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There is great danger in me.

For those who do not
understand these mysteries

shall fall into a
torment called Because,

and there be ripped apart by the teeth

of Reason.

The answers do not exist without,

but within.

You cant see past your own obsessions.

Having a-a vision of going to the moon

doesn't make it any less impossible.

Why is it you think that Mesulam
and Braxton sent me to D.C.?

They needed someone they could trust

to make a sensible presentation.

An actual scientist and not
someone who believes they can

will things into existence.

Before we make our
offering to the Great Beast,

concentrate

on the answers you seek.

Parsons.

These parts are corroded, sir.

Paying me overtimes gonna be a lot

cheaper than replacing the machine.

I didn't come down here
to reprimand you.

I've noticed a change in you.
You're punctual.

No more last-minute absences,
even working overtime.

Even when no one asked you to.

Yeah.

I can only assume this
has something to do

with your little side
project not panning out.

It's aims are no longer

worthy of my abilities, sir.

Well, Caltech's loss may
be Pueblo Powders gain.

How would you feel about
being made supervisor?

For I am in pain,

desperate for the release of union.

May you be granted

the accomplishment of your true will.

May you be granted the accomplishment

of your true will.

May you be granted

the accomplishment of your true will.

So what do you think about the offer?

Certainly a big step up.

Would mean more money.

More responsibility, but we
could buy a bigger house.

- Is that what you
- want?

I'm trying to do the right thing here.

I think you should do whatever
your true will tells you to do.

You can stop that. I
know what you're doing.

What am I doing?

Giving me a taste of my own medicine.

Why are you so insistent we go tonight?

Because I'm trying, Jack.

What if I'm not in the
mood to go to a mass?

Well, I want to go.

Would you prefer I go alone?

May you be granted

the accomplishment of your true will.

May you be granted

the accomplishment of your true will.

May you be granted

the accomplishment of your true will.

There you are.

Have you got a second?

Make it quick, frater.

Got to get these done
before mass begins.

I am this close to my next ascension.

Well, you're not the only
one up for a promotion.

First degree?

- Man and brother of the faith?
- No.

To supervisor.

At Pueblo Powder.

Supervisor.

I don't know whether I should accept.

Guess you'll know what
to focus on at mass.

The right answer will reveal Itself.

Whether they will

absorption into the infinite,

or to be united with your
chosen and preferred,

I say unto them, "Love is the law."

May you be granted

the accomplishment of your true will.

May you be granted

the accomplishment of your true will.

May you be granted

the accomplishment of your true will.

Do what thou wilt

shall be the whole of the law.

- Love is the law.
- Love under will.

Come down, O, God,

and become one with Man.

Come down, O, Man,

and become one with Beast.

Iô, Iô, iô, Iô,

sabaô,

kurie abrasax

kurie meithras

kurie phalle.

Iô, pan, Iô, pan, pan,

iô iskhuros...

Sing unto me the rapturous love song.

Burn unto me perfume.

Wear to me jewels.

Drink to me.

Cause I love you.

I love you.

You're sure you want to go?

If you're coming for me,

the least I can do is leave for you.

Wait.

I guess It's not up to me.

You are not ready to
participate in the workings,

but we have other matters to attend to.

It was...

I don't really know how to put it.

Try.

Shocking, I suppose.

That's the idea, isn't it?

Everyone has their own reaction.

All are valid.

I'm just trying to ascertain

how it affected you.

Not up here.

But here.

According to Eastern healers...

this is your power center.

Did you feel it tighten during mass?

Maybe.

A little.

What about here?

Susan?

Did my question embarrass you?

I thought inviting you
here tonight might help

your walls crumble,

but it seems to have made them taller.

- I'm sorry.
- Don't be.

I'm the one who's failing.

Can we try again?

If you want to.

Who was she?

Who... was she?

I only saw her for an instant

in my mother-in-laws yard,
and then she was gone.

And you have no...

sense of who this girl was
or what she means?

Who was she?

We haven't made much headway.

I thought this vision of
the girl was the key,

but the essential agitation persists.

You made the pain go away once.

But it came back.

If I'm being honest, It's gotten worse.

You remain so ephemeral, not
just to me, but to yourself.

It's...

It's as if you were made of air.

Perhaps It's time we tried
a different technique.

Ready?

So, are you not gonna tell me
what you two did in there?

You ought to know.

You've been through his purge sessions.

Did you talk about me?

No, Jack. Not everything is about you.

Now this is the best,
that I could come up with,

based on the data.

It's about damn time.

Mr. Nickels, you are aware
that It's less than a month

until our demonstration
with the Air Corps.

I am well aware.

Of course you are. You are a
highly qualified chemist.

Thank you.

It wasn't meant as a compliment.

You were supposed to go beyond

what your predecessor
was able to accomplish,

and instead you've given us
this paradox.

Please explain how
were supposed to find a-a fuel

that is simultaneously
a liquid and a solid.

From what I can make out of Mr.
Parsons notes,

you've wasted a lot of time

going back and forth between
solid and liquid fuels.

- He's got a point.
- It doesn't matter.

You cant have a fuel that exists

in two different physical
states simultaneously.

If my solutions impossible,

maybe that's cause the whole
endeavor is impossible.

A solution to an impossible problem

requires someone who doesn't
believe in the impossible.

You have never loved me.

You have only thought it
pleasant to be in love with me.

When I was at home with Papa,

he would tell me his
opinion about everything,

and so I had the same opinions.

If I differed from him, I would

conceal the fact

because he would not have liked it.

He called me his doll child

and he played with me

just as I used to play with my dolls.

Bravo! Bravo!

Knock, knock.

Come in.

Ah. You shouldn't have.

You already got me
flowers for the opening.

I really think it keeps
getting better and better.

The other cast members

even remembered all
their lines this time.

You know, Richie, there's such
a thing as being too honest.

No. I-I didn't mean...

You have been splendid from the start.

You know, there's something
I wanted to ask you.

Yeah?

What would you think
about... asking the Parsons

to join us for dinner?

Why?

Well, isn't it time we met
each others friends?

Aren't you gonna say something?

I don't know.

Last time you talked about Jack,

you made it pretty clear
you two were finished.

Now you want to make peace?

That's right. Uh, it just so happens

there's something I need to ask him.

What?

Um...

It's work related.

Then ask him.

Why do I need to be there?

Because It's less likely

to turn into a bloodbath if
there are women present.

That's the girl Richards been seeing?

Why does she look familiar?

Not from...

What on earth is she doing with him?

Jack. Susan.

Thank you so much for coming.

It's so wonderful to see you both.

Oh, um, this is Marisol.

Marisol, Susan and Jack Parsons.

I've heard so much about you.

Likewise.

We've met already, actually.

Science Fantasy Society?

Oh, yes.

Of course.

That author...

- Jack Williamson?
- Good memory.

You know I don't forget
things easily, Rich.

Shall we?

Thanks, Richie.

Bon soir, madames et monsieurs.

- Can I interest you in a drink?
- Great idea.

Well have your most
expensive bottle of red,

s'il vous plait.

It's your treat, right?

It's just... It's really
great to see you, Jack.

Yeah. You said that already.

Well, it bears repeating.

Truth is, I wasn't sure that you'd come.

All water under the bridge.

Really?

To err is human, to forgive divine.

You forgive me?

Does anyone else hear an echo?

No. It's ju...

No, you're right. Thank
you for your forgiveness

and thank you again for coming.

Thank Susan. She’s the one
who talked me into it.

What? It's the truth.

Someone at this table
ought to be telling it.

You know, I could stand to freshen up.

Excuse me.

Gracias.

I decided I could use some
freshening up myself.

Knock yourself out.

You need to borrow some
powder or something?

Were alone now. You
can stop pretending.

Perhaps you thought I didn't remember?

Hoped, more like it.

What are you doing with him?

And don't try to tell me this
is all some big coincidence.

"There are no coincidences,"

"only the moment your
will and path collide."

Excuse me?

Right. You're new.

The Grand Magus sent me after Richie.

It was for your husbands sake.

Help keep the rocket project
from hitting the skids.

Why would Alfred care about that?

He lets you call him by his first name.

Interesting.

He's devoted to his flock.

I thought he was only
helping Jack, but...

he was helping me, too.

By forcing you to go out with Richard?

He didn't force me.

It was part of my workings.

I was just supposed
to boost Richie's confidence.

Sticking with him was my idea.

Thing is,

ever since I was little,
I wanted to be famous.

That's why I joined the Agape.

I thought it would help me get there.

I don't understand.

How is Richard helping
you become famous?

That's the point. He's not.

I realized being adored
by a man like him,

starting a family,

that's what I truly wanted all along.

The Great Beast works
in mysterious ways,

that's for sure.

Does Richard know about any of this?

You and me both know
he wouldn't approve.

You should hear the way he talks.

The guys head over heels for me.

And do you care about him?

Of course.

Then you should come clean.

Nothing good ever started with a lie.

Thank you.

So... What do you think of Marisol?

She seems swell, Richard.

Are you gonna tell me
what were doing here?

What do you mean?

I know this cant just be a
social call after what you did.

We don't need to rehash it.

I am sorry that you felt it necessary

to quit the team at such
a critical juncture.

The fact of the matter is,
we still need your help.

I knew it. I knew you'd be
back on your hands and knees,

begging me to rejoin the team.

- If you'd let me finish...
- I'll save you the trouble.

I'll come back on one condition.

That we scrap this whole JATO business

and put the military's money
towards our original objective.

- Jack...
- No negotiations, Richard.

Those are my terms.
Take it or leave it.

We've already replaced you.

There's a new chemist on the team.

Marvin Nickels.

Carnegie undergrad.

Fourth-year PhD student, Caltech.

Crompton's top pupil.

He's fitting right in.

Good for him.

It's going very well.

The teams making excellent headway.

Is that right? Mm-hmm.

In fact, Marvin has come up
with a brilliant solution

to the fuel problem using your notes.

- My notes?
- Yes.

And Id like to pick
your brain about it.

You're stealing the fruits of my labor?

Your research belongs to Caltech.

- All of our research does.
- You son of a bitch.

Maybe this was a bad idea.

You're damn right it was a bad idea.

You want to know what I
think about Marisol?

I think you should make sure

she's with you for the right reasons.

Hey, fellas.

What happened?

That's what she said.

And you believed her?

Why else would she go after Richard?

Though... I do find
it odd that you'd...

Interfere with their personal affairs?

Well, yes.

Let me ask you something.

Did Marisol seem happy?

Yes, I suppose so.

That's what we aim to do here, isn't it?

Shall we?

The answers we seek

might not come through
questioning alone.

As an air elemental,

you need to be contained.

Who was she?

I told you I only saw her for a moment.

Who was she?

I don't know.

How old was she?

Uh... 12, 13, maybe?

What else?

Close your eyes and focus.

What else did you notice about her?

She had something in her mouth.

What?

Does that have any significance to you?

- Oranges make me sick to my stomach.
- Why?

They just do. I've always hated them.

- Always?
- As far back as I can remember.

There was an
orange grove behind my house.

I kept as far away from it as I could.

- Why?
- I told you, I'm-I'm allergic.

Concentrate, Susan.

What is it? What are you seeing?

Nothing.

What did you see?

What did you see?

Let me out from under here.

What did you see?

I saw me.

Why would you be so
frightened of yourself?

Can I help you, sir?

Hey.

Uh, Mr. Onsted, you might
want to come in here.

No. I've got nothing to say to him.

M-Mr. Parsons?

Move.

It's an honor to meet you.

You-you work with stuff I'd
never have the guts to handle.

Yeah, well, a lot of good that did me.

Well, what do you mean? Everything's...

pretty much
ground to a halt since you quit.

Look, I don't have time to
recreate your results,

and especially not if I
follow proper protocol,

which, I guess, was less
of a problem for you.

- Mm-hmm.
- After so many false starts,

Mr. Onsted pushed me to come up
with a theoretical solution.

- Sounds like Richard.
- Yeah, well,

Too bad the solution I came up
with is friggin' impossible.

What solution?

Um, in order to build a JATO

that will burn evenly
and be light enough,

we need a fuel that acts like
both a solid and a liquid.

A solid and a liquid.

Yeah, it doesn't make sense.

Unless you have any bright ideas.

Jack.

What a nice surprise.

And also well-timed.

What are you doing here?

- Collecting my things.
- These belong to Caltech.

- I told you that.
- Let go.

I tried being nice,

inviting you to a very
expensive dinner.

A genuine apology would have
gotten you a lot further.

You're the one who should
be apologizing to me

the way you spoke about Marisol.

I wasn't insulting her,
I was insulting you.

Ask yourself, Richard.

What could a girl like
that possibly see in you?

I'll have you all know
that I've been offered

a very significant job promotion.

- Where?
- Pueblo Powder Company?

Unlike some people,
they recognize the fact

that I'm irreplaceable.

You know what? Take them.

If the answer was in those notebooks,

we would have succeeded
a long time ago.

Susan?

You'll never guess what happened
out in the arroyo today.

Richard didn't just steal my work,

he used my plans for the lab
and the testing facility.

Everything is exactly
as I said it should be.

You should have seen him,
completely stalled without me.

My so-called replacement
came up with a fuel solution

they claim is impossible.

Well see about that.

I am known to you by my name, Nuit,

and to him by a secret name,

which I shall give to him
when he at last knoweth me.

- What are you doing right now?
- Nothing.

You need help with something.

Yeah. Come on.

- You gonna tell me?
- Tell you what?

How you got that cut on your arm.

A working.

Last one before ascension
to the second triad.

Were you trying to manifest
anything in particular?

What about you, Jack?

You want to tell me what were doing

setting off rockets in the
middle of the goddamn night?

A test.

I still don't know whether to
take that promotion in Pueblo.

Then you shouldn't.

If I do the job, I can give Susan

the life she always wanted.

Or at least the one she used to want.

I don't know anymore.

So take it.

It's not that easy.

It would mean giving up
on this, our project.

You really want to go
crawling back to Richard?

I don't know.

And even if he took me back,

it would mean working on
something I don't believe in.

See, It's all well and
good to talk about

following your true path,

but what if you're faced with
two bad turns in the road?

You remember the first night
I brought you up here?

It was standing right there.

You mean the mountain lion?

No, Jack, the Great Beast.

He showed you the way.

He did it then. Hell do it again.

Okay.

You've fired off a
million rockets, Jack.

Don't let this one mean
more than it has to.

"Who am I, and what shall be the sign?"

Whats that?

- Book of the Law,
- first chapter.

Verse 26.

That's all I needed, a sign.

To point me in the right direction.

You're just gonna give up?

Jack!

You want a sign? Here's
your goddamn sign.

What are you doing with that?

I took it.

There is no law beyond

"do what thou wilt."

That was my fathers.

Oh, you mean the one
that abandoned you?

Shut your fucking mouth.

Nothing else matters in this
life but being true to yourself.

I tried. People keep getting in my way.

Open your damn eyes!

You remember what it felt like

when I took you up in that crop duster

and everything else just faded away?

I'm going home, Ernest.

Let go of me.

Not gonna happen, Jack, not ever.

I am the only one who's gotten
you closer to what you want.

Get the fuck off me!

A ka dua.

Tuf Ur biu.

Never forget who you are, Jack.

You're not a supervisor.
You are a marvel!

Am I part of your "workings"?

Cant outrun your destiny, Jack.

A man of will knows no boundaries.

Stay the fuck away from me.

Jack!

If we take the entire population
of Los Angeles County,

It's roughly 2.5 million people,

and divide that in two,

because I'm only interested
in women, obviously,

but then, uh, we need to remove

everyone that's not age appropriate,

which reduces that number
by at least two-thirds.

So 416,666.66.

Well, it's-it's a repeating decimal,

so lets just call it 416,667.

Yeah, let's.

But then we need to
reduce it even further.

For one, I don't own a car,

so am somewhat limited geographically.

And accounting for
age-appropriate women

that live in a close proximity,

that brings the number down by at least

three-quarters, and lets face it,

I'm not gonna find every
age-appropriate woman nearby

attractive and an even smaller

percentage will be interested in me.

What'd I say about
selling yourself short?

The point is, um,

when you account for taste,

there are about 5,208 women

in all of Los Angeles that
are theoretically suitable,

or.2% of the entire population.

And when you factor in
women that are single

and, more critically, how
many I'll get along with...

Well, at that point, the
math gets quite complicated.

Mm-hmm.

Suffice it to say,

you, my dear, are a
statistical anomaly.

One in a million, or...

rather, um...

.992

in 2.5 million.

Why are you telling me all this?

Cant you see that...

you are literally the one for me.

This math proves it.

Did something make you doubt it?

Richie.

You don't need math.
You just need faith.

You're right.

I've never felt this way about anyone.

I wasn't even entirely
sure that I was capable.

I guess this is my way of
trying to say something

that could... more efficiently

be expressed in three words...

I love you.

Oh.

And I'm fairly certain that...

I want to spend the rest
of my life with you.

Did I say too much?

And I'm sorry, but it's the truth.

No, no, It's not that.

It's just...

There's something I have to tell you.

The night we met...

wasn't a coincidence.

What happened next?

What happened next?

I told you, that's all I can remember.

- It's not working.
- Try again.

There's nothing else.

Keep trying.

Please, can we stop?

What is it? Are you seeing something?

Tell me.

Susan?

Susan.

Come on.

Who is it?

Who was there with you, Susan?

I'll take it.

Wise decision.

Was surprised you needed
so long to think on it.

Hey, um, do you know what happened

to the guy who lives here?

Beats me.

Landlord said he took off
without paying rent.

He a friend of yours?

No. Hardly knew him.

Hello?

Hello?

Jack!

Jack, what are you doing?

I'm getting rid of everything.

You should understand.

You're such a big believer
in purging all of a sudden.

I'm done pretending.

I'm not gonna lead mankind to the moon.

I'm not gonna bend the
world to my will.

I'm a gainfully employed
chemical company supervisor.

Jack...

It's okay. It's okay.

This is for the best, really.

You were right about the Agape.

It does corrupt people.

It makes them believe that they
can have anything they want,

however twisted.

- Jack, I don't...
- Please, let me finish.

Ernest left this
godforsaken neighborhood,

and were getting out of here, too.

You want three bedrooms? Why not four?

Heck, maybe well have twins.

But most of all,

you can stop punishing me by going.

Okay? I've learned my lesson.

I just want things to go back
to the way they used to be.

What if I cant?

I don't think I can go
back to who I used to be.

I don't want to.

Please don't say that.

I-I know I've made some mistakes.

It's not that. I...

I learned something today,

something about myself.

What?

What?

I'm sorry.

Does the Grand Magus know?

- Don't, don't.
- I'm done with all of it.

I want my wife back.

Shit.