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Previously on "A Million Little Things"...

Dr. Stein: We're at the point where any treatment we try

may affect his quality of life.

I want to celebrate every second we have left.

And I want to do that as your wife.

Yo, Gare!

You seeing this? Your little man's doing it!

Yay!

Gary, Javi is walking!

What are you writing?

"Don't be jealous."

That is very funny.

We're both in wheelchairs,

only I don't need someone to push mine.

Pay attention, this is a watershed moment for your son.

Those are not actually his first steps.

That was last week.

He's doing this whole "crib to 5k" thing. Yeah.

Well, in that case, the little punk

is just rubbing it in my face,

and I don't appreciate it one bit.

Hey, Mendez, you have to eat something.

And not just 'cause there's a hungry Mastiff eyeing your eggs.

Yeah, I know you're not hungry,

but, sweetie, you gotta keep your strength up.

You shouldn't take your pain meds on an empty stomach.

Mmm. Mmm! Delicious.

You don't know what you're missing, truly.

- Egg-ceptional. - Mm-hmm.

I'm sure now that you've licked his fork,

he's really gonna want that.

You know he's not 2 years old.

You don't have to airplane it into his mouth-hangar.

No, I wasn't.

Hey, Gare. How about I make you that thing you like

with the peanut butter and ice cream

that you call a smoothie we all know is a milkshake?

There we go.

Cookie dough smoothie coming up.

Hmm? What is it, Powder?

You, uh, change your mind?

You want me to make the egg choo-choo train

go into the mouth tunnel?

Well, it's coming right up.

Chugga chugga chugga, all aboar--

Are you sure?

Okay.

Hey, what's up, man? Hey, Rome.

I'm with Gary.

I need you to meet me at my place right away.

Are you saying what I think you're saying?

Yep. I'll be right there.

Oh, my God, Rome, tell me you're filming.

- Oh, you better believe it. - Okay. Alright.

Son, baby mama, anyone else who's watching,

Ed, I want to-- I want to make sure I get this right, okay?

Because it's going into the archives.

It was a momentary-- Listen to me.

It was a visceral, emotional response--

Visceral, understood.

But the fact remains that in that moment,

you thought Aaron Burr was a Blackmun.

Because the actor playing him in "Hamilton" was Black!

I'm never gonna live this down, am I?

Uh, probably not.

- Doubtful, bro. - No, no, no.

He thought that Aaron Burr was Black for the same reason

that you thought umbrellas could make you fly--

because you saw it once in a musical.

- Oh, and that's sweet, though! - I do know--

I do know that Barack Obama was our first Black president.

Wait a minute. What?

You think Obama was the first Black president?

Yeah.

He is, right? Wha--

You guys are jerks, man.

Hey, you heard it here first, son.

If you're struggling in African American studies,

make sure you go to Rome for tutoring.

Or go to a Black man.

- Ooh! - Ooh!

Eddie strikes back!

He is not throwing away his shot!

Give me your best side, bro. This is going to festivals.

Oh, man. Turn the camera off.

Dude, you said to never stop filming,

especially when Eddie's making a fool of himself.

You're right, I did say that.

Now turn it off.

Uh, I need to talk to you guys about something.

Uh, I got a favor to ask.

- Yeah, anything. - Yeah, say the word.

First of all, you two have been nothing short of spectacular,

hanging out with me at chemo, helping out with Colin.

And obviously, I'm gonna beat this thing.

- Amen. - Of course you are, man.

But if I don't...

...I need you two to help me end it.

Oh, dude, say the word,

I'll hit you over the head with a blunt object.

We can end it right now.

We walk over to the fridge, slam it really hard,

or you break wind into this, we strap it over his face--

- He's out. Painless. - Hold him down, hold him down.

Guys, I'm serious.

What? Wait, whoa, what are you talking about?

If by some chance things go south,

I do not want to be stuck in some hospital bed in pain,

crapping myself, and-- and wasting away into nothing.

So if we get to that point, which we won't...

...I need you to go see Kevin, okay?

He'll know why you're there.

That's right, during my last round of chemo,

I did all the party planning.

How's that for multi-tasking?

He's gonna give you the right drugs...

and you're gonna use those drugs to put me out of my misery.

What? Dude, I--

Hey, I love you, and I will do anything for you,

but this is completely off the table.

Oh, really? I've never--

You two rallied around me when I was at my lowest moment.

You helped me get on antidepressants,

you helped me deal with things

that not even my dad would accept.

And now you want me to take you out?

No, Rome, that's not what I want.

This is completely different.

If I can get better, hell, even if I can stay like this,

but if I'm in pain, man--

- I was in pain. - No, I am talking about

excruciating physical pain.

The kind that only comes with Stage 4 cancer.

I'm not gonna even pretend to know

what you were going through, but you got help.

You said it yourself,

you had to be reminded that the dark days would pass.

But if we exhaust all medical possibilities

and we're just running out the clock, that's it.

There's no more sun for me.

Look, guys, I-I-I realize

this is a big ask, I do.

You think?

You're the one that's always talking about the elevator, Ed.

I mean, what did we say?

This is it. This is Rutledge.

No. Rutledge was Jon making us promise

that we would look out for each other's families.

Exactly.

I need you to look after my family.

I cannot let Maggie watch me suffer and die

from the same disease that she has battled twice.

It's called death with dignity,

and that's all I want.

That's why we've been making these videos,

so that someday, my son can look at his father

and see a man who is optimistic,

living life to the fullest,

and the same goes for you two, the whole crew.

I do not want you gathered around my bed ugly-crying

and waiting for me to take my final breath.

No, I want you all together at some big ass dinner,

laughing and telling stories

about how Eddie thought Aaron Burr was Black.

I lost myself in the music.

Have you talked to Maggie about this?

No, of course not.

And don't you dare tell her, either.

Game's not over, guys. I'm right here.

This...

This is Plan Z.

And I just-- I want it to be in place.

I, um...

I need it...

to be in place.

Alright.

We won't tell Maggie.

But if we do need a Plan Z, you will.

And by the grace of God,

she won't ever have to watch this.

How will we know it's time?

Thanks.

I'm not worried about her falling.

She's annoying everybody.

It's just talkie, talkie, talkie.

There he is. - Okay, I'm on it.

Hey, man.

Oh, no.

Kev...

he's in a lot of pain.

He told us to come to you when it was time.

Yeah, he said you'd know exactly what to do.

Uh...

guys, I don't know what you're talking about.

I can't help you with anything like that.

Excuse me.

Wait. Hey. Kev, hold up.

So you're saying you and Gary never talked about any of this?

Then why would he tell us that?

Look, I don't know, okay? I don't know.

And even if we had, I can't.

What you're talking about is illegal in Massachusetts.

I could lose my job.

Kevin, he's not eating.

Can you please at least tell us what to do?

Look, Gary's my dude, okay?

But my hands are tied.

Here's what I can do, though.

You can take him this, and...

...let's hope he eats it.

Grown-ass man loved him some gelatin, right?

Seriously?

Pre-school snack, that's your consolation prize?

I thought you cared about him.

I do.

Hey, Rome. Let's just get out of here.

Thanks for nothing.

D, hey. Is everything alright?

Yes! Hi, neighbor.

Hi. Hi, Javi!

Gary's upstairs waiting for you.

I left the door unlocked.

Okay, perfect.

You sure you don't need my help with--Oh, we got it.

It's a big help you just being there with him while he's awake.

I know he'll be happy to see you.

Okay.

Dude, what the hell are we gonna do?

Come on, bro, you were in a band,

you're telling me you can't track down drugs?

Isn't that 90% of what roadies do?

Yes, but the last time I had a roadie,

I also had a flip phone.

What about you, man?

- What about me? - Dude, you're a teacher

at a prep school full of rich kids.

- Haven't you seen "Euphoria"? - Of course I've seen "Euphoria."

Well, think about it!

Ooh, what about your dad's "assisted living facility"?

What are you using air quotes for?

The place is legit filled with old people.

And I don't think we can take our man out with Viagra, either.

- What about your sister? - No, she's sober again.

Great. And by the time she's not, it'll be too late.

Wait, you can't be pissed that my sister's back on the wagon.

I'm not mad at Lindsay, that's my girl!

Wha-- What do you mean, "your girl"?

Look, I'm just mad at Kevin

- because he lied to us. - Dude, I know.

There's no way Gary would have made something like that up.

Well, it's irrelevant now

because if we don't figure something out,

we're gonna have to go back to our boy

and tell him that we couldn't come through

with the one thing that he asked us to do.

Oh, my God.

I can't believe I'm about to say this.

What?

Say it.

Dakota.

I can call Dakota.

She can score us whatever we need.

You know, I bet the bastard

didn't even give us lime flavored.

Hang up the phone, Ed.

Hello?

Kevin gave us more than gelatin.

Eddie, is that you?

Uh, hey, Dakota. Hey.

We should catch up sometime. Now's not the time. Bye.

Oh, o--

Well, Ed...

I guess we no longer have a problem.

Yeah, we do.

This just got too real.

I can't do this.

Okay.

I'll be right here if you need anything.

Thank you.

Hey. Hi.

Uh, you ready for this?

No, but, uh, let's do it anyway.

Thank you.

Wait, this is the one

the funeral home wants 6 grand for.

They only want $4,800 for it.

Not for long. Just, uh, follow my lead.

What?

- Hey, guys. - What are you--

Can I help you with something?

I-I hope so.

It's our uncle. He's about to meet his maker.

I mean, it could be weeks, it could be tomorrow.

We just don't know.

But that's how life is, right?

You just don't know.

Oh.

How's he doing with all of this?

Uh, this is the first time he's left Gary's side.

Mm.

Yeah, never thought I'd be jealous of a dog.

But he knows what's up.

But we're gonna get through it together, aren't we, pal?

Um, heads up,

I think you're being recognized.

Oh, please.

I don't mean to sound ungrateful,

but this was hard enough before my listeners caught wind of it.

Hold that thought.

I'm so sorry to interrupt.

No, please.

You are in the room with Dr. Bloom.

Uh, I don't know what that means.

I just wanted to say I voted for you.

I really wanted you to win.

I hope you think about running again.

Yeah, that makes two of us.

Thank you so much. I

I have a few years to recover.

We'll see.

But thank you for coming up and saying that.

No. Thank you.

Look at you! Mm.

Oh, there she is.

- Ah! - Hey. Sorry I'm late.

I had to go to three different stores

- to find the right color. - No problem.

We are ready. Okay.

- Are you ready? - Let's go paint the town.

You ready to go? Let's do it.

And Charlie learned to take selfies,

so here are like 47 of them.

But I didn't just pop in to show you some photos.

I also came because

I wanted to say thank you.

"I don't have condoms."

You're such an ass.

You know, when I heard you couldn't make a sound,

I was actually looking forward to our conversation.

You okay?

Oh, God!

Gary, that's-- I felt that on my leg!

Don't you dare lift that up!

Don't you d--

You make me laugh without saying anything.

Am I that easy?

Don't answer that.

Did you know that when I first met you,

I pegged you to be this snarky smartass

who seemed angry at the whole world?

I was right.

But I was just outside thinking about, uh...

about the day you came to the house.

Every day in every single way since then,

you have stepped up for us.

Me, especially.

No, I'm gonna say all the good things I want to say,

because for once, you can't cut me off.

You're the best friend I've ever had.

You're more than that. You're...

my brother.

And I want you to know that you can count on me.

I am going to be here for Maggie.

I'm gonna be here for your son.

I know his name is Javi, shut up!

Enough with the board.

Do you remember the day, uh,

you found out about Eddie and me?

It was your birthday.

Gosh, it was hard to face you that night

when you came by.

Even though I hurt you, you--

you never abandoned me.

And you took care of my kids when you knew that I couldn't.

And that night, when we lit your candles,

do you remember what you wished for?

Same wish you make every year.

Gary, I know that the only reason

Eddie and I are together is because of you,

'cause you told him to follow his heart.

And I am happy.

We all are.

And in time, Maggie will be happy again.

I promise you.

So I wanted to say thank you for making that wish.

Should I be scared?

What are you gonna write?

God.

You're impossible!

Oh, my God, Gary.

You know, off the record,

I've never let anybody do that to me.

But hey, if I thought it'd cure your cancer...

I'd flip 'em right over.

That was quite the performance.

Yeah, but we saved a thousand bucks including tax.

Gary would be so proud.

Yeah, I can't wait to tell him.

On second thought, uh,

maybe we don't mention any of this to him.

Better. Yeah.

So, I put the item on hold,

and it'll be ready whenever you're ready for it.

Thank you so much, you're very kind.

Yeah, my sister's right, you're very kind.

And-- And good luck with your Etsy shop.

Thanks.

Oh, here's your credit card.

Sophie Dixon?

Yeah. Uh, sorry, do we know each other, or...?

Hey, wait. Hold the door, that's my plane.

I'm sorry, sir, we've already closed the jet bridge.

Here's the head count.

No, no, I have to get on the plane.

Once the jet bridge door is closed, I can't open it.

No, it's just... my name's Sophie, too.

It's kismet!

It really is. You know what?

I'm going to give you my employee discount.

Oh, thank you.

Hey, sleepyhead.

Delilah leave already?

Very funny, Chaplin.

Alright, we're going on a field trip.

I gotta show you something.

Hey, Eddie. What are you doing here?

Hi. I need to talk to you about something.

I'm not supposed to say anything to anyone,

but I need your opinion

because from the moment I met you,

you've had this unbelievable ability,

despite what you're going through,

to think about things rationally and objectively,

and right now, I need your strength.

Well, in that case, step into my office.

Coming!

Rome. Hey, Pop.

What's wrong?[ Chuckles ] Nothing.

I wanted to hear your voice, see your mug,

drop off some bagels, and hang out with my old man.

Nope.

I know my boy.

Something's wrong.

Gary's not gonna make it.

Oh, Rome.

I'm so sorry.

Come here, son.

That's right. Let it out.

Katherine, I-I can't do this.

Look at me.

I helped Gary with all his estate planning.

He knew this was coming.

Maggie knew this was coming.

It's why they didn't go to Mexico.

I know that what he's asking you to do is--

it's unthinkable, but...

maybe the alternative is even worse.

Taking care of all of us is what's giving Gary purpose.

It's how he defines himself.

And now he can't do that anymore.

And while we may all have thoughts about it,

it is his life.

I get that you're in an impossible situation...

...but I can't make that decision for you, Eddie.

Hey, Dad.

Hey, bud. What are you doing?

I was gonna play some street hockey.

Oh, that's fun.

Maybe later we can--Dad.

You have to do this.

Buddy, uh...

I don't know how much you heard,

but it is very complicated stuff,

and maybe when you're a little older,

it might make more sense, but... maybe not.

I'm a whole lot older,

and I'm still struggling to understand.

I do understand.

It's just like when Scott the cat tried to eat that bird.

I-I didn't want to give up, but you helped me understand

that we needed to let the bird go.

He was suffering.

So is Uncle Gary.

He's in pain, Dad.

And as difficult as it is,

it's the most humane thing we can do.

Sometimes the right thing to do is really hard,

but isn't that what love is?

Come here.

I know it's hard.

Thank you.

Tell me a story about Gary.

I don't know, Pop.

There are so many.

I remember one time

I was flying out of Logan to some conference,

and don't ask me how,

but, uh, just as I got past security,

I realized that I left my phone at home.

Ah. And it was only, like,

45 minutes till my flight,

and Gina's across town in the truck.

So I borrow some guy at the gate's phone and I call Gary.

Gary drives to my place, grabs my phone,

drives to the airport,

and even though he didn't have a ticket,

somehow managed to talk his way past security...

What?!

...runs to my gate,

hands me my phone

just before they close the doors to my flight.

You see, son?

This is why it's good to have a couple white friends.

You know Tyrell wasn't getting through security.

No, he...

Thank you, Pop.

You tell Gary

I said thank you for being such an amazing friend

to my son.

I will.

I'll check in on you later.

Okay, Pop, and don't forget to take your pills, okay?

Don't forget to take yours.

I love you, Pop.

Love you, son.

I can't wait for you to see this.

No looking.

Are those eyes closed?

Alright.

Uh... you crushed it.

This is amazing!

Yeah, I did okay, considering the canvas

I had to work with, the time frame--

oh, my fear of heights--

- Just take the compliment. - Thank you so much.

Alright, no peeking, Mendez.

I know you can't talk and I'm not letting you see,

so you're probably smelling a lot more of Boston

than you'd probably like to.

Alright.

You can open your eyes.

You keep insisting that I choose to remember

all of the wonderful things we've done together.

And you're right.

Well, I made you...

...this.

Maybe a little.

Yeah. He-- He helped.

It wasn't just me, you know?

You have fun today? Are you kidding me?

I have never felt so alive!

Imagine how you'd feel if you actually

had been up there committing the crime.

Right?

Hey, guys. What are you doing here?

Maggie, we need to show you something.

What is it?

It's a video that Gary made.

A while ago.

Is Daddy making silly faces?

Yeah.

Hey, Bloom.

If you're seeing this video,

it means none of our valiant efforts worked out.

And sadly, we don't have the bankroll

to cryogenically freeze my body and stash me in an ice chamber

somewhere in Southern California.

But seriously, we exhausted every other possibility.

I know how hard you fought, my love.

And I hope you know, too.

But it's time.

We know this is hard.

But it's what he wants.

Mnh-mnh. You know how I feel about this.

I do know.

That's why I didn't tell you about it before.

And, honestly, I don't know how to do this,

but I don't think I could live with myself if I didn't.

I just need you

to get Javi.

Take him to Katherine's.

I'll be there as soon as I can.

Gina.

Okay, I-I can't not say this.

You were a terrible first date, Gary Mendez.

I love you, Gary.

I know.

I got him, Maggie.

Hi.

Yeah.

♪ I've heard it said

♪ That people come into our lives ♪

♪ For a reason

♪ Bringing something we must learn ♪

♪ And we are led

♪ To those who help us most to grow ♪

♪ If we let them

♪ And we help them in return

♪ Well, I don't know if I believe that's true ♪

♪ But I know I'm who I am today ♪

You're not doing this.♪ Because I knew you

Maggie--I am doing it.

You two go to Katherine's.

♪ Who can say if I've been changed for the better? ♪

Is this a bad time to tell you I never liked you?

♪ Because I knew you

I love you, man.

I'll keep Eddie in line.

I love you.

♪ I have been changed

And Eddie thought Aaron Burr was a Black man

just because the actor playing him in "Hamilton" was Black.

What?

Alright, alright, my turn, my turn.

Here's something you guys don't know.

Yeah? - Gary has seen my boobs.

- What?! - I know. That's right.

Oh, yeah, that was for, like, an insurance appraisal, right?

Wait, what?

Apparently, his cable was out.

Yes, I told him he could come watch the game at our place.

Yeah. But you didn't tell me.

No, I didn't!

Okay.

So, I made 200 bucks busking one time,

and it was the most I had ever made, ever,

and then I find out

that it was because Gary had gone around Harvard Square

giving out $5 and $10 bills.

♪ It well may be

♪ That we will never meet again ♪

♪ In this lifetime

♪ So let me say before we part

♪ So much of me [ Laughing ] Okay.

Alright, "Made you look."

Yeah, well...

♪ You'll be with me ...you won.

♪ Like a handprint on my heart

We won.

♪ And now whatever way our stories end ♪

♪ I know you have re-written mine ♪

♪ By being my friend

No, he did not pay for dinner.

I paid for dinner.

He said he forgot his wallet, but you know what?

I just think he spent all his money on those frosted tips.

Probably.

I mean, uh, I'm 12,

my-- my dad just died,

and, you know, I-I have this really big secret.

And, uh...

out of the blue,

Gary has the balls to turn to me and say,

"When you're ready to tell me Ella's a boy..."

"...I'm ready to hear it."

I mean, who says that to a kid?

Gary Mendez says that to a kid.

♪ Because I knew you

I want you to know it's okay

if you want to go now, alright?

I'm gonna be okay

and Javi's gonna be okay

'cause we have friends all around us

who are gonna help take care of us, okay?

So you can let go.

Yeah. It's time.

Alright? I love you.

I love you so much.

Okay, here we go.

Hey, pal. It's Dad.

And in some weird, uh

..."Back to the Future" way,

that's actually you crying in the background.

But your mom's on it,

just like I know she's been on it these last 16 years--

Wait, is it 16?!

What?!

Oh, yeah, happy birthday.

Jav, let's go!

Whoa. Do you have chest hair now?

I want to get that driving lesson in

before we get to Rome and Gina's.

You're watching it again?

I mean, the man went through the trouble of making it for me.

The least I could do is run it back.

16?! Oh, my God.

That means you're gonna be driving.

Good luck, everybody.

Watch out, watch out, watch out!

Says the woman who got a ticket

for driving too slowly.

No, you do not talk to your mother that way.

And I was looking for an address...

for a while.

Well, that's fair.

Believe it or not...

♪ And there you were

...this is my last video for you.

Don't worry. You can watch it as many times as you want.

It's not gonna self-destruct.

I mean, it-- it may self-destruct.

I don't know what videos are like in the future.

Even though that may seem sad,

I want you to know something that I didn't know

until my dad was gone.

♪ I want to stop and thank you, baby ♪

It's actually something your mom taught me.

He's with me all the time.

♪ And thank you

That's so sweet. Yeah.

Even though I'm gone physically,

I am still here.

Our relationship-- it isn't over.

Javi had his first driving lesson today,

and I thought I was going to end up here

next to you, in the ground.

It just changes.

I know you're watching, so I'm not gonna bore you

with all the small things.

Um, I hope you're having fun with your dad.

Sure, there's gonna be times

when you wish I was still around

and that this story ended in a different way.

I owe this girl a walk.

Daisy has been very patient with me.

Hi, girl! You ready?

But you can't let that keep you from moving forward.

I have a date on Saturday.

He's a father at Javi's school, and...

he seems emotionally available.

So, if you could, uh,

talk to the big guy for me, that would be great.

♪ Thank you

I miss you, Mendez.

♪ How sweet it is to be loved by you ♪

The key is to do what I did.

Surround yourself with an incredible group of friends

because if you choose wisely,

those friends will become your family.

We leaned on each other through the toughest of times.

More pizza for the...

'Cause you're gonna make mistakes.

Son, you absolutely have to make mistakes.

But when you surround yourself

with the right group of friends,

they're gonna be there for you

when you lose sight of the horizon.

But you're also gonna be there for them,

and you're gonna celebrate incredible things.

Hey, hey, hey, none for my baby mama.

Our little man in there is still training.

How about you?

Theo!

Lana, will you light the candles?

♪ Happy birthday, dear Javi

So, when you find that group of friends--

and you will-- hold on to them.

♪ ...than I was to myself

♪ For me, there's you and there ain't nobody else ♪

And as amazing as they'll be, know this--

I will always be right here,

right next to you, loving you.

♪ I wanna stop and thank you, baby ♪

And anytime a complete stranger smiles at you out of nowhere...

I got it.

♪ To be loved by you There you go.

Thanks. Yeah.

Enjoy the game.

...there's a decent chance that's me.

♪ How sweet it is to be loved by you ♪

Here you go, guys.

- Mmm. Thank you. - Soda?

Yeah, that's what we get for sending a 16-year-old.

Come on.

To the band of dads?

Band of Dads!

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh

Ohhh!

Let's take a photo. Okay, okay.

Ready? Ready? Everyone say, "Go, B's!"

Go B's!

Go B's!

♪ By you

Oh, and mijo?

Have a beautiful life.