All language subtitles for Michael Everyday s01e08 Being Alone.eng

You're being too hard on yourself.

I lost 12 patients. Twelve.

Hanging, poisoning...

Mr. Calloway, morbidly obese

because of obsessive consumption
of cheese products,

heaved himself off the roof
of a 32-story building.

-Terrible sight.
-Just to clarify,

Michael's not dead;
he just missed a session.

Granted... it's the first one
he's missed in 15 years, but--

I just don't know where he is.

Dead, most likely.

The best thing you can do

is put this one behind you and move on.

Concentrate...

on another patient,

and this time keep your eyes open!

Remember this:

no doctor ever successfully treated

a corpse.

[laughs]

Feeling better?

No, not at all.

No?

Well, after you get two
or three of these under your belt,

it'll be easier. Trust me.

Time's up.

Good.

-["Gotta Get Up" by Harry Nilsson plays]
-[alarm clock buzzing]

♪ Gotta get up, gotta get out ♪

♪ Gotta get home
Before the morning comes ♪

♪ What if I'm late?
Got a big day ♪

♪ Gotta get home
Before the sun comes up ♪

♪ Up and away
Got a big day ♪

♪ Sorry can't stay ♪

♪ I gotta run, run, yeah ♪

♪ Gotta get home
Pick up the phone ♪

♪ Gotta let the people know
I'm gonna be late ♪

I miss the clickety-clack
of his sharp little nails and...

[sniffs]

...when he'd wake me up in the morning
with a paw in my nose.

It's a cat! It's just a cat
and it's gone! Get over it!

[trembling]

Okay, that was, um...

I was trying something different.
It's a new--

a new technique: brunt--

blunt confrontational

honesty therapy.

How do you feel?

Horrible.

"Horrible."

Great. Okay, well, we won't do that again.

Uh, now, I want to be proactive

about this situation.

You've been wearing Winkle's collar
on your wrist every day

since he went missing,
and you touch it constantly.

-Why?
-Because it makes me feel

-like he's still with me.
-How do you think you would feel

if you took the collar off your wrist?

Worst imagined outcome.

I'll become... overwhelmed with sadness--

I'll cry and not eat and...

-eventually I guess I'll die.
-Excellent. Take it off.

-What?
-Just for one second,

take it off your wrist
and then put it back on.

[gasps]

Good. How was that?

How did you feel?

Hopelessly alone.

But did you die?

-No.
-You see?

Now, take it off again and give it to me.

Give it to me.

Now, I'm gonna take it with me
into reception.

No.

Just for a moment.

And then, when I return,
you can have it back.

-I won't be able to handle it.
-Yes, you will.

You'll be fine, Mrs. Bronfman.

And I'll be back. I promise.

-[door opening]
-[Mrs. Bronfman crying]

[Mrs. Bronfman crying]

What are you doing?

Challenging Mrs. Bronfman's core beliefs.

-Fun.
-Any word?

No. Radio silence.

You have to go to him.
You have to talk to him.

I'm pretty sure he wants his space.

Go to his apartment, please.

I went there yesterday.

-He hasn't been home for days.
-What?! Why didn't you tell--

I didn't want to tell you because
I knew that you would go "What?!"

Claire, this is a serious situation.
As his doctor, I'm very concerned.

And, and, and...

more than that, not just as his doctor.

I'll text him.
I'll call him until he gives in,

lets me know where he is,
and then I will go and see him.

[Mrs. Bronfman] Dr. Storper!

Okay, thank you.

[suspenseful music]

-[wolf howling on TV]
-Michael.

[Michael] Yeah?

[TV playing]

So, you all right down here?

[Michael] Yeah.

You wanna come upstairs
and have a sandwich or something?

Uh, I'm okay for now. Thanks, Dad.

[man on TV] Hello? Is anybody here?

[door closing]

It's only eight calories per ounce,

so that means if you replace six ounces
of regular food like eggs, or bread,

or meat, with watermelon
or watermelon juice,

you can save 852 calories per day.

She says I watch too much pornography.

I told her, I said,
"Hey, I turn it off when I'm done."

[Mrs. Bronfman]
I think I miss him most when it's sunny.

Winkles loved to sit

in his little spot
under the windowsill and purr.

I miss that sound.

-[beep]
-Being alone--

being able to spend time alone--

is an essential skill, a necessary skill,

because we spend so much
of our time alone.

What makes this so difficult?

Self-loathing?

You wouldn't want to spend
time with anyone you...

-loath.
-[doorbell rings]

Hello.

I am a friend of Michael's.

Oh, thank God. Come in, come in.

One letter in six years,
and he just shows up at the front door,

disappears down into the basement,

hasn't said more than two words at a time,
and hasn't been out of there in a week.

I mean, is this normal behavior for him?

It's hard to say what's normal.

Basically no. Um...

Is he, is he mentally unstable?

Again, basically no.

I think he's just, you know,
going through a rough patch.

Well, he should see someone,
don't you think?

I mean, a doctor or somebody.

Yeah, well, that's part of the problem.

Maybe I should just go down by myself.

Okay, understood, but you just holler
if he tries anything.

[TV playing downstairs]

-[TV playing]
-Michael?

Oh, hey. You might not want to hug me;

I haven't showered; I probably stink.

[kissing]

I was so worried about you.

-I texted.
-Two texts in a week! Jerk.

Dr. Storper's very upset.
It's quite sweet.

Actually, he's taking it out
on Mrs. Bronfman.

-What are you doing here, Michael?
-Um...

watching TV.

The book freaked you out, right?
That's what this is?

It's just a big freak-out, right?

Do I look freaked out?

A little. I don't know.

I've never witnessed a class A freak-out.

Dr. Storper said that I should resolve
my issues with my father,

so that's what I'm doing.
That's why I came here.

Well, Stanley says you haven't
said two words to him.

-Well, I'm easing into it.
-Okay.

He's at his father's?

In the basement. He said
you told him to resolve his issues.

That's what he claims to be doing,
but he's basically watching TV.

-[Claire typing]
-Did he say anything about the book?

Anything positive?

He said, "It is what it is".

Right. Any plans to see him again?

I'll stop by tomorrow; maybe try and,
you know, coax him out of the hole.

-What is this?
-Michael gave that to me.

-He wants a refill.
-You tell him, if he wants his Ativan,

he's gotta come back.

Ativan is the last thing that he needs.

-He's basically comatose.
-Well, just...

encourage him to call me,
or at least answer my calls,

or text me, or something.
Or, he has my email,

he can email me,
but calling and texting is fine.

[writing]

It's weird. Sometimes it sounds like
you're talking about a girlfriend.

-What does that mean?
-It doesn't mean anything.

It's just... a bit weird.

[Mrs. Bronfman] Dr. Storper?

Damn it. Um... just get him to call me.

Please.

[TV playing]

Are you afraid of everything?

No. Just some things.

-Spiders?
-Yes.

Clowns?

-Yeah, totally.
-Mmm...

-shoes?
-No! That'd be weird.

-Crayons.
-Nope. Not anymore.

[woman] Ellie,
what are you doing down there?

Talking to Michael, Mommy.

[woman] You remember what
we said about disturbing your new brother?

Don't?

[woman] That's right.
It's time for taekwondo.

Quick, like a bunny.

Bye. Leave the basement today.
They said you'll die without fresh air.

Okay.

-What's he doing? Ask him.
-[whispering] Don't worry...

Okay.

So, how are we doing down here?

I like Ellie. She's a smart kid.

Yeah, that she is.
There's another one-- teenager.

She's up there skulking around somewhere.

You need anything else?

Oh, nope.

Good, good.

It's a nice room.

You got the rug,
got the couch, got the 42" LCD.

Yeah, this is a nice room to hole up in.

This is where I'd hole up.

Oh. You see this?

This is the name of a great woman.
She's a well-being coach.

She saw me through
a whole lot of tough times.

A person can talk to her about anything.

Anything at all, you know--

issues, or what have you.

Okay, well, it's good talking to you.

[somber music]

[David] The cruel thing about
loneliness and loss

is that the accompanying depression
drives us deeper into isolation.

Causal conversation becomes
more difficult as the mind

fixates on the absent person...

or pet, in some cases.

[Michael chuckles]

You need to go back to your apartment.

You're a grown man. You shouldn't be
living in your father's basement.

After I talk to my dad.

And, and how's that going?

[sighs]

Okay. Dr. Storper wants to know
when you're coming back.

Never.

Why?

You know what, this is getting

really boring really fast, Michael.

I don't know what it's like to have...

my therapist write a book about me.

But I am painfully familiar
with wallowing in self-pity.

I don't like it.

I don't like being around people
who are doing it.

So,

talk to your father
and deal with your crap,

and when you're ready to actually
live your life again, text me.

Those are your negative
automatic thoughts.

Well, you haven't died yet, have you?

You know, you're doing really well.

Okay, I'll meet you tomorrow.

Goodbye.

-Sorry.
-No, that's okay.

I'm treating this woman.
Her cat ran away.

Now she's obsessed with it.
She can't move on.

Okay. Uh-huh.

-What?
-No, I just... Physician, heal thyself.

-What is that supposed to mean?
-You know what that means.

You lost a kitten too.

You're talking about Miguel.
It's not the same.

It is the same.

-No, it isn't.
-It is.

-It's completely different.
-It's exactly the same. It is.

-What are you, nine years old?
-Okay, how is it different?

Well he's not a cat, for one thing.

I know he's not a cat, but the obsession
part is exactly the same.

I'm not ob-- I'm just concerned
with his wellbeing.

You check your phone every two minutes.

You say his name in your sleep at night,

which is incredibly creepy,
and all I'm saying--

and it's coming from a place of love--

is that you're basically a crazy cat lady.

Would you like more wine?

[woman] All right, guys, let's go.
Pack it all up. We got half an hour.

Move, move!

Hello?

Michael, welcome to the upstairs.

Everybody, this is my, uh, son, Michael.

[kids and adults] Hi, Michael.

-Is it somebody's birthday?
-Uh, no, no.

We're going on a boat trip.

Yes, the Dyer family annual cruise.

You could come with us
if you want to, I think.

You're leaving?

Just for three weeks.

Let's talk about this
in the other room. Come on.

-Why didn't you tell me about this?
-Because I was afraid

-of how you were gonna react.
-What, you were afraid

I was gonna react like this?

-With shock and outrage?
-Exactly.

This thing's been planned
for months, Mike. I mean,

I didn't know you were gonna
fall in here out of the blue.

I wrote you, and you wrote back.
You said your door was always open.

That's an expression!

But it is, and you're always welcome.

Luggage! Let's go!

-I'm coming!
-You can't do this to me again.

-What's that supposed to mean?
-Dad...

you left me and Mom. You abandoned us.

Oh, God. Is that what this is all about?

Mikey, I never abandoned you.

I supported you and your mother
financially for years,

and I always tried to get you to connect
with Denise and the family--

-It was hard for me.
-It was hard for me too.

-Stanley, the bags!
-I'm coming!

Listen, there's something
I need to tell you.

I read this book written by a therapist

about a guy named Miguel
who's afraid of everything,

and his doctor, he helped him
deal with his fears one by one

so he could function in the real world.

Wasn't that a movie
with Lou Diamond Phillips?

No, my point is that this guy's
a lot like me, I think,

and reading it, it made me feel like:
is that all that life is?

Coping? Learning tricks
so you can leave the house?

In a way, I guess.

I don't know.

But I'll tell you one thing.

You're not like this guy Miguel.
He's a loser.

I mean, you had a few phobias--
you know, uh,

moths, and shopping carts,
and what have you--but,

-I mean, everybody has a few quirks.
-Stanley, if we don't leave now

-I'm gonna have to feed the kids again.
-I'll be right there!

Look, Mike,
I fell out of love with your mother.

These things happen.

It's a very lonely thing to be
in a loveless marriage, and so I left--

I had to for my sanity.

You get that, don't you?

But I never stopped loving my son.

I did not and I never will abandon you.

-[van honking]
-Okay, I gotta go.

The house is yours.

You know, you should call
that woman on that card.

Maybe she could help you
the way that doctor helped Miguel.

[van honking]

-[Denise] Stanley!
-I'll see you in three weeks.

[van starting]

[Denise] Nobody has to pee, right?
This is the last stop for pee.

[David] I'm gonna go...

meet with Mrs. Bronfman.
Gonna bury Winkle's collar.

Yay.

How'd it go with Michael?

Not good.

Dr. Storper, I'm...

I'm sorry. I don't think
he's ever coming back.

You don't know that for sure.

I do, actually,
because that's what he said:

"I'm never coming back."

I... I'd better be going.
I'm gonna be late.

If it helps, I think
he's miserable without you too.

It doesn't, but thanks.

[door closing]

[Mrs. Bronfman] "You came into my life

a furry bundle of joy,

full of vim and vigor.

It was shortly after the death
of my husband, Maury,

and I should explain, Winkles, that...

my resulting obsession with you

was caused by a transference."

Is that the right word?

"A transference that occurred
because of my...

unwillingness to say goodbye to Maury.

My husband and I
had 43 wonderful years together,

and I want to thank you

for helping me deal with that great loss.

I only wish I could have said

goodbye to you, Maury."

Oh, I said, "Maury." I meant "Winkles."

[Mrs. Bronfman sniffling]

"Now it's time to move on;

to accept that you are never coming back.

Goodbye, Winkles.

Goodbye, Maury."

[David sobbing]

[sniffling]

Oh...

"Transference" was the wrong word,
wasn't it?

[David] A few thoughts on letting go

and embracing a life alone.

This is a battle we all fight,
one way or another,

because our relationships,
our marriages, our friendships...

-[cell phone chimes]
-...are themselves coping mechanisms.

Everybody leaves us,
by choice or otherwise.

In the end we are alone,

and we must prepare ourselves for that.

[classical music playing softly]

I cancelled Mr. Krause.

I'm, uh...

Where's my pen? Oh.

Ah.

Okay! Um, I don't know
where to start.

First of all, uh,

I'm very happy that you chose
to return, obviously.

Um... you've read the book,

you've had some time to process.

Uh, would you like
to start by talking about that?

I don't, uh...

think that's gonna work.

-Okay. Well, we can--
-Uh, that's the problem.

That's, um...

that's why I can't stay.

Uh, I don't, I don't understand.

[Michael sighs]

There are things in that book
that I need to deal with, yes,

but also it was really hard for me

to see myself like that.

It's just a case study.

So... that's the irony.

I can't talk to you about the book,
because you wrote the book,

so I'm going to start seeing
another therapist.

Oh.

[clock ticking]

My dad recommended someone.

Uh, a lady therapist.

That'll be new for me.

Thanks for everything.

Really.

Goodbye.

[door opening]

[door closing]

[whimsical music playing]

[woman coughing]

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