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Hello?

Hi.

How did it go?

It was crap.

I don't know... It doesn't matter.

We're going to the country house today. Want to come with?

I can't today.

All right. I'll call you later.

I'll come around and get you.

Are you sure?

See you.

Will we take the camera?

Let's go.

Come here.

Look what I found.

I was looking for a tape to erase, or an empty one...

And I found this one.

Take the bread.

Over there.

Where? In this basket?

What are you doing there? Come here!

Come, Margi!

If I take this...

Come here, you!

I'm gonna kill you!

If I ever see you here you'll see, you little shit!

Place it in the fire, at the side...

The squirrel will attack you...

if you try to rip off its balls.

They used to be worth gold!

People would kill the squirrels and took their testicles...

because the price was the same...

Squirrels were extinct in Lithuania.

Why?

- Impotence. - Their testicles were a good remedy.

The Lithuanians used them a lot.

Hello. I'm from the police.

I'm an inspector.

Someone was hunting around here yesterday.

A hunting rifle with a telescopic sight disappeared.

Did you hear anything?

No, we didn't hear anything.

Someone might have come this way.

Did you see any strangers walking near the lake?

I saw one of the neighbours fishing.

You live here?

You didn't see anything suspicious?

Nothing.

It's okay.

I'll leave you my numbers.

Call me if you hear or come up with anything.

Leave it to me.

Thank you.

See you later.

What happened?

I left yesterday.

Went for a walk?

Good beer.

Your feet are freezing.

Talk to me, please.

What do you want me to say?

How do you feel? You never talk to me.

Hey!

Are you listening to me?

Where were you?

Speak!

Are you listening to me?

Stupid cow!

By any chance...

have you lost your tongue?...

Come here!

Come here, I told you!

Come here, I told you!

Are you listening?

Speak!

Speak, you bastard!

You're making me angry...

You scared me.

I didn't mean to.

I went through your house, but you weren't there.

Why are you here?

I feel better here.

Do you sleep here?

Don't you get bored?

Do you have any food here?

I have some jelly.

Would you like some?

Are you living here now?

What was that?

Hi.

Come in.

Sit down.

Can I serve you...

a drink?

Look! Butterflies...

There's one here, another one there.

This one is big. The other is smaller.

You look just like my grandmother.

It's not looking good.

Only the eyes.

I remember very well...

There was a time when we lived...

In a very small room.

This room was owned by the municipal housing.

We used to eat bread and butter.

From breakfast to dinner...

She shared the bread with her hands. Broke it in smaller pieces...

So she wouldn't drop many crumbs.

I was about 6 years old and I remember...

I was annoyed because...

She kept staring staring into space while she sat at the table.

I was very small and I felt my grandmother was so far away...

It drove me crazy.

She used to say...

"You know...

happiness is more fragile than butterfly wings."

We had to be careful with her.

Sit down.

Let me see what I have to eat.

I have cheese...

salami...

Would you like bread with a lot of butter?

No, I'm okay.

And you? Aren't you going to eat?

I'll eat, yes.

Thank you.

Bon appetit.

Would you like some tea?

No, thanks.

You're being nice to me.

You know...

How is your mother?

As usual.

She's alright, I guess.

What's on your mind?

- Nothing important. - I wanted to know.

I also say unimportant things.

It's nothing.

I wanted to know.

You look tired.

I'm not.

- You're not tired? - No.

What's your favorite season of the year?

Winter, I guess.

Winter? Why?

I think it's the most beautiful.

And you?

I can't say now...

There's nothing more beautiful than watching the snow falling.

Everything is white. There is nothing more beautiful.

We are surrounded of trees covered with snow.

And then the orchestra begins to play.

That melody is divine.

The violin...

playing the melody...

the most banal melody ever...

but it's Beethoven's.

He composed that banal melody...

To later create the most beautiful melody in the world...

on the second theme.

Sorry, but I don't like it.

I prefer...

Lithuanian folk songs.

I don't like Beethoven's songs at all.

When I listen to these songs it makes me want to sleep.

Cheers...

We hear these songs. And fall asleep.

But a good Lithuanian song is much more lively!

- Did you hear me? - Of course I did!

What did you hear? Did you really hear me?

I like songs from Lithuanian folklore!

That "b�, b�, b�..."

looks like a goat!

I wanted...

to say something...

but you're not listening.

I don't want to know, I don't care!

Say "b�, b�, b�..."

Quiet!

Please, that's enough.

I'll be quiet.

I'll be quiet.

I don't even know why I came here.

Do you have anyone you can talk to openly?

I do...

but...

sometimes I open up, sometimes not.

It's hard, isn't it?

Very.

You can't always trust the others.

Why not?

Have you lost trust in someone?

I trusted a person very much, but over time I stopped.

- Because? - People change.

Hello.

I'm coming back from fishing...

and...

I just forgot...

a thing. Can I sit down?

Of course.

I forgot you had asked me to...

bring firewood.

Was the fishing any good?

I fish as a distraction.

I'm a lousy fisherman.

But I try.

To fish...

You need to have good bait...

for the fishes.

I had a cold. It was hot, I sweated a lot.

Although...

To tell you the truth...

Yesterday I spent the day

drinking.

I still have a hangover.

I'm shaking.

Let's get the wood.

Let's go...

Hold on...

I'll take my things. And my fish.

Aren't you coming?

No.

- I'll wait here. - I won't be long.

Hello.

What are you doing here?

I was passing by.

- Passing by? - Yeah...

So I decided to stop here.

- But how...? - Don't you like it?

How did you get here?

I came with a friend.

He's in the car.

I see...

Any news?

How are you? How's your life going?

Look...

- What? - It's very good.

Turned the barn into a house.

Would you like something to drink?

I don't know.

Nothing special.

- Maybe water. - Water?

- Just water? - Yeah...

See?

I'm a simple visitor.

I'm just asking for water.

Sit down.

Are you happy to see me?

Talk to me.

How's it going...

with those blue eyes?

They're kind of gray.

You can see how I am, don't you?

Do you want to be a child sometimes?

No.

I do.

Children have a thing that...

makes them feel happy...

about silly things.

But adults...

they end up losing that ability...

because they want so many things...

too many things.

And these desires are almost always contradictory.

Adults struggle a lot to get...

to a state...

of full happiness.

But it happens so rarely...

that we keep trying to prolong it...

trying to retrieve our child soul.

In the last six months...

my perception of the world...

has changed so much...

that now I have the impression...

I can't find words...

to explain this.

I feel that...

I don't understand what happens around me anymore.

I don't expect anything else...

I don't know anything else...

Because I see reality in a different way.

That's good...

but on the other hand it scares me.

Because everything I expected...

Now I know it won't happen.

Why not?

It's maybe not true.

Recently I managed to understand...

Shit. It's very difficult. to speak out loud.

Wait...

What happened?

What happened?

I'm crazy.

Completely crazy.

I don't even know why I'm crying.

I shouldn't be out of control, right?

Sometimes I get the impression...

I have the distinct sensation that something's going to happen.

At any moment...

I imagined...

I felt I couldn't have children.

I'm going home.

Don't smoke in the car.

Wait a little longer.

Come on...

Say something.

I don't know where to start.

I don't understand what's happening.

You don't understand what's going on?

What don't you understand, my dear?

I think it's because...

I think a lot about myself...

Why are you crying? There is nothing wrong with that.

I just don't know...

if I understand things correctly.

You don't know what reality is. And what is it not?

You know, the human being always...

asks these questions.

Everybody does it.

We spend our lives trying to understand...

What's real and what's not.

And that is the result of our imagination.

Because we are...

very isolated, very closed in ourselves.

We are limited to our perception...

which is based...

on what we hear, see and feel.

We don't have...

a comprehensive view of things...

that's why it's difficult to maintain a distanced look at our life.

It happens to everyone.

So...

People spend their lives trying...

to understand this.

And that's how it will be forever.

It is...

an endless search.

I have no answer for that.

You tell me that...

you felt some difficulty to express yourself, but...

even so...

Why can't I find the words?

Words aren't...

the main thing, but they help us...

speak about ourselves, help us to vent...

and listen to what others have to say.

It's normal for you to have doubts. And this is very good.

Doubts always end up helping. Everyone has doubts.

You always take something from them.

To have...

a full and absolute consciousness...

can be dangerous.

Imagine if, suddenly...

everything became clear to you. What would you do?

I've always wanted to talk more about...

mom, but I never found the right time.

It can be now.

I didn't use to ask her many questions.

I think I would today.

You used to talk a lot with your mother...

when were you alone?

Actually, I think we hardly talked.

Few words...

were enough, we were...

we were happy together.

I think my doubts...

appeared later.

We didn't have to talk.

Sometimes...

when we live with someone else...

we think everything's normal...

and we don't need to ask anything.

But many questions appear when we lose that person.

What are you thinking now?

I'm thinking of the people...

I lived with and shared some things with.

That's it.

And...

I'm here...

thinking of these people...

that eventually crossed my path.

I heard noises outside.

It is true that children are better than adults?

Children?

When we say a person is bad...

you turn bad...

only when you become an adult?

Look...

A bad person can be a good one for someone else.

They can...

be nice to someone else.

Who knows?

There are people...

who suffered a lot in life...

from childhood.

We can even say they are bad, they are problematic.

Most of the time, they are like this because...

they are afraid...

and don't trust the others.

When a person thinks...

that others have bad intentions...

They think...

that they must defend themselves...

using the same weapons...

that there's no other way out.

It's almost always like this.

The door.

Give me that.

What were you doing?

I saw a butterfly.

It was beautiful.

It was trapped.

It must have been stuck for a long time. It looked tired.

Once I was told that they only live one day.

Poor thing! Imagine living just one day...

The one I saw wanted to spend the winter alive.

Let's go outside?

To the lake...

Rise up, rise up...

Move, move your mustache...

Slide, slide, slide in the green grass...

Smell, smell, smell...

Look, look, look...

Up, up, up all over again...

It's raining outside... It's raining outside... la la la...

The little bee flies happily here and there...

But we can't go out and play. No, no, no...

The green umbrella stayed there at the gate....

Come...

I feel so tiny... almost invisible!

Very tiny... almost invisible.

I feel like this almost always.

When I move, I move...

I exist.

But when I stop thinking, I cease to exist.

What am I doing?

I don't know who I am, nor why do I exist.

My mind is empty.

I can only hear myself.

I don't listen to others.

I don't belong in this world.

When I drink, I feel better about myself.

I can express the deepest feelings...

that are hidden inside me.

I can show them without fear. I'm not a coward.

When I play, I surrender.

I give it all.

But actually, I'm a coward.

An idiot...

A failure.

Lazy...

That sums up who I am.

I'm like this.

Where were you?

Outside.

Outside?

Why do you live outside? Don't you like staying at home?

I think in here it's warmer than outside.

Isn't it?

Who says I need to stay where it is warmer?

Bring it here, come on!

Hey you!

You're no good at all. You didn't even get water!

Don't fuck up, stupid cow!

I'm not filling it.

Watch out!

You're going to get some shit!

Try it, come here!

Now I have to carry water?

Fuck you! You're just fucking pissing me off!

Why are you screaming?

- Get out of my sight! - Stop screaming and go inside!

- I'll throw you out of the house! - I won't go out even if dead!

You're dreaming, you bitch!

You'll see!

You bastard!

Don't forget that the house is mine.

That crazy woman thinks she's in charge here.

- Didn't you hear? - Get lost!

Who's in charge here?

You aren't my boss!

I'm not a cow!

Shit...

Get lost, I said!

- You go away! - Get out of my yard!

Leave me in peace.

Go away!

- Open the door! - No!

- Do you hear me? - No!

Whose house is this?

I'll get you to bed!

Get out! Out!

Stop!

I'm going to kill you!

You keep pretending that everything is fine.

You never say anything to me.

Do you understand why I do it?

Sincerity is essential.

We can demonstrate emotions as what they are...

joy and sadness...

even anger...

only if they are sincere.

To fake an emotion is very bad.

The worst is when a person lies for themselves...

creating an imaginary world...

Which can be very similar to the real world.

A person gets trapped in a kind of bubble...

And ends up losing contact with the exterior...

And with other people.

Starts to get annoyed with everyone.

What?

What should I do?

Follow your dreams.

Sometimes we don't even know what our dreams are.

To do what we want...

can seem selfish.

Do what you want to do...

Eventually everyone does what they want.

We can even try to be a different person...

But in the end we always do what we want.

Aren't you cold?

I am.

- Are you? - My hands.

Then go inside.

Go warm yourself.