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I say to you: one must stíll have chaos in

oneself to be able to give bírth to a dancing star.

I say to you: You still have chaos in yourselves. 'Friedrich Nietzsche

Are you listening?

Jakob!

Tomorrow morning we have to leave here by 4:30 you hear?

Set your alarm.

Ivana will look affer you tomorrow, OK?

Cood night.

What's this about?

Oil rigs in the North sea.

What's up?

Not much. Boring.

How old are you?

17. You?

28

Can I see your face?

When I see your body.

Take your shirt off.

What are you looking for?

Fun?

Show me what you imagine.

Morning.

Morning.

Hi!

Murat!

Yeah.

Hi!

This is Jakob. Hello!

Hi, Murat!

Can you show him the ropes? Sure.

I just have to take care of something first. Thanks.

You wait here...

Jakob!

If you need me, you know where to find me.

You get used to it. C'mon!

We've got a busy day ahead of us.

Take the hose and spray from top to boffom.

See? Right in there. You try!

There, you missed a spot.

Just be sure it's absolutely clean.

Or else my ass is grass.

Can you handle that? Yes.

If you need me, I'll be back there, OK?

Cool. Keep going, keep going!

Everything OK? Yes.

Then c'mon, back to work.

Everything nice and clean.

Cood.

When you're done, you can hit the showers.

Hey Jakob!

Why didn't you take a shower?

You'll never get a girlfriend.

You stink like a dead hog.

Hofstätter, Hofstätter, you and your big trap.

He's just envious.

His old lady won't screw him, shower or no shower.

Works for your wife. I'm there four times a week.

Really?

When you get on top of your wife, there's nothing left of her.

Everything OK?

Yeah, I just feel a little faint.

Are you sure?

I'll be fine if I sit down for a sec.

As discussed, we will now proceed with the lumbar puncture.

This procedure is necessary...

in order to obtain cerebrospinal fluid...

or a few milliliters of it,

so we can test for possibie pathogens.

Do you have any questions? No.

Cood. Will the assistant please hold the patient steady?

You may experience an electric shock, possibly in your legs.

This however is completely harmless and not dangerous.

Cool,it is coming.

Hello!

Well, what was it? What did the hospital say?

Not much.

It's nothing physical.

What then?

It's something psychological.

Did you get medication?

Yes.

And an appointment with a therapist. What therapist?

A psychotherapist.

Well, then go see him.

Did they say when you can come back to work?

That's up to the therapist.

Then tomorrow I better find someone to take your place.

Shout to me when you are awake...

Good Morning.

For how long are you observing me?

Quite a while.

No need for thanks.

What for?

That I saved you.

Saved me. From what?

From ending at some dirty porno-site.

Normally we thank for that.

By the way, what's your name?

Jakob.

And you? Kristjan.

Do you live in Vienna?

Yes.

Anyway, for the time being.

That's also the reason..

why I don't speak German very well.

It's not so bad.

Thank you, sir.

Also,

what is wrong with you?

What would be wrong with me.

Tell me something about yourself.

What are you doing? Are you working or still at school?

I just finished my final examination.

Congratulations!

So at autumn you attend univesity?

Cool!

What do you want to study?

No, it's unusual.

Come on, tell me!

Cosmology.

Cosmology?

I already told you, it is unusual.

Are you kidding?

The exploration of the universe? That is...

I am impressed.

What about you?

What about me?

Kristjan.

Klar! Okay.

Yes, in a minute I'm there.

Okay, thanks.

I must go.

I give you my number.

Call me quickly so that you got the number.

Do you got it??

Yes.

Nice to meet you, Jakob.

Yeah.

Me too.

On a scale of one to ten...

how strongly do you feel your fear now?

Three.

Good.

And if you had to determine where in the room your fear is.

Where would it be?

Behind me.

And how close is it to you?

It's still farther off, but...

it's coming closer.

Very good.

You can open your eyes.

Now, go get another chair...

and find the spot in the room...

where you feel your fear is.

Is that the spot? Yes.

Good.

Now sit back down in the chair that represents you.

And now ask your fear why it is coming so close.

I feel stupid.

It doesn't matter, feel stupid, but give it a try.

Why are you coming so close? Very good.

Now get up and go sit down in the fearchair.

Jakob asks: "Why are you coming so close?"

And what does your fear say?

I can't do this.

Just try. There's no wrong reaction.

I can't do it.

Why are you coming so close?

No!

Inhale deeply.

And slowly exhale.

Inhale...

and exhale.

Feel your stomach rising...

and falling;

feel yourself becoming calmer and calmer with each breath.

Hey, Astronaut! How are you? What's going on?

Nothing. Perfect! Do you want to attend a party?

What kind of party?

An underground party.

I don't know...

Come on!

I' ll send you the address.

I want to meet you in real.

Give it a thought, okay?

Cool.

Hey folks! This here is Kristjan.

The battery is probably empty. I call you back.

What are you afraid of?

Because death is not the end...

but the beginning of eternal life...

in our Lord...

Jesus Christ.

Amen.

From dust we come,

and to dust we shall return.

Attention!

Aren't you hungry?

If you get hungry Iater, there's some left.

Are you crazy? What was that just now?

Jakob, what's wrong?

Hey Jakob, what a surprise!

Jakob, is it your turn?

Yes.

Is everything okay?

Jakob?

I just returned from the burial of my grandfather.

Where are you now?

At home.

Do you need some distraction?

How are you doing?

Better.

Thanks.

Cut.

I always visit this place when I need time for thinking.

Have you ever been here before?

He died during the night, when I went to the Club.

I'm sorry.

It would not have made a difference.

Do you believe in a soul?

I don' t know.

Depends on what you mean by that.

A part that does not vanish when the body dies.

I think I believe in a soul,

but not in a religious sense.

And what about when Art is the expression of the soul?

The printing of your thoughts?

Your inner life?

Are you an artist?

I study art at least.

Do you like it?

frankly speaking,

I find it hard to understand Art.

I think,

it is not so much about understanding,

but rather about experiencing.

Take a look here.

Is there anything here what attracks your eye?

Interessting.

Dionysos.

The God of the ritual extacy.

Yeah that is it, right? Yes.

But I don't know why.

Probably because the guy is naked.

Idiot!

It was a stressful day, isn' it?

Yes.

Do you want to go home for a rest?

No.

I want to see something of your work.

Hey little one. You have failed me.

Are you hungry?

In a moment I give you something.

What's her name?

Tinkerbeli.

Do you want to drink something?

No, thank you.

Did you made this?

No

It's a gift from a good friend.

Also,

what kind of Art do you make?

Take off your shirt.

Come on. We have seen each other already naked.

That's something different.

In what way is it different?

I don't know. It's so real now.

It was also real before, isn't it?

I did not mean it that way.

Come over.

Put yourself in my place.

Make a foto now.

Jakob....No!

Jakob, no...!

Stop!

On a scale of one to ten...

how strong is your fear?

Jakob?

Jakob!

Everything ok?

Ten.

And now ask your fear why it is coming so close.

Why are you coming so close?

Jakob asks:

"Why are you coming so close?"

To protect you.

What's the time?

What was that, Jakob?

Only a panic attack.

A panic attack only?

You have scared the shit out of me, Jakob.

I am sorry.

Best I go.

And how does it feel?

As...

as a black hole...

within my breast.

I don't want you to expel.

But it is...

My last intimate relation...

dates from a long time ago.

Why did you want to meet me?

Do you want the truth?

Because of your fire marks.

Have you inherited?

Yes.

They told me, from my mother.

You don't know her?

She was gone,

when I was about six years or so.

That's misery.

Can I touch it?

How does it feel?

It is more sensitive.

Did you hear that?

What?

Fuck. There is someone in the house.

Is somebody there?

I swear I heard somebody.

I did not heard anything.

What are you thinking of?

That I wish to kiss you.

Why don't you do it?

I have never kissed someone before.

Close your eyes.

Are you well?

Yes.

I'm taking a shower.

Are you coming?

Be there in a minute.

Have you ever thought about how it is to die?

I mean...

on the very moment that you know you'll dying.

I can show it to you.

What?

When yoy really want to know,

I can show it to you.

What's that?

DMT.

What is that?

A psychoactive substance like LSD,

but produced by the body itself. It happens at birht and death,

and also when we are dreaming.

Do you want to try?

What is it like?

Some see fractiles,

others travel thru a tunnel,

and some meet mechanic fairies.

Was sind Maschinenelfen?

Give it a try.

Enjoy your trip to Nevrland.

Hey, Psychonaut! How was the trip?

Nothing.

What does that mean, nothing?

No fractiles,

no tunnels,

not even mechanic fairies.

I jyst lost conscious.

The dosis was definitely sufficient for a normal trip.

Are you feeling well?

You look a little pale.

Do you want into the fresh air?

How much stars are there?

A quadrillion, at least.

What the heck is a quadrillion?

A one, followed by 24 zero's.

That is a lot of zero's.

Try. Why?

Come on, try it!

Fuck.

Come on, hurry up!

What next?

I know where we are going.

What is your fear

Fuck!

The number you are calling does not exist.

The number you are cailing does not exist.

The number you are calling does not exist.

The number you are cailing does not exist.

Hey, Psychonaut!

How was the journey?

Close your eyes!

Kristjan?

May I touch it?

Kristjan?

How is it?

More sensitive.

Kristjan?

Did you hear that?

What's going on?

Fuck. There is someone in the house.

Jakob, no!

Stop!

My last intimate relationship...

Did you make that?

It's a gift from a very good friend.

Do you believe in the soul?

Are you crazy? What was that just now?

Jakob, what's wrong?

What did the hospital say?

Please hold the patient steady.

Papa?

Jakob!

Are you listening?

You know where to find me.

Then tomorrow I better find someone to take your place.

Jakob!

Papa!

Say something!

Stop!

Stop!

Don't be afraid.

Everything will be fine.

It will be over soon.

I don't feel anything.

How can I be real if I don't feel anything?

You are real, Jakob, because you are experiencing all this.

Just breathe.