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I want to start
with a meditation for you.

So if everybody could
close their eyes.

Drop into this meditation
by watching your breath.

Just watch your natural rhythm.

As you exhale,
feel yourself drifting

into a state of deep presence.

Allow yourself to consider

that there are two kinds
of connections

that we form
with other people.

There's the connection
that's positive,

which feels like love,

joyous time spent together,

care,

fondness,

and so much more.

And there is a connection
that is negative,

that feels like fear,

worry,

obligation,

desperation,

jealousy,

and so much more.

It appears like a cord

between you
and another person.

Now see one person
in your life

who you are attached to

by one of these cords

and accept that this person

is someone with whom you have
a painful bond.

Why might you
have allowed them

to attach this cord to you?

What are you afraid
will happen

if this cord isn't there?

Imagine the cord falling
from the other person.

Feel yourself being set free
from your painful bond.

You are now ready to return
to the full waking state.

Gently open your eyes.

*THE DEEP END (2022)*
Season 01 Episode 04

Episode Title: "The Adversary"
Aired on: June 08, 2022.

Blake?

Where are you?

I am hoping that this
private investigator we hired

will get somewhere.

I need to get this horrible
slander piece on me taken down.

So if we can do
something with her,

then people will probably be
shutting me out less,

which I'm really hoping
happens.

Should I be afraid of her
or is she nice?

Hi, Joy.

You're back.

You've been gone
for three days.

You had me worried.
I thought the racoons got you.

There you go, sweetheart.

Nom.

So well, I'm thrilled, um,

to finally have the
opportunity to speak with you.

This has been a long...
A long process.

Um, so my job was to...

- Investigate everything.
- Right.

I'm... you know,
I'm coming from a place

where you hired me
to be honest

and I feel as it's important
for me to check in with you.

Okay.

So here's the deal.

Um, "Does she cause suicide?

Is she a cult?"

No.

Maybe.

And I wanted you
to hear that from me

before I start writing this up

that, um,
your non-negotiable list

kinda solidified that for me.

Okay.

And I need to delve deeper

into that, honestly...
- Well, let's do it then.

Okay, so I'm kind
of interested in...

In the headquarters
and your relationship

with your core group,

what your expectations
are of them.

- Okay.
- And what, um, and so...

Do you want me to answer
your question?

Yeah.

There's no real division
for me in my life

for somebody who's really,
you know, this focused

on what they're focused on.

There's no, like,
work life balance.

It's everything I do in my life

is always feeding into the work
and vice-versa.

So anybody
who's really close to me,

it doesn't really work
to have relationships

unless they're kind of
on the boat

because I'm not gonna...

It's not gonna be equal
honestly.

- Mm-hmm.
- With me.

If that makes sense.

Kinda.

So would you say that

you have the total
and only answer?

No.

- Really?
- Yeah.

I thought
it was your vision.

Yeah, but I... the people...

Basically,
you're the driving force.

No, I wouldn't say that
I'm the driving force.

I would say that
people's life experiences

are the driving force.

- Okay. Let's go to number two.
- Okay.

Attempts to isolate

from existing close
relationships,

friends, and family,
cut family ties.

You alluded to that
earlier on, you know,

if you're gonna be here,
you're gonna have

to limit your relationships...

- That's not what I said.
- Uh...

No. Totally the opposite.
Totally the opposite of that.

I... I have no interest
in limiting

people's relationships.

I would love it
if they were able to have

as close relationships
as possible.

I want to facilitate that.

What I encourage the most is
to see everybody in existence

as one human family.
So that's why...

It's almost like the vision
for the world is... is one tribe.

If somebody resists
buying into the mission,

are they countered
with questions

of their own belief
in their self

or their own selfishness?

Like "you're not willing to
commit to the cause" or...

No.

Okay.

Um, once you're in,

heavy pressure to stay in.

No.

You're stepping
into a territory

that really frustrates me

and I literally don't know
what the answer is

because anything that
causes people pain,

it is my interest to find
a solution to those things.

Okay.

Um, okay, you have
a heavy schedule

and I'm at the very end
of my investigation.

I'll wrap up what I've got and
then if I hear from you again,

I hear from you again.

Okay.

I'm not happy after that.

Yeah, no, I...

That's not an acceptable
thing I just heard from her.

Yeah, yeah, I'm nervous.

I mean, now it's clear

where she's coming from,
you know?

We shouldn't publish this.

That's why...
- You fix this shit, Mattias.

Yes.

How am I represented
is a very big deal to me.

- Yes.
- I am trusting you to do that

so I can focus on my work.

Like I lost trust for you
like just now, again.

- Yes.
- Yeah.

I did not say
what she said I said.

"You can't have relationships
and be part of this."

I don't understand what these
people want my answers to be.

No, I'm not actually
very dedicated to this.

No, I don't expect that people
are gonna be dedicated to this.

No, I don't think it's a
problem if they have partners

that are completely
incompatible to this.

What do they fucking want?

I have a question for you.

What would make you
go back to Germany?

What comes up
is being completely alone.

I am really angry today.

I basically realized
in the last few days

that it's... it's because
a personal truth

is not actually being shared.

So there's a lot
of reasons why.

I mean, like, people
have many reasons

why they resist
a personal truth.

Whether it's to avoid
consequences

or because admitting to it

is gonna make them
feel bad about them self

or whatever it is.

Julianna.

That's what's
happening with you.

You feel like
an adversary to me.

And I need that to change.

Enemy.

Opposing.

I need your truth
on the table.

What you actually
think about me

pretty fucking quick.

I could tell you have
all kind of personal truths

about what you think
is unhealed about me

and unhealthy about me

and unhealthy about
the company I run,

unhealthy about
the house I lead,

unhealthy about
my dynamics with people.

It's literally unhealthy,
unhealthy, unhealthy,

unhealthy, unhealthy...

- Where...
- Yeah, this is what

you've been doing
since the minute you landed.

You keep insulting me.

It's all over
your energy field.

So I suggest you talk
about that.

What do you feel when
you hear that, Julianna?

Because if you're not aware,

you have this smirk
on your face.

A smirk? No, I'm...

I'm afraid actually.

You should be.

Do you know what would be
interesting to me, actually?

Is based off the interaction
that you and I have had,

what you think your
attitude towards me is

and what every
other person here

thinks your attitude
towards me is.

What I think of you is that

you're like really clear on
what you want

and where you want to go
in your life

and that you have
like a very clear commitment

to your mission.

But in general, like...

You're a very powerful person.

All right, let's go
to somebody else then.

'Cause that was
a very toned down, very sweet,

very sugar-coated answer.

I do feel that
you really wanted

to be part of this.

I think that the mission
is fascinating for you.

You say she's powerful

but I feel you see
a negative power in her.

Unfortunately,
I don't think you see that

Teal actually
has your best interest

and there's no resolution

if you don't
recognize authority.

I think you think that

she doesn't care about people.

I think you think
she's hungry for power.

I think you think
she's manipulative,

with her sexuality.

Your turn, Sky.

I think you hate
Teal on one level.

I think you're envious of her.

I think you feel
threatened by her.

I think you're afraid of her.

I think you want what she has.

Damn, Sky.

It just sounds like
you listed, like,

every bad thing
you could think of.

I don't know.

You think I support
and add to

painful suffering in the world.

You think that
I'm an attention whore.

You think I'm a narcissist.

You think I control others,

even the way they see things.

You think I'm too masculine,
too harsh, and not very nice.

Don't care about people,
manipulate Blake,

I'm tyrannical,

have the wrong values,
use people.

I hurt myself and others.
I'm power hungry

and responsible for the power
struggles between you and me.

I want everyone for myself,

I surrounded myself
with enablers.

That I'm very powerful,
that I'm very talented,

that I have a very meaningful
mission.

How conflicting.

That's what I get to live with
in the room with me every day.

But somehow
you're the one being attacked.

Well, the point of this
was to bring it up, right?

And then to deal with it.

Or, I don't know,
what was the point of this?

I don't know, Blake.
What was the point of this?

Okay.

So we have to make a meeting

so we can see how we can
transfer everything.

So we can take over.

That really pisses me off.

This operates... this whole thing
operates according to

the 18-year promise that
we made each other, Blake.

The promise that
we're on the boat

and we're gonna
do this together

and that's our life.

And this has broken my heart.

Me too.

I think you're weak.

That's my honest truth.

I think you lack bravery.

I think you lack honor.

But you've made your bed
and now you get to lie in it.

You who chooses a weak path

does not become a match
to greatness.

Okay.

I have no patience
for this anymore.

If you want to flip
the favor around,

like you guys
have been doing to me,

the level of fucking judgment
you have on me

being a narcissistic bitch,

you're a fucking
absolute loser.

Always will be.

Never forget those words.

I'm gonna pack up
the rest of this stuff

and head out.

Okay.

Okay.

Love you.

Okay, bye.

I'm just gonna be downstairs
for a little longer.

- Do you need any help?
- No.

Here we are.

Can I help you with that?

Oh, fuck.

Oh, no.

Oh, shit.

Fuck.

Oh, no.

Oh, shit.

Oh.

I think she's still alive.

Kind of feel her.

Just barely.

I am posting
in the Teal Tribe

about how I'm stepping back
from Teal Eye.

Okay.

There it is.

Jesus Christ.

Oh, there we go.

There it is.

Here's our first sad face.

"Thank you, Blake Dyer,
for all that you have done

"for Teal, the team,
and the Tribe.

I can imagine
it's a tough decision to make.

Wish you all the best
and support you

in following your happiness."

Like this... like this is men.

This is men
that are encouraging him

in abandoning me
because of high pressure.

I want you to sit with that
for a minute.

"I wish you and your wife

a meaningful journey together
in your new path."

Hmm.

All these people are like
wishing him and his wife

a wonderful life together.

And if they really knew
what had happened here,

they'd be wanting her dead.

They would.

Oh, my gosh.

There's just so many messages.

"Spreading lots of love, Blake.

"Thanks for all
you've done for us.

These past ten years
of following Teal's content

"would not have been
the same with you.

So happy... seeing you
following your heart."

I have not been able
to cry about this.

At all.

It just, it feels like war.

It feels like this is
not a space to cry.

It feels like the person
closest to you

just completely fucked
your life

and dealt you the worst hand

that anybody's ever dealt you
before and I...

In like full-blown...

How do we survive this
situation as a group,

how do we get out of this
financially?

How do we protect
ourselves legally?

This is like a nightmare.

I built every relationship
in my life on top of this one.

Because I didn't trust at all

and he's the one
that taught me how to trust

and he's ruined it all.

So for 18 years, I was like...

I mean, I can't tell you
how many...

In the beginning,
how many therapists were like,

"You have to trust this person.

"This person has proven
that he will never leave you.

"This person is the person
you have to open up to.

Stop being like you are,
stop distrusting people."

To the point where I was
like "All right,

I'm gonna have to accept
that he's proven himself."

So I built my life
on the foundation

of Blake Dyer as my family.

He's broken every
fucking promise he made.

What is that I should've done
to make Blake feel valued

or to make Blake
value this more?

Or love me more?

Like what is it that
I should've done?

I know the most dangerous
thing in the world

is to think
you're the good guy.

So I'm awake at night
doubting myself

because that's what I teach
other people to fucking do.

Consider that maybe
you're not the good guy.

That's the only way
you're gonna be able

to change your behavior,

to make relationships work
in the future.

The thing is,
I can't figure out

what the fuck to change, so...

Hello, everyone.

Today's about how
to express emotion.

Emotions are energy

and energy has to go
somewhere.

So when you suppress
that energy, your emotions,

instead of express
that energy,

it sits in your body

and rots it from within.

My life purpose and mission

is to find an answer
to suffering.

The only emotions
that you can heal

are the ones
that you let yourself feel

and let yourself express.

The negative emotions
which we're experiencing

are not completely negative.

And when we're running away
from those emotions,

we are running away
from ourselves.

So I think that it's time
that we do the opposite,

that we learn
how to positively embrace

our negative emotions

as a part of our living,
breathing experience.

So try this process.

I hope it benefits you.
Have a good week.

Okay, you guys ready?

- Mm-hmm.
- Mm-hmm.

Here's the problem
we get to address today

is the fact that
I am not protected.

If any member of my team
finds a partner,

it's like I don't even
have the option

to put up any boundaries around
that person

if they're totally incompatible
to what I'm doing

and I don't get to say
anything about it.

Otherwise, I'm the nightmare.

Yeah.

I want you to be able
to get partners,

but I also, given what's
previously happened,

don't really want you
to have partners.

'Cause this has been
such a problem for me.

Yeah.

What all of you are is,

you're either
my greatest protection

or my greatest liability.
I need you to see that today.

So what we're trying to do
is make up a contact,

make you not a liability.

All right, so how do you
keep me safe?

So I feel like what we need
to do as team members

is choose what consequences
we say yes to

upon bringing a partner
into this circle.

Yeah.

Basically what this
boils down to

is I need to be able
to get rid of you

if you bring somebody close
that's dangerous to me.

Mm-hmm, yeah.

So how about this?
Agreement number one,

we're the ones holding
the boundaries for it.

This is what we stand for.
- Mm-hmm.

This is what we want
to do with our life.

And putting the pressure on
our partner to choose that.

The problem I keep running into

is that people on my team

don't understand
the necessity for these...

These non-negotiables
and rules of fame.

So number two is
the non-negotiables

are non-negotiable.

And so does
any partner you have.

Yeah.

The partner signs up
to the non-negotiables.

They have to, yeah.

I can't be kept awake
at 3:00 in the fucking morning

before an interview
by a screaming baby.

All the girls here
are on board.

We're not having kids.

Mm-hmm.

We need to write this down.

I want this to be part
of the contact.

Okay, so...

Where is the Arc?

"Where is the Arc?"

This is what comes to my mind

when I'm asked what do I think
is going to happen

with my report
after I submit it.

And this scene says it well.

That's all I've got
to say about that.

They made it clear

that they don't wanna
look at what I've found.

But it's frustrating to work
this hard on something

and though I am not attached
to outcome,

it's gonna get shelved.

"When we only do things
that please us

"and don't frighten us,

"over time,

"fewer and fewer things
please us.

"Until we find ourselves
prisoners

in gardens of our own making."

Okay, guys, it is time

to acknowledge the
extraordinary contributions

of all of your great minds
in the healthcare industry.

Please join me in welcoming
the oh-so-amazing Teal Swan,

owner and founder
of Teal Eye LLC.

Give it up.

This is where I believe

Teal Swan has buried herself,
in a prison of her own making.

Congratulations.

Over 150 million views.

Thanks for saving
all of our lives.

I have no way of knowing

the ultimate effect
that Teal Swan is having on

all these different
orbits of people around her,

but I'm concerned
about her followers.

'Cause these are
fragile people.

For some of them,
she is all they have.

Congratulations.

We are certifying you in
the completion process.

Well done.

I can't believe it! - So
pretty soon,

you're gonna get
an invite from us

to the CPC worldwide network,

so we're gonna connect you
with all the other

certified practitioners
all around the globe

that have also passed.

We'd happy to have you
be part of the family.

You're never completely whole

when you separate

from somebody
you're that entwined with.

When you leave, you almost
have to become somebody else.

But you have the power
to change who you are.

And I think it helps to know
that you can do that.

Person speaking German
over PA system...

Hi, my doggy!

Hi!

Yeah.

If I was to show you an
image of the average person,

they're walking around
like a hollow shell.

Loneliness is the epidemic
on this planet.

I don't want to live
in the world like that.

A person does not go looking
for God

unless they were missing
something in humanity.

You don't go looking for God
unless people have failed you.

What I've found is an answer
to that suffering.

What I've found
was the place that I fit in.

You realize that's everything.

Finding meaning for your
suffering is everything.

So who's ready to dive in?

All right, without further ado,

we introduce to you, Teal Swan.

Wow.

Okay.

By raise of hands,

who here feels like
they're in pain

and like there's
no way out of it?

"YO! MY SAINT" by Karen O
plays...

♪ Don't you
tell another lie ♪

♪ Don't you
tell another truth ♪

♪ My heart,
it isn't bulletproof ♪

♪ From visions of you ♪

♪ Forget 'em,
get 'em, get 'em ♪

♪ I used to rule the streets ♪

♪ I was young enough
to know that ♪

♪ There was something
to believe in ♪

♪ Now I'm tired of the lies
they tell ♪

♪ I'm trying
to disguise myself ♪

♪ The perfect crime
that I'll commit ♪

♪ Is loving you
despite all of it ♪