Original subtitles

[New Life Begins]

[Adapted from the novel "Journey to the Qing Dynasty" by Duomu Muduo]

[Episode 25]

Changle...

Changle...

Where is Changle?

Where is Changle?

Changle?

Changle...

Changle!

Changle!

Changle!

Is anyone there?

Changle!

Changle!

Changle!

Changle!

Madam?

Madam!

The baby has been crying.

You should nurse the baby.

Stay away from me!

Get her out of here.

I don't want to see her.

Madam,

please try again.

She's been crying for so long.

Have pity on her.

Get her out of here!

I can't take care of her.

I can't even take care of myself.

I can't take care of her.

I can't give her anything!

Get her out of here,

please!

Your mother hasn't slept

for days while she looked after you.

Let her sleep for a while.

Sorry.

Sorry.

This is my fault.

This is my fault.

This is all my fault.

Your Highness.

You're here.

I was told that Hao Jia had been crying.

The servants are saying

she's been possessed.

Perhaps we should

relocate her to the side hall

so she doesn't embarrass anyone.

Your Highness.

Hao Jia had just given birth to a child. It's not safe to relocate her.

I've made up my mind.

Our mansion

is frequented by prestigious officers of the Imperial Court.

If words got out that she's been possessed,

I'd face embarrassment beyond measure.

You've always put your faith in Sorceress Zhang.

You even invited her to the mansion today.

Why not let her diagnose Hao Jia

and see if she is truly possessed

before deciding?

Hao Jia has been haunted by nightmares.

She cries for no reason

and the back pain makes her nauseous.

I think she is ill.

We should have an imperial physician check on her.

Enough.

She's deceived me for so long.

In the end,

she got nothing in return.

She should be grateful that I didn't disown and banish her.

What more do you want from me?

Why is the child always crying?

It's getting on my nerve.

Send the child to the palace.

Let Momo take care of her

and spare me the crying.

Your Highness.

She is your daughter.

As you know,

the Momo won't be very attentive in taking care of her.

You know how life was for the Sixth Young Lord

when he was younger.

How could you let your own daughter suffer the same fate?

It's just a girl.

It was the same for the other two from the concubines.

None of these matters.

What really matters

is giving birth to a son that meets my father's expectations.

Find some unmarried girls with decent backgrounds.

Bring them here secretly.

Tell no one.

Your Highness.

Are you still going to bring more women into the mansion given the circumstances?

My decision is absolute in this mansion.

Just do as I say.

I don't mind if you are marrying more girls.

But please,

do not send Hao Jia's daughter away.

If you don't want the child,

you may let me take her in.

I don't have a child of my own.

I will take good care of her.

She will be married off honorably

as the Crown Eldest Daughter.

The Crown Eldest Daughter, you say?

Don't be delusional.

You will never bear a child of mine.

Your Highness.

What...

What does that mean?

Nothing.

Leave.

Madam, you are grounded so you can reflect.

You are not allowed to leave.

Madam.

I found it.

So this is why I couldn't bear a child.

It really was because...

Sorceress Zhang came today.

She passed these to His Highness's servant.

Oilseed rape, Rehmannia, female ginseng, and Ligusticum,

I couldn't find anything on the prescription

she gave you.

I've been keeping an eye on the kitchen

but I found nothing.

I think it's the boiler room.

They used the water boiled with these herbs

for your tea.

Madam.

Madam.

This is bitter.

Why didn't I notice the taste?

When I first came here,

he knew that I came from Dai State

and loved the green tea there.

He said

he'd gather dew from the tree

for my tea.

Ever since then,

the teas I had

were prepared by his servants.

He even told me

I should add honey to the tea

before drinking it.

He told me that was how the people

in Xin State drank their tea.

I only found out later

that people of Xin State never add honey to their tea.

I so foolishly thought

that he only wanted my tea

to taste

sweeter.

I thought he meant

to make me happy.

As it turned out,

he's made a fool out of me.

Madam...

Madam...

That's right.

At first,

I wanted to be a good wife.

I only wanted to take care of his work outside.

He didn't want me to go out.

I listened.

I've been staying in the house ever since.

When he wanted concubines,

I put up with it.

I did it only because I liked him.

I really did like him.

I liked him to the point that I was about to lose myself.

I only cared about this home

and all the trivial matters related to it.

And I even believed

it was my fault for not giving him a child.

So,

none of it was real.

Madam, you mustn't!

Madam...

This tea

was supposed to be sweet.

But...

how come it tastes bitter now?

It tastes awful.

[Jie Mansion]

Come.

And you said you didn't care about Hao Jia.

You were more worried than anyone else when you heard

about her condition worsening after giving birth.

-Halt. -Halt.

What is it?

Don't you know who I am?

How dare you block my wife and me!

Move aside!

No!

Don't draw your sword.

No, this isn't right.

Sheath the swords!

My apologies,

Fifth Young Lord

and Fifth Young Madam.

What is it?

His Highness doesn't allow anyone to visit her.

But since Madam knows it's you two,

she sent me to deliver a message...

Why can't we visit her?

She just gave birth to his child.

Doesn't he have a conscience?

All right.

Back to business.

Miss,

how is Hao Jia?

She's been grounded.

At first, she cried day and night.

She was terrified by the sight of her own baby.

I've seen this kind of reaction

back in the rural area.

Girls who were possessed

loved their children,

but after they gave birth,

some wanted to kill the children

while others committed suicide with their children.

Madam wanted to have her checked,

but the His Highness wouldn't have it.

Why is that?

Sixth Young Lord's Concubine requests an audience.

Madam He.

The Crown Young Lord has locked his concubine Hao Jia up.

I couldn't talk to Her Ladyship.

You are my only hope.

The Crown Young Lord is not my son.

I must not interfere

with his family affairs.

I understand.

I've overstepped.

But I don't know anyone else

who would help me, aside from you.

His Highness mistreated her.

She had had enough of it.

When she was planning an escape,

she found out she was pregnant.

His Highness wanted a son.

But she gave birth to a daughter.

And with postpartum depression,

she might not live...

You care about her.

My family taught me

not to show flattery

when a friend found success

and to offer help when a friend is in need.

Hao Jia has no kin to rely on.

If I don't help her,

she is as good as doomed.

Please, Madam!

Stand up.

Go home now.

Madam.

I feel tired.

I need rest.

Madam, you like the Sixth Young Lord's Concubine.

Perhaps.

She has a pure heart.

Back then,

I wasn't even 15 when I gave birth to Yin Zheng.

If I had had a friend like her,

I wouldn't have...

Are you going to help her?

It's not that difficult.

I'll have to inform His Lordship.

No matter how displeased the Lady of the State is,

she won't come after me.

I recall

how my postpartum depression

cost me His Lordship's favor and I had failed my child.

The Madams close to me never bothered to show any concern.

I don't blame them.

But everyone in this world

will run into hard times.

Everyone would be glad to be offered a helping hand.

If everyone wants to keep themselves

out of trouble,

people will only become distant from each other.

Indeed.

According to the imperial physician,

he could only prescribe anti-depressants

unless he could meet the patient in person.

What do we do now?

Aren't you going inside?

You said you needed to be at the Imperial Hospital.

Did you say it so I'd meet your mother alone?

I thought my absence would make things easier.

It seems I am wrong.

We'll figure something out.

Right after she gave birth to me,

she seemed to cry a lot too.

When I was younger,

she treated me like an enemy.

I didn't know why.

Perhaps it was my fault.

Yin Zheng.

Perhaps Madam He

suffered the same condition as Hao Jia.

I mean it.

It wasn't your fault.

Women often suffer mood swings after giving birth.

That could lead to depression.

When it gets too serious,

seeing their own children

will inflict terrible pain.

Your mother didn't want to treat you that way.

She was only ill.

She couldn't control herself.

That wasn't her fault.

And it wasn't your fault either.

This isn't your fault.

Your Lordship, Madam.

A message from Madam He.

Wen Momo will visit the Crown Young Lord's manor.

Meeting her will mean meeting Madam He in person.

His Highness can't stop you from visiting.

Why is Wen Momo here all of a sudden?

And why are they with her?

I don't know.

But Wen Momo is Madam He's delegation.

We can't keep her outside.

Greetings, Your Highness.

Madam He ordered me

to come here for some answers.

Ever since Hao Jia gave birth,

you have kept her inside the room.

That can't be appropriate.

Madam He doesn't know about this.

Ever since Hao Jia gave birth to our daughter,

she hasn't gotten better.

I asked her to stay there for her recovery.

Yes.

However, the rumors have reached the palace.

I hope Your Highness can let me meet Hao Jia in person.

Sure.

Bao.

Bring Hao Jia here.

Let us see her.

Yes.

Hao Jia.

Are you all right?

How have you been?

I am fine.

Everything is fine.

You need not worry.

If you are under duress,

you need not be afraid.

If you need help, you can stay at my place.

Your Grace, what was that supposed to mean?

Hao Jia was chosen to be married to me.

Without my permission,

she can't leave.

What you said just now

was an act of contempt to my state.

I wouldn't dare.

But Hao Jia...

Your Grace.

Your Grace, don't worry.

I am fine.

See? I am perfectly fine.

You must take good care of yourselves.

I don't want to cause you any more trouble.

Don't visit me again.

You played along very well.

Your gentle demeanor

is very likable.

You've been through a lot.

Rest well.

I will visit again.

Don't bother, Your Highness.

You should focus on your work.

What do you mean?

Nothing.

It's just

that I'm done begging for the mercy

of someone who disgusts me.

You imprison me.

You beat me.

You humiliate me.

You use me to feel a sense of control.

You did so because you accomplished nothing in court.

You rely on your father's transient favor.

You take advantage of your noble wife.

You place your hope in the son you never have!

You are a fraud.

Nothing more.

Do you think an Eldest Grandson

will help you secure your place in Xin State?

Everything you have

and own

comes from me.

Your family in Yan State had nothing.

Without me,

you're less than nothing.

Let go of me!

Does the truth upset you?

I like it when you're upset.

Do you know why I chose you?

You are unlike Zhao Fangru.

You had nothing.

You couldn't survive without me.

You...

You will live the rest of your life in this courtyard.

You will live off my occasional sympathy.

You know how it is.

Even I

have to bow down to His Lordship's will.

Even I must live in shackles.

And you?

You are a worthless low-life.

What right do you have

to ask for dignity and pride?

I will visit again.

But remember this.

The next time I see you,

make sure you don't displease me.

Madam!

Madam! What happened?

I am fine.

Take the child and go to Second Young Madam.

Tell her

I need her to take care of the child.

I am tired.

I need rest.

Don't come in.

I am perfectly fine.

Don't worry about me.

You must take good care of yourselves.

I don't want to cause you any more trouble.

(Don't visit me again.)

Is ending my life

the only way to put an end to this?

What is it?

Madam,

the horse just stopped moving.

I have a bad feeling about this.

Yuan Ying.

Something was off with Hao Jia.

No,

she wasn't acting like herself at all.

I must check on her.

You go and tell Yin Zheng.

Okay.

♪I desire warmth, so I caused an aftermath♪

♪I asked for a moment of pleasure as I had endured too much bitterness in life♪

♪I wrote an elegy, but it's not appreciated♪

[The last words of Hao Jia]

♪How do I survive♪

♪In this life?♪

♪Like autumn, like a flaming fire♪

♪It withered in a moment♪

♪Yet silent and persistent♪

♪I wish to be a moth flying toward the fire♪

(Since I'm looking for a job,)

(I must go to the best of the Nine States, Xin State.)

Now that I am in Xin State,

I need a master with the most promising future.

And that would be the Crown Young Lord.

♪There's no looking back on the endless road ahead♪

(You...)

You will live the rest of your life in this courtyard.

You will live off my occasional sympathy.

♪You will never know how I used to be♪

♪How many obstacles have we overcome? Time reveals the true character of a person♪

(Of course, I want you to have a good life.)

(But with you gone,)

(how should your father and I explain)

(to the Second Young Lord?)

The Young Lord of Xin State will be furious.

If the Lord of Yan State takes it out on your father,

our family is as good as doomed.

I hope

I get to see my husband's smile

every day for the rest of my life.

♪I step on a plank bridge in the wind to embrace a new journey alone, but I got lost♪

(Hao Jia!)

(Hang in there.)

♪There's no looking back on the endless road ahead♪

(The backyard is ever so peaceful and quiet.)

When we are old,

we could go there and bask in the sunshine.

♪Love and hatred, partings and reunions♪

♪Look back, and nothing has changed♪

♪The wind blows, the clouds flow♪

-Stop! -You cannot enter!

[Jie Mansion] Let me in!

I want to see Hao Jia!

She is resting.

Let me through!

No!

Put the sword down!

Move aside!

Help!

Madam committed suicide!

Hao Jia...

Wait...

Start preparing for her funeral.

What do you mean?

Why do we need a funeral?

You can't just ask us to give up

without a proper diagnosis.

Use whatever treatment or medicine you have.

No!

No!

We can't give up just yet.

I did all that I could.

She was in the water for too long.

She heart is barely beating.

I'm afraid nothing more can be done.

Please check again.

Please check again.

Please.

We can get more imperial physicians to check on her.

We'll get as many as we can.

Please save her.

Madam!

Please stand up.

Let me think about this.

I need to think.

Physician Xu.

Maybe Physician Xu can help.

He once saved someone who had stopped breathing.

But given his position,

he might not come to our help.

Physician Xu?

Outrageous!

She did it right after the child was born!

This is humiliating!

She should have died somewhere else!

Your Highness.

Enough with the harsh words.

Li Wei.

How is she?

Your Highness.

Please show some mercy.

Please bring Physician Xu here

and help Hao Jia.

Physician Xu?

Do you know who that is?

That is His Lordship's personal physician!

You want me to bring him here at this hour?

What if people think

I'm digging up His Lordship's condition?

Who should be held responsible then?

Fine, I'll go to him myself.

Stop right there!

Have you lost your mind?

Get her back here.

Otherwise, we'll both be in trouble.

Go!

Zhao Fangru!

Stop right there!

His Lordship is having a headache.

He took the medicine and is resting.

I mustn't let you in.

This is urgent.

Please let us see him.

Could we ask for Physician Xu's help first?

Someone is dying.

But he is His Lordship's personal physician.

There would be trouble if we sent him to help others.

I hope you understand.

Superintendent Liang, please help us.

We'll explain everything to His Lordship.

You won't be held accountable.

I can't let you do that.

Please find another way.

What happened?

Yuan Ying sent a message.

Hao Jia needs help.

I must get her an imperial physician from the palace.

Wait.

You're not asking for help.

You're breaking into the palace!

I mustn't wait any longer.

No!

What's wrong with you?

You are the Princess of Dan State!

It will be a crime to charge into Xin Palace.

I'll go instead.

What now?

You?

Do you even know how to use it?

Let go.

Don't be rash.

[Imperial Hospital] Physician Xu!

Who's there?

Are you blind?

It's me!

Fifth Young Lord, what is this about?

What is this about?

Someone is dying.

I need Physician Xu's help.

You can't enter without His Lordship's permission!

I'll explain to His Lordship later.

Physician Xu!

Who is it?

It's me, Physician Xu!

It's me!

[Physician Xu] Fifth Young Lord?

Back off!

Physician Xu!

Why are you here?

Physician Xu,

we need your help saving someone.

Who are we saving?

Every life matters!

Time is running out!

No.

Without His Lordship's order,

I wouldn't dare leave the Imperial Hospital.

Don't be so stiff!

Tomorrow,

I'll explain everything

to my father, all right?

Come with me and save her!

Move aside!

-Move aside. -Your Lordship.

If you don't let us through,

I'll make sure he treats my wound first!

Back off!

-Come with me. -Your Lordship!

Quick!

Don't make me do it!

Back off!

Don't make me do it!

Back off!

Back off! Stay away from me!

Don't make me do it!

Back off!

Fifth Young Lord.

You must not do it.

This is an act of contempt!

Someone is dying!

I couldn't care so much!

He must come with me!

Back off!

Move...

Get in the carriage!

Move aside!

-Quick. -Quick.

Superintendent Liang.

Send the imperial physician back now.

It's not too late to turn things around.

If Physician Xu gets into contact with outsiders,

we will become criminals

for prying for His Lordship's condition!

We'll send him back before seven in the morning.

Superintendent Liang, please be considerate.

Sixth Young Lord...

Bring a warm towel.

Madam.

I've brought the child here.

Give her to me.

Madam, what are you doing?

Hao Jia must hear the child's crying.

She must know

her child is still waiting for her.

She can't die just yet.

She has to wake up.

Stop right there!

Back off.

Back off,

or I'll slit my throat!

You'll be covered in my blood!

Back off!

Send Physician Xu back to the palace!

Yes.

Don't you dare!

We are going to save Hao Jia no matter what!

Your Highness.

We've brought the imperial physician here.

Please be considerate.

Let us help Hao Jia.

Get this straight.

Hao Jia belongs to me.

I decide whether she lives or dies.

It's none of your business.

She is not your property!

She is a person!

A person, you say?

What kind of a person is she?

She went to great lengths to come before me.

I gave her a chance.

But now, she wants to die in my house.

She is just bad luck!

If she wants to die,

so be it!

You shameless fiend!

How dare you!

Stand down!

Yin Zheng!

Go!

Physician Xu.

Quick.

Physician Xu, go.

A scoundrel from a concubine.

How dare you!

Father should know about this.

If you mean to bring me down,

you should first think about what you had done.

I know very well how you managed to secure your profit

in the Ministry of Revenue.

Don't do anything stupid.

Physician Xu,

how is she?

They've been in there for too long.

What is taking so long?

It's all right.

Let's wait for a little longer.

This is my fault.

Had I shown more concern,

she wouldn't have done it.

This isn't your fault.

How is this your fault?

All of this

is Yin Song's fault.

You gave her the medicine

and acupuncture treatment,

why isn't she getting better?

I did everything I could.

The rest is in fate's hands now.

If she wakes up,

she lives.

If not...

Madam...

Madam...

Don't cry.

She is not dead yet!

Hao Jia.

Listen to me.

You have to wake up.

Otherwise,

when your child grows up,

I'll tell her

you became a concubine because you wanted it

and that you took off

with another man after she was born

and abandoned her.

Hao Jia.

If you leave us,

when she grows up,

I'll let her

get all the bad influence from Song.

When she is of age,

I'll let Song

marry her off as a bargaining chip

just like you and me.

She will marry the wrong man

and live a life of misery.

When she comes crying to me,

I'll tell her

she deserves it.

It's all because her mother abandoned her.

Her mother gave up on her.

Hao Jia.

Do you hear me?

Do you hear me?

If you hear me but don't care,

fine.

You might as well die.

If you have the slightest intention to live,

if you still care about your child, even just a little bit,

please open your eyes and say something.

Hao Jia...

Do you hear me?

Open your eyes and talk to me.

Hao Jia!

Hao Jia...

Madam...

Physician Xu...

Changle.

Was that all you can do?

What did you say?

Did she...

Did she say something?

Hao Jia.

What did you say?

Did you say something?

I said,

was that the only thing you could do?

Great!

She is awake.

She is finally awake.

Madam.

Physician Xu,

how is she?

Don't worry.

She is awake.

She is no longer in critical condition.

Great!

It was worth it to get dislocated.

Can we visit her now?

Thank you, Physician Xu.

I heard about all the things you did for me.

I've failed you.

As long as you live,

we will do anything.

You were unhappy

because you were ill.

Take good care of yourself and recover.

Your life comes before anything else,

understood?

If you ever need help,

you must let us know.

Right.

We are all here for you.

Don't shoulder everything on your own.

There is hope as long as you live.

But it'll be the end of everything if you choose to die.

Do not act so rashly again.

[The last words of Hao Jia]

Daybreak has come.

♪The wind talks to me gently♪

♪I listen to the time singing a song♪

♪Fireworks in the sky remind me of our memories♪

♪Stars take my heart quietly♪

♪Eyes shine bright in the pale moonlight♪

♪The way you look is carved in my mind♪

♪The past is making me stumble along♪

♪The present is slowly trickling through my fingers♪

♪The future is there waiting for us♪

♪We walk towards the future together♪

♪Clouds are watching everything silently♪

♪Cool breezes carry a faint aroma to the sky♪

♪Kites flying are bidding farewell to the confusion you once had♪

♪Gazing the future from afar♪

♪The world is so big and we have a lot to expect♪

♪On good or bad days, I will be by your side♪

♪When there is love, even flowers have the courage to bloom among thorns♪

♪The subsiding summer breeze and scorching sun, we took them both for granted♪

♪The leaves are falling in autumn, waiting for us to write a new chapter in our life♪

♪Post the snowstorm, there is the sun♪

♪The past is making me stumble along♪

♪The present is slowly trickling through my fingers♪

♪The future is there waiting for us♪

♪We walk towards the future together♪