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Huh. Wow.

\hWell, it’s nice to see you, too.

Yeah, what do we \h\h\hgot here?

Well, where’s Linc?

Late.

He’ll be here.

Lawyer.

Yeah...

\h\h\h\hIn some parts of the world, this...

\h\hthis would be considered a form of sadistic torture.

Being stuck in a room with people you hate?

And what are you? \h\h\h\h\h\h\hHmm?

I mean, come on.

How long are we gonna do this? \h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hHmm?

Hey.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hYeah. Yeah. Don’t let me stop you. Come on.

I never do.

Ray?

What now?

It’s just one night.

We can do this.

Yeah, Ray.

Dig that hole.

Prove you’re not that kid anymore.

Core.

Guys.

\h\h\h\hAll right, so this is Clare.

Thanks for letting me \h\h\h\h\h\hcrash your party.

Uh, when Ray told me it was your birthday,

I didn’t want \h\hto impose.

But Ray’s pretty convincing.

That he is.

Jeez, man, how many pills \h\h\h\hdid you feed her?

\hI didn’t pick you as the party type.

Inside joke.

Well...

who’s hungry?

This birthday boy \h\h\his famished.

\h\hI should’ve brought a gift.

Aw...

Clare Bear...

\h\h\h\h\h\hy’all are the only gift I need.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hYou know, he’s-- he’s never gonna change.

Right?

\h\h\h\h\hI don’t know why you care so much.

I don’t.

Yeah.

\h\h\h\hKeep telling yourself that and...

\h\h\hyou might just believe it.

You should know.

So, how did y’all meet?

\h-

\h\hWe went to school together.

-Oh, childhood friends? -Mm-hmm.

\h\h\h\h\hYou have to forgive Ellie.

\hShe has a habit of being too nice.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hFriends is quite the stretch.

\h\h\h\h\h\h No, we were friends.

\h\h\h\h were more than that.

Still are.

But let’s be honest.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hwere only friends with you

because we wanted to get with you.

\hAnd he just wanted a ride to graduation

\h\h\h\h\hwith little Miss Honor Roll here.

\hLooks like you are the common denominator again, Ellie Bell.

-Fuck you, Core. \h\h-Ah.

\hSpoken like a true friend.

\h\h\h\hYou guys do this every year. Why?

\h\h-

Now, that...

is the million-dollar \h\h\hquestion, Clare.

\h\h\h\h\hYou always find the smart ones, don’t you?

So...

\h\h\h\hwho wants to take this one?

Huh? Anybody?

No?

\h\h\h\h\h\hWell, then, I guess it’s over to me.

We made a pact, okay?

Can we drop it now?

Please?

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Are you guys \hfor real?

\h\h\h\hLinc said you guys were self-absorbed, but...

this is next level.

The world’s fucking ending

\h\h\h\h\hand all you guys can think about is some...

bullshit high school drama.

\h\hThe world’s not ending, hon.

-Don’t fucking patronize me. \h\h\h\h-Who’s patronizing?

And why are you \hso sensitive?

\h\h\h\h\h\hIt’s not my fault you can’t tell the difference

\h\h\h\h\h\hbetween your life and a fucking Halloween prom.

Halloween prom?

Really?

\h\h\h\h\hWe’re really gonna go there again?

They were human beings \hburnt fucking alive.

\h\h\h\h\h You were not there.

How do you know?

\hYou think those photos are real?

\hThere’s too many of them not to be.

Why are you \hembarrassing me?

\h\hWhy did you brought me here?

Because you said \h\h\h\hyou wanted to...

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hMm, people do a lot of things for clicks.

But those people, \h\h\h\h\hones left over,

\h\hyou heard what they saw.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h What they think they saw.

They’re merely delusions. \hThose people need help.

\hDelusions to the point

\h\h\h\h\hthat families are killing each other.

Killing their children...

so they don’t have \h\hto go through

what they think \h\h\hthey saw?

I don’t think so.

Those families were cults.

\h\hAnd yes, mass suicides are a result of shared delusions.

They weren’t all cults.

\h\hYeah, listen to Corey.

\h\h\hHe knows all about that mental health shit.

\h\h\hHow long did you spend at that mental institution?

\h-Ray? -What?

Months, wasn’t it? \h\h\h\h

Ray Burn, for the last \h\h\h\hmother effing time...

\h\h\h\h\h\hI took a leave of absence

\hin my junior year for medical reasons.

Whoo!

\h\h\h\h\h\hGuys, did you hear that?

"Medical reasons."

I had a minor physical ailment. That’s it.

So, pipe down, \h\hboy band.

\h\h\h\h\hI know they say fake it ’till you make it,

\h\h\hbut sometimes a man’s got to admit

\h\h\hthat he just doesn’t know shit.

And he never will.

\h\h\hAnd you’ve got a long way to go...

\h’till you’re even close to being a man, that is.

\h\h\hSo, how soon ’til judgment day?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h You know what? I...

\hI do--

\h\h\h\h\hYou guys go back to talking

\habout whatever it was you were talking about.

I’m serious.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hHow long do you think we have?

A week?

Two?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h It’s not judgment day.

They’re calling it \h\h"The Razing."

\h\hYou’re smarter than this, Ellen.

Am I?

\hSee, I thought I was, but now I’m not so sure.

See, I don’t believe in God. \h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hNever had.

\h\h\h\hNeither do the kids I teach.

\h\hThey’re just kids, they believe in Santa,

for God’s sake, which I guess \h\h\h\h\hit’s the same thing.

So, when one of them \h\h\hwrites a poem

about his dad,

that’s not dad,

\h\hstanding over his roasted mom--

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hhis mom, who moments before was on fire

burning alive

while his father \h\hheld her...

\h\h\h\h\h\hHis mother wept as she screamed.

And-- and what?

\h\h\hYou think he was some sort of messiah?

\h\h\h\hHe was a wife beater.

That poem \h\hDomestic Abuse.

Is that what my student called it?

\hHe called it Backward Rainbow

because that is what this guy \h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hlooked like

after his mom died.

\h\h\h\h\hJust as his dad picked him up to hug him,

\h\h\h\hjust as-- the same dad who hugged his burning mother,

the same dad whose own skin \h\h\h\h\hwas blemish-free.

And you saw that?

I saw him

\h\h\hand there was not one burn on him.

\h\h\h\hI saw his son scared to death of him

and even more scared of CPS \h\hwhen they came to court.

\h\h\h\h\hSeriously, Ellie, you should be up for tenure,

not deciphering the tales \h\h\h\hof fourth graders.

\h\h\h\hOnce upon a time, there was a fucked-up kid.

The end.

Maybe.

But maybe...

just maybe...

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hwe have to admit that maybe we don’t know shit.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hMaybe we are all just getting what we deserve.

We?

\h\h\h\h\h\hIt’s fine. It’s fine. She’s fine.

Everything’s fine.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h She doesn’t look fine.

How the fuck \h\hwould you know?

\h\hYou-- you-- you-- you waltz back in here

\h\h\hlike-- like you’re some hero,

\h\hsome knight in shining shit,

and-- and she just laps it up

\hlike you’ve never burned her before.

Like you’re not gonna do \h\hthe same thing again

\h\h\h\h\h\hnext week, next month, next year.

\h\h\hBecause she knows that after you are gone,

I will still be here \hto bandage her up,

to pick her up.

\h\h\hSo, yeah, I think I know when she’s fine.

And she’s fine.

We are fine.

What the fuck?

Fucking breaker.

I just wanna \h\hbe alone, okay?

Why the hell \h\h\h\h\h\h\hdid you do that?

\h\h-Do you?

Do you really?

’Cause-- ’cause \hif you don’t,

\hthis place, and with him,

\h\h\h\h\h\hit’s not where you wanna be.

\h\h\h\hAnd if you do wanna be alone,

\h\h\hthen you better get used to this room,

\hbecause this is as close to them as you’re ever gonna get.

Why do you bother?

Why don’t you just...

Leave?

-We made a pact. \h\h\h\h\h-Pact.

Was it worth it?

\h\h\hI used to think so.

\h\h\hI’ve never been the sentimental type.

\h\h\h\h\hYou know, birthdays, holidays.

\h\h\h\h\hI really could give a shit.

When I was a kid...

when I met them, \h\h\h\hI was...

\h\hI was going through a lot...

with my mom.

\h\h\h\hI ran away a couple of times.

Anyway, it got bad.

\h\h\hGot to a point where I-- I didn’t even wanted to be found.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hBut when that lot showed up...

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hI realized you can still be alone...

even when you’re not.

And to me...

at the time...

\h\hin some weird, screwed-up way...

it felt a lot better \hthan being alone.

So, you stayed?

I stayed.

So, does it still...

feel better?

\h You tell me.

\h\h\h\h- -What happened with your ma?

\h\h\h\h So, you’re coming?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hI think I’m gonna wait it out too.

\h\hJeez! What a great duo.

Order everything \hextra crispy.

\h\h\h\h\h\hYou and Milo might wanna watch that.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hYou know that stick you and Corey share,

it’s getting higher up in your ass these days.

\h\h\h\hYou might wanna watch that.

\h\h\h\h\hSomeone’s gotta have some fun.

This is a party.

Hey.

Hey, how’s Clare?

El?

El?

What?

\h\h\h\h\h\h Come here for a sec.

One sec.

\hWe have to open your gift.

\h\h\h\hI didn’t get you a gift.

Your gift.

\h\h\h\h\h

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\h\h\h Ellie? Your turn.

Your order, ma’am.

\h\hOn today’s menu, we have True Blue and Winter Wonder.

Why do you even ask? She always picks True.

\h\h\h\h Shouldn’t everyone?

Nah,

\h\hI have hope my little Ellie

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hwill go for a little fun one day.

\h\h\h\h\h\hWhat she wants instead of what she needs.

The way he leads away \h\h\h\h\h\hfrom you.

Hey.

Anyone wanna hear today’s specials?

I see red.

Courtesy of Mommy dearest.

These little beauties

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hwill show you everything you can ever be.

Your motherfucking \h\hdestiny, baby.

\h\h\h\h\h- -Bullshit.

Hey, don’t knock it \h\h’til you try it.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h Try anything. Bullshit.

Your loss, loser?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hSo, what did you see, loser?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hNothing I already didn’t know.

\hI don’t even lie.

All right. Okay.

There. Done.

\h\h\h\h\h Surprise. Surprise.

\hYeah, Ray, don’t start.

Those are what?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h Where did you put them?

Seriously?

Oh, come on.

Yeah, come on, Ma.

Don’t you guys read anything?

The experiments are dangerous.

-Don’t mess with them. \h\h\h\h\h\h-Come on.

Do the Blue.

\h\h\h You don’t get it.

These new batches \h\hare so strong.

\h\h\hYou won’t be able to tell the difference.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hThe trip, what’s real, what’s not.

\h\h\h-It’s all the same. -What’s the point, genius?

\hThis isn’t some fucking chem lab!

We play it safe.

You know the new stuff’s fine, right?

My ma tested it.

On who?

You?

\h\h\h\h\hNo offense, Linc, but hasn’t your mom lost it?

\hAnd I don’t just mean all credibility and credentials.

\h\h\h\h\h\hI meant she’s batshit cray.

It’s cool.

\h\hI shouldn’t have said that.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hYour mom’s always been good to us.

\h\h\h\h\hYou got it right the first time.

I was just shocked that you \h\h\hused the word "cray."

\h\h\h\h\hMaybe I took a red one by mistake.

Maybe you should.

I come in peace.

Funny.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h Nothing ever is with you.

Tell me...

\h\h\hdid you ever have a sense of humour or...

\h\h\hwere you born this way?

Tell me, do you ever take \h\h\h\hanything seriously

or are you numb to all emotion?

Oh, yeah.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hTell me, do you feel anything?

\h\h\h\h\h- -Like, anything at all?

Well...

wait...

\h\hyou don’t think I’m shallow, do you?

Hollow.

\h\h\h\h\hYou are so freaking empty.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hLike there’s nobody inside.

Just some mask, shell,

a Halloween costume.

Some...

stranger inside.

Well...

\h\h\h\h\h\htell me how you really feel.

You first.

\h

Which pill did you roofie her with this time?

\hPlease tell me it was the snow.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hMy heart can’t take another Blue.

Core?

Core?

\hDon’t fucking "Core" me, Clare.

\h\h\hHey, what the fuck is wrong with you, man?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hWhat is your fucking problem?

What did you take?

I didn’t.

Did you take anything?

It seems like the only one \h\hwho’s doing stuff here

is you.

-I don’t do that shit. \h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h-Uh-huh.

\h\h\h Don’t do what?

Where did you \h\hget these?

I haven’t seen these \h\h\h\h\hin years.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h ’Cause they got banned.

I always save \hit for a rainy day.

Bullshit.

\hYou save these to fuck with us.

That is rich \h\hcoming from you.

\hYou’ve been fucking with her for 15 years.

But that’s Ray \h\h\hfor you.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hTo a T. Never accepting responsibility.

And-- and don’t act like you’re not the first to call shotgun

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hany time I bring out the gear.

If you had it your way,

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hyou’d be tripping in your sleep.

Yeah, well,

\h\hnot all of us are born with everything,

you silver-spooned bitch.

You think you know me? You think you know me?

You’ve never known me!

None of you have.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hDamn! You guys are a buzzkill.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h Is this your doing?

Huh?

Who’s ready to party?

Party’s over.

♪

Hey.

Are we okay?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hYou know, the thing with the Blue,

it-- they’re nothing, right?

Ray was just...

He was pissing me off so it was the first thing on my mind.

\h\h-I missed you. -I missed you too.

It doesn’t matter.

Yes, it does.

Why won’t you \h\h\htell me?

There’s nothing \h\h\h\hto tell.

\h\h\h\h\h You’re sick, Core.

Do I look sick?

Oh...

\h\h\h\hYou’re trying to keep all the fun yourself, are you?

\h\hActually, I thought we could do it together.

Two tickets...

to Wonderland, my lady.

\h Whoa! Wait up.

Josh, whatever.

Whatever, Josh.

J.

\h\h\h\h\h So, where’s the snow at?

You’ve got it.

\h\h\h\hNah, this is that heavy shit

we did at Linc’s place.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hI want them Winter Wonder dreams, baby.

AKA Illusions.

\h\h Potato, potahto.

Yeah.

My bad.

-I know your type. -Oh, enlighten me.

\h\h\hYou’re scared of what you’ll see.

\h\hYou’re scared of what you want.

\h\hBut, hon, nothing’s ever as bad as it seems.

\h\h\h\h\hYou’re not as bad as you seem.

Then you ain’t seen \hnothing yet, hon.

Be still, my heart.

\h\h\h\hTaking off and it just might.

\hWell, aren’t you all just a bundle of killjoys?

You know, you’ve got some real \hballs for an uninvited guest.

This is the one?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hone would that be?

-Can we talk? \h\h\h\h\h-Can we not?

Core?

We’re not doing \h\h\h\h\hthis anymore.

Doing what?

Playing pretend.

\h\h\hYou pretend that you’re happy.

\h\h\h\h\h\hI pretend that I make you happy.

We both know \hthe truth.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h You do make me happy.

\h\h\hThat’s something I’ve never done and we know it.

\hI thought it was me.

\h\h\hI used to do everything I could to hide pain from you.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hI got so good at it, yeah.

You didn’t even know I went through chemo.

What?

And there it is.

\h\h\hThat look I never wanted.

\hCore, why didn’t you--

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h Why didn’t I tell you?

Why would I?

Why would I wanna have you \hlook at me the same way

\h\h\h\hthat my father looked at my mother before she died?

\h\h\h\h\h\hHave you detest me even more than you already do?

-That’s not fair. \h\h\h\h\h\h-Fair?

You have no right

\h\h\h\h\h\h\htelling me what is or is not fair.

\h

♪

\h\hIf I had told you, I would have lost you like I have now.

\hI would have lost you before I ever had you.

I’m so sorry.

I didn’t know.

You never do.

\h\h\h\h\h\hThat’s because I bore all of your pain...

while you all ignored mine.

\h\h\h\h\h\hAnd you know what the worst part is?

\hIt was all for nothing.

Because you’ll never be happy.

Ellie Belie...

you don’t have it \h\h\h\h\hin you.

♪

\h\h\h\h\h\h- -Damn it.

\h\h\h\h\h\hOw. Watch it. Hurry up.

\hI’m trying.

Yeah.

Where’d you \h\hget that antique from?

You know me.

Fuck something borrowed, \h\h\h\h\hsomething new.

Give me something old,

something blue any day.

\hYou better watch what you say, boy,

or I’ll throw you back \h\hwhere I found you.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hWell, you don’t believe me?

\h\h\h\h\h-Sure, babe. -Oh, don’t "babe" me.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hI’m not. And no, you don’t believe me.

\hWhatever. Okay. It doesn’t matter.

We you doing this \h\h\h\h\hor what?

Or what?

Maybe you’ll start believing me when I stop paying your rent.

And what do you think \h\h\h\h\habout that?

\h\h\h\hWhat are you fucking looking at?

I think you forgot...

where you came from.

You see that?

You fucking see that?

That there is proof.

.

.

Hey, you’re checking that?

Don’t you forget that.

Turn the fuck over.

Respect your elder.

Hey.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hOh, what have you got there?

Don’t tell Corey.

Uh, never do.

Which one \hshould we take?

You should get \h\hsome rest.

We should take \hthe red one.

It’s pretty.

\h\h\h\h\hThat’s because it’s the most dangerous.

The beautiful ones \h\h\halways are.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hWell, I guess they’re all pretty dangerous.

Truth lies in destiny.

What do you think \h\h\h\hyou want?

What you really want...

and who you are.

\h\h\h\h\h\h-Say "Ah." -Not that one.

\h-Wait. -Not that one.

\hWho would have thought that you and I would be so alike?

What are you \hafraid of?

You first.

\h\h- -What’s so funny?

You sound like...

\h\h\h\hsomeone I used to know.

\h\hSometimes you think you’re fine.

But you left it all behind you, that sadness, that fear.

But you only feel that way

\hbecause you’ve been running for so long.

\h\hSo long that you’re too afraid to look back.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hBut one day when you run out of steam,

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hone day those tears catch up to you.

And that sadness...

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hthat fear that you’ve ignored for so long

will be right in front of you, \h\h\h\h\h\hstaring, waiting.

\h\hYou can’t run from who you are.

Not for long.

♪

Looking for an escape, too, \h\hwhich I think you want?

I know what I want.

♪

What’s wrong?

Is this you?

What did you do?

Where’s Milo?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h How the fuck should I know?

Stop fucking--

\hI’m not fucking with you!

Who the fuck \hdid this?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hFuck, cry me a river, Linc.

You didn’t give two shits \h\habout that kid, okay?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hNext week, you’re going to be over

or under your next \hhigh school grad.

Or dropout.

\h\h\hWhat the hell is wrong with you, you piece of shit?

\h\h\h\h\hHo-ho-ho, that’s rich coming from you,

\hyou fucking lowlife pedo.

It’s happening?

He was right.

Milo was right.

It’s begun.

Fixed it.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h Let’s just call it in.

Call it in?

No, thanks, 5-0.

\hIf it’s-- if it’s really happening, then--

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h If? It’s really happening.

Then we’re not the only ones \h\h\h\hgoing through this.

\h\hThis-- this isn’t our fault.

If it’s really happening, \h\h\h\h\hwhy call anyone?

\h\hWe’ll all join Milo soon, anyway.

Where is Milo?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h I-- I told you, he’s...

he’s gone home.

\h\h\h\h\h You told me a lie.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hNot like that’s the first time.

She’s-- she’s-- \h\hshe’s drunk.

I’m not drunk.

Even the little things \h\h\h\h\h\hupset her.

\h\hShe-- she can’t even watch the news.

Look who’s grown \ha conscience.

\h\h\h\h\hYou know, dating a good person

doesn’t make you \h\h\h\hone too.

Seriously?

Now?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h Being a decent human being

\h\hdoesn’t work by association.

You would know.

\h\h\hActually, no, I wouldn’t.

\h\h\h\h\h\hLook at the company I keep.

I’m going to bed.

\hMaybe I’ll get lucky and fall into a dream.

\hNo offense, but if this really is our last night,

\hyour faces aren’t exactly what I wanna go out seeing.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hI’m pretty sure that was meant to be offensive.

\hI don’t want it to end this way.

I don’t want it \h\h\h\hto end.

Say something.

Say something!

You’re the only person \h\h\h\h\hI have left.

You know who was there for me \h\h\h\hwhen I was diagnosed?

George.

Bateman.

Your lawyer?

Every event in my life,

important or not...

\hhe’s the only one that’s been there.

\hBut does it even count...

\h\hwhen the only person who’s been there for you

\h\h\his only there because your family paid him to be?

When you’ve been cheating \h\h\hdeath for so long...

\h\h\hsurfing the line between for so long...

you begin to see things \h\h\hthat others don’t.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hYou wanna know what I see about you, Ellen?

\hI see that you’re in the wrong room,

because I’m not the only one \h\h\h\h\h\h\hyou have left.

Shouldn’t you be \h\hwith your families?

Shouldn’t you?

\hWell, aren’t we just a herd of black sheep?

\h\h\h-

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hMy hero. Always so protective.

\h\h\h\h\hMy parents were like that too.

Always telling me what I should do.

What’s expected.

I feel like...

like I never \h\hgrew up.

I still feel \hlike that.

\h\h\hThat scared kid scared of everything.

Of myself.

But the funny thing is-- \h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h

It’s really \h\hso funny that...

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hIt’s so funny how I don’t even know who I am.

I don’t even know what that means.

\h\hThey always told me that it didn’t matter...

that I don’t matter.

But the problem is...

The problem is when you don’t know who you are,

\h\hyou start to feel like you don’t exist.

Ellie?

I was just gonna, uh, \h\hgo to the bathroom.

Me too.

\h\h\h\hI’ve always wanted a girlfriend.

You’ve never had \ha girlfriend?

I’ve never really had friends.

So that’s one hell of a date you got there.

Hm, yeah.

\h\h\h\h\h\hWait, what do you mean?

Well, you know, I mean, \h\h\h\hit’s just not...

It’s not what you \h\hreally go for.

\h\hWell, I mean, that’s the point.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h So what did you see, loser?

Nothing I already didn’t know.

\h\h I don’t even lie.

\h\h All right. Okay.

There. Done.

-Surprise, surprise. \h-Yeah.

Ray, it’s hard to start.

Oh, lambchop.

Lambchop.

Is that mine?

\hYou fucking little freeloader.

\hAll up in my shit, tripping on my shit.

What fucking good \hare you anyway?

Hey?

\h\h\h\h\hDid I tell you why I call you Lambchop?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h-Yeah, Ma. -Shut your fucking mouth!

\h\h\hDid I say you could speak?

Sit down!

\hI said sit down! Sit your ass down!

This is my story.

My story.

One night,

one shitty fucking night,

while I was walking home \h\h\h\hfrom university,

walking down this

this shitty ass street...

...when I heard you,

\h\h\h\ha tiny, tiny little baby crying.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h No, no, wailing, wailing.

\h\h\h\h\hI heard you wailing like a lamb being slaughtered.

\h\hAnd-- and what did I do?

What did I do?

\h\h\h\hI asked you a goddamn question!

What did I do?

You took me in.

That’s right.

I...

took you in.

Every inch of your life,

every ounce of your being

\h\h\h\h\h\h\his only there because I allowed it to be.

Don’t you forget that.

\h\hI should have left you where I fucking found you.

They don’t pay me enough \h\h\h\h\hfor this shit.

\h\h\hRaised you on my own dime.

No one helped me.

\h\h\h\hThat’s what you get for trying to help somebody.

Fuck off!

Nothing.

Nada...

is what I should have \h\h\h\h\h\hnamed you.

\hI tried to name you after someone great.

\h\hTried to give you a chance, that’s all.

\h\h\h\h\h\hBut nada’s what you’ll always be.

I can’t change \hyour destiny.

Not yet anyway.

\h\h-

\h\h\hYour mom’s out on the couch again.

\hShe can’t move much these days.

\hCircle of life, huh? The mother becomes the baby?

-Soon, you’re wiping her ass. \h\h\h\h\h\h-I don’t think so.

Tell my cousin that.

It happens to all of us.

No, not me.

\h\h\h\h\hI-- I think that’s enough of that.

So fucking Lincoln.

\h\h\h\h\h\hAlways thinks he’s above everyone else.

-No, that’s not true. \h\h\h\h\h-No?

No.

I just don’t want to be \h\hlike everyone else.

\hOh, so you don’t want special treatment, then?

Guess you wouldn’t want \h\h\hthese test answers

for next week’s final.

Guess you wouldn’t \h\h\hwant these.

\h\h-You know the deal. -It’s all on the table.

-It’s all I have. -It’s not enough.

I can get you more

at a party tonight.

So, you’re coming or what?

\h\h\hHon, it wouldn’t be a party without me.

Are you okay?

You don’t gotta do \h\ha taste test.

\h\h\h\h\h\hYou should not gonna know the difference

after half a 12-pack.

\h\h\hBut unless you wanna prolong your pain in hers,

\h\hI would recommend doing a different type of poison.

An entire pharmacy at your fingertips.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hWhy plan a murder when you’ve got a suicide note?

Apathetic.

Go with the benzos.

They’re perfect for a drunk \h\h\h\h\hwith a death wish.

I missed you.

I missed you too.

It doesn’t matter.

Yes, it does.

Why won’t you tell me?

There’s nothing to tell.

You’re sick, Corey.

Do I look sick?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hOh!

\h\h\h\h\hTrying to keep all the fun to yourself.

Are you?

Two tickets...

to Wonderland, my lady.

Whoa! Wait up.

So, where’s the snow at?

You’ve got it.

Nah, this is that heavy shit \h\hwe did at Linc’s place.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hI want them Winter Wonder Dreams, baby.

Oh, baby.

\h\h\h\h\hYou and the clink over there may rule your...

\hwhatever shithole you guys are from.

When you’re in my house,

know when to shut up.

\h\h\h This is the one?

Yeah, \h\h\hwould that be?

\hYou really don’t know, do you?

You’re really that cliché?

You daddy’s boys \h\hare all the fucking same.

\h\h\h\h\hFancy and empty, just like this sweet pad.

Isn’t this supposed to be \h\h\h\ha birthday party?

Pretty sweet birthday party. \h\h\hNo family, no friends.

He has friends. He has us.

Does he really?

Are you really?

So, prove it.

\h\h-A game of True Blue. -No, I don’t do that shit.

You was about to do that shit with your missus just before.

\h\h\h\h That was different.

\h\h\h\h\h\hWhy? Because your shithole is shinier than ours?

\h\h\h\h\h\hYou think you’re better than us?

He didn’t say that.

Nah, but he meant it, though. \h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hHe meant it.

\h\h\h\hThere’s always exceptions to you lot.

Rules to suit you.

\h\h\h\h\h And so, what if we do?

What’s it to you, huh?

\h\h\h\hDo I tell you how to live your life?

Do I get in your face and remind you of all

the shit that you were born \h\h\hwith and wanna forget?

\h\h\h\h\h I think I remember you

doing exactly that.

Give me the snow.

\h\h\h\h-It’s yours.

Ladies first.

One for me.

Any day?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hSorry, I didn’t see you there.

Sweet dreams.

Shoot. Candles.

\h\h\h\hCan’t have a birthday without a wish?

I recommend the milk.

Takes care of the booze.

Then, no, thanks.

I must have left one in.

Must have.

-I’m not wearing pants? \h\h\h\h\h\h-Oh, sorry.

\h\hThis night has brought a lot of things to light,

don’t you think?

Sorry.

Um...

you-- you-- you see things differently.

I can tell.

\h\hYou see things that others don’t.

\h\h\hYou get like that when you grow up alone.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hYou have a lot of time to watch.

Watch what?

Others live.

\h\h\h\h\h\hHad any joy they feel, that freedom.

\hThat freedom of being carefree.

I used to envy them.

I wanna be them.

Pretend to be them.

\h\hBut I knew deep down to be really like them,

that would come \hwith a price.

\h\h\hWho would have thought you and I would be so alike?

Right?

Clare?

\h\h\h\hYou and I are nothing alike.

♪

Sweet dreams.

Core?

\h\h Big boys don’t cry.

\h\hDon’t cry. Don’t cry. Don’t cry...

Where’s the cake?

You can’t have a birthday \h\h\h\h\hwithout a wish.

\h\h\h\h\h\hNot that there’s much point.

\h\h\h\hWe all know what you’d wish for.

\h\h And what’s that?

To be like me.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hAll boys want to be like their fathers.

And most do.

Most boys turn into men... \h\h\h\h\h\h\hbut not you.

You’re too soft.

\h\h\h\h\h\hNo wonder she’ll never love you.

No one will.

You got it all wrong, Dad.

No one really wants to be \h\h\h\hlike their father.

Because we know \h\hdeep down...

they’re losers.

We just don’t have the heart \h\h\h\hto break it to them.

\h\h\h\h\hWe know how they look at us like their second chance.

Their last hope.

It’s fucking pathetic.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h I never wanna be like you.

Say it.

Say it and I’ll stop.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hThey say all will fear two days.

\h\h\h\h\h\hThe day we get everything we have coming.

The day our secrets \h\h\hare laid bare.

It’s her.

♪

No.

No.

What the fuck \hdid you do?

Me?

For once in your life,

just admit to it, take some \h\hfucking responsibility!

\h\h\h-Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! -I didn’t fucking do anything!

\h\h\hWhat the fuck, man? You’ll never do anything!

You never do anything!

\h\hYou look at me like I disgust you

\hbut you’re just fucking like me.

Just like me.

\h\h\h\hYou’re so scared of being like him, man.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h-Like who? -You deadbeat dad.

\h\hYou’re scared of being a nobody.

Not knowing the further you go \h\h\h\hto try to be somebody,

the further you get \h\h\hfrom yourself.

\h\h\hHell, you’re so-- you’re so far from who you are, man,

you can’t even see \hyourself no more.

\h\h\hI may have ended his life,

\hbut I wasn’t the one who stopped his heart.

Ellie, please.

Please.

Josh?

Josh was dead...

long before me.

\h\h\h\hHe never wanted to live.

\hNo, he fucking lived to forget.

Tell them.

\h\h\h\hTell them what he was like.

\h\hGet the fuck over here! Tell them what he was like!

How he only lived for those trips?

Those fucking pills \hand nothing more!

Some of us are just not \hmeant for this world.

Do you ever wonder what your life would have been like

if you were someone else?

\h\h\h\h\hIf you had different parents...

different friends...

a different chance.

What would you do

if you could set \hyour own fate?

What would you do to those \hthat stood in your way?

\hShe is the reason why we’re all here.

\h\h\h\h\hAnd why we soon won’t be.

Grab his feet.

-Core? \h\h\h\h\h-Somebody.

\h\hWill someone, please, pick up his goddamn feet!

Let’s just go, baby.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hNo, no, we’re not calling anyone...

\hand we’re not going anywhere.

\h\hAnd if any of you try...

\h\hI’ll bring you all down with me.

All of you.

\h\h\h\h\h-Core. -"Core"?

That’s me.

The fucking glue...

the motherfucking spine

\h\h\h\h\hthat holds all of you together.

\h\h\h Don’t do this.

We don’t have \hto do this.

We?

There is no "we."

\hI am as alone as all of you.

We are all alone

in this shitty fucking world.

You’re fucking crazy!

I’m fucking dying!

By the time I’m 40,

I will be in the dark \h\h\hlike all of you.

If I can’t change \h\h\h\hmy fate...

the least I can do \his make it pay.

\h\h\h Corey, please.

"Please, please."

\hI am so fucking over the demure act, Ellen.

\h\h\h\h\hHey, hey, leave her out of it.

Just-- just let her go.

No.

\h\hWhat the fuck is wrong with you, man?

What has she ever done to you, man?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h Is that a fucking joke?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hshe ever done to you?

Huh?

I don’t know.

But I’m not gonna wait \h\h\h\h\hto find out.

Listen to me, okay?

\h\h\h\h\h\hShe’s not who you think she is.

She’s just some girl.

\h\hShe’s just some girl who’s trying to be nice.

Nobody is that nice.

Corey,

\h\h\h\hdon’t do something that you’re gonna regret.

Regret?

\hThe only thing that I regret...

\h\h\his falling in love with some trailer trash

\hthat always needs saving.

Don’t listen to him.

All right?

Look at him, he--

-he’s all fucked up. \h\h-Yeah.

He’s right.

I am all fucked up.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hBut you, my Ellie Bellie, you...

are heartbroken beyond repair.

Ellie, listen to me.

Listen.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hWhat will you be without your scholarships, huh?

\h\h\h\hYour academia, what will you become?

You think about that?

You wanna give up on all that? \h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hRisk all that?

\h\h\h\h\h\h Just leave her alone.

\h\h\h\h\hNo, you-- you stay out of it.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\hListen, Ellie, it’s all-- Listen, come on.

\h\h\h\h\hIt’s all you’ve ever known.

It may be all you’ll ever be, \h\h\h\hbut you’ll never know.

\h\h\h\hYou’ll never know what else you have coming

\h\h\h\h\hif you don’t make the right choice.

You’re unbelievable.

\h\h You wanna go there?

You wanna throw \h\hthat stone?

Look in the fucking \h\hmirror, Lincoln.

\h\h\hNo wonder we ended up here

\h\h\h\h\hhanging out with you for so long.

\hWe should have known you’d bring us down to your level.

Our level?

El?

\h\h\h\hYou mean the level without heroes for fathers

or saints for mothers?

\h\hWe don’t have the perfect family with the perfect lawyer

\h\h\hto bail us out whenever we fuck up!

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hSo, please, just give us a fucking break!

Oh, my God!

You know, I may have \hmore than you have.

\h\h\h\h\hBut seeing as it’s my birthday

\h\h\h\hand this isn’t exactly the first time

my, uh, perfect family \h\hhave missed it...

\h\h\h\h\hI don’t have as much as you think.

But what I do have,

\h\h\hwhat I’ve been gifted with on this special day...

\h\his the realization that the one person...

\h\h\hwho truly knew me and managed to see me...

really see me...

\h\h\h\h\his lying face down in his own fucking blood...

because of me.

And all of you.

♪

\h\h\hWe just wanted to see the real you.

\h\h\hThat’s all we ever wanted.

No.

You wanted retribution.

♪

Clare? Clare?

No.

Don’t.

She’s not like us.

She’s not supposed \h\h\hto be here.

No!

\h\h\h\h\h Hey. Hey. Clare?

Clare? Clare?

No!

She’s not supposed \h\h\hto be here.

\h\h\h\h\h\hWhy? Why’d you do it?

Why do you always \h\hfucking do it?

-What’s your fucking problem? \h\h\h\h-You are the problem!

\h\h\h\hYou made it all of our problem.

Nothing is ever enough \h\h\h\h\h\h\hfor you.

You-- you-- you always have to try every fucking flavor

\h\h\hbecause-- ’cause you can’t decide what you want

’cause-- ’cause you don’t know \h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hwhat you want.

Nothing is ever good \h\henough for Ray.

Nothing ever satisfies Ray.

Core?

\h\hYou will never be enough for him.

But you know what?

\h\hI don’t give a shit anymore.

\h\hYou-- you two deserve each other.

\h\hAlways-- always needing to be saved.

\h\h\hLooking to be redeemed from your fucked up selves.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h-Corey? -There is no redemption.

Not for you...

for any of us.

No!

No!

\h\h\h\h-No!

No!

No!

Why?

Why?

What are you doing?

What are you doing?

\h\h\h\h\h\hIt’s okay. It’s okay. It’s okay.

No, no, no, no, don’t-- \h\h\h\h\h\hLook at me.

\h\h\h\h\h\hLook at me. Look at me. Look at me.

It’s okay. It’s okay.

Ray, look at me. \hStay with me.

Stay with me.

Oh, my God.

\h\h\h\h\h-No. -Clare.

It’s gonna be okay.

El?

El?

Clare?

\h\hYou can’t run from who you are.

\h\h\h\h\h\h-Ellen? -Who you really are.

♪

Core?

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\h Don’t fucking "Core" me, Clare.

You’re only scared \h\hof who you are

\h\h\hbecause you hate who you think you are.

Become your destiny.

♪

♪

♪

\h\h-

We make a pact.

\hToday is a day we never forget.

Today’s all our birthdays.

\h\h\h\h\h\h\h\hFirst day of the rest of our lives.

\hWhen you’re not confined by who you are,

what’s expected of you,

when you can accept that you may very well not even exist,

\h\h\hwhen you understand that none of that matters,

\h\hwhen you know you don’t matter,

\heverything you do from then on becomes nothing but true.

And it is then \hand only then

that you’ll see that destiny \hthat you were so afraid of

reveal itself to you \h\hin its entirety.

So, what do you see?

\h\h\h\hAnd as you watch as the world gets razed,

as your own self \h\hgets erased,

\h\h\h\h\hmaking way for a new tomorrow,

clearing the way \hfor what could,

what should be...

you smile.

♪

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