All language subtitles for how.did.we.get.here.2021.720p.web.h264-kdoc

[slow music]

[Sean] I think what I was
searching for was family.

Like human connection,
that emotional connection,

that family, that community,
it's all the same thing to me.

It's that yelling
into the void

and hoping someone like-minded
likes the same stuff

that you do to make you feel
like you're not alone

in the world.

[crowd cheering]

[Sean] So I just wanted
someone to listen to me.

[crowd] We want Jack!

We want Jack!

We want Jack!

We want Jack!

We want Jack!

We want Jack!

[Sean] The kid who
grew up here never thought
I could come this far.

I'll never quantify it.

The more I think about it,
the more it's gonna be like,

yeah, why are people here?

I don't know. [laughs]

I'd like to think they're here
for the same reasons I am.

[thrilling music]

- [whip cracking]
-
Top of the morning to you,
laddies,

my name is Jacksepticeye
and welcome.

People used to say to me,
and what does he do?

And I said I don't know
what he's doin'.

I said, "You may just look up
YouTube and find out."

[Sean] 24 million people.
[laughs]

I can't stop smiling.

[Jack Black] Oh my God,
it's Jacksepticeye!

Jacksepticeye,
ladies and gentleman.

- [crowd clapping]
- He's a YouTube personality.

Oh, okay.

Thanks for havin' me
on your show.

Well, you've got your
rectangular screen,

there's a game, he's playing it,
and he's commenting.

Oh, this has fuckin'
"Bad News Bears"

written all over it.

[Malcolm] And they go,
"I still don't get it.

He plays video games

and people watch him
in the billions?" Yeah.

Who even needs a tour?

- You do.
- [upbeat piano music]

[Brent] Live shows and
touring, at it's core,

is the ultimate combination of
business and story

and themes and drama and
excitement and fandom,

and it's just this train
that's on a track,

and there's no stopping it,

and truly,
the show must go on.

And if something is
not working...

- Check, check.
- ...failure is not an option,

you just have to sort of
figure it out,

and that's terrifying and
exciting at the same time.

[luggage crashing]

- [people clapping]
- [Sean laughing]

[upbeat piano music]

[Sean] We are in
beautiful Copenhagen!

- In Denmark.
- [whistling]

Spooky shit, huh?

[Sean]
This is my favorite venue.

Not only is the stage huge to
fit an entire orchestra on it,

but it also has the coolest
general aesthetic,

but it's angled
a different ways.

That's nice to be able to like
pick sight lines

and be active and
walk back and forth

across the stage all the time.

So fuckin' cool!

[man] What are you the most
excited about for the show?

I would say everything.

[women laughing]

I learned how to do it once

and you kinda just
get the rhythm.

- Everybody in!
- [man] Everybody in.

[Sean] Everybody in!

You guys are the best,

and you guys make
this show much easier

than it ever would be.

And I love you all and I'm very
happy that we're all here

and you're all very hard workers
and I'm proud of you.

[crowd] We want Jack!

- Let's have a good show!
- We want Jack!

We want Jack!

We want Jack!

We want Jack!

- We want Jack!
- [announcer]
Ladies
and gentlemen,

introducing the How Did
We Get Here live show tour.

Starring Jacksepticeye.

[crowd cheering]

[announcer]
Also starring Jacksepticeye.

Written & directed by
Jacksepticeye.

And for the first time ever,
Jacksepticeye.

So sit back,
strap yourselves in,

and finish your conversations.

Yes, I do mean you two there
in the middle row.

Yeah, stop talking,
and get ready

for a night full of laughs,
tears, happiness.

[crowd cheering]

[clears throat] Oh!

Um...

Hi. Um...

- Why did it cut to me?
- [crowd laughs]

What happened to
the rest of the video?

What?

What are we gonna do now?

Do we--do we have a backup?
Can we--

can we get it rollin' again?

Oh, God, um...

Okay, hold on!

- Look.
- [keys jingling]

- Shiny keys!
- [crowd laughing]

Shiny key--

No? Fine.

What about this guy?

- [pig snorting]
- [crowd laughing]

He's good, right? [laughs]

- [pig snorting]
- [laughs]
I love him.

No?

- Tough crowd.
- [trumpet playing]

[crowd cheering]

How to entertain
a live audience.

Create the illusion of
direct eye contact?

[crowd laughing]

Is it working?

Okay, I'm gonna start
drawin' a picture,

and you guys have to
guess what it is.

[crowd laughing]

Okay, none of these...

None of these things
are workin',

and we're not gettin'
the video back up.

So let's make a deal, okay?
How about this?

If you come out from
behind your screens,

I'll come out
from behind mine.

- Deal?
- [crowd cheering]

Okay!

Let's do this thing then!

- [rock music]
- [crowd cheering]

Top of the mornin' to you,
laddies!

[crowd cheering]

Oh, you know I had to do
it immediately.

- [crowd laughing]
- Had to get one in.

Pander to the audience, check,
done already.

- [crowd laughing]
- Oh, man.

Jesus Christ, this place
is fuckin' nuts!

- [crowd laughing]
- There's people everywhere!

[chuckles] Welcome, everybody,
to the How Did We Get Here tour.

[crowd cheering]

How's everyone doin'?

[crowd cheering]

Okay, no, not all at the same
time, Jesus, okay.

How are you doing?

- Hungry.
- [crowd laughing]

Okay, weird answer.
How are you doin'?

- Tired.
- [crowd laughing]

Okay, Jesus, all right.

Well, how about I try and perk
you up a little bit, shall I?

[crowd cheering]

So this show,
How Did We Get Here,

it's gonna be a journey
through my life.

It's gonna be a journey
of life itself.

From the start of my life to
whatever the fuck this is.

[crowd laughing]

But it's not just
gonna be my story.

It's not just gonna
be my journey.

It's gonna be all of
our journey,

because we're all in
this together.

Kind of like
High School Musical.

[crowd laughing]

[upbeat music]

[Sean] The tour itself took on
a life of its own

and became a journey as well.

When we go around America,
each state is different,

and everyone has
their own accent and
their own way of life,

but everything
still feels like
quintessentially American.

Everybody thinks of America
as being large,

but you get there, you realize
how absolutely massive it is.

You have bigger places,
you have bigger cities,

you have bigger personalities,
you have bigger people.

You're just all about being
the best at everything.

As we got out on the road,

we went to visit so many
different places,

and make so many new friends.

We hit East coast and then
Midwest and then West coast.

[crowd laughing]

V-man!

And we got a good bunch of
people on this trip,

which is very, very important
if anyone's gonna tour,

I think, because it's
between the shows

that most of everything
on tour happens.

Oh, no! Oh, no, that's worse
than Hotmail.

[Sean] If you have a good
bunch of people with you,

they'll energize you like
a good battery.

One of my favorite moments is
actually in New Orleans

when we were all outside
the bus in the evening

'cause we had the day off,
was that our first day off?

And New Orleans is
the most bizarre town

I've ever been in.

[jazzy music]

[Sean] You go from like super
old school into the new,

and that was the day when
everyone kind of relaxed

and got to know each
other a bit better.

Oh, good food!

[music continues]

[Sean] We came back
and Vernon was going around
on a city bike

just circling the bus.

And Justin and JP
and I were all just out

throwing a football around.

And there was just somethin'
about that experience

where I was just kinda sittin'
there goin' yeah, this is fun.

This is cozy and nice,

and everyone's gettin'
along very well.

And when we get back
onto the bus,

everyone just hangs out and
gets to know each other

and talks about each
other's lives.

Yeah, it can be hard
to make friends

when I'm just workin' at
home all the time.

Tour kind of flipped
that on its head.

I got to step out of
my cave for a bit,

and really
get to know everyone.

Oh, where is it?
Put me in, Coach!

- Oh!
- [men laughing]

- [man] Get in there.
- Beanie Babies?

Oh, that's horrifying!

[Sean] Let's go all the way
back to the very beginning.

Billions and billions
of years ago,

the universe was formed when--

- I'm just jokin'.
- [crowd laughing]

28 years ago, I burst forth
into the universe!

[crowd laughing]

I was born into
a pretty big family.

So there's seven people
in my family.

I have my two parents,
I have two older brothers,

and two older sisters.

Which makes me the baby
of the family.

[crowd awwing]

Thanks, guys, I tried real
hard to come last.

[crowd laughing]

[dog barking]

This is where I grew up.

This is where I was born into,

and lived for 16 years?

This is so weird, I don't even
know what I'm looking at.

And now,
it's a veterinary clinic.

What is this place?

Um, this used to be
my parent's room,

and then this is my room.

Because it was a big family

and everyone was trying to get
a word in all the time,

everyone was always talking
over each other,

talking in my family was like
an Olympic sport.

[crowd laughing]

- And I was goin' for Gold.
- [crowd laughing]

This wall was never here,

and then our bunk bed
was there goin' that way,

and there was another bed
here goin' this way.

He grew up in a room
where it was just me

and my younger brother, Simon.

We were talking all the time
and talking about life,

and we had this thing where
I would lie on my back

and then kick the mattress up,

and he would fly
through the air.

And the entire wall was
covered in Pearl Jam

and Nirvana posters
and Alice in Chains

and all this weird stuff.

[slow music]

Because I was the youngest
growing up in the family

and seeing so much hardship
go through and my family,

dealing with so many
different things,

I was the knife that cut
the tension every time.

That's why I'm so extroverted

and I'm so jokey all the time,

because whenever tensions
would rise in my household

and people would argue
or you could sense

how much people didn't want
to talk to each other,

I was the one who
was in the middle making jokes

and making people feel at ease

and trying to level
everything out.

Oh, this is bizarre!

It's a good change.

Each day when I would
come from school,

I would run down the field at
the back of my house,

and I would climb this tree.

That big tree is the tree.

The tall one down there.

- I loved this tree.
- [crowd laughing]

I would have married
this tree if I could.

[crowd laughing]

I checked, it's not legal.
[laughs]

And it is way smaller
than I remember.

The reason I loved
this tree so much

was because I had a rope on it,

and I threw the rope up as high

as I could get it to
go at that age,

and I swung back and forth
all day, every day.

This is so fun! [laughs]

See, to some people,
this is nothin'.

But to me, this is life.

Yeah, I would climb this.

This is happy memories.

This is the good part
of my childhood,

'cause this is pre-internet,
pre-mobile phones
and everything.

You had to come outside
and go down into the field

and play to actually have fun.

Jesus, I miss this.

I dunno, it's nice that
I'm actually out here

doing it finally, and I don't
have to sit at home

wondering how things are
gonna go anymore

because we're in
the middle of it,

and it's super fun to do
and I love doing--

We sure are, me.

...having a great time,
time of my life.

[piano music]

[JP] There's this sense of
equality and comradery.

What the fuck?

[JP] And there's no
prima donnas,
there's no diva behavior.

Everybody's agreeable.

- [fart sound]
- [men laughing]

[JP]
I think it's important in life

to like, not take shit
so seriously.

Picture please.

And have fun and be
light and playful,

but also when something
needs to get done,

or there's a specific task that
needs to be accomplished,

then you switch gears
and you just do it

and deal with it.

And you do a good job at it.

[drumming music]

You explain to somebody that
you're goin' on tour

with a YouTuber and
they think it's bullshit.

Yeah, it's definitely
different

than a traditional rock
show or music tour.

Anybody that can get up on
stage in front of 3,000 people

and hold their attention for
an hour and a half

and get laughs,

you can't do it unless
you worked really hard.

I swear to God, I'm gonna have
to take out this balcony.

[crowd laughing]

I grew up in a very small town
in Ireland called Cloghan.

- Yeah, exactly.
- [crowd laughing]

No one ever reacts when
I say Cloghan.

I know what you're thinkin',
because it sounds weird,
doesn't it?

Cloghan.

Sounds like the sound an old man
makes when he sneezes.

[crowd laughing]

But since you're all gonna be
honorary Irish people

here tonight with me...

[crowd cheering]

You can all try saying it
with me, okay?

- Cloghan.
- [crowd] Cloghan.

- God bless you.
- [crowd laughing]

In the town of Cloghan,
it was so small,

there was only 600 people
in the entire town.

Really, really small place,

so everybody kind of
knew everybody.

You saw the same faces
over and over again

when you were going around town.

So each weekend in our house,
20 drunk Irish people

would show up.

[crowd laughing]

All sittin' around
the kitchen table,

and me being 10 years old
in the middle like.

[crowd laughing]

This is great!

Everyone here is best friends.

They weren't,
they were just really drunk.

[crowd laughing]

We had a table but we didn't
have chairs at it,

we had like a bench either side.

So people would just
show up and there'd be like
four people here,

four people there, and a whole
bunch of others all around it.

Some people in the sittin' room.

But when this would happen,
because I was so small,

all the drunk people would try
and get a rise out of me.

They would try and make fun
of me all the time.

So they'd come up to me,
shit faced,

like, "How are you, Seany?

You're fuckin' small,
aren't ya?"

[crowd laughing]

And I'd just stand there goin',
"Bitch!"

[crowd laughing]

I was fast. I knew how to turn
it around on them immediately,

and I think being that age
was the first time

I ever remember making a room
full of people laugh.

- I wanted more.
- [crowd laughing]

During New Years,
after--sometimes after
we would do the thing

on the roundabout, a bunch of
people would just come back

here for like a house party
and continue drinkin'

'cause the pubs'd close.

I never had the drive to like
as soon as I turned 18,

go out and get hammered.

I have, but it wasn't a thing
of I need to go out

every weekend like they did,

because I knew how
dangerous it could be.

I knew how scary it could be.

I knew how much misery it could
bring into a household,

and how much emotion
it could drive.

My dad had been, like,
swore off drink and cigarettes

from when I was very,
very young.

It wasn't until I was much
older that I understood why,

that he was
an alcoholic as well.

But I never saw my dad like
that, I came much later.

With Malcolm and Simon,
I think they've both

gone through severe
alcoholism and thankfully,

both gotten out of it now.

It's just like blinking
through life,

and their life is just
flying past them

because they're never
sober through it,

and both of them have dealt
with suicidal thoughts,

and Malcolm tried to go
through with it.

I would have felt
my life growing up

was kind of tough now,

um, and that's left it's own
scars on me too,

but maybe he learned from us,

and maybe he learned what to do

and maybe what not to do,
you know?

Maybe it's not all negative,
you know?

- [Sean] This is the church.
- [calm music]

[Sean] Every Saturday,
half the town
would show up for church

including my family.

Every Sunday morning, the rest
of the town would show up

and go to church.

I'm actually curious
if we can go into it.

So everybody in the town saw
God at least once that week.

[crowd laughing]

[Sean]
Being a 10 year old in church,

you kind of get a bit bored.

This is so bizarre.

So I decided, I'm gonna
spice things up a bit.

- [crowd laughing]
- I'm gonna become an altar boy.

[crowd groaning]

Oh no, not that type of story!

[crowd laughing]

Jesus.

You have to pay a lot more
money to see that show.

- [crowd laughing]
- [bell ringing]

Those are the exact same bells
that I would ring

when I was 10.

I'll paint you a little
picture of what it was like.

Weird.

This is the priest,
a very short priest.

[crowd laughing]

We would be kneeling down
as altar boys,

me and one of my best friends.

Me here, best friend,
and then two guys over there.

[Padraig] Two pairs
of altar boys are
at each side of the altar,

but what that means is that
while the priest

is on the altar talking,
you're facing each other,

and if you look up,
you're looking straight at

the other person unobstructed.

So if they're already
struggling to hide a laugh

and you see that in the middle
of what's supposed to be

a very serious context,
it's the most difficult thing

in the world to try and
not laugh yourself.

You could just see like,
the shoulders goin'
up and down,

laughin' their asses off.

During communion, the collection
plates would go around.

You know, collect money,
keep the church running,

keep the lights on,
keep God happy.

[crowd laughing]

And I've seen this done
a million times.

I knew exactly what
had to happen,

I knew where
the collection plates were.

They were always over in this
area on the baptismal font.

Kind of where these people are,
hi.

[crowd cheering]

A baptismal
font doesn't fuckin' wave!

[crowd laughing]

The priest looked at me,
it was my time

to go get the collection plates.

He looked at me and said,
"You got this, my child."

Got you, fam. [laughs]

And then comin' over

and realizing that there
was nothing there.

- Oh shit!
- [crowd laughing]

They're not there!

Where did they go?

But every seat was full,

and everybody was lookin' at
me and laughin'.

All of a sudden,
my sister's husband's father,

that's right,
came all the way up to the front

with the collection
plate in his hand.

Now, I have no idea
where he got these.

[crowd laughing]

He must've pulled them
out of his arse.

[crowd laughing]

And do you know what
his name was?

Jimmy Christy.

J Christy.

Jesus Christ himself came
down to help me!

[crowd cheering]

[laughing]

[Sean] Bus life is good.
I love bus life.

I love hangin' out with
people on the bus,

and I love being on tour.

You look like one of the guys
from West Coast Customs.

[in American accent] This is
Justin, he's on carburetors.

This is Arin, he's on paint.

[calm music]

[Sean] Because you share
such a small space
with everybody,

you end up forming these
really great bonds,

and you're kind of forced to
hang out with each other

and talk to each other,
which I love.

Everyone's a small
little family.

This is so cool!

[Sean] I don't know much about
American history,

but I think it's awesome,

'cause this is stuff that
we only see in movies.

It's one of the first times
that I've seen buildings

in person where they
not only look nicer,

but they also look bigger
than I thought they were.

But this is gigantic
and it's awesome!

Wow, it's lookin' real good
out here, guys. Real good.

Primo Jacksepticeye signature.

That should be worth...
that should be worth nothing.

People were getting like
Darth Maul tattoos
before the movie came out

because they're like
this is the new Vader!

And then they killed him
in the first episode.

[Sean]
Darth Maul's still badass, man.

"Killing younglings."
The line that Ewan McGregor
couldn't deliver

without laughing so he had
to cover his mouth.

- [man] Really?
- "Killing younglings!"
Like he-- [laughs]

It's so funny.

There's a nice shot right here.

Good one.

[man] I just remember there
being a weird sense

of when you start to walk in
you're like this looks

so fuckin' familiar.

[man 2] Oh yeah, that happened
to me
[indistinct].

- [man] What the hell?
- [calm music]

This is touring.
If you don't do this stuff...

Well, yeah. You're like...

When am I ever gonna be
in Dallas again?

Can I have one American
cheeseburger?

[man] Can I get a seven layer
burrito with chicken, I guess?

- Thank you, bud.
- [Sean] We ordered
a half a town's worth of food.

You look like
Jacksepticeye from YouTube.

- Nah, I hate that guy.
- [man laughing]

[Sean] Last night,
we were in Philly.

The biggest show of
the entire tour.

[crowd cheering]

Well, this leg of
the tour anyway.

Oh, hi!

Some of the jokes that
I told during that one

have killed in Philly more
than they ever have

in any of the other venues
which is so bizarre,

but fascinating to me at
the same time.

The Durham show, that was
a huge crowd as well.

There was just like
three mezzanines

and all the way up to the top.

[crowd cheering]

This group of fans on
Tumblr and Twitter

started handing out green
slips of paper at shows

for people's phones.

It made the audience look like
a sea of green stars.

That blew me away every time
I walked out on stage.

Look at all the beautiful
little green lights
out here tonight, I love it!

[crowd cheering]

[Sean] And now we're in DC,
which has one of
the smallest shows

of the entire tour.

Cloghan also had a dark side.

[crowd gasping]

A seedy underbelly.

Each year in Cloghan,
the biggest night of the year,

every year, was New Year's Eve.

But in Cloghan,
we had a bit of a ritual.

Do you know what
a roundabout is?

[scattered voices] Yeah!

Okay, some of you are
with me for now.

[crowd laughing]

The roundabout in Cloghan
was called "The Square."

[crowd laughing]

I don't know why.

You'll understand as
the night goes on,

Irish people make no sense.

[crowd laughing]

On this "Square,"
there were five roads,

and that was the joke
about Cloghan.

The best thing about Cloghan
were the five roads

that took you away from Cloghan.

[crowd laughing]

We would take two pitchforks.

[crowd laughing]

Two lads would stand on
this roundabout

with sods of turf.

Do you know what turf is?

[scattered voices] Yeah!

Really?

[crowd murmuring]

Turf is what you dig
out of a bog

to burn in your fire for winter.

[crowd chattering]

Oh!

[crowd laughing]

You didn't fuckin' know, did ya?

[crowd laughing]

We would take these sods of turf

and put them on the pitchforks.

[crowd laughing]

And then light them on fire.

[crowd laughing]

Two lads with
flaming pitchforks.

[bagpipes playing]

[Sean] One guy next to him
playing a fiddle.

[crowd cheering]

[Sean] Jesus Christ was back
playing the accordion,

and the entire town of Cloghan
would line up behind them,

walking down each of these
five streets singing songs.

Now, I used to think
this was normal.

[crowd laughing]

Until we started writing
material for this show

and I thought, hold on.

How batshit crazy must
that have looked?

[crowd laughing]

If you were driving through
Cloghan that night

and you saw 600 people all
standing around a roundabout

they called "The Square,"

with flaming pitchforks
in their hands,

hands held together,
singing kumbaya

like they're about to summon
the fuckin' antichrist

- out of the ground.
- [crowd laughing, cheering]

There's no fuckin'
roundabout anymore!

We keep talkin' in the show
about this roundabout

in the joke about Cloghan
and the ritual we used to do,

and the roundabout used to
be right there.

Right in the middle of town
for the five roads.

Is it weird that
everything's smaller?

We would all stand around here,

all around the roundabout.

Like completely encircled.

Oh, Cloghan, never change.

Actually wait, do.

That's fuckin' weird.

[crowd laughing]

[slow music]

[Sean]
My brain overthinks.

So being in some areas where
I can turn my brain off

is very, very important to me.

Like me doing YouTube videos
is when my brain turns off

and I just get to be like
completely free-form.

I get to do what I want.
I'm not overthinking myself.

I just do.

There's times when
I'm in kind of a shitty mood,

and I'll start
recording the games

and I'm like, "Oh, do I have to
record somethin' today?"

And then like five
minutes into it,

I'm completely turned around
because it's just,
that's my happy place.

That's where I feel like
I operate best.

What your brain wants is
something different

than what your heart
wants to do.

Your brain wants to just
stay in work mode

and do what it needs to do,

but your heart always
wants to explore,

and your heart wants to enjoy
whatever you're doing.

Your heart is where
the art is, I think,

and then your body wants
something else

completely separate
from those.

So it's all about finding
the balance between all three.

Instagram livestream.

There's not one thing that
everyone wants to do.

You change like every three
to five years anyway.

So maybe you're trying to
find several versions

of yourself.

[music continues]

There's so many, so many people.
So many fans.

- [fans squealing]
- They socialize,
they talk about the show,

they talk about material
that's online,

and they develop
friendships that last

longer than just that show.

[crowd shouting]

Selling merch.

The most important job.

Everyone knows that.

There's only one shirt,
a tour t-shirt, poster, beanie.

It's a very dangerous job.

I'm gonna get some
fans to help me.

[indistinct chattering]

You're big, you can probably
lift this whole thing up, right?

[box smashing]

It's absolutely insane.

Every single person
buys merch.

No one has ever complained
about waiting in line.

Well, there's always
the tired fathers,

but I mean, I just give 'em
one of those.

Like, "You're a good man."

Before the show they're
excited for the show.

I have never seen
anybody live before!

His excitement just makes me
extremely happy.

After the show,
they're high from the show.

He uplifted us and encouraged us
to follow our dreams.

I like how he ended the show
with his message,

keep pushing forward.

- [cork popping]
- [people cheering]

[crowd cheering]

[Sean]
In my secondary school days,

that's when the name
Jacksepticeye was born.

[crowd cheering]

Welcome to my school!

Or at least, what was my school.

It's not a school anymore.

Because in school, I had
a friend. A friend named Paul.

I may or may not have
kissed a girl

at the back of this classroom.
[laughs]

And he found out that my
mother called me Jack,

because I don't know,
Jack and Sean go together?

[crowd laughing]

Because Sean is Irish for John

and John and Jack go together?

Yeah, I told ya Irish people
make no sense.

[crowd laughing]

One day, we
were out on the playground
playing football.

None of this stuff was here,
this was all completely open.

There was a set of goals
down that side,

there was a set of
goals this side.

Great day,
sun beaming in the sky.

- [in deep voice] It wasn't.
- [crowd laughing]

[in normal voice]
Everybody in the school

came out
to watch us play football.

Even the teachers.

- [in deep voice] They didn't.
- [crowd laughing]

- [in normal voice] The fuck?
[crowd laughing]

The ball went up into the air
and I saw goals in my eyes.

I wanted to impress everybody.

So I launched myself
into the air after the ball.

Fun fact, this is when the Irish
space program was born.

And I went up to like hit it
and hit it down

towards these goals
to like, score.

As I went up into the air,
my 14-year-old muscles

bristling under my shirt,
testosterone fueling my body,

my long blonde hair
flowing in the wind.

[crowd laughing]

When I went up to header it,

some other dude
was comin' up this way.

I should mention, this person
was wearing a pair of glasses.

[crowd groaning]

And I'm not a scientist,
but I'm pretty sure that mass

times acceleration plus really
sharp pair of glasses

to my eye
equals really fuckin' bad.

[crowd laughing]

And when I went like that and
he also like, came towards me,

so I like, I was...

I was the fuckin' motion that
actually hit my own head.

And when I hit him, I saw stars

and my vision went
black for a second.

Red went everywhere like
a human jam donut.

[crowd groaning]

Coming down my face,
streaking half my vision

like a pair of old,
shitty 3D glasses.

Then I was brought down
into the main building

to get fixed, but when I was
walking down past everyone,

they were all like, "Oh, fuck!"

'Cause there was blood
all over my face.

Some people on
the sidelines gasped.

[crowd gasping]

Some people cried.

[crowd crying]

The older kids said,
"Who the fuck is that again?"

[crowd laughing]

The teacher bandaged me up
and I was sent home

because I was too scary to look
at for the rest of the kids.

And after about two weeks
had passed,

I came back to school but my
wound hadn't healed up fully.

I came back and I had this big,
gross, green lump

- over my eye.
- [crowd gasping]

My friend, Paul,
said he would take liberty

and extend the Jack name further
into Jacksepticeye.

[crowd cheering]

Oh, he thought that was great.

He thought it'd be fun
to get everybody

to call me Jacksepticeye.

He even tried to get my
teachers to call me it.

Who's laughing now, Paul?

[crowd cheering]

God, 12 years ago.

Jesus.

[upbeat music]

[Sean] The show we did
last night in LA,

was the first show back after
two months of doing the tour.

First show of leg three.

I'm excited to see you.

[Sean] I know like,
7,000 people in LA.

I'll find you in the crowd.

Lock eyes with me!

Let's bounce.

I do the show better now since
the first leg of the tour,

I think.

- [woman] Break a leg.
- I'll break both.

You got this.

Supposed to get your
adrenaline goin'

or your testosterone or
some bullshit.

This is the most friends that
have been at a show so far.

[crowd cheering]

This one, it's more just like
anxiety, but it's a good one.

Like butterflies where
I'm so excited to do it.

Top of the mornin' to ya!

[crowd cheering]

[Sean] It's nice to know
the material well enough

that now, if I meander off
into an improv part,

when I come back,
I'm not lost.

- How you doin'?
- [woman cheering]

I didn't fuckin' ask you!

[crowd laughing]

This is our moment.

The audience is there just to
have a good time,

you just have to lead 'em in
the right direction.

[Robin] I'm--I'm really happy
with how things have gone.

I'm really proud of how
he's handling it,

and how the community as
a whole support each other.

[man over speakers]
Please welcome to the stage,
Jacksepticeye!

[crowd cheering]

[Robin] Even in the relatively
small Q&A sections

here on the tour
before the shows,

some people when they get up
to ask the questions

and they're really nervous
and they might

not get the words out
that they want to say,

not only does Sean encourage
them and say take their time,

take a deep breath,
but you can hear other people

in the crowd just sort of
shout, "It's okay,

you can do it,
take your time!"

Of all the other panels and
shows I've been to,

it's very rare.

[crowd cheering]

[Sean] It's not just
this magical thing

that suddenly you're an adult
and you know exactly

what's going on and what
you're doing. It's like...

you have to get through
those rough years

as a teenager to figure
out who you are

and what you want to do and
where you're goin'.

We're all still tryin' to
figure it out even as adults.

Oh, I don't like this at all.

Hi, Jimmy!

All the way up here.

- [Jimmy] Wow!
- [Sean] This is terrifying.

Life's obstacles suck,
but you can overcome them.

I don't like it. [laughs]

You can still work hard
and you can have fun with it,

and you can chase a dream
if you have it.

Doesn't have to be YouTube,

but as long as
you're passionate about it

and you're trying to
work towards

the best version of yourself,

then that's what's important.

She just said it's
the throne of God!

[crowd laughing]

[crowd chanting indistinctly]

Oh, that's how you kill culture.

[indistinct chattering]

[Sean] 'Cause everyone thinks
touring is gonna be like,
sex, drugs, rock 'n roll, baby.

Not that any of us ever do that,
but it's that kind of boisterous

kind of environment
that people think

is gonna be hectic or crazy.

Did you find someone?
Oh, yes!

There's a lot of hurry up
and wait energy on tour,

'cause you get in
in the mornings and
everything's like go, go, go,

and then you get at the venue
and it's like go, go, go,

and then you sit there
it's like,

"Well, what do we do for
three hours now?"

I dunno though.

I think everyone on tour
got a little closer

when we were waitin' around.

[drum music]

[Sean] The first time I heard
someone play drums,

I thought they were too loud.

[crowd laughing]

[laughs]

Then he kinda got into
the music scene,

that was kind of
through Malcolm, and

started learnin' to
play the drums.

I would walk past
the bedroom window

and there was my brother
playing drums.

More hair than man.

[crowd laughing]

Playing drums like Animal
from the Muppet like.

[crowd cheering]

So when I was older
in my teenage years,

after giving up on
guitar a small bit,

I was watching MTV, remember
when MTV played music videos?

[crowd cheering]

And one day,
Green Day came on TV.

[crowd cheering]

I think Green Day was
the biggest thing

that sticks out in
my head with Sean.

The "Boulevard
of Broken Dreams,"

that was probably one
of the first--

- Oh, my God!
- ...ones he ever played on.

[Sean] This room
was purpose-built
just for my drum kit.

[Simon] He got into a band
and like most of
his childhood friends

were in the band with him.

[Susan]
Yeah, so that was cool.

Every house party that was
ever had at our house,

everyone ended up
out in the shed

- listenin' to Seany
on the drums.
- Yeah.

I'd have the drum kit down
here in the corner

playin' away.

And I played those big bad
bongos all day, every day.

Oh my god, the same poster's
still here. [laughs]

It's a 3D picture of
the moon landing.

But it was at this
moment in my life

it took its biggest turn ever,

because I'd been going to
college for about two years

for music production,

and my family decided it
was time to move.

So we ended up moving to a place
called Ballycumber

to a log cabin
in the middle of the woods.

As an 18 year old, not the best
environment for me,

and when I was goin' to
college for two years,

I realized that I wasn't
really able to keep up.

Everybody else in my course
was phenomenal at it.

They were all super
good at music,

they were all able to pick up
the projects we were given,

they were able to do
the music theory,

and do everything fantastically,
but I wasn't able to.

And because I was so
embarrassed,

I was too afraid to admit
that I was too dumb

to be able to do this so I ended
up leaving college,

and I went back to
this log cabin

and completely lost myself.

I had no idea who I was anymore.

I became very heavily depressed.

I didn't know
where I was gonna go in life.

All these goals and aspirations
and things that I thought

were supposed to happen
were all gone.

What I thought I was
gonna do in life

was that I would start off
in a small town,

I would go to a slightly
bigger town for school,

make some friends,
start playing drums,

move off to the city for
college, and become a success,

but that didn't happen.

And I moved away from
all of my friends

and people always say that's
fine if you move away

from your friends 'cause you're
gonna make new friends,

but that wasn't even
a possibility where I was living

because we lived near nobody.

I was completely alone.

It was just me and
my family together,

and all I had to occupy my time
was video games and drums,

and I didn't even want
to play those

because I was just so miserable

because I didn't know what else
to do with myself.

[wind blowing]

[slow music]

[Sean] How are ya keepin'?

[Sean]
You're above the ground,

that's a good way to be.

It's nice and warm.

[Sean] Mother said
she'd be back soon.

He's 82 and a couple
of years ago,

he was diagnosed with
Parkinson's.

He's just deteriorated so fast,

and he's always been very active
my entire life growing up.

He was always outside,

he was always workin' with
his hands, he was very strong.

I would always ask to see
his muscles and everything

'cause he was so cool,
and he worked so hard,

but moving to that cabin
probably made him

more depressed
than it made me.

This wasn't good.

Nothing in my life will ever
get as dark as that time,

because that was
extreme isolation.

That was extreme loneliness.

We got this after like
a year of livin' here

because when I would be
here during winter,

the ice would come in
on the walls up to about here.

So all the inside of the cabin
would all be frozen,

and the walls are literally
like as thin as that.

So this is the thickness of
the whole cabin.

[knocking on wood]

The whole way around.

This is where my
recording setup was.

So my bed was that way,
but I didn't have a bed frame.

I had two mattresses just
lying on the ground,

and my desk was here and
you can even still see

the foam on the walls from
when I would record here.

I used to use tacks
all the away around

to put a black bed sheet
behind me,

but it also segregated the cabin

so that if I wanted to heat up
here at nighttime,

I could just pull the bed sheet
down and keep the heat in.

In like 2009, I think, we had
a really, really bad inter here,

and all the pipes froze,

because it's all like,
just under the ground.

So all the water froze,
we had no water

for two and a half weeks.

When the water came back,

the pipes up here all burst,

and all the water came down
through the boards here

onto my computer and
my desk and everything.

I like, caught it in time and
told them to turn it off again.

Not a way to live.

That's where it all started.

And as you can see, you can
scream all you want out here.

No one fuckin' knows.

No one hears.

[Malcolm] I think,
essentially, it was a release

because he would have
gone crazy.

He'd come home, cook
my folks dinner every day,

he was the model son,
and then he would go

and he would record
these videos.

Hello, all you beautiful
people out there!

My name is Jacksepticeye
and in this video,

I'm gonna talk about
horror games.

[Malcom] And I came back
and my mother said,
"Oh, the other night

I heard him and he was
screaming and shouting,

I thought he was
being murdered."

But he was in the cabin
next door at midnight,

shouting at some horror game.

[screams]

- [Malcolm] I think he forgot
about the outside world.
- [groans]

I think he was so
immersed in this thing,

it was like his little secret
that he could come home to.

It was like he stepped out
of the mundanity

of every day life
and the mundanity of
living in the woods,

with this captivating pastime.

I think that's why YouTube
means so much to me,

because I literally had nothing,

and then this thing
comes along that makes me

actually want to work.

It makes me happy and
passionate about something

that I hadn't had before, and
had other people to talk to.

There was an unhealthiness
to it,

because it's that like, idea of
a parasocial relationship,

that you latch onto these people
because you want friends,

but back then,
I was like, very heavily
dependent on that audience

to get me through my days,

because it was the only people
I had to talk to.

I had no job.

There was no available
jobs around.

I don't think I could have
gotten one if I did have,

'cause I didn't drive,
I didn't have a car.

So even if I got a job,
I couldn't get to it.

And there's no possibility of
gaining new friends here.

Everybody in Ballycumber's
slightly older than me.

So there was nobody to
hang around with.

Another thing about here,

the wind would just
come across the bog,

and the whole place
would shake.

Like, you'd be in bed and
your bed would shake.

Because the walls are so flimsy,

the whole place would shake,

and then my dad was so
paranoid that the roof

would just fly off someday
because they're not,

like...everything's flimsy.

So it's easy to look back
and remember this

and then be like yeah,
don't--don't become an asshole.

Don't get used to that
lifestyle too much

or don't like, fly away or
become egotistical,

because [laughs]
the kid who grew up here

would absolutely hate me
if I did that

because I have more now
than I ever have

my entire life,
and I'm very, very lucky

that I got anywhere.

And I think that's why
I don't talk about it, 'cause...

I'm not one to throw
a pity party for myself.

[man] I'm right with him.
[chuckles]

[Sean] Mental health was never
talked about in Ireland

when I was growing up.

I don't like it. [laughs]

It's getting a lot better
but back then,

it was really, really hard to
talk to anybody about it.

That's why I left college,

'cause I couldn't
admit to people

that I wasn't able to
do somethin.

I couldn't admit to myself that
I wasn't able to do it

because that made you seem
weak and stupid

and embarrassed and everything.

My family never emotionally
opening up to each other

and ever saying I love you
to one another,

just not being able to talk
about what was going on

inside your head.

I feel like
that's the umbrella

where everything else
falls under.

We weren't good vocalizers
of our feelings,

and it was weird and it was
cringey and it was awkward.

You just didn't want to do it.

As kids, we're not taught,
you know, coping mechanisms.

We're not taught how to kinda
communicate our feelings.

- [Sean] Yeah.
- A lot of men especially
are taught like, nah,

you should be macho and
hyper-masculine

and all that stuff,
and you kind of, uh,

You can kinda quickly--
that's a slippery slope.

You can kinda
quickly lose yourself

because you're silent
about things.

[Sean] Not being able
to verbalize
what's going on with you

is a very big issue.

It sounds dumb on paper,

but people need to be
able to talk about

what's actually going
on with them,

even if it sounds dumb
to some people.

You need to be able
to open up to somebody.

[Ryan Reynolds]
Not to get too sentimental,

but the worst feeling
on the planet

- is feeling like you're
the only one, you know?
- Yeah.

If you're having somethin'
that's goin' on

that you feel just absolutely
devastated about,

you can't move through it,
you always think

"I'm the only person on Earth
who feels like this,"

and that's the worst
feeling on Earth.

The truth is you're not.

[Sean] And it's only now,
in hindsight as a grown man,

that I can actually
admit that yeah,

I was sad, I was depressed,
I was dealing with

a lot of stuff that
I just wasn't
talking to anybody about.

It's like
quintessential Ireland.

It's like,
there is nothing else,

And you kinda just make the most
about what you have,

but there's no ambition
to go any further.

That's why I knew
I couldn't stay here.

It's grown a lot in
the last 10 years.

It's just that this part
of the country

has not at all.

Which has its charm.

And there's something
very sort of archaic
and ritualistic about it.

I was more just a product
of my surroundings,

and my environment
and the people in it.

I was drifting.
I was trying to figure out
what I had to do.

Luckily one day, my family
decided to get the internet

in these log cabins,
and I looked into a website

called YouTube.

[crowd cheering]

And the thing about YouTube
at the time, for me,

was I had no idea it could
become a job for people.

I had no idea people did it
as their living.

It was a very
different time for me.

I just liked video games a lot.

So I ended up looking
up let's players

who were playing a lot of
Battlefield 3,

and I landed on a YouTuber
called Level Cap Gaming.

Here was this guy playing
a game he loved.

He was super
passionate about it,

but all these other people
showed up to watch him play.

They were all there
together watching him,

sharing opinions,
and sharing thoughts

on video games together,
and I finally felt like

I had a place where I belonged,

because nobody knew
what that felt like

more than I did at that time.

To feel like a failure.

To feel like an outcast.

To feel like you had
nowhere else to turn.

Nobody else understood
who you were.

So I wanted to make
a community for people
who felt like that.

Who felt like
they needed a place where
they could hang out,

have fun, not feel judged.

They could all just come around
and laugh together

and enjoy video games together.

The first time of my life
that I actually chose

to move somewhere else
myself was to Athlone

and that was thanks to
YouTube stuff.

[upbeat rock music]

[Sean] Once I found that thing
that I wanted to do,

it felt like okay,
this is the path, go,

and run as far as you
can with it.

Inksane. That's where I got
my Bloodborne tattoo.

I dunno, it kinda had
a professional look about it.

M-O-H-H.

I went in there and
got my hair dyed green

for the first time,

and I was worried that they
wouldn't have green hair dye

because no one else ever
would dye their hair green.

Except me, of course,
'cause I'm an idiot YouTuber.

- [whip cracking]
- Top of the mornin' to ya,
laddies!

My name is Jacksepticeye
and I have a few things
to talk about in this vlog,

but the first thing that you're
probably gonna notice,

from the high five,
is that I got a tattoo!

Can you see it? I--I--wait,
I don't know if you can see it.

You can probably see
it better now.

Yeah, we can see the front
of it up this way.

I think the channel was at
like 60,000 subs

when I moved in here?

And then by the time I left,

the channel was
at mid-teen millions.

In the space of a few years.

[Arin] That spot to be in
as a YouTuber,

is such an interesting spot
because that's like,
the big shift, right?

That's the shift where you see
there is an audience

that completely validates
what you're doing,

and it's the all-in moment.

This is it,
this is all there is. You know?

Nothing else in my life gives
me what this is giving me.

People see the millions and
they see the subscriber count

and they see the Instagram
and the Twitter,

but he was lonely, and he was
workin' 15 hours a day.

And even when I wanted to
see him back home,

I had to make an appointment,

and I thought this is good
but it's all one way.

[Arin] It's a parasocial
relationship.

People are enjoying the stuff
that you're putting out there,

but there's not a flow between
you and the audience,

and there's not a real
understanding of like,

you as a person and who you are.

It's the content that you're
putting out there,

but it's very intoxicating.

For me at least, it gives me
something that I never got.

To have a bunch of people
come in and accept you,

I mean,
that's tremendously powerful.

I was here alone for
a long time,

and I just stuck my head down

and just face to
the grindstone as I used to say

in the show, but that
joke made no sense

so I had to change it. [laughs]
Um...

But this is where I would work
all day, every day,

on YouTube, and never,
ever take any breaks,

and never go outside.

Only to get groceries and stuff,
'cause I didn't need to.

Other than that, I'd just sit at
home and record and work.

[upbeat music]

[Sean] YouTube itself is kind
of a social media platform.

The fact that it's so
accessible and it's free

and anybody can have
their comment be seen,

it gives me a nice open
connection with everybody.

They're all super nice and
they're all very supportive

of each other,
but at the same time,

I have no idea who they are.

I just see usernames
and profile pictures
and things like that.

But whenever I record stuff and
I'm looking into a camera, and

even at a home
recording let's plays,

it still feels like
someone's there,

and I think having that open
access to each other

and giving each other
feedback all the time
is really important.

It's not a conversation,
but I think it's close enough

that's it still
very encouraging,

and it feels like
he really is there.

It bridges a very big gap.

There's always somebody
out there willing to listen,

and willing to open up
about their own life.

So it's fascinating. [laughs]

It's so much more of a community

than people who are fans
of a TV show or fans of a band.

And this is sometimes their
only interaction

with people who share
the same interest

outside of the internet.

So it really feels
like they live

in this sort of
virtual existence,

and this is a real life,
three-dimensional way

for them to experience that.

It's always seeking a family.

That's--that's what it's
all about, man.

It's always seeking a family.

[man] It's awesome to be able
to find other nerdy people

that are all into
the same things you are

and just be instant friends.

I made about five friends
just here right now, you know?

Never really had friends
growin' up,

so he's my go-to all the time.

So I love watching him.

[crowd cheering]

College defeated me.

College was my huge obstacle,

but I decided I'm not gonna
let that happen.

I'm not gonna sit in
this log cabin,

I'm not gonna waste away,

I'm not gonna lose myself
anymore.

So I got back up on the horse
and I went back to college

for my true passion in life.

[crowd laughing]

Hotel management.

[crowd cheering]

- I don't know why. [laughs]
- [crowd laughing]

But when I went back to college,

it was the next stage
of my life.

Adulthood.

- [crowd oohing]
- Oh yeah.

You think adults know
what we're doing?

[crowd] No!

Nope.

We just have the rest
of you tricked

- into thinking we do.
- [crowd laughing]

When I was going
back to college,

I gave YouTube a try.

I really tried hard at it,
and even back then,

I was trying to upload two
videos every single day.

And after doing it for about
a year and a half,

people actually
started to show up,

and that's when stuff really
started to take off.

[crowd cheering]

And I remember this
milestone vividly

because it was the first time
I ever met anyone

from the channel in real life.

I was going through
a grocery store in Ireland

called Tesco.

Tesco's right there and
my apartment's there.

I'd used to go all
the way up and around town
to get down to it.

And as I was goin'
through Tesco,

two boys came up to me and
tapped me on the shoulder

and said,
"Are you Jacksepticeye?"

I'll show you exactly
where I met them.

And as I was standin' there
with a basket in my hand

full of baked beans and
instant noodles...

- [crowd laughing]
- There's the baked beans I had.

And the two boys came up
to me right here.

I think it was right here.

The pictures are still
on my Instagram.

And I thought, oh shit!

[crowd laughing]

They found me!

[wind rushing]

- [woman] We made it.
- [man] Made it!

[Sean]
People were speaking Dutch,
people were speaking French,

people were speaking German,

people were
speaking Norwegian,

tonight
they're speaking Danish,

tomorrow they're
speaking Swedish,

then they're speaking English,

so it's like seven
different languages

that we've gone through.

By and large, it still kind
of feels the same

'cause it's still
doing a tour.

But it's definitely been a lot
colder here. [laughs]

We landed on the plane and
it was actually snowing here

and I'm like come on,
that's fake.

[crowd laughing]

[Justin]
Today was pretty difficult.

I threw up on an airplane.

Twice.

Everyone in Amsterdam
is really nice,

and I just feel like an asshole.

- [JP] Hey, Vernon?
- [Vernon] Yes, sir!

Could you come here for
a second, please?

[Vernon] Got it.

Hey I'm Vernon Shaw and this
is how to put together a chair.

Please stop filming me.
That's step one.

We have two fortune cookies,

and me and John Peter here
are gonna dink and sink them,

and whatever comes out
in our...in our fortune

is gonna dictate
the rest of the tour.

Mine says, "Keep calm and
focus on the positive."

- [man imitating Sean] "Cam"?
- [man 2] All right.

[Sean] Do you wanna
fuck back to Canada?

Mine says
[speaking Dutch poorly].

[crunching]

[piano music]

[man]
What's your favorite thing

that you enjoy most about
Jack's channel?

Well, the scary games.

I really love that. [laughs]

Yeah, I really love
Detroit: Become Human,

- it's so good.
- Yeah, same.

[woman] Like, Jack always
makes me laugh.

No matter what.

I can just want to die
and then I start up

a Jacksepticeye video and
then my stomach hurts

from laughing too much.

[Sean] Europe's weird.

European audiences are
way more timid.

Like they want to make noise

and you can tell that
they're excited

'cause you can see it on
their faces and everything,

but they just don't want to
interrupt anything.

They're so used to just
being so polite,

but it's--once they get
into it, they're on board.

This old lady looks like
she wants to fight me,

and I'm not okay with it.

"You want a knuckle sandwich,
kid?"

It's really hard to get
comedians,

English-speaking comedians
to Germany because, uh,

probably they're not
gonna buy tickets

because they're just
scared that they don't
get the jokes or something.

Yeah, no one thinks
German people can laugh.

Well, that's probably
another reason.

[both laugh]

[calm music]

[Sean] Are you from Berlin?

No, no, no, no,
I live close to Cologne.

[Sean]
Hey, Cologne's a cool town.

[Martin] Cologne is quite nice

because it's more like
a bigger village to be honest.

- [Sean] Yeah.
- [Martin]
But the people
are really cool.

Really open
and really tolerant,

not so stiff as
you're probably used to
from the Germans.

[Sean laughs] Yeah,
'cause even the live shows
that we did,

'cause we did Cologne
and then here,

and they were way nicer than
people made them sound.

Right.

[woman] We're one third of
the way through.

It feels like we've been
on the road forever.

It does.

[man] What's your full name,
Vernon?

Oh, no, we're not doin'
an interview.

- [man] We've got
our two cameras ready.
- Nice fuckin' try!

- Hey, family.
- [Sean] A clatter and
a gobshite.

That's all that's on this bus.

[man] You're just lyin' to us.
You're just makin' up words.

I'm not tellin' you no fibs!

I don't know,
it's the usual thing.

It's just tomfoolery and japes.

You spend a lot of time together
with a bunch of people,

and this is a very nice
group of people

with a sense of humor,
so it's just funny.

I enjoy it very much.

[Sean] JP's ready
to fuckin' hang 10.

[Dominik] I enjoy it when
it's a nice group of people

and there's a good
internal dynamic.

And everybody's funny apart
from Stella.

- [Stella laughs]
- [chuckles]

- I'm outta here! I quit!
- [Dominik laughing]

[calm music]

[Dominik]
Jack's an entertainer
and I think that,

whether it's YouTube or
the radio or TV or podcast

or whatever, I think he'd get
his personality across.

And it's his personality
and it's his genuine
sort of relationship

with his audience that people
are coming to experience.

[Sean] I know what
people go through
when they find a YouTuber

and what it means to--

'Cause watching a YouTuber
is not the same

as watching TV.

You watch TV
to be entertained,

but most times,
people watch YouTubers

because they like the person
or they like the personality,

and they want to just be
involved in that friendship.

[crowd] Bye!

Bye.

[Dominik] It was eye-opening
to meet the crowd

and meet the people that were
coming to the shows.

I found it really, it was quite
emotional actually,

because it really feels like
a safe space for some people,

and I was really touched by
how--how sincere they were.

You know, they're very,
very sincere.

The channel had been
doing so well,

and it'd suddenly become
the most subscribed channel

in Ireland.

[crowd cheering]

So a newspaper decided
they were gonna do an article.

An article about the top 10 most
influential Irish people.

[crowd laughing]

At number 10
on this prestigious list

was the president.

[crowd laughing]

[crowd clapping]

At number nine,
was Bono from U2.

[crowd cheering]

At number eight, was your boy.

[crowd cheering]

Nothing like this had ever
happened before.

Never had anything like this
ever happen again,

but I try not to get too
far ahead of myself

because it was
a tabloid newspaper

and I didn't how many people
were actually gonna read it

or take it seriously.

But one day, the news called me.

[crowd oohing]

The national news of
Ireland called me

because they had gotten
wind of the article.

It's what they do,
they're the fuckin' news.

[crowd laughing]

A man with the most Irish
name on planet Earth,

named Kieran Malooly.

[crowd laughing]

Kieran sounds like
an Irish Kermit the frog.

So he called me and asked,

[imitating Kermit]
"How are ya, Seany?"

[crowd laughing]

"Saw the article
you did in the paper

and thought it was great.

Just wonderin' if you wanted to
do an old interview

for the news."

[crowd laughing]

[in normal voice] I said no
problem, Kermit, I'd love to.

[crowd laughing]

Again, cool opportunity.

Take it on board,
nothing to lose,

let's see what happens.

Now, where we were living
at the time in Athlone,

in Ireland, it had been
raining so badly

that the river Shannon
I lived next to

got so full of water it said
hey, bro, I'm too full,

I'm just gonna burst my bank
and flood the town, cool?

[crowd laughing]

[Sean] No, not fuckin' cool!

We decided we'd meet
outside a place

called Sean's Bar.

[crowd cheering]

I told ya there was more of us.

Fun fact, Sean's Bar
once got an award

for being the oldest
pub in Europe.

[crowd cheering]

It dates back to
the year 900 AD.

[crowd cheering]

Yeah, trust the fuckin' Irish
to keep a pub alive

- for that long.
- [crowd laughing]

My apartment is down there,

and when I decided I was gonna
do the interview,

we said we'd meet here because
it was like a...

it's a historical landmark.

It's not just like,
famous for the town,
it's famous for Ireland.

But because
the weather was so bad

and the place was flooded,

I decided I'm gonna put on
me little welly boots,

I'm gonna grab my umbrella
or my short priest.

[crowd laughing]

And I'm gonna wait
outside Sean's Bar.

When I came down, this
whole section was all in water.

So I was standin' here
like, in wellies

with water up to my ankles.

Standin' with a fuckin'
umbrella in my hand,

waitin' for Kieran to show up.

I wonder what he drives?

I wonder when
he's gonna get here?
I wonder where he is?

I wonder what he looks like?

We decided to meet at
two o'clock,

but two o'clock came,

- Kieran didn't show up.
- [scattered oohing]

No, it's fine.

Bad weather, he's probably stuck
in traffic somewhere.

2:15 came, no sign of Kieran.

[crowd awwing]

2:30 came, no Kieran.

[crowd awwing]

Three PM came and I said
fuck this, I'm not gettin' wet.

[crowd laughing]

So I went back inside
and I gave Kieran

the benefit of the doubt.

He's probably dead.

[crowd laughing]

Only logical explanation.

Bad weather,
tsunami probably killed him.

[crowd laughing]

But just in case, I decided
to call the number

that he called me from,
and a lady picked up the phone,

and I asked her is Kieran here?

Did he come to do the interview?

I was waiting outside.

And she said, "Oh yeah,
Kieran drove down.

Kieran's in town, but he decided
to not do that interview,

and went instead to do
a story about a lady

whose garden got flooded."

[crowd laughing]

- All right.
- [woman] How dare he?

So you called me,
blowin' smoke up my ass,

telling me I'm the eighth most
influential Irish person,

and you ditch me to do a story
about the fuckin' rain?

[crowd laughing]

That is the most Irish thing
that has ever happened to me.

[crowd laughing, clapping]

Even if he came or we met here,

where was I gonna do
the interview?

In my apartment, here?

I'll talk about
my budding YouTube career

standin' out in
the fuckin' rain. [laughs]

The channel was just
doing so well.

I was just having so much fun
doing this YouTube thing.

I was doing it all day,
every day.

But there was one game
on the channel

that was doing better
than anything else.

A game that I've done
more episodes of

than any other game.

[crowd cheering]

That game, of course,
being Happy Wheels!

- [crowd cheering]
- Oh, baby!

We're gonna pick out
three people to play.

Even the time when
we played video games,

cool, fun,
entertaining distraction,

but there's an actual
reason they're in it.

Okay, who wants to play?

[crowd cheering]

[upbeat music]

You get to see what it's like
to be a YouTuber.

Oh, we have somebody.
Come on down!

You get to practice it,
you get to shout yourself out

if you want to.

[crowd cheering]

What's your name?

- Kayley.
- Kayley?

Everyone say, "Hi, Kayley."

[crowd] Hi, Kayley!

- Was that scary?
- No.

[Sean] People often don't take
kids seriously.

So we wanted to give them
the limelight

and to give them a chance to
like, be heard and be seen,

and even the audience
who doesn't know anything

about this, can actually
get to see what it's like

and see why people like it

and see why it's such
a communal thing,

it's such an energetic thing.

The people who are
into it already

get so much more out of it.

Everyone say, "Hi, Roman."

- [crowd] Hi, Roman!
- Hi!

[Sean] Roman, do you have
a YouTube name?

- Yes.
- What's your YouTube name?

Fart. [laughs]

[crowd laughing]

[crowd cheering]

Did you just come up with
that right now?

- No.
- Your YouTube name is Fart?

[crowd laughing]

Is that actually your
YouTube name?

- I think you're lying.
- [crowd laughing]

[Sean] You know what? I love it
anyway, sorry, parents.

[Roman giggles]

Corrupting the youth, okay.

We're all just gonna chant fart.

[crowd laughing]

[all chanting] Fart! Fart! Fart!
Fart! Fart!

- Louder!
- [all chanting] Fart! Fart!
Fart! Fart! Fart!

- Fart! Fart! Fart! Fart! Fart!
- [Sean] Oh!

Okay, click on play now
and let's go.

You know how to play, right?

Okay, go forwards.

- Go forward, here we go!
- [crowd cheering]

Oh!

That's okay, that's fine.

Slow start.

Okay, just remember,
speed is key!

- [crowd cheering]
- [Sean] Go!

We'll give it one more try,
how does that sound?

Go, Fart, go!
You got this, buddy!

[crowd cheering]

Yes, yes!

Yes!

[cheering continues]

Go, Fart!

What?

- [Roman giggling]
- [cheering continues]

Go, Fart, go!

Okay, okay, I don't like this!

[crowd cheering]

[slow music]

[Sean] Paris was a cool one.

Because my brother
lives there,

it's always been a place
that I've kind of wanted to go
and hang out,

and he's been there
so long at this point

that he knows
the place inside out

and he loves it so much.

San Michel is down there.

So tomorrow we're gonna
cruise down there,

and we'll go over here
to the Louvre.

Tonight, we're a few hours
away from the first time

I'm gonna see the How Did
We Get Here show.

So havin' worked on
ideas together,

I'm super stoked to actually
see what the thing

is gonna be like.

My kid brother is in
a thousand-seater venue

in one of the most
touristic parts of Paris,

and he's gonna
headline a show.

There's all these
fans outside,

rabid to even get a picture
taken with him.

Thank you so much!

- Oh!
- How do you say that?

A piece of home.
It's a clover, yeah.

Just talking to them
outside and everything

I'm like okay, yeah, there's
gonna be a language barrier
for a lot of these jokes.

- Just pace it.
- Yeah.

Yeah, it was weird
'cause some of the stuff

from last night, like, some of
the Amsterdam crowd

they were into some of it
and then other parts

it was like, really subdued
and they didn't like sustain

as long as like an American
crowd did.

It was like they
started cheering

and then all of a sudden it was
like yeah okay, we're done.

It'll be interesting to see if
some of the jokes land or not,

because it's a lot of
like, Irish humor,

and I don't know if it's gonna
translate very well.

I don't know, part of the fun
of doing a live show

and touring and
figuring things out.

It's a challenge.

I enjoy it.

Are you guys excited
for Jacksepticeye?

[crowd cheering]

[Malcolm]
Because he's so famous,

I think he could come out
on stage and do anything.

He just wants to push
the boundaries.

My wife, we were
dating at the time

and she was living in Germany,

and she sent me
this video and said,

"You've gotta see what
your brother is doing."

When we went back, if I wanted
to have a coffee with him

or go out, people were
just turnin' up

to get selfies.

Yeah, it was unbelievably good.

Unbelievably good.
And the French, man,

they surprised me.

Yeah, they loved that.

The secret is that you have
to drop your mic

from your mouth after
you tell a joke,

'cause they were like
oh, I clap now?

Cool. [laughs]

It's been fun to watch him
grow from a distance,

but at the same time,
we've remained really close

throughout the years.

[slow music]

[indistinct chattering]

[Sean] I think Paris is one of
the most historically dense

cities on the entire planet,

and the fact that we had
somebody who knew

some of the background
to these places

and it felt like we were on
this personally

private guided tour of Paris.

And then we all just got to
recharge our batteries,

and stuff like that is just
really, really nice.

But the fact that we get to
go there on tour

all as a group,
made it so much better,

and it's gonna be hard to top
those kinds of moments.

[man] Oh my God, look at that.

[Sean] It's all of
my thumbnails--

[man] Oh, come on!

- [man 2] From his videos.
- [Sean] And the videos they've
watched and quotes from them.

[both] Holy shit!

She showed it to me outside.

- It's fuckin' incredible.
- [Dominik]
Lovely dude.

Genuinely very nice guy,

and he's in a strange position
because I've never seen

an artist have that much
weight put on him,

because people expect
a lot from him.

It's like, "You've helped me,
you've saved me."

He takes it in his stride and
he does really well, I think.

Oh my God, I'm gonna cry!

All good performance
is a collusion

between the artist and
the audience.

Oh no, it's not workin'!
Oh, good!

[crowd cheering]

[Dominik] If you put
the artist and the audience

in the best possible
frame of mind,

you sometimes get these
really nice moments.

Yes!

Jeff, you had the courage

to do exactly
what you wanted to do.

Do you feel accomplished?

I do, almost.

There's one other thing
I'd like to do.

What do you want to do, Jeff?

If that girl could come
up to the stage,

- she knows who she is.
- [crowd cheering]

[Dominik] And that's why
live performance
is endlessly fascinating

because you never know
what's gonna happen.

[crowd cheering]

Edinburgh.

[Justin] The thing I love most
about this tour

is--is truly just kind of
the bus.

- [man] ♪ Sunday, Sunday-- ♪
- [man 2]
♪ Monday,
happy days! ♪

[Sean] What a lovely day.

[Justin] There's not a bad
attitude in the bunch,

and it's also just
the communal experience

of seeing different countries
together with your friends.

Seeing the fans' reactions
to all this stuff

has been amazing.

I will remember it
for the rest of my life.

[indistinct chattering]

I don't know,
it just reminds me of like,

it's all the stuff
you take for granted as a kid
when you like walk around,

and you just walk across like,
graveyards and fields
and trees and everything,

but it's only when you get
older you see somebody

when you live in a city
or a town or something,

and you don't get to see
that stuff anymore,

and then when you
come back to it,

it just reminds me of
being a kid again.

I've never been one to have much
patriotism for Ireland

but...I don't know, now that
I have some distance from it

I actually miss it a lot.

I've spent so long
just working and
figuring things out

that I haven't taken the time
to actually figure out

who I am 100 percent
and I'm excited to do that

rolling into like,
my early 30's.

[indistinct chattering]

A lot of people use
an audience and fame

and growth to patch over
those holes in their life.

Maybe I was doing that for
a long time as well myself, but

you have to find what makes
you just base level content

at the end of the day.

And no amount of like,
popularity or anything like that

is ever gonna do that for you.

I hear a lot of stories from
people who are as depressed

if not more than
I was back then,

who are just trying to
find themselves,

they're trying to figure out
what they want to do,

so to just show them like,
it's okay,

you're allowed to feel this way.

I felt this way at this
point in my life.

A lot of people in this room
here with you right now

are feeling
the exact same thing,

but like a video game,
you fight the badness

and then you get
the experience in your life

and you move onto
the next part.

[gentle music]

[Sean] I haven't really
thought about the end of it.

It will be really sad when
we have to retire the show,

but it will be kind of cool to
just end the show in Dublin

and leave it there.

It's strange.

I think it's more strange
because of the fact

it's in a college.

A lot of the story in the show
revolves around college

and failing college and
not knowing what

you're gonna do with yourself,
and then to come back here

to have one of the final--

to have the final show here
surrounded by people

who are all going through that
transitional period

- in their life.
- Thanks.

[Sean] And how many of them
are actually gonna end up

doing what they're studying,
and how many of them

are actually gonna go on

and do something
completely different.

How many other YouTubers
are out here? [laughs]

Also nice to hear Irish
accents again.

My one's gonna start gettin'
thicker now

as we go through here.

[gull squawking]

[men laughing]

Comin' straight for me!

[Sean] It turned into
a better show

than I thought
it was going to.

We spent so long making it
and I'm so proud of it

and I've been blown away
by everybody else

backstage who's been able
to keep it running
and everything.

The fact that I got to go
out and meet so many

of the people
from the channel,
like the community itself,

and not just at a convention,

but actually being able to see
them in front of you

and react to
the thing you're doing

that you're always kind of
doing live,

was such a huge thing for me.

That filled me with so much
joy and happiness,

but also being able to be on
a bus with people

and create proper, life-long,
close-bonded friendships

with people.

How did we get here?

It's a journey.

It's a journey through life
and its obstacles

and achieving greatness
above those obstacles.

[crowd cheering]

[Florrie] It doesn't make
any difference to me,

he's still Sean to me and
whatever he has, he has,

and I'm just happy for him.

He's my brother.
I don't look at him as
this big star or--

Yeah, same.

I'm just very proud of him
and what he's achieved.

[Malcolm]
He takes time for everybody

and that's what
his heart beats for.

It's okay, I'll just stay
holdin' onto him.

It beats for the people
and that's just rare,

I think, in this world.

Exactly the same now as you
were 15-20 years ago.

Just keep being
who you are and you'll get to

where you actually want to be.

[music continues]

[Sean] Sadly, we've come to
the end of our show.

[crowd groaning]

You guys had fun, right?

[crowd cheering]

Thank God!

I see Vernon over
there going no.

- [crowd laughing]
- [laughs]

But as I said at
the start of the show,

we were gonna go
through a journey,

and now you have seen various
aspects of my life

through different
periods of my life.

From the very beginning
all the way up to

whatever the fuck this is.

[crowd laughing]

And I asked you guys one
simple question

which was how did we get here?

And the reason that we are here,

the reason that I am up here
doing any of this right now,

is because of all of you
lovely people.

[crowd cheering]

There is no way that I
would be able

to do this kind of thing or
even do YouTube at all

or be half the person I am today

if it wasn't for everybody who
watches the channel.

So whether you're here in
this room tonight,

whether you're at home, whether
you came to the channel

and left at some point, even if
you came to the channel

and hated it, at least you
gave it a chance,

and for that, I am
forever grateful,

and I can never thank
you all enough.

Thank you so much.

[crowd cheering]

[woman in audience]
I fucking love you!

[crowd cheering]

When I was in that log cabin,

I became so depressed
that I didn't know

what I was gonna do with the
rest of my life,

but that does not matter.

What matters is that you
keep fighting,

is that you keep
pushing forward,

because we all go
through our problems.

We all have problems whether it
be small or large,

it does not matter, we're all
going through it,

and the thing about all of this

and the reason that I got up
here to tell this story,

specifically my story,
was to show you

that I did not come from
anywhere special.

I did not come from a
very popular place

or anything like that.

But that doesn't matter either.

It doesn't matter where
you come from.

Doesn't matter what
you look like.

It doesn't matter what
gender you are.

It doesn't matter if you're
straight, gay, bi,

or anything in between.

[crowd cheering]

And I know I'm
literally talking down

to a lot of you, but I hope that
it never feels like that,

because the thing I take away
from doing YouTube

each time, the thing
that I've learned

over the five years
of doing this,

is that we are all people.

The humanity behind it all.

The community behind it all.

We may look different
on the outside,

we may act different, we may
sound different,

but on the inside,
we're all the same.

We're all people.

We're all going through our
struggles together.

So it's about time we started
treating each other that way.

Building each other up.

Helping each other out instead
of tearing each other down

all the time.

So what I want people
to do is go out

and be the heroes of
your own stories.

Thank you.

[crowd cheering]

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