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(Episode 38)

Thank you.

Let's leave.

Why?

Why are you like me? This is stupid.

Why are you like me?

Why does it have to be this way?

Mom...

Because of me, you are...

You are going through this too.

I never knew it could be this hard.

Why did you have me...

when it was this painful?

It's okay...

to give up.

Isn't it?

Please tell me...

what to do.

But...

Mom,

why did you...

Because...

I was afraid you would hear me.

You were...

afraid of me hearing to you?

I was afraid...

you might hear me saying...

that I wanted an abortion.

I didn't want you to hear that.

I couldn't dare to say it.

So Myung...

can hear me too, right?

Probably.

Of course.

Mom.

Thank you.

You could've died.

I think I might die myself.

Breathing...

has become...

the hardest thing to do in the world.

But you didn't give up on me.

I've waited...

to hear you say thank you.

But those words...

have no power now.

Seeing you...

makes me hate myself so much.

I'd feel the same way...

once I have So Myung.

I'd want him...

to say, "Thank you."

Mom.

I'm sorry for saying it...

too late.

She grew up so fast.

I thought she'd stay young forever.

It's Jung Hyo's decision.

We have no other choice.

I wanted to oppose to her,

but I realized something as I saw you.

What should I do now?

Yeon Ji wasn't afraid of toxemia.

She was just afraid of being forced to choose.

Have you not learned it yet?

You're forcing her to be a mom.

Just because we have experience,

we've been...

forcing Jung Hyo to give up...

her life as a mother.

You guys look alike.

Jung Hyo looks just like you.

Se Young and Sang Jin are here.

Go meet them. They have something to tell you.

I'll stay here.

If you feel uncomfortable, I'll go meet them.

Wait upstairs.

I'll come with you. It's okay.

Wait.

- Why? - I don't want you to feel hurt.

And Jung Hyo. No one should feel hurt.

I don't feel hurt.

He wants to get a checkup as a donor. Why would I feel hurt?

I know you do.

Because you loved him.

That's why you had me and kept our family.

You stayed in the empty house alone and waited for him to come back.

You locked yourself in...

and waited for someone to bring you out.

You sound like a grown-up since you became a dad.

Thank you.

For having me,

raising me,

and waiting for me.

Thank you for all that.

I guess all mothers feel the same.

Until they hear...

a word of gratitude from their children,

they just can't give up being a parent.

They just keep on living to hear that.

To hear their children say,

"Thank you."

It's so easy to say though.

I finally feel liberated...

from the duties as a mother.

- I don't want to force you. - It's my choice.

Okay then.

What about you?

Is she...

going to give birth?

Yes.

Then I won't get the checkup.

Dad. How can you...

Don't force him.

There must be a reason for that.

So you only care about yourself.

Don't go.

Let him talk to Min Soo alone.

It's not something we can meddle in.

Giving just one kidney won't kill you!

As I said, I don't need your money.

How will you raise So Myung while you serve in the military?

Do you know how much money you need to raise a child?

How much do you think the loan for our house is left?

Do you think your mom can pay it off by herself?

Are you sure you can get a job after serving in the military?

How are you going to raise So Myung?

Stop making lame excuses like that.

If she was giving up on So Myung,

I was going to get the checkup.

I was going to give my kidney to her if she needed it for surgery.

But she wants to have the baby.

She's having So Myung.

I'm the breadwinner.

While you live with your mom,

I'll be the breadwinner.

I have to support the family. Me!

I'll take responsibility even for So Myung!

That's what I have to do.

You can call me a coward.

I don't care even if you don't recognize me as your dad.

I don't have to live with you. I don't mind getting divorced.

But I'll still support the family.

That's me.

That's how I've lived.

And I'll live like that for the rest of my life.

No matter what anyone says,

I'll support my entire family.

That...

is my purpose.

This is awkward.

Are you staying here for the entire time?

No.

I'll just say what I must and go see the doctor.

Go ahead.

Do you think you'll be happy if I divorce him?

No.

I'm glad that you know that.

Still,

he's everything I've got.

Even if you're not happy with him?

I've never been happy in my life.

I'm used to misery.

I'm more unfamiliar with happiness.

How...

have you lived until now?

As soon as I was born,

I got blamed and shunned by the villagers.

I thought things would get better if I did well at school.

So I won first place in my class.

But my friends still made fun of me.

I thought they wouldn't do that if I were at the top of the school.

So I became the top student at the school.

But nothing changed except for my report card.

Is that trauma?

I don't know.

But you know what?

I was happy just once.

It was just for a short time...

when Yoo Yeon was born.

But I became miserable again.

And Yoo Yeon...

also became miserable because of me.

Don't you blame yourself for doing...

what led you to unhappiness?

I did.

I didn't stop for a minute or a second...

regretting...

and blaming myself.

I did it more while looking at Yoo Yeon.

Then I gave myself up to drinking...

and only became spiteful.

In my point of view,

you're still spiteful.

You're right about that.

I'm still like that.

So I'm going to give up.

I'll do everything I can do...

to be forgiven.

You're foolish.

Sometimes, there are people who can only make foolish choices...

because they don't know any other way...

and what happiness is.

When Yoo Yeon was born,

I felt an emotion which might have been happiness.

That is the only thing for me.

I'll let...

Sang Jin go.

However,

I'll go somewhere with him for a couple of days first.

Take the test well.

I think...

the ill-fated relationship between you and me...

will end with this.

I truly...

appreciate it.

And I'm truly...

sorry.

Please forgive me for not being able to say this...

in front of you.

I won't talk about it anymore.

You and I are so different.

I don't expect you to understand me.

When So Myung grows up,

you'll get to know...

how parents feel.

There's somewhere...

I need you to go with me.

He should know that I'm getting divorced.

Ok Ja.

You're awake. How do you feel?

I feel better now...

since I can breathe.

Good. Stay in the bed.

You might get breathless if you move.

Where's everyone?

You're right. Why did everyone leave...

and not come back?

What have you been doing?

I was sleepy, so I was about to drink some coffee.

It's delicious. It's just my taste.

Ok Ja, why do you drink coffee so much?

Me?

I'm having only one cup today.

Don't lie to me.

What's all that?

I'm sure I made this just a moment ago.

I only made this cup.

What... What happened?

Ok Ja.

Can you make a phone call to Mom?

Sure.

But where did I put my phone?

Ok Ja.

Yes. Why?

You have your phone...

in your hand.

Ok Ja. Can it be...

No. I don't have dementia.

- Ok Ja. - I said I don't.

You normally forget things when you're old.

Ok Ja.

Why do you keep calling me?

Ok Ja.

Please tell me your full name.

My full name?

Why that all of a sudden?

Please tell me now.

Don't you...

remember it?

I can certainly remember it!

Then tell me.

I'm Se Young's mom!

Don't tell anyone. Do you get it?

Just take care of yourself now. I'm fine.

Ok Ja.

What are you going to do?

You're not in a condition to worry about me.

Look at yourself. You look terrible.

Still...

I'm worried...

You're sweet.

You're so sweet.

I would be so happy...

if Se Young was at least half as sweet as you.

What's wrong?

What's wrong?

Min Soo.

I'll bring a doctor. Hang in there for a second.

So Myung, please.

Don't make your mom ill.

I know I made you upset, So Myung,

but please don't be cross.

It's my fault.

Here.

Excuse me.

You should sleep some more.

How long have I been sleeping?

Strictly speaking, you were not sleeping. You passed out...

because you felt so much pain.

Is everyone sleeping?

Stay lying down.

They're all sleeping.

At least...

I feel better now.

By the way, have you really made up your mind?

Min Soo.

Let's make a promise.

What promise?

Even if...

something...

happens to me...

Don't say that.

That will never happen.

Se Young also took a test to check her donor compatibility.

Really?

Yes.

That will never happen,

so don't have any silly thoughts.

Still...

if something happens...

Don't say that.

Then...

choose So Myung...

instead of me.

Sleep some more.

You'll get tired if you talk too much.

Promise me.

I won't.

- Promise me. - No.

I can't do that even if So Myung might hear this.

I can't stand staying alone.

We finally became able to be together.

I can't just give up on that.

You're not alone.

So Myung is with you.

Our love created So Myung.

So Myung was created because I loved you.

Our love created So Myung...

and I want you to protect him.

Please?

I'll protect both of you.

There's not much I can do, but I'll try.

I can promise that.

Do you think I can handle this?

You made your decision, so please do.

You have to.

I'm sorry...

for being sick...

this much.

I'm sorry for making you sad.

I'm sorry that you are this sick.

I'm sorry for not being there for you.

I love you.

I love you too.

Thanks for being with me...

as my husband.

Thanks for being my wife.

Thanks for...

giving So Myung to me.

Thanks for...

having So Myung and keeping him safe.

You haven't been here for a while, right?

I haven't.

Who would have imagined we would be here like this?

I thought I would never see him again.

Nothing has changed.

Everything is the same.

You're right.

I guess only we have changed.

- Ok Ja. - Yes?

What are you going to do?

About what?

Your Alzheimer's.

You might have a plan for the future.

When you are old,

you don't really have a plan.

I can only accept it when things happen.

If it gets worse, I'll have to go to a nursing home.

I don't have good memories about my hometown anyway.

You should tell Se Young about it though.

Let me have a little more time.

I'm not someone...

who can give you advice or anything like that.

But there are things I know for sure.

Let me listen to what it is.

Like I couldn't tell my dad about having a baby,

you might be in the similar situation.

Maybe.

But...

Se Young needs time to accept the situation.

How would she feel like if she finds it out all of a sudden?

I don't know.

The later she finds out, she'll be in more pain.

You'll have less time to regret,

but you'll also have less time to spend...

and make precious memories with her.

Giving her time to accept is...

is something you should do if you care about her.

Why don't you talk about it to her in person?

You are right about everything, but it's not easy.

I think it will be nice...

if you can give her some time to think about it.

That way, she'll spend...

a good time with you that will help her remember you...

even if you forget about all that.

I hope you could make her smile...

at least with the time you have left now.

(Spaghetti)

Gosh...

Gosh, this is amazing!

I know, right? It's Min Soo's mom's idea.

Really?

Jung Hyo loves spaghetti a lot too.

By the way, shouldn't we go see Jung Hyo today?

- Let's just wait. - For how long?

It's been a day already.

They'll let us know.

Let's not make things complicated for them.

Right. Why don't we send her a video message?

- A video message? - Yes.

Try it.

What is this?

Let's not make it depressing. It's to cheer her up.

Jung Hyo, I'm always on your side.

You know that, right?

- Did you pack everything? - Yes!

Then let's go.

Hello, Mom. Is she okay?

How are you?

Ask me one thing at a time. It's confusing me.

She's okay, and I'm okay too.

- That's good. - Where are you?

I'm going to take Yoo Yeon to daycare.

I'll go see you after that.

Grandma!

My baby! How are you?

That's good. I was about to tell you to get here.

- Did anything happen? - Nothing happened.

Jung Hyo wants to see you.

Me? Why?

Because I took the donor test?

- It was nothing. - Just...

Just come here. It's important.

Okay. I'll see you soon.

I don't think I can tell her myself.

I'll do it.

I feel better now too.

I'm asking for too much from someone so young and ill.

You did me a favor too.

I'm embarrassed.

But I feel better.

Please make her a lot of good memories...

until the end.

I've never done that before.

So I'm not sure if I'll be able to do it well.

But I'll try.

Thank you.

Jung Hyo,

I'm always on your side. You know that, right?

- Ok Ja, look at this. - We're always by your side.

- Thank for not giving up So Myung. - Gosh, that's so funny.

I've never seen anything like this before.

I haven't smiled this much for a while.

I'm having a happy memory since a long time too.

- Let's get off the car. - Wait...

Will you tell them right away?

Why?

Don't tell them now.

Why not?

I need to do my duty...

for the last time.

It hasn't changed,

but it got really old.

My dad...

has changed a lot too.

We all have.

What are you doing here?

You didn't even tell me you'll be here.

Dad.

(Episode 39 will air shortly.)