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male narrator: IN APRIL 1992,
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A 24-YEAR-OLD HIKER,
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CHRISTOPHER MCCANDLESS,
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WALKED INTO ALASKA'S
SNOW-COVERED WILDERNESS
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BY HIMSELF.
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"THIS IS THE LAST
YOU'LL HEAR FROM ME,"
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HE WROTE A FRIEND.
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"I NOW WALK INTO THE WILD."
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HIS JOURNAL SAYS
THAT ON THE FOURTH DAY,
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HE CAME UPON A FAIRBANKS CITY
TRANSIT BUS
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ABANDONED
ON AN OLD MINING TRAIL.
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HE SPENT 110 DAYS
LIVING OFF THE LAND.
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HE HAD NOT SPOKEN TO HIS FAMILY
FOR TWO YEARS.
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NOBODY KNEW HE WAS THERE.
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- HE DIDN'T TALK TO ANYBODY.
THAT'S A FACT.
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- NO--NO COMMUNICATION
WITH ANYBODY HE KNEW.
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- YEAH.
SO HE--HE KNEW--
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I'M SURE THAT HE KNEW
THAT I AND BILLY
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WOULD BE LOOKING FOR HIM.
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AND WE DID.
WE TRIED TO.
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narrator: CHRIS ULTIMATELY
SUCCUMBED TO STARVATION
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AND DIED ALONE.
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HIS BODY WAS FOUND BY HUNTERS
A FEW WEEKS LATER.
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THEY ALSO FOUND BOOKS FILLED
WITH NOTES, FIVE ROLLS OF FILM,
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AND A DAILY JOURNAL
ON THE BLANK PAGES
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OF A FIELD GUIDE
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TO NATIVE PLANTS
OF THE ALASKAN WILDERNESS.
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HIS STORY, TOLD IN A BOOK
AND A FILM, MADE HIM FAMOUS.
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INSTEAD OF DISAPPEARING,
HE BECAME A LEGEND.
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BUT FOR THE PEOPLE
WHO LOVED CHRIS,
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IT'S ALWAYS
BEEN MORE PERSONAL THAN THAT.
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- IT'S SO PEACEFUL.
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narrator: TODAY,
THREE OF CHRIS' SISTERS
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HAVE MADE THE TREK TO THE BUS
TOGETHER FOR THE FIRST TIME.
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- ONE OF THE GREATEST
MISUNDERSTANDINGS
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PEOPLE HAVE ABOUT CHRIS' STORY
AS THEY KNOW IT SO FAR,
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HOW MUCH HE WAS HURTING
WHEN HE LEFT.
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AND--AND WHY THAT IS.
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- YOU KNOW, IT'S NOT JUST CHRIS.
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IT'S JUST A LOT OF THINGS.
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- I KNOW.
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- WE UNDERSTOOD THE THINGS
THAT HAUNTED EACH OTHER.
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THAT'S SOMETHING THAT WE DIDN'T
REALLY SHARE WITH OTHER PEOPLE.
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narrator: BUT THEY HAVEN'T COME
TO GRIEVE.
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THEY SAY THEY'VE COME
TO FILL THE GAPS IN THE STORY.
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FILL THEM WITH FAMILY SECRETS
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THEY SAY THEY'VE BEEN
SILENT ABOUT FOR TOO LONG.
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SECRETS THAT HAVE TORN
THE MCCANDLESS FAMILY APART.
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AND THAT MAY HELP EXPLAIN WHAT
BROUGHT CHRIS TO THIS PLACE
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TO LIVE AND TO DIE ALONE.
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EVERY SPRING, YOUNG HIKERS STILL
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MAKE THE TOUGH, TWO-DAY TREK
TO THE 142.
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- THERE'S SOMETHING
ABOUT BEING HERE
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BRINGS OUT SOMETHING
DEEP WITHIN THEM.
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narrator: FOR MORE THAN TWO
DECADES,
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THEY'VE BEEN LEAVING TRIBUTES
TO CHRIS INSIDE THE OLD BUS.
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- THIS BOOK IS FULL OF PEOPLE
WHO HAVE--
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A LOT OF WHOM HAVE TRAVELED
ALL ACROSS THE WORLD
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JUST TO BE HERE.
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narrator: THEY'RE STRANGERS
WHO REVERE CHRIS MCCANDLESS.
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TO THEM, HIS IS THE STORY
OF A YOUNG MAN
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JUST ABOUT THEIR AGE WHO HAD
THE COURAGE TO SLIP THE BONDS
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OF A COMFORTABLE MIDDLE CLASS
EXISTENCE,
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BURN HIS MONEY,
AND LIVE APART.
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SO COMMITTED TO DEFYING
CONVENTIONAL NOTIONS OF SUCCESS,
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HE ULTIMATELY GAVE HIS LIFE
FOR IT.
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- LIVE BEFORE YOU DIE.
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YOU KNOW, HOW MANY
OF US ACTUALLY DO THAT?
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HOW MANY OF US ACTUALLY LIVE?
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OR DO WE JUST EXIST?
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- MANY PEOPLE WHO HAVE CRIED
AT THE BUS,
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IT'S REALLY INSPIRATIONAL
FOR THOSE PEOPLE.
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EVEN JUST READING THE LOG BOOKS
IN THE BUS,
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YOU SEE ALL
OF THESE DIFFERENT PEOPLE
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WHO HAVE MADE THEIR WAY
OUT TO, YOU KNOW,
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THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE, ALASKA,
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TO SEE THIS PLACE
WHERE MCCANDLESS LIVED AND DIED.
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narrator: BUT IT MAY BE
THAT WHAT DRAWS SO MANY PEOPLE
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TO CHRIS' SAGA
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IS HOW LITTLE
THEY REALLY KNOW ABOUT HIM.
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- WHEN I THINK THAT PEOPLE
SAY LIKE, "OH, I KNOW CHRIS,"
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IT'S REALLY THE SORT OF
PART OF--PART OF YOURSELF
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THAT YOU SEE IN CHRIS.
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narrator: YEARS AGO,
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THERE WAS ANOTHER VISITOR
TO THE BUS...SEAN PENN,
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WHO WROTE AND DIRECTED THE FILM
INTO THE WILD.
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A FILM THAT TURNED CHRISTOPHER
MCCANDLESS INTO AN ICON.
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- THE HEART OF WHAT WAS
ESSENTIAL ABOUT THE STORY TO ME
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WAS PART OF ALL OF US.
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AND IT WAS EVERYBODY'S STORY.
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IT WAS A BIG...SHOCKING,
BEAUTIFUL...
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DANGEROUS, FULFILLING WORLD.
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AND TO DIVE
INTO THAT SWIMMING POOL
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LIKE THAT IS SOMETHING
WE ALL WANT TO DO, SOMEHOW.
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narrator: BUT LONG BEFORE HE
WAS A HERO TO SO MANY PEOPLE,
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HE WAS SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT
TO HIS LITTLE SISTER, CARINE.
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- THEY WERE SOUL MATES.
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THEY WERE MEANT
TO BE TOGETHER ON THIS EARTH.
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HE WAS HER PROTECTOR.
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CHRIS PROTECTED CARINE.
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THEY WERE INCREDIBLY CLOSE.
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DEEP, DEEP, DEEP LOVE
FOR EACH OTHER.
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- HE WANTED TO GET UP
TO THE SUMMIT.
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HE WANTED TO GET
TO THE HARDEST PART
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AND GET THERE THE MOST
DIFFICULT WAY POSSIBLE.
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BUT HE DIDN'T WANT
TO MISS ANYTHING ALONG THE WAY.
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I STILL FEEL LIKE HE'S
WALKING WITH ME SOMETIMES.
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narrator: THEY WERE LITERALLY
THE CHILDREN
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OF A ROCKET SCIENTIST.
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WALT WAS A RENOWNED AERONAUTICAL
ENGINEER WHO WORKED FOR NASA.
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BY ALL APPEARANCES,
THEY LED A CHARMED LIFE.
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- OUR PARENTS ACTUALLY
GOT US OUT IN NATURE
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FROM A VERY EARLY AGE.
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CAMPING AND ALWAYS TENT CAMPING.
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AND WE HIKED A LOT
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IN THE SHENANDOAH AREAS
WHERE WE ARE TODAY.
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MOM ALWAYS PACKED GREAT SNACKS
FOR US TO HAVE,
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AND WE ALWAYS MADE TRAIL MIX
AND SHE MADE A GREAT TRAIL MIX.
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narrator: CHRIS LOVED
CHALLENGING HIMSELF
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IN THE OUTDOORS
FROM THE TIME HE WAS VERY SMALL.
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- THE FIRST TIME
THAT I TOOK CHRIS
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ON A SERIOUS TRIP TO SHENANDOAH
AREA WAS CLIMBING OLD RAG.
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TWO OF MY BUDDIES AT NASA
HEADQUARTERS WANTED TO DO THIS,
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AND I SAID, "CAN I BRING CHRIS?"
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AND THEY SAID,
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"AS LONG AS YOU DON'T HAVE
TO CARRY HIM DOWN."
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HE WAS EIGHT YEARS OLD.
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HE CARRIED A BACKPACK
AND HE CARRIED HIS SLEEPING BAG,
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AND THAT'S ABOUT IT.
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AND DID GREAT.
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- HE PUSHED HIMSELF
TO THE LIMIT.
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IT WASN'T A CHALLENGE TO HIM
IF IT WASN'T A CHALLENGE.
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AND IF HE KNEW EXACTLY
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HOW THE ADVENTURE WAS GONNA PAN
OUT AT THE END,
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IT WASN'T AN ADVENTURE.
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narrator: BUT CARINE SAYS
THAT NATURE OFFERED
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SOMETHING MORE THAN
JUST A CHALLENGE.
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IT WAS, IN MANY WAYS,
A SANCTUARY.
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- I THINK ONE OF THE THINGS
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THAT ATTRACTED US AS CHILDREN
TO BEING OUT IN NATURE
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IS THOSE WERE THE MOST PEACEFUL
TIMES WITH MY PARENTS.
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THERE WASN'T FIGHTING OUT HERE.
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WE FELT SAFER OUTSIDE
OF OUR HOME.
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AND WE FELT SAFER WITH
OUR PARENTS OUTSIDE OF OUR HOME
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IF WE WERE OUT IN NATURE
OR OUT, YOU KNOW,
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OUTSIDE OF WHERE, YOU KNOW,
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WHERE ALL OF THE THINGS THAT HAD
TO STAY HIDDEN HAD TO...LIVE.
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narrator: BECAUSE CARINE
SAYS AT HOME,
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THINGS WERE CONFUSING
AND VOLATILE.
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NOW, MORE THAN 20 YEARS
AFTER HER BROTHER'S DEATH,
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CARINE HAS WRITTEN A BOOK
THAT SHE SAYS HELPS EXPLAIN
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WHY HER BROTHER DECIDED
TO CUT OFF TIES WITH HIS FAMILY
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AND MAKE THE JOURNEY
THAT ENDED IN HIS DEATH.
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- "THE CONSTANT MISCONCEPTIONS
ABOUT MY BROTHER
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"MADE ME WANT TO CRY
OUT THE REAL REASONS
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"WHY WALKING INTO THE WILD
WAS FAR FROM CRAZY,
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BUT THE SANEST THING
CHRIS COULD HAVE DONE."
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I WANT PEOPLE
TO LEARN FROM CHRIS.
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I THINK CHRIS WOULD WANT THAT.
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narrator: AND NOW, CARINE
IS RELEASING PORTIONS OF LETTERS
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SHE GOT FROM CHRIS
WHEN HE WAS IN COLLEGE,
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AND JUST AFTER.
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IN WHICH HE DESCRIBES
THEIR CHILDHOODS.
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- "THE EVENTS THAT WE SUFFERED
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"ARE SO OUTLANDISH
IN THEIR PROPORTION
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"THAT IT IS USELESS TO TRY
TO EXPLAIN THEM TO ANYBODY,
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BECAUSE THEY
WILL NEVER BELIEVE YOU."
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THE MEMORIES
THAT I HAVE AREN'T ALL BAD.
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BUT IT'S IMPORTANT
TO ACKNOWLEDGE
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THE TUMULTUOUS
CHILDHOOD THAT WE HAD.
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narrator: AND CARINE SAYS IT WAS
THAT WAY
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FOR AS LONG
AS THEY COULD REMEMBER.
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WHEN CHRIS WAS BORN,
HIS PARENTS, WALT AND BILLIE,
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WERE LIVING TOGETHER
IN EL SEGUNDO,
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OUTSIDE OF LOS ANGELES.
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BUT JUST 20 MINUTES AWAY,
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WALT HAD ANOTHER FAMILY.
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HE WAS STILL MARRIED
TO HIS FIRST WIFE,
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MARSHA MCCANDLESS,
HIS HIGH SCHOOL SWEETHEART,
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WHO ALREADY HAD FIVE CHILDREN
WITH HIM,
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ONE BORN JUST MONTHS
BEFORE CHRIS.
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- SO MY MOTHER WAS PREGNANT AND
GIVES BIRTH
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TO MY BROTHER IN NOVEMBER.
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AND CHRIS IS BORN IN FEBRUARY.
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SO BOTH WOMEN WERE PREGNANT
AT THE SAME TIME.
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narrator: AND EVEN AS HE
STARTED HIS FAMILY WITH BILLIE,
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WALT REMAINED MARRIED TO MARSHA.
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IN FACT,
HE HAD ANOTHER CHILD WITH HER.
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- QUINN WAS BORN
BETWEEN CHRIS AND I.
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- QUINN WAS BORN
TWO DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS.
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AND HE CAME HOME,
I BELIEVE, ON CHRISTMAS DAY.
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AND MY MOTHER WAS LEFT
ALONE WITH FIVE KIDS
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AND A BABY ON CHRISTMAS DAY.
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HE WASN'T--HE JUST WASN'T THERE.
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HE LEFT.
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narrator: FOR NEARLY FIVE YEARS,
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WALT SPLIT HIS TIME
LIVING BETWEEN HIS TWO FAMILIES
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IN HIS TWO HOMES.
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- IT ALWAYS SEEMED
LIKE IT WAS--IT WAS ON AND OFF.
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HE WOULD BE THERE FOR A FEW
WEEKS, THEN HE'D BE GONE.
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THEN HE WOULD COME BACK.
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THEN HE'D BE GONE.
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- THAT WASN'T A HEALTHY
HOUSEHOLD.
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EVEN AS A CHILD
I JUST KNEW THAT.
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THAT THERE WAS FEAR INVOLVED.
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narrator: AND ACCORDING TO TWO
OF WALT'S DAUGHTERS WITH MARSHA,
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WHEN WALT WAS IN THEIR HOUSE,
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HE OFTEN ERUPTED IN VERBAL ABUSE
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AND PHYSICAL VIOLENCE
AGAINST THEIR MOTHER.
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- PUNCHING.
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PULLING HAIR.
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UM, KICKING.
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PROBABLY ALL OF THE ABOVE,
REALLY.
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- DID I FEAR FOR MY MOM?
YES.
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I CAN REMEMBER HIDING
WHEN HE CAME HOME ONE DAY.
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HIDING IN THE CLOSET
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BECAUSE HE MUST HAVE
BEEN ANGRY ABOUT SOMETHING
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AND I REMEMBER HIDING.
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THAT'S MY EARLIEST MEMORY
OF I GUESS ANGER AND KIND
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OF BEING IN A VIOLENT HOUSEHOLD.
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- AND THE OTHER SPOT
THAT REALLY RESONATES WITH ME
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IS HIDING
UNDER THE DINING ROOM TABLE.
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I KNOW I WASN'T THE ONLY PERSON
UNDER THAT TABLE.
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IT'S LIKE YOU GROUP
TOGETHER
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TO THAT SPOT.
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THERE'S MORE SAFETY IN NUMBERS.
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- ON SEVERAL OCCASIONS,
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MY MOTHER TOLD ME THAT HE DID
PUT A PILLOW OVER HER FACE
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AS IF TO SUFFOCATE HER.
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narrator: MARSHA WROTE
ABOUT ONE INCIDENT IN A LETTER
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TO A FAMILY COURT.
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- HE PUSHED HER.
HE BROKE HER.
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HE BROKE HER VERTEBRAE.
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- BUT I THINK WHEN YOU'RE ABUSED
LIKE THAT, A PART OF YOU INSIDE,
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YOU'RE JUST DYING
INSIDE THAT SOMEBODY EVERY DAY
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IS TELLING YOU'RE NOTHING,
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OR IT'S YOUR FAULT
THAT YOU GOT HIT.
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YOU MADE THEM DO IT,
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AND AFTERWARDS THEY'RE
REALLY SORRY ABOUT IT.
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AND EVERY DAY,
YOU'RE DYING A LITTLE BIT.
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narrator: IN MARCH 1972,
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MARSHA WAS GRANTED
A RESTRAINING ORDER AGAINST WALT
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BASED ON HER ALLEGATIONS
OF PHYSICAL ABUSE.
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SHE SAID SHE WAS AFRAID OF HIM.
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IN NOVEMBER OF THAT YEAR,
MARSHA AND WALT
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FINALLY DIVORCED WHEN CHRIS
WAS ALMOST FIVE YEARS OLD.
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SHE MOVED WITH HER CHILDREN
TO COLORADO.
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- I THINK SHE'S AN INSPIRATION
TO OTHER WOMEN.
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SHE LEFT WITH SIX KIDS,
NO MONEY, NOTHING,
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AND LEFT.
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narrator: WALT, BILLIE, CHRIS,
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AND CARINE MOVED TO ANNANDALE,
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TEN MILES FROM D.C. WHERE WALT
HAD GOTTEN A JOB WITH NASA.
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- ASTRONAUTS WOULD COME OVER
TO THE HOUSE AND SIT
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AND TALK TO US ABOUT SPACE.
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I MEAN,
WHAT KIDS GET TO DO THAT?
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narrator: WALT AND BILLIE
SEEMED PICTURE-PERFECT PARENTS.
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- MY MOTHER WAS A GREAT ARTIST.
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SHE ALWAYS MADE US
HANDMADE HALLOWEEN COSTUMES.
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I REMEMBER WHENEVER I
WOULD SEE KIDS IN STORE-BOUGHT
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HALLOWEEN COSTUMES I WOULD
ALWAYS FEEL SO BAD FOR THEM.
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narrator: WALT EVEN SAW TO IT
THAT DURING SUMMER VACATIONS,
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THEIR HALF-SIBLINGS,
MARSHA'S CHILDREN,
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CAME TO VISIT THEM.
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- WE HAD PUT A LOT
OF EMPHASIS ON MAKING SURE
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THAT ALL OF THESE KIDS
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KNEW EACH OTHER AND HAD SPENT
TIME WITH EACH OTHER
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WHEN I WORKED AT NASA.
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THE LAST LAUNCH
I WAS A PROJECT MANAGER.
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WE'D TAKE EVERYBODY
TO CALIFORNIA 'CAUSE
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IT WAS GONNA BE
LAUNCHED THERE FOR THREE MONTHS.
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AND, YOU KNOW,
WE ALL PILED IN THE SUBURBAN
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AND WENT OUT THERE.
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narrator: LATER THERE WERE
CRUISES, SKI TRIPS,
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AND WHEN CHRIS AND SHELLY
WERE IN HIGH SCHOOL,
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A TRIP TO AMSTERDAM.
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- AND NOT MANY KIDS CAN SAY
THEY WENT TO AMSTERDAM
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IN HIGH SCHOOL.
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narrator: SHELLY EVEN CAME TO
LIVE WITH THEM HER SENIOR YEAR.
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BUT HIS SISTERS
SAY THAT BEHIND CLOSED DOORS,
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THERE WAS TURMOIL.
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- WE ALL JUST ALWAYS KNEW IT
WAS THERE BECAUSE KEEP IN MIND
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THAT WE WOULD...
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SOME OF US WOULD SPEND
OUR SUMMERS IN VIRGINIA,
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AND SO THAT WAS
A VIOLENT HOUSEHOLD AS WELL.
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narrator: THEY SAY WALT'S VERBAL
AND PHYSICAL ATTACKS
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NOW FOCUSED ON BILLIE.
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- YOU KNOW,
THE VACATIONS WERE NICE
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BUT IT WAS A HARD HOUSEHOLD
TO LIVE IN.
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- I LOOK BACK, YOU KNOW,
AS AN ADULT
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AND IT'S JUST LIKE THE ONE WORD
WOULD BE TOXIC.
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JUST SO...
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SO UNHEALTHY.
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- MY MOTHER
WENT THROUGH SO MUCH.
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YOU KNOW, MY EARLIEST MEMORIES
ARE JUST WE
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WOULD FEEL THE CHARGE
IN THE AIR.
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- IF IT WAS INTENSE,
IT WAS USUALLY AFTER DINNER.
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- WE WOULD HEAR HIM.
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RAISED VOICES AND IT
WOULD GET LOUDER AND LOUDER.
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- WE'D DO THE DISHES
AND THEN JUST, LIKE, SCATTER.
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- CHRIS WOULD USUALLY COME
AND GRAB ME
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AND GET ME OUTSIDE OF THE HOUSE.
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IF WE COULDN'T GET OUT IN TIME,
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WE WERE ALWAYS CALLED
IN TO WITNESS THE VIOLENCE.
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- WELL I THINK IN SOME WAYS
BILLIE WANTED US TO WATCH,
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BUT IT WOULD BECOME LIKE A,
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"WATCH THIS HAPPENING TO ME,"
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ALMOST, YOU KNOW,
ASKING FOR US TO HELP.
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- WE WOULD HEAR MY MOM
SAY, YOU KNOW, "KIDS, KIDS.
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COME LOOK WHAT YOUR FATHER
IS DOING TO ME."
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AND THEN HE WOULD SCREAM AFTER
HER, "KIDS, GET IN HERE, NOW.
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LOOK WHAT YOUR MOTHER
IS MAKING ME DO."
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- "LOOK WHAT YOUR FATHER IS
DOING TO ME."
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"LOOK AT THIS."
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"LOOK AT THAT."
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WE WOULD STAND IN THE DOORWAY
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AND THERE WERE TIMES
WHERE WE TRIED TO PUSH DAD
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OFF OF MOM AND CHRIS
WOULD ALWAYS KEEP ME SAFE.
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YOU KNOW, DAD
WOULD HAVE HER DOWN.
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IT WOULD ALWAYS FOUND ITS WAY
UP INTO THIS PARTICULAR BEDROOM
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IN THE HOUSE, THE GUEST BEDROOM.
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- HEARD A LOT OF CHOKING
AND SHOVING AND CONTAINING.
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- DAD WOULD THROW MOM
DOWN ON THE BED
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AND HE'D BE CHOKING HER
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AND IN BETWEEN HER BREATH SHE
WOULD BE SCREAMING OUT FOR HELP
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AND WHEN HE RELEASED HER
AND WALKED OUT,
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SHE WOULD RUN OVER TO US
AND PUT HER ARMS AROUND US
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AND SHE WOULD APOLOGIZE
TO US.
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AND SHE WOULD SAY,
"I'M SORRY, KIDS.
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"BUT WHEN I GOT PREGNANT
WITH CHRIS
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I GOT STUCK WITH YOUR DAD."
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CHRIS, YOU KNOW, HE'S TOLD
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THROUGHOUT HIS CHILDHOOD
THAT ALL OF THE--
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THAT HEAVINESS AND THE PAIN
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AND THIS...
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CONSTANT PRESSURE AND VIOLENCE
WITHIN THE HOUSEHOLD STEM
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FROM HIS EXISTENCE.
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THAT'S WHAT STARTED IT.
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THAT'S WHAT HE WAS TOLD.
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AND I THINK HE FELT A LOT
OF GUILT AT A YOUNG AGE
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FOR TRAPPING HIS MOTHER
AND HIS SISTER IN THAT.
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- YEAH, THEY WERE REALLY CLOSE.
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AND FOR THEM IT WAS THE TWO
OF 'EM IN THAT HOUSE.
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ESPECIALLY FOR THEM,
IT WAS LIKE SURVIVAL.
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THEY HAD TO SURVIVE TOGETHER.
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- "YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO I
COULD EVER TRULY COMMUNICATE
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WITH ON THIS SUBJECT,
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BECAUSE LIKE ME,
YOU HAVE SEEN THAT OTHER SIDE
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AND EXPERIENCED THE TRAUMA,
FRUSTRATION,
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AND PAIN."
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- JUST REALLY STRESSFUL
AS A CHILD
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TO BE IN A SITUATION LIKE THAT.
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narrator: NONE OF THESE DETAILS
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APPEAR IN THE BOOK THAT MADE
CHRIS MCCANDLESS FAMOUS,
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INTO THE WILD.
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THE AUTHOR, JOHN KRAKAUER,
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NOW SAYS HE KNEW
ABOUT CARINE'S ALLEGATIONS,
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00:20:04,271 --> 00:20:06,973
BUT CARINE ASKED HIM
NOT TO WRITE ABOUT IT.
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- FOR SO MANY YEARS
AFTER CHRIS PASSED AWAY,
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I WAS ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN
THAT MY PARENTS
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00:20:11,278 --> 00:20:12,879
WERE GONNA LEARN FROM HIS DEATH.
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00:20:12,912 --> 00:20:15,181
I WANTED TO GIVE ME PARENTS
THAT OPPORTUNITY.
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00:20:15,214 --> 00:20:16,983
- CHILDREN.
- KIDS!
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00:20:17,016 --> 00:20:18,951
LOOK WHAT YOUR DAD
IS GOING TO ME!
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narrator: IN SEAN PENN'S
AWARD-WINNING MOVIE ABOUT CHRIS,
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THERE IS A SCENE
THAT DEPICTS THE KIND
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00:20:23,456 --> 00:20:26,893
OF VIOLENCE CARINE
AND HER SISTERS RECALL.
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- THAT'S THE SENSATIONALISM
PART.
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narrator: CARINE
WAS A CONSULTANT ON THE FILM
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AND SHE GAVE PENN ACCESS
TO THE LETTERS
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CHRIS HAD WRITTEN HER.
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00:20:37,437 --> 00:20:43,343
- WHEN SEAN PENN DID THE FILM,
I ALLOWED SEAN TO READ THEM.
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MY SIBLINGS HAVEN'T READ THEM.
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I'VE...KEPT THEM
FROM MY PARENTS,
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OUT OF KINDNESS.
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00:20:53,620 --> 00:20:58,057
BUT I'M NOT RELEASING
HIS LETTERS TO HURT MY PARENTS.
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I'M RELEASING PARTS
OF HIS LETTERS
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FOR PEOPLE TO GET
A BETTER UNDERSTAND OF CHRIS.
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00:21:03,430 --> 00:21:06,198
narrator: WALT AND BILLIE
REJECT THE IDEA THAT CHRIS
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DISAPPEARED BECAUSE OF
ANY TENSION IN THEIR HOME.
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- CHRIS WAS ALWAYS INDEPENDENT.
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THAT WAS NEVER GONNA CHANGE.
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IT WAS PART OF HIS DNA.
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00:21:16,409 --> 00:21:19,078
IT HAS NOTHING
TO DO WITH BILLIE OR I.
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00:21:19,111 --> 00:21:21,481
IT WAS...
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IT'S, YOU KNOW, IT'S CHRIS.
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narrator: IN FACT,
WALT AND BILLIE
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HAVE DISMISSED CARINE'S ACCOUNT
OF THEIR HOME LIFE
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AS "FICTITIOUS, HYPED UP,
AND SPITEFUL,"
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00:21:32,058 --> 00:21:35,094
AND SAID, "THIS FICTIONALIZED
WRITING HAS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING
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00:21:35,127 --> 00:21:38,030
"TO DO WITH OUR BELOVED SON
CHRIS, HIS JOURNEY,
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00:21:38,064 --> 00:21:42,369
OR HIS CHARACTER."
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00:21:42,402 --> 00:21:44,203
BUT CARINE SAYS HER BROTHER
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00:21:44,236 --> 00:21:48,475
GREW INCREASINGLY ANGRY
AT WHAT HE CALLED HYPOCRISY.
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- "I DON'T KNOW WHY IT IS,
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00:21:50,343 --> 00:21:53,513
"BUT OUR PARENTS HAVE
TWO-SIDED SPLIT PERSONALITIES,
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00:21:53,546 --> 00:21:56,315
"AND FOR SOME REASON, THEY HAVE
RESERVED THE VERY WORST PART
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OF THEMSELVES SOLELY
FOR YOU AND I ALONE."
401
00:22:01,421 --> 00:22:03,656
narrator: AND THEY WERE KEENLY
AWARE THEY HAD A LIFESTYLE
402
00:22:03,690 --> 00:22:06,225
VERY DIFFERENT
FROM THEIR HALF SIBLINGS.
403
00:22:06,258 --> 00:22:08,127
- BUT THEY GREW UP IN A HOUSE
WHERE APPEARANCES
404
00:22:08,160 --> 00:22:09,729
WERE REALLY IMPORTANT.
405
00:22:09,762 --> 00:22:13,332
MONEY, CARS.
406
00:22:13,366 --> 00:22:15,468
IT WAS IMPORTANT THAT,
YOU KNOW, ON SUNDAY
407
00:22:15,502 --> 00:22:17,269
YOU GO TO CHURCH.
408
00:22:17,303 --> 00:22:22,341
THAT PEOPLE ON THE OUTSIDE
SEE YOU AS THIS PERFECT FAMILY.
409
00:22:22,375 --> 00:22:23,743
BUT THEN, YOU KNOW, HE ALSO
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00:22:23,776 --> 00:22:27,714
KNEW THAT THEN WE'RE LIVING
IN COLORADO
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00:22:27,747 --> 00:22:31,283
AND WE DON'T HAVE
THAT SAME LIFESTYLE.
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00:22:31,317 --> 00:22:34,086
narrator: COURT PAPERS SHOW WALT
AND MARSHA BATTLED FOR YEARS
413
00:22:34,120 --> 00:22:36,022
OVER CHILD SUPPORT PAYMENTS.
414
00:22:36,055 --> 00:22:38,024
WITH WALT CLAIMING AT ONE POINT
415
00:22:38,057 --> 00:22:42,061
HE DID NOT HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO
PAY WHAT THE JUDGE HAD ORDERED.
416
00:22:42,094 --> 00:22:44,130
- WE WEREN'T LIVING RICH.
417
00:22:44,163 --> 00:22:46,365
MY MOM WASN'T ALWAYS GETTING
HER ALIMONY CHECKS FROM MY DAD.
418
00:22:46,399 --> 00:22:48,635
HE WOULD REFUSE
TO PAY HER SOMETIMES.
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00:22:48,668 --> 00:22:50,336
THEY WERE LIVING
A WHOLE DIFFERENT LIFESTYLE
420
00:22:50,369 --> 00:22:51,504
AND HE KNEW
THAT.
421
00:22:51,538 --> 00:22:56,108
I THINK THAT BOTHERED HIM,
AS WELL.
422
00:22:56,142 --> 00:22:58,210
- I THINK WHAT CHRIS
NOTICED SO MUCH,
423
00:22:58,244 --> 00:23:02,348
THE THINGS THAT WE DID THAT COST
THE LEAST AMOUNT OF MONEY ALWAYS
424
00:23:02,381 --> 00:23:08,120
SEEMED TO BE THE HAPPIEST TIMES.
425
00:23:08,154 --> 00:23:09,456
narrator: BUT WALT AND BILLIE
426
00:23:09,489 --> 00:23:11,223
HAVE A DIFFERENT MEMORY
OF THEIR SON...
427
00:23:11,257 --> 00:23:12,559
- HE WAS AN ENTREPRENEUR.
428
00:23:12,592 --> 00:23:15,495
EVEN THOUGH LATER
ON HE DISDAINED MONEY.
429
00:23:15,528 --> 00:23:17,196
WHEN HE WAS A SENIOR
IN HIGH SCHOOL
430
00:23:17,229 --> 00:23:19,466
HE WENT DOOR TO DOOR FOR
A KITCHEN REMODELING COMPANY.
431
00:23:19,499 --> 00:23:22,201
THAT'S HARD TO DO.
432
00:23:22,234 --> 00:23:24,504
HE MADE $7- OR $8,000.
433
00:23:24,537 --> 00:23:26,305
I'M NOT KIDDING.
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00:23:26,338 --> 00:23:28,074
THAT'S A LOT OF MONEY.
435
00:23:28,107 --> 00:23:30,843
HE WENT OUT AND BOUGHT
THE DATSUN WITH HIS MOM'S HELP.
436
00:23:30,877 --> 00:23:32,445
SHE DIDN'T HELP HIM FINANCIALLY
437
00:23:32,479 --> 00:23:34,346
BUT HE CAME HOME,
HE SAYS, "I FOUND A CAR.
438
00:23:34,380 --> 00:23:36,348
I'VE FOUND A CAR. YOU'VE GOT
TO GO MAKE A DEAL FOR ME."
439
00:23:36,382 --> 00:23:37,817
SHE'S A DEAL MAKER.
440
00:23:37,850 --> 00:23:39,218
SHE IS.
441
00:23:39,251 --> 00:23:41,454
SO SHE DID.
442
00:23:41,488 --> 00:23:43,222
narrator: BUT FOR CHRIS,
443
00:23:43,255 --> 00:23:45,825
THE MONEY HE MADE WAS A MEANS
TO A VERY DIFFERENT END
444
00:23:45,858 --> 00:23:47,527
THAN HIS PARENTS SUSPECTED.
445
00:23:47,560 --> 00:23:50,763
- HE WAS GOING TO GO AND TRAVEL.
446
00:23:50,797 --> 00:23:53,099
TAKE THE DATSUN
AND GO ACROSS COUNTRY.
447
00:23:53,132 --> 00:23:56,368
OUR PARENTS WANTED, YOU KNOW,
A DETAILED ITINERARY FROM HIM.
448
00:23:56,402 --> 00:24:00,406
EXACTLY WHERE HE WAS GONNA BE,
WHEN HE WAS GONNA BE THERE.
449
00:24:00,439 --> 00:24:01,808
HE SAID, "YOU KNOW,
450
00:24:01,841 --> 00:24:05,645
THAT'S PART OF THE PLAN
IS TO NOT HAVE A PLAN."
451
00:24:05,678 --> 00:24:09,115
narrator: HIS FRIEND
ANDY HORWITZ SAYS EVEN THEN
452
00:24:09,148 --> 00:24:10,783
HE THOUGHT THAT CHRIS
WAS GOING THROUGH SOMETHING
453
00:24:10,817 --> 00:24:14,521
MORE THAN NORMAL
TEENAGE REBELLION.
454
00:24:14,554 --> 00:24:16,455
- I REMEMBER VIVIDLY
A CONVERSATION.
455
00:24:16,489 --> 00:24:19,125
REMEMBER, LIKE, HIS GRADUATION
PARTY, A BIG PARTY
456
00:24:19,158 --> 00:24:22,562
THAT HIS PARENTS
THREW FOR HIM FROM HIGH SCHOOL
457
00:24:22,595 --> 00:24:24,130
AND, YOU KNOW, I WAS LIKE,
458
00:24:24,163 --> 00:24:25,431
"YOU KNOW, THIS IS REALLY GREAT
459
00:24:25,464 --> 00:24:26,699
THAT YOUR PARENTS
ARE DOING THIS FOR YOU,"
460
00:24:26,733 --> 00:24:29,769
AND, "WHAT A GREAT PARTY,"
461
00:24:29,802 --> 00:24:31,437
AND I COULD JUST--
462
00:24:31,470 --> 00:24:34,240
I KNEW FROM HIS RESPONSE THAT,
463
00:24:34,273 --> 00:24:36,175
YOU KNOW, TOO LITTLE TOO LATE.
464
00:24:36,208 --> 00:24:40,513
THERE WAS NO--
SOME SORT OF DAMAGE
465
00:24:40,547 --> 00:24:43,282
HAD BEEN DONE
THAT WAS SEEMINGLY IRREPARABLE.
466
00:24:46,385 --> 00:24:48,688
narrator: THE TRIP CHRIS
MADE THAT SUMMER IN HIS DATSUN
467
00:24:48,721 --> 00:24:51,558
WOULD TURN OUT TO BE A TRIAL RUN
FOR HIS DISAPPEARANCE
468
00:24:51,591 --> 00:24:53,392
FIVE YEARS LATER.
469
00:24:53,425 --> 00:24:56,563
- HE WAS GONE ALL SUMMER.
BUT THERE WAS A MONTH
470
00:24:56,596 --> 00:24:58,197
AND A HALF WENT
BY THAT WE DIDN'T HEAR FROM HIM.
471
00:24:58,230 --> 00:25:01,768
- YEAH.
- THAT WAS VERY HARD TO TAKE.
472
00:25:01,801 --> 00:25:03,570
VERY.
473
00:25:03,603 --> 00:25:07,707
SO THAT WAS HIS FIRST TRIP
474
00:25:07,740 --> 00:25:10,176
THAT KIND OF HURT THE HEART
475
00:25:10,209 --> 00:25:11,410
A LITTLE BIT, YOU KNOW,
476
00:25:11,443 --> 00:25:13,412
'CAUSE YOU WEREN'T--
477
00:25:13,445 --> 00:25:14,814
YOU JUST DIDN'T KNOW.
478
00:25:22,822 --> 00:25:24,557
narrator: HE RETURNED IN TIME
FOR HIS PARENTS
479
00:25:24,591 --> 00:25:27,226
TO TAKE HIM TO COLLEGE
AT EMORY UNIVERSITY.
480
00:25:31,731 --> 00:25:34,200
HE MADE OTHER TRIPS,
BUT HIS PARENTS POINT OUT
481
00:25:34,233 --> 00:25:37,303
THAT HE ALWAYS
CAME BACK TO ANNANDALE.
482
00:25:37,336 --> 00:25:41,340
- CERTAINLY KIDS GO
THROUGH A PERIOD OF TIME
483
00:25:41,373 --> 00:25:45,511
WHERE THEY DON'T LINE UP EXACTLY
WITH PARENTS, OKAY?
484
00:25:45,544 --> 00:25:48,748
AND SOMETIMES THEY LINE UP
EXACTLY WITH PARENTS.
485
00:25:48,781 --> 00:25:53,452
THERE'S CERTAINLY EQUAL PARTS
OF THAT IN OUR LIFE WITH CHRIS.
486
00:25:53,485 --> 00:25:56,623
I BELIEVE THAT HIS ADVENTURES
487
00:25:56,656 --> 00:26:02,561
HAD MORE TO DO WITH CHRIS
AND HIS...
488
00:26:03,963 --> 00:26:09,001
OUTLOOK ON ALL OF LIFE
THAN ON ANYTHING ELSE.
489
00:26:20,780 --> 00:26:22,448
narrator: HIS HALF-SISTER SHELLY
490
00:26:22,481 --> 00:26:25,584
REMEMBERS THAT AROUND
HIS JUNIOR YEAR OF COLLEGE,
491
00:26:25,618 --> 00:26:30,556
HIS DISDAIN FOR HIS PARENTS'
MONEY HAD BECOME CONTEMPT.
492
00:26:30,589 --> 00:26:33,292
- HE TOLD ME,
493
00:26:33,325 --> 00:26:35,461
"DON'T TAKE ANY MONEY FROM 'EM.
494
00:26:35,494 --> 00:26:36,528
"I KNOW YOU NEED MONEY
TO GO TO COLLEGE,
495
00:26:36,562 --> 00:26:37,830
BUT DON'T TAKE THEIR MONEY."
496
00:26:37,864 --> 00:26:39,832
AND HE MADE IT VERY CLEAR
THAT HE WAS VERY
497
00:26:39,866 --> 00:26:42,669
FED UP WITH THE MONEY SITUATION.
498
00:26:42,702 --> 00:26:45,404
narrator: BY SENIOR YEAR
IN COLLEGE, CHRIS' SIBLINGS
499
00:26:45,437 --> 00:26:47,373
HAD NOTICED A CHANGE.
500
00:26:47,406 --> 00:26:50,009
- BOY, TO THINK THE LAST TIME
I'D EVEN SEEN HIM
501
00:26:50,042 --> 00:26:53,279
WAS PROBABLY THE CHRISTMAS RIGHT
BEFORE HE GRADUATED
502
00:26:53,312 --> 00:26:58,284
AND WE ALL WENT ON A CRUISE.
503
00:26:58,317 --> 00:27:00,720
AND HE JUST KIND OF SEEMED...
504
00:27:00,753 --> 00:27:04,090
NOT DOWN, JUST KIND
OF MORE WITHDRAWN A LITTLE BIT.
505
00:27:06,893 --> 00:27:09,428
narrator: FOUR MONTHS BEFORE
HE GRADUATED,
506
00:27:09,461 --> 00:27:11,030
CHRIS WROTE CARINE, FRUSTRATED.
507
00:27:11,063 --> 00:27:12,899
HE SAID HE'D SENT A LETTER
TO HIS PARENTS
508
00:27:12,932 --> 00:27:16,068
EXPRESSING HIS FEELINGS.
509
00:27:16,102 --> 00:27:18,037
- "I FELT FOR SURE
THAT THAT LETTER
510
00:27:18,070 --> 00:27:21,073
"WOULD FINALLY SHAKE THEM
INTO SOME KIND OF REALITY,
511
00:27:21,107 --> 00:27:23,642
"AND THEN JUST A FEW DAYS AGO,
512
00:27:23,676 --> 00:27:27,313
"I GET THIS STUPID POSTCARD
FROM COLORADO WHERE THEY SKIING,
513
00:27:27,346 --> 00:27:28,647
"AND ALL IT SAYS IN REFERENCE
514
00:27:28,681 --> 00:27:30,649
"TO MY LETTER IS THIS:
515
00:27:30,683 --> 00:27:32,351
'THANKS FOR YOUR LETTER.
516
00:27:32,384 --> 00:27:33,385
'SAVING THEM FOR YOUR CHILDREN
517
00:27:33,419 --> 00:27:35,021
TO READ ONE DAY!'
518
00:27:35,054 --> 00:27:37,356
CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?"
519
00:27:37,389 --> 00:27:39,391
narrator: THE DISTANCE
BETWEEN CHRIS AND HIS PARENTS
520
00:27:39,425 --> 00:27:40,893
CONTINUED TO GROW.
521
00:27:40,927 --> 00:27:43,029
- "THEY ARE JUST TOTALLY
BEYOND HOPE
522
00:27:43,062 --> 00:27:46,866
AND THERE IS NO WAY TO EVER
BRING THEM BACK INTO REALITY."
523
00:27:48,067 --> 00:27:49,869
narrator: IN MAY, 1990,
524
00:27:49,902 --> 00:27:51,871
WALT, BILLIE, AND CARINE
525
00:27:51,904 --> 00:27:56,108
WENT TO ATLANTA
TO CELEBRATE CHRIS' GRADUATION.
526
00:27:56,142 --> 00:27:58,644
- "SINCE THEY WON'T EVER
TAKE ME SERIOUSLY,
527
00:27:58,677 --> 00:28:02,014
I'M JUST GOING TO PLAY ALONG
WITH THEIR LITTLE ACTING GAME."
528
00:28:02,048 --> 00:28:03,649
- WE WANTED TO BUY HIM
A NEW CAR.
529
00:28:03,682 --> 00:28:05,617
HE'D GRADUATED SO BEAUTIFULLY.
- YEAH.
530
00:28:05,651 --> 00:28:07,053
HE DIDN'T WANT IT.
- YOU KNOW,
531
00:28:07,086 --> 00:28:09,889
AND FULFILL THAT AND WE
WANT HIM TO HAVE A NEW CAR
532
00:28:09,922 --> 00:28:10,890
AND HE DIDN'T WANT IT.
533
00:28:10,923 --> 00:28:13,726
DIDN'T WANT ONE.
534
00:28:13,760 --> 00:28:16,128
HE WAS KIND OF INSULTED...
- [chuckles]
535
00:28:16,162 --> 00:28:19,565
- TO THINK THAT WE THOUGHT
HE SHOULD GIVE UP THAT DATSUN.
536
00:28:19,598 --> 00:28:21,133
[laughs]
537
00:28:21,167 --> 00:28:22,668
narrator: THE NEXT DAY,
538
00:28:22,701 --> 00:28:25,137
CHRIS GAVE HIS MOTHER A GIFT
AND A CARD.
539
00:28:25,171 --> 00:28:28,140
- I MEAN, HE WAS DEAD
ON HIS FEET ON THE DAY
540
00:28:28,174 --> 00:28:31,610
AFTER HIS COLLEGE GRADUATION,
YOU KNOW,
541
00:28:31,643 --> 00:28:35,381
BUT HE WAS DETERMINED TO BE
THERE TO TAKE US TO THE AIRPORT
542
00:28:35,414 --> 00:28:37,583
BECAUSE IT WAS MOTHER'S DAY.
543
00:28:40,652 --> 00:28:42,922
- "FOR A FEW MONTHS
AFTER GRADUATION,
544
00:28:42,955 --> 00:28:45,491
"I'M GOING TO LET
THEM THINK THEY ARE RIGHT.
545
00:28:45,524 --> 00:28:47,659
"I'M GOING TO LET THEM THINK
THAT I'M COMING AROUND
546
00:28:47,693 --> 00:28:49,061
"TO SEE THEIR SIDE OF THINGS
547
00:28:49,095 --> 00:28:54,000
AND THAT OUR RELATIONSHIP
IS STABILIZING."
548
00:28:54,033 --> 00:28:57,603
narrator: BY AUGUST, WALT AND
BILLIE WERE BECOMING CONCERNED.
549
00:28:57,636 --> 00:29:01,507
IT HAD BEEN OVER A MONTH SINCE
THEY HAD HEARD FROM THEIR SON.
550
00:29:01,540 --> 00:29:06,012
- "ONCE THE TIME IS RIGHT,
WITH ONE ABRUPT, SWIFT ACTION,
551
00:29:06,045 --> 00:29:08,714
I'M GOING TO COMPLETELY
KNOCK THEM OUT OF MY LIFE."
552
00:29:11,650 --> 00:29:13,085
narrator: THEY DROVE TO ATLANTA
553
00:29:13,119 --> 00:29:14,921
AND FOUND HIS APARTMENT EMPTY,
554
00:29:14,954 --> 00:29:16,722
CHRIS GONE.
555
00:29:16,755 --> 00:29:19,425
- IT WAS STUNNING.
556
00:29:19,458 --> 00:29:20,960
HE HAD LEFT A MESSAGE
WITH THE LADY
557
00:29:20,993 --> 00:29:22,661
THAT OWNED THE APARTMENTS.
558
00:29:22,694 --> 00:29:25,431
SAID HE WAS HEADED FOR FLORIDA
OR SOMEPLACE LIKE THAT.
559
00:29:25,464 --> 00:29:28,167
WHICH OBVIOUSLY WAS NOT TRUE.
560
00:29:28,200 --> 00:29:32,038
- HE JUST LEFT.
- YEAH.
561
00:29:32,071 --> 00:29:34,941
- "I'M GOING
TO DIVORCE THEM AS MY PARENTS.
562
00:29:34,974 --> 00:29:40,746
I'LL BE THROUGH WITH THEM ONCE
AND FOR ALL FOREVER."
563
00:29:40,779 --> 00:29:44,683
- WE BARELY SPOKE
ON THE WAY HOME.
564
00:29:44,716 --> 00:29:49,588
WE JUST DIDN'T KNOW
WHAT TO SAY OR DO OR THINK.
565
00:29:49,621 --> 00:29:51,991
- "MAYBE IT WILL BE DIFFERENT
FOR YOU, CARINE.
566
00:29:52,024 --> 00:29:53,625
"MAYBE ONCE I'M GONE,
567
00:29:53,659 --> 00:29:55,995
THEY WILL LEARN
TO TREAT YOU WITH SOME RESPECT."
568
00:30:00,199 --> 00:30:02,001
narrator: WHEN WALT
AND BILLIE GOT HOME,
569
00:30:02,034 --> 00:30:05,671
THEY LEARNED CHRIS HAD GIVEN
HIMSELF A LONG HEAD START.
570
00:30:05,704 --> 00:30:08,908
ALL THE LETTERS THEY'D WRITTEN
THAT SUMMER RETURNED TO THEM.
571
00:30:08,941 --> 00:30:12,711
- HE HAD IT ALL HELD
AT THE POST OFFICE.
572
00:30:12,744 --> 00:30:17,116
HE PAID TO HAVE IT HELD
FOR FOUR OR FIVE WEEKS
573
00:30:17,149 --> 00:30:20,519
AND THEN HAD IT ALL RETURNED
TO ME IN ONE BIG BUNDLE.
574
00:30:20,552 --> 00:30:21,954
- AND TO CARINE.
575
00:30:21,988 --> 00:30:25,824
- AND THAT--AND TO CARINE, TOO.
576
00:30:25,858 --> 00:30:31,630
I MEAN, THERE'S NO WAY WE COULD
TRACK HIM AFTER ALL THAT TIME.
577
00:30:31,663 --> 00:30:33,165
THAT'S WHEN I FIRST
STARTED RESEARCHING
578
00:30:33,199 --> 00:30:36,802
AND FOUND A PRIVATE EYE.
579
00:30:36,835 --> 00:30:39,038
narrator: THE INVESTIGATOR
LEARNED CHRIS HAD GIVEN AWAY
580
00:30:39,071 --> 00:30:43,175
THE REMAINDER
OF HIS EDUCATION FUND, $24,000,
581
00:30:43,209 --> 00:30:44,877
TO THE CHARITY OXFAM.
582
00:30:51,017 --> 00:30:54,286
BUT BY THE TIME FAMILY
REALIZED HE'D DISAPPEARED,
583
00:30:54,320 --> 00:30:58,057
CHRIS HAD ALREADY TRAVELED
2,000 MILES FROM ATLANTA,
584
00:30:58,090 --> 00:31:01,693
TO A PLACE CALLED THE DETRITAL
WASH IN WESTERN ARIZONA.
585
00:31:06,265 --> 00:31:08,968
WHEN A FLASH FLOOD
SWAMPED HIS CAR,
586
00:31:09,001 --> 00:31:11,570
HE BURIED HIS LICENSE PLATES,
587
00:31:11,603 --> 00:31:13,940
PUT EVERYTHING
HE COULD CARRY IN A BACKPACK,
588
00:31:13,973 --> 00:31:17,944
AND WALKED AWAY.
589
00:31:17,977 --> 00:31:20,679
- HE WAS SO ATTACHED
TO THAT YELLOW DATSUN.
590
00:31:20,712 --> 00:31:22,248
HE REALLY WAS.
591
00:31:22,281 --> 00:31:25,952
THAT WAS HIS--
PART OF HIS SOUL.
592
00:31:25,985 --> 00:31:31,723
I COULD NOT IMAGINE
HIM WALKING AWAY FROM THAT CAR.
593
00:31:31,757 --> 00:31:33,192
narrator: TWO DAYS LATER,
594
00:31:33,225 --> 00:31:36,862
HE PHOTOGRAPHED HIMSELF
BURNING HIS REMAINING MONEY.
595
00:31:36,895 --> 00:31:39,265
- I THINK HE HAD
A FUNDAMENTAL DISDAIN
596
00:31:39,298 --> 00:31:43,235
FOR WHAT I'D CALL THE CHANNELS.
597
00:31:43,269 --> 00:31:46,638
I THINK CHRIS WAS A LONG WAY
598
00:31:46,672 --> 00:31:52,311
FROM MAKING A DECISION
ABOUT WHAT HE WANTED TO DO.
599
00:31:52,344 --> 00:31:55,081
- I THINK
THE MATERIALISTIC ASPECT
600
00:31:55,114 --> 00:31:59,785
FOR IT WAS ONE LAYER OF IT.
601
00:31:59,818 --> 00:32:03,755
THE VIOLENCE WAS ONE LAYER
OF IT.
602
00:32:03,789 --> 00:32:06,292
NOT BEING ACCOUNTABLE
AND TRUTHFUL
603
00:32:06,325 --> 00:32:08,294
AND THAT HE HAD TO GO OUT
AND FIND THE TRUTH HIMSELF, HE
604
00:32:08,327 --> 00:32:11,930
COULDN'T GET IT FROM HIS PARENTS
IS ANOTHER LAYER OF IT.
605
00:32:11,964 --> 00:32:14,233
I JUST THINK IT WAS JUST--
606
00:32:14,266 --> 00:32:16,002
HE HAD TO PEEL THAT ALL OFF.
607
00:32:21,273 --> 00:32:24,710
narrator: CHRIS BEGAN HITCHING
WEST.
608
00:32:24,743 --> 00:32:27,279
LONG BEFORE THE ERA
OF THE SELFIE,
609
00:32:27,313 --> 00:32:31,083
HE SHOT A SERIES OF REMARKABLE
SELF-PORTRAITS USING A TIMER
610
00:32:31,117 --> 00:32:34,720
AND PROPPING HIS FILM CAMERA
UP ON HIS BACKPACK.
611
00:32:37,223 --> 00:32:40,326
WALT AND BILLIE
ONLY SAW THESE PHOTOS LATER.
612
00:32:40,359 --> 00:32:42,661
THEY WERE GIVEN TO THEM
AFTER CHRIS' DEATH
613
00:32:42,694 --> 00:32:44,230
AND THEY'VE NOW GATHERED THEM
INTO A BOOK
614
00:32:44,263 --> 00:32:46,832
CALLED
BACK TO THE WILD.
615
00:32:46,865 --> 00:32:48,634
- BILLIE COULDN'T LOOK AT THEM.
616
00:32:48,667 --> 00:32:49,768
THE PICTURES.
617
00:32:49,801 --> 00:32:51,070
SHE JUST COULDN'T DO IT.
618
00:32:51,103 --> 00:32:53,072
IT WAS HARD FOR ME, BUT I DID.
619
00:32:53,105 --> 00:32:54,973
CATALOGUED THEM ALL.
SCANNED THEM.
620
00:32:55,007 --> 00:32:58,144
HE TOOK OVER 600 PICTURES.
621
00:32:58,177 --> 00:33:00,379
I DIDN'T HAVE ANY IDEA
HE'D TAKEN THAT MANY.
622
00:33:05,917 --> 00:33:07,919
narrator: THE PHOTOS SHOW
BY LATE AUGUST CHRIS
623
00:33:07,953 --> 00:33:09,855
HAD HITCHED
ACROSS THE SIERRA NEVADAS
624
00:33:09,888 --> 00:33:12,791
AND WAS IN CALIFORNIA.
625
00:33:12,824 --> 00:33:17,863
- HE HAD A HALF OF A MILK CRATE
CUT DOWN WITH BERRIES IN IT,
626
00:33:17,896 --> 00:33:20,432
READING HIS STUPID PLANT BOOK.
627
00:33:20,466 --> 00:33:22,334
SO I GOT OUT AND I SAID, "HEY.
628
00:33:22,368 --> 00:33:23,969
WHAT ARE YOU DOING OUT HERE?"
HE SAID,
629
00:33:24,002 --> 00:33:25,371
"I'M WAITING FOR A RIDE."
630
00:33:25,404 --> 00:33:28,174
AND I SAID,
"YOU'RE A LAZY HITCHHIKER.
631
00:33:28,207 --> 00:33:29,375
YOU'LL NEVER GET A RIDE
LIKE THAT."
632
00:33:29,408 --> 00:33:31,110
HE SAID, "ARE YOU GONNA
GIVE ME A RIDE?"
633
00:33:31,143 --> 00:33:33,412
AND I SAID, "YEAH, BECAUSE
NOBODY ELSE IS GOING TO."
634
00:33:33,445 --> 00:33:36,448
HE SAID, "WELL, I GOT A RIDE,
DIDN'T I?"
635
00:33:36,482 --> 00:33:39,685
narrator: BY THE TIME
CHRIS MCCANDLESS MET JAN BURRES,
636
00:33:39,718 --> 00:33:43,255
HE'D GIVEN HIMSELF A NEW NAME,
ALEXANDER SUPERTRAMP.
637
00:33:46,158 --> 00:33:47,926
- HE JUST HAD SO MUCH ENTHUSIASM
638
00:33:47,959 --> 00:33:52,164
FOR BEING OUT IN THE WORLD
ON HIS OWN DOING HIS THING.
639
00:33:54,300 --> 00:33:56,468
AND HE WAS HUNGRY.
HE'D BEEN HUNGRY FOR A WHILE
640
00:33:56,502 --> 00:34:00,839
SO I PRETTY MUCH FED HIM AND HE
TOOK HIS TENT AND ROLLED IT OUT.
641
00:34:00,872 --> 00:34:03,242
HE HAD THE BEST SMILE
IN THE WHOLE WORLD.
642
00:34:03,275 --> 00:34:07,979
THE BEST.
643
00:34:08,013 --> 00:34:10,149
AND WE'D GO CLIMB THE ROCKS
644
00:34:10,182 --> 00:34:14,052
TO SIT ON TOP
OF TO WATCH THE TIDE COME IN.
645
00:34:14,086 --> 00:34:16,788
THAT'S WHEN WE BONDED
AND BECAME FRIENDS.
646
00:34:22,194 --> 00:34:24,196
narrator: OVER THE COURSE
OF THE NEXT TWO YEARS,
647
00:34:24,230 --> 00:34:26,865
CHRIS VISITED JAN A FEW TIMES.
648
00:34:26,898 --> 00:34:29,435
SHE WAS LIVING IN AN OUTSIDER
ENCAMPMENT IN THE DESERT
649
00:34:29,468 --> 00:34:32,204
NICKNAMED THE SLABS.
650
00:34:32,238 --> 00:34:35,207
- HE WOULD INVOLVE HIMSELF
WITH A LOT OF PEOPLE,
651
00:34:35,241 --> 00:34:38,310
BUT HE NEVER GAVE HIMSELF
TO A LOT OF PEOPLE, YOU KNOW,
652
00:34:38,344 --> 00:34:41,046
AND HE DID WITH ME.
653
00:34:41,079 --> 00:34:42,514
HE'D SEEK ME OUT,
654
00:34:42,548 --> 00:34:44,082
WE'D GO SIT AND TALK.
655
00:34:44,116 --> 00:34:48,120
I KNEW THAT HE WAS ANGRY
AT HIS FATHER,
656
00:34:48,154 --> 00:34:49,821
AND I ALWAYS SAW
THAT HE LOVED HIS MOTHER,
657
00:34:49,855 --> 00:34:51,123
THAT HE HAD A TENDERNESS
658
00:34:51,157 --> 00:34:54,025
FOR HIS MOTHER AND A LOVE
FOR HIS MOM.
659
00:34:54,059 --> 00:34:57,028
narrator: AS IT HAPPENED, JAN
HAD LOST TOUCH WITH HER OWN SON
660
00:34:57,062 --> 00:34:58,797
WHO WAS AROUND CHRIS' AGE.
661
00:34:58,830 --> 00:35:00,432
- I DIDN'T KNOW
WHERE MY KID WAS.
662
00:35:00,466 --> 00:35:03,935
HE WAS 18 SOMEWHERE AND HE WAS
OUT BEING 18 AND BEING A MAN
663
00:35:03,969 --> 00:35:08,106
AND HERE WAS THIS GUY ALEX
THAT WAS 22.
664
00:35:08,140 --> 00:35:10,809
SO I SAY, "WHERE'S YOUR MOM?"
665
00:35:10,842 --> 00:35:12,244
HE WOULDN'T SAY ANYTHING.
666
00:35:12,278 --> 00:35:14,446
AND I SAID, "WELL,
YOU NEED TO CALL YOUR PARENTS."
667
00:35:14,480 --> 00:35:17,082
narrator: BUT CHRIS
DID NOT CALL.
668
00:35:17,115 --> 00:35:18,150
- THAT'S THE WORST FEELING
I'VE EVER HAD.
669
00:35:18,184 --> 00:35:20,819
OKAY.
670
00:35:20,852 --> 00:35:23,322
I MEAN,
YOU CAN GET SICK, FEEL BAD.
671
00:35:23,355 --> 00:35:26,192
IT'S WAY WORSE THAN THAT.
672
00:35:26,225 --> 00:35:29,027
AND IT'S LIKE BEING
IN SUSPENDED ANIMATION.
673
00:35:29,060 --> 00:35:30,962
THERE'S NOT MUCH YOU CAN DO.
674
00:35:34,466 --> 00:35:37,169
- EVERY TIME WE HAD TO LEAVE
WITH THE PREMISES,
675
00:35:37,203 --> 00:35:41,039
I DID A NOTE WITH HIS NAME
ON IT ON AN ENVELOPE
676
00:35:41,072 --> 00:35:43,175
AND I TAPED IT TO THE DOOR
677
00:35:43,209 --> 00:35:46,945
AND JUST TELLING HIM
WHERE WE WERE, WHEN WE WENT,
678
00:35:46,978 --> 00:35:51,417
WHEN WE ARE EXPECTED BACK
AND TO CALL US.
679
00:35:51,450 --> 00:35:55,153
JUST CALL AS SOON
AS HE GOT HOME.
680
00:35:55,187 --> 00:35:56,888
AND, BOY, WE'D BE GONE,
681
00:35:56,922 --> 00:35:59,057
WE'D COME BACK AND WALT
WOULD BE DRIVING DOWN THE STREET
682
00:35:59,090 --> 00:36:02,261
AND I'M WATCHING, WATCHING,
WATCHING FOR THE FRONT DOOR.
683
00:36:02,294 --> 00:36:05,063
HERE WAS THAT ENVELOPE,
STILL ON THE FRONT DOOR.
684
00:36:05,096 --> 00:36:07,499
HE HADN'T COME HOME.
685
00:36:10,569 --> 00:36:12,304
- I DON'T KNOW. I LIKE TO THINK
THAT MAYBE HE JUST WAS GONNA
686
00:36:12,338 --> 00:36:14,172
DO THAT FOR A WHILE
687
00:36:14,206 --> 00:36:16,942
AND HE WOULD'VE SHOWN BACK UP
AND MAYBE JUST COME BACK
688
00:36:16,975 --> 00:36:18,410
AND SAY, "YOU KNOW WHAT?
689
00:36:18,444 --> 00:36:20,846
I'M MY OWN PERSON NOW.
I DON'T NEED YOU."
690
00:36:20,879 --> 00:36:23,315
- HE TOLD ME IN ONE OF THE LAST
LETTERS HE SENT TO ME IS,
691
00:36:23,349 --> 00:36:25,317
YOU KNOW,
"I'LL COME BACK AND SEE YOU."
692
00:36:25,351 --> 00:36:27,453
AND EVERY DAY
693
00:36:27,486 --> 00:36:29,888
I CAME HOME FROM WORK, I FIGURED
CHRIS MIGHT BE ON MY PORCH.
694
00:36:29,921 --> 00:36:33,959
- YOU KNOW, THE ONLY PERSON
WHO REALLY MAKES ME FOR
695
00:36:33,992 --> 00:36:36,595
IS CARINE.
696
00:36:36,628 --> 00:36:39,998
THAT HE DIDN'T HAVE CONTACT
WITH HER DURING THAT TIME.
697
00:36:40,031 --> 00:36:41,233
AND I KNOW WHY HE DIDN'T,
698
00:36:41,267 --> 00:36:43,201
BECAUSE THAT WOULD'VE BEEN--
699
00:36:43,235 --> 00:36:44,603
THEY WOULD'VE BEEN ABLE
TO CONNECT WITH HIM.
700
00:36:44,636 --> 00:36:47,373
THEY EVENTUALLY WOULD HAVE.
701
00:36:47,406 --> 00:36:51,209
- WE DID GET THAT ONE SUMMONS
IN THE MAIL
702
00:36:51,243 --> 00:36:54,079
WHEN HE GOT STOPPED
FOR HITCHHIKING.
703
00:36:54,112 --> 00:36:58,016
THAT'S THE ONLY THING THAT WE
HAD THAT HAD A LOCATION ON IT
704
00:36:58,049 --> 00:37:00,519
IN THE WHOLE TIME HE WAS GONE.
705
00:37:00,552 --> 00:37:02,654
- AND THEY WEREN'T REALLY
GETTING ANYWHERE.
706
00:37:02,688 --> 00:37:04,456
THEN YOU KIND OF THINK,
707
00:37:04,490 --> 00:37:08,394
"OKAY, HE JUST
DOESN'T WANT TO BE FOUND.
708
00:37:08,427 --> 00:37:10,228
SO WHERE IS HE
AND WHAT'S HE DOING?"
709
00:37:29,981 --> 00:37:33,685
narrator: HE TRAVELED ACROSS THE
ROCKIES TOWARD THE GREAT PLAINS,
710
00:37:33,719 --> 00:37:37,188
AND IN MONTANA,
HE MET WAYNE WESTERBERG.
711
00:37:37,222 --> 00:37:39,090
- I WAS LOADING SOME THINGS
IN THE PICKUP
712
00:37:39,124 --> 00:37:42,227
AND HE HAD COME WALKING
DOWN THE STREET BASICALLY,
713
00:37:42,260 --> 00:37:43,562
OR THE HIGHWAY,
714
00:37:43,595 --> 00:37:49,301
AND STOPPED AND ASKED ME
IF HE COULD GET A RIDE.
715
00:37:49,335 --> 00:37:50,969
narrator: CHRIS ENDED UP
TAKING A JOB
716
00:37:51,002 --> 00:37:55,073
HELPING OUT
ON WAYNE'S SOUTH DAKOTA FARM.
717
00:37:55,106 --> 00:37:58,510
- YOU KNOW, I GUESS I LIKED HIM
RIGHT OUT OF THE GATE.
718
00:37:58,544 --> 00:37:59,511
I THINK HE WAS ONE
OF THOSE PEOPLE
719
00:37:59,545 --> 00:38:01,380
THAT JUST TRIED TO DROP IN.
720
00:38:01,413 --> 00:38:03,382
HE WASN'T TRYING
TO BE BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE.
721
00:38:03,415 --> 00:38:05,617
HE DIDN'T WANT ANYBODY TO KNOW
THAT HE'D EVER HAD HAD MONEY.
722
00:38:05,651 --> 00:38:07,686
I MEAN, ALL THIS THING
ABOUT HIM, YOU KNOW,
723
00:38:07,719 --> 00:38:11,323
GIVING HIS SAVINGS AWAY AND ALL
THAT THAT CAME OUT LATER.
724
00:38:11,357 --> 00:38:13,191
WE NEVER KNEW ANYTHING
ABOUT THAT.
725
00:38:13,224 --> 00:38:18,664
I MEAN, YOU'D HAVE NEVER KNOWN
HE HAD A DIME TO LIVE ON.
726
00:38:18,697 --> 00:38:21,533
narrator: CARTHAGE IS A SPECK
OF A TOWN ON THE PRAIRIE
727
00:38:21,567 --> 00:38:24,069
WHERE CHRIS
LEARNED TO DRIVE THE THRESHER
728
00:38:24,102 --> 00:38:25,537
AND EARN THE LOCALS' RESPECT.
729
00:38:25,571 --> 00:38:27,473
- I NEVER KNEW ANYTHING
ABOUT HIS PARENTS.
730
00:38:27,506 --> 00:38:30,241
I KNEW THAT HE WAS
FROM THE EAST COAST.
731
00:38:30,275 --> 00:38:32,644
I NEVER ASKED HIM ANYTHING
AND THAT'S ANOTHER THING
732
00:38:32,678 --> 00:38:35,681
THAT HE DIDN'T REALLY LIKE
IS PEOPLE THAT WERE TOO NOSEY.
733
00:38:35,714 --> 00:38:38,484
HE DIDN'T WANT SOMEBODY
GIVING HIM THE TENTH DEGREE.
734
00:38:38,517 --> 00:38:40,251
THAT'S THE ONLY THING I CAN SAY
735
00:38:40,285 --> 00:38:42,287
THAT I WOULD SAY
MADE HIM NERVOUS
736
00:38:42,320 --> 00:38:45,757
IS IF PEOPLE STARTED
ASKING TOO MANY QUESTIONS.
737
00:38:45,791 --> 00:38:47,759
THERE'S THE PICKUP
THAT HE LIKED.
738
00:38:47,793 --> 00:38:49,461
I DON'T KNOW WHY HE
LIKED THAT PICKUP, BUT HE DID,
739
00:38:49,495 --> 00:38:52,063
SO I ALWAYS GAVE IT TO HIM
WHENEVER HE WAS HERE.
740
00:38:52,097 --> 00:38:55,133
HE ENDED UP TRAVELING SEVERAL
TIMES FROM HERE, COMING BACK.
741
00:38:55,166 --> 00:38:57,436
THIS KIND OF BECAME A HUB
FOR HIM.
742
00:38:57,469 --> 00:38:59,538
AND HE HAD HIS MAIL SENT HERE.
743
00:38:59,571 --> 00:39:01,707
HE SENT UP POSTCARDS
AND, YOU KNOW,
744
00:39:01,740 --> 00:39:05,010
PEOPLE GOT TO KNOW HIM.
745
00:39:05,043 --> 00:39:07,078
narrator: LATER, THOSE POSTCARDS
746
00:39:07,112 --> 00:39:10,416
BECAME VALUABLE CLUES
FOR THE WRITER JOHN KRAKAUER,
747
00:39:10,449 --> 00:39:12,183
WHO PIECED TOGETHER THE STORY
748
00:39:12,217 --> 00:39:14,453
OF WHERE CHRIS HAD BEEN
FOR THE TWO YEARS
749
00:39:14,486 --> 00:39:16,388
HE WAS OUT OF TOUCH
WITH HIS FAMILY.
750
00:39:28,734 --> 00:39:31,770
- THEY'RE READING ABOUT
THIS JOURNEY AND ALL THIS THING
751
00:39:31,803 --> 00:39:34,172
OF INTO THE WILD AND
BACK TO THE WILD,
752
00:39:34,205 --> 00:39:37,643
AND THEY SAY,
"BOY, I JUST SEE MYSELF,
753
00:39:37,676 --> 00:39:41,046
THAT COULD BE ME WALKING THERE."
YOU KNOW?
754
00:39:41,079 --> 00:39:43,749
"THAT COULD BE ME DOING THIS,"
OR "ME SAYING THAT."
755
00:39:43,782 --> 00:39:46,351
AND THEY THOUGHT, "WHY NOT ME?"
756
00:39:46,384 --> 00:39:49,287
AND THEN THEY GET ON THE TRACK
757
00:39:49,320 --> 00:39:52,223
AND THEY GO.
758
00:39:52,257 --> 00:39:53,792
narrator: HE WAS
A MODERN HUCK FINN
759
00:39:53,825 --> 00:39:57,563
MEANDERING DOWN A GREAT RIVER
OF EXPERIENCE.
760
00:39:57,596 --> 00:40:00,231
HIS NEW HOME
AMID THE WANDERING SOULS
761
00:40:00,265 --> 00:40:03,134
AND THE TIRED LITTLE TOWNS
OF THE AMERICAN WEST,
762
00:40:03,168 --> 00:40:07,172
WAS SUCH A LONG WAY
FROM ANNANDALE.
763
00:40:07,205 --> 00:40:10,275
- IT WAS A MATTER
OF SURVIVAL FOR HIM, YOU KNOW,
764
00:40:10,308 --> 00:40:13,344
TO BE ABLE TO BE HIMSELF
AND FIND WHERE
765
00:40:13,378 --> 00:40:16,682
HE COULD FIT INTO THE WORLD
AND REMAIN TRUE TO HIMSELF,
766
00:40:16,715 --> 00:40:18,450
AND IT DIDN'T HOW TOUGH IT GOT,
767
00:40:18,484 --> 00:40:21,753
IT DIDN'T MATTER HOW FAR
OFF COURSE HE MIGHT HAVE TO GO
768
00:40:21,787 --> 00:40:23,855
OR HOW FAR OUT OF HIS COMFORT
ZONE IT TOOK HIM
769
00:40:23,889 --> 00:40:26,858
TO BE ABLE TO ACHIEVE THAT GOAL.
HE WAS GONNA DO IT.
770
00:40:26,892 --> 00:40:30,095
narrator: HE WAS CANOEING
THE COLORADO RIVER TO MEXICO.
771
00:40:30,128 --> 00:40:31,329
LIVING IN CAVES.
772
00:40:31,362 --> 00:40:33,198
WORKING AT MCDONALD'S.
773
00:40:33,231 --> 00:40:34,800
RIDING THE RAILS.
774
00:40:34,833 --> 00:40:38,436
BUT HE HAD ONE BIG DREAM
YET TO REALIZE:
775
00:40:38,470 --> 00:40:42,373
ALASKA.
776
00:40:42,407 --> 00:40:44,543
- I HAD CONCERNS. I HAD CONCERNS
THAT HE DIDN'T WANT TO
777
00:40:44,576 --> 00:40:46,478
CARRY MORE THAN 50 POUNDS
OF RICE UP THERE
778
00:40:46,512 --> 00:40:48,146
AND LIVE OFF THE LAND.
779
00:40:48,179 --> 00:40:49,715
WHAT ARE YOU GONNA
HAVE UP THERE?
780
00:40:49,748 --> 00:40:51,349
WHAT'S GONNA BE THERE?
781
00:40:51,382 --> 00:40:53,151
WHAT'S GONNA BE THERE
FOR YOU TO LIVE OFF OF?
782
00:40:53,184 --> 00:40:56,822
WHAT IF THERE'S NO GAME?
783
00:40:56,855 --> 00:41:00,191
- WELL, ALEX
WAS VERY ORGANIZED.
784
00:41:00,225 --> 00:41:05,363
HE HAD ME CONVINCED
THAT HE KNEW WHAT HE WAS DOING.
785
00:41:05,396 --> 00:41:06,565
- I KEPT SAYING, YOU KNOW,
786
00:41:06,598 --> 00:41:08,534
"ALASKA'LL KICK YOUR BUTT.
787
00:41:08,567 --> 00:41:09,701
"I MEAN, IT'LL KICK YOUR BUTT.
788
00:41:09,735 --> 00:41:12,137
IT'S COLD."
789
00:41:12,170 --> 00:41:13,905
AND HE HAD THIS STUPID BOOK
790
00:41:13,939 --> 00:41:17,543
ABOUT PLANTS OF THE WORLD
THAT HE COULD EAT.
791
00:41:17,576 --> 00:41:19,878
HE WAS ALWAYS LOOKING
IN THAT BOOK.
792
00:41:19,911 --> 00:41:21,513
- I OFFERED HIM A PLANE TICKET
UP THERE.
793
00:41:21,547 --> 00:41:22,781
YOU KNOW,
HE WOULDN'T TAKE A TICKET.
794
00:41:22,814 --> 00:41:25,784
HE HAD TO GO TO ALASKA
BY FOOT, RAIL,
795
00:41:25,817 --> 00:41:28,419
OR ALL THAT TYPE OF ADVENTURE
ON HIS WAY UP THERE.
796
00:41:28,453 --> 00:41:31,723
THAT WAS ALL PART OF IT.
797
00:41:39,665 --> 00:41:42,934
narrator: CHRIS DESCRIBED
THE TRIP LIKE THIS:
798
00:41:42,968 --> 00:41:45,203
"TEN DAYS AND NIGHTS
OF FREIGHT TRAINS
799
00:41:45,236 --> 00:41:48,439
"AND HITCHING BRING HIM
TO THE GREAT WHITE NORTH.
800
00:41:48,473 --> 00:41:52,744
NO LONGER TO BE POISONED
BY CIVILIZATION."
801
00:41:52,778 --> 00:41:55,681
IT WAS THE END OF APRIL 1992
802
00:41:55,714 --> 00:41:58,483
WHEN CHRIS SENT WAYNE
A FINAL POSTCARD FROM FAIRBANKS,
803
00:41:58,516 --> 00:42:00,786
ALASKA.
804
00:42:00,819 --> 00:42:03,822
"IF THIS ADVENTURE PROVES FATAL
AND YOU DON'T EVER HEAR FROM ME
805
00:42:03,855 --> 00:42:07,292
"AGAIN, I WANT YOU TO KNOW
YOU'RE A GREAT MAN.
806
00:42:07,325 --> 00:42:12,964
I NOW WALK INTO THE WILD."
807
00:42:12,998 --> 00:42:14,432
- IT'S BEAUTIFUL.
808
00:42:14,465 --> 00:42:15,734
AND THERE'S NO ONE HERE.
809
00:42:15,767 --> 00:42:16,868
IT'S QUIET.
810
00:42:16,902 --> 00:42:18,503
IT'S PEACEFUL.
811
00:42:18,536 --> 00:42:21,873
IT'S WILD. IT REALLY IS.
812
00:42:21,907 --> 00:42:24,576
I CAN SEE WHY HE WAS DRAWN HERE.
813
00:42:24,610 --> 00:42:28,279
HE WAS ON AN ADVENTURE.
814
00:42:28,313 --> 00:42:29,615
narrator: THAT SENSE
OF ADVENTURE
815
00:42:29,648 --> 00:42:32,450
STILL ECHOES 22 YEARS LATER.
816
00:42:32,483 --> 00:42:34,219
A PARALLEL JOURNEY
817
00:42:34,252 --> 00:42:37,656
TAKES THREE OF CHRIS' SISTERS
PAST SNOW-COVERED PEAKS
818
00:42:37,689 --> 00:42:40,491
AND ONTO THE STAMPEDE ROAD.
819
00:42:40,525 --> 00:42:43,561
THIS IS THE LAST PLACE
THEIR BROTHER WAS SEEN ALIVE
820
00:42:43,595 --> 00:42:47,298
AFTER HITCHING A RIDE
FROM FAIRBANKS.
821
00:42:47,332 --> 00:42:51,036
- SO WE'VE DRIVEN ABOUT EIGHT
MILES IN ON THE STAMPEDE ROAD.
822
00:42:54,272 --> 00:42:56,975
THE BUS IS...
823
00:42:57,008 --> 00:43:01,446
THAT WAY ANOTHER 20 OR SO MILES.
824
00:43:01,479 --> 00:43:05,483
YOU KNOW, IF YOU FEEL LIKE YOU
WEREN'T EVER SUPPOSED TO EXIST
825
00:43:05,516 --> 00:43:09,587
AND YOU WANT TO SORT OF...
826
00:43:09,621 --> 00:43:11,589
GET RID OF CHRIS MCCANDLESS
FOR A LITTLE WHILE
827
00:43:11,623 --> 00:43:13,491
AND DISAPPEAR, I MEAN,
WHAT A PLACE TO DO IT, YOU KNOW?
828
00:43:13,524 --> 00:43:17,829
- YEAH.
829
00:43:17,863 --> 00:43:19,297
- HE DID NOT COME OUT HERE
TO DIE.
830
00:43:19,330 --> 00:43:20,866
- HE WENT OUT THERE
TO BE HIMSELF.
831
00:43:20,899 --> 00:43:23,635
- YEAH, RIGHT.
832
00:43:23,669 --> 00:43:25,270
AND HE WAS YOUNG AND MALE
833
00:43:25,303 --> 00:43:28,506
AND HE WAS GOOD AT EVERYTHING
HE TRIED TO DO.
834
00:43:28,539 --> 00:43:31,309
YOU KNOW, HE NEEDED TO PUSH
HIMSELF HARDER AND HARDER
835
00:43:31,342 --> 00:43:34,412
WITH EVERY STEP HE TOOK
AND EVERY ADVENTURE HE TOOK.
836
00:43:34,445 --> 00:43:36,314
YOU SEE THAT AS EXTREMIST.
837
00:43:36,347 --> 00:43:37,983
JUST BECAUSE THEY WANT
TO GET AS CLOSE TO THE EDGE
838
00:43:38,016 --> 00:43:40,351
AND PEER DOWN INTO THE ABYSS
839
00:43:40,385 --> 00:43:45,323
DOESN'T MEAN
THEY WANT TO FALL INTO IT.
840
00:43:45,356 --> 00:43:47,793
narrator: HE SETS OFF
INTO THE SNOWY WILDERNESS,
841
00:43:47,826 --> 00:43:52,463
FOLLOWING AN OLD MINING ROAD
CALLED THE STAMPEDE TRAIL.
842
00:43:52,497 --> 00:43:56,768
HE ENCOUNTERS TWO RIVERS
AND FORDS THEM SUCCESSFULLY.
843
00:43:56,802 --> 00:43:59,004
IN APRIL, THE RIVERS
ARE CHOKED WITH ICE
844
00:43:59,037 --> 00:44:01,472
AND COVERED WITH SNOWPACK,
HIDING
845
00:44:01,506 --> 00:44:06,678
HOW DEEP AND WIDE THEY'LL BECOME
DURING THE SUMMER SNOW MELT.
846
00:44:06,712 --> 00:44:08,880
- I COULDN'T DO WHAT HE DID.
847
00:44:08,914 --> 00:44:11,316
MOST PEOPLE, IF THEY
WERE TWO DAYS OFF THE TRAIL
848
00:44:11,349 --> 00:44:15,520
AND IN A DARK PLACE,
WOULD START THINKING ABOUT,
849
00:44:15,553 --> 00:44:18,790
"MAYBE THIS ISN'T
WHAT I WANT TO DO."
850
00:44:18,824 --> 00:44:21,459
BUT HE FORGED HIS WAY
THROUGH THERE.
851
00:44:21,492 --> 00:44:26,698
narrator: AFTER THREE COLD DAYS
AND NIGHTS, HE FINDS THE BUS.
852
00:44:26,732 --> 00:44:28,399
A MAKESHIFT SHELTER
853
00:44:28,433 --> 00:44:32,403
HAULED AND THEN ABANDONED HERE
BY A MINING COMPANY.
854
00:44:32,437 --> 00:44:35,807
INSIDE, CHRIS DISCOVERS A BED
AND A WOOD STOVE
855
00:44:35,841 --> 00:44:39,410
THAT WILL BECOME HIS HOME
FOR THE NEXT 110 DAYS.
856
00:44:39,444 --> 00:44:43,414
HE CALLS IT THE MAGIC BUS.
857
00:44:44,682 --> 00:44:47,719
- CHRIS WENT OUT INTO NATURE
858
00:44:47,753 --> 00:44:49,955
SEARCHING FOR THE THINGS THAT HE
DIDN'T HAVE IN HIS CHILDHOOD.
859
00:44:49,988 --> 00:44:54,960
YOU KNOW, PEACE, PURITY,
HONESTY.
860
00:44:54,993 --> 00:44:57,095
narrator: AS THE WINTER
SNOW MELTS, CHRIS
861
00:44:57,128 --> 00:45:02,133
BEGINS TO SUCCESSFULLY HUNT
AND GATHER THE FOOD HE NEEDS.
862
00:45:02,167 --> 00:45:07,572
HIS PHOTOGRAPHS SHOW THE SMILES
OF AN EXUBERANT EXPLORER.
863
00:45:07,605 --> 00:45:09,407
AND IN THE BOOKS HE READS,
864
00:45:09,440 --> 00:45:13,611
THE PASSAGES UNDERSCORED REVEAL
THE INTENSE NOTES OF A YOUNG MAN
865
00:45:13,644 --> 00:45:19,484
WRESTLING WITH HOW TO LIVE
A MORAL AND PURPOSEFUL LIFE.
866
00:45:19,517 --> 00:45:22,520
- I WAS NEVER WORRIED.
I WASN'T.
867
00:45:22,553 --> 00:45:24,155
I NEVER THOUGHT CHRIS WOULD EVER
868
00:45:24,189 --> 00:45:26,057
GET HIMSELF INTO A SITUATION
THAT HE COULDN'T HANDLE.
869
00:45:26,091 --> 00:45:28,426
I MEAN, HE WAS CHRIS.
870
00:45:28,459 --> 00:45:30,461
HE WAS MY PROTECTOR.
HE WAS ALWAYS STRONG.
871
00:45:30,495 --> 00:45:33,564
HE SUCCEEDED AT EVERYTHING
HE TRIED.
872
00:45:33,598 --> 00:45:37,202
YOU KNOW, I THINK THAT'S PART
OF WHAT GOT HIM IN TROUBLE.
873
00:45:38,904 --> 00:45:42,841
narrator: ON DAY 43,
HE CELEBRATES SHOOTING A MOOSE.
874
00:45:42,874 --> 00:45:47,645
BUT HIS ENTHUSIASM TURNS TO
FRUSTRATION WHEN MOST ROTS AWAY.
875
00:45:49,647 --> 00:45:53,852
- I THINK THERE WAS
A TRANSFORMATION
876
00:45:53,885 --> 00:45:57,522
HE WENT ON THERE
877
00:45:57,555 --> 00:46:01,726
AND HE CLEARLY MADE A DECISION
TO GET BACK...
878
00:46:01,759 --> 00:46:04,930
INTO CIVILIZATION.
879
00:46:04,963 --> 00:46:10,035
narrator: ON DAY 66, HE SIMPLY
WRITES, "FAMILY HAPPINESS."
880
00:46:10,068 --> 00:46:14,672
A STORY HE READS BY TOLSTOY.
881
00:46:14,705 --> 00:46:20,545
HE SHAVES HIS BEARD
AND THE NEXT DAY LEAVES THE BUS.
882
00:46:20,578 --> 00:46:22,747
- I THINK HE MISSES MOM AND DAD.
883
00:46:22,780 --> 00:46:25,716
I THINK WHEN HE WAS
SITTING UP THERE BY HIMSELF
884
00:46:25,750 --> 00:46:30,721
WITH ONLY THE SOUND
OF THE TREES GROWING
885
00:46:30,755 --> 00:46:34,125
AND THE BERRIES RIPENING
AND THE BIRDS FLYING OVER,
886
00:46:34,159 --> 00:46:37,495
I THINK HE WEIGHED THINGS.
887
00:46:37,528 --> 00:46:41,566
HOW MUCH BAD COMPARED
TO HOW MUCH GOOD.
888
00:46:41,599 --> 00:46:43,969
WOULD YOU GIVE UP ALL THAT GOOD
889
00:46:44,002 --> 00:46:46,237
BECAUSE OF THIS LITTLE BIT
OF BAD?
890
00:46:46,271 --> 00:46:47,973
NO.
891
00:46:48,006 --> 00:46:50,075
YOU GO HOME AND SAY, "LET'S NOT
DO THAT BAD ANYMORE,
892
00:46:50,108 --> 00:46:52,844
MOM, DAD, BROTHER, SISTER."
893
00:46:52,878 --> 00:46:54,212
YOU KNOW?
894
00:46:54,245 --> 00:46:55,513
"LET'S GET RID OF THAT.
LET'S MOVE ON.
895
00:46:55,546 --> 00:46:57,949
LET'S GET STRONG."
896
00:46:59,750 --> 00:47:01,619
- CHRIS PLANS TO WALK BACK OUT,
897
00:47:01,652 --> 00:47:02,954
IT WAS OBVIOUS.
898
00:47:02,988 --> 00:47:05,223
I HAVE KNOWN NO PERSON
IN MY ENTIRE LIFE
899
00:47:05,256 --> 00:47:08,259
THAT LOVED LIFE
AS MUCH AS CHRIS DID.
900
00:47:11,796 --> 00:47:13,498
narrator: BUT IT'S EARLY JULY
901
00:47:13,531 --> 00:47:16,101
AND CHRIS STANDS ON THE BANKS
OF THE TEKLANIKA
902
00:47:16,134 --> 00:47:18,736
AND FINDS THE RIVER TRANSFORMED.
903
00:47:18,769 --> 00:47:22,273
NOW, IT'S A CHEST-HIGH
GLACIAL TORRENT.
904
00:47:22,307 --> 00:47:24,109
THERE'S ACTUALLY
A CABLE CROSSING
905
00:47:24,142 --> 00:47:27,645
JUST HALF A MILE DOWNSTREAM,
BUT CHRIS DOESN'T KNOW IT.
906
00:47:27,678 --> 00:47:29,948
HE DOESN'T HAVE A MAP.
907
00:47:29,981 --> 00:47:33,919
UNABLE TO CROSS, CHRIS RETURNS
TO THE SHELTER OF THE BUS.
908
00:47:36,888 --> 00:47:40,926
HIS NEXT JOURNAL ENTRY REFLECTS
HIS FIRST SENSE OF CONCERN.
909
00:47:40,959 --> 00:47:43,895
- "IT'S RAINED IN.
RIVER LOOKS IMPOSSIBLE."
910
00:47:43,929 --> 00:47:46,564
HE WROTE THAT IN HIS JOURNAL.
911
00:47:46,597 --> 00:47:49,767
AND THEN IT SAYS,
"LONELY, SCARED."
912
00:47:51,136 --> 00:47:53,204
CHRIS WAS ALWAYS STRONG
913
00:47:53,238 --> 00:47:57,208
AND HE WASN'T LONELY
AND HE WAS NEVER SCARED.
914
00:47:57,242 --> 00:48:00,078
SO THAT'S TOUGH FOR ME.
915
00:48:00,111 --> 00:48:02,981
narrator: THE SMALL TOWN
OF HEALY IS LESS THAN 30 MILES
916
00:48:03,014 --> 00:48:05,816
AWAY, BUT NONE OF THE LOCALS
KNOW HE'S THERE EITHER.
917
00:48:08,153 --> 00:48:11,889
- IF WE HAD KNOWN THAT HE
WAS HIKING OFF INTO THIS AREA,
918
00:48:11,923 --> 00:48:13,724
LOCALS WOULD'VE SAID,
"OH, THE STAMPEDE TRAIL?
919
00:48:13,758 --> 00:48:14,960
THERE'S THIS OLD BUS OUT THERE.
920
00:48:14,993 --> 00:48:16,894
YOU MIGHT WANT
TO CHECK THAT OUT."
921
00:48:16,928 --> 00:48:18,729
narrator: BUT CHRIS' FAMILY
HASN'T HEARD ANYTHING
922
00:48:18,763 --> 00:48:20,898
FROM HIM
IN NEARLY TWO YEARS.
923
00:48:27,005 --> 00:48:29,740
OVER THE NEXT 22 DAYS,
CHRIS APPEARS TO RELY
924
00:48:29,774 --> 00:48:34,012
MORE AND MORE
ON A DIET OF WILD POTATO SEEDS.
925
00:48:34,045 --> 00:48:36,948
BUT IT'S A SOURCE
OF NUTRITION HE COMES TO REGRET.
926
00:48:36,982 --> 00:48:38,583
IN HIS JOURNAL,
927
00:48:38,616 --> 00:48:44,255
CHRIS FEARS THE PODS
ARE IN FACT POISONING HIM.
928
00:48:44,289 --> 00:48:46,324
BY HIS FOURTH MONTH
IN THE WILDERNESS,
929
00:48:46,357 --> 00:48:50,095
CHRIS ACKNOWLEDGES
THAT HE IS WEAK AND STARVING.
930
00:48:52,897 --> 00:48:56,267
AT SOME POINT, HE PINS AN S.O.S.
NOTE ON THE SIDE OF THE BUS.
931
00:48:59,637 --> 00:49:01,039
CHRIS TAKES A FINAL PHOTO
932
00:49:01,072 --> 00:49:04,942
OF HIMSELF HOLDING
A HAND-WRITTEN NOTE.
933
00:49:04,976 --> 00:49:07,845
"I'VE HAD A HAPPY LIFE
AND THANK THE LORD.
934
00:49:07,878 --> 00:49:11,682
GOODBYE AND MAY GOD BLESS ALL."
935
00:49:14,419 --> 00:49:18,223
ON THE 113th DAY AFTER WALKING
INTO THE WILD,
936
00:49:18,256 --> 00:49:22,760
CHRIS' JOURNAL ENTRIES STOP.
937
00:49:22,793 --> 00:49:24,162
- HE HAD THAT SLEEPING BAG
938
00:49:24,195 --> 00:49:25,796
STILL.
- YEP.
939
00:49:25,830 --> 00:49:27,965
- THAT I MADE FOR HIM
WHEN HE WAS A KID.
940
00:49:27,999 --> 00:49:30,135
AND HE STILL HAD THAT
AND HE CARRIED IT.
941
00:49:30,168 --> 00:49:33,138
I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW
HE HAD IT WITH HIM.
942
00:49:33,171 --> 00:49:36,974
THEY FOUND HIM IN IT.
943
00:49:40,845 --> 00:49:43,881
- I HAVE A LOT
OF MIXED EMOTIONS OF THAT.
944
00:49:43,914 --> 00:49:45,816
AND THIS MIGHT SOUND HARSH,
IT'S NOT REALLY THE CHRIS PART
945
00:49:45,850 --> 00:49:47,318
ANYMORE.
946
00:49:47,352 --> 00:49:50,921
IT'S MORE THE DOMESTIC VIOLENCE
SIDE OF IT FOR ME.
947
00:49:50,955 --> 00:49:52,657
MAYBE THE TIMING'S RIGHT FOR US
948
00:49:52,690 --> 00:49:55,926
TO COME FORWARD
ABOUT OUR CHILDHOOD.
949
00:49:55,960 --> 00:49:57,728
BUT MAYBE THAT'S
WHY HE CUT EVERYONE OFF
950
00:49:57,762 --> 00:49:59,330
AND DID SOME OF THE THINGS
HE DID, THAT OTHER THINGS
951
00:49:59,364 --> 00:50:01,399
WERE GOING ON IN HIS LIFE,
952
00:50:01,432 --> 00:50:04,269
BUT HE WASN'T A SPOILED RICH KID
953
00:50:04,302 --> 00:50:07,272
THAT JUST DECIDED, "I DON'T WANT
YOUR MONEY, I'M GONNA TAKE OFF."
954
00:50:07,305 --> 00:50:11,109
THAT THERE WAS A LOT MORE
GOING ON THERE.
955
00:50:11,142 --> 00:50:13,044
YET I'M HERE.
956
00:50:13,078 --> 00:50:14,279
I'M IN ALASKA.
957
00:50:14,312 --> 00:50:16,914
IT'S SERIOUS.
958
00:50:18,849 --> 00:50:20,418
narrator: THIS RUSTING SCHOOL
959
00:50:20,451 --> 00:50:23,388
BUS HAS BEEN PARKED IN
THE SISTERS' LIVES FOR DECADES,
960
00:50:23,421 --> 00:50:25,390
BUT NOTHING ULTIMATELY
PREPARES THEM
961
00:50:25,423 --> 00:50:29,127
FOR WALKING INTO THIS CLEARING
TOGETHER FOR THE FIRST TIME.
962
00:50:29,160 --> 00:50:30,728
- YOU KNOW WHAT,
IT'S NOT JUST CHRIS.
963
00:50:30,761 --> 00:50:32,130
IT'S JUST A LOT OF THINGS.
964
00:50:32,163 --> 00:50:34,165
- I KNOW.
965
00:50:34,199 --> 00:50:35,933
YOU ALL RIGHT?
SURE?
966
00:50:35,966 --> 00:50:36,967
- YES.
- OKAY.
967
00:50:37,001 --> 00:50:39,404
- THIS AREA'S ALL OVER ME.
968
00:50:45,776 --> 00:50:47,412
- IT'S SO LITTLE.
969
00:50:47,445 --> 00:50:51,249
- YEAH, IT SEEMS SO MUCH SMALLER
TO ME THIS VISIT.
970
00:50:56,421 --> 00:51:01,025
- YOU CAN'T BE HERE WITHOUT
JUST FEELING HIS PRESENCE.
971
00:51:02,893 --> 00:51:04,229
- MY TOES ARE COLD.
972
00:51:04,262 --> 00:51:05,463
YOUR FEET WARM?
973
00:51:05,496 --> 00:51:07,165
- NO, THEY'RE NOT.
974
00:51:07,198 --> 00:51:09,267
- I WAS GONNA SAY, I NEED TO GET
SOME DIFFERENT BOOTS.
975
00:51:09,300 --> 00:51:10,835
- I DO TOO.
976
00:51:10,868 --> 00:51:14,105
WELL, I DID BRING AN EXTRA PAIR
OF WOOL SOCKS.
977
00:51:14,139 --> 00:51:16,974
narrator: CARINE HAS COME
HERE MANY TIMES BEFORE,
978
00:51:17,007 --> 00:51:20,311
BUT FOR SHELLY AND SHAWNA,
IT'S THEIR FIRST VISIT.
979
00:51:20,345 --> 00:51:25,316
- I'M GONNA SIGN WHERE I SIGNED
THE LAST COUPLE TIMES.
980
00:51:25,350 --> 00:51:28,753
I'M JUST ADDING A DATE
FOR THIS VISIT.
981
00:51:28,786 --> 00:51:31,256
THERE'S SOME NEW ENTRIES
SINCE I WAS HERE LAST.
982
00:51:39,197 --> 00:51:41,766
- I LOVE TO BE
AROUND OTHER PEOPLE
983
00:51:41,799 --> 00:51:45,035
AND I JUST DON'T THINK,
LIKE, WAS HE LONELY?
984
00:51:48,206 --> 00:51:49,974
- I THINK IT'S LIKE A CASTLE.
985
00:51:50,007 --> 00:51:51,342
IT'S A LITTLE FORTRESS UP HERE.
986
00:51:51,376 --> 00:51:55,913
IT SITS UP,
LOOKS OVER THIS AMAZING VIEW.
987
00:51:55,946 --> 00:51:59,450
IT'S SAFE.
988
00:51:59,484 --> 00:52:03,288
IT'S A SAFE PLACE.
- YEAH.
989
00:52:05,990 --> 00:52:07,558
narrator: BUT WHAT HAPPENED
IN THIS CLEARING STILL
990
00:52:07,592 --> 00:52:09,427
HAUNTS THE MCCANDLESS.
991
00:52:09,460 --> 00:52:11,929
18 YEARS AFTER CHRIS' DEATH,
992
00:52:11,962 --> 00:52:15,866
WALT AND BILLIE TRAVEL
TO THE BUS WITH JAN AND WAYNE.
993
00:52:15,900 --> 00:52:18,803
- WALT WAS SITTING ON THE BED
WHERE HIS SON HAD DIED,
994
00:52:18,836 --> 00:52:20,405
AND HE WAS GAZING OUT THE WINDOW
995
00:52:20,438 --> 00:52:22,840
AND IT, JUST, EVERYTHING
WAS ALL OVER HIS FACE.
996
00:52:22,873 --> 00:52:26,944
IT WAS HIS LOVE AND HIS PAIN
AND THE HURT FOR HIS SON.
997
00:52:26,977 --> 00:52:32,149
WHATEVER HAPPENED BETWEEN THEM,
WHATEVER WAS GOING ON BETWEEN,
998
00:52:32,183 --> 00:52:33,884
YOU CAN SEE THE SORROW,
999
00:52:33,918 --> 00:52:37,054
HOW MUCH PAIN THAT MAN
WAS IN OVER THAT.
1000
00:52:58,075 --> 00:52:59,844
- AND THERE ARE PEOPLE
ALL OVER THE WORLD
1001
00:52:59,877 --> 00:53:03,414
THAT ARE ATTRACTED BY THIS STORY
AND IT CHANGES THEM SOMEHOW.
1002
00:53:04,949 --> 00:53:06,016
AND SO LOOK AROUND.
1003
00:53:06,050 --> 00:53:08,486
IT CHANGED US.
1004
00:53:08,519 --> 00:53:10,521
- IT CHANGED THE WAY
WE DEAL WITH EACH OTHER.
1005
00:53:10,555 --> 00:53:14,492
WE HAVE MUCH MORE PATIENCE
AND UNDERSTANDING
1006
00:53:14,525 --> 00:53:19,196
AND EVERYTHING BETWEEN US.
1007
00:53:19,230 --> 00:53:21,432
WE'VE LOST OUR BEAUTIFUL SON...
- YEAH.
1008
00:53:21,466 --> 00:53:24,335
- BUT IT'S CHANGED OUR LIVES
IN A GOOD WAY.
1009
00:53:24,369 --> 00:53:26,136
- THERE ARE SOME THINGS
THAT WE WOULD WISH
1010
00:53:26,170 --> 00:53:28,939
THAT WERE BETTER RIGHT NOW.
1011
00:53:28,973 --> 00:53:31,141
- OUT OF THE SEVEN OF US,
NOBODY HAS A RELATIONSHIP
1012
00:53:31,175 --> 00:53:32,543
WITH THEM RIGHT NOW,
1013
00:53:32,577 --> 00:53:35,580
BUT EVERYONE KIND
OF GOT TO THAT POINT
1014
00:53:35,613 --> 00:53:37,214
AT A DIFFERENT TIME
IN THEIR LIFE,
1015
00:53:37,248 --> 00:53:41,552
IN A DIFFERENT WAY, MAYBE.
1016
00:53:41,586 --> 00:53:45,189
- WE SAY OUR PRAYERS EVERY DAY
FOR THEM AND FOR US
1017
00:53:45,222 --> 00:53:48,359
AND WE'D FORGIVE THEM
IN AN INSTANT AND VISE VERSA.
1018
00:53:48,393 --> 00:53:51,662
- IN THE END,
1019
00:53:51,696 --> 00:53:56,601
IF HE CAN'T BE ACCOUNTABLE
AND HE CAN'T TELL THE TRUTH,
1020
00:53:56,634 --> 00:54:00,671
THEN I'M GOING TO STAND
WITH THE VICTIMS.
1021
00:54:03,574 --> 00:54:05,610
MYSELF INCLUDED.
1022
00:54:05,643 --> 00:54:07,244
- BUT THERE'S THINGS I SAW,
1023
00:54:07,278 --> 00:54:10,014
THERE'S THINGS
I LIVED THROUGH THAT, YOU KNOW,
1024
00:54:10,047 --> 00:54:12,350
IN A WAY, YOU KNOW,
I'M A SURVIVOR.
1025
00:54:12,383 --> 00:54:14,251
MY MOM'S A SURVIVOR.
1026
00:54:14,285 --> 00:54:16,654
MY BROTHERS
AND SISTERS ARE SURVIVORS.
1027
00:54:16,687 --> 00:54:20,958
CHRIS, UNFORTUNATELY,
IS NOT A SURVIVOR.
1028
00:54:20,991 --> 00:54:24,562
- ALTHOUGH HE HAD SUCH SADNESS
THAT HE WAS DYING,
1029
00:54:24,595 --> 00:54:28,499
HE HAD THAT PEACE
WITHIN HIMSELF.
1030
00:54:28,533 --> 00:54:31,168
HE WAS WITH HIS MOTHER NATURE.
1031
00:54:31,201 --> 00:54:34,439
HE WAS WITH HIS GOD.
1032
00:54:34,472 --> 00:54:38,676
AND HE WAS IN HIS CHURCH.
1033
00:54:40,578 --> 00:54:44,949
AND HE WAS ABLE TO GO
ONTO WHATEVER THE NEXT ADVENTURE
1034
00:54:44,982 --> 00:54:46,651
WAS FOR HIM.
1035
00:54:46,684 --> 00:54:49,086
narrator: HIS FINAL GOODBYE
WAS WRITTEN ON THE BACKSIDE
1036
00:54:49,119 --> 00:54:52,122
OF A POEM BY ROBINSON JEFFERS.
1037
00:54:52,156 --> 00:54:56,160
- "DEATH'S A FIERCE MEADOWLARK:
BUT TO DIE
1038
00:54:56,193 --> 00:54:58,363
"HAVING MADE SOMETHING MORE
EQUAL TO THE CENTURIES
1039
00:54:58,396 --> 00:55:03,100
"THAN MUSCLE AND BONE,
IS MOSTLY TO SHED WEAKNESS.
1040
00:55:05,603 --> 00:55:09,674
"THE MOUNTAINS ARE DEAD STONE,
1041
00:55:09,707 --> 00:55:12,577
"THE PEOPLE ADMIRE OR HATE
THEIR STATURE,
1042
00:55:12,610 --> 00:55:16,747
"THEIR INSOLENT QUIETNESS,
1043
00:55:16,781 --> 00:55:21,185
"THE MOUNTAINS ARE NOT SOFTENED
OR TROUBLED
1044
00:55:21,218 --> 00:55:25,322
AND A FEW DEAD MEN'S THOUGHTS
HAVE THE SAME TEMPER."
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