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CHRISTINA GRIMMIE: Five, four, three.

Hello, Team Grimmie.

I'm gonna be singing "Liar Liar."

MARCUS GRIMMIE: Christina was a YouTube phenomenon.

BUD GRIMMIE: There was between 11 and 14 million

people every week watching her on "The Voice."

We had a few high-profile cases that have occurred in

the city, but this case is as tragic as anything I'd

ever worked.

This case affected me,

This case affected me,

and not because of her celebrity and not because

of Christina being known.

It was the fact that, to this day as we sit here,

I cannot tell you why this happened.

REPORTER: Breaking news this morning.

Singer Christina Grimmie,

best known for her performances on "The Voice,"

was shot and killed after a concert in Florida.

You don't know who's watching you.

MICHAEL: Can you be stalked

when you don't know you're being stalked?

That's not fandom -- that is being a murderer.

-This is a... -Documentary...

-Of... -Life.

Christina and I, we grew up in South Jersey.

All right, girls, we're ready for you.

We moved around a lot,

so we were extremely close, and no matter what,

so we were extremely close, and no matter what,

we always knew we had each other's back.

BUD: Christina always wanted to be a singer.

[singing indistinctly]

She used to make CD covers,

take the real one out, and put her name in there.

[singing indistinctly]

[singing indistinctly]

Anywhere we went where there was a piano,

she would jump on it and start playing it.

Today, I'm gonna be playing a famous song

by Beethoven.

[playing piano]

BUD: She didn't really have any formal lessons.

She just played it all by ear,

and we could see that there was something there.

She probably wouldn't be happy with me showing these.

[Christina laughing]

[Christina laughing]

She had this little camera that was my parents'.

I mean, you can't give up. You have a concert.

She would just film herself doing skits, singing concerts.

She's just singing, quoting movies, quoting TV shows.

Did you hear that?

MARCUS: Doing goofy dances.

She was hilarious.

But she would be mortified if anyone saw it.

It was, like, for her, it wasn't for the public.

I'm premiering this -- it looks so -- ugh.

Christina had no, as far as I knew,

Christina had no, as far as I knew,

she had no interest in posting anything on the Internet.

Like, for real, like, I don't know, so...

BUD: Her friend, Lauren, came to Christina one day and said,

"Look at this girl that's on YouTube.

She has 30,000 followers, and you sing way better than her,"

Lauren says.

♪ Baby yeah ♪

And said, "You should put music on YouTube."

Hey, guys, I've been working on a video.

Hey, guys! Hey, guys.

I'm gonna singing...

I'm gonna singing...

Hi, um, I'm gonna sing...

Hey, guys. This video was actually

originally on my friend's channel, but I'm...

And she came to us the next day saying, "Hey,

look at all the positive comments I'm getting."

We were like, "Wow, that's great, Christina."

And that's when I'm like, wow, yes,

there's something pretty special that's brewing here.

Hey, guys, I'm gonna be singing a Jason Mraz song called

"I Won't Give Up"...

BUD: Maybe a week later,

she did "Party in the USA," playing a keyboard.

she did "Party in the USA," playing a keyboard.

When it gets to the high notes,

I don't really -- it's kind of difficult for me to sing.

I hope you like it, though.

She comes to me the next day

saying, "Dad, there's something wrong with my phone.

"There's emails here,

50, and I delete them, and they're not going away."

I'm like, "Christina, there's literally thousands

of these emails came in overnight."

Hello, Team Grimmie, I hope you liked that video.

She put one out every week.

Hey, guys, I'm gonna show you how to do my hair.

Hey, guys, I'm gonna show you how to do my hair.

MARCUS: The quality of the videos started to go up.

Friday, new video, all the time.

Great, love you guys. Bye!

My first thoughts looking up Christina on YouTube was,

"Oh, my God."

Keep those requests coming, and...

She was really good at taking a song and stripping it down.

Christina-fy it, and make it her own version.

And people loved that.

I saw a thumbnail of a girl with really cool hair,

and I clicked on it, and I was instantly

a Christina Grimmie fan.

a Christina Grimmie fan.

It still blows my mind that you

could have that amount of talent at...

such an incredibly young age. -And she just hits these notes,

and you're like,

"Oh, my God."

Thanks so much for watching, guys. Bye!

So we're in a little alleyway here...

My concern was that there would be harm.

My wife was a little more concerned on one of

those videos, even saying

those videos, even saying

she was against YouTube in the beginning,

because she said the creepy man is gonna see her.

I have represented a handful influencers over the years.

I think the internet gives you a false sense of safety.

I think the internet gives you a false sense of safety.

That's the problem, you know.

We have to realize that celebrities,

especially internet celebrities, have to post.

They have to constantly share snippets

and bits and pieces of their lives.

They have to connect with their viewers and fans,

and with that comes a tremendous amount of

exposure that, of course, also brings with it danger.

We just don't know who's hiding behind the screen.

CHRISTINA: Hey, guys, I recently reached

a whopping 500,000 subscribers.

[piano music playing]

CASSIE: I came across her YouTube one night while I was --

I was actually in the hospital.

♪ I know ♪

♪ something's bound to change ♪

I was 14, and I was...

I was 14, and I was...

going through a lot with my health.

I was really depressed, and I was hours away from

my family in a hospital alone, and I click on it.

♪ Calling out ♪

♪ Come on out and find me ♪

♪ 'Cause I've been waiting my turn ♪

I remember it being the first time

I ever got chills listening to music.

♪ Ohhhh yeah yeah ♪

♪ Pressure's on ♪

♪ Heart is beating ♪

♪ Heart is beating ♪

CASSIE: Finding her is kind of opening a door for me into...

realizing that the world wasn't all bad.

[Christina singing]

♪ Find me ♪

Um, cool, hope you guys liked it.

I feel like the end of it, where

she's kind of just, "I hope you liked it."

she's kind of just, "I hope you liked it."

It seemed very genuine compared to

other musicians I was familiar with

at the time.

Christina had always called her fans "friends."

My fans are my family, pretty much.

She wanted to befriend us as fans and then,

like, actually get to know us as people, you know?

Thank you so much, every single one of you.

It means the world to me

that I have half a million subscribers.

It's a really big deal, and, um, you guys are great.

It's a really big deal, and, um, you guys are great.

Her first album was called "Find Me."

It was an EP, had eight songs.

♪ Yeah hold me now and come on out and find me ♪

It went to number two on the iTunes charts,

behind some practically unknown person named Adele.

Can you believe that?

♪ Find me ♪

♪ Come on out and find me ♪

♪ Come on out and find me ♪

At one point, she was called the Queen of YouTube by Ellen.

It just felt unreal.

She was just like, "Pinch me."

She was just killing it.

Thank you so much. Muwah muwah muwah.

I love you all. Thank you. Bye!

I'm not saying she didn't have insecurities

or didn't struggle with things,

but I remember one time, she was crying in her room.

Someone said she had a big nose.

It's like starting to see that, wow,

one tiny little pebble in your mattress can ruin your night.

So, I mean, she was shaken for a while.

Hey, guys, there's been a lot of, um...

negative comments.

I've been getting a lot of trash talk.

BUD: It's YouTube.

It's kind of like the new school yard.

CASSIE: There were a few weird people

posting negative comments here and there.

The world is full of terrible people.

The world is full of terrible people.

But I would have never thought

that anyone would want to hurt her.

You never think it's gonna happen to you

or someone you love.

So, of course, I never could have

guessed that something like that would happen.

MARCUS: I had a YouTube account, and someone messaged my account

saying, "Hi,

"this is Brian, your sister is awesome.

Like, we'd love to have a meeting."

I remember calling my dad and was like, um,

"Somebody wants to talk about managing Christina."

They wanted to do a tour.

And he's like, what? No way.

Back to the big surprise.

Back to the big surprise.

I'm going on a summer tour around the U.S.

with Selena Gomez and Allstar Weekend.

Boom boom boom! Hit ya!

Bah!

I'm that excited.

MARCUS: Selena Gomez and her family invited her on

to be the opening band for her 2011 tour.

And it was just, I mean,

talk about, like, a game changer forever.

And there's Selena Gomez right there.

-Hi! -There's Selena.

Looking all fabulous for my meeting.

Looking all fabulous for my meeting.

CHRISTINA: Oh, you're always fabulous, dear.

Yeah, right.

SELENA: Come watch a movie with me!

Okay, I will come watch a movie with you.

The thing I feared the most about

her rise in popularity and going on tour

was that she would be kidnapped or something.

She was just very compliant, very naive,

and she was going to be taken advantage of.

and she was going to be taken advantage of.

Yeah, I'm actually here,

and I'm waiting for my sound check.

She was 16 years old, and they needed

someone like an adult to go -- go with her.

So I was like, yeah, I guess I'll go on the tour with her.

They've consistently taught me to be

the protector for her, the older brother.

Look out for your sister.

I'd do all the grunt work so that when Christina was up,

I knew the whole venue layout, I knew how to get in.

I knew what the food was around there.

I knew when your sound check is.

I knew when your sound check is.

So I really get that ingrained in my head.

It's just like, hey, I look after my sister.

ALL: Christina!

MARCUS: She was playing in front of tens of thousands of people,

every night, when she was 16.

[crowd screaming]

JONATHAN: So I played bass in Christina's band,

and we toward Europe.

Her fans would come up to us and be like,

"Thank you so much, we've been waiting so long for this."

And she would take so much time after the shows to talk

to everybody, she was talking to everybody.

It meant a lot to a lot of different people.

We thought this is it, she's gonna get signed.

Columbia records,

they wanted Christina to do a showcase,

they wanted Christina to do a showcase,

and we're out in California, and they had a keyboard set up

on the stage, and, uh,

they had their executives there, and she starts into her

routine, and she was just, like, on fire.

It was just so incredible.

She was just going at it.

Toward the end of the song, the president guy gets up,

and he's like, "Christina, that's enough,"

and he's like, "Christina, that's enough,"

and he walks out, and he sits on the steps that

leads down, he says, "That was incredible."

Said, "We love -- we love this.

We want to sign you."

And we were just bursting.

This is what she wanted,

to be signed, and, um, it was around 7 o'clock that night,

we got a call,

said it was off, and Christina was just devastated.

And so were we, of course, but you know...

just keep on keeping on kind of thing.

just keep on keeping on kind of thing.

STEPHEN: There's three million people

that are freaking in Hollywood.

It's actually one of the most dense places in America.

A lot of these people

aren't gonna, like, accomplish their dreams.

You have to have a fan base, you have to have

the right timing,

you have to have the right content.

Like, everything -- like, all the planets have to align in

order to be a superstar, you know?

order to be a superstar, you know?

So I've been doing songwriting for about eight years.

In the very beginning of 2016 was when I met Christina.

So me and a bunch of other amazing writers

had four days together to start writing with her.

After that four days, like, we were just, like, inseparable.

We were just spending every single day together,

just writing music,

just writing music,

going on adventures, just talking about life,

just, like, dating.

She, like, broke it to me, she's like, "I love you."

I'm like, "I love you too."

She was so infectious and captivating.

You never know the definition of love until you see it.

Christina realized that she

was consistently accomplishing smaller goals,

was consistently accomplishing smaller goals,

meeting with the right people,

working on a lot of new music,

and doing what she had to do,

and...

I really do think that she was on her

way to having the right thing at the right time.

And then she was asked to be part of "The Voice."

So she loved that idea of, you know,

going on a show and competing with other singers to try

and be the most popular one.

and be the most popular one.

Hey, so we're at "The Voice" tailgate,

and there's Danny and there's Christina,

and we're all ugly! Oh, my God!

There's two types of people on "The Voice."

There's people who just can't believe the opportunity

they're given, and others who think that they deserve it.

Christina was definitely in the "I can't believe that

I'm here group."

It's a shame that all that makeup isn't gonna

help nothing. [laughs] Ew.

It was definitely, like, this is gonna change our lives.

It was a huge deal to be selected.

And I'm sure Christina felt the same way.

And I'm sure Christina felt the same way.

-You ready for lives? -What -- what lives?

We're on "The Voice" tonight, dude.

I should probably learn a song, then.

I remember being on the phone, she says, "Dad, they want me

"to do 'Wrecking Ball.'

They think that I can do it."

And I was like, "Well, if they think you can, do you think you

can?" And she says, "I think maybe."

We were all just hoping -- she even said it,

We were all just hoping -- she even said it,

I just hope and want one chair to turn.

So she just wanted to make it.

She wanted to be up on that stage,

and she was definitely ready.

And at the very end, when she just says, yeah,

with the way she uses her head.

♪ Yeah ♪

When I see that now, it really gets

When I see that now, it really gets

to me, how just ready she was to perform.

Just to know that four of the huge stars

who you grew up listening to or have affiliation with

or just know about

were like -- wanted you on their team, it definitely gave her

confidence moving forward and be like, okay,

just be myself, and I got this.

And when Adam asked her who her inspirations were,

And when Adam asked her who her inspirations were,

she said her mom.

My wife, she had cancer for 23 years.

We saw what we believed were

miracles in her health, and Christina,

she even said, "I didn't think my mom would get to see this."

Hi!

There was between 11 and 14 million

people every week watching her on "The Voice."

people every week watching her on "The Voice."

So we just performed on "The Voice."

-Here's Grimmie. -Yeah.

-Yeah. Vote for us. -Yo!

It was obvious from her performance on "The Voice" that

she had tremendous talent,

and she had a promising future as a singer

ahead of her.

Everything seems to be great and positive.

People are complimenting you, they love your new song,

they love your outfit, they love your performance,

but who is really looking at you, and what are they thinking?

but who is really looking at you, and what are they thinking?

BUD: Christina finished third.

She got to do one

single recording.

She went on tour, and she was very happy with there.

After "The Voice," there were a lot of people who were like,

"It's time to do a tour, do a tour."

Oh, it's a short -- it's a three-week tour.

Oh, it's a short -- it's a three-week tour.

Our last two dates are in San Fran and L.A.,

so we'll end home.

So I was like, sure, why not? I'll do it.

I don't wanna say we were reluctant to do it,

but it wasn't like, "Let's go!"

It was like a, "Okay, yeah, let's -- let's do it."

STEPHEN: I got to see her, like, one last time.

I'm so glad, so glad that I just got

to see her, like, that one last time by ourselves.

Hug her, hold her, it just...

Yeah.

While she was on tour, we would text each other every day.

We just missed each other a lot.

It wasn't the best tour we were on.

We were very looking forward to getting home.

BRIA: I talked to her after her show in D.C.,

BRIA: I talked to her after her show in D.C.,

and she just told me, she looked me dead in the eye,

she's like, "Bria, I don't want to be here.

"I want to be home.

I want to be working on my next album."

I was driving home from work, and I'm talking to my wife,

Tina, and she said, "Uh, Bud, the kids are flying home

"from Orlando tomorrow into LAX,

"and Marcus called and wanted to know

if you could pick them up at the airport."

MARCUS: It was just another day.

It was the biggest venue of the tour, too.

There was an opener, then there was her.

She had just gotten off the stage, and she called me,

and she told me how good the show went,

and she was like, "I have

to do the meet and greet," and I was like,

"Call me when you get done."

Our bags were packed before the meet and greet.

It's in the bus,

we're ready to go, like, we're going to go to a hotel,

we're ready to go, like, we're going to go to a hotel,

spend the night, and then we leave in the morning.

So after the meet and greet line forms,

just a normal meet and greet,

just, you know, people are coming to take

pictures, sometimes I'll take the picture for them.

But otherwise, I'm just standing there next to her.

SARA: These are people that know her maybe only on YouTube,

you know, and they finally get to see her in concert live.

you know, and they finally get to see her in concert live.

So it was a real huge, big deal for her and her fans.

At some point, the line --

it was towards the end of the line,

there was still, if I remember correctly,

at least 15 other people on line.

It's just like, someone reaches for something,

pulls it out...

[gunshot blasts]

[sirens wailing]

MARCUS: It's just like, someone reaches for something,

pulls it out, and then you just hear, like, pop.

Then I just remember she falls over.

I mean she was, like, an arm's distance away from me,

and...

I would say he was point blank.

It's going so fast that my -- one second, I'm like,

It's going so fast that my -- one second, I'm like,

is this a prank? No, it's not a prank.

And I just go after him.

My gut was like, "Get the gun away."

And I'm just like wailing on him, and I wrestled him to

the ground, and I just remember getting the gun away from him.

It was the goal, like, you know, I'm not --

I'm not trained in anything, and then he's up, backing up to

the wall, and he's got a gun in his hand, and I'm thinking,

like, oh, okay, I'm dead, that's it I guess.

[gunshot blasts]

And then he just pulls it to his head, kills himself.

And then he just pulls it to his head, kills himself.

And suddenly everyone is calling 911.

There's chaos. People are running out of the venue.

They're just frantic.

They're frightened. They're terrorized.

I didn't touch Christina or the other body, but I did go up,

I didn't touch Christina or the other body, but I did go up,

and I saw she was peacefully -- she was gone.

So I -- I knew that she was not suffering.

There was no suffering. There was no struggle.

There was no goodbye. Nothing.

I'm sorry, I haven't talked about it in a while.

I thought...

It's just that guttural feeling of,

like, I was the only one there.

[sniffles]

This is the hardest part to tell, because it's still...man.

Oh, man.

My dad just conveniently happens to call me, like

he just -- he calls me.

He answered the phone, and he was out of breath.

I just said -- I said, "Dad,

Christina has been shot, and she's no longer with us."

[sniffles]

And I'm...what?

And he's, you know, breathing heavy, and

And he's, you know, breathing heavy, and

I said, "She's okay, right?

She's gonna be okay."

I couldn't think straight.

You know, you just cry out.

How -- how could this be?

This is the worst nightmare for a parent.

I was with Bud, and

that's when Mark called, to tell Bud and Tina

that's when Mark called, to tell Bud and Tina

that she was gone, and, uh...

um,

I had to watch two parents find out

that they're never gonna see their kid again.

And I remember

Tina screaming and falling to the ground,

because it's the darkest thing I think I've ever been through.

I was woken up by my phone, and I thought it was her.

Pick it up.

Hello? It's Bud.

He just said,

"Christina went home to the Lord."

[exhales]

And that was...

that was it.

REPORTER: Breaking news this morning.

Singer Christina Grimmie, best known for her

performances on "The Voice"

was shot and killed after a concert in Florida.

CASSIE: I woke up, 2:35 a.m.,

and I go on Twitter, and my whole timeline is filled

with tweets about her, and I'm just...

with tweets about her, and I'm just...

very, just confused.

A bunch of ominous things that didn't make a ton of sense.

Everyone's just, like, freaking out.

It's just chaos and in complete disbelief.

[man over radio] Two patients,

the female patient and the shooter.

[woman over radio] We have officers on the way, okay?

MICHAEL: I was a detective in the Homicide Unit

MICHAEL: I was a detective in the Homicide Unit

of Orlando Police Department for 13 years.

We had a few high-profile cases that have occurred in

the city, but this case

is as tragic as anything I'd ever worked.

The call was a shooting at The Plaza.

There was very vague details.

SARA: It didn't take much of

an investigation to realize who was the killer.

But why?

But why?

WOMAN: They're looking for a motive,

but they do say the two did not know each other.

Very limited details.

We don't know the name of the gunman, the suspect.

That was what this investigation

was really about -- the motive.

SARA: As an officer reporting to the scene of the crime,

you could think this is a mass shooter, you could think

he randomly shot Christina,

maybe he was trying to shoot somebody else

and shot her instead.

MICHAEL: Our CSIs were already there.

Christina was shot three times,

one close-range shot to her head, which was a fatal injury,

one close-range shot to her head, which was a fatal injury,

and then she was shot two more times in the chest.

You have to make sure that you don't

get too much tunnel vision into what's going on,

Whether the person had help, whether

there was something else going on here.

Until you get that statement from Marcus Grimmie,

you gotta keep your kinda options open.

MARCUS: When they say it's a blur,

it really does feel like a blur, because the next thing

I know, the cops are there,

you know, and I'm being detained,

you know, and I'm being detained,

because I'm the only person there.

MICHAEL: As an investigator,

you know, I'm thinking, again, the who

part of this, who did this, is over.

As a human being, as a father, I'm thinking...

this young man just saw his sister

murdered right in front of him.

MARCUS: Forgive me, I don't feel like a hero for -- for that.

All I know is I did feel really alone after it.

MICHAEL: We start seeking out who this person is

dead on the floor, and the medical examiner

gets there to go through his pockets and identify him as

Kevin Loibl through his driver's license.

There was a couple of things

about him that stood out initially.

First of all, he brought two guns,

and the guns were very similar.

and the guns were very similar.

SARA: He used one gun to shoot and kill Christina,

but that gun jammed.

And so when he was in that struggle with Marcus on

the ground, he reached for the second gun,

and he used that gun to kill himself.

But he also had a tactical knife strapped to his ankle.

We also found a brochure for

a burial service that would cremate your remains.

a burial service that would cremate your remains.

So that tells us that Kevin Loibl had no intention to live.

I had over one million notifications, because people

just wanted to know what happened to Christina.

But when you get news like that,

I swear you can feel the world stopped turning.

All my friends and I were just like, "Who is this guy?"

I started going down these rabbit trails of conspiracies,

I started going down these rabbit trails of conspiracies,

and when I started looking into all the things

that people were saying about why Christina was killed,

there's something going on.

I wanted to start finding out what was on his computer.

A lot of people want to just figure out

what -- what do you think the motive is?

Did you recognize him?

Does he have a criminal history?

Did he have, you know, previous contact with law enforcement?

No, there's no indication that he knew her.

We're looking into that and trying

to find a motive for the crime.

To me, at least, she never mentioned anybody being,

like, unhealthily obsessed with her or anything like that.

She just always assumed everybody was just sweet

and nice.

SARA: When investigators looked at her content,

everything seemed to be positive in her threads

and comments.

and comments.

There didn't seem to be any indication that there were any

creeps lurking or someone was stalking her

or looking to come to a concert and kill her.

We asked Marcus, "Have you ever seen

"that guy at any of her previous concerts?

Was he, like, showing up at every one?"

There were some people who had been hired, uh, as freelancers

to photograph and video the concert, and they graciously

turned over to us all their footage.

We were able to establish that he had been there

We were able to establish that he had been there

the whole time.

We see him in the video footage,

uh, standing in the back of the venue.

At that point, my immediate

concern became for Kevin Loibl's family

and whether or not he had done something to them prior to this.

Kevin's family was shocked.

We were amazed to find out that they

had never heard him mention Christina Grimmie's

name before, uh,

they didn't even know he was in Orlando for this show,

they didn't even know he was in Orlando for this show,

had never seen him watch a single episode of "The Voice,"

but there were some interesting things that

they said.

His dad said he lived like a hermit.

And then, you know, we're asking

about relationships, you know, did he have friends?

Did he have a girlfriend? Where did he go to school?

And all those things painted a very socially isolated person.

And when he took us into his bedroom, he had

aluminum foil taped to the windows

aluminum foil taped to the windows

and pretty heavy drapes.

He was like, you know, very bizarre.

There was, like, apparently nothing hanging up in the room,

like no posters, no nothing.

Nothing having to do anything

with Christina Grimmie in there.

Like, you might expect to see,

like, a wall plastered with her picture.

There was no pictures on the wall.

There wasn't anything there in this bedroom.

I mean, I think they obviously knew there's something really

awkward and bizarre

about Kevin, but not to the extent that

about Kevin, but not to the extent that

he would go and kill somebody.

MICHAEL: But one of the things that his dad did tell us was

Kevin had gone through some pretty radical changes over

the last few months.

He had gotten LASIK.

And he had tried to regrow his hair.

He had taken on a vegan diet and lost, like, 20 pounds.

He had gotten his teeth whitened up.

So some dramatic changes.

So some dramatic changes.

So we really felt, at that point, you know, his computer

and his phone were gonna be crucial for us.

So we took the computer back, we had his phone,

our digital forensic guys looked at both of them.

The computer tower had been deliberately destroyed.

And I could only imagine that was to take

away our ability to find out why this happened.

Our forensic guys couldn't get into his phone,

either, because it had been encrypted.

either, because it had been encrypted.

So the two places that would have, you know, a wealth

of information and evidence were no go for officers in

this case.

So at that point, his family said that he only really had

one friend in the world and that we should talk to him.

This friend, he knew

that Kevin Loibl was obsessed with Christina,

and he identified

that this was -- maybe had been going on for about a year.

And I asked him, "Do you know what specifically he watched?"

And he said, "All I know is that

"he would watch anything having to do with her.

Anything that she produced, he watched."

He said part of this was these changes

that he was going through was to impress her.

What he thought he had to do to impress her

and that he wanted to be a streamer.

He felt that was an avenue to meet Christina.

I think Kevin really secretly thought, in a very

twisted way, that Christina Grimmie was his future bride.

BRIA: I guess what had happened is he learned that Christina had

BRIA: I guess what had happened is he learned that Christina had

a boyfriend, Stephen, at the time,

and got so angry and so pissed off and thought to himself,

"Well, if I can't have her, nobody can."

Losing Christina

flipped every single aspect of my life upside down.

Those feelings just felt too big for my body to hold.

We lost a friend, I lost someone I looked up to,

We lost a friend, I lost someone I looked up to,

I lost, like, a very important person in my life.

And, um...

yeah, sorry, I'm crying.

[sighs heavily]

Why her?

She -- she hugged him.

She opened her arms up to him, and...

he ended her life.

STEPHEN: It truly makes it scary in this day and age

to be a celebrity.

You don't know who's watching you.

You know, fans can be anyone.

MICHAEL: And I think it's one of those things that people

are dealing with now that streaming has become

more popular,

that can you be stalked

when you don't know you're being stalked?

You know, there's nothing unusual about fandom,

You know, there's nothing unusual about fandom,

but when you drive hours to go to a venue, and then you stand

in the back with your head down and your arms crossed,

and you're armed,

that's not fandom -- that is being a murderer.

MARCUS: I lost my mom to cancer, and we got

to say goodbye, and we got to prepare for it.

to say goodbye, and we got to prepare for it.

But to all of Christina's friends and loved ones

and fans, there's no parade, there's no goodbye.

It's just... now your projection

of the person who she could have became.

BUD: I miss my -- my wife. I miss my Christina.

But I know, I am convinced, that God's love is

bigger than the hole that's in my heart that's missing.

So after we got home from the funeral and the memorial,

I realized that Christina's manager, Brian,

he started a GoFundMe for us.

Adam Levine pays for the funeral, which just...

is amazing.

So they were the spark

of there's still good in the world,

when the world just seems so dark.

when the world just seems so dark.

Marcus's idea of reaching out to these people that are going

through something that, like,

what we just experienced, only they didn't have half of

the helping hands that we had,

so we started the Christina Grimmie Foundation,

which raises money to give directly to families

who experience gun violence.

MARCUS: I want to make people feel a little bit of comfort

in this hard time, to give them a little bit

in this hard time, to give them a little bit

of hope, saying, "Hey,

this is gonna be really hard, but you can get through this."

To this point, we've helped over 100 families

and given out over $350,000 in grants.

So the response as a whole has just been encouraging.

This isn't the end of Christina's name or legacy,

you know?

♪ Calling out ♪

♪ Come on out and find me ♪

♪ I've been waiting my turn ♪

♪ I've been waiting my turn ♪

STEPHEN: Christina Grimmie changed my life.

And if I were to say anything to anyone out there

who's in love with anyone and doesn't know how to say it,

I would say...

let them know now, and do not hesitate.

You do not know how much time you have in the end.

♪ Pressure's on ♪

♪ Now your heart is beating ♪

♪ To the sound of my name ♪

♪ To the sound of my name ♪

♪ And I say "Find Me" ♪