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♪ It goes on and on ♪

The human body has three
systems of communication...

The nervous, endocrine,
and immune systems.

♪ It goes on and on ♪

♪ Get away from me, yeah ♪

♪ What we do for the people ♪

♪ Trying to save you from your ego ♪

♪ This world never stops ♪

♪ Till you're [INAUDIBLE] ♪
♪ free to find the [INAUDIBLE] ♪

♪ Said you needed a hero ♪

When any of these systems
experience a malfunction,

it can wreak havoc on the body.

♪ Try to copy me ♪

♪ Try to steal my flair ♪

♪ I go for love ♪

♪ It's time to let it rain ♪

Effective communication
between surgeons in the OR

is just as essential.

Guess who took the red eye?

Guess who took the whole day off?

♪ We're gonna get higher ♪

♪ Tiptoe through fire ♪

♪ We're gonna get high ♪

♪ Till we find our way ♪

♪ It goes on and on ♪

When a life is at stake,

there's no time or
space for body language

or carefully chosen words.

♪ It goes on and on ♪

You're saying I should
crawl into a hole and hide?

No, I'm saying changing
your phone number

and email address isn't the worst idea.

- [PHONE BUZZES]
- I'm not gonna let them win.

- It's just a cell phone number.
- Just a cell phone number?

It's the only one I've ever had.

I've known that number
longer than I've known you.

I've been reading...

I've been reading up on other
doctors who've been doxxed,

and it only gets worse from here.

Calls at all hours of the
night, email inboxes flooded,

people showing up at your door.

You want to move.

Look, we'll find an Airbnb.

- It'll just be six months, tops.
- Six months!

- Like a vacation...
- Oh, no. No, this will blow over.

They'll get bored or find someone

- else to be outraged about.
- [PHONE BUZZING]

Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.

Look, I'll have an
intern babysit my phone.

♪ It goes on and on ♪

But no matter how hard we try,

there's always a risk
of being misunderstood.

Or simply unheard.

You look like crap.

Yeah, I worked the closing shift
at Joe's. What's your excuse?

- Do we still have that thing tonight?
- Yes, cake tasting at 7:00.

Oh. Can't wait to see
what you do with floral

- arrangements, Adams.
- Remember when you fainted in the OR?

- So this is Pierce's last day?
- Oh, God, I hate that.

Apparently Ndugu's staying.

- I work at a bar. I hear things.
- Good for her.

You don't like Ndugu?

- Don't like marriage.
- What's wrong with marriage?

- It's a distraction.
- From what?

Meaningful career, making an
impactful contribution to the world,

fully-realized individual potential.

- Ready.
- Are you sure?

[ELEVATOR DINGS]

[GIGGLES] Sorry. Are you going
to get off work on time tonight?

Because I made us this reservation

at that pizza place
you keep talking about.

- Pizzageddon?
- Mm-hmm.

- It's impossible to get into.
- Well, I have an in with the manager.

I delivered his baby.

Did I forget? Is it my birthday?

- Is it your birthday?
- No, I just...

I figured that we deserved a night out.

- Yeah.
- Yeah!

- All right.
- OK.

[BOTH CHUCKLE]

- Those two need to get a room.
- What, Link and Wilson?

Yeah, they basically just
had sex in front of us.

[SCOFFS] You remember
what sex is, right?

- I'm just saying. Messy.
- I don't know.

Hey, you remember when you
and me used to be like that?

- [ELEVATOR DINGS]
- Nope.

- Do you smell margaritas?
- It's me.

Joe's had a two-for-one
special last night.

Oh, maybe you should try soap next time.

Oh, maybe you should try
being the maid of honor

for someone you have feelings for who's

marrying someone else... Oh, wait.

- Mission accomplished.
- We're just friends.

Don't care.

Oh, but can you bring
leftovers from the cake tasting?

- Ow. Ow!

- What do we got?
- William Hudson, 32. GCS 14.

Left upper extremity deformity
and abdominal contusion.

- Systolic's in the low 100s.
- Trauma three.

- OK. What happened?
- Am I bleeding?

He, uh, tried to mail himself
to his girlfriend in Florida.

- Excuse me?
- It's her birthday tomorrow.

Says he was trying to surprise her.

- Wait, you put yourself in a box?
- Ow!

And the box fell from the conveyor belt

while they were loading
it into the plane.

Yeah, maybe for the best.
He could have died in the cargo hold.

- He could still die here.
- What?

- I'll go page Hunt.
- You guys still use pagers?

[PA ANNOUNCEMENT]

Excuse me, excuse me.
Hi, are you doctors?

Uh, yes, we are. How can we help you?

We're here to speak
to Dr. Margaret Pierce.

- Do you have an appointment?
- Viv, this was not a good idea.

Can you just call Dr. Pierce?

Uh, her... Her schedule is very busy.

But if you, um, give me
your information, I can...

No, no, no, no. We
just drove 400 miles

in my 1994 roadie van,

without air conditioning,
so that my friend here

could be seen for the giant tumor
that is crushing her heart.

So can you two baby doctors
just pick up the phone

and call Dr. Margaret Pierce?

Because we are not leaving until you do.

- You packing up?
- Yeah.

I'm at that point where
I'm just throwing everything

into a bag because I don't
have time to decide whether

I want to keep it or not.

I know this is all
happening really fast.

Um, it's actually happening
a little quickly for me, too.

But this is just such
a huge opportunity.

I guess I thought this
place meant more to you

than just a stepping
stone for something bigger.

Richard, of course it does.

I mean, we just revived
the residency program.

- We just lost Meredith.
- I know.

And I told Teddy when I gave her

my resignation that I would
help interview new candidates

over video chat.

In my day, you accepted a
job after your fellowship,

then you worked there until you retired.

They taught you that loyalty mattered.

So out of loyalty, I should
not pursue research that would

save thousands of patients?

You've already started
doing that here... with Winston.

I hate that you're upset, but
I'm not going to apologize...

Dr. Margaret Pierce, can you
please come to the nurses' station

- on the first floor, please?
- I guess, um...

- Dr. Margaret Pierce...
- We'll talk later.

Can you please come to the
nurses' station on the first floor.

- Ma'am, you are not allowed...
- Dr. Margaret Pierce, can you please

come to the nurses' station...

Security is on their way,
and the longer we do this,

- the longer it will...
- Oh, my God. I'm here.

Second floor please!

Why am I being paged
on repeat by someone

who doesn't even work here?

- We're so sorry, Dr. Pierce.
- She grabbed the phone.

- And we called security.
- Dr. Pierce! Um, big fan.

This is Nola. She has
mediastinal mass syndrome

due to the large thymoma which has

completely taken over her heart.

Uh, Dr. Griffith, uh, get
them upstairs in a room,

so I can do a proper
consult, but do not ever

come into a hospital that way again,

or you'll be quickly escorted out.

Uh, I thought you were leaving.

[SIGHS] I'm going to push my flight.

Next time, try listening to the patients

before you call security on them.

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[GRUNTING]

I'm sorry.

- I know it's uncomfortable.
- Uncomfortable?

It hurts like hell.

[GRUNTS]

Can't you give him
anything for the pain?

We need to complete
the initial exam first.

Can I just get back
to playing "Minecraft"?

What mode are you playing?

- Survival.
- Mm.

Just nailed an enchanting table,

then you came in and
started trying to kill me.

- Ow!
- Sorry.

David.

- Oh hey, Daisy.
- Dr. Webber.

Well, look who we have here.

- Dr. Kwan?
- Grayson Friedman, 13.

History of ulcerative colitis,

which has previously been in clinical...

- He knows already. He's my doctor.
- Hey. Sorry.

Dr. Webber diagnosed
Grayson when he was eight.

We've been managing
his condition with meds.

But this morning, the pain
was so bad he collapsed

on the floor in the bathroom.

Do you think he needs surgery?

- No.
- Last time you mentioned

- an ostomy.
- No, I know what that is.

It's not that bad.
Don't do surgery, please.

We won't do anything until
we find out what's going on.

We'll run some tests,

and then we'll get you
something for your pain.

- Thank you.
- I don't want surgery.

I don't even think I need it.

Order a CBC, CMP,
inflammatory markers with a CT.

Then put him on an IV steroid

with a PRN of morphine
to make him comfortable,

and page me when you get the scans.

Uh, Dr. Webber?

Do you think that maybe we
could find some time to talk?

Seems like we're doing
that now, Schmitt.

Well, I don't have my notes with me.

Right.

I've been thinking about fellowships

and attending positions,

and I would love to pick your brain...

You haven't applied for
your fellowships yet?

I submitted my recommendations

for most candidates months ago.

I've been exploring options,

and I would love your suggestions.

You're a fourth-year resident, Schmitt.

My suggestion would be,

get your act together sooner than later.

Nola, we're really here.

You're... you're really being examined

by Dr. Margaret Pierce.

I mean, the Dr. Margaret Pierce!

- Meeting you in person, it's like...
- That time we met Stevie Nicks.

- I'm digging this more.
- I am flattered.

Oh, keep her elevated.

If she's flat, the tumor could further

compress the vasculature, which
could lead to more swelling.

Griffith?

Uh, Nola Marquez, 42.

Developed a mediastinal mass

with a tissue diagnosis of a thymoma.

The tumor grew alongside her heart,

putting pressure on
it and the vasculature,

causing SVC syndrome.

Symptoms include shortness of breath

and mental acuity issues.

- It's not that bad.
- No one believes you.

- Sisters?
- Close.

We're, uh, friends
since elementary school.

We met in chorus, and been
rocking together ever since.

- You're in a band?
- We are a band.

Double Helix.

Ever since Nola got diagnosed
she hasn't touched her guitar.

I can barely sleep, let alone perform.

Viv has dragged me
to every heart surgeon

in the Pacific Northwest.

No one will operate.

They all say it's too risky.

Bunch of cowards. But
now we have the best.

Dr. Pierce, she's... she's not
pop rock, she's Led Zeppelin.

- Double Helix is back.
- All right, well, first things first.

Let's get some scans, see where we are.

Griffith, Millin.

Uh, she's been fasting, and
we've both been visualizing.

So she's ready for
surgery the minute you are.

Why didn't you show up with flowers?

That was all I'm saying.

It was supposed to be a
grand romantic gesture.

I surprised you in Germany.

- Yeah, but you came on a plane.
- Yeah, like a regular human person.

We need to check his upper
left extremity for a fracture.

- Order some AP and lateral films.
- OK.

What's the lesson here?

Romance can be fatal.

[CHUCKLES] Wouldn't be the first time.

- Or it can save lives and heal.
- Oh, please.

You're just trying to prove me wrong

because you didn't even know
that Jo and Link were an item.

No. No, Jo and I
are... We're just friends.

Friends who have slept together.

Wait, you guys slept together?

- How do you know that?
- You know what?

Just, uh, page me
when the scans come in.

How much longer do I have to be in here?

Not long.

Just think like you have a health bar

that needs replenishing.

- It's a video game reference.
- I'm aware.

How do you not know if you're
doing general or sub-specialty?

- It's a fellowship reference.
- Wow.

You're really begging
for a pile of scut, Kwan.

No, I'm genuinely asking

how you got into your
fourth year of residency

- without a clear direction.
- Well, let's see.

Maybe it was the worldwide
pandemic that happened

in the middle of my residency,

or... the program being
shut down last year.

Take your pick.

Well, I like to track each sub-specialty

I'm interested in with a spreadsheet

and monitor trends in each area.

I'm hot.

And it's really dark in here, guys.

I really want to get out.

Grayson, just, um, hum a song or sing.

Like what?

Anything inside your head.

[SINGING IN HEBREW]

You studying for your bar mitzvah?

Yeah. I sound terrible.

I've been practicing for
over 300 days in a row,

and I still sound awful, right?

- Yes.
- Keep chanting.

[SINGING IN HEBREW]

It's acute severe colitis.

[SIGHS]

[SINGING CONTINUES]

That smells delicious.

I was thinking after we
eat, we can go on a walk.

Um, I wanted to talk...

Hey, what's wrong?

With Mer gone and Maggie leaving,

there's not going to
be any Sunday dinners.

Mm.

On Sundays, Maggie cooks,

and she puts enough
leftovers in my fridge

to get me to Wednesday.

So maybe it's time to learn how to cook.

I have a history of spiraling
when people leave me,

and a good old-fashioned
spiral does not leave

much time for cooking lessons.

What does it leave time for?

All kinds of fun things.

Uh, pulling away from people you love,

starting fights, lack of sleep,

spilling your worst instincts
to someone who just flew

halfway across the
country to cook for you.

You love your sisters.

This is a big change.
Anybody would be sad, Amelia.

How could I be sad with you here?

[PA ANNOUNCEMENT]

- Yasuda, I have a job for you.
- Oh, Dr. Bailey, thank you.

- At your service.
- Hey, I need you to hold on to this.

That is my lifeline, and
I'm entrusting it to you.

Do not answer it unless caller ID says

it's my husband Ben Warren,
or a hospital number.

Got it.

So Grey Sloan, your
husband, or Ben Warren?

My husband is Ben Warren.

Do I need to entrust
this to someone else?

Nope. I got this. Entrust me.

Hey, if you don't screw it up,

maybe she'll entrust you
to babysit her tablet next.

[PHONE BUZZES]

[CHUCKLES]

Do I need to get surgery?

We should really wait for your parents.

I can't get surgery.

My bar mitzvah's to be in 36 hours.

You haven't been taking your medication.

What? No, I have. Every day.

My parents set this, um,
annoying alarm. Um...

Grayson, I have your urine results.

The labs don't lie, but
sometimes patients do.

Yeah, OK, I... I stopped.

But just for a little bit.

I've been in these Hebrew classes,

and the pills and
infusions, they made me...

They made me really
tired, so tired that I...

I fainted one day, and everyone saw.

And then the... the medications,
they dried my eyes out.

And then the eye drops, they burned.

And I got this gross-looking
rash on my neck

that Eloise Schurmann saw...

Do you know how worried
your parents have been?

Dr. Webber...

How much money they've
spent on your treatments?

- Now you need surgery.
- No. No surgery.

It doesn't even hurt that badly.

Just... just give me some
steroids or infusions.

The Torah portion is only 25 minutes.

- I can make 25 minutes.
- No, you can't.

- Please.
- If you don't get

the surgery immediately, the
inflammation in your intestine

will get worse, spread further,

and lead to an incredibly
serious infection.

You would be in excruciating
pain, and you would die.

- Kwan!
- You know what? Dr. Kwan is right.

Grayson, you're not an adult,
and you're not a doctor.

I'm talking to your
parents, because clearly

you aren't mature enough
to understand how much

we care about you, and how much harm

you could have done to yourself.

OK, Hudson's X-rays are in.

- [PHONE DINGS]
- Uh, sorry. One sec.

It's Jo.

- [CHUCKLES]
- [MESSAGE BLIPS]

Um, it looks like a simple

mildly displaced humeral fracture.

Yeah, and a shattered spleen
with decreasing responses

- to fluids.
- [PHONE DINGS]

Teddy and I can take
him up for an ex-lap now.

And I will set and reduce
the fracture when you're done.

- Mm-hmm.
- [PHONE DINGS]

- [LAUGHS]
- [MESSAGE BLIPS]

I know what you're thinking...

That I should tell Jo
I have feelings for her.

But listen, we built a
home together as friends.

Our kids are practically siblings.

If I make a move and she
doesn't feel the same way, it's over.

Saying something is not a good idea.

That is not at all what I was thinking.

- So you think it's a good idea?
- I have no opinion.

Plus, the last person I talked
to about their relationship

was Ndugu, and his wife
is moving to another state.

- Not to mention him and Altman.
- What was that, Yasuda?

Do you and Altman need us
to prep him for surgery?

Yes. And type and
cross two units of blood.

[LAUGHS]

- [MESSAGE BLIPS]
- [SIGHS]

[GUITAR TUNING]

And deep breath.

My parents toured with
the band for a minute.

They were called Blessed Wolf.

Well, I tried to name us
after our third grade teacher,

Mrs. Hatmaker, but Nola here nixed it.

Two women in a folk rock duo called

the Hatmakers might as well
sew up their vaginas forever.

Is Viv your only emergency contact?

My ride or die, since day one.

And you repay me by trying to die.

Think about all the songs you'll be

able to write about my death.

Oh, you're better off.

I mean, who needs a spouse
when you have a band-mate?

Well, we prefer the
term platonic soulmate.

Another excellent band name.

We're going to talk to Dr. Pierce,

and we'll be back to update you.

[GUITAR STRUMMING]

Thank you.

- OK, what is your problem?
- With what?

You're hating on marriage
to anyone who will listen,

when I'm about to get married.

Or I'm doing my job and
connecting with our patients.

Yeah, but you don't know Trey.
You don't know our relationship.

I know. Get married, don't
get married. I don't care.

But it's not a distraction.

I've been singularly focused on
becoming a surgeon since I was eight.

Griffith, I've already
said I don't care.

Who are you trying to convince?

Doctors? It's Nola. Something happened.

- [MONITORS BEEPING]
- We were talking and she gasped.

And then, um, this
machine started going off.

- I don't know.
- Grab a crash cart.

How's her airway?

Airway's patent and she's breathing.

She has JVD.

OK, we need to get her
oxygen, and page Dr. Pierce!

- [TENSE MUSIC]
- O2.

- What happened?
- Her BP dropped.

- JVD, muffled heart sounds.
- What does it mean?

- Cardiac tamponade.
- Someone tell me what that means.

Nola's tumor has caused fluid
to accumulate around her heart.

We need to relieve the
pressure by draining it,

by doing what's called
a pericardiocentesis.

18-gauge spinal needle.

- Griffith?
- [MACHINERY BEEPING]

Find your landmarks.

Find one centimeter inferior
to the left xiphocostal angle.

Yep.

Insert the needle at a 30-degree angle.

Good.

And slowly advance it toward
the left shoulder, while aspirating.

And you should start to see fluid.

- Good, there it is. Good.
- [BEEPING SLOWS]

She's stable, but we
don't have much time.

- Until what?
- Until the fluid builds up again.

Let's get her to the CCU,
and page Dr. Ndugu right now.

[MACHINERY BEEPING]

- [PHONE BUZZING]
- Do you hear something?

Don't worry about it, William.

- Maybe it's Rose.
- Who's Rose?

Oh, she's my girlfriend.
She's so pretty and smart.

Except for her teeth.

Don't worry about it,
William. It's not Rose.

- Oh, my God.
- It's not my fault.

[PHONE BUZZING]

Stop calling, asshat!

You're not harassing Dr. Bailey.

You are harassing me!
A poor, overworked,

tired intern who would really
appreciate it if you could...

Hello? Hi... Sorry.
I'll... I'll tell her.

- [QUIRKY MUSIC]
- That was Dr. Bailey's optometrist.

Tuck's glasses are ready.

Do you need me to hold
the phone for a while?

No, thank you.

Do you need me to hold
the phone for a while?

[PHONE BUZZES]

- You in the Nether worlds now?
- [CHIPTUNE MUSIC PLAYING]

Do you play with friends, or...

Do you think Dr. Webber will
still want to be my doctor after this?

- Of course he will.
- I disappointed him.

Well, if it makes you
feel any better, so have I.

Kids at school call me a defect,

because I'm always in the
nurse's office taking my meds.

I just wanted to be normal, you know?

You know, I tried for a really long time

to be what I thought was normal,

and then I decided to see
what would happen if I stopped.

- What happened?
- I liked myself a lot more.

OK.

I'm ready.

OK.

- [DOOR CLICKS]
- You paged?

I wasn't sure you'd answer it.

You're still my boss
till the end of the day.

Pushed my flight till tomorrow.

Looks like a large
thymoma in the mediastinum.

It's already... starting to tamponade

with sympathetic fluid, so
I don't have a lot of time.

Tumor is shaped like a heart.

- You didn't notice?
- No.

I was more concerned
with how close it was

to the heart, not its shape.

Have you considered doing
a reconstruction of the SVC?

Yes. But I'm concerned
that the tumor involves

the innominate artery.

OK, what if you take the
entire SVC and left subclavian?

You'd have to resect the sternum,

the SVC, and all the pericardium,
but you'd get the entire tumor.

That's if she doesn't
decompensate first.

If I go into the wrong dissecting plane

even a tiny bit, she
bleeds out and dies.

She'll die if she continues
to have fluid buildup.

What if we use a bovine pericardial
patch for the reconstruction?

Maybe that would allow
us to have clear margins.

No interns. There's no margin for error.

- Just you and me.
- Just you and me.

[SNIFFLING]

- I'm sorry.
- It's OK.

We hardly get to see each other,

and I'm sitting here
crying like somebody died.

[LAUGHS]

[SIGHS]

Even though I'm scaring you,
I'm so glad that you're here.

Oh, it takes a lot
for this one to scare.

[CHUCKLES]

I've hidden parts of
myself in every relationship

I've ever had, except for this one.

It feels so freeing.

I just can be myself,

queen of spirals.

You can't be the queen of
something that's only, like,

- a tiny part of who you are.
- [CHUCKLES]

You are sweet and kind.

But I also think that
you are underestimating

my ability to fall off the deep end.

I'm not underestimating anything.

The Amelia I know is
a badass neurosurgeon,

an amazing mom.

She works hard on her sobriety.

She's a loving sister, a devoted friend.

The Amelia I know is inspiring.

She is not the queen of spirals.

She is just a queen.

[PEACEFUL MUSIC]

♪

Dr. Bailey, Dr. Altman, Dr. Fox.

All married surgeons
with stellar careers.

[MACHINE BEEPING]

Careful.

The tissue is very friable.

I'm aware, Dr. Pierce.

All right.

Specimen's coming out.

[MACHINERY BEEPING RAPIDLY]

[DRAMATIC MUSIC]

♪

Her blood pressure's soaring.

Uh, why aren't you doing anything?

[BEEPING STOPS]

Pressure is stabilized.

Pseudo tamponade effect.

The heart isn't used to all
that space without the tumor.

Now it's alone... and happy.

Let's start the reconstruction.

Put her on bypass.

Dr. Hunt and I were able
to perform your splenectomy

without any complications.

- You should heal nicely.
- Same with your shoulder.

You're going to need a couple
of months of rehabilitation,

but then you should be able
to regain normal function.

Great.

- Thanks.
- Mm-hmm.

William, this is all good news.

Yeah. No, sorry. Um, Rose heard
what I did, and she dumped me.

- [SIGHS]
- You know...

I fell for her the second I saw her
in line for Space Mountain.

Company retreat in Orlando.

I thought she was the love of my life.

How could I have been so wrong?

Listen, me and my wife,

we were friends for years
before we became a couple.

We met when we were
army surgeons together.

So just to get this
right, are you judging me

for meeting Rose at a theme park,

or for believing in love at first sight?

[CHUCKLES] Neither.

Listen, even though it took us
years to get together, I knew.

I knew from the moment that I saw her

emerging from a surgical
tent in 100 degrees heat,

having just repaired
an aortic dissection

and saving a soldier's life.

- I knew I wanted her in my life.
- Then what took you so long?

Well, I was...

I was engaged, and then
I was married for a while,

and she was married.

Our timing was just never quite right.

But those relationships,
they came and went.

And our friendship outlasted them all,

even after she moved out of the country.

Then one day, I...

I just realized that
she was the one person

that I wanted to talk to
at the end of a long day,

or a great day.

When I was reading a book or
watching a movie, I'd think,

man, she would love this, you know?

She just kept... she would
constantly pop into my mind

until finally, I just...

I got on that plane to Germany, and I...

I just told her.

So if you feel that way about Rose,

if you know you want her in your life,

you should just try again.

Yeah.

I don't think Rose is it.

Excuse me.

- I got to be somewhere.
- Mm-hmm.

I mean, I did mail myself
in a box, but she's not it.

Thank you for that story.

Oh, look all of this
inflammation and necrosis.

I mean, this is almost the entire colon.

How long had Grayson's
symptoms been under control?

Oh, years.

The medication protocol worked wonders.

And now he's completely
turned that around.

Foolish to the point of stupid.

Dr. Kwan, do you even remember

what being 13 is like?

Because I do.

It was really, really hard.

You think Grayson doesn't already know

that he disappointed
everyone around him?

You think he doesn't
already feel stupid?

Believe me, he does.

Did you even hear him when
he was trying to tell us

that the medications
made him feel terrible,

worse than it already feels to be 13?

Did you listen to your patient?

Of course I did. But...

Grayson has spent an entire
year working his butt off

on becoming a man, so
maybe stop chastising him

like a toddler and freaking
him out that he could die.

Sometimes being a good
doctor, or a parent,

or even a good mentor,

means listening to what
the other person needs.

[SIGHS]

Suction, Kwan.

[MILCK'S "ANIMAL"]

All right.

♪

What is it?

There's no back wall left
for the reconstruction.

I don't think the
patch is going to work.

♪ Everything's alive
and wild and dying ♪

What if we access the jugulars

and use reverse cryoartery,

and drain into the right atrium?

Two incisions, end to
end, on the two jugulars.

- Yes.
- You think we can pull it off?

I think we're Nola's only option.

All right, let's do it. Right angle.

Vessel loop.

♪

♪ Since I was a child ♪

♪ I've been fighting ♪

♪ I am an animal ♪

♪

♪ My wild's undeniable ♪

♪

♪ A miracle, a mess ♪

♪ Ethereal, blood and flesh ♪

♪ I am an animal ♪

♪

[VOCALIZING]

♪

♪ The animal is in all of us ♪

[CHEERS AND APPLAUSE]

♪

[PHONE BUZZING]

I'm not saying I'm going
to throw it in the toilet.

But if you throw it in the
toilet, I would cover for you.

- Just shut it up.
- I can't.

[PHONE BUZZING]

[QUIRKY MUSIC]

What are you doing?

[BOTH SIGH]

- [PHONE BUZZING]
- Oh, my God!

What on Earth do you think you're doing?

Respectfully, Dr. Bailey, have
you considered just turning it off?

Uh, have you considered being a wife,

a mother, and a high-level
professional? Give me the phone.

- [SIGHS]
- [PHONE BUZZES]

[MELANCHOLY MUSIC]

OK.

♪

No.

No, no, no, no, no, no.

- No, no, no, no, no, no.
- Oh, no. No, no, Viv.

- I can't.
- She's OK, Viv.

Viv, she's alive.

She's in the ICU. We were able
to successfully remove the mass.

- Wait, what... what?
- The tumor is gone.

She has a long recovery,
but she's stable.

[EXHALES]

I thought she was dead. I just...

Your faces, those were not

"I just saved a life
against all odds" faces.

Yeah. We have a lot going on.

Thank you.

Dr. Pierce, I knew you
were the person. Thank you.

It was teamwork.

I could not have done
it without Dr. Ndugu.

Oh, thank you, thank you.

♪ Carry you through when
there's no other way ♪

♪ Hold you in my arms ♪

♪ Like I know what to do ♪

- [GRUNTS]
- ♪ Hold you in my arms

How long?

How long do I have the ostomy for?

Well, a few months.

Your... your parents went
to get something to eat,

but they've been with
you the whole time.

I didn't mean to worry
them or to make you mad.

I just didn't think
it'd be such a big deal.

You know, I remember your diagnosis

like it was yesterday.

It was a while ago.

I was in, uh, kindergarten.

And you were very worried about
missing your end-of-class party.

Yeah. I was worried about
missing the ice cream cake.

[CHUCKLES] I've known
you for a long time, son.

And I look forward to
seeing what's next for you.

I mean, your bar mitzvah,
high school graduation, college.

And when you make a decision
that puts your future at risk,

well, it's... it's frustrating.

But I'm not mad at you.

And if it came off that way, I...

- I'm sorry.
- I'm sorry, too.

Good.

Now that we've got that out the way,
I want you to do me a favor.

Now, when you heal up from the surgery,

I'm going to give you a prescription
for a new medication.

You want me to promise to take it?

I want you to tell me if
it gives you any problems,

if something's off, and we'll...

We'll find a solution together.

- OK.
- OK.

All right, let's check that ticker.

[ELEVATOR DINGS]

♪ Carry you through ♪

- Hey.
- Hey.

♪ When there's no other way ♪

♪ Hold you in my arms ♪

I have to hand it to
you, you really went for

your two favorite
things in that speech...

Proving me wrong and getting laid.

I was just trying to make
our patient feel better.

- Uh-huh.
- Mm-hmm.

Did it work?

Didn't you see Link?

- I meant the other thing.
- [ELEVATOR DINGS]

♪ And I'll carry you through ♪

Your mom's watching
the kids for the night.

♪

Dr. Mary Edwards Walker,
first female surgeon

in the United States, the second female

to graduate from medical school.

Married. Started a
practice with her husband.

Wow, you're still worried
about what I think of you?

The marriage isn't a distraction.

It's the damn wedding.

It's a pain in my ass.

It's the menu, and the seating chart,

and the dress shop is harassing me

because they want me
to come get measured.

But I am here from sunrise till sundown,

because I'm trying to
prove I'm just as good

as the rest of you.

Also, bridal shops are
open, like, three hours a day

or something, and I can't
ask Adams to measure me

because we all know why, and
my sister won't text me back.

So I'm not going to get measured,
so I'm not going to get married,

- so I'm not going to have a dress...
- OK, OK, OK. Lift your arms.

- What?
- Lift.

What are you doing?

Well, we can't let
Adams near your inseam.

And again.

Thank you.

- You owe me a drink.
- [LAUGHS]

Jo, you are... donuts in human form.

[LAUGHS] OK. No, no. All right.

You are... you are twinkle
lights and yellow roses,

and... although I hate most of
humanity, I do not hate you.

That... oh, um.

Uh, in fact, you are the only person

I want to come home to for
the rest of my... why...

Why didn't I write a song?

Should have written a song.

[PHONE RINGS]

[SIGHS]

Hey, Jo.

- I canceled the...
- [SOBS]

Whoa, whoa, whoa,
whoa. What happened?

- It's Luna. Something's wrong.
- Wait, wait, whoa. What's wrong?

The daycare think that... That
there's a problem with her hearing.

I... I need... I need to
get her checked out.

- I'll be right there.
- No, no, no.

We're gonna... we're
gonna come straight home,

so you stay there, OK?

- OK.
- OK.

[SIGHS]

[FRANKLIN CHENEY'S "THE
SEASON OF LEAVING WINTER"]

♪

When we don't feel heard or validated,

it can be very easy to forget
that we aren't actually alone.

♪ Wait ♪

♪ Let the colors flow ♪

♪ The changing of the season ♪

♪ Ain't enough to bring you home ♪

♪

Hey, there are my girls. [LAUGHS]

Hey, you ready to go home? [SMOOCHES]

Uh, we're not going
home. I got us a rental.

- What is this?
- It's a picture of Tuck in school.

I know it's a picture of
Tuck, but who sent it to you?

One of the numbers who's
called my phone over 40 times.

I know. I just changed the
number, changed the emails.

We're taking the kids out
of school for a few days.

And that there is a difference

between being alone,
and just feeling lonely.

Sometimes, being alone is the only way

we can hear our own hearts
trying to communicate

what it is that we actually want...

I smell cake.

What we need, and who we love.

Oh, no fork.

So we can move through this world

with better communication
when we actually have

something important to say...

Hey.

Hell of a way to go out today.

I could not have done
that surgery without you.

- You would have figured it out.
- No, I wouldn't have.

I wouldn't have figured out
a lot of things without you.

You push me to be better.

You challenge me.

You inspire me to never give
in on a challenging case.

And the way that you accessed
that jugular today, it was...

- [CHUCKLES]
- It was what?

♪

♪ So come on, bring the rain ♪

[VOCALIZING]

♪

♪ Like a tidal wave when
you're tired of waking up ♪

♪

♪ Oh, come on, bring the rain ♪

♪

♪ Oh, come on, bring the rain ♪

And to be crystal clear when we do.

♪

- I had a great day.
- Me too.

Don't go back to Minnesota.

I'm not.

Um, the team wants me
to open up a lab in London.

I'd run it.

Triple the size, triple the staff.

I wanted to tell you earlier,
but you were already so sad.

You want to go?

Amelia, I accepted.

I am going.

[MELANCHOLY MUSIC]

♪

[UPBEAT MUSIC]

♪ ♪

Our DNA is made up of
four nucleotide bases.

The sequences of these
bases is what determines

our unique genetic code.

Everything from dimples to eye color,

to tolerance for spicy food
can be found in our genes.

What's with the fancy breakfast?

I woke up and couldn't
get back to sleep,

so I made my specialty.

I didn't know you had it in you.

Yeah. Eat when you can, right?

All right, let's go.

- Let's go, people.
- Hey, you're the one who's not ready.

Genetic makeup can also help
ascertain risk for diseases,

so, it stands to reason...

London is an incredible opportunity.

If we want to minimize the risk...

OK.

It feels like maybe I should go now.

I said that you could use
my lab equipment for work.

I didn't say that I was ready
to hear more about the thing

that you're abandoning me for.

Could we find a way to change our genes?

And if we could...

are we sure we should?

Good morning.

Morning.

♪ Ain't no other place I'd rather be ♪

God, I miss this bed.

- How long have you been up?
- Four hours.

Maggie, when we were in the OR together,

we pull things off no one else can.

- I know.
- We work in sync,

and we communicate,
and we constantly know

- what the other one needs.
- If we can do that in there,

then we should be able
to do that all the time.

Come with me to Chicago.

We will get settled, and
we'll find a therapist.

Maggie, I don't have a job there.

But you'll find one.

Because you're going to get it for me,

- just like you did here at Grey Sloan?
- I didn't get you a job.

You had to interview
with Richard and Bailey.

They met with me because of you.

They didn't come to
Boston and recruit me.

I'm... I'm earning respect here,

and I'm finding my footing here.

- So you're saying...
- I'm saying don't go.

All right? Look, I know
that it has been rough,

and we have both said some things,

but there's enough good
between us to fight for it.

Stay here with me.

Fight for us.

[SOMBER MUSIC]

Winston, I've been offered
the opportunity of a lifetime.

OK.

♪ ♪

I am steady.

I'm committed.

You know why?

Because I work hard to
be nothing like my father.

Your birth mom is Ellis Grey.

The genius is baked in.

There will be other opportunities,

but the rest of it is
baked in too, Maggie.

So you have to fight.

You have to work hard
to be nothing like her.

♪ ♪

[SIGHS] I hope you stay.

- Ah, morning.
- Good morning.

- Morning!
- Well, hello, Dr. Miller.

How is the turtle?

- Very healthy.
- Excellent.

[LAUGHTER] Bailey, how are you doing?

Ah... well, my two teenaged
boys and pre-schooler

are in a rental home with
white walls and white carpet.

Kissed that security deposit
goodbye after the first hour.

My phone is no longer ringing
off the hook, at least.

- There's that.
- Well, I have asked security

to increase their presence
around the daycare.

Oh, not necessary.

Bailey, these people knew
where Tuck goes to school.

The hospital's daycare
is an obvious target.

Which is why Pru isn't going back there.

- Ready for rounds, baby girl?
- Let's go to work.

- Ah, stat!
- Stat!

[LAUGHS] Let's do it.

Ooh, ooh. Important. Very important.

Let's go. Let's go.

Well, you look rough.

- I never said I was a liar.
- I haven't slept in two days.

Well, at least you're not babysitting.

I really need to get out of peds.

- You want anything?
- You buying me coffee?

[PHONE BUZZES]
- Nope. Not anymore.

Trauma in the pit.

Amelia, can we just pretend

like I'm not leaving and
that you are not mad at me?

I really need to talk.

Oh, thank God.

Yeah, I need to talk, too. You first.

This morning Winston
basically called me Ellis.

Was he trying to start World War III?

He actually wasn't, which
is what made it hurt more.

He wants me to stay.

OK, so the Ellis thing... He called you

a cold-hearted monster,
but he wants you to stay.

I thought he was just saying that to put

my ambition and career first,
but... yours is way meaner.

Uh. [SIGHS]

Kai is you, and I'm Winston,

- so... I don't know whose side I'm on.
- Say more.

Yesterday, Kai announced that
they are moving to London.

That was after they came
here and made me fall

even more in love with
them, just for extra sting.

I think I might have done
that to Winston last night.

I don't want them to go. I...

I want them... [SIGHS]

I want them to prioritize
me. I wanna matter.

You do matter, Amelia.

You matter to me.

- You matter to Kai.
- [SIGHS]

Winston feels abandoned.

I asked him to come with me to Chicago.

Well, I can't go to
London. I have Scout.

- Winston did call me cold.
- Ellis was cold.

Do you think that's what he meant?

Do you think that Kai is cold?

Kai is anything but cold.

Maggie, you are anything but cold.

Saving lives is a noble pursuit,

but it's also one that makes you happy,

and that is not a word I have ever heard

associated with Ellis Grey.

Do you think you could give Kai
the same support you just gave me?

Definitely not.

Go.

Be happy.

[SENTIMENTAL MUSIC]

♪ ♪

Hey, your shoelace is untied.

Yasuda, are you wearing
two different shoes?

I have two different feet.

Here we go. [SIGHS]

- What have we got?
- Lindsay Allyn, 37.

Status post fall in the shower.
Negative LOC. Hemodynamically stable,

but has left-sided motor
and sensory deficit.

Patient with a known
history of Ehlers-Danlos

and a C1/C2 cervical fusion.

Well, it happened.
My head finally fell off.

OK. Let's page Dr. Shepherd. Let's go.

[TENSE MUSIC]

How long have you had the
heightened sensitivity, Ms. Barrett?

Uh, Tobey. On and off for a few cycles,

which is why I thought it was hormonal,

and then I started getting this, um...

- dis... discharge.
- Discharge?

From my... my nipple.

Adams, can you grab me a new penlight?

- This one is dead.
- Uh, sure.

Thank you.

There's nothing like
describing my nipple discharge

- in front of a cute guy.
- [BOTH CHUCKLE]

So, is it both sides or just one?

- Just the right side.
- OK.

Is that normal? I mean, I
just switched birth control pills

a couple of months ago.

Do you have any idea
how embarrassing it is

to leak all of your
shirt during a deposition

- in the county jail?
- Mm.

The correctional officer thought
I was smuggling something in.

- Like what?
- Girl, I don't know. Contraband?

- Vodka? Milk?
- [BOTH LAUGH]

I don't know.

I am constantly trying
to prove to the partners

that they can count on me.

Being the only woman
and the token Black girl,

- I can't have leakage.
- We're gonna get you checked out.

- Thank you.
- Of course.

- Be right back.
- Thank you.

Yeah.

Dr. Ndugu, you missed
quite the party last night.

I tried to get Dr. Millin to join,

but she claims she's not a singer.

You've been here all night?

Yeah, I wasn't leaving
this one by herself.

Music helps with healing, or
so someone on the internet says.

Music must be working
because Nola's labs

and vitals look fantastic.

- We'll move her from the ICU today.
- And where's Dr. Pierce?

Probably busy with final paperwork.

She was able to extend her
stay for Nola's surgery,

but her flight leaves tonight.

Oh, I guess I thought
maybe she'd change her mind

and stay an extra day or two.

Nola is in excellent hands.

You should be back on tour in no time.

- [SNORTS]
- Hey, there she is.

How are you feeling?

[MUMBLING]

- Why does she sound like?
- [MONITOR BEEPING]

Nola?

- Call a rapid response.
- Nola.

- I'll increase her O2.
- Oh, my God. Nola?

Nola?

It looks like your fall

caused the metal instrumentation

from your previous spinal
fusion to break off,

and your C1 and C2 vertebrae

are now compressing your spinal cord.

Can you just put them back?

The fusion was to fix something called

atlanto-axial instability from
my connective tissue disorder.

Well, we'll need more
imaging to see the full extent

of the damage, but the
traction should help

while we come up with a plan.

- Lindsay!
- Sir, you can't just...

Wait, what hap... I'm
sorry, what happened?

This is my brother, Carlton.

- He asks a lot of questions.
- Hi.

Yeah, I'm her primary caretaker.

I'd like to be added to the HIPAA forms,

- wherever those are at.
- We share a duplex.

- He's kind of the Kramer of my life.
- Hey, look at me.

They told me that you
fell in the shower?

I mean, is there something
wrong with the safety handles?

- No, no, no, no, I just slipped.
- OK, but you're supposed to sit.

- I know.
- That way you don't slip, right?

We need to order a
head CT with total spine.

Yasuda, CT.

- Copy.
- I'm OK.

Code blue. Code blue.

- Ah, dammit.
- What is that on her neck?

She developed a blood
clot around her jugular.

It's preventing the blood
from draining from her head.

- We need to reopen the incision.
- No, no, no.

- I want Dr. Pierce.
- We need her out of here. Now.

- Page Pierce!
- Get her out. Scalpel.

- Are you gonna do it right here?
- We have no choice.

[TENSE MUSIC]

All right.

♪ ♪

- The anastomosis is leaking.
- [EXHALES]

Got it. All right.

Hold it right here, tight.

We have to get her to the OR.

♪ ♪

- Oh, Adams. Here, follow me.

Pru, this is Dr. Adams,
and he is going to take you

to get a snack in the
cafeteria... no candy.

Uh... what? I'm supposed
to just take her with me

- as I see patients?
- No, now.

You are going to ask Dr.
Smith to give you something

to do that does not
directly involve patients,

because I'm needed in the
OR for small bowel resection.

OK, wait, Dr. Bailey, I don't think I'm

- the right person for this job.
- Oh, no.

You are a Shepherd,
which means that you are

one of approximately 1,000 siblings

and nieces and nephews and cousins

and children of all ages.

And you definitely, know how to keep

one adorable little girl out of
trouble for a couple of hours.

OK? Go ahead, sweetie. Go.

- There. There we go.
- I...

- Yeah. There.
- I...

Yeah, let's go get some candy.

[KNOCK AT DOOR]

Oh, I didn't know you were coming today.

Oh, just some labs.

Oh, well, I can come with you.

Richard, we both agreed
that I'd let you know

if there were any major
changes of procedures.

These tests are routine.

- How'd it go with Maggie?
- Oh, it hasn't yet.

I hope she didn't already leave.

Without saying goodbye
to you? She wouldn't.

Well, our last conversation
didn't... go too well.

She'll come around.

That's what it means to be family.

Well, I sure hope
that's how she sees it.

She will.

- [KNOCKS]
- How's everyone this morning?

- When can I have real food?
- Grayson, say good morning first.

Morning.

I'm just going to need
to check your ostomy, OK?

I know the broth is bland, but
I need to see how you tolerate

the clear liquids first.

You guys heading out?

Yeah, we need to go get
Grayson's cousins from the airport.

Tell them to enjoy the Mariners game.

Get some pizza, too, since
the bar mitzvah is canceled.

- Only until it's rescheduled.
- It won't be the same.

It's getting harder
for Zayde to travel.

It's a big trip from Brooklyn,

even for his favorite great-grandson.

- I'm right here. I can hear you.

Tatele, you'll do it later.

With or without me, it will be great.

OK, let's go.

We'll be back this afternoon. Promise.

[WHISPERING] Eat the broth,
and I'll sneak you a bagel later.

[LAUGHS] OK.

Come on.

Bye, sweetie.

Mrs. Friedman, a word?

Here we go, Luna bear.

Have a nice day Thank you.

- Checking in?
- Um...

Ma'am?

Can I help you?

Hey.

Hey, what are you... I... I
thought that you had a consult.

I shuffled things. I want to
be here with you two. Hm?

- Wait, am I late?
- No, we're just...

- We're checking in.
- I'll take her.

Come on, Luna.

Sometimes there are bone spurs

in the cord from the vertebrae
trying to stabilize itself.

With the revision, we
will release the pressure,

and the paralysis should
resolve itself pretty quickly.

Shouldn't take too long.
Lindsay, just stay still

- for us, OK?
- Kind of my only option.

[LAUGHS]

I thought Ehlers-Danlos was mostly
stretchy skin and hyperflexibility.

There are different types,

and it presents
differently in each person.

Oh. Hand me her labs.

There is soft tissue
edema and stranding,

also, mild atlantoaxial displacement.

Damn it. She has eonsinophilia.

I've seen this before.

Lindsay is allergic to the metal

that they used to stabilize her spine.

The screws and plate have to come out.

We're not gonna be able
to do this revision.

So, what? We just leave
her like this? Paralyzed?

You want to throw a bar mitzvah?

- Yes.
- At the hospital?

- Yes.
- In the chapel?

And the lobby for the reception.

Please, Chief, his
great-grandfather is here now,

- but he won't be for much longer.
- Who is gonna set all this up?

Hey, heads up. The cafeteria has
chocolate peanut butter brownies.

Oh, most cafeterias are
completely nut-free now.

- Ohh, uhh... Are you allergic to nuts?
- What do allergic mean?

Dr. Pierce, can I ask you
a question about a patient?

I'm not even supposed to be here today.

Oh, you're really leaving.

Have you already turned in your badge?

- What do you got?
- Did a breast exam on a patient.

I think I felt a lump.

- Tobey Barrett?
- Yeah.

Yeah, prep for an ultrasound
and a possible biopsy.

- I'll be there to supervise you.
- Thank you.

Ooh, Adams.

No, ah, ah! No, no, no,
no, no. No, no. Sorry.

- What do you see, Dr. Miller?
- Nothing.

Exactly. Neck exploration's complete.

Now, we can start to
repair the venotomy.

- Irrigation.
- I don't understand.

I was watching the surgery.

I mean, I was in the gallery,
but I saw on the monitors

you and Dr. Pierce had
perfect anastomoses.

They weren't too loose,
they were precise,

they were well aligned.
How does this happen?

Any sudden increase in pressure,

if Nola held her breath,
if she moved ahead too fast,

if there was any bearing down,
if you create enough pressure

in the body, the weak
parts will just burst open.

Sometimes you can do
everything perfectly,

it still doesn't matter.

- You want me...
- Sew in the patch graft.

Unless you want to go
back to the gallery.

[SENTIMENTAL MUSIC]

♪ ♪

Yeah.

You're gonna wanna take very small,

evenly spaced, bites.

Don't use too much force.

Good.

Hey, can we pretend for a minute

that you are not going to
London and I'm not mad at you?

No.

- What do you need?
- Because you're allergic

to the steel screws, we
can't just replace them,

so we have to remove
them, and then posteriorly,

fuse your C1 and C2 vertebrae together.

- With what?
- We'll 3D print a matrix

of coral and stem cells,
so your body will use it

as a scaffold to fuse the
vertebrae without any metal.

OK, so, hold on. It's
just one piece of bone.

How is she gonna move?

She will lose some mobility in her neck,

but it will stabilize the vertebrae,

and it will reduce the swelling.

I don't think that you should do this.

I don't. It sounds like science fiction.

I mean, who puts coral
in people's necks?

Well, technically,
it's calcium carbonate.

It's a precursor to bone formation.

Wait till you find
out that the stem cells

come from abdominal fat.

It is cutting-edge technology,

but one of the most published
neuroscientists in the world

happens to be in this hospital
the very day that your sister

- needs this kind of expertise.
- Yeah.

Yeah, well, with all
due respect, cutting edge

just sounds like a fancy way of saying
experimental and expensive.

Yeah, well, they're
not asking you, Carlton.

You just don't want me to have
a chance at more independence.

You couldn't take a shower without
falling out of your chair.

I was shaving, OK?

I fell because I was shaving my legs.

If you must know, I had a
date, and I was getting ready

and I bent over a weird
way to get the right angle

- on my knee, and I fell. You happy?
- You had a date? With who?

None of your business!

And I don't need you constantly
reminding me of my disability, OK?

Trust me, I'm aware.

This is my decision,

and I'm getting the surgery.

Yeah.

Can you print the coral now?

These are the saddest
balloons I've ever seen.

We're throwing a bar mitzvah.

It's supposed to be a celebration.

They should look like they're
about to pop, not drown.

It's going great, Chief.
You're the best.

Oh, Yasuda, help these two.

I've got to figure out if
there's a semi-decent DJ

in this hospital.

Are we supposed to be
surgeons or camp counselors?

Ah, says the one-man Babysitters Club.

Where are you going?

A woman came in
paralyzed, and Dr. Shepherd

is 3D printing a vertebrae so we
can do an awesome spinal fusion,

while saving her life
all on the same day.

- I'm taking a power nap.
- What about the surgery?

Dr. Shepherd is still printing,

and I just need 20 minutes
to complete one REM cycle

while the caffeine kicks in.

On Call room is the other way.

What if she has CMV or encephalitis?

Well, she hasn't been
vomiting or had a fever.

But it could be a tumor,
like an acoustic neuroma.

Then we'll be grateful that
it's benign and resectable.

Yeah, but it could be cancerous, right?

Like... like
nasopharyngeal or something.

There are leukemia
patients that sometimes...

Jo.

I know this is a little like saying

stop needing oxygen to live,
but... let's not panic.

We need to take it one step at a time.

- Wilson, Luna.
- Yes. Yeah, that's us.

Hey. Come here. Come here. Ohh.

Will you come with us?

- Yeah, of course.
- OK.

Come on. Come on.

Do you visualize the needle?

Yes.

Good. Now, study the
ultrasound, as you guide

the tip of the needle toward the center

of the hypoechoic mass.

- It's bad, isn't it?
- You found something bad, didn't you?

On appearance, it looks suspicious,

but we won't know anything for
sure until we get the results

of the biopsy back.

I just got on this huge case at my firm.

They might be arguing in front of
the Washington Supreme Court.

This was not in my plans.

I mean, I thought this was
some weird, little infection,

and I would go home with an antibiotic.

Can I try an antibiotic
to see if it goes away?

An antibiotic, unfortunately,
won't work for this.

How is this happening?

I go to the doctor regularly.

I mean, sometimes I miss it for work,

but I always reschedule,

and I do the self-exams in the shower.

It's just all feels lumpy.

How was I supposed to know?

Tobey, you have dense breast tissue.

You did everything right.

What Dr. Griffith found was small,

so it might have been difficult
to feel during your last exam

I feel like I'm being punished
for working so hard,

for always putting it first.

My mom is gonna say I
should've had kids earlier,

that a career is not gonna
make me smile in 20 years.

Yes, it will, if it's the right one.

I don't mean to contradict your mother.

Please contradict my mother.

You loving your job,
that is a beautiful thing.

Don't ever let anyone
make you wrong for that.

It does not make you cold,
it makes you passionate.

And you are not being punished.

Even if this turns out to be
malignant, you have options.

You have good options.

You are so on top of
everything that you came here

immediately, and that means
there's a chance that we might

have found something early.

Not everyone has that chance.

You're gonna be OK, Tobey.

We'll be back with the
biopsy results shortly.

- Try to relax until then.
- OK.

- Just get those to pathology.
- Yeah.

If it does turn out to be cancer,

I can't be the one to tell her.

Yes, you can.

Good doctors connect with their
patients for all kinds of reasons,

and you see yourself in
Tobey, so she'll trust you.

My mother died of it...

Breast cancer, and we
did not catch it early.

And it was long and painful,

and it took her away from me.

It took her away from
a life that... she loved

and that she had waited
too long to claim.

I'm just really missing her right now.

I hope I'm doing her proud.

There's no way you're not.

You are... one of the best
teachers I've ever had.

I hope I get to learn from you again.

- [SIGHS]
- You know,

a watched 3D printer never boils.

Our patient was lucky that
you happen to be in town

- when she took a fall.
- She is, isn't she?

Well, I think our patient
was lucky to have had

a loved one nearby to help.

I think our patient is just
trying to live their life,

but they can't because their loved one

is obsessed with being needed.

So you're saying our patient is being

- oppressed by being loved?
- Should we go over the surgical plan?

- Uh... fine.
- Yes.

OK.

A little higher.

Good. No, no, lower.

Perfect.

How's that' looking, Pru?

Pru?

Ah, damn it. Pru?

Has anybody seen the kid? Pru?

Well, I guess the gift shop
doesn't have a Judaica section.

Pru?

That's not better, is it?

Where's Yasuda? She's
supposed to be scrubbing in.

Oh, I'm not sure,

but... if you need an
intern, I'm available.

Let's go.

Thank you.

She's OK.

She's gotta stop doing this to me.

Nola is being moved back to the ICU.

You can go and sit with her.

OK.

Thank you... for saving
her twice. Thank you.

I'm glad you're
staying... at Grey Sloan.

I'm glad you're not going to Chicago.

I want to be on your service.

Today was amazing. Your
technique is amazing.

I want to learn from you.

I need to learn from you. So...

I'm not being disloyal to Grey Sloan,

and I'm not going to
apologize for being ambitious.

Did my husband call you too ambitious?

Not exactly, but it felt like
it and not in the good way.

That man. He's been around
ambitious women his whole life.

- He wouldn't have it any other way.
- You are a trailblazer.

I am. So was Ellis Grey.

Yeah, right. You... you knew her, too.

Not really.

Our paths would cross at
a conference here or there.

There weren't as many
female surgeons back then,

and a group of us would
arrange our flights

so we could have a drink together

that last day, but not Ellis.

She was always jetting off to
her next big surgery or... research.

She wasn't going to let a
little thing like friendship

or camaraderie get in the way.

Coldness is in my genes.

Not coldness. Focus.

Ellis Grey saved a lot of lives.

Maggie, you are so much more
than Ellis' pure ambition.

You are kindness, caring, honor,

fairness, friendship, love.

I happen to believe that
you carry those traits

in your genes as well.

- Richard.
- Oh, that man loves you

like you're the best
part of him and Ellis.

In all due respect to your parents,

I don't think a day goes
by when he doesn't wish

that he and Ellis were both brave enough

to follow their hearts.

If only so, he would have been a part

of your life so much sooner

I do wish I had known him longer.

Child, you are moving, you're not dying.

We're going to still see you. [LAUGHS]

I had the terrible broth, and I'm fine,

Can I please have something real to eat?

I think you might want
to wait on the solids.

I got something better for you.

Why are you holding my nice shoes?

I talked to your
parents, and they agreed

that since everybody is here together,

there's no point in
postponing your bar mitzvah.

So we're throwing it for
you today here at Grey Sloan.

- No.
- What do you mean?

Are you crazy? I'm not having
my bar mitzvah at a hospital

like some bubble boy loser.

- That's not what I...
- I said no!

- No bar mitzvah.
- [SIGHS]

[ALARM BLARING]

No. No, no, no, no.

No. No!

Suction.

- Are you ready for fusion?
- Why wouldn't I be?

You're angry, and I just want
to make sure that whatever

it is you're angry about,

- it's not going to affect our patient.
- Do I seem angry, Kwan?

Is this a trick question?

Kai is taking a job and moving to London

to start a new research team.

So we either have to do oceanic
long distance, or break up.

Well, for what it's worth, I heard

they've added a bunch of direct
flights from Europe to Sea-Tac.

Kwan, I don't even know
how you got into this OR.

Just pass me the damn matrix.

[DRAMATIC MUSIC]

♪ ♪

But, um...

it was nothing.

It was a... It was just a little...

It was nothing.

Like Dr. Pierce said, you have options.

Breast cancer is incredibly
treatable these days.

But I don't... I don't know where to go.

I don't know what to do. I...

- I always know what to do.
- I do.

I know what to do.

Right.

[SOBS]

- I'm sorry.
- Take your time.

♪ We were born to
last until the end ♪

You did so good, Luna bear.

Luna, hey, hey, I love you.

Sorry for the wait, Mr. And Mrs. Wilson.

- Oh, um...
- Oh, no.

- We're just friends.
- Right.

So we did the BAER test, which is the...

Brainstem Auditory Evoked Response.

We're both physicians.

- I'm an OB.
- Well, then you know

premature babies like Luna run the risk

of later complications.

We'll have to continue our studies,

but it does appear that she
has progressive hearing loss.

I'd like to run an OAE.
[SPEECH BECOMES MUFFLED]

She can be asleep for that,
if that makes things easier.

That would be my next step.

Any questions?

♪ ♪

I'm not going down there.

- I'm not...
- OK, well, so what if a few

of them come up here, then...

Your cousins or your Zayde?
- What?

Talk me into it? No, that won't work.

I'm supposed to be
eating sushi and cake.

I'm supposed to dance
with Eloise Schurmann.

I have to wear a suit with
pants that cover my butt.

- You can wear pants.
- I wanted to stand up on the bimah

and show my family and friends
in school how proud I am to be

Jewish, especially my Zayde.

He wasn't able to have
a bar mitzvah in Germany.

He's always saying how important it is

to be proud of who we are.

I can't do that like this.

Well, sometimes things don't
happen like you plan them.

Look, part of becoming a man...

means learning how to handle that.

It's like what they say in the Torah,

you have to leave room for
the magic that only happens

when you let things look different
than how you imagine them.

The Torah doesn't say that.

I'm sure it says something like that.

What if... you did it
together, with Zayde.

This could be his chance to
become a bar mitzvah with you.

Ah, there he is.

Are you ready to reel
into manhood together?

You and me.

Now, tell me, which
one is Eloise Schurmann?

The one in the pink dress.

Ohh.

Eat. Eat. You're looking pale.

Now, wheels up.

[SENTIMENTAL MUSIC]

♪ ♪

[SPEAKING HEBREW]

[SPEAKING HEBREW]

God bless you and keep you.

- Mazel tov, everybody!
- [ALL CHEERING]

[ALL SINGING]

- Mazel tov!
- [CHEERING, APPLAUSE]

Heard Nola is doing well.

I think Viv is going
to be your groupie soon.

She'll be way too busy
once they're back on tour.

I crushed it in there today.

Crushed it.

I wish you were there to see it.

You don't have anything
to prove to me, Winston.

- I thought about everything you said.
- You did?

Ellis stayed with her husband,

and by all accounts, that's
why she became so bitter.

She was ambitious before
that, but never cold.

She stayed.

She made everyone miserable.

My mom did the same thing. She
stayed with my dad for a long time,

even though she was in
love with someone else.

Both of them, they didn't
follow their hearts.

They didn't follow their guts.

They didn't... bet on themselves.

They stayed to keep the peace.

They stayed to keep other people happy.

My heart is in my work, Winston.

I don't think I'm cold,

and I don't think you're a coward.

I think that...

I think we did the best we could
and that neither of us is to blame.

I love you,

but I have to go.

I love you, too,

but I have to stay.

She did great.

Her spinal cord was intact,
and the swelling is coming down.

She should regain
function within a few days.

I know I can be a pain in the ass.

You know, when I was little,
I would follow her around

everywhere... to the mall,
football games, movies,

and I'm sure it feels
a lot like that to her

now that I live next door.

But when she first got sick, you know,

I watched this person that
I knew start to fade away,

and I told myself I would do
whatever it took to bring her back.

You know, I got a younger sister,

and she can be a pain in my ass
all the way from Los Angeles.

[ALL CHUCKLE]

I know she needs
independence. I know she wants it.

I just... I guess I wish
I could fix it for her.

Yeah.

Maybe you should talk to Teddy.

Kai could be a good
fit here at Grey Sloan.

Oh, nice job with the decorations.

Glad you got to practice your dexterity,

while I was repairing an anastomosis.

Actually, I got to
assess on a cutting-edge

- cervical spinal fusion.
- Because you stole it from me.

Ya snooze, you lose. Literally.

You better sleep with
one eye open, Kwan,

because I'm coming for you.

Ah, not worried,
because I know you sleep

- with two eyes closed.
- Yasuda.

Dr. Hunt, I am so sorry about today.

No excuses. Get your act together,

or you won't see the inside
of an OR for at least a week.

Richard. Richard?

I've been looking for you.

Yeah, me, too. Um...

Listen, your move, it's
caught me off guard.

You have every right
to pursue your career,

and you don't need me to affirm that.

I know, but it feels nice.

This is... this is for you.

- It holds business cards.
- Oh! Oh, I thought it was...

It's a miniature version
of the bench where I learned

that I... had a daughter.

My life was forever
changed in that moment.

I hope you remember
me when you look at it.

Richard, I'm not going to
need a bench to remember you.

♪ Good to see you ♪

[SIGHS]

♪ Nice to meet you ♪

♪ Again ♪

♪ Hello ♪

You double fisting?

One for me, and one for my date.

[LAUGHS]

It looks like she found another guy.

Well, isn't that just my luck.

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ ♪

Wow. This is really great.

Personally, I prefer a vanilla cake.

No. I mean the bar mitzvah.

Grayson is having the time of his life.

He's dancing with the girl he likes.

You know, I think you should consider

a peds fellowship, Schmitt.

I mean, you connect with
kids, you listen, you care.

It's rare.

Hearing aids are, like,
invisible these days.

- Look, it's wild.
- Can you... can you just not?

I'm just saying technology
has come a long way.

There's tons of info out there.

- It's not as scary as it seems.
- Yes, it is, Link.

It's extremely scary.

I'm sorry, just trying to balance out

the doom clock that I know is going on

- in your head right now.
- Because my child

is going deaf?

I don't... I don't care if technology

has come a long way.

This girl has been through enough.

She doesn't deserve to have
to go through this, too.

I just...

I need to wrap my head around this

before you go all cheerleader.

Thank you for being here.

You're right.

London is too far for long distance,

and I spoke to Teddy.

- Nothing is definite, but...
- You can't quit your job for me.

No, I didn't. She's expecting
some research funding.

You could move here.

Amelia, we work because
of the long distance,

because you get to
spend half of your time

with Scout and the other half with me,

and the two don't overlap.

- So is it about my kid?
- No...

From the minute I told
you about London, which

is the biggest career
opportunity of my life,

you have made it about you.

There were no words of encouragement,

no congratulations, no acknowledgment

of how hard I worked for this.

This is about you and me

being at very different
places in our lives.

I love you.

That is still true.

- But...
- But.

That's what people say...

before they abandon you.

♪ But when we grow ♪

Segments of our DNA strand

can be turned on or off by
our behaviors and environment.

[BOTH LAUGH]

- How did your test go?
- OK.

I'm telling the truth. I promise.

[SIGHS] It's just that

Meredith left and Maggie is leaving,

and the idea of just... losing you,

I just can't fathom it.

I hope to be with you for
a very, very long time.

But the only thing I can guarantee

is right now, and right now, I
want to dance with my husband.

[BOTH CHUCKLE]

♪ We hope, we hope ♪

So why not change the
expression of our DNA

and make it our own?

♪ We keep on moving ooh, ooh ♪

♪ And while the world's
spinning around ♪

♪ We've got both
feet on the ground ♪

♪ We keep on moving ♪

♪ Oh, ooh ♪

Because who we are isn't determined

just by what we inherit...

♪ Oh ♪

♪ We keep on moving ooh, oh ♪

♪ We keep on moving ♪

♪ Oh, we keep on moving ♪

But by what we choose to do with it.

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