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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:01:31,000 --> 00:01:32,583 Day of finals. 2 00:01:32,667 --> 00:01:35,500 Here we are, it's 7:30 in the morning, 3 00:01:35,583 --> 00:01:38,166 just getting our last touches. 4 00:01:39,041 --> 00:01:42,083 Gonna hit the can gap, make my way down, 5 00:01:42,166 --> 00:01:44,083 and, uh, see... 6 00:01:44,166 --> 00:01:45,834 see how I feel this morning. It's pretty early, 7 00:01:45,917 --> 00:01:48,250 but I feel pretty confident. 8 00:01:48,333 --> 00:01:50,166 Think of all the Rampages I've done, 9 00:01:50,250 --> 00:01:53,542 I feel more comfortable this year than I ever have. 10 00:02:07,291 --> 00:02:09,709 I was very much in love. 11 00:02:12,542 --> 00:02:14,625 We had Natalie. She was almost two. 12 00:02:14,709 --> 00:02:16,917 She was beautiful and healthy, 13 00:02:18,041 --> 00:02:19,792 and I was pregnant again. 14 00:02:23,709 --> 00:02:27,625 I was so excited. I had such a great summer playing basketball. 15 00:02:27,709 --> 00:02:30,542 I felt like I was at the top of my game. 16 00:02:30,625 --> 00:02:33,667 I was just another girl living life in LA 17 00:02:33,750 --> 00:02:35,917 with my daughter, trying to make ends meet, 18 00:02:36,000 --> 00:02:38,208 going from school, picking her up. 19 00:02:43,291 --> 00:02:44,834 I had graduated school 20 00:02:44,917 --> 00:02:48,333 and was getting ready to do music and jewelry and ski, 21 00:02:48,417 --> 00:02:51,041 and I thought, well, I'll take one last trip. 22 00:02:52,750 --> 00:02:55,667 My doctor happened to be out of town. 23 00:02:55,750 --> 00:02:58,083 I had other things happen at the hospital, 24 00:02:58,166 --> 00:03:00,250 but basically, I went in to have Anna. 25 00:03:08,709 --> 00:03:12,417 Usually, I surf alone, but that day, I told my friends 26 00:03:12,500 --> 00:03:14,291 to come meet me at the beach. 27 00:03:18,125 --> 00:03:22,000 We ordered pizza, had dinner. 28 00:03:23,875 --> 00:03:27,542 I just wanna warm it up to this drop in right here, you know? 29 00:03:27,625 --> 00:03:30,709 I was in the car with... 30 00:03:30,792 --> 00:03:32,000 the love of my life. 31 00:03:32,083 --> 00:03:34,417 Wish me luck. 32 00:03:34,500 --> 00:03:36,792 There was scaffolding up in front of the house. 33 00:03:36,875 --> 00:03:39,291 They were like, we go up on the scaffolding. 34 00:03:39,375 --> 00:03:41,583 It's a really pretty view. 35 00:03:44,583 --> 00:03:46,000 Bike good? 36 00:03:46,083 --> 00:03:48,208 Who wouldn't want to go to look at the pretty city lights? 37 00:03:50,500 --> 00:03:54,083 One o'clock in the afternoon, bright, sunny day, big intersection. 38 00:03:54,166 --> 00:03:55,667 I wasn't going very fast. 39 00:04:02,500 --> 00:04:04,458 Whoa! 40 00:04:04,542 --> 00:04:06,333 We were playing horseshoes up on the beach, 41 00:04:06,417 --> 00:04:09,125 and it got hot, so I was like... 42 00:04:09,208 --> 00:04:11,375 I wanna jump off the boat and jump in the water. 43 00:04:11,458 --> 00:04:13,333 Oh yeah, people dive off that rock! 44 00:04:16,250 --> 00:04:18,125 - Yeah! - Jump! 45 00:04:18,208 --> 00:04:19,917 A defender came in front of me. 46 00:04:20,000 --> 00:04:22,000 My legs got taken out from underneath me. 47 00:04:22,083 --> 00:04:24,125 I laid the ball up, fell on my back, 48 00:04:24,208 --> 00:04:25,875 and made the layup, which was great 49 00:04:25,959 --> 00:04:27,959 'cause that would've made my story kinda lame. 50 00:04:28,041 --> 00:04:30,250 This is 29-year-old Paul Basagoitia. 51 00:04:30,333 --> 00:04:31,834 This guy is such a legend in the sport. 52 00:04:31,917 --> 00:04:33,750 He's done so much in the slopestyle world. 53 00:04:33,834 --> 00:04:37,250 The first guy to ever win back-to-back Crankworx Slopestyle titles, 54 00:04:37,333 --> 00:04:38,917 and he's got a very unique line. 55 00:04:39,000 --> 00:04:41,917 Nobody's riding this far rider's right except for Paul Bas. 56 00:04:42,000 --> 00:04:45,667 Three, two, one... 57 00:04:48,208 --> 00:04:50,959 Pulled inside of the barrel, when I came out, 58 00:04:51,041 --> 00:04:53,291 the wave hit me in my back, and... 59 00:04:53,375 --> 00:04:54,959 I thought it was deeper than it was. 60 00:04:55,041 --> 00:04:56,458 I remember taking off my seat belt, 61 00:04:56,542 --> 00:04:58,250 turning around to get something from the trunk, 62 00:04:58,333 --> 00:05:00,458 when I saw him cutting the wheel back and forth. 63 00:05:00,542 --> 00:05:02,500 Hit a lip too far back and it flipped me 64 00:05:02,583 --> 00:05:04,333 into almost like a backflip. 65 00:05:07,208 --> 00:05:09,834 I was walking and a tree just fell on me. 66 00:05:09,917 --> 00:05:11,375 I was holding onto my mom's hand, 67 00:05:11,458 --> 00:05:12,750 but the force knocked me down. 68 00:05:12,834 --> 00:05:14,709 The tire went completely over me. 69 00:05:18,000 --> 00:05:19,792 She put the wrong chemical in the epidural. 70 00:05:19,875 --> 00:05:22,291 - It burned my spinal cord. - And that's when we launched off the overpass. 71 00:05:22,375 --> 00:05:24,500 I dove off the back of the boat and hit the bottom of the river. 72 00:05:24,583 --> 00:05:27,667 I fell out the window and hit the ground 30 feet. 73 00:05:29,583 --> 00:05:32,166 Shit! 74 00:05:36,041 --> 00:05:38,375 Aah, fuck! 75 00:05:38,458 --> 00:05:42,500 Holy smokes! Paul, just inches off of his line, 76 00:05:42,583 --> 00:05:45,125 causing him to come down into the bushes. 77 00:05:45,208 --> 00:05:46,959 I can't move feet-- move my feet! 78 00:05:47,041 --> 00:05:48,875 Hang on, we got medical here, hold on. 79 00:05:48,959 --> 00:05:50,792 Hold on. Breathe. 80 00:05:50,875 --> 00:05:52,250 Okay, talk to me. 81 00:05:52,333 --> 00:05:54,333 - I can't move my feet! - Hold on, hold on. 82 00:05:54,417 --> 00:05:57,500 Don't move, don't move. Watch that... 83 00:05:57,583 --> 00:05:58,750 Watch that right arm. 84 00:05:58,834 --> 00:06:00,792 I'm here, baby. 85 00:06:00,875 --> 00:06:03,542 Okay. We're gonna roll you over, Paul. 86 00:06:03,625 --> 00:06:05,792 Be strong, babe. 87 00:06:05,875 --> 00:06:07,625 - You got it. - We got you, Paul. 88 00:06:07,709 --> 00:06:09,917 - Should we strap his neck? - Ready? On three. 89 00:06:10,000 --> 00:06:13,083 - Ready? One, two, three. - Oh, that hurts. 90 00:06:14,709 --> 00:06:17,250 - Take him out. Take him out. Take him out. - You're okay, babe. 91 00:06:17,333 --> 00:06:20,417 Nice and easy, nice and easy, nice and easy, good. 92 00:07:13,208 --> 00:07:15,458 We've got this nasty burst fracture, 93 00:07:15,542 --> 00:07:19,125 obliterated T12 with a large fragment back into his canal. 94 00:07:19,208 --> 00:07:20,417 His cord is just trapped, 95 00:07:20,500 --> 00:07:23,417 and all the ligaments back here are all torn. 96 00:07:23,500 --> 00:07:24,667 Is he moving anything? 97 00:07:24,750 --> 00:07:26,083 It's an incomplete injury, 98 00:07:26,166 --> 00:07:28,750 so he's got some movement in his proximal legs. 99 00:07:28,834 --> 00:07:30,792 The distal legs, he doesn't have any movement. 100 00:07:30,875 --> 00:07:32,083 He's got some sensation. 101 00:07:32,166 --> 00:07:34,667 Wanna take this bone out and just do a corpectomy? 102 00:07:34,750 --> 00:07:36,041 We could take that down, 103 00:07:36,125 --> 00:07:38,375 evacuate the blood, get you to where you need to be, 104 00:07:38,458 --> 00:07:39,792 leave a drain in afterwards. 105 00:07:39,875 --> 00:07:41,291 I'll just put a cage in there, 106 00:07:41,375 --> 00:07:44,583 and lock him in posteriorly as well. 107 00:07:44,667 --> 00:07:46,959 I guess I knew that I couldn't move, but... 108 00:07:47,041 --> 00:07:49,208 I didn't know... 109 00:07:50,041 --> 00:07:52,792 that I had a spinal cord injury. I had no idea what... 110 00:07:53,375 --> 00:07:56,583 a spinal cord injury entailed or the... 111 00:07:56,667 --> 00:07:58,917 things that would come with my life after that. 112 00:07:59,000 --> 00:08:02,709 They had told my family and my boyfriend at the time 113 00:08:02,792 --> 00:08:05,959 that I was never gonna walk again, but no one had told me yet. 114 00:08:06,041 --> 00:08:07,625 I don't know why no one told me. I don't know. 115 00:08:07,709 --> 00:08:09,875 I guess it's really hard to tell someone that. 116 00:08:10,458 --> 00:08:12,125 First thing that you hear when you open your eyes 117 00:08:12,208 --> 00:08:14,166 after a spinal cord injury is, 118 00:08:14,250 --> 00:08:16,500 "You're never gonna walk again." 119 00:08:17,333 --> 00:08:19,500 And I was just like, fuck you. 120 00:08:20,166 --> 00:08:21,792 What do you mean I'm never gonna walk again? 121 00:08:21,875 --> 00:08:23,834 Like, "Well, we're not gonna say never, 122 00:08:23,917 --> 00:08:26,500 "but your five percent chance is pretty slim, 123 00:08:26,583 --> 00:08:29,709 "and at the five percent chance, it's not going to be 124 00:08:29,792 --> 00:08:32,250 the same way that you walked before." 125 00:08:32,333 --> 00:08:34,917 I just kind of woke up and... 126 00:08:35,000 --> 00:08:37,583 was in my new body. 127 00:08:39,917 --> 00:08:42,500 Nichole, so we just finished up the surgery. 128 00:08:42,583 --> 00:08:45,250 From here on out, it's gonna be a rough road. 129 00:08:45,333 --> 00:08:49,291 He'll have some problems with bowel and bladder function, 130 00:08:49,375 --> 00:08:50,750 sexual function. 131 00:08:50,834 --> 00:08:55,041 There is a solid chance that he's not gonna walk again. 132 00:09:19,250 --> 00:09:20,875 Day four. 133 00:09:20,959 --> 00:09:22,959 Really tough. 134 00:09:23,709 --> 00:09:26,750 Never in a million years thought I'd be here, but... 135 00:09:27,333 --> 00:09:29,625 if it wasn't for you guys, 136 00:09:29,709 --> 00:09:31,583 I wouldn't be... 137 00:09:31,667 --> 00:09:33,166 trying how I am right now. 138 00:09:33,250 --> 00:09:35,125 You guys have been a huge support. 139 00:09:35,208 --> 00:09:37,375 - Use your legs as best you can. - Just stand, baby, 140 00:09:37,458 --> 00:09:39,041 - you got it. - One, two, three. 141 00:09:39,125 --> 00:09:42,291 Stand, stand, stand. Push, push, push. 142 00:09:42,375 --> 00:09:44,500 Want to see if I'm stable? 143 00:09:44,583 --> 00:09:47,750 - Yeah, it's okay. - I've got his left side here, Mike. 144 00:09:47,834 --> 00:09:50,500 You're okay, babe. Push. 145 00:10:01,667 --> 00:10:04,166 Okay, nice. Now, we're sitting. 146 00:10:08,417 --> 00:10:09,792 Perfect. 147 00:10:10,709 --> 00:10:13,125 And here we go. 148 00:10:13,208 --> 00:10:16,792 Breaking my back I thought was similar to breaking your arm, 149 00:10:16,875 --> 00:10:17,959 spraining an ankle. 150 00:10:18,041 --> 00:10:20,083 You put a cast on it, you get better. 151 00:10:20,166 --> 00:10:23,125 I didn't understand that neck meant quadriplegic. 152 00:10:23,208 --> 00:10:25,750 I didn't understand that back meant paraplegic. 153 00:10:25,834 --> 00:10:28,792 I thought the people that were in wheelchairs 154 00:10:28,875 --> 00:10:30,000 were born like that. 155 00:10:30,083 --> 00:10:33,208 I had no idea that you could become paralyzed. 156 00:10:33,291 --> 00:10:35,667 I had gotten an iPad, and I remember looking it up 157 00:10:35,750 --> 00:10:39,959 and just pulling up a chart where it literally tells you your whole entire spine 158 00:10:40,041 --> 00:10:42,834 and then seeing paraplegia, this is what it is. 159 00:10:42,917 --> 00:10:45,542 This is the spinal cord chart, and that's about it. 160 00:10:54,041 --> 00:10:56,333 It's gonna get better, babe. 161 00:10:57,792 --> 00:11:00,917 Just wanna lock bands, get these legs moving, and just... 162 00:11:01,000 --> 00:11:03,875 help people in the future with, you know, 163 00:11:03,959 --> 00:11:06,875 the same situation, and hopefully I can... 164 00:11:06,959 --> 00:11:09,750 be the guidance for someone else. 165 00:11:15,542 --> 00:11:18,041 When you see somebody in a wheelchair in public, 166 00:11:18,125 --> 00:11:23,291 you just see them struggle getting from point A to point B. 167 00:11:26,417 --> 00:11:27,709 The real struggle is 168 00:11:27,792 --> 00:11:30,583 what goes on behind closed doors. 169 00:11:31,583 --> 00:11:33,583 When they started telling me more about 170 00:11:33,667 --> 00:11:35,625 the injury and what it really meant 171 00:11:35,709 --> 00:11:39,792 to be paralyzed, and not to be able to feel your body, 172 00:11:39,875 --> 00:11:42,250 not being able to use the restroom by yourself, 173 00:11:42,625 --> 00:11:44,208 it's everybody's worst nightmare. 174 00:11:44,291 --> 00:11:45,583 It's 3:00 in the morning, 175 00:11:45,667 --> 00:11:48,542 and, uh, this is what I have to go through. 176 00:11:48,625 --> 00:11:50,792 Ten o'clock at night, 12 o'clock at night, 177 00:11:50,875 --> 00:11:54,250 three o'clock in the morning, six o'clock in the morning. 178 00:12:34,750 --> 00:12:36,709 Not a good time. 179 00:12:47,208 --> 00:12:49,667 I hated my fiancée seeing me. 180 00:12:49,750 --> 00:12:51,208 I think the first thing I said to her-- 181 00:12:51,291 --> 00:12:53,542 'cause we were due to get married in April, 182 00:12:53,625 --> 00:12:55,583 and I was hurt in September, 183 00:12:55,667 --> 00:12:57,875 and I remember when she got to the hospital, 184 00:12:57,959 --> 00:13:00,458 I remember just laying there. I couldn't... 185 00:13:00,542 --> 00:13:02,959 really grab her hand or anything, and... 186 00:13:03,625 --> 00:13:06,000 I remember saying to her, "You're not marrying me." 187 00:13:06,083 --> 00:13:08,125 Like, "You're not marrying a vegetable." 188 00:13:09,625 --> 00:13:12,208 My girlfriend's been sleeping in that corner 189 00:13:12,291 --> 00:13:15,041 on that bed for the last two weeks. 190 00:13:17,250 --> 00:13:19,083 It kills me. 191 00:13:31,125 --> 00:13:33,000 I went from being a hotshot tank commander 192 00:13:33,083 --> 00:13:35,917 to being like an overgrown baby. 193 00:13:36,000 --> 00:13:38,709 I had to get my ass wiped for me. I had to get bathed. 194 00:13:38,792 --> 00:13:40,375 I had to get clothed. 195 00:13:41,125 --> 00:13:43,333 I can't even-- Humbling isn't even a word. 196 00:13:43,417 --> 00:13:46,041 It was, it was, uh... 197 00:13:47,000 --> 00:13:50,542 I wanted to die. I had-- I felt like, why am I living? 198 00:13:50,625 --> 00:13:54,917 If I can't be the same person that I was before, why am I still here? 199 00:13:55,041 --> 00:13:58,625 I wanted them to like do something to just... end my life. 200 00:13:58,709 --> 00:14:02,667 I just couldn't-- I didn't see how I could continue living like that, 201 00:14:02,750 --> 00:14:04,750 or like this. 202 00:14:08,542 --> 00:14:11,792 Today felt like it was the very first day that... 203 00:14:12,917 --> 00:14:14,709 reality actually set in. 204 00:14:14,792 --> 00:14:18,417 I'll never be back on my bike or walking. 205 00:14:46,041 --> 00:14:48,208 There were a lot of little 206 00:14:48,291 --> 00:14:50,291 boxes that they put us in. 207 00:14:50,375 --> 00:14:52,333 Time frames, what to expect when. 208 00:14:52,417 --> 00:14:54,083 Six months, really great. 209 00:14:54,166 --> 00:14:56,917 Twelve months, definitely getting some stuff back. 210 00:14:57,000 --> 00:14:59,500 Eighteen months to two years, you're maxing out. 211 00:14:59,583 --> 00:15:01,000 They told me that I would make 212 00:15:01,083 --> 00:15:02,875 my most progress within two years. 213 00:15:02,959 --> 00:15:07,792 Right away, it was in this gym, was working towards being... 214 00:15:08,333 --> 00:15:11,917 not necessarily out of the wheelchair, just being... 215 00:15:12,000 --> 00:15:15,166 the best I could be in this situation. 216 00:15:15,792 --> 00:15:18,709 - Want some music? - Maybe. 217 00:15:18,792 --> 00:15:22,083 Use all the power have, babe. You can do it. 218 00:15:22,166 --> 00:15:25,083 And then just as you come up, just keep bringing 219 00:15:25,166 --> 00:15:27,542 your hips forward and your chest up. 220 00:15:27,625 --> 00:15:29,750 And the hips kind of follow the chest. 221 00:15:29,834 --> 00:15:32,166 Just up and forward. 222 00:15:34,166 --> 00:15:37,041 You got it, you got. Use those legs. 223 00:15:39,083 --> 00:15:43,458 As you feel, start walking, hands forward. 224 00:15:44,583 --> 00:15:46,333 This is him. 225 00:15:46,417 --> 00:15:48,959 - He's got it. - Nice job, babe. 226 00:15:50,083 --> 00:15:52,041 Good. Good! 227 00:15:55,667 --> 00:15:57,458 Two wheels was my life. 228 00:16:06,667 --> 00:16:10,291 Started riding a bike without training wheels when I was two years old. 229 00:16:10,375 --> 00:16:12,083 My dad would just give me one good push, 230 00:16:12,166 --> 00:16:15,917 and I was able to maintain that speed. 231 00:16:16,000 --> 00:16:17,667 I remember going into the bike shop 232 00:16:17,750 --> 00:16:22,375 with my mom and purchasing my first BMX racing bike. 233 00:16:22,458 --> 00:16:24,625 Getting out of school, the first thing I would do 234 00:16:24,709 --> 00:16:26,542 is go to this vacant lot. 235 00:16:26,625 --> 00:16:29,709 All the teenagers would go out there and build jumps. 236 00:16:31,542 --> 00:16:32,875 That's all I wanted to do. 237 00:16:32,959 --> 00:16:35,792 I wanted to compete, and I wanted to race. 238 00:16:35,875 --> 00:16:37,583 Basagoitia moving to the front! 239 00:16:37,667 --> 00:16:41,625 The Flash dropping one in the first turn! Hasslegrave going down! 240 00:16:41,709 --> 00:16:43,667 I loved training, 241 00:16:43,750 --> 00:16:47,375 working hard, and getting the results. 242 00:16:47,458 --> 00:16:51,959 I was the best in my age group in the world, at 10 years old. 243 00:16:53,917 --> 00:16:56,709 Today was a huge accomplishment for me. 244 00:16:56,792 --> 00:16:58,750 It was the first day 245 00:16:58,834 --> 00:17:01,000 that I got out of bed by myself. 246 00:17:01,083 --> 00:17:03,166 Super emotional about it because 247 00:17:03,250 --> 00:17:06,750 every morning, that's like the hardest thing for me is to, 248 00:17:06,834 --> 00:17:09,166 you know, get out of bed because, 249 00:17:09,250 --> 00:17:11,000 you know, the night before, you're always dreaming 250 00:17:11,083 --> 00:17:13,625 about riding and hanging out with your friends, 251 00:17:13,709 --> 00:17:16,625 living a normal life, and then you wake up. 252 00:17:17,208 --> 00:17:19,375 Reality sets in. 253 00:17:20,166 --> 00:17:22,166 I get choked up even thinking about it, so... 254 00:17:22,250 --> 00:17:25,583 I'm gonna keep plugging away and do my best. 255 00:17:33,458 --> 00:17:35,208 You wanna keep your elbows in. 256 00:17:35,291 --> 00:17:36,959 We're gonna take you in backwards here, 257 00:17:37,041 --> 00:17:39,000 so in the first row. 258 00:17:41,166 --> 00:17:42,542 Whoa! 259 00:17:42,625 --> 00:17:44,125 - Don't be alarmed. - Okay. 260 00:17:44,208 --> 00:17:45,709 Yeah, you're good. 261 00:17:45,792 --> 00:17:47,667 If I could've gone home 262 00:17:47,750 --> 00:17:49,625 right away, I would, but... 263 00:17:49,709 --> 00:17:52,792 you have to do certain things to be able to get ready for that. 264 00:17:53,417 --> 00:17:55,375 It blew my mind. 265 00:17:55,458 --> 00:17:58,875 I went from being so independent 266 00:17:58,959 --> 00:18:01,375 to just starting all over again, 267 00:18:01,458 --> 00:18:04,250 to the days that I don't even remember, as an infant. 268 00:18:05,125 --> 00:18:08,333 - Grab your... and meet you on the other side. - Okay. 269 00:18:08,917 --> 00:18:11,125 Coming down. 270 00:18:11,709 --> 00:18:14,667 I went to my rehab hospital and I said, 271 00:18:14,750 --> 00:18:18,667 how many people have walked out of your hospital? 272 00:18:18,750 --> 00:18:21,125 He said not many. And I said, well, add me to that list 273 00:18:21,208 --> 00:18:23,458 'cause I'm not leaving here till I walk again. 274 00:18:26,875 --> 00:18:28,208 First day at Craig. 275 00:18:28,291 --> 00:18:29,875 - Are you excited? - Yeah. 276 00:18:29,959 --> 00:18:31,750 - Are you? - I'm, um... 277 00:18:31,834 --> 00:18:34,083 I'm a little nervous, but I'm excited. 278 00:18:34,166 --> 00:18:36,208 I'm hoping to see some progress 279 00:18:36,291 --> 00:18:38,417 and maybe walk out of this place. 280 00:18:44,125 --> 00:18:46,750 All right, let me see what you can do with this foot. 281 00:18:46,834 --> 00:18:48,083 Okay. 282 00:18:55,208 --> 00:18:57,875 Where do you feel that? Okay. 283 00:18:59,333 --> 00:19:02,709 The team that was working with me told me 284 00:19:02,792 --> 00:19:05,333 they can't tell me what my life is gonna be like 285 00:19:05,417 --> 00:19:08,208 because every spinal cord injury is so different. 286 00:19:09,583 --> 00:19:12,959 Some people do have some movement. Some people don't have movement. 287 00:19:13,041 --> 00:19:15,750 Some people have sensation, some people don't. 288 00:19:18,041 --> 00:19:19,291 Once I heard that there was 289 00:19:19,375 --> 00:19:21,750 no two spinal cord injuries alike, 290 00:19:21,834 --> 00:19:23,875 and that you shouldn't compare yourself... 291 00:19:27,500 --> 00:19:29,583 Everybody's a snowflake. 292 00:19:30,250 --> 00:19:33,792 Every individual and their injury 293 00:19:33,875 --> 00:19:38,125 is different and acts and reacts differently. 294 00:19:38,208 --> 00:19:40,667 So, there's no way for any one person to understand 295 00:19:40,750 --> 00:19:45,208 how another person is experiencing this injury. 296 00:19:47,041 --> 00:19:52,041 There's not one person here at the hospital that's not in a wheelchair, and, uh... 297 00:19:52,125 --> 00:19:56,417 matter of fact, there's people here a lot worse than I am. 298 00:19:56,500 --> 00:19:59,500 And it's, um, quite scary, you know? 299 00:19:59,583 --> 00:20:02,750 Everybody is literally here... 300 00:20:04,333 --> 00:20:06,375 for the same reason, and... 301 00:20:07,333 --> 00:20:09,834 and in this case, it's... 302 00:20:09,917 --> 00:20:12,166 you know, because you're paralyzed. 303 00:20:22,959 --> 00:20:24,709 They were having me do a lot of things 304 00:20:24,792 --> 00:20:26,583 to work in the wheelchair. 305 00:20:26,667 --> 00:20:28,250 And I was like, no, I just wanna walk. 306 00:20:28,333 --> 00:20:30,208 I only want to be doing therapy for my legs. 307 00:20:30,291 --> 00:20:31,542 I don't want to transfer. 308 00:20:31,625 --> 00:20:33,083 I don't want you to tell me in a wheelchair. 309 00:20:33,166 --> 00:20:35,875 I have to go to the refrigerator and take out a dozen eggs. 310 00:20:35,959 --> 00:20:39,667 I was getting so... frustrated by them, like, 311 00:20:39,750 --> 00:20:43,166 we want to teach you how to diaper your baby at the wheelchair-- 312 00:20:43,250 --> 00:20:45,166 like, it was always the wheelchair level. 313 00:20:53,291 --> 00:20:56,500 They would tell me to get out of my chair and get on the floor, 314 00:20:56,583 --> 00:20:57,917 and then get back into my chair. 315 00:20:58,000 --> 00:20:59,583 This is how you're gonna put on your pants. 316 00:20:59,667 --> 00:21:01,166 This is how you're gonna get in the shower. 317 00:21:01,250 --> 00:21:04,875 And I feel like I still needed time to process things... 318 00:21:06,583 --> 00:21:08,834 ...and grieve a little bit. 319 00:21:33,792 --> 00:21:36,291 Paul, it's your mom. I'm just calling 320 00:21:36,375 --> 00:21:38,959 'cause I heard the bad news. 321 00:21:39,041 --> 00:21:40,875 Have Nichole give me a call, 322 00:21:40,959 --> 00:21:44,083 and let me know how you're doing, please. 323 00:21:44,166 --> 00:21:45,834 Bye. 324 00:21:45,917 --> 00:21:47,917 I haven't spoken to my mom in years. 325 00:21:48,000 --> 00:21:49,458 We don't see eye to eye on things, 326 00:21:49,542 --> 00:21:52,291 and when I get back home, we can try to fix things, 327 00:21:52,375 --> 00:21:54,875 but right now, it's not the time. 328 00:21:56,000 --> 00:21:58,792 Growing up wasn't easy. 329 00:21:58,875 --> 00:22:01,500 In 1995, my parents bought this motel. 330 00:22:01,583 --> 00:22:04,792 Pretty beat up, the roof was about to fall off, 331 00:22:04,875 --> 00:22:06,625 but it was their dream. 332 00:22:06,709 --> 00:22:09,375 My mom would take me all around the US 333 00:22:09,458 --> 00:22:11,625 while my dad was at home working, 334 00:22:11,709 --> 00:22:14,709 and raising enough money for us to do these races. 335 00:22:15,750 --> 00:22:17,417 My mom pushed me to the max. 336 00:22:17,500 --> 00:22:20,875 I would do four to five races every week. 337 00:22:20,959 --> 00:22:22,500 The days I wasn't doing so well, 338 00:22:22,583 --> 00:22:24,625 she would yell at me, scream at me. 339 00:22:24,709 --> 00:22:27,709 As a child, you don't want to hear that from your own mother. 340 00:22:27,792 --> 00:22:31,750 But she always wanted me to be the best. 341 00:22:31,834 --> 00:22:33,875 Every time we would come back from the races, 342 00:22:33,959 --> 00:22:37,375 my dad was drunk, my mom was upset. 343 00:22:37,458 --> 00:22:39,750 Once my parents got divorced, 344 00:22:39,834 --> 00:22:41,917 everything just stopped. 345 00:22:42,000 --> 00:22:44,667 My mom ended up taking over the hotel. 346 00:22:44,750 --> 00:22:47,083 My dad was like, all I want is one room 347 00:22:47,166 --> 00:22:49,917 until I'm able to figure out my shit again. 348 00:22:50,000 --> 00:22:53,333 He worked so hard to get that hotel 349 00:22:53,417 --> 00:22:55,917 and help me with my BMX career. 350 00:22:56,000 --> 00:22:58,500 Told my dad, I'm like, hey, I'm gonna be next to you 351 00:22:58,583 --> 00:23:01,125 whether the situation is good or bad. 352 00:23:01,875 --> 00:23:04,166 We lived together in room 120 353 00:23:04,250 --> 00:23:06,458 for a good three years. 354 00:23:09,458 --> 00:23:12,166 Hi, brother! 355 00:23:22,750 --> 00:23:24,792 Just make sure the brakes are on. 356 00:23:24,875 --> 00:23:26,208 - Got your brakes on? - Yeah. 357 00:23:26,291 --> 00:23:28,083 Okay. 358 00:23:28,166 --> 00:23:30,458 - Thanks for dinner, it was good. - All right. 359 00:23:33,625 --> 00:23:35,458 Yeah, I'll see you tomorrow, buddy. 360 00:23:35,542 --> 00:23:37,083 Watch it out, it's ice. 361 00:23:37,166 --> 00:23:38,500 Okay. 362 00:23:41,333 --> 00:23:44,583 Dude, I've never, ever seen my dad cry. 363 00:23:44,667 --> 00:23:46,166 Never once in my life. 364 00:23:46,250 --> 00:23:48,917 My mom says he's been crying all week for you. 365 00:23:49,000 --> 00:23:51,750 Yeah. That was tough. 366 00:23:51,834 --> 00:23:55,000 - You're okay. - I know. I'm just saying it was tough. 367 00:23:57,333 --> 00:23:59,375 Like, 'cause you know, like... 368 00:24:01,041 --> 00:24:04,542 I don't know. You just know it's serious when he's crying, you know? 369 00:24:05,333 --> 00:24:07,125 My dad's been through a lot of shit-- 370 00:24:07,208 --> 00:24:10,083 I know, but this is the first time he's seen anything for you. 371 00:24:10,166 --> 00:24:13,792 I know. I just know right when he saw me the first time in the wheelchair, 372 00:24:13,875 --> 00:24:16,750 - he was devastated-- For sure. He was... - Cried a little. 373 00:24:17,208 --> 00:24:19,417 And that's why it took him so long to come visit me 374 00:24:19,500 --> 00:24:22,250 because he didn't wanna see me in a wheelchair, you know? 375 00:24:22,333 --> 00:24:23,959 Or in this situation. 376 00:24:24,041 --> 00:24:25,667 Baby... 377 00:24:26,458 --> 00:24:29,083 - Toughen up. - I know. I'm just saying... 378 00:24:29,583 --> 00:24:32,333 - I'm tough-- No, I'm tough. - You're gonna prove-- 379 00:24:32,709 --> 00:24:34,834 Told you I was gonna be emotional when I saw my dad. 380 00:24:34,917 --> 00:24:37,291 - But your dad-- - And I was good. I was good all day. 381 00:24:37,375 --> 00:24:39,458 I was fine, until he... 382 00:24:39,542 --> 00:24:41,709 "No, no, no. Oh..." I don't know. 383 00:24:43,333 --> 00:24:45,583 - Love you so much. - I love you, babe. 384 00:24:48,208 --> 00:24:50,625 Why is it everybody other than me 385 00:24:50,709 --> 00:24:52,875 loves being in my wheelchair. 386 00:24:56,166 --> 00:24:57,500 Watch this. 387 00:24:57,583 --> 00:24:59,458 It's obviously easy for me to say, 388 00:24:59,542 --> 00:25:01,917 "Hey, let's move on," but... 389 00:25:02,041 --> 00:25:05,291 the reason I do act like that is to encourage him. 390 00:25:05,375 --> 00:25:07,166 I wanna see what you got. 391 00:25:07,250 --> 00:25:09,000 If he sees that I'm happy, 392 00:25:09,083 --> 00:25:12,250 I'm hoping he will try to be happy. 393 00:25:12,333 --> 00:25:13,792 I have to be the rock. 394 00:25:13,875 --> 00:25:16,083 Gosh. 395 00:25:17,375 --> 00:25:18,834 When you become injured 396 00:25:18,917 --> 00:25:21,959 or your life changes drastically, 397 00:25:22,041 --> 00:25:23,917 it doesn't only stop your life, 398 00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:25,917 but it stops everyone else's around you. 399 00:25:26,000 --> 00:25:30,041 You realize that these people like my fiancée Elise 400 00:25:30,125 --> 00:25:32,667 and friends and... 401 00:25:32,750 --> 00:25:34,417 um, family, 402 00:25:34,500 --> 00:25:36,750 they do it without even... 403 00:25:37,417 --> 00:25:39,166 you know, blinking an eye. 404 00:25:39,250 --> 00:25:42,000 This young kid from the neighborhood came by, 405 00:25:42,083 --> 00:25:45,041 and he looks into the car, he's like, you're paralyzed? 406 00:25:45,125 --> 00:25:48,709 I said yes, and I showed him my handicap sign, my plaque. 407 00:25:48,792 --> 00:25:50,625 He's like wow, you don't look paralyzed. 408 00:25:50,709 --> 00:25:53,583 So, once this young kid leaves, 409 00:25:53,667 --> 00:25:56,500 she's like, "Mom, you're not paralyzed." 410 00:25:56,583 --> 00:25:58,542 And I was like, I don't know where you've been, 411 00:25:58,625 --> 00:26:00,709 but I'm paralyzed Brianna. 412 00:26:00,792 --> 00:26:02,041 She's like, no, Mom. She's like, 413 00:26:02,125 --> 00:26:04,291 you can move your legs a little bit. 414 00:26:04,375 --> 00:26:07,250 She's like, someone who's paralyzed can't move at all. 415 00:26:07,333 --> 00:26:10,375 She's like, so I don't see you as paralyzed. 416 00:26:10,458 --> 00:26:12,125 So, when she said that to me, 417 00:26:12,208 --> 00:26:16,375 something just shifted in my mind where no matter what 418 00:26:16,458 --> 00:26:19,208 I'm going through physically, emotionally, 419 00:26:19,291 --> 00:26:21,083 she just sees me as Mom, 420 00:26:21,166 --> 00:26:23,125 as a complete person, 421 00:26:23,208 --> 00:26:24,583 and her love is unconditional, 422 00:26:24,667 --> 00:26:27,542 and that just gives me strength to keep on moving forward. 423 00:26:27,959 --> 00:26:30,166 Nothing will ever change how I feel. 424 00:26:33,333 --> 00:26:35,000 You're my life, 425 00:26:35,083 --> 00:26:36,667 and... 426 00:26:36,750 --> 00:26:38,792 nothing will ever change. 427 00:26:39,959 --> 00:26:43,333 You're my one and only, my end all be all. 428 00:26:44,166 --> 00:26:46,250 This is nothing for me. 429 00:26:46,333 --> 00:26:49,166 This makes me love you even more because I know how much you... 430 00:26:50,166 --> 00:26:54,500 the strong person that you are, and I love it. 431 00:26:55,500 --> 00:26:56,834 So thankful for you. 432 00:26:56,917 --> 00:26:59,000 Nothing had changed for him. 433 00:26:59,083 --> 00:27:01,917 I would've felt it. I would feel other people's eyes on me 434 00:27:02,000 --> 00:27:03,417 differently than they were. 435 00:27:03,500 --> 00:27:06,166 You can sense it. You know... 436 00:27:06,625 --> 00:27:09,041 this person loves me. 437 00:27:10,041 --> 00:27:12,333 My babe's leaving me tomorrow! 438 00:27:12,417 --> 00:27:14,083 I don't want to, babe. 439 00:27:15,542 --> 00:27:17,583 Going to be very sad. 440 00:27:17,667 --> 00:27:20,875 No, don't talk about it. I'm sad, too. 441 00:27:22,625 --> 00:27:25,417 Reality: gotta go back to work. 442 00:27:25,500 --> 00:27:27,583 Talk about last night. 443 00:27:27,667 --> 00:27:29,166 What? No. 444 00:27:30,750 --> 00:27:32,375 What do you mean? 445 00:27:33,000 --> 00:27:34,959 What part of last night? 446 00:27:35,041 --> 00:27:36,583 What happened last night? 447 00:27:36,667 --> 00:27:38,750 Hmm... 448 00:27:39,709 --> 00:27:41,166 Can you give me... 449 00:27:41,250 --> 00:27:43,333 No. What happened last night? 450 00:27:43,417 --> 00:27:46,166 - I'm not talking about that. - What? 451 00:27:46,250 --> 00:27:47,500 Okay, hand me that... 452 00:27:47,583 --> 00:27:50,333 - Okay, you tell me what happened... - No. 453 00:27:50,417 --> 00:27:53,458 ...and then we'll discuss about the Starbursts. 454 00:27:53,542 --> 00:27:54,500 Uh-uh. 455 00:27:54,583 --> 00:27:56,834 Take that towel off. 456 00:27:59,834 --> 00:28:01,208 If...? 457 00:28:02,500 --> 00:28:04,709 If what? 458 00:28:05,250 --> 00:28:08,250 - Two for two? - Oh my God. 459 00:28:08,834 --> 00:28:13,000 Here's the three questions people wanna ask when you're in a wheelchair: 460 00:28:13,083 --> 00:28:14,875 How did you get hurt? 461 00:28:14,959 --> 00:28:16,667 Will you ever walk again? 462 00:28:16,750 --> 00:28:18,208 Can you have sex? 463 00:28:18,291 --> 00:28:21,083 Not as easy as it once was or as... 464 00:28:21,959 --> 00:28:23,834 normal or romantic 465 00:28:23,917 --> 00:28:26,166 or that kind of thing, you know. 466 00:28:26,250 --> 00:28:29,834 Being with someone and being intimate with someone involves so much, 467 00:28:29,917 --> 00:28:31,834 it involves so much more than just, you know, sex. 468 00:28:31,917 --> 00:28:34,500 When people say that, sounds like, "Oh, so then you can't have sex." 469 00:28:34,583 --> 00:28:35,834 No! 470 00:28:35,917 --> 00:28:37,959 That is the only part of my life I would say is 471 00:28:38,041 --> 00:28:41,000 better than everything, than it ever was before. 472 00:28:41,083 --> 00:28:43,709 It made me more-- less... 473 00:28:43,792 --> 00:28:45,709 inhibited, I guess, less afraid, 474 00:28:45,792 --> 00:28:47,583 and made me understand my body more. 475 00:28:47,667 --> 00:28:50,667 And so, for me, that was the only plus I got. 476 00:28:51,583 --> 00:28:53,500 Sorry to put it that way. 477 00:29:03,125 --> 00:29:04,375 Hi, babe. 478 00:29:04,458 --> 00:29:06,542 You won't believe what just happened to me. 479 00:29:06,625 --> 00:29:07,959 Why? 480 00:29:08,417 --> 00:29:09,792 Come on. 481 00:29:23,166 --> 00:29:24,667 Yes! 482 00:29:28,166 --> 00:29:30,500 Yeah. Yeah. 483 00:29:32,041 --> 00:29:33,667 - Woo! - Ah! 484 00:29:34,709 --> 00:29:38,750 - I'm about to cry. - Oh my God. 485 00:29:38,834 --> 00:29:41,250 It was the best piss I ever had in my life. 486 00:29:41,333 --> 00:29:43,166 I'm so happy, baby. 487 00:29:43,250 --> 00:29:45,333 - Love you. - Okay, love you, too. 488 00:29:45,417 --> 00:29:46,834 - Bye. - Bye. 489 00:29:48,458 --> 00:29:49,250 Yeah! 490 00:30:01,500 --> 00:30:03,542 I'll never forget that moment. 491 00:30:03,625 --> 00:30:06,875 Picking up a French fry, slowly bringing it to my mouth, and when it made it to my mouth, 492 00:30:06,959 --> 00:30:10,750 I cried. I was like, wow, like, I could beat this. I can do something. 493 00:30:10,834 --> 00:30:13,291 ♪ You're feeling tired, I know three's a crowd ♪ 494 00:30:13,375 --> 00:30:15,125 ♪ But if I bring along a friend ♪ 495 00:30:15,208 --> 00:30:17,208 ♪ It'll be fine for now... ♪ 496 00:30:17,291 --> 00:30:19,041 I stacked those gains like LEGOs. 497 00:30:19,125 --> 00:30:23,000 I was able to stand in water, with full bracing. 498 00:30:23,083 --> 00:30:24,959 I was able to regulate blood pressure. 499 00:30:25,041 --> 00:30:27,667 I was able to give my dad a hug on Father's Day. 500 00:30:27,750 --> 00:30:30,208 I just started to really break it down 501 00:30:30,291 --> 00:30:32,458 into those tiny, incremental 502 00:30:32,542 --> 00:30:35,166 improvements, which were huge. 503 00:30:35,250 --> 00:30:38,500 ♪ After you, Hell should be easy ♪ 504 00:30:41,917 --> 00:30:46,166 I got a lot more shoulder movement, bicep, 505 00:30:46,250 --> 00:30:48,542 and also wrists, so that was a huge thing. 506 00:30:48,625 --> 00:30:50,083 Had I not done the E-stim, 507 00:30:50,166 --> 00:30:53,458 I do not think I would've gotten the wrist function back. 508 00:30:54,625 --> 00:30:58,333 I first started out just being propped up to stand in a standing frame. 509 00:31:00,750 --> 00:31:03,291 And then I went to the parallel bars, 510 00:31:03,375 --> 00:31:06,166 and I was moving one leg, another leg. 511 00:31:06,250 --> 00:31:09,500 ♪ Oh, oh, oh! ♪ 512 00:31:09,583 --> 00:31:13,333 ♪ Oh, oh-oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 513 00:31:13,417 --> 00:31:15,792 Then, I had a walker. 514 00:31:15,875 --> 00:31:19,125 After the walker, I went to my forearm crutches. 515 00:31:19,208 --> 00:31:21,834 From forearm crutches, I walked out of the hospital, 516 00:31:21,917 --> 00:31:23,875 had my wheelchair for long distances. 517 00:31:23,959 --> 00:31:27,333 ♪ After you, Hell should be easy ♪ 518 00:31:27,417 --> 00:31:30,542 ♪ After you, I don't know what I believe in ♪ 519 00:31:30,625 --> 00:31:34,625 ♪ After you, Hell would be easier... ♪ 520 00:31:36,375 --> 00:31:41,041 So, you're picking up your trailing limbs a little early. 521 00:31:41,125 --> 00:31:42,500 Last day at Craig. 522 00:31:42,583 --> 00:31:44,875 I was hoping to walk out of this place, 523 00:31:44,959 --> 00:31:47,291 but, uh, obviously, that's not gonna happen. 524 00:31:47,375 --> 00:31:49,291 Keep plugging away and try my best, 525 00:31:49,375 --> 00:31:52,542 and, hopefully, get back on my feet here soon. 526 00:31:52,625 --> 00:31:54,667 ♪ I'm the moon that pulls ♪ 527 00:31:54,750 --> 00:31:57,834 ♪ The tides that take the sand ♪ 528 00:31:57,917 --> 00:32:00,083 ♪ I'm atomic man... ♪ 529 00:32:00,166 --> 00:32:02,083 Good, home sweet home. 530 00:32:13,834 --> 00:32:15,750 I'll take some, thank you very much. 531 00:32:15,834 --> 00:32:17,542 I love every single one of you guys. 532 00:32:21,500 --> 00:32:25,917 The major thing that happens with a spinal cord injury is 533 00:32:26,000 --> 00:32:28,291 a metamorphosis. 534 00:32:28,375 --> 00:32:31,417 You change, there's no choice. 535 00:32:31,500 --> 00:32:35,750 You're not the person that could do all the things that you could do before. 536 00:32:35,834 --> 00:32:40,709 And when you're in a hospital, there's a bubble of hope. 537 00:32:40,792 --> 00:32:43,792 There's a bubble of possibilities that... 538 00:32:43,875 --> 00:32:47,458 that you'll walk again, that you'll rehabilitate yourself, 539 00:32:47,542 --> 00:32:52,208 and you also are surrounded by people whose common goal it is 540 00:32:52,291 --> 00:32:56,917 to get you as better as possible, as quickly as possible. 541 00:32:57,000 --> 00:32:59,041 And then when you leave that environment, 542 00:32:59,125 --> 00:33:01,709 and you go back to the world... 543 00:33:03,041 --> 00:33:05,709 well, the bubble bursts. 544 00:33:26,083 --> 00:33:29,750 Leaving Paul is really hard for me. 545 00:33:31,083 --> 00:33:32,917 I mean, I still have to go to work every day 546 00:33:33,000 --> 00:33:36,333 and live my life, too. 547 00:33:36,417 --> 00:33:40,917 It's stressful leaving him in such a delicate state. 548 00:33:45,291 --> 00:33:48,709 A bunch of friends stepped up and helped modify my house a little bit. 549 00:33:50,709 --> 00:33:53,875 We had to put a ramp in the front to get in the front door. 550 00:33:54,291 --> 00:33:56,000 Where do you want this guy, Paul? 551 00:33:56,083 --> 00:33:59,208 Uh, you can put it right here. 552 00:33:59,625 --> 00:34:00,834 - Right here? - Yeah. 553 00:34:00,917 --> 00:34:02,500 We had to cut a hole in the wall so I can get 554 00:34:02,583 --> 00:34:04,834 from the front door to my room in the back. 555 00:34:10,750 --> 00:34:13,041 They redecorated my entire room. 556 00:34:13,125 --> 00:34:15,917 They switched my mom's side of the house, 557 00:34:16,000 --> 00:34:18,458 and it was now my side of the house 'cause it was bigger. 558 00:34:19,917 --> 00:34:24,875 But when no one's around is like when reality really sets in. 559 00:34:32,291 --> 00:34:34,667 It was my first time looking at my bedroom 560 00:34:34,750 --> 00:34:36,750 from a totally different level. 561 00:34:36,834 --> 00:34:38,875 And I looked around, and I was like, 562 00:34:38,959 --> 00:34:40,792 whoa, this is my life. 563 00:34:40,875 --> 00:34:42,834 This is what it is right now. 564 00:34:42,917 --> 00:34:44,875 And I remember bending over my chair, 565 00:34:44,959 --> 00:34:46,709 and I couldn't even pick myself back up 566 00:34:46,792 --> 00:34:48,333 'cause I didn't have the arm strength. 567 00:34:48,417 --> 00:34:50,208 And I just bawled my eyes out 568 00:34:50,291 --> 00:34:52,583 in the corner of my room 'cause I didn't wanna look at it, 569 00:34:52,667 --> 00:34:54,667 I didn't wanna go further into the room. 570 00:34:58,500 --> 00:35:01,291 It becomes a lonely place. 571 00:35:04,333 --> 00:35:07,417 I would go to the window 572 00:35:07,500 --> 00:35:11,375 because I knew that was the time of day 573 00:35:11,458 --> 00:35:15,667 when I could get sunlight through the window. 574 00:35:53,917 --> 00:35:56,041 It was hard to see my house 575 00:35:56,125 --> 00:35:59,125 the way that I left it the day of my accident. 576 00:35:59,208 --> 00:36:01,750 All my things were still in place, 577 00:36:01,834 --> 00:36:04,250 but I knew that this is where I needed to be. 578 00:36:04,333 --> 00:36:06,458 I couldn't stay in the hospital. I needed to move on. 579 00:36:06,542 --> 00:36:08,875 I need to start moving on with my life. 580 00:36:22,125 --> 00:36:23,750 The things I miss the most, 581 00:36:23,834 --> 00:36:27,834 the day to day things that we do that we don't realize-- 582 00:36:27,917 --> 00:36:31,333 especially around the house, you know, like mowing the lawn, um... 583 00:36:32,083 --> 00:36:36,125 doing house repairs, cleaning around the house. 584 00:36:36,875 --> 00:36:39,250 And then, of course, like, you know... 585 00:36:40,166 --> 00:36:42,000 going out and building jumps. 586 00:36:42,083 --> 00:36:45,959 And I used to love going out and scouting new lines... 587 00:36:46,041 --> 00:36:49,542 It was literally just Cam and I enjoying that great time, 588 00:36:49,625 --> 00:36:52,750 and it sucks because we don't do that anymore. 589 00:36:55,291 --> 00:36:57,625 Let's see you go from one end to the other, Cameron. 590 00:36:57,709 --> 00:36:59,125 Peter Pan? 591 00:37:04,458 --> 00:37:07,417 Highlight of my day, Cameron, always. 592 00:37:10,959 --> 00:37:13,375 Good! 593 00:37:13,458 --> 00:37:16,458 I met Cameron when I was 15 years old. 594 00:37:16,542 --> 00:37:18,667 The first time riding with Cameron, 595 00:37:18,750 --> 00:37:21,625 I was so blown away, what he was doing on a mountain bike. 596 00:37:22,458 --> 00:37:24,709 He was doing all the tricks 597 00:37:24,792 --> 00:37:27,917 on a mountain bike that I was doing on a BMX bike. 598 00:37:31,417 --> 00:37:34,083 So Cam and I, we became more than just riding buddies. 599 00:37:34,166 --> 00:37:37,083 You know, we just started becoming best friends. 600 00:37:37,166 --> 00:37:38,500 I got on his bike, was like, 601 00:37:38,583 --> 00:37:41,166 wow, this actually feels kind of good, you know? 602 00:37:43,166 --> 00:37:45,125 Yeah, PB. 603 00:37:45,208 --> 00:37:47,166 He was like, how do you feel about 604 00:37:47,250 --> 00:37:48,750 entering a mountain bike contest? 605 00:37:48,834 --> 00:37:52,959 Had zero money, so I ended up working as a plumber, 606 00:37:53,041 --> 00:37:56,792 and I saved enough to buy a plane ticket to Whistler. 607 00:37:56,875 --> 00:38:00,625 I had never, ever hit jumps that big in my entire life. 608 00:38:00,709 --> 00:38:02,917 Must've been at least 10,000 people that year. 609 00:38:03,000 --> 00:38:05,083 I was like, holy shit, this the real deal for sure. 610 00:38:05,166 --> 00:38:07,834 Put your hands together for Paul Basagoitia! 611 00:38:09,458 --> 00:38:13,041 I was there on Cameron's bike, it wasn't even my bike. 612 00:38:15,834 --> 00:38:18,792 I'm talking to myself. I'm like, man, Paul, this is the time to shine. 613 00:38:18,875 --> 00:38:20,625 At the very last obstacle, 614 00:38:20,709 --> 00:38:23,625 I had no idea that I was gonna backflip onto it 615 00:38:23,709 --> 00:38:25,291 and then tail whip off it. 616 00:38:27,625 --> 00:38:29,917 I was so shocked that I just did something 617 00:38:30,000 --> 00:38:32,125 that I had no idea was gonna work. 618 00:38:32,208 --> 00:38:33,834 I don't even own a mountain bike yet! 619 00:38:33,917 --> 00:38:36,792 I remember Cameron running to me, gave me the biggest hug. 620 00:38:36,875 --> 00:38:39,625 That's when I knew it was a big deal. 621 00:38:41,333 --> 00:38:45,500 I would thank my sponsor, but I don't have any sponsor, really. 622 00:38:45,583 --> 00:38:47,291 Going to Crankworx the second year, 623 00:38:47,375 --> 00:38:49,375 I didn't want it to be a fluke. 624 00:38:57,917 --> 00:39:00,333 I'm so stoked! I mean, last year I came out here, 625 00:39:00,417 --> 00:39:01,709 no sponsors nothing, 626 00:39:01,792 --> 00:39:03,792 and then I won, and then I did the same thing. 627 00:39:03,875 --> 00:39:06,583 I can't believe I repeated it. I just can't believe it. 628 00:39:10,000 --> 00:39:15,417 To defend my title was one of the best feelings I had in my mountain bike career. 629 00:39:15,500 --> 00:39:18,250 I was not a fluke. 630 00:39:21,917 --> 00:39:24,083 Before he got hurt, we started riding a lot more 631 00:39:24,166 --> 00:39:26,583 and I had my riding buddy back and like, I was like, 632 00:39:26,667 --> 00:39:28,667 man, dude, we're gonna load up bikes before we know it, 633 00:39:28,750 --> 00:39:31,417 and just like it never happened and... 634 00:39:32,000 --> 00:39:34,250 Trust me, I think about that every day. 635 00:39:34,959 --> 00:39:36,041 I can only imagine, bud. 636 00:39:36,125 --> 00:39:38,166 Never in a million years I thought 637 00:39:38,250 --> 00:39:39,458 I would be paralyzed, you know? 638 00:39:39,542 --> 00:39:41,500 We've all taken crashes and... 639 00:39:41,583 --> 00:39:43,375 what do we do? We hit the ground, we get back up, 640 00:39:43,458 --> 00:39:45,875 you know, and this time, it was definitely different. 641 00:39:45,959 --> 00:39:47,458 I'll devote any amount of days 642 00:39:47,542 --> 00:39:49,875 that you want to go and ride, and just, uh... 643 00:39:49,959 --> 00:39:51,250 I know that it's... 644 00:39:51,333 --> 00:39:54,625 it's tough, but whenever you're ready. 645 00:39:56,166 --> 00:39:58,583 That day will come, man. 646 00:40:00,375 --> 00:40:01,750 Yeah. 647 00:40:02,458 --> 00:40:04,125 Be good though. 648 00:40:08,583 --> 00:40:11,917 - I'm here any time you need me, bud. -: Thanks, man. 649 00:40:18,458 --> 00:40:20,667 I lost a lot more than... 650 00:40:22,000 --> 00:40:23,375 just my ability to walk. 651 00:40:23,458 --> 00:40:26,834 Like, I lost my friends and my whole life that I had. 652 00:40:29,709 --> 00:40:31,709 I lost everything. 653 00:40:32,625 --> 00:40:35,291 Everything. 654 00:40:35,375 --> 00:40:39,291 Most people injure themselves when they're older. 655 00:40:39,375 --> 00:40:41,709 There's this transition period 656 00:40:41,792 --> 00:40:44,667 that you go through, 657 00:40:44,750 --> 00:40:47,875 and I can't say that I've ever 658 00:40:47,959 --> 00:40:51,500 felt a... sense of transitioning, you know? 659 00:40:51,583 --> 00:40:54,000 Like, this is all I've ever known. 660 00:40:54,083 --> 00:40:57,917 I do definitely get bouts of frustration 661 00:40:58,000 --> 00:40:59,709 and bouts of depression. 662 00:41:00,750 --> 00:41:03,458 I was so depressed... 663 00:41:04,041 --> 00:41:06,709 so lost that I wouldn't even put... 664 00:41:07,125 --> 00:41:11,250 There was no reason to even get dressed in the morning. 665 00:41:11,333 --> 00:41:13,875 You know, why'd you choose me, to happen to me? 666 00:41:13,959 --> 00:41:16,834 I got two kids and... all that stuff. 667 00:41:16,917 --> 00:41:18,792 You know, I was coaching their soccer teams 668 00:41:18,875 --> 00:41:21,291 and having fun with them, and I was like... 669 00:41:21,375 --> 00:41:25,041 I was like thinking, man, life's over, dude. I can't do nothing, you know? 670 00:41:25,709 --> 00:41:28,041 I sat there and laid in my bed in my room, 671 00:41:28,125 --> 00:41:30,625 day up, day night, you know? 672 00:41:30,709 --> 00:41:32,625 Wouldn't get up, wouldn't get in my wheelchair. 673 00:41:32,709 --> 00:41:35,375 Just laid there, you know, pissed off. 674 00:41:35,875 --> 00:41:38,542 I didn't even know if I could finish high school. 675 00:41:38,625 --> 00:41:39,959 Just to go back 676 00:41:40,041 --> 00:41:42,375 and be amongst all my friends. 677 00:41:42,458 --> 00:41:44,333 You know, they're out there surfing and skating 678 00:41:44,417 --> 00:41:46,250 and partying and having a good time. 679 00:41:46,333 --> 00:41:50,500 What am I gonna be able to do that even will allow me to have fun? 680 00:41:50,583 --> 00:41:53,458 Your friends are telling you to get out and go do something, 681 00:41:53,542 --> 00:41:56,333 and you're laying there and you physically 682 00:41:56,417 --> 00:41:58,291 can't get out of bed. 683 00:41:58,375 --> 00:42:01,792 And then they don't understand why you just lay there. 684 00:42:01,875 --> 00:42:06,375 Mentally, you're just drained and it just drains your whole entire body. 685 00:42:06,458 --> 00:42:09,542 I mean, depression, it is the worst thing. 686 00:42:11,583 --> 00:42:13,375 All right, here we go. 687 00:42:13,458 --> 00:42:15,750 You can't imagine the different world you live in, 688 00:42:15,834 --> 00:42:17,250 walking and not walking. 689 00:42:17,333 --> 00:42:18,709 Oh, Annette, we have all these different groups, 690 00:42:18,792 --> 00:42:20,542 and you can still do the things you wanna do. 691 00:42:20,625 --> 00:42:23,750 No! I can't even get to the soccer field the way I wanna get there 692 00:42:23,834 --> 00:42:26,375 because someone blocked the gate last week. 693 00:42:26,458 --> 00:42:29,625 I mean, literally, some guy just blocked the one entranceway. 694 00:42:29,709 --> 00:42:31,583 Nobody could find him. No one knew where his car was. 695 00:42:31,667 --> 00:42:34,041 That stuff happens to me all the time. 696 00:42:34,125 --> 00:42:36,166 I just wanna live my regular life, 697 00:42:36,250 --> 00:42:39,542 and not have it be a drama for all the people around me. 698 00:42:39,625 --> 00:42:41,375 Where's the guy? Who has the key? Where did he go? 699 00:42:41,458 --> 00:42:42,667 Oh no, how are we gonna get her in? 700 00:42:42,750 --> 00:42:44,208 We gonna throw her over the fence? 701 00:42:44,291 --> 00:42:46,125 Does someone have to carry her? Then my husband's frustrated. 702 00:42:46,208 --> 00:42:48,500 Then my kids are like, they gotta go to the game. You know, I just... 703 00:42:48,583 --> 00:42:52,208 That's the kind of thing that makes me feel bad. 704 00:42:52,291 --> 00:42:56,417 As a human being, I'm in the way, I'm a problem. 705 00:43:20,834 --> 00:43:22,542 - How's it going? - Nice to meet you. 706 00:43:22,625 --> 00:43:24,333 Thanks for coming out, appreciate it. 707 00:43:30,250 --> 00:43:32,041 Three hundred bucks! 708 00:43:32,125 --> 00:43:33,750 300! 320! 709 00:43:33,834 --> 00:43:36,542 - Got 600 for it! - 600! Yeah! 710 00:43:36,625 --> 00:43:38,333 Whoo! 711 00:43:38,709 --> 00:43:40,875 800! 712 00:43:43,750 --> 00:43:46,250 - 900! - A thousand bucks! 713 00:43:50,750 --> 00:43:52,291 - Yeah, baby! - Yeah! 714 00:43:52,375 --> 00:43:53,750 - My turn! - Yes! 715 00:43:53,834 --> 00:43:57,208 - A great big hug, man. - A big hug, man. 716 00:43:57,291 --> 00:44:00,750 Dude! 717 00:44:00,834 --> 00:44:03,000 Thanks, buddy. 718 00:44:03,375 --> 00:44:04,709 Dude, you're an animal. 719 00:44:04,792 --> 00:44:06,417 - You're an animal, dude. - Thanks, man. 720 00:44:06,500 --> 00:44:08,125 - You All right? - I'm good. I just can't balance. 721 00:44:08,208 --> 00:44:11,000 I just can't balance. But thanks, buddy, I appreciate it. 722 00:44:12,709 --> 00:44:14,959 Everybody come out to... 723 00:44:19,000 --> 00:44:20,250 Yeah, buddy! 724 00:44:25,083 --> 00:44:26,667 Love you guys! 725 00:44:26,750 --> 00:44:30,500 Once again, there's no way I'd be able to do this without you guys. 726 00:44:30,583 --> 00:44:32,709 This fucking injury sucks, I'm not gonna lie. 727 00:44:32,792 --> 00:44:36,000 Hate it. Everyday, I cry. I wake up, I'm devastated, 728 00:44:36,083 --> 00:44:39,125 but you guys keep me plugging away 729 00:44:39,208 --> 00:44:42,083 and trying my hardest to get back on my feet, and I will. 730 00:44:42,166 --> 00:44:44,709 So, I'll see you guys, and thank you. 731 00:45:36,041 --> 00:45:37,417 - Howdy! - How you doing? 732 00:45:37,500 --> 00:45:38,542 What happened? 733 00:45:38,625 --> 00:45:40,750 - Broke my back. - Oh! 734 00:45:40,834 --> 00:45:42,542 Mountain biking. 735 00:45:42,625 --> 00:45:45,542 Yeah, fracture... 736 00:45:45,625 --> 00:45:47,792 ♪ Whole wide world ♪ 737 00:45:47,875 --> 00:45:50,458 ♪ Down on me ♪ 738 00:45:50,542 --> 00:45:54,000 ♪ Oh, down on me ♪ 739 00:45:55,250 --> 00:45:58,166 ♪ Down on me ♪ 740 00:46:00,333 --> 00:46:02,417 ♪ Looks like everybody in ♪ 741 00:46:02,500 --> 00:46:04,500 ♪ Whole wide world ♪ 742 00:46:04,583 --> 00:46:07,083 ♪ Down on me ♪ 743 00:46:07,166 --> 00:46:10,333 ♪ Oh, down on me ♪ 744 00:46:11,667 --> 00:46:15,250 ♪ Down on me ♪ 745 00:46:15,333 --> 00:46:17,125 My career in mountain biking 746 00:46:17,208 --> 00:46:19,417 was living every kid's dream. 747 00:46:19,500 --> 00:46:22,375 ♪ Whole wide world down on me ♪ 748 00:46:23,333 --> 00:46:26,500 ♪ Oh, down on me ♪ 749 00:46:27,583 --> 00:46:30,625 ♪ Down on me ♪ 750 00:46:31,417 --> 00:46:34,166 The winner is... 751 00:46:34,250 --> 00:46:36,667 Paul Basagoitia! 752 00:46:39,875 --> 00:46:42,959 ♪ Oh, down on me ♪ 753 00:46:48,208 --> 00:46:51,000 ♪ Looks like everybody in this whole wide world ♪ 754 00:46:51,083 --> 00:46:52,959 It's unreal. It seems like we're rock stars. 755 00:46:53,041 --> 00:46:56,542 It's pretty good, pretty good living, that's for sure, man. 756 00:46:56,625 --> 00:46:59,834 Paul Basagoitia, out here from Reno, Nevada! 757 00:47:45,792 --> 00:47:47,417 Bills. 758 00:47:49,041 --> 00:47:51,542 American Family Insurance. Bills. 759 00:47:51,917 --> 00:47:53,542 They love me. 760 00:47:54,917 --> 00:47:56,875 Craig Hospital, big bill. 761 00:48:07,959 --> 00:48:10,917 I just trained like crazy, all the time, every day. 762 00:48:11,000 --> 00:48:13,500 About eight to 10 hours a day of my life 763 00:48:13,583 --> 00:48:14,875 for about a year and a half 764 00:48:14,959 --> 00:48:17,709 went into improving my condition, doing everything 765 00:48:17,792 --> 00:48:20,834 I can to defy anything that any doctor ever told me. 766 00:48:55,208 --> 00:48:57,792 Nichole and I, we actually went to high school together. 767 00:48:57,875 --> 00:49:01,834 She was one of those, like, girls that are like, oh man... 768 00:49:02,834 --> 00:49:05,125 What do you think about Nichole Munk? 769 00:49:05,208 --> 00:49:08,041 Never really thought I had a chance with her because 770 00:49:08,125 --> 00:49:09,917 she was all about cheerleading, so... 771 00:49:10,000 --> 00:49:11,834 she was always hanging out with football players, 772 00:49:11,917 --> 00:49:13,875 basketball players and stuff, and, uh, 773 00:49:13,959 --> 00:49:16,333 that definitely wasn't really me. 774 00:49:19,709 --> 00:49:22,291 The first time we actually hung out 775 00:49:22,375 --> 00:49:25,625 was five years after we graduated from high school. 776 00:49:26,083 --> 00:49:28,375 Good thing I can do this, huh? 777 00:49:31,792 --> 00:49:33,625 Do you want me to drive, babe? 778 00:49:33,709 --> 00:49:35,333 I got it. 779 00:49:38,917 --> 00:49:40,542 When I got hurt, 780 00:49:40,625 --> 00:49:44,291 she made it very clear that we're gonna do this together. 781 00:49:44,375 --> 00:49:47,542 I don't know how many other girls would've stuck around, you know? 782 00:49:48,875 --> 00:49:50,500 But she stayed. 783 00:49:54,417 --> 00:49:58,375 There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about that accident. 784 00:49:59,250 --> 00:50:02,291 At least you, like, weren't concussed-- 785 00:50:02,375 --> 00:50:04,917 I kind of wish I was. I wish I was knocked out, 786 00:50:05,000 --> 00:50:06,834 so I don't remember any of it. 787 00:50:06,917 --> 00:50:09,333 - No because-- - The problem is, I know everything. 788 00:50:09,417 --> 00:50:12,166 I know, word by word, I remember everything 789 00:50:12,250 --> 00:50:14,834 like it was yesterday. That's the shitty part is... 790 00:50:14,917 --> 00:50:16,709 I deal with this every single day 791 00:50:16,792 --> 00:50:18,875 because I remember it so clearly. 792 00:50:30,667 --> 00:50:32,917 - There's the site. - Holy. 793 00:50:42,583 --> 00:50:44,125 Oh. 794 00:50:44,208 --> 00:50:46,166 Rampage Strait! What up? 795 00:50:46,250 --> 00:50:48,166 - How you doing, dude? - Cool. How you doing? 796 00:50:48,250 --> 00:50:50,041 - How's it out there? - Pretty good, man. 797 00:50:50,125 --> 00:50:52,125 - Good to see you, man. - Yeah, it's pretty good. 798 00:51:06,959 --> 00:51:08,875 Where I caught my pedal, huh? 799 00:51:08,959 --> 00:51:10,125 Right here, yeah, 800 00:51:10,208 --> 00:51:12,333 and then you landed... 801 00:51:13,375 --> 00:51:14,333 there. 802 00:51:14,417 --> 00:51:16,250 Cliff's not even that tall. 803 00:51:16,333 --> 00:51:17,917 - Yeah. - I guess going-- 804 00:51:18,000 --> 00:51:19,542 You were going fast though. 805 00:51:19,625 --> 00:51:21,500 Going 50 miles per hour. 806 00:51:40,917 --> 00:51:42,875 Even though it's given me so much, 807 00:51:42,959 --> 00:51:46,792 I go through the emotions weekly of... 808 00:51:46,875 --> 00:51:48,667 I hate that sport. You know, I hate... 809 00:51:48,750 --> 00:51:52,125 that I dedicated my life to it and it did this to me. 810 00:52:26,667 --> 00:52:28,625 For 10 years straight, 811 00:52:28,709 --> 00:52:32,875 I did everything that I could to walk again. 812 00:52:32,959 --> 00:52:34,625 We put all of our resources into it. 813 00:52:34,709 --> 00:52:37,208 I fought... 814 00:52:37,583 --> 00:52:39,875 as hard as I've ever fought for anything. 815 00:52:43,041 --> 00:52:44,458 Let go. 816 00:52:46,875 --> 00:52:48,875 Like a pump. 817 00:52:50,125 --> 00:52:54,667 Get rid of the CO2 effectively, 818 00:52:54,750 --> 00:52:57,333 influencing the chemistry of the body. 819 00:53:03,125 --> 00:53:05,458 We do 30 breaths. 820 00:53:09,959 --> 00:53:11,583 Jessy, what's up, buddy? 821 00:53:14,542 --> 00:53:17,125 If you have any sensation below your injury, 822 00:53:17,208 --> 00:53:19,250 man, that's, that's huge. 823 00:53:22,500 --> 00:53:26,166 I'm able to walk around with two AFO braces, two canes, 824 00:53:26,250 --> 00:53:29,959 and I'm also able to pedal a stationary bike as well. 825 00:53:33,083 --> 00:53:35,375 I have my core, I have my quads, 826 00:53:35,458 --> 00:53:37,458 so that's how I'm able to get around. 827 00:53:37,542 --> 00:53:40,166 But what's holding me back to walk is my glutes. 828 00:53:40,250 --> 00:53:43,208 So, if you take the canes or the crutches away from me, 829 00:53:43,291 --> 00:53:45,625 I just fall down. 830 00:53:51,333 --> 00:53:52,709 Oh wow. 831 00:54:05,291 --> 00:54:06,625 While some recipients 832 00:54:06,709 --> 00:54:09,250 claim to receive great benefits from stem cells, 833 00:54:09,333 --> 00:54:13,458 these treatments are not available past clinical trials in the US. 834 00:54:13,542 --> 00:54:15,750 However, overseas... 835 00:54:15,834 --> 00:54:18,417 Summer of 2015, I started a medical trial. 836 00:54:18,500 --> 00:54:20,208 I was patient zero. 837 00:54:20,291 --> 00:54:22,250 The science that they were using on me 838 00:54:22,333 --> 00:54:24,875 had me standing up, weight-bearing. 839 00:54:24,959 --> 00:54:27,667 I had regained movement and control of my hips. 840 00:54:27,750 --> 00:54:30,166 I still have control of my hips now. 841 00:54:30,250 --> 00:54:32,375 I used to be paralyzed from the ribs down. 842 00:54:32,458 --> 00:54:35,750 My body is... way different than it used to be 843 00:54:35,834 --> 00:54:39,083 because of this trial specifically. 844 00:54:39,166 --> 00:54:43,083 But the trial unleashed a whole new world 845 00:54:43,166 --> 00:54:47,000 of so much pain, so much spasticity, so much... 846 00:54:48,458 --> 00:54:50,667 so many symptoms that, 847 00:54:50,750 --> 00:54:53,542 for years, I was lucky to never have. 848 00:54:54,000 --> 00:54:57,291 Do I wanna be the first guy in space? No. 849 00:54:57,375 --> 00:54:59,041 I'll wait until, like, 850 00:54:59,125 --> 00:55:00,750 space travel is... 851 00:55:00,834 --> 00:55:03,166 is pretty safe and everyone's doing it. 852 00:55:03,250 --> 00:55:05,041 There's this website where it shows 853 00:55:05,125 --> 00:55:06,917 every single trial in the world, 854 00:55:07,000 --> 00:55:08,917 and I went one day, I spent four hours 855 00:55:09,000 --> 00:55:11,583 going through 800 different trials, 856 00:55:11,667 --> 00:55:13,709 looking at them, reading them, 857 00:55:13,792 --> 00:55:15,959 and I found two. I found two that I was like, 858 00:55:16,041 --> 00:55:17,291 oh, this sounds good. 859 00:55:17,375 --> 00:55:19,166 And then I sent them to my doctor, and he's like no. 860 00:55:31,333 --> 00:55:35,166 Probably what you did was got back nerves in the early phase 861 00:55:35,250 --> 00:55:37,667 that were injured but not dead. 862 00:55:37,750 --> 00:55:41,083 The ones that were actually damaged completely died off, 863 00:55:41,166 --> 00:55:43,667 and they're likely in the process of 864 00:55:43,750 --> 00:55:45,917 re-enervating or regrowth. 865 00:55:46,000 --> 00:55:48,750 How do we speed up that recovery? 866 00:55:50,250 --> 00:55:51,500 - You don't. - You don't? 867 00:55:51,583 --> 00:55:54,083 You don't think stem cells would help that out or-- 868 00:55:54,166 --> 00:55:56,834 - Well... You know-- - What's your take on that? 869 00:55:56,917 --> 00:55:58,834 It's something that could be considered. 870 00:55:58,917 --> 00:56:02,000 I'd kinda wanna know where you really are at before we did that, 871 00:56:02,083 --> 00:56:05,625 because you may be in a phase of rapid regrowth by yourself. 872 00:56:05,709 --> 00:56:07,917 You're finding out that one of the big problems is that 873 00:56:08,000 --> 00:56:10,166 there's a whole lack of information out there. 874 00:56:10,250 --> 00:56:11,542 You kind of get lost in this mix 875 00:56:11,625 --> 00:56:13,667 of who knows all this stuff properly. 876 00:56:15,083 --> 00:56:17,000 I'm finally hearing about stem cells, 877 00:56:17,083 --> 00:56:19,208 and I still have to get the right answers. 878 00:56:19,291 --> 00:56:21,709 I gotta know a little bit more about embryonic 879 00:56:21,792 --> 00:56:23,208 and adult stem cells. 880 00:56:23,291 --> 00:56:25,709 So, I'm kind of just going day by day 881 00:56:25,792 --> 00:56:27,792 and learning on my own. 882 00:56:35,375 --> 00:56:37,333 I'm lower level, I'm T12, 883 00:56:37,417 --> 00:56:38,917 and I don't have glutes. 884 00:56:39,000 --> 00:56:40,834 I got my quads, I got some hamstrings. 885 00:56:40,917 --> 00:56:42,959 So I'm able to get around with canes, you know, 886 00:56:43,041 --> 00:56:44,917 but if I go get this treatment, 887 00:56:45,000 --> 00:56:47,166 and it fires up just my glutes? 888 00:56:47,250 --> 00:56:48,458 That's life-changing for me. 889 00:56:48,542 --> 00:56:50,709 Everything got better after my first treatment-- 890 00:56:50,792 --> 00:56:53,625 like skin color, like muscle tone. 891 00:57:02,750 --> 00:57:04,709 I'm considering adult stem cells. 892 00:57:04,792 --> 00:57:07,750 It's coming out of your bone marrow, it's all you. It's natural. 893 00:57:07,834 --> 00:57:10,333 Adult stem cells are not good enough 894 00:57:10,417 --> 00:57:13,417 for a treatment for spinal cord injury. 895 00:57:13,500 --> 00:57:16,959 Embryonic stem cell treatment is, by far, the way to go. 896 00:57:28,417 --> 00:57:30,750 The chances with embryonic are 897 00:57:30,834 --> 00:57:35,083 if that embryo has a DNA pattern of cancer, 898 00:57:35,166 --> 00:57:37,458 you can be putting a disease back into your body. 899 00:57:37,542 --> 00:57:40,500 I would by far tell you that if you were gonna do it, 900 00:57:40,583 --> 00:57:42,000 - do it with your own cells. - Right. 901 00:57:42,083 --> 00:57:44,458 At your age, you're still making decent stem cells. 902 00:57:44,542 --> 00:57:46,125 There's been so many people that showed 903 00:57:46,208 --> 00:57:48,166 huge progress getting stem cells, 904 00:57:48,250 --> 00:57:50,583 and then I watched a documentary last week, 905 00:57:50,667 --> 00:57:53,000 and this dude goes backwards, you know? 906 00:57:53,083 --> 00:57:56,125 He lost the function of his bowels and bladder... 907 00:57:56,208 --> 00:57:57,500 It made him worse. 908 00:57:57,583 --> 00:58:00,458 I got a stem cell treatment in Germany. 909 00:58:00,542 --> 00:58:02,125 I did get nerve pain, 910 00:58:02,208 --> 00:58:04,542 which doctors say it's good, 911 00:58:04,625 --> 00:58:05,792 but... 912 00:58:05,875 --> 00:58:07,959 it's not an easy thing to live with. 913 00:58:08,041 --> 00:58:10,041 Also, very expensive. 914 00:58:10,125 --> 00:58:11,458 On paper, 915 00:58:11,542 --> 00:58:13,667 there's nothing that says that it works. 916 00:58:13,750 --> 00:58:15,208 When I first got injured, they said that 917 00:58:15,291 --> 00:58:18,041 there would be a cure in five years. 918 00:58:19,959 --> 00:58:22,125 And then when that five years passed, 919 00:58:22,208 --> 00:58:24,375 they said there'd be a cure in five years. 920 00:58:25,000 --> 00:58:26,959 I've been injured for 21 years, 921 00:58:27,500 --> 00:58:29,792 and I've heard that four different times. 922 00:58:30,125 --> 00:58:33,000 This is spinal cord injury, the unknown. 923 00:58:33,083 --> 00:58:35,792 Being in that unknown zone is... 924 00:58:35,875 --> 00:58:38,125 there's nothing scarier. 925 00:58:39,875 --> 00:58:42,000 Dr. Hans Keirstead, he's been 926 00:58:42,083 --> 00:58:44,834 part of the whole stem cell research from the beginning. 927 00:58:44,917 --> 00:58:48,333 In 2002, he actually made a paralyzed rat 928 00:58:48,417 --> 00:58:50,333 be able to walk after injecting 929 00:58:50,417 --> 00:58:53,834 embryonic stem cells into the spinal cord of the rat. 930 00:58:53,917 --> 00:58:55,250 That is incredible. 931 00:58:55,333 --> 00:58:58,333 If you were in my position, what would you do? 932 00:58:58,417 --> 00:59:00,959 I'd be very leery of... 933 00:59:01,041 --> 00:59:04,792 99.9 % of the overseas work. 934 00:59:04,875 --> 00:59:07,250 If you're down in Mexico, 935 00:59:07,333 --> 00:59:10,000 making a treatment that's unregulated, 936 00:59:10,083 --> 00:59:12,709 who knows if its actually safe 937 00:59:12,792 --> 00:59:14,125 or efficacious? 938 00:59:14,208 --> 00:59:17,750 Now, this treatment that we developed, is it ever gonna 939 00:59:17,834 --> 00:59:21,083 effect 100 % a cure? No, it won't. 940 00:59:21,834 --> 00:59:23,500 You gotta get in there soon. 941 00:59:23,583 --> 00:59:25,041 The treatment, I designed it 942 00:59:25,125 --> 00:59:28,041 to be used within weeks, not years. 943 00:59:30,667 --> 00:59:32,458 Did you really think that... 944 00:59:33,375 --> 00:59:35,291 it would 100 %? 945 00:59:35,959 --> 00:59:37,291 I mean... 946 00:59:38,458 --> 00:59:41,083 I worked my ass off to get to that 100 %, 947 00:59:41,166 --> 00:59:42,834 but, I mean... 948 00:59:42,917 --> 00:59:45,333 Absolutely. Yeah, that's never in question. 949 00:59:45,417 --> 00:59:49,333 I'm not gonna change my mindset, you know, regardless. 950 00:59:51,834 --> 00:59:54,875 He wants to be walking with no crutches. 951 00:59:56,083 --> 00:59:58,250 I want him to realize he's come so far 952 00:59:58,333 --> 01:00:00,792 and he's upright and he is walking. 953 01:00:01,291 --> 01:00:04,834 I don't care to run a mile in under seven minutes. 954 01:00:04,917 --> 01:00:08,625 I just wanna take a shower standing up, just little simple things. 955 01:00:08,709 --> 01:00:12,000 End of the day, I just wanna have independence. 956 01:00:13,041 --> 01:00:14,834 I don't think I ever thought 957 01:00:14,917 --> 01:00:17,166 that I could possibly die this way 958 01:00:17,250 --> 01:00:19,333 without ever taking another step. 959 01:00:21,041 --> 01:00:22,667 I mean, I just... 960 01:00:23,834 --> 01:00:25,000 I don't-- 961 01:00:25,083 --> 01:00:26,542 I don't know, 962 01:00:26,625 --> 01:00:28,250 but I guess it's possible. 963 01:00:28,333 --> 01:00:31,333 I mean, it's possible that could be it for me. 964 01:00:31,834 --> 01:00:34,291 I still think, in my dreams, 965 01:00:34,375 --> 01:00:36,041 I'm walking. 966 01:00:44,083 --> 01:00:45,542 For this journey, 967 01:00:45,625 --> 01:00:48,458 we focused on fetal stem cells, 968 01:00:48,542 --> 01:00:50,583 arguably the most contested 969 01:00:50,667 --> 01:00:52,333 and controversial form 970 01:00:52,417 --> 01:00:54,792 of stem cell therapy to date. 971 01:00:54,875 --> 01:00:57,291 I didn't even know that even existed until basically 972 01:00:57,375 --> 01:00:59,041 you brought that to my attention. 973 01:00:59,125 --> 01:01:00,709 It's just crazy how... 974 01:01:03,333 --> 01:01:06,583 They use the stem cells from an unborn fetus, 975 01:01:06,667 --> 01:01:08,917 the mother's going to have an abortion anyway. 976 01:01:09,000 --> 01:01:12,542 After the abortion, rather than discard that fetus, 977 01:01:12,625 --> 01:01:15,417 they harvest the stem cells. 978 01:01:15,500 --> 01:01:17,166 What we need is the neuron cells, 979 01:01:17,250 --> 01:01:20,417 so fetal stems cells, you're able to get that neuron cell. 980 01:01:20,500 --> 01:01:22,000 I know it's only been a couple weeks, 981 01:01:22,083 --> 01:01:24,291 but have you seen any gains from this treatment? 982 01:01:30,500 --> 01:01:32,250 Man, that's amazing. 983 01:01:32,333 --> 01:01:34,709 If I can get my glutes to fire back up, 984 01:01:34,792 --> 01:01:36,542 that would be life-changing for me. 985 01:01:39,542 --> 01:01:41,750 If you mention the word stem cells, 986 01:01:41,834 --> 01:01:44,000 everyone's like, oh, you're nuts. 987 01:01:44,083 --> 01:01:46,583 Second off, if you tell them what kind of stem cells, 988 01:01:46,667 --> 01:01:48,834 fetal stem cells, people are gonna be like... 989 01:01:48,917 --> 01:01:50,333 now, you're really crazy. 990 01:01:50,417 --> 01:01:52,000 And then to top it off, to tell them 991 01:01:52,083 --> 01:01:54,709 you're gonna go to Tijuana, Mexico, to get it? 992 01:01:54,792 --> 01:01:58,458 Oh man, I don't even wanna have that conversation with people. 993 01:02:00,041 --> 01:02:01,917 I just can't watch it. I don't wanna watch it. 994 01:02:02,000 --> 01:02:03,583 - I really don't. - Until you watch 995 01:02:03,667 --> 01:02:06,959 this documentary, you should have an open mind about it. 996 01:02:07,041 --> 01:02:09,500 But right now, you're so one-sided because 997 01:02:09,583 --> 01:02:12,375 all you're thinking of is, 998 01:02:12,458 --> 01:02:15,083 you're gonna go get stem cells by aborted fetuses, 999 01:02:15,166 --> 01:02:17,291 but it's not like that. 1000 01:02:17,375 --> 01:02:19,125 I would've never thought that-- 1001 01:02:19,208 --> 01:02:21,542 and I'm sure you didn't either-- that we'd be in a position 1002 01:02:21,625 --> 01:02:23,500 where we actually have to make a tough decision 1003 01:02:23,583 --> 01:02:26,291 based off of something that's really fucked up. 1004 01:02:26,375 --> 01:02:28,792 - It's hard to explain-- - You know, but the thing is 1005 01:02:28,875 --> 01:02:31,041 here's what's always gonna happen, 1006 01:02:31,125 --> 01:02:34,166 and this is always what you're gonna say. 1007 01:02:34,250 --> 01:02:35,458 "Well, you're not in my position, 1008 01:02:35,542 --> 01:02:37,166 so you don't understand." 1009 01:02:37,542 --> 01:02:40,291 - And you know that's true. - Absolutely. 1010 01:02:40,375 --> 01:02:42,417 No one in your immediate corner 1011 01:02:42,500 --> 01:02:44,583 ever understands exactly. 1012 01:02:44,667 --> 01:02:46,417 They don't mean to not und-- 1013 01:02:46,500 --> 01:02:48,542 but no one understands, like, how... 1014 01:02:49,083 --> 01:02:51,208 difficult some things are, or how... 1015 01:02:51,291 --> 01:02:54,291 what you go through every day, as much as they try to. 1016 01:02:54,375 --> 01:02:56,583 Everybody thinks there's no hope for this injury. 1017 01:02:56,667 --> 01:02:59,500 I truly believe there is. 1018 01:03:00,000 --> 01:03:02,625 I'm willing to try whatever it is 1019 01:03:02,709 --> 01:03:04,750 to get out of where we're at right now, 1020 01:03:04,834 --> 01:03:07,250 because it's been terri-- it's... 1021 01:03:07,333 --> 01:03:09,625 mentally, like, it's not fun. 1022 01:03:09,709 --> 01:03:11,959 You're not a pleasant person to be around. 1023 01:03:12,041 --> 01:03:14,625 I'm pretty committed. I already put the deposit in, 1024 01:03:14,709 --> 01:03:17,208 and I'm heading down there for sure. 1025 01:03:18,166 --> 01:03:20,583 You're gonna go to Tijuana with me? 1026 01:03:52,709 --> 01:03:55,125 We're literally in a strip mall. 1027 01:03:55,208 --> 01:03:56,792 Fucking stem cells. 1028 01:03:56,875 --> 01:03:59,000 - At least that place looks nice. - Really? 1029 01:03:59,083 --> 01:04:04,291 It looks like Frankie's Spa in Reno. 1030 01:04:04,375 --> 01:04:06,542 Like we should be getting pedicures, 1031 01:04:06,625 --> 01:04:08,667 not stem cells. 1032 01:04:46,917 --> 01:04:50,458 It hasn't even been a week since the stem cell treatment. 1033 01:04:50,542 --> 01:04:52,375 It's funny 'cause every morning, I'm like, okay, 1034 01:04:52,458 --> 01:04:54,291 is there gonna be a new muscle group to fire back up? 1035 01:04:54,375 --> 01:04:57,166 And it's not like that. It's gonna take months 1036 01:04:57,250 --> 01:04:58,625 to see any sort of gains, 1037 01:04:58,709 --> 01:05:01,875 and hopefully I see some gains with muscle. 1038 01:05:01,959 --> 01:05:05,291 You know, I wanna see my muscle groups to start firing back up 1039 01:05:05,375 --> 01:05:07,667 and to get stronger and hopefully start 1040 01:05:07,750 --> 01:05:09,959 wiggling some toes here soon. 1041 01:05:34,583 --> 01:05:36,291 I'm kind of heartbroken. 1042 01:05:38,166 --> 01:05:41,458 The only thing that the whole procedure really did to me 1043 01:05:41,542 --> 01:05:43,166 was drain my bank account. 1044 01:05:46,166 --> 01:05:47,709 You don't want two canes? 1045 01:05:47,792 --> 01:05:49,875 No, I want to look like I'm doing better 1046 01:05:49,959 --> 01:05:51,417 when I go see my sponsors. 1047 01:05:51,500 --> 01:05:54,208 Good call. 1048 01:05:55,208 --> 01:05:56,667 99.9 % of people 1049 01:05:56,750 --> 01:05:59,750 told me don't do it, but I think I'm better off 1050 01:05:59,834 --> 01:06:02,500 failing, opposed to never trying. 1051 01:06:04,709 --> 01:06:06,166 Whoa! 1052 01:06:06,250 --> 01:06:07,417 Paul! 1053 01:06:07,500 --> 01:06:09,000 - Victor. - It's good to see you. 1054 01:06:09,083 --> 01:06:11,250 - You, too, man, how you doing? - I'm doing all right. 1055 01:06:11,333 --> 01:06:13,250 - How you doing? - Not bad, man, not bad. 1056 01:06:14,208 --> 01:06:15,291 So stoked to see you, man. 1057 01:06:15,375 --> 01:06:18,417 I think what helped me progress 1058 01:06:18,500 --> 01:06:20,625 to one cane was time. 1059 01:06:26,250 --> 01:06:27,667 Yeah, maybe you progress the most 1060 01:06:27,750 --> 01:06:29,208 in the first two years, but I don't think 1061 01:06:29,291 --> 01:06:30,417 it's over on that second year. 1062 01:06:30,500 --> 01:06:33,041 I think there's still time to get better. 1063 01:06:33,667 --> 01:06:35,500 I've seen it in other cases. 1064 01:06:35,583 --> 01:06:38,417 Took Christopher Reeves five years to be able to move a finger. 1065 01:06:38,500 --> 01:06:41,875 It took this one girl I follow on social media, 1066 01:06:41,959 --> 01:06:45,208 and it took her seven years to... 1067 01:06:45,291 --> 01:06:48,792 get out of a wheelchair and start walking with crutches. 1068 01:06:48,875 --> 01:06:51,458 Well, it was three years in that I got my bladder back, 1069 01:06:51,542 --> 01:06:53,375 and that was when I was pregnant with Ingrid. 1070 01:06:53,458 --> 01:06:55,959 I'm three years out and I'm still improving. 1071 01:06:56,041 --> 01:06:58,291 I just started being able to move 1072 01:06:58,375 --> 01:07:00,625 my lower left leg, my knee. 1073 01:07:00,709 --> 01:07:04,041 I went to physical therapy and occupational therapy... 1074 01:07:04,917 --> 01:07:07,291 all growing up and... 1075 01:07:07,375 --> 01:07:08,959 I started this... 1076 01:07:09,041 --> 01:07:12,250 physical, intensive physical therapy 1077 01:07:13,250 --> 01:07:15,375 at this place called Project Walk... 1078 01:07:16,250 --> 01:07:17,458 when I was 10. 1079 01:07:17,750 --> 01:07:19,250 Fast-forward eight years, 1080 01:07:19,333 --> 01:07:20,625 when I was graduating high school, 1081 01:07:20,709 --> 01:07:22,458 I walked across the stage 1082 01:07:22,542 --> 01:07:24,125 at my graduation. 1083 01:07:24,208 --> 01:07:26,291 The more I go through this injury, the more I realize that 1084 01:07:26,375 --> 01:07:28,458 no one knows anything, and I just... 1085 01:07:28,542 --> 01:07:30,709 I just chip away at every day of trying to... 1086 01:07:30,792 --> 01:07:32,125 get a little bit better. 1087 01:07:32,208 --> 01:07:34,625 Just remove the concept of time 1088 01:07:34,709 --> 01:07:35,875 with this injury. 1089 01:07:35,959 --> 01:07:38,083 This isn't a broken bone where 12 weeks, 1090 01:07:38,166 --> 01:07:41,709 I can cut a cast off and start getting on with life. 1091 01:07:41,792 --> 01:07:43,792 This is a lifestyle. 1092 01:07:44,458 --> 01:07:47,375 This is a new way of living and being. 1093 01:07:51,000 --> 01:07:53,291 Thank you so much for answering my boys 1094 01:07:53,375 --> 01:07:55,041 when they sent you messages. 1095 01:07:55,125 --> 01:07:56,917 All good. I love the support. 1096 01:07:57,000 --> 01:07:58,792 - You guys are great. - And they just... 1097 01:07:58,875 --> 01:08:01,125 - They're so happy that you answered them. - Yeah. 1098 01:08:01,208 --> 01:08:04,041 - Hey, it was finally nice meeting you. - He told his whole class... 1099 01:08:04,125 --> 01:08:06,250 And what a hero you were. It was awesome to them. 1100 01:08:06,333 --> 01:08:07,500 Thank you, man, I appreciate that. 1101 01:08:07,583 --> 01:08:08,917 And they saw you and they were so nervous. 1102 01:08:09,000 --> 01:08:10,542 They walked around you a couple of times. 1103 01:08:10,625 --> 01:08:12,542 Aw. 1104 01:08:13,959 --> 01:08:16,000 The last 14 years I've been coming to Crankworx, 1105 01:08:16,083 --> 01:08:17,917 I've been competing at some type of event, 1106 01:08:18,000 --> 01:08:20,250 so it's kinda weird coming here and... 1107 01:08:20,333 --> 01:08:22,083 kinda just watching. 1108 01:08:22,166 --> 01:08:24,917 - Good luck. - It's like a kid at a candy store 1109 01:08:25,000 --> 01:08:26,917 and walking out with no candy. 1110 01:08:27,000 --> 01:08:29,250 Good man. Gonna win it this year? 1111 01:08:29,333 --> 01:08:31,417 Last time I did pump track, it was you and me, man. 1112 01:08:31,500 --> 01:08:33,166 The reality is that there's 1113 01:08:33,250 --> 01:08:34,625 human suffering. That's the thing. 1114 01:08:34,709 --> 01:08:36,875 I was actually mad at myself 1115 01:08:36,959 --> 01:08:38,583 for knowing that reality 1116 01:08:38,667 --> 01:08:41,083 and not accepting my own. Like not saying, 1117 01:08:41,166 --> 01:08:42,625 that I'm gonna be subject to that, too. 1118 01:08:42,709 --> 01:08:45,250 I'm gonna be subject to the laws of nature 1119 01:08:45,333 --> 01:08:46,458 and other people making errors. 1120 01:08:46,542 --> 01:08:48,417 I'm gonna be subject to suffering. 1121 01:08:48,500 --> 01:08:50,750 This was my first real suffering. 1122 01:08:50,834 --> 01:08:52,417 It was... 1123 01:08:53,208 --> 01:08:54,792 I can't say I handled it brilliantly. 1124 01:08:54,875 --> 01:08:57,750 I think it was just more shocking, and before, 1125 01:08:57,834 --> 01:09:00,750 suffering was always something that I thought about... 1126 01:09:00,834 --> 01:09:02,625 maybe it'd happen mostly to someone else, 1127 01:09:02,709 --> 01:09:04,375 or I think the things I'd been through 1128 01:09:04,458 --> 01:09:05,834 really were more adversity, 1129 01:09:05,917 --> 01:09:07,792 and adversity is something you can overcome. 1130 01:09:07,875 --> 01:09:10,875 You can pull up your bootstraps, you can get through it. 1131 01:09:10,959 --> 01:09:13,166 But suffering is something that you endure. 1132 01:09:22,333 --> 01:09:24,667 Last week, a kid found out that I was in Mexico 1133 01:09:24,750 --> 01:09:26,458 and got stem cells, and he said, 1134 01:09:26,542 --> 01:09:29,458 "I'm on my way next month to get it done. 1135 01:09:29,542 --> 01:09:31,250 What do you think?" 1136 01:09:31,333 --> 01:09:33,083 I told him, hey... 1137 01:09:33,583 --> 01:09:34,834 Don't do it. 1138 01:09:34,917 --> 01:09:36,333 I feel like I'm not 1139 01:09:36,417 --> 01:09:39,000 improving that much, you know, or at all. 1140 01:09:39,083 --> 01:09:40,750 To a point that... 1141 01:09:42,166 --> 01:09:44,125 At least to a point that I would be able to walk 1142 01:09:44,208 --> 01:09:46,333 without any assistance, you know? 1143 01:09:46,417 --> 01:09:48,166 I think you're improving. I mean, 1144 01:09:48,250 --> 01:09:51,208 and it's probably easier for me to say you're improving 1145 01:09:51,291 --> 01:09:53,750 than it is for you to, you know, 1146 01:09:53,834 --> 01:09:57,125 like you wanna be improving 1147 01:09:57,208 --> 01:09:59,166 more and faster, but-- 1148 01:09:59,250 --> 01:10:00,166 To be honest with you, 1149 01:10:00,250 --> 01:10:02,667 I'm definitely second guessing 1150 01:10:03,041 --> 01:10:05,875 the future and my outcome. 1151 01:10:06,417 --> 01:10:09,000 That makes me choke up a little bit. 1152 01:10:09,083 --> 01:10:11,166 I've just never heard you say... 1153 01:10:11,250 --> 01:10:13,083 maybe, this is it for me. 1154 01:10:13,166 --> 01:10:15,333 - Like, that's... - I know. 1155 01:10:19,834 --> 01:10:21,583 We always want more. 1156 01:10:25,458 --> 01:10:28,792 As humans, we always want more, no matter what the situation is. 1157 01:10:30,542 --> 01:10:33,125 I used to be the strongest person to walk into the room. 1158 01:10:34,667 --> 01:10:37,333 I don't know, like I'm... I'm weak. 1159 01:10:47,208 --> 01:10:48,792 You're definitely allowed to be sad, 1160 01:10:48,875 --> 01:10:51,542 and you're definitely allowed to get depressed and you're... 1161 01:10:51,625 --> 01:10:53,208 you don't have to fight those feelings, 1162 01:10:53,291 --> 01:10:56,250 but you do have to be open to... 1163 01:10:56,333 --> 01:10:58,917 change, and you have to be open to... 1164 01:10:59,000 --> 01:11:00,625 figuring out how to move on. 1165 01:11:00,709 --> 01:11:03,625 If I had gotten frustrated and resisted everything 1166 01:11:03,709 --> 01:11:05,000 that was a challenge, 1167 01:11:05,083 --> 01:11:07,917 it would be my entire life. I would be frustrated 1168 01:11:08,000 --> 01:11:10,834 and annoyed and depressed and... 1169 01:11:10,917 --> 01:11:13,000 that's just no way to live, you know? 1170 01:11:13,625 --> 01:11:16,750 If you sustained a spinal cord injury and you survived, 1171 01:11:16,834 --> 01:11:18,542 you've got a second chance. 1172 01:11:18,625 --> 01:11:20,959 This is your second... 1173 01:11:21,041 --> 01:11:22,625 your second ticket... 1174 01:11:22,709 --> 01:11:25,291 on the same train of life, right? 1175 01:11:25,375 --> 01:11:28,542 So, you shouldn't waste it. 1176 01:11:38,875 --> 01:11:40,834 Before this injury, 1177 01:11:40,917 --> 01:11:43,458 I would always tell myself I would... 1178 01:11:43,542 --> 01:11:46,875 probably take my life if I was ever paralyzed. 1179 01:11:54,583 --> 01:11:56,375 I'm so glad that 1180 01:11:56,458 --> 01:11:58,667 I was able to overcome that. 1181 01:12:31,500 --> 01:12:33,875 - Still taking photos? - I'm a perfectionist. 1182 01:12:33,959 --> 01:12:36,834 - We have tomorrow-- - I need to get that right photo. 1183 01:12:36,917 --> 01:12:40,250 Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday to do that. 1184 01:12:40,333 --> 01:12:42,542 Life is not guaranteed. 1185 01:13:11,417 --> 01:13:15,250 Just because I accept my situation, doesn't mean 1186 01:13:15,333 --> 01:13:17,333 this is it. 1187 01:13:17,417 --> 01:13:20,208 It doesn't mean that I can't change it 1188 01:13:20,291 --> 01:13:21,792 or control it 1189 01:13:21,875 --> 01:13:23,917 or move past it. 1190 01:13:24,000 --> 01:13:27,375 And so that's the beautiful part about acceptance. 1191 01:13:27,458 --> 01:13:29,792 It's not admitting defeat. 1192 01:13:29,875 --> 01:13:33,583 It's empowering yourself to move forward. 1193 01:13:37,250 --> 01:13:40,208 I've given all of myself to this process, 1194 01:13:40,291 --> 01:13:43,417 and I respect my injury. I know my body works 1195 01:13:43,500 --> 01:13:45,750 hard for me. I know I have a spinal cord injury. 1196 01:13:45,834 --> 01:13:47,041 It's gnarly. 1197 01:13:47,125 --> 01:13:50,291 I'm surrounded by it every day. I live it every day. 1198 01:13:50,750 --> 01:13:52,583 And my mantra is gratitude. 1199 01:13:52,667 --> 01:13:55,417 I really accept it for what it is 1200 01:13:55,500 --> 01:13:58,834 and the limitations that it has, and that's okay. 1201 01:13:58,917 --> 01:14:00,875 I actually feel I'm still a whole person, 1202 01:14:00,959 --> 01:14:03,667 a valuable person. That hasn't changed. 1203 01:14:03,750 --> 01:14:05,250 My value is equal. 1204 01:14:05,333 --> 01:14:08,083 I still believe that I can walk. I still have hope. 1205 01:14:08,166 --> 01:14:10,917 So for me to accept it means that I'm giving up 1206 01:14:11,000 --> 01:14:13,125 that hope to walk again. 1207 01:14:17,500 --> 01:14:18,750 I've learned to live with it. 1208 01:14:18,834 --> 01:14:21,125 I've learned to live with my disability. 1209 01:14:24,542 --> 01:14:25,959 Every day is a challenge. 1210 01:14:26,041 --> 01:14:29,333 But no, I can't say that I've accepted it. 1211 01:14:30,959 --> 01:14:33,667 I still have a 5 % chance. 1212 01:14:40,250 --> 01:14:42,625 I try to be thankful 1213 01:14:42,709 --> 01:14:44,417 for what I do have, 1214 01:14:44,500 --> 01:14:46,625 and understand that 1215 01:14:46,709 --> 01:14:49,875 I did love my sport and that's why I was doing it. 1216 01:14:54,083 --> 01:14:57,375 I just have a whole a different outlook on what I feel 1217 01:14:57,458 --> 01:14:59,458 is important in life now. 1218 01:15:04,542 --> 01:15:06,792 Get that seven! 1219 01:15:06,875 --> 01:15:08,125 As we look to the top, 1220 01:15:08,208 --> 01:15:12,041 Cam Zink, a husband, a father of two. 1221 01:15:12,125 --> 01:15:14,917 This is the steepest line in the history of Rampage. 1222 01:15:15,000 --> 01:15:18,667 A 63 degree angle slope after he lands this massive cliff drop, 1223 01:15:18,750 --> 01:15:20,750 and here he comes. 1224 01:15:26,417 --> 01:15:28,250 Zink over the edge! 1225 01:15:30,500 --> 01:15:32,041 There he is! 1226 01:15:32,125 --> 01:15:33,250 You did it, Zink! 1227 01:15:35,583 --> 01:15:38,417 My life's not half as exciting as it was, that's for sure. 1228 01:15:38,500 --> 01:15:40,667 I think I'm okay with it. It's time to move forward, 1229 01:15:40,750 --> 01:15:42,208 move on. 1230 01:15:45,625 --> 01:15:47,208 Your eyes are not deceiving you. 1231 01:15:47,291 --> 01:15:50,291 Paul Basagoitia, Paul Bass on set. Paul, welcome my friend. 1232 01:15:50,375 --> 01:15:51,417 Good to see you guys. 1233 01:15:51,500 --> 01:15:54,125 Such hallowed grounds behind us here. 1234 01:15:54,208 --> 01:15:55,959 It's hard to come back sometimes. 1235 01:15:56,041 --> 01:15:57,792 Last year, it was really hard for me to come back, 1236 01:15:57,875 --> 01:16:00,792 but this year, it feels good to be back. 1237 01:16:01,917 --> 01:16:04,750 I have not accepted my injury 100 %, 1238 01:16:04,834 --> 01:16:08,291 but I do appreciate where I'm at in life. 1239 01:16:09,709 --> 01:16:12,458 Last week, I was so upset that I couldn't go wakeboarding 1240 01:16:12,542 --> 01:16:14,041 or wakeskating with all my friends, 1241 01:16:14,125 --> 01:16:15,375 and I was just on the boat, 1242 01:16:15,458 --> 01:16:18,709 watching my friends have a good time. 1243 01:16:18,792 --> 01:16:21,291 Something just clicked in my brain. It was like, 1244 01:16:21,375 --> 01:16:24,625 well, at least I was able to get in that boat. 1245 01:16:30,166 --> 01:16:32,959 I just put my hand in the water... 1246 01:16:35,709 --> 01:16:37,375 feeling the temperature, 1247 01:16:38,291 --> 01:16:40,625 the texture, 1248 01:16:40,709 --> 01:16:44,041 and I feel a connection to the people that can't do that. 1249 01:17:44,583 --> 01:17:47,250 Came up with an idea about surfing again, 1250 01:17:47,333 --> 01:17:50,166 and made a surfboard where I can lay down on my stomach, 1251 01:17:50,250 --> 01:17:51,667 and then... 1252 01:17:51,750 --> 01:17:55,291 they push me into a wave down at Cardiff Reef in San Diego and... 1253 01:17:59,083 --> 01:18:00,709 I had rode the Jet Ski by myself, 1254 01:18:00,792 --> 01:18:02,417 and that's where I felt my... 1255 01:18:02,500 --> 01:18:05,333 sense of normalness come back. 1256 01:18:05,417 --> 01:18:08,208 True feeling of independence again. 1257 01:18:08,291 --> 01:18:10,375 At first, I'd go out to support groups 1258 01:18:10,458 --> 01:18:13,792 and talk with other injured SCI patients, you know? 1259 01:18:13,875 --> 01:18:15,959 I like to go to concerts, baseball games, 1260 01:18:16,041 --> 01:18:18,667 you know. I do more stuff now than I did when I walked. 1261 01:18:18,750 --> 01:18:20,583 One thing for me was driving. 1262 01:18:20,667 --> 01:18:23,834 Put all the windows down, feel the wind in your hair. 1263 01:18:23,917 --> 01:18:25,583 Hell yeah. 1264 01:18:25,667 --> 01:18:27,000 I love playing rugby. 1265 01:18:27,083 --> 01:18:29,125 I'm a quadriplegic, but I can... 1266 01:18:29,208 --> 01:18:31,625 absolutely wreck someone's day 1267 01:18:31,709 --> 01:18:33,166 in my rugby chair. 1268 01:18:33,250 --> 01:18:35,542 I had no idea what I was doing, 1269 01:18:35,625 --> 01:18:38,375 calling all these girls. "Hey, do you wanna dance?" 1270 01:18:38,458 --> 01:18:41,709 And they're like, sure? In a wheelchair? Sure? 1271 01:18:42,041 --> 01:18:44,041 Five years later, it's... 1272 01:18:44,125 --> 01:18:46,834 a dance company I never thought I could have. 1273 01:18:46,917 --> 01:18:49,083 I kicked off my music career. 1274 01:18:49,291 --> 01:18:52,375 I started riding a bicycle again, but on my terms. 1275 01:18:52,458 --> 01:18:55,000 I would go ride to ride, 1276 01:18:55,083 --> 01:18:57,917 just pedal the damn thing. 1277 01:18:58,000 --> 01:19:01,166 I never thought that I would be a human robot 1278 01:19:01,250 --> 01:19:03,458 back in the '80s when I was watching Robocop. 1279 01:19:03,542 --> 01:19:05,375 And I was like, oh my God! 1280 01:19:05,458 --> 01:19:08,333 You want me to show you? 1281 01:19:08,417 --> 01:19:10,417 It's amazing to stand and to look at 1282 01:19:10,500 --> 01:19:12,667 your friends at eye level. 1283 01:19:13,959 --> 01:19:17,041 I make a big deal about it because for so many years, 1284 01:19:17,125 --> 01:19:20,000 I've been used to people kind of looking down on me. 1285 01:21:24,500 --> 01:21:26,125 If you could take a pill 1286 01:21:26,208 --> 01:21:29,709 and wake up tomorrow morning and be completely healed, 1287 01:21:29,792 --> 01:21:32,083 what's the first thing you would do? 1288 01:21:40,083 --> 01:21:42,250 I don't know. 1289 01:21:44,458 --> 01:21:47,500 I don't wanna ruin the drama, but I have no clue. 1290 01:21:48,000 --> 01:21:51,375 The first thing I would do is go to the beach. 1291 01:21:54,792 --> 01:21:57,250 Yep. It's crazy 'cause... 1292 01:21:58,250 --> 01:22:00,041 the last time I was at the beach and I was able 1293 01:22:00,125 --> 01:22:02,417 to feel the sand between my toes, 1294 01:22:02,500 --> 01:22:04,417 I remember walking off and running back 1295 01:22:04,500 --> 01:22:05,875 just to feel it one more time. 1296 01:22:06,333 --> 01:22:09,667 The first thing I would think to do and the first thing I'd... 1297 01:22:10,583 --> 01:22:14,709 try to do is just give my mom a big hug, standing up... 1298 01:22:16,250 --> 01:22:19,500 'cause I've never done that before. 1299 01:22:21,667 --> 01:22:23,959 I would run and never stop. 1300 01:22:25,166 --> 01:22:26,959 Just like... 1301 01:22:27,041 --> 01:22:29,208 just like Forrest Gump. 1302 01:22:29,917 --> 01:22:32,291 Have everybody run with me. 1303 01:22:32,375 --> 01:22:35,166 I'd run with my mom, I'd run with my dad. 1304 01:22:36,375 --> 01:22:38,291 My brother. 1305 01:22:38,375 --> 01:22:40,500 I would run. 1306 01:22:48,625 --> 01:22:50,750 ♪ This world ♪ 1307 01:22:52,375 --> 01:22:54,542 ♪ We can ♪ 1308 01:22:56,333 --> 01:22:58,500 ♪ This love ♪ 1309 01:23:03,542 --> 01:23:06,083 ♪ It isn't good ♪ 1310 01:23:06,709 --> 01:23:09,166 - You like Europe, babe? - I do. 1311 01:23:09,250 --> 01:23:10,375 You like Amsterdam? 1312 01:23:10,458 --> 01:23:12,500 What's your favorite part so far of Amsterdam? 1313 01:23:12,583 --> 01:23:14,208 I like the buildings. 1314 01:23:14,834 --> 01:23:17,083 - Cruising. Look at these places. - Wow. 1315 01:23:17,166 --> 01:23:18,667 - Sweet. - Beautiful. 1316 01:23:18,750 --> 01:23:20,417 Some mansions. 1317 01:23:21,208 --> 01:23:23,000 What do you like about it? 1318 01:23:23,083 --> 01:23:25,000 Here how I'm biking and everyone just thinks 1319 01:23:25,041 --> 01:23:27,250 I'm your average Joe, which I love. 1320 01:23:27,333 --> 01:23:29,166 ♪ Book of poems ♪ 1321 01:23:29,250 --> 01:23:31,500 Sweetie. Don't! 1322 01:23:32,208 --> 01:23:34,959 I'll hold onto your shoulder like this, now pedal. 1323 01:23:35,792 --> 01:23:37,458 I'm gonna do the work? 1324 01:23:37,917 --> 01:23:39,667 You gotta deserve your drink. 1325 01:23:39,750 --> 01:23:43,458 I-- I am, I'm very deserving of drinks. 1326 01:23:50,083 --> 01:23:52,250 ♪ This world ♪ 1327 01:23:53,750 --> 01:23:55,917 ♪ We were ♪ 1328 01:23:57,750 --> 01:23:59,917 ♪ This world ♪ 1329 01:24:01,500 --> 01:24:03,625 ♪ We heard ♪ 1330 01:24:05,417 --> 01:24:07,625 ♪ This world ♪ 1331 01:24:09,166 --> 01:24:11,291 ♪ We can ♪ 1332 01:24:13,083 --> 01:24:15,250 ♪ This love ♪ 1333 01:24:20,750 --> 01:24:22,917 ♪ This world ♪ 1334 01:24:24,458 --> 01:24:26,625 ♪ We won ♪ 1335 01:24:28,458 --> 01:24:30,625 ♪ This world ♪ 1336 01:24:32,125 --> 01:24:34,291 ♪ We heard ♪ 1337 01:24:36,125 --> 01:24:38,291 ♪ This world ♪ 1338 01:24:39,959 --> 01:24:41,625 ♪ This love ♪ 96436

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