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Previously on "Station 19"...

You are a surgeon.
Save the life you can save.

Travis? Oh, my God.

Means we are getting you
the hell out of this place!

Jack! Hey! Jack!

Something has changed.
Maybe I've changed.

If a lieutenant spot opens up
at the end of all this,

I expect you to throw your hat
in the ring.

See the tall guy
over there from Station 23?

He was asking if you might be interested.

I'd like to introduce you all
to the new captain of Station 19,

Captain Robert Sullivan.

- I'm moving out, Dad.
- What?

I'm gonna be at Maya's, okay?

You ever hang on to
stuff you know you shouldn't?

Magazines.

Mementos.

Memories.

Even grudges.

We squirrel it all away for a rainy day.

But do we really need
all that extra stuff?

It stacks up.

It takes a toll.

It can wear you down.

It shuts out the light,
and it hangs over you

like a cloud you can't shake.

That clutter's toxic
and also highly flammable.

So, on behalf of firefighters everywhere,

please, clean house.

Start fresh.

Let the sun shine in.

- Hmm.
- Morning.

It's morning. Hello. Are you awake?

Hi.

Hello.

You don't remember my name.

- Uh...
- Dave.

- David.
- It's David.

I know you probably
won't believe me, but...

I swear I don't usually
do stuff like this.

Me neither.

Though I won't say
I've been disappointed, David...

...in the things you don't...

usually do...

...that you've been doing... and doing.

You got up early...

...to put things on my shelves.

Our shelves.

I live here, too, now,
and you're also up early.

Yeah, I had to clear my head. Are those,

Textbooks, some fire-safety manuals.

And I have some photos, too.

This shelf looked empty and sad.

No, not sad empty, intentionally empty.

- Negative space.
- Mnh.

You're still stewing about Sullivan.

- I'm not stewing. I am organizing.
- Ah.

I'm putting a stamp on my new home.

Yes, I am very well-versed
in what triggers you

to compulsively organize.

You and I know this has nothing to do

with you feeling at home.

I thought I had done
the hard part already

when I got up the courage to tell my dad

- I wanted to move out.
- Yeah, I'm still actually

- a little surprised you did that.
- I had to.

I can't start any new chapters

if I'm still living under his roof.

I want to feel good and home
and happy and free and...

This shelf still looks sad.

Hey. I've got news.

I've come to share, as is our tradition.

It's only a tradition
if it's happened before.

You have a key?

I let you house-sit one time.

Guess who I woke up with this morning.

No. Don't guess.

I'm gonna tell you.

Mr. Station 23.

And before you get started on
his 23 moniker,

I just have to say I really don't approve

of firefighters dating each other.

Kidding.

Go get that.

This is a new side of you, Herrera.

I like it. You never crack jokes.

I crack jokes.

You were just angry-shelving because

you were upset about something
Sullivan said last shift.

You don't exactly wear life loosely.

We love you and your earnestness, anyway.

I am not always earnest.

I'm... easy. And breezy.

Except you're kind of
the opposite of that.

You don't ease. You don't breeze.

I can breeze.

Wow.

Oh, maybe ease and breeze
this mess into your room.

That was very convincing.

Hey.

Thanks for the last-minute ride.

I'm almost ready.

This is where you live?

Uh, yeah. Let me grab my jacket.

With the water and the deck and the view?

How come I've never been here before?

I kind of, I don't have
a lot of people over.

But why? We're always hanging at that bar

across from the hospital.

Why, Why don't we ever hang here?

I don't know. I-I guess I just kind of,

you know, keep some things to myself.

We should get going.

Kind of selfish, really,

keeping all this water for yourself.

It's not my water.

Is, Is that a kayak?

Don't I owe you a punch

from the night of the skyscraper?

Now is a good a time as any.

- All right, all right, I get it.
- Mm-hmm.

You're greedy with your paradise.

I would be, too.

Oh, damn. Sullivan needs me for
some kind of special meeting

before shift, so...

Come on!

We gotta go!

How do you feel about that
drain-pipe call last shift?

You feel good?

Well, we did save the kid, so,

Because I think that rescue revealed

a stunning lack of cooperation

between the Seattle
Fire Department and PD.

So you're going on a PD ride-along today.

And when you're done,

you can share your insight
with the station

on what it's really like
to walk in an officer's shoes.

I'd rather spend today with 19,
sir, walking in my own shoes.

Yeah, I expect you to conduct
yourself with respect.

Stay safe. Stay in your lane.

And don't get shot.

I think your ride's here.

Really?

You're gonna park there?

I'm not staying long.

You're blocking our driveway,

which means you're blocking our trucks.

What if there's an emergency?

What if we need to pull out of here?

You can't park there.

'Cause it's not allowed?
'Cause it's against the law?

- Yeah.
- Great. I'll be sure

to write myself a ticket.

You getting in or what?

You're my ride-along.

So, you literally just
pulled in here to mess with me?

Yeah.

Mm.

Today should be fun.

Wait. Why is Jack leaving

before shift with Ryan?

You know, I bet they have
a lot to bond over,

saving lives, risking lives...

...how you stomped on both their hearts.

You know what I've been
thinking about giving a try?

Kayaking.

You know, shake up my exercise routine,

get out on the water.

Only thing is finding a spot with a dock

and a kayak and a place to clean up.

Jack told you about my place.

He texted me.
He texted everybody, actually.

Oh!

'Sup, Houseboat?

And we will be waterfront
day-drinking when this shift is over.

What are you doing?

Getting my breakfast.

It don't need all that.

Hmm.

Okay, must I spell it out?

Can't you recognize the swagger

when you're looking at the swagger?

Ah, hey!

Yeah, she did!

- Hey, Montgomery!
- Travis, man.

What's going on?

'Bout time you got back to work.

- Feels good.
- Oh, man.

- Back in uniform.
- Mm.

Feels like I haven't seen you in forever.

Yeah. Things got busy, so...

Yeah. No. Of course.

Uh, so, what was the high-fiving about?

What did I miss?
Uh, you know, sorry to run.

I've got chores.

Oh, hey, hey, Montgomery, did you hear

that Miller is gonna invite
everybody over to his houseboat?

- What? No.
- Mm-hmm.

No. Jack started that rumor.

I did hear you have a deck.

- Mm-hmm.
- Yeah, so...

- Excuse me.
- A deck with a grill?

- Yes.
- Okay. Hear me out.

Hey, I was, uh, I was just knocking.

I heard.

I was ignoring you

because I didn't want to be disturbed.

Sh-Should I come back later?

You've disturbed me now.

Right. Uh...

So, um...

I know you think
I'm some kind of a, uh, tourist

who just goes from job to job,

and you probably think that's why

I broke protocol at the skyscraper

or why I burnt my hand last shift.

If I put myself in your shoes,
I'd probably be asking myself,

you know, "Why bother
investing in a guy like that?"

I wasn't... exactly.

Oh.

- Good.
- I am now.

Look. I just wanted to assure you,

I love this job.
I have no intention of leaving.

And I know I can learn a lot from you,

so any kind of training exercises

you want to throw my way,

or anything at all, really, I-I'm ready.

I want to dive in, sir.

Captain.

Anything else?

No, sir.

Okay.

Okay, um...

Okay.

Why does everyone
come out of Sullivan's office

looking sadder than when they went in?

He likes to make people squirm.

It's like a sport for him.

I mean, something in his past
must have turned him like that.

Where'd he even come from?

Captained a crew in Montana
the last several years,

before that, Seattle FD,
training facilities,

lived here most of his adult life,

wasn't born in Seattle, tho...

What? I woke up early,

and I was pinned beneath
a very tall man-blanket.

The only obvious thing to do
in that scenario is cyber-stalk.

And you cyber-stalked Sullivan
and not your man-blanket?

Oh, no, I looked him up, too.

Just turns out
man-blanket's a little boring.

All right, it,
it still doesn't explain it.

And how the hell was that guy

the department's first choice
to captain 19?

They could've at least promoted a woman.

I wasn't the first choice.

The department was angling
for a female captain,

but the number of women
firefighters in Seattle

is, sadly, declining.

And the woman Chief Ripley
earmarked for the position,

she ruined her own chances.

So if you're genuinely still curious

as to why I have this job, Herrera,

I have you to thank.

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He has it out for me.

And you keep giving him ammo
to use against you.

He keeps lurking.

And you keep overstepping, so...

tit for tat or whatever.

Rest in peace, easy, breezy Andy.

We hardly knew thee.

Hey.

Is everything okay with Vic?

Does she seem a little off to you?

Not really.

Hey, hey, hey, careful.

That's heavy.

I just, I-I don't know.

I-I guess I was feeling a little
weird around her earlier.

She seems pretty happy to me,

you know, with
everything that's been going on.

Yeah. Right, sure, of course,

except, no, I don't know.

What's going on?

What? She, She didn't tell you?

Aren't you usually the first person

she talks to about everything?

I thought I was.

Oh. Okay.

Uh, well, if she didn't tell you,

then it's not really my place,
so, um... never mind.

I'm just gonna go get more hoses.

Tell me what? Hey!

Here's the deal.

This is...

basically a pretend shift for me.

We'll go through the motions,
call it a day.

We can just get doughnuts if you want.

You guys do that, right?

Rule number one, during this ride-along,

you will, at all times,
stay in the car, no matter what.

You do not get out of this car
for the next 12 hours.

12 hours?

Our shifts are 24.

Sounds so nice, working a half day.

Well, the city doesn't
put beds in our cars

like you get at the firehouse.

Cops work all shift, patrolling,

not watching TV, waiting for
a cat to get stuck in a tree.

Yeah. We don't do that.

And we don't eat doughnuts.

Today, we have to stay on high alert.

Our assignment is traffic stops.

High alert? For speeding tickets?

Traffic stops are the most
unpredictable component

- of this job.
- Oh.

You're approaching an unknown vehicle.

You never, ever know
who's waiting inside.

We take it seriously
because it's serious.

Copy that.

Broken taillights are no joke.

I'm learning so much already.

Stop! Don't come any closer!

Sir, place your hands
where I can see them, please.

Good.

Now, open the door slowly,
and step out of the vehicle.

No.

Sir, I won't say it again.

Open the door,
and step out of the vehicle.

No, no, I-I-I can't. I'm, I'm not...

I'm not wearing any pants.

Uh, I s... I spilled my latte,

and my pants are dry-clean-only,

so I took them off.

But everything was still burning,

so I took my boxers off, too,
because it hurt.

It, It, It, It really
burned, and I-it still does.

And I know that I was speeding,

but I just wanted to get home and,

What's it look like?

The burn.

Is it, uh, pink, with swelling?

Uh... no.

Is it red, blisters, a little scaly?

Yeah, more like that.

Okay, that's a second-degree
partial-thickness burn.

You need to get to
an emergency room right away.

Officer Tanner will provide you
with a police escort.

Oh, okay.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

What? I stayed in the car.

Hey, when, uh, when you're done,

do you think you'd have a minute to talk?

Sure.

Okay, good.

Maybe 'cause it's my first day back,

or I guess it's possible that
I could be reading into stuff,

but it feels a little like
you don't want to talk to me

or, actually,
that you aren't talking to me.

I thought we were waiting
until I was done.

I know. Sorry. It can wait.

- There's nothing to talk about.
- You sure?

'Cause it feels like you're talking

to other people about stuff and,

And nothing.

I told you,
there's nothing to talk about.

So, now we're running
this poor lady's plates

because her sticker's
a month out of date?

You know, why don't I just
take you back to the station?

I can tell today was a mistake.

I feel like we're getting off
on the wrong foot.

I'm trying to let go of petty stuff,

and this stuff
between you and me, it's petty.

- We should let it go.
- Mm-hmm.

You know what I'm talking about.

I mean Andy.

We were both in competition
for her, and now we aren't.

You feel me?

I don't feel anything, except annoyed

that I don't get to do my real work today

because of you.

I thought you said
traffic stops are real work.

I thought you said they were
the realest of the real work.

You see that right there?

Same snark, same Jack.

I'm not buying this whole
"Kumbaya" act from you.

It's not an act. Let's stop talking now.

- You really gonna be like this?
- I'm not above arresting you.

Dad.

What are you doing here?

Brought you a housewarming gift.

It's a dead plant.

Yeah.

I can't keep it alive. Here. Take it.

You have more of a green thumb.

Is everything okay?

Of course. Why wouldn't
everything be okay?

Don't be ridiculous. My life is full.

My fridge is full. I am great.

Don't be so nosy.

Everything okay with you?

Yeah, of course. Everything is perfect,

new place, new outlook, feeling good,

easy, breezy, totally.

Mm.

Hey! There he is.

How's retirement?

I'm not retired, regardless
of what Sullivan thinks.

I'm on extended medical leave.

There's a difference between
being on leave and leaving.

I'm not leaving. I'm on leave. Got it?

I'm nodding yes, but, no, not really.

Reported ceiling collapse

for Engine 19, Ladder 19,
and Rescue 19 at 213...

Deadline's coming up.

Deadline, sir?

For the next round
of Lieutenant applications.

I've been waiting for yours.

You know, when Chief Ripley
briefed me on 19,

he said you

were a prime candidate for a promotion.

Oh.

Now, you seemed interested

in more women running the department.

That can't happen if
- people like you don't apply.

Right.

You're hesitating.

Is it because you and Herrera
are friends?

You don't want to step on her toes?

Andy and I support each other.
We don't step.

- Okay.
- It's true.

I understand. That's good.

You know, at some point, though,
you may be ready

to move away from being a cheerleader

and just start being a leader.

Just an outsider's observation.

I'll keep an eye out
for your application.

We were caught completely by surprise.

Plaster. The whole ceiling
above us was cracking.

Look, I mean, it's, it's an old building.

We've had a few bad leaks
lately, but this is different.

The spot on the ceiling was huge.

And all we could think of is,

Evelyn. This is her place.

She's lived in the apartment above us

since before we moved in,
she's been here forever.

- Look. She doesn't get out all that much.
- Mnh-mnh.

We tried calling her on her phone.
There was no answer.

But we could hear her answering
machine through the floor.

Seattle Fire Department!
We're doing a wellness check.

We just got worried that
something could really be wrong,

especially since her floor
is starting to give way.

That part's probably just a water leak.

It would take a lot of weight to
compromise an entire ceiling.

That didn't sound good.

We need to know for sure
if she's in there,

and we need to know now.

Let's break this lock, please.

Looks like something's blocking the door.

Let me try,

That's more than a water leak.

I don't think we should keep
forcing the door like that.

Let's get the structural
engineers out here.

And let's turn off the utilities, too.

Hughes, check if you can see
anything at all.

Hello.

Is, Is someone out there?

Evelyn, this is
the Seattle Fire Department.

Are you all right? Are you able to move?

Not exactly.

This is Miller with Station 19.

I'm gonna need structural
engineers on my location

for evaluation ASAP.

There's stuff stacked all the
way up to the ceiling in there,

- like a wall of stuff.
- If leaks and chronic water damage

are rotting away
the wooden floor joists...

Then the apartment may be buckling

under the weight from all that stuff.

You didn't want to mention that
your neighbor's a hoarder?

She never invites us into her place.

We've always had her over to ours
ever since her husband died.

Are you saying that her apartment

is about to fall into ours?

That's highly unlikely.

Miller, head back to the truck

and get the support beams for downstairs.

Hughes, Montgomery,

begin an evac down there,
as well, just in case.

Sir, I can handle the support beams.

You have your orders.

Evelyn? My name's Andy.

Ma'am, you mentioned you can't move.

Is that because you're injured?

I feel so stupid.

I-I tripped, and some boxes
fell on top of me.

We can't risk opening the door more.

It could cause an avalanche on our Vic.

Do you have any other medical
issues we should know about?

Did you hurt anything else in your fall?

Well, it's, it's just, it's a little hard

for me to catch my breath, I guess.

My chest hurts.

But my doctor, he said
that that might happen.

Your doctor?

Yeah. Um, I had a heart
operation a few weeks ago.

Chest pain, shortness of breath.

She could be having
a cardiac episode right now.

If she has any underlying heart disease,

with all those boxes of who knows what

compressing her chest...
We need to get in there.

If you've got a problem, say something.

I don't have a problem.
Who said what now?

- Nothing.
- Nothing.

What are we t... Okay.
What's wrong with you two?

- Nothing.
- Nothing.

Okay, are you guys being weird

because I never invited you
to my houseboat?

Look, I like my privacy,

and I like my furniture.

And I live with both of you
at the station,

and I know none of you use coasters.

Seattle Fire Department!

I need you to evacuate immediately.

This floor is getting
weaker every second, and so is she.

We need to get in there
before it's too late.

- We won't all fit through that door.
- And we shouldn't.

In my opinion, adding more
weight in there is a bad idea.

I recommend we wait for the engineers.

They're on their way.
We shouldn't go in blind.

I'm not proposing the whole team goes in.

All it takes is one. Warren, you're up.

- Me?
- You said you wanted to dive in.

Time to dive.

Respectfully, Captain,
Evelyn's alert and responsive.

We can wait for the engineers.

We got a floor on the verge of collapse

- and a Vic with a heart problem.
- These kinds of rescues

require specialized training
and experience.

Warren has never been
in an environment like this.

An environment like this, meaning...

Look, if the room's filled
with excessive debris,

you can't get to a wall.
You have nothing to guide you.

It's nearly impossible to navigate.

Bishop...

what do you think?

What?

Well, I'd like to hear
your opinion on this.

Should we send Warren in or wait?

Every second that we wait, the more
likely the floor could collapse

or that her heart could give out.

I think we should get someone in there

to get her out here where
we can treat her safely, but...

But what?

I don't think it should be Warren.

I think we should send in Herrera.

She's the lightest,
and she has the most experience.

Smart. I agree.

Herrera, grab a portable sked stretcher.

Is there a problem, Lieutenant?

No, sir.

Good.

Hey.

I'm so sorry. I just,

Daddy, are we going to be late
for Jojo's party?

Oh, no, don't worry, Lindy.

I just have to talk
to this nice police officer,

and then I'm gonna get you to the party.

Look. She's been looking forward
to this party for weeks.

Apparently, there's a,
a bubble show or something?

You get to stand in a plastic tub,

and they make a giant bubble
all around you.

- Can we go now?
- Sorry.

She gets a little nervous
when we're late for things.

Maybe it runs in the family.

I promise to work as quickly as possible.

Would you mind turning the car off?

Oh, no, of course not.

License and registration, please.

Right. Sorry.

Just gonna have to check these out,
and I'll have you on your way.

What's wrong?

This is Officer Tanner, unit 1-8.

I believe I have a possible
child abduction in progress.

Wait, what? Are you serious?

Perp's I.D. reads "Gregory Dougal,"

driving a 2007 Accord,

stopped going 60 miles an hour
on Alder Street.

Child's first name is Lindy.
Please advise.

Watch yourself, Herrera.

Just grab the Vic and get back here.

Copy.

You sure this is a kidnapping?

I think it's possible.

When he gripped the wheel,
I saw a wedding-ring tan.

Probably means the ring
was recently removed.

There's a duffel bag in the front seat.

Things look like they were
stuffed inside quickly,

including a toothbrush
and some kid's pajamas.

You don't need pajamas if you're going
to an afternoon birthday party,

which is where he said they were headed.

And his GPS screen is clearly
programmed for the airport.

Okay, but there could be
all sorts of reasons

for all those things.

Absolutely.

But there's no way
I'm not gonna check it out.

So, what do we do?

We stall, wait for confirmation,

and hope he doesn't get suspicious.

Bishop, head down to the Aid Car.

We're gonna need the gurney
and a cardiac monitor.

On it.

And you may want to turn your radio down.

The volume's turned up all the way.

I-I must have bumped it when I geared up.

You know, you surprised me.

I did, sir?

Siding with me over your friend.

Tough call in the heat of the moment.

Bold move.

I was siding with the victim.

Thought it was the best way to save her.

That's it.

Well, that's what a good
lieutenant's supposed to do.

The floor feels spongy.

It's severely water-damaged.

It can't hold up all this weight.

Copy.

Evelyn?

Evelyn, can you hear me?

I can hear you.

It's me, Andy. I'm on my way to you.

Evelyn, I need you to keep
talking so I can find you.

Say anything you want.

I just need to hear where I'm going.

Oh. I'm so embarrassed.

This place is such a mess.

It's okay, Evelyn.

How's your chest pain? Is it worse?

It's not better.

You know, I-I kept a very tidy house

when Jeffrey was alive.

It didn't seem to matter much,

keeping things up, after he was gone.

Jeffrey, is that your husband?

Yeah. He always knew what
was important for us

to keep and what wasn't.

He was always so good
about that kind of thing.

I can never decide.

So, you keep everything, then?

Oh, well, I don't really like
talking about myself.

Okay. That's okay.

We can talk about anythi...

Aah!

Herrera! You all right?!

Herrera? Do you copy?

Come in.

Amber alert issued,
custodial interference.

Child's father
is the confirmed perpetrator.

Additional units en route.

Whoa. You called it.

Andy? Andy?

I'm here! I'm okay. It's okay.

You still need me to talk?

Yes, if you can.

You sound louder.
I can tell I'm getting closer.

It's just... I'm having...

a hard time trying to breathe.

Don't collapse. Please don't collapse.

Hey, there.

So, let's check out
your heart first, okay?

You match your voice.

I'll bet you can put anyone at ease.

My husband Jeffrey,

he, he was like that.

Warren?

Patient presents
with muffled heart sounds

and a very low B.P.

Can you see her neck veins?

Yeah. They're distended.

It's worse than we thought.

Sounds like cardiac tamponade.

When everything fell on her, my guess
is that the trauma to her chest

caused fluid to accumulate
in the sac around her heart.

Now it's being constricted and...

Herrera, we can't wait for you
to get her out.

You have to treat her now.

I don't feel... very good.

So, what do I do?

You, um,

You have to remove the fluid
from the pericardial sac.

You need to find
the largest needle you can

in your med kit.

Okay, Evelyn,

I need to stick a very big needle

under your rib cage, okay?

You need to
pierce the sac around the heart

without stabbing the heart itself.

Then drain the blood out.

That, That sounds really quite terrible.

So, why are we just sitting here?

Why don't you arrest this guy?

I have a civilian in my car
instead of my partner.

I need to wait for backup.

Okay, but there is a kid in that car

that could be in danger.

It's because there's a kid.

Believe me, all I can think about

is that kid and what she's going through,

what she's about to go through.

I just,

Right now, her father's calm,

so we stay calm, and she stays safe.

We just...

We have to wait for backup.

Backup better hurry.

Now, I don't have any way to
put you out or to numb the area,

so, Evelyn, I'm so sorry,
but this is gonna hurt.

I have rheumatoid arthritis
in every finger.

I've outlived my husband.

I'm sure I've felt worse.

You know, you should
get out of here, dear.

Look at this place.

No. We'll both get out of here

once I make sure you keep breathing.

I'm sure you have people who would care

if you didn't make it out.

No one much is gonna miss me.

And maybe my heart's
telling us something.

Maybe it's just giving out.

Jeffrey's did.

He knew his moment.

He looked me in the eye,

and, and he, he knew it was his time.

I'm staying.

Walk me through it, Warren.

Find the space between the
fifth and sixth intercostals.

Got it.

Now, when you're ready, insert the needle

at a 45-degree angle,

and move it towards the left shoulder.

How do I know when to stop?

You'll hit a little resistance.

That's the pericardial sac.

Just push through it,
but, but not too far.

You don't want to hit the heart muscle.

You kind of just have to...
feel your way.

Feel my way?

Feel my way.

If this is my time,

maybe I'll see my Jeffrey again.

It's okay.

It's okay. I'll be okay.

Unfortunately, my computer
is taking a while

to check your license. It should
only be a couple more minutes.

Uh-huh. O-Okay.

Listen to me very carefully.

If you do what
I think you're about to do,

it won't end well.

There will be a chase.

You'd be putting your life on the line,

but, worse, also your daughter's.

You won't get away.

Eventually, we'll catch up.
We always catch up,

at which point,
you will have sealed your fate.

You would never see your daughter again.

The only way to keep being
part of her life right now

is to stop while you can.

Let go of that wheel,
and turn off the ignition.

Please just turn the car off.

Okay, maybe it was a mistake.
I can go in.

Maybe I can get her out.

Where the hell
are the structural engineers?

Herrera!

The floor is gonna collapse any minute!

Incoming! Need some help!

Hello.

Good. Good to go. We got you.

Thank you.

Oh, my God.

Get her out of there!

Herrera!

Pull. Pull.

You don't understand.

I'm a really great dad.

But my ex's lawyer
just keeps pushing and pushing.

You don't want to lose her.

- Thank God you're okay.
- We were so worried.

- About me?
- Of course about you.

We are just so glad
that you're all right.

I'm sorry. I, uh,

I think I just ruined your apartment.

All that really matters
is that you didn't

fall through the floor
with everything else.

The structural engineers

have arrived.

Just in time to fix the barn door

after the horses have gotten out.

Warren.

Good work today,

talking Herrera through the procedure.

Thank you, sir.

Coming?

She would have died.

If I had been making the call,

I would have waited,

and she would have died.

Well, I guess it's good
it didn't go that way, then.

Hi, Mommy.

Thank you so much for looking after her.

Thank you.

His name is Jack.

He puts out fires.

- Thank you...
- That's right.

...Jack, God, so much.

If you hadn't,

Who knows what could have happened to her

- if you weren't here.
- You know, it was,

You know, it was actually
Officer Tanner who,

Bye.

Sorry, man. You really deserved
the victory lap on this one.

It's okay.

I'm used to it.

What do you mean?

When people see a fire engine
in their rearview mirror,

they slow down, move over,
and get out of the way...

to make room for the heroes.

When they see me
in their rearview mirror,

at best, they're annoyed.

At worst, they're scared.

Yeah, that's tough.

- Did you eat?
- Yeah?

Some days, though, it's anything but.

I love you.

I should take you back.

- Am I losing my instincts?
- What?

I would have made a completely
different call today.

I feel like I don't know
what the hell I'm doing anymore.

- You want my opinion?
- Yes.

I mean, even though
it blew your mind earlier

that Sullivan might want it?

No, no, no, I was just, I mean,

I-I was surprised you agreed with him.

Instead of blindly agreeing with you?

- No.
- I was right.

My call was the right call.

Yes, I know.

Maya, I get it. I screwed up.

I keep screwing up.

I don't know if it's Sullivan,

that he just gets under my skin,
or what it is.

- I don't know.
- Yeah. Me either.

Enter.

I won't be long.

I wanted to let you know

that I just submitted
my Lieutenant's application.

It should be in your inbox.

I look forward to reviewing it.

Thank you, sir.

I can handle these myself.

I know. I thought I'd help.

I don't need help.

Okay, Vic, hey, what gives?

What's going on?

Nothing. All I said is I don't need help.

You have been weird like this all day.

You say that
there's nothing to talk about

when clearly there is.

No, there isn't.

I've barely even seen you.

It's been six weeks,
and I've seen you maybe twice.

So, what, are you mad
I didn't visit more?

Nope. I'm not mad.

But I think that you are,
and I don't know why.

All right, man, I'm busy, and
Sullivan's got this giant list...

- You're busy?
- ...of chores for us,

This is me! Vic, it's me and you.

- Please talk to me!
- Oh, okay, you and me?

- Yes! You and me!
- Me and you?

All right, fine.
You told Warren to let you die!

You told him, a rookie,

who's gonna do
whatever you tell him to do,

to leave you bleeding out all alone

where no one would find you.

Vic,
- Except I did find you.

And I dragged your ass out of there.

I watched you bleed out
right in front of me,

floor after floor after floor.

And so you're mad at me for almost dying?

- That's what this is?!
- No, you, you quit!

You quit on Warren,
and you quit on life...

and you quit on me.

You quit on me.

Enough! We're not doing this here!

If you need professional advice,

there's an FD Peer Support program

at the Civic Center every week.

Take it there.

Don't be bringing your
distractions and your baggage

into my house on my time.

Understood?

- Yes, sir.
- It won't happen again.

Don't be this plant.

Excuse me?

Look, I don't want you
living here all alone,

feeling like I'm too busy
or that you don't have anybody.

Don't waste away on me, okay,

without light or food,

collecting piles of stuff
till you're trapped in a prison

of your own making with no way out.

You have a way out.

I'm still your daughter,
even if I don't live here.

Don't be this plant.

Everything all right, m'ija?

Was I ever...

easy or breezy?

Have I always needed to be right,

to take things so seriously?

You were breezy... before your mom died.

I'm just...

feeling a little lost, I guess.

Me, too.

It's strange not having you here.

I won't say it isn't.

But I'm not taking back that ugly plant.

I wonder where he's going.

Well, when he dropped by
earlier, he said,

- Wait. Ryan drops by here now?
- Mm-hmm.

Anyway, when he dropped by...

...he mentioned something

about grabbing a beer
or something tonight.

Oh, okay.

Mm-hmm. With Gibson.

Sometimes it's easier
to hold on to things

than it is to share them

because sharing means opening up.

See what I mean?

It means letting people in.

Why would you keep all
this water to yourself?

Again, it's not my water.

So, I guess the ride-along went well

since you invited Tanner
and yourself over like this.

For a second there, I thought I was going

on my first real car chase.

Hey. Use a coaster.

I'm just glad everything ended well.

That was a tricky situation.

- It could've gone so much worse.
- I hear that.

You should've seen
the apartment we were at.

Would you get your feet off the table?

People eat off of that thing.

Does it ever stick with you?

The part that could've gone worse,

do you ever, uh, have trouble shaking it?

It means exposing the things

that hurt us, embarrass us, haunt us.

I try not to bring it home with me.

Yeah.

That's why so many of us

try to hide the things that scare us.

We hoard them away.

Hey, man, you okay?

Trouble is, if you're not careful...

You kidding? I'm great.

Just pissed Tanner didn't let me
play with his siren.

Man, you got your own sirens
in your fire trucks.

- Could have let me flash 'em once.
- Mm-hmm.

All that baggage,

it can crush you.