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How's that for a view?

It's the Cambridge side of the Charles,

so you can pretend you went to Harvard with me.

Oh, Kev, did you hear that?

Jon went to Harvard.

Oh, really?

He'd like you to know that he went to Harvard.

It's Har... Harvard.

Okay, two things.

One, you're not staring at a blank wall anymore.

And two, you're gonna beat this.

- Mm. - You are.

Just watch. You're gonna outlive me.

You're gonna be here long after I'm gone telling people...

You went to Harvard.

People need to know.

So get better, okay?

As soon as you do, we're gonna rent one of those boats,

and we're gonna go out on that water.

The only thing that's gonna make you vomit is seasickness

or one too many mimosas.

Donny, if you pull the trigger now, you get nothing.

How do I know that I'm gonna get something?

No, I told you, the subway vote is back on.

I can't wait for that, Ashley.

Oh, really? After all the business

that Jon has thrown your way,

you're just gonna, what,

sit there and screw his family over?

Just let me... Let me see what I can do.

Yeah, "see what you can do."

Hey.

Hey.

You wanna get a drink?

Yeah. Yeah, I do.

Hey.

Eddie. Uh, what are you doing here?

Uh, the question is, what are you doing here?

You're supposed to be watching our son.

Instead, I find him at home with your new boyfriend?

First of all, Hunter's not my boyfriend.

He is a colleague

who is graciously helping me out.

Second, this is my time with Theo.

Well... I think the point is

that we need to communicate better.

Like how I found out from Regina that Delilah's pregnant?

Look, I know the baby's Jon's.

I would have liked to have heard that from you.

You're right,

and I'm sorry.

But Theo needs us, especially now,

and when he can't be with you,

I would like for him to be with me.

What?

All I want is to be with him.

Hey. I got to get back to work.

Grief is complicated,

and it's often exacerbated by external factors.

Every state, with the exception of Utah,

is, um...

You know, th...

This is not about, um... a study.

Um...

When I was 22,

I lost my best friend...

My brother.

He was your age.

Any one of you could have been his friend,

could have been the one

to stop him from drinking and getting in that car,

but you didn't.

And neither did I.

I'm ashamed to admit this,

but when I first got that call,

I felt relief.

I didn't have to keep checking my phone,

wondering if it was gonna be the hospital

saying that he hurt someone or himself,

and that relief...

uh, just makes me feel worse.

I have so many feelings that I haven't processed

because I am...

...too ashamed to admit that I have them.

And that is complicated bereavement.

Uh-huh.

Partner blazer.

Oh, that's right. The big interview is today.

So, when they put your name on the door,

you still gonna talk to me?

Okay, what happened? Where'd you go?

Uh, I don't know.

Every day since law school,

I've been working so hard to make partner,

and now it's on my doorstep.

How do I take it,

knowing it'll pull me away from Theo even more?

You know what I would do?

Trust your gut.

It continues to amaze me.

That settles it.

If I make partner, I'll still talk to you.

All right, let's do this.

We're gonna party!

Cancer-free, one year, people.

Thank you very much.

Sorry if that's too much information,

but it's true.

Seriously, let's get crazy.

Oh, what exactly is crazy?

Dancing on the bar?

Mm, not with those heels,

and not with this body.

What else do we got?

Shots? Are shots still a thing?

Can we get two shots of tequila?

Something nice?

Oh, in fact, shots for everybody.

Wow, my voice really carries.

Maybe, um, take it down a shelf for the rest of the group?

Thanks, man.

And...

- To? - Remission.

Living.

- You know... - Mm.

When I was going through chemo,

I was pretty convinced I was gonna die.

But Jon was so determined.

Never seen him fight harder to close a deal.

Told me I was gonna outlive him,

that I would be around long after he was gone

reminding people that he...

Oh, my God.

- Gary. - Oh, my God.

Do you think he was telling me?

There's no way Jon was planning it for that long.

That was a year ago. That's crazy.

Right?

Was he trying to tell me?

I ask myself the same thing every day.

What did we miss, Ashley? What didn't we see?

Is there a side to Jon that we didn't know,

or at least that I didn't know?

I mean, you were on every call. You saw everything.

Hell, you knew my chemo schedule better than I did.

Was there anything, any sign?

Was he having financial troubles?

Do... Do you think...

Think he was having an affair?

I wasn't gonna say anything, and... and look,

maybe this isn't anything to begin with.

But did Jon ever mention a Barbara Morgan?

No.

No.

Outside of Delilah,

you're the only woman in his life.

Who is Barbara Morgan?

I don't know.

Really.

He... He just kicked me off a call one time,

and he's only done that a handful of times.

I'm sure it's nothing.

I... Just... I'm looking for answers, too.

Okay.

Just take a break, all right,

'cause the Bruins are gonna take the ice in 15 minutes.

The guys bailed on me.

Would you like to go to the game?

I saw your key chain.

I didn't realize you were a fan.

Yeah.

Yeah, sure.

Great.

Take your call.

I'm gonna take a leak.

Unless you think that's gross,

in which case, just pretend I didn't say it.

Say what?

Hello?

Yeah, I'm with him.

Love it.

Man, I ate a banana. I'm full of potassium.

What's next on the lesson plan, Pop?

What are these?

Dad...

I tried, man.

I... I tried to be the man you taught me to be.

I tried not to ask for help...

Help for what?

Sometimes I get really sad for no reason.

Actually, a lot of times.

I have clinical depression.

I've had it for a while.

I know that you... you...

You want to teach me how to fix the sink,

but me taking those pills,

quitting my job,

that's me trying to fix me.

Do they help?

Y... My doctor says it's a process,

but they... T-they seem to be.

So you're seeing a shrink?

Yes.

It's something I need to do.

Nice job with the sink.

I had no idea about your brother.

Is he the reason why you don't drive?

You know, it's taken me almost six years

to even be able to say that stuff out loud.

There are things I don't think

I'll ever be able to say out loud.

When I first met you,

you said what you needed was a time machine.

Where would you go if you had one?

I... I'd go back two years ago.

That's...

That's when I lost him,

when he became distant

and buried himself in work.

He shut me out.

Everybody thinks that I cheated on Jon,

but...

He left me.

He left me two years ago for reasons I just...

I still don't understand.

And then he just...

He left me again seven weeks ago,

not for someone, just for nothing.

When you asked me why I wasn't ready

to take my ring off earlier...

'cause I should have either taken it off two years ago

or fought for him.

And so, Katherine, I'll make this quick.

We couldn't be more thrilled to welcome you

as the newest partner at Newman, Duffy, and Han.

- Congratulations. - That is amazing.

I've wanted this for so long.

I would be thrilled to accept.

Great.

I just have one request.

I know it's unusual, but it's non-negotiable.

Every night, from 6:00 to 8:00,

I need to be off the grid.

I'll work long into the night, every day,

like I have for the past nine years.

But I need to be home for dinner with my son every night.

Well...

We'll need to discuss it with the partner committee.

Of course.

Thank you.

- Thank you. - Thank you.

Now Rask's not gonna be in goal tonight.

- Thank you. - That's fantastic.

You know, it doesn't matter.

Doesn't matter. We're still gonna win.

You got to support your B's, am I right?

Why are we at my place?

I just need to make one quick stop.

Oh, Ash, I...

I'm sorry. You know what?

I think I've misled you about what this is and...

Oh. Oh, Gary, no.

I think I may have misled you.

Surprise!

All right! One year cancer-fr!

Whoo!

Take that, cancer!

- Happy remission! - All right!

- One year cancer-free! - Happy remission!

Okay, wait... wait a minute.

Just wait a minute.

You... You said you had a guitar lesson.

Yes. "Pinball Wizard."

That is this lesson.

And all this time, you've been saying

you had to go to Dave Matthews?

Let's be clear.

I am never going to see Dave Matthews.

Wow. This... This is amazing.

What's amazing is getting us all together

to finally celebrate something happy.

You didn't have to do all this.

That's what makes it such a sweet gesture.

Congratulations.

Right?

By the way, Rome, I love Dave Matthews.

Dave Matthews is actually talented.

I hate knowing Dave Matthews.

Speech. Speech!

- Speech! - What?

Uh... I just, uh...

Excuse me.

Not exactly sure what's going on in that head of yours.

But I just wanted to say that I love you,

and I'm happy you're still on this planet.

Thanks, D.

But he should be here, too.

Yeah.

Word on the street is

you've been storming out of rooms a lot today.

What? No.

I'm just trying to get my 10,000 steps.

You're allowed to be angry.

You're allowed to feel whatever...

Whatever it is that you feel.

So, this is the widow helping the friend grieve?

It's not my best moment.

All I'm saying is,

we all have different ways of coping.

Here's mine.

Oh, God.

Okay, you guys want a speech?

Here we go. Here's a speech.

Thank you all very much for this party.

It's amazing.

Probably doesn't seem like I mean that,

but I do, truly.

I just... Apparently, I'm angry right now, right?

Shocker.

And I am.

I'm... I'm... I'm unbelievably angry,

but not at you.

You guys have all been amazing.

I mean, should we have scalped the Bruins tickets?

Probably. You get it.

Katherine, you took off work. That never happens.

Thank you.

This is all...

...so sweet.

But I'm so angry at the person who is not here.

I am so angry at Jon.

And you... yeah, you...

You gave the eulogy, and that was crazy,

because everybody knows that I'm funnier.

But... it was beautiful,

and you knocked it out of the park.

And I'm glad it was you because, you know...

You know what would have happened if it was me?

I would've done this.

Gary, no!

I would've done that!

And I would've talked about

how Jon fought so hard to help me live

and how he came to the treatment center so often

that the other patients thought that he had cancer, too.

You, Jon, you...

You went through the whole thing with me,

and you convinced me...

You convinced me to live,

and then you left me.

We were supposed to go on these little boats together.

That's so stupid.

We made plans,

and I thought they were the same plans,

and apparently they were not.

That's what I get for making plans.

- I'm sorry. - It's okay.

It's okay.

It's okay.

What are you doing?

Oh, I'm sorry.

I didn't realize you were off your call.

Hey, two-player. Come on.

All right.

You may have beaten cancer today, Gary,

but you're not gonna beat me.

Correction...

We beat cancer.

Actually, I beat cancer.

You just got skinny and bald.

Oh, my God!

The game hasn't even started,

and there's already a fight breaking out.

- Whoa! - Aah!

I forgot, you were on the pillow-fighting team at Harvard.

No, I was on the wrestling team at Harvard.

No. You were the captain of the pillow-fight...

Oh, oh, what is this?

Pretty good.

Right?

Next time, I'll call the super.

Thank you.

How are you feeling?

You know...

I met the most amazing man of my life

when I was 30 seconds old.

He doesn't get my life.

And it's hard, you know, 'cause...

...I wanted him to be okay with this,

and he's not.

I've spent my whole life...

...proud to be his son, and...

I just want him to be proud to be my dad.

Here's the deal, babe.

I get that you want him to respect you.

But he's not gonna be able to do that

until you respect yourself.

And you did that today.

It'll come in time.

I am so proud of you.

It's too sticky.

Just needs more flour.

Ah, perfect, perfect.

Theo, you're allowed to be my assistant.

Best Chewbacca voice gets to crank the dough first.

Ready? Go.

Nice.

What can I say?

The Force is strong in me.

Yeah.

Is this the call?

- Yeah. - Good luck.

Hi, Henry.

Katherine, we would love to make you partner.

That is great.

But we can't accept your condition.

We need someone who is fully committed to the job.

Now, you think about it tonight,

let me know in the morning?

I will.

Thanks.

So, what'd he say?

He said I didn't make partner.

Then why are you smiling?

'Cause I just got my life back.

Hey, Keith.

I thought about it.

Let's do it.

Hey, you're looking good.

Let me know if you need anything else, okay?

♪ Na-na, na-na, na-na-na ♪

Thanks.

♪ Mack-le-eh-eh-eh-eh-more ♪

♪ Can we go back? ♪

♪ This is the moment ♪

♪ Tonight is the night ♪

♪ We'll fight till it's over ♪

♪ So we put our hands up ♪

♪ Like the ceiling can't hold us ♪

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