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[ Alarm beeping ]
Richard: Mnh.

[ Clicks, beeping stops ]
[ Sighs ]

Mnh. [ Sighs ]

♪ Don't want to wait around
to someday ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm the fire
you can't escape ♪

Richard: Scientists devour
textbooks and data

in an attempt to understand
the world...

♪ I'll give you something
to make you shake it, shake it ♪

[ Cellphone chimes ]

♪ It's just another side
of the happiness that I make ♪

...to gain confidence
or clarity...

♪ Oh, yeah ♪

♪ You better
get yourself ready ♪

♪ 'Cause
I'm about to do my thing ♪
...to be prepared.

♪ Oh, hey, ay, ya, ya ♪

♪ I've seen it
from the ground ♪

♪ Now I'm dancing
on the high rise ♪

♪ Oh, hey, ay, ya, ya ♪

Surgeons are
the worst offenders.

We study for decades
and stare down the barrel

of worst-case scenarios...

[ Cellphone chimes ]

♪ Don't let 'em keep you
on your backside ♪

Could be the hospital.

It's not.

It's not
or you don't want it to be?

[ Groans ] Both.

[ Cellphone clatters ]
Hm.

Mm-hmm.
Well, all right.

Where are you going?
Yours isn't even dinging.

Don't want it to be.

[ Glass shatters ]

♪ But you ain't even dipya,
dipya toes in the water ♪

I'm so sorry.
♪ Hey, hey! ♪

I forgot how much I missed you
breaking all my stuff.

[ Laughs ]

♪ Up side, upside ♪

Welcome home.

♪ I'm flipping
on the up side, upside ♪

We ignore sleep and friends
and food and sex

and actual real life

so that we're ready
for anything...

♪ I'm turning on a dime, now
I'm flipping on the upside ♪

♪ Oh, yeah ♪

♪ Up side, upside ♪

♪ Flipping on the upside, baby ♪

♪ Up side, upside ♪

♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh ♪

♪ Up side, upside ♪
...so we know what to expect

♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh ♪
...and know there's nothing...

♪ Up side, upside ♪
...we can't handle.

♪ Dancing like I'm so high,
so high ♪

[ Airplane engines roar ]

♪ I'm turning on a dime ♪

♪ Now I'm flipping
on the upside ♪

Oh.

So, Catherine
sent for you, too, huh?

Told me she needed
a VIP consult.

Yeah, and she needed the
smartest neuro god she knows.

General, but the same.

Something to drink,
Dr. Koracick?

Double espresso,
dash of cinnamon, lots of sugar.

Of course.

[ Clears throat ]

[ Grunting ]

Ah. [ Sighs ]

I'm sure,
if you asked nicely,

that flight attendant could
scrounge up a kickass sedative,

just knock you
right out.

If you knew my history
on planes,

you would not be
making jokes.

So, what do you think
Catherine's got for us?

Rock star
with a spinal schwannoma?

Mm. Oh, please, we could
do that in our sleep.

Chooramani technique?

What -- you know the
Chooramani technique, Dr. Grey?

You impress me.

I dabbled in neuro
for a bit.

What --
What made you give it up?

I...

could have possibly ruined
my husband's Alzheimer's trial.

Oh. I heard about that.

Yeah, I met him
on the conference circuit.

He thought it was fitting
that my name had the word "ass"

right smack
in the middle of it.

[ Laughs ]

-That sounds like him.
-[ Chuckles ] Yeah.

Oh. [ Sighs ]

We're next in line
for takeoff.
Mm.

Don't forget
to buckle up.

[ Slurps lightly ]

[ Clears throat ]

Do you want me to talk
or shut up?

Talk.

[ Indistinct conversations ]

[ Telephone ringing
in distance ]

Frankie: Chief,
good, you're here.

I haven't been the chief
in years, Frankie.

You'll always be
my chief.

Room 3 needs you.
Your intern doesn't know

a wound-vac
from his ass.

And here I thought motherhood
would soften your edges.

Who needs soft edges
when you're always right?

You know,
when I hired you,

I knew you were gonna be nothing
but a pain in my --

When you hired me, I was first
in my class at nursing school

and knew my way
around a central line

better than anyone,
including you.

Pain in my --

Careful,
or I'm not gonna let you

put money down
on baby names.

Ginger put that up, thinking
she could make a quick buck.

She knows I'm just gonna wind up
calling it "Chicken."

Or L'il Pancake.

L'il Pancake is not a name.

Now, Richard,
that's a name.

Very distinguished.
Ah.

Wise.

[ Groans ]
All right.

Frankie?

Aah!

Frankie.

Aah! Aah!

Somebody get me
a gurney!

Frankie?
[ Crying ]

Okay, we got you.
[ Gasps ]

[ Ultrasound whooshing ]

[ Indistinct conversations ]

Have you had any other
symptoms -- pain, dizziness?

I'm 28 weeks' pregnant
at a crazy-ass job

where people
feed me cupcakes all day.

I just thought
it was indigestion.

Aah-aah, damn it.

Frankie.

What do you need?

No, I'm...

Dr. Webber's
just checking me out.

[ Telephone rings in distance ]

Pulse is strong,
but she's tachycardic.

What are we thinking?

Ginger.
Hi. Ginger.

Over here. Hi.

Richard is taking care
of me.

Richard is good.

We like Richard.

So...

-Stand down?
-It would be appreciated.

[ Monitor beeping ]

[ Indistinct conversations
in distance ]

You've got a hell
of a village there.

My whole life, you know,
I've had an order in my head --

job, dog, house...

-Ring, husband, baby.
-...ring, husband, baby.

Exactly.
[ Chuckles ]

And I'm skating towards 40
with a killer job,

but no ring,
no husband,

no human man in sight.

So I made
my own damn order.

And me and L'il Pancake
are gonna be a helluva team.

And we've got
our village.

L'il Pancake
is not a name.

[ Chuckles ]

Well, I never saw a challenge
you couldn't rise to.

And your baby has
a nice, strong heartbeat,

just like we like it.

So then --
Aah, damn it.

What's wrong?

Uh, it's your spleen.

Where?

There.

It is
a wandering spleen.

It's torqued
around itself,

and it's cutting off
the blood supply.

So I'm gonna get you
up to the OR.

No, no, no, no,
hold on.

It could resolve
on its own.

Sometimes the spleen
turns itself back around.

Highly unlikely.

No, it happened.
I have seen it.

It's possible,
but, Frankie --

At 28 weeks, the only way
to make sure

that this baby stays
safely inside of me

is to stay
out of that OR.

I --

Aah. [ Chuckles ]

I know the risks.

I don't care.

Frankie,
listen to me. I --

$41,632.

That's what
this kid costs.

Three rounds of IVF
and a miscarriage.

I'm not telling you that
so you feel sorry for me.

This baby
is worth every dime,

all of it.

I am telling you
because this is it.

I literally have all of my eggs
in one basket,

so there is no way
we are risking this.

I'm not going.

♪♪

Don't make me sic Ginger
on you.

[ Monitor beeping ]

♪♪

I'm gonna check you in.
I'm gonna watch you like a hawk.

That part
we've got covered.

♪♪

[ Indistinct conversations ]

♪♪

♪♪

I mean, we're always hoping
for the patient to be Bono,

but at some point, the patient
has to actually be Bono, right?

Well, I met him once.
Even his brain is cool.

It's annoying.
What took you two
so long?

Catherine,
this place is gorgeous.

The patient is
a 65-year-old female.

Susan Sarandon?
Helen Mirren?

Make my dreams
come true.

She's complained
of neck and back pain

off and on
for the past several weeks,

and, yesterday,
the pain reached a fever pitch.

Head of Ortho
insisted on a C.T.

It would be nice to have
a cervical MRI

so we know
what we're dealing with.

Already done.

Okay.

[ Beeping ]

Oh, will you marry me?

-Thomas, please.
-No, I'm not kidding.

She is smart, wily.

I mean, I have never seen
a tumor

invade both the vascular
and the nerve domains

like that before.

Neither have I.

I always thought a blonde
would take me off the market,

-but, spinal tumor...
-Tommy.

...you have my --
Tommy.

No, I'm just saying,
this tumor is not going
anywhere anytime soon.

You know
I love my women stubborn.

We're gonna need to do a biopsy
to determine

if it's cancer
or not.

Oh, cart, horse.
Love the enthusiasm,

but, uh, I prefer to meet
the patient first.

You already have.

Sorry to disappoint you,
Thomas.

No Hollywood movie stars
today.

[ Sighs ]
I'm the patient.

♪♪

-Catherine, I'm sorry.
-Don't apologize.

-I didn't -- I didn't --
-You meant every word you said.

Look. Including the part
where we don't know

if it's cancer or not.

Are you having any numbness
or loss of motor function?

No, just the pain, which is
why I need a biopsy right away.

I have things to do.

I think a spinal tumor's
a pretty good reason

to postpone
a ribbon cutting.

I didn't send for you
to postpone a damn thing.

Catherine, why aren't Richard
and Jackson here?

They don't know.

They will know
when there's something to know.

Now, I've reserved
the IR suite.

We can take care of the biopsy
right now.

[ Telephone rings in distance ]

The tumor extends
into the sub-q area...

Which makes it
my dance space.

Well, just make sure
when you finish dancing,

I can still cut the ribbon
on this place.

[ Sighs ]
[ Sighs ]

[ Indistinct conversations ]

Icilda!

[ Laughter ]
Icilda?

You better not make
that fun of that.

That's my mama's name.

Okay, I want Q two-hour
neuro checks on 3,

and, Carla,
please make sure

that Mrs. Chen
is double-gowned.

That woman does
three laps a day

with her rear
flapping in the breeze.

-Yeah, she does.
-Yeah, she does.

Ahh...

Now, the only way for you
to help me

is to go do your jobs,
please.

Yeah,
you heard the boss.

Let's go.

[ Sighs ]

And so,
as the boss of you...

[ Scoffs ]
Here he goes.

Um, you should be resting.

Pulse has gone back down
to normal.

Her blood pressure
is stable.

We checked it manually
twice.

We're not all just
trashy magazines

and noise violations.

She's good, Dr. Webber.

Indeed.

Now,
if you all don't mind,

I'd like to do
a quick ultrasound.

How about some privacy?

[ Clears throat ]

-We'll be outside.
-Yes.

Don't you name that baby
before we come back.

If you do,
you name it Alex.

'Cause Alex goes
both ways.

-Oh, my God. Go away.
-No, I can't. [ Laughs ]

-What about Minty?
-Minty?

-Minty would be beautiful.
-It's bad.

[ Indistinct conversation
fades ]

[ Monitor beeping ]

[ Telephone rings in distance ]

[ Beeping continues ]

They mean well.

You're exactly the boss
I always knew you would be --

tough, fair.

With a little bit
of flair.

You always had that.

[ Chuckles ]

[ Beeping continues ]

[ Ultrasound whooshing ]

Is that...

I believe it is.

Your spleen's beginning
to untwist.

I can see blood
flowing again.

You can say it, you know?
It won't kill you.

You weren't wrong
for waiting a while.

Oh, that's the best
you can do?

For today.

Hey, what gives?

You're cranky.
Your jokes are stale.

I could fly to Paris
with the bags under your eyes.

If you weren't my patient,
I'd have you fired.

How's Catherine?

She's busy,
traveling a lot.

[ Clicks, machinery whirring ]

And Maggie? Meredith?

Everybody's fine.

Hey, I know it was hard
losing Ollie.

Yeah, it was.

I'll check on your vitals
in a bit.

[ Beeping continues ]

You keep up
the good work,

our girl may name
her baby Richard after all.

♪♪

You off today?

Um, I wish. You?

Sort of.

I, um...I had a dream
last night

about my
rechargeable hearts...
[ Cellphone chiming ]

...which I took as a sign
that I should go in today

and really focus on them,
which, you know,

now that I say that
out loud,

that makes me the queen
of the science nerds.

[ Chiming continues ]

But I promise
we'll do dinner --

a big, huge dinner --

all the...

wine.

All the what, babe?

♪♪

Maggie, listen.
Nope.

-Maggie.
-No.

Will you stop
for a second, please?

Let me guess.

"It's not
what it looks like.

We're just friends,
I promise."

Um...Okay, yes, that was
what I was gonna say.

This isn't funny,
Jackson.

Maggie, it's what
I was gonna say

because it's the truth,
all right?

I didn't cheat on you.
You are too smart
to say that,

and I am too smart
to believe it.

Ow.

And now I cut my foot,
damn it!

Just wait.

Well, let's just forget
about the fact

that you were going through
my phone.

It kept dinging
over and over again,

and I thought it was mine,
and that is not the point.

The point is that some woman
is missing you

with multiple heart emojis,

and you won't tell me
the truth.

Maggie,
you want the truth?

Okay, all right?

I -- I met someone...

You met someone.

...at -- when I was at
the monastery.

When you were
at the monastery.

Yeah.
Why are you repeating?

I don't know. I just am.
Keep going.

All right, you have glass
in your foot.

Can we --
Don't change the subject.

I'm not -- [ Groans ]

[ Sighs ]

Her name is Kate, all right?
And...you were right.

I think you were probably right
about the PTSD,

and it's just there's something
about nature that,

when you're unplugged
and unmoored

and...you were right.

So you slept with her
because you had God feelings?

What? No.

I didn't sleep
with anybody.

I didn't even kiss her.

It's -- It's not about that
at all.

We talked.

Maggie, we just talked
all night

about how she lost
her brother

and how she's looking
for some kind of peace.

Which she found
in your pants?

No. No. Maggie, no,
all right?

You're bleeding,
all right?

Will you just sit down
for a second

so I can help you,
please?

Please, okay?
I'll grab a first-aid kit,

and you can just look
at the messages yourself.

Oh, no.
I-I don't need to.

I think you do, okay?

This is not some puzzle
you need to solve, okay?

Nothing happened.

I didn't want anything
to happen.

She's just somebody
who understood

what I was going through,
what I'd lost.

And, honestly, she understood it
better than I did,

and it helped.

It helped to not feel so alone
in all this.

Here. Come here.

You're still talking
to her.

Last week,
last couple of days,

when you were bringing me
takeout

and asking me
to trust you --

Because you should.
You can trust me, okay?

Jackson, my dating history
might be dubious,

but I do know that no woman
in the history of ever

sends "miss yous"
and heart emojis

to men she doesn't want
to sleep with.

That's not what this is,
Maggie, all right?

I swear, okay?

We talked.

And it's just nice,
honestly,

to talk to people who've been
through the same thing.

People?

I just --
I meant that, um...

Who else
are you talking to?

Just, um...
April sometimes.

♪♪

[ Crying ]

[ All murmuring ]

What happened?

Her blood pressure tanked,

and her pain level's
through the roof.

What is happening?

It's gonna be okay.
My baby.

Okay,
let's take a look.

-Your baby looks strong.
-Mnh.

Damn it.

There's fluid
in her abdomen.

It's likely blood.

Her splenic artery
probably burst, okay?

I'll go tell them
to prep an OR.

And shut down
the gallery.

You page Alex Karev
and the head of OB, stat.

If we have to take
this baby out...
Aah!

I want the best on-hand,
okay, all right?

Wait, no.
Please, no, please.

Please...

Listen to me, Frankie.

There is nothing
you can't handle, okay?

Come on, let's go.
Come on. We got to move.

[ Machinery whirring ]

Do you think
it's cancer?

Dr. Grey, that's why
we're doing the biopsy.

Actual answers.

Science.

I'm asking
if you have a feeling.

I am a Big Gun.

Yes, I know.

You're amazing,
incredible.

There's no one in the world
like you.

I get it.

I feel so seen.
Thank you.

And we are ready
to roll.

Okay, now, you want
to be careful because you --

Grey...

you're not gonna
backseat drive

a simple biopsy,
are you?

Nope.
No? Good.

Be careful because --
Da, da, no, no, no, no.

No, no.

People don't come
to The Meredith Grey

for appys and choles anymore,
do they?

No, they don't.

You are a Big Gun.

You spend your days
with the worst-case scenarios.

You are the last stop
on the Hope Train,

and if you felt that
every hour of every day,

well, you'd be
a miserable first date.

Big Guns worry when there's
something to worry about.

-Put a rush on that.
-Put a rush on that.

[ Respirator hissing ]

[ Suctioning ]

Alex: Hey, the nurses
are lining the halls.

Can I help?

Yeah. Get in here.

We need to get
this spleen out.

She's hypotensive.
We need to take the baby out.

The baby's only 28 weeks.

You're talking months
in the NICU

and a potential lifetime
of deficits.

Dr. Webber --
My judgment is not clouded.

Suction.

The nurses in our hospital
put their own needs...
[ Suctioning ]

...their own lives aside
every hour of every day

for the good
of their patients.

Clamp.

So I owe it to them
to do everything in my power

to keep that baby
right where he belongs.

Okay, retract back.

Okay, scissors.

Thank you.

[ Respirator hissing ]

More. Good.
[ Suctioning ]

[ Hissing continues ]

[ Sighs ]

There. It's out.

And the bleeding's
under control.

Well done, sir.

Thank you.

[ Monitor beeping rapidly,
alarms blaring ]

Damn it!

Is your vascular clamp
still in place?

Maybe it's
the short gastric arteries.

Her pressure's tanking.

[ Groans ]
Okay. Suction.

[ Suctioning ]
Right.

There's too much blood. I can't
tell where it's coming from.

Woman: Dr. Webber,
baby's in distress.

Sir, we need to
get this baby out now.

Dr. Webber.

[ Rapid beeping continues ]

♪♪

Then do it.

Some pads.

♪♪

Baby's out.

Okay, where the hell is
all this blood coming from?

I need suction
and intubation, stat.

Oh, she's
going into DIC.

Let's hang FFP.

Karev,
how you doing over there?

[ Breathing quickly ]

Karev?

♪♪

Karev!

Got an airway,
but no movement.

[ Clatters ]

Come on, buddy. Come on,
come on, come on, come on.

We got movement!

We got it.

Sats are improving.

We got him.
We're good.

Did you hear that,
Frankie?

Your baby boy's okay.
He's okay.

I need you to stay
with him.

[ Monitors beeping rapidly,
alarms blaring ]

We need that crash cart!

Get him in the NICU now,
stat.

[ Rapid beeping,
blaring continue ]

Let's charge to 120.

♪♪

[ Paddles whine ]
Clear.

[ Beeping ]

[ Thump ]

♪♪

Come on, Frankie.
Come on. Come on.

Let's charge to 200.

♪♪

[ Paddles whine ]
Clear.

[ Beeping ]

[ Thump ]

[ Liquid pours ]

I thought it would be me
detonating this...

whatever this is.

I thought
it would be me.

Not out of ego
or anything --

just, you know, history.

I thought I would be
[Chuckling] the reason.

So you pictured us ending?

You didn't?
No.

Did you picture it
with April?

No, I didn't picture
my marriage ending.

Maybe it didn't.

Come on.

Are you really threatened
by April?

Jackson, you're texting
other women.

You're talking
to other women,

one of whom you used
to sleep with

and the other who clearly wants
to sleep with you,

and you are telling them things
that you don't tell me.

Do you want to know why
I'm not telling you things

about God
or how I fit in this universe?

Or about things
I used to know

that I don't seem to know
anymore?

Because you don't --

'Cause you won't talk
to me.

I told you that God and religion
is not my thing,

but I-I support you.

No, Maggie.

You don't talk to me,
you know,

and not about just your day
or rechargeable hearts

or how Mer's being a pain
in the ass today.

I --
I mean, I never know
a damn thing you're feeling.

I am an amazing friend.

I am an amazing sister.

I am there for them
through every crisis.

Hell, I have been there
for you.

Yes, you have been.

You have been.

It's not the same.

So, because I'm not spewing
my feelings all over the place,

that makes it okay for you
to hide in your phone

with other women?

You run every time
it gets complicated, Maggie.

You hide in your lab,

or you go off
and buy some milk

instead of just having
an actual conversation with me.

That's not fair.

You plan the end
of a relationship

when it's barely begun.

What is that?

When's the last time
you let me in at all?

Like, about anything?

So you went and you got it
from someone else?

Jackson: Maggie.

Yeah.

I find it a little easier

to open up to people
who open up to me.

♪ The way you wear
your hat ♪

[ Chuckles lightly ]

♪ The way you sip
your tea ♪

♪ The memory
of all that ♪

[ Door opens ]

♪ No, no, they can't
take that away from me ♪

♪ No,
they can't take that away ♪

♪ From me ♪

Oh, that's just a little routine
we used to do

over sacral nerve implants
back in the day.

-So, how did I do?
-Oh, you were perfect.

Just like
a professional patient.

We're still waiting
on the results.

Mm.

Catherine?
Can I call Richard now?

In a bit.
I think I need a real drink.

Mm. Hm.

[ Monitors beeping rapidly,
alarms blaring ]

Alex: Dr. Webber.

[ Flatline ]

Dr. Webber,
she's been down.

Richard: I know.

[ Flatline continues ]

Time...

[ Flatline continues ]

[ Flatline continues ]

Time of...
[ Clears throat ]

[ Flatline continues ]

Time of death, 15:42.

[ Flatline continues ]

[ Flatline fades ]

♪ She is my solace,
my safe place ♪

♪ But she is on fire tonight ♪

♪ And I can't stand
watching her heart break ♪

♪ But I promise
I won't close my eyes ♪

♪ And she stands so small
in the doorway ♪

♪ A lonesome look in her eye ♪

♪ And I can't help feeling
my soul shake ♪

♪ I don't wanna leave her
tonight ♪

♪ How do I lose ya ♪

♪ When you're standing
right in front of me? ♪

♪ I know my word still move ya ♪

[ Sniffs ]

♪ Saying please
don't give up on me ♪

[ Sobbing ]

♪ It'll be all right ♪

♪ Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh ♪

Gina: [ Echoing ] Hi.
I'm Gina. I'm an alcoholic.

Together:
[ Echoing ] Hi, Gina.

I lost my job busing for
the school district last week.

Budget cuts.
I couldn't believe it.
[ Heart beating ]

Haven't seen you around
in a while.

I thought I --
I thought I was getting a raise.

Work.

Glad you're back.

I grabbed my last paycheck,

and every bone in my body
told me, "Call your sponsor."

But I thought,
"I'll just walk it off.

I'll just walk it
the hell off,"

like being a drunk
is like being in a bad mood

or trying to lose
a few pounds.

[ Laughter ]

I pass by this bar, McGovern's,
right off Main,

and I see this crappy
little sign in the window,

hung up
with masking tape.

[ Sighs ]
"Chips for Shots."

And at first, I --
I didn't know what it meant.

And then I see the emblem.

You give 'em your chip,
and they give you a shot

for every year
you're sober.

[ All groan ]
[ Woman coughs ]

I wish I could have felt the way
that you feel right now --

angry, horrified.

But all I could feel
in that moment was lucky,

because I have four years
under my belt

and I got 4 bucks
in my bank account.

[ Flatline ]

Had.

I had four years.

[ Sighs ]

God, I'm so ashamed.

[ Flatline continues ]

[ Echoing ] But I'm back,

and I got 24 hours
under my belt,

and I am grateful.

[ Applause ]

[ Flatline continues ]

[ Paddles whine ]
[ Thump ]

Okay, run it down for me.

Look,
the results aren't in yet.

The tumor
could still be benign,

so let's not worry
about that until --
Why do we do that?

Why do we refuse
to talk about it?

If I have cancer --

We don't know that you do.
Yeah, but I might,

and your tip-toeing around it
doesn't make it any better.

-Can I get you guys something?
-Andrew, yes.

What are you having,
Tommy?

The sun is still out.

Oh, he'll have the same
as me -- tequila, neat.

Make his a double.
Meredith?

-I'll have the same.
-[ Sighs ]

Mm.

-Thanks.
-[ Sighs ]

So...

Do you think, if you talk
about it, it'll scare me?

It'll remind me?

Do you think there's any world
where I'm not sitting here

wondering
if my right foot is numb

because of the heels

or the tumor
snaking down my spine?

Do you think
I'm sitting here now

wondering,
"How long is it gonna be

before they tack
the word 'Memorial'

at the end
of that sign?"

After all these years,
I have built a legacy

that finally has
my own name on it.

I have a granddaughter

that I want to watch
take over the world.

You don't think I'm sitting here
wondering if I'll get to?

There is nothing
you could possibly say

that's worse than what
I've been imagining

since the second
I saw those scans.

♪♪

[ Breathes deeply ]

Well, if it is cancer,

we are looking at, um...

osteosarcoma
or a chondrosarcoma.

Which means what?

If it's osteo,
assuming it has not spread,

we are looking at chemo
and radiation

to shrink the size
of the tumor

and operate with as little
chance of paralysis as possible.

And if it's
chondrosarcoma?

[ Glass thumps lightly ]
Chondro is a beast.

Doesn't respond
to chemo.

So, if you're lucky --
and that's a big if --

we may be able to cut it out
without, uh...

Making me a quadriplegic,

which means
I'll never operate again.

Okay. So that tequila went
right through me.

I got to go see a man
about a horse.

♪♪

Dr. Grey, you are among
the finest surgeons

that I've seen
in my career.

But that's not the only reason
I called you here.

When I look
in Richard's eyes,

he's barely holding on.

His sponsor died,
and he hasn't replaced her,

and if I tell him this...

Catherine.

My mother
hid her diagnosis

and spent years alone
because of it.

This is not an excuse

to cut the people you love
out of your life.

Meredith, I don't know
if he can handle this.

Well, I don't know
if he can handle it, either,

but it's his life, too.

This is not your choice
to make for him.

All right,
the hospital, uh, paged.

The biopsy results
are back.

Okay, well...

-Let's do this.
-Yeah.

One more?

♪♪

♪♪

Koracick: That's good.

Meredith:
I'm okay, thanks.

♪♪

[ Sighs ]

When you went on your --
your whole GodQuest...

GodQuest?

It's what I called it
in my head.

When you left
without telling me, um...

[ Sighs ]

A part of me was relieved.

This tiny part of me...
exhaled

'cause I thought
you would --

you would go to the woods,

and you would,
you know,

talk to a priest
or a shaman,

and -- and -- and pray
to something or someone,

and you would come back
with some answers.

You would come back
like yourself.

But, instead, I came back
with more questions.

And you took those questions
to other women.

Uh...

I've spent most of my life

being five steps
ahead of everyone else,

and nobody wants to be friends
with that girl, okay?

That girl does not have
any dates or fights.

She doesn't learn
how to fight.

I learned calculus
in grade school.

I learned coronary bypass
when I was 20.

I never learned
how to really love or fight

or really let somebody in
without it feeling like

it was gonna be the end
of the world.

And you have been married
and divorced,

and you have a child,

and you've lost a child,

and you are five steps
ahead of me.

And I don't know
how to catch up.

[ Old Sea Brigade's
"Sinkhole" plays ]

♪♪

Um...

[ Vocalizing ]

[ Sighs ]

You said that you told Kate
about what you'd lost?

♪ Nothing really matters ♪
Yeah, um...

♪ When you want it, stop ♪

That's...

That's messy, you know?

♪ Sinkhole swallowed gold ♪

Pretty complicated,
Maggie.

♪ On your way to the top ♪
Try me.

♪♪

♪ And I've been drowning ♪
Okay.

♪ You've been laughing ♪

[ Sighs ]

♪ Sinkhole swallowed gold ♪

The one thing
that April and I

could never see eye to eye on
was God.

♪ And I ♪

She believed,
and I never could.

♪ Was wrong about you ♪
And now that I do --

now that I really do --

it's too late.

She's married.

She's happy
with someone else.

You said
that you were happy for her.

You said that
a lot of times.

I am.
I am happy for her.

I would never do anything
to take that away from her.

I am, uh...

♪♪

...grieving.

♪ Illuminate the fractures,
from your sideways bends ♪

Uh, I'm grieving
what we both lost...

♪ Follow your way back down,
slip on the grave again ♪

...and what
my daughter lost

[sighs]
for the bad timing.

And I love you.

♪ And I've been drowning ♪
I really love you.

♪ You've been laughing ♪

That's all true
and all a little messy,

and I just...

♪ Sinkhole swallowed gold ♪

I didn't know
how to talk to you about it.

♪ On your way back in ♪

♪♪

♪ And I ♪

[ Breathes sharply ]

♪ Was wrong about you ♪

♪ Was wrong about you ♪

No, don't --

Maggie, please don't --
don't leave. What --

I can't.

I am...
[ Breathes sharply ]

This...

[ Breathes sharply ]

[ Sniffles ]

[ Voice breaking ]
Jackson, I can't.

♪♪

[ Door closes ]

♪♪

[ Indistinct conversations ]

[ Door creaks ]

[ Laughter ]

[ Door closes ]

[ Indistinct conversations ]

[ Conversations continue ]

[ Conversations continue ]

Bartender:
What can I get you?

[ Conversations continue ]

Eight years, huh?

Impressive.

I had five once.

God grant me the serenity,
right?

[ Glasses thump lightly ]

What's your poison?

Vodka.

[ Bottle scrapes lightly ]

[ Conversations continue ]

[ Bottle thumps lightly ]

Enjoy.

[ Conversations continue ]

[ Glass thumps lightly ]

[ Conversations continue ]

[ Chips clink ]

[ Conversations continue ]

[ Footsteps ]

[ Conversations continue ]

Hey.
You can't come back here.

What the hell, man?!

-Whoa, whoa!
-Whoa!

-Hey!
-Whoa!

-Stop it!
-Whoa!

Hey! Stop it!

-Whoa!
-Hey, whoa!

Somebody call
the damn police!

Do it!
You call the police,

and I'll tell 'em
what you do to people,

people who are just trying to be
there for their children...
[ Chips clatter ]

...trying to be there
for the wives that love 'em...
What?

...just trying to hang on
with everything they got.

♪ Better days
will finally come ♪
And you find 'em,
and you hunt 'em down!

[ Grunts ]

♪ Better days
will finally come ♪

♪ Better days ♪
♪ Though the storm ♪

♪ Will finally come ♪
♪ I made it through the rain ♪

Aah!
I didn't hurt nobody!

The choice
was all yours.

♪ Better days ♪

♪ Whoo ♪

♪ Will finally come ♪

♪ Will finally ♪

♪ Better days ♪

Damn right it is.

♪ Better days
will finally come ♪

♪ Mmm ♪

♪ When the hurt in me is gone ♪

Aaah!

♪ Finally ♪

♪ Better days will come ♪

[ Laughter and applause ]
This foundation was created

to change the face
of medicine.

And because of the brave women
who came forward

and told their truths and
overcame insurmountable odds,

the Catherine Fox Foundation

will change the face of medicine
once again.

[ Cheers and applause ]

This is just the beginning.

[ Cheers and applause ]

[ Cheers and applause
intensify ]

Damn.

Right?

No, I mean,
she looks good.

She always
looked fantastic, but --

Okay,
what is it with you two?

Because you realize that
Richard and I are like family,

so if there's something
going on...

I'm not one
to kiss and tell.

That's literally
all you ever do.

Oh, you want --
you want details.

No, I don't.
She woke me up.

[ Camera shutter clicking
in distance ]

I had a kid, a son,
and, uh...

then I didn't.

Uh, I sleep-walked
through years of my life,

and Catherine, uh...

reminded me
that I was alive.

And she sings
a mean harmony, too.

[ Sighs ]

She's my friend.

Then she's in good hands.

No, I'm a Big Gun,
Meredith.

Yeah, okay,
with the Big Gun.

-I get it.
-No, you don't. You don't.

There is no one smarter,
no one better than me.

And my friend
has Grade 3 chondrosarcoma.

She has cancer in her spine
that won't shrink with chemo,

and I have no idea
how to remove it

without killing
or paralyzing her.

Thomas, what the hell
are you doing standing here?

-Ugh. Catherine --
-You have work to do.

I survived losing my mother

before I could even
get to know her

and my father, who dropped dead
on his way to church

when I was 18 years old.

I raised my sisters alone --
no help, no money.

I have survived racism, sexism,
every "ism"

designed to make me feel small
or make me less.

If I can do all of that,
if I can survive all of that,

then I just might
survive this, too.

But I can't do this
on my own.

So I need you
to figure it out, fast.

♪ I hear you whisper
underneath your breath ♪

Now, excuse me.
I...

I have to go call
my husband.

The problem with all the
how-to, step-by-step books is

they don't take into account
the exceptions to the rules.

[ Sighs ]

♪ I will send out an army ♪

♪ To find you ♪

♪ In the middle
of the darkest night ♪

♪ It's true ♪

♪ I will rescue you ♪

Hey, there, L'il Pancake.

They never leave room
for the outliers...

♪ There is no distance ♪

...the geniuses...

♪ That cannot be covered ♪

...the miracles...

♪ Over and over ♪

♪ You're not defenseless ♪

♪♪

♪ I'll be your shelter ♪

♪ I'll be your armor ♪

[ Line ringing ]

♪ I hear you whisper
underneath your breath ♪

[ Beeps ]
Richard: You've reached
Richard Webber's cellphone.

Please leave a message.

♪ I hear your SOS ♪

♪ Your SOS ♪

♪♪

♪ I will send out an army
to find you ♪

...because books
are black and white...

♪ In the middle
of darkest night ♪

...and everything in real life

is a messy shade of gray.

♪ It's true ♪

♪ I will rescue you ♪

[ Indistinct conversations ]

♪ I hear the whisper
underneath your breath ♪

♪♪

♪ I hear you whisper
you have nothing left ♪

♪♪

[ Cellphone keys clacking ]

♪ I will send out an army
to find you ♪

So nothing can
truly prepare us

for the beautiful,
painful things

we never imagined possible...

♪ In the middle
of the darkest night ♪

[ Cellphone chimes ]
♪ It's true ♪

♪ I will rescue you ♪

[ Cellphone buzzes ]

♪ I will never stop marching ♪

Maggie.

Richard: Meredith.
Richard?

♪ To reach you in the middle
of the hardest fight ♪

Are you okay?

Please don't tell
Catherine.

♪ It's true ♪
Just promise me.

Okay, I promise.

♪ I will rescue you ♪
What's going on?

...or the moments
no one ever saw coming.

I've been arrested,
Meredith.

I need your help.

♪ Oh, I will rescue you ♪

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪