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What Playboy is really all about and what Hefner is all about is trying to say,

let's celebrate our sexuality.

It is fun when you first have sex, right?

But he needed to experience it all.

There's a line that's crossed. It made me sick to my stomach.

It just got to be a circus.

I think for men like Hef, over time,

it takes more to be turned on.

Ben Wa balls,

sex trapezes, sex with dogs.

These men needed to try things that were more transgressive.

And that rush came from finding these girls that were very

innocent and naive and slowly watching them do things that they never

thought they would do before. Really just breaking them down.

This is beyond having fun partying. He was like a vampire.

He was sucking the life out of me. Really, he was a monster.

The things that he got turned on by, nothing was enough, nothing.

My name is Hugh Hefner, I'm editor/publisher of Playboy Magazine.

Hugh Hefner was just 27, he fashioned himself

and Playboy as the face of sexual liberation.

Playboy is one of the most famous brand names in the world.

I would like to be remembered as somebody who played some positive part in

changing the social sexual values of my time.

I believe that Hef pulled one over on the whole world.

The fantasy of Playboy that he created did not allow for the consent of the women.

When it came to Hefner's buddies, you had to keep those secrets quiet.

What have you got for free?

When you get someone that powerful, anything could happen, anything!

The people who are really there, they're the ones who know the real truth.

I want be a voice for the women that suffered the most at his hands.

This was commissioned by one of the art directors on our third anniversary.

And it's Hef and Sondra three fabulous years,

but I can't hate my house. It's just,

it goes against everything that I'm trying to do right now.

Trying to get the word out, just for girls, young girls

to be careful with the decisions they make and what they give away.

Even though he's gone, there's going to be another one in history.

They're out there, there always is.

This subject matter is a little touchy for me.

I was so innocent.

That's Sondra Theodore, a rather special lady.

Between you and me, is she going to be Playmate of the year? You can tell me.

Well, not this year, Dick, maybe next.

See, they're talking about what a wholesome girl I was. And I was.

When I first met Sondra Theodore at the LA mansion,

she was only 19 years old. She was very young.

She was angelic, and she was sweet, and she was absolutely beautiful.

And she was always standing next to Hefner.

Sondra, she truly loved him. Even though at that time I didn't know her well,

I could just sense it.

She met Hef and just from the get go, loved Hef.

Honestly, he probably should have married Sondra because she genuinely loved him.

My name is Sondra Theodore,

and I was Hef's girlfriend in the seventies and early eighties for five years.

It was like living in a fairy tale, and

he made me believe it, and everybody else did too.

'cause I don't know if they all felt like it was a fairy tale too,

that we were so in love.

I would've never thought she would speak about Hef because boy was

she loyal to him.

Looking back, I don't know how I fell for this.

I don't know, it's like baffling. Hefner,

he broke me like you would break a horse.

He scared me a lot at the end because you couldn't satisfy him.

He had to more and more and more, you know, pretty wild.

I couldn't tell anybody.

I would be horrified to tell my parents what had been going on.

I didn't want them to know that. I didn't want anybody to know that,

and I'm sitting here telling you; that was my big secret.

I was a good kid.

I started piano when I was seven, and I loved it.

My parents were strict. They made me practice before school and after school,

but I never once wanted to quit. In high school, I focused on my studies.

I was going to become an actress, and I was a Bible school teacher.

I was just a really, really good girl that had really high hopes and dreams, and

I pursued them until I met Hef.

When I first went up to the mansion, I really did not know.

I didn't have the concept of who he was. I looked so happy,

but I had no idea what I was walking into.

I told my mother that I was going to Howard Hughes's house, and she said,

he's dead. And I said, well, there's another guy with HH in his name.

And I said, oh yeah, Hugh Hefner.

And they're like, "Oh no, no, no, no, no, don't go there.

Don't go there." But I said, "Mom,

don't be silly." And I went with my high school best friend, and we were going

together, and we were coming home together. That was the deal.

When I first met Hef, he had broken up with Barbi Benton,

and I learned that through the photographs in the hall, the gallery,

that their life looked like magic. I mean,

they have a picture in Gatsby dress with the backdrop of the house, and it

looked like, wow, he really loved her.

And I still didn't understand really that

he was a Playboy.

This is my best friend from high school.

And Bernie was the prettiest girl in high school.

And I was this nerdy little girl with my coronated skirt, my vest,

and even my daughter would say, "Mom, you were such a geek." You know,

she sees my pictures that I was, I was such a geek.

I've never been to a Hollywood party at that point.

It was a big, big deal.

He really knew how to work the charm.

The seduction was fast, and he just really reeled me in that first night

'cause he said, "I've looked the whole party over,

and you're the one I want to spend the evening with. Will you stay?"

Those words alone, "I looked the whole party over, and I'm the one."

And

I couldn't even speak, but I had a smile on my face I guess because he said,

I'll take that smile as a yes.

Just all of it just make me feel special. I was 19, and he was 50,

and I had not been in bed with a man.

His secretary was Joni Mattis. She was a playmate at one point.

He told Joni to make sure I stayed right there so he could find me again.

He had to go say goodnight to his guests.

And then he came back, and he took me upstairs.

Hef was my first real relationship where

it was a real, it was a love affair, and he nurtured that.

And he said to me, he said,

you're the first girl I've liked enough to consider having a baby with.

Reel her in. Oh really? You know?

you like me enough to - out of all these beautiful girls, you would pick me?

He chose me?

He would just take me up his arms, and we'd dance around the game room.

That was his way of being romantic with me. I wasn't wise enough,

I wasn't worldly enough, and my god, he was 50.

He had a wife and children, and I didn't know

about the multiple girlfriends.

He has rules that you're not supposed to be with other men.

I don't agree with his rules.

I feel that the woman has every right to do everything that the man has that

same right to do.

But Hef was brought up in an era where girls do not fool around, guys do.

And you know, I live by that. You're a chauvinist pig, but I love you.

Right after Barbi Benton, he said I want to have, you know,

more than one girlfriend.

He was not gonna have a singular girlfriend anymore,

that he was going to talk about

it openly.

He decided as he would say that he would come out from behind the desk and

live the Playboy life that the magazine

represented. And Hef was the Playboy of the Western world,

Why should he stop at one when he could have

as many as he did?

But how could he make me accept it, or how could he make me join it?

You see our traditional value held that the devil was in the flesh,

that the spirit and mind were pitted against things of the flesh.

We tried to say, this conflict does in existence and shouldn't exist.

He would tell the public even good girls enjoy sex, healthy sex.

And there was nothing healthy about the sex with Hefner

because he took it too far.

He was taking the girl next door, and he was soiling her.

I was living his life, and I wasn't living mine. I wasn't acting anymore.

He stopped me from getting jobs, and he just got worse and

worse as far as the cheating because he could. Not only was he messing around,

he was even controlling me when I was out of his sight.

He hired somebody to spy on me. He hired a secretary my age.

I was 19 when I first started at the mansion. We were all 19.

Sondra was his girlfriend when I first started working there,

but he did have another girl that he kind of dated on Tuesdays and Thursdays.

So one was going out the back gate, and one was coming out the front gate.

I think he was probably worried about what Sondra was going to do on Tuesdays

and Thursdays. What was good for the goose was not good for the gander.

She was not allowed to then date on Tuesdays and Thursdays or have a

relationship of her own on any day.

The next day, he would say, "What'd you guys do last night?"

And innocently at that stage, I would say, "Oh, we had a ball. It was great fun."

But as time sort of went on,

I grew to really love Sondra. I had become a friend now,

so I was no longer comfortable reporting back if you will.

It backfired on me because Lisa and I were so close,

she finally told me one night, she goes,

"I was hired to spy on you and to report everything you did when you were

away from him."

And then she ended up telling him, I can't spy anymore, and I'm not going to do it.

And he kept her on, but

it was pretty creepy.

He just cut me off from the world, really.

And once you were there, it was so big and sometimes so wonderful,

yet you were afraid at times, you didn't want to tell your parents.

There wasn't anybody else left out there that

would understand what you're talking about.

Hef's creation of Playboy was more than just getting

girls to take their clothes off and post nude.

He wanted to create a lifestyle for himself that was

accepted all over the world. I mean, that's pretty glamorous stuff right there.

He would tell me things like, "You're making history.

You're going to be in the history books." This is at the Aliens Ball, I think.

He knew what to say.

He would tell you that our lives are better than most people's fantasies.

Everybody loves each other. We shouldn't be suppressed.

Suppressed is the big word with him.

I was raised in a very typically protestant puritan home with a lot of

repression.

And I think that starting the magazine and the content of the magazine are a

reflection to that.

And I think that the changes that we've played some part in,

in the changing of society, they have also taken place inside of me.

Whenever things would get a little rocky,

he had a way about him to make you feel like you're

the only one in the world for him.

I was his public girlfriend, and the others were just

play toys. He had no real interest in them.

Once that playtime was over - it was addicting.

You knew you were special to be a lady at the mansion;

that was his romantic way, but really, he wasn't very romantic at all.

He just created this illusion like smoke and mirrors.

Month after month after month, there was a new girl every month that came in.

So, I figured out, I might as well be friends with them.

He would say things ,when are you going to party with us?

And I say, "Never. Forget it.

It's not gonna happen. It's not gonna happen."

It was really awkward for me because I wasn't a lesbian.

Finally one day I just, oh geez, okay. I'll try it once,

and then if I don't like it, never ask me again." But he had it all arranged.

He took me to the window, opened the curtain.

He says, you see that blonde out there? Go talk to her,

go talk to her, and see if she wants to party.

So I went down there and asked if she was thrilled, thrilled to be invited up.

And that's how it started.

Yeah. Yeah. One of the first.

I'd never used that word

because I would never do that. That sounds naughty, that sounds nasty.

I was told it was a party. It was

getting together to have some fun.

That was why I became like, I really wasn't doing it, maybe, I don't...

I don't know, but there's certain words I can't say.

Sondra had to recruit young,

fresh meat for orgies for Hefner.

And I was told about that from another bunny that was there that was asked to go

up there, and she did.

And she said, you cannot believe what went on in that bedroom.

I was looking through my pictures and I was thinking, my god,

nobody's going to believe my story. Look at me. I mean, I look happy.

I'm looking at him with loving eyes.

And until I got to the pictures of us sitting at the monopoly table,

this picture, I'm being silly, I'm happy.

And then this picture, he's whispering in my ear, isn't he?

I wonder what he's saying. And then look at my face in that one.

I've been told to go orchestrate an evening, and...

Can you see it? It was like with the feeling I had every day,

I could believe everything was wonderful, and I was happy, I was in love.

This is New Year's, and

then as the evening approached

there it was, there was the whisper,

there was his wishes that needed to be met.

But sex of course for me is, is not a physical act, you know,

it's romance.

Hef wasn't a romantic; he was a king, the emperor;

you were in the magazine or the bedroom, or you went home.

I didn't want a girl in the bed. No, I didn't want to be with a girl,

but it's something that made him happy.

I was told that we wouldn't have to be apart anymore because

he would have no reason to be apart from me.

He hadn't taken it too far yet.

Sondra had no idea what she was getting into. I think that she was groomed.

Once he decided to push the boundaries even further,

there was no stopping him at that point.

Hef used cocaine. He used more than that. He had a drawer full of drugs.

I discovered it when he started giving me the key to that drawer.

And Johnny was on coke. John Dante was his best friend.

He lived at the mansion.

Hef had to have somebody on call 24/7

whenever he had the whim or the need or the time that he wanted to play a

game because he was big on games.

John originated the orgy.

John Dante and Hugh Hefner lived together in

the Playboy Mansion for more than 20 years.

I got you, John.

What do you got? That'll be a hundred dollars.

And Hefner would say, come up to my bedroom and watch a movie.

And then you'd have two TV screens filming the sex,

where you could stop it and play it back and see yourself in the act and so forth.

Partying would be going upstairs with us to the master,

and you were bound to have sex.

It was fairly soon into it that

all of a sudden we were doing the drugs and partying.

The drugs fueled how many people you could get in your bed,

and then all of a sudden, there's three of us. And three girls became five, and

got ridiculous up there.

He twisted my mind so much that... I loved him,

that proved how much I loved him.

And I didn't want to be with those people.

I was convincing them that this was all just so wonderful and

everybody loved each other and you're so lucky to be here,

I'm so glad you're here.

I take them up, you know,

get to know one another, the champagne and then the drugs will be brought out.

And then he would stroll in and see us having fun.

And he would say, "Well, welcome to the family. Welcome to the family."

And that made them feel, "Oh good. I'm part of it. You know,

I'm accepted." Who doesn't want to be accepted?

Who doesn't want people to like them?

The women at the mansion,

they lived an incredible existence except for one thing,

nighttime is Showtime.

I felt like I was a ringmaster.

I felt like I had to put the show on every night.

The group sex, it was at least five nights a week. They had a protocol.

He liked to direct, and he didn't segue away from

it because you could tell that irritated him.

He was a man of incredible appetites,

yet he wasn't always a participant, you know.

He was a voyeur. He liked to watch.

As his valet,

I was required to go to Mario O'Connor every day when I came to work

and get his schedule of sexual events in his bedroom,

what girl he would be having sex with and what costume she would be wearing.

He sat in a special chair, a very comfortable arm chair.

He would hire porn stars to come to the mansion,

to the bedroom and have sex with these girls while he would watch.

Mr. Hefner kept all his sex apparatus in the headboard behind

the bed, the different dildos, Ben Wa balls,

nipple clips, whips, straps.

And one of my jobs was after the sexual events were over,

I had to put on rubber gloves and pick up the dilos from the floor

and put them in a special bucket. The maids would take them downstairs,

spray them with a steam cleaner to sterilize them and then put them in plastic

bags. I would carry them back upstairs and put them back in the headboard.

Many of the girls after one experience of having sex with

Hefner or with the porn stars that he brought up there, they went home.

Once was enough.

For a little while, he was doing his crazy stuff,

I was just looking the other way. Like on pig night,

I remember finding out what was going on, because he said,

I'm going to be busy in the early part of the evening,

some people are coming over. And then somebody told me what it was.

A butler there, he said it's Pig Night. And I said, what? What?

Every Thursday night, Hefner had two pimps

bring up five or six girls each and their cars.

It was girls that they would pick up on Sunset Strip. At that time,

Sunset Boulevard was a very big prostitution place.

That's where you went to pick up somebody.

It was called Pig Night, but we, as butlers, were always told,

do not call them pigs. This was Hefner's term for them.

I don't know why he called them pigs.

Thursday night was Pig Night.

When the guys on the mansion list were expected to bring women.

They were ranked. There was a hierarchy of whether you were a ten or an eight

or a six.

They would come up and go into the big dining room.

And Hefner's friends and comrades and different stars,

movie stars,

television stars would sit around the table with them.

And as the butlers, we would serve them dinner.

They were told order anything you want.

Hefner would sit at the head of the table. He would never eat dinner with them.

He would smoke a pipe and observe the girls.

When I found out about it,

I went down to bedroom four where I could look out where they were all

laughing and getting drinks and making these girls feel special.

One at a time,

the girls were escorted into the front bathroom where the

doctor would inspect them for anything that would

be detrimental to any of his friends.

The girls that passed mustard would have sex

with the different friends of Hefner. Sometimes on Pig Night,

he had a special woman that came up.

She was called the bleeder, and she would use a very large syringe

and draw blood from his different friends.

And then a girl would come and perform fellatio

or give him a hand job.

And that was a really big thrill for a lot of people.

And especially John Belushi, for some reason, that really turned him on.

I noticed that over time,

these men sort of needed more for that sexual like stimulation.

They needed to try things that were more transgressive because when you can have

anyone you want and do anything, then it becomes boring.

This is the roller skating party, when roller skating was really big.

Nothing was going to ever be enough for him, and I realized that.

It didn't matter how many people you brought in, how many beautiful girls,

whatever it was,

it would only satisfy him for the moment, and it would soon be over,

and then he'd have to find something bigger, better naughtier.

He had too much. He had too much.

It dissolved into this madness.

And I think the madness came from our relationship that he had created where for

the first time, he could openly do these things.

And he found somebody that loved him so much or was so easy

to manipulate that it worked, but

it wasn't enough.

Cocaine became for me my way of blocking it all out.

I could pretend I was somewhere else or I was somebody else.

It didn't hurt me as much. It didn't hurt

while I was doing that, it didn't hurt.

And then I walked in once, and he was

to with our dog. And I said, "What are you doing?" He says, "Well,

dogs have needs." And I went, "Stop that,

just stop that." And I never left them alone with the dog again.

I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I could not believe what I was seeing.

Well, there are some things that will not appear yet in Playboy, hmm,

give an example, beastiality, it's a sexual practice.

Is that a hangup that you won't publish Beastiality?

No, I don't think that's a hangup. I think you have to separate

the kinds of sexual activity that really are degrading.

Joe Piasho, the head of security, was my boyfriend at the time,

he told me a story about Linda Lovelace being brought up there.

Linda Lovelace, she was the star of Deep Throat.

This was probably the biggest pornographic film ever, at least at that point.

Linda Lovelace, she got hooked up with this gassy individual, Chuck Traynor.

Linda was married to Chuck Traynor who pimped her,

who beat her up on a regular basis, threatened to kill her frequently.

And when they arrived at the Playboy Mansion,

she was treated like a piece of meat.

Linda was obliged to take part in an orgy with Hefner's cronies.

When I saw Linda Lovelace,

I definitely did not feel that she was there willingly.

All the guys were laughing when Linda Lovelace got out of the limousine, and she

was drunk and drugged.

And all of a sudden out of nowhere, a German shepherd shows up.

They got her so messed up that they made her give the German shepherd oral sex.

You want to talk about depravity? This is despicable.

When Hef told me what that night had been, he said, yeah,

so we invited her up, and we all watched.

Who does that? Who does that? Who'd want to see that?

The Linda Lovelace episode exemplifies the attitude of Playboy and

Hefner to women by and large.

This is the dark underbelly of Playboy.

It's all very well espousing liberal causes and talking about the joys of

life, freedom and sexual liberation,

except it boils down to watch

a girl have sex with an animal.

Just gastly.

I can't believe that I am that girl that accepted that world.

He just took my world, and he just turned the knobs slowly so that

everything came out of focus and the only thing I could see was what he told me.

He had to get more and more. I've never known anybody had to have that much sex,

but then when it got uglier and uglier with, you know,

bringing men into the bedroom, and I couldn't.

No drug could have made me escape far enough,

and I didn't want to be with another

man. I certainly did not want to be with another man.

Hef became that obsessed with it. I mean, yeah,

you could see it in this face. It didn't matter how it made me feel.

It didn't matter.

And sometimes it was painful. Men that

forced themselves on you, it doesn't feel good. It hurts.

And I would tell him that, please, don't, please.

I would use those words. He hurts me. It didn't matter.

I felt so violated having a man that I did not want to be with forced upon me.

And the feeling that made me feel inside was just sick,

the fact that my boyfriend was okay with that.

There were guys up there that ended up in situations that they didn't want to be in.

It became apparent that they have had more interest than

I thought in John Dante. He wanted to sleep with him.

When Hef would make advances on Dante, I could

just see Dante's face just fall. And the dread,

the dread like I would feel. And he knew he couldn't stop it.

There were certain girls that I was very close to that I would call crying,

and I would say, please come up, please come up so I don't have to do this.

And they would, they would come up for me. And I felt,

at least I was with a friend, and I was asking a lot of them,

but they would come up, and that helped me get through it.

I found Solace in them, the women, they were gentle.

I needed gentleness. I needed love.

At least I had the beauty and the tenderness with a girl that I couldn't

get from him. I remember being in the office, talking to Mary,

crying to Mary saying, "I'm so tired. I'm so tired.

Why can't he just make a couple nights normal?" And again,

well, if you're not going to do it, somebody else will.

No, I could not, not feel well. I had to be there. I had to feel good.

I had to be ready for anything.

On the first day of my job as a valet,

I went upstairs to the bedroom. I heard a lot of crying and moaning.

So I went into the bathroom, and Sondra was on

the floor, crying, and there was a lot of blood everywhere.

I'd gone to the gynecologist, and I didn't want to be on the pill.

And so my doctor said, "Well, we can put an IUD in." What's an IUD?

"Well, you know, it's up there, and it does the work, and it's done.

You don't have to think about it." I think, well, that's perfect.

So he put it in me.

She had bled all over the bed,

and then she came into the bathroom, and Mr. Hefner,

he got angry with her for not taking care of herself.

And he goes, why would you do such a stupid thing? See, I wasn't being fun now.

She was bleeding, and she was crying. And Mr. Hefner said,

I don't really want to know your medical problems.

I was just dying. It was hurting so bad I could barely take it, and

I guess I passed out. One other time,

four years into the relationship, I suddenly got really, really sick.

The pain was so severe I could hardly walk, and it was my kidneys.

And it was just excruciating.

I remember when Sondra was sick with a kidney infection.

I do think that her illness was in direct relationship to partying

and also sheer exhaustion.

I should have been in the hospital, but if he had sent me to the hospital,

then there might have been questions why I was so sick.

He didn't want any of that leaked.

I was tired, and it was not just a body,

it was a mind too. I felt that it was both being stripped,

used and swallowed up. It was just, he was eating me inside out.

A kid who has a sweet tooth, who is thrust into a candy store

and discovers that he is going to live in that candy store for the rest of his life,

starts after a little while thinking about other things besides candy.

When you're dealing with someone who's so

self-centered and so manipulative,

and she was so young and he was so not,

he couldn't have had these relationships with a grown ass woman.

Let's be very honest here.

He could not have had these kind of relationships with an adult.

And that's why they had to keep being young for him to be their first.

He asked me, he said, "Do you like snuff films?" I said,

"What's a snuff film?" And he said, "Well, it's a porn where

in the end, they kill the girl,

and that's the big orgasm." Like, who would watch that?

And my reaction told him very clearly that he was not going down that highway with me.

I thought, who-

how could he like this? And how could I care for him?

What kind of mind

is so far gone that it takes killing somebody to get them

excited for that big release?

He was opening my eyes to this monster. I mean, really, he was a monster.

To me, that last year I was turning 25, and my fears had

started to affect me. I'd actually shake sometimes. I dreaded it every night.

I knew that something was going to be expected of me,

but the person that had run from the room,

I think there were about 12 people up there,

12 people. And that's when I look, I couldn't find myself,

who am I?

With all these limbs and arms and legs,

and I'm thinking this is so awful.

And so, I walked out

and went to the one place I knew that people didn't know about,

the grassy knoll on top of the jacuzzi where you could lay up there privately.

And I just laid there under the stars.

You're thinking that he couldn't find me up there.

My life is him, and being there with him, I was turning 25.

I remember looking in the mirror, looking in my eyes, thinking, where are you?

Where are you? I wasn't there.

I really changed a lot from 19 to 21.

Everything changed about me.

I go from being so fresh and young,

and then that emaciated,

terrorized girl that I might as well have been a vibrator.

I might as well have been a sex toy because that's what I was.

And nobody knew the hell I was in.

And finally, I got the courage

to leave.

I had such great life when I entered those gates. I was so full of hope.

I was riding a star. And when I left,

I was on a burning meteorite to earth.

I was hitting the ground hard.

I wanted to be able to go and leave that all behind and find some

normalness. I tried really hard to make it normal. It was all okay.

I'm out of there. I survived it. I'm married, I've got children,

my life is good,

but it was affecting me, and it affected my marriage.

It affected me every day. I don't know what normal is.

You know, I lived a luxury life, yeah, but I paid dearly for it.

I had so much damage done to me that I will never know how to be a

normal person and to accept love as a normal person.

I will never believe that a man would love me now because I'm old,

I'm older, and that's just, nothing can convince me.

Nothing can convince me that I'm a desirable to anybody now.

I'd like to think that one day I'll meet my soulmate.

I can't let go of that need, a need to just be loved just for yourself.

You know, not for what you're going to do for somebody. I may never know that,

but maybe in the next life, I don't know.

They zapped this young girl - where am I? They zapped this girl,

away, she was gone. And all he did was take and take and take that.

He zapped it right out me. And how dare did he do that?

I was the best thing that ever walked into his life.

But anyway, I'm so sorry I fell apart, so sorry.

So it wasn't all glam and pokes. It wasn't all fun and games.

I knew I wasn't.

Drop back any point in time, take anybody from any point in time,

you have one dinner. I wouldn't be at a dinner, but I mean,

there's certainly people that you'd like to talk to one-on-one and such and find

out what it was all about. I'd certainly like to talk to Christ,

find out what that was all about. - Would he like your act?

Probably. Probably be a little confusing to him, but I would imagine so. Yeah.

D you think he'd be confusing to you? No, I don't think so,

our values are probably very similar. Yeah.

He forgave the whores.

This is the time for women to be able to express themselves.

I believed in the pitch because I had not seen the future.

I had dreams of going up the corporate ladder.

They pushed that ceiling right back into my face.

You're never going to believe what I found in the garage.

All of the complaints and the sexual assaults, every thing is on there.

It was rampant with the sexual abuse of women.

Playboy was a business, and I was part of it.

I began hating myself.