All language subtitles for Yeh Zindagi Ka Safar 2001 Hindi DvDRip x264 AC3...Hon3y

Who am I?

What am I?

Where am Ito go?

"Of the Earth, the Skies,
the Winds, I ask..."

Tell me...

who am I?
What am I?

Where am Ito go?

"Even if the winds I were to sway,
fragrances, I stilled..."

even if I reach
for the stars...

and moonbeams...

"still I ask,
O'Life, tell me yet..."

Who am I?
What am I?

Where am Ito go?

Stop it! You're embarrassing me!
How long will you clap?

Till my heart's content!
Or does the law forbid?

"Can't a father be happy,
cheer his daughter's success?"

You tell me

As she reaches
for the moon...

"these hands, that tended her
as a child..."

will surely compliment
each other

Who am I? has sold
a million music cassettes

"Ovation, once more"

"You might take me for a star.
But in reality, it's someone else"

"I mean, policemen. They even sacrifice
their lives trying to save us"

"I'm told, 1,500 policemen lose their
lives in the line of duty every year"

"No, at the borders. But fighting
crime in our cities. |ncredib|e"

And so often we forget that
it's because of the police...

that we enjoy such freedom
in our societies

They protect us

My music producer is giving me
a reward. I'd like the money...

to reach the helpless families
of those policemen

I'd like to pass on the money
to an exemplary policeman

I once thought that the fight
against crime...

is a routine exercise of
policemen dying to prevent crime...

and being given public opprobrium
in retribution

"But these words from a child's mouth,
makes me rise in self esteem"

If this be the philosophy
of the youth of the land...

no one can harm this country

"While I accept this cheque,
I reassure you once again..."

"I shall deliver, come what may, what
you expect of the police department"

There are some amongst us
who malign the uniform

"Custodial deaths, bribery
and terrorising people"

"In particular, atrocities on women.
Reduced yes, but not eliminated"

"Protecting you isn't only my duty.
Trust me, it's an obsession..."

that won't let me rest in peace
as long as...

even a single criminal breathes
in this city

Thank you...

for coming into my life

Do I kiss your feet?

Or hold you in my eyes?

Oh I don't understand

"Mr Ganpat Rao, you've no idea!
- None"

This news you give me
about this lady...

is going to take this paper places!
You've no idea

Encore

Pour more.
- Go on. For this...

it won't be doing enough even if
I stand you drinks all your life

Bloody Jay Bhardwaj

"l beg of you, kill me.
Else, let me hang myself"

What have I done?
- What haven't you done?

You repay me like this?
By publishing a film photo?

On my front page!
- Try to understand

What's going on? Drinking
in broad daylight? In my press?

Have a drink

Why not invite a few whores
for company?

Throw that drunk out

"For us he's luck, come to pick us
out of the gutters, to the skies"

Soon we'll have a posh office
on top of a skyscraper

Come down to earth!
Not for moonrides

I started this paper
to serve the nation

You expect me to swap Gandhian
ideals for cheap entertainment?

Entertainment is just the means.
Let's carry the popstar's story

Readers will fall over themselves
to buy copies

Your ideals will reach the people
only if the paper sells

You tell him.
- Please shut up

My story is aimed
straight at the heart

"Listen, I've always obeyed you.
For once, listen to me"

I'm exposing the singer and her father
and I'm telling no lies

There's going to be a furore
once this news outs

The truth will rouse the ones
who sleep on soft beds

Damn! Couldn't you do it yourself?
I want Ram Malkani on this case

Talk to Ram Malkani. Now.
Tell him to drop everything

I'll pay him whatever he wants.
And get Kapoor in London

Put him and his lawyer on
the next flight to India

I'll force Adarsh Times
to shut shop

Get the lawyers to make
a strong case if it looks weak

They can insult us citing freedom
of expression. We can do nothing?

Freedom of the press doesn't mean
anyone can do anything he wishes

His freedom lasts only as long
as he doesn't insult me

Her father is a sham

The police commissioner is
my friend! He doesn't know that

I'll get the chief minister
to throw him in jail for life

I can get the undenlvorld
to bump him off

I haven't lived life in vain

This is no joke

"A penny-paper writes,
you aren't my daughter"

That I falsified your
birth certificate...?

Sit

"Now that I'm a star, this kind
of thing will keep happening"

"They will write truths,
half-truths and falsehoods"

Doesn't mean you get
high blood pressure over it

What's going on? How long
do you need to write four lines?

"Over, sir. Legal matters take time.
After all it's defamation"

"Lady, sign here"

50 million?
- Now the liar will realise...

the outcome of first-paging prominent
personalities in 3rd class newspapers

Sign this.
- But I haven't the time

Nothing's more important for me than
my career. And who attends court?

I shall. You sign

"Sign it, my child.
- You and I got to organise..."

shows for the police fund.
- All that will get done. Sign

"Bhandari, why isn't
the lawyer here yet?"

"Mr Adarsh Times,
you've taken on my Dad"

"Are you high? 50,000 copies sold?
Must be some other paper?"

Adarsh Times

"What...?
- 50,000 copies sold"

Got 90mg

We've got going

God has turned kind

We're moving...

we're leaving the world behind

Enough. I'll make sure his paper
publishes the news when he's jailed

That crown on her head is false

How long will they reign?

The day they're exposed...

they're lost

"Hindi is more powerful
than English, you see..."

God has turned kind

We're moving...

we're leaving the world behind

Soon we'll get cash in pockets

"Soon, we'll have fun"

Our heart too clamour...

for more

Just time that sixer

Just time that sixer

God has turned kind

We've got it going

God has turned kind

We're moving...

we're leaving the world behind

Fool I was to listen
to a moron like you

"In the business of pen and paper,
never resort to lies! I warned you"

It was for Truth's sake that
my father marched with Gandhi

And you? You want to make
a pauper out of me?

Take that!

That fellow has sued us
for 5 and seven zeros

Not out of what 7 generations
of my forefathers earned...

could I ever put together
so much

"Listen you guys, my last wish.
If I die of a heart attack..."

make sure my ashes are used for
a coat of paint on these walls

After the press has gone
under the hammer...

let not my soul bid adieu
to these walls

Listen! Listen to me.
- What?

"l told you, everything'll be all right.
- When? Once I'm dead?"

Tomorrow morning

"Not the first time, is it?"

Don't the rich always try to use
money and might to silence the poor?

Lie has always stood in Truth's way.
But in the end Truth always triumphs

If Gandhi could use Truth
to defeat British rule...

"can I Jay Bhardwaj, not bring that
English-talking girl to her senses?"

I'll see her tomorrow morning.
Everything will be all right

But how to enter
the enemy camp?

Using a half-truth

Why are you standing?
A meeting is going on

A journalist is waiting for you.
Says it's urgent

"Give him an appointment
for tomorrow morning, at home"

Tell him not to pursue me

Still standing? Go away!
- He said...

if she wants to give me
an appointment for tomorrow...

"tell her I'm from
The Times, London"

"Interview in The Times, London!
That's free publicity overseas"

"Congratulations! Go on,
do the interview"

"Overseas is where the
action is, nowadays"

"Go on, we'll wait for you"

I told you not to barge in when
I'm in meetings. You don't get it?

There... it's him

"The British have departed,
they've left their English behind"

What...?
- Some are still slaves

"Had I not told your chauffeur
that I'm from The Times, London..."

would you possibly
leave a meeting for me?

Who are you?

Jay Bhardwaj

How easily you swallow
the fruit of your falsehoods?

And you won't shave because
you got to look yourself in the mirror

"A liar hasn't courage enough,
does he?"

I grew the beard
to enhance my persona

You disapprove?

Adarsh Times and I want
to improve circulation

But neither Adarsh Times
nor Jay Bhardwaj will lie for that

"if you wish, I can prove
it's true right away"

"The truth, and you...?"

I can take you to Ganpat Rao.
- Who...?

"Ganpat Rao, the municipal clerk
whom your Dad bribed..."

"for falsifying birth certificate.
In return, you withdraw the lawsuit"

Shall we settle this amicably?

After I've spoken to the municipal
clerk. If he turns out to be a fraud...

"man of principle that you are,
I'll sue you for 10 million"

Not to be shy. Come in

One shot and snack

Who the hell's screaming?

"It's me, Adarsh Times"

Mr Dewan's daughter comes seeking
the truth about her Dad

Tell her how you forged
her birth certificate

Hands off

Stand before me

"Tell me the truth,
who are you?"

What lies are you telling the girl?
- What's come over you?

Don't recognise me?

Forgotten those bottles of booze?
And chicken worth 450 bucks

"Stop babying her.
- Baby, take him away"

He's out of his mind. This isn't
a nice place he's brought you to

Don't waste your time fighting

Pocket your ideals and go
and find yourself a heist

Not in seven lifetimes
of polishing shoes...

will you ever be able to repay
a debt of 100 million

"No, please try to understand...
if Ganpat Rao opens his mouth again..."

No trusting a two-timer like him
and most importantly...

he's the only one who knows the truth
about the birth certificate

"No, only money won't do.
Have booze delivered home to him"

"Keep him intoxicated beyond coherence,
even if he speaks the truth"

When did you come...?

Didn't hear your car arrive...
- Who were you talking to?

"Mr Bhandari has a friend, Ganpat Rao.
- Ganpat Rao is no friend of Bhandari's"

He's a municipal clerk

Who am I?

What a thing to say...

you're my daughter

What's come over you?
- Who am I?

Who you are? You're my daughter.
- You're lying

I'm not your daughter! I'm not

It's all a lie. All lies!

How long will you fool me with your
lies? That journalist was right

You bought a false certificate
from that Ganpat Rao. Why?

Where did you find me?
In some gutter? Tell me

In some gutter?
- That's a lie

You picked me up from a gutter!
- You'll hurt yourself

I'll tell you everything

"It's true, I'm not your Dad"

You weren't born of Saakshi

The poor thing could
never bear children

The doctors gave up

She had only six months

"Before dying, she wanted
one last wish..."

to see her only dream come true.
Her dream of motherhood

Every morning the only thing
she'd ask me...

was to get for her a girl child
from anywhere...

"for the joy of her life,
what remained of it"

That was when Father Joseph came by

He'd visit us asking for donations
for his orphanage in Ooty

He showed us your photo

I don't know what it was with
your eyes... one look at the photo...

and I felt as if... you're my
long-lost daughter... my own blood

And I set out right away
with Father Joseph to pick you up

The joy of seeing you for
the first time in Saakshi's lap...

"l still can't forget...
all her sorrows, her woes, were gone"

She was ecstatic
when she held you

I couldn't save her.
But as long as she lived...

"there was always a smile on her face.
In fact, even when she was dying..."

there was a strange contentment
on her face

"Afterwards, I never reminded myself
that you aren't my daughter"

"I walked away, from the house,
the city, the neighbourhood..."

for our secret lay there

"After this day, let's not talk about
this ever again"

"The only truth is, I'm your Dad
and you're my daughter"

"Sarina, what's all this rot
in the newspapers about you?"

Why don't you lodge a complaint
against the journalist?

I'll take care of the rest.
- That won't be needed

Dad has already sued him
for defamation

Great! I'm with those who put up
a fight for themselves

"What with the press armed with pens,
they think they're emperors"

If that journalist tries
to blackmail you over the phone...

"you're free to call me,
even in the dead of the night"

"As long as you're around,
I've nothing to worry"

SfOP

Hey Times London!
Want to get killed?

"You win, I lose. I was out of my mind
to accost you, mighty as you are"

Please sign these papers
and withdraw the libel suit

And I'll withdraw my statement
tomorrow with an apology

Still thinking?
You want to liquidate my paper?

It'll give my grandfather
a heart attack

I'm not concerned with what's
true or false about you

"|nside your palaces, you're free
to do whatever you want"

"Just let me keep my barn.
- Move it, Dinu"

Don't you take on journalists.
You think I don't know?

Why that Ganpat Rao calls you Baby?
Your Dad stuffed his mouth with money

"Move it, Dinu"

I'll start a sit-in in front of
your house. I'll fast till I die

And I'll tell the whole world...
- He's my Daddy. I'm his daughter

Period. Move it

"In the truth, you don't care for the
truth. But you can't escape the Truth"

You can't hide from the Truth

"Have I arrived?
Am I lost? Tell me"

"O'Life, tell me my place,
give me my identity"

"Who am I?
What am I?"

Where am I going?

"Of the Earth, the Skies,
the Winds, I ask..."

"Tell me... who am I?
What am I?"

Where am Ito go?

So it's still on your mind?

"When in pain, it feels as if
there can be no let up"

"With time, everything heals"

I know Dad. I had decided
I'd forget everything

I set out thinking I wouldn't even
mention it to myself ever again

Ever since I came to know
about myself...

"I feel like stopping
every woman I see, talk to her..."

"could she be my mother?
Tell me, what am Ito do?"

What can anyone do?

"Dad, I want to see my mother"

I want to see Father Joseph.
To ask him who my real parents are

"What did I say?
No calls, didn't I say?"

Can't I have five minutes in peace
with my daughter? No calls

You've gone mad

Out of your mind! What's life?
Video on pause?

To be played whenever you wish?

"18 years on, while you grew up,
has the rest of life stood stilled?"

All I want is...
- You want to traduce me

"To tell me that I haven't been loving
enough, you wish to find your parents?"

"That's wrong, Dad.
- Parents who never cared..."

to find out about you! Not even
a phone call. Not even to find out...

whether you're well. They don't
even know whether you're alive

"Look, not another word, if you love me
even one little bit"

"And if you love me,
you won't stop me"

"Mr Bhandari, whatever investigative use
those photos are for her..."

"for me, they're invaluable. Tell her,
to take good care of them"

I've booked the two of you in The Taj.
You'll be picked up from the airport

"l know the hotel manager, Mr Dhingra.
Any problem, talk to him directly"

My mobilephone has roaming.
You remind her that

"if she deems it fit,
if it doesn't hurt her fingers..."

have her talk to me every half an hour.
You got cash?

Keep some more.
Also this credit card

"For the first time in her life,
she's travelling without me"

"Yes, she's all grown up and mature.
But you take care of her"

"Shall we, Baby?"

You aren't coming with me Mr Bhandari.
- But Baby...

I got to take this journey on my own.
- But Mr Dewan...

Give Dad my apologies.
Tell him...

I love him

On this journey
no one comes with me

What happened?
- He's coming

Push it.
- Sure

Faster

"Speed, speed"

Push it.
- Yes Baby

"Park, over there"

"Go on, to the airport"

Bus to Ooty?

Welcome

This bus service welcomes aboard
all passengers who've skipped flights

"Over the worst roads, like worse luck
our bus delivers you to your destination"

When's the next bus to Ooty?
- Tomorrow

Passengers are requested to remain
seated. The flight has already left

By now you should realise that
taking on journalists isn't easy

You and I have read
the same spy stories. Old hat

But if you may sign
this contract...

I'll leave you to travel in peace
and disappear forever

"Conductor, this ruffian is here
to harass me. Don't let him in"

"Isn't mad to pick a fight with me,
is he? You want him handcuffed?"

"He knows, it's a crime.
It's every citizens's right..."

to travel on a ticket you've bought.
I paid just as much as you did

You'll remember you came across
a so-and-so

"Your shadow might desert you,
not Jay Bhardwaj"

What do they say in your language?

Wherever you go...

"my shadow will be with you,
wherever you go"

I'll shake you off

Have lunch. Bus stops for an hour

Let the wines come to bear

"For my path is lonely,
my fellow traveller is haughty"

What can I do for you?
- Fill my tank. Don't ask for money

What are you? My son-in-law?
Or a long-lost brother?

You expect me to ply you
with booze for free?

You don't get what I mean.
- You look wise enough. Explain

Something's more important than money.
- You tell me what

"Advertising, publicity, marketing!
In this wilderness..."

how much do you make a day?
A thousand? Two? Five?

"Once your inn is written about
in Adarsh Times, you'll see"

What times?
- I know! You've never heard

That's why you're here. After I've
written of your chicken and cheeses...

"travellers will queue up and in no
time, this place will be transformed"

Into a three-storeyed building.
And who sits at the cash counter?

"When I started this inn, Dad said..."

"Son, while you dream of riches
be careful not to set your hovel afire"

"He also said, it's money that
feeds the belly, not dreams"

You understand?

"If you won't take the deal,
here you are. Give me a peg"

Another thing Dad said

"For free, men will drink whole bottles.
Come to paying for it, only a peg"

Now I see what makes men
innkeepers for life

"Have your laugh. When you realise,
you'll weep"

"Yes, what's for you?
- What's the strongest you have?"

For drinking here? Or take-away?
- Not for me. For that man

Ply him till he's overflowing.
- Done

Huffy

What's happening?
Forgot all about Dad?

"No, just remembered Mom saying..."

"Son, don't turn you away Luck
when She knocks on your door"

"Never fail God's test when
He sends someone to you, asking"

Drink up! And turn my inn
into a five star hotel

"0' pretty Moon,
O'stars. . . "

"come, spend a night on earth
with me"

"Tell me some about yourselves,
find out a bit about me"

Let's make friends...

for this journey

"I'm a speck, lonely"

Will you share my grief?

I could use some company...

to make light my burdened heart

"0' pretty Moon,
O'stars. . . "

"come, spend a night on earth
with me"

With this solitude...

I've made friends

"I might totter,
but I'll live"

"My life, I'll live"

Damn

"Get up, the Moon has set,
Sun's up"

"While you were asleep,
the bus ran away"

Bus gone?

"Poor bus, couldn't drown
your snoring"

The others were lucky
they heard the bus starting

Up Jay Bhardwaj.
Get into the act again

"For the free booze,
thank you very much"

I'll thank you for my windfall.
As far as free booze is concerned...

Dad and Mom both said...

"Son, don't even give a dog
water for free"

This was booze. All of 2 litres.
- Meaning...?

Simple. It was the doing of your
pretty fellow-traveller

"She kept paying me»
I kept plying Y°u

Rings a bell?

"Whom do you want to see,
my child?"

The one from 18 years ago

"He's in the libraryjust now,
preparing for Christmas"

I'm only doing my duty

This institution is
The Children of God Shelter

Children who come here
are God's own

And unto those who leave
their children here...

we are sworn to reveal nothing.
- I swear not to reveal anything

I only want to see
my mother for once

"For once, only"

"Then I'll go away, for good.
You tell me, Father..."

can God be cross with you for
letting a child meet it's mother?

Every sect has it's rules. If we
insist on breaking confidences...

no one will trust us

"During confession, whatever we hear,
we must forget then and there"

"Besides, life is about moving ahead,
not about turning to look back"

You never said you're a big star.
The children were saying...

you're a big singer.
And there I was...

"teaching them how to sing,
right in front of you"

"Say, will you do us a favour?
Christmas is in two days"

Will you sing us a song
on Christmas Eve?

"They'll love it.
- If I'm here till then, I will"

Promise?

"First you meet Mummy,
then you meet Papa"

And the world reads it
in Adarsh Times

How dare you take my photos?
- Who are you? Some fairy?

Why should I photograph you?
Open your eyes. In this valley...

there's lots more prettier
than you are

Don't get smart. Who told you
about this place?

I got a dog's nose
and the hawk's eyes

"Before your move, I know
what move you'll make"

In case you thought you could drown me
in booze and put me off your trail...

I've had my share of drink.
I'm the species...

that gets off your back
only when I'm through

You're a worse degenerate
than I took you for

Thanks.
- Will you do something for me?

I work only for money.
- You know the truth and I know too

I'm here looking for my mother.
Neither have I ever seen her...

nor do I know anything about her.
But I'm not leaving...

until I've found my mother.
Help me and I'll withdraw the suit

"Understanding? You mean, white flag?"

"Okay, done"

All you've known in me
is a gentleman of the press

I'm about to show you
a cunning investigator

"Consider your job done.
As an advance, sign this paper"

So you can take the next bus to Mumbai
and write all about me?

I'll sign the agreement once
I've found my mother. Understand?

"Wonderful! We're one of a kind!
Now, I'll surely work for you"

"Till your mother is found,
you pay all our expenses..."

"fooding, lodging, everything.
Understand?"

"You might say, I'm placing myself
entirely in your hands"

Cur! Scoundrel! Rascal!
lngrate!

Wastrel! Thankless cad!
Blackheart! Rat! Coward! Moron!

Half caste! Damn you!
Devil spawn!

I'll break your legs

What a waste of curses!
And are you eschewing non-violence?

"I'm working, not wasting time.
- Now that you're through with me?"

Where the hell are you?
- In Ooty

You sound like you're
right across the street

You'll have an innocent man
bear your cross...

"while you're holidaying
1,500 kilometres away?"

Holidaying after you've
ruined me? With whom?

"Famous pop singer, Sarina Dewan.
I'm with her, right now"

I've won her confidence.
We're going looking for her mother

Lying again? Fooling grandpa?

"No, she owned up to everything"

"Once her mother is found, I'll do
the story, proofs-and-photos-and-all"

Just think! People will
fall over themselves...

to buy a piece of
a famous damsel's distresses

Where will you find the mother?

She's as good as found.
Hang up and sit in peace

I got lots to do

ls this a drink? Or a dose?
This much is a leftover for us

Get a bottle

Till it scorches
the throat-to-navel...

the pit doesn't catch fire

I haven't spare cash to stoke
your fires. Ever since you walked in...

"what have you done apart from eating,
drinking and making telephone calls?"

"What of your dog's-nose and rat's...?
- Hawk eye, and God preserve that"

Will you put it to use?

My eyes have done their job

"Look, what's this?"

MY Photo

"What's this?
- My photo, reversed"

This reversal is what straightens out
everything for you

Meaning?
- I don't work for a drink

I drink to get to work.
Now look

Here's the rubber stamp
of the photo studio

"Surely, you never noticed?"

And that's the photographer
who took the photo

Never thought about that

How could you?

Now look up the photographer
and look for your mother

And you? What are you up to?

"Madam, there's more to beauty
in my valley..."

and it spreads far and wide.
Let me savour some

Let me help you. Going to Kunnoor?
I'll take you around

"Slowly, slowly..."

hearts come together

"Why shouldn't I fall
in love with you?"

Are you going to Kunnoor?
I'm headed there too

My car!
Where are you taking my car?

"In a few words,
in this meeting..."

"oh what happened?
Why am I numbed?"

"Slowly, slowly..."

hearts come together

"Why shouldn't I fall
in love with you?"

I don't know cycling

No problem. Come here

"The path we're lost upon,
is a new one"

"Let's look for a destination,
together"

"Slowly, slowly..."

hearts come together

"Why shouldn't I fall
in love with you?"

Looks like we've hit
the wrong place

The address says this.
But whose shop might it be?

Mohan's

You mean...?
- If it says Mohan's it must be his

Come.
- Where to?

Staring at the address won't find him.
We go to go in and ask

Pashmina? Kashmiri

"Silk? Woolen, soft"

Take your pick.
Not a wisp of air can pass

"Say smart alec, what can I show you?
Shawl? Cap? Muffler? Or gloves?"

I got everything
to keep out the chill

"Actually, we're trying to find out
about Hiraji, the photographer"

Come off it! You're here and I'm here.
Hiraji ran away long long ago

"At this rate, anyone would.
- But here I am. His son. Mohan"

Son...?
- Yes

And you talk like that of your father?
- I wouldn't even mention him

He didn't leave me a scent.
Oh don't mention Hira

Talk Mohan now

I'd play the lute for you
all my life if you wish

"What for, lady?"

You've stirred me already.
In that dulcet voice of yours...

won't you speak of
Hiraji's whereabouts?

"If you say so, I'll shut shop
and I'll tail you"

That won't be necessary.
Let me drop her with Hiraji

Then it's you and me.
Let's have dinner together

Real ly. . . ?

"In that case, here you go"

"Hira Botanical Gardens, Mysore.
there you are"

"But listen, come back before
the dinner gets cold"

You get a hold on your heat
before it sets your shop on fire

"Fire on not, you've set
his heart on fire"

"For a moment, I thought he isn't
going to part with the address"

Not after my disposition.
That was only for your address

Now off to Mysore to look up Daddy
who fathered a son like that

Where's Hira?
- Sitting on the swing

Goodness!

A family of homosexuals! I'm off!
- Where to?

"One more minute here,
and I'm raped. Let me go"

We're here on business!
- I can't put in two acts in a day!

Don't hit me

"Who's hitting whom? I built this place
so far from the city for love, not war"

"Are you hurt, handsome?
- Hers can heal"

"I wonder what's to follow.
- Nice sense of humour, handsome"

What can I give you?
Which blossom? Which rose?

You might tell us about the one that
blossomed in your town 18 years ago

You photographed her

"Yes Hiraji, we need your help.
We want to find out about that kid"

You might check your records...
- What's there to check?

I remember clearly. I took that photo.
At Children of God Shelter

Who was with her? Who left her there?
The woman?

Only Sister Namrata can tell you.
She's the one who maintained records...

about the kids who came to the Shelter.
All I was concerned with...

was my job

Did you see this baby here?

"No, not while I was here"

"Not only faces, I remember the habits
of every baby who came here"

"Which baby woke up how many times at
night, it's times of hunger, thirst"

I remember everything.
But not this girl

Whose photo is this?

Mine. I'm trying to look
for my mother

I should be leaving

Are you coming to
the Christmas Eve party?

"Look, you promised you'd sing for us
if you stayed back. Right?"

We'll expect you

Looks like we got to start
all over again. She knows nothing

Something she surely knows.
But she's hiding it from us

"Lucky for you, that I found this one.
In my times, I photographed thousands"

She doesn't know? Then what was she
doing with the baby in this photo?

"Who are you talking about?
- I'd talk about you, forever"

"As of now, I'm talking about
Sister Namrata in this photo"

"20 years yes, but I'm not that old
to forget a familiar face"

"if she's Sister Namrata,
why does is she covering up?"

Why doesn't she want me
to meet my mother?

Could she possibly be
your mother?

Possible

My heart tells me...

she's mine

"But she won't even give me
a signal"

"Yet a voice stirs, somewhere"

"Yet not even mistakenly,
will she call to me"

My heart tells me...

she's mine

Tears give way to smiles.
Sarina Dewan meets her mother

Mother and daughter
at a Christmas party

"What went wrong?
Why do I know nothing?"

Why is everyone against me?

Accepting me...

"Accepting me is unbearable
for her"

My heart tells me...

she's mine

"Loving me or not,
is up to you"

"I've set my heart
upon finding you"

My hopes...

"My hopes aren't
like falling stars"

My heart tells me...

she's mine

My heart tells me

The baby is crying.
Don't you hear?

Pick up the baby.
Pick it up

Open up! I want to talk to you.
How many doors will you close?

Open up! How long will you hide
from me? I know who you are

Open up! I want to know

Why are you screaming?

Ever since you were born...

"you've been screaming,
making life hell for me"

Why didn't you die?

At least I'd be spared this
incessant chatter of yours

"Yes, I'm your mother"

"Yes, bearing you was my sin"

"Come on, strangle me"

Kill me

Spare me the sight of you

I hate you

And that man

I hate you

Go! Go away

I hate you

And that man

Go! Go away

Tears give way to smiles

Sarina Dewan meets her mother

"Grandpa, Jay here.
- Son..."

I've published it exactly
the way you wanted it

"We're printing 200,000
and we can print more"

Stop the issue

"What? Are you out of your mind?
We stayed up all night, printing"

"The bundles are being loaded
onto trucks, and you say Stop Press?"

I'm right. The issue mustn't
hit the stands

Why? Isn't it true?
- It was

Then...?
- But not entirely true

She's troubled as it is. We might
do something without knowing...

I'll find out the whole truth first.
- What are you saying?

I don't know...
- You don't?

"If you love me even a little bit,
don't let the issue hit the stands"

I'll make good every cent
you stand to lose

But don't let that edition
hit the stands. For my sake

"He's out of his mind! Now he says,
publish it, now he says stop press"

What's this? His father's paper?
And he bosses over me

"I ask you, who owns this press?
What I want, happens here"

"Hey, what are you doing there?
- Loading the papers"

"No, don't do that.
Offload"

Not a single paper hits the stands.
- But tomorrow's edition...?

"What did I say? Whatever I want,
happens. This edition isn't leaving"

lncinerate the lot

"What do you take me for?
Am Ito sit here, waiting for you?"

While you go around with girls
and get sloshed? Where have you been?

I was lost. Took time
finding my way back

"Tell me, where to?
I'm at your service"

Nowhere. We've reached
the end of the road

You found my mother for me.
I'm really grateful

"I'm signing this agreement,
I'm keeping my word"

Now stop gaping
and take it

"You were so eager for this,
weren't you?"

Now why don't you pocket this
and get lost?

Not a word from you

I need no one's sympathies

I don't think I feel lonely

"And whatever you know about me,
makes no difference to me"

Your air ticket will be
at the reception in half an hour

"Come on, all of you! Get the cake,
the ice cream, champagne. Move it"

Oh don't ask me about my heart

Mine's a troubled heart

There's a painful desire...

"rising, ebbing"

Life's a long time

And I think you know...

you can't walk it alone

"Tomorrow, it'll be your heart
telling you..."

"oh for someone to embrace me,
oh, to belong to someone"

"It's a painful desire,
rising, ebbing"

"Oh don't ask me about my heart,
Mine's troubled"

"Be my companion,
ease my pain"

"In every heartbeat,
I call out to you"

"It makes sense,
listen to me"

Take me...

and I'll thank you...

when our eyes meet

I'm hurting

I never asked You anything
all my life

"Before I could ask,
Dad gave me everything"

"But this I ask of You,
my Dad can't give"

And I don't even know
whether You hear me

But I ask of You
with a clear conscience

"All I want to know is the truth,
the truth that's being hidden from me"

Why?

Who am I?

Truth. What is the truth?

"There are two sides of the truth,
one who speaks the truth"

"The other, who can bear
to hear the truth"

I've the courage to speak the truth.
But do think this over

Have you courage to face the truth?

"If not I, no one in the world
has the courage to face the truth"

What else might you have to say
apart the fact...

that you met this boy
and you fell in love

"And the fruit of that love,
I am"

Isn't that so? Do you think
I won't be able to bear the truth...

that I'm your bastard?

How I wish I had fairytale for you.
But after you've heard...

"what happened to me,
you'll be ashamed"

"Not only of me,
but also of yourself"

You'll burn

I was a social worker

Inspector Prashant Mam/ah turned up
at the village where I was working

That night
hanged my life forever

Out

"You sheltered them, you hid
those terrorists in your house"

How dare you?

Move it

"Two of my men died, because of you.
What's the excuse for their families?"

Tell me

Listen! Please listen to me

There's no motive! They torture them.
They threaten to kill their children

Just the way you're doing this.
So how are you different?

"If you got something to ask,
do it like a human being"

"So you did it, and you lied to me!
I'm going to shoot you"

I'll report you

I'll call a press conference

I'll expose you

The ones who applaud your courage
will spit at you

"After tonight,
people will spit at you"

"After this lesson, no uptown girl
will ever use social cause..."

to hold up the police

"After tonight, you won't even
be able to tell your own story"

You'll run from the police like
a rabid bitch running from water

You take me on?
You take on Prashant Marvvah?

"Come on, lick my boots"

Or I'll set four cops after
every girl in your village

"And they'll be worse off
than you. Come on, lick"

Lick

"Motherhood, nature's greatest miracle;
the woman's greatest joy"

"They joy she prays for,
for years"

And the first stirrings of the child
within fills her bosom with pride

Nothing of the sort happened with me.
The kick of your little legs...

felt like the policeman's boots
kicking at my womb

You never knew

But instead of making
your mother happy...

you were growing within...

like atumour

"Till I could, I hid you
from the world"

"But when it got difficult,
I tried to kill myself"

But no...

maybe even God didn't want
a woman like me

Do I see you even more helpless
than lfind myself?

Your prayer made me say the truth

Now I pray that He gives you
the courage to face the truth

"Because, this truth will pursue you
wherever you go"

It won't let you live

"From within yourself,
you will hear the voice..."

"telling you that you were born,
not out of love..."

of hate

"I couldn't bear even a night of it.
All day, I've been thinking of you"

And you've lived a lifetime with it?

How might you have suffered this?
For all these years...?

You're worked up because
you've just heard

"By and by, you'll get used
to living with it"

I'm not getting used to it.
I'm not going to use God...

as the excuse for a weakness.
I'm not going to live with this

And I won't let you suffer.
You've tolerated enough

I'll make that scoundrel
pay for his deeds

And you're going to be
in this with me

I can't help you

I haven't the courage.
I can't give you any

"I've forgotten it all, and for you
it's wiser to forget too"

No

Never

Whether you're with me or not...

"I can never forgive that beast,
I can't forget him"

I'll have him punished.
I'm not forgetting

"I'll see to it, he's punished.
Shut up! Don't interfere"

"I'm not forgiving him,
I'm not sparing him! I won't"

"Sarina, listen..."

What are you doing?

Whom are you calling?

What are you doing?
Let go

"I'll kill him,
I want to kill him"

Are you insane?
Gone out of your mind?

You'll alert him

He'll trap you

Don't you know who he is?

Not someone you can bully
over the phone

"if you're scared of him,
just get out"

Why are you taking sides with him?
On whose side are you? His? Mine?

"Of course, I'm on your side, Sarina"

But we can't hurt him like this

"In today's times, even opening up
a criminal's files is difficult"

And he's a police commissioner

He's cunning

And we must be clever
while tackling him

Sarina! Where are you?

"Mr Dewan says, you've been away.
Not a call? and no news?"

I thought you've forgotten me.
- How can I forget you?

I've been missing you every moment.
- Are you flattering me?

"So when are we meeting?
- If you say so, right away"

Right away?
- A friend is writing an article...

on the changing role
of women in society

He knows how we're fighting
for the cause of women's status

He wants to interview us together
about atrocities on women

If you can spare some time...
- How can I ever refuse you?

"If you wish, bring him over
today itself, my child"

What did you say?
- I'm going for a police conference

I'll be free by five. Let's meet
in the restaurant at the police club

Make sure you tell this journalist
not to write rubbish about me

I might spare him because he's your
friend. But Murtuza here...

might fly into a rage
and break his bones

"Maintain your composure,
just like this"

"Don't let your anger, your rage
surface when you face him"

I'll tackle the rest

"When at the crossroads,
should I ever pause..."

give me the courage to tread...

upon the path untrodden

For this is my time

For this is my world

"For this earth, the skies,
this world is mine"

What more is there?

"It's true, the fountainhead
springs from me"

Happy tidings! My little daughter
took her time coming to me

Sarina spoke to you about me.
Small-time journalist that I am...

I'm lucky to have met you

Nice meeting you

"Even we policemen need some publicity.
Be seated. Come my child, sit"

For which papers do you write?

All I have is one.
Adarsh Times

"if I'm not mistaken, isn't that
the paper that lied about you?"

They weren't lies.
- Meaning...?

"She means, we won't publish
something we know is false"

I got my sources wrong.
I've apologised. Now we're friends

"Don't you say, atone for your sins
and everything will be all right"

Wrong. Some crimes are unforgivable

Shall we place an order before
starting out with the interview?

"What will you have, sir?
- Spinach fries and lemon juice"

"For me, tea. Simple"

"For the lady, juice?"

"Ever since I was a baby, I've been
reading about your exploits"

"This being my first chance to write,
why not tell me something..."

from the early days? Where did you
find the urge to fight crime?

Seeking within. Because here's
where the real criminal hides

You got to take that one out first.
To win battles...

one must first overcome
the battle that rages within

"General Vaidya said that in a speech.
On May 7, 1976. The day..."

I was given the police uniform.
What he said was...

"the criminal, like the silkworm
weaves the thread of crime, quietly"

Severing a few strands won't destroy
crime. The worms must be killed

"To which end, one must steel himself.
What effect the speech had on others..."

"I don't know. But that day,
I steeled myself"

"I realised, before saving the country
from the enemy without..."

the country must be purged
from within. Therefore...

I got myself posted to places where
our citizens were looting our country

Where they crippled the country
using terrorism. I began the purge

"I'm still doing it, to this day.
- In 1980, you were posted in Ooty"

You raided a small village.
Can you recount what you did?

"She means, what you did
to get the medal"

"Yes, my first opportunity.
I was called in specifically..."

to combat terrorism.
And what a force I had with me!

"At a signal from me, my sepoys
could penetrate terrorist hideouts"

"We picked them out, one by one!
We went after the terrorists"

And you started torturing
innocent people. You targeted...

"simple villagers, and raided their
homes. To the extent that you..."

"Policemen, that is... we hear some
policemen even violated human rights"

Did that really happen?
- At times the police must be strict

To destroy crime...
- Women must be compromised too?

And raped?

"I cannot be held responsible for every
policemen. In some cases, possibly..."

I'm talking about the case on
29229

"It happened in the Kunnoorjungle,
to Sister Namrata"

It's a rumour. False

Times you talk of were times
before you were born

Yes! I was born aftenlvards!
Of your rape! Of my mother

So this is it

Have you been taping me?

"l trust you, I invite you to tea,
I hear you raving all this while"

And you twist my simple statements
into a controversy for the papers?

To scream it on tv to become heroes?
You're in league with terrorists

You're plotting to create unrest.
Get out of here!

"Else, I'll bury you alive.
And there'll be no witnesses"

You can't escape your past!
Where d'you think you're going?

You better throw them out!
Or I'll throw you out

Your past won't leave you! I'm ashamed
that the blood of a man like you...

runs in my veins. I'm not going
to spare you! I'll fix you

"What do you think of yourself,
Prashant Marvvah? I won't spare you"

You ought to be shot in public!
You beast! Animal! Cannibal!

You think you can get away
with anything in uniform?

Coward! I'm not going to spare you

Coward

"Murtuza, turn around"

You think you can do anything
under cover of the law?

What do you think of yourself?

"Murtuza, run them over"

I'm not sparing you! Coward!

"Run them over, I said"

Get out of the car if you dare

"Come out Prashant Mam/ah,
you coward"

"Nothing's going to happen,
not in this country..."

where your protectors
target you in this manner

So who do you trust?

"All my ideals, will just stay a dream"

"I called you a fool, Jay.
Gandhi's stuff went away with him"

For nothing I carried his burden
on my shoulders

"What are you saying, grandpa?"

"You were right in
your principles, ideals"

It was for my selfish ends that
I ridiculed your principles

I was in the wrong.
I ridiculed you behind your back

But now I understand everything.
I'll live your ideal

You always tell me how to be a good
journalist. I'll make a good one

But how will you do it?
- I'll take to the people...

"the truth Sarina's mother suffered,
the truth that Sarina lives with"

But do you realise what Sarina stands
to lose in this war? ls she willing?

I stand to lose what? A glamour girl
stands to lose her popstar image?

"Those who love me, will hate me
when they know I was born of rape"

"Instead of asking for my autographs,
people will give me dirty |ooks"

"I don't care. As of now,
I want to face myself"

"if I stay mum now, I'll be forced
to live my life on my knees"

"As of now, I don't care of this girl
of 21 years given all life's comforts"

"Instead, it's the mother I worry for,
who has lived in disgrace for 21 years"

"Bless you, child. I pray that God
gives you even more courage"

"In times like these, deserted
even by one's kin, life's lonely"

"Bless you, my child"

"When one loses faith in one's kin,
one's forced to do this, Mr Dewan"

Even I can't believe this.
I got your phone and I came running

"Misunderstanding, look, it's
a complete misunderstanding"

"How could my daughter do this
to you? Look, it's all because..."

of that bloody third class journalist.
He has poisoned Sarina's ears...

"to get close to her, to save himself
from the 50 million lawsuit"

He's manipulating the little girl!
It's the journalist at work

"Look, Sarina can't even think of you
in this mien. I know, she reveres you"

"My sole vice Mr Dewan,
is I can't take insult"

You see these trophies?

I locked them away and I forgot
how much I've been through

"In my 20-year police career,
I've achieved. How d'you imagine..."

I've risen to such an important
position? By licking boots?

By saluting ministers? No!
I fought

"I won to get here! And now, I'm used
to the euphoria of victories!"

Let me get back to her...
- I'm about to receive an award

I'm being honoured for my services
to the nation. Tell your daughter...

"that if she stands in the way of
my glory, I'll choose to forget..."

respect for women

Stop the machines. Stop work.
- What are you doing?

What's going on?
- How did you get in?

Are there no laws?
- What's the problem?

"The police commissioner
raped my mother"

What do you think of yourself?

You conned my naive daughter into
getting used like a pawn...

"to sell your third class paper?
- Dad, he's helping me"

To do what? For destroying what little
remains of our reputation?

This scoundrel is using you
for his greed

"Scoundrel, I was. I was greedy.
True, I didn't want to help Sarina"

I wanted to use her to climb

"For me, Sarina was
a front page story. Nothing else"

"But after I met Sarina,
after I got to know her..."

I became involved in her quest
and I'm completely changed

"And now, I want to help her. Really.
- Great help you've been"

That news about Sarina not being
my daughter destroyed our lives

"Look, don't you get carried away!
- Dad, I'm not getting carried away"

I'm only bringing the truth as I've
heard from my mother out in then open

You trust the words of a mad woman?
For 2 years she lived...

in mental hospital in Ooty. Know that?
The commissioner showed me her records

"He'll try to procure every evidence to
prove himself innocent and us, wrong"

He wants us to fight.
- I'm not talking to you

"Sure, Sister Namrata must've been in
mental hospital. After such an ordeal..."

what woman wouldn't need medical help?
- Let's not get into this hassle

I don't want to get into this hassle.
He might do just about anything

He's a very dangerous man.
- You don't know the truth about him

Enough. We aren't getting into this
hassle. I don't want to make enemies

Come on

Right now...

"you seem to be
my biggest adversary, Dad"

"Instead of helping me,
you want to prevent me..."

from giving my motherjustice

"I must fight this battle, Dad"

And anyone who stands
in my way...

is my foe

Even...

"you're the one, Dad"

"So be it. For your good, if I must
turn your foe, then so I shall"

Show them the warrant
for sealing the press

"Until you've procured a stay order,
nothing gets printed in this press"

Seal the place

"Go on! Take the copies!
Seal the press, lock the machines"

But you won't stop me from telling
the truth. I'll knock at every door

I'll tell the whole world that
the Commissioner raped my mother

And I am his daughter! His daughter

Your daughter has gone mad.
At the press conference...

she wants to talk rot about me.
And what with the press...

they'll carry a woman talking
on page one

"And if she's a singer or dancer,
all the better. Conspiracy"

She's plotting against me.
How can I let her off?

She won't do anything. Just give me
two more days. I'll fix everything

You can fix nothing.
You've done what you could

Now go home.
And sleep over it

I'll take care of your daughter

What are you staring at?
You got to kill...

a mad bitch that barges in through
your door and lunges for your neck

What did you say?

What did you say
about my daughter?

I'll kill you!
You're going to kill my daughter?

Don't you touch my daughter!
I've got my connections

I'm going to the Home Minister!
Don't you touch my daughter!

Throw him in the lock up

You must come for
the press conference

"Even the animal responds to
the needs of her offspring, Mother"

Your absence will be like a slap
on my face in public

Your daughter will stand denigrated
before the man who denigrated you

"That beast will sport another medal
and all I'll be able to do, is watch"

"Look, whether you want it or not,
you and I are mother and daughter"

"Today, I'm claiming my right
to the relationship"

You must come.
I know that you...

"In life, everyone suffers"

Be not afraid

"Every night has a dawn,
be not afraid"

"In life everyone suffers,
be not afraid"

"Steal for yourself, moments of joy
from fate's treasure-chest"

"Raining tears have never
dispelled gloom"

"Whether the world is with you or not,
be not afraid"

"In life everyone suffers,
be not afraid"

"Get a hold on yourself,
you must brace yourself"

"Arise, you've promises to keep.
Rise, you must make yourjourney"

"Travel, and you'll reach your goal,
be not afraid"

"In life everyone suffers,
be not afraid"

"Every night has a dawn,
be not afraid"

I've never seen a girl
as brave as you are

I'm proud. Of you.
And your courage

"True courage, is what you possess.
Men can't bear to suffer their own lot"

And you're living with my woes

"Takes a big heart Jay,
to share someone's woes"

Lots of press

Relax

You want me to stop?

"I have done nothing wrong,
I did nothing wrong"

"For this country,
I have spilled my blood"

"if anyone stands between me and
my country, I shall draw blood"

Whatever I did to this woman
was right; what I did today...

as also what I did 20 years ago.
Had I not taught this woman a lesson...

every woman in that village would've
revolted against me

I was fighting terrorism. No soldier
counts the ants he tramples upon

"My job was to stop terror, so I did.
Hows and whys are my domain. Period"

This country is mine. And I need
no one's opinion to determine...

what's good or bad for the country.
You hear? Listen carefully

"To save this country, I shall do
whatever I wish"

Let's see who stops me

Till such time that proceedings
in this court are concluded...

you may not step out.
- Out of my way

The accused may be placed
under custody

Don't you dare touch me

He is to be remanded to
police custody for two weeks

Are you remanding me
to police custody?

"I am a policeman, I'm the law!
You'll lock the law away?"

Will you shackle a lion? Lion!

"Leave me alone, I say!
You don't know me"

"For my country, I've spilled
my blood. I'm a patriot! Patriot!"

"Before I realised, Mr Mam/ah pulled
my gun and shot himself"

"None of my fault, sir!
It happened so suddenly"

I tried to stop him

"He didn't give me a chance. It was
so sudden, I couldn't do a thing"

"Believe me, sir"

"Ma, in just a few months since you
left, so many things have changed"

"You'll be glad to know that
several women have taken heart..."

"after your show of courage.
People are learning..."

"how to raise their voices
against injustice"

"Old files closed in police records
are re-opening, slowly"

"I get congratulatory letters
every day, thanks to you"

"Not even as a star
was I appreciated as much"

"The going is good for Jay. His dream
of an office in Nariman Point..."

"has come true. He wants you to
inaugurate his new office"

"You'll come, won't you, Ma?"