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Hey, what about that party you told me about?

I had fun.

You stopped now.

Right.

Yeah.

And then this phrase.

Oh, good.

I'm not ready.

I'm not ready.

I'm not ready.

Has Darrell this thinking come?

Did you get it?

Welcome to my earrings.

Have you?

I just, I literally have in my hand just now

and I just looked in the bathroom.

Yes, I have.

I've checked.

I've checked everywhere.

I don't understand.

I think it must be just losing it.

Yeah, hello.

Yes, Sir.

Yep.

You haven't seen them, have you?

You know my earrings, the red ones your dad got me.

I had literally had them in my hand a second ago.

Just keep losing things.

Hey.

You change your dress.

That one looks good on you.

Thank you.

It's really sweet of you.

No, it's it's true.

You look beautiful.

Where are you going?

Let me know.

We're special.

Just didn't with friends.

Frank.

You know Frank?

No.

I see nowhere special, but in fact it's pretty special.

It's literally the first time I've gone out since Theo was born.

A word of advice.

If you want to go and have a life, do not have a kid.

Sure.

I'm joking.

All right, bad news.

Sarah stood us up.

What?

She was called.

What do you mean just now?

Last year has a fever.

Sorry, it's Sarah.

Penny, I already did.

She's not free.

Oh my God.

One time we can go out.

What should I do?

Call Frank Castle or.

You.

I know you think you could handle it.

Yeah, it it would help.

You know, God, that's so kind of, you know, that's really,

that's really sweet of you.

But I think it's you.

Sure, because I've just cancelled his call.

Frank, we better cancel.

OK, whatever.

What?

Are you looking like that?

Why do you think?

Media kind suggestion.

I don't know why you refused.

You don't?

No.

This is little brother.

You going to look after him?

OK, I'm just not sure he's a baby and I just don't want.

You always see things in such a dark light.

It's better to see something in a dark light

than to not see it at all.

What do you mean?

Nothing?

Yes, Tom, what am I not saying?

What you really believe.

Nicholas is not capable of looking after his little brother

when he's asleep.

Yes, he's still unstable.

He's even.

I'm sorry this shocks you,

but I'm not going to leave my son with it with one.

Go on sale when you're not gonna leave your Sunday.

You can hear about this extremely weird,

but look in his eye is is disturbing when you

got to face up to the fact that he's not right in the head.

Because.

You.

What are you?

Sorry, we were just,

we were just disappointed we couldn't go out tonight

and it has nothing to do with you.

Any questions?

They were in the hallway.

Nicholas, please.

Nick.

What are you?

Are you all right?

Your dad told me you're happy at your new school.

Right.

Yeah.

Told me everything's OK for you at his place.

I was hoping that.

But in the end, there's no room for me.

They find me disturbing more than anything else.

And.

Put so much pressure on me, you die.

Doesn't realise it, but.

Never stops talking about schoolwork.

As if that's.

Well, there was to life.

Normally he worries about you.

He doesn't give a shit about me, I mean about who I really am.

He just wants me to succeed like him the way he has.

But I have no desire to become a law student.

Or a lawyer.

This doesn't interest me.

You used to dream about being a writer.

You still riding?

I don't think I'm ever going to measure up.

What are you talking about?

Nicholas, your father wants what's best for you.

He loves you.

He believes in you.

You're just two very different people.

And he's under a lot of pressure right now,

all this business with the primaries,

don't

you think?

And that's important to him.

You know, it's a dream he's had for a lot of years.

It's not just that.

I'm.

I'm not well known.

Your dad told me you've broken up with a girl.

Yes, that's what I told him.

You didn't understand what was wrong.

He needed a rational explanation.

You know what he's like.

So I told him what he wanted to hear.

But.

I never even went out with that girl.

It's just.

It's just I'm not made like other people.

Sometimes I feel like I'm not made for this life.

I can't deal with any even,

so I I try every day with all my strength.

But I just can't deal with any of it.

Because.

Because I'm in pain.

All the time.

I'm tired.

I'm tired of being a pain.

Nicholas.

Right here

I'm right here.

I'm not going anywhere and I will help you get through this.

I promise.

Don't cry, my little son.

OK.

What?

Today.

Are you sure it was him?

It was, yeah.

You come here for a couple of minutes.

Might start to.

What is it?

Sit down.

You need to talk.

What about?

After school.

What's going on?

Nothing special.

Why at least special?

Huh.

Today you had you practised this way?

Had that go well, I think.

Good.

When you see this afternoon, Beth went to the park

and she saw you.

I don't know what you were doing,

but in any case, you weren't at school,

so I'm going

to ask you one last time.

This time I want an answer.

What's going on?

You started to skip classes again, is that it?

No.

Then why weren't you in school today?

Why don't you tell you that that's not the problem.

Yes, it is the problem.

She wants to turn US against one another.

The problem is you're fucking lying to me.

Why weren't you at school today?

I'm listening.

I wasn't feeling well.

I couldn't bring myself to God.

I'm under too much pressure from this test.

I'm sorry.

Right.

Sorry.

I called the school.

I called.

You know what they told me?

They told me you'd never been back there.

They told me you were there on the first day last month

and after which you never came

back.

Never.

Not once.

It seems they got an e-mail from me

saying that we decided to send you back to your old

school.

There's nothing to say.

So you become a world class hacker, am I right?

I mean when I think you had the balls to tell me you were getting a haze,

being invited

to parties, and the whole time you aligned me.

What did you do all these days?

Just go for walks?

Is that it you just?

I mean, we give you a chance to climb back up and what do you do?

You do the exact same thing.

You've lied to everybody.

Explain it.

What's going on?

Are you on drugs?

Then explain it to me.

I don't know what else to do with you, Nicholas.

I'm just.

I'm telling you straight.

I just don't know.

I've, I've, I've tried to listen to you.

I've tried to to be there for you.

I'm trying to give you strength and confidence,

but obviously none of that's any use.

You you really think you can just live your life like that,

doing whatever the hell you

feel like, getting out of school,

never taking any responsibility,

refusing to grow up?

I mean, what are you going to do with your life

if you're not doing anything?

What what's going to become of you?

Naturally, you have no answer.

Stop staring me like that.

What's that?

You are you?

Are you trying to intimidate me?

That's not going to work, I can tell you that right away.

Not with me.

Right.

I'm going to explain to you how it's going to be.

Starting tomorrow.

Whether you like it or not.

You're going back to school.

Is that clear?

No.

Sorry.

Saying no, I will not go back to school.

What are you doing, Nicholas?

What do you want?

When I was your age, my mother was sick.

I wasn't seeing my father anymore.

I had money problems, but I fought on.

I fought on.

And believe me, most days it was no joke.

And what has happened to you?

What is there in your life

that is so dramatic you're not able to go to school

like everybody

else?

Answer me.

Answer.

I can't deal with it.

Don't understand what that means.

You can't deal with what?

Living.

I can't deal with living.

And it's your fault.

I'm like this.

It's your fault.

What have I done?

What's what's my fault?

Cute.

Disgust me.

What did you say?

You give all these big speeches about life and work

and then you abandon us as if we

were pieces of shit.

What, you think you always do the right thing,

but right from the beginning,

you basically

been an asshole.

Take back what you just said.

Nicholas, do you hear me?

You take back what you just said now, asshole.

Asshole.

Me.

Haven't I always done everything for you?

I stayed with your mother for years for your sake.

So why are you saying this?

Why?

Why?

Tell me why?

Is it because I fell in love with another woman?

Is that my crime?

How is that any of your business?

I have the right to reinvent my life.

Fuck.

It's my life, you hear me?

It is my life.

That's what he needs.

I'm sorry, Nicholas.

I don't know.

I don't know what just happened.

I need the psychiatric ward.

How long you been here?

Half an hour, they they told me they have to see you soon.

What happened?

I wasn't there.

I was working.

Amazon.

Was Beth found him in the bathroom just.

We were lucky the implants were up very quickly.

Sorry.

So sorry.

I wanted to see how much they're open.

And then in the end.

Doctor.

Hi.

Hi.

I'm doctor lehner.

I'm looking after your son.

Where's Nicholas?

Don't worry.

He's resting.

He's no longer in danger, I assure you.

Please.

Your son was treated very quickly and the cup wasn't too deep,

so it should heal well.

Are you absolutely sure?

Yes, trust me.

But we do need to make some decisions now.

I just talked to him.

What do you say?

He seems frustrated to have woken up here,

which is very common in this sort of case.

This is, he said, anything about.

You know, we're very used to these situations

and I think it could be important for Nicholas

to spend some time under observation.

You mean, I just checked

and we do have a vacancy in our facility.

He said he was out of danger.

What we want is for him to become aware of what he's done.

He's tendency at the moment is to minimise it somewhat,

which seems to me dangerous.

We wouldn't want him to try it again.

How long would he would he need to stay?

What's important is for us to be able to monitor and treat him

and then there'll be regular

visits with the inpatient,

psychiatrist and Nicholas

so we can all assess his progress.

I want to see my son.

Just a second, please.

Please excuse me, I'm needed upstairs,

but a social worker will be in to help you with

the paperwork for Nicholas to be admitted, OK?

She'll be able to help you with any other questions

at this point, all right?

Please don't worry.

He's in very good hands now.

What about that one?

You see where the stars are, where you are.

And that one.

That this is Saturn's rings around.

Oh, Mommy's getting a little impatient.

Should we go back?

Wait, daddy.

Oh.

Split.

Do you going to have to swim?

I'm only 6 1/2, right?

It's just the right time to learn.

You can do it.

Come on.

I'll be with you.

Hey.

Mushroom.

Come on.

So what have you decided?

Time move the meeting to Monday morning.

Depends on what time you're expecting to leave for DC next Monday.

I'm gonna have to.

I mean, I'm going to have to stay in New York.

So I'll cancel Washington.

Yes.

Thanks.

Hey.

Hey, Peter, it's me.

Can you talk?

Everything all right?

Yeah.

Well, I just got a call from Doctor Harris and.

I just wanted to discuss it with you.

Is there a problem?

Well, he thinks that it might be better

if we don't go see Nicholas for a few days.

I know.

But it it seems that Nicholas is having some trouble accepting treatment

and they've

been having long conversations,

you know, trying to

understand why he.

It seems he's

been talking a lot about the divorce and your new life

and all the attention that's between

you and I, and

Doctor Harris thinks that maybe it's best to just let them.

Had a few days, you know, give everyone a bit of perspective.

Take the pressure off.

You can't stop us seeing Nicholas.

He's just asking, you know, not demanding.

We still have Monday.

You know, we have our appointment to just see where everything stands

and I don't know

in the meantime.

I know this is

so difficult.

It is for me too, you know.

The new we should trust.

You think?

Peter.

You ready?

What time is it playing

about?

About a cat.

It's about 5 minutes.

I'll be down with your suitcase.

No, no, no, no.

Don't worry.

Listen.

Sorry about last night, I.

I really I had too much to drink and.

I just don't understand why we have to fight like that.

It's my fault, I'm sorry.

Anyone.

And you can't come with us.

I can't.

I just.

I don't feel like going to the Cape.

Knowing he's in there.

Just for two days.

Like give a terrible and it's not like you can do anything for him.

You have it.

I can't.

So when is he out?

I don't know.

I'll know more on Monday.

And then?

I hope I can be a better father, Lucio.

Stop it, Peter.

You're really good father.

And what makes me sad is to have to play a part

that I hate with everything in me these

last few weeks I've just.

Keep catching myself saying things.

Exactly the same things my father used to say to me when I was young.

Things which made me genuinely hate him.

And now it's my turn and it's just.

Makes me think I wound up being just like him.

What kind of things?

What are you going to do with your life?

When I was your age, I did this.

I did that.

What are we going to do with you?

If you knew how ashamed it makes me.

Clips.

We have to go.

Before you do, please.

Tell me you forgive me for yesterday.

I would just really like us to stop fighting like that.

The last few weeks have just been, I know.

No, you don't know because because you're not here.

You're at work all of the time.

And I'm here and I'm on my own.

And I'm just.

I'm so tired and I'm just.

There's your other son.

You know he needs you as well.

And please, let's.

So start again, OK.

Hi.

Call you when we get there.

Give me a little, man.

Ohh.

Give me a hug.

I'm going to see you for a week.

I'm going to miss you.

You going to discover the sea?

See how big and beautiful it is?

Say hello for me to Granny William.

Sorry I can't be with you.

I really have to stay here, you understand?

You tell me all about it, OK?

You tell me, little man.

Mom.

I missed you so much.

I missed you so much.

Like I miss seeing you for months now we're here.

Nicholas.

I'm gonna leave you alone for 5 minutes with your mom and dad,

like my husband to.

I'm on.

What's happening?

I'm gonna look for the doctor.

OK?

Yeah.

Yeah.

How are you?

It's horrible.

You have to Get Me Out of here.

Don't worry.

You absolutely have to Get Me Out of here.

Promise me.

What's wrong?

It's been terrible, mom.

It's the worst week of my life.

It's hell.

You can't leave me in hell.

This will leave you for.

We're going to discuss it with the doctor.

He's an asshole.

He doesn't understand anything.

He stops me full of medication and he thinks I'm ill.

He says I'm about to stay here for weeks and weeks.

But I'm telling you, I can't.

I won't be able to take it.

I feel much worse here than I do at home.

I need you.

You have to take me back home.

Please.

And please, mom, I'm begging you.

Calm down little shoot us.

We'll talk to the doctor right here, here with you.

So happy to see you.

Aye.

Good afternoon, doctor.

OK, why don't we all sit down?

Sit by me please, Nicholas.

I'm going to ask Michael, who's been looking after Nicholas,

to sit in with this, if

you don't mind.

Great.

Now.

I guess Nicholas has told you that he wants to leave the hospital, yes.

Yeah, he said that to me too.

I understand that these last few days have been tough on him.

We often get this reaction in the first week

and I want to stay here.

I understand you want to go home, Nicholas, I really do.

But.

It isn't something that I'd be able to recommend.

Why not?

Nicholas is suffering from acute depression.

I think it would be safer for him to stay in the hospital.

I'm better.

I just want to come back home.

There isn't going to be a problem, I promise.

I know that's what you believe, Nicholas, but in my experience.

Calm down.

I am calm with this more on the understand anything,

Nicholas, please, honey.

Nicholas.

OK.

What do you suggest?

Essentially, we just need some more time.

Suicidal impulses?

They're really difficult to identify even for the patient, but.

We can't pretend that they don't exist.

Second attempts are very common.

I think Nicholas is still suffering from a certain.

Disconnect from reality

which is causing him all kind of anxieties which we can treat.

We just need to stabilise him first.

And then we can start thinking about when to let him go.

And when would that be?

Mom just passed.

You see, because right now you need to looking after it.

You need the whole medical team with the doctors,

the therapists, project supervisor,

thank you kind of cure me pottery class.

Contributes to the process.

Yeah.

It's a bunch of crap.

I see.

Sweet.

Maybe.

Maybe it's for your own good.

Well, good.

How can I get better if I'm surrounded by people

who are much sicker than I am?

I've been thinking about this a lot, you know.

About my life, all these hours doing nothing.

I understand things.

Things I won't do anymore.

Being here is been like an electric shock.

And now I feel I'm ready to return to normal life.

I feel I can go back to school.

I feel it.

But you've got to trust me.

And you've got to Take Me Out of here otherwise.

I'm.

I'm going under.

I mean it.

I can't take this.

Dad.

You know me.

I know you do.

You always have.

But here.

They don't.

I'm begging you, dad.

Please don't abandon me.

Yeah.

What would be the procedure for taking him out?

As long as he's underage, Nicholas is your responsibility.

And that would be your decision.

But please listen very seriously to what I'm telling you.

Your son is not in a state to leave here.

All you have to do is sign the papers and he can go home.

That's my professional opinion.

He'd be taking a genuine risk.

What risk?

A risk that I would never take with my own son.

And kind of forced me to stay here.

Well, you know, technically I could,

but I would have to get a judge to agree.

And I I really don't want to have to do that.

I'd rather help your parents make the right decision.

Believe me, I know that this isn't easy,

especially here, right now, in front of your

son.

But.

Nicholas needs treatment.

And that's not part of your role as parents,

that that's a job for a psychiatrist,

that

I'm not ill if we make the right decision together.

The Nicholas will be able to come back to you soon.

And much better health.

Lead a normal life.

Mom, I want to go home.

I know, sweetheart.

Don't leave me here.

I'm begging you.

Say something.

You have to give me a second chance.

And it was a cry for help.

And I'm sorry about it with all my heart.

I I just need you to understand my pain.

But but I'll never do it again.

I I swear to you.

I think your parents have heard your arguments.

Nicholas, please.

Now I'm going to have to ask you to make a decision.

Yes, Nicholas needs to understand that you support the medical team.

Don't feel guilty.

This is not about how much you love your son.

It's about protecting him.

In these circumstances, love.

There's not enough.

Love will not be enough.

That.

All right, Nicholas, it's lunchtime.

Michael's going to take you up to the cafeteria,

but first, it's important that your

parents make their decision in front of you.

It'll help you accept your treatment.

Mama, I want to go home.

Umm.

Dad, Take Me Home.

I'm begging you, dad.

That Take Me Home.

Yeah.

I'm sorry, Nicholas.

You get this to me.

I'm not you.

That.

All right.

Help him in the right decision.

Nice.

That was a cry for help.

We have to trust him.

Looks like it doesn't improve in the next few days.

We can always take you back, right?

I know he's better off here with us.

I'll be ready in a minute.

OK.

What are you seeing, I mean?

Moving forward.

Seems a little optimistic to hope he'll go back to school.

It's may already.

Maybe he just needs to.

Yes, drink back.

Right and.

Start the next school year fresh.

Yeah.

During.

We can't never leave him on his own.

Maybe he could go back to live with you.

That's what he wants.

And.

During the day I could take him to the office to work,

I mean as an intern or.

I think you're the entry said that.

I don't know.

And it gives you learn a few new things and I'd be there.

So yeah, I tell you, this much work.

I'm going to turn down Brian's offer.

Very little.

Yeah.

Yeah, give me shit about politics.

I just.

I want to concentrate on one really counts

and for me what really counts is to be here.

Nicholas.

Here we go.

OK.

Thank you.

Are you sure?

Cut.

No.

I had a coffee.

I needed to wake up.

Sugar.

With that.

Thank you.

Thanks, baby.

Are you?

So happy to be here with you.

I didn't get the prescription.

And I was thinking.

Do you wanna maybe see a movie?

Why not?

Yeah, yeah.

But I like.

I like to take a shower first.

The bathrooms and they were so dirty.

I've been dreaming about having a shower for.

Whole week?

Yeah, sure.

What?

Are you laughing?

I smell bad.

I like singing together.

It's been a long time.

I mean since the three of us were together.

That's true.

It's like the good old days.

Right, I will take a shower.

I'll wait for you.

Just wanted to say.

I'm really sorry about everything.

And.

I know you don't deserve it.

I'd like to ask you to forgive me.

And I wanted to tell you.

And I love you.

We love you too.

I feel well.

We'll be waiting for you.

How about that?

I know.

I.

Why don't you come in the movie?

OK.

Shall I make Nicholas so happy?

We wanted to see.

Number one, we.

Used to go to the movies in the middle of the afternoon.

Hello everybody, we're very important meeting.

Sneak around and Angelica.

I love doing this.

It's like playing hockey.

Ah, so long.

Come on.

Come with us.

Ohh

the fuck.

On that.

Oh my God.

That's it.

Trust yourself.

Come to me, come to me, come to me.

OK, I'm gonna let you go.

You can do it.

Come to me.

To me.

That's it.

Keep going.

Keep going.

You're swimming.

Ohh.

You're swimming.

It's good, right?

To help you some more.

You all right?

Yeah.

It's gonna go with you.

It's better you want me to do now, OK.

I'm glad they're coming.

What about you?

I am one of them in a long time.

I know.

OK, I'll see you in a minute.

Can I read the rest to you?

Theo.

Bath time.

Hey, you're already sorry I'm a bit early.

Come in, come in.

Are you on your own?

Oh, she's on her way.

She had to go see your mother first.

No problem.

Ohh.

Come in.

How are you?

Look good.

Very good.

Thanks.

How are you?

Good.

So you you got back this morning?

Yeah, it's been months.

I set foot in New York.

I was starting to miss it.

And how's Toronto all going?

Well.

Great.

I love the city.

If you want to.

You want to drink some?

No, I'll wait for everyone else.

OK.

You know, I've decided to move in with Lana.

Did Mom tell you?

Really?

Yeah.

He basically already spend every evening

and either her place or mines.

Congratulations.

That's good news.

Really looking forward to introducing her to you.

Yeah, I'm really looking forward to meeting her.

I mean, after everything you've been telling me about her,

you'll see she's wonderful.

I'm crazy about her.

That's good.

How's Theo?

Is he here?

Yeah, he's just having his bath.

You have a gift.

Umm.

But we wanted to give it to him.

That's nice.

I also have something for you.

For me.

Well, it's.

More something I wanted to tell you about.

You still look on your face.

Don't worry, I'm not here to tell you I'm going to be a father.

Never crossed my mind.

No, it's.

Something more.

Something about me.

I wanted you to be the first to know.

Coming.

Well.

You know how besides college those?

I was something else, I laughed.

Writing.

And recently I've spent some time.

Especially since I've been living in Toronto,

everything just seems easier for me out

there.

In short.

Here it is.

What's this?

It's my first novel.

You wrote this.

I didn't want to tell anyone that of superstition.

Now it actually exists.

I wanted you to be the first person to have.

Death can wait.

Fantastic.

Ones are coming out in two months.

Umm.

Thank you.

Open it, you'll see its dedicated to you.

So.

Obviously talks a bit about what you already know.

Almost.

Really tough years for you, mom.

At least it ended well.

And.

I wanna give you the first person to have it because.

I know that if it wasn't for you.

I couldn't have.

I'm so proud of you.

I can't, boy.

So proud of you.

Better wait for Reddit.

You may not like it.

I know you.

I don't be beautiful.

Really.

I want to tell you so proud of you.

Sorry,

sorry.

I just hope it will be a success.

Of course it'll be a success.

Right.

You don't mind if I give you a hug?

I'm not too.

Of course, be glad to see you.

It's always talking about his Big Brother.

Peter.

What are you doing?

What's the matter?

Are you thinking about Nicholas?

Should have paid more attention to him.

You did the best you possibly could at the time.

I was trying to think.

Give us.

He was so talented.

And he was so intelligent.

I'm sensitive.

You've done so many beautiful things with his life.

Hi.

Should.

I never could have.

For my part.

We have the support.

Come on, come on, calm down.

I know, I know.

Life goes on, Peter, OK?

This deal and you got me.

We need you.

Even if it's hard.

Even if you.

No, it doesn't go on.

It can't go on.

And.