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[chalk scraping]
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[soft music]
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- [Jason] When I was 10
years old, your grandfather--
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- How you doing?
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- [Jason] Brought a camera home
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from the school where he taught.
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And he showed me how to use it.
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- I wouldn't trade them
for anything in the world.
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- [Jason] I filmed your two
uncles, your grandmother,
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and sometimes, myself.
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- [Ed] I think we're lost.
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- Yes, what's going on?
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- [Jason] It was
through the camera
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your grandfather taught
me how to be an artist.
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- [Ed] This maze is killing me.
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- [Young Jason] Help!
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- [Jason] This film
is a way of passing
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these things on to you.
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In fact, it's about you and me.
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[soft music]
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To tell our story,
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I have to go back to 2005,
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when I was diagnosed with this.
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Multiple sclerosis
is when your own body
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thinks that your
nerves are the enemy.
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It results in the loss
of muscle control,
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vision, balance, sensation,
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and the whack load
of other problems.
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Primary progressive
multiple sclerosis
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is the hardest hitting form.
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I can sum it up in three words.
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Pretty fucking scary.
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I really wanted you.
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But with MS, I wasn't sure
if I was able to have kids.
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That's when I met your mom.
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She was smart, beautiful,
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and maybe because
her mom had MS--
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- Are you ready?
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- [Jason] She was understanding
about my condition.
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How is it that
you're so magical?
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[laughs]
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- You're silly.
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- She became my
creative partner.
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That over there.
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It seemed like a
perfect relationship.
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We had a commitment
ceremony in the park.
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[clapping]
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Within a couple of years,
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your mom got pregnant with you.
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[laughing]
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Just before you were born,
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we were invited to screen
my last film, When I Walk.
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- [Announcer] Ladies
and gentlemen,
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Jason DaSilva and Alice Cook.
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[clapping]
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- [Audience Member]
When is your baby due?
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- Baby's due actually
on Valentine's Day.
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- [Audience] Aww.
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[laughing]
[clapping]
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- Hi sweetie, it's okay.
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- [Jason] The day you were born
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was the best day of our lives.
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- It's okay.
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Thank you to all of you.
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- [Nurse] Oh you're
welcome, you did great.
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[baby crying]
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- Yeah.
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[nurses mumbling]
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- [Jason] He's really cute.
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- [Alice] What's the name?
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- Jason Savior DaSilva.
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It's a really cute name.
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- [Alice] He really
looked at you a lot.
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- [Jason] He was looking a lot.
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- [Alice] He likes
staring at you.
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[soft music]
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- Yay!
- Give him a kiss.
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Give him a kiss, yay!
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- Look at that, that's a camera.
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Pretty cool, huh?
- I'll show you.
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- [Jason] What do
you think, guy?
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- Just turning on
your chair for you.
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[soft music]
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- [Boy] Oh yeah.
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[laughing]
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- [Alice] Just don't
give Daddy any break.
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Just stuff it.
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[soft music]
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- [Jason] I love you so much,
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but I'm still nervous about
being a father to you.
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Especially with my disability.
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So I called my dad for advice.
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He was my idol growing up.
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Even though my parents split up
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when I was a teenager,
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my dad stayed close by.
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- [Jason] Yeah, I do need
help taking care of you,
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but I can still
be a good father.
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But there are so many places
I can't share with you.
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[beeping]
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All around the city,
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all around the world.
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Accessibility is
a critical issue.
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It's why I developed an
accessibility website and app.
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Your mom and I work
on it together.
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- As you can see,
this place is kind of
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amazing for accessibility.
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Huge entryway, totally flat.
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No lip here whatsoever.
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I'm gonna give this
place five stars.
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- Everybody understands
what it's like
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to lose your freedom and not
being able to go someplace
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just because of a step
or a flight or stairs.
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This is the first time that
we're able to map Tiblisi.
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We're coming up with X Map 2.0,
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which will release
a new API function.
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- [Member] The next speaker
will be Jason DaSilva, please.
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- It was fine until
I became disabled.
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We have a wonderful son, Jase,
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and I just wonder,
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am I gonna be able
to be with him
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and go to things like
his baseball game?
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I dream of a world where
it's 100% accessible.
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Meanwhile, I get
recognition for When I Walk.
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- And the winner
goes to When I Walk.
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- This award is dedicated to
all people with disabilities
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from around the world
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that are putting their
stories onscreen.
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You're making this
world a better place
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and changing media today.
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And I started
working on this film.
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Yeah, that's good.
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[mumbling]
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- [Marianne] Oh my God.
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[laughing]
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- [Jason] I feel
like a lucky guy.
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Your grandmother says--
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- [Both] You have angels
taking care of you.
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- Thank you, Miss Positivity.
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I feel like my life
is moving forward.
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But so is my MS.
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And I now need 24 hour care.
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[soft music]
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[babbling]
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[soft music]
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Makes me sad to think about
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what I'm gonna be
like as you get older.
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It makes me sad that you
wouldn't really know me
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as somebody who would get
out and do things with you.
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But I mean, in a way,
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making this film is the way that
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I can show you what I was like
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and talk to you
about challenges.
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It turns out one of
the biggest challenges
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was for me and your mom.
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Okay.
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50% of couples where one
spouse has a disability
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end in separation.
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The other person is more
prone to caregiver burnout.
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And that's what happened to us.
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I thought long and hard
about sharing this with you
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and I think that you
should know what happened.
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I can't speak for your mom,
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so this is just my
side of the story.
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I'm not exactly sure when
things started to go wrong.
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But it may be when
we decided to move
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from Brooklyn to Manhattan.
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I'm really glad we're moving.
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I'd like to do things outside
of just one neighborhood.
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Seriously, what's the
point of being in New York
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if I don't get to do that?
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- I don't know, that's
why we're moving.
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For you.
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- [Jason] And I think
it'll be good for Jase.
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- He has the park here.
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We're not gonna have a park.
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And last summer,
we sat in the park.
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That's all we did was
play in the grass.
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- [Jason] But for the
last couple times,
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we tried to go out just
for doctor's appointments.
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I had to cancel them
because I couldn't even
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drive to doctor appointments.
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- That's why we're moving.
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- I'm curious if other
places are like this.
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- I don't want to live in
New York our whole life.
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What if we want to go somewhere?
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But then it depends on
the care in that state,
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in that country,
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and the care in New
York, it turns out,
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is pretty good.
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So could we match it?
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I don't know.
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The two of us being basically
confined to New York
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as long as we are a couple.
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If we can't make it
in New York City,
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then you're gonna
be in a nursing home
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and we're gonna live in
Oklahoma or something.
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I don't know.
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- [Jason] We look
at places to live
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that might be better suited
for raising children.
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We start where we
have relatives.
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Florida, Toronto, and Vancouver.
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Where we celebrate
your first birthday
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with my crazy family.
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- Again.
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♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
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[cheering and clapping]
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- Clapping, Mommy
gets to blow the cake.
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- One more time.
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Here we go.
- Here we go again.
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- Ready, set.
- Make a wish.
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[cheering and laughing]
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- [Jason] The question
that we both have
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is where should
we end up living?
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- I was just thinking
of that just yesterday.
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And I'm thinking down the road,
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'cause I'm getting older,
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thinking of the future.
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- I think we want to.
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The trouble is Florida,
the care there.
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I think they'd force
him to a nursing home.
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- That's probably the care
here is the same way too.
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- Yeah, exactly.
- Come.
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Sorry, he's gonna, we can
just pass him back and forth.
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- [Jason] So right now,
we have the best care
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that we would have.
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- Exactly, New York
gives the best equation.
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- [Marianne] Yeah, response.
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- Here, you can stand.
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- [Jason] As soon as we
get back to New York,
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we move to the East Village,
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where we try stuffing our
family and my care aides
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into a small one
bedroom apartment.
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- When they're not
here, we could.
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- No, I can't, it's...
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- Yeah but they have a...
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The thing, no, that's not true.
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[Jace babbling]
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Yeah, that's right.
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Before long, we were celebrating
your second birthday.
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- Come on, big blow.
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[clapping and cheering]
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[people chatting]
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[soft music]
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- [Jason] I'm
delighted that you're
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getting around more than ever.
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But I hate that I can't
always follow you.
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- Daddy?
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Daddy?
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Daddy?
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- I think he needs help.
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- Yeah.
- You want to go?
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- Oh hey there, you.
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- He's over there.
- Okay.
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- No, I can't.
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So here I am at 35,
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but I feel like I am much older
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and I don't know if it's because
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we have a baby right now or
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maybe we got married too soon.
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Maybe...
262
00:16:34,827 --> 00:16:35,620
I don't know.
263
00:16:37,517 --> 00:16:38,655
We're older.
264
00:16:40,586 --> 00:16:41,413
This is how we were.
265
00:16:43,137 --> 00:16:45,482
But yeah.
266
00:16:45,551 --> 00:16:48,827
Your mother and I
aren't going through
267
00:16:50,034 --> 00:16:51,000
the best of times.
268
00:16:52,206 --> 00:16:54,586
We're going through
difficult situation.
269
00:16:56,172 --> 00:16:59,931
So, we spend a lot of time
arguing to each other and
270
00:17:01,586 --> 00:17:05,827
I can't tell you
the last time that
271
00:17:06,931 --> 00:17:08,724
she slept in the same bed as me.
272
00:17:10,310 --> 00:17:14,206
I don't think that I
signed up for that.
273
00:17:16,862 --> 00:17:19,482
I almost didn't put the
next scene in the film
274
00:17:19,551 --> 00:17:20,551
'cause it deals with sex.
275
00:17:22,344 --> 00:17:24,172
But it's an important
part of life
276
00:17:24,241 --> 00:17:25,551
that you'll understand
when you get older.
277
00:17:27,758 --> 00:17:30,827
It all started when I
called my friend Davey
278
00:17:30,896 --> 00:17:32,448
because your mom and I
weren't sleeping together.
279
00:17:34,551 --> 00:17:36,517
But Jase, take it from me.
280
00:17:36,586 --> 00:17:39,344
You ever have
relationship on the rocks,
281
00:17:39,413 --> 00:17:41,068
don't do this.
282
00:17:41,137 --> 00:17:41,896
- [Davey] Hello?
283
00:17:41,965 --> 00:17:43,241
- [Jason] Hey, Davey.
284
00:17:43,310 --> 00:17:44,172
- [Davey] Hey,
how's it going, man?
285
00:17:44,241 --> 00:17:45,724
What's up?
286
00:17:45,793 --> 00:17:48,413
- Okay, so imagine if
you were in my situation.
287
00:17:48,482 --> 00:17:51,310
Where you're trying
to use your hands,
288
00:17:51,379 --> 00:17:54,758
you can't see properly,
you're in a wheelchair.
289
00:17:54,827 --> 00:17:57,275
I'm just like, I have
no idea what to do.
290
00:17:57,344 --> 00:18:00,241
So I just am sitting,
291
00:18:00,310 --> 00:18:04,344
sitting, waiting for
nothing to happen.
292
00:18:04,413 --> 00:18:07,413
- [Davey] Well,
there are services
293
00:18:07,482 --> 00:18:10,241
for people that are handicapped
to get that stuff done.
294
00:18:10,310 --> 00:18:10,517
And it's legal.
295
00:18:12,448 --> 00:18:12,517
- Oh really?
296
00:18:18,137 --> 00:18:19,482
- Yeah, I didn't
know about that.
297
00:18:19,551 --> 00:18:21,137
- [Davey] There's
also a network within
298
00:18:21,206 --> 00:18:23,758
the handicapped community
that will do it for free.
299
00:18:23,827 --> 00:18:25,448
They come over and
do that for you.
300
00:18:25,517 --> 00:18:27,586
You know what I
mean, if you want,
301
00:18:27,655 --> 00:18:31,034
I'd be happy to get some
information for you.
302
00:18:31,103 --> 00:18:32,379
- Yeah, yeah, that'd be good.
303
00:18:34,448 --> 00:18:36,482
One week later, I
find somebody through
304
00:18:36,551 --> 00:18:37,413
the disability network.
305
00:18:40,206 --> 00:18:42,551
But cheating on your mom
doesn't solve anything.
306
00:18:44,137 --> 00:18:46,310
Instead, it pushed
us further apart.
307
00:19:02,689 --> 00:19:05,655
I mean, I've tried to
set aside some time,
308
00:19:05,724 --> 00:19:07,413
but it hasn't really worked out.
309
00:19:07,482 --> 00:19:10,758
It's like I'm
constantly surrounded by
310
00:19:10,827 --> 00:19:12,241
care aides and that type.
311
00:19:12,310 --> 00:19:15,448
There's no time or break for me.
312
00:19:15,517 --> 00:19:17,758
So I just can't handle it.
313
00:19:34,034 --> 00:19:35,862
- Yeah, yeah.
314
00:19:39,931 --> 00:19:42,103
I don't know, yeah,
I'm frustrated.
315
00:19:52,655 --> 00:19:53,965
- As far as Jason,
I still love him.
316
00:19:54,034 --> 00:19:55,172
I want to be with him.
317
00:19:55,241 --> 00:19:57,586
I like the relationship.
318
00:19:57,655 --> 00:20:00,448
I'm just physically
a mess and tired.
319
00:20:00,517 --> 00:20:02,448
And I can't do the things that
he wants me to do for him.
320
00:20:04,689 --> 00:20:05,448
It's not complicated.
321
00:20:07,689 --> 00:20:11,000
- How can you be physically
more of a mess right now
322
00:20:11,068 --> 00:20:13,241
than what I'm dealing with
323
00:20:14,241 --> 00:20:15,241
on a day to day?
324
00:20:16,344 --> 00:20:21,206
Do you put them up
against each other ever?
325
00:20:23,931 --> 00:20:25,103
- I don't know.
326
00:20:25,172 --> 00:20:26,724
I mean, you don't,
327
00:20:26,793 --> 00:20:29,068
if I were like you,
then we couldn't,
328
00:20:29,137 --> 00:20:31,586
I mean, we really
wouldn't survive.
329
00:20:31,655 --> 00:20:32,793
I'm keeping us afloat.
330
00:20:40,793 --> 00:20:43,068
- I used to go.
331
00:20:43,137 --> 00:20:44,413
I gave Jason so much TLC.
332
00:20:44,482 --> 00:20:47,793
My whole life was dedicated
to caring for you
333
00:20:47,862 --> 00:20:49,275
until Jase was born.
334
00:21:11,068 --> 00:21:11,862
- Yeah.
335
00:21:15,655 --> 00:21:17,827
- Okay, let's help
Daddy real quick, watch.
336
00:21:17,896 --> 00:21:19,655
Watch Mommy help Daddy.
337
00:21:19,724 --> 00:21:21,379
[Jace crying]
338
00:21:24,482 --> 00:21:28,103
Okay, let me pull him
more and you lift.
339
00:21:29,344 --> 00:21:30,724
It's easier.
340
00:21:30,793 --> 00:21:33,275
Jason, I need you
to put your arm...
341
00:21:33,344 --> 00:21:35,931
[Jace crying]
342
00:21:37,137 --> 00:21:39,000
Oh okay, come here.
343
00:21:39,068 --> 00:21:41,068
Come out, okay, I gotcha.
344
00:21:41,137 --> 00:21:42,310
Okay, I give up.
345
00:21:46,413 --> 00:21:48,068
Oh God.
346
00:21:48,137 --> 00:21:49,068
Okay, come on.
347
00:21:49,137 --> 00:21:50,034
- I see your mom getting pulled
348
00:21:50,103 --> 00:21:51,551
in so many different directions,
349
00:21:51,620 --> 00:21:54,448
including working full-time
to take care of us.
350
00:21:56,034 --> 00:21:58,724
But still, I'm not doing
my job taking care of her.
351
00:22:00,310 --> 00:22:02,000
That's pretty good.
352
00:22:05,965 --> 00:22:07,379
- For some reason, he
won't hold his own bottle.
353
00:22:07,448 --> 00:22:09,448
We have yet to figure that out.
354
00:22:11,931 --> 00:22:16,000
I don't quit because
he doesn't let me.
355
00:22:16,068 --> 00:22:18,206
- [Jason] Can you
come and hang out?
356
00:22:18,275 --> 00:22:21,275
I'm disabled but I still
have responsibilities
357
00:22:21,344 --> 00:22:23,172
like everyone else.
358
00:22:28,206 --> 00:22:28,379
- [Alice] Feeding ourselves.
359
00:22:37,241 --> 00:22:39,310
- [Jason] While I do
like the East Village,
360
00:22:39,379 --> 00:22:41,275
our apartment is expensive.
361
00:22:44,103 --> 00:22:45,413
But because of my disability,
362
00:22:45,482 --> 00:22:49,896
I qualify for a rent
subsidized apartment
363
00:22:49,965 --> 00:22:51,517
in Long Island City, Queen's.
364
00:22:52,758 --> 00:22:54,241
- [Realtor] All
the apartments have
365
00:22:54,310 --> 00:22:56,413
a stainless steel refrigerator,
366
00:22:56,482 --> 00:22:59,896
stove, there's a
dishwasher, microwave.
367
00:23:08,896 --> 00:23:11,344
- No.
368
00:23:11,413 --> 00:23:13,068
- It's great.
369
00:23:13,137 --> 00:23:14,931
- [Realtor] You
just need to sign
370
00:23:15,000 --> 00:23:16,655
and then you can
date on top here.
371
00:23:19,689 --> 00:23:23,103
- It's one of the best
buildings in Brooklyn.
372
00:23:23,172 --> 00:23:24,827
- Queens.
- Or Queens.
373
00:23:25,655 --> 00:23:26,448
In both.
374
00:23:28,206 --> 00:23:30,517
[soft music]
375
00:23:33,551 --> 00:23:37,344
So, as soon as the paperwork
goes through, we move.
376
00:23:41,172 --> 00:23:43,896
Even though the new
apartment is much better,
377
00:23:43,965 --> 00:23:47,068
we decided to look at
places outside the city.
378
00:23:48,586 --> 00:23:49,896
The next stop?
379
00:23:50,724 --> 00:23:52,103
Austin, Texas.
380
00:24:31,862 --> 00:24:33,206
- [Jason] Before we get home,
381
00:24:33,275 --> 00:24:35,896
your mom starts
researching jobs in Austin.
382
00:24:37,724 --> 00:24:40,241
[soft music]
383
00:24:44,000 --> 00:24:45,724
- Like this, watch here.
384
00:24:45,793 --> 00:24:49,310
Blow.
385
00:24:49,379 --> 00:24:51,103
[cheering]
386
00:24:51,172 --> 00:24:52,310
- Oh no! [laughs]
387
00:24:52,379 --> 00:24:54,137
Oh, I thought they
were trick candles.
388
00:24:54,206 --> 00:24:55,000
Yay, Jase.
389
00:24:56,241 --> 00:24:57,724
- [Jason] Not long
after your birthday,
390
00:24:57,793 --> 00:24:59,275
your mom accepts
a job in Austin.
391
00:25:02,413 --> 00:25:04,655
[cheers]
392
00:25:04,724 --> 00:25:06,482
I don't want you to leave.
393
00:25:06,551 --> 00:25:10,000
Your mom says she can give
you a better life in Austin.
394
00:25:10,965 --> 00:25:12,482
She might be right,
395
00:25:12,551 --> 00:25:14,517
and I figure I can
always move there later.
396
00:25:16,758 --> 00:25:19,068
So I agreed to you both leaving.
397
00:25:22,724 --> 00:25:23,517
- [Alice] I only
got that many boxes.
398
00:25:25,275 --> 00:25:27,137
- [Jason] But then in no time,
399
00:25:27,206 --> 00:25:31,068
the boxes are packed
and you're ready to go.
400
00:25:31,137 --> 00:25:33,344
- Going to go, I wish.
401
00:25:33,413 --> 00:25:35,068
- Are you gonna go to Austin?
402
00:25:35,137 --> 00:25:38,000
- I'll go all the
way to the track.
403
00:25:38,068 --> 00:25:39,586
- [Alice] You're gonna
go all the way to track?
404
00:25:39,655 --> 00:25:40,896
- To the woods.
405
00:25:42,862 --> 00:25:45,413
- And you're gonna take a plane.
406
00:25:46,241 --> 00:25:47,896
You go up, up, up.
407
00:26:07,689 --> 00:26:10,034
- He's sad.
408
00:26:10,103 --> 00:26:11,862
Now he's sad again.
409
00:26:16,068 --> 00:26:16,551
No, don't be sad.
410
00:26:19,586 --> 00:26:21,137
You're sad again.
411
00:26:21,206 --> 00:26:23,448
- [Woman] It's okay, here.
412
00:26:28,275 --> 00:26:29,344
Don't be sad, Daddy.
413
00:26:29,413 --> 00:26:30,448
- [Jase] Don't be sad.
414
00:26:33,724 --> 00:26:35,310
- [Woman] Don't be sad, Daddy.
415
00:26:39,137 --> 00:26:40,275
[laughs]
416
00:26:40,344 --> 00:26:44,103
[muffled chatting]
417
00:26:50,034 --> 00:26:52,310
[soft music]
418
00:27:00,586 --> 00:27:02,758
- [Woman] No, no, no, no.
419
00:27:03,827 --> 00:27:06,310
[soft music]
420
00:27:12,827 --> 00:27:13,620
Okay.
421
00:27:16,034 --> 00:27:17,000
- Thank you.
422
00:27:19,206 --> 00:27:21,482
[soft music]
423
00:28:58,206 --> 00:28:58,517
- Good morning.
424
00:29:03,206 --> 00:29:04,896
Having trouble with
your legs last night?
425
00:29:04,965 --> 00:29:06,275
- [Jason] Nope.
426
00:29:14,310 --> 00:29:16,689
[cat meows]
427
00:29:18,586 --> 00:29:21,034
[soft music]
428
00:29:37,413 --> 00:29:39,275
- Okay, coming down.
429
00:29:42,379 --> 00:29:42,448
Here we go.
430
00:29:44,586 --> 00:29:46,724
[groans]
431
00:29:52,724 --> 00:29:54,482
[phone ringing]
432
00:29:57,448 --> 00:30:00,068
- Hey Jase, how
are things there?
433
00:30:01,137 --> 00:30:02,655
You can turn it to the side.
434
00:30:07,448 --> 00:30:09,620
There, that's so much better.
435
00:30:11,000 --> 00:30:13,379
Put it the other
way, it's better.
436
00:30:16,724 --> 00:30:18,655
- I can see you more, Jase.
437
00:30:20,206 --> 00:30:21,000
- No.
438
00:30:22,758 --> 00:30:25,482
Do it like that.
439
00:30:25,551 --> 00:30:26,931
- Don't do that.
440
00:30:29,241 --> 00:30:32,103
Put it the other
way, it's better.
441
00:30:34,206 --> 00:30:35,448
[laughs]
442
00:30:38,241 --> 00:30:40,620
- [Jase] Now can you get
some more dirt for me?
443
00:30:40,689 --> 00:30:43,965
- [Alice] Yeah, let's
go get more dirt.
444
00:30:48,965 --> 00:30:49,482
- Wow, this is really fun.
445
00:30:55,241 --> 00:30:57,758
[soft music]
446
00:31:16,034 --> 00:31:18,344
- [Jason] Do people ever
go blind because of MS?
447
00:31:19,310 --> 00:31:20,655
- You can.
448
00:31:20,724 --> 00:31:22,137
I would say it's
definitely the exception.
449
00:31:22,206 --> 00:31:24,689
Usually, you're not blind blind,
450
00:31:24,758 --> 00:31:27,034
which is the good
thing, at least.
451
00:31:27,103 --> 00:31:28,379
Not that, I believe
for a filmmaker,
452
00:31:28,448 --> 00:31:30,965
this degree of
impairment obviously
453
00:31:31,034 --> 00:31:33,000
is a major impact.
454
00:31:33,068 --> 00:31:36,586
But it's, yeah,
that's the nice thing,
455
00:31:36,655 --> 00:31:40,689
is that you're usually
not left totally blind.
456
00:31:40,758 --> 00:31:42,206
- Yeah, okay, cool.
457
00:31:43,517 --> 00:31:46,000
[soft music]
458
00:31:48,275 --> 00:31:49,724
- I'll show you a
little vocal warmup
459
00:31:49,793 --> 00:31:52,000
that we haven't done before.
460
00:31:52,068 --> 00:31:53,758
So can you do a yawn sigh?
461
00:31:53,827 --> 00:31:55,482
Sort of a yawn and
a sigh together.
462
00:31:55,551 --> 00:31:57,000
So it's like this.
463
00:31:57,068 --> 00:31:58,482
[yawning]
464
00:32:01,137 --> 00:32:03,137
And now we'll do the fog horn.
465
00:32:04,241 --> 00:32:05,448
[moaning]
466
00:32:08,344 --> 00:32:12,034
Can we do our sustained ah?
467
00:32:12,103 --> 00:32:14,275
[moaning]
468
00:32:19,689 --> 00:32:20,379
That's enough, yeah, good time.
469
00:32:22,862 --> 00:32:23,655
That's awesome.
470
00:32:25,068 --> 00:32:27,241
[moaning]
471
00:32:32,344 --> 00:32:33,931
That's it, you did great.
472
00:32:35,931 --> 00:32:39,379
- In addition to
problems seeing, talking,
473
00:32:39,448 --> 00:32:42,241
swallowing, and breathing,
474
00:32:42,310 --> 00:32:44,551
I can no longer use my hands.
475
00:32:45,827 --> 00:32:48,965
I am officially quadriplegic.
476
00:32:50,413 --> 00:32:52,931
For years, I've
been tracking myself
477
00:32:53,000 --> 00:32:55,931
on the Expanded
Disability Standard Scale.
478
00:32:57,482 --> 00:33:00,724
I'm now a nine, which means
I can't care for myself
479
00:33:00,793 --> 00:33:03,000
and I'm restricted
to a wheelchair.
480
00:33:04,206 --> 00:33:06,172
Jase, this is hard
to talk about,
481
00:33:06,241 --> 00:33:07,827
but you should know,
482
00:33:07,896 --> 00:33:10,931
there's only two stops
left on the scale.
483
00:33:11,000 --> 00:33:15,413
9.5, which means I can't
communicate or eat,
484
00:33:15,482 --> 00:33:17,862
and 10, which is death.
485
00:33:19,965 --> 00:33:22,655
So right now I'm at
an EDSS score of nine.
486
00:33:23,793 --> 00:33:26,413
So how much time do I have?
487
00:33:26,482 --> 00:33:29,000
Because I do know
that 10 is death.
488
00:33:29,896 --> 00:33:31,448
- No one can say.
489
00:33:31,517 --> 00:33:33,827
Because it's still your body.
490
00:33:33,896 --> 00:33:35,793
Your body, how it take,
491
00:33:35,862 --> 00:33:39,000
fight with all the
other comorbidities
492
00:33:39,068 --> 00:33:40,379
that comes on that time.
493
00:33:40,448 --> 00:33:45,103
Because 9.5, you need
ventilation to breathe.
494
00:33:45,172 --> 00:33:49,344
You need external sources
for nutrition and everything.
495
00:33:49,413 --> 00:33:52,000
So, you're still alive,
496
00:33:52,068 --> 00:33:54,310
but with the machines.
497
00:33:54,379 --> 00:33:59,034
Your whole system are
shutting down gradually.
498
00:33:59,103 --> 00:34:00,448
That I can say.
499
00:34:00,517 --> 00:34:03,310
It's not good to
say, but I'm sorry.
500
00:34:03,379 --> 00:34:06,000
[laughing]
501
00:34:06,068 --> 00:34:08,137
- It's okay.
- Okay.
502
00:34:08,206 --> 00:34:11,517
So, this is sad part to discuss,
503
00:34:11,586 --> 00:34:14,172
but still, this is reality.
504
00:34:14,241 --> 00:34:15,689
- Exactly.
- That's important.
505
00:34:15,758 --> 00:34:19,551
- I mean, it's more important
to me to know these things
506
00:34:19,620 --> 00:34:21,103
than to not know these things.
507
00:34:21,172 --> 00:34:22,137
- Yes.
508
00:34:26,482 --> 00:34:28,965
- Okay, put your head
back down for me.
509
00:34:29,034 --> 00:34:29,965
Is that a comfortable spot
510
00:34:30,034 --> 00:34:32,655
or do you need it back further?
511
00:34:32,724 --> 00:34:36,103
- Another point on the
scale means another change
512
00:34:36,172 --> 00:34:38,620
so I can keep moving around.
513
00:34:38,689 --> 00:34:40,275
- Let's go for a spin.
514
00:34:40,344 --> 00:34:41,551
Just to see you drive.
515
00:34:45,655 --> 00:34:47,965
Head back at the same time.
516
00:34:53,241 --> 00:34:54,724
Let the chair travel straight.
517
00:34:54,793 --> 00:34:57,241
You keep trying to
straighten it, you're fine.
518
00:34:57,310 --> 00:35:00,034
Keep your head in the middle.
519
00:35:00,103 --> 00:35:01,068
You got it.
520
00:35:01,137 --> 00:35:02,586
- Yeah, it's good.
521
00:35:06,068 --> 00:35:08,000
- Stop, stop, stop, ah!
522
00:35:11,448 --> 00:35:12,344
- Look ma, no hands.
523
00:35:18,206 --> 00:35:21,137
Jase, if you ever get in
a difficult situation,
524
00:35:21,206 --> 00:35:23,241
don't be afraid to ask for help.
525
00:35:26,482 --> 00:35:27,758
That's what I have to do.
526
00:35:27,827 --> 00:35:30,103
I need new assistants
to both take care of me
527
00:35:30,172 --> 00:35:31,379
and help me with my work.
528
00:35:31,448 --> 00:35:33,896
I'll just run
through my schedule.
529
00:35:33,965 --> 00:35:37,000
So, I get up and get ready.
530
00:35:37,068 --> 00:35:40,620
I need somebody's help
to change my clothes,
531
00:35:40,689 --> 00:35:43,896
brush my teeth,
putting on my shoes.
532
00:35:43,965 --> 00:35:47,000
I would need help
transferring to my wheelchair.
533
00:35:47,068 --> 00:35:50,586
Get coffee in the morning,
take my medication.
534
00:35:50,655 --> 00:35:53,827
Do things like look at
the computer and type.
535
00:35:53,896 --> 00:35:56,793
So I'll need you to read
back the emails to me
536
00:35:56,862 --> 00:35:59,862
'cause I can't really
see the screen.
537
00:35:59,931 --> 00:36:04,586
And what about using the
urinal or the bathroom?
538
00:36:04,655 --> 00:36:07,482
Do you feel comfortable
about doing those things?
539
00:36:07,551 --> 00:36:08,793
- [Candidate] Sure.
540
00:36:08,862 --> 00:36:10,103
- Do you think that
you could do that?
541
00:36:10,172 --> 00:36:11,275
- [Candidate] Yeah.
542
00:36:11,344 --> 00:36:16,000
- I'm very disabled
and very busy.
543
00:36:16,068 --> 00:36:17,551
I go to film festivals.
544
00:36:17,620 --> 00:36:20,206
I went to the White
House two weeks ago.
545
00:36:20,275 --> 00:36:24,068
Two nights ago, I was just in
the Korean ambassador's house.
546
00:36:24,137 --> 00:36:26,310
So are you okay with
working late though?
547
00:36:26,379 --> 00:36:28,137
Are you wanting
just the day shift
548
00:36:28,206 --> 00:36:30,172
or the night shift?
549
00:36:30,241 --> 00:36:31,827
Do you have any
questions for me?
550
00:36:31,896 --> 00:36:33,034
- [Candidate] Um...
551
00:36:33,103 --> 00:36:34,724
- [Candidate] Um...
552
00:36:34,793 --> 00:36:39,034
- [Candidate] Um...
[doorbell rings]
553
00:36:39,103 --> 00:36:40,448
- Hey, morning, Jason.
554
00:36:40,517 --> 00:36:43,310
- [Jason] So I hired the
best assistants that I can.
555
00:36:43,379 --> 00:36:45,517
- Yeah, see you tomorrow.
556
00:36:47,275 --> 00:36:48,482
- [Assistant] Hey, Jason.
557
00:36:48,551 --> 00:36:51,034
- [Assistant] Bye, Jason.
558
00:36:51,103 --> 00:36:52,482
- Hey, Jessica.
- Hey.
559
00:36:52,551 --> 00:36:54,896
- Hey, George.
- Hey, Jason.
560
00:36:59,517 --> 00:37:00,620
- Bye.
- Bye.
561
00:37:06,137 --> 00:37:08,689
[phone ringing]
562
00:37:12,137 --> 00:37:14,241
How was school today?
563
00:37:14,310 --> 00:37:16,379
[babbling]
564
00:37:17,206 --> 00:37:18,241
Was it fun?
565
00:37:19,758 --> 00:37:22,827
[babbling]
566
00:37:22,896 --> 00:37:23,413
Was it really fun?
567
00:37:25,689 --> 00:37:28,448
[babbling]
568
00:37:28,517 --> 00:37:30,137
You're being really silly.
569
00:37:30,206 --> 00:37:32,206
Say something in English.
570
00:37:36,620 --> 00:37:38,137
Say some words.
571
00:37:38,206 --> 00:37:40,551
[babbling]
572
00:37:40,620 --> 00:37:42,310
Say some real words.
573
00:37:45,172 --> 00:37:47,517
Okay bye, Alice.
574
00:37:47,586 --> 00:37:49,000
- [Alice] What?
575
00:37:49,068 --> 00:37:50,206
- He's not talking.
576
00:37:51,689 --> 00:37:53,827
- [Alice] Jase ate
so much food today.
577
00:37:55,068 --> 00:37:57,000
- That's good, Jase,
you're getting big.
578
00:37:57,068 --> 00:38:01,655
I honestly can't keep
doing all this by myself.
579
00:38:03,310 --> 00:38:04,689
Really, really hard.
580
00:38:04,758 --> 00:38:07,931
I didn't do anything
wrong for you guys to go.
581
00:38:08,000 --> 00:38:09,689
- [Jase] Daddy, Daddy, Daddy.
582
00:38:09,758 --> 00:38:11,931
- I'm sorry, I disagree but--
583
00:38:12,000 --> 00:38:13,344
- Yeah I know--
584
00:38:13,413 --> 00:38:15,896
- Fully, but I'm gonna--
- Why do you disagree?
585
00:38:17,448 --> 00:38:21,206
- I can earn a
higher, much better,
586
00:38:21,275 --> 00:38:23,758
I can give Jase a
much better life here.
587
00:38:23,827 --> 00:38:25,068
I'm 20 times better here.
588
00:38:26,586 --> 00:38:30,655
- So is that reason enough
to move away from his father?
589
00:38:30,724 --> 00:38:31,655
You think that's reason enough
590
00:38:31,724 --> 00:38:33,137
to take him away
from his father?
591
00:38:33,206 --> 00:38:35,068
- I can't make it in New York.
592
00:38:35,137 --> 00:38:36,379
Yeah, it is.
- You can make it fine
593
00:38:36,448 --> 00:38:38,206
in New York but whatever.
594
00:38:39,206 --> 00:38:42,379
Maybe you win.
- I just can't do that.
595
00:38:43,620 --> 00:38:44,931
- That's not true.
- I couldn't make it
596
00:38:45,000 --> 00:38:46,206
in New York.
597
00:38:46,275 --> 00:38:48,034
So I'm gonna take them,
598
00:38:48,103 --> 00:38:49,310
I gotta get him some dinner.
599
00:38:51,482 --> 00:38:53,586
And we can talk to
you after if you want.
600
00:38:55,517 --> 00:38:56,448
- Okay.
601
00:38:56,517 --> 00:38:58,344
- Okay, all right, bye.
602
00:39:02,068 --> 00:39:04,172
So this is us on a typical day.
603
00:39:04,241 --> 00:39:05,517
This is Jason's editing.
604
00:39:05,586 --> 00:39:09,586
- I'm still confused as
to why your mom left.
605
00:39:09,655 --> 00:39:11,862
So I end up looking for answers
606
00:39:11,931 --> 00:39:14,413
in an unexpected place.
607
00:39:14,482 --> 00:39:15,724
My last film.
608
00:39:15,793 --> 00:39:18,758
- Don't want Jason
getting any worse.
609
00:39:18,827 --> 00:39:21,965
And it just keeps coming.
610
00:39:22,862 --> 00:39:26,379
It's like I take
his hands a lot.
611
00:39:28,620 --> 00:39:31,793
How fast he talks and
how loud he talks.
612
00:39:31,862 --> 00:39:33,068
- Do you ever wish that you were
613
00:39:33,137 --> 00:39:34,827
with somebody able-bodied?
614
00:39:36,241 --> 00:39:41,241
- Yeah, but I wish, I
wish you were able-bodied.
615
00:39:42,206 --> 00:39:44,482
That's who I wish I was with.
616
00:39:44,551 --> 00:39:48,862
- [Jason] What happens
when I can't eat my food?
617
00:39:48,931 --> 00:39:51,068
Will you be the
person that feeds me?
618
00:39:51,137 --> 00:39:54,034
Will we come to a restaurant
619
00:39:54,103 --> 00:39:56,103
and then you feed
me the food and then
620
00:39:56,172 --> 00:39:56,517
eat your own food too?
621
00:39:58,413 --> 00:40:02,793
In front of everybody
else to watch?
622
00:40:02,862 --> 00:40:04,379
- I don't know, I don't know.
623
00:40:10,034 --> 00:40:11,275
- Why are you going on a trip?
624
00:40:11,344 --> 00:40:14,103
- Going on a trip to
get away from you.
625
00:40:14,172 --> 00:40:16,068
I'm on the verge of insanity.
626
00:40:16,137 --> 00:40:17,482
I have to leave
for my own mental--
627
00:40:19,206 --> 00:40:20,517
- Yeah, I know.
- State.
628
00:40:20,586 --> 00:40:21,379
- Yeah.
629
00:40:22,965 --> 00:40:25,068
- I've been taking care of
you for two years straight
630
00:40:25,137 --> 00:40:27,724
and I--
- Yeah, take a break.
631
00:40:27,793 --> 00:40:30,241
- The shittiest part
of this whole thing
632
00:40:30,310 --> 00:40:31,517
is that we're trapped.
633
00:40:31,586 --> 00:40:34,517
- I was too caught up
with making the film
634
00:40:34,586 --> 00:40:35,448
and dealing with my own MS.
635
00:40:37,827 --> 00:40:39,758
I just saw her love for me,
636
00:40:39,827 --> 00:40:43,482
not her concern about the
burden she was taking on.
637
00:40:45,689 --> 00:40:47,724
I talked to my friend Alberto
638
00:40:47,793 --> 00:40:49,551
to get his thoughts.
639
00:40:49,620 --> 00:40:52,206
So you and I have known each
other for a long time, so--
640
00:40:52,275 --> 00:40:54,793
- Almost 10 years or something.
641
00:40:54,862 --> 00:40:55,758
- Yeah, that's right.
642
00:40:55,827 --> 00:40:58,000
So I know that your partner left
643
00:40:59,103 --> 00:41:01,586
something similar to
what happened to me.
644
00:41:02,793 --> 00:41:04,103
How did you deal with that?
645
00:41:04,172 --> 00:41:06,000
- If you want me to
be honest to you,
646
00:41:08,793 --> 00:41:12,517
and not taking sides or just
being more logic and fair,
647
00:41:13,689 --> 00:41:17,758
I don't blame them
for wanting to leave.
648
00:41:17,827 --> 00:41:21,413
I mean, imagine
waking up to someone
649
00:41:21,482 --> 00:41:24,344
covered in piss,
stiff, next to you.
650
00:41:24,413 --> 00:41:26,034
It must be hard.
651
00:41:26,103 --> 00:41:31,068
And if I could run away
from myself, I would.
652
00:41:32,172 --> 00:41:34,896
I felt like if I
was not disabled,
653
00:41:34,965 --> 00:41:36,103
things could've worked.
654
00:41:37,275 --> 00:41:39,379
Just have this fire inside of me
655
00:41:39,448 --> 00:41:41,344
that just wants
to get up and run
656
00:41:41,413 --> 00:41:46,413
and take life by the
horns like I used to do.
657
00:41:48,689 --> 00:41:50,827
- I feel exactly the same way.
658
00:41:52,034 --> 00:41:54,206
And that's why I'm
trying to do what I do.
659
00:41:54,275 --> 00:41:56,137
That's why I keep
on doing what I do.
660
00:41:56,206 --> 00:41:58,413
- That's why I'm
right here with you,
661
00:41:58,482 --> 00:42:02,000
because to me, you're
an example for me
662
00:42:02,068 --> 00:42:03,344
as a disabled person,
663
00:42:03,413 --> 00:42:06,862
and for a lot of
walking people that
664
00:42:06,931 --> 00:42:10,517
they have all the tools
665
00:42:10,586 --> 00:42:12,103
and they don't do much.
666
00:42:12,172 --> 00:42:13,620
- Problem is there's my kid
667
00:42:13,689 --> 00:42:16,000
in the middle of it all.
668
00:42:16,068 --> 00:42:19,103
So, I want to be
close to my kid.
669
00:42:19,172 --> 00:42:21,275
- [Alberto] As you should be.
670
00:42:21,344 --> 00:42:22,448
And you're just
being a good dad,
671
00:42:22,517 --> 00:42:25,068
a normal person, a normal dad,
672
00:42:25,137 --> 00:42:27,241
by trying to be
close to your son
673
00:42:27,310 --> 00:42:29,413
and give him all the knowledge
674
00:42:29,482 --> 00:42:31,931
and love that you can.
675
00:42:32,000 --> 00:42:32,310
- [Jason] Yep.
676
00:42:39,206 --> 00:42:41,931
I see similarities between
what you're going through
677
00:42:42,000 --> 00:42:46,137
and what I went through
when my parents split up.
678
00:42:46,206 --> 00:42:49,068
I asked my mom about how
their marriage ended.
679
00:43:26,172 --> 00:43:27,172
- All right.
680
00:43:27,241 --> 00:43:29,724
- [Jason] Your
grandmother doesn't want
681
00:43:29,793 --> 00:43:32,137
to talk about her kids
being hurt by the divorce.
682
00:43:32,206 --> 00:43:33,965
I understand.
683
00:43:34,034 --> 00:43:35,103
I don't want you to be hurt
684
00:43:35,172 --> 00:43:37,862
by your mom and me splitting up.
685
00:43:37,931 --> 00:43:39,448
[soft music]
686
00:43:45,068 --> 00:43:47,103
I miss you so much.
687
00:43:47,172 --> 00:43:48,724
I go to Austin to visit you.
688
00:43:50,413 --> 00:43:53,931
On the way there, I stop
in Utah to see my dad.
689
00:43:56,689 --> 00:43:57,724
- I'm ready for the lesson.
690
00:43:57,793 --> 00:43:58,586
Okay, go for it.
691
00:44:12,724 --> 00:44:13,724
Right or left.
692
00:44:30,379 --> 00:44:35,172
- [Jason] Yeah, good.
693
00:44:37,034 --> 00:44:39,103
When you were growing up,
694
00:44:39,172 --> 00:44:41,448
you always wanted to
be kind of creative
695
00:44:41,517 --> 00:44:43,482
and do stuff with film.
696
00:44:43,551 --> 00:44:45,103
And you have another
side to this.
697
00:44:45,172 --> 00:44:47,896
It's the music side of it.
698
00:44:47,965 --> 00:44:51,206
So you did some when
you were probably
699
00:44:51,275 --> 00:44:54,206
in your late teens and stuff.
700
00:44:54,275 --> 00:44:56,482
You had a band going strong.
701
00:44:56,551 --> 00:44:59,000
You did a little Canadian tour.
702
00:44:59,068 --> 00:45:02,103
- But your dad used to play
703
00:45:02,172 --> 00:45:04,275
a really good classical piano.
704
00:45:04,344 --> 00:45:09,344
- Oh yeah, Jase should
keep the ball rolling
705
00:45:10,551 --> 00:45:14,379
by keeping on that
musical family line,
706
00:45:14,448 --> 00:45:18,379
so to speak, from my dad
through me through you.
707
00:45:18,448 --> 00:45:20,586
And I can bring him over,
708
00:45:20,655 --> 00:45:24,655
I'll go wherever he is
and show him the ropes.
709
00:45:24,724 --> 00:45:26,068
- Thanks a lot.
710
00:45:26,137 --> 00:45:27,206
That's very helpful.
711
00:45:27,275 --> 00:45:28,758
- That's what
fathers are for, yes.
712
00:45:30,103 --> 00:45:31,517
Teaching you how to play piano.
713
00:45:35,103 --> 00:45:36,896
- I didn't realize it but
714
00:45:36,965 --> 00:45:38,482
you went through a
lot of the same things
715
00:45:38,551 --> 00:45:40,206
I went through.
716
00:45:40,275 --> 00:45:42,068
- Very true.
717
00:45:42,137 --> 00:45:45,241
It's just getting used
to an empty house.
718
00:45:45,310 --> 00:45:47,172
Coming back to an empty house.
719
00:45:47,241 --> 00:45:50,655
But after some
time, things heal.
720
00:45:50,724 --> 00:45:51,827
Because you guys
are still around,
721
00:45:51,896 --> 00:45:54,137
so I could see you
from time to time.
722
00:45:54,206 --> 00:45:57,034
Your situation,
that's more traumatic.
723
00:45:58,413 --> 00:46:01,275
- It's a matter of getting
used to it in time, I guess.
724
00:46:03,034 --> 00:46:04,965
I decide then and there
725
00:46:05,034 --> 00:46:08,482
not to let time and distance
be an obstacle for us.
726
00:46:12,137 --> 00:46:14,827
- [Flight Attendant]
Up, need up.
727
00:46:16,206 --> 00:46:18,000
- Here we go.
728
00:46:18,068 --> 00:46:21,241
[upbeat mellow music]
729
00:46:26,965 --> 00:46:27,310
- Do you need help?
- No!
730
00:46:31,206 --> 00:46:35,344
- Jase and I, we got a
really cool train yesterday.
731
00:46:37,241 --> 00:46:40,862
And it's the same color as,
732
00:46:40,931 --> 00:46:43,103
it's his favorite
color, is blue.
733
00:46:43,172 --> 00:46:44,758
Do you want to show
them the train?
734
00:46:44,827 --> 00:46:46,620
Show the camera the train.
735
00:46:46,689 --> 00:46:48,103
Yeah!
736
00:46:48,172 --> 00:46:49,896
It's so cool.
737
00:46:49,965 --> 00:46:51,448
Where we're going now.
738
00:46:51,517 --> 00:46:53,448
Now when we're
together in Austin,
739
00:46:53,517 --> 00:46:55,862
it's just you and me.
740
00:46:56,758 --> 00:46:58,448
And my care aides.
741
00:46:58,517 --> 00:46:59,862
And your babysitters.
742
00:47:01,275 --> 00:47:02,172
We're gonna go there.
743
00:47:02,241 --> 00:47:03,896
Do you want to go see a monkey?
744
00:47:03,965 --> 00:47:06,724
I need to be in Texas with you.
745
00:47:06,793 --> 00:47:08,827
I just have to
make sure my carer
746
00:47:08,896 --> 00:47:11,724
will be comfortable navigating.
747
00:47:11,793 --> 00:47:13,655
[phone ringing]
748
00:47:13,724 --> 00:47:15,137
- [Andrew] It's Andrew,
how can I help you today?
749
00:47:15,206 --> 00:47:21,068
- Hi, I'm calling if you
know details about home care.
750
00:47:21,137 --> 00:47:22,137
- Yeah, that's right.
751
00:47:39,448 --> 00:47:40,896
- I'm just wondering
if there's a way
752
00:47:40,965 --> 00:47:44,586
to stay at home rather
than be admitted.
753
00:47:44,655 --> 00:47:47,275
Would I have to be in one
of these nursing homes then?
754
00:47:56,724 --> 00:47:58,137
- And then you're
still only able to get
755
00:47:58,206 --> 00:48:02,310
between 40 and 50 hours a week.
756
00:48:14,793 --> 00:48:16,275
- As part of my research,
757
00:48:16,344 --> 00:48:19,000
I interview people
with disabilities
758
00:48:19,068 --> 00:48:21,689
and their supporters in Texas.
759
00:48:23,586 --> 00:48:27,034
So I found out that
Texas is one of the
760
00:48:27,103 --> 00:48:32,068
worst places to come to
be a person on Medicaid.
761
00:48:33,275 --> 00:48:35,379
So I guess the question
is, is that the case?
762
00:48:35,448 --> 00:48:37,896
- Oh yeah, it's
absolutely the case.
763
00:48:37,965 --> 00:48:41,586
In fact, the rankings
you've seen are correct.
764
00:48:41,655 --> 00:48:45,068
Texas, its most
recent one ranks 50th
765
00:48:45,137 --> 00:48:46,827
in community services
for people with
766
00:48:46,896 --> 00:48:48,448
intellectual and
developmental disabilities.
767
00:48:48,517 --> 00:48:52,172
So, that includes the
district of Columbia,
768
00:48:52,241 --> 00:48:53,793
so there's 51 on the list.
769
00:48:53,862 --> 00:48:57,068
So there's, somebody's
below us but
770
00:48:57,137 --> 00:49:00,000
we're right down there at the
very bottom of the barrel.
771
00:49:00,068 --> 00:49:02,172
- [Jason] So, do
you have an answer
772
00:49:02,241 --> 00:49:04,448
as to what I can do to
be closer to my son?
773
00:49:07,620 --> 00:49:09,931
- I've thought about this
774
00:49:10,000 --> 00:49:11,655
as long as you and
I have been talking.
775
00:49:11,724 --> 00:49:15,241
We've done phone calls
and emails and stuff.
776
00:49:15,310 --> 00:49:20,310
And it's almost like
you'd have to reconfigure
777
00:49:21,137 --> 00:49:22,620
your life entirely, Jason.
778
00:49:22,689 --> 00:49:26,724
And by that, you would maybe
have to find a partner,
779
00:49:26,793 --> 00:49:30,000
a life partner, who
would be willing
780
00:49:30,068 --> 00:49:32,862
to move to Texas with you
781
00:49:32,931 --> 00:49:37,137
and fill in the gaps
that you would lose.
782
00:49:37,206 --> 00:49:39,965
That you'd lose in
Medicaid coverage.
783
00:49:40,034 --> 00:49:45,000
Because I just can't see
that you could come here,
784
00:49:45,689 --> 00:49:46,586
be close to your son,
785
00:49:46,655 --> 00:49:48,172
and find yourself in a position
786
00:49:48,241 --> 00:49:50,034
that the only way you
can get the care you need
787
00:49:50,103 --> 00:49:51,896
is to go into a nursing home.
788
00:49:51,965 --> 00:49:54,758
And you'd find yourself, again,
789
00:49:54,827 --> 00:49:58,068
isolated from the child
you want to be close to.
790
00:49:58,137 --> 00:50:00,689
This is just insane.
791
00:50:03,206 --> 00:50:06,551
- So, what do you think I
should know in my situation?
792
00:50:06,620 --> 00:50:08,137
I want to be closer to my son,
793
00:50:08,206 --> 00:50:10,137
but I can't move here without
794
00:50:10,206 --> 00:50:11,620
going into a nursing home
795
00:50:11,689 --> 00:50:15,931
or getting the minimum
amount of hours.
796
00:50:16,000 --> 00:50:17,793
- We tell our New York
brothers and sisters,
797
00:50:17,862 --> 00:50:19,965
it's a different world.
798
00:50:20,034 --> 00:50:21,172
It really is.
799
00:50:21,241 --> 00:50:23,137
It's the nature of
the Medicaid program.
800
00:50:23,206 --> 00:50:26,965
It's always been a
state federal share.
801
00:50:27,034 --> 00:50:28,413
Different than Medicare.
802
00:50:29,586 --> 00:50:33,172
Medicaid dollars
are only drawn down
803
00:50:33,241 --> 00:50:35,724
by how much money
the state puts up.
804
00:50:35,793 --> 00:50:38,103
There's no income tax in Texas.
805
00:50:38,172 --> 00:50:42,344
So, it makes our whole
revenue base much lower
806
00:50:42,413 --> 00:50:43,931
than other states.
807
00:50:45,137 --> 00:50:46,206
- [Jason] So how do
people with disabilities
808
00:50:46,275 --> 00:50:49,000
even survive here in Texas?
809
00:50:49,896 --> 00:50:52,482
- I have a dramatic brain injury
810
00:50:54,896 --> 00:50:59,862
caused by a motor
vehicle accident.
811
00:51:02,137 --> 00:51:04,586
- Most people don't know
anything about disabled people
812
00:51:04,655 --> 00:51:07,344
until they have a loved
one that becomes disabled
813
00:51:07,413 --> 00:51:09,758
or they're disabled themselves.
814
00:51:09,827 --> 00:51:11,275
That's the wrong
time to find out
815
00:51:11,344 --> 00:51:13,827
that we're on the
short end of the stick.
816
00:51:13,896 --> 00:51:15,551
It doesn't make any
sense to have one state
817
00:51:15,620 --> 00:51:17,103
that has one set of rules,
818
00:51:17,172 --> 00:51:19,137
that people would
have to actually
819
00:51:19,206 --> 00:51:20,965
move to a state or
move somewhere else
820
00:51:21,034 --> 00:51:22,275
other than their home
821
00:51:22,344 --> 00:51:25,000
to get certain benefits.
822
00:51:26,344 --> 00:51:29,000
- [Jason] Maybe I could
live in a neighboring state.
823
00:51:33,551 --> 00:51:35,310
[phone ringing]
824
00:51:51,655 --> 00:51:52,655
[phone ringing]
825
00:52:04,413 --> 00:52:06,034
- [Machine] One moment
while we transfer you
826
00:52:06,103 --> 00:52:07,931
to a customer service
representative.
827
00:52:16,551 --> 00:52:16,655
- Oh.
828
00:52:18,551 --> 00:52:20,413
I zeroed in on the healthcare
829
00:52:20,482 --> 00:52:22,379
across the different
states in the US.
830
00:52:24,413 --> 00:52:26,620
I look at every
state in the country
831
00:52:26,689 --> 00:52:30,000
to see how well they support
people with disabilities.
832
00:52:31,103 --> 00:52:32,448
Topping the charts,
833
00:52:32,517 --> 00:52:36,275
Arizona, Vermont, Michigan,
834
00:52:36,344 --> 00:52:39,620
New Hampshire, and
the lovely Hawaii.
835
00:52:39,689 --> 00:52:41,241
And down at the bottom,
836
00:52:41,310 --> 00:52:45,344
we find Illinois, Arkansas,
837
00:52:45,413 --> 00:52:48,413
Mississippi, Montana,
838
00:52:48,482 --> 00:52:50,620
and Texas.
839
00:52:51,793 --> 00:52:54,068
Of the 50 states
plus Washington DC,
840
00:52:54,137 --> 00:52:55,896
New York is number
one for supporting
841
00:52:55,965 --> 00:52:57,379
people with disabilities,
842
00:52:57,448 --> 00:52:59,551
while Texas clocks in at 50.
843
00:53:01,551 --> 00:53:03,551
[thunder rumbles]
844
00:53:06,586 --> 00:53:10,827
These basic support services
for people with disabilities
845
00:53:10,896 --> 00:53:12,379
are a human right.
846
00:53:18,275 --> 00:53:20,413
[muffled chatting]
847
00:53:23,965 --> 00:53:25,620
The only way to live in Texas
848
00:53:25,689 --> 00:53:28,068
is to live in a nursing home.
849
00:53:28,137 --> 00:53:29,862
- Okay, one, two, three.
850
00:53:31,172 --> 00:53:32,551
- [Jason] So, I give it a try.
851
00:53:33,862 --> 00:53:35,344
[soft music]
852
00:53:42,172 --> 00:53:43,344
[knocking]
853
00:53:43,413 --> 00:53:44,586
- [Nurse] Good morning.
854
00:53:46,068 --> 00:53:48,172
- Could you push it up?
855
00:53:48,241 --> 00:53:50,793
- Up in the front?
- Yeah, yeah.
856
00:53:53,137 --> 00:53:55,172
Yeah, that's--
857
00:53:55,241 --> 00:53:56,172
- [Nurse] Is that good?
858
00:53:56,241 --> 00:53:57,344
Can you see it?
859
00:53:57,413 --> 00:54:00,413
Oh, here. [laughs]
- I can't see it.
860
00:54:00,482 --> 00:54:02,586
Can you put a
washcloth on my face?
861
00:54:02,655 --> 00:54:04,517
- [Nurse] Just a warm
washcloth sitting on there?
862
00:54:04,586 --> 00:54:06,896
Okay, yeah, let me
get a clean one.
863
00:54:09,034 --> 00:54:10,206
I don't know if that's--
864
00:54:10,275 --> 00:54:12,310
- No, I mean, if you
could just get the--
865
00:54:12,379 --> 00:54:14,172
- [Nurse] Oh, just
want it over your eyes.
866
00:54:14,241 --> 00:54:15,724
Okay, sorry.
867
00:54:15,793 --> 00:54:18,068
I thought you meant to open
your pores or something.
868
00:54:18,137 --> 00:54:19,724
[laughs] Sorry.
869
00:54:28,172 --> 00:54:30,103
You're on thin liquids?
870
00:54:30,172 --> 00:54:31,344
- Nope.
871
00:54:31,413 --> 00:54:33,482
- [Nurse] Does he
need thickened liquids
872
00:54:33,551 --> 00:54:35,689
or is he on thin liquids?
873
00:54:36,965 --> 00:54:38,413
- What do you mean?
874
00:54:38,482 --> 00:54:39,517
- [Nurse] I just
want to make sure
875
00:54:39,586 --> 00:54:41,310
'cause I don't wanna choke you.
876
00:54:43,413 --> 00:54:46,896
- Regular liquids is fine.
- Regular, okay.
877
00:54:48,103 --> 00:54:49,551
One more drink?
878
00:54:49,620 --> 00:54:50,586
- No.
- Okay.
879
00:54:51,862 --> 00:54:53,344
[soft music]
880
00:55:07,586 --> 00:55:09,827
- [Jason] So his name is Jase.
881
00:55:09,896 --> 00:55:11,068
- Jase?
- Jase.
882
00:55:13,344 --> 00:55:14,275
Yeah.
883
00:55:16,068 --> 00:55:17,551
Yeah, he's four years old.
884
00:55:19,482 --> 00:55:21,655
The old people here
are older than me.
885
00:55:22,896 --> 00:55:24,827
They're all older people.
886
00:55:24,896 --> 00:55:26,413
But they're really nice.
887
00:55:29,172 --> 00:55:30,586
- Let's go.
- Yeah, let's go.
888
00:55:31,620 --> 00:55:34,689
- Let's go.
- Yeah, let's go.
889
00:55:34,758 --> 00:55:36,379
- Hey, let's go.
890
00:55:36,448 --> 00:55:38,000
- Okay, let's go.
891
00:55:44,517 --> 00:55:45,793
Say bye, Jase.
892
00:55:45,862 --> 00:55:46,793
- Bye.
893
00:55:46,862 --> 00:55:47,655
- Bye.
894
00:55:49,068 --> 00:55:52,517
- It turns out that
50 to 60% of people
895
00:55:52,586 --> 00:55:55,724
die within the first year
of living in a nursing home.
896
00:55:57,793 --> 00:55:59,068
Jase, I want to say to you
897
00:55:59,137 --> 00:56:01,379
that I want to be
here with you but
898
00:56:03,275 --> 00:56:05,344
I would die a slow death
899
00:56:06,206 --> 00:56:09,137
or die a pretty quick death.
900
00:56:09,206 --> 00:56:13,172
So, sorry, but I'm not
gonna be able to do this.
901
00:56:14,931 --> 00:56:15,551
So, see you later.
902
00:56:24,344 --> 00:56:25,827
When I get back to New York,
903
00:56:25,896 --> 00:56:28,448
I asked my mom what she
thinks about the nursing home.
904
00:56:31,137 --> 00:56:34,172
- [Marianne] Do you want
to live in Austin, Texas?
905
00:56:34,241 --> 00:56:36,068
- I would live in Austin, Texas
906
00:56:36,137 --> 00:56:38,206
if it was okay to live there.
907
00:56:38,275 --> 00:56:39,758
- So is there a
guarantee that you have
908
00:56:39,827 --> 00:56:42,068
your own place to
live with caregivers?
909
00:56:42,137 --> 00:56:43,896
Is that a guarantee right now?
910
00:56:43,965 --> 00:56:46,000
Now, next month, is
there a guarantee?
911
00:56:47,448 --> 00:56:48,137
- I don't have a choice.
- This is your choice.
912
00:56:48,206 --> 00:56:49,448
You have a choice.
913
00:56:49,517 --> 00:56:51,103
You have a choice to
live independently here
914
00:56:51,172 --> 00:56:53,000
or you have a choice-
- Or to be by my son?
915
00:56:53,068 --> 00:56:55,413
- Or to be institutionalized.
916
00:56:55,482 --> 00:56:56,620
- The choice is
917
00:56:56,689 --> 00:56:57,517
to be by my son.
- Your son might not
918
00:56:57,586 --> 00:56:58,620
be able to visit you that often,
919
00:56:58,689 --> 00:57:00,172
and you think 'cause you're--
920
00:57:00,241 --> 00:57:01,344
- What if I was in there--
921
00:57:01,413 --> 00:57:01,482
- He has the,
922
00:57:03,620 --> 00:57:04,379
well who's gonna bring him there
923
00:57:04,448 --> 00:57:05,482
to visit you every day?
924
00:57:07,000 --> 00:57:08,137
Who's gonna bring him there
to visit you every day?
925
00:57:08,206 --> 00:57:10,482
It doesn't happen in reality.
926
00:57:10,551 --> 00:57:12,068
It doesn't happen.
927
00:57:12,137 --> 00:57:13,793
So then you know what,
you have to make a choice.
928
00:57:13,862 --> 00:57:16,689
Either be in an institution
in some other state
929
00:57:16,758 --> 00:57:19,103
or be here where you
can live independently
930
00:57:19,172 --> 00:57:20,482
in your own place.
931
00:57:20,551 --> 00:57:24,103
And do what you love to do.
932
00:57:24,172 --> 00:57:25,965
I mean, documentaries.
933
00:57:26,034 --> 00:57:27,655
And I think that's
what you should aim for
934
00:57:27,724 --> 00:57:30,206
because life is short
and then we die anyway.
935
00:57:35,103 --> 00:57:37,172
- [Jason] There's
one more option.
936
00:57:37,241 --> 00:57:39,827
You and your mom could
move back to New York.
937
00:57:41,275 --> 00:57:43,206
I make a hard decision.
938
00:57:43,275 --> 00:57:46,068
I go to Queen's
County Family Court.
939
00:57:47,620 --> 00:57:50,137
I asked that you and your
mom return to New York
940
00:57:50,206 --> 00:57:51,689
as soon as possible.
941
00:57:54,482 --> 00:57:56,758
I'm so certain that
the family court
942
00:57:56,827 --> 00:58:00,206
will understand how
important it is for a father
943
00:58:00,275 --> 00:58:02,000
to be with his son
944
00:58:02,068 --> 00:58:06,172
that it will quickly order
you and your mom to return.
945
00:58:08,137 --> 00:58:10,172
I'm assigned a court
appointed lawyer
946
00:58:10,241 --> 00:58:12,620
and the court makes
its first decision.
947
00:58:13,655 --> 00:58:16,793
That I get daily
Skype calls with you.
948
00:58:16,862 --> 00:58:17,827
- Mom, no.
949
00:58:17,896 --> 00:58:18,379
- [Alice] Okay, that's fine.
950
00:58:22,000 --> 00:58:23,344
- Why'd you do that?
- No.
951
00:58:24,724 --> 00:58:26,000
- [Jason] Jase,
why'd you do that?
952
00:58:26,068 --> 00:58:28,448
What's that, what's that?
953
00:58:28,517 --> 00:58:30,344
[yells]
954
00:58:30,413 --> 00:58:33,034
- I don't want to talk to Dad.
955
00:58:33,103 --> 00:58:36,620
- [Jason] But I
want to talk to you.
956
00:58:40,793 --> 00:58:45,000
- [Jason] The apartment
10E is really nice.
957
00:58:45,068 --> 00:58:47,241
The outside is really nice
958
00:58:47,310 --> 00:58:49,482
and the Empire State
Building is outside.
959
00:58:52,344 --> 00:58:53,620
- [Jase] You're a bad daddy.
960
00:58:53,689 --> 00:58:56,310
- I'm a good daddy and
you're my best friend.
961
00:58:57,275 --> 00:58:58,517
Jase, what are you making?
962
00:59:00,275 --> 00:59:01,275
What's that?
963
00:59:02,689 --> 00:59:04,931
What's that, oh jeez.
964
00:59:06,827 --> 00:59:09,482
[mumbling]
- [Alice] Yes, Jason.
965
00:59:39,724 --> 00:59:41,655
My relationship with you
966
00:59:41,724 --> 00:59:43,896
is much better in person.
967
00:59:45,137 --> 00:59:48,896
So I start traveling to
Texas as much as I can.
968
00:59:48,965 --> 00:59:50,551
- [Man] Do you want to go
down and ride the bear?
969
00:59:50,620 --> 00:59:53,344
- [Jason] Let's not
ride the bear, Jase.
970
00:59:53,413 --> 00:59:54,758
- No.
971
00:59:54,827 --> 00:59:56,275
- No, I don't think
that's a good idea.
972
00:59:56,344 --> 00:59:57,689
- Daddy said no.
973
00:59:58,758 --> 01:00:01,172
[soft music]
974
01:00:28,310 --> 01:00:29,758
And then the guy goes ah!
975
01:00:29,827 --> 01:00:30,620
- Ah!
976
01:00:32,137 --> 01:00:34,620
[soft music]
977
01:00:54,172 --> 01:00:57,862
[blowing]
Blow it, blow it.
978
01:00:57,931 --> 01:00:59,758
[cheering]
979
01:00:59,827 --> 01:01:01,241
- [Alice] Good job.
980
01:01:01,310 --> 01:01:03,275
- [Jason] It's the big four.
981
01:01:03,344 --> 01:01:05,517
- [Alice] Nice one.
982
01:01:05,586 --> 01:01:07,896
- [Jason] Jase is the big four.
983
01:01:07,965 --> 01:01:10,137
- There you go.
- Good job.
984
01:01:11,517 --> 01:01:13,965
- Look at all this smoke.
985
01:01:14,034 --> 01:01:16,689
- [Jason] Happy
birthday to Jase.
986
01:01:18,517 --> 01:01:20,344
Look at that, Jase.
987
01:01:20,413 --> 01:01:24,827
It's your very first
remote control helicopter.
988
01:01:27,517 --> 01:01:29,172
- I want to open it.
989
01:01:29,241 --> 01:01:32,034
[blades whirring]
990
01:01:38,551 --> 01:01:39,275
- [Jason] Jase, you're
really good at it.
991
01:01:39,344 --> 01:01:41,034
- I wanted it to turn.
992
01:01:42,620 --> 01:01:43,413
Yes!
993
01:01:44,827 --> 01:01:47,758
[machine whirring]
994
01:01:49,137 --> 01:01:50,482
[squealing]
995
01:01:54,689 --> 01:01:57,448
[sirens blaring]
996
01:01:57,517 --> 01:01:59,482
- [Paramedic] Gonna check
your blood sugar, okay?
997
01:02:01,448 --> 01:02:02,724
Is that okay, Jason?
998
01:02:02,793 --> 01:02:04,379
- [Jason] I didn't know
how much the stress
999
01:02:04,448 --> 01:02:05,413
and travel were affecting me.
1000
01:02:06,551 --> 01:02:10,103
Until I had my
first ever seizure
1001
01:02:10,172 --> 01:02:11,758
while I'm still in Texas.
1002
01:02:12,965 --> 01:02:15,655
[sirens blaring]
1003
01:02:25,551 --> 01:02:27,034
I want to see you,
1004
01:02:27,103 --> 01:02:29,793
but I don't want to
get any more seizures.
1005
01:02:29,862 --> 01:02:31,344
So I stop traveling.
1006
01:02:37,413 --> 01:02:41,413
Meanwhile, I go to
court periodically,
1007
01:02:41,482 --> 01:02:42,310
but nothing else happens.
1008
01:02:45,448 --> 01:02:48,655
The legal case is stressful
and time consuming.
1009
01:02:51,137 --> 01:02:53,448
But going to court
felt like the only way
1010
01:02:53,517 --> 01:02:56,793
I can make sure that I see
you as much as possible.
1011
01:03:04,206 --> 01:03:07,068
Meanwhile, with your
mom no longer here,
1012
01:03:07,137 --> 01:03:10,551
it's important to have a
relationship in my life.
1013
01:03:12,000 --> 01:03:14,310
Can you say something
about looking for
1014
01:03:16,517 --> 01:03:20,620
that special someone or
looking for love or anything?
1015
01:03:20,689 --> 01:03:22,551
- [Assistant] So it should
be in your self summary.
1016
01:03:22,620 --> 01:03:24,551
We'll make this enjoying
life, creating films,
1017
01:03:24,620 --> 01:03:27,068
and trying to make the
world a better place.
1018
01:03:27,137 --> 01:03:28,344
- Just say, looking
for something real.
1019
01:03:28,413 --> 01:03:32,344
- [Assistant] Looking
for something real.
1020
01:03:33,413 --> 01:03:35,413
Do you not say anything
about having MS?
1021
01:03:36,827 --> 01:03:38,344
- No, no.
1022
01:03:38,413 --> 01:03:41,000
We decided not to say
anything about that on here.
1023
01:03:41,068 --> 01:03:42,793
- [Assistant] Isn't
that catfishing?
1024
01:03:42,862 --> 01:03:44,103
- Actually, that's
a really good point.
1025
01:03:44,172 --> 01:03:46,724
On another one, no,
it's not catfishing.
1026
01:03:46,793 --> 01:03:48,413
- [Assistant] Are you
sure, it's the same thing.
1027
01:03:48,482 --> 01:03:49,413
- No, it's not.
1028
01:03:50,241 --> 01:03:52,241
What is catfishing?
1029
01:03:52,310 --> 01:03:54,172
- [Assistant] Where
you meet someone
1030
01:03:54,241 --> 01:03:56,793
and it's not what they
portrayal in mind.
1031
01:03:59,137 --> 01:04:00,655
- Is that all catfishing is?
1032
01:04:00,724 --> 01:04:02,000
- [Assistant] Yeah.
1033
01:04:02,068 --> 01:04:05,137
If you put up a photo
of you from 2002.
1034
01:04:05,206 --> 01:04:06,620
So, these are your photos?
1035
01:04:06,689 --> 01:04:08,137
- Yeah.
- Okay, then you're fine.
1036
01:04:08,206 --> 01:04:10,000
You're not catfishing.
1037
01:04:10,068 --> 01:04:12,551
- So okay, let's go to a
different website then.
1038
01:04:13,551 --> 01:04:18,137
So go to Bumble,
that's the other one.
1039
01:04:18,206 --> 01:04:19,862
To use, this
website's interesting
1040
01:04:19,931 --> 01:04:22,931
because the girls
make the first choice
1041
01:04:23,000 --> 01:04:27,896
of whether they want to meet
up or really talk to you.
1042
01:04:27,965 --> 01:04:30,000
So you can choose
whoever you want but
1043
01:04:30,068 --> 01:04:32,620
they are the ones that
actually end up choosing.
1044
01:04:32,689 --> 01:04:35,275
See, I'm totally doing
this by looks right now.
1045
01:04:36,206 --> 01:04:38,482
That's a yes.
1046
01:04:38,551 --> 01:04:40,000
Yes.
1047
01:04:40,068 --> 01:04:41,137
- [Assistant] So wait, I
thought you had blurred vision.
1048
01:04:41,206 --> 01:04:42,655
How are you all of a
sudden able to have such
1049
01:04:42,724 --> 01:04:45,482
good vision to pick
girls' attractiveness?
1050
01:04:45,551 --> 01:04:47,862
- 'Cause you hold
something close up to me.
1051
01:04:47,931 --> 01:04:49,379
This is close enough to see.
1052
01:04:52,103 --> 01:04:54,000
See how my life has changed?
1053
01:04:54,068 --> 01:04:55,793
I had to go online.
1054
01:04:57,000 --> 01:05:00,137
Swiping left or right
on dating profiles.
1055
01:05:00,206 --> 01:05:01,000
No.
1056
01:05:02,517 --> 01:05:03,482
No.
1057
01:05:05,034 --> 01:05:07,862
It's funny what I have to
do to entertain myself.
1058
01:05:07,931 --> 01:05:09,241
To not go crazy.
1059
01:05:09,310 --> 01:05:10,241
No.
1060
01:05:12,034 --> 01:05:12,793
Yes.
1061
01:05:17,862 --> 01:05:21,931
As much as I tried to work
up enthusiasm for dating,
1062
01:05:22,000 --> 01:05:25,793
my heart is with the four
year old living in Texas.
1063
01:05:28,758 --> 01:05:30,172
- Hi, Daddy.
1064
01:05:30,241 --> 01:05:32,275
- [Jason] Hi, my friend.
1065
01:05:32,344 --> 01:05:34,551
You're my best friend.
1066
01:05:34,620 --> 01:05:36,862
Hi, best friend.
1067
01:06:27,103 --> 01:06:29,172
I'm watching you grow up
1068
01:06:29,241 --> 01:06:30,482
in the four corners
of a computer screen.
1069
01:06:33,620 --> 01:06:36,103
[soft music]
1070
01:06:43,689 --> 01:06:46,655
The court process is
a race against time.
1071
01:06:48,344 --> 01:06:51,758
I'm here for a custody hearing.
1072
01:06:51,827 --> 01:06:56,482
And hopefully I'll be
able to get something
1073
01:06:56,551 --> 01:06:58,965
out of today because
I didn't realize
1074
01:06:59,034 --> 01:07:02,689
how slow the court process is.
1075
01:07:02,758 --> 01:07:03,793
- [Bailor] You swear to
tell the whole truth,
1076
01:07:03,862 --> 01:07:05,172
no matter, before this court?
1077
01:07:05,241 --> 01:07:06,862
- [Alice] Yes.
1078
01:07:06,931 --> 01:07:07,724
- [Bailor] Your name?
1079
01:07:07,793 --> 01:07:09,793
- [Alice] Alice Cook.
1080
01:07:09,862 --> 01:07:11,241
- [Bailor] You swear to
tell the whole truth?
1081
01:07:11,310 --> 01:07:12,241
- [Jason] Yep.
1082
01:07:12,310 --> 01:07:13,137
- [Bailor] Your name, sir?
1083
01:07:13,206 --> 01:07:15,517
- Jason DaSilva.
- Thank you.
1084
01:07:17,206 --> 01:07:18,517
- [Jason] Then the judge ruled
1085
01:07:18,586 --> 01:07:20,034
that you will visit
me in New York
1086
01:07:20,103 --> 01:07:21,586
one weekend each month.
1087
01:07:23,344 --> 01:07:25,275
At last, I can see more of you.
1088
01:07:26,103 --> 01:07:28,724
- Now let's see the other one.
1089
01:07:29,896 --> 01:07:32,034
The other one.
- Just be careful.
1090
01:07:32,103 --> 01:07:34,551
- [Jase] There's more than one.
1091
01:07:51,551 --> 01:07:54,000
[soft music]
1092
01:07:57,689 --> 01:07:58,344
- Let Grandpa play.
1093
01:08:09,137 --> 01:08:11,620
[soft music]
1094
01:08:19,827 --> 01:08:21,068
- I just bang on--
- And Mr. Piggy's
1095
01:08:21,137 --> 01:08:21,379
going to watch you.
1096
01:08:23,206 --> 01:08:26,000
[keys clinking]
1097
01:08:29,310 --> 01:08:30,517
Okay, now play
with your fingers.
1098
01:08:30,586 --> 01:08:32,275
That's your palms, now these.
1099
01:08:34,551 --> 01:08:35,586
There you go.
1100
01:08:38,241 --> 01:08:39,620
- [Jason] Yeah,
that's how, Jase.
1101
01:08:39,689 --> 01:08:42,896
- That wasn't it, I was
just pressing the same ones.
1102
01:08:42,965 --> 01:08:45,551
[keys clinking]
1103
01:08:46,827 --> 01:08:48,344
[soft music]
1104
01:08:51,931 --> 01:08:54,379
- [Ed] You've got it.
1105
01:08:54,448 --> 01:08:56,896
[soft music]
1106
01:09:13,413 --> 01:09:16,482
- I know what I'm
gonna do next time.
1107
01:09:17,620 --> 01:09:20,068
- This is the first time
1108
01:09:20,137 --> 01:09:24,103
that I'm gonna be spending
the night with you
1109
01:09:24,172 --> 01:09:26,413
in three years.
1110
01:09:26,482 --> 01:09:27,896
It's gonna be really exciting
1111
01:09:27,965 --> 01:09:30,931
and we're gonna spend a
whole weekend together.
1112
01:09:31,000 --> 01:09:33,517
- If you need me, you just
tap me on the shoulder, okay?
1113
01:09:33,586 --> 01:09:37,241
- [Jason] My brother Daniel
helps me take care of you.
1114
01:09:37,310 --> 01:09:39,034
- There's a distress
call to PURST,
1115
01:09:39,103 --> 01:09:42,379
P-U-R-S-T, Pets of the Universe
1116
01:09:42,448 --> 01:09:45,482
Ready for Space
Travel Command Center.
1117
01:09:45,551 --> 01:09:47,000
Ruff, woof.
1118
01:09:47,068 --> 01:09:48,310
Look at all the animals here.
1119
01:09:50,000 --> 01:09:51,758
- [Jason] Jase, what
animals are there?
1120
01:09:51,827 --> 01:09:53,034
- Cats.
1121
01:09:53,103 --> 01:09:54,344
- And, yeah just
cats, you're right.
1122
01:09:54,413 --> 01:09:57,137
- It's all cats?
- That's a dog though.
1123
01:09:58,758 --> 01:10:00,344
- [Jason] It's the
best night I've had
1124
01:10:00,413 --> 01:10:02,344
in a long, long time.
1125
01:10:10,137 --> 01:10:11,689
On our next court date,
1126
01:10:11,758 --> 01:10:14,310
the judge proposes we
settle up the case.
1127
01:10:15,896 --> 01:10:18,344
Three hours later,
it was all over.
1128
01:10:20,344 --> 01:10:22,103
You will live in Texas,
1129
01:10:22,172 --> 01:10:25,068
but will come to see me
more than twice as much.
1130
01:10:26,724 --> 01:10:29,758
I'm sad that you
won't be moving back,
1131
01:10:29,827 --> 01:10:31,586
but of course, I'm
glad that I'll be able
1132
01:10:31,655 --> 01:10:32,931
to see more of you.
1133
01:10:34,448 --> 01:10:36,965
[soft music]
1134
01:10:40,137 --> 01:10:42,068
I decide to risk traveling
1135
01:10:42,137 --> 01:10:43,310
because I can't miss
your fifth birthday.
1136
01:10:48,724 --> 01:10:50,758
[blowing]
1137
01:10:50,827 --> 01:10:53,620
[cheering and clapping]
1138
01:10:53,689 --> 01:10:57,103
- Good job, little buddy.
- That's a great job.
1139
01:10:57,172 --> 01:10:59,344
Jase is so big.
- Look at this big cake.
1140
01:10:59,413 --> 01:11:02,172
- Five years old.
- Wait, what is all that?
1141
01:11:02,241 --> 01:11:04,793
What is all that?
- That's your candy too.
1142
01:11:04,862 --> 01:11:06,103
Here you go, buddy.
1143
01:11:06,172 --> 01:11:07,172
- Yay.
- Wow.
1144
01:11:09,172 --> 01:11:10,482
- Is it good?
- Yes.
1145
01:11:10,551 --> 01:11:11,655
- Yeah!
1146
01:11:15,275 --> 01:11:17,931
Your grandfather comes
to Austin to visit
1147
01:11:18,000 --> 01:11:20,172
and we talk more
about our marriages.
1148
01:11:20,241 --> 01:11:21,793
Maybe it's me.
1149
01:11:21,862 --> 01:11:24,482
- Looking back, how could
you have made things
1150
01:11:24,551 --> 01:11:27,413
different in trying to save
your marriage with Alice?
1151
01:11:29,517 --> 01:11:32,862
And hopefully making
it better for Jase.
1152
01:11:32,931 --> 01:11:34,275
- I've thought about that.
1153
01:11:36,310 --> 01:11:37,206
Many times.
1154
01:11:37,275 --> 01:11:42,103
So I think just being a better,
1155
01:11:43,413 --> 01:11:47,068
more supportive
person with Alice,
1156
01:11:47,137 --> 01:11:51,482
and then also being more open.
1157
01:11:51,551 --> 01:11:54,724
It's tough to go backwards
and think about it.
1158
01:11:54,793 --> 01:11:55,655
Do you ever do that?
1159
01:11:55,724 --> 01:11:57,517
Do you ever think backwards?
1160
01:11:58,862 --> 01:12:00,896
- Of course, I think
I've done no wrong.
1161
01:12:00,965 --> 01:12:02,206
[laughs]
1162
01:12:02,275 --> 01:12:05,068
- Do you wish that you
did anything different?
1163
01:12:05,137 --> 01:12:07,137
Like how it affected us?
1164
01:12:07,206 --> 01:12:10,103
Would you have done
anything differently?
1165
01:12:10,172 --> 01:12:12,068
- Yes and no.
1166
01:12:12,137 --> 01:12:14,068
We've been through some
kind of counseling.
1167
01:12:14,137 --> 01:12:15,275
Didn't work.
1168
01:12:15,344 --> 01:12:17,000
But I think Mom had
made up her mind.
1169
01:12:17,068 --> 01:12:19,793
She's had enough and
1170
01:12:21,000 --> 01:12:23,482
took it one step further
and just walked away.
1171
01:12:23,551 --> 01:12:25,344
- Through this film I worked on,
1172
01:12:25,413 --> 01:12:30,103
at least pass on to
Jase to show that
1173
01:12:30,172 --> 01:12:33,137
cycles don't need
to be passed on.
1174
01:12:33,206 --> 01:12:36,655
And maybe he can
break the cycle.
1175
01:12:36,724 --> 01:12:39,827
I know my dad's comment
that my mom just left
1176
01:12:39,896 --> 01:12:41,482
is at best an
oversimplification.
1177
01:12:43,965 --> 01:12:45,068
Maybe I'll never
know what happened
1178
01:12:45,137 --> 01:12:46,758
with my parents' marriage.
1179
01:12:48,724 --> 01:12:51,172
[soft music]
1180
01:12:55,137 --> 01:12:56,931
Every day, I think back to when
1181
01:12:57,000 --> 01:12:58,206
we were all together.
1182
01:12:59,448 --> 01:13:01,862
I have to make peace
with things falling apart
1183
01:13:01,931 --> 01:13:05,793
and with my own responsibility
for letting it happen.
1184
01:13:08,586 --> 01:13:11,655
I do hope you break the
cycle of separation,
1185
01:13:11,724 --> 01:13:14,241
but even if you
can't, don't worry.
1186
01:13:15,172 --> 01:13:17,241
We make mistakes.
1187
01:13:17,310 --> 01:13:17,379
We're imperfect.
1188
01:13:19,862 --> 01:13:22,068
But we do the best we can.
1189
01:13:25,448 --> 01:13:26,793
I think about you.
1190
01:13:29,862 --> 01:13:30,344
I think about me.
1191
01:13:35,241 --> 01:13:37,172
I think about our family.
1192
01:13:37,241 --> 01:13:39,758
[soft music]
1193
01:13:57,137 --> 01:13:59,724
As you grow up, at some point,
1194
01:13:59,793 --> 01:14:02,586
I may not be able to
see you or talk to you.
1195
01:14:06,103 --> 01:14:08,793
I may not live to
see you as an adult.
1196
01:14:11,206 --> 01:14:12,965
I wonder what you will become.
1197
01:14:14,310 --> 01:14:16,827
[soft music]
1198
01:14:47,896 --> 01:14:49,172
When I was a little boy,
1199
01:14:49,241 --> 01:14:53,275
I was a really fast runner.
- I'm the fast one.
1200
01:14:54,103 --> 01:14:57,241
- So you are five years old now
1201
01:14:58,137 --> 01:15:00,517
and I want you to know that
1202
01:15:01,793 --> 01:15:06,689
I am still gonna be
there all the time.
1203
01:15:09,689 --> 01:15:14,689
So I'll be there
whenever you need me,
1204
01:15:15,344 --> 01:15:18,551
even if I'm in New York
1205
01:15:18,620 --> 01:15:22,000
or in Texas.
1206
01:15:22,068 --> 01:15:24,551
'Cause all I do is think about
1207
01:15:26,551 --> 01:15:28,310
how much I love you.
1208
01:15:29,448 --> 01:15:31,310
I'll always be there,
no matter what.
1209
01:15:33,137 --> 01:15:34,862
'Cause I'm your dad.
1210
01:15:36,206 --> 01:15:37,620
And you're my boy.
1211
01:15:41,275 --> 01:15:43,586
And that's what I
wanted to say to you.
1212
01:15:43,655 --> 01:15:46,034
Okay, let's go.
- Get the camera closer.
1213
01:15:46,103 --> 01:15:48,620
- So, Jase is gonna
be the director.
1214
01:15:48,689 --> 01:15:51,689
He said, what do you
want him to do, Jase?
1215
01:15:53,172 --> 01:15:55,551
- Get closer, get closer.
1216
01:15:55,620 --> 01:15:57,793
Closer, closer, even closer.
1217
01:15:57,862 --> 01:15:58,931
There you go.
1218
01:15:59,896 --> 01:16:01,724
- So on the count of three.
1219
01:16:01,793 --> 01:16:03,137
One, two, three.
1220
01:16:05,068 --> 01:16:07,482
We're done and cut.
- We're done and cut.
1221
01:16:10,551 --> 01:16:13,517
[mellow rock music]
1222
01:16:36,000 --> 01:16:38,206
♪ This strange ♪
1223
01:16:38,275 --> 01:16:43,275
♪ Plan is random at best ♪
1224
01:16:47,965 --> 01:16:50,103
♪ This strange ♪
1225
01:16:50,172 --> 01:16:54,482
♪ How much more can I take ♪
1226
01:17:00,137 --> 01:17:02,586
♪ This strange ♪
1227
01:17:02,655 --> 01:17:07,068
♪ Change in atmosphere ♪
1228
01:17:07,137 --> 01:17:09,793
♪ And in gravity too ♪
1229
01:17:09,862 --> 01:17:12,793
♪ And it's severity ♪
1230
01:17:12,862 --> 01:17:15,241
♪ This strange ♪
1231
01:17:15,310 --> 01:17:19,275
♪ Day is almost over ♪
1232
01:17:19,344 --> 01:17:22,482
♪ Just started to ♪
1233
01:17:22,551 --> 01:17:25,896
♪ Get sick of it ♪
1234
01:17:25,965 --> 01:17:27,724
♪ And it's strange ♪
1235
01:17:27,793 --> 01:17:29,379
♪ But oh well ♪
1236
01:17:31,206 --> 01:17:33,413
[mellow rock music]
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