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- Do you know anything
about night swimming?

- Well, we do have our share
of tree huggers out here.

- Last night,
somebody broke into the house

where I'm staying.

Did you see them?

- No, I wasn't there, but
they looked through my stuff.

This brings up a lot for me.

An intruder in the house?
A lot.

- I can't walk away
from this.

- I don't think that I can
keep going on like this.

- Where was that?
- In your jacket pocket.

Percy worked on Don's crew.

- Well, they used to go up
together a lot on their own.

- What is this shit?
You're telling me

someone didn't poison
her mind with that shit?

- That wasn't Percy.
Somebody had control over her.

- The ancient lunar goddess
is represented

by the ouroboros...

a snake swallowing
its own tail.

Meg?

- You didn't see this,
unless you want one.

No, I don't smoke.

- Well, neither do I.
I quit 30 years ago.

I leave Sean
in charge for a week.

Turns everything to shit.

- Your boys,
it doesn't bother them,

me being around here?

I don't care what they think.

Please tell me
you found something.

Yeah.

Now, this family crest,

that's, like,
from a boat, right?

You know whose it was?

- I don't know it,
but they do have

retired boat logs down
at the harbor master's office.

Okay, great. Thanks.

Where'd you find it?

- Oh, I just--
I've been curious

about these
off in the woods areas

that have these ritualized
arrangements and things,

and it was
around one of those.

- Yeah, we get those new age
hippie types up here.

- You think this has something
to do with Percy?

Can't tell.

I'm gonna track
this boat thing down.

It's probably nothing.

I'll come with you.

I don't think you need to.

- I know everybody
at the office.

- My unloading time
is at 2:00 every day.

And that Brandon Keyser
is always blocking me.

- We've been here before.
You can file a report online.

- I filed three.
Nothing happens.

- They're backlogs.
They'll get to it.

Yeah, right.

Hey, Mike.

Hi, Mrs. Muldoon.

- Hi, Patrick.
How you doing?

- Good, good.
- Good.

We have a question.

We're trying to find
the boat this is from.

Does it match anything
in your records?

- We log boats by registration
numbers, not insignia.

- Right, but you might
recognize it from somewhere.

Uh--

- To me, it reminds me
of the Henderson boat.

The one Dick used to captain.

- Yeah, yeah.
But that's not quite it.

- Hey, the other harbor master
who's usually here,

what's her name again?

- Em Castillo?
She's off today.

I could dig through some files,
see what I come up with.

Yeah, that'd be great.

- She's weird about people
touching her stuff.

- No problem, no problem, mate.
Thanks for looking into this.

Meg, we'll be in touch.

Oh, all right.

Is that for me?

- Was it you that broke
into the house the other day?

No.

Guess you're making enemies
around here.

These weren't yours to take.

Well, they're evidence now.

- Of what?
- They were out on the cliffs.

- Percy had these with her
when she jumped?

- They were set out
by her or someone else.

Maybe it was you?

- Is that why you're
investigating me?

Your relationship to Percy.

Why are you hiding it?

I'm not hiding anything.

Well, then,

maybe you could tell me
what you're doing here?

- I thought we were
playing a game

where we break into
each other's houses,

see what we can find.

I see.

Your hut by the water,
I found it.

And?

I saw your notes on Percy.

What was that?
Some kind of conversion?

I'd call it growth.

- At the hut,
I found blood on the rocks.

- I'm not the person
you're looking for.

And if you come by my house
again, I'm gonna shoot first.

About that blood,

Chief Raskin is gonna
run forensics on it

and see if
it's a match for Percy.

It's gonna take four
or five days.

But somehow, this case leaks,

and people are gonna
find out sooner.

- Are you threatening me?
- No.

I'm just being honest with you.

Look, you're an outsider here.
Same as me.

And any sign
that you might have hurt her,

people are gonna assume
the worst about you.

Just like you are.

Well, maybe.

This is your chance
to set me straight.

- I always saw her from afar
down by the dock.

She was 25
and loving being in charge.

At least that's how I saw her.

- And then something
in her changed,

like, around two years ago?

Yeah.

It's like she became
a totally different person.

Started drinking.
Drugs too, probably.

She became
completely withdrawn.

And then she was gone.

She left the island.

Probably a few months went by.

And when she got back,
she was worse.

It's like she was a shell
of who she'd been before.

- That's where you'd see her,
by that dock?

- Yeah.
I was working nights,

so I'd always
see her there alone.

Why that spot, do you think?

- Something happened
to her down there?

I don't know what.

- At some point,
you started to talk to her

and thinking
you could help her, right?

She's the one who started it.

Hey.

What are you doing?

- Nothing.
Just, uh, taking a moment.

What's that in your hand?

It's embarrassing
I don't know this

after seeing you around
all these years,

but where are you from?

Baltimore.

Why'd you leave?

- I needed to do my own thing
away from my family.

- Yeah, I tried that.
Didn't work out so well.

What are they like?

- My family?
Uh, like most.

You know, they try.

But they damage
even when they don't mean to.

Damage how?

- You know, they're so
caught up in their own pain,

they end up hurting
everyone around them.

- Maybe they don't know
another way.

- That's the whole point
though, isn't it?

You gotta try.

My aunt was different.

She, uh, introduced me
to just other ways of being.

Is that what you do here?

Is it like Wiccan or something?

Sorry.

I don't know anything.

I just--I've seen some things
around the island.

Women doing things.

It's only women, isn't it?

- I just pull from things
that inspire me.

It's mostly just
about embracing nature.

But not a lot of people
are open to it

because it means
accepting destruction.

Destruction?

- Yeah.
It's nature's cycle.

Without death,
there's no rebirth.

We just try to tap into that.

But why?

To feel whole.

To understand our place
in all this.

Can you teach me?

- I don't--you know,
it's not really about teaching.

Just tell me how to start.

Well...

you gotta respect the ocean.

Can't overfish.

- Like me and my family?
- Yeah.

I wanna learn.

Please.

I really need
something like this.

Why?

I haven't slept in two years.

- Point to the first thing
that you notice,

that you're drawn to.

Don't think.

Is that wrong?

What do you feel?

- I don't know.
A dead tree?

Try to feel its pulse.

It's like listening.

I don't get this.

Just stay with it.

- I feel stupid.
It's a dead tree.

It's a reflection of you.

You chose it.

- Are you fucking with me?
Is this a joke?

- What?
No.

I can't do this.

Hey.

Just...sit.

Just sit.

Imagine that the ocean...

the trees...

the birds you hear right now...

everything around you
is reaching out to you...

and touching you
with this hand.

This is love.

Your whole life,
you've been looking for it.

And it's been
right here all along.

You don't have to do anything
to prove yourself.

You don't have to be
anything you're not.

You already belong.

You always have.

- We worked together
for a couple months.

You were friends?

- No.
Not exactly.

There was something in her
that she wanted to exorcise,

and she wanted my help.

- Right.
Yeah, what was it?

"Free the bone from the flesh."

Those your words?

Yeah.

She latched onto that.

- And all these things
were used in your sessions?

I can't talk about those.

They're personal to Percy.

- Yeah. But she isn't here
to talk about it,

but maybe she'd want to.

I don't understand.
Why are you holding back now?

- You wouldn't understand
even if I told you.

Maybe I wouldn't at first...

But I'll try.

I can't.

Hey, look, I understand.

This is a risk for you,
going back.

You tried to bring something
out of Percy, right?

Something that she was
so afraid of, right?

You were so close,
but that thing,

whatever it was,

it's what I've been
trying to figure out.

- The only way
I can trust you...

is if you do
the things she did.

It's the only way
you'll understand.

I'll do it.

- It means we'll have
to humble ourselves.

It'll be painful.

- It's okay.
I'm ready.

Now?

Now.

The water's only 42 degrees.

It's gonna feel like
you can't breathe.

Don't fight it.

You have to
fully submerge yourself.

A lot of people give up at
this point because of the cold.

You don't have to keep going.

- That area that's so tight
right here,

that's our pride.

We let our ego control us.

You're not ready.

You're still not ready.

You enjoy this?

- Honestly?
No.

Let go of what
you think should happen.

Just wait.

Now.

Stay with it.

Keep going.

- Keep going.
Let it through.

Ah!

- After two months
of working together,

she was still blocked,

so I had had her
pick five objects.

Each one would represent
a relationship

that was holding her back.

These are people in her life?

So she could release them.

This one CJ's.

That first night
I went to apologize...

but I just made
everything worse for him.

- You slept here?
- I'm sorry.

Who do you think you are?

- What are you doing
in my room? Get out!

Percy, don't leave.

- I didn't mean to.
I'm so sorry.

- You don't go near him
ever again.

You hear me?

Percy?

What the hell's
wrong with you?

- I feel sick thinking
about it.

Keep going.

- I knew leaving Clark Harbor
would make him worse,

but I wanted to go anyway.

Dad?

My Percy.

Fuck.

Oh, fuck.

- We managed to avoid
each other

until a few days later.

- Hey.
- Hi.

I've been looking for you.

You, uh, you weren't
in your usual spot.

That beach down by the docks.

I pay attention sometimes.

- Does Grams need me?
- Ah, no, no, um,

she's just closing up.

And Colin's finishing up
his haul right now.

So, uh...

I was on the office computer,

and I saw
you left your browser up.

You've been looking
at apartments in Portland?

Oh, no.

I mean, um, I just do that
when I'm bored sometimes.

You know, Zillow daydreams.

- If you're thinking
of leaving,

maybe you should.

- I can't leave.
- Why not?

Um, what about Grams?

And--and--

and you and Colin
and the business?

- Percy, you gotta start
taking care of yourself.

If you don't...

you'll just end up like me.

You have to pay a deposit
on a place in Portland.

It may take a while
to find a job.

Dad, I can't take this.

- Let me do this
one thing for you.

Just go.

Don't tell Grams.

Just do it.

What's gonna happen to you?

- I'll figure it out.
I will.

- Dad, it's--

it's my fault.

That night.

I mean, if you had--
if you hadn't gone there,

you never would've
needed those pills.

- Everything that's happened
is on all of us.

- This felt like
the right symbol for her.

"Ties that bind,"
all knotted up.

Mothers and daughters.

It's never easy.

- You're back where
you're supposed to be.

- Because I can't handle
anywhere else.

- No, you're just
in a rough patch.

You'll get through.
You're a Muldoon.

You know,
when I lost your grandfather,

I was in a black hole.

I couldn't see
the horizon anywhere.

I had two little kids,

and everybody in town was
talking behind my back,

saying I was gonna fail
because I didn't have Jerry.

You know how I got through?

- Yeah, you've told me
this like a million times.

'Cause it's true.

Work keeps you strong.

It's in our blood.

Yeah.
And we need you back.

What if I don't want it?

- Of course you do.
You're a born leader.

Grams, um...

I've thought about it,

and I know
I'm the only one after Colin,

but I don't want it.

I think you're just tired.

I'm serious.

Just thinking about it makes me
feel like I'm drowning.

I don't want any of it.

- So what are you gonna do?
Just let it all die?

- No, the Keysers
could take it over.

Brandon would want it.

- You do realize I'm doing
everything for you?

This house, the plant,
the boats. It's all for you.

But that's what you want.

- You have no idea
how lucky you are.

Four generations of Muldoons
have built this business,

this house, this room.

You're living on their backs.
And what are you gonna do?

Throw it all away and go back
to folding clothes at a mall.

I'm not talking
about this anymore.

- Meg was never gonna
let her go.

This is for Colin.

No, this is Colin.

I tried to apologize.

Like we talked about.

- Hey.
- How's it going?

- I got shrimp frying.
What's up?

I just wanted to say...

I'm sorry.

I really do appreciate what
you're trying to do for me.

Okay.

- Look, I know recommitting
to the Church has helped you.

And I'm happy
you found something.

But it just wasn't
working for me.

- Well, to be honest,
uh, you never really tried,

so what do you expect?

- I don't know. I--

I guess I don't see the world
the way you do.

Oh, and how's that?

It doesn't matter.

No. No, tell me.

- I'm not sure the world
is so black and white,

right and wrong.

- So what,
you don't believe in God?

- Look, I feel judged enough
as it is, okay?

- Oh, we all do.
- Yeah.

Well, you don't have
to deal with it like I do.

- Do you think
this has been easy on us?

Cleaning up your shit?

Someone died.

Quit feeling sorry
for yourself.

Grow the fuck up.

Someone died?

Is that who this is?

None of this will work

if you're not willing
to face what happened.

Whatever it was.

I can't.

Take it.

We haven't been working
for months

for you to give into fear.

Percy!

Percy, stop!
You're hurting yourself!

I can't do this!

Wait.

Wait, don't go like this.

Please, please!

I never should have pushed her
the way I did.

It was my fault.

- Percy said that
she was responsible

for somebody's death.

She never told me who.

- Do you know if that
person's name was Valerie?

I've never seen that before.

She must have written this
after our ritual.

Do you think you can
push someone to suicide?

- I know you can't save someone
who doesn't want to be saved.

Then why are you still here?

So we're the same, you and I.

We're both guilty.

I don't know.

Maybe.

- I wish you could
let Jamie go.

- Don't.
- And Sonya.

- Don't start.
- And Faye.

- Over and over
and over she died.

- Your mother.
- No, you stop.

I can't.

I'm living in your mind.

It's like a spiral going down.

If you don't stop,

you're gonna end up doing
what I did.

Maybe that's what I deserve.

No one deserves that.

- I killed a man
when I didn't have to.

Hello?

- Hi.
Where are you?

Running an errand.

- Oh, yeah?
Where are you going?

Where are you?

I'm still here.

I finally slept last night.

That's good.

Oh.

So I, uh--I actually
was gonna call you.

It turns out, they did take
something, whoever broke in.

A stack of photographs that I
had printed and a thumb drive.

- What would they want
with your pictures?

- I don't know, Harry.
I backed them up on the cloud.

I can send them to you
so you can, I dunno,

check for whatever it is
that you're looking for.

- Yeah.
If you wouldn't mind.

Yep.

Well, I'll go now if that's--
if that's all.

Okay.

Good morning.

You know why I'm here.

I thought we had
an arrangement.

You've been lying to me.

No.

- Then what were you doing
with that witch woman?

What do you mean?

I knew something was up

when you left
the harbor master's office.

What did she do
to my granddaughter?

She didn't hurt Percy.

Percy came to her for help.

And you believe her?

She wouldn't even say
that much to me.

You talked to her.

- Well, I'm not gonna
sit around

and wait for you to decide
what to tell me.

- I needed to talk to her.
Just one-on-one.

- And what did you learn
one-on-one?

- Do you know anything
about this guilt

that Percy was carrying around?

- Most women are raised to
feel guilty about everything,

but I taught Percy different.

But for some reason,

she felt responsible
for somebody's death.

Whose?

- Is there anyone in her life
that--maybe recently who died?

No.

And that nut job is leading you
down the wrong road.

I'm taking this to Lou.

- Meg, just--hold on.

Sonya took some photographs
while she was here.

This is one of them.

- Two boats pulled together
that way.

Anything strange about it?

- I don't know about
the other one,

but that's a Keyser boat.

- Whose?
- Brandon's. Why?

- During the break-in, the only
thing taken were these photos.

- Brandon brings his haul
in around lunchtime.

His boat's coming in
right about now.

- I don't know what to think
about any of this anymore.

It's like the vertigo I felt
after my stroke.

No solid ground.

Yeah, I'll bet.

- I don't blame you
for not trusting me.

I haven't been completely
honest with you

about Sean,
Percy's time off-island.

But you have to understand that
this is a very small town.

People talk.

They smile at you, but they
don't wish you the best.

It's made me a private person.

I know how that can happen.

There's the Keyser clunker.

What the hell?

He's not turning.
Brandon?

Hey!

There's no one
behind the wheel!

Set to autopilot to
return itself back to the dock.

- What is it?
How does it work? Is it real?

What is that?

- No idea what the hell
cryptocurrency is.

Now, there are countless
cryptocurrencies

in the universe, with new ones
popping up almost daily.

I don't know which way is up.

When producer Dan suggested
this topic, I tried--

It's just a speaker.

- What am I supposed
to be looking for?

- Well, you know what usually
a boat has.

What looks strange?

Anything outta place
or something shouldn't be here,

I guess.

These are Lam traps.

They're the only ones
that are yellow.

- It's like a war back
and forth with these traps.

- Keep telling my boys
they gotta stop--

Now, this is strange.

Brandon knows better than that.

Hey, pull me some slack.

All right.

What's going on?

Oh, my God.

Keep it coming.

Keep it going.

We gotta get him out of there.

Oh, my God.

- Oh, God.
You don't wanna look at this.

How does something
like this happen?

He's so clean.

This is---
blue is concerning.

He took a bullet
in the back of his head.