulting me. It's all over your energy field.

So I suggest you talk about that.

What do you feel when you hear that, Juliana?

[Teal] That is-- because if you weren't aware,

you have this smirk on your face.

A smirk? No, I'm...

I'm afraid, actually.

[Teal] You should be.

Do you know what would be interesting to me, actually?

Is based off of the interaction that you and I have had,

what you think your attitude towards me is

and what every other person here

thinks your attitude towards me is.

What I think of you is that you're, like,

really clear on what you want and where you want to go

in your life, and that you have, like,

a very clear commitment to your mission.

But in general, like...

You are a powerful person.

All right, let's go to somebody else, then.

'Cause that was a very toned down,

very sweet, very sugarcoated answer.

[sighs]

[Matthias] I do feel that you really wanted

to be part of this. I think that, uh, the mission

is fascinating for you. You say she's powerful,

but I feel you see a negative power in her.

Unfortunately, I don't think you see that Teal

actually has your best interest,

and there's no resolution if you don't

recognize authority. [sighs]

[Tristen] I think you think that she doesn't care about people.

I think you think she's hungry for power.

I think you think she's manipulative

with her sexuality.

[Teal] Your turn, Sky.

I think you hate Teal on one level.

Like, you're envious of her.

I think you feel threatened by her.

I think you're afraid of her. [clears throat]

I think you want what she has.

[Blake] Damn, Sky.

Just sound you listed, like, every bad thing

you could think of. I don't know.

You think I support and add to painful suffering in the world.

You think that I'm an attention whore.

You think I'm narcissist.

You think I control others,

even the way they see things.

You think I'm too masculine, too harsh, not very nice,

don't care about people, manipulate Blake.

I'm tyrannical, have the wrong values, use people.

I hurt myself and others. I'm power-hungry

and responsible for the power struggles

between you and me. I want everyone for myself.

I surround myself with enablers. That I'm very powerful,

that I'm very talented, that I have

a very meaningful mission. How conflicting.

That's what I get to live with in the room with me every day.

And somehow, you're the one being attacked.

[Blake] Well, the point of this was to bring it up, right?

And then to deal with it, or...

I don't know, what was the point of this?

I don't know, Blake, what was the point of this?

[muffled chatter]

[sighs]

[both lightly panting]

[car passing]

[dog whimpering]

[breathing heavily]

[exclaims]

[Matthias] OK, so, well, we have to make a meeting

where we can see how we can transfer everything

so we can take over.

[Teal] That really pisses me off.

This operates, this whole thing operates

according to the 18-year promise that we made each other, Blake.

The promise that we're on the boat,

and we're gonna do this together,

and that's our life.

And this has broken my heart.

Mine, too.

[Teal] I think you're weak.

That's my honest truth.

I think you lack bravery.

I think you lack honor.

But you've made your bed, and now you get to lie in it.

He who chooses a weak path does not become

a match to greatness.

[sighs]

I have no patience for this anymore.

If you want to flip the favor around,

like you guys have been doing to me,

the level of [bleep] judgment you have on me

being a narcissistic bitch,

you're a [bleep] absolute loser.

Always will be.

Never forget those words.

[Blake] Think I'll pack the rest of this stuff

and head out.

K.

OK.

Love you.

[sighs]

[sighs]

OK. Bye.

I'm just gonna be downstairs for a little longer.

[door closes]

[Blake] Do you need any help?

I don't know.

[Blake] Here we are.

[water running]

Can I help you with that?

[sighs] I don't...

Oh, [bleep].

Oh, no.

Oh, shit.

[gasps]

[bleep]

Oh, no.

[Juliana] Oh, shit.

[Blake groans]

I think she's still alive.

I can feel her...

just barely.

[sniffles]

[car passing, horn honking]

[sniffles]

[crying]

[breathing heavily]

[knife scraping]

[sighs]

[water running]

[Blake] I am posting in the Teal Tribe

about how I'm stepping back from Teal Eye.

OK.

There it is.

Jesus Christ.

-[alert sound] -Oh, there we go. There it is.

[alert sound]

Here's our first "sad face."

"Thank you, Blake Dyer, for all that you have done for Teal,

the team, and the tribe. I can imagine

it's a tough decision to make. Wish you all the best

and support you in following your happiness."

Like, this, like, this is-- this is men.

This is men that are encouraging him

abandoning me because of high pressure.

I want you to sit with that for a minute.

[sighs]

[alert sound]

[Blake] "I wish you and your wife

a meaningful journey together

in your new path." Hm.

All these people are, like, wishing him and his wife

a wonderful life together, and if they really knew

what had happened here, they'd be wanting her dead.

They would.

[alerts dinging]

[Blake] Oh, my gosh. It is so many messages.

[chuckles]

Uh, "Spreading lots of love, Blake.

Thanks for all you've done for us.

These past 10 years of following Teal's content

would not have been the same without you so happy.

See you following your heart."

I have not been able to cry about this.

At all.

It just-- it feels like war. It feels like

this is not a space to cry. It feels like

the person closest to you just completely

[bleep] your life and dealt you the worst hand

that anybody's ever dealt you before. And I--

In, like, full-blown...

How do we survive this situation as a group?

How do we get out of this financially?

How do we protect ourselves legally?

This is, like, a nightmare. [sighs]

I built every relationship in my life

on top of this one. Because I didn't trust at all,

and he's the one that taught me how to trust,

and he's ruined it all. So, for 18 years, I was like--

I mean, I can't tell you how many-- in the beginning,

how many therapists were like, "You have to trust this person.

This person has proven that he will never leave you.

This person is the person you have to open up to.

Stop being like you are, stop distrusting people."

To the point where I was like, "All right,

I'm gonna have to accept that he's proven himself."

So I built my life on the foundation

of Blake Dyer as my family.

He's broken every [bleep] promise he made.

What is it that I should've done

to make Blake feel valued or to make Blake value this more?

Or love me more? Like, what is it

that I should've done? I know the most dangerous thing

in the world is to think you're the good guy.

So I'm awake at night doubting myself,

because that's what I teach other people to [bleep] do.

Consider that maybe you're not the good guy.

That's the only way you're gonna be able

to change your behavior, to make relationships work

in the future. The thing is, I can't figure out

what the [bleep] to change, so... [sighs]

[Teal] Hello, everyone. Today's about

how to express emotion.

Emotions are energy, and energy has to go somewhere.

So when you suppress that energy, your emotions,

instead of express that energy, it sits in your body

and rots it from within.

My life purpose and mission is to find an answer to suffering.

The only emotions that you can heal are the ones

that you let yourself feel and let yourself express.

The negative emotions which we're experiencing

are not completely negative. And when we're running away

from those emotions, we are running away from ourselves.

[panting]

[Teal] So I think that it's time that we do the opposite,

that we learn how to positively embrace

our negative emotions as a part of our living,

breathing experience. So try this process.

I hope it benefits you. Have a good week.

[breathing heavily]

-OK, you guys ready? -Mm-hmm.

Here's the problem we get to address today,

is the fact that I am not protected.

-Mm-hmm. -[Teal] If any member of my team

finds a partner, it's like I don't even have the option

to put up any boundaries around that person

if they're totally incompatible to what I'm doing,

and I don't get to say anything about it.

Otherwise, I'm the nightmare.

-[Matthias] Yeah. -[Graci] Yeah.

I want you to be able to get partners, but I also,

given what's previously happened,

don't really want you to have partners.

'Cause this has just been such a problem for me.

Yeah.

[Teal] What all of you are is, you're either

my greatest protection or my greatest liability.

I need you to see that today. So what we're trying to do

is make up a contact, make you not a liability.

All right, so how do you keep me safe?

[Cyan] So, I feel like what we need to do as team members

is choose what consequences we say yes to

upon bringing a partner into this circle.

Yeah. Basically, what this boils down to

is I need to be able to get rid of you

if you bring somebody close that's dangerous to me.

Mm-hmm. Yeah.

So how about this? Agreement number one,

we're the ones holding the boundaries for it.

-This is what we stand for. -[Teal] Mm-hmm.

[Graci] This is what we want to do with our life.

And putting the pressure on our partner to choose that.

The problem I keep running into is that people on my team

don't understand the necessity for these--

these non-negotiables and rules of fame.

[Graci] So number two is

the non-negotiables are non-negotiable.

[Teal] And so does any partner you have.

-[Graci] Yeah. -The partner signs up to the non-negotiables.

-[Teal] They have to, yeah. -[Graci] Yeah.

[Graci]

[exhales sharply]

I can't be kept awake at 3:00 in the [bleep] morning

before an interview by a-- a screaming baby.

[Graci] All the girls here are on board.

We're not having kids.

[Teal] Mm-hmm. We need to write this down.

I want this to be part of the contact.

[keyboard clacking]

[keyboard clacking]

OK, so...

[man on computer] Where is the Ark?

"Where is the Ark?" This is what comes to my mind

when I'm asked, what do I think is going to happen

with my report after I submit it.

And, uh, this scene says it well.

♪♪

[laughs]

-[chuckling] -[mouse clicking]

That's all I've got to say about that. [laughs]

[Molly] They made it clear that they don't wanna

look at what I've found. But it's frustrating

to work this hard on something,

and though I am not attached to outcome,

it's gonna get shelved.

"When we only do things that please us

and don't frighten us, over time,

fewer and fewer things please us.

Until we find ourselves prisoners

in gardens of our own making."

[Master of Ceremonies] OK, guys, it is time to acknowledge

the extraordinary contributions of all of your great minds

in the healthcare industry. Please join me in welcoming

the oh-so-amazing Teal Swan, owner and founder

- of Teal Eye LLC. Give it up. -[applause]

[Molly] This is where I believe Teal Swan has buried herself,

in a prison of her own making.

[man]

[clamoring, cheering]

[Matthias] Congratulations. Over 150 million views.

[Tristen] Thanks for saving all of our lives.

[Molly] I have no way of knowing the ultimate effect

that Teal Swan is having on all these different orbits

of people around her, but I'm concerned

about her followers.

'Cause these are fragile people.

For some of them, she is all they have.

[Cyan] Congratulations. We are certifying you

in the completion process.

-[shrieks] -Well done.

I can't believe it!

So pretty soon, you're gonna get an invite from us

to the CPC worldwide network, so we're gonna connect you

with all the other certified practitioners

all around the globe that have also passed.

We'd happy to have you be part of the family.

[Molly] You're never completely whole

when you separate from somebody you're that entwined with.

When you leave, you almost have to become somebody else.

But you have the power to change who you are.

And I think it helps to know that you can do that.

[woman speaking German over P.A.]

Hi!

[Juliana speaking German]

[both laugh]

Hi, my love!

[both laughing]

Hi!

[Juliana's Mom]

[laughs]

[no dialogue]

[no dialogue]

[speaking German]

[sniffles]

[speaking German]

[speaking German]

[speaking German]

[speaking German]

[Teal] If I was to show you an image of the average person,

they're walking around like a hollow shell.

Loneliness is the epidemic on this planet.

I don't want to live in the world like that.

A person does not go looking for God

unless they were missing something in humanity.

You don't go looking for God unless people have failed you.

What I've found is an answer to that suffering.

What I've found was the place that I fit in.

You realize that's everything.

Finding meaning for your suffering is everything.

[Cyan] So who's ready to dive in?

[cheering, applause]

All right, without further ado,

we introduce to you, Teal Swan.

[cheering, applause]

[Teal] Wow. OK.

By raise of hands, who here feels like

they're in pain and like there's no way out of it?

["Yo! My Saint" by Karen O playing]

♪ Don't you tell another lie ♪

♪ Don't you tell another truth ♪

♪ My heart, it isn't bulletproof ♪

♪ From visions of you ♪

♪ Forget 'em, get 'em, get 'em ♪

♪ I used to rule the streets ♪

♪ I was young enough to know that ♪

♪ There was something to believe in ♪

♪ Now I'm tired of the lies they tell ♪

♪ I'm trying to disguise myself ♪

♪ The perfect crime that I'll commit ♪

♪ Is loving you despite all of it ♪