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[♪ ♪]
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(Birds chirping)
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- ALAN: Candace! Candace?
- (chain jingling)
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Get down here! Now!
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Sam just left.
He is going to kill his father.
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- What did you say to him?
- He decided
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that killing his father
would make him better.
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Would it?
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Well, no, I don't think so.
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He could come back here and...
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Are you sure it won't work?
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(Sighs) Candace, I understand
that this man was brutal to you.
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But I'm supposed to care
what happens to him?
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Well... yes. Yes, a little.
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(Doorbell rings)
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Can I come in?
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You hungry?
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(Footsteps descending stairs)
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I've been in this position
many times.
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There's nothing you can do.
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I usually have a beer
and try to relax.
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(Chain jingling)
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(Knife chopping)
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Bathroom?
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Uh, around the corner.
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(Sighs)
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(Urinating)
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You think I'm some sort
of a monster, too.
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But I'm not.
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I'm like anybody else.
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When he's... out, like now...
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I'm so scared for him.
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I'm so sad for
the life he's living.
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But the families...
the people he does this to...
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I make up stories
in my head about them.
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I live it, in a way.
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I picture... them as babies,
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with their mothers holding them.
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Their fathers playing
with them on the floor.
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These poor men.
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But you won't call the police?
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Candace... you won't
save them from this?
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I can't.
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I cannot.
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God.
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(Chain jingling)
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(Plates clinking)
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(Sighs)
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Why did you used to hit me
so much when I was a kid?
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(Sighs heavily)
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I don't know.
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How did it make you feel?
When you...?
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What?
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When you used to hit me
all the time.
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How did it make you feel?
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(Sighs) I don't know.
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Bad, I guess.
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You were a weird kid.
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You couldn't follow rules,
you couldn't play games,
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you didn't have any friends.
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And your mother was
reading all her books,
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telling me it was all my fault
you were like that.
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Anyway, I'm sorry.
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(Grunting)
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(Straining)
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(Wheezes)
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My therapist said
not to kill you.
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And then I left.
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How do you feel?
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I was choking him and I could
feel him disappearing,
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and I stopped.
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It was like I didn't want to.
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Why not?
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I-I don't know.
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I mean, he said he was sorry,
but fuck him, right?
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I just, I hate him so much
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and usually that feeling,
it makes me want to
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go ahead and...
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But I was on top of him,
and I hated him.
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And this time, that feeling,
it-it made me not want to.
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I...
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Hmm.
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Do you know why I didn't do it?
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What was different,
between your father,
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and everyone else
that you've hurt?
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I don't know.
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What's the obvious difference?
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He hurt me the most.
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Okay, good. What else?
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What's the most
obvious difference?
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He's my father.
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Right.
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Sam, you were on top of him...
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the one who treated you
like this.
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If you killed him,
you'd be doing it, too.
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Acting just like him.
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Being just like him.
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You hate that part of him.
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You are trying to be different.
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Trying to get rid of
that ugly part of him
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that lives inside of you.
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You were right to
confront your father.
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But you didn't need to kill him.
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You needed to not kill him.
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This is it, Sam.
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It is a major breakthrough,
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even if you're not quite
feeling it yet.
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Not killing your father is...
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You wanted to change.
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Look at you. You've changed.
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How does it feel?
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Okay. I guess.
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It's everything that
we have been working towards.
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You-you stopped yourself.
This is extraordinary.
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Thanks.
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(Takes deep breath)
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- (Sam laughs softly)
- Hmm.
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(Exhales, laughs)
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I'm gonna go and
get some dinner.
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Uh, is there anything
in particular that you'd...
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I'm-I'm not really hungry
right now.
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I, um... Sam...
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It's time to let me go home.
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You're ready.
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And I need to get back
to my family.
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Sometimes therapists
talk with their patients
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about their own lives.
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Because... well, you know,
we're all human beings.
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We all are struggling,
every last one of us.
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So... I want you to understand
a few things about me.
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You have been struggling
with your father.
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And you just had
a big breakthrough.
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I'm in the middle of
a struggle with my son, too.
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And I need to get back to him
for our breakthrough.
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I did a lot of damage
to my son, too.
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I know it's not the same
as what your father did.
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But, Sam...
people don't deserve to die
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for falling short.
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No matter how short.
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We're all... broken vessels.
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I need to get back to my son.
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I want you to come see me in
my office for regular sessions,
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every day at first,
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but pretty soon we can
go to three days a week.
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I have enormous faith in you.
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I also want to address
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your completely understandable
concern, I assume,
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that, if you let me go,
I will turn you in.
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As a therapist, I have a
legal and ethical obligation
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to keep your confidence.
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Including any, um,
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crimes that you may have
committed in the past.
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It only gets thorny if you are
clearly going to kill somebody.
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And if, at some point
in the future,
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you have an overwhelming urge
to kill again,
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and you don't think
you'll be able to control it,
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that will be the moment for us
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to find a therapeutic
institution for you.
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But I don't see that happening.
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I think that, by not
killing your father,
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you have demonstrated
great progress
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and likely permanent change.
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I'm really proud of you.
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I am proud of the progress
that you have made.
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And I think that you will
continue to make progress.
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(Crickets chirping)
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[♪ ♪]
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[♪ ♪]
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(Engine starts)
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(Truck approaching)
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(Engine turns off)
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(Truck door closes)
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(Tailgate opens)
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(Scraping)
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(Creaking, thumping)
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(Chain jingling)
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(Sam grunting)
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(Grunts)
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(Grunts)
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I'll be right back.
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[♪ ♪]
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(Sam grunting)
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(Grunts)
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I get what you've been saying.
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I've been rushing you.
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Because I want to get better.
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But therapy takes time.
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Years, you said, sometimes.
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So, I'll get a TV and...
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I can stock the fridge
with anything you want.
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(Door closes)
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It's a miracle that everyone
who was beaten like that
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doesn't become
a serial killer.
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Why wouldn't they,
after suffering like that?
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It's like an effort to
turn them into a serial killer
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that doesn't always work.
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That poor kid...
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with all of it...
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he somehow managed
to not kill his father.
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Maybe this fucking therapy
is working after all.
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We know this story.
He needs a replacement father.
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That's why he wants to keep you
here for the next ten years.
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He understands, maybe
intuitively, that he needs
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to do it again.
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To relive his life
with a different model.
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Well, I'm not spending
the next ten years down here.
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No, you're not.
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(Exhales)
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(Chain jingling)
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[♪ ♪]
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[♪ ♪]
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[♪ ♪]
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(Takes deep breath)
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A little meshuggener, maybe.
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(laughs softly)
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(Drops pen)
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(Sighs)
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Sam?
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Sam, could you
come out here, please?
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Sam, I don't think...
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I don't think that
I said what really
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needed to be said yesterday.
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It has been a problem
down here for me,
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to always know exactly
how to communicate with you.
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And to know what I'm feeling.
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I have something to say
that may be difficult to hear.
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That is part of
this process, though,
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honestly sharing the truth,
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even if it's hard.
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You brought me down here,
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and you asked me to treat you,
and I did.
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And I can't do it anymore.
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I have done the most I can.
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And I am telling you,
in my professional opinion,
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and I consider this
to be a near certainty,
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for you to get better, you
need to be physically stopped
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from acting out your compulsion.
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Being physically prevented
from hurting anyone else
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is what will give you
the freedom to actually heal
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your heart and your mind.
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It's what will give you
the space to heal
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what your father did to you.
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As much as it can be, Sam.
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That kind of pain
never heals entirely.
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But you can do enough of it to
allow you to live a better life.
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Sam, I have so much respect
for what you're trying to do.
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It's very brave.
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In the whole history of
people who have struggled
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with what you're
struggling with,
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I bet you stand alone
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in the strength of
your efforts to change.
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(Sighs) And...
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...it's time to
turn yourself in.
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Call the police
and turn yourself in.
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I now know, apart from
anything having to do with me,
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this is the only way for you.
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Our therapy is over.
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You need to make a choice.
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I'm making one,
and you have to make one, too.
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My choice is that I am not
doing therapy with you anymore.
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Your choice...
You can turn yourself in,
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or you can end this
the other way.
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I don't want to do that.
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Either one.
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I know. But it's time.
266
00:23:08,389 --> 00:23:12,597
And I'm not going to live
down here like a pet.
267
00:23:18,375 --> 00:23:20,613
[♪ ♪]
268
00:23:26,825 --> 00:23:28,595
(Door closes)
269
00:23:31,769 --> 00:23:33,372
(Sighs)
270
00:23:34,874 --> 00:23:37,013
(Keys jingling)
271
00:23:48,035 --> 00:23:49,253
(Door slides closed)
272
00:23:49,337 --> 00:23:50,789
(Footsteps departing)
273
00:23:50,873 --> 00:23:53,312
(Gate creaks)
274
00:24:00,393 --> 00:24:02,463
(Birds chirping)
275
00:24:10,813 --> 00:24:13,118
[♪ ♪]
276
00:24:32,624 --> 00:24:35,262
(Truck approaching)
277
00:24:37,200 --> 00:24:38,785
(Engine turns off)
278
00:24:38,869 --> 00:24:42,159
(Truck door opens, closes)
279
00:24:42,243 --> 00:24:45,049
(Door opens, closes in distance)
280
00:24:57,473 --> 00:24:59,210
[♪ ♪]
281
00:25:12,537 --> 00:25:14,440
(Door opens)
282
00:25:31,775 --> 00:25:33,745
Thank you.
283
00:25:38,189 --> 00:25:39,874
I know you want to go home...
284
00:25:39,958 --> 00:25:44,884
but... he's not ready.
285
00:25:44,968 --> 00:25:47,306
He's not.
286
00:25:49,044 --> 00:25:51,615
Candace, this needs to end now.
287
00:25:52,383 --> 00:25:56,491
No matter what happens,
we can't leave anything unsaid.
288
00:25:58,595 --> 00:26:01,484
This is going to
be hard to hear,
289
00:26:01,568 --> 00:26:03,822
and I want you to know
that I am saying it
290
00:26:03,906 --> 00:26:05,492
not just in my best interests,
291
00:26:05,576 --> 00:26:08,248
but in yours and Sam's as well.
292
00:26:10,052 --> 00:26:14,677
When he was a boy and
his father was abusing him,
293
00:26:14,761 --> 00:26:18,101
you didn't take
any steps to stop it.
294
00:26:18,936 --> 00:26:22,693
You didn't leave or get help.
295
00:26:22,777 --> 00:26:26,251
It wasn't your fault,
you didn't know what to do.
296
00:26:27,053 --> 00:26:30,259
But you did not protect him.
297
00:26:32,864 --> 00:26:36,404
You did not protect your son.
298
00:26:45,991 --> 00:26:49,514
(Sniffling)
299
00:26:49,598 --> 00:26:51,351
(Sobs, sniffles)
300
00:26:51,435 --> 00:26:53,355
- Ah! What are you doing?
- Sam! Sam?!
301
00:26:53,439 --> 00:26:55,358
Ow, ow! Stop.
What are you doing, Dr. Strauss?
302
00:26:55,442 --> 00:26:57,530
Sam, come downstairs
right now! Stop!
303
00:26:57,614 --> 00:27:00,069
I am sorry to be
in this position.
304
00:27:00,153 --> 00:27:02,273
I don't want to be doing this.
305
00:27:02,357 --> 00:27:04,110
I care about you, Sam,
I really do.
306
00:27:04,194 --> 00:27:05,981
But... No, no! Stop!
307
00:27:06,065 --> 00:27:08,151
But I will kill her if
you don't call the police.
308
00:27:08,235 --> 00:27:09,554
Sam, I...
309
00:27:09,638 --> 00:27:11,124
Do it, Sam,
310
00:27:11,208 --> 00:27:12,526
- or I will cut her throat.
- Sam, please.
311
00:27:12,610 --> 00:27:14,397
- Dr. Strauss, you...
- ALAN: I don't want to.
312
00:27:14,481 --> 00:27:16,767
I don't want to, Sam. What I
want is for you to call 911,
313
00:27:16,851 --> 00:27:20,075
and turn yourself in,
you have to. Turn yourself in!
314
00:27:20,159 --> 00:27:21,411
- Or I will do it!
- He's just bluffing, Mom.
315
00:27:21,495 --> 00:27:22,948
All he wants to do
is get out of here.
316
00:27:23,032 --> 00:27:24,617
I am not, Sam. Call 911!
317
00:27:24,701 --> 00:27:26,388
I-I don't...
I don't believe you...
318
00:27:26,472 --> 00:27:28,025
I am not bluffing, Sam!
319
00:27:28,109 --> 00:27:29,661
I am going to kill her.
320
00:27:29,745 --> 00:27:32,132
You said we shouldn't interrupt
each other down here!
321
00:27:32,216 --> 00:27:35,422
Goddamn it, we let
each other finish!
322
00:27:39,898 --> 00:27:42,753
You... you said
I was getting better.
323
00:27:42,837 --> 00:27:45,259
You... I believed you.
324
00:27:45,343 --> 00:27:47,129
I told you last night.
You cannot get better
325
00:27:47,213 --> 00:27:49,935
unless you are stopped from
acting out your compulsions.
326
00:27:50,019 --> 00:27:52,506
That is the only way out
for you.
327
00:27:52,590 --> 00:27:55,362
This is the only way out for me.
328
00:27:58,936 --> 00:28:00,991
Make your choice.
329
00:28:01,075 --> 00:28:03,662
I don't want to.
330
00:28:03,746 --> 00:28:08,188
Then your mother's going to die.
And you'll kill me.
331
00:28:10,592 --> 00:28:13,598
I don't think you're the kind
of man that can even do it.
332
00:28:17,006 --> 00:28:18,375
(Candace screams)
333
00:28:19,611 --> 00:28:21,381
(High-pitched ringing)
334
00:28:30,266 --> 00:28:33,688
(Distorted singing)
335
00:28:33,772 --> 00:28:35,809
[♪ ♪]
336
00:28:45,529 --> 00:28:46,848
CHAVA:
Alan?
337
00:28:46,932 --> 00:28:48,284
(Whimpers)
338
00:28:48,368 --> 00:28:49,486
Alan?
339
00:28:49,570 --> 00:28:51,357
- (Gasps)
- (children chattering)
340
00:28:51,441 --> 00:28:52,492
Are you okay?
341
00:28:52,576 --> 00:28:54,931
(Sighs) Just a bad dream.
342
00:28:55,015 --> 00:28:57,670
(Playful chatter continues)
343
00:28:57,754 --> 00:28:59,173
(Sighs)
344
00:28:59,257 --> 00:29:03,365
About when you were... away?
345
00:29:04,268 --> 00:29:05,686
Not exactly.
346
00:29:05,770 --> 00:29:08,241
Then what was it?
347
00:29:09,510 --> 00:29:12,466
I'll tell you in
about ten years.
348
00:29:12,550 --> 00:29:14,636
EZRA: Keep your stuff together,
here we go.
349
00:29:14,720 --> 00:29:17,660
Everyone, let's go.
It's dinnertime.
350
00:29:29,384 --> 00:29:30,735
I'm just saying, I don't know
351
00:29:30,819 --> 00:29:32,239
how Shmuel ended up
being the coach.
352
00:29:32,323 --> 00:29:33,508
Shush. Dov likes him.
353
00:29:33,592 --> 00:29:35,245
You can't shield him
from the truth.
354
00:29:35,329 --> 00:29:36,814
I'm not so sure about that.
355
00:29:36,898 --> 00:29:37,984
Coach Shmuel was captain
356
00:29:38,068 --> 00:29:39,286
of the intermural baseball team
357
00:29:39,370 --> 00:29:40,990
- at UMass.
- Yes, we know.
358
00:29:41,074 --> 00:29:42,793
We all know. That's my point.
359
00:29:42,877 --> 00:29:45,415
(Chuckles)
360
00:29:46,284 --> 00:29:47,620
Thank you.
361
00:29:49,090 --> 00:29:51,211
(Singing in Hebrew)
362
00:29:51,295 --> 00:29:55,152
(All joining in)
363
00:29:55,236 --> 00:29:57,255
(Singing in Hebrew)
364
00:29:57,339 --> 00:29:59,610
(All continue singing in Hebrew)
365
00:30:04,420 --> 00:30:07,693
[♪ ♪]
366
00:30:09,597 --> 00:30:12,186
(laughs, continues singing)
367
00:30:12,270 --> 00:30:15,927
(All singing in Hebrew)
368
00:30:16,011 --> 00:30:19,884
[♪ ♪]
369
00:30:23,425 --> 00:30:26,664
[♪ ♪]
370
00:30:34,680 --> 00:30:39,757
(All continue singing in Hebrew)
371
00:30:48,843 --> 00:30:50,662
(Song ends)
372
00:30:50,746 --> 00:30:52,533
(Recites passage in Hebrew)
373
00:30:52,617 --> 00:30:55,606
(Others respond in Hebrew)
374
00:30:55,690 --> 00:30:58,979
(Ezra reciting passage
in Hebrew)
375
00:30:59,063 --> 00:31:02,921
[♪ ♪]
376
00:31:03,005 --> 00:31:07,363
Stop! Stop! Stop! Don't!
377
00:31:07,447 --> 00:31:10,168
Don't, Sam!
378
00:31:10,252 --> 00:31:13,074
Stop! Stop! Stop!
379
00:31:13,158 --> 00:31:17,082
No! No...
380
00:31:17,166 --> 00:31:20,505
(crying): No, no, no...
381
00:31:23,045 --> 00:31:25,782
Oh, Sam.
382
00:31:26,518 --> 00:31:28,588
(Breathing heavily)
383
00:31:34,100 --> 00:31:36,704
[♪ ♪]
384
00:31:45,222 --> 00:31:47,393
(Panting)
385
00:32:08,368 --> 00:32:10,973
(lock clicking)
386
00:32:34,488 --> 00:32:35,990
(Door opens)
387
00:32:39,965 --> 00:32:42,002
(Whimpering)
388
00:32:56,097 --> 00:32:58,935
[♪ ♪]
389
00:33:24,954 --> 00:33:27,026
[♪ ♪]
390
00:33:53,512 --> 00:33:55,749
[♪ ♪]
391
00:34:18,728 --> 00:34:21,000
[♪ ♪]
392
00:34:49,190 --> 00:34:51,294
[♪ ♪]
393
00:35:00,579 --> 00:35:02,316
(Door creaks)
394
00:35:07,793 --> 00:35:11,134
(Keys jingling)
395
00:35:13,271 --> 00:35:14,673
(Door creaks)
396
00:35:54,753 --> 00:35:57,675
SAM:
"Dear children of Dr. Strauss,
397
00:35:57,759 --> 00:35:59,880
"I am writing to
let you know the bad news
398
00:35:59,964 --> 00:36:02,386
"that your dad is dead.
399
00:36:02,470 --> 00:36:04,690
"He helped me a lot.
400
00:36:04,774 --> 00:36:08,464
"I know from him it's important
for you Jews to have a body
401
00:36:08,548 --> 00:36:12,239
"when someone dies, so I
put it where you can find it.
402
00:36:12,323 --> 00:36:15,678
"It's ten yards back
in the trees
403
00:36:15,762 --> 00:36:19,954
"by the northwest entrance
to Finch Ridge Preserve.
404
00:36:20,038 --> 00:36:23,978
I am enclosing a letter
he left for you."
405
00:36:25,916 --> 00:36:28,738
ALAN:
"Dear Shoshana and Ezra,
406
00:36:28,822 --> 00:36:31,961
"I love you both so much.
407
00:36:33,465 --> 00:36:37,356
"I'm sorry this happened to you,
and I'm sorry it happened to me.
408
00:36:37,440 --> 00:36:40,862
"But here we are.
409
00:36:40,946 --> 00:36:44,236
"I want you to know
I haven't suffered.
410
00:36:44,320 --> 00:36:47,342
"And I've had a lot
of time to think.
411
00:36:47,426 --> 00:36:50,615
- "You know I like to do that.
- (crying)
412
00:36:50,699 --> 00:36:55,024
"The two of you gave my life,
and your mother's life, meaning.
413
00:36:55,108 --> 00:36:57,129
"All parents love
their children,
414
00:36:57,213 --> 00:37:00,502
"but no one loved their kids
more than we did.
415
00:37:00,586 --> 00:37:05,111
"You are extraordinary people.
416
00:37:05,195 --> 00:37:07,950
"I want you both to go forward
without my death
417
00:37:08,034 --> 00:37:10,622
"defining your lives.
418
00:37:10,706 --> 00:37:14,697
"I also want to make sure that
some of the conflicts we had
419
00:37:14,781 --> 00:37:19,189
"don't define how you remember
our relationships either.
420
00:37:20,726 --> 00:37:25,151
"Shoshana, you and I and
your mother had our issues,
421
00:37:25,235 --> 00:37:30,461
"but mostly it has been easy
and full of caring.
422
00:37:30,545 --> 00:37:34,269
- "I thank you for that gift.
- (sobbing)
423
00:37:34,353 --> 00:37:38,444
"You are the brightest,
most extraordinary young woman
424
00:37:38,528 --> 00:37:40,415
"I can imagine.
425
00:37:40,499 --> 00:37:44,322
"In these dark times,
I have thought about you
426
00:37:44,406 --> 00:37:46,962
"and your beautiful family constantly,
427
00:37:47,046 --> 00:37:53,057
"and it has given me joy,
pride and solace.
428
00:37:54,961 --> 00:37:57,248
"Ezra, my dear son,
429
00:37:57,332 --> 00:38:01,390
"you are a bright light
in this world.
430
00:38:01,474 --> 00:38:06,300
"We both know it hasn't been
such smooth sailing between us.
431
00:38:06,384 --> 00:38:08,438
"And your mother.
432
00:38:08,522 --> 00:38:10,842
"I have spent a lot of time
thinking back on everything
433
00:38:10,926 --> 00:38:14,449
"that happened,
and I see things now
434
00:38:14,533 --> 00:38:18,424
"that I was unable to grasp
when they were happening.
435
00:38:18,508 --> 00:38:22,232
"I want you to know
that I understand now
436
00:38:22,316 --> 00:38:25,071
"everything you said to me.
437
00:38:25,155 --> 00:38:27,743
"You were right. Mostly.
438
00:38:27,827 --> 00:38:33,087
"I was judgmental, I didn't
accept you for who you were,
439
00:38:33,171 --> 00:38:36,126
"and worst of all,
I allowed your mother
440
00:38:36,210 --> 00:38:37,629
"to take the blame for this,
441
00:38:37,713 --> 00:38:42,372
"when I was as much
at fault as anyone.
442
00:38:42,456 --> 00:38:44,259
"More.
443
00:38:45,762 --> 00:38:51,540
"I want you to know that
I see this and I'm sorry.
444
00:38:53,144 --> 00:38:55,331
"Through it all,
I always loved you.
445
00:38:55,415 --> 00:38:58,137
"And I want you to know
how very much
446
00:38:58,221 --> 00:39:02,345
"I respect who you are
and the choices you've made.
447
00:39:02,429 --> 00:39:07,222
"You've built a beautiful family
and a beautiful life.
448
00:39:07,306 --> 00:39:12,499
You are a special
and truly wonderful person."
449
00:39:12,583 --> 00:39:14,988
(Sniffles)
450
00:39:17,994 --> 00:39:20,848
(Sighs)
451
00:39:20,932 --> 00:39:23,454
A little meshuggener, maybe.
452
00:39:23,538 --> 00:39:25,442
(laughs softly)
453
00:39:39,703 --> 00:39:42,309
[♪ ♪]
454
00:39:46,951 --> 00:39:48,621
(Gate creaks)
455
00:40:11,500 --> 00:40:14,189
SAM:
I think I really changed.
456
00:40:14,273 --> 00:40:16,911
The therapy worked.
457
00:40:17,680 --> 00:40:19,650
I'm not going to do it again.
458
00:40:21,654 --> 00:40:26,197
I am never going to
hurt anyone again.
459
00:40:29,003 --> 00:40:31,289
That's not true.
460
00:40:31,373 --> 00:40:34,496
You're going to do it again.
461
00:40:34,580 --> 00:40:37,185
We both know it.
462
00:40:43,431 --> 00:40:45,502
[♪ ♪]
463
00:41:01,467 --> 00:41:05,141
Mom! Can you come down here?!
464
00:41:29,023 --> 00:41:31,293
(Door opens)
465
00:41:58,481 --> 00:42:00,585
[♪ ♪]
466
00:42:24,633 --> 00:42:27,572
[♪ ♪]
467
00:42:45,675 --> 00:42:47,746
[♪ ♪]
468
00:42:54,160 --> 00:42:55,578
Did you know him?
469
00:42:55,662 --> 00:42:57,549
Not personally.
470
00:42:57,633 --> 00:43:00,288
I have colleagues who
were students of his.
471
00:43:00,372 --> 00:43:02,392
And I read his book.
472
00:43:02,476 --> 00:43:05,214
You know, I never read it.
473
00:43:06,283 --> 00:43:09,339
I don't even have a copy.
474
00:43:09,423 --> 00:43:12,078
Although, I think
I'm about to inherit
475
00:43:12,162 --> 00:43:14,416
like three boxes of them.
476
00:43:14,500 --> 00:43:18,691
I think one of the sections
is on parenting.
477
00:43:18,775 --> 00:43:20,794
Huh.
478
00:43:20,878 --> 00:43:23,284
I guess I should read it.
479
00:43:26,391 --> 00:43:28,694
So, how are you getting along?
480
00:43:32,102 --> 00:43:35,141
What happened was...
481
00:43:42,456 --> 00:43:45,913
I'm just worried for my kids.
482
00:43:45,997 --> 00:43:49,019
And my wife.
483
00:43:49,103 --> 00:43:51,440
And my sister.
484
00:43:54,680 --> 00:43:56,483
What about you?
485
00:43:58,321 --> 00:44:01,794
It's been hard, but I'm okay.
486
00:44:07,172 --> 00:44:10,878
Do you want to tell me a little
more about yourself, Ezra?
487
00:44:12,449 --> 00:44:17,008
I'm... I'm not sure
where to start.
488
00:44:17,092 --> 00:44:19,863
Really anywhere's okay.
489
00:44:33,658 --> 00:44:35,728
[♪ ♪]
490
00:44:37,933 --> 00:44:40,204
I...
491
00:44:41,540 --> 00:44:44,846
"You Want It Darker"
by Leonard Cohen plays...
492
00:44:56,904 --> 00:45:01,296
♪ ♪ If you are the dealer,
I'm out of the game ♪
493
00:45:01,380 --> 00:45:05,872
♪ ♪ If you are the healer,
it means I'm broker than lame ♪
494
00:45:05,956 --> 00:45:10,983
♪ ♪ If thine is the glory,
then mine must be the shame ♪
495
00:45:11,067 --> 00:45:13,554
♪ You want it darker ♪♪
496
00:45:13,638 --> 00:45:16,677
♪ We kill the flame ♪♪
497
00:45:23,290 --> 00:45:26,112
♪ Magnified, sanctified ♪♪
498
00:45:26,196 --> 00:45:28,150
♪ Be the holy name ♪♪
499
00:45:28,234 --> 00:45:30,455
♪ Vilified, crucified ♪♪
500
00:45:30,539 --> 00:45:32,792
♪ In the human frame ♪♪
501
00:45:32,876 --> 00:45:34,462
♪ A million candles burning ♪♪
502
00:45:34,546 --> 00:45:37,168
♪ For the help that never came ♪♪
503
00:45:37,252 --> 00:45:39,790
♪ You want it darker ♪♪
504
00:45:45,335 --> 00:45:48,558
♪ Hineni, hineni ♪♪
505
00:45:48,642 --> 00:45:50,678
♪ I'm ready, my Lord ♪♪
506
00:45:59,329 --> 00:46:02,752
Vvocalizing...
507
00:46:02,836 --> 00:46:04,873
[♪ ♪]
508
00:46:21,807 --> 00:46:23,978
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