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(pounding drums)

We love you GG!

GG! GG! GG! GG!

Here is the, er, resting area of GG Allin. Right here.

This was where his headstone... stood

until some jackass knocked it off the platform here.

And then, er, the Catholic priest decided to keep it,

hold it hostage in the basement of the church for...

oh, seems like two or three years.

I wanna forget about that stone.

I haven't been to the cemetery for two years

because it hurts to go without that stone there.

I've been going there since I was 17

to see my father with that stone.

And now when that stone isn't there it hurts when I go.

It hurts because of all this foolishness

with GG Allin and Merle.

All the stupidness is the reason that stone is not there.

(punk rock music plays on stereo)

We're going to see GG Allin's grave.

And where is it?

We think we found it. It's up by...

We gotta park on the road and walk down to it.

- OK, and why did you come? - We're climbing Mt Washington

but, er, if you're in the area you've gotta stop here.

All right. We're gonna go check it out.

♪ Because everybody loves That I'm a scumbag ♪

♪ I like sluts and hoes And I don't care ♪

♪ You can say just what you want to say about me ♪

♪ But if I hear you ♪

♪ I'm just gonna knock you off your chair ♪

People have been coming here for 20 years

to pay their respects.

(guitar plays, singing continues)

(man burps)

Some of 'em are respectful, some of 'em are just assholes

and they fuck everything up in the cemetery.

Sometimes it's due to the fact that the fans are just a little

over the top at points.

(man cheers) (clapping, whistling)

Everybody knew where the stone was,

they were coming from Canada.

You don't want people to come

and piss and shit all over your grave.

I told the police, I'd go down, shoot 'em in the ass.

I was gonna take my gun, go down and shoot 'em.

They said, "You can't do that." I said, "You watch me."

You want me to go piss

on your fucking mother's grave, asshole?

I don't give a fuck.

- Get over there and help him. - He's spitting on it.

I saw you spitting on it.

Not another fucking word out of you.

♪ Snakeman's Dance ♪

♪ I'm a snake, cold and hard ♪

♪ I reveal nothing to you ♪

♪ You only see What I want you to see ♪

♪ My attack will leave no clues ♪

♪ You'll never know What I'm thinking ♪

♪ You'll not penetrate my layers of skin ♪

♪ But when I'm triggered And on the edge ♪

♪ My bite will suck you in... ♪

I hated GG Allin.

I loved Kevin but I hated GG Allin.

And there is a Kevin, and there is a GG.

He wasted his talent, he killed himself.

What mother wants that?

♪ To my underwood ♪

♪ I'll lead you to romantic thoughts ♪

♪ As I strip you to the bone... ♪

There was nobody closer to me than GG.

And pretty much vice versa in most of our lives.

♪ But when it's all been said and done... ♪

I admired him for his music

and his talent and his intelligence

and all that. But, I mean, first an foremost,

he was the best brother you could ever want.

♪ Now you've met the Snakeman ♪

♪ How did I make you feel? ♪

♪ I'm a snake, cold and hard ♪

♪ I reveal nothing to you ♪

♪ You only see What I want you to see ♪

♪ My attack will leave no clue ♪

♪ You'll never know What I'm thinking ♪

♪ You'll not penetrate my layers of skin ♪

♪ But when I'm triggered And on the edge ♪

♪ My bite will suck you... ♪

♪ ...in ♪

Hey, Merle, wait. Merry Christmas!

Oh, thank you. Thank you so much!

- I've got something for you. - Oh, you are so sweet.

- Oh, my God! - Yes, enjoy.

- Thank you so much! - Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas.

- You're a good neighbor. - Thank you very much.

- Bye. - Thank you.

(melodic acoustic guitar plays)

(country music plays on stereo)

Everybody loves GG, so I keep his legacy going

by pimping his shit.

It definitely helps me be able to survive and, er,...

While I'm spreading the word, I'm surviving as well

and being able to live the kind of life that I wanna live.

All right, we have a customer from Canada here

that wants to know if I can ship something to Canada.

"Son, I can ship something up the fucking crack of your ass

if you want me to."

These are some of the pictures that I paint.

This is just an original. I painted that.

I saw a picture and I painted it.

I don't pretend to be an artist.

I just paint for the fun of it. I have a good time.

Merle wanted me to do pictures of gravestones

and things like that and, er,...

I don't think that anybody would buy them for the picture.

They buy them because I'm GG Allins' mother.

I need to... try to forget Kevin Allin.

I don't need to be reminded every day that he's dead.

It's hurtful. It hurts my heart.

And I have enough heart problems,

so I don't need to think about that all the time.

So here we are. We've entered the music room.

This is the room where I keep all the GG CDs,

the DVDs, the video, records, the patches, the stickers,

things like that.

A lot of GG Allin merchandise.

Bumper stickers, stuff like that.

Kevin is still alive to him.

It's almost like not wanting to admit your brother's dead.

And if you stop selling his things,

and stop talking about him, he would be gone.

GG and I were, like, real close from the time we were born.

We lived in a log cabin.

All alone in the woods without any phone

or any way to get anywhere.

Don't ever remember having people over to our house.

There's no room for company.

We were very poor. Very, very poor.

Because their father didn't work

and he always had to have a new truck.

We didn't have a lot of money

for anything else.

Me and my brother entertained ourselves

the best way we could.

This is my secret GG Allin room.

This is... where I keep

my brother's memory alive

with pictures and photo albums

full of scrap book memorabilia

and stuff like that,

some of his prison artwork.

This room is pretty much off limits to everybody.

This is my secret... escape room

for just me and my brother.

(doorbell rings)

Hello, sir.

- Nice to see you. again. - You too. Come on in.

Follow me, I think it's in here.

- This is a shirt that GG wore. - Oh, shit.

It's got a bit of a hole in the back,

but that's GG's shirt.

Wow, man, I am touching history right here.

Holy shit, that's pretty insane.

I'm so interested in that.

Like I said they're, you know, expensive, you know.

Yeah.

The first ten years, I grew up in the woods in New Hampshire.

With no running water, no heat, no, er, electricity.

And my father was a very violent man.

But that made me sort of a warrior soul in an early age.

When things started to be scary I left for the children.

I never saw him after that. I never talked to him.

Except when Kevin died.

He was the first person I called.

But he never showed up.

♪ rock music plays ♪

When my mother finally broke away from my father

and we ended up moving to Lancaster

and moving in with her mother,

we were like, "Wow, freedom, and excitement."

New adventures and socialising with people.

Like we'd been in prison since we were born.

♪ Watch me girls ♪

I had three jobs and the boys were alone a lot.

They didn't have my supervision like they should have had

because I had to work to support them.

♪ I don't know where to be found ♪

♪ Hanging out can surely get me down ♪

But I just gave them freedom to be themselves.

Once they got out on their own, they really used that freedom.

So what we would do is just steal,

break into houses or sell drugs.

Whatever we could do to make any kind of money at all.

We used to hitchhike to concerts all the time.

We saw Aerosmith, before they were huge.

And Alice Cooper in '72.

They were good kids. They did mischievous things.

I mean, they were not like your normal children.

We were totally all about rock'n'roll.

We lived it 24/7, every day.

Lance.

Yeah. It's, er, Merle Allin from The Murder Junkies.

I'm calling in regards to the show in Detroit.

I just wanna make sure that we're able

to keep the ticket price,

you know, around ten dollars or so.

So, we're not overcharging people.

All right, my friend, thanks.

Bye.

Refrigerator magnet.

I was at the record store and some fan gave me this, er,

little piece of paper. It says, "Top five rock'n'roll 'staches."

"Top five rock'n'roll 'staches."

Let's see what we going on here.

Frank Zappa, number five.

Frank Beard from ZZ Top, number four.

Freddie Mercury!

(laughs) That's fucking funny!

That is fucking great.

"For those who don't know Merle is the bassist

in controversial US punk band The Murder Junkies

and brother of the late infamous GG Allin."

If I'm gonna be number two,

I don't mind losing the number one spot to Lemmy.

That's fucking cool as fuck, right? (laughs)

One of our first bands was a band called Malpractice.

GG played drums, and I played the bass.

I would run the light show and do the sound.

I mean, we were... Like a family.

♪ Girls, girls, girls, girls Gimme, gimme, gimme ♪

We didn't really care what people thought about us.

Me especially, because I was never the popular kid.

I was always the outcast so...

Kevin had to imitate everything Merle did.

And it was kind of like,

everything Kevin did, Merle had to do too.

They were very competitive.

I started a band called Thrills.

We were very popular, riding high,

opening for all kinds of cool bands

like the Ramones, U2. We opened for The Cars.

You know, we were a headlining band.

Even when they got older,

Merle and Kevin tried to outdo each other with bands.

One, two, three, four!

♪ I am bored to death ♪

♪ Just so bored of the human race ♪

♪ I'm so bored with life ♪

♪ I don't care what I say ♪

The Jabbers were actually

the first punk rock band in Hampshire.

We wanted to play every club in town we hated.

We'd knock tables over,

get into as many fights as we could and get thrown out.

We didn't care because we hated the town.

♪ I am bored to death ♪

♪ And I don't know where it's headed to... ♪

Kevin could have chosen to be a good musician

instead of kill himself.

He had his choice, but he had to be the front runner.

Why couldn't I have had normal children?

I mean, you know, I'm a fairly normal person.

I may be a little... cookie

or different than some people

but I'm normal.

And I had these two kids.

What happened?

The generation that we're from, that kind of was the normal.

Abnormal was normal.

Jeepers, Lordie Lord.

How many times have I had the cops tell me to come home,

the neighbors are complaining?

I t was not a normal life.

And now I think, 'Oh, my God. Did we create monsters?'

Should I have been that kind of a mother that encouraged?

But they loved what they did. You know.

We tried to get them to be doctors,

lawyers, you know, whatever.

Guess what? No such luck.

You can't force a kid.

My son has short hair. He's more into sports than music.

I bought him a guitar, but he never really...

If a child really wants to do something, they will.

They'll find a way, one way or another.

You're a wonderful woman.

Thank you for coming. It's really good to see you.

It makes me feel good...

...to have somebody say that Kevin was a good musician.

- Not just a crazy man. - No. He had a good heart.

Down deep inside, I know he loved you.

I mean, everybody thinks he was just a nut,

but he was more than that.

He was a human being. He was a person.

And he was talented.

He really was talented.

And I'm here at the home of GG Allin,

the famous rock star.

Not me.

GG, where did the name GG come from?

That came because I'm Jesus Christ.

The son of son, the lord of lords,

the king of king, devil of devils.

Stay out of here!

We want no more troublemakers around here!

- Ain't heard the last of me! - Go home, will you?!

The '80s sucked.

♪ Me and the boys are ♪

♪ We're living for the night... ♪

I'd left Thrills. I wasn't even playing music.

I was married and miserable.

I was working two jobs to pay my bills.

My life sucked.

♪ We're looking for chicks And we're looking for kicks ♪

♪ We're living fast and...♪

GG was doing his thing.

♪ Live fast, die fast ♪

♪ Don't worry 'bout the crash ♪

At that point in his career, it was all about him.

♪ Hell bound on the coursecrash ♪

♪ Living in the alley with the rest of the trash ♪

Sometimes he'd have a good band,

sometimes he'd have a shitty band.

♪ We're never... ♪

I was so envious of what he was doing

because he was living this life that I wanted to live.

I was living the life that I always feared to be living.

♪ You'll never stop us now ♪

♪ When we're running the red light ♪

This is basically a script that, er,

was given to me by a couple of film-makers

who are trying to make a low-budget horror movie

based on GG...

...and the grave and all that good stuff so...

"Jesus Christ Allin.

The Cum-Back Tour." C-U-M.

Here comes Annie Teal.

Hi, Annie Teal.

Seven years ago, I saw The Murder Junkies.

And as I walked out, Merle was at the merch table.

There was just something there.

Two people with a lot in common.

There was just a connection there.

She is sort of like a Kevin to him.

The two of them... that's all they need is each other.

They don't seem to go out and socialize or do anything.

And I think that Annie Teal and he...

Like I say, she kind of took over Kevin's place.

Ann told Merle she would have a baby,

if he wanted one.

I just don't think it's gonna ever happen.

I'd sure like another grandchild.

It's so sad I only have just one grandchild,

Nico, my dead son's daughter.

I brought her up for the first three years of her life.

Bought all of her diapers.

I was never close to Nico. And GG sure as hell wasn't.

He left when she was three years old.

He was a rock star.

Her mother hated Kevin.

And that's probably why she doesn't

have anything to do with me.

She's all I've got left of Kevin, you know.

How nice it would be,

if we could have a wonderful relationship

because she's his daughter. She's...

I don't have him any more. But I could at least have her.

Tell me, that's like...

His mother.

No, no, no.

What's your mother like?

I don't talk to her.

I've got three mothers, three fathers so I don't know

where the fuck any of them are. I really don't care.

I didn't see Kevin for a lot of years.

I know he was in Chicago.

I know he was sleeping on the street.

But I couldn't go look for Kevin.

I just didn't have the means or the money.

I mean, you can't hold your children captive.

I wonder if it would've helped,

if I'd done something like that.

And I'll always wonder. And that's a terrible feeling.

I haven't eaten in a week.

Just go down to the mission and eat a burrito.

I ate today for, like, the first time since I got to town.

We're gonna get to see something done.

Fuck it, if I don't shit, you'll see something anyway.

I don't know.

So, let's buy hamburgers or burritos.

Just keep buying me food, I'll shit.

Go buy a hamburger.

♪ heavy punk rock music plays ♪

I've heard stories about you rolling around

in your shit and eating it.

Shoving the microphone up your ass. What's the point?

I'm trying to throw shit at people,

because that's the way I see 'em.

I don't really like people much. I'm not very social.

I'm not, you know, particularly up there to entertain them.

I'm kind of there to make them my target.

As far of I'm concerned they're my enemy.

He was just trying to outdo what everyone else did.

♪ Tough fucking shit ♪

He was killing himself, is what he was doing.

Oh, it's just shit.

It really is. It's really not that big of a deal.

It doesn't smell too good, you know,

but it just wipes off.

♪ Hey, my shit stinks and Tammy's got big tits ♪

♪ Well, the law is always on my ass ♪

♪ I'm on their list Fuck this! ♪

♪ And I like to cut myself with broken glass ♪

♪ We're just sluts and living ♪

♪ Like scumfuc alley trash ♪

♪ So if we piss you off That's just... ♪

♪ Tough fucking shit! ♪

How does heroin fit into the preparations for your lifestyle?

Any kind of drugs fit into my preparation.

Damn fucking straight!

Fuck, straight as.

We drink, we fight, we fuck, we do drugs, anything!

We don't care.

Any particularly drug that you'd recommend to our audience?

Anything that's free.

Right. Anything that's free too.

♪ heavy punk rock plays ♪

♪ Give me another cigarette ♪

Kevin was, no doubt in my mind, a split personality.

I think he's even been diagnosed

as having a dual personality.

♪ Give me heroin... ♪

He was always fighting between being Kevin and GG.

He loved being Kevin, you know?

But he couldn't be Kevin when he was in public,

he had to be GG.

I think he got himself so deep into the GG thing,

that there was no getting out of it.

It had to go further and further and further.

He used to write me hate letters.

My neighbor across the way was a drug psychiatrist.

I used to bring the letters over to him, and he said,

"This is not really Kevin, he's under the influence now,"

because you can see the way the letters were formed.

What is it about shocking people

that is so appealing to you?

I don't know. I just like to do what I wanna do. I like pain.

I like to cut myself. I just...

I like to see how far to the edge I can go.

Sooner or later, I will go over the edge.

And you guys fucking suck!

I'm here to tell you,

I declare war on the fucking underground.

And I am fucking rock

fucking roll.

And in 1990, October 31st,

I will fucking commit suicide.

It's nothing you wanna talk about.

"As to whether GG Allin says

he intends to go through with his suicide plan

remains to be seen."

What the fuck remains to be seen?

When I say, I'm gonna fucking kill myself

on October 31st 1990,

I'm gonna fucking do it.

And no goddamn bullshit Boston newspaper

is gonna fucking tell me

that I'm crying wolf, when I'm fucking dead.

This fucking newspaper is full of fucking shit.

Get on with it, baby.

Bull fuck... Why don't I what?

What?

(man heckles)

Do what?

Kill myself sooner?

Because it would have pleased you too much,

you fucking cunt.

Why don't you come up to the mic and tell me that?

- (man responds) - Come on.

- You want me to? - Come on.

- Do you want me to? - Yeah.

Why didn't I kill myself sooner?

Why don't you kill yourself sooner?

(woman screams)

(woman screams)

Fuck you!

Fuck you! Fuck you!

Why didn't I kill myself sooner?

You're fucking (inaudible).

Fuck you.

I kill myself sooner?

You want me to kill myself sooner?

Well, you're gonna have to wait.

September 1989. GG goes to jail.

♪ Sitting in this room ♪

♪ Dark and gloom ♪

♪ Four walls look to me to be hell ♪

He got a three-year sentence,

"intent to commit bodily harm, less than murder",

was the charge.

♪ Sitting in this room ♪

♪ Sucks so bad ♪

♪ I might as well be off in jail ♪

The Hells Angels became his sponsors,

and he did AA.

I guess he cleaned up.

♪ Everybody outside these walls to me ♪

♪ Seem so plastic ♪

♪ They seem so phony ♪

♪ And so unreal ♪

The only chance I was gonna get,

was while he was in prison

to put this band together and make shit happen.

And when he got out we just started playing.

That was the beginning of The Murder Junkies.

♪ heavy punk rock music plays ♪

Of course, when you're in jail,

I guess you're not gonna get drugs and alcohol.

But the minute you go back on stage,

the kids expect more and want more

and he got right back into it.

♪ inaudible singing ♪

I was on parole.

I said fuck you to my parole agent

and went out on the road.

The emotions that were going on in the club, fear and anger.

You would go from to everybody loving you

by the time the show was over,

everybody fucking hated you.

Rock'n'roll is supposed to be scary.

It's not supposed to be a business

but it's turned into a business.

GG Allin's mission goes till the end.

We couldn't really protect him, he was on his own.

He was doing what he enjoyed doing.

Of course if anything happened, we would have... you know.

He was always able to take care of himself.

I know the things he did, some of the things he did.

And I'm sure there are some

that I probably don't know about.

I don't ever wanna know about them.

When people ask me my son's band's name,

I say I don't know.

- Fucking, we love him. - Big GG fans.

Huge fans of GG Allin and The Murder Junkies.

He did what the fuck he wanted

and didn't give a shit about nothing.

No fucking rules. No government.

Even when he was on fucking parole.

Fuck authority, man. Fuck everything.

- Fuck everything is right. - Fuck you. Fuck you.

Don't care about anything.

It's the music, the mentality, the whole lot to it.

It's GG Allin.

And I'm Merle Allin.

And we're the band The Murder Junkies.

And, er, we're out for revenge.

And we're out for... to put danger back on the road.

Once he got out of prison,

he realized that he had more things to say.

So, he wasn't gonna kill himself,

until he had done that.

This is GG. My band will be at the club.

GG became the biggest self-promoter

in the fucking world.

Think about it, this guy built himself up from nothing.

Some fucking guy from New Hampshire.

He would do interviews. He would talk to anybody.

See me on TV next Tuesday.

Watch "The Jerry Springer Show"

on NBC, I'll be on next Tuesday.

He built up his name. You have to have to product.

Be able to do all the shit you talk. But he did that.

Rock'n'roll is the fury from within you.

Rock'n'roll is revenge, rock'n'roll is your enemy.

And I'm your enemy.

(crowd chant) Eat Shit!

Merle's still doing it, and I'm glad. I'm so happy.

The band, they're fucking great. The new singer's great.

After GG died, the band was like,

"That's the end of that. How can we continue?"

But I just wanted to play, you know?

I wanted to continue playing music.

I'm going over the parts, going over the songs

since we had a day off.

I'm trying to remember my beats.

When we first started, I said,

"You've gotta make us laugh, what else?

You're part of our family now." It made me happy.

You always miss the old days, that's human nature.

We're still going and having fun every night.

Plus, we have our memories from the old days.

Beautiful in that sense.

OK, I'm gonna...

I wanna get back to reviewing the set.

I would like to get back to my work here.

♪ heavy punk rock plays ♪

Keeping the band together is really hard

because people still wanted it to be GG

so the early years were fucking hard, man.

It was hard even finding a singer

that really understood what we wanted to do.

It's not an easy band to be in.

It's not like touring with a normal band.

Everybody wants to see a train wreck, a car crash.

Some people, I guess, are disappointed

that we're not doing the GG thing.

I can't be that man. I'm not gonna be that man.

The boss is dead, been dead for 20 years.

GG used to do things on stage.

He used to crap on stage, and rub it all over himself.

I won't do that.

Dino's one of a kind.

Eccentric, crazy.

He can barely keep his fucking life together.

But he's a legend.

OK, he's done his drum solo.

Now it's time to put a drumstick or two up his ass.

(man) Do it for America.

Very gently.

Is it gonna hurt you?

Very gently. Only a few inches.

Slowly twist it in and out a few times.

No.

Do it gently.

Do it gently.

(audience groan)

♪ We walked along and talked along... ♪

We probably make more money today

because back when GG was alive

the money that we were supposed to make,

would be given back to the club

because GG broke microphones

and he smashed out the fucking lights.

Sometimes we would end up going home with no money.

♪ Watch me kill ♪

♪ Watch me kill ♪

♪ The Boston girl ♪

♪ She fell upon her begging knees ♪

♪ Crying Lord... ♪

After a week or two being on tour

the van that we would be travelling in

would be just smelling like ass.

Not that he took a dump at every show

but there were a lot of times where he was just covered

with shit and blood, and dirt and slime.

You were getting headaches from the smell of the van.

♪ I beat her more and more ♪

♪ I beat her till the blood gushed out ♪

♪ Then I raped that bleeding whore ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ Watch me kill ♪

♪ Watch me kill... the Boston girl ♪

♪ Watch me kill ♪

♪ Watch me kill... the Boston girl ♪

♪ We walked along and talked along ♪

In the GG days the girls that came to shows,

looked like fucking dudes.

They were tough as fucking dudes.

I'll tell you, man.

Very rarely did you see too many hot chicks

at a GG Allin show.

♪ Watch me kill ♪

Now it's like they're all over the place.

♪ The Boston girl ♪

♪ Watch me kill ♪

♪ Watch me kill ♪

♪ The Boston girl ♪

I did a pretty good solo today.

Yeah.

Sold some drumsticks for 20 bucks, huh?

What?

You sold some drumsticks.

- That's cool. - That's good.

In the future, I'll have to remember that.

Don't give 'em away, when you can sell 'em.

People like to buy 'em after they've been in your butt.

That's pretty funny.

(laughs) It is pretty funny, right?

They always want them for free.

Don't give 'em away because people will pay them.

I don't, unless it's a...

- Unless it's a hot chick. - ...special circumstance.

You can't give 'em away. You shouldn't have to.

I'm inclined to agree with you.

Baltimore is the last day of our trip here.

Give everybody a hug, and get the fuck out of here.

We'll, hopefully, live another year

to do what we're doing next year.

(cheering)

It's a lot of shows, man.

It's a lot of time in the van, with those guys.

They're like my family. The only reason why I'm not home.

When I'm home at by myself at night and I'm lonely,

I remember our shows

and our fans being affectionate with the band.

And that carries you over.

I'm ready when you guys are.

I love you too, man. You rock.

When you're in a band, you only have as many friends

as you are popular at the time. I know how that is.

I've been up and I've been down.

You see your true friends when you're down.

You must be exhausted.

Not really. But I'm tired, I'm not exhausted.

I could go another month.

I'd go for another month, anytime.

But you miss your brother.

Still love him.

I'm glad his spirit is with us.

Yeah.

Are you living day by day,

or do you have anything you're trying to do?

Living day by day. But, you know, it's a struggle.

And the cops are always looking for you.

It's hard to do a tour

because every time we do a tour,

we end up never knowing what gigs we're gonna play,

what gigs we're gonna cancel,

what gigs are gonna cancel us.

We might have ten shows, play four.

You know, you should go to Europe.

Why? I'm not gonna get a passport.

I'm a fucking convict.

I'd have to change my identity. Look at me.

You might as well,...

you might as well fucking kill yourself, huh?

When the time comes, I will.

But I'm not gonna do it till I get my fucking revenge.

On who? Society?

The government? People?

Government, society, people, everybody.

Five or six shows into the tour,

GG gets arrested again.

Indecent exposure and public lewdness

and this and that.

He was still on parole.

The so-called reality rocker,

who did indeed defecate on stage...

Disorderly conduct or was he simply

exercising his first amendment rights?

Defense argued Allin was exercising

his right of free expression.

This trial hinges on a constitutional question

how far can a performer stretch his right of free expression?

No, we have rules.

We have certain levels of decency.

We the jury, find the defendant, Kevin Michael Allin,

guilty of disorderly conduct as charged in the complaint.

King of the underground of rock'n'roll,

and by them condemning me,

what they're doing is condemning

the whole underground scene in general.

We can't be stopped. I won't be stopped.

It's like, you know, this is not good

but you couldn't tell GG that.

OK, well, what the fuck do we do now?

GG's gone back to serve out

the remainder of his time.

We wait another year.

GG wanted to do a new album,

so he was writing lyrics in prison

and we were writing music

the whole year he was in prison.

When he got out of prison, he was like,

"Let's go and make a new fucking record."

♪ Stand up ♪

♪ It's time to rise ♪

♪ It's time for revenge ♪

♪ Opposition must die ♪

The whole time I was in prison, I was seeing psychiatrists.

Trying to find out what made me be this person.

I'd build this wall around myself

like I'd done throughout life.

I'd just block everything out.

No amount of jail time is gonna stop me from being who I am.

- Dino? - Yeah.

I brought you some breakfast.

Love ya.

So, Dino you have a whole pile of drumsticks over there.

Well, if you could find some, you could sign 'em.

I could sell 'em for you.

And send you the money.

I could make you more money probably in a week's time

than you make working 70 hours a week.

Write "Dino Sex loves you"

and write "Murder Junkies" or something.

So, next tour, hopefully, Japan.

Well, yeah, I thought you said that...

- January? - Is it definite yet?

I'm still... The dates seem to be definite,

but I don't think they've booked it yet.

It's just the dates they wanna have us there.

You checked with everyone, right? It's OK, right?

Everybody wants to. How could you not be on board for Japan?

One more yet. Eleven is cool, right?

♪ Carmelita ♪

Love you, as always.

Great tour!

See you next time.

♪ And I'm there with you ♪

♪ And it's a not-a ♪

♪ And I'm here in Echo Park ♪

♪ Carmelita, hold me tighter ♪

I'm here in Maine because Merle totally fucked everything up.

Merle has a woman for five years

and that's his limit.

Never any more than five years,

and he's had Ann for seven.

So, he's done pretty well.

Every five years he chooses another woman.

What happened is he cheated on me.

And so, we are not together any more.

I'm angry, I'm hurt.

I just fall in love with the girls and then he leaves them.

So I lose them.

It just sucks, you know. I am the first one to admit it.

You know what's gonna happen? You're gonna die

a lonely old man. Nobody's gonna want you.

♪ Carmelita continues playing ♪

What happened to your suicide thing?

Well, I'll tell you.

- I went to prison... -Mm-hmm.

And, er,... how could I do it?

But... it'll happen.

Sooner than you think.

I'd rather have you around to piss people off,

than see you dead.

Once you lay the ground work, for everyone else to follow,

you say everything you've got to say,

do everything you've got to do.

What's the sense?

I mean, go out in a fucking blaze of fire.

The ultimate ending is death.

That's the ultimate sacrifice, so you do what you believe in.

When I'm gone, my soul goes on. It's another adventure.

I wanna do want I wanna do, get everything done.

I gotta get the fuck out of here.

And then I can accelerate into the next life

and still leave my blood here

to be the blood of rock'n'roll.

I don't wanna be part of your fucking boring world.

I wanna do what I wanna do,

I wanna end my life, I'm gonna fucking end it.

I'm on my way over to see my mom

who I haven't seen in a couple of years now.

It's more difficult to see her now I live on the West Coast.

It's so far away.

I know she has some kind of like,

you know, heart beat thing, you know, irregularities.

I don't really know the full extent of it.

I haven't even talked to my mom in over a month.

I'm mean, I'm not a very good son, I guess.

Well, look who's here!

Hi, Bob, nice to see you.

- Hi, sweetheart. - Hello.

Wow. Good to see you. Love you, too.

Tell me what's going on with your health and your heart.

Well, see, I have, Merle,... I have this.

My new pacemaker.

It's a pack.

Like, er, triple-A batteries.

- Right. - It's about...

- You're running on...? - Running on batteries, yeah.

How do you like my new shoes?

Not too much.

- Huh? - (laughs)

- They're Birkenstocks! - I figured the were.

They're Birkies. They're Birkies. I love them.

How do you like my new shoes? Custom-made.

After the tour is over, I sell everything.

I truly believe you're part Jewish.

Well, I... I don't know.

(both laugh)

Everybody would love to live the life you live, Merle.

Most people that do get killed though.

A woman kills them.

Right, but I figure if I have another ten years of life,

that would be great.

I'll live it to the fullest. Kinda like GG said,

"Go out before you get too old and too boring."

Oh, yeah. But that's so stupid, he went too young.

But I don't wanna be, you know, older.

Don't you think GG would like to be here now? To be alive?

I don't think so. He probably would be in pain.

His body would be like an older person,

than he already would be.

With all the abuse that he did to himself, I mean...

I couldn't ever imagine him being alive to live old.

You haven't been to the cemetery?

- Not yet, no. - I hope nobody did anything.

Nobody goes there any more,

because they know there's nothing there.

Most people do. A lot of people don't know.

I went through an awful... awful lot.

Awful lot.

She doesn't wanna get back with you right yet?

She doesn't know what she wants.

OK.

- I have to give her time. - She's hurt.

Of course, she is, I understand.

There's always that possibility she could find somebody.

Wouldn't be the first time I let a good one get away.

Oh, my.

- Maybe something like this. - Yeah.

You know, that's nice too. And then even this one.

Yeah.

But that's a little too fucking big.

Yeah, it is.

We played shows on the East Coast.

Then we took three days off, to record.

To make a new record.

There's really a great one we recorded called,

"Sucking on Your Pussy on a Friday Night."

It's a great song, we'll play it later.

Then we went to Dino's, and hung out for a day.

God. What kind of a place does Dino got?

A little messy.

Is it liveable, I mean...?

I couldn't live there for five minutes.

Well, he's part of the family.

Maybe if he can't stay at his place,

maybe you could take him in?

I'd rather take all my clothes off,

and jump off the Lunenburg Bridge.

Oh, my. Well, I guess that answered that question.

These are good, what are these anyway?

♪ punk rock music on car stereo ♪

♪ inaudible singing ♪

♪ Sucking on your pussy on a Friday night

♪ Life is hard, and so am I ♪

"Life is hard and so am I.

Sucking on your pussy on a Friday night."

It's good.

If the lyrics were different it would be good music.

That's what makes the song, great lyrics.

Did you wanna hear the one where it mentions your name?

No! It mentions my name?

- It mentions your name. - Come on.

"Arleta, don't... Stop fucking with Arleta's son." Listen.

♪ inaudible punk rock lyrics ♪

♪ Stop fucking with Arleta's son ♪

Hey, Merle, is it my fault that you're such a jerk?

You had a bad upbringing?

No, actually, er,... I...

You did raise us to know right from wrong.

We chose to go wrong. Look at how great we turned out.

I mean, come on, that's a good mother right there.

When you raise two children, to be like me and GG,

you did real fine.

And live through it.

Because not too many mothers can say

they raised somebody like that.

- (laughs) - So...

You know, that's true.

That's like a number one mother year award.

I don't know how we would have turned out

if we had been, you know,

stuck in that log cabin or with our father.

Er, you know,...

He was mentally not 100 percent.

When Kevin was born,

he made me name him Jesus Christ

because he had seen Jesus,

and Jesus said that I should name my baby that.

And then I went home and told Merle, I said,

"This is your little brother Jesus." And he said, "GG."

So that's how GG got his name.

And then one day I woke up, and said...

Well, first of all, Merle's father,

dug, like, a ten-foot hole in the cellar.

I asked him one day,

"What are you digging that hole for?"

He said, "I'm gonna bury you, Merle and Kevin down there."

Yeah, but something else happened too.

- Well... - Right?

Yeah.

Earlier this year, you wrote and sent out an essay

called "The GG Allin Mission."

In it, you take credit for, among other things,

being Jesus Christ, God and Satan.

I was born Jesus Christ and I have fucked the devil.

I've had some very intimate conversations with evil.

I think that evil is important,

and I think it's also important to put fear in peoples' hearts.

I told him, I was gonna leave.

And that was the weekend

that he held the boys and I with a gun.

And, er, raped me.

The boys were there, but I didn't say much.

I didn't want them to know what was going on.

So, I didn't put up any... resistance.

When he took his truck, and went away

I got the boys and hitchhiked to my mother's house.

He came and took Kevin back to the log cabin.

I was actually worried

about the boys being alone with him.

For reasons.

I was worried to have the boys be alone with him.

I had a few things that made me think that

they might not be safe alone with him.

I talked to the judge about it, the priest and the doctor.

Everyone did agree that he couldn't have custody of them.

He couldn't even see them alone.

I went to the town clerk,

I said, "I wanna change my son's name."

""What to do you wanna name him?"

"Kevin Michael."

And that was it. He was Kevin Michael after that.

But he never stopped being GG.

One, two. One, two, three, four.

♪ Wendy and Cilla ♪

♪ Went out to score some drugs ♪

♪ Till they got ripped off by a bunch of faggot thugs ♪

♪ Didn't have no balls ♪

♪ A bunch of pussy fucks ♪

♪ A bunch of cowards who wouldn't show up ♪

♪ For me to kick their ass ♪

♪ Merle's making money ♪

♪ On the T-shirt sale ♪

♪ And so far we haven't had to put up money ♪

♪ To get me out of jail ♪ Hey!

- Yeah! - That was amazing.

That was fucking great!

(sighs)

I hate this.

I used to be able to walk five miles a day.

That sun feels so good.

I think there were a lot of contributing factors

to GG's death.

Kevin called and told me he was coming to see me.

He said, "I'd like to come home and get better."

New York City. So, this is the big fucking show.

Three o'clock at the Gas Station?

Gas Station, GG and The Murder Junkies

- What's the address? - I've got news, it ain't good.

GG was fucking ripped up to go.

And he was doing coke and he was drinking.

He was all fucking geared up.

Now when I go, you can all talk about me again. Please do.

And the show breaks out into the street.

(shouting)

Bottles flying everywhere.

It's just a mad house.

I was like, "I'm getting out of here,

I don't need this shit. I'm done."

(sirens approach)

We do a show, right here on the fucking street corner.

I don't give a fuck.

- If everybody would back up. - The fucking police, man.

(chanting) GG! GG! GG! GG!

Didn't realize that he wasn't really gonna be hanging out

with the people that he left with.

He ended up going with a bunch of other people

that probably really weren't looking out for him.

All right.

- Let's go get high. - Look what I got.

We'll leave this crowd, and go buy our drugs.

I wanna get fucking high, man.

Don't wanna deal with bullshit. I wanna get fucking high.

GG's body was, like, tired.

Doing same shit to himself, you know, every other night.

Get the hell out of here.

Drinking, doing all the coke that he was doing that day.

I just think that his body

was just, like, worn fucking out.

Everything just stood still, you know.

And I was like, "This can't be happening."

I think about him every day.

Not a day goes by that I don't think about my brother.

But you can't dwell on the misery

of not having your brother any more.

You'd be a tortured soul, you know?

Welcome to The Museum of Death...

...and the resurrection of GG Allin.

- Yeah. - Yeah.

Over the last 20 years,

you know, GG's popularity is finally growing.

He's getting bigger and becoming more popular

and, er, he's finally getting some of the recognition

that he truly deserves.

And I think that having him here,

you know, will just help the legacy continue.

And, er,...

I've had GG's possessions since his death.

And I've just decided it was time to, er,

let go of some of GG's things.

So, without further ado...

Drumroll.

Are you ready for the resurrection of GG Allin?

(crowd) Yeah! Whoo!

(cheering, applause)

You guys can come closer, you know.

He's not gonna throw shit at you.

(laughter)

This is a picture that Kevin made me

while he was in jail, for Mother's Day.

He made the rose, he did all of it with paper.

Two different kinds of paper, you can see that he used.

So he really put work into this.

This really meant something to him.

This was Kevin talking.

This was not GG, this was Kevin.

"Mother, have a great day. It's been a long time.

I think a lot about the time I was living upstairs

and lounging around the pool."

See, now this is my Kevin, nobody believes this.

The man that liked to come and sit by the pool with me.

He was my little boy.

My father's brother is there.

Kevin is there.

And I was gonna be there

but I can't now because Kevin...

I gave Kevin my place.

So what I'm gonna have Merle do is

I'm gonna be cremated and he's gonna come down

and dig a hole and put me on Kevin.

On top of Kevin's grave.

I wanna be with Kevin.

"So much has happened for all of us,

but we're still a family.

You, me, Nico and Merle and whoever we decide

to bring in to it one day.

One day... we will all be able to be together again.

So, have a great day, you deserve it. Love Kevin."

One day we'll be together again.

Down the cemetery.

That's the only way I can be together with him

is to go to the cemetery.

I wouldn't take a million dollars for that.

Thanks for coming tonight, everybody.

We love you.

I think everybody's great being here.

I don't know if I've missed anybody.

I'm Merle and GG's mom, Arleta.

(cheering, applause)

Thanks for coming

and celebrating the 20 years of Kevin's death.

We really appreciate it. We love you for it.

Thank you! Thank you.

(cheering)

Now, it's my honor to introduce The Murder Junkies.

(cheering)

♪ Anything I wanna do ♪

♪ I won't take no shit from you ♪

(crowd) No rules!

♪ I don't care if you don't like me ♪

No rules! No rules!

♪ Do you really think I care? ♪

Let's go!

This music is terrible.

♪ tuneful acoustic guitar plays ♪

♪ When I die Put that bottle in my hand ♪

♪ All these years on earth ♪

♪ It was my only friend ♪

♪ When you dig a hole And gonna bury me ♪

♪ Put that bottle of Jim Beam ♪

♪ To rest beside me ♪

♪ All my life I've been living on the run ♪

♪ Hanging out in bars ♪

♪ And hotel rooms annoying everyone ♪

♪ Living on the road ♪

♪ Running from coast to coast ♪

♪ Spending many nights in jail ♪

♪ Like a gunman at his post ♪

♪ When I die ♪

♪ You don't have to cry ♪

♪ You don't have to feel no feelings inside ♪

♪ Never cared or had no feelings for no-one ♪

♪ The only one I cared for ♪

♪ Was the one who made me cum ♪

♪ Lived my life like a loner on the trail ♪

♪ Some of the nights in jail ♪

♪ I couldn't afford no bail ♪

♪ No-one to call No-one to see me through ♪

♪ So I bought a gun one day ♪

♪ And I came gunning after you ♪

♪ Living on the road ♪

♪ Playing scumfuc rock'n'roll ♪

♪ I'm on the road ♪

♪ And I haven't got no home ♪

♪ So when I die ♪

♪ Put that bottle by my side ♪

♪ Bury me with ol' Jim Beam ♪

♪ And I'll be on my hell ride ♪

♪ When I die ♪

♪ When I die ♪

♪ Down to Hell is my final destination ♪

♪ When I die Put that bottle by my side ♪

♪ It's the only friend I had in life ♪

♪ And it kept me satisfied ♪

♪ Living on the run ♪

♪ You'll never take me out alive ♪

♪ I bought a gun, I'm leaving now ♪

♪ Bye-bye ♪

♪ Bye-bye ♪