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[dramatic music]

♪

- I pushed my body to its upmost limit.

Just, body gave up before my mind could.

- ♪ Duh-duh-duh-duh

My first northern pike!

This thing is a monster.

- My time is running out.

I'm losing weight. I need my fat.

Oh, no!

I do all the best I can with the emotional work.

But some days...

it's a little harder than others.

I need to know that I'm doing good.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

male narrator: In "Alone's" coldest location ever,

ten participants fight to survive the Arctic.

- The Arctic is one of the most physically

demanding places on Earth.

- So freaking cold right now.

narrator: Battling sub-zero temperatures.

- This climate's harsh, it's extreme,

it's mean. It's got teeth.

- Get caught out here in a white-out

and you're in trouble.

narrator: Vicious predators...

- Heard something big moving back there.

- Me against the wolverine right now.

narrator: And isolation.

- There's nothing to fill that void.

It's just you left alone with your thoughts.

narrator: How long will they endure?

House is on fire!

- I'm scared, but I don't wanna die.

- This is the most unforgiving landscape I've ever seen.

narrator: The last one standing wins.

- This environment will strip away everything and anything

you thought you had.

[tense music]

♪

- Next in line, we have the latest model of outerwear

from the famed fashion house,

[speaking in French accent] Jornasse Jordan.

It is a rabbit-fur vest.

[beat boxes]

Check that out.

What a specimen of a man.

And the vest is nice too, isn't it Bob?

It sure is, Pam.

[beat boxes]

♪

Tough road I've been given here.

I've been fishing and I'm not surprised it's not going well.

At some point I'm gonna be ice fishing.

Maybe I'll have better luck,

but my whole strategy is up in the air right now.

And I'm, like, out of fat.

Fortunately, I have a creative idea.

All right.

Gonna skin the head.

This is gonna be a tricky job.

♪

I'm gonna trim fat off of the moose head.

And then render the rest of the fat into lard.

♪

See if I can

get his tongue out here.

Come on.

♪

There it is.

If you look at the tongue, see how light that meat is?

I think it's pretty fatty. Some good fat in there.

♪

Oh man. So I'm gonna try my best to nuke it for a while,

see what comes of it.

♪

To render fat, you just throw your chunks of fat

in the frying pan and when it fries,

it'll turn into, like, a pourable liquid

that's easier to cook with. And then what's left over

will be, like, little crunchy,

bite-y fat balls and the lard.

[sniffs] My whole purpose in life

right now is to not spill any fat.

It's all I got left.

The cracklings go in my crackling box.

♪

If I screw this up, I will never forgive myself.

♪

All right.

[inhales deeply]

Oh, yeah.

All right. So that gives me cracklings,

but I got as much or more lard.

[tense music]

♪

Welcome to your--another little bird of the North

update on the latest stock market.

Sedge.

Okay, let's talk about sedge today.

This stuff, I tell you what,

when there's like three feet of snow here, this stuff...

gonna be worth a nice penny.

So, I would just start,

you know, building up, getting a little bit of it.

Lights up your fire. The best.

Plus it's gonna make great stuffing for

my teddy bear. [laughs]

Which is coming.

♪

I feel great,

though I'm in no denial that I'm getting skinny.

But, I feel like I have the universe supporting me.

The universe knows what I need more than even than

I know what I need.

That's a guarantee.

♪

So I told myself by the 50th day,

I would have a teddy bear.

I do have a tanned hide.

And I am gonna stuff it and sew it tonight.

Oh, my gosh, it's so beautiful.

And I'm pretty stoked that I'm gonna use

the very first hare I got out here.

[fire crackling]

I sleep with a teddy bear, still.

I'm not embarrassed by it, really.

- Yes! This is perfect.

And now...

for the stuffing.

I still have my very first teddy bear I ever got

from my mom.

I just love having a bear.

And I want to have one out here.

Can you believe I'm making a teddy bear

in the wilderness? [laughs]

I wanna put a, like, a little bow around his neck.

[fire crackling]

Oh, it looks so good.

His little bow and everything.

Aww.

The native language here,

the hare is called "Wappi."

Wappi.

So that is gonna be the name of my bear.

Wappi.

♪

Wappi.

[dark ambient music]

♪

[eerie music]

♪

- So, I thought I would tour you around

the bedstead because we haven't done that.

The bed is awesome and solid and comfortable

and warmer than being on the ground.

I've got all of my side supports in here nicely

rounded off and my spruce bows

packed between there so, yeah.

Definitely a successful project.

Let's go check some traps, shall we?

I'm feeling increasingly desperate around food.

And, I know there's a limited amount of time I can be here

if I'm not bringing in food, especially in this climate.

It's too damn cold and it's so hard.

Definitely getting harder.

♪

I think...

it's weird snow, but I think...

♪

No, it's squirrel.

Squirrel tracks.

Hmm, dang.

♪

I'm really hoping to get rabbits in these

next couple days because Halloween is coming up,

and I really want to have a good amount of food

to actually have a feast on that day.

♪

Well, not a thing nor a sign of a thing.

It seems that the rabbits are all totally wise

to my traps at this point, around here.

Damn, damn, damn.

♪

Holy [bleep].

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

- Holy [bleep].

♪

I didn't get it.

Oh, that's frustrating.

My aim is not what I want it to be.

♪

That's super exciting to have seen rabbit

really close to the house-- to know that the rabbits

aren't totally gone.

So I'm gonna go check the rest of my traps.

[tense music]

I'm gonna take a look at these close traps here.

♪

Oh! [gasps] Oh, my God!

I got a rabbit in my lifting pole.

Holy crap.

Yes!

Oh, my God.

Hell yes.

It is a rabbit day! I am back in rabbits.

So sweet.

And it's beautiful and white.

They are white now. It has happened.

[sighs] Oh, and it's a big one.

It feels meaty.

Oh, my God.

So psyched.

Oh, and this is still not even my snares down below.

Oh, God. I could have two rabbits today.

It could be a two rabbit day, 'cause I feel good about

those snares down there.

♪

That would be so incredible to have.

[gasps] There's a rabbit.

I got one. Oh, my God.

I got one here.

Yes. Oh, my God.

That is a two rabbit day.

Oh, my God. Okay.

Yes, yes, yes.

Oh, thank freaking God.

That is so awesome.

♪

Oh, my God, what a turnaround.

What a turnaround. I am so excited.

It's huge.

It is huge.

What it does just for the outlook...

[sighs]

...to have food.

♪

A meal of two rabbits.

That is a dream come true.

[dramatic music]

♪

[throat singing]

[clears throat] [laughs]

Gotta remember how to do that.

I gotta practice so it doesn't itch my throat.

Some guy from the Altai Mountains

taught me how to throat sing.

And there was a time when I was a little better at it.

Now I'm--I'm slipping.

[throat singing]

[laughs]

I need to keep practicing while I'm out here.

♪

Since I got out here, my whole goal was, like,

man, don't turn it into a starving game.

♪

And I don't have a lot of fat anywhere.

Not on my body and not stored away.

♪

[panting]

Well, crazy news. I just went over there

to look at the platform.

I was looking closer at the meat.

I was like, man, that looks like teeth marks.

And all the fat is gone.

Sure enough there's fur on the pole going up there.

And, uh, looked around and there's wolverine tracks.

I can't believe that there's another wolverine,

and it's coming for me.

Getting attacked from too many angles, here.

Am I the only one dealing with these things?

They just won't stop stealing my fat.

It's just the thing I have to deal with now.

The only thing I can do is try to play defense.

Pfff!

I'm gonna go set up cans. At least I'll hear it, maybe.

It's a ways away.

Uh...

Huh.

Bad news.

♪

This is experimental wolverine defense.

You can see I put a ring of fine rabbit snares up here

so when the wolverine comes climbing up,

hopefully he gets his arms, legs, whatever, snagged up,

makes him mad. Should stop him from

going up that log, hopefully.

That's the hypothesis.

And I got the cans precariously placed

on that log that hopefully he'll roll if he tries

climbing on it. And I ran a string

all the way from my platform to my shelter and hang

some cans right above my bed. So if he goes up the platform,

no matter how deep I'm sleeping,

the cans are gonna bang.

Give me time to stop him.

♪

- Oh yeah, baby.

Oh yeah.

Nice.

The big score of the day. Jackpot.

One wholesome tamarack jack.

[laughs] Wow, Nikki.

Wow.

Oh, boy.

That's where we're at.

[laughs]

That's where we're at.

Stealing mushrooms from squirrels.

[dramatic music]

♪

[fire crackling]

Okay, I'm getting ready for my smoke.

'Cause I really feel like

I need to purify myself.

I want to smoke myself with

juniper to kill bacteria.

I'm actually gonna take my clothes off.

The first time I've seen my body while I've been out here.

[fire crackling]

♪

The other night I was overcome

by a love of people.

♪

I don't know if it's because of the silence here

and the vastness,

but it's not like I'm tapping out.

"Oh, my God, I've had my spiritual epiphany,

and I'm ready. Come pick me up."

♪

No sirree. Not ready yet.

I love being alone.

[fire crackling]

I thought it would be wise not to see my body, you know.

I thought that by seeing my body

I might, I don't know, get scared or nervous

for how skinny I was.

And I'm really glad to see it.

♪

I--I feel good about it.

And all my muscles...

like, just super defined, huh?

Like, whoo! Look at my bicep.

[fire crackling]

Oh, my gosh, it's perfect.

Look at all the smoke.

Aw, thank you, juniper.

♪

My feet.

♪

Renew me. Bring me more strength

when I need it most.

♪

To keep me pure,

like the inner child I am.

[dramatic music]

♪

- I was thinking the other day about a license plate

for after I win.

I don't know how many-- I don't know how many

characters you get.

But, if I was allowed eight,

I would--I would get one that said,

A-L-O-N--

O-W-N-D-I-T.

"ALOWNDIT" [laughs]

Like, "I owned it," but I was alone.

You see what I did there? Did you see?

That's what you think about when you're laying

in a [bleep] shelter at four in the morning,

rubbing your toes together, trying to make them warm.

That's what you think about.

♪

No food today.

So what I've been doing

is harvesting reindeer moss and eating it.

It's not good, but it's food.

It'll help, you know what I mean?

So I'm gonna grab some, uh,

of this moss...

and put it in a pot and then boil it,

like, four times.

Crazy, I've been wiping my ass with most of this.

Not this exact batch, but this moss.

♪

Just a few days ago, I was [bleep] miserable

and I had a breakdown, man.

To be honest, I really thought my wife would already be here.

I know on TV it probably looks easy, like,

"What's this guy crying about?"

But this place really cracks you open like an egg.

You grow up,

at least in my generation,

you don't cry, you don't show emotion.

Just a lot of that macho [bleep].

And, being out here, it really strips

all that away.

You're okay with feeling emotions.

I just needed a good cry, I guess.

I needed to get it out,

let it be done.

And as soon as I did that,

I just knew it was gonna be okay.

Bon appetit!

Well, it's...

flavorless.

It's, um...

♪

It's definitely-- it's different,

now that I've boiled it, texture-wise.

I would relate it to, like, a spinach,

♪

it's just no flavor.

It doesn't suck as bad as you would think.

♪

I mean...

it's not something I'm gonna ask if it's on the menu

when I leave here, but...

I'm grateful for it and I have a [bleep] ton of it.

And it will sustain me.

[belches] Excuse me.

[dramatic music]

♪

Alana!

Happy birthday. [chuckles]

Happy third birthday.

Can't wait to be home and

see you and your little brother

and Janna Lee and... uh...

everybody else and, uh...

Yeah. Love you a lot. [laughs]

Happy birthday.

♪

Living alone for a long period of time

is a process greatly eased by

birch bark.

♪

What does everyone do when they're in a long-term

solitary situation?

♪

You play Solitaire.

There you have it.

A beautiful five of hearts.

My fat reserves are gone, so,

I kind of wanna just take it easy and not

spend so much energy.

And there you have it, folks.

In one of the finest displays of quality

and craftsmanship that you'll ever see,

a full deck of 52 cards.

♪

There you go. Ready for long

days when you're trying not to burn calories.

♪

So here it is.

For all the marbles, if I win this,

you guys owe me $500,000.

♪

I am missing the family today.

Again, that's a big motivator for being here.

Nope, nope, nope.

Terrible hand.

Terrible.

It would help to win.

But it doesn't help spending a lot of time here

and then not win.

Really only worth it if you succeed.

[groans]

It's impossible to win this game.

Is that all I can do, is lose around here?

Lose weight, lose Solitaire,

lose fish, lose fat.

♪

Lose the whole dang thing.

[tense music]

♪

- Here's little Wappi.

Little Wappi.

[yawns]

Good morning, Great White North.

What's in store for me today?

♪

There's something I love so much about

starting the morning fire out here.

I just love it.

I got a med check today, and I feel great.

I hope they'll let me stay here longer.

♪

Yes.

Hello.

♪

Halloween. Arctic.

♪

I feel great, like,

I feel like I look like an Iron Man triathlete.

♪

♪

- [muttering indistinctly]

♪

- [sighs]

- Well, Nikki, um...

at this point it's too

dangerous for you to stay out here.

- [gasps] No way!

- I'm gonna have to extract you...

- No! - For medical reasons.

- What?

There's no way I am leaving.

I'm not leaving.

I'm not. I don't care.

- Your body is too far gone.

- I wanna know what the--what--why.

Like, I wanna know, like...

I need to understand, like, why.

Like what is it saying about my body?

- You're at risk of multiple organ failure.

You need to be in a hospital. - I just want one more day.

[sobbing] Please.

I need to say good-bye to this place.

[crying]

[sobbing]

I can't go home yet.

[sniffles]

I just haven't done so many things I wanted to do and--

[sobs]

♪

I'm so sad.

[sobbing]

[sniffles]

♪

[sobbing]

[sobs]

I guess I've begged enough, right?

[laughs]

I guess, like, 50 begs is, like,

not changing the...

changing the thing here, is it?

♪

I don't feel like I'm saying good-bye to this place.

I'm not saying good-bye to this experience.

This is a total new beginning for me.

I don't feel necessarily at home, here.

I needed longer time to actually feel like I really

feel like I've been taken in.

But, I am linked with this place, now.

♪

I love you, Arctic.

♪

Humans can suffer to great lengths.

And what nature's taught me most of all

is to enjoy those moments of hardship and pain

because you feel truly alive.

♪

I wouldn't have ever believed

I would only last 52 days,

but I feel like every day I've lived

to the very fullest out here.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

- It's freaking Halloween!

So of course I had to dress up.

And, thinking about costumes,

what is the thing that I think the most about

here in the Arctic?

Rabbits.

And considering I am becoming more and more

percent rabbit every day I am here,

it seemed only appropriate to dress as a rabbit.

So I'm setting the table now

and we'll get started feasting away

like we ought to on Halloween.

♪

All right, here is the feast.

Here is rabbit backstrap,

cranberries, and rabbit soup.

What an exciting holiday feast!

Halloween is many things.

It's an ancient Pagan festival about honoring the ancestors.

And very, very importantly,

October 31st happens to be the birthday

of a very special and important lady.

And that lady is my mama.

She was born on this very magical, special holiday,

which is why she is such an amazing, magical,

and witchy lady, of course.

♪

I just keep picturing taking my mama out for her birthday

dinner when I get back

and giving her a little present,

something from the Arctic,

and then having a little card that says,

"Anything I can do for you and a trip together,

"anywhere in the world of your choosing,

because I just won the Alone show."

♪

Ah, what a luxury.

So much food at once.

Truly.

Truly a feast for me.

This is the most food I've had at a sitting this whole time.

Happy Halloween, everyone!

[dramatic music]

♪

- It's kind of a gray day out there.

It's calm.

But, uh...

it's cold.

And I know it can be a lot colder than it is.

Frankly, I'm afraid of freezing to death.

♪

My fire went out last night,

and I didn't wake up early enough to keep

it going, I guess.

♪

Okay...

what do you got for me, baby?

I haven't done a bow drill in a while so, I guess,

today's the day.

I've been having some thoughts

the last couple days about attitude.

You know, it's pretty common for people to talk about

positive mental attitude.

My bow is moving away from the notch.

♪

[bleep].

I'm kind of revising that a little bit,

about not exactly having a positive mental attitude,

but having attitude consciousness.

♪

This looks like it might be full of rot.

[bleep].

I'm gonna have to make a kit from scratch again.

Having attitude awareness.

[sighs] [bleep].

[bleep].

And responsibility.

What in the [bleep]?

'Cause it's just not gonna be possible

to always have a positive mental attitude.

That's not what being a human is.

Why?

Why, why, why, why, why?

Why is it doing all these things?

♪

If this doesn't work,

I'm gonna freeze my [bleep] ass off tonight.

♪

[groans] [bleep].

[dramatic music]

♪

[groaning]

[bleep].

♪

[groans]

I don't understand it.

I would say fire is my greatest strength

in a survival situation.

♪

This is the worst bow drill wood on planet Earth.

I did not account for rings

that are five layers to a millimeter

like there are here.

A tree puts on a layer of wood every single year.

And you can cut through a stick of wood and find out

how many years it's been growing

by counting the rings in it.

You can't do that in these

because the rings are so tight you can't see them.

They are too hard, too tight,

to produce enough heat through

friction to self-ignite.

♪

I'm still expecting it to get a good deal colder than this.

♪

This is a life or death situation.

♪

Oh, wait.

Forgot about my cutting board.

The cutting board I found

on the beach almost as soon as I got here

is made out of cedar.

And I don't know why it just now is dawning on me

that that's the case, or that I could use it,

but, cedar is fantastic bow drill wood.

The growth rings on it are 1/8th inch,

and that's several times larger

than anything in this region.

Look at that beautiful stuff.

♪

This is promising.

♪

Ah, that feels good.

♪

We have an ember!

♪

Oh. [breathing heavily]

Thank you. Thank you, thank you.

Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you,

thank you, thank you...

Finally.

[exhales]

Well, it only took till dinner time,

but I finally got a fire going.

[fire crackling]

After this experience, I'm gonna be a lot more

religious about keeping it going through the night,

because this place is a cold hell

and without a fire,

I'm done.

[tense music]

♪

- Good morning.

Last night was probably

the coldest night that there's been so far.

It was--it was really something, actually.

It was noticeable even with all my layers and in my bag

and--[clears throat] and everything like that.

Just uh, at this point in the game,

this is a new dimension for the show,

having this much snow.

♪

I've never seen any of this in any of the episodes

or series that I've watched

that have this sort of weather.

♪

I'm up and out.

There's been a new development.

And I was headed to look for some water.

It doesn't look good.

[snow crunching]

♪

I couldn't understand why I was hearing such

strong winds and I wasn't hearing any waves.

And the reason is, my entire bay has frozen.

[tense music]

♪

Holy [bleep].

♪

That's all ice.

♪

That's the end of my island.

♪

And you can see it's just still frozen.

♪

Out there is water.

Gonna try and...

get some ice by stomping here.

Maybe here.

No.

It's totally frozen. [bleep].

I'm a little concerned, you know?

This is where I get my water.

I'm gonna have to be doing a lot of melting, I guess.

[groaning] Ah, yeah.

So yeah, here's my berry field.

The berries are gone, y'all.

♪

See how it's just buried.

I knew it was cold last night but I had no idea.

♪

I had no idea.

♪

This isn't just survival, this is punishment.

[dramatic music]

♪

- There's no longer moderate cold.

It's freezing.

We'll walk out here to this portion of the lake,

where it looks like maybe the water has

thinned a little bit, I'm not sure,

and see if I can't break through.

And, uh, if so I'll just get my water that way

and that'll be a real big blessing, so

we'll check it out.

This looks kind of thin.

[sniffs]

Just kidding.

[bleep].

Worth a shot.

♪

This is going to be, uh...

♪

it's going to be an interesting next couple of weeks

if that's what--if that's what I'm out here for.

♪

I mean, I freaking hope not, man.

♪

It's beautiful but wow.

♪

It's cold, so, we're--we're gonna move forward though.

Always forward.

So let's start, uh, getting what I need

here for fire and water because I am thirsty.

I'm gonna probably try and drink at least three pots

of snow today,

so I need to get a lot of snow and a lot of wood

and just kind of keep my fire going

and steadily drinking water today.

♪

Man, I am tired.

Even the smallest of tasks

just tire you out.

♪

Can't trap, can't hunt, can't forage.

Whatever you got is what you got.

♪

This is scary.

♪

What's it gonna be like in three weeks

when it's in the negatives and the wind is constantly

blowing and, you know, you can't get out of your bag?

It's gonna be, like...

♪

jarring.

I'm telling you, this is--

it's about to hit hard.

♪

So, I'm done worrying about who's out here,

I'm done worrying about what they got.

I'm done worrying about all of that.

♪

[sighs]

All I'm worried about now

is keeping myself safe.

♪

- [breathing heavily]

You go through the ice out here,

you're in huge trouble.

That's something that will kill you.

- I really need food.

Desperate times call for desperate measures.

Eating rabbit intestines is next level.

- I would show you what the inside of my

shelter looks like...

But that's--that's ice.

- This is so [bleep] hard, man.

♪

I'm starving.

Put the [bleep] fire in me!