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(Thank You, Doctor)

(Adapted from Sheng Li's novel "ICU 48 Hours")

(Episode 23)

To be honest, as a friend,

I hope that you and Dr. Xiao could work things out.

It's not easy for you to take care of Xiao Guang alone...

all these years.

It's time for you to think about your own life.

Let me tell you.

I think Dr. Xiao is not bad.

Can't you make the first move?

Don't care only about your pride, okay?

Is your pride more important...

or finding someone you love more important?

Nowadays, it's not easy...

to find the right person.

You too.

Don't miss the right person.

You're suddenly so serious.

I'm not used to it.

Right?

I'm trying my best...

to barely keep up with your hypocrisy.

This feels right.

All right. Let's do our best tomorrow.

This is so lame.

Come on. Give me your hand.

Just tell me if you don't feel well.

We're in the hospital.

If you don't feel well, you have to tell me.

I'll keep this toy for you.

No, this is a hospital. You can't keep it with you.

- What's the patient's condition? - Come on.

Accidental ingestion of albuterol.

Albuterol?

It's a selective beta-2 receptor agonist.

It has a strong bronchodilator effect...

and a weak agonist effect on the heart.

It is a safer and commonly used asthma medicine.

It's rare that people get poisoned by it.

How much did he ingest by mistake?

He ate a hundred 2mg pills.

Insert a gastric tube and prepare for a lavage.

Hey, don't be scared.

What's wrong with him?

He's autistic.

He can't communicate.

- Autistic? - Yes.

He has been receiving treatment at our hospital.

Have you contacted his family?

No, we've been calling them.

We can't wait any longer. Let's intubate first.

Hey, kid.

Come on. Relax.

You'll feel a little uncomfortable.

However, if you relax,

you'll be fine.

What are you doing here?

Hold it.

Okay.

Come on.

All right.

Let's relax.

- Kid, don't be scared. - Come on.

- Don't be scared. It won't hurt. - Come on.

- Open your mouth. - Kid, open your mouth.

Open your mouth.

You...

- Why did you bite him? - Let me see.

How are you?

- Let's treat your wound first. - I'm fine.

We won't intubate him.

Mannitol, 200ml. Laxative.

- Propranolol hydrochloride by oral. - Okay.

Go get the medicine.

You'll be all right.

You go first. I'll take care of him.

Were you bitten by a patient?

- By an autistic child. - Let me see.

In this world,

I can deal with anyone...

except for autistic people.

Let me do it.

Let me help you.

Let me disinfect it first.

If you feel pain, just let me know.

Pain is a human's...

It's a subjective feeling.

It depends on the person.

Coincidentally, I'm one of those who aren't afraid of pain.

If it hurts, just shout out loud.

Why would it hurt?

Does it hurt?

No.

Do you need help?

With what?

Here. Tian Rui.

- Hey, kid. - Let's take the medicine first.

- Hey, kid. - Stop messing around.

Let's take the medicine.

You'll get better after you take the medicine.

Tian Rui.

His symptoms of autism are quite serious.

Let me try.

Yi Ran, here.

Here, Tian Rui.

Here, take the medicine.

- Yi Ran. - Be careful.

- Open your mouth. - Open your mouth.

Why does he bite?

Say thank you.

Thank you.

You have been through a lot.

It's so hard to feed him.

Let me try.

Dr. Xiao, he bites.

Be careful.

Look at me.

Good job.

Look at me.

- Here. - Mirror neurons are activated.

Primates are the best at mimicking their own kind.

Dr. Xiao.

Well done.

That's for sure.

Our Dr. Xiao...

is from the rain of bullets in West Asia.

She has encountered all kinds of patients and situations.

I've indeed encountered similar patients before.

Dr. Bai.

Hang in there.

Tian.

What happened?

It's nothing. I had a fall.

Why did you fall?

We were working...

and I didn't notice there was water on the floor.

I just fell.

I'm fine.

Where did you hurt? Is there a fracture?

I'm fine.

I'll get the doctor to take a look...

and ask him to give me some medicine.

Did you take an X-ray?

- No. - I see.

I'll write you a checkup list.

Go and have a check.

Why do I need to take an X-ray?

It's troublesome and costs money.

It's okay.

Dr. Xu.

You've been taking care of me.

Thank you.

Actually...

My son is hospitalized here.

I'm here to visit him.

He's here?

What's your son's name?

Tian Rui.

The toxicology report shows...

that the patient's blood contains...

4.6mg L of albuterol.

He needs hemoperfusion and dialysis.

How about this?

I'll arrange for it later.

Tell him to come tomorrow.

Thank you so much.

I'm sorry for the trouble.

It's fine.

This is an unusual case.

When I go to work,

I'll leave him at my neighbor's house.

Who knew this kid...

took the old man's medicine for asthma?

By the time I found it,

the bottle was empty.

It has been hard for you.

I'm his dad after all.

It's nothing.

It's not hard at all.

Well,

it seems that he's fine.

Why don't...

Where are you going?

It's time to work.

If I don't work today,

I won't make any money.

From what I can see, Rui Rui is fine now.

Why don't you take care of him for me?

Can you?

Can't you wait for him to wake up first?

He's autistic.

What he needs the most is the company of his parents.

He hasn't seen you all day.

You should think about his feelings.

Tang Hua.

Well,

I'll stay here for a while then.

As his parent,

you should be more responsible.

Otherwise, your child wouldn't be that sick.

I also wish I could stay by his side,

but treatment costs money.

I have to earn money to treat him.

To treat my son,

I went to many hospitals.

His medical fees are getting higher and higher.

I used to work in transportation.

I was able to earn some money.

Now, in order to be with my child,

I can't even go outside.

Look.

I run a barbecue stall near the hospital.

That's how...

I barely cover our daily expenses.

Tian.

Where's Tian Rui's mom?

Don't even get me started.

In order to treat our child,

me and Tian Rui's mom are about to get a divorce.

Is she not willing to treat her child?

I don't blame her.

My wife...

has a younger brother.

He has always been autistic.

She lost him when she was very young.

That's why she was traumatized.

She didn't dare to have children.

However, I insisted...

that she give birth to Rui Rui.

In the end,

I failed her.

This child is all grown up now.

I can't just...

leave him alone.

I thought...

I'll work hard to earn money.

I'll earn money to treat Rui Rui.

I hope...

that Rui Rui will get better one day.

Don't worry.

The kid is with us.

We'll take care of him.

It's time to work.

Well...

Thank you so much.

I'll get going then.

Thank you.

(Tian's Barbeque)

Tian.

Dr. Xu.

What's wrong with Rui Rui?

He's fine.

He was asleep when I left.

You scared me.

Are you done for the day?

Yes, I just got off work and passed by your place,

so I thought of stopping by.

Give me 10 skewers.

Look at me.

All I can think about is Rui Rui.

Wait for me. I have some grilled ones.

That's great.

Tian.

Your business is doing well.

Yes.

Everyone buys from me.

Here.

This is great.

They smell so good.

What?

It's free. Just take it.

How can it be free?

How can I charge you?

You're so good to Rui Rui.

I'm already feeling bad.

You need money now.

It's only right to pay for food.

How can I not?

All right, I've paid. I'll get going now.

Dr. Xu.

I know...

you purposely buy food from me.

You're such a good person.

You're working hard at night too.

- Take this. - It's okay.

- I'll take this. - Drink it.

Go home.

Don't think too much.

I love to eat these.

I'll get going.

Get back to work.

(Tian's Barbeque)

Doctor, everything is ready.

Let the kid lie down.

Rui Rui.

You can lie down now.

You can lie down now.

Here.

This is a doctor.

A hospital.

This is a hospital bed.

Is this kid autistic?

Yes.

Can he read it?

Medicine bottle.

Pills.

He actually understood it.

You can have your best friend.

This is the key chain from his mom's bag.

He likes it a lot.

He always carries it with him.

Let's get started.

Okay.

Mr. Tian.

This is your child's report sheet.

There are no problems with all indicators.

He can be discharged and go home.

That's great.

Thank you.

Rui Rui.

You can be discharged and go home soon.

- My son. - Take him to the EICU.

- Rui Rui. - Tian Rui.

Doctor.

He's fine, isn't he? What's going on with him?

I think this has nothing to do with albuterol poisoning.

It's caused by something else.

What is it?

We don't know yet.

But don't worry.

I'll find it out.

It's all fluid.

There are also signs of...

heart failure and respiratory failure.

Why did it get so bad all of a sudden?

The main cause of pleural effusion...

could be infection, parasites, and cancer.

The routine blood test shows...

that his white blood cells and C-reactive protein are low.

Also, he has no fever.

It doesn't look like an infection.

What about the parasite test?

The fecal sample came back negative.

That means it can only be cancer.

How cruel.

He's still so young, but he has autism and cancer.

How about this?

Let's do a pleural fluid analysis,

pleural fluid culture,

and exfoliative cytologic examination.

Okay.

We have a long way to go.

I hope it goes well.

Dr. Xu.

It's not cancer, is it?

We'll have to wait for the test results.

It's all my fault.

My child is innocent.

- Go ahead and torture me. - Calm down.

It might not be cancer.

Dr. Bai, the result is out.

- So? - It's not cancer.

It's not cancer.

Thank goodness.

There's something strange in the fluid.

What is it?

Macrophages.

Why are there macrophages?

What are you talking about?

Don't worry.

It's just a little abnormal now.

Okay.

I still don't understand.

Why do macrophages appear in pleural fluid?

Cancer cells...

can enter the pleural fluid through the lymphatic system.

Macrophages are not cancer cells.

But what's the difference...

between cancer cells and macrophages?

Cancer cells can pass through the walls...

but macrophages can't.

Cancer cells are damaged.

If macrophages are also damaged for some reason...

That's right.

If macrophages are also damaged,

theoretically,

they can also pass through the inner wall...

and enter the lymphatic system.

In this case,

it can explain the pleural effusion and even the heart problem.

Cirrhosis of the liver.

Let's do a liver biopsy.

It could be cirrhosis of the liver.

Okay.

Doctor.

What's wrong?

Rui Rui.

- What's wrong? - Doctor!

- What's wrong with him? - Please wait outside.

Please wait outside.

Ventricular fibrillation.

Prepare the defibrillator.

Rui Rui.

Rui Rui.

Cardiopulmonary resuscitation.

The defibrillator is ready.

Disjointed, 50J.

Charged to 50J.

Charged.

Clear.

One more time, 75J.

Charged.

Clear.

0.5mg of epinephrine.

Okay.

Done injected.

It's back.

We have a pulse.

Tian Rui had an atrioventricular block,

but he's stable now.

Dr. Bai.

What's wrong with him?

Liver damage.

Pleural effusion is affecting his lung function.

But the liver biopsy didn't show cirrhosis.

The stool sample showed that there was a lot of manure.

Do you think...

he could have eaten some random stuff?

It's possible.

The patient is autistic.

He even took albuterol by mistake.

He could have eaten anything.

How about this?

Discuss with the patient's family...

and see if you can go to his house to find some relevant clues.

Okay.

Hold on.

Take some photos of their home inside out.

Okay.

Dr. Bai.

- How was it? - Did you find anything?

I've checked. It's a rented house.

There's nothing unusual.

What should we do?

If the patient isn't autistic,

we can just ask him directly.

Did you take any photos?

Yes. I've sent them to you.

Have you ever seen your child eat anything weird before?

Do you mean the asthma medicine?

No.

Other stuff like matches or wood.

Doctor, I'm sorry.

I'm too busy.

I don't spend much time...

with my child.

You're just trying to make money to treat him.

Rui Rui.

What did you eat at home?

Doctor.

He can't speak.

Rui Rui.

Look.

This is your bathroom.

This is the corridor.

This is your bedroom.

This is the kitchen.

This is the living room.

This is the yard downstairs.

What have you eaten in these places?

You can tell me.

Doctor.

He doesn't know.

He doesn't know what you're saying to him.

Rui Rui, you have to tell me...

so that I can cure you.

- Rui Rui. - Doctor.

Don't force him anymore.

He doesn't understand.

Rui Rui.

It's ocular paralysis.

It's not paralysis.

It's a pirouette rotation.

Multiple sclerosis...

or a microscopic tumor.

It could be a microscopic tumor.

It started in the lungs and causes a pleural effusion.

Then it spreads to the liver and causes hepatocyte dropout.

Finally, it reaches...

the back of the eyeball of the brain,

causing ocular paralysis.

Both of you are going too far.

Dr. Bai. Did we analyze it wrong?

Based on your analysis,

the patient's eye needs to be removed.

He's autistic and one eye is missing.

How cruel.

Tell me what you know.

It's not a tumor. It's a roundworm.

A roundworm?

It's swimming in his eyes.

Where did the roundworm come from?

When I saw those photos,

there was a pile of sand in front of their house.

His dad said he likes to play on the sand.

I'm sure all the cats and dogs in that area...

poop on it.

Perhaps he ate it by mistake.

But the fecal parasite test is negative.

You really don't know when to give up.

Look at this.

Raccoon roundworms...

won't be excreted by a human host.

I've checked the pile of sand.

It was in there.

Raccoon roundworms?

The raccoon roundworm spread from the digestive tract...

to other parts.

It invaded his lungs and caused a pleural effusion.

It invaded his liver...

and caused the dead liver cells to follow the lymphatic flow.

Finally, it attacked his eye and cricoid muscles...

and caused his eyeball to roll back.

You're a fast learner.

Let's go.

High-dose of benzimidazole to kill the roundworm...

and laser photocoagulation to treat his eyeball.

I hear you have three barbecues a day.

Seriously? You're my role model.

A comfortable and luxurious life.

That's my dream.

Doctor.

I want to ask you something.

Where is the EICU?

Are you a family member?

My son is in the EICU.

He has autism.

Tian Rui?

Do you know who he is?

How is he?

The patient is out of danger.

Let's go. Come with us to see your child.

Come on.

No.

I'll get softhearted if I see him.

Here, have some water.

Thank you.

Doctor.

Tell me the truth.

My son has autism.

Can he be cured?

Autism is hard to cure.

In order to treat...

this illness for our child,

we went to all the hospitals in the city.

I even sold my house in my hometown.

We really did our best.

Now, because of the child,

his dad and I are quarreling so much...

that we're going to get a divorce.

I just want to know this.

Is there any point...

for us to spend money...

on our child's treatment?

The point is correlative,

but you need to have faith.

There's no cure then.

You're the one who gave birth to the child.

What else can you do?

I also don't know what to do.

I can only take him back to our hometown.

I'll endure as many years as I can.

If my husband and I can have children,

I'll have another child.

I can't let this child...

ruin our family...

and lives.

I think about it every day.

I wish I hadn't given birth to this child.

I don't know why I'm having this thought.

This...

This thought of mine is terrible.

I don't deserve to be a mom.

I don't deserve to be a mom.

Every time I see him,

do you know how much I want to convince myself?

I told myself...

that Rui Rui will be fine.

Rui Rui will be fine.

But now...

There is really nothing we can do now.

- Doctor. - Tian.

Don't listen to her.

What are you doing here sneakily?

Tell me.

We've tried our best.

What else can we do?

We'll earn money to treat his illness.

I can earn money...

to treat Rui Rui.

This has nothing to do with you.

If you don't agree,

I'll divorce you.

I'll take care of the child.

He can only live on like a fool.

He can't be cured.

He'll suffer just to live.

We're the ones who gave birth to him.

We have to be responsible.

I'm Rui Rui's dad.

I want to earn money to treat his illness.

I can't bear such a big responsibility.

I don't want to be tortured like this even for a minute.

Let's get a divorce.

Fine.

Let's get a divorce.

The child will be living with me.

You're still young.

You can find a better man.

Ms. Xiao.

Xiao Guang, why are you here?

I'm here for a follow-up checkup.

Where's Dr. Bai?

He couldn't care less about me.

That's true.

There are a lot of patients in the hospital these days.

Dr. Bai is very busy.

No, he's not.

My dad has someone else in his heart.

That's why he doesn't care about me.

Who can be more important than you in his heart?

Ms. Xiao, come here.

Are you going to examine me?

Ms. Xiao.

I don't have the skills.

Let me tell you.

You have to believe me.

To my dad,

that person is more important than me.

He was with me when I was taking blood just now.

But when he heard that person was in trouble,

he left me right away...

to help that person solve her problem.

Ms. Xiao.

Think about it.

Can't you tell?

I accidentally told Ms. Xiao that you like her.

- Dad, I was wrong. - You...

- You told Dr. Xiao that I like her? - I accidentally told her the truth.

I'm sorry, Dad.

You...

Do you call that being honest?

Dad, don't yell at me.

I'm a patient.

Tell me.

Who told you...

that I like Dr. Xiao?

Is it that big mouth, Xu Yi Ran?

Don't accuse Mr. Xu.

I'm not blind.

I can tell.

All right, Dad.

Don't be stubborn.

Look at yourself.

Ms. Xiao is pretty.

She has a good personality and can drive a motorcycle.

She's more than good enough for you.

She's more than good enough for me?

Let me ask you. What is my standard?

You're a primary school student.

What are you thinking all day?

Dad, let me tell you.

If you get too close, you'll turn bad.

You're banned from surfing the Internet for a month.

Dad.

Have you learned Chinese idioms before?

You can't do that.

Seriously.

You're a control freak.

Let me make this clear to you.

I'm a control freak.

Let me tell you something.

In the future

don't talk nonsense to others.

Especially...

to Ms. Xiao.

Don't talk nonsense.

Or I'll ban you from surfing the Internet for a year.

If you try to cover it up, you'll draw attention.

Do you know what that means?

Eat more fruit.

I don't want to.

It's nutritious.

Have one first.

Here.

Let me feed you.

Hurry up and eat.

Tian.

Dr. Xu.

This is the contact information of Dr. Song...

from Zhongji Hospital's Pediatrics Department.

Zhongji Hospital's Pediatrics Department...

is experienced in the treatment of autism.

There might be a chance for a cure.

I've already contacted him.

You can talk to him directly.

That's great.

Thank you.

Thank you.

I'll definitely take him there.

Is there really hope?

We must have faith.

I used to have a mentor who specialized in autism.

He told me that there's no cure for autism for now.

We can't even define what the boundaries of healing are.

This is indeed the case for people with autism.

However, for the patient's family,

the hope for a cure is everything.

You have severe bronchial asthma.

Fortunately, you were rescued in time.

The weather is cold now.

You should dress warmly.

Let's keep an eye on her for now.

Let me know if there's anything wrong.

Okay.

Dr. Bai.

Patients nowadays...

rather be fashionable than comfortable.

Yes.

There are a lot of asthma patients during this season.

Although there's no effective treatment for asthma,

as long as we adhere to long-term standardized treatment,

the symptoms of asthma...

can be well controlled...

and recurrence can be reduced.

Dr. Bai.

Why did you want to see me?

As you know,

kids say the darndest things.

If Xiao Guang said anything to you,

don't mind him.

He's getting out of hand.

Don't worry.

I'll be strict with him from now on.

Dr. Bai.

The pneumonia patient in Bed Number 3 has a fever again.

I'll get back to work.

He was with me when I was taking blood just now.

But when he heard that person was in trouble,

he left me right away...

to help that person solve her problem.

The person in my dad's heart...

is you.

Doctor.

Why isn't he waking up?

Shi Lei.

Shi Lei.

You are...

His wife.

I'm sorry.

How's the patient?

It doesn't look good.

The patient has Alzheimer's disease.

This time, he had a stroke and his brain has necrosis.

It's likely he'll never recover.

Will he wake up?

It's very unlikely.

There's something more serious.

The patient is quite old.

Other than cerebral infarction,

his cardiopulmonary function is not good.

So even with aggressive treatment,

I don't think it'll last long.

The family members have to be prepared...

for the patient's departure.

Also,

the patient is unconscious.

He can't eat on her own.

We need to intubate a nasogastric tube.

There's no need.

You don't seem to understand.

Only by doing so can the patient have enough nutrition.

I don't want him to suffer anymore.

Without the nasogastric tube,

he can't get enough nutrients.

The patient may have already starved to death...

before his condition worsens.

Doctor.

I understand what you're saying.

When my husband was conscious, he made it very clear to me.

He said that once he became critical,

we shouldn't try to resuscitate him just to barely keep him alive.

He used to be a doctor.

He knows it very well.

He thinks it's meaningless.

He wants to leave in peace.

He wants to leave with dignity.

Just do as he says.

We can continue with the treatment after intubating a nasogastric tube.

If it doesn't work,

I'll take it out again.

So we suggest...

Thank you, doctor.

There's really no need.

About the nasogastric tube,

I think you should reconsider.

We'll leave now.

Shi Lei.

Shi Lei.

You won't leave me alone, right?

What's wrong with his family member?

They don't agree to intubate a nasogastric tube.

Do you think they don't want to save him?

Of course not.

She and her husband love each other.

Didn't you hear what she said?

She respects her husband's opinion.

She doesn't want him to suffer.

Respect?

I think she just came up with a story...

to convince herself and to tell everyone.

You weren't directly involved. How do you know?

Were you directly involved?

But from what she said,

I could feel her passionate love for her husband.

Passionate love?

Why do I feel awkward listening to her?

How is this awkward?

What if she's an intellectual?

It's normal for her to talk poetically.

Who doesn't know how to beautify themselves?

You promised me.

You won't go before me.

How could you break your promise?

Do you know?

In the days and nights when I lost you,

I'll be forever alone.

I'll be forever longing for you.

I really don't want you to leave me like this.

However,

I can't let you suffer more because of my weakness.

Watching your life being taken away...

bit by bit every day...

is a huge punishment for me.

Thank you.

I heard there's a patient's family won't intubate a nasogastric tube.

She's just being respectful to her husband's will.

Speaking of which,

the patient's family is a language teacher.

She's good at writing.

She used to publish articles in the journals.

Her thinking kind of keeps up with the times.

One of her articles discussed death with dignity.

I just realized I've been brainwashed by you.

Even though I knew I couldn't save that patient...

and I also knew that the patient doesn't want to suffer,

I still can't give up.

I've been trying to persuade his family...

so that she agrees to intubate the nasogastric tube.

But if I were the patient's doctor,

I would choose...

to not intubate him.

Why?

I wasn't the only one who brainwashed you.

You brainwashed me too.

If there's no hope for the patient,

I'd choose to respect the patient's will.

You said it before.

That's the greatest respect for life.

I'm impressed.

Dr. Xiao.

Here come two more family members of Li Shi Lei.

They want to see you.

Okay. I'm coming.

Dr. Xiao, these are the patients' children.

We just came back from out of town.

Dr. Xiao.

Can't you do something about my dad's illness?

Although the patient is in the final stage of his life,

with aggressive treatment,

I think it's possible for him to live longer.

Of course.

It's up to your family's wishes.

Aggressive treatment, of course.

Please help us, doctor.

If the patient and his family all agree to aggressive treatment,

we'll surely do our best.

Now,

the family members need to get on the same page.

Get on the same page?

Mom.

The doctor was going to intubate a nasogastric tube on him.

I didn't agree with it.

- Well... - Why not?

Didn't your dad tell you when he was conscious?

Doctor.

Tell me.

My dad is in such a condition.

Do we need to insert a nasogastric tube?

If it's for life-sustaining purposes,

we'd recommend intubating a nasogastric tube.

What if we don't?

What will happen to him?

If we don't intubate a nasogastric tube...

and just rely on an IV drip to maintain his nutrition,

it can only be until the patient...

can't hold on any longer...

and passes away.

That means my dad will be starved to death.

Doctor, you just said...

that if we go with aggressive treatment,

he can still sustain for a while.

For how long?

Optimistically, it should be about six months.

Okay, I got it.

Mom.

The tube needs to be inserted.

I know you want the best for your dad.

However,

he already told us that.

I remember it clearly, Mom.

Dad told us this when he was conscious.

If he is in critical condition,

don't send him to the intensive care unit...

and don't resuscitate him just to barely keep him alive.

Then listen to him.

But the doctor said he can live for half a year.

How can this be considered critically ill?

Mom.

I can't let my dad go like this.

I can't bear to see him go either.

Mom.

No matter what, I won't agree with it.

Mom.

Let's talk outside.

His children actually...

agree to intubate a nasogastric tube.

For the patient's family,

it's really hard to give up treatment.

After all,

the children care more about Li Shi Lei...

compared to Lin Ruo Yun.

Her husband was terminally ill and she wanted to give up.

Maybe...

Ms. Jiang.

I'm not talking about you.

We all know...

that it was Mr. Jiang himself who doesn't want to get treated.

That mouth of yours.

I'll seal it for you sooner or later.

Dr. Xiao, this is the medical record you asked for.

Thank you.

Mom.

The doctor already made it very clear.

If we intubate the nasogastric tube,

Dad can live for six more months.

Mom.

No matter what, we don't want Dad to give up on treatment.

You love your dad.

You can't bear to part with him.

However, as a filial child,

you should do as he wishes.

Mom, it's not that we're not filial.

If the doctor tells me...

that Dad wouldn't be able to make it...

and we can't save him anymore,

we'll accept it.