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Gort, berenga.

Those are what our turnouts
should look like.

Silver space suits.

They'd strike fear into
the heart of everyone around.

Looks like Sullivan.

It does.

Um, I'm gonna go make
some popcorn.

Thank you.

Yeah.
Nice!

Right.
Okay, so, look...

- Are you...
- I know we've talked about this already,

but are you sure you don't
want me to come with you...

- Oh, God.
- ...tomorrow for the pill

and just
kind of all of it?

- Think about it. Think about it.
- Mm-hmm.

I'd probably make
the world's...

best abortion doula.

See? See?

- Who other than the world's
best abortion doula... - Thank you.

- ...would know that you need a
dark joke right now? - Thank you.

And I agree. I think you'd be
the absolute...

best person in the world
for this,

but, um, I just... Okay, then
I'll call out for tomorrow then.

No. I love you.
I just...

I think
this is probably something

that Theo and I need
to do...

Yeah. Theo accused me
of avoiding

my own messed up relationship
by getting

too involved in yours.

I have no idea
what he could possibly mean.

Do you think I have not noticed
that you can't...

You can't stand to be
alone with him? Shh.

I'm... I haven't talked to you
about it

because you haven't said
anything about it,

so I figured
you weren't... ready

- Okay, I haven't talked to you about it
- or whatever.

Because you've kind of had
a lot going on,

or you would have said something
because you're not

the "wait till I'm ready"
kind of friend.

Well, that's true, so do you
want to talk about it now?

No, thank you.
We can.

Call me tomorrow if you need me.
I love you.

Okay.

I mean, it was the ordering
in Spanish,

heavy on that Castilian
accent, but... Well, I...

It's a Spanish restaurant.

...I'll give it
a 7 out of 10.

Get out of here!
Seven?

Seven.
Seven?

Seven.

Boquerones.

Gazpacho.

Gazpacho!

That's how you say it.

I am glad that
we finally did this, though.

Oh, you know, technically,
we've done this before.

Mm. That's when we were
actually doing this.

How do you define
"this"?

You didn't want
to define it.

No, no. I-I-I thought about you for
years, okay? Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.

Don't... Do you think the only
reason why things were easy

when we were together is because
we were in an actual war?

No. No.

I think...

...we're just
good together.

Hmm. Oh, damn it.
Okay. Sorry.

No, no, no, it's not you.
Just... Beckett. What?

Beckett.

Oh, wow, fancy running
into you two together. Hey.

Well, I'm sitting down
with leadership

across the department.

Yeah?
Looking forward.

I'm sure someone from my office
will be reaching out.

Wow,
that's quite a haul.

Oh, yeah, otherwise, I'd just
have to come here every day.

You know.

I'm kidding, Chief.

I'm gonna go home,
drown my sorrows,

and look forward
to your phone call.

Night-night.

That wasn't good.

No, it wasn't.

*STATION19*
Season 05 Episode 11

Episode Title:
"The Little Things You Do Together"

Aired on:
March 10, 2022.

He's a Danish expat, so
generations of great healthcare.

He is...
"Type A in the best way."

He rows crew, and he's
an award-winning Archer.

Uh, and mine...

Mine is literally
a genius.

The guy is Mensa.

And look. His baby picture
looks like Andrea.

You get to carry,
and it's gonna be your egg.

Shouldn't I get to win
this one?

Wait, do you wanna be... do you
wanna be the one that carries?

No.
I am not saying that.

I'm just saying...
I don't know what I'm saying.

You know,
I just like my pick better.

Besides, there's no guarantee
that it'll be a genius

if we go with yours.
Exactly.

So, what does it actually matter
which of the two we pick?

Well, if it doesn't matter

why don't we just go
with mine?

Are we back to step one?

No. No. No.

We're not. We're not.

But I am late for shift,
and so are you.

So we will talk
about this later.

I love you.

Thanks for the coffee.

Pleasure.

What? Just wanted
to let you know,

I had my final session
with Diane yesterday,

so I should be good
to go on calls now.

When Diane calls
and tells me that,

you will be.

And, uh, I also want
to say thank you, Captain,

for not writing me up
about the sutures.

I understand now
that it was wrong.

Do I seem like
a guidance counselor

in an after-school special,
Warren?

I don't need
your lip service.

Just fix it
and be better.

Trouble only becomes bigger
trouble if you don't face it,

so don't let this little slip up
define the rest of your career,

or the end of it.

Appreciate it, sir.
Mm-hmm.

Captain.

Herrera.

Nice to have you
on shift.

Not gonna have trouble
keeping you in line

like I do former Captains Bishop
and Sullivan, am I?

No, sir.
I'm a team player.

Good. I know that Hughes
appreciates you subbing for her.

Cap... Sean?

Never mind.

I'll...
I'll see you at lineup.

Hey.

What are you doing?

Well, that's
a nice way to greet a friend.

Uh, I'm subbing for Hughes
as a favor.

No, no, I mean,
what are you doing in there?

I told you that
in confidence.

Yeah, well, that was
your second mistake.

Well, at least
he's not a grieving coworker

with a boyfriend.
Shut up.

How do you...
Nobody knows that.

How do you know that?
Hughes told me,

so I'll shut up about yours
if you shut up about mine.

Well, I'm not really sure
what one talks about

when they're waiting
for their abortion to show up.

Hi. Sorry I'm late.
It's okay.

So, um, I'm gonna have
to do a vaginal ultrasound

one last time.
Okay.

Uh, fine, but, uh,
no thank you on seeing it.

- Of course.
- Yeah.

And volume off.

Okay.
All set.

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Are you ready?

Yeah.

A woman

You're showtuning?

Now?
Was well worthwhile

to wear mascara

a woman's smile

Okay.

We're all set.

Okay.

Any chance you were super wrong
and there's nothing in there?

You're officially
at five and a half weeks.

What I'm gonna give you now
is mifepristone.

What this does is stop
any growth

in the pregnancy
immediately.

And because of your recent
medical adventure...

I would like for you
to hang out here for one hour.

I want to check your blood
pressure before you go home.

Okay?
Okay.

Here.
Thanks.

Also, page me
if you feel sick at all.

If you vomit,
you risk to lose the medication

before it takes effect.

Well, we wouldn't
want that, so...

I'll take that.

Mm.
Thanks.

I'll be back in a bit.

So, what wine do you think
pairs best with an abortion?

I'm thinking, like,
earthy red, right?

It's gotta be.

Vic. Stop.

Hey.

It's just us.

Okay?

You don't have to do
your jokey thing.

Okay, well, my jokey thing
is who I am,

so if you want...

you can go.
No.

No. I'm... I'm good.

Okay.

- Hey.
- Hey.

- How are you feeling?
- Terrific.

Yeah, great.

Good. As long as everything
looks good,

I'm gonna give you
the second sequence of pills.

Misoprostol.

It's four tablets
that you will take

in a few hours
when you're home.

You know
the buccal method?

Uh, the thing
where I let it melt

in my cheek
for half an hour?

Exactly.
Yeah.

It will cause your uterus
to contract

and shed its lining
and any contents.

Okay.
It will last a day or two,

and it's similar
to a heavy period.

Do you have any questions?

Uh, no. No.
I'm... I'm good.

Okay.
Everything looks good.

If anything feels off,

and I mean anything,
you can call me.

Okay?
You have my number?

Yes. Promise.
Promise.

I'll make sure she does.
Yeah.

Okay.

Thanks, Doc.

That was
kinda anticlimactic.

Um... it seems like
it's just gonna be

a lot of sitting around
from here on out,

so you... you should
probably just go home.

No, I'm gonna... I'm gonna
sit around with you.

Seriously, I'll...
I'll be fine.

She said
it's just like a heavy period.

Yeah, I know what she said,
but...

Well, I've been doing
some reading, and...

Oh, okay.
So, you and your penis

are gonna tell me and my OB
how a medical abortion works?

That's...

Um... I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.
That was... reflex snark.

I just meant, if you...

you don't have to...

Yeah, well, I'm telling you,
for the 10th time,

I want to.

Thanks.

Warren. Hey.
We lost one truck this year.

Can we maybe be nice
to this one?

Now even the most menial parts
of my job are up for discussion.

I thought you had your...
Your Diane time.

Shouldn't your head
be fixed?

Those sessions were a waste of a
perfectly qualified firefighter.

Yeah, if you're
this angry still, they were.

Okay, look,
I don't need help, alright?

I didn't need help.

I-I'm not repressing anger,
I'm not transferring grief,

and I'm not doing things
out of guilt.

Yet you're yelling at work
and at your lieutenant.

Warren, I'm not trying
to pull rank.

I'm just saying
that something's still up.

Okay, everyone in this building
is a mess,

but I'm the only one
in trouble.

I'm j...

Hey.

I thought he was
talking to Diane.

Yeah, well, I guess
it didn't quite take.

Hey, um,
you seen, uh, Beckett?

No, not since
this morning's lineup.

I get it.
Our gym is way better than 23's.

Still feels weird
having you here as a sub.

Yeah,
tell me about it.

I still think if we hadn't
stormed McCallister's office,

you might actually be
captain of 19 by now.

So, we're down to two
in the donor search.

Oh. Yay.

Not yay?

I hate her final pick,
and she hates mine.

Okay.
Not "hate" in either case,

but why can't it
just be my pick?

'Cause it's not just
your baby.

Exactly!
And it's not just hers.

I mean, she's carrying
and it's gonna be her egg,

and now she wants to use
donor sperm from a guy

who looks just like
her brother.

I mean, this baby is gonna be
100% DeLuca and zero Bishop.

Do you want
to use your egg?

No. And I don't
particularly want to be

a pregnant person right now,
either,

but I just wish
it had both of us,

not just her
and some rando.

Wait.

Do you really think
I'd be captain by now?

I mean, yeah.

If I had promoted
to Battalion Chief

like I was on track to,
you were next in line.

Well, technically, Bishop,
you jumped her in line.

I'm gonna shut up now.

Crisis One
to 2046 Center Street.

That's me.
Me, too.

Hey, hope you find
your sperm.

Okay.

So, I got three kinds
of chocolates,

beef jerky, uh...
Thank you.

...nacho cheese and ranch,
and...

Mmm!

I thought you were gonna wait
for me to get back.

Okay, well,
it's been four hours,

so... I didn't.

Seriously?

You're gonna be mad at me because
I didn't wait for you to take a pill?

You know, you have seen me
do it already today.

Alright, it's not just a pill.
It's a very specific...

You know, why don't you
want me in your life?

You keep finding ways
to, you know, whittle me down

and shut me out,
and, uh,

I mean, damn,
I'm in this relationship, too.

What relationship?

'Cause if I hadn't found out
I was pregnant,

we wouldn't have spoken to each
other in almost two weeks.

I don't...
Yeah, that's because

you just decided
you were done with me.

Theo,
I didn't decide anything.

I told you about...
About Gibson,

and then you walked away.

Wha... I didn't walk
away. You pushed me.

Okay. Well, I guess
it didn't take much.

So, I don't know what...
Wow. Wow.

Okay.

You know, you can rewrite
that story all you want,

but the fact is,

you did everything you could
to make sure you were alone.

And now all I'm trying to do is
be there for you through this,

despite my own feelings,

because that's what you do
when you love someone.

What... And you won't
even let me do that.

What are
your own feelings?

Doesn't matter,
apparently.

No, it does...
It does matter.

It does matter,
because I would like to know,

what are your feelings?
No. No, you wouldn't.

Because if you did,
you would have already asked.

God.

Go away!

I'm fine.

This is my house.

Okay. I understand that, sir,
but a neighbor called

and said you were pacing
and yelling on the lawn.

I was,
but I'm not now.

I'm in my car,
at my house.

Is that a crime?

We're not cops.

What are you, EMTs?
Firefighters?

I'm not hurt,
and there's no fire.

You wanna tell me
why you're upset?

Not particularly.

Please leave.
This is between me and my wife.

Your wife?
Is she home?

Far as I know.

Hey.

How about
we give her a call?

Together?
Please?

Thank you.

Harry, enough of this.

For God sake, I'm at work.

The neighbors are texting,

saying you're causing a scene
and j...

No. Hey.
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa!

Harry! Harry, wait!
Don't do that!

Don't do that, Harry!

Harry, don't do that!

Harry!

Harry!
Open this door, Harry!

Do not try any of those
theatrics or I will light...

Whoa.
The guy ready

to set himself on fire
is calling out theatrics.

I see the irony.

I said go away!

Step back!

Okay. Hey. Harry.

Harry, if you open the door,
we can keep talking

and you won't pass out
from the fumes, okay?

I'll open the window.

Are those power windows?
Wait.

Because you can't turn
the car on

if you have a puddle of gasoline
at your feet, okay?

Just... open the door,
Harry.

Okay.

Alright.

What do you do for work,
Harry?

I know this schtick.

Asking me mundane questions
is not going to stop me

from doing
what needs to be done.

What is it
that needs to be done?

I'm a scholar.

Which is a pretentious word
for underpaid teacher.

I decided to answer
your first question.

What do you teach?

I wrote my dissertation
on Noel Coward.

"We have no reliable guarantee
that the afterlife

will be any less exasperating
than this one,

have we?"

And yet...

here I am,
stupidly trying my odds.

Um, come, come.

We need to call the engine
before this man

lights himself
on fire.

Well, if a bunch of cop cars
and a fire truck show up,

it could spook him
into dropping that lighter.

Yeah, but if the engine comes,
we can at least hose him down.

Well, let Trav talk to him
for a minute,

see if he can get him
to put the lighter down.

Run him a turnout. I'm not
putting my firefighter at risk.

Go.

Additional backup needed.

Requesting Engine 19
to 2046 Center Drive.

No lights, no sirens.
I repeat, no lights, no sirens.

What are we studying
today? Bylaws.

So, I'm thinking
of ordering out for dinner.

Anybody know a good
Spanish tapas place around here?

Hey, uh, Bishop, you've, uh,
read the bylaw manual

forwards and backwards,
right?

What are...
Just hypothetically,

what would be
the exact process

if a firefighter was suspected
of drinking on the job?

You should know,
Fire Zaddy.

Wait. That was
for drug abuse, not drinking.

My bad. The firefighter
would immediately be asked

to submit
to an alcohol test.

Ooh.
Depending on the results,

there would be
administrative leave

and possible termination
following an investigation.

Now, that sound
really serious.

What would the process be
if a lieutenant were found

to have traded sexual favors
for his position?

Oh...
I'm kidding, Bishop.

It's just, uh,
hypothetical.

Right, Sully?

What was that?

Just an inside joke
we got going on.

He's funny.

See? We could pick a donor
and that donor

could end up being Beckett.

Engine 19 requested
to 2046 Center Street.

Yeah, the... the book said

walking is good
for the cramps.

The book?

Yeah, dude,
I read a book,

and maybe the whole Internet
to prepare for today.

So, you said
you had feelings... about this.

Does that mean you wish
I was having it?

No.

I mean, I'd be lying
if I said I hadn't had

the stray thought
that you'd make a good mom.

But... no.

I think I might wanna be a mom
one day.

Maybe.

So, what are
your feelings?

It's just...
It's just sad, I guess.

Oh.

You know, ever since I...

Ever since
I started having sex,

I always thought that
if I got pregnant,

I would sprint straight to the
abortion clinic, no question,

but this is...

I don't know.
This is hard.

It's harder
than I thought it would be,

and the hard part
hasn't even started yet.

Because it's all
just hard parts.

My mom had one.

Right after my dad died
in the line of duty,

she found out
she was pregnant.

She's Catholic.

Like, my whole family is
really Catholic. Mm-hmm.

But she couldn't get out of bed
at that point,

so devastated
by losing my dad.

Not to mention,
now she was a single mom

and didn't know how
she was gonna take care of me.

I was a kid.

I-I didn't totally know
what was doing on.

But I remember a lot of crying
in the house.

You know, my aunts told her
that God took my dad

and gave her this baby,

and that an abortion
would be more loss

to the family.

And they, uh... they said they
would help her take care of it.

They kept saying
it would be okay.

But my mom
just kept crying.

And one morning,
she left really early,

and when she came home,

my aunts just stopped
talking to her.

You know, I tried to tell her
that it wasn't a sin.

Because, you know,
in the actual Bible,

Jesus is forgiving,
right?

Says, "Let he who is without sin
cast the first stone."

Honestly, I don't think
she ever forgave herself,

even after my aunties
started talking to her again,

even after she started
going to church...

Hey, hey, hey.

Alright, come on.

Come on, let's get
you home. Okay.

It's alright.
I got you.

Can you, uh... Can you play
some music or something?

- What kind?
- I dunno.

Uh, happy music.

Is the pain
really bad?

Well, you and your penis
were right.

This is way worse
than a heavy period.

Well, worse how?

I don't know. I don't know.
I don't know.

Try shoving a pinky finger
up your urethra.

Yeah, yeah

Hey, uh, when did you lose
your virginity?

- Me?
- Yeah.

Uh... 15.

You?

16.

Was it... you know,
nice?

Uh... no.

Not really. No.

You?

Not really.

Or heart-to-heart

Do you need anything?

Yeah,
I need you to sing.

Like, loudly.

What?

Well, you're a...

You know,
you're a horrible singer,

and I know
you know that.

I just... I need you to feel
a little teeny-tiny bit

as humiliated as I do right now,
so I need you...

Why do you
feel humiliated?

I mean, you have absolutely
no reason to feel...

Just sing! Sing!

Yeah, yeah

how you do it now

yeah...

It's like clots.
It's like a lot of...

it's like a lot
of blood clots.

It's pretty gory.

That's normal.

Yeah.

I realized whenever I have
a sharp pain,

it's a clot trying
to pass

through my cervix.
Through your cervix.

Yeah.

Where they wanna go

You did read a book.

Two, actually.

Hey, Vic?

Yeah?

I...

I'm gonna make
some tea.

Okay.

What is happening?

- Harry.
- Why are they here?

Harry, it's just a precaution.
It's okay.

You are making
a scene!

Harry! Listen to me!
Listen to me!

Look, I'm not gonna
let anyone near you,

but you gotta work
with me here.

Please.
Help me understand.

What is it
that you want to do here?

It's not
what I want to do.

I'd rather still be happily
married, but here we are.

Okay, so this is
about your wife?

My ex-wife,
as of yesterday.

We've been married
for 25 years.

Yesterday, she wakes up
and tells me it's over.

It was a long time coming,
she says.

News to me.

I didn't even know
there was anything wrong.

That sounds...
That's awful, Harry.

If she was feeling like there
was something not working,

breaking, broken,

why didn't she
say anything to me?

She had
all these thoughts

and made all these decisions
all by herself.

But she had a partner.

I thought
we were partners.

Why wasn't I a part
of any of it,

any of these
conversations?

She had left me
yesterday,

but when did she
really leave me, hmm?

In her mind, you know?

Six months ago?

A year?

10 years?

I have no idea.

I have no idea
about anything anymore.

What did the last 25 years
of my life even mean?

Harry, you want to get her back?
You want to make a point?

Do you want
to punish her?

Yes.

I mean,
no, of course not.

I don't know.

I just think that I need
to do something

only I control
and she has no say in.

She'll see how it feels,
maybe.

There are other ways to take
back control of your life.

Ways where
you don't get hurt

or hurt other people.
I should just do it.

I-I-I don't even know
why I'm waiting... No.

Harry, wait, wait.

Okay, just stay with me, okay?
Just for a second.

Just keep talking to me,
just for a second, alright?

And maybe just...

Maybe just step
out of the car for me.

Please.

Please.

Fine.

You don't understand
what this is like.

You just don't, because
if you did... if you did...

I do.

Harry, I do.

I understand more
than I wish I did, actually.

Someone's done this
to you?

No.

I've done that to someone.

I'm... I'm doing that
to someone now.

I'm falling out of love
with someone,

and... and not giving him or us
the opportunity

to do anything about it,
because...

Because I'm walking around
like it's all about me,

and...
And that's not right.

I didn't get it.

I didn't even really get
what I was...

What I was doing to him, Harry,
so thank you.

Thank you,
because I've been unfair

and unkind,
and that is so selfish,

and I am so sorry.

And if your wife knew
and understood all this,

she would be
so sorry, too.

I'm sure of it.

It's engraved.

Another Coward quote.

Can I see it?

"Marriage is
the aftermath of love."

Funny thing to engrave
on a wedding present,

which it was.

From her.

Less funny the day
after she leaves you.

Hey, Harry.

Come on.

Let's get you checked out.

No. Don't do that.
Harry!

Go!
Get the hose on him!

And I'm not okay

Be honest,
how bad was that?

I mean, you handled
our patient

and that completely bizarre call
pretty well.

So, Crisis One part
was a win.

But public display
of your darkest feelings

about your relationship?

Am I a horrible person?

You're not
a horrible person.

Hey, uh, I didn't mean
to bring up old crap earlier

with you and Bishop.

No, it's not old crap.

It's actually
very relevant crap,

because I am still
in a never-ending game

of musical chairs,

which I've realized
is a game of my own doing.

Anyway, call Emmett.
Be honest.

Be sorry.

And it'll be okay.

Hey, um, I...

I owe you all
an apology.

Look, I-I've been acting
as if, you know,

setting myself on fire
won't take out every one of you.

Been trying to control
what I can control.

I mean, and Miller...

We couldn't control it,

fix it, or... save him.

You know.

It really is just,
you know...

Everything seems like
it's an inch past

my grasp at the moment,

which is worse than if
it was completely unreachable,

because you're like,
"If I was a little bit stronger,

wiser, faster,"

so you, uh,
you start thrashing, you know,

to try and gain
on that inch,

take running starts
to try and hurdle that inch,

and you jump,

and, uh, all that gets you is...
Is injured out.

So, I'm... I'm gonna stop,

stop thrashing and swinging,

running and jumping.

See?
Therapy works.

Did you need something?

How 'bout a truce?

Look, have I been...

Have I been hitting the bottle
a little hard lately?

I have. It's been a rough couple
months around here.

Maybe I've knocked a few
too many back on my down time,

but I would never drink
on the job.

Then why is there whiskey
in your office?

What... What the hell
were you doing in my office?

Huh?

You spying on me
for your girlfriend?

She's not my girlfriend.

All I know
is what I saw.

I have no proof
of any foul play.

But you don't, either.

Right?

So, if you talk to the chief
before I do,

be a doll
and tell her I'm free

any day except Wednesday
for our dinner.

I have a date.

Don't worry.
She's a flight attendant.

Hey.

It's all warmed up.

You got, uh, painkillers
right here,

water, chocolate.

You doing okay?

You know, I never didn't
want you in my life, Theo.

I didn't...

I didn't want
to be in my own life.

I wanted my life
to leave me alone,

and...

...I just shut everything out,
and...

when Miller...
When Miller died,

it was...

It was like Lucas had died
all over again.

It was like all...

All this grief was
just living in...

Inside of my cells
and it was reactivated

and it pulled me down
through a time portal,

and I was...

I was grieving
Miller and Lucas,

and...

...and my grandma

and my...
My drama teacher,

and now this new...

...this new...

...grief...

It's grief for something
I didn't... I don't even want,

but my body
is still grieving and...

...and these hormones
are just...

They're having a frat party
inside of me,

and it's making it impossible
to get a handle on any of it.

Theo,
I'm s... I'm sorry.

I'm s... I'm so...
I'm so sorry I... I hurt you.

Okay.

I'm s...

Hey, when do you
have Pru next?

Today.
Supposed to be doing a handoff,

but the Millers
are late.

- Mm.
- You know, not to be a bitch,

but they shouldn't have her
at all.

Well, if saying
that makes you a bitch,

then my wife
is one serious...

Hey, hey, hey,
don't... don't say it.

I mean,
gotta get rich somehow.

Might as well do it
saving lives.

Ben!
Andy!

Ahh!
I missed you!

Hi. Hi.
Sorry we're late.

No, no, no, it's fine.

But, um... who are you?

Oh, my God.

Yes. I'm Anna,

Pru's part-time nanny
and best friend.

Best friend!

Alright, it's, um...

I didn't realize that
the Millers had hired a nanny.

I went to school with Yemi
way back when,

and the Millers
have been struggling,

so they asked me
to help.

Anyway, I'd love to stay
and chat,

but I'm late
for rehearsal.

I'm in a band.

A terrible band.

Nice meeting you all.

- Nice meeting you, too.
- Bye, Anna.

The Millers hired
a nanny?

Yeah, a hot nanny,
right?

Yeah, well, this is
out of my control.

Yeah.
Alright, say bye, Pru.

- Okay.
- Bye.

- Bye.
- Bye-bye.

- Bye.
- Bye.

Is there an app
or something

that helps you find
the messiest,

most complicated option
in a nearby radius?

Well, what do you mean,
messy?

You just met her.
That is judgmental.

You... That...
She's Pru's nanny.

Oh. S-She works
for the Millers,

and you're one to talk.

Oh, it's exactly
why I should talk.

If I didn't sleep
with the captain of 19,

I'd still be at 19.

In fact, I-I might even be
the captain of 19.

Are we talking about, uh,
Sullivan or Beckett?

Exactly.

What is wrong with us?

Us? When... When did this become
a we thing?

Because it is a we thing.

We keep doing this,

and we need to quit it.

We need
to grow the hell up.

Hmm.
We can fix this, Jack.

L-L-Let's be each other's
fix-it buddies, hmm?

Help each other stop sleeping
around with messy people.

What, like,
sleep with each other?

By not sleeping
with each other,

or anyone else.

You sound like Diane.

Oh, please, don't tell me
you've hit on Diane, too?

No. God, no.
I would.

Yeah.
Yeah. I know you would.

Because we both confuse
almost everything for lust,

which we them confuse
for love.

She keeps saying
a period of abstinence

will, um, help me
break the cycle,

then clear my head.
And?

And I've literally
done everything she suggested,

except that one.

That's...
That's impossible.

What else
are we supposed to do?

I don't know.
We can go on walks.

Take pottery classes.

I don't know.
Play board games.

Is this you
trying to convince me?

Alright. Yes.

- No sex.
- And no flirting.

- No flirting?
- That's half the problem.

Alright.

But you can't
do that face anymore.

That one.

No, he made a litany
of bad calls,

and his anger...

Well, that doesn't mean
he's drinking on the job.

The bottle
was in his office.

Well, most drunks
just like to know

the bottle is near.

Have you told Natasha
about your suspicions?

No.
She's the Chief.

If I tell her,
I'm reporting him.

Then he exposes us.

No, having her
back in my life...

It's the best thing that's
happened to me in a long time.

Look, she promoted me
based on a history as a soldier

and what she knows
I'm capable of.

And this scumbag
is accusing me of...

Of trading
sexual favors?

I thought
you aren't sleeping with her.

I'm not.

Yet.

I mean,
I-I would like to.

Then help him get sober.

What?

Look, if he's drinking
on the job,

he's got alcoholism.

You just don't drink
on the job.

Offer the man a hand,

just as a hand
was offered to you, okay?

You do the right thing.

Protect yourself.

It's a win-win.

Hey.

Hi.
Hi.

Since... Since when do you bring
me coffee at work?

I don't want to go with the
genius Mensa donor or the rower.

Just I...
Thinking about our baby

being you
and some random stranger...

No, no, no. No.
It's just...

There's so much out
of our control in that scenario.

I mean, sure, the guys
look great on paper,

and based
on their baby photos,

but how do we know that our baby
isn't gonna grow up

to be some guy
that douses himself

with gasoline
when he doesn't get his way?

Or Beckett?

What?

I want our donor
to be someone we know.

Okay, someone we know,
like your brother?

No.
No, no, no.

I-I really don't need my genes
in there.

I just want to know
more than I know

when I'm buying sperm
from a stranger.

Okay.

Do you have anyone
in mind?

No. But we could
brainstorm together.

Okay.
Okay.

I mean, there is a lot more
to talk about.

No, I know. I know.
And we will.

But I wanted you to know
that it was not all about

me winning
the sperm donor game.

Okay.
We'll talk later?

Mm-hmm.

Hey.
Hey.

How is she?

She's sleeping.

Was it...
Brutal.

Yeah.
She's still kinda going.

But she's good, though.

And you two?

We're good, too.

Yeah?
Yeah.

Alright, careful.

It's hot.

How was your shift?

Well, uh, basically,
I admitted

to falling out of love
with Emmett

during a Crisis One call
in front of about 30 people,

including Emmett,

and now he won't return
my phone calls.

That's a bad shift.

Not great.

Do you want him
to return your calls?

Of course.

I mean, I can't be the guy that
breaks his heart twice, right?

Is that why
you haven't ended it?

Because you don't want to be
the guy?

I mean,
it's a pretty good reason.

Not as good
as you love him,

you know,
you can't live without him,

you'll do anything
to keep him.

Those are reasons, too.

Travis.

Okay, I love him,
alright?

I love him, I love him.

I love him
and I don't want to hurt him.

Then keep calling.

Theo?

Yeah?

I love you.

I love you, too, baby.

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