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All of my emotional energy, all of my...

everything energy is spent keeping those three children healthy

and happy, and, er, the house running something just above chaos,

and... now I'm back at work again.

I'm exhausted. And...

..I don't know what he expects from me.

Just to lie back and let him get on with it for seven minutes?

I mean, even that, I literally, I...

I don't have time to go to the toilet.

I'm not joking. You should see my piles that...

Irritated.

Just... angry.

We're both just angry all the time.

I don't know, do you want me to say mindfulness?

Er, here... You need to have to sign this also.

What's this one? This is the, er...

paternity document to give her Swedish citizenship.

This is in Swedish. Yep.

OK, er, here? Yeah.

WOMEN CHATTER

GIGGLING

OK. Thank you.

Er, ladies, we are going to the playground.

Mm.

You too.

CHATTER, BABY WHINES

Apparently, it would cost a £150 a month

to put Elis into day care full-time in Sweden.

That's very good money.

I told Brigitta you said you were paying £1,300 a month here,

but you're probably exaggerating. I'm not.

How are you affording all that? SHE SCOFFS

You really had better get that consultant job.

Brigitta said Elis was going there next time?

They can't keep coming here. They've got their girls to look after.

It does sound like the most marvellous place to raise children.

Well, that's great cos she's about to become a Swedish citizen.

You have had these checked by a lawyer?

It's a print-out from the internet, Mum, it's not an abduction order.

Is it?

What, you haven't spoken to a solicitor

about this arrangement at all?

We're all grown-ups. We're all doing what's best for Elis.

You too. Bye.

You can see how much Elis loves her.

She's very charming, isn't she?

Delightful (!)

Hi, we've got an appointment with Clare?

Can you just sign in?

Yeah, course, er...

How do you mean?

We're not buying car insurance.

To what?

Do you need to deal with that so you can be here?

Just...

DIAL TONE RINGS

Raza and Maryam Farooqi?

All right? Yeah, good. Nice to see you again.

Morning, Tess. What you got for me?

Any medical history?

And any significant alcohol history?

Well, I'm sure the mother of that newborn is delighted

with everyone's choices (!) HELEN INHALES

Good morning, Mr Massie.

My name's Dr Cavendish. How are you feeling?

Yeah, much better. I can catch my breath now.

And is there anything you can think of

that might have brought on these symptoms?

Well, I won't lie to you, doctor, I had a big night.

Right. I was expecting a hangover, but...

this wasn't right.

I've had to call in sick. What is it you do for work?

Haulage. HGV driver.

Oh, OK, and what... What's a... What's a big night for you?

Pints? Mm. How many?

HE LAUGHS

Well, I reckon... PHONE RINGS

Erm, it was a session, you know that. Ha, right.

I lost count after five. Some shots as well.

Erm, and is that normal for you?

Do... do you need to...?

I'm sorry. I do, actually. That's fine.

I'll just be two minutes. That's fine.

HELEN CLEARS THROAT Dr Cavendish.

Yes. It's... it's Maggie's mum.

Right.

Can you check it again in ten minutes?

No, OK, yeah.

No, understood.

As soon as possible?

Yep. OK, thanks.

SHE SIGHS

So, where were we?

A gallbladder removal.

Thank you, Jack.

Oh, God, I have missed the buzz of a proper challenge.

The interviews aren't for weeks.

The mother's circumstances haven't changed since we removed Sami.

It's a sad situation.

I can't tell you how delighted we are

that you're keen to welcome this baby into your family.

Well, we do have some questions. Well, of course.

What are they?

Oh, well, erm, well, the extended family are still...

Oh, their circumstances and attitude regarding adoption remain unchanged.

So it's us, or she goes into care?

Or another... I mean, we're not the only family.

Demand does outstrip supply,

especially with your cultural heritage.

And, of course, we do prioritise placing siblings together.

How is Sami?

Oh, he's great. Fine, yeah, fine.

Everyone seems happy with his development.

Yeah, really happy, yeah.

He still is only two. There's lots we don't know.

But so far, totally normal.

Yeah, I spend my days looking at him thinking,

"Do you have ADHD, or are you just two?"

Hard to take off the doctor's hat, I expect.

Yeah, it can be.

Well, I'm sure he'll be excited about being a big brother.

Oh, he's already a big brother. Yeah, we had a baby. Another baby.

Yeah, pregnant during the pandemic.

Of course, congratulations!

I miscarried, had six...

W-Well, we didn't think I could carry to full term.

We'd need to do a suitability assessment again.

Any changes in your health since last time?

Sleep deprivation.

Oh, yeah. I'm really not good on no sleep.

I mean, there's a reason why they use it as a torture technique.

I mean, is it postnatal depression,

or is it a rational response to physical and emotional trauma?

What kind of support do you have, you know, nearby?

Ah, the grandparents have been amazing.

When they've not had to isolate.

It's given us real, quality time with the boys.

Well, you were at work.

Maryam's back at work also, so...

How do you feel you're coping?

VOICEMAIL:

Hi. It's me, where are you?

You don't start teaching till half past.

Could you give me a call when you get this, please?

SHE SIGHS

Have you seen Guy?

Is he not teaching?

I've gotta go and get Maggie.

You're in the middle of a shift.

I'm aware of that. I'll be half an hour, page me if you need me.

Er, I don't know.

Bring her here?

I can't ask you to do that. Besides, you've been here all night.

Thank you.

Is there something else you can give me for the pain? Sorry.

I guess it's good preparation for labour.

Ah-ha, don't worry, this is far easier than giving birth.

Work busy?

Oh, is... Is it a problem with the machines, or...?

Oh, no, no, you carry on.

Just dreading what the inbox is gonna look like

after six weeks of maternity leave.

And what do you do?

Erm, I am a solicitor, big family law firm.

What was that? Things haven't been great, we shouldn't be lying.

That felt like sabotage. I said no decisions today,

and you're all like, "Is it us or care"?

What do you think's gonna happen? I cannot take responsibility!

Who will? What about the next ten babies she has removed?

Are we gonna adopt them all?

How long have you been looking at Sami

wondering what's wrong with him?

Do you know, what I wouldn't give for your ignorance

of what might be in store for Sami and that baby.

"That baby"? What?

With Sami, we always said, OUR baby.

Oh...

I'm gonna be late for work.

You're still well enough for work, then? Yes, I am!

That's great, yeah. Well, get...

Can you get in the car? Where are you going?

I'm teaching... in a hour!

Fuck!

SHE HUFFS

SHE SIGHS

Page cardiology, OK? I'll call you back.

Hello.

You seem absolutely fine.

Was she jumping about when you took it?

Could she not be in isolation here, in the sick bay?

I'm working, and I don't have any childcare so...

He's also working, we're doctors.

In a hospital.

For the NHS.

SHE RETCHES

Sorry, Mummy.

So, the paternity document gives him rights to equal custody

and to apply for full custody.

Don't worry, the bias is still in favour of the mother, everywhere.

They'd have to prove your daughter

was significantly better off with them.

I would advise drafting something to ensure that all parties

are working towards the same understanding of shared custody.

You do need a clear framework

otherwise their understanding might be

"Elis goes to school in Sweden."

Well, the framework can be whatever you want.

Why don't you give me a call tomorrow?

Neither did you when I said I was going back to work after six weeks.

PHONE BUZZES Oh. I've gotta get this.

Oh, er, just a sec, Tom.

Will I have a horrible scar to add to the stretch marks?

Oh.

Are you Steve?

Some people find Maz easier.

Erm, did you want to get a coffee...

Yeah. OK. I'll just leave...

I spy with my little eye

something beginning with O.

OK, er, orange?

There's no oranges around here.

Shall I explain how this works again, Tessa?

MUSIC: 'Tearz' by El Michels Affair

Yes.

I tried to hold back my tears

I tried to hold back my sorrow

I wonder if I can hold it Till tomorrow...

Ow! Shit.

After the laughter comes tears.

No.

I think that's an ophthalmoscope.

Ophthalmoscope. No.

Oximeter. No.

No.

Mummy! Something beginning with O.

Yes!

Could I speak to the parents?

I... I just want to tell them how sorry I am.

How?

But when will the panel make a decision on culpability?

And Edward.

Well, when will they make their recommendations, then?

So, I just, what, carry on?

What makes you think I'm not assertive?

You know, is there a course for arrogant pricks

who can't take instructions from a woman?

I'm due on the ward in three minutes.

No, thank you.

I'm doing this one.

Keep the CO2 pressure low.

MUSIC: 'Shine' by Cleo Sol

That should do it, thank you.

And cherish the sunshine Leave everything behind

And run away so far together

Together

A lot of pain in those eyes

Please, don't lose your light

Shine, shine your light, yeah

This world was made for you

So do what you have to do

I wanna see you shine Shine your light...

Oh, that's good.

Thank you.

This world was made for you

So do what you have to do...

That is the uterus,

in case they're no longer bothering to teach female anatomy,

and we want to stay well out of its way.

I'm moving the liver, so we can retract the gallbladder.

Make sure you can see both the cystic artery

and cystic duct clearly. Three clips to the artery.

Now, cut.

Now, I'm gonna peel the gallbladder off the liver.

This can be tricky when it's inflamed like this

because you don't want to injure the liver and make it bleed.

Shine, shine your light, yeah

This world was made for you...

Bag for the gall bladder going in.

Shine, shine your light...

Yeah, the world was made for you

So do what you have to do.

When you're all grown up,

you'll appreciate how brilliant that was.

Yeah. Absolutely. Can I take Jakub?

Dr Fisher says I have to come with you.

MAZ SPEAKS UKRAINIAN

Dr Maz is back!

This is Jakub, his sister Zoya, and mum, Katarina.

This is Dr Simon Segman.

Jakub is one of our frequent fliers.

Yeah, the in-flight entertainment's crap.

Is it OK if Simon has a listen to your chest, please?

Oh, congratulations!

Yeah, it's no fun.

SHE SPEAKS UKRAINIAN

I am here.

Well, I... I had COVID.

I was in ITU for two weeks. I was lucky to get out alive.

understand what I'm saying.

Yeah, ITU was hilarious.

SHE SPEAKS UKRAINIAN

There's some fine crackles, bilaterally.

JAKUB COUGHS OK, so, Jakub,

your most recent lung function tests,

which were taken after your COVID infection,

show that your lung function has deteriorated significantly.

SHE SPEAKS UKRAINIAN

Another chest infection isn't good news.

SHE SPEAKS UKRAINIAN

Do you mind if I have a listen too?

Deep breath for me.

MAZ SPEAKS UKRAINIAN

OK. SHE SPEAKS UKRAINIAN

THEY SPEAK UKRAINIAN TO EACH OTHER

We'll touch base with his respiratory team

at St Harry's and let them know you're here.

I'm going to admit you, Jakub,

they'll take you up to the Rainbow Ward

as soon as there's a side room free.

Have they fixed the Wi-Fi?

I doubt it.

Yeah, I told you I needed to download stuff before we came,

now I'm gonna be stuck up there with a load of toddlers,

hanging out a window for 3G.

Er, I've got loads of data left on my mobile...

..if you want to download something.

How can you speak Ukrainian?

So I can speak to Jakub's family.

I can only say a few things,

I've been seeing them since I was your age.

Long time, then. Can you read your notes back to me, please.

Yeah, I'm going to get him an urgent CXR,

bloods to include WCC,

neutrophils, CRP and blood cultures and to get a sputum MC+S urgently.

You're going to contact his respiratory consultant

at St Harry's to discuss antibiotics.

I'm going to prescribe his regular medication on the charts

and let the physio know that he is here.

How much longer are you gonna make me do this?

How much longer are you going to be with us?

Maryam, did you know that Raz is here

and he has a young lad with him?

Clare!

Where have you been? Have you got my messages?

Oh yeah, cos it's fine for me

to compromise my professional relationships

with childcare favours.

Can you speak to bed two about his heart failure,

so I can go make some calls?

Yeah, I'd say so.

No. No, we're double dating, aren't we?

With that guy that you never have time to play tennis with.

Catherine.

Yes. What?

Yeah, I'm not sure that we're best placed

to judge other people's romantic choices, though, are we?

YAWNING

This isn't fair, you need to go home, Tessa.

I'll sort it. Thank you.

No, she's the rescue centre

and I'm the person with the emergency.

Do you want to play?

Oh, I can't sweetheart, sorry. Trying to work.

She is the prettiest lady I have ever seen.

DIAL TONE

Hi, Callum, it's Helen.

Yeah. Aunty Helen.

I know this is a bit out of the blue,

but are you free today to look after your cousin?

My stomach hurts.

I need to poo.

Oh, my tummy hurts.

GROANING

GROANING CONTINUES

Sarah? Sarah, you're having your baby.

It's crowning. When was the last time you did this?

Excellent. SARAH GROANING

Sarah, Sarah, Sarah, stop pushing. Stop pushing.

Slow down for me. That's it. Call the neonatal crash team.

SARAH PANTING

MACHINES BEEPING

OK, another one coming. OK.

Keep pushing, push. That's it. Keep... Keep pushing.

Where's the crash team?

That's it. OK, push.

SARAH STRAINING That's it. OK, keep pushing.

Nearly here... Oh...

Here it comes. Oh...

Great work. Ah!

SARAH STRAINS

Oh! Hello. Wow!

Oh...

Have we got anything to clamp the cord with?

MACHINES BEEPING

Where is the crash team?! Come on. Come on, baby.

CHATTER

SHE EXHALES

Shit! I didn't deliver the placenta.

I should go home and see the kids.

I hear you, Doc, I do. Can I get home and see 'em now?

I don't need none of that. I'm not an alcoholic, for God's sake.

Give me some pills, and I'll... I'll calm it down a bit.

Yeah.

Key worker, like yourself.

W...

Well, they'll take away me licence. I won't be able to work.

I don't have an issue with alcohol!

Take your shoes off. And wash your hands.

Take your shoes off, Maggie!

Er, so, she's fine to go and watch TV in the...

in the den,

and if she falls asleep, that's... that's fine.

Now, in the... There's pizza in the freezer,

and the, er, babysitter's gonna drop the other two off about six.

You OK?

Oh, I know. Sorry, it's a... it's a bit of a mess.

The, erm, the pizza is..

Er, yeah. It's a bit...

out of tune, but...

Er, yeah, maybe, erm... don't touch...

HE PLAYS: 'Early One Morning'

No, no. Guy used to.

It's a family thing, the piano. It's been in his family for years.

Yeah, his, erm...

His dad is the second son of, um, an earl. So he's...

he's not gonna get an inheritance, but yeah.

A bit like Downton Abbey.

SHE CHUCKLES How is she getting on?

SOFTLY: No. Erm...

This is, er...

Thank you.

It's fine, honestly. I really appreciate it.

It was short notice. So...

Oh, yeah.

I just need to grab a change of clothes.

Yeah.

Hiya.

Were you playing the piano?

Please, Mummy? Yeah, go on.

What's a half-pint?

HE PLAYS NOTES

So I'm like, "That's not on", and I just punched the greenhouse.

Well, Jayden, I would say that the greenhouse won.

Nah, Miss, it's fucked.

In't it, Sir?

We need to wait for surgery,

to see if there's any damage to the tendons.

Simon, can you ask a nurse to show you

how to steri-strip the shallower cuts there?

And do you want us to take a look at those for you?

It's long waits in A&E.

Not if they're sutured properly.

There you go, Simon. You need some extra practice.

Are you sure?

I-I'd give it a good go.

Mr Massie is about to give himself a heart attack.

He said you're calling the DVLA?

We haven't even got a treatment plan in place for him yet.

Give him a chance!

Are you all right?

All right.

If he's gonna change, he needs to take responsibility,

and he can't do that if you take it for him.

Maggie's fine, by the way. I left her with Callum.

Yes.

Debbie's son.

My nephew.

HE SCOFFS

Do you think he's hearing voices?

I'll refer him.

Have the family tried a charity...

You're right.

That wait time is unacceptable.

What I can do is treat his hand and follow up with CAMHS.

It isn't. That's all I can do.

What is more beautiful Tonight...

SHE BREATHES HEAVILY

And bluer than the sky

I had to climb...

SHE VOMITS

COUGHING, RETCHING

Higher and higher

Until I fall, until I fall...

Have you always known you were gay?

Well, when did you tell your mum?

Do you think my mum knows?

HE LAUGHS

LAUGHING TURNS TO COUGHING

Am I going to get better?

Right. Right.

It's been so bad since COVID.

And I'm used to chest infections, but this is...

Until I fall, until I fall...

When I was pregnant, the only thing that touched the sides

of my morning sickness was ginger biscuits.

I still have some in my locker, if you want them.

Why does that stop you from having a Ginger Nut?

I mean, they're probably out of date.

SHE LAUGHS

SHE EXHALES

Are you alone now?

Be kind to yourself.

Are you...

Are you alone now?

RECORDED VOICE: 'Floor two.'

Guy. Helen.

You look lovely. Oh, thanks.

She told me she had a date this evening. Yeah.

It's a double date.

Right.

'Ground floor.

'Doors opening.' Have a great night.

Thanks.

SHE SIGHS

BABY CRYING

It could have been the pressure on the uterus from the operation,

or the dip in adrenaline once it was all over. Or, yes,

your infected gallbladder might have been such a threat,

it made you deliver early to focus on saving yourself.

It's not your fault either.

Elis's birth was awful.

I haemorrhaged so badly I was in a coma for two days.

Almost died giving birth to her.

Perhaps that was my body's way of telling me

I'm not cut out to be a mother.

And now I love her so much, I worry that might kill me.

I think he's a twat.

I thought you were just getting a glass.

They might want white.

Zoya?

Are you still volunteering at the children's charity?

Yeah, we're swamped. Why?

Is there a process for referrals for counselling?

I wouldn't usually, but can I ask you for special treatment?

Of course.

Sorry. No, it's all right.

Crazy day. Hi.

Hi. Hi.

Hello, I'm... Hello again.

Catherine.

It's Matt.

I knew that. Anaesthetist Matt.

What, you two already know each other?

Well, just from around... I saved Matt from killing someone

by intubating too early. And Catherine, er..

I think offered to sleep with me if I stayed to do an operation.

I think I offered the father of my child

to pick up your dog, actually. Well... that time.

Hell, yes!

Ooh, thank you.

Absolutely! Cheers to that!

Cheers! ALL LAUGH AND TOAST

Oh, God!

Sorry, we can only talk about children and work.

We've literally got nothing else, have we?

So, Matt. Hm.

Caroline.

Are we doing this all night?

Well, I'm gonna run out of Cs eventually,

then it'll be less funny.

Less funny? Let's see if I notice that. Oh!

I hear you play tennis?

Oh. No, erm, I literally have never played tennis.

I watch tennis.

Oh, I have a season ticket for City.

Yes, keep it coming.

What do you think?

Dunno.

It's just talking to someone.

It's unlikely you'll have tendon surgery after.

What are you thinking, Jayden?

Inside my head's a lot scarier than broken glass.

You'd better let someone help you with it, then.

And then, erm... Yeah, in the second wave,

I was redeployed back on ICU again with Guy.

That was full on, wasn't it?

Yeah. Surgery was dead.

I was just making TikTok videos in A&E.

Then I was pregnant.

Guy! Fucksake.

No, in case I got redeployed to your team. Terrifying.

Mm. Yeah, it was, er, pretty brutal.

Did you score poorly in your wellness appraisal?

Yeah, actually. Yeah.

I, er, took some time off.

I'm just, you know, I'm just not used to being the last...

Like, the last person that people see,

for that number of people. It's, erm...

I'd rather be on gallbladders.

I did one of those today and accidentally delivered her baby.

What?! Thirty-one weeks, five days.

Oh, my God. Was it OK? It was alive

when I handed it to the obstetrician.

Who didn't remember me. What, from Elis? Yeah.

I was like, "Not every day your colleague nearly dies, love."

Does anyone want a dessert?

No, I don't think we need another bottle.

I'll have a coffee. Coffee sounds good.

How are you getting home? Er, taxi. You?

Do you wanna get that coffee back at mine?

Sure.

Sorry about him, he's had one too many...

Hey, Captain, you're all right. No-one's giving you a hard time.

Sorry.

Erm, right. Shall I get the bill on the way out?

No, no, no, it's fine. No, we'll get it.

It's the least we can do, honestly. Are you sure? Yeah. Go, go.

Well, thank you so much. It was amazing.

It was lovely. Call you tomorrow. Do.

Yeah.

Wow.

I hope he's OK.

We've all had a drink. Yeah.

Yeah, so, we're not...

I mean, that was just an exit strategy, right?

What a fucking day.

Are you OK?

You seem... Why don't you have kids?

HE LAUGHS Don't ask people that.

Sorry.

I think my baby would be better off with someone else. But I...

Fuck. Sorry.

And I didn't deliver the placenta.

You know, how useless is that?

Let's get that coffee.

BOTH LAUGHING

If I got it Baby, your love brought it

Yeah, yeah...

DOOR SLAMS

Oh.

Er...

I forgot you were here.

Hello.

I'm Matt.

Keep still.

I can't adopt her just because I feel guilty.

Or I'm worried I'm gonna break your heart.

I do feel guilty. I feel horrible.

I'm saying I don't know.

After us, Sami, Xavi and this place,

I don't know if there's enough of me left for anyone else.

I don't know.

What night of the week did we meet, again?

Elis would have been totally oblivious.

Which is how I would like to be very shortly, thank you.

You're her father, not mine.

You know, I think it would be best

if you and Brigitta stay in a hotel the next time.

Tell me how to be like you

Live my life as someone new

Cos every day, the same pain

Begins to feel OK

But every night, I close my eyes

And it's there again

When you're down on the floor Cut to the bone

Keep on breaking when you're broke

When time never heals It just seems to make it worse

Yeah, it's gotta make you wonder

How it's supposed To make you stronger

I know I gotta wait in line

For good things Only come with time

But every day

The same pain begins to feel OK

And every night, I close my eyes

And it's there again

When you're down on the floor Cut to the bone

Keep on breaking When you're broke. #

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