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Sorry. Er, Professor!
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Professor Thomas! Sorry.
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Er, it's about the
consultant interviews.
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We had, erm, a... a meeting,
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erm, for the consultant interviews.
I'm one of the candidates.
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Catherine MacDiarmid.
I know who you are.
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You were late.
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And where do you see yourself
in ten years' time, Jack?
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Clinical Director of Surgery.
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But I find myself increasingly
humble about planning.
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HE CHUCKLES
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My day's been like dominoes.
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One delay to surgery
this morning, and I'm...
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Oh, just seven minutes late.
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PHONE RINGS
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Nice shot, Alan.
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Could I buy you a
cup of tea, perhaps?
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PHONE RINGING
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Hadn't you better answer that?
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I'd love the opportunity to tell
you what I have to offer the trust.
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Besides punctuality (?)
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Planning is all well and good,
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but what the last few years
have taught me is adaptability.
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That's what it's all about.
I couldn't agree more.
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Whoa! Good work, Jack!
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PHONE RINGS
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What is it, Lars?
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'Just to say that the
flight's all on time.'
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Great.
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THUNDER ROLLS
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SHE SIGHS
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DOG BARKING, PEOPLE
CHATTING FAINTLY
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RADIO ALARM: 'Woman'
by Little Simz
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? I love how you go from zero
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? To one hundred
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? And leave the dust behind
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? You've got this
All action, no talk
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? I see you glow
You're the finest gold
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? When you walk in the
room They feel your soul
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? Your style, it
shines So ahead of time
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? And you know that you're fire
You're so damn fine, girl... ?
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Jesus Christ.
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Go on, in you go.
Yes, you can watch TV.
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Hello! How was Grandma's?
Hello! That's a lovely picture.
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Oh, my gosh, there's
glitter everywhere.
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How was Grandma's?
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48 hours is definitely
everyone's limit.
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Could you just look after them for
half an hour while I have a shower?
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Yeah, sure. Actually, er, no.
Can we just have a quick chat?
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Yeah, sure. Thanks.
Do you mind...?
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MAN: Raz! Hello.
How are you, mate?
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Just give me a sec.
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Maz. Have you
slept at all today?
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Oh, you were going in to fix me.
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Less Ibadat, more like an
appointment at the Genius Bar?
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I needed to speak to someone,
I didn't know where else to go.
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I am not having this
conversation in the street.
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Fine. Let's go home and have it.
I can't, I've gotta go to work.
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You can't keep going in,
Maz, you're not well.
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Oh, don't be another person
telling me how I feel.
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Then you tell me. Talk to me.
Why are you still going to work?
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It's not just the job.
You've never understood.
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I really struggle with the
saviour complex. What?!
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There are other doctors!
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The whole thing won't come
crashing down if you're not there.
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You've not seen the gaps
in the rota this week.
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Look, I understand
you're punishing yourself
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for what happened
to that little boy.
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Edward. His name was Edward.
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You can say no to
being kind to yourself,
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to me, to our children,
to that baby girl,
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but you can't say no
to that place, can you?
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I don't understand that.
I haven't said no to her.
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I've said I need to get
past the investigation.
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They need an answer, Maz.
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I'm not having this
conversation in the street.
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You can't keep
choosing to be a doctor
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at the expense of everything
else, Maz. Please.
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Maz?
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What is it?
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The other night, when
I called you from work.
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I know that you'd been...
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Mummy! Yes, Maggie.
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Can you just watch TV
for a minute, please?
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Can I have my hot milk?
Yeah, in a minute.
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Guy, I...
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I know that you'd been drinking.
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Mummy, I want a hot
milk! Yes, in a minute!
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It was half a glass of wine.
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I think you need to ask
yourself, what is this, really?
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Mummy, hot milk!
I'm making it!
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You're lying.
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I'm sorry? Your mother told me
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she can't drink at the moment
because she's on warfarin.
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Plus, you need to learn
to empty the recycling!
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You weren't fit to
be on call, Guy.
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Mummy, it's the scary bit.
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Please can you watch it
with us? Yeah, course.
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Look, here's your hot milk, OK?
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Come on, I'll forward it on.
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Guy...
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Just talk to me, please.
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You need help.
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I do NOT need help.
GLASS SHATTERS
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It's OK. Just don't.
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Just leave it.
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What was that,
Mummy? Fuck's sake.
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It's all right, Mags. Can you
just stay up there, please?
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You done?
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TANNOY: 'Flight RY35 from Shannon
is now delayed by 25 minutes.'
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Hi!
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Oh, hi.
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Hi! Aw, look!
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Everything OK? Oh,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
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Yeah, we had a great time.
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Aw, I'm so pleased. You
heading straight back?
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Er, well, half an hour.
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So...
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You, er... all
ready for tomorrow?
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Absolutely. Mama's
gonna smash it!
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ELIS WAILING
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SHE SIGHS
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For protracted ileus,
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mechanical obstruction
should be excluded by CT scan
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and underlying
electrolyte abnor...
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ELIS SOBBING
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Come on. WAILING CONTINUES
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Come closer.
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Would you...? WAILING
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Oh. No.
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Oh! ELIS SCREAMING
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RSV, RSV, RSV...
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Ooh! Bronch.
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Bronch is RSV. Just
trying to liven things up.
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Can I leave you with
the labour ward bleep?
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Who's eaten half of these?
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Er, Susan, I-I can't
do this tonight.
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Well, Xavi's not sleeping.
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You're not still
breast-feeding, are you?
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If you stop breast-feeding him,
he will sleep through the night.
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Look, I'm a reg
down on the rota.
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I can't cover every
hole in the rota.
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Well, the only other
option's Mae, and, honestly,
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I think it's too much
responsibility for her.
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She doesn't have the
neonatal experience.
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You have to tell
someone. I can't.
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You have to speak to his manager.
He's putting people at risk.
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This isn't an interview
scenario, Jack.
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When it comes out - and
it always comes out -
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and when they find out
you've been covering...
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I'm not... I'm not
covering for him.
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..you'll be the one facing
disciplinary action.
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He'll get rehab
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and a weekly appointment
with Occupational Health.
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He's my husband.
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If he gets suspended, then
who pays our mortgage?
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Who explains to my five-year-old
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why Mummy and Daddy aren't
living together any more?
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But he can't keep drinking.
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I know.
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I-I know that.
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Oh, I don't know what to do.
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Sorry, I...
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I don't think he's left
you with much choice.
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I know. I know. ELIS CRYING
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I know. Oh, come on, Elis.
Come on, sweetie pie.
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Fine. Fine. I know.
ELIS SPLUTTERING
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I know.
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PHONE RINGS
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CAU.
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CATHERINE: 'Her
temperature is still 39.'
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OK, Catherine, like I
said before, it's RSV.
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If she's struggling to
breathe, then bring her in.
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'Can I bring her in
so YOU can tell me
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'if she's struggling
for breath?'
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Look, I know this
is scary... BEEPER
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..but you're doing brilliantly.
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'Can I push the Calpol to,
like, every two hours?' No.
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Mae, can you come with
me to the labour ward?
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If you're going, I need
to stay. Take Simon.
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WOMAN GRUNTING
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SHE GROANS Don't touch me!
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I don't want any
of you touching me!
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Calm down now.
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Let's get these on you.
Let us help you, Layla.
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Oh, God.
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I want her to stay in me!
What's your management plan?
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Can you feel another
contraction coming? Er...
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Layla? I know what you're
doing. I know what you're doing!
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Let NICU know to expect a
premmie with prenatal drug use.
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Er, suspected NAS?
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So that they can start
monitoring a-and the other stuff.
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I don't want this!
Which is what?
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Stop touching me! Depends
on the monitoring.
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Stop fighting us, Layla. You're
gonna hurt yourself and the baby.
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What baby's... would be... L...
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Lipsitz? ..Lipsitz scores are.
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If they shows signs
of opioid withdrawal,
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treat with morphine. I'm
gonna be a good mother.
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You missed an immediate
start on antibiotics
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due to maternal risk
factor of substance abuse.
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We don't know what
the substance is.
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So call the NICU, look
up the NAS guidelines.
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Here comes another one, Layla.
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Big push now.
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LAYLA GROANS
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Nearly there, one more
big push. LAYLA SCREAMS
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GROANING AND SCREAMING
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LAYLA GRUNTS
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Let me hold her! Don't...
Don't take her away!
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Calm down. Just give her back!
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Please just let me have her.
I'll do better this time.
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Please!
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Just let me hold her, please!
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You know we can't
do that, Layla.
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Shall we try oxygen?
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Yep. I'm her mother!
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Who takes a baby
from their mother?!
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You bitch! OK, increase
the pressure a bit.
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Just get off me!
That's it. Bitch!
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LAYLA CRIES OUT
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She's breathing.
Well done, love.
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Get the lines in. You
did this! You took her!
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And you!
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I will NEVER forgive you.
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LAYLA SOBBING
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LAYLA SOBBING Please, please...
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Get the NAS scores.
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What, do you mean go
with her now, or...
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wait for 72 hours?
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Dr Afridi?
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BREATHING QUICKLY
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Er, Dr Afridi, do you
mean go now, or...?
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PANICKED BREATHING
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Maryam?
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PHONE RINGS
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Hello?
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It's Laura from Theatres.
Just letting you know
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I've squeezed in an
appendicectomy at nine,
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'just in case you were aiming
for...' Laura, what, sorry?
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No, I'm not working today.
I requested it as holiday.
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Er, no, you're on today,
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and you have an appendicectomy
from the CEPOD list.
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No, I filled out
the holiday form.
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'I sent it to you.'
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I'm sure I got a
response. Hold on.
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ELIS BABBLING
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Laura, help. I'm so
sorry, it didn't...
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Look, I can't work today.
251
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It's interview day, my
interview's at four.
252
00:13:13,960 --> 00:13:14,999
They put you last, then?
253
00:13:15,000 --> 00:13:17,799
Please, someone else
has got to take it.
254
00:13:17,800 --> 00:13:19,799
You've been begging me
for the surgical hours.
255
00:13:19,800 --> 00:13:21,959
Yes, just not today!
256
00:13:21,960 --> 00:13:23,959
'There isn't anyone else,
so unless you're ill...'
257
00:13:23,960 --> 00:13:25,959
I'm really ill. Horribly ill.
258
00:13:25,960 --> 00:13:28,960
I'll tell them you can't make
your interview, then, shall I?
259
00:13:30,800 --> 00:13:31,960
Hello?
260
00:13:32,960 --> 00:13:33,959
How long's the list?
261
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You should be done by
three. See you in an hour.
262
00:13:44,960 --> 00:13:48,959
I need you to pull it together.
You can't be ill today.
263
00:13:48,960 --> 00:13:50,959
? What d'you know about me?
264
00:13:50,960 --> 00:13:52,959
? What d'you know about me now?
265
00:13:52,960 --> 00:13:54,959
? What d'you know about me? ?
266
00:13:54,960 --> 00:13:57,159
She was up a bit in the
night, she's a bit tired.
267
00:13:57,160 --> 00:13:59,959
Not temperature, or anything,
probably just teething.
268
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ELIS WAILS You know
I'm a doctor, right?
269
00:14:01,960 --> 00:14:04,639
Great. Yeah. OK,
well, bye. Bye, Elis!
270
00:14:04,640 --> 00:14:06,959
? What d'you know about me?
271
00:14:06,960 --> 00:14:08,959
? Think you got the warning
272
00:14:08,960 --> 00:14:10,959
? That's what you don't say... ?
273
00:14:10,960 --> 00:14:13,000
SHE EXHALES
274
00:14:16,960 --> 00:14:18,959
KNOCK ON WINDOW
275
00:14:18,960 --> 00:14:20,959
She's got a temperature.
276
00:14:20,960 --> 00:14:22,959
? What d'you know about me now?
277
00:14:22,960 --> 00:14:24,959
? What d'you know about me?
278
00:14:24,960 --> 00:14:26,959
? What d'you know about me now?
279
00:14:26,960 --> 00:14:28,959
? What d'you know about me?
280
00:14:28,960 --> 00:14:30,959
? What d'you know
about me now? ?
281
00:14:30,960 --> 00:14:32,959
I-I know that.
282
00:14:32,960 --> 00:14:35,960
I know that, Mum.
I really would...
283
00:14:37,960 --> 00:14:39,960
Yeah. Yeah.
284
00:14:41,960 --> 00:14:43,959
ELIS FUSSING
285
00:14:43,960 --> 00:14:44,999
You hold her till I
find someone else,
286
00:14:45,000 --> 00:14:46,960
or you remove an
appendix. Your call.
287
00:14:51,960 --> 00:14:52,959
Mum?
288
00:14:52,960 --> 00:14:54,959
Yeah, Mum. I'm begging you.
289
00:14:54,960 --> 00:14:56,960
Please get on that train now.
290
00:14:59,960 --> 00:15:01,959
HELEN: Is there enough
milk in that for you?
291
00:15:01,960 --> 00:15:03,959
We could, er...
292
00:15:03,960 --> 00:15:07,479
We could go to the funeral
place tomorrow if you're free?
293
00:15:07,480 --> 00:15:09,159
Can we, like...
294
00:15:09,160 --> 00:15:10,960
What's the word?
295
00:15:11,960 --> 00:15:13,959
..burn her? SHE COUGHS
296
00:15:13,960 --> 00:15:16,960
Not, like, burn her
like she's a witch.
297
00:15:18,160 --> 00:15:19,999
I was thinking we need
to contact her dad.
298
00:15:20,000 --> 00:15:22,959
Your dad. Tell him.
299
00:15:22,960 --> 00:15:24,319
I'm not speaking to him.
300
00:15:24,320 --> 00:15:26,319
He needs to know.
He was her dad.
301
00:15:26,320 --> 00:15:27,959
She wouldn't want him there.
302
00:15:27,960 --> 00:15:29,959
It's not about what she
wants any more, is it?
303
00:15:29,960 --> 00:15:31,480
OK, I don't want him there.
304
00:15:36,960 --> 00:15:38,959
SHE SIGHS
305
00:15:38,960 --> 00:15:40,959
It wasn't your mum's fault.
306
00:15:40,960 --> 00:15:43,959
Yeah, it were. We
tried to help her.
307
00:15:43,960 --> 00:15:46,959
You tried, I tried my whole
life, did nothing but try.
308
00:15:46,960 --> 00:15:49,959
OK, but your mum was like she was
because our dad was like he was.
309
00:15:49,960 --> 00:15:53,479
It's just cycles
of this bullshit.
310
00:15:53,480 --> 00:15:56,000
Exactly. It wasn't just her
life she was tearing up, was it?
311
00:16:01,960 --> 00:16:05,959
SOBBING: I can't believe
this is happening to me!
312
00:16:05,960 --> 00:16:06,959
Jessica?
313
00:16:06,960 --> 00:16:09,959
I'm Catherine MacDiarmid.
I'm your surgeon today.
314
00:16:09,960 --> 00:16:11,959
I see you're struggling
with the pain.
315
00:16:11,960 --> 00:16:15,319
I'm meant to be getting
married in 60 hours!
316
00:16:15,320 --> 00:16:17,959
I'm literally meant to be
at the tanning place now.
317
00:16:17,960 --> 00:16:18,959
Do you have insurance?
318
00:16:18,960 --> 00:16:20,799
No!
319
00:16:20,800 --> 00:16:23,319
We're never gonna get
the '90s band again!
320
00:16:23,320 --> 00:16:25,959
Two years we've
been planning this.
321
00:16:25,960 --> 00:16:28,639
WAILS: It's the
biggest day of my life!
322
00:16:28,640 --> 00:16:30,960
It's not. Most expensive, maybe.
323
00:16:31,960 --> 00:16:33,959
But I'm gonna have a scar!
324
00:16:33,960 --> 00:16:35,959
It's keyhole surgery.
325
00:16:35,960 --> 00:16:37,959
But you'll see it
when I'm in my dress.
326
00:16:37,960 --> 00:16:41,159
Oh, no, it will just be
here, just a tiny incision...
327
00:16:41,160 --> 00:16:43,159
You'll see what you
had for lunch in that.
328
00:16:43,160 --> 00:16:44,959
I wanna die!
329
00:16:44,960 --> 00:16:46,959
OK, Jessica, that's enough!
330
00:16:46,960 --> 00:16:49,959
You're gonna man up,
we're gonna put you under,
331
00:16:49,960 --> 00:16:51,959
and I'm gonna have you
out of here by tomorrow
332
00:16:51,960 --> 00:16:54,479
with some decent painkillers.
Those and a glass of Champagne,
333
00:16:54,480 --> 00:16:56,959
and it might just be the
best day of your life.
334
00:16:56,960 --> 00:16:57,959
We can still get married?
335
00:16:57,960 --> 00:16:59,960
I've got my lucky pants on.
336
00:17:12,960 --> 00:17:15,960
FAINT VOICES OUTSIDE
337
00:17:18,960 --> 00:17:20,960
AEROPLANE OVERHEAD
338
00:17:36,960 --> 00:17:38,960
You OK?
339
00:17:58,960 --> 00:18:01,160
Please don't say
anything to anyone.
340
00:18:29,960 --> 00:18:31,959
'Hi. You've reached
Catherine MacDiarmid.
341
00:18:31,960 --> 00:18:34,320
'I can't take your call just...'
342
00:18:36,960 --> 00:18:37,959
Hi, Mum, it's me again.
343
00:18:37,960 --> 00:18:42,640
Be good to know where you are.
Hopefully, you're in a tunnel.
344
00:18:45,960 --> 00:18:47,159
I have a meeting now.
345
00:18:47,160 --> 00:18:49,799
The interview is in an hour.
346
00:18:49,800 --> 00:18:52,959
I'm not operating, fair enough,
but I am an important cog
347
00:18:52,960 --> 00:18:54,959
in this wheel of patient
quality and care.
348
00:18:54,960 --> 00:18:58,959
She's lovely, but it's also
very hard to get anything done.
349
00:18:58,960 --> 00:19:00,959
No, really (?)
350
00:19:00,960 --> 00:19:02,959
ELIS CRYING OK, you're tired.
351
00:19:02,960 --> 00:19:04,639
Good luck in there.
352
00:19:04,640 --> 00:19:06,080
Be nice to have more
women in charge.
353
00:19:07,960 --> 00:19:09,159
Thank you, you've
been lovely. Oh!
354
00:19:09,160 --> 00:19:12,639
ELIS COUGHS Oh, dear,
how are you feeling, huh?
355
00:19:12,640 --> 00:19:15,159
ELIS RETCHES Oh,
no. Oh, Elis, no!
356
00:19:15,160 --> 00:19:16,799
ELIS WAILING
357
00:19:16,800 --> 00:19:18,959
SONG: 'Blow' by lau. ra
358
00:19:18,960 --> 00:19:21,959
? When they asking who's the star
You can tell them that I'm next... ?
359
00:19:21,960 --> 00:19:24,959
ELIS CRYING
360
00:19:24,960 --> 00:19:27,959
? I don't go looking
for No karma... ?
361
00:19:27,960 --> 00:19:29,959
CRYING
362
00:19:29,960 --> 00:19:31,959
? You live with an illusion
363
00:19:31,960 --> 00:19:35,479
? They wanna hear me scream
They wanna see me cry... ?
364
00:19:35,480 --> 00:19:38,959
WAILING
365
00:19:38,960 --> 00:19:42,639
? Baby, I'm about to blow... ?
366
00:19:42,640 --> 00:19:43,959
Looking very dapper!
367
00:19:43,960 --> 00:19:47,959
Just had my interview for
consultant. Oh. Go well?
368
00:19:47,960 --> 00:19:50,959
Yeah, I think so. Well, you
certainly look the part.
369
00:19:50,960 --> 00:19:53,319
I'm sorry, by the way.
370
00:19:53,320 --> 00:19:54,959
For your loss.
371
00:19:54,960 --> 00:19:55,960
What's that?
372
00:19:57,480 --> 00:19:58,800
For, erm...
373
00:20:00,960 --> 00:20:02,959
Sorry, I'm confusing you with...
374
00:20:02,960 --> 00:20:03,959
Never mind, way too much
375
00:20:03,960 --> 00:20:05,959
"trust priorities and
leadership strategies"
376
00:20:05,960 --> 00:20:06,999
running through my head.
377
00:20:07,000 --> 00:20:09,959
Don't worry, you can forget
about those almost immediately.
378
00:20:09,960 --> 00:20:12,160
Well, ignore me. Sorry.
379
00:20:16,960 --> 00:20:20,959
? They wanna hear me scream
They wanna see me cry
380
00:20:20,960 --> 00:20:22,959
? They're mad
they're not about to
381
00:20:22,960 --> 00:20:24,960
? Look at me, I got so high... ?
382
00:20:25,960 --> 00:20:27,959
SHE SIGHS
383
00:20:27,960 --> 00:20:30,959
I know. Is that what
you were wearing before?
384
00:20:30,960 --> 00:20:33,959
She puked over it. Oh. Ugh.
385
00:20:33,960 --> 00:20:35,159
Take her.
386
00:20:35,160 --> 00:20:37,959
Catherine, I can't, my inbox
is... My mum is on her way.
387
00:20:37,960 --> 00:20:40,479
Please, please, Laura.
I-I'm up any minute.
388
00:20:40,480 --> 00:20:43,959
I will never give you a hard time
about a list ever, ever again.
389
00:20:43,960 --> 00:20:45,959
ELIS CRIES Ever?
390
00:20:45,960 --> 00:20:47,639
You're on the panel, aren't you?
391
00:20:47,640 --> 00:20:49,959
Can we talk about this
later? I'm just on my way in.
392
00:20:49,960 --> 00:20:51,959
Why would you do something so
stupid? I'm trying to help.
393
00:20:51,960 --> 00:20:54,639
I honestly don't think you've
got anything to worry about.
394
00:20:54,640 --> 00:20:57,319
It's the classic Swiss Cheese
model of accident causation.
395
00:20:57,320 --> 00:20:59,959
You know that "learning from
the no-blame culture" stuff
396
00:20:59,960 --> 00:21:00,959
is bollocks, don't you?
397
00:21:00,960 --> 00:21:03,959
No, I-I honestly think
it was systems failures.
398
00:21:03,960 --> 00:21:05,959
Right. Which system
in particular?
399
00:21:05,960 --> 00:21:07,959
The childcare system,
staff shortages,
400
00:21:07,960 --> 00:21:10,959
the public school system, austerity,
or just the patriarchy in general?
401
00:21:10,960 --> 00:21:12,959
Or are they gonna throw
someone under the bus?
402
00:21:12,960 --> 00:21:14,959
I'm not throwing
you under any buses.
403
00:21:14,960 --> 00:21:16,959
I need this to stop. I just
need all of this to stop.
404
00:21:16,960 --> 00:21:18,639
Maz, breathe.
405
00:21:18,640 --> 00:21:21,159
Come on, calm.
406
00:21:21,160 --> 00:21:23,960
Breathe. Miss MacDiarmid?
407
00:21:26,160 --> 00:21:27,959
I have to go. Please.
408
00:21:27,960 --> 00:21:30,959
Please take your
name off the panel.
409
00:21:30,960 --> 00:21:32,959
I can't, it's too late.
410
00:21:32,960 --> 00:21:34,959
I'm sorry, I've got to go.
411
00:21:34,960 --> 00:21:37,960
Can you call someone? Or
could you... could you wait?
412
00:21:38,960 --> 00:21:40,960
Maz?
413
00:22:29,960 --> 00:22:31,959
I need to report that my...
414
00:22:31,960 --> 00:22:34,320
consultant has been
drinking on call.
415
00:22:36,800 --> 00:22:38,959
Guy.
416
00:22:38,960 --> 00:22:41,640
Guy has been drinking on call.
417
00:22:46,480 --> 00:22:47,960
SCREAMING
418
00:22:50,960 --> 00:22:51,960
Bitch!
419
00:22:53,960 --> 00:22:55,959
HORN HONKS
420
00:22:55,960 --> 00:22:57,959
SIRENS
421
00:22:57,960 --> 00:23:01,960
BREATHING HEAVILY
422
00:23:07,960 --> 00:23:09,959
Is there anyone here
you haven't met?
423
00:23:09,960 --> 00:23:11,959
I think I got around to
everybody, just about.
424
00:23:11,960 --> 00:23:13,959
Even if briefly.
425
00:23:13,960 --> 00:23:15,959
I understand you had
a list this morning?
426
00:23:15,960 --> 00:23:19,479
Two appendixes, two hernias
and some gallstones.
427
00:23:19,480 --> 00:23:20,959
My pager is on, I'm afraid.
428
00:23:20,960 --> 00:23:23,639
ALL CHUCKLE Well, then,
we'd better get started.
429
00:23:23,640 --> 00:23:25,959
BABY CRYING
430
00:23:25,960 --> 00:23:28,999
So, how does your training
meet the needs of this post?
431
00:23:29,000 --> 00:23:32,479
I was lucky enough to
sub-specialise in trauma surgery
432
00:23:32,480 --> 00:23:34,959
in addition to my general
surgery pathway training,
433
00:23:34,960 --> 00:23:36,959
and I spent six months...
434
00:23:36,960 --> 00:23:38,960
BABY STOPS CRYING
435
00:23:40,960 --> 00:23:42,800
Miss MacDiarmid?
436
00:23:43,960 --> 00:23:46,159
I had the opportunity
to spend six months
437
00:23:46,160 --> 00:23:48,960
at a county hospital
in Oklahoma.
438
00:24:07,800 --> 00:24:11,799
I think it demonstrated not only
how keen my surgical instincts are,
439
00:24:11,800 --> 00:24:15,319
the procedure itself was executed
perfectly and saved the boy's life,
440
00:24:15,320 --> 00:24:17,959
but how well I react
to the unexpected.
441
00:24:17,960 --> 00:24:20,959
And most surgery is
clean, calm, controlled.
442
00:24:20,960 --> 00:24:23,959
When we're in charge, we
have time to prep, to plan.
443
00:24:23,960 --> 00:24:26,959
But the step up from
registrar to consultant is,
444
00:24:26,960 --> 00:24:30,959
in addition to surgical
competency, about management.
445
00:24:30,960 --> 00:24:32,959
Managing human beings,
446
00:24:32,960 --> 00:24:34,959
fighting for your patients
and your department.
447
00:24:34,960 --> 00:24:40,960
That can be a far less
controllable, much messier business.
448
00:24:42,960 --> 00:24:44,960
And one I'm
absolutely ready for.
449
00:24:46,960 --> 00:24:49,959
So, apart from the
clamshell thoracotomy,
450
00:24:49,960 --> 00:24:52,639
which we've heard
a lot about today,
451
00:24:52,640 --> 00:24:54,959
which experiences
outside of medicine
452
00:24:54,960 --> 00:24:57,959
have proved useful in
your surgical career?
453
00:24:57,960 --> 00:25:01,320
Like my hobbies?
SCATTERED CHUCKLING
454
00:25:03,960 --> 00:25:04,999
Oh.
455
00:25:05,000 --> 00:25:08,799
Oh, well, my academic record,
456
00:25:08,800 --> 00:25:11,960
and work ethic haven't
left much room for...
457
00:25:12,960 --> 00:25:14,320
..distractions.
458
00:25:16,320 --> 00:25:17,960
Nothing else in your life, then?
459
00:25:23,960 --> 00:25:25,959
WOMAN, MUFFLED: Can you tell
us about a serious complication
460
00:25:25,960 --> 00:25:27,000
and how you dealt with it?
461
00:25:29,960 --> 00:25:31,960
I'm sorry, would you mind
repeating the question?
462
00:25:32,960 --> 00:25:35,959
Can you tell us about
a serious complication
463
00:25:35,960 --> 00:25:36,959
and how you dealt with it?
464
00:25:36,960 --> 00:25:38,959
Yes.
465
00:25:38,960 --> 00:25:40,959
A few weeks ago, I delivered
a baby at 32 weeks,
466
00:25:40,960 --> 00:25:43,959
rather unexpectedly, after
a gall bladder removal.
467
00:25:43,960 --> 00:25:46,959
And was that a complication
or a coincidence?
468
00:25:46,960 --> 00:25:49,959
Did your procedure
actuate labour? No.
469
00:25:49,960 --> 00:25:52,959
Well... I don't know, the
causes of pre-term labour
470
00:25:52,960 --> 00:25:55,639
after abdominal surgery
are still largely unknown.
471
00:25:55,640 --> 00:25:57,800
I'm aware. Thank you.
472
00:25:58,960 --> 00:25:59,959
How's baby doing now?
473
00:25:59,960 --> 00:26:02,959
It was fine when I handed
it to the obstetrician.
474
00:26:02,960 --> 00:26:04,960
To the paediatrician, surely?
475
00:26:05,960 --> 00:26:07,959
Er, thank you,
Professor, you're right.
476
00:26:07,960 --> 00:26:11,959
That wasn't a clear case
of a complication, erm...
477
00:26:11,960 --> 00:26:13,799
Oh, last year, I had a...
478
00:26:13,800 --> 00:26:16,959
Nothing more recent?
No, because I was on...
479
00:26:16,960 --> 00:26:19,320
The pandemic's caused such
disruption to elective surgeries.
480
00:26:21,960 --> 00:26:22,960
Mm.
481
00:26:25,960 --> 00:26:27,960
A VTE in a 40-year-old male.
482
00:26:47,960 --> 00:26:49,959
Oh, can I get your help
with this referral?
483
00:26:49,960 --> 00:26:51,959
You'll have to ask
someone else, I'm afraid.
484
00:26:51,960 --> 00:26:53,960
Why, where are you going?
I've been suspended.
485
00:26:55,960 --> 00:26:59,960
I... What's happened?
Guy, what can I do?
486
00:27:02,000 --> 00:27:04,480
Was it because of us?
There is no "us", Louise.
487
00:27:05,960 --> 00:27:08,959
Did Helen find out?
488
00:27:08,960 --> 00:27:10,959
Guy... I told Helen almost
as soon as it happened
489
00:27:10,960 --> 00:27:12,960
because it was the biggest
mistake of my life.
490
00:27:14,320 --> 00:27:16,959
Just leave me alone.
491
00:27:16,960 --> 00:27:18,960
LIFT: Floor two.
492
00:27:20,960 --> 00:27:22,959
This lift is going down.
Well... What do I...
493
00:27:22,960 --> 00:27:24,959
What do I tell everyone
about where you are?
494
00:27:24,960 --> 00:27:27,960
Doors closing. Guy?
495
00:27:43,960 --> 00:27:45,800
Doors opening.
496
00:27:57,320 --> 00:28:00,960
And, yeah, the
sides. Missed a bit.
497
00:28:04,960 --> 00:28:06,999
Those lucky pants
did the trick, then?
498
00:28:07,000 --> 00:28:09,959
PHONE RINGS
499
00:28:09,960 --> 00:28:11,479
Sorry.
500
00:28:11,480 --> 00:28:14,959
Babes, it's done.
No, it's all out.
501
00:28:14,960 --> 00:28:16,800
It's like nothing ever happened.
502
00:28:17,960 --> 00:28:20,959
I had the most amazing surgeon.
503
00:28:20,960 --> 00:28:22,960
Yes!
504
00:28:24,480 --> 00:28:28,959
HELEN: "With zigzag lightning,
flashing and frightening,
505
00:28:28,960 --> 00:28:32,960
"the tiny snail on the
tail of the whale...
506
00:28:34,960 --> 00:28:38,960
"and she gazed at the
sky, the sea, the land...
507
00:28:41,320 --> 00:28:45,960
"the waves and the caves
and the golden sand.
508
00:28:52,960 --> 00:28:56,959
"She gazed and gazed,
amazed by it all,
509
00:28:56,960 --> 00:28:59,960
"and she said to the whale...
510
00:29:01,480 --> 00:29:04,160
"I feel so small."
511
00:29:17,960 --> 00:29:20,959
This is Dr Maryam Afridi on CAU.
I was just following up on a baby
512
00:29:20,960 --> 00:29:24,959
I treated in the delivery
suite last night, baby Kalpar.
513
00:29:24,960 --> 00:29:27,200
Could someone check the latest
NAS scores for me, please?
514
00:29:28,960 --> 00:29:31,960
She's scoring fives
and sixes. So far.
515
00:29:33,000 --> 00:29:34,960
Er, no. That's OK, thanks.
516
00:29:36,160 --> 00:29:37,960
Thank you.
517
00:29:39,320 --> 00:29:41,959
So, are they going to give
her a big whack of morphine?
518
00:29:41,960 --> 00:29:43,959
It's a rough start.
519
00:29:43,960 --> 00:29:45,959
Listen, erm, Simon,
about last night...
520
00:29:45,960 --> 00:29:47,160
I'm not gonna say anything.
521
00:29:50,000 --> 00:29:52,960
I think... I think you need to.
522
00:30:05,160 --> 00:30:07,960
Shh, shh, shh...
BABY WAILS, COUGHS
523
00:30:10,960 --> 00:30:13,639
She was making this horrible
noise when she breathed in.
524
00:30:13,640 --> 00:30:15,959
God, I don't know what to do.
525
00:30:15,960 --> 00:30:19,959
All the germs on the plane.
Or a protest at going away.
526
00:30:19,960 --> 00:30:22,960
How is making me feel guilty
a useful thing right now?
527
00:30:26,000 --> 00:30:28,160
What's her temperature? 39.2.
528
00:30:29,160 --> 00:30:31,639
Is that wheezing her
struggling to breathe?
529
00:30:31,640 --> 00:30:32,960
Like that, listen.
530
00:30:34,960 --> 00:30:36,159
Shit, we need to
take her to A&E.
531
00:30:36,160 --> 00:30:38,959
No, no, stay calm. Come
on, let her calm down.
532
00:30:38,960 --> 00:30:41,959
Shh, shh, shh...
533
00:30:41,960 --> 00:30:46,959
CATHERINE MURMURS,
BABY ATTEMPTS TO COUGH
534
00:30:46,960 --> 00:30:48,480
That's croup.
535
00:30:49,480 --> 00:30:50,959
Isn't that a card game?
536
00:30:50,960 --> 00:30:53,959
It's a respiratory
infection, you had it.
537
00:30:53,960 --> 00:30:56,959
Look, go and stand outside with
her, get her some cool air.
538
00:30:56,960 --> 00:30:58,959
I'll get some steam
going in the bathroom.
539
00:30:58,960 --> 00:31:00,959
BABY CRIES
540
00:31:00,960 --> 00:31:02,479
I think we should call 111.
541
00:31:02,480 --> 00:31:04,959
If you like, but describe
that cough to them.
542
00:31:04,960 --> 00:31:06,959
Go and stand on the
doorstep with her.
543
00:31:06,960 --> 00:31:09,800
OK, I'm going. We are going.
544
00:31:45,960 --> 00:31:47,800
Don't wait up.
545
00:31:49,960 --> 00:31:51,959
We can talk in the morning
when you've sobered up.
546
00:31:51,960 --> 00:31:52,959
I'm gonna be in the guest room.
547
00:31:52,960 --> 00:31:55,959
I told them where to stick it.
548
00:31:55,960 --> 00:31:58,959
Yeah. Yeah, no, I heard.
549
00:31:58,960 --> 00:32:01,960
You must be feeling very
pleased with yourself.
550
00:32:02,960 --> 00:32:04,960
My sister died.
551
00:32:05,960 --> 00:32:08,639
St Harry's called me
at work to tell me,
552
00:32:08,640 --> 00:32:09,959
and I couldn't go
and be with her
553
00:32:09,960 --> 00:32:12,960
because you weren't fit to
come in and cover for me.
554
00:32:16,960 --> 00:32:18,959
How does Jack know? What?
555
00:32:18,960 --> 00:32:19,959
Jack.
556
00:32:19,960 --> 00:32:22,960
He said he was
sorry for my loss.
557
00:32:26,960 --> 00:32:28,959
Jack drove me to St
Harry's in the morning.
558
00:32:28,960 --> 00:32:31,960
And then I went back to
his place and I fucked him.
559
00:32:34,960 --> 00:32:36,960
Now you know how it feels.
560
00:32:46,960 --> 00:32:49,640
ALARM RINGING
561
00:33:00,960 --> 00:33:04,959
Five-week-old came in 30 minutes
ago in respiratory distress.
562
00:33:04,960 --> 00:33:06,959
Resps are 81, oxygen is 90...
563
00:33:06,960 --> 00:33:09,640
VOICE FADES: intercostal
and subcostal recession.
564
00:33:12,160 --> 00:33:13,959
Baby's tiring.
565
00:33:13,960 --> 00:33:16,160
Put out a RESUS call.
But you're here.
566
00:33:19,960 --> 00:33:22,959
Erm, so your baby is going
to need some help breathing,
567
00:33:22,960 --> 00:33:24,959
she's not getting enough oxygen.
568
00:33:24,960 --> 00:33:27,160
VOICE FADES
569
00:33:32,480 --> 00:33:34,959
Don't worry, she's
in safe hands.
570
00:33:34,960 --> 00:33:36,960
Dr Afridi?
571
00:33:42,960 --> 00:33:45,960
ALARM BLARES
572
00:33:47,960 --> 00:33:48,960
Shit.
573
00:33:59,960 --> 00:34:01,959
I need you to look at this
baby, I don't know what's wrong.
574
00:34:01,960 --> 00:34:03,479
What do you mean?
I can't do it.
575
00:34:03,480 --> 00:34:05,960
Please, you have to come.
OK. I'll call you back.
576
00:34:10,960 --> 00:34:12,959
What's wrong with
this baby, Maryam?
577
00:34:12,960 --> 00:34:14,959
Five-week-old in
respiratory distress.
578
00:34:14,960 --> 00:34:17,959
RSV. Bronchiolitis.
She needs intubating.
579
00:34:17,960 --> 00:34:20,320
No, it's OK. We've got this.
580
00:34:22,960 --> 00:34:25,960
We just need to help
your baby to breathe, OK?
581
00:34:26,960 --> 00:34:29,960
PICU been called? Yes.
582
00:34:36,960 --> 00:34:38,960
Colour change on the capnograph.
583
00:34:40,960 --> 00:34:41,960
Anaesthetist is here.
584
00:34:43,960 --> 00:34:46,959
That's much better.
Simon, stay with her.
585
00:34:46,960 --> 00:34:49,959
Right, call me if oxygen
levels don't keep rising
586
00:34:49,960 --> 00:34:52,799
and when PICU get
here. Good job.
587
00:34:52,800 --> 00:34:54,640
You'd better come with me.
588
00:34:58,160 --> 00:35:00,959
I knew what that baby needed
and I knew how to do it.
589
00:35:00,960 --> 00:35:02,959
It was just like my body wouldn't
let me go through with it.
590
00:35:02,960 --> 00:35:05,960
And what do you think
your body's telling you?
591
00:35:07,960 --> 00:35:10,960
That if I treat another child
and it dies, I won't survive it.
592
00:35:13,320 --> 00:35:14,960
So how do you feel now?
593
00:35:15,960 --> 00:35:17,959
Stupid.
594
00:35:17,960 --> 00:35:18,960
Ashamed.
595
00:35:20,960 --> 00:35:21,960
Scared.
596
00:35:23,960 --> 00:35:25,959
I had a panic attack
in the toilets
597
00:35:25,960 --> 00:35:28,319
when I came back from the
labour ward last night.
598
00:35:28,320 --> 00:35:30,960
And is that the first one of those
you've had since you got back?
599
00:35:37,960 --> 00:35:41,959
When Sami arrived with
us... I stopped sleeping.
600
00:35:41,960 --> 00:35:44,959
When he slept, I had to
keep watching him breathing
601
00:35:44,960 --> 00:35:46,640
cos I was so scared
he was gonna die.
602
00:35:48,960 --> 00:35:54,960
And then I was pregnant again,
just waiting to miscarry again.
603
00:35:56,960 --> 00:35:58,959
And then when Xavi was born,
604
00:35:58,960 --> 00:36:00,479
it took them a minute
to get him to breathe
605
00:36:00,480 --> 00:36:03,960
and I thought, "Oh, THIS
is how we lose him."
606
00:36:05,960 --> 00:36:09,000
And then the whole vigil
thing all over again with him.
607
00:36:11,960 --> 00:36:14,799
It's like I'm just
waiting for it.
608
00:36:14,800 --> 00:36:17,960
I'm seeing all the ways they
might die play out in here.
609
00:36:19,960 --> 00:36:21,960
And how do you feel
about the future?
610
00:36:24,960 --> 00:36:25,960
Just this dread.
611
00:36:29,160 --> 00:36:30,959
This isn't you, Maryam.
612
00:36:30,960 --> 00:36:33,800
You're not well. Please
don't sign me off.
613
00:36:34,960 --> 00:36:36,960
Not until the
investigation concludes.
614
00:36:38,960 --> 00:36:41,959
Let me go in there a doctor.
615
00:36:41,960 --> 00:36:43,960
Please, Susan.
616
00:36:52,960 --> 00:36:55,800
PHONE RINGS
617
00:37:02,960 --> 00:37:05,960
Hi. JACK: 'Hi. I've
just had an offer.'
618
00:37:09,960 --> 00:37:11,959
Congratulations, Jack.
619
00:37:11,960 --> 00:37:14,959
'I didn't wanna spend the day
at work pretending to you.'
620
00:37:14,960 --> 00:37:18,959
I'm delighted for you,
really. 'I'll see you there.'
621
00:37:18,960 --> 00:37:20,960
Yeah. OK. Bye.
622
00:37:26,960 --> 00:37:28,160
Bastards.
623
00:37:30,960 --> 00:37:32,480
Yeah.
624
00:37:37,960 --> 00:37:39,960
What am I gonna do now, Mum?
625
00:37:56,960 --> 00:37:58,960
Jesus!
626
00:38:01,320 --> 00:38:04,960
I'm... I'm just taking the kids
to school and, er, nursery.
627
00:38:05,960 --> 00:38:06,960
Guy?
628
00:38:08,960 --> 00:38:10,479
Daddy? Yeah, he's fine, honey.
629
00:38:10,480 --> 00:38:12,959
We're gonna go to
school now, darling.
630
00:38:12,960 --> 00:38:13,959
We're gonna go to school, OK?
631
00:38:13,960 --> 00:38:15,999
Daddy's just a bit tired,
everything's all right.
632
00:38:16,000 --> 00:38:18,959
Mummy, we haven't had breakfast.
Yeah, I know. We can go to a cafe!
633
00:38:18,960 --> 00:38:19,999
Shall we do that?
634
00:38:20,000 --> 00:38:22,639
That'd be an adventure,
won't it? Come on, you two.
635
00:38:22,640 --> 00:38:24,999
Out you come. Yay
for adventures...
636
00:38:25,000 --> 00:38:28,960
Come on. Good boy. Out you go.
637
00:38:49,640 --> 00:38:51,999
It's just my childcare is
like three-dimensional chess
638
00:38:52,000 --> 00:38:55,959
so a rota sneak preview
would be much appreciated.
639
00:38:55,960 --> 00:38:58,800
I'm kind of your line
manager. Good luck with that.
640
00:39:00,000 --> 00:39:01,960
Thanks.
641
00:39:05,960 --> 00:39:07,959
Have you spoken to
Helen, by the way?
642
00:39:07,960 --> 00:39:10,959
Cavendish? No. Should I have?
Maybe just check in with her.
643
00:39:10,960 --> 00:39:13,000
Off to get my terms and
conditions in writing.
644
00:39:18,960 --> 00:39:21,320
Thank you. Thank YOU.
645
00:39:28,640 --> 00:39:31,640
PHONE RINGS, VIBRATES
646
00:39:34,640 --> 00:39:36,639
Dr Maryam Afridi?
647
00:39:36,640 --> 00:39:39,799
'This is Clare from the adoption
team at social services.
648
00:39:39,800 --> 00:39:41,959
'We have an update
on Sami's sister.
649
00:39:41,960 --> 00:39:44,959
'She was born very prematurely
the night before last.
650
00:39:44,960 --> 00:39:47,959
'She's currently in the
Neonatal Intensive Care Unit
651
00:39:47,960 --> 00:39:48,959
'at City General.'
652
00:39:48,960 --> 00:39:50,960
Don't take her away!
653
00:39:51,960 --> 00:39:56,799
'So we're gonna need to know
what it is you want to do.
654
00:39:56,800 --> 00:39:57,960
'Dr Afridi?
655
00:39:59,960 --> 00:40:01,960
'Dr Afridi, are you there?'
656
00:40:16,960 --> 00:40:20,960
I'm, erm, sorry
about last night.
657
00:40:22,960 --> 00:40:27,640
I didn't mean to tell you
about Debbie or Jack like that.
658
00:40:34,960 --> 00:40:36,040
What did Marco say exactly?
659
00:40:38,960 --> 00:40:43,160
Are you suspended... or
taking some time or...?
660
00:40:49,480 --> 00:40:52,000
I think you need to talk to someone
about how you got here, Guy.
661
00:40:53,960 --> 00:40:55,960
They're offering to help you.
662
00:40:56,960 --> 00:40:58,960
Just take the help.
663
00:41:00,960 --> 00:41:02,960
Please.
664
00:41:10,320 --> 00:41:11,960
I'm done.
665
00:41:34,960 --> 00:41:37,959
Er... Clare just called again.
666
00:41:37,960 --> 00:41:39,960
Just... let me
get through today.
667
00:41:45,960 --> 00:41:47,639
Are you sure you don't
want me to come with you?
668
00:41:47,640 --> 00:41:48,960
I'll be fine.
669
00:42:06,960 --> 00:42:08,960
Come on. Quick as you can!
670
00:42:10,960 --> 00:42:13,960
Hey, just, just be quiet, guys.
Daddy must still be sleeping.
671
00:42:14,960 --> 00:42:18,959
Shh, shh, shh. You two,
just be quiet. Good boy.
672
00:42:18,960 --> 00:42:20,640
Come on. Out we go.
673
00:42:25,960 --> 00:42:29,960
Grab your bag, we're late!
Come on. Quick! Quick! Quick!
674
00:42:30,960 --> 00:42:33,959
Mummy, it's swimming today!
Well, you can't... Well...
675
00:42:33,960 --> 00:42:36,959
I'm sorry, darling, we
haven't got your swimming kit.
676
00:42:36,960 --> 00:42:38,959
Please, Mummy, please
go home and get it!
677
00:42:38,960 --> 00:42:41,959
I can't spend the whole day
just chasing after you, Maggie!
678
00:42:41,960 --> 00:42:44,959
Mummy, I can't go if I don't
have it! Please, Mummy!
679
00:42:44,960 --> 00:42:46,959
OK, Maggie. Stop!
Do not shout at me!
680
00:42:46,960 --> 00:42:48,319
I will drop it off at reception.
681
00:42:48,320 --> 00:42:49,959
Now in you go.
Thank you, Mummy.
682
00:42:49,960 --> 00:42:53,160
Love you. Love you, too.
683
00:42:54,960 --> 00:42:56,000
? For me and for you
684
00:42:57,960 --> 00:43:01,959
? They used to envy you and
us I hate what we've become
685
00:43:01,960 --> 00:43:05,799
? Running round in circles
Till no air is in my lungs... ?
686
00:43:05,800 --> 00:43:06,959
PHONE RINGS
687
00:43:06,960 --> 00:43:09,959
'This is Dr Guy Cavendish,
please leave a message.'
688
00:43:09,960 --> 00:43:12,319
? All this time
I'm fighting... ?
689
00:43:12,320 --> 00:43:13,959
PHONE RINGS
690
00:43:13,960 --> 00:43:16,959
? Lately, I've been tied up
Lately, I've been lying... ?
691
00:43:16,960 --> 00:43:20,959
PHONE RINGS
692
00:43:20,960 --> 00:43:23,959
? Lately, I've been useless
Lately, I've been loose
693
00:43:23,960 --> 00:43:26,959
? Lately, I'm pushing through
694
00:43:26,960 --> 00:43:29,959
? I'll hold my hand tonight
695
00:43:29,960 --> 00:43:33,960
? If I have to... ?
696
00:43:39,320 --> 00:43:40,959
Guy?
697
00:43:40,960 --> 00:43:42,999
? Lately, I've been tied up... ?
698
00:43:43,000 --> 00:43:45,959
Guy?
699
00:43:45,960 --> 00:43:47,959
? Lately, I've been thinking About
the ways to shake my life... ?
700
00:43:47,960 --> 00:43:50,959
No... No, no... Guy? Guy?
701
00:43:50,960 --> 00:43:51,959
Guy, can you hear me?
702
00:43:51,960 --> 00:43:54,959
? Lately, I'm
pushing through... ?
703
00:43:54,960 --> 00:43:56,959
Fuck, fuck, fuck!
704
00:43:56,960 --> 00:43:57,959
? I'll hold my hand tonight... ?
705
00:43:57,960 --> 00:44:02,959
Fuck! PHONE RINGING
706
00:44:02,960 --> 00:44:05,959
? I'll only pay the price
707
00:44:05,960 --> 00:44:08,959
? When I'm with you... ?
708
00:44:08,960 --> 00:44:10,959
Please, please, please...
709
00:44:10,960 --> 00:44:14,960
PHONE CONTINUES TO RING
710
00:44:17,160 --> 00:44:21,959
? Oh-oh-oh, lately... ?
711
00:44:21,960 --> 00:44:23,960
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