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(Episode 37)

Young Hee, what happened?

What do you mean?

I heard Jung Hyo's in a hospital.

What? Where?

Did you not know about it?

So...

I think you should come with us.

What...

can I do for her?

I don't know yet either.

And Mr. Jung doesn't know either.

- Mom, I'll call you later. - Let me talk to her.

What happened?

Just put her on the phone. It's an emergency.

Jung Hyo's in a hospital.

You should talk to her.

It's my mom.

Jung Hyo's in a hospital.

Hello?

She's young, but she's going through so much.

This wasn't what we planned.

It'll get worse since it has started.

I hoped this wouldn't happen.

But it turned out like this.

Will it get better at any point?

It will repeat getting better and worse.

But they say things will end up just getting worse.

Then must we...

- get rid of... - Yes.

Or it'll be a preterm birth.

But that's only possible if she can bear it a bit more.

However,

if her condition keeps being like this,

I don't know if she'll be able to handle it anymore.

This is all because of my ignorance.

I didn't know it would be this hard for her.

I didn't know either.

This is not a common case.

We can't know about everything just because we had a baby before.

Don't blame yourself too much.

But I'm relieved...

to see that she had someone else to rely on...

other than just me.

I think I'll keep staying here.

Why would you do that?

I don't know.

But...

it doesn't feel like I can turn away from this.

You can go back though.

Mother.

I heard everything from Min Soo's mom.

You didn't get a donor test.

You must be uncomfortable to meet her.

Just go back.

Why would you want to stay here?

Why are you here with that woman?

I don't know.

Why am I here?

That young girl isn't even my own daughter.

And I'm not here because I like Min Soo's mom either.

- Let's go now. - Se Young.

- I want to stay. - But why?

Why are you trying to take blame for my guilt?

It's not like that.

I'm satisfying my resentment.

- Your resentment? - When you delivered Yoo Yeon,

I was not there for you.

Having no memory of that moment became my resentment.

You can leave now.

I'm going in.

It's from Mr. Jung.

I wonder if he came with her.

He should come with her.

Who is she?

Jung Hyo's mom.

Did he go to bring her?

Yes.

I'm sure it's better if the mother takes care of her own child.

You can go. I'll stay here.

Okay.

Hello?

Yes.

(Boeun Hospital)

Ms. Seo.

You're here.

My daughter's real mom is here.

Jung Hyo.

The doctor said it would be easier for her to stay asleep.

Is she all right?

The doctor said we can be relieved now.

And she took various tests, so we need to wait for the results.

Nothing serious will happen for now, so don't worry.

What brought you here?

I guess I should be away for a minute.

Let her sleep. Otherwise, it would be hard for her.

What were you thinking?

She's still sleeping.

I'm sure you want to see her now, but please wait for a while.

I wonder...

how hard it must have been for you.

Are you talking about toxemia?

No.

I'm talking about being pushed around.

Everyone forces us to act a certain way as a mother.

"A mom should be like this."

"A mom should be like that."

"A mom..."

They force moms to only love her child.

And they say moms should not be afraid or feel pain.

People are harsh on moms.

How hard was it for you?

Excuse me.

Yes?

I thought you would understand me,

but I don't think you do.

It was not hard for me. Not at all.

Was it not hard for you?

I felt upset.

As I felt upset for a long time,

I felt hatred...

and loathing.

However...

Now,

I feel pain.

If I see Jung Hyo now...

I'm afraid...

this pain will change to something else.

I'm afraid I can't stop taking my medication...

because Jung Hyo resembles myself.

Did you know that she has toxemia?

And you didn't take the test to check the donor compatibility?

I guess you were afraid.

Do you really think little of me like that?

I'm not saying that you were afraid of giving your kidney.

You were afraid...

of being deserted.

You were afraid Min Soo and Young Hee...

would turn their backs against you once you donated your kidney.

I think you probably thought that giving them money...

would've been better to prevent them from deserting you.

Won't you do the same?

If I don't have a role to play,

I have no place to go.

There is no love left.

The only thing I can do in this hateful situation...

is earning money by working my own body.

You know it so well.

However,

your choice would be important,

but I hope you take the test.

Jung Hyo became Young Hee's everything.

She had an opportunity to come out to the world...

because of Jung Hyo.

I can feel...

how much she cares for Jung Hyo.

So?

If I took you from her,

I should at least help her keep Jung Hyo...

since she became everything for Young Hee.

I think you and I...

will be free only then.

I'll think about it.

I won't desert you.

It was my dream for all of my life.

I don't care...

if you become jobless or disabled.

An intact family...

is all I want.

So I will give my kidney to her!

Don't you get it?

Since I'm an OBGYN doctor,

I can't explain accurately, but that's impossible.

Why can't I do that?

How old are you?

I'm 67 years old.

She might not have a chance for a transplant again in her life.

Once she has a kidney transplant,

she can use it for about 15 years.

Jung Hyo will be able to live for at least 50 years.

But if she receives your kidney, would it last that long?

There's no one else now.

Unless she's in the worst situation,

it's best to get a transplant from a donor of a similar age.

Then isn't there something like this?

If I give mine to someone else,

there's a way for her to get the transplant sooner.

I saw it on television.

You're not her family.

And it's dangerous since you're old.

I...

don't have much time left now.

But I have too many grudges.

I must resolve such grudges...

before I die or go to a long-term care facility.

Is there really no way to help her?

I can see only after the test results come out,

but her blood pressure is too high and it's acute.

So I'm not sure if her kidney can hold out.

That's what I'm talking about.

Let me know anything I can do so I can do that.

When you get to be my age, you have nothing to fear.

You're smart,

so let me know whatever I can do.

Jung Hyo...

Jung Hyo!

I want to go to the bathroom.

Open the bathroom door. Hurry.

- Let's go. - Dad.

Are you all right?

No, I'm not.

Let's give up.

I've never imagined it would be this hard.

I'll tell Mom and your dad.

I...

don't know...

how my mom...

could have handled this.

I'm in so much pain...

that I would think it's natural...

for me to die right now.

Your mom's here.

What?

Your mom is here.

Excuse me.

- That's Jung Hyo's mom. - I see.

Then I should go in later.

No.

Let's go in together after waiting just a bit.

- Should I? - Yes.

You could be someone Jung Hyo needs the most.

Mom, I was waiting for you.

- Jung Hyo said... - Hold on.

- Mom. - Your mom's here.

I heard.

Read this carefully...

after the checkup.

You'll be able to understand your dad now.

Why...

are you not saying anything?

We'll follow your decision.

All of us will.

Even though I'm old, I've never gone through anything like that.

So I don't even know where to start.

But I had my mom too.

My mom was beaten by my dad every day.

Really?

Do you know what my wish was back then?

What was it?

I wished that my mom would run away with me.

I couldn't think of any other way to run away since I was too young.

As I grew older,

I couldn't run away...

because I got used to the abuse.

Then I was sold...

as a mistress in the end.

I blamed my mom more than my dad.

Why couldn't she run away with me?

I didn't care being on the streets. I just wanted to get out of there.

That must have hurt.

I haven't seen her ever since.

Even when she visited me because she missed me, I refused to see her.

I didn't see her even when she came to help me after having Se Young.

But...

when Se Young got a bit bigger,

I could finally understand my mom.

I could see why.

Why was she like that?

She wasn't confident about protecting me alone.

I felt the same.

Even though I was a mistress,

and even though he wasn't my own husband,

I thought I wouldn't be able to protect Se Young alone.

It was so much more difficult...

to make a living back then.

Even though I realized that, I still couldn't go see my mom.

I only met her right before she passed away.

Please...

tell me more.

I said, "Thank you."

Then she smiled at me.

She said she finally fulfilled her duty as a mother...

and closed her eyes peacefully only then.

It doesn't sound like someone else's story.

What do you think...

I was like...

to my parents and my kid?

Thank you.

- I know it wasn't easy for you. - It's okay.

My life wasn't something to be remembered forever anyway.

Talking about it a bit more...

wouldn't change the world.

But why did you tell me to go in?

You are the woman who lived for the longest time among us.

As people get older,

they have more stories they've kept in themselves.

I'll go out for a walk.

Just so you know.

Maybe I can sort everything out.

I can do everything Mom wants me to do...

if I sacrifice myself.

Mom, are you going to stay there longer?

What else can I do? I should keep watching her.

I don't think that's a good idea. I'll go.

Don't come here. Nobody welcomes you here.

Everyone's depressed. You'll just make things worse.

Mom, you are mean.

I don't want you to hear anything bad.

It's okay if they swear at me.

But I don't want you to go through that.

Then why don't you come out for a bit?

I'll be there soon.

Were you listening?

Yes.

Let's go together.

Get ready.

- Let's go. - Okay.

- Hee Jin. - Jong Won.

- Are you going to the hospital? - They say Jung Hyo collapsed.

- But... - I have to hurry.

Don't go.

Jung Hyo's in danger.

I know. I heard it from Captain Han.

Everyone's there, but I think we should wait here.

Wait for what?

We should wait for Jung Hyo to make her decision.

We can be there later and support whatever she decides.

Let's go to my place.

Let's all go to my place and wait just a bit.

Read this.

And this one.

You should read it...

if things get worse later.

I don't want my girl to read this letter.

Because if you do,

it means that your body cannot cope with the pain anymore.

I don't know where to start,

but I think it's time for me...

to tell you what happened from my point of view.

Your mom was like my religion.

I was happy just looking at her.

And that made me want to be with her more.

Your grandma also passed away because of toxemia.

Your mom was against having a baby because she was afraid of that.

Forcing her to have a baby...

might have been because of my obsession on her.

Yeon Ji, are you okay?

I'm okay.

I can handle it for a bit longer.

Because I wasn't good enough for her,

she ended up losing her smile.

I was afraid about her leaving me.

And that made me choose to have a baby.

Maybe I'm getting punished.

Your mom left me.

And my daughter is suffering from the same disease she had.

I can't describe how sorry I am while writing this letter.

I might be obsessed with you...

because of how much I miss your mom.

- Let's go. - Dad...

Let's go! Your mom is...

I sometimes imagined your mom...

coming back and being happy to see how I raised you.

I also dreamed about...

the three of us having dinner at our dinner table together.

I...

I can't do that, Dad.

But I realized it too late.

Something like that would never happen.

Jung Hyo. Jung Hyo!

It's me. Please open the door.

Jung Hyo!

After my daughter became pregnant,

I realized that pregnancy should start from love.

I have a lot of regrets.

What if I gave your mother a warm cup of tea...

and listened to her...

instead of forcing her to give birth?

Why couldn't I have listened to her a little...

about how hard it was.

Dear Jung Hyo,

you shouldn't live like me.

I wish you could embrace the person you love and live together...

instead of causing pain to them.

Even if So Myung is precious to you,

that precious life shouldn't be born...

if it isn't the result of love.

If it only causes you tears,

I wish you will not make...

a decision like me.

Why?

You're going to get tested to become a donor too?

- Yes. - Why would you?

Mom.

Do you know...

what that young kid said to me?

She said, "You can only lose something..."

"if you have something."

What does that mean?

I'm the youngest among us.

I checked. You can still do a kidney transplant in most cases...

even if you're not a perfect match.

I don't know why Min Soo isn't a match, but my blood type is O...

so I probably have the highest possibility of being a match.

So why must you give her your kidney?

I'm going to lose something that I have.

You and I...

have never had anything.

That's why I'm going to give...

the only thing that I have.

Are you in your right mind?

That woman...

lost something worse than a kidney.

But I...

don't want to apologize to her.

That's why I'm going to lose something for her.

If I do that,

things will get a little better, right?

How could you decide thoughtlessly by yourself?

You and I...

didn't get permission from her either.

But it doesn't mean...

that we're admitting our fault.

So why don't one of us give it to her?

That's only fair.

Are you serious?

Okay.

Do that.

I think that would make me feel much better...

than to see you being hated by Min Soo's mother.

I think doing that would be better...

than to see you...

being called as a mistress.

You don't have to do this.

You should only think about Yoo Yeon.

Jung Hyo is my family.

I wish my kidney would be a match for her...

instead of you.

Then we could end this.

You're Yoo Yeon's mom.

You should only think about being responsible for Yoo Yeon.

If someone will make a sacrifice, I will be making that sacrifice.

That's my life and obligation.

My existence...

is like that.

Only sacrifice,

devotion, and responsibility can make me be forgiven.

If I don't have that,

I will disappear.

If you ask me to give up on that,

do you think I will be able to?

I can't.

Then my value will disappear.

Don't take away my rights.

That became...

the only reason for me to live.

You should just live as Yoo Yeon's mom.

I will live...

as a dad.

Wait a minute.

- Dad. - Yes?

What's wrong? It's hard for you to breathe.

Where is...

Mom?

She's outside.

I need to see Mom...

for a moment.

I have something I must say...

to both you and her.

You should go inside.

You should go inside too. Jung Hyo is asking for you.

Thank you.

(Episode 38 will air shortly.)