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Episode 19

Why don't we just wrap this up now, alright?

Waist up!

What are you doing right now? This is the company!
You should be working.

The Chairperson in-charge of the General Shareholders' Meeting is totally different from the Vice President who was just playing around.

When did I ever play around? Back then, I also worked hard-

This upcoming shareholders' meeting... will be a battleground without gunshots.

You can't show your blind spots, nor a crack from you.

You must read the opponent's move first, and be fully ready for an attack.

Yes.

Okay. Alright, let's hurry up then.

It would be good for you to wait at the house, Oh Ri Jin.

Why? I'm Cha Do Hyun's secret physician and his secretary in disguise.

To employ you as a secret physician is his discretion, but to employ you as a secretary is under my authority.

Wow! Wait, are you... exerting authority over me right now?

I guess you must have forgotten, but this is Seungjin Group.

And there are a lot of dangerous eyes here. It's all for your sake, Oh Ri Jin.

Let's go.

Secretary Oh?

Ah, it is you, Oh Ri Jin.

To be honest, I am really interested in you, Oh Ri Jin.

Oh, sorry! I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. It's not the kind of interest you were thinking of. I meant something else.

What do I think it means, and what do you think it means, President?

I mean that I'm not interested in you as a man.

- Well, not yet.
- Not yet?

Since you never know how things will turn out between a man and a woman.

If you're going to make jokes and play around, then I'll go.

You're a psychiatrist, right?

Perhaps, are you aware that we are fated to meet, after brushing past each other last time?

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

Are you okay?

To be honest, I was a little surprised when I saw you at the company.

It's not natural for a psychiatrist to become a secretary.

Yeah, well...

Anyway, I became interested because of that;

but recently, I've gotten interested in something else.

Something else? What is it?

Don't you have a guess?

Not at all.

Well then... the upcoming Shareholders' Meeting will come as a surprise to you, Oh Ri Jin.

What does the shareholder's meeting have anything to do with me?

I am planning of having a surprise party at the upcoming shareholder's meeting.

When this party ends, you'll become a very wealthy person, Oh Ri Jin.

It's nice just to hear it. I guess...wealthy like Bill Gates?

Wealthy, like a direct heir major shareholder?

But only if you stand on my side.

What to do?

I, inherently, hate taking sides.

I also definitely don't understand what you're saying when you beat around the bush.

I still have something left to say.

I've already left the company, and we have nothing to do with each other to meet in the outside world.

That's why I can leave whenever I want.

Excuse me.

I am looking around in the area where the the mail was postmarked from,

but it's like finding a needle in a desert.

If it's just to screw us up, he may have just sent the mail at another place, too.

It's a bait.

He's giving us a sample taste, and if it suits our taste, better deposit the money.

It'll be somewhere easy to find.

Who are you?

Shin Se Gi?

It's me. Cha Do Hyun.

Drink up. It'll wake you up from the alcohol.

Have you been well?

You acted like you wouldn't ever return to Korea, so what happened?

I think I committed a huge mistake toward you.

Hey, that bastard Shin Se Gi is still the same.

His temper is really something.

I shouldn't have told you my secret.

Seems like you finally want to do business with me now.

When you threatened me for the first time,

I shouldn't have given you money.

I didn't know that it would become the price for marijuana, cocaine,

and the price for gambling.

I'm sorry.

I ruined you.

You're still pretending to be nice.

If I didn't want to make you my friend back then,

didn't spill my secret because I saw you as my friend,

and hadn't asked you to keep my secret,

then we wouldn't have a reason to meet like this, would we?

Just suggest an amount of money.

I shouldn't have been scared about whether or not my secret would be discovered because of you.

I should have had the courage to handle it in whatever way it was found out.

Bad jerk.

I'm the bastard for trusting in you.

I should have just punched you once and ended it then.

I listened to your sermon very well. So how much do you want to offer?

There's no deal.

I'll come back again if my secret is exposed by your mouth.

To punch you.

Since you're still my friend.

Will it be okay like this?

It feels like not getting rid of the timer of a timer bomb.

There's not that many days left until the shareholder's meeting, you should make sure his mouth is definitely closed and...

- Why don't you resolve this again-
- Has his gambling debt been taken care of?

Yes. I have only taken care of only the urgent things, as you've ordered.

I also asked you to prepare a plane ticket to the US, travel expenses, a temporary apartment, and have him check in at a drug rehabilitation treatment center.

He might even escape to somewhere else so please have someone guard him.

Didn't you say there wasn't any deal?

It's not a deal; it's atonement and sympathy.

What do you mean by atonement and sympathy?

Atonement for living my life cowardly back then.

Sympathy that wants to let him start over again like I did.

Don't act like you're so great, you bastard!

I will tell you the location of the locker.

I found it!

Are you sure?

Yes. I checked it. It fits in perfectly.

Have you checked what was inside?

O-o-one moment.

Nothing. Nothing.

These are the items I brought from the locker Alex told us about.

He planned to give these to President Cha Ki Joon as bait.

Though he changed his mind at the last moment.

They're all movies about multiple personality disorder.

He wanted me to tell you that he was sorry.

In any case, that side is preparing to launch a counterattack,

don't you think we should prepare for something to attack them with as well?

I announced that this shareholder's meeting will proceed transparently and clearly.

I told you, that won't work.

I already told the Chairwoman as well.

That for this shareholder's meeting I will do it my way, not hers.

I think our urgent priority right now is to seize a card to beat them during the shareholders' meeting...

Just a moment.

Yes. It's Ahn Gook.

Ah, yes.

Did you find it?

I understand. I'll head there now.

Yes.

What's wrong?

It might not be a simple accident... What kind of evidence lead to that thinking?

That day, the Chairman's chauffeur was new.

They said the man who was his original chauffeur suddenly suffered from intestinal inflammation,

and was hospitalized or something.

Anyway, that new chauffeur

brought Chairman Cha Geon Ho and President Min Seo Yeon to the airport.

But that's also strange.

About what?

The place where the accident happened was not a road to the airport,

but somewhere in the suburbs.

These people who urgently bought plane tickets,

there was no reason for them to intentionally take the longer route.

On top of that, there were a lot of suspicious things here and there but

the investigation came to a close.

As a simple accident caused by drowsy driving.

There's no need to believe him 100%.

Just like flies surround rotten meat,

in the world of conglomerate families, there will always be rumors following around.

If, at that time, the contract between Chairman Cha Geon Ho Chairman and President Min Seo Yeon was terminated,

who do you think benefited from it the most?

Or...

who hated those two the most?

Sorry that I used you.

But thankfully, Do Hyun changed his mind

and returned to the company.

I'll think of it that it is all thanks to you.

Wake up now if you feel wronged, huh?

Wake up and stand by Do Hyun's side.

Is there still a past for you to dig up?

Why are you suddenly bringing that accident up?

If I do not want to get caught by the back of my neck by the other side,

I have to know the truth about all of my suspicions.

At the time,

there were many mouths that surrounded me, pounded on me, made fun of me.

There was a rumor that I was jealous of the relationship between my husband and my daughter-in-law.

I got rid of them both

to make my son Chairman, that's why I instigated the car accident.

All these filthy rumors that I myself could not even say out of my own mouth.

Then, Chairwoman,

are you saying that you were not the mastermind of the car accident that happened that day?

Your distrust of me is deeper than I thought it was.

You reap what you sow.

No matter what you think, it's not me.

Don't waste your time on unimportant things.

Pick up cards that could be of help during the shareholders' meeting.

One useful card is entering.

Long time, no see, Cha Do Hyun.

Just now, BACK company in America

said that they faxed us documents related to Alex Kang and Chairperson Cha Do Hyun.

You're scary because you're expressionless.

Try to express some emotion.

Whether it's that you're surprised, flustered, tired,

or going crazy.

- Chae Yeon.
- You don't have to worry because of Ki Joon Oppa anymore.

I already did my 'coming out'.

I've already given my heart to someone else.

I said that for this shareholder's meeting,

I'll lend power for your side.

I wanted to make up for the pain I caused you

during that time.

I want to have you, even if it's through this way.

I can't take back the heart that I've already given to her.

This is just an obsession, and a strong desire to win.

It's not love.

You shouldn't have messed with me then!

That way, I wouldn't have wavered or gone crazy.

I think the time for me to tell you has come now.

- What?
- The reason why I gave you up back then,

and the reason that I shook you up again,

and the reason why I'm rejecting you like this after I did that.

If you're just going to give me some ridiculous excuse, then just stop.

It's not long. Just one word is enough.

"Cha Do Hyun was diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)" at Johns Hopkins Hospital.

DID?

That well-behaved Cha Do Hyun has Multiple Personality Disorder?

The reactions of the people who know my secret vary.

They get terrified, or they feel good because I disclosed it to them,

or feel relief because they are normal,

or use me, or sympathize with me, or treat me as a monster.

How would you act?

Will you still want me even after you know my secret?

Ah, what is this? I said I'll come tomorrow.

Did you already start missing me?

Say it one more time.

Say what?

That you like me.

Wait, aren't you being too much?

I'm a woman, too, but you always order me to do those kind of things!

- You don't like me?
- No.

I like you.

I like Cha Do Hyun

a whole lot, really.

I miss you.

No, but has this old geezer already gone senile?

He should call her out during the day! Geez!

Ri Jin, I would like it if you didn't go there.

Why this again?

I just have this feeling. Something isn't right.

I wish you would quit this job.

Ah, Ri Jin, don't worry about what she says.

So where should I put your luggage? Should I put it in the backseat or in the trunk?

In the backseat.

The backseat? Deal.

I think I'm a really happy person, Mom.

The base camp where I can return to whenever I'm having a hard time

is strong.

How about me? How about me? How about me?

That's right, that's right. Oh, my kid! Be careful.

Look forward. You're bothering me.

He's out.

You should buy and put a bench in front of the house.

Ri On, thank you.

I'm going.

Oh Ri On,

would you like to drink with me?

I'm sorry.

I couldn't fulfill your request of cutting off my connection with her.

Who can I blame? When my sister is the accomplice.

I'm sorry.

Do you remember what you told me last time?

I think we have a strange fate.

I hope that it will become a good fate.

Do the two of us... No, the three of us...

Is it really a good fate?

- Oh Ri On.
- Try to think about it sometimes.

If Ri Jin would have just been left alone to live with her mother in America...

No, if Seungjin Group would have accepted Ri Jin as family kindheartedly,

somehow, instead of Ri Jin and I,

you and Ri Jin could have grown up as twins instead.

If that would have happened, instead of you,

I could have become a man to her.

After experiencing that, I continuously thought,

"What kind of position should I be in for Ri Jin?"

"What kind of position should I choose?" And...

I made the decision with difficulty.

That I would become the best brother in the world

to Ri Jin.

That's why...

please protect Ri Jin well.

Please don't let her get hurt ever again.

♬ I’m lightly calling out to you ♬

- Then, I'll leave first.
♬ Unlike my ♬

♬ heavy heart ♬

♬ I hold myself back ♬

♬ and hide behind the playful words ♬

♬ I live as the person you know ♬

♬ You’re smiling so prettily ♬

- If you're having a hard time, then come back.
♫ Honestly, it's hard for me to only watch ♫

- The best choice is your choice.
♫ There would be many times I would walk in your direction ♫

- I love you, Oh Ri On.
♫ There would be many times I would walk in your direction ♫

- You know that, right?
-Yeah. Thank you for loving me.

♬My heart blocks my love♬

- What does first love mean to a man?
♫ Even if the end of my lips ♫

- It's a 'thank you' if it folds up at once.
♫ tremble, I endure ♫

- If it opens up again, then it's lingering attachment.
♫ tremble, I endure ♫

- If it opens up twice, it's sadness.
♫ Because that's the right thing ♫

If it opens up thrice, it's pain.

Ad after opening up over and over again until it becomes ragged,

that's how his heart is ripped apart,

and they endure that ripping until it doesn't hurt anymore. Something like that.

I don't want a little sister who just cries. I want a strong one.

If not, then don't be my little sister.

Don't be like this.

Do you know how much I depend on you?

Do you know how much stronger I became because of you?

I'm a person who has nothing to be afraid of when I think that you're behind me.

I was wrong. I won't do it again.

Of course, you did wrong. You...

- committed a big wrong toward me.
- So...

Don't say that you won't be my big brother.

Ever since I was young, those were the words I was most afraid of.

Okay. I'll do it.

I'll be your brother.

I won't do anything else.

I'll just be your brother.

♬So I’m letting you go once again♬

You surprised me!

You drank a lot, didn't you?

What's up with this? Your voice is Cha Do Hyun's, but you're speaking like Shin Se Gi.

Why are you suddenly speaking informally?

We were friends way back then.

So you're saying we should speak informally?

However way the words come out.
Whatever works.

According to how we feel that day.

What is it? What's wrong?

Did my Brother say something?

Ah... why?

Is there something on my face?

I miss you.

- But you're looking at me right now.
- But I still miss you.

Those are lyrics from a popular song.

We

must be happy.
♬ The deep night show you, ♬

♬ who was not able to leave ♬

♬ It wakes me up from my sleep ♬

♬ and kisses me again ♬

♬ Your voice, which whispered “I love you” ♬

♬ and your scent ♬

- Ah, it feels nice!
♬ echoes in my ears everyday ♬

♬ Where are you? ♬

You've remembered the pain and memories that caused the separation of your personality,

and we've roughly gotten to know the background of how each personality came into life.

If we just convince each personality and get their cooperation,

it could be a good sign for the amalgamation treatment.

Almost all of my memories have also come back. I think what's left is for me to overcome them.

If we want to access your memories in more depth,

we may have to use hypnosis or Amytal therapy.

Also, if we want to treat your psychological pain on a long-term basis,

we may have to use the EMDR therapy as well. (EMDR Therapy: Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing)

For now, the two of us want to work on it on our own.

I have a very great psychiatrist with me as well.

Between people who share the same past and same wounds,

if we match up each piece of the puzzle of our memories one by one,

and reconstruct the broken pieces,

then the memories that were horrible at one time

will gradually become less painful.

That's right. Since you two are each other's cause and effect,

then you could also become each other's strongest treatment.

By the way, I did roughly guess it, but

aren't you too obvious about that? Huh?

It's like I have to recite something, like to officiate a wedding or something!

I mean, well, my student and my patient

that I have known for many years

say that they're going to date in secret, I can't say anything.

Although I would like to reprimand her, whether she's aware as a doctor.

But you two don't have a normal fate. What can I do? I'll just have to give you my blessing.

I hope that the two Do Hyuns

can get through it well together.

- Yes. Thank you.
- Yes. Thank you

For now, I think that we don't have to try to get rid of the personalities by force.

Since the personalities and you are one person

and they're pieces of your wounds.

Don't we need a process

by which they acknowledge and accept each other?

The different personalities inside me, the desires, and the pain, you're saying to

acknowledge that I'm me and accept that, right?

Yes. That. By doing that--

you can start loving yourself as who you are.

- Then, what should we start from now, Doctor?
- Hm...

Matching the pieces of your broken memories together?

Then please say what you remember first, Dr. Oh.

- Me first?
- Yes.

Didn't you say that even though you have bad memories, you also have good memories?

I want to hear about those good memories.

It was when it hadn't been long since my mom passed away from the car accident.

That day was my birthday.

Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to you!

To Do Hyun whom I love~ Happy Birthday to you!

Do Hyun, happy birthday!

Blow out the candle, Do Hyun!

Look at this Do Hyun. I brought this after asking the helper Ahjumma.

Wow, it's pretty!

Next time, let's go see really big fireworks.

Yeah! I want to go! I definitely want to go!

At first I believed that my mom would come take me

and that if my mom just comes, I could leave this place.

But I realized that it was a ridiculous dream. And so, I was very disappointed at that time.

It was the most pleasing and happiest memory

after my mom passed away.

That's a relief. That you were happy.

But don't you have any good memories that you remember?

About that...

It was when it hadn't been long since I entered the Seungjin family.

The mansion was overwhelming, and my grandfather was very strict and scary.

-Sit here.
- Because of my father, who became scary after coming to the house,

I was very down.

That day as well, I was scolded for not being able to memorize the multiplication table.

You and I are going to play house.

Play house?

Yeah. She's the baby. Her name is Na Na.

Actually...

she's a present that was given by my dad, who went to Heaven.

I was told not to say that in front of Grandma and Grandpa.

I think I can tell you though.

So, it's a secret!

I understand.

It's a secret.

Honey, this is kimchi I made.

And this is spinach that I made. Hurry up and try it!

Okay.

In the beginning, I couldn't get adjusted to the life in the mansion, so I always wanted to run away.

I was able to endure it because you were there.

The one who was saved first was me.

It's a relief.

That I didn't leave you only sad memories.

What was your father like?

I can't remember at all.

He passed away before I was born.

My mom...

said that she will tell me once I grew up,

and passed away.

Oh Ri Jin.

I thought of something for us to do.

What is it?

Should we go... console the us during childhood?

- Right now?
- Yeah.

Right now.

♬ When I first met you ♬

♬You were a small girl♬

♬You had♬

♬a violet in your hair♬

♬You told me with a smile♬

♬That you wanted to fly far away like a bird♬

♬When I met you again♬

♬You looked so thin♬

♬ Sweat beads on your forehead♬

♬You told me with a smile♬

♬That you shed tears over the littlest things♬

What is that?
- Ah...

I made a list of presents for the personalities.

If I want to calm the personalities down, I must give them a bribe.

Giving and taking bribe is illegal.

I'm just saying it.

I really wanted to get the personalities a gift.

To Nana, I want to give her a new teddy bear, without a ripped back.

Perry Park: fishing rod and beer.

When he came to Ssang Ri last time, he couldn't even put 'God's water balloon',

my father's greatest drink, near his mouth, and fainted.

If you want to get Perry Park a gift, how about that?

We should put his name on it.

Perry Park.

Yo Sub said that he wants to write a poem.

How about a diary and a fountain pen?

That's good, too.

Oh! Yo Na will really like this.

Wench. She didn't listen to me at all so I don't want to buy anything for her but!

Anyway, I'm telling you, she's even harder to handle than Se Gi.

But... For Se Gi,

what kind of present will make him happy?

I really don't know.

Are you angry?

So personalities can get angry too...

But how did you know that I liked fireworks?

You wanted to see it.

Ever since a long time ago.

It's pretty!

Wouldn't it be nice if it continued forever?

Yeah.

It's the same for me. I would also like to be with you forever.

Last time, because I called you out,

it bothers me that I just sent Se Gi away.

Since he has the deepest scar, he becomes reckless when he is angry.

That's probably why he set the house on fire.

The resentment and anger Se Gi has towards Father is too big, so

if that rage isn't released somehow, he will never try to disappear.

To you...

What kind of person was your Father?

He was once a caring and good father.

Really? Are you really going to buy me a boat?

Yeah! I'll even write a name on the boat. What should I write?

Perry Park. It's Perry Park.

Okay! 'Perry Park' boat!

You really made a promise with me. You have to buy it!

If it's 'Perry Park' boat, could it be...

I remembered it recently.

In my heart, there is resentment towards my abusive father.

But there is also a yearning and a sense of guilt toward my once caring father.

So, that's why I think I made Perry Park.

Right now... which side do you think is stronger?

Resentment?

Or...

Yearning?

How can you be so calm?

You must want to resent him over and over again, even curse him, and even that won't be enough.

Actually...

I'm not really sure. When I saw the photo and remembered my memories for the first time,

I was so scared that I couldn't control my body.

After seeing him lying unconscious on a bed in a photo,

I wondered if that person really is that person.

Should I say...

It felt empty.

If you are even a little bit hurt or feel hatred toward him,

Se Gi will run anytime and choke my father's neck.

But that's not what I want from him.

But if you still feel unsafe

or get hurt because of my father, there is still a possibility.

Then... in the end, for us to become happy,

we have to forgive the perpetrator.

Forgive the perpetrator.

Oh my...

What is this?

Oooh my...

Wow~

It's the God's water balloon you couldn't drink last time.

My head doesn't hurt.

Oh my! It's really delicious! Wow!

As expected, chicken and beer is the best midnight snack, yeah? Wow~

Is it that delicious?

Of course! If I say it twice, it's a nagging, and if I say it three times, it is a serious crime.

Maiden, if you go home, please tell Sung (a satoori version of Hyung) this.

From all the beers that Perry Park has drank in his lifetime, his beer tasted the best.

Okay.

And, please say that to Do Hyun as well. Don't forget.

Why did you think about leaving all of the sudden?

Well,

I... am the oldest.

I have to set a good example for those babies to follow my footsteps.

Right? Then Do Hyun will get to live a comfortable life from now on.

That's why.

Oh my...

Why the hell are you looking at me like that?

Really...

Maiden, do you have something to say to me?

Back then... during the leather jacket incident,

you came to save me, right?

No!

Because you felt sorry

for not being able to save me in the fire 21 years ago. Right?

What are you blabbering? Geez.

Since I finished drinking the beer,

I'm a bit busy, so I will leave after telling you something.

Please take care of my baby.

Thanks to you, I am able to leave on a trip

because I only trust you. Okay?

Also, Maiden, always smile, okay? Live while thinking only good thoughts, okay?

The past, it's nothing. It's not important. Okay?

You only live one life. Yeah?

Be healthy.

Perry Park...

That's right.

That's right. I should I have one more glass of bee-- Ah!

Aigoo...

Ah... I'm getting sleepy.

Ah... It would be nice to have one more glass...

Eeing?

♬ The deep night show you, who was not able to leave ♬

♬ It wakes me up from my sleep and kisses me again ♬

Perry Park!
♬ Your voice, which whispered “I love you” and your scent ♬

♬ echo in my ears everyday ♬

♬ I walk through the darkness because I want to find you, ♬

♬ I can’t touch you or be embraced by you ♬

I'll buy it for you!

A boat!

Really? Are you really going to buy me a boat?

Yeah! I'll even engrave a name onto the boat. What do you want to engrave onto it?

Perry Park. How about Perry Park?
♬ The deep night show you, who was not able to leave ♬

Okay. It's Perry Park!
♬ The deep night show you, who was not able to leave ♬

You promised Dad now. You have to buy it for me!
♬ It wakes me up from my sleep and kisses me again ♬

Ah! My mood is up!
♫ Your voice, which whispered “I love you” and your scent ♫

Yeah... This is it...
♫ It echoes in my ear everyday. Where are you? ♫

This is it.
♫ In the unreachable sky, I see you, who is turning back ♫

♬ On the night sky, which I cannot reach, I see you, who is turning back ♬

♬ From this hard day, it makes a picture ♬

♬ I’m sorry. I hold on to you, and tell you to not get far away from me and I call for you desperately ♬

Oh my!
♬ But the sadness surges in because I cannot see you, and my tears fall ♬

You're awake?

Just now,

Perry Park left.

Perry Park told me to relay this message to you.

To live freely.

That you'll well know what freedom means.

- What is to live freely?
- Uhm...

Not living according to what other people want

Living according to what you have

Living while doing what you want to do.

Not getting scolded while living like that.

Give me a glass too, Mother.

I can't sleep at all.

Even the sleeping pills prescribed by the hospital

are not being effective at all.

Actually,

I became like this after hearing that our Do Hyun has a handicap.

Because I became like this, I came to think of thoughts I never had before.

That you, Mother, must have also had a hard time.

How torn up your heart must have been as you watched your son that only lied down on the bed.

You've also aged. Thinking about useless things.

No matter how you see it, don't you think this place isn't a good place for the Cha family?

What are you saying out of nowhere?

In the Cha household, there are no Cha's anywhere.

Instead, a Seo and a Shin is guarding the house. That's what I'm talking about.

Min Seo Yeon. It's about Min Seo Yeon's child.

Our Do Hyun

met that child.

What exactly is this?

Why would you ask me that?

Because I don't know, I called you over to ask you.

I just checked all of the CCTV. There were no intrusions from outside.

It's certain that you wrote it, Chairman.

Then, could it be...

Could it be?

A new personality's appearance?

X?

♬ When I first met you♬

Kill Me, Heal Me
[Preview]

"If you continue to fuse the personalities, I won't stay still!"
♫ You were a small girl ♫

I have to know about every single incident.
♫ You were a small girl ♫

That it looks like former Chairman Cha Joon Pyo intervened.
♫ You were a small girl ♫

The perpetrator woke up.

Call for Mr.X.
♫ In your head ♫

Oppa! Oppa! Oppa!
♫ was a violet ♫

Oppa...is going to the army.

Ahn Yo Na.
♫ You said while smiling ♫

That's why don't be pained, and don't get scared.
♫ You said while smiling ♫

My name is...

Will you open the bag?
♫ That you want to fly far away like a bird ♫