All language subtitles for The First S01E07 The Choice

I hear it.

How bad you want this.

How bad you need this.

How close it is.

How far away it is.

Dear Madam President...

we the undersigned,
the crew of Providence 2,

remain fully committed
in body and spirit

to carry out our mission despite
the formidable risks we face.

During our years of training,
our families

and the American people
have placed their faith in us.

We humbly ask that you place
your faith in us, as well.

Allow us to fulfill
the destiny of all humankind...

as we pave
our way to the future.

Thoughts? Objections?

You want us to sign now? No.

We can wait and see
how it goes tomorrow.

Anything else?

Okay. Nine hundred, work room.

We'll need to keep this
confidential.

Of course.

All right.

Enlarge times two.

Cam off.

Okay.

All right.

I've been having sinus issues.

I thought it was just me trying
to equalize in the tank,

but it was the rupture.

Um, treatment?

0.14 mils of Ciprodex,
twice a day.

The retrofitting cost
to resume service launches

just for the sake
of making pennies.

That's not something
that we've

I'll take pennies over nothing,

unless you want to start
talking outright sale.

We need some ideas
about alternative...

I will pull together
some financials

and see what
a scaleback looks like.

How soon can you
have that for us?

I could probably have
a rough draft ready by tomorrow

if absolutely necessary.

All right.
I'll let everyone know.

Okay, thanks. End call.

Is everyone willing to sign?

Everyone has spoken
to their loved ones.

Good. Hopefully,
we won't have to use it.

Come on. I'll walk you out.

Trouble with the board? Yeah.

Tell Rosen to pull up
the full asset portfolio.

II'll
I'll see him in a minute.

Um, I had to fight off a mutiny
after the first mission,

and I can feel
another one brewing.

How about you? Have you
spoken to who you need to?

I've written her several times,
but she hasn't responded.

Has she said anything to you?

No. She keeps to herself.

Well, if she's wearing out
her welcome, you know...

Of course not.
You know I'd say if she was.

Maybe you should do more
than write.

Come and visit.
It's an open invitation.

Thank you. I appreciate it.

Yeah. NNo.
We don't need to rush anything.

If it is just two hours,
then that's fine.

But if it's any more,
then I really think

we should consider No. Okay.

Is that a threethreetwo?

Yeah.
I'm doing additive meters.

That's very good.

Jason, are you on?
Not on the table.

No, no, it's just my son.

Um, so, yeah, we should get
Samantha onto this.

Tell the press there'll be
a twohour delay

for a minor course correction
on the rover.

Eitan, you give her
the language, okay?

I'll be out of pocket
for half an hour,

and, then I'll check back in.

Okay. End call. Phone off.

Hello. Nicole.
This is lovely. Thank you.

Um, I hope you haven't
stopped playing the piano.

I haven't heard you practice.

Your piano's out of tune.
Ils it?

Well, I'll get the piano tuner
to come tomorrow, then.

Amanda?! She's not here.

Where is she?

Thank you.

Hey. It's dinner.

Look. Denise is teaching me.

That's really good.

Can she eat with us?

No. No, no, no. I'm not hungry.

You don't have to eat, then.
You can just sit with us.

Amanda, it's your family time.
So?

Let her be.
She said she's not hungry.

Come on.
Dinner will get cold otherwise.

I know you have good intentions,
but I'd prefer if

I know, I know.
I'm really I'm sorry.

No need to apologize.
Just some boundaries.

I don't get much time with them
when they're here, so...

Yeah. I get it.

Thank you. Yeah.

Hey, I don't I don't know
if she wants this, but here.

She's got a great hand.

So, your dad mentioned that
he'd been trying to reach out.

Um...

You might want to consider
writing back.

Have a good night.

Where'd you go?!
I'll be right back.

Hey.

Are you worried about tomorrow?

Can't worry about things
that you can't control.

Do you think it'll work?

lt's a fix that's
never been tried before,

but if it doesn't work,
our odds are not so good

about getting back.

How much?

One in five
that we get stuck there.

Jesus. Yeah.

Would you have let Mattie go
with those odds?

Mattie would've made up
his own mind regardless.

But what would you
have said to him?

We're friends, Tom.
Good friends.

But I'm not your wife.

And I'm not your daughter.

She's the one
you should be asking, not me.

I've written her. And?

Nothing.

Still? Yeah.

Rover primary systems nominal.

We can expect
a brief signal dropoff

as we switch to rover
and HAB camera feeds.

Good morning.

Morning.

Standing by for rover
guidance initiation.

The Mars Ascent Vehicle
known as the MAV

has been on the Martian surface
for nearly four years.

Its purpose is to
return the astronauts

to their orbiting
transit vehicle...

Hi. Hey.

Aren't you supposed to
be in school?

I told Mom I was sick.

...fix the malfunction

by using a survey rover
to shortcircuit

Are you watching? Yeah.

...and reboot
its computer system.

You should come watch
at our house.

The screen is way bigger.

We can see the power line
and the...

Yeah, your mom doesn't
really want us spending

She's not here.

The footage
you're seeing is a...

Screen on!

The command would have reached
the rover several minutes ago.

We're just moments away

from seeing the footage
of the result.

Kathy, what's the feeling like
there in Mission Control?

Everyone's eyes are glued to
the big screens up front here.

You can feel the anxiousness

and anticipation
in the viewing area.

There's a lot riding on this
months of work and testing,

hundreds of engineers
and support staff

working around the clock
because the future

of the Providence 2 mission
is on the line.

Drill spin initiated.

Drill at speed.

Drill lowering
in three, two, one.

Stand by for
intermediate contact.

Contact with the cord.

Penetration in three, two, one.

Drillbit
vaporization confirmed.

Stand by for MAV systems reboot.

We have a signal.
Reboot initiating.

That's the magic.

The same.

Stop! Stop!

Show me all the sensor data.
WWhat's going on?

lt's the same as before.
LOX levels and sensors.

Clear the room, please.
Essential personnel only.

Everyone else please exit
the control room.

Boy.

All right. Let's let them
have the room. Come on.

Come on. Let's go.

...briefly came back online
before they lost contact again.

Kathy, any new developments
on your end?

They've asked all the media
and invited guests

to exit Mission Control.

No one from VISTA or NASA
had officially briefed us yet,

but a few people
I've spoken to have...

That was the
worstcase scenario.

I could have cooked the numbers
to make it more palatable,

but I wanted to be
straight with you.

lt's more than three times
the approved parameters.

lnternal NASA guidelines,

not required
by the funding legislation.

Bob is willing to override
with your approval.

What if a doctor told you
there was a oneinfive chance

you'd die during
elective surgery?

The astronauts are electing
to risk their lives.

I have a letter here confirming
their commitment to do so.

Well, maybe they're prepared
to take that gamble. I'm not.

lmagine the responsibility
the astronauts shoulder

the years of training, the toll
it takes on their families,

the personal sacrifices
that they've endured.

And then they strap themselves
to a rocket,

and they risk their lives
in an attempt to accomplish...

the greatest pioneering feat
in human history.

That's five people fulfilling
the destiny of eight billion.

I'm asking you, as the most
powerful person on this planet,

to help us get to another one.

One in five.

Yesterday, that was theoretical,

and today it's a reality.

So before you sign this letter,

I want you to take one more
night to reconsider

one more night to
talk to your loved ones

and to make sure that your name
belongs on this piece of paper.

I've promised the President
unwavering commitment,

and I need to know
that I'm telling her the truth.

Well, in either case,
no later than tomorrow at noon.

We'd like to give you more time,

but the momentum can shift
in D. C.,

and we got to beat that.

And you come on your own.

If you choose not to,
no judgment, no questions.

The board's holding
an emergency meeting

contingency plan if
the President doesn't approve.

Scaledown? Yeah.

I mean,
we didn't set out to make

a boutique satlaunch service
grinding for volume, did we?

No. No, we did not.

So, you should be
thinking about a plan,

your next step,
if you haven't already.

No. I'm dusting off my guitar.

This again?
You don't even play the guitar.

You should hear
my cover of "Kashmir."

No, I shouldn't.
Anything but Zeppelin.

Jimmy Page is a god to me.

You sound like my dad.
He used to play "Zeppelin IV"

around the clock
my entire childhood.

Good man.

I got to say, you, um,
you seem remarkably poised

given that your life's dream
might be going down the toilet.

Steady stream of painkillers.
Which ones?

What's the alternative, running
around like a headless chicken?

It doesn't accomplish anything.

It's up to the crew now.
It's in their hands, not ours.

You have always been
so supportive of me,

and you've never put up a fight.

It's okay, though.

This is different.

So now's the time.

Sweetie.

That handle.

There. You see it?

No.

The grub screw is loose.
Or the tumbler's not aligned.

It's not level.

We'll have to fix that
before it drives me nuts.

Well, sometimes I look around,

and I think there isn't
one inch of this house

that we didn't build together.

Mostly you.

lt's both of us.

Okay, yeah, mostly me. .

It's gonna be pretty empty
around here.

lt's a small price
for changing the world?

I love you. You know that?

So much.

I'll help you fix it.

The handle.
You were gonna fix the handle.

Right. The handle.

Come on.

lt's, flathead. Okay.

Flathead and aa
and an Allen wrench.

Okay.

Well, you always end up
asking for something else.

Here. It's for you.

Fuck.

This isn't an
unfair thing to ask.

lt doesn't feel
like you are asking.

I'm gonna be a single father
for two and a half years.

Maybe forever.
Don't talk that way.

I have to talk this way,

'cause I have to wrap
my brain around it...

which is hard enough.

I can't take care
of your mom and the boys.

It's... way too much.

She's becoming a fulltime job.

I'm just I'm scared
for her, all right,

being in a place
full of strangers?

And I'm scared shitless
I'm gonna lose my wife...

that the boys
will lose their mother.

She's lived her life.

Theirs is just beginning.

Could you keep it down?
She is going to hear you.

She's in her own world
right now.

Look, if you don't want me

to sign, then you say
that you don't want me

I'm not asking for that.

I'm asking that you let her go.

If we have to let you go...

I have to give
all my energy to the boys.

Mom.

Hey, Mom, can I talk to you?

I'll make friends.

lf it weren't you
Okay, if it was

one of the others,
wouldn't you say something?

Wouldn't you take action?
lt's just a second opinion.

One that you're
completely ignoring!

That is not true.

Matteo, you wouldn't
even have told me

if I didn't ask you
like 20 times.

I know what I'm doing. Okay.

I think you're being foolish.

You're being reckless
and dishonest!

Lay the fuck off me!

I am making a judgment call.
I went to school for this.

I trained half my life for this,
and that is why

they are putting it on me
to make these evaluations!

Yeah. Except you're giving
yourself special treatment.

Special
You know what? Just .

You don't know what
you're talking about.

I get it. You think that

I'm just using this
to keep you here.

I don't know. Are you?

Maybe that's part of it.

I don't know.

Well, I don't expect you
to wait for me,

so if you need to move on,
if we need to end this now

Asshole.

I'm just saying
this isn't fair to you,

to ask that.

Matteo.

I... love you.

Okay? I I'd wait.

And would I rather you stay?
Yes.

I'm going.

My God. What are we doing?
I don't know.

How your boys handling it?

Well, it won't easy,
but, they have Todd.

Your mom? Not as great.

I'm sorry to hear that.

What about you?

My mom's a prick.

And my dad's a bigger prick,

Got no girl.
No time for friends.

So you guys
are pretty much my family.

So I didn't lose
a lot of sleep last night.

- Fuck it. Let's go to Mars!
- Okay.

How long have you
known about this?

lt happened when you
flew me out to Houston,

the day Tom had to
leave early

the pressure in the tank.

So, um, why didn't you
say anything then?

I didn't think
it was a big deal.

It should have healed on its own
after a few weeks.

Problem is,
it keeps getting infected,

probably because
it's happened before.

The scar tissue
slows the healing process.

The messedup part is
I probably wouldn't be here

if it hadn't been for the...

Syria. It was my second tour.

We were ambushed.

I'm lying there.

All I can hear is this ringing,
like a drill going into my head.

I knew right away
it was my eardrum.

I see the tracers.

Then I see the stars.

They're perfect.

They're filling up the sky
like they're protecting me,

like they're telling me
that I'll be okay.

The pain went away.

I wasn't afraid of dying.

And that's when I knew
where I wanted to be,

what I wanted to do
with the rest of my life.

I guess this is the flip side.

We have a decision to make.

I've already made it.

I have to hold myself
to the same standard

as any other crew member.

You have to cut me.

I was practically on my knees
to the President,

and we have a crew issue?

He thought it would
work itself through.

AAnd what happens if there's
a medical emergency?

Well, Matteo's confident
in our triage training.

Between that
and the onboard tech,

we have enough redundancies
in place.

Okay, so, what next, we just
fasttrack another doctor?

No.

Sadie.
Tom and I discussed this.

If we introduce a brandnew
element so close to the launch,

there's no telling how it could
have an impact on the team dynamic.

We need to
inform the crew of this.

It may change their decision.

lt won't. How do you know?

Trust me.

Trust me on this.

You've got that thing.

You'll make it.

I promise you.

They need to show something to the
President sooner later than later.

So sign it.

We can talk about it more.

With her sitting out there?
I'll tell her to go.

I can't do this right now.

I feel whipsawed.

It took so long
to get used to you going,

and then you weren't, and now

But you knew
I was an alternate.

So why are you even asking?

Because you're my husband,
and I

And how am I even
supposed to process this?

How do you expect me to
Ollie.

No. I can't do this.

We can talk tomorrow. Or not.

You can do whatever the fuck
you're gonna do, but I can't

I can't just put
a brave face on it

and say to you,
"Go. You have my blessing."

Not that it really matters,
does it?

Does it matter, truly,
what I think?

I'll never have the opportunity
to do work this important.

I can't pass that up.

I need this.

That hasn't changed.

Yeah.

Ollie.

Hey.

I'll I'll go get her.

Mom!

Hey, Tom.

Nice.

Does she know that I'm here?
Yeah.

She's She's out there,
to the left.

Denise? It's Dad!

If you can hear me,
I'm just gonna wait out here.

I don't know if you've been
following the news.

Yeah. Yeah, I saw.

So, I drafted a letter

for the crew to sign
and send to the President.

She told me.

Yeah.

They've all signed it.

I haven't signed it yet.

We can make it work.

No, that's what you told me.

Remember that night
you got back from D. C.?

You'd already decided.

I thought that we could.

Yeah, so did I. We were wrong?

Did you read any of my emails?

Yeah.

There's so many times I wrote
back to you in my head,

but I just II kept coming up

with the same thing

"I need you here.
I don't want you to go."

Well, if you need me h
God, no. I

I just needed to say that.
So I can stop needing you.

I don't think
you do need me, Denise.

They do. The mission does.

Okay, so go!

No one's stopping you.
I'm not stopping you.

But once you go, you're gone.

You're gone.

No texts, no emails.

Nothing.

Please don't punish me.

No. I'm not punishing you.

I'm protecting myself.

Do you remember what
you told me about Mom?

We have to move on to survive?

Now I have to
move past you, too.

I need distance.

This is who I am.

This is who I've always been.

Yeah.

You are the choices you make,
and you've made yours.

And I'm making mine.

Well, if that's what you need.
Yeah, it is.

I respect that...

as much as it breaks my heart.

Yeah.

Hearts get broken, right?

Can we just...
Will you please sit, so we can

just sit together a little
while before I leave?

No, Dad, we can't. No.

If you don't walk away, I will.